Hey, I made the puppets for this video! Well, it was a whole team, not just me, but it was fun. Adam Jones from the band helped out. He used to be a special effects guy. Worked on Jurassic Park before the band got a record deal. Good times.
@@scottdolby Spiral out. We will whether the weather, whatever the weather, whether we want to or not. (I need a grammar check on that one. That one was tough to type out...)
This song made me realize I had ptsd from years of abuse at 12 yrs of age. I'm 43 now and thank TooL for giving me the courage to face my fears and carry on.
It needs to be recognized that Tool pulled this off in the early 90’s when all the gangster rap was being heavily criticized for its content. Yet these artists did this in the same time period without the same level of scrutiny. Pure genius ✌️
@@bom2 just remember seeing it several times…….on MTV. It’s the very first place I saw it. Maybe stuff happened after that but I’m mostly so happy about you being right.
@@aaronwolf3587I think your last comment totally missed @Bom2. He seems to not have the ability to detect sarcasm. He is right though as the song was quickly banned after it was dropped. MTV wasn't too keen on the title of Stinkfist either as it was labeled as "Track 1." Makes you wonder how things would have went down if "HWAP" was ever released as a single or a video. If they didn't ban it and just forced a name change I mean. Like what would they have come up with? Hopefully something better than Track 7. I think "entrepreneur with a Phalice" would have suited just fine.
I was sexually abused as a child and I’ve never really dealt with it. I had a mental breakdown a week ago and was a very dark day for me again. So I’m finally seeking the help I need to learn more about myself and deal with it, I have an appointment next month with a psychiatrist. Hopefully I can finally overcome and battle my demons.
It doesn’t have to define who you are . It shouldn’t . Right now it probably is more than it ever should but hopefully the help you seek will help with that . Been there. Godbless
I went through the same thing. My abuse was from 2 until 10 & then the beatings were for a long time after! My step father was the one who did it. And my mom didn't believe me. And she said maybe I wanted it! Wanted it, how the hell would a 2 year old baby girl want some type ish like that! I still can't wrap my mind around that! And the pain that I carried with me made me sick for decades. And the only one who helped me come out on the other side was the Lord Jesus Christ Almighty!! And I pray that he'll help you with your trauma & heal from it!! I love you so much & I'm so grateful that you're here. I'm praying for you. May Abba Father continue to Bless you & Keep you. May he cause his face to shine upon you & be gracious unto you. May he lift up his countenance upon you & give you his Beautiful Peace which surpasses all understanding in Jesus Mighty name I pray, Amen!
I knew someone that was sexually abused by their dad. The dad died on the couch as the daughter held his hand. Then she got sexually abused (can we please just use the R word? Bloody censorship) by a stranger in the street. Which is different. That's discarding after at that point. It's one thing to use someone. It's another to discard.
You are bar none the greatest at doing what you are doing right now. The complete grasp at the message portrayed is honestly refreshing in this sector of youtube. So many reactions not fully grasping the message (tool songs especially) and only looking for likes and subscribes. I applaud you for doing what you do.
I can tell you it’s not an approved method of treating trauma, but I do agree that music can play a part in healing, but not as the primary treatment, when there exists tried and true methods. Music would be more of an expressive form that the client can associate with or relate to, or have the same or similar experience, which could normalize their experience.
@@danduntz2539 l never said it was “approved” (whatever that means in this world today and by whatever government body decides such things) or was the primary method of treatment, I said it was being used by some therapists - that’s all.
This is a heavy song and I applaud this channel for not shying away from putting this reaction out there. Some things in life are absolutely disgusting, and thankfully there are people and places like this where support can be found to get us all through it.
Tool are great at making a sad reality a mind opening experience. You’re very good at breaking down their music and explaining the message. Too many people today have a small minded view when it comes to music and the deeper message.
They sing about life, the good and bad. Thanks for tackling this song and subject matter that most will not. A lot get grossed out and miss out on the great music of this song.
Taylor you are brilliant! Thank you for your take on songs. Not only do you bring a strong presence and a joy to watch on some really tough topics, your positivity and message at the end is wholesome and meaningful. Thanks for the love you ❤ at the end too. Some people need to hear that.
Maynards mother saga is worth a listen as well 1. Jimmy/The patient - Tool 2. Judith -A Perfect Circle 3. Wings/ 10000 days-Tool 4. Horizons-Puscifer Probably just do a little back story research too
I found TOOL back in the mid 90s as an early teen. Easily my favorite band of all time. I can't even begin to put into words how this band has helped me on an emotional level. You can listen to the words and realize you aren't alone in suffering, and at the same time, lose yourself in the sound. The entire Lateralus album, from beginning to end has pulled me out of a lot of dark places. The Albums from beginning to current are almost caterpillar of self loathing and hate transforming into a winged beast of loving yourself and feeling awake and alive. I love this band so much.
The Prison Sex video on MTV was my intro to tool way back in the 90's. I devoured that album over and over sgain. It gave voice to things inside me that needed a voice. It helped me express my anger at things i went through. It gave me power over those things. It showe me a path to healing. It helped make sure I didn't repeat those cycles. And even now, after countless times listening to this song it's still revealing things to me.
This is genuinely turning into one of my favourite channels due to the content and your reactions. I’d like to recommend “Poet and the Pendulum” live at Wembley by Nightwish. It is not the normal song people start with when it comes to Nightwish, however it is the song that suits this channel the most as it deals with depression and struggle. It was written by Nightwish’s song writer the keyboardist Tuomas during the hardest time in the bands history and he basically ended his life in the song to stop himself doing it in real life, however the new song finishes positively with a new beginning. It is one of the best written pieces of music you will come across and is broken into Acts. I won’t say more about it. Nightwish hold the record for most reacted song in RUclips history with “Ghost Love Score” (normally what people start their Nightwish journey with. However, as previously mentioned, “Poet” suits this channel perfectly, especially if the research is done on the songs meaning beforehand.
When I first listened to this album way back in high school, it fundamentally changed how I thought about music -- what one can do with it, what parts of the human condition are "in bounds" to talk about. Music is an expressive art that can be a teaching tool, a therpeutic instrument, a thought experiment, a way to shine a light in dark corners. Maynard and Tool are just... they are a singular talent in terms of artistry and expressive courage. And listening to this song alongside your insight as a therapist, it brings a sudden realness to it. It's almost like hearing the song again for the first time. Love it!
My parents were physically, emotionally, and mentally abusive. I've long found solace in rock and metal, more so than people. I still, to this day, struggle with depression and trusting others.
From AliceBlue: @mennaris I hate that you experienced so much hurt and abuse from your parents. I’m deeply sorry for the pain it must have caused and may still cause you. Our parents are such a huge instrument in our lives for the better and unfortunately for the worse. Having to survive through abuse is something nobody should ever have to experience. It’s often a repeated cycle passed on from before, but it doesn’t make it okay and it sure is something horrible and difficult to have to be the one to break the cycle that was so unfairly passed onto you. I love that music is such a connection and bridge to so many. There’s something less isolating hearing a song that reflects your soul and life experience and then seeing other people come out and say the same thing. There’s some solidarity in the midst of the hurt and pain. There’s a beauty in people coming together to say “this hurts and it ends with me”.
From Micro: @mennaris It's hard to learn to trust others when the very first people in this world who should have protected you happened to hurt you in such brutal ways. It makes sense to feel the way you do and to still struggle with this, even years later and even after working on how these traumas have been affecting you, your life, your heart. There is something profoundly scary in trusting someone, something uncertain and risky at the same time. It can be a door that leads to beautiful, and even healing, connections with others. There are good people out there that are worth it. But it's also possible to be hurt again, and once you already carry this wound with you, it becomes so difficult and so challenging to overcome this inner barrier. Somehow, it has very legitimate reasons to exist: to protect you, to keep you safe, to ensure that nothing bad would happen again and no one would hurt you. When you're not trusting someone, when you're letting them in, at least you have control over the outcomes - you know what to expect an you won't get caught up by surprise because of someone else's poor choices and behaviors. It makes sense to feel the way you do, really. Although I personally relate to what you've described and understand firsthand how safe this position can feel, I also feel for you with this and for how isolating/lonely it can be sometimes. t almost feels like you are forbidden from having access to love and joy that so many others seem to get so easily, and that freaking hurts. I hope that, in your own world and in the places that feel safe to you, you'll manage to cultivate *some* sense of connection with others too, at your very own pace. Connections developped on your own terms, that woul be made of nothing but respect, authenticity and true care for who you are, for YOU. You deserve to feel at peace without having to retreat yourself outside of this world. From the bottom of my heart, thank you for inviting us here to see and know a little bit of this world of yours. It is a special gift.
I found a vid of Maynard talking briefly about this song, and I think that your interpretation is 100 percent spot on. I remember him saying that people shouldn't turn away from dark, ugly things in life and that we should try to understand them.
I liked Tool until I saw them live in 1997 at Lolapalooza in St. Louis. Seeing them live gives you new appreciation for them and the sou ds they produce. Not many bands are better live than in the studio.
The entire Lateralus album helped me through some of my darkest times in my life. It’s my healing album since it speaks to all the different feelings I have experienced.
ever watch Avatar Way of Water? what do you think about the themes of adoption there? i love that movie as someone who's always wished i could have been adopted rather than grow up in the home i did...
@@charoleawood I never watched Way of Water (because I am tired of being told that I am evil because I am human-different topic), but my wife has made me watch "This Is Us" on Netflix. The Character "Randall" was abandoned at a fire station as a baby and adopted by the Pearson Family. He grew up with loving, imperfect parents, as I did. He was always compelled to learn about where he came from and why he was abandoned. Just last night , we watched the episode where he finally learns everything about his Bio-parents (how 'bout THAT timing?"). The new knowledge seems to lift a weight off Randall's shoulders- the actor does a great job with his entire journey. I was never so compelled to learn about my origination. At my Dad's funeral, I wrote and delivered a Eulogy, in which I stated that my sister (also adopted) and I won "the parental lottery". I believe there is greatness in the act of adopting- Even adopting a stray dog or cat (I've done both) adds fulfillment that can't be found anywhere else. I still believe that I missed out to some degree on the simple experience of being genetically related to my family. I got some of that back when my daughters were born, but I still think I probably came out way ahead of "what might have been". Sorry to hear that you didn't have such great luck in the "happy home" department. Best of luck going forward- Spiral Out!
@@christopherwelsh7008 Spiral out! i think your reply is wonderful and i am so happy to know you had a loving home, i'll check out "This is Us" seriously though, from all that was written here i think you'll get a lot out of Way of Water
@@charoleawood I see that YT censored my reply to you, but I didn't want to leave you hanging. Didn't see that movie. Sorry you grew up in a bad situation. I had great adoptive parents, but did miss out on the sense of being a part of them, as in, I didn't look like them. My wife grew up in a poor home with lousy parents and she learned from their shortcomings and did better with her own kids. I guess your world is only partly about the hand you are dealt, but more about what you make of it.
Clean version of song. It took “shit blood and cum on my hands “ where it wasn’t a double entendre A OTRM live version has a bridge and more lyrics “show me something 4x thought I could make it end thought I could wash the stains away thought I could break the circle if slip right into your skin so sweet was your surrender we have become one I have become a my terror and you my precious lamb and martyr”
I can only support this suggestion of her making a video on it, if _Intermission_ is allowed to properly segue into _Jimmy_ as it does on the album; no pause. 😊 Seriously, that is my *favorite* lead-in of all time!! 🥹
"Pushit" is like Part 2 of this song. My favorite song of all-time. Not just TOOL song. The subject matter is dark but it's so powerful, poignant and a complete adrenaline rush all at once. It's like going on an emotional rollercoaster.
DAM GIRL YOU HAVE FORCED ME TO SUBSCRIBE. THE WAY YOU EXPLAINE THE SONGS MEANING IS ON POINT AND MAKE THE SONG SOOOOOO MUCH BETTER THANK YOU SO MUCH AND PLEASE KEEP THEM COMING ❤️
I have just found your channel and I love it. I have been a Tool fan for decades and I always get caught up in the music with its various time signature and tones and percussivness. To my demise, I have never paid much attention to the lyrics. You have made everything old fresh again. I will be a fan of your channel. Thank you
The song, and especially the video, leaves me in tears every single time. The dark alien figure keeping the child puppet in fear, painting the puppet with a dry brush, then the child painting itself the same color as the alien. The dark figure holding the child's hand down at the end is so hard to watch.
This song is so honest. Im breathing so i guess im still alive. Its so sad and it hurts. I have had so many friends who had no idea what was happening and had no Idea how wrong it was intell we were old enough to realize it was so wrong. I appreciate his honesty. Maynard will never know how much he made us feel not alone.
Glad you made it through the whole thing. All the elements of the song, when broken down would be quite prolific on their own. When reassembled it's a new level of masterpiece that only TOOL is capable of achieving.
Thank you for being so real in the end of this. I have spent so many years worried that I would become what I hated most. I will not become a statistic. I will not let evil win. Through much therapy and tears I’ve made it this far. ❤
Just remember Maynard is in 3 active bands at 60 still rocking it. Give his other work a sample A Perfect Circle - Disillusioned Puscifer- Arsonist, The Remedy, Mama Sed Totally badassery music made by adults for adults.
I love Tool, and I knew this song would come up eventually. I applaud you for listening to it, hearing the message, and showing the compassion you did at the end. Thank You
Thank for doing my most dear Tool song. Its usually gets looked over for obvious reasons but this song, these lyrics I know like I write them myself. Tool has saved me throughout all the stages in my life.
I'm crying right now with ugly face. I KNOW Tool. I have explored every track and know every bit of their music...BUT I SO NEEDED you to say that that responsibility to break the cycle is not fair. I live with the abuse that I endured EVERYDAY and now I'm a single father with a 10 yo son. I decided long ago that he would not live through the cycle that I have seen in my family for generations. I don't talk to them at all we have built or own family....but that FEAR is always there.... and that is the song H. and I think it would be great to see you react to it and to hear your understanding. THANK YOU for your openness and courage to discuss these topics. I also NEED NEED NEED you to listen to Pink Floyd - On the turning away. It is what Heart Support is all about.... and I thank you for NOT joining in the turning away.
From Micro: @compujohn96 The injustice of having to be a cycle breaker is too often unseen and unspoken, thank you for bringing light to this topic as well and sharing about your own journey. It's good to hear how this part of the video especially brings light on this topic, resonates with you and offers validation. Breaking the cycle of generational trauma is a kind of experience that shouldn't even *have* to be, and definitely feels like self-sacrifice sometimes. Although you know that a decision would be *right* and healthy, it doesn't make it easier or less painful to deal with. It forces you to grieve so many things at once, and the idea of how life *should* have been prior to any abuse and trauma. When you are forced to be in this position, it's hard to not delve into the ruminations of wondering WHY it happened to you, and how to make sense out of it without hurting yourself even more. Somehow, there is a strength to find in this feeling of injustice - it activates a needed anger that helps the wounded child that you were to stand up for themselves and the people they love. It's an incredibly powerful way to embrace what is *right*, what is *safe*, and what love truly is - at millions and millions of miles away from the abuse you've suffered while growing up. It was sold to you as love or care because that's what your parents also learned - but you have refused to stop looking at this narrative like some truth to be preserved. No, you've stepped away from it, saw it for what it is, named it accurately, and are doing the work of an entire family just in one life. That is a huge responsibility, and it's understandable that it feels profoundly unfair at the same time. For what it's worth, I'm on the same path as you regarding generational abuse/traumas and going no contact with my parents. It's been an insane amount of ugly tears and feeling like my soul gets ripped apart - which I have no doubt you're familiar with. As you said so well, the sense of fear that feels like it's sticking to you, at your core, is an awful reminder of all the pain you've been through and the burdens you've been left carrying as an adult. Sometimes it is healing to scream out the anger and injustice, but other times this very sense of unfairness feels like a cage that our soul could be stuck in for the rest of our lives. It's hard to figure out how to move outside of it, to re-build a complete identity and purpose that isn't the result nor the consequence of the abuse, without ever forgeting where we come from, without ever losing sight of who we DON'T want to be. You are without any doubt a wonderful dad who leads by example. Not one made of lies, illusions and false expectations. But one who learns to embrace their own vulnerability, who shows strength through authenticity, and who encompasses through who they are what unconditional love truly means. Your younger self would look up to you and be proud of you. I hope that, somehow, he can find comfort in the way you have been learning to re-parent yourself while being an amazing dad to your little boy. :heart: -Micro
@@HeartSupport Thank you for your response and sadly, your understanding...but more importantly your own strength.. I know that I'm not alone in this trauma and I send you hugs and strength to continue your own battle. I came to terms with my abuse a long time ago...BUT I'm lucky and so many are not. What y'all are doing helps us all. Discussing these topics with a pure intention takes some of the sting away and opens doors for others to tell their story.
OH - MY - GOD!!! For starters, I enjoy a heck of a lot when a “outsider” enjoys “my” music!! I mean, the joy of sharing, idk, passing to others and stuff. But then, YOU just did something to “my” music: I’ve been a Tool fan for 30 years now. I kinda got into then cause of the music itself and the imagery of the video-clips, but I never dug deep enough into the lyrics, maybe because of english not being my mother language but now that a hear (and enjoy) your take on this lyrics, given your professional background, you changed/improved them for me. So thanks a lot!! P. S.: love the silly dances and faces, and your very nice apartament.
Went through this shit as a very young child. Completely blocked it out for years. Like it never happened. I always knew something was always wrong but couldnt place it. Shit wrecked my life for 30 plus years. Psychedelics finally gave me the perspective and introspection to let it all go
For me and my long history with TOOL, this song cuts right to heart of the subject matter. Maynard didn't bury or obscure the topic. Even the radio edit was panned by the radio. Was a rough bit when I was singing this at karaoke and during the musical break, remembered the lyrical bomb i was about the audience. I detest the radio edit, but understand that in certain environments it is a sad reality. I'm glad that you had a chance to use this song and it's message to help others learn and heal. In 50+ years on this planet, searching for magic, the closest thing I've found is music. TOOL is one of the finest practitioners of this magical form of communication and therapy. TOOL is Pink Floyd for the new millennium. 🤘🧙♂🤘
You reactions with this video puts a whole new shine on this. The video was artsie and cool but when you know thw subject matter with your anaylis really hits home! Thx and no thx LOL.
I haven't cried watching a reaction video, ever, but this made me realize so much about myself, my parents fought extremely loudly and violently (sometimes physical) around me and my sister almost every day it seemed, for almost my whole life, which also led to my parents and I having the same type of arguments as I grew older, the house was full of anger and resent all the time. Anger has always been a struggle of mine and it's affected those closest to me very roughly, and it sometimes feels like its out of my control and I almost want to be mad, it almost feels good to be mad, only recently (last year or so) have I reflected on my youth and realized all I grew up around was conflict, I didn't know what real love ever looked like, I was stuck with parents that definitely should've divorced, but thought it would cause us more harm than to remain together in a toxic relationship. My mother is a narcissist and my dad has a short fuse, it was never bound to work out and was always the perfect recipe for breeding more people just like them. I make it a conscious effort now to end this cycle, their parents abused them, both had alcoholic parents, and I refuse to be the next generation of abuser.
i love this comment --- we are able to hear this song and even though it doesn't end on any kind of hopeful note we complete the song by saying, "yeah, but that doesn't have to be me" it's the same with the offspring song "way down the line"
From ManekiNeko: @Squillyboy It’s so confronting to go through and grow up around abuse and seeing or learning how that cycle affected our parents and the ones before them is a deep mark that reflects just how deeply and how hard the cycle is to break free from. I know in my own life I’ve had a lot of learning to do outside of what I grew up thinking and believing to be right. It was so hard to not react in anger and to reign in my energy. So much we are told we are products of our parents or our environment and when you first get a glimpse of something different it’s so impactful and confusing. Having people surrounding you that show kindness and grace can be an uncomfortable place to settle when you’re not used to it. When your life has been ruled by chaos, finding people you can call friends or family who express a polar opposite feels like “I don’t deserve this”. I struggled and still do at times feeling okay with simple kindness for the fact it’s kind. The smallest steps start with embracing the love others offer is and sitting with it and not being expected to do anything or for there to be a twist. You in this moment deserve love and support for simply being. I can’t wait for you to find peace in your journey. You’re not alone as you take that journey, friend.
Between NIN TOOL and Nine Inch Nails, they have have almost single handedly seen me through every bad, sad, horrifying, happy (of which there were few), confusing and even just the days when i was doubled over in pain. Trent Reznor and Maynard J Kennan are two of the most talented musicians spanning the stretch of they have, which is pretty damn considerable. Cant wait for your first NIN reaction, try "something i can never have" he did a rendition of it where its just him on piano and a gitar joining. Pure eargasm.
Was never a big Tool fan but your lyrical analysis has given me a new found appreciation for the band.Sometimes it only takes one moment to make it all click.Thanks.
These reactions have been incredibly therapeutic, I'm learning why as a teen I identified so much with these songs. Now, as a new father, these lessons and messages carry a whole new meaning to me. Stinkfist, prison sex, and pushit are my top 3 tool songs, please listen to pushit.
Listen to the wings of Mary. Part 1 & 2. Maynard isn’t even religious and he wrote his mother the most beautiful religious song. lol. The man is truly magnificent.
I got to see them twice in less than a year, 23 and 24. I’ve seen TOOL with my brother 3 times. 10 shows between the 2 of Us. Never disappointed My friends or Us once Live.
when i first heard this song i was so caught up in the music too. i really had to listen to it a few times before i listened to lyrics than i was hooked. smart , eye opening lyrics with just awesome music . they have been my fav. band since 1992 i seen them live many times and have never been disappointed. jimmy , H, pushit are all great songs to react to. cheers
Thank you for taking on the tough songs and taking time to give great advice to break cycles. Very cool to use the song as a tool (no pun intended) as a catalyst for change.
I think you're doing a great thing with your channel. Exposing people to music that might help them heal is a noble thing to do. Tool helped me thru many dark times in my life too, so i appreciate what you do. Ive got a request. Graves by Caligula's Horse. The song is about the lyricist becoming a father. He pours his excitement, fears, hopes, anger, and love into a single song. Its worth listening to. Very relatable.
Inspiring words but some people are just not ready to see the matrix. That deep of focus on the most painful memories of your life could easily trigger someone and we don’t want that either. It’s a very fine line. “Art saves lives.” - Maynard James Keenan
Tool is my favorite band, yet I put off their first album. Heard this song and related with Maynard in very specific ways, which made me put it off even more. Coming to terms and I’m so glad Maynard wrote these lyrics. Makes me appreciate my favorite band in a whole new way, and makes me feel like crying by myself isn’t emasculating. Wish I could DM the girl in this video directly, but didn’t see a way. This song hurts in a bad way, which is good in the long run. Idk what the point of this post is, but I feel like getting it out is good. This video helped me.
I've heard this song and seen this video for years. I saw it almost 30 years ago for the 1st time. It was deeply disturbing, then for sure.. but profoundly raw and heartfelt given it's message. JR. High, had never experienced anything like "abuse" and was only able to empathise as much as my teenage awareness would allow me, however much I sincerely, did try. It's many years later. I'm married with a family and children... and NOW, Everything about this hits COMPLETELY different... This song in correlation with the video has brought me to tears and broken me. This is just, SOOO brutal 😞 and to consider how many poor, innocent little ones go through this sort of thing on a regular, minute by minute, second by second daily basis is beyond my comprehension. Lord, help us
You've been a trooper working through these early Tool albums. Welcome to the Cult. Still sounds as fresh and disturbing to my ears today as it did when these albums dropped.
5:14 I’ve never been hurt by a stranger, all while I was told to be weary of the “stranger danger”. Stranger danger is made up by those close to you that want to harm you. A gaslighting before they touch me. I’ve integrated my traumas into my shadow, for the lamb became the voyeur to my pain.
Thank you for the insightful analysis. I never looked too deeply into this particular song, as I was really about the albums AEnima and Lateralus. I'm blessed I didn't deal with getting sexually abused by a family member. My story was growing up in a chaotic household with a lot abuse between my alcoholic parents, both verbal/emotional and witnessing domestic violence. They did their best to shelter me from their issues, and were not violent with me, but it was still extremely traumatic to witness. In my adult life, I ended up becoming an alcoholic myself, who would eventually turn verbally abusive in my relationships, and even violent on a couple of occasions. I'm more than 2 years alcohol free and have a wonderful partner who supported me while I got the help I needed. My parents still drink, but I've learned to set healthy boundaries with them and my relationship with them is much better in sobriety. The work never ends, but I'm blessed to have the opportunity to be a cycle breaker of generational trauma.
@@sillyNstressed i have anger issues sober or not, and the abusers in my own life were not alcoholics. i wish us both luck finding a way forward into a better future, we may not be easy to get along with but we have important things to share with the world!
I like how you adress the reptition from abusee to abuser it is classic. As somone that was abused sexually i understand "do unto others what has been done to me" because i was compelled at a young age to continue the cycle hence said sentence. As i grew older i understood my abuse and what happened. Nowadays i couldnt stand the concept of said abuse. Happeneing to anyone. The song is so perfect iN Conveying what a victim feels even at their lowest
i enjoyed watching your facial expressions and your personal message to survivors of abuse relating to this song. Tool was my fav band in the 90s and I will never forget this song the first time I heard it. In this instance, I believe this is a story of 2 willing adult partners in BDSM. Maynard James Keenan did not have a bad life. He loved exploring dark topics and owns a winery in Jerome AZ now.
On your stinkfist video I commented that I was surprised to see it show up on the playlist. I can’t believe this is here too, but I guess it’s the logical next step.
I was physically, emotionally and sexually abused by my caretakers when I was a child up until my mid teens since it was then when I started (physically) fighting back. Music was and still is my savior, and I am and will always be thankful for Tool and A Perfect Circle cause m they saved my life during my teens, and continue to do so even now that I’m 30. I have been able to seek help, and currently I’m managing my… mental health/illnesses/trauma with a psychiatrist and a therapist, and thankfully I’m improving greatly; It’s not perfect, but I feel like I’m finally starting to see a tiny light or spark at the end of the tunnel.
I took the only course of action i felt possible to avoid the screaming terror in my mind, and that was to reach the age of 50 without ever having a child of my own which has left me with a void in my life of unlived moments of beauty and pride in the children who might have been, but were too priceless to ever selfishly not break the chain that is documented, and i am not self centred enough to put myself ahead of an innocent child.
Hey, I made the puppets for this video! Well, it was a whole team, not just me, but it was fun. Adam Jones from the band helped out. He used to be a special effects guy. Worked on Jurassic Park before the band got a record deal. Good times.
Very nice! Love the Alex Grey stuff too. Adam is amazing. Nice job on this!
Did you make sure all the pieces fit?
Hey, I goto a therapist and my therapist says people who make puppets can't be trusted!
thanks i hate it. jk jk but they are disturbing. XD
Right on!🌿🌸
I never knew I needed a therapist to react to Tool songs as much as I apparantly did
Well said my friend 👊
Whatever will bewilder me.
A therapist reacting to Tool (my normal therapist).
It's when 2+2 = 13
I need to I go to sleep, like two hours ago, but I found this channel… now, I’m thinking can I squeeze in a nap in the afternoon???
I think they will do a therapist react song
@@scottdolby Spiral out. We will whether the weather, whatever the weather, whether we want to or not. (I need a grammar check on that one. That one was tough to type out...)
Listening to Tool has helped me get through some of the worst moments in my life. This band has literally saved my life.
Many times brother, many times...
same same, brother Mikey. Much love.
So glad to hear this…stay happy & healthy!
Same. Stay strong and spiral out!
So many hard times and they are always there.
The cycle of abuse portrayed in beautifully, disturbingly, perfection...
Word
And the song is actually really catchy.
It's mind fck of a song. I love it.
It's currently my favorite tool song
The words beeped out where "shit blood and cum on my hands"
This song made me realize I had ptsd from years of abuse at 12 yrs of age. I'm 43 now and thank TooL for giving me the courage to face my fears and carry on.
It needs to be recognized that Tool pulled this off in the early 90’s when all the gangster rap was being heavily criticized for its content. Yet these artists did this in the same time period without the same level of scrutiny. Pure genius ✌️
Nothing but raw talent 💯🔥
This video was banned from MTV for being too offensive so your statement isn’t really accurate.
@@bom2 just remember seeing it several times…….on MTV. It’s the very first place I saw it. Maybe stuff happened after that but I’m mostly so happy about you being right.
@@aaronwolf3587I think your last comment totally missed @Bom2. He seems to not have the ability to detect sarcasm. He is right though as the song was quickly banned after it was dropped. MTV wasn't too keen on the title of Stinkfist either as it was labeled as "Track 1." Makes you wonder how things would have went down if "HWAP" was ever released as a single or a video. If they didn't ban it and just forced a name change I mean. Like what would they have come up with? Hopefully something better than Track 7. I think "entrepreneur with a Phalice" would have suited just fine.
@@chriswilcox2115’Phallus’ but yes, point is taken!
I was sexually abused as a child and I’ve never really dealt with it. I had a mental breakdown a week ago and was a very dark day for me again. So I’m finally seeking the help I need to learn more about myself and deal with it, I have an appointment next month with a psychiatrist. Hopefully I can finally overcome and battle my demons.
It doesn’t have to define who you are . It shouldn’t . Right now it probably is more than it ever should but hopefully the help you seek will help with that . Been there. Godbless
I went through the same thing. My abuse was from 2 until 10 & then the beatings were for a long time after! My step father was the one who did it. And my mom didn't believe me. And she said maybe I wanted it! Wanted it, how the hell would a 2 year old baby girl want some type ish like that! I still can't wrap my mind around that! And the pain that I carried with me made me sick for decades. And the only one who helped me come out on the other side was the Lord Jesus Christ Almighty!! And I pray that he'll help you with your trauma & heal from it!! I love you so much & I'm so grateful that you're here. I'm praying for you. May Abba Father continue to Bless you & Keep you. May he cause his face to shine upon you & be gracious unto you. May he lift up his countenance upon you & give you his Beautiful Peace which surpasses all understanding in Jesus Mighty name I pray, Amen!
You are incredibly strong! You got this
I knew someone that was sexually abused by their dad. The dad died on the couch as the daughter held his hand.
Then she got sexually abused (can we please just use the R word? Bloody censorship) by a stranger in the street. Which is different. That's discarding after at that point.
It's one thing to use someone. It's another to discard.
Definitely consider a therapist as well as a psychiatrist. It can sometimes take a few tries to get the right one.
H. and Reflection will restore your faith in Tool
As full and bright as I am, this light is not my own…
I've recommended Reflection to her several times. It's right up her alley. Great song!
10000 days more so
@@EnlightenedSavage the deepest cut..I wasn’t going that far that quickly
H. is all-mighty!
"Cycles that we are unaware of are often repeated." So well said. Your reactions are fantastic. Ty 🎉
You are bar none the greatest at doing what you are doing right now. The complete grasp at the message portrayed is honestly refreshing in this sector of youtube. So many reactions not fully grasping the message (tool songs especially) and only looking for likes and subscribes. I applaud you for doing what you do.
The Grudge. That is the song you should be reacting to.
One of their best!
But they have so many, I guess that's not saying much 😅
Yes, and also every other one
The grudge live was amazing. Saw them in Atlanta in January
I'm heavy into TOOL and it still boggles my mind how this music can even exist. So next level.
Invincible off the newest album. I'm a retired Marine and that song broke me.
The song The Patient by them- absolute mental health/ depression breaker for me every time.
I remember reading that this song was actually used by therapists as a way of dealing with abuse that their patients had experienced.
I can tell you it’s not an approved method of treating trauma, but I do agree that music can play a part in healing, but not as the primary treatment, when there exists tried and true methods. Music would be more of an expressive form that the client can associate with or relate to, or have the same or similar experience, which could normalize their experience.
@@danduntz2539 l never said it was “approved” (whatever that means in this world today and by whatever government body decides such things) or was the primary method of treatment, I said it was being used by some therapists - that’s all.
Sht... music has done me more good than any therapist@@tattoodude8946
Tool song Bottom off the same album, and Pushit both have powerful messages. Looking forward to your reaction to both of those.
Pushit
YES Pushit!
Both bottom and push it, my favorite top two songs
Also has Henry Rollings doing the spoken word part.(Bottom)
Bottom is AMAZING
This is a heavy song and I applaud this channel for not shying away from putting this reaction out there. Some things in life are absolutely disgusting, and thankfully there are people and places like this where support can be found to get us all through it.
Tool are great at making a sad reality a mind opening experience. You’re very good at breaking down their music and explaining the message. Too many people today have a small minded view when it comes to music and the deeper message.
They sing about life, the good and bad. Thanks for tackling this song and subject matter that most will not. A lot get grossed out and miss out on the great music of this song.
Taylor you are brilliant! Thank you for your take on songs. Not only do you bring a strong presence and a joy to watch on some really tough topics, your positivity and message at the end is wholesome and meaningful. Thanks for the love you ❤ at the end too. Some people need to hear that.
Maynards mother saga is worth a listen as well
1. Jimmy/The patient - Tool
2. Judith -A Perfect Circle
3. Wings/ 10000 days-Tool
4. Horizons-Puscifer
Probably just do a little back story research too
truly magnificent set, similar mother saga and helps put it all out there.. these have been a blessing
you do it
Don't forget Orestes
Huh
I found TOOL back in the mid 90s as an early teen. Easily my favorite band of all time. I can't even begin to put into words how this band has helped me on an emotional level. You can listen to the words and realize you aren't alone in suffering, and at the same time, lose yourself in the sound. The entire Lateralus album, from beginning to end has pulled me out of a lot of dark places. The Albums from beginning to current are almost caterpillar of self loathing and hate transforming into a winged beast of loving yourself and feeling awake and alive. I love this band so much.
Now that you are past the nasty ones, THE GRUDGE...THE GRUDGE...THE GRUDGE !!! Gold!
please please please.... took me a long time to appreciate 'the grudge' but now it is one of the the most helpful of Lateralus album...
...Transmutate these leaden grudges into gold...
This might be my favorite TooL song!
These grudges were lead back in my day
8:57 😭
"i know it's a responsibility you don't wanna bear" 😭
The Prison Sex video on MTV was my intro to tool way back in the 90's. I devoured that album over and over sgain. It gave voice to things inside me that needed a voice. It helped me express my anger at things i went through. It gave me power over those things. It showe me a path to healing. It helped make sure I didn't repeat those cycles. And even now, after countless times listening to this song it's still revealing things to me.
This is genuinely turning into one of my favourite channels due to the content and your reactions.
I’d like to recommend “Poet and the Pendulum” live at Wembley by Nightwish. It is not the normal song people start with when it comes to Nightwish, however it is the song that suits this channel the most as it deals with depression and struggle. It was written by Nightwish’s song writer the keyboardist Tuomas during the hardest time in the bands history and he basically ended his life in the song to stop himself doing it in real life, however the new song finishes positively with a new beginning. It is one of the best written pieces of music you will come across and is broken into Acts. I won’t say more about it.
Nightwish hold the record for most reacted song in RUclips history with “Ghost Love Score” (normally what people start their Nightwish journey with. However, as previously mentioned, “Poet” suits this channel perfectly, especially if the research is done on the songs meaning beforehand.
Poet is my favorite song, though I am suicidal everyday. So I listen to it on repeat all the time to help me cope.
@@brettwillard8892 I’m sorry to hear about your struggles. I’ve been there and just keep moving forward one day and one step at a time.
When I first listened to this album way back in high school, it fundamentally changed how I thought about music -- what one can do with it, what parts of the human condition are "in bounds" to talk about. Music is an expressive art that can be a teaching tool, a therpeutic instrument, a thought experiment, a way to shine a light in dark corners. Maynard and Tool are just... they are a singular talent in terms of artistry and expressive courage. And listening to this song alongside your insight as a therapist, it brings a sudden realness to it. It's almost like hearing the song again for the first time. Love it!
My parents were physically, emotionally, and mentally abusive. I've long found solace in rock and metal, more so than people. I still, to this day, struggle with depression and trusting others.
I can relate. They hate me and turned my siblings against me.
From AliceBlue: @mennaris I hate that you experienced so much hurt and abuse from your parents. I’m deeply sorry for the pain it must have caused and may still cause you.
Our parents are such a huge instrument in our lives for the better and unfortunately for the worse. Having to survive through abuse is something nobody should ever have to experience.
It’s often a repeated cycle passed on from before, but it doesn’t make it okay and it sure is something horrible and difficult to have to be the one to break the cycle that was so unfairly passed onto you.
I love that music is such a connection and bridge to so many. There’s something less isolating hearing a song that reflects your soul and life experience and then seeing other people come out and say the same thing. There’s some solidarity in the midst of the hurt and pain. There’s a beauty in people coming together to say “this hurts and it ends with me”.
From Micro: @mennaris It's hard to learn to trust others when the very first people in this world who should have protected you happened to hurt you in such brutal ways. It makes sense to feel the way you do and to still struggle with this, even years later and even after working on how these traumas have been affecting you, your life, your heart.
There is something profoundly scary in trusting someone, something uncertain and risky at the same time. It can be a door that leads to beautiful, and even healing, connections with others. There are good people out there that are worth it. But it's also possible to be hurt again, and once you already carry this wound with you, it becomes so difficult and so challenging to overcome this inner barrier. Somehow, it has very legitimate reasons to exist: to protect you, to keep you safe, to ensure that nothing bad would happen again and no one would hurt you. When you're not trusting someone, when you're letting them in, at least you have control over the outcomes - you know what to expect an you won't get caught up by surprise because of someone else's poor choices and behaviors. It makes sense to feel the way you do, really.
Although I personally relate to what you've described and understand firsthand how safe this position can feel, I also feel for you with this and for how isolating/lonely it can be sometimes. t almost feels like you are forbidden from having access to love and joy that so many others seem to get so easily, and that freaking hurts. I hope that, in your own world and in the places that feel safe to you, you'll manage to cultivate *some* sense of connection with others too, at your very own pace. Connections developped on your own terms, that woul be made of nothing but respect, authenticity and true care for who you are, for YOU.
You deserve to feel at peace without having to retreat yourself outside of this world. From the bottom of my heart, thank you for inviting us here to see and know a little bit of this world of yours. It is a special gift.
I found a vid of Maynard talking briefly about this song, and I think that your interpretation is 100 percent spot on.
I remember him saying that people shouldn't turn away from dark, ugly things in life and that we should try to understand them.
I liked Tool until I saw them live in 1997 at Lolapalooza in St. Louis. Seeing them live gives you new appreciation for them and the sou ds they produce. Not many bands are better live than in the studio.
I would definitely pay to go to a therapist and just sit there rock out listening to tool together and analyzing everything.
Tool has grown with time and their albums change with their personal views. The Lateralus album I think may have the most positive outlook.
The entire Lateralus album helped me through some of my darkest times in my life. It’s my healing album since it speaks to all the different feelings I have experienced.
You rock girl.
As an adoptee My cycle is abandonment.
Spiral Out, Keep Going
Nuts! I was adopted too. Now you gave me something to think about....Damn you! TOOL strikes again, and therapy is so expensive.
ever watch Avatar Way of Water? what do you think about the themes of adoption there? i love that movie as someone who's always wished i could have been adopted rather than grow up in the home i did...
@@charoleawood I never watched Way of Water (because I am tired of being told that I am evil because I am human-different topic), but my wife has made me watch "This Is Us" on Netflix. The Character "Randall" was abandoned at a fire station as a baby and adopted by the Pearson Family. He grew up with loving, imperfect parents, as I did. He was always compelled to learn about where he came from and why he was abandoned. Just last night , we watched the episode where he finally learns everything about his Bio-parents (how 'bout THAT timing?"). The new knowledge seems to lift a weight off Randall's shoulders- the actor does a great job with his entire journey. I was never so compelled to learn about my origination. At my Dad's funeral, I wrote and delivered a Eulogy, in which I stated that my sister (also adopted) and I won "the parental lottery". I believe there is greatness in the act of adopting- Even adopting a stray dog or cat (I've done both) adds fulfillment that can't be found anywhere else. I still believe that I missed out to some degree on the simple experience of being genetically related to my family. I got some of that back when my daughters were born, but I still think I probably came out way ahead of "what might have been". Sorry to hear that you didn't have such great luck in the "happy home" department. Best of luck going forward- Spiral Out!
@@christopherwelsh7008
Spiral out!
i think your reply is wonderful and i am so happy to know you had a loving home, i'll check out "This is Us"
seriously though, from all that was written here i think you'll get a lot out of Way of Water
@@charoleawood I see that YT censored my reply to you, but I didn't want to leave you hanging. Didn't see that movie. Sorry you grew up in a bad situation. I had great adoptive parents, but did miss out on the sense of being a part of them, as in, I didn't look like them. My wife grew up in a poor home with lousy parents and she learned from their shortcomings and did better with her own kids. I guess your world is only partly about the hand you are dealt, but more about what you make of it.
Clean version of song. It took “shit blood and cum on my hands “ where it wasn’t a double entendre
A OTRM live version has a bridge and more lyrics
“show me something 4x
thought I could make it end
thought I could wash the stains away
thought I could break the circle
if slip right into your skin
so sweet was your surrender
we have become one
I have become a my terror
and you my precious lamb and martyr”
[[[[[Tool - Jimmy]]]]
For when you wanna talk about helping our childhood self.
song made me a fan of the band. never hear it on the radio which is a true shame.
@@kl8455I heard it on the radio once. Definitely edited but it was still pretty great.
@@kl8455 Yeah def needs more air time
I can only support this suggestion of her making a video on it, if _Intermission_ is allowed to properly segue into _Jimmy_ as it does on the album; no pause. 😊
Seriously, that is my *favorite* lead-in of all time!! 🥹
@@DUKE_of_RAMBLE Oh absolutely they MUST be played the way it was intended on the album.
"Pushit" is like Part 2 of this song. My favorite song of all-time. Not just TOOL song. The subject matter is dark but it's so powerful, poignant and a complete adrenaline rush all at once. It's like going on an emotional rollercoaster.
DAM GIRL YOU HAVE FORCED ME TO SUBSCRIBE. THE WAY YOU EXPLAINE THE SONGS MEANING IS ON POINT AND MAKE THE SONG SOOOOOO MUCH BETTER THANK YOU SO MUCH AND PLEASE KEEP THEM COMING ❤️
I have just found your channel and I love it. I have been a Tool fan for decades and I always get caught up in the music with its various time signature and tones and percussivness. To my demise, I have never paid much attention to the lyrics. You have made everything old fresh again. I will be a fan of your channel. Thank you
Thank you for what you do. I’ve gone through some crap and know friends that have and it sucks. We’ve come to be good people that really despise crap
The song, and especially the video, leaves me in tears every single time.
The dark alien figure keeping the child puppet in fear, painting the puppet with a dry brush, then the child painting itself the same color as the alien.
The dark figure holding the child's hand down at the end is so hard to watch.
This song is so honest. Im breathing so i guess im still alive. Its so sad and it hurts. I have had so many friends who had no idea what was happening and had no Idea how wrong it was intell we were old enough to realize it was so wrong. I appreciate his honesty. Maynard will never know how much he made us feel not alone.
Glad you made it through the whole thing. All the elements of the song, when broken down would be quite prolific on their own. When reassembled it's a new level of masterpiece that only TOOL is capable of achieving.
Thank you for being so real in the end of this. I have spent so many years worried that I would become what I hated most. I will not become a statistic. I will not let evil win. Through much therapy and tears I’ve made it this far. ❤
Just remember Maynard is in 3 active bands at 60 still rocking it.
Give his other work a sample
A Perfect Circle - Disillusioned
Puscifer- Arsonist, The Remedy, Mama Sed
Totally badassery music made by adults for adults.
Maynard is a straight up lyrical genius
60? Fuuuuu
I hear Green Jelly is making a comeback as well
I love Tool, and I knew this song would come up eventually. I applaud you for listening to it, hearing the message, and showing the compassion you did at the end. Thank You
One of my favorite songs of theirs. Incredible. Nothing compares. Nothing
Thank for doing my most dear Tool song. Its usually gets looked over for obvious reasons but this song, these lyrics I know like I write them myself. Tool has saved me throughout all the stages in my life.
I'm crying right now with ugly face. I KNOW Tool. I have explored every track and know every bit of their music...BUT I SO NEEDED you to say that that responsibility to break the cycle is not fair. I live with the abuse that I endured EVERYDAY and now I'm a single father with a 10 yo son. I decided long ago that he would not live through the cycle that I have seen in my family for generations. I don't talk to them at all we have built or own family....but that FEAR is always there.... and that is the song H. and I think it would be great to see you react to it and to hear your understanding.
THANK YOU for your openness and courage to discuss these topics.
I also NEED NEED NEED you to listen to Pink Floyd - On the turning away. It is what Heart Support is all about.... and I thank you for NOT joining in the turning away.
From Micro: @compujohn96 The injustice of having to be a cycle breaker is too often unseen and unspoken, thank you for bringing light to this topic as well and sharing about your own journey. It's good to hear how this part of the video especially brings light on this topic, resonates with you and offers validation. Breaking the cycle of generational trauma is a kind of experience that shouldn't even *have* to be, and definitely feels like self-sacrifice sometimes. Although you know that a decision would be *right* and healthy, it doesn't make it easier or less painful to deal with. It forces you to grieve so many things at once, and the idea of how life *should* have been prior to any abuse and trauma. When you are forced to be in this position, it's hard to not delve into the ruminations of wondering WHY it happened to you, and how to make sense out of it without hurting yourself even more.
Somehow, there is a strength to find in this feeling of injustice - it activates a needed anger that helps the wounded child that you were to stand up for themselves and the people they love. It's an incredibly powerful way to embrace what is *right*, what is *safe*, and what love truly is - at millions and millions of miles away from the abuse you've suffered while growing up. It was sold to you as love or care because that's what your parents also learned - but you have refused to stop looking at this narrative like some truth to be preserved. No, you've stepped away from it, saw it for what it is, named it accurately, and are doing the work of an entire family just in one life. That is a huge responsibility, and it's understandable that it feels profoundly unfair at the same time.
For what it's worth, I'm on the same path as you regarding generational abuse/traumas and going no contact with my parents. It's been an insane amount of ugly tears and feeling like my soul gets ripped apart - which I have no doubt you're familiar with. As you said so well, the sense of fear that feels like it's sticking to you, at your core, is an awful reminder of all the pain you've been through and the burdens you've been left carrying as an adult. Sometimes it is healing to scream out the anger and injustice, but other times this very sense of unfairness feels like a cage that our soul could be stuck in for the rest of our lives. It's hard to figure out how to move outside of it, to re-build a complete identity and purpose that isn't the result nor the consequence of the abuse, without ever forgeting where we come from, without ever losing sight of who we DON'T want to be.
You are without any doubt a wonderful dad who leads by example. Not one made of lies, illusions and false expectations. But one who learns to embrace their own vulnerability, who shows strength through authenticity, and who encompasses through who they are what unconditional love truly means. Your younger self would look up to you and be proud of you. I hope that, somehow, he can find comfort in the way you have been learning to re-parent yourself while being an amazing dad to your little boy. :heart:
-Micro
@@HeartSupport Thank you for your response and sadly, your understanding...but more importantly your own strength.. I know that I'm not alone in this trauma and I send you hugs and strength to continue your own battle. I came to terms with my abuse a long time ago...BUT I'm lucky and so many are not. What y'all are doing helps us all. Discussing these topics with a pure intention takes some of the sting away and opens doors for others to tell their story.
Every aspect of Tool is incredible, from the layers of the music to the undeniably complex lyrics.
OH - MY - GOD!!! For starters, I enjoy a heck of a lot when a “outsider” enjoys “my” music!! I mean, the joy of sharing, idk, passing to others and stuff. But then, YOU just did something to “my” music: I’ve been a Tool fan for 30 years now. I kinda got into then cause of the music itself and the imagery of the video-clips, but I never dug deep enough into the lyrics, maybe because of english not being my mother language but now that a hear (and enjoy) your take on this lyrics, given your professional background, you changed/improved them for me. So thanks a lot!!
P. S.: love the silly dances and faces, and your very nice apartament.
Went through this shit as a very young child. Completely blocked it out for years. Like it never happened. I always knew something was always wrong but couldnt place it. Shit wrecked my life for 30 plus years. Psychedelics finally gave me the perspective and introspection to let it all go
i've never done psychedelics, but i love videogames and they've been that "trip" i needed to heal, particularly Souls-like videogames.
For me and my long history with TOOL, this song cuts right to heart of the subject matter. Maynard didn't bury or obscure the topic.
Even the radio edit was panned by the radio.
Was a rough bit when I was singing this at karaoke and during the musical break, remembered the lyrical bomb i was about the audience. I detest the radio edit, but understand that in certain environments it is a sad reality.
I'm glad that you had a chance to use this song and it's message to help others learn and heal. In 50+ years on this planet, searching for magic, the closest thing I've found is music. TOOL is one of the finest practitioners of this magical form of communication and therapy.
TOOL is Pink Floyd for the new millennium.
🤘🧙♂🤘
Metal has long served as a canvas for exploring forbidden feelings.
Wow.... you are amazing..... this might be the best reaction to any song on you tube.
You reactions with this video puts a whole new shine on this. The video was artsie and cool but when you know thw subject matter with your anaylis really hits home! Thx and no thx LOL.
I haven't cried watching a reaction video, ever, but this made me realize so much about myself, my parents fought extremely loudly and violently (sometimes physical) around me and my sister almost every day it seemed, for almost my whole life, which also led to my parents and I having the same type of arguments as I grew older, the house was full of anger and resent all the time. Anger has always been a struggle of mine and it's affected those closest to me very roughly, and it sometimes feels like its out of my control and I almost want to be mad, it almost feels good to be mad, only recently (last year or so) have I reflected on my youth and realized all I grew up around was conflict, I didn't know what real love ever looked like, I was stuck with parents that definitely should've divorced, but thought it would cause us more harm than to remain together in a toxic relationship. My mother is a narcissist and my dad has a short fuse, it was never bound to work out and was always the perfect recipe for breeding more people just like them. I make it a conscious effort now to end this cycle, their parents abused them, both had alcoholic parents, and I refuse to be the next generation of abuser.
i love this comment --- we are able to hear this song and even though it doesn't end on any kind of hopeful note we complete the song by saying, "yeah, but that doesn't have to be me"
it's the same with the offspring song "way down the line"
From ManekiNeko: @Squillyboy It’s so confronting to go through and grow up around abuse and seeing or learning how that cycle affected our parents and the ones before them is a deep mark that reflects just how deeply and how hard the cycle is to break free from.
I know in my own life I’ve had a lot of learning to do outside of what I grew up thinking and believing to be right. It was so hard to not react in anger and to reign in my energy. So much we are told we are products of our parents or our environment and when you first get a glimpse of something different it’s so impactful and confusing.
Having people surrounding you that show kindness and grace can be an uncomfortable place to settle when you’re not used to it. When your life has been ruled by chaos, finding people you can call friends or family who express a polar opposite feels like “I don’t deserve this”. I struggled and still do at times feeling okay with simple kindness for the fact it’s kind. The smallest steps start with embracing the love others offer is and sitting with it and not being expected to do anything or for there to be a twist.
You in this moment deserve love and support for simply being. I can’t wait for you to find peace in your journey. You’re not alone as you take that journey, friend.
please listen to and analyze jimmy or the patient next!!! so many great tool songs to go through.
keep going with them!
The Grudge next please! Honestly, for yourself, do their discography. For the purpose of this channel, The Grudge.
I barely ever make comments, just gotta say love your break downs on these Tool reactions, keep em coming.. Keep Going 🌀
Between NIN TOOL and Nine Inch Nails, they have have almost single handedly seen me through every bad, sad, horrifying, happy (of which there were few), confusing and even just the days when i was doubled over in pain.
Trent Reznor and Maynard J Kennan are two of the most talented musicians spanning the stretch of they have, which is pretty damn considerable. Cant wait for your first NIN reaction, try "something i can never have" he did a rendition of it where its just him on piano and a gitar joining. Pure eargasm.
In that case...Potions - Puscifer is a colab between Trent & Maynard. And it fully kicks ass
Was never a big Tool fan but your lyrical analysis has given me a new found appreciation for the band.Sometimes it only takes one moment to make it all click.Thanks.
I fight every day to keep breaking the cycle, and sometimes the only thing that feels like an answer is absolute
These reactions have been incredibly therapeutic, I'm learning why as a teen I identified so much with these songs. Now, as a new father, these lessons and messages carry a whole new meaning to me. Stinkfist, prison sex, and pushit are my top 3 tool songs, please listen to pushit.
I always love your wholesome and real reactions. Thank you
Listen to the wings of Mary. Part 1 & 2. Maynard isn’t even religious and he wrote his mother the most beautiful religious song. lol. The man is truly magnificent.
She isn't at that part of her Tool journey yet. She needs to get through Jimmy, Judith, and then she can get to them. All with good time.
God, listening to this song hurts. My brother and I have talked about how fortunate and blessed we feel that we’ve not continued the cycle.
Try "the patient" is one of their most beautiful songs
You guys and Great Measures are doing great work helping people out.
Break the circle.
Great stuff.
My goodness, you are so booksmart! I love therapist who have actually experienced the things they speak to...
I got to see them twice in less than a year, 23 and 24. I’ve seen TOOL with my brother 3 times. 10 shows between the 2 of Us. Never disappointed My friends or Us once Live.
when i first heard this song i was so caught up in the music too. i really had to listen to it a few times before i listened to lyrics than i was hooked. smart , eye opening lyrics with just awesome music . they have been my fav. band since 1992 i seen them live many times and have never been disappointed. jimmy , H, pushit are all great songs to react to. cheers
Ive heard this song at least 1000x and still got goose bumps in the first 30 seconds of the video.
Thank you for taking on the tough songs and taking time to give great advice to break cycles. Very cool to use the song as a tool (no pun intended) as a catalyst for change.
That last moment where the child tries to raise their hand and the perpetrator puts the hand down is pretty brutal.
"Invitation to awareness" -- beautiful thought. Thanks again for taking the time to dig deep into Tool.
I think you're doing a great thing with your channel. Exposing people to music that might help them heal is a noble thing to do. Tool helped me thru many dark times in my life too, so i appreciate what you do.
Ive got a request. Graves by Caligula's Horse. The song is about the lyricist becoming a father. He pours his excitement, fears, hopes, anger, and love into a single song. Its worth listening to. Very relatable.
Inspiring words but some people are just not ready to see the matrix. That deep of focus on the most painful memories of your life could easily trigger someone and we don’t want that either. It’s a very fine line.
“Art saves lives.” - Maynard James Keenan
I've been a huge fan from the beginning...
I'm happy that you can now see the genus TOOL brings!!!!!
Tool is my favorite band, yet I put off their first album. Heard this song and related with Maynard in very specific ways, which made me put it off even more. Coming to terms and I’m so glad Maynard wrote these lyrics. Makes me appreciate my favorite band in a whole new way, and makes me feel like crying by myself isn’t emasculating. Wish I could DM the girl in this video directly, but didn’t see a way. This song hurts in a bad way, which is good in the long run. Idk what the point of this post is, but I feel like getting it out is good. This video helped me.
I STILL LOVE TOOL.......AND STILL LISTEN TO THEM FOR AGGRESSION, YOU CAN STILL FEEL POWER.😊😊😊😊
I've heard this song and seen this video for years. I saw it almost 30 years ago for the 1st time. It was deeply disturbing, then for sure.. but profoundly raw and heartfelt given it's message. JR. High, had never experienced anything like "abuse" and was only able to empathise as much as my teenage awareness would allow me, however much I sincerely, did try.
It's many years later. I'm married with a family and children... and NOW, Everything about this hits COMPLETELY different... This song in correlation with the video has brought me to tears and broken me. This is just, SOOO brutal 😞 and to consider how many poor, innocent little ones go through this sort of thing on a regular, minute by minute, second by second daily basis is beyond my comprehension. Lord, help us
You've been a trooper working through these early Tool albums. Welcome to the Cult. Still sounds as fresh and disturbing to my ears today as it did when these albums dropped.
One of my fav. reaction channel! Keep ehm coming mam
5:14
I’ve never been hurt by a stranger, all while I was told to be weary of the “stranger danger”.
Stranger danger is made up by those close to you that want to harm you.
A gaslighting before they touch me.
I’ve integrated my traumas into my shadow, for the lamb became the voyeur to my pain.
These Tool reaction videos are fantastic, well done
Terrifying, brilliant and soul crushing.
this video is worth it just for the facial expressions, bravo
Thank you, for doing what you do, the way you do it.
My takeaway was about the cycle of violence. helped me break that cycle in my family.
Thank you for the insightful analysis. I never looked too deeply into this particular song, as I was really about the albums AEnima and Lateralus.
I'm blessed I didn't deal with getting sexually abused by a family member. My story was growing up in a chaotic household with a lot abuse between my alcoholic parents, both verbal/emotional and witnessing domestic violence. They did their best to shelter me from their issues, and were not violent with me, but it was still extremely traumatic to witness. In my adult life, I ended up becoming an alcoholic myself, who would eventually turn verbally abusive in my relationships, and even violent on a couple of occasions. I'm more than 2 years alcohol free and have a wonderful partner who supported me while I got the help I needed. My parents still drink, but I've learned to set healthy boundaries with them and my relationship with them is much better in sobriety. The work never ends, but I'm blessed to have the opportunity to be a cycle breaker of generational trauma.
do you think the anger can manifest even as sobriety is maintained?
@@charoleawood yup
@@sillyNstressed
i have anger issues sober or not, and the abusers in my own life were not alcoholics.
i wish us both luck finding a way forward into a better future, we may not be easy to get along with but we have important things to share with the world!
I like how you adress the reptition from abusee to abuser it is classic. As somone that was abused sexually i understand "do unto others what has been done to me" because i was compelled at a young age to continue the cycle hence said sentence. As i grew older i understood my abuse and what happened. Nowadays i couldnt stand the concept of said abuse. Happeneing to anyone. The song is so perfect iN Conveying what a victim feels even at their lowest
Haha I love how your reaction is always the teeth showing and scared when it comes to tool…. Try wings part 1 and 2😂😂
Great analysis! I truly value your therapeutic knowledge.
i enjoyed watching your facial expressions and your personal message to survivors of abuse relating to this song. Tool was my fav band in the 90s and I will never forget this song the first time I heard it.
In this instance, I believe this is a story of 2 willing adult partners in BDSM. Maynard James Keenan did not have a bad life. He loved exploring dark topics and owns a winery in Jerome AZ now.
I watched this video back in the 90s as a teenager on shrooms and it completely changed my taste in music forever!
I really enjoy your tool reactions. Your insight makes me excited to hear your reactions. By the way the next tool song I'd recommend is the grudge.
On your stinkfist video I commented that I was surprised to see it show up on the playlist.
I can’t believe this is here too, but I guess it’s the logical next step.
I was physically, emotionally and sexually abused by my caretakers when I was a child up until my mid teens since it was then when I started (physically) fighting back. Music was and still is my savior, and I am and will always be thankful for Tool and A Perfect Circle cause m they saved my life during my teens, and continue to do so even now that I’m 30. I have been able to seek help, and currently I’m managing my… mental health/illnesses/trauma with a psychiatrist and a therapist, and thankfully I’m improving greatly; It’s not perfect, but I feel like I’m finally starting to see a tiny light or spark at the end of the tunnel.
I took the only course of action i felt possible to avoid the screaming terror in my mind, and that was to reach the age of 50 without ever having a child of my own which has left me with a void in my life of unlived moments of beauty and pride in the children who might have been, but were too priceless to ever selfishly not break the chain that is documented, and i am not self centred enough to put myself ahead of an innocent child.