For anyone struggling with an ED, especially bulimia, that keeps saying they can “stop whenever” or “will stop tomorrow” please know that the effect this has on not only your mental health but your physical health is not worth it. My teeth will never be healthy again. I have a stomach ulcer that causes me constant pain, even when drinking just water. The disordered thoughts are there almost constantly. I have a fear of being sick because something as minor as the flu or food poisoning will send me spiralling into old habits. My teeth are brittle and yellowed, I’ve broken a tooth on a kettle cooked chip because they’re so weak they feel like they’re made of ceramics sometimes. Not to mention how sensitive they are given all my enamel eroding away over the years. I get strep throat and viral infections extremely easily because of the damage I’ve done to my body which has caused lifelong damage to my immune system. As hard as it can be to imagine yourself as someone without your ED, you have a future in recovery. It can be hard to see yourself as anything besides your disorder but you’re so much more than what your ED has made you out to be. You are worthy of recovery. You’re worthy of happiness and you’re worthy of living a life where you don’t have to listen to your ED at the back of your mind at every moment ❤️
you are so strong and so beautiful the way you are. and i’m proud of you for sharing so everyone wouldn’t feel alone. I personally don’t struggle with bulimia, but, I do struggle with Anorexia and binge eating. we’ve got this🤎
Thankyou so much for sharing you’re so strong! I went to the dentist for the first time since my Ed started and I had 17 cavities and it was a huge wake up call for me when it came to seeing the effects the Ed had on not just my mental but my physical health. It helps a lot knowing I’m not alone ❤️
Girls (and boys) between 12-16. I, as an adult, just want to say how sorry I am that the difficulties of life has trickled down to you at such a young age. So much more of you is expected at your ages now than was expected from me. Please be kind to yourselves. Try not to compare yourselves to anyone else. You are unique as a snowflake, one of a kind.
aww! that’s the first adult i’ve heard who said that we have it harder than others (mentally, i def believe we have it harder) bc many older generations alw dismiss troubles of teens nowadays, saying how they had it harder so our experiences and feelings don’t matter. tysm for your kind words❤️
i’m so so sorry to hear that you are feeling lonely. loneliness is a very raw emotion and it can be very difficult to deal with. i know you are so busy with uni and starting your clothing line and it probably feels much easier to live at home, especially while classes are still online. but if you’re able to go back to kingston for fall semester then i think that could really help. and if you’re not able to film and upload as much because of it then i think that all of your little seashells will understand that you need to have a social life as well. we all just want to see you happy and it breaks my heart to hear that you feel like your uni friends are branching out and moving on. you don’t have much time left in uni and you should soak it up while you can. but i completely understand if you feel like you can’t be in kingston right now with all that you have on your plate. i hope you have a great weekend ocean!
my dad just passed away unexpectedly and it’s been a really sad holiday season for me so far. thank you for uploading these videos even when you’re not feeling 100%, it really means a lot. 💕
That’s so sad sry for your loss and remember that your holiday will get better even if it takes a long time as you heal your family will get better❤️ Sending you lots of hugs💕💗
I'm truly sorry for you loss. just know that he actually didn't pass away as long as you keep him in your heart and think about him ❤️❤️stay strong during this difficult time❤️❤️ I don't know you but I wish you the best in life
i‘m so sorry to hear about you struggling with an eating disorder at so young of an age! noone should go through something like that..you were only a kid :( i‘m glad you’re doing better now
Just got back into recovery literally today, thought I left my ED in high school but here I am in college still crying over toast. Thank you for making me feel less alone in this, I really needed this today.
i’m currently struggling with anorexia / bulimia and it’s hell on earth but i find your videos help with the guilt (especially ur eat with me ones) and i can’t explain how much i love your asmr ❤️ thank you so much for doing what you do ily
I’m so sorry that you had to go trough a ed I know how hard it must have been since I’m still struggling with my ed too but I’m so happy that you’re doing better now 💕I also really like you’re eat with me videos because even tough it’s hard for me to eat it helps me so thank you Ocean :)
I love how ocean never forces anyone to subscribe to her channel. Lot of other RUclipsrs always ask people to subscribe at the start and end of the video but ocean is not like that! She is kind, smart, caring and beautiful!
I don't normally comment on videos but as someone who has recently been diagnosed with anorexia, hearing you tell your story with ED was so comforting. It's crazy because we're the same age and I've been watching your videos since high school and your ASMR has helped me with so much, and so I'm honored that you are sharing your experience with us. Please continue doing your let's eat together videos I watch them all the time! You're the best Ocean
Girl you are going to be the best mom! I love the fact you would respect your children by not using them views✨ I get so sad when kids are just being used for money
So very proud of you Ocean💕 I know how hard eating disorders can be. Hope you and your family are doing well and staying safe. Thanks for all you do ocean, it’s greatly appreciated by all your seashells🥰 xoxo
Hey ocean I’ve been watching you for a while now! I can relate waaay too well to your stories, I can’t even imagine someone prettier skinnier more popular or better than you you’re perfect to me ! Crazy the way the mind works !!!
I can definitely relate to you ocean growing up I did ballet up until I was 13 and it was extremely toxic. Although dancing was my passion and a huge part of my life more and more I realized that I was having a eating disorder I was extremely insecure because the ballet world creates this image that in order to dance, or be good, or be professional that you have to have the perfect ballet body. I started noticing my friends go on strict diets to avoid getting fat even when they were more skinny than me. It made me more insecure when I had a stronger and curvier body because they all were so prim and skinny. I started not eating and my parents quickly picked up on it. When they asked if I was ok I would just say that I already ate earlier even if I didn’t. One year later from quitting dance which is now I am still recovering and realizing that it’s important to feed my body because it does so much for me and that nutrition is so important. I haven’t talked to anyone about this not even my parents but honestly this feels good to get it out even if no one sees I’m continuing to recover and doing everything in my power to make sure to eat and drink water to nourish my body so that it can be healthy. Thank you so much ocean for opening up about a touchy topic it’s really encouraged me! ♥️ I hope this encourages anyone who is struggling! My heart goes out to everyone not only reading this but who are struggling! Just know you will get through this!
*the ED story is so interesting.* & crazy, obvi. but so interesting. we all can imagine something similar, especially at that age - where your world is everything. it takes mid 20s at least to have enough years behind you that you can properly imagine a future. gr8 vid. -JC
I completely understand everything you are talking about being away from your friends. I have been having the same issue and it is very difficult. I hope you will be able to sort it out and hope all your exams go well 💕
you look like the girl from looking for alaska in this video also i’m sorry about your eating disorder i know there horrible. i always watch your videos to help with anxiety and to help sleep. you seem like such a lovely person and so grateful for everything you have like your platform and subscribers.
thank you for making these videos ocean, im in the 8th grade and im starting to get these kinds of thoughts related to eating, your whole channel has helped me so much. i love you!
I signed up for the call and then we had a family emergency and couldn’t make it! Was very sad :( glad you shared the rest of the story here too and I’m so sorry to hear you went through all of this
I had the same dance story as you! Not the eating disorder but still! I am understand bc I felt like that too, but I am so happy that you are feeling better right now!
It's so sad that people get an eating disorder... people like you, people that don't realise they are pretty and worthy of self love. I thankfully haven't struggled with it but I know how it is to feel self conscious about my weight and body. I am trying to love myself more, though! It's hard but worth it!
Omg I feel so bad, I hope everything goes better for you in life ocean you are going threw so much, but you are putting that aside and making everyone else happy 😃, I hope life turns around for you ocean, thank you for making my life easier 🥺
It’s hard to realize that no matter what you look like there is always something or someone to bring you down and it’s hurtful to see how hard it is to just love ourselves. For me, being so skinny is like a curse and no matter what I just can’t gain weight. Two years ago it was really hard for me but then I got better at accepting myself until two weeks ago when people from my class made a list of nicknames. Mine were only about my body. The worst one was skeleton. But now, seeing the beautiful woman you became, always trying to be the best version of yourself or trying to accept yourself more and more really make me realize that there is a way out of this. Thank you for being you, we all a so grateful for you :)
Thank you for sharing your experience with an E.D. Ocean, I know it must have been really hard to live with. I’m sorry you dealt with that. You are so strong and have come so far. I hope you know how proud of you we all are and how much we love and support you. You are beautiful and so kind and loving. You do so much for everyone and I hope you understand just how much it means to us ❤️ I also want to point out that I and many others understand how hard it is feeling lonely. With the pandemic and online school it can be really hard on us as young adults and young people in general cause at the start we weren’t allowed to go see our friends so everything had to be virtual which took a huge toll on our mental health. I couldn’t hangout with my boyfriend for a few months until we could sit on my front porch in the summer, so I enjoyed working with him a lot (we were both essential workers cause we work in the same retirement community rn) cause it meant I got to spend time with him. This fall he moved to college and I missed him like crazy cause I didn’t have many friends left in Barrie that aren’t busy all the time with work, and I’m busy with my schoolwork and my part time job too so it made it hard to make plans with people. He came home a lot on the weekend so we got to hangout which really boosted my mental health again. Moral of the story I understand how hard it is to feel lonely, hopefully come the holiday break you’ll be able to reconnect with some people ☺️we’re all here for you Ocean, we love you ❤️ Another edit, this is totally off topic but I want to say you’ve inspired me to start looking for more eco-friendly stuff, like bamboo toothbrushes or even phone cases. I also saw Cala detangler hair brushes at homesense the other day and really liked it, and I’ve been buying a lot of products from Quo because I remember you saying they’re a vegan company (I think) like cotton pads for makeup removal and my favourite hairbrush is made by Quo. So I just wanted to say you’ve made a great impact on my shopping and lifestyle
Hey Oceans, I am so happy you're doing better now, and I am sending much love your way. Honestly, you've made me feel better so many times I can't even count, thank you for sharing your light ❤️❤️
I love your videos ocean. I am so sorry to hear about your eating disorder and I am happy to hear that you are better. Your videos help me sleep ❤️. Thanks a lot for doing so much to assist us.
i’m so glad to hear you’ve recovered from your ed. ive been trying to recover from anorexia since august , and it’s getting bad again. no matter how much people try to help it doesn’t do anything. i’ve been trying my best but the only person who knows it’s getting bad again is my girlfriend. i feel like my ED isn’t valid anymore bc i’m not extremely thin anymore and the scale doesn’t show that i’m anorexic .
girl you have my whole heart and I would shower you with all my love if that’s something you’re into lol anyway keep going because you’re doing amazing ❤️
I really feel sad to hear about your eating disorder. Please dont worry about the role plays and stress yourself. We all are here. Please do whatever you can do easily. Enjoy your holidays and good luck for your exams.
First, I think you are absolutely amazing! You seem very grounded, extremely intelligent,as well as wise, like an old soul. You're GORGEOUS and have such great heartfelt values, with such authenticity. I just want u to know, in my humble opinion, that gradual, steady growth is better than overnight success. You're doing so well, don't underestimate your success. Im pretty sure ur a pisces like me, I know im a lot older than you, but if I had a daughter, I would be so proud if she was anything like you. 💕💖💞
This was so wonderful , thank you for making this Q&A for us. You are such a beautiful person inside and out 💖 And the time and effort you put into each and everyone one of your videos is greatly appreciated! 👏💖
Ocean, please don't burn yourself out. We love your videos, but you must take care of yourself. Like, Idk how you will make videos + study for all your classes enough to get top end grades. Good luck with all you are doing and take care of yourself!!!
sports coaches and dance teachers need to be educated in EDs 💔 it’s really said that they didn’t create a safer environment for you (also I was a dance teacher for years, the idea that someone could be “too big “ to do a walkover is dumb honestly, I’ve seen plenty of large people do incredible acro tricks)
All I see when I watch your videos is a lovely, beautiful, kind, considerate, emphatic, creative, hard-working, perfectly styled woman with a soothing voice and a body which makes me a bit jealous. 😅 To hear how you thought of yourself and how you were treated by this "teacher", when you were younger is really horrific and incomprehensible. I'm very happy, that you won this battle and are now thriving! ❤ Oh and for you, and everyone dealing with loneliness, I recommend the book "Letters to a young poet" by Rilke. It will not only offer you a new perspective on this feeling but also keep your company in long nights. Best wishes from Germany! Natascha
i've taken acro and "not being able to help you" is literally bs, they're just a bad teacher, you don't have to be super tiny to be helped that's just an unexperienced bad teacher and i'm so sorry that they did that, it must've really affected you :( we love you so so much !
I’m so sorry you had to go through the Ed :(( but I’m glad you are better now and let me just say you are so gorgeous and amazing and thank you so much for sharing 💕💕
I'm extremely sorry to hear about your eating disorder I had no clue you had one untill now! I myself also suffer from an eating disorder but I have no clue what's it's called, so if your interested, basically what happens is for weeks I'll eat loads of food like I won't eat my 3 meals a day but instead I'll eat loads of snacks like binge eating like you did but I don't make myself throw up, but other weeks I'll eat nothing for weeks and weeks. So one day when I was around 10 my dad had told me that I have an eating disorder, he never told me like the full name of it and he wouldn't tell me more he still doesn't he also said that I'm different from everyone else but he'd remind me im different almost every day and at 10 I didn't understand why I was different I just knew I was and people would pick on me about my weight, some people would say was really fat others would make rumors that I'm anerexic (I'm not sure if I spelt that right because I'm dislexic sorry) because I didn't eat at school at all. And around a year layer of a lot of that happening I just had a mental break down I started screaming, crying and that's when a lot of panick attacks formed and anxiety. So I can relate on some ways but I am getting better I'm sticking to a more balanced diet and exercising more and I feel more accepted for who I am xx
i do think this may fall under the binge-eating category, because the idea of a binge eating disorder is that you binge, and then either don’t eat or throw it up. i hope you can get help eventually
One time I was at the grocery store and I went to the restroom and I was in a stall and all of a sudden I heard someone gagging and puking, I was maybe 12, 13 years old (?) (when I was younger I had a really unhealthy relationship with food and I’d shove it down the sink drain or throw away school lunch) I had recovered from my old habits by this time and I’d done research about ED’s out of curiosity and my first thought was that this person was.. y’know.. I thought about this all day after it happened and I really hoped they were ok :(
Hi Ocean thank you for sharing your story. I suffered from Bulimia which then turned into Anorexia because I eventually learned certain food triggered my gag reflex more than others so I wouldn’t eat those foods but then I start being scared to eat those foods and I’m still recovering but I’m trying
Detectives and Law Enforcement always use a,private number.. Over here in Ireland 🇮🇪 they can call at any time.. They probably wanted to make sure you were at home and not at work or in college.. Nothing to worry about..
I’m so sorry you had to go through a eating disorder :(( im glad that you can eat comfortably now and us sea shells are so proud of you!!
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I’m proud of you Ocean for overcoming your eating disorder.
For anyone struggling with an ED, especially bulimia, that keeps saying they can “stop whenever” or “will stop tomorrow” please know that the effect this has on not only your mental health but your physical health is not worth it. My teeth will never be healthy again. I have a stomach ulcer that causes me constant pain, even when drinking just water. The disordered thoughts are there almost constantly. I have a fear of being sick because something as minor as the flu or food poisoning will send me spiralling into old habits. My teeth are brittle and yellowed, I’ve broken a tooth on a kettle cooked chip because they’re so weak they feel like they’re made of ceramics sometimes. Not to mention how sensitive they are given all my enamel eroding away over the years. I get strep throat and viral infections extremely easily because of the damage I’ve done to my body which has caused lifelong damage to my immune system. As hard as it can be to imagine yourself as someone without your ED, you have a future in recovery. It can be hard to see yourself as anything besides your disorder but you’re so much more than what your ED has made you out to be. You are worthy of recovery. You’re worthy of happiness and you’re worthy of living a life where you don’t have to listen to your ED at the back of your mind at every moment ❤️
you are so strong and so beautiful the way you are. and i’m proud of you for sharing so everyone wouldn’t feel alone. I personally don’t struggle with bulimia, but, I do struggle with Anorexia and binge eating. we’ve got this🤎
Thankyou so much for sharing you’re so strong! I went to the dentist for the first time since my Ed started and I had 17 cavities and it was a huge wake up call for me when it came to seeing the effects the Ed had on not just my mental but my physical health. It helps a lot knowing I’m not alone ❤️
Girls (and boys) between 12-16. I, as an adult, just want to say how sorry I am that the difficulties of life has trickled down to you at such a young age. So much more of you is expected at your ages now than was expected from me. Please be kind to yourselves. Try not to compare yourselves to anyone else. You are unique as a snowflake, one of a kind.
This lowkey made me tear up
aww! that’s the first adult i’ve heard who said that we have it harder than others (mentally, i def believe we have it harder) bc many older generations alw dismiss troubles of teens nowadays, saying how they had it harder so our experiences and feelings don’t matter. tysm for your kind words❤️
i’m so so sorry to hear that you are feeling lonely. loneliness is a very raw emotion and it can be very difficult to deal with. i know you are so busy with uni and starting your clothing line and it probably feels much easier to live at home, especially while classes are still online. but if you’re able to go back to kingston for fall semester then i think that could really help. and if you’re not able to film and upload as much because of it then i think that all of your little seashells will understand that you need to have a social life as well. we all just want to see you happy and it breaks my heart to hear that you feel like your uni friends are branching out and moving on. you don’t have much time left in uni and you should soak it up while you can. but i completely understand if you feel like you can’t be in kingston right now with all that you have on your plate. i hope you have a great weekend ocean!
What a lovely comment, I second this!
@@helenabillie1143 Me too!
my dad just passed away unexpectedly and it’s been a really sad holiday season for me so far. thank you for uploading these videos even when you’re not feeling 100%, it really means a lot. 💕
So sorry for your loss , sending healing hugs your way
So sorry I cant even imagine how hard it is my condolences
That’s so sad sry for your loss and remember that your holiday will get better even if it takes a long time as you heal your family will get better❤️
Sending you lots of hugs💕💗
Sending love
I'm truly sorry for you loss. just know that he actually didn't pass away as long as you keep him in your heart and think about him ❤️❤️stay strong during this difficult time❤️❤️ I don't know you but I wish you the best in life
i‘m so sorry to hear about you struggling with an eating disorder at so young of an age! noone should go through something like that..you were only a kid :( i‘m glad you’re doing better now
Just got back into recovery literally today, thought I left my ED in high school but here I am in college still crying over toast. Thank you for making me feel less alone in this, I really needed this today.
i’m currently struggling with anorexia / bulimia and it’s hell on earth but i find your videos help with the guilt (especially ur eat with me ones) and i can’t explain how much i love your asmr ❤️ thank you so much for doing what you do ily
stay strong love - we are rooting for your recovery
I’m so sorry that you had to go trough a ed I know how hard it must have been since I’m still struggling with my ed too but I’m so happy that you’re doing better now 💕I also really like you’re eat with me videos because even tough it’s hard for me to eat it helps me so thank you Ocean :)
im glad they are helping you - you can do this xx
Oh it’s so good to hear I’m not alone in that specific feeling in terms of subscriber growth, always appreciate when you share in that way 😊❤️
Thank you for speaking out about ur experience with ED. You are so strong and so inspiring in so many ways ♥️🥺🙏
I love your channel ocean! Your asmr is super relaxing and you’re just so down to earth and real it’s just nice to see that!
I love how ocean never forces anyone to subscribe to her channel. Lot of other RUclipsrs always ask people to subscribe at the start and end of the video but ocean is not like that! She is kind, smart, caring and beautiful!
I don't normally comment on videos but as someone who has recently been diagnosed with anorexia, hearing you tell your story with ED was so comforting. It's crazy because we're the same age and I've been watching your videos since high school and your ASMR has helped me with so much, and so I'm honored that you are sharing your experience with us. Please continue doing your let's eat together videos I watch them all the time! You're the best Ocean
i hope you’re recovery goes well 💓
Im suffering with a really bad relapse with my Anorexia. I'm so glad to here that you recovered from yours ❤️❤️❤️
hope you’ll be recovering soon ! ❤️
@@alixspl Thank you so much❤️
Girl you are going to be the best mom! I love the fact you would respect your children by not using them views✨ I get so sad when kids are just being used for money
So very proud of you Ocean💕 I know how hard eating disorders can be. Hope you and your family are doing well and staying safe. Thanks for all you do ocean, it’s greatly appreciated by all your seashells🥰 xoxo
im so sorry ocean
Hey ocean I’ve been watching you for a while now! I can relate waaay too well to your stories, I can’t even imagine someone prettier skinnier more popular or better than you you’re perfect to me ! Crazy the way the mind works !!!
I can definitely relate to you ocean growing up I did ballet up until I was 13 and it was extremely toxic. Although dancing was my passion and a huge part of my life more and more I realized that I was having a eating disorder I was extremely insecure because the ballet world creates this image that in order to dance, or be good, or be professional that you have to have the perfect ballet body. I started noticing my friends go on strict diets to avoid getting fat even when they were more skinny than me. It made me more insecure when I had a stronger and curvier body because they all were so prim and skinny. I started not eating and my parents quickly picked up on it. When they asked if I was ok I would just say that I already ate earlier even if I didn’t. One year later from quitting dance which is now I am still recovering and realizing that it’s important to feed my body because it does so much for me and that nutrition is so important. I haven’t talked to anyone about this not even my parents but honestly this feels good to get it out even if no one sees I’m continuing to recover and doing everything in my power to make sure to eat and drink water to nourish my body so that it can be healthy. Thank you so much ocean for opening up about a touchy topic it’s really encouraged me! ♥️ I hope this encourages anyone who is struggling! My heart goes out to everyone not only reading this but who are struggling! Just know you will get through this!
Thank you for sharing your story! ❤️
@@stevenbarz7449 ofc!
you are so strong! keep going love ❤️
@@Anley210 🥺❤️ thank you so much!
i really wish the dance industry wasn’t so toxic bc i really miss actually dancing but it got ruined for me
Most genuine asmrtist 💜💚💙
Thanks for sharing your story with us
*the ED story is so interesting.* & crazy, obvi. but so interesting. we all can imagine something similar, especially at that age - where your world is everything. it takes mid 20s at least to have enough years behind you that you can properly imagine a future. gr8 vid. -JC
I love watching your RUclips vids, I've watched you for 2 years now and you are by far my favorite asmr artist 😍😍😍
I’m so sorry for what you have had to go through!! ❤️ I hope you are doing well now!
So excited for the holiday roleplays 🥰 good luck on your finals. Also as a new mom I hope you do have a mommy youtube someday!
I completely understand everything you are talking about being away from your friends. I have been having the same issue and it is very difficult. I hope you will be able to sort it out and hope all your exams go well 💕
Ocean girrrllll you are looking stunning as usual AND I love the Christmas background! So cozy
I just hope the best for this community, have a great sleep everybody :))
you look like the girl from looking for alaska in this video also i’m sorry about your eating disorder i know there horrible. i always watch your videos to help with anxiety and to help sleep. you seem like such a lovely person and so grateful for everything you have like your platform and subscribers.
thank you for making these videos ocean, im in the 8th grade and im starting to get these kinds of thoughts related to eating, your whole channel has helped me so much. i love you!
I signed up for the call and then we had a family emergency and couldn’t make it! Was very sad :( glad you shared the rest of the story here too and I’m so sorry to hear you went through all of this
what call is everyone talking about?
I had the same dance story as you! Not the eating disorder but still! I am understand bc I felt like that too, but I am so happy that you are feeling better right now!
It's so sad that people get an eating disorder... people like you, people that don't realise they are pretty and worthy of self love. I thankfully haven't struggled with it but I know how it is to feel self conscious about my weight and body. I am trying to love myself more, though! It's hard but worth it!
Is this you on your profile picture? If so you look really sweet and pretty
Eating disorders are more about control than “realizing they’re pretty”
@@Anley210 Yup, that's me! Thanks for the compliment!
I watch and enjoy your You Tube videos Ocean and best of luck continuing that and with your clothing line.
You're so amazing, Ocean!
Omg I feel so bad, I hope everything goes better for you in life ocean you are going threw so much, but you are putting that aside and making everyone else happy 😃, I hope life turns around for you ocean, thank you for making my life easier 🥺
i can definitely relate to your ed story. my best friend was always skinny and when all my friends were getting attention from guys, i got ignored
perfect timing! was looking for a video to watch to help me relax at work. love you 💕
What an awesome video! I could listen to you for hours! You are one amazing young lady, Ocean! Love you ❤❤
It’s hard to realize that no matter what you look like there is always something or someone to bring you down and it’s hurtful to see how hard it is to just love ourselves. For me, being so skinny is like a curse and no matter what I just can’t gain weight. Two years ago it was really hard for me but then I got better at accepting myself until two weeks ago when people from my class made a list of nicknames. Mine were only about my body. The worst one was skeleton. But now, seeing the beautiful woman you became, always trying to be the best version of yourself or trying to accept yourself more and more really make me realize that there is a way out of this. Thank you for being you, we all a so grateful for you :)
Thank you for sharing your experience with an E.D. Ocean, I know it must have been really hard to live with. I’m sorry you dealt with that. You are so strong and have come so far. I hope you know how proud of you we all are and how much we love and support you. You are beautiful and so kind and loving. You do so much for everyone and I hope you understand just how much it means to us ❤️
I also want to point out that I and many others understand how hard it is feeling lonely. With the pandemic and online school it can be really hard on us as young adults and young people in general cause at the start we weren’t allowed to go see our friends so everything had to be virtual which took a huge toll on our mental health. I couldn’t hangout with my boyfriend for a few months until we could sit on my front porch in the summer, so I enjoyed working with him a lot (we were both essential workers cause we work in the same retirement community rn) cause it meant I got to spend time with him.
This fall he moved to college and I missed him like crazy cause I didn’t have many friends left in Barrie that aren’t busy all the time with work, and I’m busy with my schoolwork and my part time job too so it made it hard to make plans with people. He came home a lot on the weekend so we got to hangout which really boosted my mental health again.
Moral of the story I understand how hard it is to feel lonely, hopefully come the holiday break you’ll be able to reconnect with some people ☺️we’re all here for you Ocean, we love you ❤️
Another edit, this is totally off topic but I want to say you’ve inspired me to start looking for more eco-friendly stuff, like bamboo toothbrushes or even phone cases. I also saw Cala detangler hair brushes at homesense the other day and really liked it, and I’ve been buying a lot of products from Quo because I remember you saying they’re a vegan company (I think) like cotton pads for makeup removal and my favourite hairbrush is made by Quo.
So I just wanted to say you’ve made a great impact on my shopping and lifestyle
Hey Oceans, I am so happy you're doing better now, and I am sending much love your way. Honestly, you've made me feel better so many times I can't even count, thank you for sharing your light ❤️❤️
could you do an asmr for people feeling guilty after eating? with affirmations and reassurance, it would mean the world.
Thank you for being real and to provide a safe space for a lot of people. Ly💜
I love your videos ocean. I am so sorry to hear about your eating disorder and I am happy to hear that you are better. Your videos help me sleep ❤️. Thanks a lot for doing so much to assist us.
As another relaxation channel, I can say that this channel is amazing, deep relaxation is guaranteed 💖
ur trying too hard...
You deserve all the love, subscribers, growth, success and happiness that the world has to offer. Such a sincere soul 🤍
I lost a friend to an earring disorder and mental health.. please take care of yourself Ocean you’re so loved ❤️
i’m so glad to hear you’ve recovered from your ed. ive been trying to recover from anorexia since august , and it’s getting bad again. no matter how much people try to help it doesn’t do anything. i’ve been trying my best but the only person who knows it’s getting bad again is my girlfriend. i feel like my ED isn’t valid anymore bc i’m not extremely thin anymore and the scale doesn’t show that i’m anorexic .
You are so loved Oceanna!!
I don't have a lot of friends either. I graduated college back in May and I have found that I have one or two friends, so I somewhat know how you feel
girl you have my whole heart and I would shower you with all my love if that’s something you’re into lol anyway keep going because you’re doing amazing ❤️
I really feel sad to hear about your eating disorder. Please dont worry about the role plays and stress yourself. We all are here. Please do whatever you can do easily. Enjoy your holidays and good luck for your exams.
Bestie I’m so sorry to hear about ur eating disorder, I love u!! I’m glad ur better now, I’m so proud of you!
Just try your best in your classes Ocean and that’s all anyone can ask of you.
First, I think you are absolutely amazing! You seem very grounded, extremely intelligent,as well as wise, like an old soul. You're GORGEOUS and have such great heartfelt values, with such authenticity. I just want u to know, in my humble opinion, that gradual, steady growth is better than overnight success. You're doing so well, don't underestimate your success. Im pretty sure ur a pisces like me, I know im a lot older than you, but if I had a daughter, I would be so proud if she was anything like you. 💕💖💞
This was so wonderful , thank you for making this Q&A for us. You are such a beautiful person inside and out 💖 And the time and effort you put into each and everyone one of your videos is greatly appreciated! 👏💖
Ocean, please don't burn yourself out. We love your videos, but you must take care of yourself.
Like, Idk how you will make videos + study for all your classes enough to get top end grades. Good luck with all you are doing and take care of yourself!!!
Hi ocean hope you are doing well & the seashalls I can tell the video will be epic
sports coaches and dance teachers need to be educated in EDs 💔 it’s really said that they didn’t create a safer environment for you
(also I was a dance teacher for years, the idea that someone could be “too big “ to do a walkover is dumb honestly, I’ve seen plenty of large people do incredible acro tricks)
All I see when I watch your videos is a lovely, beautiful, kind, considerate, emphatic, creative, hard-working, perfectly styled woman with a soothing voice and a body which makes me a bit jealous. 😅
To hear how you thought of yourself and how you were treated by this "teacher", when you were younger is really horrific and incomprehensible.
I'm very happy, that you won this battle and are now thriving! ❤
Oh and for you, and everyone dealing with loneliness, I recommend the book "Letters to a young poet" by Rilke. It will not only offer you a new perspective on this feeling but also keep your company in long nights.
Best wishes from Germany!
Natascha
And it's amazing to hear your reasons for being vegan! ❤🌱 Just proves again what a wonderful person you are!
@@sapiens2299 she is a wonderful person yes! but her being vegan has nothing to do with her being wonderful
i've taken acro and "not being able to help you" is literally bs, they're just a bad teacher, you don't have to be super tiny to be helped that's just an unexperienced bad teacher and i'm so sorry that they did that, it must've really affected you :( we love you so so much !
Thank you so much for including my question! You’re the best
Hi ocean! Great video! Happy Friday and happy holidays
as a gymnast, a walkover is quite literally the easiest thing to spot regardless of size and im officially declaring your dance coach ✨cancelled✨
I’m so sorry ocean :(
I’m so sorry you had to go through the Ed :(( but I’m glad you are better now and let me just say you are so gorgeous and amazing and thank you so much for sharing 💕💕
I love your eye makeup, it is so so pretty. It’s almost holiday break, we can do this❤️❤️
I don’t really have any regrets Ocean.
Obsessed with your earrings!! Where did you get them💕💕💕
You have some pretty good goals. Hope you can keep your channel going as long as you want to.
I'm extremely sorry to hear about your eating disorder I had no clue you had one untill now! I myself also suffer from an eating disorder but I have no clue what's it's called, so if your interested, basically what happens is for weeks I'll eat loads of food like I won't eat my 3 meals a day but instead I'll eat loads of snacks like binge eating like you did but I don't make myself throw up, but other weeks I'll eat nothing for weeks and weeks. So one day when I was around 10 my dad had told me that I have an eating disorder, he never told me like the full name of it and he wouldn't tell me more he still doesn't he also said that I'm different from everyone else but he'd remind me im different almost every day and at 10 I didn't understand why I was different I just knew I was and people would pick on me about my weight, some people would say was really fat others would make rumors that I'm anerexic (I'm not sure if I spelt that right because I'm dislexic sorry) because I didn't eat at school at all. And around a year layer of a lot of that happening I just had a mental break down I started screaming, crying and that's when a lot of panick attacks formed and anxiety. So I can relate on some ways but I am getting better I'm sticking to a more balanced diet and exercising more and I feel more accepted for who I am xx
i do think this may fall under the binge-eating category, because the idea of a binge eating disorder is that you binge, and then either don’t eat or throw it up.
i hope you can get help eventually
This was an amazing post
11:33 to skip ED topic
7:49 Aweh babe I’m so sorry how you feel. This sucks.
Perfect makeup and hairstyle ❤️👏❤️👏❤️
Your a beautiful person and you have a beautiful soul 😊
I am going through a really hard time and your videos are really helpful
love your q&as ❤
Don’t bite off more than you can chew Ocean and don’t spread yourself to thin.
Beautiful as always ❤️❤️❤️
Omg I remember those Xmas decor from last year..😂✨💞
Btw love your videos!!
I relate to you about not making friends! I just transferred to a new college and I only go to campus one day a week so I barely have any friends.
i hope ur ok now and healthy
Hey Ocean! I’ve been scammed, your not alone love. And thanks for the Q&A beautiful x
The people who’s channels grow are the kind of people whose goal is just to get views. Your goal is to help people!!
if u have a cactus prickle thingy in ur hand or finger take it out with tweezers. it helps
I'm finally early!!! Hi ocean!!!!
One time I was at the grocery store and I went to the restroom and I was in a stall and all of a sudden I heard someone gagging and puking, I was maybe 12, 13 years old (?) (when I was younger I had a really unhealthy relationship with food and I’d shove it down the sink drain or throw away school lunch) I had recovered from my old habits by this time and I’d done research about ED’s out of curiosity and my first thought was that this person was.. y’know..
I thought about this all day after it happened and I really hoped they were ok :(
Such a great video❤️ where did you purchase your earrings? They are so cute!
awe i loved the interactive videos :(
Ugh girl ilyyy
Hi Ocean thank you for sharing your story. I suffered from Bulimia which then turned into Anorexia because I eventually learned certain food triggered my gag reflex more than others so I wouldn’t eat those foods but then I start being scared to eat those foods and I’m still recovering but I’m trying
I’m struggling with loneliness too Ocean. But at least we can be lonely together 💜
I did a report on Bulimia in middle school for my Home Economics class Ocean.
for the police calling on an unknown number; it's so nobody has the number they're trying to reach you from. it's protocol
ya i understand it just sketched me out
Perfect video!!!! 🙌😴❤️✨
My mother suffered from an eating disorder in school Anorexia Nervosa and she ate nothing but cottage cheese and jello Ocean.
Detectives and Law Enforcement always use a,private number.. Over here in Ireland 🇮🇪 they can call at any time.. They probably wanted to make sure you were at home and not at work or in college.. Nothing to worry about..
I struggled with Acne Ocean.