If my part stepped back it fears my big embodied spiritual self would become visible and as it is unpracticed and societally rejected I would be vulnerable.
Second meditation : would be too hard and demanding of myself I would be disconnected from others. Too engulfed in selfand being the best and i would be exhausted physically and damage my body and i will suffer of insomnia So it is fear my manager takes over and runs me to exhaustion and never being satisfied and cut off from people I would burn out and then fall into deep depression and overeat again I would be disappointed anyway I would go back to the painful void and lack of pleasure
Having my mouth the fullest :Replacing sucking my thumb Overeating at the banquet f chinese food restaurant - overeating pizza when we were babysat : having a bank of ´ happy’ memories out of the dreary usual life at home Eating forbidden cookis or liquor chocolatewhile alone and hidden in the closet : trying not to feel aloneness, cold and boredom and hopelessness Filling the void of my life in childhood
I'm really jealous of people who can do this meditation and answer those questions so quickly. Jealous of people who are self-aware enough, as opposed to me. I'm just numb and I also have a co-conscious inner critic who second guesses every possible answer and blocks everything, so ridiculous
This meditation is so helpful! I am about to start a Clinical Psychology Masters and it makes me want to pursue IFS as a specialty!
Awesome!!! Thank you!
This is brilliant! Thank you so much for your guidance 🙏🏼
To keep me safe ❤
It was surprised, thought I hated it. Felt so unloved.
My part guides me to "eat at myself" to block me from my confusing lack of clarity in my life directions.
If my part stepped back it fears my big embodied spiritual self would become visible and as it is unpracticed and societally rejected I would be vulnerable.
Second meditation : would be too hard and demanding of myself
I would be disconnected from others. Too engulfed in selfand being the best and i would be exhausted physically and damage my body and i will suffer of insomnia
So it is fear my manager takes over and runs me to exhaustion and never being satisfied and cut off from people
I would burn out and then fall into deep depression and overeat again
I would be disappointed anyway
I would go back to the painful void and lack of pleasure
Having my mouth the fullest :Replacing sucking my thumb
Overeating at the banquet f chinese food restaurant - overeating pizza when we were babysat : having a bank of ´ happy’ memories out of the dreary usual life at home
Eating forbidden cookis or liquor chocolatewhile alone and hidden in the closet : trying not to feel aloneness, cold and boredom and hopelessness
Filling the void of my life in childhood
This is work on yourself pro level, too difficult for me 😔
If i get abstinent i will have to sponsor
If i get well, i will have to put my life at the service of others and i fear i will be engulfed
I'm really jealous of people who can do this meditation and answer those questions so quickly. Jealous of people who are self-aware enough, as opposed to me. I'm just numb and I also have a co-conscious inner critic who second guesses every possible answer and blocks everything, so ridiculous