god, this is so beautiful. as for the theming of the album, i share this sentiment regarding autism (as someone who also has it), and the way people who have it having been mistreated by so many; it feels like those who have autism just get picked out and shunned by the many, and my personal experiences with this sort of thing resonates with me on a personal level with the way your emotion is portrayed here - its actually incredible with what music can do. (a little note i just picked out: if you listen closely in the later parts of the song, you can hear the chords and piano melody from STILL HERE, which is such a cool touch.)
Tbh as a person who has autism, I have to agree with you. As much as people go on about embracing differences, no one ever really realizes that people aren't really that different physically, most of the differences come in the form of ideas and beliefs, and because of how it feels like no one wants to accept the fact that it is possible to be partially right or partially wrong, it makes it so autistic people tend to be treated as outcasts. Autistic people tend to be some of the smartest (or at least most willing to learn) people on earth, and because of that they tend to have ideas that have similarities to both sides, but some originality thrown in there as well.
So, interesting fact: There's a version of this on Bandcamp that is slightly different around the end part, where instead of a resolve to keep going, there was this sort of... Indecision. Uncertainty. He was considering whether or not this music biz was worth staying around in. What's interesting is that it was released in April of 2022, while this was in November of 2022... This suggests to me that while that version was an early look at his thoughts, this is a more recent delve into his mind, where he now has resolve to keep going, and keep making music. Keep doing what you do best, Doku. We're with you 100% of the way. UPDATE: I'm a dumb. I didn't even see the '(reprise)' in the title. Woops.
Those people's opinions don't matter anyway, lol. They're just missing out on some more beautifully crafted music - coming straight from Dokuro's heart.
I'm autistic too. Despite the many mistakes and moments I spent oblivious to the world around me in my life, I was accepted. I can't imagine the hell that occurs when that's not the case. I really hope you manage to figure out who you are. It's a long process, but it's why we keep walking. And i'm glad to have recieved that advice from you before falling down my own identity crisis. Thank you.
As an autistic person myself, I have never seen anyone put my feelings into words better than Dokuro has. I don’t know how he does it, but he makes music that’s relatable and heartfelt to a degree that few others these days do. My respect for him is immeasurable
@@kingcyrusrodan6772 I can usually write meaningful lyrics that imply my feelings if I'm ever down. But it's insane how well dokuro can tie in the lyrics he does into the music he makes. There's just so much passion put into it. And it's just a powerful feeling every time.
@@MrJFL I couldn’t agree more, and also the instruments / sounds he uses are always so well suited to the lyrics they go with, it’s honestly astonishing. Something else I kind of want to talk about since it’s on my mind right now is something I refer to as “the curse of the artist”. Since I was around 5 years old, my mom has put me in piano lessons and tried her best to get me to be as good as I possibly can at playing this instrument. From an unbiased perspective, while I’m not Mozart or some shit, I’m fairly decent at it, and I’m even at the point where I can give honest attempts to cover a few songs on piano. I’ve even managed to get a decent scholarship for college because of it. And yet I fucking hate it. I never feel like I’m good enough, my classical curriculum never sounds really, genuinely good to me, and whenever I sit down and try to actually work, I always end up either staring off into space the entire time or just robotically scrolling through my phone. Deep down inside me, I know I genuinely love music almost more than anything else, and yet, whenever I try to create / perform it myself, it always turns sour. While I have no idea if Dokuro feels this way himself, the self doubt and struggles within his music have always resonated with me, especially on this subject. His compositions are always top tier and incredibly well made, and yet the darkness within almost always shows through in haunting detail. I suppose it’s just something I have to deal with on my own, and try to untangle. Sorry for trauma dumping in your replies, btw, I’ve just had a pretty bad day and I felt like dropping off my feelings somewhere.
@@kingcyrusrodan6772 I feel the same way about editing, believe me I get it. Also have been talking to a lot of friends who are struggling with depression, anxiety, dysphoria, etc and it's telling how similar we all really are mentally sometimes. Everyone struggles. But we all manage eventually. I believe you'll manage with your music. Honestly I'm curious to see if/what you've made so i'll go digging a little bit. And yeah DW about bothering with feeling dumps. It's natural to let off a little steam.
This song is so haunting. In the end, the last line is unspoken, but I can hear it in my head. "There's no turning back...." "From the existential dread..."
This is genius. Begins with "I've reached the point of living where my music turns to noise", and then midway through the song the lyrics are drowned out by noisy instrumentals, relating to the very beginning and giving the impression the person is trying to drown their thoughts out with music. So incredibly relatable. Absolutely love your recent tracks, mister
Every song you make has a meaning and message,so beautiful yet so dark. But no matter what there's always people who will listen to your messages. They'll always be appreciated by the readers.
Here's a run-down of the song: 9.24.21 - two weeks and one day after posting "9" and "Still Here". 12.31.21 - new year's eve 2021 02.22.22 - Can't pin this to anything from DM DOKURO (as they were taking a break), but repeating 2s are usually connected with harmony, togetherness, etc. (opposite of what the lyrics are for this date) 4.20.22 - 8 days before Glass Structures jVol.1 uploaded, right before DOKURO 'ended' their break 09.05.22 DM DOKURO comes back to youtube. 'complete' end of their break I'm not even going to try to fully tackle these dates (someone probably better than me at theory crafting can), but I'm guessing it has to do with DM DOKURO's battle with what they're going through right now in *timeline format*, kind of like another song (ahem ahem Still Here) I'm glad to see you recovering. Song quite literally takes my breath away, some of the lyrics hit so hard that it stops me from taking in air. Stay happy Dokuro, and take as much time as you like between making songs. We're here for you.
Excerpt from his Tumblr: “9.24.21 - the day i went somewhere and came back horribly different. (i really don’t want to talk about this particular day) 12.31.21 - masking in social situations grew worse and worse. 2.22.22 - autistic burnout set in, and it began to physically show. 4.20.22 - the day “the momentary highs, the unfathomable lows” was created and subsequently posted; a fork in the road on whether or not to continue my work or “seek greener pastures”, despite there being nothing there when i seek them.” (this was on Bandcamp) “9.05.22 “the day i vowed to see the album “they know who they are” to its completion, thanks to the harsh words of ignorant family members pushing and enforcing their beliefs while oblivious to their vile nature, having exposed a wicked anomaly about my childhood that i noticed all too late- i had been masking for nearly my entire life- to friends, and family, and even outside of that- and was essentially trying to stay normal just to survive the world’s bullshit for the sake of family, friends, and paraprofessionals who had an equally warped view of the world around them. i was never exactly taught about coping with autism- no stimming, no limits, none of that. just how to be normal when you’re not normal at all. there is much i have to learn about myself and where others had failed to teach me. it’ll be the scariwst and hardest thing i do. but that’s what happens with something that was fooled into believing it was “normal”. *and the fact that this might still be happening to others this very day fucking sickens me.*” (edited to fix a punctuation error with my typing.)
I've listened to your songs for ages, I never expected a song to hit so closely to my heart - my god. I've been harassed for having autism for years and this really just woke me up and motivated me to try and deal with the problems it has brought me to this point. You probably won't see this or anything - but this song, thank you for making this absolutely beautiful song, just like all the others you've made. I barely comment, but this song has made me do so.
I'm in a weird case where, despite being raised in an environment that was accepting of my autism, I ended up developing projective self hatred towards autism due to frequent exposure to anti-autistic propaganda. It's something I've moved past, but I still shudder looking back on that phase of my life.
I’ve noticed that there were dates on the bottom left side of the screen. Dating from September of 2021 to September of this year (2022). We’re these messages put into written song form? I love the concept of it, and there’s even a beat to it as well as excepted from Dokuro being an experienced musician. Can’t wait to hear what the rest of it has to say whenever that comes out, but do take your time, it seems that is the point of this song as well. (Edited: But I couldn’t ignore this while hearing through these last few songs, and I hope you soon heal, and use these songs as a way to describe how you feel.) ❤
It's interesting that one of the dates is 20th of April - the birthday of Adolf Hitler. At this moment of the song the visuals and the sound a very distorted. Could this imply something?
yo. sorry I didn't comment sooner but look at my comment on this video. I've documented the dates and someone found an excerpt from DM DOKURO's tumblr that also explains a lot in the comment's mini comment section
I loved the feel of the original on your bandcamp, but THIS!! As an enthusiast in breakcore as well as your work for a while now, this is an amazing reprise of that single, and it definitely give a whole new meaning to the song. Good luck on your journey.... wherever the hell it leads.
in case you missed it during the song, she says "I've reached the point of living, where my music turns to noise" and by the end of the song, a lot of noise starts to take up what music you're able to hear. Honestly such a brilliant detail. A song telling a story within the confinements of itself. DM is a genius.
The way the song sets you up to expect the last words to be "There's no turning back From the existential dread" But then only says "There's no turning back" Gave me chills
I love this album, still here was a masterpiece of music, and this is also amazing. Both are masterfully crafted way to express your emotions. The emotion is crazy, I love how you have some elements of “still here” in the background, perhaps to reference that these are defined part of the same album. Keep it up, I can’t wait to hear the next masterpiece in art you decide to add next to this emotional rollercoaster of an album.
I think the reason I love these tracks so much more than any other song you've ever made is because of the raw emotion. A lot of songs nowadays do still have meaning and feeling into them, but these songs are emotion in such a harsh and pure form its overwhelming and soothing at the same time. 30/10. Absolutely mesmerizing.
I'm going back and catching up on your work on They Know Who They Are so I can give my full attention to the music. This shit is POWERFUL. Your mastery of chord progression and rhythm remains, and the combination of violent noise with pensive vocal harmony is SO good. The fact that the final verse never lyrically or melodically resolves is just 💋👌 BEAUTIFUL. Thematically brilliant. There's no turning back, because this is not the end.
The message you're sending out with this song is inspiring, Dokuro. Beautiful work as always. That out of the way, I have a Funny Story about when I first heard this. I set off on a 12 hour car ride back home from vacation at midnight last night, and seeing this I thought "cool, another banger to play on loop while I look out the window for the whole ride". It was trippy, I couldn't hear the backbeat or the vocals correctly, and I was like, "oh, it's intentionally glitchy and weird, that Makes Sense" because it's your music. I listened to it for at least 40 minutes like that. My headphones were plugged in wrong. When I realized this and they were fixed, I listened and within 10 seconds I audibly went "bruh" because this song is so amazing. (Good thing my mom wasn't in the car at the time.) It proceeded to be awesome for the rest of the ride home. Just thought I'd share.
this is hauntingly beautiful. you're completely right and while it may feel impossible at a large scale to start these conversations - it can start them in smaller environments. thank you for sharing once again, and happy to see you going easier on yourself for things that were never your fault to begin with. i can't even imagine what the dates mean to you, and i don't need to - they're yours and whatever significance they might hold to me is irrelevant. regardless, it's been a hell of a year, here's to another and many more after.
HOLY SHIT HOW HAVE I NOT HEARD THIS YET. all of your work is so fucking inspiring dude. the composition. the mixing. this concept you're tackling with the lyrics, here. this is good shit you've got here
Oh boy, its been so long i actually haven't heard one of your works, i've been so busy, now that i have enough time i've taken a listen to this recently released song and many other ones The music is so good yet has a melancholic vibe to it, but despite that, one still needs to move forward and take as many steps as possibly we could We may face new conflicts or recurrent ones, and everytime we do, we get used to it, we might resolve them but many others ones will pop out because of the others around us or ourselves And we might get existential dread from it, questions like "Whats the point of.." "How meaningful i'm really am" "What do i do" or "It is worth the try?" Such things might leave us struck into being less capable of doing stuff because of such thoughts But one can still move forward, choose not to give up, and face the pains of what is to live Life is cruel yet there is still plenty of stuff we enjoy from it, it might be more unfortunate for some people and others not But you can always try your best, even if the way can get way too thorny and painful, we can surpass it, rest, and move on Getting out of cycles and entering new ones and much more This is of course, my interpretation, and my english ain't the best one so i might misunderstand some stuff But anyways, i really love your works and music, you're amazing, be safe and always try your best everyone and dokuro, we might always face dread but we can always try to enjoy life while we still can and make our surroudings a better place for everyone and ourselves no matter if that person has this or that and many other examples
Whenever this album is ready you can be sure I will get it. Even now I'm having this song and the previous one on a constant loop. I'm glad you're still here.
I truly loved this one. This chaotic rhythm in harmony with the vocals is just magical. Really glad I found about your work! Also, from someone who has suspicions of having autism myself, I feel you. You're not alone
WHAT IS THE BEEP AT 2:05? IT SYNCS WITH THE TIME TRANSITION FROM 2/22/22 TO 4/20/22, BUT WHY IS IT THERE. WHAT DOES IT MEAN? I'M GOING INSANE TRYING TO FIGURE THIS OUT.
"you're not always to blame" sent shivers down my spine... Every autistic person needs to hear this from time to time. Our guilty trips are strong especially considering we have trouble understanding other people. We think we are always the ones in the wrong because of it. This is troublesome because if a malicious person lashes out on us we tend to believe we're the ones to be blamed, which might lead to abusive relationships. If you're in a relationship where you notice you're always pointed out as being wrong it's already a big red flag that points towards power imbalance
I have no idea how, but this song gives me such a strong feeling of perseverance and motivation It’s like “yeah life is shit, but it isn’t always my fault when I hurt”
Another banger! You are not being petty by expressing your depression, not at all (and anyone who dares to say so is very wrong) You are one of my favourite music producers.
I’m only 18, and yet I feel as if my time is running out. The days, months, and years have seemingly passed faster. Life is short. I’d say enjoy it while you can, but some of us aren’t afforded such a luxury.
I know its probably the most obvious thing about the song, but: At the end, the fact that you leave off after the setup, without rhyming to dread... Somehow hits extremely hard for me. I can't tell if it fills me with positivity that it didn't happen, or fear of what I know is supposed to be coming.
Wow just, wow... This was very moving and one can relate to how it feels growing up with autism... Having a hard time "fitting in" with others, not being "normal" whatever that means. Dunno what else to say tbh other than to keep up with the amazing work! Oh and also, compared to those sure shows off who was actually the normal one.
i feel this, i get pressured to work on a daily basis for somethimes 12 hours while being demoralized being called handicaped and dumb for having trouble understanding what my father is telling me, i have to resist his insults and desensitize myself from emotion to make sure i dont suffer from his words, if i were to combat or confront him id be shit talked into the damn ground cuz im "weak" and not "capable" to do anything, it sucks living here having to tell myself to not get hurt from my fathers insults when i fuck up due to a problem i dont know i have cuz dad did not bring me to a doc to consult me if i got anything wrong with myself and so i have to live with it. Recently i've been feeling worse and worse from these insults and i feel a breakdown is imminent soon, but the reason i keep on fighting through this hell hole of a life is thanks to my art and writing having my own little world im creating.
I can't wait for the instrumental version of this one because it slaps, personally am not a fan of the vocals because I don't like the pace but each vocal track contains a great hidden story to raise awareness and I can at least appreciate that, keep making bangers dokuro
Kind of agree, even for bacteriophage, which I liked the lyrics for more than this and "keep walking", I found the instrumental to be a banger. It always feels like the lyrics are for a different backtrack. That "jarring" feeling of dissonance actually works really well for the topic matter, so maybe being put off by it is just one possible natural response. I dunno. But the instrumental is out now 😅
I may not be able to completely relate, as experiences with autism can be different for a lot of people, but as someone who has it I do understand how it can affect peoples lives. whatever it is you’re going or have gone through, I sincerely hope it gets better. Take care of yourself
It's a timeline of your journey, isn't it? Dealing with the pain, and recovering from it... It won't be easy, nor will it be easy. Just remember: we all are here for you!
I swear, these vocaloids are getting advanced as time goes by. As always, amazing piece. The lyrics also hits hard, goddamn. You have become my favorite composer of all time, Dokuro. That's quite a feat
absolutely love this, the opening especially. the way the beat is so hard to feel at first and the way you use dissonance and resolution, its awesome. i dont think you have it in you to make a bad song.
yeah. autistic awareness and acceptance is becoming better but still feels like i'm inhuman compared to everyone else, and no amount of words can explain the way it feels. dokuro, have you ever explored the voidpunk subculture? it's all about embracing the "inhumanity" we've been assigned throughout life. listening to your music i get those vibes.
Listened to this one a lot in a time where I was lost, hearing the reprise is sweet, manages to keep the melancholy with a (relatively) positive outlook
The description really hit home. Processing those some, or at least similar feelings. Especially because I feel as my parents used me to push autism "cure" agendas we didn't understand.
guess you could call it a prelude. gotta tackle the roots of my problems before i can attempt to fix the present self in a way that won't break me in the process like STILL HERE did.
Oh how I missed the Dokuro breakcore. Merciful was actually one of the first songs to get me interested in the genre, and it's still one of my favourites to this day. I was not however expecting vocaloid breaks, but many don't listen to music to not be surprised.
Dokuro, I won't lie and say I know how you feel. But, I think I can relate to at least some parts. I myself am going through some serious depression-related issues. The point is, you aren't the only person feeling like this. It can get better.
I’m really excited for this, especially as someone who’s on the spectrum. Just because of how much it was used to degrade me, I single-handedly have been scarred by the word “retarded”. I’m also not really understood well by any of my family, and I find it hard to find acceptance from anyone that isn’t a close friend. I’m in full support of the message of this album and I’m excited to see what comes out of it!
i accidentially somehow set the time back to the start and this is such a song that i didnt even question it and it took a moment to notice what i did (wasnt too far in)
I liked the "empty, lonley" vibe the one on Bandcamp has and seems to fit the song a little more, but this one is more interesting and fun to listen to :) Edit: new lyrics, damn.
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god, this is so beautiful.
as for the theming of the album, i share this sentiment regarding autism (as someone who also has it), and the way people who have it having been mistreated by so many; it feels like those who have autism just get picked out and shunned by the many, and my personal experiences with this sort of thing resonates with me on a personal level with the way your emotion is portrayed here - its actually incredible with what music can do.
(a little note i just picked out: if you listen closely in the later parts of the song, you can hear the chords and piano melody from STILL HERE, which is such a cool touch.)
wait what where did this come from- am- did I miss something while listening to these songs..?
You're not alone pal, I admittedly have it too. But I also respect your opinion CD!
@@MidnightDrake the video description explains it !!
I KNEW I WASN'T CRAZY
Tbh as a person who has autism, I have to agree with you. As much as people go on about embracing differences, no one ever really realizes that people aren't really that different physically, most of the differences come in the form of ideas and beliefs, and because of how it feels like no one wants to accept the fact that it is possible to be partially right or partially wrong, it makes it so autistic people tend to be treated as outcasts. Autistic people tend to be some of the smartest (or at least most willing to learn) people on earth, and because of that they tend to have ideas that have similarities to both sides, but some originality thrown in there as well.
THE “the momentary highs, the unfathomable lows” IS REAL!!!!
can we get much sadder
@@DMDOKURO so sadder...
(Wooh oohh ooh.. Woooh oohh ooOoh..)
Sad
can we get much sadder. so saaaddeeer
So, interesting fact:
There's a version of this on Bandcamp that is slightly different around the end part, where instead of a resolve to keep going, there was this sort of... Indecision. Uncertainty. He was considering whether or not this music biz was worth staying around in. What's interesting is that it was released in April of 2022, while this was in November of 2022... This suggests to me that while that version was an early look at his thoughts, this is a more recent delve into his mind, where he now has resolve to keep going, and keep making music.
Keep doing what you do best, Doku. We're with you 100% of the way.
UPDATE:
I'm a dumb. I didn't even see the '(reprise)' in the title. Woops.
"Bro DM's peak was calamity" mf when they see this album:
Those people's opinions don't matter anyway, lol. They're just missing out on some more beautifully crafted music - coming straight from Dokuro's heart.
@@DruidPC He left too soon
Blame the hate that he got during him working on calamity.
Real
I mean its ight, dont really like the vocals on this song but yea
I'm autistic too. Despite the many mistakes and moments I spent oblivious to the world around me in my life, I was accepted. I can't imagine the hell that occurs when that's not the case. I really hope you manage to figure out who you are. It's a long process, but it's why we keep walking. And i'm glad to have recieved that advice from you before falling down my own identity crisis. Thank you.
Nice seeing you here.
As an autistic person myself, I have never seen anyone put my feelings into words better than Dokuro has. I don’t know how he does it, but he makes music that’s relatable and heartfelt to a degree that few others these days do. My respect for him is immeasurable
@@kingcyrusrodan6772 I can usually write meaningful lyrics that imply my feelings if I'm ever down. But it's insane how well dokuro can tie in the lyrics he does into the music he makes. There's just so much passion put into it. And it's just a powerful feeling every time.
@@MrJFL I couldn’t agree more, and also the instruments / sounds he uses are always so well suited to the lyrics they go with, it’s honestly astonishing. Something else I kind of want to talk about since it’s on my mind right now is something I refer to as “the curse of the artist”. Since I was around 5 years old, my mom has put me in piano lessons and tried her best to get me to be as good as I possibly can at playing this instrument. From an unbiased perspective, while I’m not Mozart or some shit, I’m fairly decent at it, and I’m even at the point where I can give honest attempts to cover a few songs on piano. I’ve even managed to get a decent scholarship for college because of it. And yet I fucking hate it. I never feel like I’m good enough, my classical curriculum never sounds really, genuinely good to me, and whenever I sit down and try to actually work, I always end up either staring off into space the entire time or just robotically scrolling through my phone. Deep down inside me, I know I genuinely love music almost more than anything else, and yet, whenever I try to create / perform it myself, it always turns sour. While I have no idea if Dokuro feels this way himself, the self doubt and struggles within his music have always resonated with me, especially on this subject. His compositions are always top tier and incredibly well made, and yet the darkness within almost always shows through in haunting detail. I suppose it’s just something I have to deal with on my own, and try to untangle. Sorry for trauma dumping in your replies, btw, I’ve just had a pretty bad day and I felt like dropping off my feelings somewhere.
@@kingcyrusrodan6772 I feel the same way about editing, believe me I get it. Also have been talking to a lot of friends who are struggling with depression, anxiety, dysphoria, etc and it's telling how similar we all really are mentally sometimes. Everyone struggles. But we all manage eventually. I believe you'll manage with your music. Honestly I'm curious to see if/what you've made so i'll go digging a little bit. And yeah DW about bothering with feeling dumps. It's natural to let off a little steam.
This song is so haunting.
In the end, the last line is unspoken, but I can hear it in my head.
"There's no turning back...."
"From the existential dread..."
This is genius. Begins with "I've reached the point of living where my music turns to noise", and then midway through the song the lyrics are drowned out by noisy instrumentals, relating to the very beginning and giving the impression the person is trying to drown their thoughts out with music. So incredibly relatable. Absolutely love your recent tracks, mister
Every song you make has a meaning and message,so beautiful yet so dark. But no matter what there's always people who will listen to your messages. They'll always be appreciated by the readers.
thanks, cutekitten1472
Here's a run-down of the song:
9.24.21 - two weeks and one day after posting "9" and "Still Here".
12.31.21 - new year's eve 2021
02.22.22 - Can't pin this to anything from DM DOKURO (as they were taking a break), but repeating 2s are usually connected with harmony, togetherness, etc. (opposite of what the lyrics are for this date)
4.20.22 - 8 days before Glass Structures jVol.1 uploaded, right before DOKURO 'ended' their break
09.05.22 DM DOKURO comes back to youtube. 'complete' end of their break
I'm not even going to try to fully tackle these dates (someone probably better than me at theory crafting can), but I'm guessing it has to do with DM DOKURO's battle with what they're going through right now in *timeline format*, kind of like another song (ahem ahem Still Here)
I'm glad to see you recovering. Song quite literally takes my breath away, some of the lyrics hit so hard that it stops me from taking in air. Stay happy Dokuro, and take as much time as you like between making songs. We're here for you.
Excerpt from his Tumblr:
“9.24.21 - the day i went somewhere and came back horribly different. (i really don’t want to talk about this particular day)
12.31.21 - masking in social situations grew worse and worse.
2.22.22 - autistic burnout set in, and it began to physically show.
4.20.22 - the day “the momentary highs, the unfathomable lows” was created and subsequently posted; a fork in the road on whether or not to continue my work or “seek greener pastures”, despite there being nothing there when i seek them.” (this was on Bandcamp)
“9.05.22 “the day i vowed to see the album “they know who they are” to its completion, thanks to the harsh words of ignorant family members pushing and enforcing their beliefs while oblivious to their vile nature, having exposed a wicked anomaly about my childhood that i noticed all too late- i had been masking for nearly my entire life- to friends, and family, and even outside of that- and was essentially trying to stay normal just to survive the world’s bullshit for the sake of family, friends, and paraprofessionals who had an equally warped view of the world around them. i was never exactly taught about coping with autism- no stimming, no limits, none of that. just how to be normal when you’re not normal at all.
there is much i have to learn about myself and where others had failed to teach me. it’ll be the scariwst and hardest thing i do. but that’s what happens with something that was fooled into believing it was “normal”.
*and the fact that this might still be happening to others this very day fucking sickens me.*”
(edited to fix a punctuation error with my typing.)
@@crimson-foxtwitch2581 holy shit thank you
thank you so much
where did these dates come from?
@@crimson-foxtwitch2581 huh? his Tumblr's literally just some (whatever the Tumblr equivalent of retweets is) from two years ago.
@@dolphone6748 a post on his Tumblr made a few weeks ago.
I've listened to your songs for ages, I never expected a song to hit so closely to my heart - my god. I've been harassed for having autism for years and this really just woke me up and motivated me to try and deal with the problems it has brought me to this point. You probably won't see this or anything - but this song, thank you for making this absolutely beautiful song, just like all the others you've made. I barely comment, but this song has made me do so.
I'm in a weird case where, despite being raised in an environment that was accepting of my autism, I ended up developing projective self hatred towards autism due to frequent exposure to anti-autistic propaganda. It's something I've moved past, but I still shudder looking back on that phase of my life.
You can never not choose to face the dread, but it is a choice to face it alone.
You are not alone.
I’ve noticed that there were dates on the bottom left side of the screen.
Dating from September of 2021 to September of this year (2022).
We’re these messages put into written song form? I love the concept of it, and there’s even a beat to it as well as excepted from Dokuro being an experienced musician.
Can’t wait to hear what the rest of it has to say whenever that comes out, but do take your time, it seems that is the point of this song as well.
(Edited: But I couldn’t ignore this while hearing through these last few songs, and I hope you soon heal, and use these songs as a way to describe how you feel.) ❤
It's interesting that one of the dates is 20th of April - the birthday of Adolf Hitler. At this moment of the song the visuals and the sound a very distorted. Could this imply something?
@@ЧуднойЛинк I'm sorry but, that's stupid. Hitler has nothing to do with Dokuro's music
@@LivingAlkalineSolution Well... Yes, it probably is stupid.
yo.
sorry I didn't comment sooner but look at my comment on this video. I've documented the dates and someone found an excerpt from DM DOKURO's tumblr that also explains a lot in the comment's mini comment section
The hype for this album continues to grow. If you could throw in Still here with Synthesizer V that’d be pretty cool 👀
still working on it
@@DMDOKURO wait really?!! That’s awesome news! Love your work and excited to see it :)
I loved the feel of the original on your bandcamp, but THIS!! As an enthusiast in breakcore as well as your work for a while now, this is an amazing reprise of that single, and it definitely give a whole new meaning to the song. Good luck on your journey.... wherever the hell it leads.
I'm so excited every time you upload because everything you drop slaps
in case you missed it during the song, she says
"I've reached the point of living, where my music turns to noise"
and by the end of the song, a lot of noise starts to take up what music you're able to hear.
Honestly such a brilliant detail. A song telling a story within the confinements of itself.
DM is a genius.
The way the song sets you up to expect the last words to be
"There's no turning back
From the existential dread"
But then only says "There's no turning back"
Gave me chills
I love this album, still here was a masterpiece of music, and this is also amazing. Both are masterfully crafted way to express your emotions. The emotion is crazy, I love how you have some elements of “still here” in the background, perhaps to reference that these are defined part of the same album. Keep it up, I can’t wait to hear the next masterpiece in art you decide to add next to this emotional rollercoaster of an album.
Great song. Hope it gets on Spotify someday
I think the reason I love these tracks so much more than any other song you've ever made is because of the raw emotion. A lot of songs nowadays do still have meaning and feeling into them, but these songs are emotion in such a harsh and pure form its overwhelming and soothing at the same time. 30/10. Absolutely mesmerizing.
I'm going back and catching up on your work on They Know Who They Are so I can give my full attention to the music. This shit is POWERFUL. Your mastery of chord progression and rhythm remains, and the combination of violent noise with pensive vocal harmony is SO good.
The fact that the final verse never lyrically or melodically resolves is just 💋👌 BEAUTIFUL. Thematically brilliant. There's no turning back, because this is not the end.
The message you're sending out with this song is inspiring, Dokuro. Beautiful work as always.
That out of the way, I have a Funny Story about when I first heard this. I set off on a 12 hour car ride back home from vacation at midnight last night, and seeing this I thought "cool, another banger to play on loop while I look out the window for the whole ride". It was trippy, I couldn't hear the backbeat or the vocals correctly, and I was like, "oh, it's intentionally glitchy and weird, that Makes Sense" because it's your music. I listened to it for at least 40 minutes like that.
My headphones were plugged in wrong.
When I realized this and they were fixed, I listened and within 10 seconds I audibly went "bruh" because this song is so amazing. (Good thing my mom wasn't in the car at the time.) It proceeded to be awesome for the rest of the ride home.
Just thought I'd share.
this is hauntingly beautiful. you're completely right and while it may feel impossible at a large scale to start these conversations - it can start them in smaller environments. thank you for sharing once again, and happy to see you going easier on yourself for things that were never your fault to begin with.
i can't even imagine what the dates mean to you, and i don't need to - they're yours and whatever significance they might hold to me is irrelevant. regardless, it's been a hell of a year, here's to another and many more after.
HOLY SHIT HOW HAVE I NOT HEARD THIS YET. all of your work is so fucking inspiring dude. the composition. the mixing. this concept you're tackling with the lyrics, here. this is good shit you've got here
Your songs help my adhd brain think about what to actually do in my life instead of contemplating and procrastinating. Thanks Dokuro :)
Oh boy, its been so long i actually haven't heard one of your works, i've been so busy, now that i have enough time i've taken a listen to this recently released song and many other ones
The music is so good yet has a melancholic vibe to it, but despite that, one still needs to move forward and take as many steps as possibly we could
We may face new conflicts or recurrent ones, and everytime we do, we get used to it, we might resolve them but many others ones will pop out because of the others around us or ourselves
And we might get existential dread from it, questions like "Whats the point of.." "How meaningful i'm really am" "What do i do" or "It is worth the try?"
Such things might leave us struck into being less capable of doing stuff because of such thoughts
But one can still move forward, choose not to give up, and face the pains of what is to live
Life is cruel yet there is still plenty of stuff we enjoy from it, it might be more unfortunate for some people and others not
But you can always try your best, even if the way can get way too thorny and painful, we can surpass it, rest, and move on
Getting out of cycles and entering new ones and much more
This is of course, my interpretation, and my english ain't the best one so i might misunderstand some stuff
But anyways, i really love your works and music, you're amazing, be safe and always try your best everyone and dokuro, we might always face dread but we can always try to enjoy life while we still can and make our surroudings a better place for everyone and ourselves no matter if that person has this or that and many other examples
Whenever this album is ready you can be sure I will get it. Even now I'm having this song and the previous one on a constant loop.
I'm glad you're still here.
this is the most astonishingly beautiful, original and powerful thing I've heard in years. Incredible musical journey and introspection. Gorgeous...
I truly loved this one. This chaotic rhythm in harmony with the vocals is just magical. Really glad I found about your work!
Also, from someone who has suspicions of having autism myself, I feel you. You're not alone
WHAT IS THE BEEP AT 2:05?
IT SYNCS WITH THE TIME TRANSITION FROM 2/22/22 TO 4/20/22, BUT WHY IS IT THERE.
WHAT DOES IT MEAN?
I'M GOING INSANE TRYING TO FIGURE THIS OUT.
"you're not always to blame" sent shivers down my spine... Every autistic person needs to hear this from time to time. Our guilty trips are strong especially considering we have trouble understanding other people. We think we are always the ones in the wrong because of it. This is troublesome because if a malicious person lashes out on us we tend to believe we're the ones to be blamed, which might lead to abusive relationships. If you're in a relationship where you notice you're always pointed out as being wrong it's already a big red flag that points towards power imbalance
Honestly , you're helping me though my tough times & I really hope you can get through yours as well.
This album is a banger, I can't wait for the whole thing to be finished.
"The recovery begins", line hits hard
I have no idea how, but this song gives me such a strong feeling of perseverance and motivation
It’s like “yeah life is shit, but it isn’t always my fault when I hurt”
I like the parts of 'still here' in the background. feels fitting. loving what's been made for this album so far.
Another banger! You are not being petty by expressing your depression, not at all (and anyone who dares to say so is very wrong)
You are one of my favourite music producers.
Songs the express raw emotion are always my favorite.
I’m only 18, and yet I feel as if my time is running out. The days, months, and years have seemingly passed faster. Life is short. I’d say enjoy it while you can, but some of us aren’t afforded such a luxury.
I know its probably the most obvious thing about the song, but:
At the end, the fact that you leave off after the setup, without rhyming to dread... Somehow hits extremely hard for me. I can't tell if it fills me with positivity that it didn't happen, or fear of what I know is supposed to be coming.
Wow just, wow...
This was very moving and one can relate to how it feels growing up with autism...
Having a hard time "fitting in" with others, not being "normal" whatever that means.
Dunno what else to say tbh other than to keep up with the amazing work!
Oh and also, compared to those sure shows off who was actually the normal one.
the beat sounds like Hakita's work from ultrakill.And that might be the biggest compliment i can give anyone.Awsome work as always
i feel this, i get pressured to work on a daily basis for somethimes 12 hours while being demoralized being called handicaped and dumb for having trouble understanding what my father is telling me, i have to resist his insults and desensitize myself from emotion to make sure i dont suffer from his words, if i were to combat or confront him id be shit talked into the damn ground cuz im "weak" and not "capable" to do anything, it sucks living here having to tell myself to not get hurt from my fathers insults when i fuck up due to a problem i dont know i have cuz dad did not bring me to a doc to consult me if i got anything wrong with myself and so i have to live with it.
Recently i've been feeling worse and worse from these insults and i feel a breakdown is imminent soon, but the reason i keep on fighting through this hell hole of a life is thanks to my art and writing having my own little world im creating.
This helps me to keep moving on, I appreciate this.
The dread looms forever and always... Creeping into every thought of mine. Every future plan internally doubted 1,000,000 times.
I can't wait for the instrumental version of this one because it slaps, personally am not a fan of the vocals because I don't like the pace but each vocal track contains a great hidden story to raise awareness and I can at least appreciate that, keep making bangers dokuro
Kind of agree, even for bacteriophage, which I liked the lyrics for more than this and "keep walking", I found the instrumental to be a banger. It always feels like the lyrics are for a different backtrack. That "jarring" feeling of dissonance actually works really well for the topic matter, so maybe being put off by it is just one possible natural response. I dunno. But the instrumental is out now 😅
I may not be able to completely relate, as experiences with autism can be different for a lot of people, but as someone who has it I do understand how it can affect peoples lives. whatever it is you’re going or have gone through, I sincerely hope it gets better. Take care of yourself
I’ll never know how you do it, but your ability of creativity, variety, and immaculate quality music is beyond commendable.
It's a timeline of your journey, isn't it? Dealing with the pain, and recovering from it... It won't be easy, nor will it be easy. Just remember: we all are here for you!
I swear, these vocaloids are getting advanced as time goes by. As always, amazing piece. The lyrics also hits hard, goddamn. You have become my favorite composer of all time, Dokuro. That's quite a feat
I remember hearing this without drums and being blown away
Man, I've been a fan of your's for a while now, and I've got to say...
What a rollercoaster of events to watch
absolutely love this, the opening especially. the way the beat is so hard to feel at first and the way you use dissonance and resolution, its awesome. i dont think you have it in you to make a bad song.
Godsend for posting this
Saw this on bandcamp and been waiting. Really good song
THIS IS PERFECT
Usually I'm not one to like music that has vocals, but you are somehow an exception to that.
yeah.
autistic awareness and acceptance is becoming better but still feels like i'm inhuman compared to everyone else, and no amount of words can explain the way it feels.
dokuro, have you ever explored the voidpunk subculture? it's all about embracing the "inhumanity" we've been assigned throughout life. listening to your music i get those vibes.
GOD THE AMOUNT OF EMOTION YOU'VE POURED INTO THIS FUCK MAN
Dude this sounds like something outta Portal, I love it!!!!
oh my god dok's one of us! absolute icon. love ya. :)
Listened to this one a lot in a time where I was lost, hearing the reprise is sweet, manages to keep the melancholy with a (relatively) positive outlook
no matter what you make i will continue to support you and your work
Your music has become something more amazing than anything I've heard in my life, simply beautiful.
god this is absolutely amazing! amazing work as always
The description really hit home. Processing those some, or at least similar feelings. Especially because I feel as my parents used me to push autism "cure" agendas we didn't understand.
im hearing a lot of similarites to still here. is they know who they are a new name for shadow of light 3?
guess you could call it a prelude. gotta tackle the roots of my problems before i can attempt to fix the present self in a way that won't break me in the process like STILL HERE did.
God this song is amazing
Actual chills full body chills
love this whole album so far man
Hauntingly beautiful
Rooting for you!
Feels like Still Here, love the music so much!
Oh how I missed the Dokuro breakcore. Merciful was actually one of the first songs to get me interested in the genre, and it's still one of my favourites to this day.
I was not however expecting vocaloid breaks, but many don't listen to music to not be surprised.
No matter how far I drown, Im still here waiting for this album to come out
Wish I had discovered this sooner, this is awesome!
I'm glad you're back!
Is it a bad thing that this song just described my entire life in 4 minutes?
Sometimes it takes another to self reflect on one’s self
I know it's probably not what my attention was supposed to be drawn to but HOW ARE YOUR DRUMS SO GODDAMN GOOD
Thought I'd never see this uploaded or another version of it on here. I really liked the original and I can safely say I like this one too.
Wow.....just.....wow this is an incredible song that well......just made my day so much better. Thanks DM Dokuro your music is a gift to us all.
It lacks subtlety
I fucking love it.
Dokuro, I won't lie and say I know how you feel. But, I think I can relate to at least some parts. I myself am going through some serious depression-related issues. The point is, you aren't the only person feeling like this. It can get better.
hey this is great actually
hang in there man
I’m really excited for this, especially as someone who’s on the spectrum. Just because of how much it was used to degrade me, I single-handedly have been scarred by the word “retarded”. I’m also not really understood well by any of my family, and I find it hard to find acceptance from anyone that isn’t a close friend. I’m in full support of the message of this album and I’m excited to see what comes out of it!
i accidentially somehow set the time back to the start and this is such a song that i didnt even question it and it took a moment to notice what i did (wasnt too far in)
PEAK CONTENT
I like this. This is cool
incredible i need more
I liked the "empty, lonley" vibe the one on Bandcamp has and seems to fit the song a little more, but this one is more interesting and fun to listen to :)
Edit: new lyrics, damn.
what do you do when the golden years of a single moment have passed
“The dates are set before major events”
Me - “4/20 lol”
very good, something about it makes me like it quite a bit
this music making me ascend
The song hits deep. Good job
WE LOV UR MUSIC SLAY QUEEN 💖💖💖💖
Mood, very cool DM DOKURO
best song to listen to when ur spiraling down a depressive state :3
Really love the synthesizer v tracks so far.
Most underrated song honestly
I can here a bit of some of your other songs and I love it. Also I love the sentiment about autism as I have it.
I hope your doing well my friend, don't let the dread get to you