Thank you so much for this! I have trichotillomania too, and tend to pull out my eyebrows and eyelashes as well. I always have to wear so much makeup to try and cover it up because I get so embarrassed. I've never met anyone else with this, so it's really nice to hear your story and know I'm not alone
Awww thank you so much for being brave enough to comment!! I feel the same way! Right now I'm missing like all of my eyelashes on both of my eyes and I cover it up every day. Have you ever tried false lashes? I've noticed that it's easier for me when I'm wearing false lashes because when my hand goes up it's a reminder for me not to touch my eyes. That's really helped me! And honestly, you commenting helps me too! It's a good reminder for myself that I'm not alone :)
I'm the same right now... missing most of an eyebrow and a lot of lashes on the left side. I'm unfortunately allergic to every brand of eyelash glue I've tried. What seems to help is keeping my hands busy but thats of course not always possible. Thanks for your lovely response. If you ever need someone to talk about it too, send me a message or something :)
xxJodelleFerlandxx Hey love, I know this comment wasn't directed towards me but I noticed you said you were allergic to eyelash glue so I wanted to give you some suggestions! I have chemical sensitivities and I'm able to use the georgie beauty eyelash glue in clear because it's non toxic. (Although it does dry white so you have to go over it with eyeliner) but it does contain latex so another option is True Glue, which I believe is latex free and non toxic and even safe to use when you're pregnant! Hope this can be helpful to you!❤
I have it too..but have hope. One day i woke up and didnt anymore. I went from no eyelashes..eyebrows..and hair..like on my head to growth everywhere...just showing some love for ur courage. Im proud of you for being able to try and talk to others.
You are amazing!! As someone who struggles with dysmorphia this hit very close to home. And I have gone on a self love and acceptance journey and your video couldn't have come at a better time in my life. I agree with you about the superficial stuff that doesn't make you YOU! I am right with you about trying to make a difference!!! Keep on spreading the love and positivity ❤️❤️❤️❤️
I am SO glad I had the wonderful opportunity to meet you at IMATS years ago even though our time together was brief! You are such a kind person and you have a wonderful light about you! It breaks my heart that you've struggled with dysmorphia because you have such a kind and loving soul! Thank you for the encouragement, and know that I think you are so beautiful and wonderful Nancy!!
Oh my gosh! Thank you for being so honest and open! And you are definitely NOT alone, because you made me feel that I am no longer the only one dealing with that exact feeling. Dealing with anxiety since the fifth grade has also made me extremely self conscious, and being an introvert myself...the anxiety and the after effects only made it worse! I recently viewed your Disney Audition video and thought you were incredible and beautiful. I'm ashamed to say that I got down because I convinced myself that I could never be beautiful too.... but I watched this video and hearing your words inspired me beyond what words can describe. You are beautiful inside and out, and thank for reminding young ladies like me that we are beautiful too. Lovely Lady keep inspiring! I look forward to future posts, and you've gained a new subscriber and insa follower :-).
Wow, thank you so much Anne! I appreciate your support more than words could say! I often feel like this life is too short to waste it and in whatever I pursue in life I want to spend it helping others to be the best version of themselves. It was pretty evident to me on how to do that while I was working for Disney, and I'm still trying to figure out what that looks like now that I've moved on. As hard as videos like these are to make, I felt like it was necessary in accomplishing my goals! I think people are all beautiful in their own way, despite society telling us what beauty is supposed to look like. I'm hard on myself too for not looking a certain way. But I'm reminded that I'm beautiful and I have value despite the way I look on the outside. It took me a while to figure that out, and I don't always remember it. But at the end of the day, it's still true!
Wow your transparency is inspiring! You're beautiful and I love that you are learning to love yourself with and without makeup. I am encouraged by your message and your passion to encourage others to love themselves! Keep it up! ❤️
Thank you for posting about this!! I've dealt with dermatillomania for the past 13 years, I had trichotillomania when I was younger but due to excessive bullying I starting to pick at my skin to cope instead. My mom just passed away this passed November and I've been really struggling to keep my icd disorders under control. I've watched your videos for the past week and already feel so connected to you and this has really helped me deal with everything I've been going through. Keep doing what you're doing!!!
This is definitely my favorite video I've seen so far on your channel. I've admired your makeup in others, but I think you really show your true self here and it's really humbling! Not enough of this exists on the internet, I'm grateful that you've added some self-positivity to it :)
This is so inspiring! I know you met a million people when you hung out with Ariel over the months, but I met her 3 different times and then was lucky enough to stumble upon your instagram. I just wanted to tell you how much I look up to you for sharing this with the world. Your youtube channel is AMAZING and I would have never known you were so introverted when I met Princess Ariel. Keep sharing your talents with the world and I am so excited to watch your journey through it all!
Thank you so much for sharing that with me Chelsea!!! I appreciate the love and support so much! Honestly I've always loved acting and sometimes for me it's easier to act than it is to be myself! You have such a kind and beautiful heart and I truly appreciate all of your kind words! :)
Im legitimately 2:30 into this video, and I'm already in love with this idea!! You are so strong, and I believe more people should be open to sharing who they truly are to the world!
Thank you so much Noel!! It definitely wasn't easy to share, but I felt like it was so necessary! If anything, it was a good reminder to myself of who I am so I can stay grounded in that. It can be too easy to get caught up in the superficiality of beauty!
I really really appreciate you posting this video and putting yourself out there like this!! I've been dealing with trich since 4th or 5th grade as well and I hate feeling ashamed and constantly worrying if other people can notice it. I didn't realize it was so common until I recently looked it up on RUclips. It's such a relief to know that we don't have to be alone and can help each other cope and overcome this. Thank you so much for spreading awareness!! You are gorgeous with and without makeup!
I LOVE this, thank you SO much for sharing that with me Jillian!! I felt the EXACT same way, I was so ashamed of it for so long. I felt like a freak and an outcast. If I had opened up sooner I would've seen how many people there were out there just like me! Just by you commenting and being brave enough to admit you struggle with it to has shown me again that I'm not alone! This may sound weird, but posting this video has truly helped me SO much because of all the wonderful people like you who have shown me I'm not alone in my struggles. The more we encourage each other the better we are at facing our struggles! Thank you again so much for being brave enough to comment on your trich struggles!
This really touches me in a way that I cannot explain. I have never seen any RUclipsr who has said they suffer from trich, and seeing you say something really mades me proud. I also deal trich and it honestly sucks, because it got really bad in 7th grade and people asked me what happened and if I just wanted to shave off my eyebrow. When I would tell them about it they would just nod and walk away. Nobody could really understand the disorder and it kind of sucks. Hearing you say something about this makes me so happy and knowing that I am not alone out here makes me feel more confident. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for posting this. It really means a lot.
I can completely understand exactly what that feels like. You're already ashamed of it in the first place, and it makes it worse attempting to explain it to people. I would constantly get asked from friends and family why I wouldn't just stop. It's so hard to try to explain that. I feel like it has helped me exponentially knowing that I'm not alone and actively helping myself to stop! Honestly talking with people who get it really helps me, so thank you so much for your comment! It helped me feel less alone too!
I just came across your videos and subscribed to you a couple days ago and already I can feel how much you and your story have inspired me. You are such a beautiful human. Thank you so much for sharing your story!!!
You are so sweet, thank you so much! It definitely wasn't an easy video to post, but I knew that it was important knowing how much it helped me to see other people on RUclips being open about their struggles!
I think it's so incredible that you had the courage to post this at all. So many people are terrified to be who they truly are for fear of what other people will think, but the fact that you got past that and posted this is so inspiring
Omg you just showed up on my recommended for one of your Disney videos and i looked through your channel and found this. I have trichotillomania too and I've been in therapy for a couple months now but I've had it for about 9 years. But I am so happy I found this channel. You seem like such a genuine positive person and 100% have my sub
Thank you so much for sharing your story!! I know just admitting to struggling with trich can be SO hard to do! I think sometimes it's difficult to create videos on it, but do you have any other video ideas for trich or anxiety? I definitely don't want this to be my only video on this subject, but I'm not sure what else I could say or talk about that I didn't already mention in this video. I would love to continue to be open about trich since so many people struggle with it but don't talk about it!
kenziemacbrown I personally think you should just keep bringing a positive and uplifting vibe :D whether it's talking about more personal experiences or sharing ways to cope or just venting, the positivity you bring does so much! Also I already said you're very genuine and that helps show how even the most successful of people have problems too and it's a good message to share with everyone :) you have a very humble and carefree personality (from what I can tell haha) and it just makes it so easy for us to relate to you!!
Thank you so much for that perspective! Since that video was filmed a few years ago it would be good to do an update (even though not much has changed). But I feel like I've learned more about it and myself since I filmed that!
Just lowkey marathoned a bunch of your Disney videos at work! Loved this one. I really like what you said about talents not being what makes you valuable and probably not lasting forever. I've never thought about that before. It just goes to show that the most important and valuable thing you can do is be a good person and to do good for other people.
Thank you! I haven't watched this video in a while, but it sounds like I might benefit from re-watching it! I posted it about a year after I made it. I filmed it and then I was too embarrassed to post it. A year later I happened to find it after I was deleting old files and I re-watched the whole thing. I was going through a rough spot and this video actually helped me to refocus on what was really important. I figured if my own video could help me then I hoped it might be able to help others too :)
It is EXTREMELY rare to come across a RUclips video with any kind of views that has 0 dislikes. It's just one of the indicators of the superb quality inherent in this video. Mackenzie, thank you so much for being BOLDLY BARE!! You're an inspiration! God bless! :-D
Thanks Oliver! I didn't even know this video had any dislikes, usually mine have a few here and there (I've just learned to accept it). But that's kinda cool! I'm glad you liked the video, I hope to do more like this one in the future :)
Such a beautiful message, I absolutely love this video Kenzie! You hit the nail right on the head. The way social media is set up, it can be so difficult to see others living what looks like the perfect life and not feel that pang of jealousy or longing for something more like what they have. I've felt alone for a long time because of mental health stigma and how taboo it feels to reveal what I go through- the many reasons why I see a therapist, the meds I take for different things, damaging thoughts I've had, etc. But we're in an age where more and more people are coming to terms with it being ok to share that everything's not ok, so long as you're comfortable with it, and it's ok if someone will never be comfortable sharing those things or if it takes years and years to start opening up because everyone is different. Of all the people I know who have anxiety, including myself, I know for sure no two of us have had the same experience, but it's comforting knowing that we're all just trying to go through our lives as best we can in spite of the circumstances that aren't always out there for everyone to see at all times. Thank you so much for this again, I totally understand why you held onto it for a few years before posting, but you have some really inspiring words that lots of us need to hear.
+Lara Akal thank you so much for that beautiful response! Obviously it's not easy having to deal with anxiety and depression but in some ways I'm glad I have to struggle with it because it allows me to relate in a really unique way to people! Like I know, you totally get me! And as hard as it is to post a video like this because I am opening myself up, I'm so glad I did because it gave me the opportunity to connect with people like you! So thank you, for also having the courage to respond and share your perspective on it!
You are very brave to disclose such personal info. I don't have ocd but my daughter does and it's so important to get the word out. You r definitely a very special young lady
Marylynne Roberts I truly wish I had the ability to connect with people when I was younger like I can now! I think it would've really helped! I hope your daughter can see she's not alone and find comfort in that! For me, that's brought me the most peace is knowing how many other people struggle with OCD or ICD disorders too!
Thank you so much for sharing and being open about yourself. This video has honestly made me feel empowered! Especially as a person who deals with illnesses in the anxiety spectrum, your story is reassuring me that I am not alone in this. Thank you and love you ❤
RebeccaMuñeca so much love for you!! It wasn't easy for me to post this but I'm so grateful I did because it allowed me to hear other people's stories and have the chance to connect with them too! ❤️
I love wearing makeup but I don't wear it everyday. Like you said, I'm just comfortable with that aspect of myself. There are things I struggle with, like mental health ,that I'm very self conscious of.
kaitlynashleyful I think it's natural to be self conscious of it, I know I'll always be! All we want is to feel normal and loved and I think it's very intimidating to share a part of ourselves that might inhibit those things!
I found your channel because of the Disney videos, but when I saw that there was a video by you with trich in the title on the side, I did a double take, and now I am almost crying! I have derma, and I have had it since 7th grade. I ALWAYS wonder where the other people with BFRB are--seeing you and that you are struggling with the same thing as me (almost), I cant believe how badly I needed this. I think that you might be my new hero. I am so, so thankful to have met you through youtube. Thank you so much Mackenzie
I respect you so much for opening up about this. I pick my skin compulsively to the point that my face, arms, and thighs are noticeably scarred and don't have the words to say how much I relate. I picked the habit up as a child too and felt so isolated about it at times. It's good to remember I'm in very good company.
Thank you so much Paulina!! As hard as it was for sharing, it's been so nice to read comments like yours, because it reminds me that I'm not alone either! :)
I love this so much. I'm just wondering how it was dealing with anxiety while working at Disney? Were you ever anxious while working your shifts, was improv ever scary for you?
I never felt super anxious during my shifts, but I would feel really drained after some of them and that would cause anxiety. Although I never experienced any panic attacks while I was there (and I've experienced about 10 or so in my life thus far) which was good! Improv wasn't scary the more I got used to it. I realized no one would know if I messed up and that was a huge saving grace for when I did! But truth be told I still have anxiety dreams about going out on set and not knowing what to do! Haha even though that never happened while I was there!
You are such an inspiration! I've been watching your videos and following your Instagram for a while now and think you are wonderful. I love your honesty and I hope people accept you for who are because I think you are so talented and trichotillomania does not define you! Thank you for inspiring me! You are beautiful!
Thank you SO much Kelly! You have no idea how much I appreciate you saying that! Even though my goal is to lift others up I still need to be lifted up some times too! Thank you so much for your beautiful, kind and encouraging words! You have made my day! :)
Wow!! I'm so glad I came across this video! Can I just say how grateful I am to you for being so brave and posting this. I've suffered from trichotillamania since fourth grade, and everything that you said happened to you and the struggles you faced happened to me too! I still struggle with it to this day, but your video has given me so much more confidence in who I am and what I look like! I'm also hopefully auditioning this fall for the DCP character auditions, so it's given me even more confidence seeing that you successfully worked as a character performer even with this condition:) Thank you for inspiring me to love myself as I am!
Your comment just warmed my heart!! Thank you so much for being brave enough to comment! Honestly that was my biggest fear for so long - that my struggles would prevent me from fulfilling my dreams! Luckily when I was auditioning I worked really hard and had a full set of lashes. There were times when I was working though when my lashes would get thin (and I would just use little flare false lashes (like the individual ones) to fill in the gaps. I am so glad this has encouraged you to still pursue your dreams despite what your struggles might be!! Thank you again for your wonderful comment! :)
Aw I'm so glad! Thank you so much! I'm going to try and work my hardest to have great eyelashes by the time auditions roll around:) Thanks again for being such an inspiration and making the best videos, you rock!!
It's always good to have a goal too! I think sometimes you get in the mind set of "what's the point" but when you have a goal (like the auditions) it forces you to really think about what's important! Obviously no one really wants to struggle with it, but sometimes it's just easier to give up and give in. But I think having a goal is a great way to try to fight against it!
Thank you so much for sharing your story!!! you are so brave!!! I admire your sincerety!!! I can't do any social media at all. I have anxiety and depression, take meds but can't get myself to be a part of a world where everyone posts either their greatest or worst moments....i feel like there's no in between. It's just not for me. I love surrounding myself with my lil' family clan, and that makes me happy!!! I am also am introvert and dont need to socialize in order to be happy. I'm very independent that way. Even though to someone looking in it may seem lonely. My son has autism and as his advocate, i know how important it is to educate people. Sharing your story somehow makes us a part of the same community! Again, thank you for sharing your story!
I feel like I can relate, especially with social media! It's way to easy to get wrapped up in it, and slowly start to believe it defines your worth and value. I think it does more harm than good, but I am really thankful for it too! It gave me a space to express my creativity and find like-minded people in a way that wouldn't have been possible previously. But I would 100% agree, surrounding yourself with good friends and family is most important!
As so many say, beauty is never just about looks it is about personality and what resides in your heart and soul! Great video and great example to young ladies and very young girls. So very important to love yourself first for who you are before you can expect to be able to love some else or to be able to experience love from others. Wonderful video!
Thank you so much! I can't say it's always easy to do, but it's so important to love ourselves - flaws and all! It's hard when all we see on social media are perfected versions of other people's lives.
I watched this video for the first time months ago, but hadn't commented. I come back to it every so often because it stuck with me. I just wanted to say how much I appreciate you posting this. We all have our struggles and talking about them makes us feel less alone. I've had my own stress induced issues, which took years to overcome. I might talk about them in a video someday, if I feel it may help others. This video and the overwhelmingly positive response to it makes me realize being vulnerable is not something to be scared about. Best wishes to you!
This is truly the best comment I've read in a long time and I'm so glad you finally wrote it! It can be so easy (even after posting videos like this) to get back into a rut and feel like you're completely alone with your struggles. But what's easy to forget is that it is a HUGE world and there are SO many people struggling with the same (or similar) things and we're not alone! Thank you so much for reminding me of that! I've been struggling with this a lot recently but I feel like I might finally be seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.
kenziemacbrown I hope it gets easier for you. I think you being self-aware and realizing you're struggling with something, something that in the end does not define you, is already a huge step. Though things have gotten a lot easier for me, I still have to make a daily effort not to fall into negative thinking. At least now I'm aware of what I'm doing, which was not the case in my teens. Have a beautiful day and week ❤️
Wow thank you so much for posting this. For years I struggled with the compulsion to pull out my hair and I'm just finding out now that it's a real thing that other people have
I felt the same way too, and I was too afraid to talk about! You'd be surprised how many people actually struggle with it! Once I went to college and opened up more to my friends about it, I realized that all of them either had struggled with it to some extent or knew someone who did! That was really helpful to me because some of my shame associated with it stemmed from me feeling like I was an outsider or that I wouldn't fit in because of it. It really does feel like a weight lifted off your shoulders when you realize you're not alone :)
I've always had a nail biting problem, but when my anxiety got into the higher levels, I began pulling out the hair at the crown of my head. I was and still am embarrassed by it, but knowing that there are other people out there with the same problems as me really helps. It's more common than we think, but not talked about enough. you're doing something special by starting the conversation.
Thanks Corinne, and thank you for sharing too!! As I've gotten older my anxiety surrounding it has really decreased because I've learned that a lot of people struggle with it, they just are afraid to talk about it! Seeing other people on RUclips make videos discussing it really made me want to join in the conversation! I've realize the more we talk about it, the less it has a hold on us :)
Thank you Kenzie for being courageous and sharing your thoughts and struggles through this video. Thank you for inspiring us all to accept our imperfections and to love ourselves for who we naturally are. ♡♡ You are such a wonderful and beautiful human being, and I agree wholeheartedly with everything you have said about social media and society creating impossible standards of beauty for the average human to meet. You have always been an honest and open person and I hope others will see your passion and dedication to all the creativity that you do. ♡♡
You are not alone. I’ve struggle with Trichotillomania for about 4-5 years. I personally pull my hair on my head out. Still something I struggle with. It’s definitely nice to see other humans who struggle with the same thing. ❤️
Thanks Autumn! Yeah, still struggling with it too! Just took out half of my eyelashes on my right eye on Sunday :( but I still keep fighting it as best I can and it does help so much knowing I'm not alone! So thank you!
You're such an inspiration. This video gave me so much relief. I have trichotillomaina. I have anxiety too, and I don't wanna go too in depth about it. I thought I was alone and when I told my friends they looked at me really weirdly and it made me even more self conscious about it. I thought I was alone and that I was crazy. In 4th and 5th grade I started. I had no eyebrows and no eyelashes. And I now do my legs and arms. And I feel like its better... but not better. I also do my hairs on my face as well. Its just not my eyebrows and lashes. I would just like to thank you for helping me realize I'm not alone.
You are so sweet and so brave to go through that! I am truly so thankful to have friends and family who can understand even though they've never experienced it themselves. I think the worst question people can ask is "why don't you just stop?". I think people who don't go through it think its crazy because they just can't understand having an impulse control disorder when they've never experienced it. If there's any way I can help or give support please let me know! You are definitely not alone, and I completely understand that feeling about being self conscious about it!
This is an old old video, but I have the exact same thing!! I’ve always had this (it was worse in elementary and middle school), and it’s so cool to find someone else who’s open with having it. I’ve had countless bald spots on my head, eyebrows and eyelashes. That’s why hats became a big part of me. It’s so cool to find someone else who has this!
It's an old video, but unfortunately I'm still struggling with it! Which reminds me, I probably should do an update video! You are definitely not alone! Sadly it's just highly under-reported because there's so much shame associated with it.
You are beautiful and brave. Thank you for showing that it's okay to be exactly who you are, no filters. I am so so so blessed to have come across your channel. Please keep on being you because you have challenged me to grow as a person. You being bold is outstanding, the person that complimented you was so right - you are beautiful, but not because of the makeup.
You are so sweet, thank you so much Samantha! It definitely wasn't easy to post but I felt like it was really necessary. I feel like social media can really drag me down when I just mindlessly scroll through and see perfected versions of other people's lives. It always makes me feel better when I see other people make posts or videos like this, it reminds me that we're all struggling with something. My greatest goal is that my channel can both help brighten up people's days and remind them they're not alone in whatever they're struggling with!
I completely get that - perfection looks so easily attainable for others on social media. You are succeeding with that goal, as evidenced by the comments and love for you just on this video, and I appreciate you!
How did you overcome anxiety and being an introvert to become a performer? I have those struggles but I came across your channel because I so badly want to do the Disney College Program.
Hi Angelina! I'm so sorry for the delayed response, I just saw this! For some reason I've never had a problem performing and I've been performing (acting and dancing) since I was a kid! For me, I can focus on embodying my role (as a dancer or the character I'm performing) and it helps me focus less on being an introvert. Usually I have lines or choreography I'm focusing on remembering that takes the majority of my attention. Being a performer was trickier because it's basically all improv. But I was so focused on what my character would say, do, respond, act, think it helped me focus less on what Mackenzie would say, do, respond, act, think. I hope that kinda makes sense! When I'm performing I'm able to think outside myself and I'm focused so much on my role I'm not as self-conscious about what other people are thinking about me.
thank you for this. i also have trich and this really touched my heart. i could never post a video about it, i am so ashamed of it even if i can’t help it. but again thank you for posting this and being so open about it it’s very inspiring (sorry if this didn’t make any sense)
That makes total sense! Even when I'm surrounded by people who love and support me I'm still so ashamed of it. I feel like what makes it hard is we feel like we can control it and we feel ashamed when we give into it. I hope it somehow get easier for you 💗
I am 35 y/o and when I was 9 started scratching my head until it sometimes bled (a lot too). Luckily at 32 years old it went away on its own. Idk if it was getting older, medication changes or what it was. But I've been free of it for 3 years. The worst it ever got was when i was in my late teens to mid twenties. I think anxiety is to blame, but I'm so glad I don't have to hide all of the sores anymore and washing my hair no longer burns, or I don't waste endless hours picking. For anyone who has these issues please know, there is hope. Edit: Have hope because I used to be the world's worst at it honestly. It took up hours of my life a day. And I guess I am trying to say, when it's time you will stop doing it one day. Have faith in your ability to be free of it one day. I did notice that when I stopped trying to stop it just went away after 20 years. There is hope!
Aww!! I am so glad that my video helped you figure that out! It's definitely one of those things that no one really talks about or puts a name to it so you just think it's a weird thing you do and you don't even know why! I felt like SUCH an outcast or a weirdo when I was diagnosed with it in fourth grade. But as I've gotten older and social media has gotten bigger it has been easier for me to meet other people who struggle with it just like me! I think that's what I love most about RUclips is it's ability to connect people who weren't able to previously :)
This is amazing. Thank you so much for starting this and being so open. Everything you said about our society today was SPOT ON!!!!! Can you do a video talking about being a face performer in Disney while also being this person (you) that you speak about in this video. For example, you talk about not wanting attention or to stand out in anyway and how it gives you anxiety yet being a face performer and a performer ... all the attention is on you and everyone is staring at you and seeking your attention. Is it because you're hiding behind the character? Even still, I have pretty bad body dysmophia and even if I was being a character, I would still get self conscious of people making comments about the character (good and bad) or staring and analyzing me. Again, really loved this!
Thank you so much Lily!! This is such a great question! For me, I've always used acting as a creative way to express myself. When I'm performing (in shows or at Disney) I really get in the mind set of the character and honestly it makes me less nervous to be performing than to be myself. I'm so concentrated on that character or that role I'm not worrying about how people will perceive me. This might not make a ton of sense, but it's what's helped me! Even when I was in middle school and I had to present I would mentally pretend like I was acting as a presenter and it actually helped me focus on my task rather than how people are perceiving me! When I was performing at Disney specifically, I was so much in the mind set of my character and focused on coming up with stories that it didn't give me the time to worry about how people are perceiving me as a person. I knew they could only see the character, and the more comfortable I got with my character's story the easier it was for me! It definitely was still hard for me in the beginning, but with more practice it got easier for me to separate my role as a performer and me as a person. I think I still might answer this question in a Q&A because I think it's a great question! I hope all that makes sense/answers your question!
I just watched a bunch of your videos but this video made me subscribe. I suffer with trichotillomania also and it's rly hard cuz no one else I know struggles with it. I watched ur Disney videos and u did look like u had the perfect life and this video made me respect you so much ❤
Thank you SO much Bridget! It was so hard for me for so long believing that I was suffering alone. I wanted to share my passions on this channel but I also wanted to be real and open as well. I think transparency is really important because too often on RUclips or Instagram we see images of people who do look like they have perfect lives. Then we get down on ourselves for not looking the same way! While I have been extremely blessed to have the opportunities I've had in life, I still want to transparent about my struggles too!
Thank you so much for sharing. My daughter's name is also Makenzie(spelled differently of course) she has had Trich since 11 months. She will be 4 next month and got her first wig yesterday. It is so nice to hear about others dealing with this and to know she is not alone.
Thank you so much for sharing Maura! That's amazing she developed it so young! I think one of the biggest misconceptions about trich is that it's a choice, and that it's something we can control. Knowing how young she was actually brings me peace as a reminder that it's not something I can fully control. I used to get so frustrated when my family would tell me "just stop" or "just do something else". I used to think that if I had enough brain power I could stop it, or it was something I chose to do. I know now that's not fully the case, and as trich has become more public it's brought me comfort to see how I'm really not alone!
kenziemacbrown I wish it was more public Kenzie's pediatrician didn't even know what it was. I had to push and push and then finally I figured out what was wrong. I found her a therapist before the drs suggested it. I think teachers and even doctors should be more informed. She keeps complaining randomly that her stomach hurts could that be anxiety? We got her a wig over the weekend and she seems to be liking it.
GIRL! I first clicked on ur Disney audition video because u looked so pretty. I have trich too!! I started in 7th grade when I was 12 & I'll be 23 on Friday. A 10+ yr battle 💔 I pull my lashes & throughout every yr since I have periods where I pull ALL of my lashes out & then wait for them to grow back. After I pull I get SO mad at myself & then "here we go again" lining my lash line with eyeliner or wear false lashes to hide it. I'm ashamed of my disorder & I feel like other people don't understand. I relate to u & it brings me peace to hear ur story.
I am right there with you!! I recently pulled out all of my eyelashes on both eyes and they're finally just starting to grow back in! I'm trying really hard not to ruin the progress! It's so frustrating, and I'm so hard on myself. I've come to terms knowing that I'll probably struggle with it the rest of my life and have cut myself some slack. What's helped me the most is opening up to my friends and family and knowing that they still love me regardless if I have hair on my face or not! Thank you for having the courage to comment on my video! It brings me peace too, reminding myself that there's someone else out there struggling with the exact same thing :)
This video was really powerful to watch, Mackenzie! I just wanted to thank you for sharing and choosing to empower others from the inside and out with your story. I often struggle with that letting people see my imperfections, but it was so encouraging to see you be yourself. I hope to get there myself one day soon. On a side note, I’m not normally a “Go read this!” type of person, but I recently heard about this book Still Waiting by Ann Swindell on my favorite Christian podcast, and I believe the author also deals with trichotillomania and discusses it in her book. I don’t know if that would be helpful for you, but it has always helped me to hear stories like my own to know how many life sisters I have in the world even if we haven’t met. I’m wishing you the best, Mackenzie, and thank you again for sharing! This means a lot.
Thank you so much for recommending that book! I love reading, so I'll have to check it out! I think it's really neat to see how much stuff there is out there on trichotillomania. As a kid I remember just seeing a page on Wikipedia and that was it. I love hearing other people's stories who struggle with it too!
Serena Bethala I just wanted to let you know that I bought the book, began reading it and literally started sobbing reading the first chapter. She somehow literally and perfectly described me. Thank you so much for recommending this book to me - I didn’t even know how much I needed to read it 💗
kenziemacbrown I am so glad, Mackenzie! I know the feeling. When I read the book Love Warrior, I sobbed reading every page because I felt so seen and understood in ways I couldn’t have explained before. I am so happy Still Waiting is encouraging to you. You have been a real blessing to me through your videos. I started watching because I was thinking of going to my first Disney audition, but I kept watching because it has been inspiring to see your story, positivity, vulnerability, and passion for what you do. I’m really grateful you share with us Brownies. 😊
I have Trichotillomania too. I've been pulling my eyebrows and eyelashes ever since I was 16 or just after I turned 17.and I'm 23 now. You are really brave to post this video about it. It's inspiring. =) And you definitely aren't alone in having it. I have people on my Instagram that have it as well. I also have a Trichotillomania Support Group on the Kik app.
Thank you so much for sharing Jenny! It's always so nice to know I'm not alone, even though it can definitely feel like that when the people that surround me don't struggle with it!
I've been struggling with this since early high school years on and off . It's been bad again cz of college being so bad lately & ugh I really just hate myself now. Thank you for sharing!
I had a REALLY bad in college too! It's hard because you're under SO much pressure to perform a certain way! I know there's not much I can say or do to help, but know I'll be thinking and praying for you and your struggles! If anything, know that you're not alone and I know EXACTLY what that feels like! When I had filmed this video I had just gotten out of college and you can see how much the stress got to me. The problem is I would do it because I was stressed, and then I would hate myself for being so weak and I was so disgusted with myself for not being strong enough to "just stop". But when I opened up and told friends and family about what I was struggling with, it allowed me to take control over it and not feel like it had as much of a hold over me. Once I realized that their love for me wouldn't change (even when I had absolutely no eyelashes at one point), it helped me to not hate myself as much and realize that I am defined by so much more than what I struggle with. You are SO much more than your struggles. Be proud that you're in college - that's an accomplishment in itself that not everyone is able to do! It's stressful, but you're working hard towards your education and that is so admirable and will get you far in life! You are so amazing and I am so impressed by your bravery of even just commenting about your struggles! I can't promise it'll ever be easy (I know for me that will never be true), but know you are not alone and your value is not determined by the things you struggle with!
kenziemacbrown thank you so much !! It really means a lot to me , your comment, thank you ! Yes college is stressful to me and a lot of people. I am actually a psych major (went to community college for 2 years - didn't get my associates cz I wanted to leave ASAP lol....& transferred to a 4 year college ) I'm 21 & started pulling my hair out around middle school, maybe 8th grade then stopped for a while and did it again sophomore year until senior year where it was really bad....then stopped for awhile & it recently started this past like 2-3 months . / I would stop myself & be fine but recently like the last month I've been pulling out so much and my bald spot is back 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄...I've been through a lot in the past year so it's just gotten really bad around my last few weeks of classes & finals .....sorry this is so long , thank you for replying & for this video ! It really helps me out & many others. Thank you so much :) 💕💕💕
Thank you for yet another wonderful video! You really are a joy to watch! I have thought about turning my blog into a RUclips channel to follow my health journey as I get back in shape for ONE MORE WDW audition before I "retire" haha. I did the the CP back in 2007 and I am about to be 31 so it will def be a challenge ha. I currently manage a dance studio and am def interested in being on the casting side of auditions. Any tips on working for Disney casting or how to get foot in the door? Thanks so much and keep up the awesome videos!!! Have a blessed week. :)
I also have almost no eyebrows and eyelashes. I hate having to find confidence in makeup but it's the only way I'll get out of the house. I've wanted to try false lashes but I feel that wearing them would draw attention to the people that know or have noticed and can't get myself to feel comfortable wearing them out with people I know... any suggestions? I've struggled for over 10 years now.
I would say to find lashes that look natural (so they're not super full) and they have varying lengths because your lashes aren't naturally all the same length and if you get lashes that are all the same length on the strip it will look more fake. I'll send some examples of "natural" looking lashes and "fake" looking lashes. And I would recommend practicing when you're at home and not planning on going anywhere because it does take a while to get the hang of applying false lashes. That way when you're ready to wear them out you know that they won't accidentally fall off. I fully support wearing lashes when you don't have any. Part of the problem with trich is the embarrassment that surrounds it. You're embarrassed that you struggle with it and you're even MORE embarrassed when you have literally no lashes (which is where I am right now to be honest). Wearing lashes helps boost your confidence (even though I don't care that much anymore if people know and it's not like I'm trying to hide it). It helps you feel more normal and (for me) reduces some of the shame surrounding it. For me, when I am more ashamed of it I find that I struggle the most with it - ironic right? So I try to do as much as possible to lower that shame by either covering it with false lashes or by being transparent about my struggles. So for you, I think you should do whatever will lower that shame you feel surrounding it! If that's wearing false lashes - do it! Or if you feel that would draw more attention, then just opt for some eyeliner to "fake" a lash line instead (I do it ALL the time). Everyone's struggle with this is different so you might have to try different things to figure out what works best for you. I am SO impressed by your bravery just to open up about your struggles alone! And please know that you're not alone and I will be here to help support you! :) Natural lashes: houseoflashes.com/lashes/lite-collection/boudoir-lite.html Fake-looking lashes: houseoflashes.com/catalog/product/view/id/6/s/femme-fatale/category/40/
I honestly didn't even notice your eyelashes until you said anything. I'm just glad that you handle your stress in this way, that doesn't cause much self harm instead of (like you said) alcohol and drugs. With this video, you're giving hope to countless people. Its really brave of you! keep up the good work :)
You are so sweet, thank you so much Jordyn!! It actually is a form of self harm (similar to cutting) even though I know it doesn't seem like it. But you're right, it's overall less damaging than alcohol and drugs! Struggling with something isn't easy to admit, but I realized that admitting it could benefit someone else struggling too!
Now that you say it, it makes total sense that it is self harm. Sorry, this is the first time I've heard of your condition. I'm just glad you're so thoughtful to everyone around you! I struggle with depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder, and an eating disorder. So its really nice to see that someone as amazing as you even struggles with similar things. You're a really kind person, I hope life treats you well!
You look so fresh faced and young youthful. Beautiful without makeup and don’t need it. You go girl! But as I’ve gotten older Im starting to appreciate the fresh faced look
+FattiApples you are so sweet, thank you!! I actually don’t wear makeup most of the time in real life, but I do love wearing it since I’m also a makeup artist!
I have trichotillomania and this made me cry. It started when I was younger as a nervous tick I guess, I would pull out the hair on my head. Then I beat that. But I still kinda have it cause I'll like always run my fingers through my hair and sometimes I pull it out. I've pulled out huge chunks of eyelashes, in fact, I have still have eyelashes growing back for my right eye. Whenever I feel like I'm close to beating it, I'll relapse and pull. And the worse part is I try to stop but it feels as if I have no control and it's hard to explain because I can't feel myself pulling but at the same time, I do feel it. Sometimes I'll pull at my eyebrows. And I wish I could stop. It's nice to know that many other people also suffer from this
+Allison Martin I can COMPLETELY understand where you're coming from! It's an impulse control disorder and the biggest misconception is that it's something that you can just stop. It's something you do impulsively and can't control and SO hard to resist! The best thing I've ever done is help raise awareness because being more aware helps me to have a better hold on it and makes it less of an impulse!
While I was watching another one of your videos, this video was suggested. Thinking it was a different RUclipsr, i just skipped. (Too far deep into disney!) When i was young (maybe the same age? Im not sure) i was diagnosed with dermatillomania (same thing essentially, i just pick at my skin instead). So happy to come across a video of someone in the same disorder community!
I too have trich and I have barely any eyebrows and have no upper lashes, and was wondering how you apply lashes because mine never stay up properly and I can never seem to position them correctly. Thank you and this video is wonderful!
Hi Catherine! It takes so much practice! I actually filmed a video of me applying false lashes when I had none, I just never got around to editing it and posting it. I will try to find it and post it for you! I find that it's easier to let the glue dry for 30 seconds before applying them. I also use tweezers to apply them to it can be super precise. When the glue is drying you can still move them and position them, but not too much otherwise the glue will lose its stickiness. It's kinda hard to explain, but I would just practice it a few times when you're not in a time crunch! That can make it harder to apply them when you're in a hurry!
It is easy to get an idea of having a persona, online or just publicly in general. There is a line between posting all "positive" stuff for a certain appearance but at the same time, people shouldn't be expected to dump their whole lives out there. Our society has become addicted to getting that information.
I would agree! I think whatever people want to share is ok, but we should realize we're not entitled to know everything about a person just because they post videos or pictures of themselves on the internet. Personally I think it's extremely destructive to constantly post "perfection" instead of reality and I would never want someone to think I have it all together when I don't. There's been so many countless times where I've found myself watching RUclips videos or scrolling through Instagram and feeling depressed because I can't live up to all the images of perfection. I think it's important to separate fiction from reality and recognize the importance of living life off of our phones and devices.
+Tess Eivers I'm sorry to hear that! I know what that feels like, sometimes I get so overwhelmed by the idea of spending time with friends it prevents me from hanging out with them at all. And then I feel anxious thinking about people doing things without me. It's like a never ending downward spiral! There are days where the last thing I want to do is hang out with friends. In those moments I just really push myself knowing that I won't regret it in the long run. Despite my introvertedness making me feel otherwise!
I wish I was pretty without makeup like you are. I am so ugly without it, I get positive attention when I wear it and sometimes feel beautiful but when I take it off I see the real me, and feel like I'm the ugliest person in the world
+Tess Eivers that makes me so sad to hear!! I can understand that feeling though. Especially after looking at beautiful (edited) girls on social media, it's easy to compare yourself. I get more positive attention when I wear makeup too. But it feels SO good to not wear makeup! To let your skin breathe! There are so many qualities that are so much prettier than having an socially accepted face. There's kindness, respect, humility, JOY (my favorite), compassion, thoughtfulness, selflessness, patience and empathy! Those are qualities that are more than skin deep and will last you a lifetime (a lot longer than a youthful face and body will)! I hope you will be able to find qualities about yourself that you love! I don't believe you could possibly be ugly, and please don't let anyone (especially yourself) tell you otherwise 💗
Haha I'm an introvert, but I love acting! To me being an introvert just means that I gain energy from being alone, like reading a book, playing with makeup, relaxing, going for a run, journaling, etc. Extroverts gain energy from being around people. So if I'm at a party with my boyfriend (who is an extrovert) I feel EXHAUSTED by the end of the night where he's full of energy! I also have a hard time feeling comfortable meeting new people, but it's easier for me when I'm acting because I'm focusing on it as a job. If that makes sense!
I've heard it can, I briefly tried it but I didn't like how it smelled to be honest. I've used Latisse for about a year now and I love it! I feel like it speeds up the process of helping my lashes grow back and it makes them grow back longer and thicker!
It is a serum that is made/used specifically for lash growth! It's made to help make your lashes longer and create more lashes as well. You just apply it to your lash line before you go to sleep every night and you'll see results in about a month or so! For me,I've noticed it helps my lashes grow back and it makes them stronger.
Thank you so much for this! I have trichotillomania too, and tend to pull out my eyebrows and eyelashes as well. I always have to wear so much makeup to try and cover it up because I get so embarrassed. I've never met anyone else with this, so it's really nice to hear your story and know I'm not alone
Awww thank you so much for being brave enough to comment!! I feel the same way! Right now I'm missing like all of my eyelashes on both of my eyes and I cover it up every day. Have you ever tried false lashes? I've noticed that it's easier for me when I'm wearing false lashes because when my hand goes up it's a reminder for me not to touch my eyes. That's really helped me! And honestly, you commenting helps me too! It's a good reminder for myself that I'm not alone :)
I'm the same right now... missing most of an eyebrow and a lot of lashes on the left side. I'm unfortunately allergic to every brand of eyelash glue I've tried. What seems to help is keeping my hands busy but thats of course not always possible. Thanks for your lovely response. If you ever need someone to talk about it too, send me a message or something :)
xxJodelleFerlandxx Hey love, I know this comment wasn't directed towards me but I noticed you said you were allergic to eyelash glue so I wanted to give you some suggestions! I have chemical sensitivities and I'm able to use the georgie beauty eyelash glue in clear because it's non toxic. (Although it does dry white so you have to go over it with eyeliner) but it does contain latex so another option is True Glue, which I believe is latex free and non toxic and even safe to use when you're pregnant! Hope this can be helpful to you!❤
I have it too..but have hope. One day i woke up and didnt anymore. I went from no eyelashes..eyebrows..and hair..like on my head to growth everywhere...just showing some love for ur courage. Im proud of you for being able to try and talk to others.
You are amazing!! As someone who struggles with dysmorphia this hit very close to home. And I have gone on a self love and acceptance journey and your video couldn't have come at a better time in my life. I agree with you about the superficial stuff that doesn't make you YOU! I am right with you about trying to make a difference!!! Keep on spreading the love and positivity ❤️❤️❤️❤️
I am SO glad I had the wonderful opportunity to meet you at IMATS years ago even though our time together was brief! You are such a kind person and you have a wonderful light about you! It breaks my heart that you've struggled with dysmorphia because you have such a kind and loving soul! Thank you for the encouragement, and know that I think you are so beautiful and wonderful Nancy!!
Oh my gosh! Thank you for being so honest and open! And you are definitely NOT alone, because you made me feel that I am no longer the only one dealing with that exact feeling. Dealing with anxiety since the fifth grade has also made me extremely self conscious, and being an introvert myself...the anxiety and the after effects only made it worse! I recently viewed your Disney Audition video and thought you were incredible and beautiful. I'm ashamed to say that I got down because I convinced myself that I could never be beautiful too.... but I watched this video and hearing your words inspired me beyond what words can describe. You are beautiful inside and out, and thank for reminding young ladies like me that we are beautiful too. Lovely Lady keep inspiring! I look forward to future posts, and you've gained a new subscriber and insa follower :-).
Wow, thank you so much Anne! I appreciate your support more than words could say! I often feel like this life is too short to waste it and in whatever I pursue in life I want to spend it helping others to be the best version of themselves. It was pretty evident to me on how to do that while I was working for Disney, and I'm still trying to figure out what that looks like now that I've moved on. As hard as videos like these are to make, I felt like it was necessary in accomplishing my goals! I think people are all beautiful in their own way, despite society telling us what beauty is supposed to look like. I'm hard on myself too for not looking a certain way. But I'm reminded that I'm beautiful and I have value despite the way I look on the outside. It took me a while to figure that out, and I don't always remember it. But at the end of the day, it's still true!
Wow your transparency is inspiring! You're beautiful and I love that you are learning to love yourself with and without makeup. I am encouraged by your message and your passion to encourage others to love themselves! Keep it up! ❤️
Thank you so much Abby!! Your support means so much, and I truly appreciate it! :)
Thank you for posting about this!! I've dealt with dermatillomania for the past 13 years, I had trichotillomania when I was younger but due to excessive bullying I starting to pick at my skin to cope instead. My mom just passed away this passed November and I've been really struggling to keep my icd disorders under control. I've watched your videos for the past week and already feel so connected to you and this has really helped me deal with everything I've been going through. Keep doing what you're doing!!!
Thank you for being so honest and open ❤️
This is definitely my favorite video I've seen so far on your channel. I've admired your makeup in others, but I think you really show your true self here and it's really humbling! Not enough of this exists on the internet, I'm grateful that you've added some self-positivity to it :)
This was so amazing and beautiful. Thank you so much for doing this
You're welcome! It wasn't easy but I felt like it was important!
This is so inspiring! I know you met a million people when you hung out with Ariel over the months, but I met her 3 different times and then was lucky enough to stumble upon your instagram. I just wanted to tell you how much I look up to you for sharing this with the world. Your youtube channel is AMAZING and I would have never known you were so introverted when I met Princess Ariel. Keep sharing your talents with the world and I am so excited to watch your journey through it all!
Thank you so much for sharing that with me Chelsea!!! I appreciate the love and support so much! Honestly I've always loved acting and sometimes for me it's easier to act than it is to be myself! You have such a kind and beautiful heart and I truly appreciate all of your kind words! :)
Im legitimately 2:30 into this video, and I'm already in love with this idea!! You are so strong, and I believe more people should be open to sharing who they truly are to the world!
Thank you so much Noel!! It definitely wasn't easy to share, but I felt like it was so necessary! If anything, it was a good reminder to myself of who I am so I can stay grounded in that. It can be too easy to get caught up in the superficiality of beauty!
I really really appreciate you posting this video and putting yourself out there like this!! I've been dealing with trich since 4th or 5th grade as well and I hate feeling ashamed and constantly worrying if other people can notice it. I didn't realize it was so common until I recently looked it up on RUclips. It's such a relief to know that we don't have to be alone and can help each other cope and overcome this. Thank you so much for spreading awareness!! You are gorgeous with and without makeup!
I LOVE this, thank you SO much for sharing that with me Jillian!! I felt the EXACT same way, I was so ashamed of it for so long. I felt like a freak and an outcast. If I had opened up sooner I would've seen how many people there were out there just like me! Just by you commenting and being brave enough to admit you struggle with it to has shown me again that I'm not alone! This may sound weird, but posting this video has truly helped me SO much because of all the wonderful people like you who have shown me I'm not alone in my struggles. The more we encourage each other the better we are at facing our struggles! Thank you again so much for being brave enough to comment on your trich struggles!
This really touches me in a way that I cannot explain. I have never seen any RUclipsr who has said they suffer from trich, and seeing you say something really mades me proud. I also deal trich and it honestly sucks, because it got really bad in 7th grade and people asked me what happened and if I just wanted to shave off my eyebrow. When I would tell them about it they would just nod and walk away. Nobody could really understand the disorder and it kind of sucks. Hearing you say something about this makes me so happy and knowing that I am not alone out here makes me feel more confident. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for posting this. It really means a lot.
I can completely understand exactly what that feels like. You're already ashamed of it in the first place, and it makes it worse attempting to explain it to people. I would constantly get asked from friends and family why I wouldn't just stop. It's so hard to try to explain that. I feel like it has helped me exponentially knowing that I'm not alone and actively helping myself to stop! Honestly talking with people who get it really helps me, so thank you so much for your comment! It helped me feel less alone too!
I just came across your videos and subscribed to you a couple days ago and already I can feel how much you and your story have inspired me. You are such a beautiful human. Thank you so much for sharing your story!!!
You are so sweet, thank you so much! It definitely wasn't an easy video to post, but I knew that it was important knowing how much it helped me to see other people on RUclips being open about their struggles!
I think it's so incredible that you had the courage to post this at all. So many people are terrified to be who they truly are for fear of what other people will think, but the fact that you got past that and posted this is so inspiring
Omg you just showed up on my recommended for one of your Disney videos and i looked through your channel and found this. I have trichotillomania too and I've been in therapy for a couple months now but I've had it for about 9 years. But I am so happy I found this channel. You seem like such a genuine positive person and 100% have my sub
Thank you so much for sharing your story!! I know just admitting to struggling with trich can be SO hard to do! I think sometimes it's difficult to create videos on it, but do you have any other video ideas for trich or anxiety? I definitely don't want this to be my only video on this subject, but I'm not sure what else I could say or talk about that I didn't already mention in this video. I would love to continue to be open about trich since so many people struggle with it but don't talk about it!
kenziemacbrown I personally think you should just keep bringing a positive and uplifting vibe :D whether it's talking about more personal experiences or sharing ways to cope or just venting, the positivity you bring does so much! Also I already said you're very genuine and that helps show how even the most successful of people have problems too and it's a good message to share with everyone :) you have a very humble and carefree personality (from what I can tell haha) and it just makes it so easy for us to relate to you!!
Thank you so much for that perspective! Since that video was filmed a few years ago it would be good to do an update (even though not much has changed). But I feel like I've learned more about it and myself since I filmed that!
Just lowkey marathoned a bunch of your Disney videos at work! Loved this one. I really like what you said about talents not being what makes you valuable and probably not lasting forever. I've never thought about that before. It just goes to show that the most important and valuable thing you can do is be a good person and to do good for other people.
Thank you! I haven't watched this video in a while, but it sounds like I might benefit from re-watching it! I posted it about a year after I made it. I filmed it and then I was too embarrassed to post it. A year later I happened to find it after I was deleting old files and I re-watched the whole thing. I was going through a rough spot and this video actually helped me to refocus on what was really important. I figured if my own video could help me then I hoped it might be able to help others too :)
It is EXTREMELY rare to come across a RUclips video with any kind of views that has 0 dislikes. It's just one of the indicators of the superb quality inherent in this video. Mackenzie, thank you so much for being BOLDLY BARE!! You're an inspiration! God bless! :-D
Thanks Oliver! I didn't even know this video had any dislikes, usually mine have a few here and there (I've just learned to accept it). But that's kinda cool! I'm glad you liked the video, I hope to do more like this one in the future :)
Such a beautiful message, I absolutely love this video Kenzie! You hit the nail right on the head. The way social media is set up, it can be so difficult to see others living what looks like the perfect life and not feel that pang of jealousy or longing for something more like what they have. I've felt alone for a long time because of mental health stigma and how taboo it feels to reveal what I go through- the many reasons why I see a therapist, the meds I take for different things, damaging thoughts I've had, etc. But we're in an age where more and more people are coming to terms with it being ok to share that everything's not ok, so long as you're comfortable with it, and it's ok if someone will never be comfortable sharing those things or if it takes years and years to start opening up because everyone is different. Of all the people I know who have anxiety, including myself, I know for sure no two of us have had the same experience, but it's comforting knowing that we're all just trying to go through our lives as best we can in spite of the circumstances that aren't always out there for everyone to see at all times. Thank you so much for this again, I totally understand why you held onto it for a few years before posting, but you have some really inspiring words that lots of us need to hear.
+Lara Akal thank you so much for that beautiful response! Obviously it's not easy having to deal with anxiety and depression but in some ways I'm glad I have to struggle with it because it allows me to relate in a really unique way to people! Like I know, you totally get me! And as hard as it is to post a video like this because I am opening myself up, I'm so glad I did because it gave me the opportunity to connect with people like you! So thank you, for also having the courage to respond and share your perspective on it!
You are very brave to disclose such personal info. I don't have ocd but my daughter does and it's so important to get the word out. You r definitely a very special young lady
Marylynne Roberts I truly wish I had the ability to connect with people when I was younger like I can now! I think it would've really helped! I hope your daughter can see she's not alone and find comfort in that! For me, that's brought me the most peace is knowing how many other people struggle with OCD or ICD disorders too!
Thank you so much for sharing and being open about yourself. This video has honestly made me feel empowered! Especially as a person who deals with illnesses in the anxiety spectrum, your story is reassuring me that I am not alone in this. Thank you and love you ❤
RebeccaMuñeca so much love for you!! It wasn't easy for me to post this but I'm so grateful I did because it allowed me to hear other people's stories and have the chance to connect with them too! ❤️
Amazing words from an amazing lady 😍
This is very awesome.
Thank you so much!
I love wearing makeup but I don't wear it everyday. Like you said, I'm just comfortable with that aspect of myself. There are things I struggle with, like mental health ,that I'm very self conscious of.
kaitlynashleyful I think it's natural to be self conscious of it, I know I'll always be! All we want is to feel normal and loved and I think it's very intimidating to share a part of ourselves that might inhibit those things!
I found your channel because of the Disney videos, but when I saw that there was a video by you with trich in the title on the side, I did a double take, and now I am almost crying! I have derma, and I have had it since 7th grade. I ALWAYS wonder where the other people with BFRB are--seeing you and that you are struggling with the same thing as me (almost), I cant believe how badly I needed this. I think that you might be my new hero. I am so, so thankful to have met you through youtube. Thank you so much Mackenzie
Just kidding, I'm crying for real now :')'''
No amount of make up can ever stand up to a girls smile. You are beautiful and i hope you have a great day!
I respect you so much for opening up about this. I pick my skin compulsively to the point that my face, arms, and thighs are noticeably scarred and don't have the words to say how much I relate. I picked the habit up as a child too and felt so isolated about it at times. It's good to remember I'm in very good company.
Thank you so much Paulina!! As hard as it was for sharing, it's been so nice to read comments like yours, because it reminds me that I'm not alone either! :)
I love this so much. I'm just wondering how it was dealing with anxiety while working at Disney? Were you ever anxious while working your shifts, was improv ever scary for you?
I never felt super anxious during my shifts, but I would feel really drained after some of them and that would cause anxiety. Although I never experienced any panic attacks while I was there (and I've experienced about 10 or so in my life thus far) which was good! Improv wasn't scary the more I got used to it. I realized no one would know if I messed up and that was a huge saving grace for when I did! But truth be told I still have anxiety dreams about going out on set and not knowing what to do! Haha even though that never happened while I was there!
This honestly was one of the videos that made me want to subscribe to you channel. You post, real honest content. Thank you.
Awww thank you so much!! I really appreciate it!
You are such an inspiration! I've been watching your videos and following your Instagram for a while now and think you are wonderful. I love your honesty and I hope people accept you for who are because I think you are so talented and trichotillomania does not define you! Thank you for inspiring me! You are beautiful!
Thank you SO much Kelly! You have no idea how much I appreciate you saying that! Even though my goal is to lift others up I still need to be lifted up some times too! Thank you so much for your beautiful, kind and encouraging words! You have made my day! :)
Thank you ❤️ this is everything I needed to hear and more.
I'm so glad to hear it! :)
Wow!! I'm so glad I came across this video! Can I just say how grateful I am to you for being so brave and posting this. I've suffered from trichotillamania since fourth grade, and everything that you said happened to you and the struggles you faced happened to me too! I still struggle with it to this day, but your video has given me so much more confidence in who I am and what I look like! I'm also hopefully auditioning this fall for the DCP character auditions, so it's given me even more confidence seeing that you successfully worked as a character performer even with this condition:) Thank you for inspiring me to love myself as I am!
Your comment just warmed my heart!! Thank you so much for being brave enough to comment! Honestly that was my biggest fear for so long - that my struggles would prevent me from fulfilling my dreams! Luckily when I was auditioning I worked really hard and had a full set of lashes. There were times when I was working though when my lashes would get thin (and I would just use little flare false lashes (like the individual ones) to fill in the gaps. I am so glad this has encouraged you to still pursue your dreams despite what your struggles might be!! Thank you again for your wonderful comment! :)
Aw I'm so glad! Thank you so much! I'm going to try and work my hardest to have great eyelashes by the time auditions roll around:) Thanks again for being such an inspiration and making the best videos, you rock!!
It's always good to have a goal too! I think sometimes you get in the mind set of "what's the point" but when you have a goal (like the auditions) it forces you to really think about what's important! Obviously no one really wants to struggle with it, but sometimes it's just easier to give up and give in. But I think having a goal is a great way to try to fight against it!
Thank you so much for sharing your story!!! you are so brave!!! I admire your sincerety!!! I can't do any social media at all. I have anxiety and depression, take meds but can't get myself to be a part of a world where everyone posts either their greatest or worst moments....i feel like there's no in between. It's just not for me. I love surrounding myself with my lil' family clan, and that makes me happy!!! I am also am introvert and dont need to socialize in order to be happy. I'm very independent that way. Even though to someone looking in it may seem lonely. My son has autism and as his advocate, i know how important it is to educate people. Sharing your story somehow makes us a part of the same community! Again, thank you for sharing your story!
I feel like I can relate, especially with social media! It's way to easy to get wrapped up in it, and slowly start to believe it defines your worth and value. I think it does more harm than good, but I am really thankful for it too! It gave me a space to express my creativity and find like-minded people in a way that wouldn't have been possible previously. But I would 100% agree, surrounding yourself with good friends and family is most important!
As so many say, beauty is never just about looks it is about personality and what resides in your heart and soul! Great video and great example to young ladies and very young girls. So very important to love yourself first for who you are before you can expect to be able to love some else or to be able to experience love from others. Wonderful video!
Thank you so much! I can't say it's always easy to do, but it's so important to love ourselves - flaws and all! It's hard when all we see on social media are perfected versions of other people's lives.
I watched this video for the first time months ago, but hadn't commented. I come back to it every so often because it stuck with me. I just wanted to say how much I appreciate you posting this. We all have our struggles and talking about them makes us feel less alone. I've had my own stress induced issues, which took years to overcome. I might talk about them in a video someday, if I feel it may help others. This video and the overwhelmingly positive response to it makes me realize being vulnerable is not something to be scared about. Best wishes to you!
This is truly the best comment I've read in a long time and I'm so glad you finally wrote it! It can be so easy (even after posting videos like this) to get back into a rut and feel like you're completely alone with your struggles. But what's easy to forget is that it is a HUGE world and there are SO many people struggling with the same (or similar) things and we're not alone! Thank you so much for reminding me of that! I've been struggling with this a lot recently but I feel like I might finally be seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.
kenziemacbrown I hope it gets easier for you. I think you being self-aware and realizing you're struggling with something, something that in the end does not define you, is already a huge step. Though things have gotten a lot easier for me, I still have to make a daily effort not to fall into negative thinking. At least now I'm aware of what I'm doing, which was not the case in my teens. Have a beautiful day and week ❤️
Wow thank you so much for posting this. For years I struggled with the compulsion to pull out my hair and I'm just finding out now that it's a real thing that other people have
I felt the same way too, and I was too afraid to talk about! You'd be surprised how many people actually struggle with it! Once I went to college and opened up more to my friends about it, I realized that all of them either had struggled with it to some extent or knew someone who did! That was really helpful to me because some of my shame associated with it stemmed from me feeling like I was an outsider or that I wouldn't fit in because of it. It really does feel like a weight lifted off your shoulders when you realize you're not alone :)
I've always had a nail biting problem, but when my anxiety got into the higher levels, I began pulling out the hair at the crown of my head. I was and still am embarrassed by it, but knowing that there are other people out there with the same problems as me really helps. It's more common than we think, but not talked about enough. you're doing something special by starting the conversation.
Thanks Corinne, and thank you for sharing too!! As I've gotten older my anxiety surrounding it has really decreased because I've learned that a lot of people struggle with it, they just are afraid to talk about it! Seeing other people on RUclips make videos discussing it really made me want to join in the conversation! I've realize the more we talk about it, the less it has a hold on us :)
Thank you Kenzie for being courageous and sharing your thoughts and struggles through this video. Thank you for inspiring us all to accept our imperfections and to love ourselves for who we naturally are. ♡♡ You are such a wonderful and beautiful human being, and I agree wholeheartedly with everything you have said about social media and society creating impossible standards of beauty for the average human to meet. You have always been an honest and open person and I hope others will see your passion and dedication to all the creativity that you do. ♡♡
I've struggled with trichotillomania for 14 years, when it's at it's worst I have bald patches in my scalp. You are not alone. You are beautiful.
You are so sweet, thank you for that! It's always a nice reminder to know that I'm not alone! :)
You are not alone.
I’ve struggle with Trichotillomania for about 4-5 years. I personally pull my hair on my head out. Still something I struggle with.
It’s definitely nice to see other humans who struggle with the same thing. ❤️
Thanks Autumn! Yeah, still struggling with it too! Just took out half of my eyelashes on my right eye on Sunday :( but I still keep fighting it as best I can and it does help so much knowing I'm not alone! So thank you!
I hope you have a good year! God bless you my friend. :)
You're such an inspiration. This video gave me so much relief. I have trichotillomaina. I have anxiety too, and I don't wanna go too in depth about it. I thought I was alone and when I told my friends they looked at me really weirdly and it made me even more self conscious about it. I thought I was alone and that I was crazy. In 4th and 5th grade I started. I had no eyebrows and no eyelashes. And I now do my legs and arms. And I feel like its better... but not better. I also do my hairs on my face as well. Its just not my eyebrows and lashes. I would just like to thank you for helping me realize I'm not alone.
You are so sweet and so brave to go through that! I am truly so thankful to have friends and family who can understand even though they've never experienced it themselves. I think the worst question people can ask is "why don't you just stop?". I think people who don't go through it think its crazy because they just can't understand having an impulse control disorder when they've never experienced it. If there's any way I can help or give support please let me know! You are definitely not alone, and I completely understand that feeling about being self conscious about it!
kenziemacbrown thank you!! Your comment made my month honestly. ❤️❤️I love you so much!! Just, thank you, again.
This is an old old video, but I have the exact same thing!! I’ve always had this (it was worse in elementary and middle school), and it’s so cool to find someone else who’s open with having it. I’ve had countless bald spots on my head, eyebrows and eyelashes. That’s why hats became a big part of me. It’s so cool to find someone else who has this!
It's an old video, but unfortunately I'm still struggling with it! Which reminds me, I probably should do an update video! You are definitely not alone! Sadly it's just highly under-reported because there's so much shame associated with it.
You are beautiful and brave. Thank you for showing that it's okay to be exactly who you are, no filters. I am so so so blessed to have come across your channel. Please keep on being you because you have challenged me to grow as a person. You being bold is outstanding, the person that complimented you was so right - you are beautiful, but not because of the makeup.
You are so sweet, thank you so much Samantha! It definitely wasn't easy to post but I felt like it was really necessary. I feel like social media can really drag me down when I just mindlessly scroll through and see perfected versions of other people's lives. It always makes me feel better when I see other people make posts or videos like this, it reminds me that we're all struggling with something. My greatest goal is that my channel can both help brighten up people's days and remind them they're not alone in whatever they're struggling with!
I completely get that - perfection looks so easily attainable for others on social media. You are succeeding with that goal, as evidenced by the comments and love for you just on this video, and I appreciate you!
How did you overcome anxiety and being an introvert to become a performer? I have those struggles but I came across your channel because I so badly want to do the Disney College Program.
Hi Angelina! I'm so sorry for the delayed response, I just saw this! For some reason I've never had a problem performing and I've been performing (acting and dancing) since I was a kid! For me, I can focus on embodying my role (as a dancer or the character I'm performing) and it helps me focus less on being an introvert. Usually I have lines or choreography I'm focusing on remembering that takes the majority of my attention. Being a performer was trickier because it's basically all improv. But I was so focused on what my character would say, do, respond, act, think it helped me focus less on what Mackenzie would say, do, respond, act, think. I hope that kinda makes sense! When I'm performing I'm able to think outside myself and I'm focused so much on my role I'm not as self-conscious about what other people are thinking about me.
thank you for this. i also have trich and this really touched my heart. i could never post a video about it, i am so ashamed of it even if i can’t help it. but again thank you for posting this and being so open about it it’s very inspiring (sorry if this didn’t make any sense)
That makes total sense! Even when I'm surrounded by people who love and support me I'm still so ashamed of it. I feel like what makes it hard is we feel like we can control it and we feel ashamed when we give into it. I hope it somehow get easier for you 💗
that's so true. thank you I hope it gets easier for you as well💗
You’ve come so far and you’re amazing
Thank you so much Hannah! It's something I still struggle with but I have come a long way in terms of loving myself and giving myself more grace :)
I am 35 y/o and when I was 9 started scratching my head until it sometimes bled (a lot too). Luckily at 32 years old it went away on its own. Idk if it was getting older, medication changes or what it was. But I've been free of it for 3 years. The worst it ever got was when i was in my late teens to mid twenties. I think anxiety is to blame, but I'm so glad I don't have to hide all of the sores anymore and washing my hair no longer burns, or I don't waste endless hours picking. For anyone who has these issues please know, there is hope.
Edit: Have hope because I used to be the world's worst at it honestly. It took up hours of my life a day. And I guess I am trying to say, when it's time you will stop doing it one day. Have faith in your ability to be free of it one day. I did notice that when I stopped trying to stop it just went away after 20 years. There is hope!
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Oh my gosh I am almost in tears!!
This hit me soooo hard.
Aww!! I am so glad that my video helped you figure that out! It's definitely one of those things that no one really talks about or puts a name to it so you just think it's a weird thing you do and you don't even know why! I felt like SUCH an outcast or a weirdo when I was diagnosed with it in fourth grade. But as I've gotten older and social media has gotten bigger it has been easier for me to meet other people who struggle with it just like me! I think that's what I love most about RUclips is it's ability to connect people who weren't able to previously :)
***** EXACTLY how I felt/feel!!!! So true!!!!
kenziemacbrown so I just bought Ardell lashes today on clearance at Marshalls thanks to your recommendation!!! Cannot wait to try them out!!!!♥️♥️♥️
I love this video!!!! Thanks for being brace enough to post it!
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Thanks Krista for the love and support!! :)
This is amazing. Thank you so much for starting this and being so open. Everything you said about our society today was SPOT ON!!!!!
Can you do a video talking about being a face performer in Disney while also being this person (you) that you speak about in this video. For example, you talk about not wanting attention or to stand out in anyway and how it gives you anxiety yet being a face performer and a performer ... all the attention is on you and everyone is staring at you and seeking your attention. Is it because you're hiding behind the character? Even still, I have pretty bad body dysmophia and even if I was being a character, I would still get self conscious of people making comments about the character (good and bad) or staring and analyzing me.
Again, really loved this!
Thank you so much Lily!! This is such a great question! For me, I've always used acting as a creative way to express myself. When I'm performing (in shows or at Disney) I really get in the mind set of the character and honestly it makes me less nervous to be performing than to be myself. I'm so concentrated on that character or that role I'm not worrying about how people will perceive me. This might not make a ton of sense, but it's what's helped me! Even when I was in middle school and I had to present I would mentally pretend like I was acting as a presenter and it actually helped me focus on my task rather than how people are perceiving me!
When I was performing at Disney specifically, I was so much in the mind set of my character and focused on coming up with stories that it didn't give me the time to worry about how people are perceiving me as a person. I knew they could only see the character, and the more comfortable I got with my character's story the easier it was for me! It definitely was still hard for me in the beginning, but with more practice it got easier for me to separate my role as a performer and me as a person. I think I still might answer this question in a Q&A because I think it's a great question! I hope all that makes sense/answers your question!
I just watched a bunch of your videos but this video made me subscribe. I suffer with trichotillomania also and it's rly hard cuz no one else I know struggles with it. I watched ur Disney videos and u did look like u had the perfect life and this video made me respect you so much ❤
Thank you SO much Bridget! It was so hard for me for so long believing that I was suffering alone. I wanted to share my passions on this channel but I also wanted to be real and open as well. I think transparency is really important because too often on RUclips or Instagram we see images of people who do look like they have perfect lives. Then we get down on ourselves for not looking the same way! While I have been extremely blessed to have the opportunities I've had in life, I still want to transparent about my struggles too!
I love everything about this video! Thank you for posting
Thank you so much for sharing. My daughter's name is also Makenzie(spelled differently of course) she has had Trich since 11 months. She will be 4 next month and got her first wig yesterday. It is so nice to hear about others dealing with this and to know she is not alone.
Thank you so much for sharing Maura! That's amazing she developed it so young! I think one of the biggest misconceptions about trich is that it's a choice, and that it's something we can control. Knowing how young she was actually brings me peace as a reminder that it's not something I can fully control. I used to get so frustrated when my family would tell me "just stop" or "just do something else". I used to think that if I had enough brain power I could stop it, or it was something I chose to do. I know now that's not fully the case, and as trich has become more public it's brought me comfort to see how I'm really not alone!
kenziemacbrown I wish it was more public Kenzie's pediatrician didn't even know what it was. I had to push and push and then finally I figured out what was wrong. I found her a therapist before the drs suggested it. I think teachers and even doctors should be more informed. She keeps complaining randomly that her stomach hurts could that be anxiety? We got her a wig over the weekend and she seems to be liking it.
Love this!! 😊😊😊
GIRL! I first clicked on ur Disney audition video because u looked so pretty. I have trich too!! I started in 7th grade when I was 12 & I'll be 23 on Friday. A 10+ yr battle 💔 I pull my lashes & throughout every yr since I have periods where I pull ALL of my lashes out & then wait for them to grow back. After I pull I get SO mad at myself & then "here we go again" lining my lash line with eyeliner or wear false lashes to hide it. I'm ashamed of my disorder & I feel like other people don't understand. I relate to u & it brings me peace to hear ur story.
I am right there with you!! I recently pulled out all of my eyelashes on both eyes and they're finally just starting to grow back in! I'm trying really hard not to ruin the progress! It's so frustrating, and I'm so hard on myself. I've come to terms knowing that I'll probably struggle with it the rest of my life and have cut myself some slack. What's helped me the most is opening up to my friends and family and knowing that they still love me regardless if I have hair on my face or not! Thank you for having the courage to comment on my video! It brings me peace too, reminding myself that there's someone else out there struggling with the exact same thing :)
This video was really powerful to watch, Mackenzie! I just wanted to thank you for sharing and choosing to empower others from the inside and out with your story. I often struggle with that letting people see my imperfections, but it was so encouraging to see you be yourself. I hope to get there myself one day soon.
On a side note, I’m not normally a “Go read this!” type of person, but I recently heard about this book Still Waiting by Ann Swindell on my favorite Christian podcast, and I believe the author also deals with trichotillomania and discusses it in her book. I don’t know if that would be helpful for you, but it has always helped me to hear stories like my own to know how many life sisters I have in the world even if we haven’t met. I’m wishing you the best, Mackenzie, and thank you again for sharing! This means a lot.
Thank you so much for recommending that book! I love reading, so I'll have to check it out! I think it's really neat to see how much stuff there is out there on trichotillomania. As a kid I remember just seeing a page on Wikipedia and that was it. I love hearing other people's stories who struggle with it too!
Serena Bethala I just wanted to let you know that I bought the book, began reading it and literally started sobbing reading the first chapter. She somehow literally and perfectly described me. Thank you so much for recommending this book to me - I didn’t even know how much I needed to read it 💗
kenziemacbrown I am so glad, Mackenzie! I know the feeling. When I read the book Love Warrior, I sobbed reading every page because I felt so seen and understood in ways I couldn’t have explained before. I am so happy Still Waiting is encouraging to you. You have been a real blessing to me through your videos. I started watching because I was thinking of going to my first Disney audition, but I kept watching because it has been inspiring to see your story, positivity, vulnerability, and passion for what you do. I’m really grateful you share with us Brownies. 😊
I have Trichotillomania too. I've been pulling my eyebrows and eyelashes ever since I was 16 or just after I turned 17.and I'm 23 now. You are really brave to post this video about it. It's inspiring. =) And you definitely aren't alone in having it. I have people on my Instagram that have it as well. I also have a Trichotillomania Support Group on the Kik app.
Thank you so much for sharing Jenny! It's always so nice to know I'm not alone, even though it can definitely feel like that when the people that surround me don't struggle with it!
I've been struggling with this since early high school years on and off . It's been bad again cz of college being so bad lately & ugh I really just hate myself now. Thank you for sharing!
I had a REALLY bad in college too! It's hard because you're under SO much pressure to perform a certain way! I know there's not much I can say or do to help, but know I'll be thinking and praying for you and your struggles! If anything, know that you're not alone and I know EXACTLY what that feels like! When I had filmed this video I had just gotten out of college and you can see how much the stress got to me.
The problem is I would do it because I was stressed, and then I would hate myself for being so weak and I was so disgusted with myself for not being strong enough to "just stop". But when I opened up and told friends and family about what I was struggling with, it allowed me to take control over it and not feel like it had as much of a hold over me. Once I realized that their love for me wouldn't change (even when I had absolutely no eyelashes at one point), it helped me to not hate myself as much and realize that I am defined by so much more than what I struggle with.
You are SO much more than your struggles. Be proud that you're in college - that's an accomplishment in itself that not everyone is able to do! It's stressful, but you're working hard towards your education and that is so admirable and will get you far in life! You are so amazing and I am so impressed by your bravery of even just commenting about your struggles! I can't promise it'll ever be easy (I know for me that will never be true), but know you are not alone and your value is not determined by the things you struggle with!
kenziemacbrown thank you so much !! It really means a lot to me , your comment, thank you ! Yes college is stressful to me and a lot of people. I am actually a psych major (went to community college for 2 years - didn't get my associates cz I wanted to leave ASAP lol....& transferred to a 4 year college ) I'm 21 & started pulling my hair out around middle school, maybe 8th grade then stopped for a while and did it again sophomore year until senior year where it was really bad....then stopped for awhile & it recently started this past like 2-3 months . / I would stop myself & be fine but recently like the last month I've been pulling out so much and my bald spot is back 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄...I've been through a lot in the past year so it's just gotten really bad around my last few weeks of classes & finals .....sorry this is so long , thank you for replying & for this video ! It really helps me out & many others. Thank you so much :) 💕💕💕
Thank you for yet another wonderful video! You really are a joy to watch! I have thought about turning my blog into a RUclips channel to follow my health journey as I get back in shape for ONE MORE WDW audition before I "retire" haha. I did the the CP back in 2007 and I am about to be 31 so it will def be a challenge ha. I currently manage a dance studio and am def interested in being on the casting side of auditions. Any tips on working for Disney casting or how to get foot in the door? Thanks so much and keep up the awesome videos!!! Have a blessed week. :)
I love this! Such inspiration! ❤
I also have almost no eyebrows and eyelashes. I hate having to find confidence in makeup but it's the only way I'll get out of the house. I've wanted to try false lashes but I feel that wearing them would draw attention to the people that know or have noticed and can't get myself to feel comfortable wearing them out with people I know... any suggestions? I've struggled for over 10 years now.
I would say to find lashes that look natural (so they're not super full) and they have varying lengths because your lashes aren't naturally all the same length and if you get lashes that are all the same length on the strip it will look more fake. I'll send some examples of "natural" looking lashes and "fake" looking lashes. And I would recommend practicing when you're at home and not planning on going anywhere because it does take a while to get the hang of applying false lashes. That way when you're ready to wear them out you know that they won't accidentally fall off.
I fully support wearing lashes when you don't have any. Part of the problem with trich is the embarrassment that surrounds it. You're embarrassed that you struggle with it and you're even MORE embarrassed when you have literally no lashes (which is where I am right now to be honest). Wearing lashes helps boost your confidence (even though I don't care that much anymore if people know and it's not like I'm trying to hide it). It helps you feel more normal and (for me) reduces some of the shame surrounding it. For me, when I am more ashamed of it I find that I struggle the most with it - ironic right? So I try to do as much as possible to lower that shame by either covering it with false lashes or by being transparent about my struggles.
So for you, I think you should do whatever will lower that shame you feel surrounding it! If that's wearing false lashes - do it! Or if you feel that would draw more attention, then just opt for some eyeliner to "fake" a lash line instead (I do it ALL the time). Everyone's struggle with this is different so you might have to try different things to figure out what works best for you. I am SO impressed by your bravery just to open up about your struggles alone! And please know that you're not alone and I will be here to help support you! :)
Natural lashes: houseoflashes.com/lashes/lite-collection/boudoir-lite.html
Fake-looking lashes: houseoflashes.com/catalog/product/view/id/6/s/femme-fatale/category/40/
I honestly didn't even notice your eyelashes until you said anything. I'm just glad that you handle your stress in this way, that doesn't cause much self harm instead of (like you said) alcohol and drugs. With this video, you're giving hope to countless people. Its really brave of you! keep up the good work :)
You are so sweet, thank you so much Jordyn!! It actually is a form of self harm (similar to cutting) even though I know it doesn't seem like it. But you're right, it's overall less damaging than alcohol and drugs! Struggling with something isn't easy to admit, but I realized that admitting it could benefit someone else struggling too!
Now that you say it, it makes total sense that it is self harm. Sorry, this is the first time I've heard of your condition. I'm just glad you're so thoughtful to everyone around you! I struggle with depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder, and an eating disorder. So its really nice to see that someone as amazing as you even struggles with similar things. You're a really kind person, I hope life treats you well!
So inspired by you ❤️
Awww thank you!! :)
You look so fresh faced and young youthful. Beautiful without makeup and don’t need it. You go girl! But as I’ve gotten older Im starting to appreciate the fresh faced look
+FattiApples you are so sweet, thank you!! I actually don’t wear makeup most of the time in real life, but I do love wearing it since I’m also a makeup artist!
Thank you so much for sharing this. 💗
Thank you for being you!
I have trichotillomania and this made me cry. It started when I was younger as a nervous tick I guess, I would pull out the hair on my head. Then I beat that. But I still kinda have it cause I'll like always run my fingers through my hair and sometimes I pull it out. I've pulled out huge chunks of eyelashes, in fact, I have still have eyelashes growing back for my right eye. Whenever I feel like I'm close to beating it, I'll relapse and pull. And the worse part is I try to stop but it feels as if I have no control and it's hard to explain because I can't feel myself pulling but at the same time, I do feel it. Sometimes I'll pull at my eyebrows. And I wish I could stop. It's nice to know that many other people also suffer from this
+Allison Martin I can COMPLETELY understand where you're coming from! It's an impulse control disorder and the biggest misconception is that it's something that you can just stop. It's something you do impulsively and can't control and SO hard to resist! The best thing I've ever done is help raise awareness because being more aware helps me to have a better hold on it and makes it less of an impulse!
While I was watching another one of your videos, this video was suggested. Thinking it was a different RUclipsr, i just skipped. (Too far deep into disney!)
When i was young (maybe the same age? Im not sure) i was diagnosed with dermatillomania (same thing essentially, i just pick at my skin instead). So happy to come across a video of someone in the same disorder community!
I too have trich and I have barely any eyebrows and have no upper lashes, and was wondering how you apply lashes because mine never stay up properly and I can never seem to position them correctly. Thank you and this video is wonderful!
Hi Catherine! It takes so much practice! I actually filmed a video of me applying false lashes when I had none, I just never got around to editing it and posting it. I will try to find it and post it for you! I find that it's easier to let the glue dry for 30 seconds before applying them. I also use tweezers to apply them to it can be super precise. When the glue is drying you can still move them and position them, but not too much otherwise the glue will lose its stickiness. It's kinda hard to explain, but I would just practice it a few times when you're not in a time crunch! That can make it harder to apply them when you're in a hurry!
It is easy to get an idea of having a persona, online or just publicly in general. There is a line between posting all "positive" stuff for a certain appearance but at the same time, people shouldn't be expected to dump their whole lives out there. Our society has become addicted to getting that information.
I would agree! I think whatever people want to share is ok, but we should realize we're not entitled to know everything about a person just because they post videos or pictures of themselves on the internet.
Personally I think it's extremely destructive to constantly post "perfection" instead of reality and I would never want someone to think I have it all together when I don't. There's been so many countless times where I've found myself watching RUclips videos or scrolling through Instagram and feeling depressed because I can't live up to all the images of perfection. I think it's important to separate fiction from reality and recognize the importance of living life off of our phones and devices.
I just want to be best friends with you. Weird? Yes. But still!! Haha. You're awesome, love the video. You're beautiful!
I want to be friends with you too, you're so sweet!!
I pull my brows out so I got microbladed it gives me confidence
You're lucky, at least you have friends! I've become so introverted I've isolated myself away from everyone
+Tess Eivers I'm sorry to hear that! I know what that feels like, sometimes I get so overwhelmed by the idea of spending time with friends it prevents me from hanging out with them at all. And then I feel anxious thinking about people doing things without me. It's like a never ending downward spiral! There are days where the last thing I want to do is hang out with friends. In those moments I just really push myself knowing that I won't regret it in the long run. Despite my introvertedness making me feel otherwise!
kenziemacbrown my feelings exactly. It's counterproductive, not wanting to go out but then getting anxious when people do stuff without you
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You are gorgeous!
You are so sweet! Thank you Monique! :)
omg aha youre so welcome :D
I wish I was pretty without makeup like you are. I am so ugly without it, I get positive attention when I wear it and sometimes feel beautiful but when I take it off I see the real me, and feel like I'm the ugliest person in the world
+Tess Eivers that makes me so sad to hear!! I can understand that feeling though. Especially after looking at beautiful (edited) girls on social media, it's easy to compare yourself. I get more positive attention when I wear makeup too. But it feels SO good to not wear makeup! To let your skin breathe! There are so many qualities that are so much prettier than having an socially accepted face. There's kindness, respect, humility, JOY (my favorite), compassion, thoughtfulness, selflessness, patience and empathy! Those are qualities that are more than skin deep and will last you a lifetime (a lot longer than a youthful face and body will)! I hope you will be able to find qualities about yourself that you love! I don't believe you could possibly be ugly, and please don't let anyone (especially yourself) tell you otherwise 💗
kenziemacbrown thank you ❤️
you don't seem like an introvert, I could never perform in public as an infj, shy, hsp
Haha I'm an introvert, but I love acting! To me being an introvert just means that I gain energy from being alone, like reading a book, playing with makeup, relaxing, going for a run, journaling, etc. Extroverts gain energy from being around people. So if I'm at a party with my boyfriend (who is an extrovert) I feel EXHAUSTED by the end of the night where he's full of energy! I also have a hard time feeling comfortable meeting new people, but it's easier for me when I'm acting because I'm focusing on it as a job. If that makes sense!
Can caster oli help damaged eyebrows and eyelashes??
I've heard it can, I briefly tried it but I didn't like how it smelled to be honest. I've used Latisse for about a year now and I love it! I feel like it speeds up the process of helping my lashes grow back and it makes them grow back longer and thicker!
kenziemacbrown what is latisse exactly? Im not american sorry haha
It is a serum that is made/used specifically for lash growth! It's made to help make your lashes longer and create more lashes as well. You just apply it to your lash line before you go to sleep every night and you'll see results in about a month or so! For me,I've noticed it helps my lashes grow back and it makes them stronger.
OMG you are so cute
The naked face is the best face. You are crazy beyond beautiful.
Thank you so much, you are so kind!
Hey Mackenzie! This video inspired me to make my own and it would mean a lot to me if you could check it out!