Thinking About Taking Your Life? WATCH THIS NOW.
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- Опубликовано: 18 май 2023
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If you are tempted to end your pain by ending your life: Please know suicide is not okay with the Spirit World. It slows the progression of your soul’s journey and hampers life lessons to be learned.
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Amy Utsman knows about suicide both personally and professionally. If you're in deep pain right now, watch this video all the way through.
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I was a victim of suicide many years ago, but I have learnt not to judge anyone who feels suicidal. But, when you get to 57 and you're still trying to find a meaning/purpose to your life and when your true loved ones have been taken away from you and you are extremely lonely and sad and everything always goes against you, what else can you feel other than to give up. When you know deep down that despite all your best efforts, there isn't any happiness or fulfilment going forward and it seems life is only about suffering, then it's time to stop trying.
I only have about 2/3 of those symptoms and I still want to exit the world.
This has happened to me and I turned 30 ten days ago. I feel like my life hs zero meaning and I'm lost.
@@Nadiesalevivo when anyone get to the level of meaningless ,
I don't think anyone can help you but you have to make a decision.. Mental, physical health is a serious matter all over the world. Please rethink your decision. Once the act start there no return. May god bless those that made the decision to leave earth.
I relate. I'm highly sensitive and always had a hard time with how people tread animals, eachother, the earth. My sweet, beautiful, carring son saved me. He was literally my life. I became a lioness. My child, family including the furry ones are everything.This march my son got killed by a truck on his way to school. 12 years old, my only child. I want to stop living. It's enough. I got up again and again and this is the outcome? I struggle because I know my parents, brother, best friends will be broken and it will cause them grief. I don't know what to do anymore but I know I'm done here. I hate this world. My son did everything right, the driver everything wrong but he only gets community service while my son's life is over and our lives are destroyed. I'm so sorry to read how much pain you are in. Sending you a hug 🧡
@@sydney13ismand I do
I have been struggling with committing suicide for the last 9 months. I have lost my home, my good wife of 35 years, & my 3 kids. I am so lonely & the pain runs deep to my very core. It has been awful. I found this video on one of the worse days I've had...I'm going to keep watching it. I don't want to hurt anyone...so thank you for publishing this video. It helps me hang on. ❤
Thank you for sharing your vulnerability Vincent. I am truly sorry for all the you are going through. Truly. I am glad you have found this video helpful. Do whatever it takes to hold on because honestly, we never know when a shift will come for the better. Best wishes, Amy
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Where are you living? Sounds awful what you’re going through 😔
God is always with you--- focus on juses i and not yr battle---- 🙏 juses is the answer ♥️
We are now living in our last days -- Timothy' 2 v 3----- we are challenged many of storms and trials on this earth so hold on as juses is your shield 🛡 ❤️ 💙 God comforts his humbled
My brother died this way and we want to die to be with him - don't leave y'all, we need you.
I’ve tried to post a comment three times, and it keeps deleting it.
I’ve been an empath all my life. Since I was a child, I would be devastated by anything to do with an animal being hurt, lost on the road etc. Your description is spot on. I literally feel the pain and despair of others, including animals, at the Soul level. It can literally take me out of my day if I hear anything about animal or child abuse, elderly, etc. I never liked zoos when I was a kid because, not understanding it at the time, I was feeling the pain of the animals in cages. People who are not empathic in this life cannot relate to how deeply we feel it. I’m in my 50s now and have no attachments to this world. I never thought I would hang around this long but I will be very ready when my soul decides it’s time to go. I’m fully awake to what I am and realize what I see in the mirror is only who I am in this life; not what I am. I’m exhausted. I so look forward to returning to the non-physical.
Hopefully you get my reply because I have been deleted on her several times for no reason. I totally get everything you said including the point of being an empath which I am. Seeing animals hurt or in pain or worst case scenario I hit an animal my day and probably my week is ruined.
Ow my, I could have typed this. It's like you are describing me. I want to send you a big hug 🧡🐾
I think RUclips deletes certain comments automatically if certain words are listed. We do not delete comments. There is a great book on "The Art of Empathy" to help with boundaries. I too am high on the empathy scale and am able to manage my boundaries so much better. Doesn't mean I am unaffected by the things you have mentioned. I am exactly the same way. I donate to the very causes that help animals, children and elderly because it is too much for me. That is my way of contributing to those who can do what I cannot do. Wishing you the best! Amy
@@AmyUtsman thank you, Amy. Love the content!
I feel exactly the same! I am 46..will be 47 in July. I have bipolar and many chronic illnesses and a huge empath. I can't wait to leave too. 🎉
For some people, there really isn't any other option.
I am 72 and have to drag myself back from the brink everyday.
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Holy crap you are tough. I thought I was at 58
I don’t feel suicidal now, however, I do at times feel sad or unworthy. I’ll be 56 this July and both my loves have passed into the next life. I miss them sometimes terribly.
There is no next life of your identity right now you have.there may be transition of the energy inside you but that will be nothing to do with this mind and body you have right now. It's like electricity coming to your home comes in diffrent appliances but when it cut it returns to its source you may say that there is tv,fridge etc. But energy in them is common.
I think you understand. We all are one in consequences level diffrent as body.
Not true. You are the same person in the after life as you are right now, only in sprit form.
@@kimberlyhansen4096 you know what so many people commit suside only due to this after life thing. What if there is no after life or if it is there let it be. Eventually we all going to die one day so after that we will see what is out there but just due to this conception of after life and rebirth so many people commit suside just to end the pain. But the real issue for every pain is attachment we all know that every thing around us will not be there sooner or letter still we attach our self so much that once that thing or person endup we started feeling our self unworthy. We should be more focused to love our self first and then the others while loving others we should keep in mind any time they can live us and in that way we will not attach our inner self to them because everything around us is here only because we are here.
Yesterday I nearly took my life by hanging. When these feelings of suicide was at its peak I left my house and took a drive for two hours. I really needed this video, so it seems like perfect timing
Ragnaranus, I used to do the same thing back when I dealt with depression like that. I am glad you are still here with us. One moment at a time my friend. One moment at a time.
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Keep going keep going keep going keep living keep living, keep living. Sometimes it seems that things will never get any better. Give God a chance to do his very best.
How does anyone know that self deletion is not the answer? It very well may be for some people
Sometimes there is no other choice.
I’ve tried to stay for over 20 years without any access to medical care, absolutely no family, no friends, isolated 24/7 unable to get up, no income, no savings, homeless, unable to shower or brush my teeth or even feed myself, no resources after endless searching.
This isn’t even surviving, and this sure as hell isn’t living.
Maybe I’ll get it right on the next go-around in the next life. Don’t care anymore honestly.
My wife died by suicide weeks before the pandemic hit in 2020. This message from you would have resonated with her I'm certain, but I'll tell you Amy, it resonates with me as a survivor. I really am grateful to have found this. Thank you
I am glad you have found this video helpful. All of the best to you and your family. Amy
I understand her pain
Hi Amy, thank you so much for posting this. It was just a few weeks ago I wanted to leave the planet. With my Dad recently passing in March, I was thrown for a loop! And I felt loopy and insane! I' am that bagger at a grocery/retail store! so this really got to me. Also, I felt like at age 3 that I had to raise myself. Plus you kept saying, we need you here. So glad you were able to tell your story as it takes quite a bit of vulnerability. Thank you. I believe it will really help people
Does anyone feel like you're absolutely cursed and feel haunted by bad spirits? My luck has been awful. I must have been a real piece of work in my last life. I care about everyone but myself. I'm an absolute empath. Panic and anxiety for yrs.
There is medication for the anxiety
I literally saw a human turn to a snake. And 2 years later I'm suicidal1
Dear Amy...I have been in that state of mind...depressed and very little self-esteem... I would have very little respect for myself, and self-worth was pretty nonexistent 😢.
I am 60 years old, and I have been to prison... when I got out, I set myself a plan and journey of redemption... it was going well until I was systematically ripped off by 2 people I classed as business mentors. For the last 3-4 years, I have battled severe depression and suicidal emotions.
Things changed about a year ago when I started praying and asking for forgiveness and guidance... I started seeing angel numbers that changed my whole perception of myself, my self-worth, and my family around me... I no longer feel like a burden on my family or society... most of all, I didn't want to disappoint our creator by wasting what was granted to me... life itself... thank you for your words of encouragement ❤❤❤😊
For me it’s not about feeling those kinds of feelings. My soulmate died in a car accident at 39 almost 4 weeks ago ❤ I’m 37 and can not imagine living the rest of my life waiting to pass. The grief and waiting is so much
I just lost my fiance and I feel your pain. (((((hugs)))))
So sorry for loss but remember he wants to see in a better shape as we all know that the souls are in peace and surrounded in love .I lost a son and went out of my mind the loss and grife just made numb than one day I tried to connect with him and since the messages I get from him are so propound and spriutual. He conituanully tells me that his soul is an energy of love and surrounded by light and unconditional love .The way he desribes the dimissione where there is love and tatal peace .And descibes The Lord and spriutuality is so emotional. One thing he repeatedly says is that life is a precious gift from The Lord therefore always start your day by thinking Him for having woken up to a new and Thank Him at the end of the day ....Thank Him for the blessings and abbundance of every new day for this is a prayer in itself .And pray for peace on Earth .There are so many messages that I have written down and most of them are prase to The Lord The Father Who loves us and he isn't angry,distance or judgemental He Is Love and Light .My son wasn't religous but he was a kind and very sensitive person somehow I always thought that he was spriutual within but hearing from after life his spriutuality is so strong and very deep .
Thank you so much for sharing this! I’m struggling here, and I can relate to everything you’ve said. These negative feelings are so powerful. I am a burden and have no hope, and no purpose. I want the pain to end. I’m going minute by minute right now. . God bless you.
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Thank you, Amy. It takes a lot of courage for you to bare your soul like this. These are words of wisdom. I wish I'd found you before we lost our son, Mitchell. I hope many people watch this video. It might save someone. Thank you again, Danny
Thank you for making this video. I hope it helps someone watching realize there is another way. I sadly lost my wonderful Father to suicide last year and the pain and loss is immeasurable. 💔 He is deeply missed and we wish so much he was still with us 😢✨🙏🏻
I lose my father the same way 3 years ago…I’m still not ok.
I am so sorry for your loss. People are loved in the Spirit World and I know he is with family and perhaps some pets too. Wishing you the best.
@@AmyUtsman thank you, Amy! I have contacted him through a medium and he is well. It’s harder for us left behind to deal with the earthly devastation of it all. I just got diagnosed with PTSD from this trauma and I’m trying to work through it.
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Thank you for sharing this. I wish my dad and aunt could have seen this. It's devastating for those of us left behind - from the moment we find the body, until the day we take are last breath. It's a scene that keeps playing in your head each day. You ask yourself what could I have done differently to prevent this. My thoughts are with everyone who has experienced losing someone to suicide and those who are thinking about it, just know you are loved.
Thank you. I am not going anywhere - on my own terms anyway : )
This was so beautiful. Thank you for sharing. This will save lives! 💚💚💚
Thank you Carre.
What a dear person you are to make this video! ❤ I totally identify with the struggles you had. I was also obsessed with ending my life when I was 15, and I think it was my guardian angel who gave me a glimmer of hope. I held on to the belief that life might improve after I grew up. I didn’t understand why I was so sad, nor did I even remember any of the violence and sexual abuse that was happening in our house to us as a kid in those days, that’s how bad my dissociation was. So, I didn’t turn for help because I was afraid to out my abuser & I was in a deep depression, I felt worthless and incapable of anything and extremely lonely. But after I left, things improved somewhat, I eventually went for counselling at age 26 and it took over 10 yrs & therapy to finally heal. Now I’m practicing to be a medium, I’m not a natural, I just have innate faith and took classes and it’s going well. You are right, our souls can never break! We are definitely here to grow and expand no matter what we survive here, I’m so glad to understand this now. Just hold on, hold on & ask whoever is out there in the universe to send you the right help and it will come.
Its a right thing that this info is shared an the support you giving to others. I hope those an even myself spirit are lifted Anyway blessings to all to get thru or the loss of loved one. Thank You for being here Amy!
I had what felt like a nice life until 65 with things being 90% enjoyable. At 65 I got acute Leukemia, and after 8 weeks in hospital went into remission. Docs did not expect me to make it, but I did. Then 9 months later it came back. I got a bone marrow transplant, then I had to get past getting my body to not reject the transplant.
About 4 years ago a doc said I have prostate cancer, and an aggressive version at that, but if that was true I shouldn't be alive.
Like Amy I talk to the spiritual world a lot, but not as a medium. When I talk about spiritual things, people get anxiety, as if it's wrong to talk about the spiritual world, and actually even while we are in the physical we are part-way in the spirit world too. Since age 28 when I had 2 OBE's I've felt partially connected to other's spiritually.
When you talk to others spiritually while still in the body, it's not telepathic, it's called Morphic Resonance, and it's more like sending out vibes or feelings backed up by thoughts to make them stronger, and if you keep them simple you can connect with other beings as well, including plants. I use to send friendship vibes to various animals.
Amy, several months ago, I found your site, and I didn't want to bother you as approaching anyone using spiritual connections can cause anxious feelings.
Yet I'm quite attracted to you, so let me know if my intent fails.
I'm 65 and I think about leaving often. I've been a widow for 41 yrs now and never remarried. I've been struggling since I was a little kid. I was being molested by 2 family members. I was 4 and afraid of saying anything. I eloped when I was 15, to get away. The older I got the more aggressive it became. But I went from one hell to another 😢😢😢 I've come very close to ending it all but I have 3 children and 5 g'daughters and it kills my heart to know how much I would hurt them. They keep me here. I just keep praying and talking to my angels and I talk to my g'mothers. I was very close to both of them. All I can do is try and hang on. I wish I had the money to pay for a good reading. I have so many questions 😢😢
Thank you. I struggle with suicidal thoughts
Soul cannot be broken but this character can. I like how ppl say - u will not feel like that forever, its not an option and so on. And years pass and im still feeling the same. Have felt like that for like 5 years very strongly and another 5 years when i still could act that all is good and wanted to believe all of this - "it wont be like that forever". But it still is and its getting only worse at least for me. I feel like all these ppl saying "its not an option, try to see how beautiful life is" are just loving life themselves and had experienced some ups and downs thats why they think that after "downs" are coming "ups" but its not always the case. Always easy to tell "u have to keep fighting" if u are enjoying life urself, what if u were forced to live this persons life who only feels terrible all day every day. Would pll still say - "yea im gonna keep fighting". Fighting for what exactly? To keep feeling terrible?
Im sorry i havent even watched all video and I will but these were just my feeling at around minute 7
Exactly, life always seems meaningful with purpose if magic happens and somehow your life turns around and you’re happy and content. That is not always the case however. 😔
I have never seen you this way Amy. Please take care of yourself-you help others so very much. I know because I’m one you’ve helped, one you’ve given hope to keep going. You are not only a sweet and caring soul, but uniquely gifted in how to get a point across. I feel as though this message was meant for me personally. Everything you just said- about feeling broken…feeling worthless, hopeless etc. is EXACTLY how I feel at times!
I have chronic and painful diseases that I suffer with daily. As a result I often ask God “Why am I on this earth?! “So thank you again - I NEEDED TO HEAR THIS! 😢😊🥰❤️
How do I know, that suicide is not part of one's lifeplan?
Ive wondered that too. Like is that my destiny? Is that God's plan for me?
I wonder that every day. Are we to teach others something by our suicide? Yeah Im still hear, clinging to hope.
My friend Diana hanged herself 6 days ago. I'm having great difficulty accepting it and the brutal way she ended her life. She was 67 and leaves a husband and a married son. RIP Diana
I understand her pain, she couldn't go on
Love you Amy!! You were part of MY journey since 2016 quite frankly - you are truly amazing!!
Thanks for this Amy, much love x
I, for one, want out of this hell hole. No one will miss me. My family and son are estranged from me so there is no reason to go on. I have two children on the other side as well as my parents and friends. I would rather live in a blissful state rather than suffer here on earth. Earth is controlled by extremely evil entities/people.
Thank you for making this video and also for destigmatizing the subject. It really spoke to me when you outlined the situations people might be going through. They are real, and really hard, and we feel all alone when we go through them and like things will never get better. It helped to hear you’ve been in some of those places and that you found stability, love, and purpose. And it’s helpful to hear that there is compassion on the other side for this. I have always been a sensitive soul, and I came into a very disfunctional and toxic family. I feel like everything I do is to overcome that early programming and transmute these dense energies. I’m tired and I’m going through a difficult spot, again. I’ve wanted to go home since I was just a few years old. I will keep trying to get through it and trust it can shift.
Keep up this great work you're doing ❤ I know the feeling of wanting to end things, yet the other thought says, no you've got a purpose and that purpose is why I'm here.
I’ve been struggling, depression and thoughts of suicide loom, hard to see the path forward 😔
Thank you, Amy
Thank you so much for sharing your personal side with us Amy. My son was euthanized by the MAiD program in Canada and it was harrowing. My daughter succumbed to her epilepsy. And I am appreciating your experience and skill with sharing what's in the realm beyond.
This is the first time I've ever seen you and honestly I feel love for you right now. Thank you....
My son took his life in 2021 and I’ve been having a very hard time . Yes I’ve considered joining him. The only thing that has stopped me is my other son. I need to be here for him I know. But I struggle every day to stay here…
I am always stopped by the existence of my 9 yr-old grandson
I lost my only son in Feb 18, 2023, I am beyond broken, I know exactly how your feeling...I'm sorry 🙏💔
@@sylvanaesparza639 I’m so sorry for your loss. It’s a pain I would not wish on anyone. Praying for comfort for you and your family ❤️
@@toninelson1956 Thank you God bless our children..👼❤🙏
Thank you Amy! You're a beautiful soul. ❤
Well, I'm a 53-year old, Swedish male, life-long incel. I really don't think this life has anything left to offer, not that there ever was much point to it. So when my mother has passed away, I cannot wait to get myself to Switzerland and go into the pod. It's the one future prospect that actually brings me small jolts ecstatic joy whenever I think of it. Life and love isn't here. It's there, over on the other side.
YOU SPEAK THE TRUTH
CANNOT AFFORD SWITZERLAND
I AM TAKING THE "PEACEFUL PILL"
Part of me doesn't want to watch this particular video, as it might dissuade me from wanting to end life on earth and transition to wherever it is I'm sent. But I'm willing to listen and ponder what you have to say. I think you're one of the true mediums out there who only wants to impart knowledge, not gain $$$$$$.
I hope you’re doing good. It will get better. You are much Loved! 🥰❤️
I cried a lot of the way through this. Thankyou ❤
Thank u Amy 😢 beautifully expressed ❤
You have such a beautiful soul & a great light that is shared in your videos
You don’t look 52, God Bless You So Much ❤
Amy, that was a very nice talk. You spoke from your very deep. I Wonder how many people who commited suicide, once they got to the other side, realized how many things they could have done to avoid their action. Its a one way trip. You are very heartistic and a very beautiful lady.
Keep being yourself. Peter 😉
I’m an empath with other skills as well. So was my brother who took his life 3 years ago next month. I was able to get to him before his body was taken, to hold his hand and tell him how sorry I was knowing how much he was hurting, and that I was not upset with him, that I understood and that I loved him. I found you shortly after trying to find more guidance. He spoke with me immediately after taking his life in beautiful and comforting ways but it still hits me like a sucker punch when I’m not expecting it. I hate that I intuitively knew it would happen one day and not doing more. There were so many barriers created by our mother. He has helped me work through it from the other side but it still hurts in indescribable ways. Having been there myself as well, I understand but I also reflect back later being so grateful I hung on. YOU have been a gift. I am so grateful you hung on too because the number of peoples lives you have impacted, saved, blessed is immeasurable. ❤
I love your videos , i lost my husband in an accident (3 years in 2 weeks !) Ive been left on my own to bring up our 9 year old , its very tough at times i was suicidal for ages and it absolutely scared me , ive gone over that point but in anxious atm and really missing my husband as how triggering this time of year is. But i just take one day at a time try not to think too far into the future . I am a big empath and i see empathic traits in my daughter but also a huge strength and awareness i never had i stay strong for her ❤ xx
I appreciate your kind words but I’ve struggled with these thoughts for over 30 years as well as other struggles. Have been on every medicine and done every kind of therapy imaginable. It’s a nice thought to think things will get better. But it’s not in the cards for me. Lovely thought tho and I respect what you’re doing. Much love
Good message ❤
Thank you❤
Thanks so much for "baring your soul" in essence. A LOT of what you said resonated with me. I'm a 63 year old lesbian widow... and have been living or battling depression w/anxiety since... elementary school age, I assume. My one feeble attempt at suicide was at 21, though I wasn't diagnosed with clinical depression/w anxiety, as well as borderline manic depression until my late 30's. As a "wanna be writer" all my life, I could go on and on, but I'll try to keep this brief. Yeah, right, wish me luck with that. LOL.
Anyhoo... although I know I'm supposed to stay here until... I'm "supposed to transition", I can't ignore this ever present little voice I've heard for years now, (long before my partner passed) saying, "I wanna go home." This voice doesn't seem to come from my mind, but far, far deeper in my being... the middle of my chest, if you will. And this year it's no longer a quiet voice, it's become more like a desperate plea or a painful cry, "I JUST WANNA GO HOME!!" Everyday, sometimes every hour of the day, I hear it. Don't be concerned, however, because so far I've been too afraid to act on it, for fear that it won't work and my life, which never has been hard, though the future looks bleak, will then be more painful even sooner, as I become the very thing I DON'T want to be: a burden to others.
I say the latter because Parkinson's runs in my family. My older brother and a first cousin have been diagnosed and suffering from it now. And I, in hindsight, have been showing the same kind of symptoms for years, even before either of them were diagnosed. So you see, my constant suicidal thoughts leave me between a rock and a hard place. I feel like I'm damned if I do it, whether it works or especially if it doesn't and yet damned if I don't, since it appears there's a bleak future ahead, in being a burden on someone in my family. Yeah... dark place to be in...
Ah Geez... I said I was gonna be brief! Crap! Please forgive me, I'm longwinded. Anyhoo... I have a few questions that I've wanted to ask you and many of the other people I've heard, who say "we are here for our soul's growth". And those questions are: Why do "our" souls need to grow, if there are "Angels" who have never incarnated? Why did "we" choose to come to earth in the first place? How are WE so different from the Angels? Was it really a choice?
It doesn't FEEL like one to me. I've always felt like I was sent back here, like this is a prison of sorts and I'm serving out a sentence for something I did or... repaying some debt. I'll give an example... I also wanted to be an artist and one day, while I was still in therapy, I got out my spiral pad and just started doodling... letting my mind wander about these questions and... what came out on paper was these prison like bars which spelled out the word "FEAR".
Thanks for listening, for posting. And... just for still being here. You have a lot to give to the world!!
I am jealous of people like you (in a positive way) that come out of depression an find purpose
This life is pain, just absurd pain and sorrow .
When I was 11 I found a book about a native American Tribe, and they were good tribe of good people. It was written by an adopted member, a white guy that loved their tribe, so he learned their oral stories and wrote down their history, plus most of their oral stories. Not all native Americans were good tribes, as there was good tribes and vicious (savage) tribes. "Dances With Wolves" was accurate about the good and savage tribes, and the mean tribes were even nasty to their own people. The point is the good tribes were my interest and I didn't spend a lot of time thinking about the savage tribes, as I wanted the good tribe's wisdom.
The same with emphasizing the bad in this world. You should be aware of it, very aware, but what does it teach you about sharing your love, and that's simply what this life is all about, learning to share your love in all kinds of conditions, or getting beyond the Me, Me, Me all the time, Me Alone, Me Sad, Me Exhausted, Me Want to Go Home. Learn to share your Love if you want to grow, as that's what it's about on the Other Side.
There are bad tribes and many other Evil Monsters in this world that abuse children and animals, but you need to work on love and what you can do with that...be creative. By love I mean kindness or caring love.
Amy, if I send any vibes to you, it will just be "kindness" vibes, as you are happily married.
Here's the thing, as you get older and less healthy, it gets hard to not be helpless, and it's not a head thing, it's real. I always want to be independent, but it's close to being the time I can't. I didn't want to be "warehoused" or be sent to an "affordable" care center for old helpless aged people, as they treat old people poorly at such places. So, will try to get by for a few months, then I'll turn myself in to one of those places that pay poor wages and that hate their patients. Yet I'll be super kind to the workers and still try to help myself as much as possible. I just got out of a Where a place where 2 people yelled and screamed constantly. It was obvious to me that they wanted to die. Even when I'm completely helpless I want to be kind to people around, even if one of those poorly paid workers smoothers me with a pillow I want to send good vibes to the one doing it, as they will just be sending me home.
Thank you Amy
I lost my husband 13 months ago to suicide. I have since lost all three of my children, they blame me for not preventing his death, and so no longer speak to me. I am Al alone in this world. Have no one to talk to. I feel so unloved and unwanted. I just can’t believe my husband left the way he did, can he see what it has done to all of us? Did he ever love us? can’t believe you would do this if you love us! if this is love, I don’t want any of it
I hope you are doing better. Please forgive your husband, he must have been struggling very hard to stay alive and I doubt very much he meant to hurt you or anyone else. Stay strong. ❤
Why do people make you feel guilty and say life is too short if you are having suicidal thoughts/ideations
They just don’t understand this continuous unbearable deep pain inside. They make comments like it’s life, your weak by taking the easy way out. How is it easy!!
People don’t need to understand, just listen in silence be supportive
I feel like your life mirrors mine in many ways...I attempted 2x, the first was successful-but it wasn't! I died and came back 11/22/2017 😢. The 2nd I only remember running to the road & then my daughter ponding my head on the concrete. Mental health issues were & are very dominate in my family (genes). And, I'm also empathetic I believe...I've felt energy (bad & good) since I can remember (I'm 57 now). My beautiful momma was absolutely mostly miserable, unstable...undiagnosed mental illness because, I'm diagnosed & have had many years of reflection. I give her Grace & forgiveness now, always loved my momma...just didn't like the childhood trauma & adult control she had. RIP momma❤
I have to say with regard to my attempts, my first my brother, momma & poppa came to see me, get me???? But, I was very angry for a very long time...even now I feel the rush of anger, homesickness & profound desire to go back to that place/space 😢. Problem is I KNOW I have a mission or purpose, lessons, etc...to complete before it's time for my exit & THAT TIME of exit is not really my choice. Thank you so very much for this message, I still question the why's, but stumbling on this video confirms my reason for not doing the worst possible, unreasonable desire...I'm here for the duration of living in this cesspool of ignorance!!! ❤PROMISE (Aunt June ❤ not again!)
I do hope you been honest about how you struggled to still be here help's some people even one person Amy x
But after the transition of my beautiful son Lee Simon ❤️ x
On the 5/3/21 a scientist and a beautiful Artist who Loved the outdoors and everyone who knows my son x said he made them better people ❤️
My son left his beautiful partner Laura ❤️ they were just getting ready to move into their first home together x
I have 3 wonderful daughter's and 7 beautiful grandchildren ❤️x
But every day is a struggle staying here I know no tomorrow's are going to be better and the thoughts of having a to wake up to this reality is just too painful.
The only comfort is knowing I can choose to leave this so unfair world.
And I really do understand it's a selfish act to do but I just think everyone will be ok they've got their husbands and children x
It's a life sentence I really don't want to do can't put it into words just how much my heart aches every second of everyday.
Sending my heart ❤️ to everyone who has had a child transitioned 🕊️ ❤️ x
Angela x
This is one of the hardest things to go through Angela. Please check in to Helping Parents Heal if you are not familiar with them. Many resources at no charge and they have a global presence. Wishing you and all of your family all of the best, Amy
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Angela my heart goes out to you Angela and I know that feeling only too well. Stay strong. In 2001 I lost my son Steven and I know how devastated you feel I hit rock bottom and In 2004 I attempted suicide the pain was too much to bear and I regret doing so to this day. I was recovered in rianimation for 4 days and during that time I found myself walking in dense while clouds and then I saw Steven in the distanza. I tried to run towards him to hug him but I was unable to move. He smiled from a distanza then I heard his voice say..Mum you have to go back you still have things to do and I know that you can do it and I'll always be with you. When i woke up I was so upset to be back here again but then I remembered my son's words. I am 70 now and my spirituality has grown so quickly over the years and I know that when it's my time my son will be waiting for me. Angela be strong suicide is not the answer, your son is always with you he hears your every word and every thought and try to be more aware of the signs your son is sending to you. Sending you love and blessings 🙏❤ from Angela
@@angellove9767 Thank you ❤️ x
I have had so many signs but I just think maybe it's my imagination .
I did get them before my son Lee Simon transitioned only made sense afterwards . Even some things I had said to my son at the time not knowing why or were the words had come from .
I said one day at the hospital with my son x
God is just a name man's put too it it's not male or female it's like Love you can't see it but it's there .
It's just to big for us all to understand son but no one goes we come back many times.
I just couldn't put it into words what I wanted to say .
This was 3 years before my son transitiond.
My son Lee been a scientist never questioned me at the time.
And Lee didn't believe in any religion but used to say things happen for a reason mum .
I was a Catholic not a practice one went to church on some occasions.
But in 2018 when I'd said them words to my son not knowing why.
I do think back and get some comfort from them .
To be honest it's kept me here .
But as you will know only too well the pain is too much some days.
Thank you ❤️ for your reply 🙏
And I'm so sorry to hear the loss of your son Steven too 🕊️ x x
@@AmyUtsman thank you ❤️ Amy 🕊️ xx
Thank you
HEY AMY MY FIANCE KILLED HIM SELF IN FRONT OF ME FEBRUARY 26, 2023 I HAVE NO IDEA WHY, PLUS WE DIDN'T EVEN GET THE CHANCE TO SAY GOODBYE
I am so sorry Jaqueline. Wishing you the best. That is a horrible thing to experience.
AMY I HAVE A VERY IMPORTANT QUESTION THAT I HAVE TO ASK YOU, DO YOU THINK THAT ANYWAY POSSIBLE YOU CAN THINK ABOUT CONTACTING MY FIANCE AND ASK HIM TO PLEASE VISIT ME WHENEVER HE CAN CAUSE I REALLY MISS HIM AND LOVE HIM, I JUST WANT TO KNOW IF HE IS ALRIGHT IF SO HIS NAME IS AARON DAVIS I CALL HIM BEETLEJUICE I'M NOT IN FINANCIAL CONDITION AT THE MOMENT BUT I PROMISE I WILL BE ABLE TO PAY YOU SOMETHING ON THE FIRST OF THE MONTH I'M ALL ALONG NOW AND I NEED HIS ADVICE
I am so so sorry. Must be very hard for you. Closure would be very good. 🙏🏽❤️
❤THANK YOU YOUR POWERFUL LIFE-AFFIRMING MESSAGE. I TOO HAD DEPRESSION AT AGE 15 DUE TO MY PARENT'S DIVORCE. I WANTED TO BE A PROFESSIONAL CLASSICAL BALLERINA. INSTEAD, MY CONVOLUTED MOTHER LIED TO ME CONSTANTLY & MISGUIDED ME. BUT STUDYING 📖 METAPHYSICAL HEALERS HELPS ME A LOT TO CONTINUE ON EARTH 🌎 PLANE.❤☮️🕊
I want to die peacefully. Everyday is difficult. Due to lack of courage i could not be myself and now i have no purpose. I pray to god. It helps a little. But i am tired and hopefully all this will end
BTW, Amy many epilepsy episodes, especially feeling paralyzed upon awakening is the spirit trying to separate from the body in an OBE
Great advice here thank you , by the way you look amazing at 52 I took you for 42.
It feels unbearable. How do you keep going with all the heartache?
If I have to, I will, but I feel it will get better
My mother passed a month ago I wanna come with her she as my world
I wish I’d be able to speak with you for a reading.
can it be going home. an exit point that we preplanned?
I made an attempt a couple days ago but I'm still here. Guess it's a sign to keep going but still trying to figure out why.
What method did you try? Ive never attempted. But if I do, I will end up at least seriously harming myself. I dont understand failed attempts
So what is so bad about a re-shuffling?
Thank u for posting. Thanks from Korea.
I have a question.
If someone dies by suicide, can that soul visit a person who is still alive on planet earth wherever that person is?
Can a suicide soul find a living person and be with him/her?
Would really appreciate if u could answer my question.
Thanks in advance for your answer, and have a great day.
Yes they can. They can communicate from Spirit World just like anyone else. Great question! Thank you for watching and asking, Amy
@@AmyUtsman Thank u for answering!
So can a soul really find a specific person who is still alive on planet earth, even though it committed suicide?
Thank you for your answer in advance and have an awesome day!
Im needed alright!! A little too much!! Im burnt out trying to take care of myself and everyone else. No ome takes care of me. Suicide seems like a good idea because no one believes me that i am sad and depressed. Ive trried hotlines, etc. No one believes me that i am suicidal!!! They think that i am just sad. Doctors dismiss my depression and want to run a lot of tests that i have no time for. If i die, i die.
@mskaythryn231 Wow. You are amazing to do all that for everyone else. Just wanna say that you are #1 here, you came here to live your life, not theirs. Ask for help, it’ll make all the difference to finally find the right person to actually listen and hear you for real. That’s what it took for me, someone finally listened to me in a counselling session, it was like a miracle and I believe it was cuz she knew exactly how to handle me and in one session the burden was a bit lighter, and then I started listening to my own thoughts and living MY life, and it has been SOOO worth it. ❤️ Love & hugs
I lost everything in a manic episode. I think about suicide daily
I think many of us come from families where there were no hugs or "I love you". I am blessed that I met partners and my now husband who gave me that though. But I think childhood without affection and praise is really messed up. Even worse if you get a lot of criticism or physical abuse. I guess this is the plan we signed up for though.
I can't go on.
I am a mistake!
You're awesome. I wish I'd found you earlier.
Thank you
Try living with physical pain 24/7 for years. Ever since the CDC took pain meds from those that needed it because of the Opioid Crisis caused by mainly Fentanyl and other ILLICIT drugs. And what is sad is the painful age related diseases will only worsen. I’ve done EVERYTHING to heal and it’s futile. I don’t want to commit Suicide but as the pain increases, it looks more and more promising.
Am i gonna suffer even more if i kill myself? Please someone give me an answer im hurting.
You could go to hell for it
@@Slidehhyno they won't. Just stop with your religious crap.
@@JL-is9rg how do we know if its real or not ?
Focus on juses and not yr battles---- juses is the way and the anserws in the cross--- faith--- prayer and repentance---- call upon juses in prayer and wait on the lords timing---- Amen 🙏
Taking your life is not the anserew----- focus on juses in prayer and leave your battles to our heavenly father---- juses takes care of our tomorrows --- juses is the way as there is no other
There has to be a good reason as to why I shouldn't inhale nitrogen
im desperate ,broke ,poor ,in debt ,i need money
What about the people who have a traumatic death ahead of them? Some people just don’t want to suffer before they transition, that’s partly my concern. I’d stay but not if I’m going to die in a traumatic way. I just don’t see the point
What about the other 10 percent?
Bill, some people choose to end their lives after committing heinous crimes rather than face the consequences. They get the help they need in the Spirit World depending on their individual circumstances. Just like we all do.
Hello Amy , how can we contact you and what do you charge ?
amyutsman.com/
Thank you for responding back I want to ask a quick question before the reading if possible .
@@trypticon31 please use contact page but do not provide any info regarding any loved ones. Please do note the schedule will not be open until sometime this week for scheduling beginning in September.
@@AmyUtsman do you do other reading beside reaching out to the deceased family or friends ?
I send you an email.
Dear heavenly Father praise your name ! You are good and worthy to be praised Dear Lord in the name of Jesus I ask that you please help and heal all these who are struggling with suicidal thoughts .By the power and the blood of Jesus Christ I command all Demonic attacks all Demonic spirits that have attached themselves to those watching ,commenting struggling in any way to flee from them right now ! You have to leave in the name of Jesus . Dear Lord God help those who need you who feel alone ,helpless hopeless ,empty ,broken those who are grieving struggling with addiction ,depression,abuse , feelings of worthlessness etc. God lift them up let them know who they are in you let them know their worth .
Break the power of depression,oppression ,dysfunction chaos ,confusion witchcraft ,spiritual warfare trauma , any and everything that doesnt come from you Lord .Bless them in the mighty name of Jesus . Give them that peace that passes all understandig that only you
can give .
Lord bless the speaker touch her ministry her calling give her the words you would have her say help her bless her and keep her in the name of Jesus I pray and I thankyou I'in Jesus mighty name amen and amen!
I don’t want to live anymore
They're just sick and tired of this b******* world.
As far as those Spirit guides you're talking about how do you know they're not demons
Why not???
Exactly
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No loved ones on earth or the other side don't give a dam about me
I love your channel. You are truly an inspiration. You light up our souls.
I do but I want to be with my Rose
why is god not the one telling us all this? if god don't want us to go then god should tell us god don't talk
I’m so sorry but this is the second video of yours I’ve tried to watch because of the title. All you do is talk about yourself. That’s not helpful
The world is outnof hand and always has been. What are we doing? How do these different things blend?! There's nothing ti d here other than suffer. I haven't seen a single person in 3 months and the ppl I did see, don't want me here. It would be helpful for me to not be here. There's no reason for me to be here?!? There isn't a God or a reason for all of us. Look at the elderly. What is happening on earth?! This has become ridiculous. All I hear you saying "We need you" who needs me? It's pretty clear we do not need ppl here. If God needed good ppl here, we'd have a home and a purpose and a family etc.. There's nothing to do.. I have such Sever injuries, my family mistreated me my entire life.. To be here, just to give a compliments; it's not making sense. This is really frustrating. I'm not wanting to be around. Why did life hurt me so badly and keep harming me and keep harming me?! I'm ready to exit and no one would even know for weeks.. or maybe months. I get it; as a woman someone is going to want you around. For men, especially disabled, there's no reason for me to be here. There was plenty of reason for me; but it's just not turned out. My entire family couldn't hear a single word I said and didn't listen to a single word. I've raised myself and nobody helped and everyone kept us back as best they could. We dont need to be here. It doesntmake any sense at all. You're telling a long story with no point? Why are we here?! What is the reason you're saying ppl should stay? I'm allowed to sign up for assisted dying and it seems like a good plan.. so what's the point in me being here?!?!?!!??!! Why do we have to be here? Why.... WHY are you saying we should stay? What's the use?! There's nothing to do here but suffer..