What is schizophrenia? What is it like to have it?
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- Опубликовано: 11 окт 2024
- Schizophrenic artist discuss the experiences (mostly his own) of "schizophrenia" which is a mental condition affecting about 1 in every 100 people. More common than diabetes or MS, which are also very common.
I also discuss thoughts on why people with schizophrenia get sick, I address ways in which schizophrenic tendencies might be beneficial and be integrated in healthy ways, and I address what I think about the causes of the individual schizophrenic predicament.
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I completed of a book about schizophrenia and my experience of it, called Insights Toward Sanity - The Art of Having Schizophrenia.
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Wow I’m blown away by your insight and your ability to so aptly express what you have experienced. My brother is schizophrenic and up until now no one in our family ever talked about it, other than saying he’s just crazy, lazy and manipulating people to get what he wants or he’s selfish all he ever talks about is himself! I grew up hearing such things and it made me afraid of him until I finally decided to find out for myself what it means to be schizophrenic. After my research this is what I have concluded, it turns out that my brother is really fractured into a myriad of brilliant, outrageous, curious, reflective collective of deeply hurt and loving aspects of himself. Now I find him to be a fascinating, breathing walking miracle. He’s usually a loud person but every now and then when he really wants to convey something to me he leans in closely and quietly in a near whisper shares his most profound feelings, then leans back into his world with a glint in his eye and a smile on his face. Right there and then I can see him and it comforts me to know that he’s still all there! I stand in awe of my brother for he is not a wreck but rather a masterpiece that one can only look at with great wonder! I truly love my brother and all his glimmering pieces. I’m sure I’ll be watching this video a few times to be able to experience the fullness of what you shared. You are amazing and I suspect that your life is more gratifying than that of most people’s. Thank you for allowing us to get to know you a little bit you couldn’t have done it any better!
susan m thank you for your comment and a snapshot of your brother's story. Brings some tearful rushing that you found a route to be more compassionate, understanding, and hopeful than you were before your research. Your brother gained a powerful ally. May you better support him, and maybe even bring some insight to your family. That would be good for them but may be a significant benefit to your brother too. Inclusion and acceptance is huge. My family support (emotional, direct financial) is exceptional and I can easily say I depend on it for the >quality of my survival. I'm glad your brother has someone like you on his side. The notion of "fracture" or "shattering" of aspects of the self is accurate... Thank you. You said that well without falling in line with stereotype and stigma about "multiple personality". That is great!!
Thank you so much. When i started listening to you i started crying because it was like watching myself. You and i are so similar and so are our stories....and experiences. I am learning to try and find a balance. Its been really hard for the last 5 years. Now things are going better. I focus on my art and exercise. Brother do you know what i think. I think we are special and beautiful. I find that the most powerful thing is learning to love myself. Compassion and respect towards myself in everyway and doing what i can to serve other people. Much love to you. Thank you for your video. Peter.
And what is very helpful is to accept it. We are not broken. Our minds work differently and it takes work and much self love to keep the balance. Big hugs. Peter wickham. Taipei. Taiwan.
Thank you for your words of encouragement as well Peter. I enjoyed watching the video. I could relate to it. I also tend to read the comments and wanted to say thank you for yours. respect and love to you as well. hugs*
Wow, Peter! I totally agree.
its really good to see someone that knows their symptoms whilst having schizophrenia ,good on you- alot of people cant have the insight that you have -respect ;)
You are quite intelligent and an excellent communicator,
Thank you for sharing your ideas. You are a brilliant thinker and exceptional communicator.
Thanks for making this video, found it very relatable, you describe it very well
Thank you so much for the explanation. I'm glad you're doing well right now. It becomes pretty clear most of the people suffering from this terrible disease are more intelligent than the average person, like you, for instance. It's amazing how you can expose all the process of suffering you're going through with such clarity and help to demystify it to the general public. That's probably the best patients can do to contribute to the cure of this illness.
I can tell you're really smart (: Hope you're doing very amazing!
You make an excellent point, even if there is some truth to a schizophrenic's unique and seemingly random conclusions, there is always room for reasonable doubt. We need support from others in this life, we need people to tell our ideas and stories to.
+Lucky-Veda Art (luckyveda) Thank you for commenting. It is nice to be understood.
You're very clever. Take care.
One of the best videos I've watched on schizophrenia. Thanks!
Very interesting hearing your perspective on this, does seem to make sense. Thanks for bringing Gregory Bateson and his thinking to my attention.
This is a good in sight hearing your POV, I'm a schizophrenic too and my experience is different.
Thanks for inspiring me! I do prison ministry and am trying to understand my schizophrenic clients better. Of all the videos I watched on this subject, yours made me understand it best. You gave me real insight of what some of my clients must be feeling as they try to deal with their problems. I think I will better be able to help them , thanks to your video. Thanks for being so sincere about your life.
+Brian The Cajun Great to hear you felt some insight develop. I hope it leads to practical change or at least some bumps in the many practical changes for your clients.
Aww
Hello there, thanks for sharing your mentality.
Videos like this help me to relate and I wish you good folks to be around you,
I know life is hard yet there's hope, it is cliché: trust that love (between people and the world, our species as a whole and the living creatures on this Planet) can soothe everyone.
This was extremely thoughtful and beautiful. Thank you for describing things I experience that I've had trouble knowing was real. It feels grounding to know other people have the same elements of wordplay and quickness of mind.
Very well explained. Thank you for sharing the theoretical and personal perspective.
You are so brave - thanks for posting your video to help others. : )
You make me feel better, thanks. I don't know why but you do. You're a good man.
You sound like a very intelligent and well mannered individual. Thank you for sharing! I had an uncle that recently passed away who was schizophrenic. He was very misunderstood in our large family circle and after watching your video it gives me some insight as to who he was. For that I appreciate your words and am glad you are getting better!
As for myself, I have questioned weather or not it runs in the family gene, and also if you know which drugs would most likely induce this ilness. I am a recreational user at music festivals and would like an opinion on what to stay away from as so many phsycadelics are being used by youth these days. Personally i have enjoyed them but would like to stay away from the ones that could potentially lead to a shift in mental health.
Thanks again.
Your explanations are so insightful, thank you so much.
Your analysis of this disposition is very thoughtful & self aware.
The word schizophrenia provokes fear in most people..Scientific studies aside.. How do they know your not a more highly evolved being ! I feel like your more connected to your own mind than most people.
I sometimes hear music & I engage in random wordplay like its a sport .. Lol because Im a artistic type /musician but i just accept it as part of me now & that everyone is gifted & cursed to a degree.
Im not qualified ,but I believe that if "mental illness" were more accepted in society that people on the fringe wouldn't feel so alienated & maybe experience less stress integrating & fewer episodes...
Thank you 4 sharing your experiences.blessings mate!
+Dan Stormchaser thanks for sharing your comment! I appreciate what you said
You are a smart guy. Thank you for explaining your experience with living with and understanding schizophrenia. This video is helpful
Thanks so much for the video, clears a lot up im extremely curios in this kind of stuff
Friend, I'm also schizophrenic and you gave a lot of really good information I find helpful. I've only been experiencing symptoms for about 3 years (at 21 and I'm 24 now) but recently started talking about it finally in recent months and was only diagnosed about 6 months ago but have been on and off anti-psychotic medication since my first episode/institutionalized in 2012. I still don't know and understand everything about it, and have a difficult time accepting/comming to terms with it.
Not everything you read will apply, but if enough applies enough of the time, then that seems reasonable to accept. Not everything is theoretically simple or completely understood. Sometimes doctors or pharmaceutical companies need to be checked rather than blindly endorsed without oversight FROM "underneath", that is, from patients and those who identify in different personal ways.
Keep talking!
My 19 yr old son is in a hospital for 2 weeks now and has this diagnosis. Had a specific dilution for almost a yr. And there's other dilutions and I'm just learning all this. He was always not a big talker, an introvert, but I thought he was like me. I have ocd, anxiety, depression. When I saw him in his own mind, I thought he just may have a lot of cod rituals in his head. I has no idea...so now I'm trying to learn. Thank you for sharing.
+Mimi Pickard hopefully he keeps your support. Some schizophrenics are estranged and lonely as adults. It is hard on everyone. I would try to force thw delusions away. Support your son's other ideas and occupations. Support him accepting that he has been unwell. Even though delusions mean unhealthy belief and obsession, the fact is some "sane, healthy" people endorse those beliefs and make a living off the internet by sharing those beliefs. So just denying delusions doesn't work in my experience. Change the subject.
I really respect tour ability to put yourself out there like this-- very interesting material. You seem like a very intelligent guy.
I was fascinated by this video. You are brilliant! I'm curious about your education being an educator myself. What degrees do you have? I learned so much and feel more sympathetic toward schizophrenics and even more positive about it as a result of watching your video. Thank You for sharing.
+Greg Waddell Thank you Greg. I have a B.A. with a major in philosophy and minor in English. I also have a 3-semester 1 year trade diploma in Audio Engineering and Production.... Thanks for watching!
I also like what you are sharing about relevant reality. Very useful to those who are experience psychosis, which may be reality as well, but to fit into this world we must consider materially relevant reality.
Hey. So I've been to some psychologists when I was like 12 and they told me that I have "strong imagination" or whatev. Well 1 year ago when I was going through self harm anxiety and some hallucinations I met a women that told me that I'm going for paranoic schizofrenia or something like bipolar. My most constant hallucination is a guy with a head of a goat, and it actually helped me through my self harm situation and now kind of my second persona. I just wanted to talk to someone about this and not beign in a risk of psych ward
Very good way describing Schizophrenia. Thank you for making this! I wish you all thr best!
+Tracy Cabanting thanks!
+nednednerb You're welcome! You should do daily videos..you speak very well, your voice is nice, and I'm super curios about ya! I'm weird I know. Lol.😊 I myself have been diagnosed with Major Depression with Suicidal Tendencies and have been in thr psych ward 3 times in my life. Had a total breakdown in 2011. Hope you do more videos!!! You're awesome.
Thank you so much for sharing your experience- I just have an anxiety problem- but have often feared losing my sanity - you seem to function very well ! You have taken the picture that was painted in my mind years ago by a old neighbor - I would play cards with him and he would often talk about the cia being around the corner and tapping his house etc .. he eventually couldn’t live on his own - and turned it around for me !
Btw where can you purchase your book ?
Thanks for your comment. My book can be purchased on Amazon currently a 2nd Edition is in the works.
I have schizo-affective disorder and I can't ever seem to find a way to explain what it is like to my friends. You did a good job of relating your experience. I hope I can explain my experiences as well as you have done at some point. Myfriends just don't get it. Some think I'm going to become dangerous because I am "crazy". They don't understand that I just can't do some things that other people are able to do easily. They overestimate my abilities and underestimate my intelligence frequently. They mean well, but they just can't understand. Hopefully they will someday.
I like what you said in that whatever deep underlying force that may be experienced in a psychosis, there is still a lot of individual delusion surrounding it. Even if there is truth to it, individual minds still package their own pent up ideas along with that great truth. Your 'delusions' sound like what I experience in a psychotic state. the memory of it stays in my head constantly even though I do not see it in the daylight hours. It is sad there is such a poor general understanding of the psychotic mind outside of those who experience it firsthand. I feel in the middle of it and unable to share what I am experiencing with those around me, I try, but they must think it is my imagination because without experiencing the disconnect, I never would have believed in anything outside of the shells myself.
man. thank you so much. my brother is experiencing this I believe and I knew he was kind of going schizophrenic but didn't know how to deal with it. he is currently just going through this, symptoms have showed for probably 5 years now. and I tried so hard to understand him. I would get mad and frustrated because he doesn't make sense. but now after watching your video. I feel bad, I should try to understand him and what he's going through, rather than me trying to change him into being "normal" I should accept him and seek to understand
also, to the video creator. how did you realize you were schizophrenic. my brother still doesn't realize or is in denial. I've been thinking of taking him to a hospital but idk if that's the right move. I don't want to force him into something that extreme but if it helps him then I will
did you take anti psychotic?
+Villy P hey there. I hope you connect with your brother and that he doesn't have to go to the hospital. All in all preventing hospitalization has a better outcome and less disability. Also. The goal is to minimize suffering and stress.
For example if he is anywhere as broke as I am, simply giving him money once a week or two weeks could improve his wellbeing. My parents started doing that for me, it makes a difference to ongoing stress.
If he can learn about mental health and find out about different symptoms and conditions in a neutral way, I figure most people will recognize themselves. Also, do not directly argue against delusions, as that seems to cause them to be strongly defended.
If he doesn't have a diagnosis yet, he doesn't need one. Everyone needs care in the first and second place. Having no medication means no side effects or years of invasive monitoring by pharma doctors, so avoiding that by seeking out CBT and talk therapy and knowledge is the way to go.
Good luck!
nednednerb aha he is probably more broke than you! my parents do give him money however he has horrible spending habits, he'll instantly waste it all the moment he gets it.
hey man, I got a lot of questions if you don't mind helping me out, is there a way I can contact you? like email ??
+Villy P Send private messages
Go to the channel of the person you want to contact. You can do this by clicking their channel name underneath one of their videos.
Click the About tab.
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Type in your private message and click Send.
I know this probably doesn't compare at all and is probably not nearly as bad, but I suffered from a severe panic disorder and its interesting how it seems to share some of the symptoms, in my most extreme panic attack I remember I was in the car with my parents (bless them for helping me with everything) and it all started, the heart going faster the panic struggling to breathe etc and so we had to pull over into a field and as I was sitting there and my mind and everything raced so much, I felt so exposed and I could physically see the world getting bigger and felt like a soul leaving a body, everything was really bright as well and I felt imprisoned in the car hitting the door and the seats with my mind telling me I had to escape. Now I know this is fight or flight, but it's all rather interesting how the various mental health problems have their similarities! In a period of my life after the panic attacks with general anxiety, the avoidance behaviour is quite like a voice telling you that you can't do things in case the panic comes back, which becomes quite like an evil being that you believe lurks in unfamiliar places and is out to get you. Panic disorder probably isn't nearly as bad but I thought I'd share my experience, and good luck :)
Thank u for making this vid. someone very close to me has schizophrenia and u have described many of the things that he would do N I didn't really understand totally what was happening.
+renee felhaber I hope with greater understanding, friends and family of those who are sick will be able to help and support them
Yes, me to. As it is very sad to see people struggling so much with mental health issues, seems like it's almost becoming an epidemic in our societies. Their lives are taken over by this illness for decades N it seems that many families don't even educate themselves on this illness N almost assume that it's the schizophrenics fault they have this illness. Is that how they would feel it there child had a form of cancer that would devastate their child's life for decades? The videos on Utube r quite informative and help to demystify and put a human face to this disorder. I have found quite a lot of very useful info. on Utube. I have a list of very hopeful, insightful videos on Schizophrenia.
+renee felhaber yes, education is key. For everyone: patient, caregivers, family, friends, society. Understanding provides the ability to unfold opportunities.
Thank you for this. It's just beginning for me.
you look like you are doing great and thank you for the video! :)
+Mhairi Scallion You're welcome! And thanks to you for watching.
Keep fighting the good fight. I have had 4 friends that exhibited this behavior, only two of them were diagnosed that I know of. All of them died in their twenties from suicide and drugs. I just have to say do not do any heavy psychoactive drugs or you will be in deep trouble. I have always admired the creativity that is shown from this affliction but the delusional dark side of it makes it scary enough to not want any part of it. Stay healthy and know that ever though we live in a cynical and dismissive society there are people out there that empathize with your situation. Peace
So interesting. Sorry i do not know much about this, but i've seen a lot of people trying to open their third eye to see the spiritual world. Some when they get to open it see a lot of spiritual creatures and images. It is like their imagination or visualization gets very wild, but they see it as a blessing or like they say , ' they feel awaken'. I do not know what is the difference between an schizophrenic and a person who opens their third eye or spiritual eye?.
***** culture, discipline, health explain or are the descriptions of experience that might be explained. Some people like myself have a number of experiences that I do not try so hard to explain, like the difference between a vision and a delusion. They are perhaps both valid in the same experience, or at least both can be defended. And anyone who "opens their third eye" might be called a quack by a materialist christian, but that's not who I am.
Exactly. Well expounded. Thank you! :]
I'm sorry that you have to deal with this, I don't know how well your medication, if any is helping but you have my prayers
thank you so much for sharing. I have a question, do you incorpoate any means of reality testing as a therapy and supporting your living in a shared reality? I hope that made sense.
+Ami Young "testing".... Maybe. Sometimes I think about how the idea (a potential delusion) in my head "compares to reality" outside my head. What my sense of reality involves is usually a memory test....my long-term memory tells me when some of the basics are, the complexity of the personality of a person I've known a long time should hopefully override the flatness of any delusion.
I do not have a lot of hallucination at most times, and don't usually have any reason to "test reality", such as knocking on something to see if it's there.
i can relate so much to your experience. my doctor is not sure if i am truly schizophrenic, i believe because she only sees me for 30 minutes every 2 months and i have a lifetime of learning how to hide my symptoms very well....... to an extent. thank you so much for your video. it was very affirming.
+Full Spectrum Rainbow you might have schizoid traits but not enough "disorder" for a diagnosis. Schizophrenia cannot be hidden from the self or others when it is full blown. I relate to you though about seeing a doctor for 30 minutes every 2 months
+Full Spectrum Rainbow you might have schizoid traits but not enough "disorder" for a diagnosis. Schizophrenia cannot be hidden from the self or others when it is full blown. I relate to you though about seeing a doctor for 30 minutes every 2 months
Hey, how are you? I want to thank you, firstly, for putting yourself out there for the sake of teaching others; a truly commendable act. I would also like to say that I admire your intellect. Now, for my question: I apologiize if you've already mentioned it in other videos but this is the first time that I seen you. Do you hear voices and what do they say? If you do, are they clear and in order?
I started to hear voices a long time ago and sometimes hear short phrases. However, I spontaneously found dialectic talk therapy techniques on my own right when I was developing my primary symptoms. Basically there are techniques emerging in research now that explain that voices can be subdued with the right talk therapy and techniques. I realized reading about these techniques I stumbled on them long ago on my own.
Instead of voices, I have (or had) many delusions and a kind of hallucination I could call "sense of a directly communicating mind".... Such as "God in the radio" or feeling the TV is talking to me with me in mind.
Hello. This was an insightful video. Thank you. I have a question regarding a friend of mine, who I believe is schizophrenic. He did not directly tell me that he has schizophrenia, but he has mentioned voices in his head as well as having psychosis. I've known him for 5 months, and we hang out or eat lunch around once a week. I had not suspected anything until about 3 months ago, when I noticed that he would sometimes be very anxious when we talk. He would also begin to change topics very randomly, and sometimes I would not understand what he was saying, it seemed like many thoughts were racing through his mind. Recently he has been more open to me about himself. Anyways, a few days ago, after we had hung out (which had gone pretty normally in my opinion), he messaged me saying that he wanted to end our friendship. claiming that we had nothing in common, that we weren't that close, but that he respected me. The messages all had an angry overtone to them, and he also said that he wanted to die alone. I feel very lost, as I don't think I did or said anything that could have upset him, and because of the "I want to die alone" message I fear that he's having suicidal thoughts. I have not messaged or talk to him for a few days, as I was thinking he was momentarily angry and would message me later, but he hasn't. What do you think I should do?
Maybe text that friend's don't necessarily have to have lots in common. Tell him you also respect him and like hanging out.
Maybe he is just having a bad time. Maybe he will appreciate you reaching out. Leave it open, by saying to get in touch when he wants to. Maybe say straight up "you don't have to be alone, can I help any way? Let me know. Whenever" it can mean a lot.
+nednednerb Thank you for your response. I wish I had been more understanding at the time. I had simply replied "Ok." I intended to get back to him later but he did end up messaging me again asking to hang out, and we did.
Kaka Carrotcake I'm glad it was a fleeting incident and you're hanging out again. Cheers.
I smoked DMT four years ago. It's been a snowball effect ever since. But I HEAR you, brother. Both beautiful & ugly the things we are in tune with are things that people outside the walls of "mental illness" might have to start coming to terms with. In a metaphysical sense. But like with everything there is a balance.
I know what u feel with music. It’s like u hear the different lyrics and notes differently than other people.
When I began to watch your video I thought you were a doctor. I think one who has it explains the experience it better than a doctor because because they have it. Thanks for the video.
Aha! Thanks for the feedback. Glad to help inform you on your RUclips searches. Have a great day!
I've been having some mental issues. When I was about 10, I experienced my first "hole" of depression and anxiety that lasted about 6 months or so. Since then, I've fallen into a few more and am currently experiencing one, but this one feels different. This time I've been asking some big question, and wondering if my existence is real, and whether or not it even matters. Asking myself questions like "is everyone around me really there? Is what I'm feeling/seeing/experiencing really happening?" And the more I try to find answers to these questions, the more questions I develop, and the harder is becomes to answer them, and the more hopeless and alone and afraid I feel. Its all so overwhelming and exhausting, i feel like my brain is operating at a million miles per hour. Just a few weeks ago I managed to think my way into thinking that I was dead and living in hell. The world looked exactly the same and all (no hell hallucinations), but my mental and emotional agony definitely made me feel that my theory could be correct. I don't want to feel this way, and am hoping there's an answer. Any thoughts? Could schizophrenia be it?
Virginia Sotelo hi Virginia. Your description of questioning existence and feeling hell is a very, very vivid reminder of many of my own experiences. It may be prudent to note that "solipsism" is often a sincere philosophy (look it up) and also that being religious and having all sort of beliefs, about hell and heaven and who is going where, is supremely common among our species.
What I mean is, some of these thoughts you are having are truly historically recurrent (if not exactly common, these experiences are indeed common enough to start to find them every direction in every era you start looking in. Also, it does look like you are experiencing some classic delusional symptoms. Sometimes the delusions have to convince you so shockingly that you "behave psychotic", and then you might start having other apprehensions that might become hallucinations in time.
If I had advice for what to "do"... Keep holding on to the reality idea where we are in this together and were born on Earth and have a collective billions year old biological history and a 10,000s year old cultural history. Holy hell indeed there is a lot of reason to be depressed and ample forces trying unintentionally or even intentionally to drive us crazier. Hold onto reality and hold onto yourself.
I wish you luck and vibrancy in your journey and efforts.
Thank you for the great information.I was wondering, do all schizophrenic individuals hear voices or have hallucinations seeing things? what about in Paranoid schizophrenia? And what is your personal advice on how to care for and help a loved one with paranoid schizophrenia that is somewhat mild, but wont seek help or diagnosis for it....its been many years 15-20 years now. One more question, does old age increase the paranoia? Thanks for the help!
+eilaf Abdel Rahim Talk about other things than the delusions... That's number 1. Mostly, talking about delusions and trying to disprove them only causes a refinement and insistence of the delusion. It probably doesn't need help or diagnosis at this point. Especially if it is intellectually rejected. They won't stand for it if they don't accept it. Old age means the paranoia in the brain is old age. Just like new tasks and new information can be difficult for those in old age, so can paranoia be more difficult to transform and change.
Good luck. And no, not all symptoms are the same. I have musical hallicinations now sometimes, I have "conversations" in my head when I was a teenager. There are long stretches I have no hallucination. Paranoid schizophrenia often has voices, but not in all cases.
I have bipolar type 1, with comorbid psychosis. I do not have auditory hallucinations, I get tactile, as well as visual hallucinations. The manner in which you describe the nature of your delusions is very interesting and from my experience entirely accurate. I cannot figure out how to describe ....the process/nature of what happens during psychosis.... which... is what you are succeeding at doing so props. Keep going. ....please. lol.
+Monica Newton what type of visual hallucination
what did you see
do you hallucinate famillar things
Well wish me luck because I’m going to show my husband. My mother and my daughter (who is a musician) and I believe you and she are about the same age. She also composes music, has many instruments as well as 3 pianos. She is struggling with depression and migraines. Anyway I hope to hear from you again. She’s gonna freak when she hears your music, which will be tomorrow! Is cool with you?
susan m check out "Forest Path EP" at nerBeater.bandcamp.com ! My most recently released music :)
Thank you for posting this video. I've been experiencing voices for the past year or so and only recently have I been trying to accept "schizophrenia" as a word that describes me, since the beings I experience are real.
Anyway I was wondering do your voices or beings that used to talk to you ever have any "pet names" for you that they call you?
+Robin Gates I can't think of any names that stood out. I don't often have voices. I have often had a sense of a being communicating special meanings to me through any available language, so my voices are kind of "interpreting weirdly" what are actually real voices occurring with their own being, like your voice.
+nednednerb I get that. Because my loves so often say things that on the surface sound mean, I frequently have to decide it or communicate through emotion instead. Sometimes abstract concepts instead of emotions.
+wobina loves=voices >.>
Hey there. I'm about to see a psychiatrist about it, and I'm not sure it's schizophrenia yet, even though it might be(my dad suffers from it). I just wanted to tell you I'm on a mission to try and understand if other people feels the way I feel and I really liked your video a lot, especially because I'm a musician myself and also sometimes allucinate to sounds. Cheers.
+Minerva Anemica I hope if you do have schizophrenic symptoms that you do not get stressed out to the point of acute, powerful, or long lasting psychosis. Good luck with the psychiatrist. There is a 1 in 10 chance for you to develop SZ with a direct relative having the condition instead of 1 in 100.
+nednednerb I'll tell you the truth, the possibility is really high. I had a huge psychotic breakdown a few weeks ago - I really could not tell real from unreal, my mind was racing like a goddamn racing car, was hearing weird mechanic noises all the time and would be hypersensitive to light and sound - like, they would make me snap the fuck out. It got kinda better on some antidepressant, but I still feel like reality is slightly "off". I also had delusions of being dying or dead, or in a parallel universe, and it all led to panic attacks. Shit's intense.
+Minerva Anemica that does sound intense! I hope you recover well and get things under control. Were you feeling "off" for a while? I recommend honesty with the doctor. Better reasons to share details than to hide it.
+nednednerb Yeah, I'm just regaining confidence with the world right now. I also had the(usually well shared among schizos)delusion of not wanting to be around people because they're gonna hurt me. I wanna be treated, so I'm being as honest as ever with doctors, relatives, friends and myself. It's really nice of you to answer anyway :)
Hi, there! I hope you are doing awesome today. Question for you: In your book, you spoke a lot about finding/searching for meaning throughout the various stages of your mental health journey. I couldn't help but wonder, given your organic experience, would Viktor Frankl's logotherapy be useful in some capacity for treating schizophrenia? I have yet to find any solid evidence for its efficacy within this realm and would greatly appreciate your opinion.
Sarah when I read Man's Search for Meaning, I was struck by how universal the need is to find meaning in one's life. So.. I think that logotherapy can help schizophrenics like it might help anyone with issues related to what is happening to their psychological being. However, many of the symptoms of SZ are exaggerated in the sense or belief that there is great meaning or significance being experienced. So, sometimes, it is a simpler meaningfulness rather than a gigantic mystery which could prove most helpful for those with SZ. I've often reflected that my world has become simpler as my delusions get chipped away over time. Logo-excess to logo-peace.... I hope that answer is helpful..
It is very helpful, thank you for taking the time to respond so thoughtfully. I don't mean to bombard you but I do have two follow up questions if you don't mind. Please feel free to skip them if they are pointless to ponder or too personal. Do you think the incorporation of logotherapy at some point during your treatment would have expedited your arrival to wellness? If so, at which "point" during treatment do you suppose you would have been most receptive to it?
Thanks for the questions. Essentially, I would prefer if ALL primary care givers understood... the importance of meaning. When I feel looked at like a mindless test subject that "probably hasn't been taking his meds as prescribed" such claims as I have heard have rarely if ever been true. When denied more humanity, I feel closer to a dissociated state. For all those doctors and nurses, however, who treated me like a human being with desire and intentions and perspective, THEN by their inclusion I felt reassured, restful, and like I'm actually receiving therapeutic intervention.
I would always be receptive to the inclusion of the sense of and process of working with significant meaning, particularly from care practitioners. I know half the time I've been hospitalized, there was a crisis of meaning just as much as there was delusion. Pills of all sorts may conk me out and sedate me, but it was decisively my orientation to and conception of my experience, which, in my eyes, caused the turnaround in my being which was then assessed as "getting better."
I should make a video regarding this subject...of Logotherapy and the search for meaning. Please go to my channel's about page and send me a message. I'd like to chat. Maybe you can send me a longer list of questions, or we can turn this thread of questions into a transcript for an "interview"... (If you can't find the message link, my channel name [at] gmail etc)
I absolutely will, thank you.
Hey, a close friend of mine was recently diagnosed with catatonic schizophrenia, and watching this video brought to mind many similarities between your experiences. He's also quick witted, intelligent, and able to make connections between topics, but has had a psychotic episode where he says that he "chose to remain immobile, catatonic, without eating or responding, because he was in awe of Gd" - for nearly a week. He mentioned seeing signs, and said he didn't believe that they were hallucinations or delusions. He otherwise seems fine after having taken antipsychotics, but he's said that he doesn't believe that they were necessary or had anything to do with him no longer receiving messages. From all this it looks like he has not gained insight into his pychotic episodes, and I was wondering if you knew anything about how you gained insight yourself, or how I can be there for him in the best ways that I can to help him do so. He gets out of the hospital tomorrow, and I fear he will stop taking medication and fall further into delusions and hallucinations if he has another episode. Thank you so much for any advice you can give.
+Joey Bukai hmm, that is sad to hear. He may take a while to "gain insight" but you can probably help and be there for him but being the usual friend you were before. Support the healthy traits and behaviours as you see them. If he gets on a story or track about the visions or experiences just change the subject when it's safe, and do not try to argue them away. That tends to reinforce and prime the delusional thinking. If you do say something about his experiences, maybe point out things like "religious and spiritual people are so to speak allowed to talk to god or ancestors or whoever. The reason they aren't schizophrenic is because they weren't at risk of dying" You can tell your friend you're worried about how he was frozen for a week. Wherever his soul might have gone, his body was close to perhaps dying, and you'd miss him. You don't need to deny the 'meaning' to try to get him to realize it was an internal experience, that schizophrenia is also real. Good luck.
I can't remember things a lot I don't hear voices or hallucinate. Sometimes I think I'm gonna be arrested for no reason and I'm super scared I'm schizophrenic I always have disorganized thoughts but can that be linked with anything else?
yah you might have some sort of schizotypal disorder. I recommend seeing a doctor you trust.
+nednednerb I was told it's probably my generalized anxiety and depression.
+Kaelan MacGregor Do you have trouble sleeping a lot? Sleep deprivation can make you hallucinate sometimes if you're deprived enough and having an anxiety attack.
+Jessica Ann I have been officially diagnosed :) I have GAD, OCD and Major Depressin and a Hypochondriac
+Kaelan MacGregor depression*
Do you have any kind of financial assistance to help with the medical cost or living expenses if it interferes with getting or keeping a job?
Growing up, I lived with a parent with untreated schizophrenia, it was horrible and traumatizing on top of being in severe poverty because he couldn't keep a job. But he was scared the government was going to get him and never applied for any benefits that might have helped us. Now as an adult I am facing the likelihood of having a psychosis and am terrified. I don't want to go untreated and cause grief and pain to my family, but we just can't afford any long term medical care. I can see it starting in me the same way it did with him. He now lives alone in scary rubbish pile. I don't want to end up like him. I need help, but I'm scared to ask and don't know where to turn.
i agree with you that a lot of people dont listen because of the ignoance.
Hey there. I work as a Case Manager in a Long Term Rehabilitation center, and about 50% of my clients have some degree of schizophrenia. You mentioned that you were hospitalized twice, and if you would be willing to share your experiences around the hospitalization, it would be very helpful to me. What do you remember the staff doing as helpful?
TheBanzaiburger I'll make a video within the month! Describing my hospitalization experiences. I have a quite a few. I remember lots of things which seemed helpful.
Hi, I have a question regarding a friend mine who has Schizophrenia. When someone starts speaking about things that don't quite make sense or they've gotten the truth twisted a bit, is it worth me trying to explaining the truth to them to try and encourage them out of that idea or are they that fixated on it that they will not be convinced. It's hard to watch my friend go through this so young. I just want to keep supporting him but am unsure about whether i'm helping effectively or just making things worse. Thanks for making this video.
+Amy Walsh You should always do that
But what's important is that it's better for you to do it with a way that he/she is gonna take nicely
If he/she strongly refuses the fact, even more, having too many of negative feelings, you would be pushing too much, which is even worse.
I agree with Gabriel Lee. Explaining truth in a way that is acceptable and respectful is needed. However, some delusions are mixed with truth or held very strongly and it will be more disruptive and give a schizophrenic more of a reason to hold on to the idea. In which case, it is better maybe to try changing the subject to something your friend isn't having delusions about.
I try to explain.... all is good and acceptable when my friend is calm and knows that I love him
But after few days , weeks - my husband is a coming back and starts “ killing me “ with what I told him weeks ago
So very scared to explain........
where can your book be bought?
Http://insights.postegoism.net or look on Amazon
Thank you!
I love how you called them theories because that's exactly what they are. Maybe you have a gift and can see things outside the visible spectrum.
The fact is I have schizophrenia AND I am schizophrenic. Did you listen to what I ummm said? Theories abound reality. Saying schizophrenia is just seeing non visible realities is not a theory, it is part of a harmful lie.
I say this because saying something really experienced is just "a theory" is dismissive and mean to the person who really has a rich experience of suffering as well as joy. I don't just see magical things. That is such a reduction if my experience of schizophrenia
+nednednerb I didnt mean to be disrespectful or mean. You sound like you have done extensive research and you are very intelligent. I just dont like labels and i dont care for doctors especially in western society. I know many different spiritual truths and its possible it is a gift and not an illness.
+nednednerb You said the psychological theories and this is what i was referring to my friend. There is energy everywhere sometimes playing in constant loops. I am just the type of person that must do extensive research on all aspects of topics before i reach a conclusion. I also take into consideration who would stand to profit from such explanations. Much love my friend. :)
+nednednerb How do you know these arent the results of psychotronic weapons? Or extrasensory perceptions from other spectrums? Its all possible.
Same here. I always knew I was different but could never figure out how or why. That's why I started picking up and identifying patterns. I'm realizing now that it's been there all along I just wasn't aware that the way I thought and made connections was the thing that made me so different. I realize that I've been pretending my whole life. Trying to just be normal. AND I succeeded. At least the fitting in part but I still couldn't figure out how or why people can just go about their day seemingly just doing things that a person does. I realize now that those people just going about their day weren't thinking about the cars driving by and where they're going and they certainly weren't making up stories good and bad about those people's days all at once and unwillingly.
What do I do with this knowledge? Where do I go next? Where can I look for answers? Where can I ask questions without people thinking i'm crazy before even hearing me out? When lost in delusions, how can I find out what is real and what is not?
+Cal Dale do you live in a city? Meet people like you. Lots of people like us exist. It may be easier to find them in bigger cities. It may still be hard to find people you really relate with. I find that "isolation" can be a sensory apprehension even when I am with someone I deeply trust. Can still feel "out there".
Yes! That last part really gets me. I can never feel 100% relaxed when other people, even family members and close friends, are around. I always feel like I'm trying to predict what they'll do next to plan an according response or reaction. For this reason, cold calls are my worst fear. Anyway...
Thank you for taking the time to respond to my comment. It's all just starting for me and I was very scared, yet for some reason as I learn more and more I feel better & better.
& I do live in a city. Maybe I just haven't met the right people yet. I'll try and expand my horizons.
Thank you again.
+Cal Dale I felt a world of solidarity when I went to a "walk in / drop in centre" for people who are "mental health consumers" or "survivors". People who weren't the same as me but who I could relate with better than the people at the fancy coffee shop. But to each their own! Good luck to you as you figure things out for your own situation! You're welcome to the response. Thanks for subscribing as well :)
Thank you for replying man. I'm still in that stage where I 'm still making sure or figuring out what I really have and so far I'm going towards Delusions plainly and witchcraft.
Would you mind having a short talk with me in Skype or a private chat just to discuss somethings regarding the matter? Maybe we could exchange some info or tips.
@nednednerb I have a son who is in denial about his schizophrenia. He's been to the psychiatrist but stopped going now he's stopped his meds and he just sits around the house angry at the world and his Mother and I. Any thoughts on how to get us back on track. It's not an easy fix I know but I just want him to step out of the limbo he's stuck in
Help him use logic to escape delusions. If he thinks he's God, say, "If that were true, you could create a mouse. Try to make a mouse." He can't so he will stop his delusion.
I appreciate your video. I have just met a young girl with schizophrenia and I was interested in understanding it more. I want to help her by, at least, helping her to not feel alone. Today, when I spoke to her, she had went to her "safe place" and was hiding from someone she called 007. She felt afraid and said this person was scary and tried to hurt her. When this happens, what is the best way for me to respond.....I encouraged her to find her Mom (she is 15) because I was sure her Mom could help her feel safe from this 007. How can I understand this more? What else should I do? Thank you
+Courtney Street don't get into a debate about the existence. Instead, just say it will be fine, it will be okay, and can you help her anyway. If it is a real person more caution and questioning may be recommendable. But if it is a delusion, not investigating is better. I think that reinforces the energy of the delusion if it gets into some argument.
nednednerb I'm pretty sure this is a delusion bc when I asked her who this 007 was she sent me a picture she had drawn and said that was 007. But I can't say for certain. This girl lives in the UK and I am in the US so it is hard to decipher what is happening. She seems so alone and is suicidal some. I just want to help and not feed negative energy. Thank you for your help. Your videos are informative and you speak well
nednednerb I didn't try to tell her it wasn't real bc I know to her it is very real. She seemed frightened and that is real. I just encouraged her to find her Mum. Because to physically be with someone seemed better than being alone and hiding as she was.
I am almost always in a state where my mind is racing and piecing together delusional thoughts, but I never really considered it as schizophrenia, more just a symptom of being a curious college student + a lot of anxiety. I am a very anxious and sometimes depressive person, but other than the racing/delusional thinking that sometimes takes over, I don't think I meet any of the other criteria for being schizophrenic. Any thoughts?
+ckent ckucklekek as a quick thought, there are the terms "schizoid" or "schizotypal" which refer to traits "like schizophrenia"... Without pronounced psychotic break or episodes, however, depression and anxiety with some paranoid, "schizoid" tendencies might indeed be a reasonable way to talk about some situations.
ckent ckucklekek Bipolar?
In the past I would experience this feeling just before falling asleep, I would feel the pressing of hands on my body pulling me out of myself as I would hear a high pitched eeeeeeeeeeeee sound that got horrifyingly loud. My body would feel the oscillation of the sound wave until it seemed like my consciousness embodied the sound itself. As a sound wave I could raise or lower my frequency and make different buzzing sounds. This would happen nearly every night for about a month. Then I actively stopped dabbling in the occult and it all stopped. Does that sound like schizophrenia? I would also do the same thing you described like playing with words, I would pick apart sentences and obsess with all of the possible meanings and possible misinterpretations; I still do. The speaking pattern of seemingly jumping between unrelated topics was something I would do too.
Near sleep experiences vary widely, but what you are describing could be included in "schizotypal" cognition.
You might have some of the symptoms of schizophrenia but having the diagnosis criteria may be more specific. You may have to be affected in a significant manner.
I recommend talking to a doctor you trust.
Thatl be impossible lol
Hi. Sorry for asking. Do you know any differences between major dispressive disoder with psychotic and schizophrenia? I had been hospitalized recently for passing out in shopping mall. Until today I not going out of my house even to university and shop. I feel depressed and still under medication. Is there any good differences between those 2 disoder?
+Nick John Hi. I'm not sorry you asked... I made a short video comparing Depressive Disorder and Schizophrenia. Go check it out.
@nednednerb Did you ever get hypnopompic hallucinations? Persecutory voices saying you would die soon or anything weird like that?
+Mac Viking i sometimes have strange lasting imagery upon waking up, abd I feel like I'm hearing voices or conversations but it isn't same as dream which is well.. ordinary dreaming....
hi my brother is diagnosed with schezphernia..he wont admit he is sick..he wont talk to family...he moved out and he is not taking is medication...how should we help him? we love him soo much ..please help us, give suggestions
two therapist think that i am schizophrenic, but i haven't seen a psychiatrist yet. For what they said, they are getting worried that i got disconected from reality and end up having an antisocial behaviour, like burning something or hurting someone
+Endrik Liberman see a psychiatrist... If you are developing schizophrenic symptoms you are not likely to hurt anyone. You are more likely to hurt yourself. Schizophrenics are statistically less likely to hurt others than "normal" people. If you are thinking about hurting people, maybe you hace psychopathic tendency, not psychotic.
Yeah, i did try hurt my self, but i haven't hurt anyone, is more like i'm reciving orders to do it, but thanks, i will a psychiatrist as soon as i can.
+Endrik Liberman yes, that is common. Felt instructions or hearing voices which command you to do something are common in SZ and psychosis.. good luck navigating you particular situation.
Thanks
What was it like for you when you first started having symptoms? Was there a particular stressful event or series of events which initiated them?
There was a series of events. It is a lot to try to talk about in a single post. However, I will say that much of my social life was distressed. First, I noticed I had many differences to many others. I felt abnormal before any serious symptoms started. The serious symptoms came from trying to manage being different. Another thing had to do with being in a situation of being lured over a period and abused as a teen by a couple disgusting and dangerous adults. I ended up in the psych ward by my 18th birthday.
@@nednednerb If you are at all comfortable talking about it, I would be interested to hear that story. You should make a video about it.
Edit:
Sorry if that's weird to say. If you're not comfortable talking about that time on the internet, then don't.
thank you so much for sharing your experience, i have a question a person with esquizofrenia un the US can get help from goverment? like money? also is this an issue when trying to get a job? thank you. God bless you
+Conny Martínez I don't live in US. Not sure. Can't answer your question, Conny. I believe there is some kind of social security support, but my knowledge of that is limited. I'm in Canada..
nednednerb thank you for answering :)
how many of you with the Aquarius sign can relate to being schizophrenic? please leave a thumbs-up I would like to know.
+Jessica Keeney i don't think the zodiac discriminates. Anyone can be anything, while I'm not just denying astrology...
nednednerb I agree.... I'm just curious.
especially.. the quickness it's kind of scary
We are cursed with recognition of patterns and typically invisible connections.
Do the medications really help? Do they have a trade off or like a side effect that decreases your functionality?
That is why I think it is sooo important to eat a really healthy and have a well balanced diet including vitamins and minerals, sun exposure and exercise as well as some human interaction.
If you have bad diet and get on the Doctors prescribed drugs, you could get worse health wise.
Also, being a schizophrenic means you have all day every to learn all you can, sometimes multiple things simultaneously. Just because you’re schizophrenic doesn’t mean your wrong. We have delusions, but we’re also good at making connections others don’t largely due to ample time to study and spectrum of interests...
I tend to agree! I definitely don't believe my SZ is only and entirely "bad symptoms I wish I did not have" - sure, sometimes suffering is intense... However, I would opt to remove the social and political stressors first, and not my tendencies to perceive more than neurotypical.
hmm I think ur truly lovely and v clever! im just wondering I was diagnosed wid schizophrenia but my symtoms were so meaningful I felt it was more a process of trying to heal and a push for me to heal emotional wounds and to be a more authentic person thats what my experince meant to me but the doctors said I was mentally ill even tough there was a break from reality is that how u define mental illness I dont know if I was mentally ill or just really wounded n trying to heal as I think thats the case for most people labelled with a mental.illness what u think?
To me, I call that being human within the actual course of history. Breaking that down a little: the actual course of history is for many people traumatic and "wounding." History is quite full of oppressions and attacks, directly on many by a dangerous few. Citizens and slaves, landowners and witches, neonazi kkk's and everyone else. There has literally been war after war for thousands of years. No peace here. No peace there.
Keeping this in mind, being human is something of a trial, where we try to be "normal" but have to contend with the suspicion that the world is violently opposed to us. Indeed, something is opposed to us. Those neonazi kkk's and landowners (the old sense, I know many innocent people "own land" nowadays) are actively hating the rest of us and trying HARD to kill lots of us and raise disarray everywhere.
In such a world, I don't know how to stay safe, and I was both abused by others, and I went "bat shit crazy." I was definitely hallucinating, delusional, obsessed, suicidal, and THAT was mental illness. It was about intense suffering.
I never forgot the physical and psychological injuries. I never forgot the "world illness" or cultural psychosis, how the world was off >its rocker.
That was different than mental illness, but it was here too.
im watching this and I feel like your speaking to me and when you said god in everything, song on the radio is about you I always feel that way like you were god telling me its true and you were telling yourself straight to me . I dont think im schizophrenic . but I always feel that way
+gilont4 the state of suffering and treatment is real for some, and that might be all schizophrenia is, that doesn't mean we're not all gods in the "usual" senses of the idea I've talked and heard about with friends and discourse partners for years, along the spectrum of religious - to spiritual - to philosophical - to "schizophrenic.". I basically agree with you and hope you never develop schizophrenia. Just be divine this viewer of my video. Keep rockin' in a free world (I hope, that's another conversation!)
have you read the book 'kundalini the serpent of fire by darrel irving' ? huge links between schizophrenia and Kundalini awakening.
How can I actually get schizophrenia if I don't have the genetics ? Like torturing myself so I get a shield from reality by hallucinations? I have anxiety, so much personality disorders, kind of emotionless, I have some schizophrenic symptoms but I want to experience it completely and in a serious way, it doesn't matter if it's not good, I like the pain
+Potato PCP and crystal meth will get you to "toxic psychosis" in a jiffy. There is no way to "get schizophrenia" without it developing on its own. You can fjck yourself big time with drugs. But it won't be the same and you would probably just exercise your seeming self carelessness and self harm tendency...
Music helps. 🎵🎧 If you or your family/friends are living with schizophrenia, try music. Get some ear buds and the Spotify music app. Listening to music with earbuds or headphones also helps with public interaction. That is, since it's sort of a widely acceptable way to 'disconnect' in social settings. Curious to know other's experiences with music and schizophrenia. Take good care.
+Star Motry why spotify? Listen to radio, youtube, anything. Listen to what you like. My experience with music and schizophrenia is complex. Sometimes it helps to "disconnect" as you say. Sometimes my language related symptoms make it so it is hard to listen to music with lyrics. Sometimes instrumental music is better.
nednednerb Agreed👍
can anxiety disorder cause depersonalization/dissociation? i have social anxiety/generalized anxiety and i'm worried that i have something more serious illness also. i feel like i'm living in a dream, that i'm not real and neither the people around me. sometimes i can't even remember certain events that happened.
+dan's sad dimple ☆彡 ☆ミ yes it can! Since depersonalization and dissociation have possible "purposes" like avoiding deflecting or suppressing states of anxiety, they are possible! Feeling like you are in a dream can happen to people who are artists or spiritual or religious. It just happens. Anxiety disorder may be your primary diagnosis. But you very well might have some symptoms of other conditions. That might be rarer overall, but surely possible, I think
Interesting - thx 4 sharing 👍
One of my brothers paranoia is covid rn 😢 He's currently in the hospital. He was admitted in October. .. I am now understanding why he wears 3/4 masks at a time. I went to visit him and when I pulled my mask down to eat he put the blanket over his head for the remainder of the time I was their 😕 He's not talking. At all btw. Have you ever experienced that?
I have been very temporarily nonverbal while in hospitals, but not for significant periods like it sounds with your brother. I wish he will snap out of it sometime. Sounds like his suffering is intense. Yes, paranoia is on high level right now.
The auditor hallucinations, do you think the original creation of them were learned, or already ingrained. I know most people hear criticism when the have auditor hallucinations, but if you've never heard criticism before what would your hallucinations sound like?
Criticism or negative thought, negative observations, commands. I think it is hard to know life in our world without at least knowing what criticism is, whether it is a strongly learned experience. I also think it is possible lived experience and social environments play a role. There is probably a reason there is more schizophrenia present in urban environments, while something sz seems to occur in all of the "worlds" we know of.
More could be said about this!
I've been diagnosed with everything except Schizophrenia. Its awful in any sense. I hate being labeled but I knew from a young age something was wrong
did you take your meds or not ? im on now it feels horrible anxietyyyyy
I do take my meds. my side effects are mostly physiological. They make me tired and nauseous and a bit foggy headed. I do okay though.
is it normal that i think i became schizophrenic because of frustrations? my parent always scold me because i failed a whole semester on college and has been telling me again and again about timelines of a person's life such as. "When you reach 21 you should be at this point etc etc." i got depressed over it as if im the worst person on the whole world,
i began talking to myself asking myself "What should i do" "Who am I" as well as telling myself story of my timeline of what i experienced since i was born. till i began to compare myself to others who are successful in attempt to get an idea of what i should do next but I became more depressed as other factors came to my realization such as prerequisites etc.
but from time to time i feel a breeze on my chest as i had these solution to my problems ideas but in the end i end up thinking "Its too late" "I shouldve done this" and i noticed the procrastination has gotten stronger because of it.
it happens again and again particularly when i wake up and before i sleep. its painful specially when i consult my parent she just end up telling me that she dont understand or its because im not doing what they are telling me, else they will blame something else like "Thats because you did "this" before etc etc." or even "Its because you inherited this attitude from your father" as my father left us and abandoned us and chosen his mistress. im the eldest son btw among all of his child
the anxiety cripples me every time i imagine the person i should be now "perhaps the better me if only i did not fail". worst is i cant see my "successful" self anymore. i often delude as if i have someone beside me, a friend that understands me and comforts me preventing me from doing something bad but in the end, time waits for no one and when i realize that, i feel the pain again in my chest. and the cycle goes on again and again.
i just hope i can still change and discover a strong motivation
+Firmus Tenacitatem seek out a doctor for a referral to a psychologist or psychiatrist and talk with them about your experiences. Everyone has different abilities at different times, and frankly your parents are confused that there are firm milestones that you're failing against. It IS in some ways abusive or neglectful. So see a mental health doctor, and if you get along with them, try to trust them.
You don't sound acutely psychotic, but like you are stressed and have some symptoms of some sort.
Good luck.
thank you
I experience almost everything you mentioned ! From parents bringing me down to "thinking" that there is another person that is supportive etc , im amazed at your courage to share that much, its very uncomfortable for me to talk abt it not even to my mom but i had to comment since i googled this alot and it seems like there isnt much knowledge abt it and finally found someone with similar experiences.
+Serena yazan
+Firmus Tenacitatem
Thanks for sharing your thoughts
You need to love yourself.
can you be able to live by yourself and live a normal life like work or have you got fired a lot . I have anxiety disorder and dillusional disorder and I know it causes me to have hard time being happy and settle
+james melton I have to work part time. Full time work either too much for my body (I also have chronic pain) or too stressful mentally. Life is kind of normal but kind of always different. Sometimes I have a harder time. Sometimes I feel much better. Can never totally control external stress. And facing the truth: this world of our civilization makes too much stress. It is difficult when you "don't fit in'
I am 13. I hear mumbling, see shadows of people, get really paranoid thoughts, no one can understand what I say sometimes. It gets worse everyday. but only happening for me for about 2 months. What were your first warning signs for anyone who is schizophrenic?
and lots more is happening with hallucinations and they are really frightening and threatening. the mumbling and shadows especially. I saw a shadow of a person with a knife chasing us along freeway for 30 miles. There is a lot more too. I can go into further detail if you want but I am not going to do that if no one asks though because maybe someone I know will use it against me they are always trying to do that you know.
15-17 is average age of onset of intense psychosis, so at 13 you may be experiencing a variety of symptoms that are emerging, and you may have schizophrenia or it could develop.
Some of the warning signs, besides the symptoms you describe, are withdrawal from social situations. The fact you feel no one understands you and you are having trouble communicating with your family and peers is a driver of withdrawal.
Other warning signs include periods of confusion, big change in habits, irritability, change in appetite, sullen or moody affect, sudden outbursts, paranoia. Those are some that I experienced.
I recommend asking your doctor about your symptoms. Or a peer or adult you trust. Try to recognize that indeed your paranoia is unrealistic and you should try to rationally discount your paranoia. Most people are neutral observers. Try to find friends you trust, and talk about things you're experiencing.
Good luck little guy..
+nednednerb Thanks. I really appreciate the help and info from you. I think sometimes I have lingering paranoid thoughts and sometimes they are full on delusional. I go to therapy, and we are working on figuring everything out, and a have a few peers I'm talking to. Thanks again for the help - sometimes it's hard to get helpful information from websites.
You're welcome!
Hi. very smart you are yes.
I have a brother who is 38 diagnosed with schizophrenic and he just does not want to believe it and refuses to take his meds. then he ends up beating down his girlfriend and currently is locked up for repeating it. a Q can he really hurt someone? because of being schizophrenic? ?
+latinachula20002000 schizophrenia is not tied to violence. He is violent to his girlfriend because of some other reason, probably similar to other men who are violent toward women but not schizophrenic.
I see...Is just with everyone it doesn't matter if he knows you or not. He will hurt anybody in a heartbeat, as he has done, very scary to me. Ever since he was 10 he has had a criminal background even with me he had stabbed me with a pencil at a very young age of 9. He says he hears voices. I must admit I get afraid especially because I have children that I need to protect and choose to stay away recently as to I'm very tired of him in and out of jail. Idk I'm just trying to comprehend. He's almost 40 and still do unpredictable things. Thank you for your response =)
+latinachula20002000 he sounds like a dangerous person with poor self control and little conscience. Whatever delusions, hallucinations, and other schizophrenic symptoms he might have, there appears to be sociopathy or psychopath tendencies. In English, "schizophrenia" is related to "psychosis" which is a very different word and meaning, and behaviour which is patterned as violent and socially destructive is "psychopathic" or "sociopath"... Calling someone "psycho" is just slang and gets used for both schizophrenics and violent people (and a few others).... I hope things stay calm for him and he flares less and less. =)
You should right a book. Keep well.
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Very informational about the Shaman possibly being a schizophrenic. I have grandiose ideas about the universe and God and satan that challenges the conventional wisdom. Thank u for that little piece of info. Very valuable.
+operoverlord1984 how did you recover
+i lovecars Actually, I haven't fully recovered. I got stable on meds (invega), which helped calm my racing thoughts (60% of recovery), and was able to talk about some personal worries with ppl I trust (40% of recovery). I still have paranoid thoughts about ppl and still struggle with the thoughts I had before my breakdowns being realistic or not, but everyday I feel a little more relaxed about things and think that it was all delusional. The drawbacks to living in this more relaxing and predictable reality is that my creativity is gone. I feel a little more dumbed down, but it's better than being so creative that your thoughts scare u half to death. I would say I wasn't really a true born schizophrenic, but that I developed it slowly over time, and luckily, caught it at the borderline stage. I think weed is the main culprit behind developing this chemical imbalance, however. Hope this gives some sort of an idea...
yeah thank you for details
we study mental disorders
bipolar - mania - depression ETC...
all disorders are easy to understand exept schizophrenia
hope you get better soon
Ok, well, if there's anything else I can help with don't hesitate to ask. Hope u have a blessed Thanksgiving.
I'm interested if you would have in some way considered the term schizophrenia is actually an mix of accumulated naturally learnt/accepted behavior's which include some triggering diet preference like everyone else does preceive's uniquely; given differing experiences, which as a young adult are naturally acted out automatically- subconsciously. (Humans, being more often q'ed sheep-like to fit- in for $, support, love and pleasure that's much needed, (not so much pain, as we all get- depending on circumstantial status and personally preceived/ learnt response approach's of and to those personalities and circumstances, involved. Therefore, socially and or nutritionally a source that flusters and stresses people heart-wise (learnt ego shame factor, reward pain factor) infrequently, to near madness at times like any other would be when lock up for it and expected to do/think/act, as required to be let free /where group appreciation's required, hence rather driven to think differently .. and hence a clinical type of social bullying label for seeing/doing things differently even untimely from the so called normal society considering that in the past human history such silent bullying was and still is ripe? (for example: nosed down class status, slavery, Holocaust, color, or any other undesirable put difference from the top down) Hence a type of silent or silenced need in society to create wealth however ethically even profession right; its deemed, now. Publicly, this is a no, no thought today- much like not having slaves was no, no thought, before. I rarely check my emails so I have to leave this as a one way response, but I will look eventually - there is more than us here so please feel free to respond for others to see, if you like. Good Luck and Thank You, More People Need to Join You - though it be very personal; and takes a lot of guts on your part- this is powerful, what you did.
+Belinda Rankin sorry find it hard to parse. What do you mean? I do not think about "the term schizophrenia" as a "mix of.. learnt... behaviours". I have intentions reactions thoughts experiences cognitive traits. Yes there are habits but only more than that at once.
I'm very afraid but it is good to hear another person sharing a carbon copy version of mine..... especially the new age spiritual stuff. I know. I see it too. And it doesn't make sense to me either.
I feel the least for the new age spiritual stuff. Try to come back down to reality. You will be less afraid.
+nednednerb it's so real...
+Sawyer Fulks Stay strong, and seek help if at all possible is the best advice I can think of, even more so if its just starting out, talking about the weird new situations helped me allot. And I definitely agree with nednednerb on taking it easy with conclusions, again stay stron mate, wish you all the best