The thing about language, the way that my therapist put it concisely (from all of my confused ramblings) was "you have a really good vocabulary and are perfectly able to speak, but you don't feel the connection to the words or feel like they're enough to express what you mean in that moment" which honestly, is the most relatable thing here for me
wow... that’s the most accurate description i’ve ever seen. i have such a hard time putting my actual feelings to words because even though i do have a large vocabulary, it just doesn’t seem like there’s any words that quite fit the emotion i’m describing.
@@CellGames2006 maybe because my writing skills are so much more developed than my speech, and it feels like I have more order when I type down words instead of when I speak. My brain sometimes goes "should I say this word first or that word after?" and if I fail to say the wrong word first I will be totally embarrassed and that will make it even more messed up. Sometimes I just say something very random if I don't have time to think what I want to say. I'm not diagnosed with anything but I sometimes wonder if I'm a little bit autistic.
1. Relying on other girls to guide them / speak for them 2. Passionate and limited interests 3. Masking 4. Broad imagination 5. Not wanting to play cooperatively 6. Advanced vocabulary but limited conversation 7. Depression and anxiety 8. Difficulty making and keeping friends 9. Seizures 10. Normal development but a delayed adolescence
@@princesssunrays I have moderate to severe hearing loss - fast talking is difficult to decipher, watching at p.75 meant I could actually work out what she was saying. If you don’t use lip reading to ‘hear’ then of course 2x will be fine for you.
@@princesssunrays thank you, I thought perhaps you had misunderstood why I was posting. With lip reading it can be difficult- too fast or too slow can be enough to make it unwatchable. I thought to let any fellow lip readers know that it is actually workable at 0.75 x.
Oh my lord, my mum went through hell and back to get me diagnosed, people told her she was the problem because most of the issues happening were at home, took nearly a year to get to a specialist, she took one look at me and sent me for autism diagnosis. I love my mum lol.
My 8 year old daughter has recently been diagnosed, it was such a struggle to get there, for anyone to believe us. Any tips to help me get on her level? And does CBD help?
I wish I could've seen videos like this earlier. Back when I was younger, around the age of 9/10 I got diagnosed with autism. But my parents never told me anything about it, no signs, no symptoms, how to deal with it. Only that the term was used as a bad word, and whenever i acted out, they'd say "That's so autistic of you." So I never really liked talking about it, ever. I'm slowly getting to learn that it's not 'bad' and what it actually includes. So I'm really gratefull for videos like these that help people educate themselves.
Yea. I never thought it was a possibility because of the way it was talked about. Even as an adult when trying to tell my family my dad was the only one supportive which makes sense because he is the only one who ever tried to accept me for who I am in my family.
I also have an Autistic brother.. and an a dad with Aspergers. So... . And I've been diagnosed with a bunch of stuff.. bipolar, depression, anxiety, ADD, ADHD, OCD, body dysmorphia, social anxiety.
Same but my parents and teachers have been differentiating my behaviour from other people my age though I have been put down on my class register as a 'High functioning autistic' , so im certain they have to tell me sooner or later :(
me and my best friend would play imagination, but i was all the characters and she was only one and i would always be the one creating scenarios and such, all the scenarios werent anything crazy or imaginative, it was just slice of life vibes, just like real life. it was fun cos i was in control, playing pretend where im not in control is boring
Me too!!! I also would never play or read anything that didn't have something about animals or singing or something like that. I did sometimes pretend I was a vampire but actually in my head I was a "vampire bat". I cared a lot about animals and singing. Still do.
Her: Autistic girls like directing things Me: Flash-back to almost every year of elementary school where I wrote whole plays that I convinced everyone in both classes to act out at recess
Not me doing the homeschooled equivalent growing up 😗 nah I could never try to direct whole movies on my 2ds and when rping get very pissed when people would break the logical rules and just try to set up a realistic life that was "too boring" for others to follow 🙃
The delayed adolescence is so true! I always thought I was just a late bloomer, or maybe there was something wrong with me that I genuinely didn't share these feelings that other girls my age have. This is so reassuring, and I'm glad to know others go through the same thing!
As an autistic male I find these videos so relatable because one of my biggest problems is masking. Do you think autistic people masking their emotions makes it harder for them to develop emotional intelligence? Would this be different in men vs women?
Some men do present how a woman’s autism presents. It’s not exactly women autism vs men autism, but the way that they’re more likely to present in each sex. Females can have ‘male’ autism and vice versa. Men can mask as well, it’s just female socialisation that makes women more likely to develop that way
It's funny because I didn't mask and when I told my brother who has a lot of friends that I can't socialize with others he told me to observe and imitate. I didn't take his advice since I already tried it and found it too exhausting and not rewarding enough to bother with. My brother on the other hand developed an identity crisis and people still saw through his act.
@@visualsno its not only socialisation, its Hormon levtl depending too. I have some female autism characteristics and some male too it's as always a spectrum but this one is quite tight so its almost al the boys are more like this and almost all thr girls are more like that.
Agree, and I think masking is what makes it difficult to keep friends. (One of the things) Because it takes a lot of energy, but your friends you made with the mask on EXPECT to always see you that way... so either you lose them when the mask falls off, or you don't want to see them any more, because you know it's going to take a lot of energy, and you get the feeling that they aren't even friends with the actual "you." I'm in my 50s, and really only have 2 close friends, both who know the real, unmasked me.
I’m 32 I self diagnosed around 29. You remind me so much of my younger self. I remember the joy, and the rush of my special interests. The way the light hit the air, the peace I felt stimming. I’ve been masking and misdiagnosed. I want to get back to that girl, the wiggly loud curious girl. I used to cry at home alone. Now I’m so numb. 😣
My special interests are plushies (mainly unicorns), singing, paintings, dancing; mainly arts. And I love acting. I can’t explain to people why I feel safe carrying around my blanket and my unicorn
I thought I was the only one. Gosh I have to carry and hold 4 or 5 blankets and a plushie or s reborn doll. I feel safest and happiest when I'm cuddling blankets.
Plushies are one of my biggest special interests as well! My favorite plushies are Pikachus, cats, and dragons! I love blankets as well, there’s no shame in loving comfortable things at any age!
Tactile comfort have you seen the science videos on the Rhesus monkeys cuddling the soft toys in the psychology study on attachment. It’s worth watching
I'm a psychologist and work with children, and everything that's been touched on is accurate. Thank you for using your platform to help others, this is priceless for a clinician like myself. Peace!
Hi Leith. Mom here of 22yo daughter who seems to be on the Spectrum. Has had therapy for depression, anxiety and ADHD since 16. Do you know if there are any support services available if someone gets an official Asperger's diagnosis? Thank you.
Gets to the bit where she talks about breakdowns: is about to breakdown in tears because for like my whole first year of high school I would come home and cry my eyes out and not really know why except that I felt uncomfortable in school 😳😳
You can! Go on I’m sure u’ll feel amazing and everyone will love it! U just have to know u are allowed to do whatever u love, makes u happy and empowers you
Just gotta take it one small thing at a time! It’ll feel crazy if you go full blown new style, I would suggest starting off with a small accessory, then maybe a cute shirt, and so on. I hope you can get the courage to wear what you want!
Yup, that was me about two weeks ago. Dr. RUclips is probably clustering you with your community based on interests and behavior patterns, which to be honest, has more information content than most psych evaluations. It's a heck of a ride, but isn't it a good thing to find others who have found solutions to problems you've been struggling with on your own?
@@pollywogpaints9786 You got lucky then. Neurogenic seizures, dystonia and dyspraxia can stick with a person for life. I have noticed, though, that neurological difficulties seem to mellow with age. Temple Grandin used to say she had "recovered" from autism but now it's fairly clear that a person's coping mechanisms just become more sophisticated with practice and experience. 20s seem to be the worst.
My brother has autism, and I’ve always had issues with mental health and they keep saying I have anxiety and adhd. Today I found your video randomly and I recognized myself in what you said
I rarely hear people mention the lining up thing. I have a photo from when I was maybe 2 of all my toys being in a straight line. I remember doing that all over the house and my parents thought it was "cute". Over the years all these things came up and now I'm 22, undiagnosed, and trying to survive. It's hard to talk to friends about. Adults think I'm a sensitive baby. Idk what to do. At least my ADHD husband gets me.
Me too, I'm always afraid people will think I'm a sensitive baby. Be kind to yourself. Self compassion is important. A supportive husband is good too, I have that too
As a little girl I would imitate my grandma’s friends trying to mask and fit in and I got in so much trouble one time for imitating an elderly man who had Parkinson’s disease 🤦🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️
Reminds me of that time I tried to imitate a cartoon character by not blinking when looking at others at the lunch table, got called out for staring, never did it again and was very afraid of doing it again.
@@Kitschune24 Reminds me of when I was very young (5-7?) and was reminded--constantly--by an old lady after every church service that I had said her elderly friend's face looked like "popcorn." I had no memory of this, but did not doubt her. Her harrassment went on for years. Finally, when I was a teen or young adult, she passed away. I asked my father, an Episcopal priest, if the relief I felt at her death meant I was a horrible person. He looked at me with immense compassion (for he had probably had to come to my rescue countless times when she'd corner me after church), and said, "No. It makes you human." My parents knew I was different, I think, but didn't know why. (It was not really discussed in New England in the 1960's and 1970's....)
That communication one got me!! The other day I talked to a nurse about ants (current special interest) for 45 minutes flat and my mum said she could see the nurses eyes glaze over! 😂 💛
Love that you said 'current special interest' - I find i get deeply obsessed by a topic, dig around and learn all I can - then get bored and move on. Thought it was lack of ability to commit for many years.
looking back on this, i used to apply to all of this when i was younger and undiagnosed. after being diagnosed, i’ve been more aware of these traits and tried my hardest to control them.
7:38 THIIIISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. I always felt like in that sense I was several years behind in that sort of adolescent development not physically but mentally. and then when I was interested in something it was anime. and SUPER OBSESSED. edit: but I'm 23 now and have been in a relationship with my boyfriend for 3 years
Don’t worry I’m a 39 yo female Aspie and I’ve never had a long term relationship I’ve mainly only had high school style crushes on guys and haven’t been serious about dating. Do what’s right for you and what you feel comfortable with.
SAME! I'm 26 now and still obsessed with Anime. I always thought there was something wrong with me throughout my teen years because I just wasn't interested in the stuff all the other girls were. But it finally makes sense now
This helped me so much with my oldest daughter. She has not been officially diagnosed, but we have struggled with the that because as you said, she has been compared to the more common boy traits. She has nearly everyone of these on this list, and you have helped me feel better about what path I need to take. In fact, the other day she told me it looked like a bright light was closing in while she was frustrated over her online school work (as you said, “Ms.Corona”). She has never had a seizure (at least not a large or noticeable one) but I’m wondering if that is a symptom. She has recently started doing crafts and other videos and such and I’ve noticed her confidence start to soar. Thank you for your inspiring and helpful video! 💕
I have been on antidepressants since I was 15. I got bullied, I didn’t know who I was,severe anxiety etc... I was finally diagnosed at 30 years old, 30! All because my son (who I had at 28) is on the spectrum. That led to my diagnosis because of his therapists noticing I’m also on the spectrum. Would have been awesome to have known that growing up 😂😭
Karly, What would you have done differently if you had been diagnosed earlier? Just learning that our 22yo daughter may be on spectrum. She's struggled since 14yo and it's been the typical therapy route for depression and anxiety and ADD. Just starting to look into support for Asperger's. Thank you for any advice.
Did you know there are what I call high energy and low energy autistics. The high energy ones tend to speak and move rather quickly and always seem to need to be busy doing something. They’re the ones that often get misdiagnosed with ADHD. Then there’s the low energy ones like me that will desperately try to do everything that’s expected but then collapse on the couch exhausted
Ive had many special interests i get INTENSELY OBSESSED with different things but slowly replace them with new things im obsessed with but eventually revisit all my interests and feel guilty about not investing in them enough :( ALL OF THIS while my academics suffered cos i prioritized my special interests over school oops
Nobody: Me: *cycles through different artistic obsessions all the time, relates a little too hard to things about autism and is very bad in social situation and whatnot* My parents: she's just shy
@@plut0817 yeahh sorry about that happening, my mom doesn't even have to try she is just really good at subconsciously guilt tripping people and making me feel like shit if I don't act completely normal around her
I’m so relieved that these things are getting diagnosed earlier these days. I’m 31 and only this month found out I don’t have BPD, Im just autistic. Learning to be me is very hard when it confuses my son and the ones I love.
I wasn't diagnosed until the 4th grade. (With Asperger's & ADHD) However, my parents knew I was on the spectrum from a very young age. In kindergarten, my teacher noticed how I was always alone on the playground, and whenever another student approached me to play with me, or to be friends, I would either ignore them, or say "Go away". She grew concerned, and called my parents. (As most young children don't have much of a introverted/ambiverted/extroverted sense yet, they mostly play with anyone.) Also, with the one friend I did have, we fought all the time. But still remained friends. Anyways, the school I was at didn't need much to get me an IEP and help from the resource staff. But when I moved the summer before 5th grade, I had a lot of trouble adjusting to my new school. Everyone was so different. I never masked much, and tended to just do what I liked. I never felt bad about wearing clothing an 8 year old would wear in Middle School, (such as a Pikachu hoodie with neon jeans and kids size tennis shoes) or for drawing all the time. My stims are what got me teased. But I still didn't hide them. It's still very hard for me to communicate, and understanding social ques is an issue.
Thank you for your video. As a female with Asperger's, lots of the things you talked about rang true for me. I wish I had been diagnosed earlier on in life (I was diagnosed in my late 20's) but you can't go back only forwards and celebrate yourself for who you are! I am also recently turned Vegan so high five!! 🙌
Hey chloe I know you might not check this but I recently found out that I’m autistic and I don’t know how to make people understand the tics I have. I severe OCD. I ails have ADHD, major depression disorder, I’m dyslexic, PTSD, and I have really bad aniexty/ panic attacks. I live with a super abssuive family and they hate me and blame me for everything. Treat like dirt when I try to explain to my mum she is dismissive and I found a year ago when they had tested for ADHD and dyslexia when I was 16 they called her and let her know. I found she kept it from me until I was 20 and I found out when I went to therapist again and they told me I was diagnosed 4 years ago and I never got the I needed because she hid it from me. I’ve tried explain to my family certain things about my mental health and they make me feel worse. I’m got kicked out a couple days ago and I was wondering if you had any advice on how to move forward and be ok with my autism. Everyone told me it was bad and It makes me stupid so. I do I look it more positively
I'm so sorry that happened, you didn't deserve any of that. You aren't at fault for anything or stupid, and you deserve to be safe & cared for. I hope that you found a safer and more stable situation. Look for resources in your area by searching your state/county/city and autism resources or homeless/transitional housing resources, autism support groups, domestic abuse survivor support groups, etc. You should be able to access social workers, counselors, and healthcare professionals to help you move forward safely & strong. Wishing you the best.
Don't allow other people's shitty actions/ behavior define YOU. I know it's super duper hard, but please get yourself some professional help if you can. make sure you are in a safe space or around safe people if you can live somewhere else with other people. I would highly recommend looking into autism self-love/ self-acceptance, or how to accept yourself despite a diagnosis. it took me a long, long time to learn to love myself but I can promise you the journey will be worth it, just keep trying & keep doing your best & don't beat yourself up over setbacks or hardships. I was kicked out at 15 & have many of the same struggles as you. I was able to get myself on govt insurance after getting kicked out so that I had healthcare - that was a huge step for me getting better. find resources in your area & always advocate for yourself, there is help out there you just have to find it (sometimes it's tough but don't give up). You are special & important & worthy.
I felt so much understanding of most of my youth from watching this video. I didn't know about the seizures trait until I watched this. I used to have what my doctor thought were fainting spells, although I was always fully conscious/awake, just not in control of my muscles during. They used to happen all the time and then stopped. I never knew what caused them, and they are starting to happen again recently. Thank you so much Chloé. You're such a beautiful soul. 🙏💜✨️
I’m 35, diagnosed ADHD-inattentive, MDD and GAD. I’ve been wondering for a while if I may be on the spectrum. In the last week I finally feel comfortable saying “yes, I am autistic” but I am working on a professional diagnosis. ANYWAY I just NEED to say that listening to you talk and watching you use your hands and be yourself just resonates so deeply with me. I feel my body wanting to move similarly but I have never allowed myself to. It makes me question so many things about myself. Thank you for being your beautiful self and helping to pave a way for those of us who have been lost our entire lives!
That first point fits me so well lmao, all the friends I have were people who I was introduced to by other people, I genuinely have never made a friend by myself
Now I wonder if there are Autism/Asperger's meet up type groups that hang out but in a different kind of way where conversation is not the focal point. Hmmm... I'm going to look into that.
Aw yay! Very late to the party but this is validating to see. I listed flowers as a special interest on an intake form for an autism personal coach and since I'm still saving for a diagnostic assessment, I'm doing the fun flip flop internally of "I'm totally autistic... Nah I'm probably not... I'm totally autistic... Etc" Seeing someone else say how much they love flowers helps a bunch. Thanks! 🌺🌼🏵️🌸
My special interests are drawing, animating { *I kinda want to become a animator but haha, I don't have the tools to do that just yet :'(* }, writing stories and songs, and singing.
I relate to that last point. My differences didn't start to show until was around 11/12. I think at that point the social pressures increase and the navigating social situations is more complicated. And that's why many of us start to really struggle in high school.
I just got an official diagnosis for autism, Im 16, and though all my friends are being kind of weird about it im so glad I finally know how my brain works 💖 hopefully I can learn how to stop masking and be myself again :)
The lack of cooperative play is something I relate to SO much!! I remember when I was 6-7 years old, I loooved playing make-believe and I had lots of fun creating different sets of characters, drawing them, inventing their personalities and relationships etc, and then presenting it to my friends to ask them to play my new "game" with me. But I always gave them strict instructions for what to do and even what to say so they were acting out exactly the scenes I had planned - going so far as to sometimes having someone standing on the side doing nothing because their character wasn't in that particular scene! I so clearly remember my parents saying to me "you can't tell your friends you invented a game and then act like that, you'll have to tell them you wrote a play!"
This video describes my life experience (not so much seizures, but everything else). I'm 25 and I've never been diagnosisd. It's interesting how differently autism appears in girls compared to boys. The hardest part is feeling all these things but not being able to explain to other people why things are challenging. I'm comfortable with myself and wouldn't change to become "neurotypical," but there's almost always a sense that something is off in my social interactions. I'm usually quite literal in my way of thinking, so it takes effort and masking to appear "normal."
I am glad you are making these videos and these things are coming to light. I was diagnosed two years ago I was 31 years old. I struggled a lot. I am glad that this topic is getting more attention so not as many little girls have to struggle like I did and still do.
I think I might have Autism...i was told I had social anxiety when I was younger but I was really social?? And got less social as I got older. Now that I'm older, im very awkward in social situations..like I have no idea how to act. Like I don't talk, it's hard to explain but I get real quiet and don't look people in the eyes, I talk slower and Idk how to say. I also keep a straight face and try not to show emotion?? I also get these attacks where I can't control my emotions..like when I'm over whelmed. Idk.
I'm 21 and I got diagnosed, when I was 17. They didn't say I'm autistic per say, but rather on the spectrum, so I didn't think much about it. But wow, after watching this video, I realised, that all of those things 100% apply to me, especially the imagination part. I remember I used to "direct" imagination play all the time and got in trouble with other kids, because they didn't (understandably) like that. But since I wasn't diagnosed then, they just brushed it off as me just being a brat.
I recognize myself so much in this. Although they had expected autism with me ever since I was a child, I did an official test when I was 18 years old. As a child, the test said I was heavily mentally handicapped and my parents looked at me and were like: ... No. Because I was not but I could not do a second opinion until I was 18. The talking part really sticks with me. I find it difficult to hold a conversation with people especially if their conversation does not particularly interest me. I also tend to talk about the same thing over and over a lot xD Oops. On the friend base... I used to be a loner, still am, but I was lucky enough that my moms best friend also had a child with autism, and we always played on other sides of the rooms, not talking to each other and leave and say we had a nice day. After 27 years she is still my best friend and we do understand each other a lot and I appreciate that friendship, especially as I know a lot of people have difficulties with it. WE also have a very big extended friendgroup right now, consisted of about 12 people who all see each other as friends. And guess what, most are either autistic, ocd or whatever. Fun fact is that our "parties" we tend to do every once in a while to get together, are usually sitting together in a room, gaming on our own, just here and there a talk to each other and just have some fun but not bother each other when we need some time, such small things can make a difference for friendship a lot.
I relate to SO MUCH of this video. I was diagnosed with ADHD a couple of years ago (which is 100% a correct diagnosis), but my new therapist brought up that I show a lot of autistic traits as well (difficulty reading non-verbal social cues, sensory sensitivities, intense special interests, etc.). I also deal with anxiety that developed partially because I went undiagnosed, didn't understand myself, and had to mask in front of everyone except my parents and brother for so long. After doing a bunch of research, me being autistic as well as having ADHD makes a lot of sense. I'm hoping to get a neuropsychologist appointment next year to get evaluated since my therapist doesn't feel qualified to officially make a diagnosis.
i know it’s a bit unrelated but it’s actually so comforting to know that there are other autistic girls that talk as fast as i do and gesticulate just like me!!! 🥺🥺🥺💖💖
I relate to everyone of these traits and it makes me happy to know that I finally know what to name what I go through? experience in this life? I don’t know how to word it. But yeah, I’m happy to know that I’m finally understanding myself. I finally feel like I have people to relate to and understand more than others. I’m just not sure how I’m going to express this to my family and friends. I just know that I’m anxious and want to get it off my chest
As an autistic girl, in America, I absolutely *hated* school. I kept my head down, tried to act as normal as possible, but that was difficult because at the time I was dealing with personal things. I didn't realize how unhappy I was with Common Core, until I finally got into Trade School and started pursuing an education in Interior Design (Which is current-Present-My bad.) I'm much happier and I appreciate this video!
I love this girl so much. My daughter is 13 and recently diagnosed. So many people told me she had all these other things because she didn’t have “typical” ASD symptoms. Thank you for making these videos!!!
Thank you for this video Chloe. It was so informative . As a mum I am suspecting this May be the case for my 7 year old daughter. I can see she masks all day and has her breakdowns at home with me. They are extremely explosive and I’m so worried . Thank u for sharing this
I am an autistic female, I love colourful clothes. I am obsessed with countries I love learning everything about any country. I love my pets like they are my babies. I am happy when I am talking about my animals or countries.
Makes way more sense why it took so long for me to be diagnosed. During my childhood I literally forced myself to not stim and freak out when in overwhelming situations That now, I rarely stim unless I’m alone and in a really bad or good mind state. Since being diagnosed, I’m starting not mask it as much, as now I have a reason why these things happen.
Today I just got “awarded” the title of “most annoying but loved” person in my year group along with 4 other kids who are also autistic... I am currently trying not to be hurt by others opinions but the fact that me just existing annoys people makes me feel a range of negative emotions... all of my “friends” were awarded things like “smartest person” “most likely to succeed” and “kindest person”...
If that's true, that's actually unintentional abuse. You're being told that while not entirely worthless, you're a burden of sorts. And NO ONE should be told that in an educational environment meant to be safe, wtf! Seriously that's SO unacceptable that your school would do that 😡
Umm most of my friends are annoying as HELL and I love them to DEATH!!! being annoying is not bad if it's paired with other qualities don't let that word get you it doesn't mean shit
Love your videos. I've just started watching them. I was diagnosed with aspergers/autism at age 22 I'm now 30 and have had to look back over my life and see that I was really weird. Even now at 30 I'm obsessed with stuffed animals and dolls. I may be 30 but I live like I'm about 13. You make me feel like I'm not so weird.
Do you know another benefit of being autistic it’s like the fountain of youth we don’t age as fast physically hence we can look like we are in our 20s when we are in our late 40s
I'm still struggling with the thin line between being socially awkward and having a mild form of autism. I think some people, especially people who have gone their whole lives being socially awkward don't want to get diagnosed in fear of being told they're on the spectrum especially considering we've gone our whole lives trying to function as a "somewhat normal" member of society. Mental illness/disorders are considered taboo in my family and community. My mom didn't even want to admit that I needed antidepressants and anxiety meds. Against her wishes, I talked to my general doctor and got on them anyway. I get through work and classes having to communicate with people, but man it is a struggle. The mask is real 😣
I am so bad at communicating I cannot start a conversation myself. If someone else asks me something I can usually keep a conversation going but usually it dies out pretty quick. Like you said unless it is something I’m interested in, I have such a hard time communicating. Ask me about Biochemistry or playing the Violin though and I’ll never shut up!
I remember my sister wasn't diagnosed for over a decade and it was so much easier for her to communicate and show me what's going on versus before it's been incredible
also she has so many special interests and I definitely did not understand why her interests and passions were so strong and so "loud" but it's fun getting invested in those interests with her she's shown me different shows and bands and games that I've really liked to and it's fun to have that connection
If you haven't already, talk to your healthcare provider about that, it sounds like you may be having a different kind of seizure from a "grand mal" or tonic/clonic seizure that most people think of. There are several different types of seizures, such as absence seizures, where you kind of space out or may even black out/pass out or focal seizures that only involve a part of your body twitching or shaking. Be well, thanks for sharing, and hope you don't mind my unsolicited infodump!
Wow! I relate to all of these, except for the seizures. My son is nonverbal ASD, since he was diagnosed I have wondered about myself. Thank you for being brave enough to speak for autistic girls. Hopefully doctors and teachers can learn more so girls don’t have to go through theirs lives confused anymore. 💕 you are amazing!
Why do i relate to these so much?! Should i talk with my psichologist about this?- edit: talking about interests! I do love a lot animals but my main interest is art, just. Art. i'm making a bjd, i loooove paint, like a LOOOT, i love drawing and i like to sculpt too!! Aaa it's just so good for meeeeeee---- ok- i'll stap commenting-
The language delay, speech skills , having other people talking for them, not knowing how to talk in conversations, being painfully selfaware.. depression and anxiety.. cant make friends.. god i relate to it so much
Wow as a trans girl I noticed my autistic traits started changing as i've wanted to seem more like a 'generic girl' so i'd follow along to what they do and stuff like that. I also do the thing where I hide my emotions and force eye contact and stuff and then break down in my room.
My child has recently found out they have ASD and ADHD and they are 17. All of these points are relevant especially the “directing games”. I couldn’t understand why they would play this way and often said “just play the game. You don’t have to tell the others how to play”. Thank you for your videos hun because with your help, I’ve been able to understand what they’ve gone through, being diagnosed so late, a little more. Also you’ve helped me not feel so guilty for not seeing the symptoms earlier.
Would you consider captioning your videos? I have CAPD and as much as I really want to understand your videos, it's hard for me to follow. Love the joy and energy you radiate though ☀️
take your time :) i got my license when i was 19- that was almost 3 years ago, and i know people my age now who still don’t have theirs. my parents- bless them- were very understanding and didn’t rush me to get it, and i hope yours are too. when the time comes, you got this 👍✨
Im a 13 year old girl and im not sure if I have autism I am a bit different than others in terms of social stuff, I did make friends alot although I didn’t really keep any of them, I often dominate in conversations barely letting the other person have a word, few interests most of them being artistic ( drawing + storytelling), didn’t like playing with others and would get mad when they didn’t follow a “script”, my mom said I have a big vocabulary but I have very poor communication skills, was very depressed when I was 10 and am very socially anxious, seemingly normal development but I have no interest in boys or romance and rely on other people to do things for me and to guide me, I even try not to cover my ears in social situations and avoid doing things like leg bouncing, chair rocking, muscle tensing repeatedly and other things like not making specific noises. But I still feel like these possible symptoms are too mild for me to be autistic I don’t think I’ve ever had a meltdown and my brain is very good at taking all the loud noise and bright lights into a paste that doesn’t effect me at all and I don’t know if my interests are special interests at all I seem to have alot of the minor symptoms but all of the major ones seem to be very minor or non-existent. Any advice from people is welcomed because I really just want an answer so I can stop thinking about it and feeling like I’m attention seeking 😔
Okay so like, I’ve always been one of the “weird kids”, I didn’t have friends until third grade, and up until then, most of the other kids thought I was autistic. (I didn’t know this until like sixth grade but I thought it was kinda funny at the time lol) But now that I’m looking back at my life so far, I’m thinking that I might actually be somewhere on the autism spectrum. My parents don’t seem to notice anything because they either think it’s my Tourette’s or just me being weird. Idk, I kind of want to know, but I don’t know how I would find out.
Ive really been researching lately about autism because for the past two or so years ive wondered if i might have autism and this video helped me a lot :) thanks love
Wow. Thanks cousin. Context: My cousin once asked me “Are you autistic?” I don’t have any issue with autistic but I was offended because I didn’t think that I had their unique brain. My cousin is also known for being the trouble maker so I thought he was just messing with me. Turns out maybe I am autistic. I’ve always excelled in academics but I’ve always liked to work alone. I was used to working alone since I’m the weirdo in my school but it’s still kinda sucked. I’m socially awkward and have trust issues. This comment made no sense but yeah, I tried.
I wish it was easier to get evaluated. I’ve been trying to see someone for years but it’s so expensive. I am 28 and finding it very hard to find help. Also I’ve been diagnosed with everything else they could label me to the point where It’s effecting me getting a real diagnoses. Any advice?
I love this, as an autistic girl who is also Aussie! Your videos make me so happy, I feel represented and safe. And your energy makes me so happy 😊 I feel normal.
I just use "big words" naturally. If the word suits whatever it is I want to say, then I'll use it. That being said, I have received many a "what does that word mean?" over the years 😁
When I was in school. Especially senior school. I was the super shy wierd kid. And if my parents noticed or bothered to get me checked. I would have probably been diagnosed with anxiety like I have now as adult. Only understanding and listening to people (as j struggle to read) I'm slowly realising how much I've been masking to myself and the truth is coming out. Saving this to get my point across. So valid. Covid has realeased so much from my head. Just going to wait till I feel safe to go to the doctors
@@i.d.c9414 No but my parents highly doubt it is and probably thinks it's just my ADHD (it might be idk I have autistic siblings and was also never properly tought about what ADHD is so I just connect my symptoms to my siblings)
@@Alex-ir5jt even if they do find a specialists they will need to go to that one for life... even if one gives you the diagnosis, if you go to the next one they can dismiss the last one as giving a wrong diagnosis. it's even harder with ADHD
These traits to me are also so similar to my ADHD which cause my sensory overload & anxiety I grew up going through all these things - except the seizures!
Hi Chloe! I love your TikTok and RUclips channel! I was wondering if you had any tips on bringing up autism to a parent. I’ve started to recognize some traits in myself that seem indicative of autism, and while I’m definitely not certain that I’m autistic, I want to look into it further as it seems like a definite possibility. However, I have no idea how to bring this up to my parents to start looking for some answers and was wondering if you had any insight. Thank you so much! I love your videos!
Hi! I know I'm not Chloe but I recently went through this myself and I don't know if you have brought it up to your parents yet but maybe I can help a little. I don't know your parents and how they think about things like mental health and such. But my mom had originally thought I had ADHD because of a coworker describing things they struggles with and she thought it sounded like me. She told me what she thought about it and I ended up doing my own research and long story short I discovered that I was autistic and not ADHD. Anyway, I found this book on Amazon that might be helpful. It's called "I think I might be Autistic" by Cynthia Kim. You could get that and go through it, and if you feel you are definitely on the spectrum then you could bring it with you to show your parents (and possibly along with some youtube videos that describe you) as basically your evidence so to speak. You might be surprised if you are on the spectrum how understanding your parents might be. I know when I started talking about it with my mom, she would always say "I knew there was something about you that was different from other kids" (She used to babysit a lot so she had experience with other children and how they behaved) Unfortunately because I am a girl, the doctors never put two and two together and I grew up undiagnosed. Not for my mom's lack of trying to figure out why I was so different. Anyways sorry for the rambling and hopefully this made some type of sense and was helpful in some way. I think you just have to gauge how understanding and open minded you think your parents are. (Which I know is hard when you are on the spectrum) They might pleasantly surprise you and it is also really helpful to have some perspective from your parents of when you were younger, if and when you ever seek out a diagnosis.
Momiji101 hey, you helped me with your answer a lot (even tho im not the one who asked but nvm) bc i might think i am on the autism spectrum as well bc i did a lot of research and a lot of things sound excactly like me its creepy, my mom actually knows that i am different from other kids and suspect that i might have adhd and jokes sometimes about me getting tested, i‘m soon bringing it up that i might think that i am autistic bc she is also very open minded about disability and mental illness. Thank you!
Kayla Broder hey! what are you exactly scared about? (I was scared too but literally for no reason, my mom was very understanding and said it would be pretty obvious that i might be autistic and she soon calls a specialist and makes an appointment! :) )
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The thing about language, the way that my therapist put it concisely (from all of my confused ramblings) was "you have a really good vocabulary and are perfectly able to speak, but you don't feel the connection to the words or feel like they're enough to express what you mean in that moment" which honestly, is the most relatable thing here for me
wow... that’s the most accurate description i’ve ever seen. i have such a hard time putting my actual feelings to words because even though i do have a large vocabulary, it just doesn’t seem like there’s any words that quite fit the emotion i’m describing.
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Wow I feel the same! I can't barely put a sentence together. It will just come out wrong when I speak. But I write better than excellent!
@@liene93 Why written words but not spoken words?
@@CellGames2006 maybe because my writing skills are so much more developed than my speech, and it feels like I have more order when I type down words instead of when I speak. My brain sometimes goes "should I say this word first or that word after?" and if I fail to say the wrong word first I will be totally embarrassed and that will make it even more messed up. Sometimes I just say something very random if I don't have time to think what I want to say. I'm not diagnosed with anything but I sometimes wonder if I'm a little bit autistic.
1. Relying on other girls to guide them / speak for them
2. Passionate and limited interests
3. Masking
4. Broad imagination
5. Not wanting to play cooperatively
6. Advanced vocabulary but limited conversation
7. Depression and anxiety
8. Difficulty making and keeping friends
9. Seizures
10. Normal development but a delayed adolescence
Got 5 or 6 traits. Autistic?
@@v0id_d3m0n maybe, do more research and maybe go to a professonal if you want to know for sure
From this list, I agree with 8, but I don’t know 🤷♀️
The only thing I haven't experienced is Seizures
Thanks!
For anyone else that lip reads or struggles to understand due to speed of talking - playing back at 0.75 works perfectly
THank you. Good Lord I could not even keep up with her speech and I am not autistic!
... I was listening to her at 2x and I was fine...
@@princesssunrays I have moderate to severe hearing loss - fast talking is difficult to decipher, watching at p.75 meant I could actually work out what she was saying. If you don’t use lip reading to ‘hear’ then of course 2x will be fine for you.
@@caledoniabeautifuleden8584 Sorry if I offended you, I really didn't mean to.
@@princesssunrays thank you, I thought perhaps you had misunderstood why I was posting. With lip reading it can be difficult- too fast or too slow can be enough to make it unwatchable. I thought to let any fellow lip readers know that it is actually workable at 0.75 x.
Oh my lord, my mum went through hell and back to get me diagnosed, people told her she was the problem because most of the issues happening were at home, took nearly a year to get to a specialist, she took one look at me and sent me for autism diagnosis. I love my mum lol.
Outcasted Autistic oh geese I don’t rember for me cause I was three but it definitely wasn’t that hard
My mom got me tested as a child, for my IQ, and since it was 143 they said I was just shy
mine was the same way :) i’m glad she knew me so well. i was able to get extra help in school by having the official paperwork.
You’re lucky, my mom could care less.
My 8 year old daughter has recently been diagnosed, it was such a struggle to get there, for anyone to believe us. Any tips to help me get on her level? And does CBD help?
I wish I could've seen videos like this earlier. Back when I was younger, around the age of 9/10 I got diagnosed with autism. But my parents never told me anything about it, no signs, no symptoms, how to deal with it. Only that the term was used as a bad word, and whenever i acted out, they'd say "That's so autistic of you." So I never really liked talking about it, ever. I'm slowly getting to learn that it's not 'bad' and what it actually includes. So I'm really gratefull for videos like these that help people educate themselves.
Yea. I never thought it was a possibility because of the way it was talked about. Even as an adult when trying to tell my family my dad was the only one supportive which makes sense because he is the only one who ever tried to accept me for who I am in my family.
Me a depressed and socially anxious 20 year old realising i might be on the autism spectrum: 👁👄👁
Same with me, but at 25
I also have an Autistic brother.. and an a dad with Aspergers. So... . And I've been diagnosed with a bunch of stuff.. bipolar, depression, anxiety, ADD, ADHD, OCD, body dysmorphia, social anxiety.
Same but I’m 17 🙃
SAME 👁👄👁✌
Same but my parents and teachers have been differentiating my behaviour from other people my age though I have been put down on my class register as a 'High functioning autistic' , so im certain they have to tell me sooner or later :(
Yes! That imaginary play, I would always direct and reenact scenarios
I CAN RELATE
me and my best friend would play imagination, but i was all the characters and she was only one and i would always be the one creating scenarios and such, all the scenarios werent anything crazy or imaginative, it was just slice of life vibes, just like real life. it was fun cos i was in control, playing pretend where im not in control is boring
My grandaughter is 6 she tells everyone what their toys have to say. I think it makes it hard for her to make and keep friendships.
@Uncle Luke wtf imagine making fun of how a differently abled CHILD plays. That's just sick 🤮
Me too!!! I also would never play or read anything that didn't have something about animals or singing or something like that. I did sometimes pretend I was a vampire but actually in my head I was a "vampire bat". I cared a lot about animals and singing. Still do.
Her: Autistic girls like directing things
Me: Flash-back to almost every year of elementary school where I wrote whole plays that I convinced everyone in both classes to act out at recess
😅😂 🤗
SAME OOPS
That’s brilliant
MEEEE!!!! I did this toooooo omlll
Not me doing the homeschooled equivalent growing up 😗 nah I could never try to direct whole movies on my 2ds and when rping get very pissed when people would break the logical rules and just try to set up a realistic life that was "too boring" for others to follow 🙃
The delayed adolescence is so true! I always thought I was just a late bloomer, or maybe there was something wrong with me that I genuinely didn't share these feelings that other girls my age have. This is so reassuring, and I'm glad to know others go through the same thing!
As an autistic male I find these videos so relatable because one of my biggest problems is masking. Do you think autistic people masking their emotions makes it harder for them to develop emotional intelligence? Would this be different in men vs women?
Some men do present how a woman’s autism presents. It’s not exactly women autism vs men autism, but the way that they’re more likely to present in each sex. Females can have ‘male’ autism and vice versa. Men can mask as well, it’s just female socialisation that makes women more likely to develop that way
It's funny because I didn't mask and when I told my brother who has a lot of friends that I can't socialize with others he told me to observe and imitate. I didn't take his advice since I already tried it and found it too exhausting and not rewarding enough to bother with. My brother on the other hand developed an identity crisis and people still saw through his act.
@@scheimaa172 I recommend you to watch RSD channel
@@visualsno its not only socialisation, its Hormon levtl depending too. I have some female autism characteristics and some male too it's as always a spectrum but this one is quite tight so its almost al the boys are more like this and almost all thr girls are more like that.
Agree, and I think masking is what makes it difficult to keep friends. (One of the things) Because it takes a lot of energy, but your friends you made with the mask on EXPECT to always see you that way... so either you lose them when the mask falls off, or you don't want to see them any more, because you know it's going to take a lot of energy, and you get the feeling that they aren't even friends with the actual "you."
I'm in my 50s, and really only have 2 close friends, both who know the real, unmasked me.
I’m 32
I self diagnosed around 29.
You remind me so much of my younger self.
I remember the joy, and the rush of my special interests. The way the light hit the air, the peace I felt stimming.
I’ve been masking and misdiagnosed.
I want to get back to that girl, the wiggly loud curious girl. I used to cry at home alone.
Now I’m so numb.
😣
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36 here adhd and asd
My special interests are plushies (mainly unicorns), singing, paintings, dancing; mainly arts. And I love acting. I can’t explain to people why I feel safe carrying around my blanket and my unicorn
I thought I was the only one. Gosh I have to carry and hold 4 or 5 blankets and a plushie or s reborn doll. I feel safest and happiest when I'm cuddling blankets.
Ellie Lerma I have a baby blanket still. And I bring my unicorn every where
I almost always have one of my dolls with me and the blankets never leave my side. My brother's the same way he always has his plush dragon with him.
Plushies are one of my biggest special interests as well! My favorite plushies are Pikachus, cats, and dragons! I love blankets as well, there’s no shame in loving comfortable things at any age!
Tactile comfort have you seen the science videos on the Rhesus monkeys cuddling the soft toys in the psychology study on attachment. It’s worth watching
I'm a psychologist and work with children, and everything that's been touched on is accurate. Thank you for using your platform to help others, this is priceless for a clinician like myself. Peace!
Hi Leith. Mom here of 22yo daughter who seems to be on the Spectrum. Has had therapy for depression, anxiety and ADHD since 16. Do you know if there are any support services available if someone gets an official Asperger's diagnosis? Thank you.
Gets to the bit where she talks about breakdowns: is about to breakdown in tears because for like my whole first year of high school I would come home and cry my eyes out and not really know why except that I felt uncomfortable in school 😳😳
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Your outfit is fabulous! I wish I had the body confidence and self esteem to wear cute clothes.
@Panda Pup I'm not confident enough to wear my fav clothes I only wear them at home also thanks👍
You can! Go on I’m sure u’ll feel amazing and everyone will love it! U just have to know u are allowed to do whatever u love, makes u happy and empowers you
Just gotta take it one small thing at a time! It’ll feel crazy if you go full blown new style, I would suggest starting off with a small accessory, then maybe a cute shirt, and so on. I hope you can get the courage to wear what you want!
Same omg
@@moongalaxywolf434 Well thats a start! try to wear little pieces of your fav clothes outside
me watching this is realize I have ALL of these traits: well what the hell we gunna do now
Yup, that was me about two weeks ago. Dr. RUclips is probably clustering you with your community based on interests and behavior patterns, which to be honest, has more information content than most psych evaluations. It's a heck of a ride, but isn't it a good thing to find others who have found solutions to problems you've been struggling with on your own?
@@josiah42 I 1000% agree :)
@@pollywogpaints9786 You got lucky then. Neurogenic seizures, dystonia and dyspraxia can stick with a person for life. I have noticed, though, that neurological difficulties seem to mellow with age. Temple Grandin used to say she had "recovered" from autism but now it's fairly clear that a person's coping mechanisms just become more sophisticated with practice and experience. 20s seem to be the worst.
Yeah, same here. Maybe I really am on the spectrum.
I was watching this because of my toddler girl and realized I have many traits to, so now what??!!
You're awesome Chloe you are so real and authentic love you Chloe you're perfect the way you are
My brother has autism, and I’ve always had issues with mental health and they keep saying I have anxiety and adhd. Today I found your video randomly and I recognized myself in what you said
Literally same-
basically the same
I, too, recognized myself in your video. Changed my life.
I rarely hear people mention the lining up thing. I have a photo from when I was maybe 2 of all my toys being in a straight line. I remember doing that all over the house and my parents thought it was "cute".
Over the years all these things came up and now I'm 22, undiagnosed, and trying to survive. It's hard to talk to friends about. Adults think I'm a sensitive baby. Idk what to do. At least my ADHD husband gets me.
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Me too, I'm always afraid people will think I'm a sensitive baby. Be kind to yourself. Self compassion is important. A supportive husband is good too, I have that too
As a little girl I would imitate my grandma’s friends trying to mask and fit in and I got in so much trouble one time for imitating an elderly man who had Parkinson’s disease 🤦🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️
Reminds me of that time I tried to imitate a cartoon character by not blinking when looking at others at the lunch table, got called out for staring, never did it again and was very afraid of doing it again.
@@Kitschune24 Reminds me of when I was very young (5-7?) and was reminded--constantly--by an old lady after every church service that I had said her elderly friend's face looked like "popcorn." I had no memory of this, but did not doubt her. Her harrassment went on for years. Finally, when I was a teen or young adult, she passed away. I asked my father, an Episcopal priest, if the relief I felt at her death meant I was a horrible person. He looked at me with immense compassion (for he had probably had to come to my rescue countless times when she'd corner me after church), and said, "No. It makes you human." My parents knew I was different, I think, but didn't know why. (It was not really discussed in New England in the 1960's and 1970's....)
that is hilarious 😂😂
That communication one got me!! The other day I talked to a nurse about ants (current special interest) for 45 minutes flat and my mum said she could see the nurses eyes glaze over! 😂 💛
That's one patient nurse to let you talk for 45 minutes straight
id like to hear about ants, i like animal and insect facts
Love that you said 'current special interest' - I find i get deeply obsessed by a topic, dig around and learn all I can - then get bored and move on. Thought it was lack of ability to commit for many years.
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lmFaO
looking back on this, i used to apply to all of this when i was younger and undiagnosed. after being diagnosed, i’ve been more aware of these traits and tried my hardest to control them.
7:38 THIIIISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.
I always felt like in that sense I was several years behind in that sort of adolescent development not physically but mentally. and then when I was interested in something it was anime. and SUPER OBSESSED.
edit: but I'm 23 now and have been in a relationship with my boyfriend for 3 years
SAME
Don’t worry I’m a 39 yo female Aspie and I’ve never had a long term relationship I’ve mainly only had high school style crushes on guys and haven’t been serious about dating. Do what’s right for you and what you feel comfortable with.
I used to think I was straight-ish
Kinds thing
But I realised I am aroace
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SAME! I'm 26 now and still obsessed with Anime. I always thought there was something wrong with me throughout my teen years because I just wasn't interested in the stuff all the other girls were. But it finally makes sense now
This helped me so much with my oldest daughter. She has not been officially diagnosed, but we have struggled with the that because as you said, she has been compared to the more common boy traits. She has nearly everyone of these on this list, and you have helped me feel better about what path I need to take. In fact, the other day she told me it looked like a bright light was closing in while she was frustrated over her online school work (as you said, “Ms.Corona”). She has never had a seizure (at least not a large or noticeable one) but I’m wondering if that is a symptom. She has recently started doing crafts and other videos and such and I’ve noticed her confidence start to soar. Thank you for your inspiring and helpful video! 💕
I love how you are so positive during such a difficult time. It's really refreshing!
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I have been on antidepressants since I was 15. I got bullied, I didn’t know who I was,severe anxiety etc... I was finally diagnosed at 30 years old, 30! All because my son (who I had at 28) is on the spectrum. That led to my diagnosis because of his therapists noticing I’m also on the spectrum. Would have been awesome to have known that growing up 😂😭
Karly,
What would you have done differently if you had been diagnosed earlier? Just learning that our 22yo daughter may be on spectrum. She's struggled since 14yo and it's been the typical therapy route for depression and anxiety and ADD. Just starting to look into support for Asperger's. Thank you for any advice.
I love how fast you talk! Mostly cause its the same way I talk 😂
Did you know there are what I call high energy and low energy autistics. The high energy ones tend to speak and move rather quickly and always seem to need to be busy doing something. They’re the ones that often get misdiagnosed with ADHD. Then there’s the low energy ones like me that will desperately try to do everything that’s expected but then collapse on the couch exhausted
Dancestar1981 I feel like I go from being far on one end of that and then far to the other end all in a couple hours
She's a mercury dragon in disguise. My fellow D&D family will understand.
Same lol. If I talk about something I’m interested in, I will speak super fast! (But it’s noticeable if I’m bored, unless masking)
My Special interests are science, Disney (mainly toy story and frozen) and reptiles
hello mia my name is oussama i am from in moroccocan we talk
I love reptiles too
Omg I love toy story
Ive had many special interests i get INTENSELY OBSESSED with different things but slowly replace them with new things im obsessed with but eventually revisit all my interests and feel guilty about not investing in them enough :( ALL OF THIS while my academics suffered cos i prioritized my special interests over school oops
Lmao mine are DID, king Henry the eights six wives and questionable parts of the bible.
Nobody:
Me: *cycles through different artistic obsessions all the time, relates a little too hard to things about autism and is very bad in social situation and whatnot*
My parents: she's just shy
Me too
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mine too! They were pretty emotionally abusive(still are) and basically forced me to make eye contact, speak the way they wanted, aft “normal”, etc.
@@plut0817 yeahh sorry about that happening, my mom doesn't even have to try she is just really good at subconsciously guilt tripping people and making me feel like shit if I don't act completely normal around her
I’m so relieved that these things are getting diagnosed earlier these days.
I’m 31 and only this month found out I don’t have BPD, Im just autistic. Learning to be me is very hard when it confuses my son and the ones I love.
I can’t deal with you yelling this so fast with so much energy, it’s overwhelming
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I wasn't diagnosed until the 4th grade. (With Asperger's & ADHD) However, my parents knew I was on the spectrum from a very young age. In kindergarten, my teacher noticed how I was always alone on the playground, and whenever another student approached me to play with me, or to be friends, I would either ignore them, or say "Go away". She grew concerned, and called my parents. (As most young children don't have much of a introverted/ambiverted/extroverted sense yet, they mostly play with anyone.) Also, with the one friend I did have, we fought all the time. But still remained friends. Anyways, the school I was at didn't need much to get me an IEP and help from the resource staff. But when I moved the summer before 5th grade, I had a lot of trouble adjusting to my new school. Everyone was so different. I never masked much, and tended to just do what I liked. I never felt bad about wearing clothing an 8 year old would wear in Middle School, (such as a Pikachu hoodie with neon jeans and kids size tennis shoes) or for drawing all the time. My stims are what got me teased. But I still didn't hide them. It's still very hard for me to communicate, and understanding social ques is an issue.
I also have Anxiety Disorder
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Thank you for your video. As a female with Asperger's, lots of the things you talked about rang true for me. I wish I had been diagnosed earlier on in life (I was diagnosed in my late 20's) but you can't go back only forwards and celebrate yourself for who you are!
I am also recently turned Vegan so high five!! 🙌
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thank you for talking about this! my little sister was diagnosed so i want to know EVERYTHING so i can help her navigate her way through life.
What a great Sister you are.
Hey chloe I know you might not check this but I recently found out that I’m autistic and I don’t know how to make people understand the tics I have. I severe OCD. I ails have ADHD, major depression disorder, I’m dyslexic, PTSD, and I have really bad aniexty/ panic attacks. I live with a super abssuive family and they hate me and blame me for everything. Treat like dirt when I try to explain to my mum she is dismissive and I found a year ago when they had tested for ADHD and dyslexia when I was 16 they called her and let her know. I found she kept it from me until I was 20 and I found out when I went to therapist again and they told me I was diagnosed 4 years ago and I never got the I needed because she hid it from me. I’ve tried explain to my family certain things about my mental health and they make me feel worse. I’m got kicked out a couple days ago and I was
wondering if you had any advice on how to move forward and be ok with my autism. Everyone told me it was bad and It makes me stupid so. I do I look it more positively
I really hope you are doing better now. you are so deserving of love and acceptance.
I'm so sorry that happened, you didn't deserve any of that. You aren't at fault for anything or stupid, and you deserve to be safe & cared for. I hope that you found a safer and more stable situation. Look for resources in your area by searching your state/county/city and autism resources or homeless/transitional housing resources, autism support groups, domestic abuse survivor support groups, etc. You should be able to access social workers, counselors, and healthcare professionals to help you move forward safely & strong. Wishing you the best.
Don't allow other people's shitty actions/ behavior define YOU. I know it's super duper hard, but please get yourself some professional help if you can. make sure you are in a safe space or around safe people if you can live somewhere else with other people. I would highly recommend looking into autism self-love/ self-acceptance, or how to accept yourself despite a diagnosis. it took me a long, long time to learn to love myself but I can promise you the journey will be worth it, just keep trying & keep doing your best & don't beat yourself up over setbacks or hardships.
I was kicked out at 15 & have many of the same struggles as you. I was able to get myself on govt insurance after getting kicked out so that I had healthcare - that was a huge step for me getting better. find resources in your area & always advocate for yourself, there is help out there you just have to find it (sometimes it's tough but don't give up).
You are special & important & worthy.
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I felt so much understanding of most of my youth from watching this video. I didn't know about the seizures trait until I watched this. I used to have what my doctor thought were fainting spells, although I was always fully conscious/awake, just not in control of my muscles during. They used to happen all the time and then stopped. I never knew what caused them, and they are starting to happen again recently. Thank you so much Chloé. You're such a beautiful soul. 🙏💜✨️
Everyone tells me I "want to be oppressed", thank you for making me feel like being me is okay.
I’m 35, diagnosed ADHD-inattentive, MDD and GAD. I’ve been wondering for a while if I may be on the spectrum. In the last week I finally feel comfortable saying “yes, I am autistic” but I am working on a professional diagnosis.
ANYWAY I just NEED to say that listening to you talk and watching you use your hands and be yourself just resonates so deeply with me. I feel my body wanting to move similarly but I have never allowed myself to. It makes me question so many things about myself.
Thank you for being your beautiful self and helping to pave a way for those of us who have been lost our entire lives!
That first point fits me so well lmao, all the friends I have were people who I was introduced to by other people, I genuinely have never made a friend by myself
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Now I wonder if there are Autism/Asperger's meet up type groups that hang out but in a different kind of way where conversation is not the focal point. Hmmm... I'm going to look into that.
I can tell that this girl really knows her stuff. I am a girl on the spectrum, and I relate to almost all of these. New sub!
Holy shit I love flowers. Your crown was a great visual stim for me 💐🌸🌼🌷
Thiiissssss and also that glittery highlight 😍
I love sparkly and things that glow. Flowers and nature also makes me unreasonably happy.
Aw yay! Very late to the party but this is validating to see. I listed flowers as a special interest on an intake form for an autism personal coach and since I'm still saving for a diagnostic assessment, I'm doing the fun flip flop internally of "I'm totally autistic... Nah I'm probably not... I'm totally autistic... Etc" Seeing someone else say how much they love flowers helps a bunch. Thanks! 🌺🌼🏵️🌸
My special interests are drawing, animating { *I kinda want to become a animator but haha, I don't have the tools to do that just yet :'(* }, writing stories and songs, and singing.
This was spot on!
My daughter is 15 and has very recently been diagnosed
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I absolutely adore your hyper and positive energy in this! I'm autistic as well, and it makes me happy whenever I watch your videos. :)
I relate to that last point. My differences didn't start to show until was around 11/12.
I think at that point the social pressures increase and the navigating social situations is more complicated. And that's why many of us start to really struggle in high school.
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@@richiemcconnochie2506 stop sharing bullshit. ADHD cant be cured.
Wrong but u will find out..
@@richiemcconnochie2506 stop with your bullshit. I've not got time for that
@@shannonking8298 see making judgements before u know the facts..good luck..
I always get bullied for mimicking or repeating things other people say and they always bully me when I say a joke they said earlier.
I just got an official diagnosis for autism, Im 16, and though all my friends are being kind of weird about it im so glad I finally know how my brain works 💖 hopefully I can learn how to stop masking and be myself again :)
I'm 15 and trying to get a diagnosis rn. I know I'm autistic though. I'm not sure if I'll ever stop masking. It just feels kinda scary.
I'm also 15 and I don't know how to tell my parents to get my diagnosis :(
@@deeboots6252 same alot of the symptoms describe me but i’m not really sure how to explain to my parents i need a diagnosis
Same but with OCD
i think i might have it but my mom said she would know
The lack of cooperative play is something I relate to SO much!! I remember when I was 6-7 years old, I loooved playing make-believe and I had lots of fun creating different sets of characters, drawing them, inventing their personalities and relationships etc, and then presenting it to my friends to ask them to play my new "game" with me. But I always gave them strict instructions for what to do and even what to say so they were acting out exactly the scenes I had planned - going so far as to sometimes having someone standing on the side doing nothing because their character wasn't in that particular scene! I so clearly remember my parents saying to me "you can't tell your friends you invented a game and then act like that, you'll have to tell them you wrote a play!"
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This video describes my life experience (not so much seizures, but everything else). I'm 25 and I've never been diagnosisd. It's interesting how differently autism appears in girls compared to boys. The hardest part is feeling all these things but not being able to explain to other people why things are challenging. I'm comfortable with myself and wouldn't change to become "neurotypical," but there's almost always a sense that something is off in my social interactions. I'm usually quite literal in my way of thinking, so it takes effort and masking to appear "normal."
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I am glad you are making these videos and these things are coming to light. I was diagnosed two years ago I was 31 years old. I struggled a lot. I am glad that this topic is getting more attention so not as many little girls have to struggle like I did and still do.
I think I might have Autism...i was told I had social anxiety when I was younger but I was really social?? And got less social as I got older. Now that I'm older, im very awkward in social situations..like I have no idea how to act. Like I don't talk, it's hard to explain but I get real quiet and don't look people in the eyes, I talk slower and Idk how to say. I also keep a straight face and try not to show emotion?? I also get these attacks where I can't control my emotions..like when I'm over whelmed. Idk.
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I'm 21 and I got diagnosed, when I was 17. They didn't say I'm autistic per say, but rather on the spectrum, so I didn't think much about it. But wow, after watching this video, I realised, that all of those things 100% apply to me, especially the imagination part. I remember I used to "direct" imagination play all the time and got in trouble with other kids, because they didn't (understandably) like that. But since I wasn't diagnosed then, they just brushed it off as me just being a brat.
I recognize myself so much in this. Although they had expected autism with me ever since I was a child, I did an official test when I was 18 years old. As a child, the test said I was heavily mentally handicapped and my parents looked at me and were like: ... No. Because I was not but I could not do a second opinion until I was 18.
The talking part really sticks with me. I find it difficult to hold a conversation with people especially if their conversation does not particularly interest me. I also tend to talk about the same thing over and over a lot xD Oops.
On the friend base... I used to be a loner, still am, but I was lucky enough that my moms best friend also had a child with autism, and we always played on other sides of the rooms, not talking to each other and leave and say we had a nice day. After 27 years she is still my best friend and we do understand each other a lot and I appreciate that friendship, especially as I know a lot of people have difficulties with it. WE also have a very big extended friendgroup right now, consisted of about 12 people who all see each other as friends. And guess what, most are either autistic, ocd or whatever. Fun fact is that our "parties" we tend to do every once in a while to get together, are usually sitting together in a room, gaming on our own, just here and there a talk to each other and just have some fun but not bother each other when we need some time, such small things can make a difference for friendship a lot.
That is actually really awesome. Congratulations for working out such a community that works for you each.
I wish all parties were like that.
I relate to SO MUCH of this video. I was diagnosed with ADHD a couple of years ago (which is 100% a correct diagnosis), but my new therapist brought up that I show a lot of autistic traits as well (difficulty reading non-verbal social cues, sensory sensitivities, intense special interests, etc.). I also deal with anxiety that developed partially because I went undiagnosed, didn't understand myself, and had to mask in front of everyone except my parents and brother for so long.
After doing a bunch of research, me being autistic as well as having ADHD makes a lot of sense. I'm hoping to get a neuropsychologist appointment next year to get evaluated since my therapist doesn't feel qualified to officially make a diagnosis.
I've struggled with friends because I'm more vulnerable to be pushed around by a bossy friend, and I've had heaps of bossy friends
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i know it’s a bit unrelated but it’s actually so comforting to know that there are other autistic girls that talk as fast as i do and gesticulate just like me!!! 🥺🥺🥺💖💖
“not so fun fact” GURRRRL I SEE YOU
I relate to everyone of these traits and it makes me happy to know that I finally know what to name what I go through? experience in this life? I don’t know how to word it. But yeah, I’m happy to know that I’m finally understanding myself. I finally feel like I have people to relate to and understand more than others. I’m just not sure how I’m going to express this to my family and friends. I just know that I’m anxious and want to get it off my chest
As an autistic girl, in America, I absolutely *hated* school. I kept my head down, tried to act as normal as possible, but that was difficult because at the time I was dealing with personal things. I didn't realize how unhappy I was with Common Core, until I finally got into Trade School and started pursuing an education in Interior Design (Which is current-Present-My bad.) I'm much happier and I appreciate this video!
I love this girl so much. My daughter is 13 and recently diagnosed. So many people told me she had all these other things because she didn’t have “typical” ASD symptoms. Thank you for making these videos!!!
I am passionate about the environment, performing arts, visual arts and more
@@mayeshabhuiyan8955 awww xx thank you ! So are you!
I have autism, although not diagnosed. Thank you so much for this video. It makes so much sense.
Thank you for this video Chloe. It was so informative . As a mum I am suspecting this May be the case for my 7 year old daughter. I can see she masks all day and has her breakdowns at home with me. They are extremely explosive and I’m so worried . Thank u for sharing this
I am an autistic female, I love colourful clothes. I am obsessed with countries I love learning everything about any country. I love my pets like they are my babies. I am happy when I am talking about my animals or countries.
I'm so happy u came to my school in Ireland u have inspired me
Makes way more sense why it took so long for me to be diagnosed.
During my childhood I literally forced myself to not stim and freak out when in overwhelming situations
That now, I rarely stim unless I’m alone and in a really bad or good mind state.
Since being diagnosed, I’m starting not mask it as much, as now I have a reason why these things happen.
Today I just got “awarded” the title of “most annoying but loved” person in my year group along with 4 other kids who are also autistic... I am currently trying not to be hurt by others opinions but the fact that me just existing annoys people makes me feel a range of negative emotions... all of my “friends” were awarded things like “smartest person” “most likely to succeed” and “kindest person”...
If that's true, that's actually unintentional abuse. You're being told that while not entirely worthless, you're a burden of sorts. And NO ONE should be told that in an educational environment meant to be safe, wtf! Seriously that's SO unacceptable that your school would do that 😡
Umm most of my friends are annoying as HELL and I love them to DEATH!!! being annoying is not bad if it's paired with other qualities don't let that word get you it doesn't mean shit
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If between friends, they are trolls. If it was the school who did this consider suing.
Realistically though we can be annoying. To NT standards. I find most NTs to be stupid mentally. By my standards. It's just honesty.
Love your videos. I've just started watching them. I was diagnosed with aspergers/autism at age 22 I'm now 30 and have had to look back over my life and see that I was really weird. Even now at 30 I'm obsessed with stuffed animals and dolls. I may be 30 but I live like I'm about 13. You make me feel like I'm not so weird.
What did you do to get diagnosed?!
Do you know another benefit of being autistic it’s like the fountain of youth we don’t age as fast physically hence we can look like we are in our 20s when we are in our late 40s
@@lupizgueme5022 I got diagnosed in 2012
I'm still struggling with the thin line between being socially awkward and having a mild form of autism. I think some people, especially people who have gone their whole lives being socially awkward don't want to get diagnosed in fear of being told they're on the spectrum especially considering we've gone our whole lives trying to function as a "somewhat normal" member of society. Mental illness/disorders are considered taboo in my family and community. My mom didn't even want to admit that I needed antidepressants and anxiety meds. Against her wishes, I talked to my general doctor and got on them anyway. I get through work and classes having to communicate with people, but man it is a struggle. The mask is real 😣
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I am so bad at communicating I cannot start a conversation myself. If someone else asks me something I can usually keep a conversation going but usually it dies out pretty quick. Like you said unless it is something I’m interested in, I have such a hard time communicating.
Ask me about Biochemistry or playing the Violin though and I’ll never shut up!
I feel a lot less stupid and unwanted knowing that these are common traits.
I remember my sister wasn't diagnosed for over a decade and it was so much easier for her to communicate and show me what's going on versus before it's been incredible
also she has so many special interests and I definitely did not understand why her interests and passions were so strong and so "loud" but it's fun getting invested in those interests with her she's shown me different shows and bands and games that I've really liked to and it's fun to have that connection
I pass out instead of having epileptic seizures, but my body shakes briefly at times. Very informative :)
If you haven't already, talk to your healthcare provider about that, it sounds like you may be having a different kind of seizure from a "grand mal" or tonic/clonic seizure that most people think of. There are several different types of seizures, such as absence seizures, where you kind of space out or may even black out/pass out or focal seizures that only involve a part of your body twitching or shaking. Be well, thanks for sharing, and hope you don't mind my unsolicited infodump!
Wow! I relate to all of these, except for the seizures. My son is nonverbal ASD, since he was diagnosed I have wondered about myself. Thank you for being brave enough to speak for autistic girls. Hopefully doctors and teachers can learn more so girls don’t have to go through theirs lives confused anymore. 💕 you are amazing!
Why do i relate to these so much?! Should i talk with my psichologist about this?-
edit: talking about interests! I do love a lot animals but my main interest is art, just. Art.
i'm making a bjd, i loooove paint, like a LOOOT, i love drawing and i like to sculpt too!! Aaa it's just so good for meeeeeee----
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Wait,you are making your own bjd, I love those dolls, Do you have a tutorial that I can follow.
The language delay, speech skills , having other people talking for them, not knowing how to talk in conversations, being painfully selfaware.. depression and anxiety.. cant make friends.. god i relate to it so much
Wow as a trans girl I noticed my autistic traits started changing as i've wanted to seem more like a 'generic girl' so i'd follow along to what they do and stuff like that. I also do the thing where I hide my emotions and force eye contact and stuff and then break down in my room.
My child has recently found out they have ASD and ADHD and they are 17. All of these points are relevant especially the “directing games”. I couldn’t understand why they would play this way and often said “just play the game. You don’t have to tell the others how to play”. Thank you for your videos hun because with your help, I’ve been able to understand what they’ve gone through, being diagnosed so late, a little more. Also you’ve helped me not feel so guilty for not seeing the symptoms earlier.
Would you consider captioning your videos? I have CAPD and as much as I really want to understand your videos, it's hard for me to follow. Love the joy and energy you radiate though ☀️
I would appreciate that too
this is probably the most helpful video i have come across after watching tons of others and reading multiple articles. thank you for this :)
The only thing I'm unable to do that other girls my age does is drive
Have you thought about an automatic car license only it makes it easier
Dancestar1981 I don’t know how to do that
take your time :) i got my license when i was 19- that was almost 3 years ago, and i know people my age now who still don’t have theirs. my parents- bless them- were very understanding and didn’t rush me to get it, and i hope yours are too. when the time comes, you got this 👍✨
@@mi-spark my family isn’t allowing it
@@Dancestar1981 my family isn’t allowing it
the directing part.. so relatable!
I love your hair and your makeup you look beautiful❤️
Im a 13 year old girl and im not sure if I have autism
I am a bit different than others in terms of social stuff, I did make friends alot although I didn’t really keep any of them, I often dominate in conversations barely letting the other person have a word, few interests most of them being artistic ( drawing + storytelling), didn’t like playing with others and would get mad when they didn’t follow a “script”, my mom said I have a big vocabulary but I have very poor communication skills, was very depressed when I was 10 and am very socially anxious, seemingly normal development but I have no interest in boys or romance and rely on other people to do things for me and to guide me, I even try not to cover my ears in social situations and avoid doing things like leg bouncing, chair rocking, muscle tensing repeatedly and other things like not making specific noises.
But I still feel like these possible symptoms are too mild for me to be autistic
I don’t think I’ve ever had a meltdown and my brain is very good at taking all the loud noise and bright lights into a paste that doesn’t effect me at all and I don’t know if my interests are special interests at all
I seem to have alot of the minor symptoms but all of the major ones seem to be very minor or non-existent.
Any advice from people is welcomed because I really just want an answer so I can stop thinking about it and feeling like I’m attention seeking 😔
Okay so like, I’ve always been one of the “weird kids”, I didn’t have friends until third grade, and up until then, most of the other kids thought I was autistic. (I didn’t know this until like sixth grade but I thought it was kinda funny at the time lol) But now that I’m looking back at my life so far, I’m thinking that I might actually be somewhere on the autism spectrum. My parents don’t seem to notice anything because they either think it’s my Tourette’s or just me being weird. Idk, I kind of want to know, but I don’t know how I would find out.
I would start with your primary care doctor and ask for a referral to a psychiatrist.
Ive really been researching lately about autism because for the past two or so years ive wondered if i might have autism and this video helped me a lot :) thanks love
Wow. Thanks cousin. Context: My cousin once asked me “Are you autistic?” I don’t have any issue with autistic but I was offended because I didn’t think that I had their unique brain. My cousin is also known for being the trouble maker so I thought he was just messing with me. Turns out maybe I am autistic.
I’ve always excelled in academics but I’ve always liked to work alone. I was used to working alone since I’m the weirdo in my school but it’s still kinda sucked. I’m socially awkward and have trust issues.
This comment made no sense but yeah, I tried.
Why are all of these so spot on
I wish it was easier to get evaluated. I’ve been trying to see someone for years but it’s so expensive. I am 28 and finding it very hard to find help. Also I’ve been diagnosed with everything else they could label me to the point where It’s effecting me getting a real diagnoses. Any advice?
I love this, as an autistic girl who is also Aussie! Your videos make me so happy, I feel represented and safe. And your energy makes me so happy 😊 I feel normal.
I always made my language sound simpler and avoid big words to seem more normal yikes
I just use "big words" naturally. If the word suits whatever it is I want to say, then I'll use it. That being said, I have received many a "what does that word mean?" over the years 😁
When I was in school. Especially senior school. I was the super shy wierd kid. And if my parents noticed or bothered to get me checked. I would have probably been diagnosed with anxiety like I have now as adult. Only understanding and listening to people (as j struggle to read) I'm slowly realising how much I've been masking to myself and the truth is coming out. Saving this to get my point across. So valid. Covid has realeased so much from my head. Just going to wait till I feel safe to go to the doctors
I literally love you 🥺❤️
I've literally never met you or seen you before but I think I'm gonna follow you, I absolutely love your energy tbh
Me : I swear I have autism
My doctor's and parents: no you don't
My score: 8/10
Me: are you sure?
change doctor. for women is more difficult to get a proper diagnosis and we need to go different specialists before one can really understand us
Was it figured out?
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No but my parents highly doubt it is and probably thinks it's just my ADHD (it might be idk I have autistic siblings and was also never properly tought about what ADHD is so I just connect my symptoms to my siblings)
@@Alex-ir5jt even if they do find a specialists they will need to go to that one for life... even if one gives you the diagnosis, if you go to the next one they can dismiss the last one as giving a wrong diagnosis. it's even harder with ADHD
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These traits to me are also so similar to my ADHD which cause my sensory overload & anxiety I grew up going through all these things - except the seizures!
Hi Chloe! I love your TikTok and RUclips channel! I was wondering if you had any tips on bringing up autism to a parent. I’ve started to recognize some traits in myself that seem indicative of autism, and while I’m definitely not certain that I’m autistic, I want to look into it further as it seems like a definite possibility. However, I have no idea how to bring this up to my parents to start looking for some answers and was wondering if you had any insight. Thank you so much! I love your videos!
Hi! I know I'm not Chloe but I recently went through this myself and I don't know if you have brought it up to your parents yet but maybe I can help a little.
I don't know your parents and how they think about things like mental health and such. But my mom had originally thought I had ADHD because of a coworker describing things they struggles with and she thought it sounded like me. She told me what she thought about it and I ended up doing my own research and long story short I discovered that I was autistic and not ADHD.
Anyway, I found this book on Amazon that might be helpful. It's called "I think I might be Autistic" by Cynthia Kim. You could get that and go through it, and if you feel you are definitely on the spectrum then you could bring it with you to show your parents (and possibly along with some youtube videos that describe you) as basically your evidence so to speak.
You might be surprised if you are on the spectrum how understanding your parents might be. I know when I started talking about it with my mom, she would always say "I knew there was something about you that was different from other kids" (She used to babysit a lot so she had experience with other children and how they behaved) Unfortunately because I am a girl, the doctors never put two and two together and I grew up undiagnosed. Not for my mom's lack of trying to figure out why I was so different.
Anyways sorry for the rambling and hopefully this made some type of sense and was helpful in some way.
I think you just have to gauge how understanding and open minded you think your parents are. (Which I know is hard when you are on the spectrum) They might pleasantly surprise you and it is also really helpful to have some perspective from your parents of when you were younger, if and when you ever seek out a diagnosis.
Momiji101 hey, you helped me with your answer a lot (even tho im not the one who asked but nvm) bc i might think i am on the autism spectrum as well bc i did a lot of research and a lot of things sound excactly like me its creepy, my mom actually knows that i am different from other kids and suspect that i might have adhd and jokes sometimes about me getting tested, i‘m soon bringing it up that i might think that i am autistic bc she is also very open minded about disability and mental illness. Thank you!
@@watermellen2 same but I'm scared my first cousin is severely autistic and is non verbal... but I'm literally in the same situation as u 🥺
Kayla Broder hey! what are you exactly scared about? (I was scared too but literally for no reason, my mom was very understanding and said it would be pretty obvious that i might be autistic and she soon calls a specialist and makes an appointment! :) )
Panda Pup autism is a spectrum though you sound like you’re on the higher functioning end not the stereotypical non verbal end so they needn’t worry
I love you so much your videos is the only thing that keeps me going you’re the only one that’s not talking about tge virus all the time
Me watching this entire video: Haha, I do that
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You have so much energy! That’s amazing!!! ✨⚡️✨