I was thrown out of the house by my mother in my childhood, so I went to the railway station, after one whole night my mother came to pick me up 🥺because my dad yelled at my mom 😅 I know this was funny but I was feeling very cold that day and also scared😔NOW..... I have ability to control my emotions
I feel so sorry for you and hope your doing better my mother wanted to kick me out of the house too,she thought I was meeting a boy secretly outside so started following me when I go out but after she seen me I was just walking and met nobody then she told me that she wanted to kick me out of house because I was one day after searching for a job at pizza restaurant to earn money since it was age of legally being not underage and start job,so she packed all my stuff in my room when I was at school and I came back and found a suitcase and I had nowhere to go,I screamed at her for doing nosense things and the house itself wasn't even hers it's on the dad name and he pays the bills and all so wtf It's none her house neither then,anyway one other day closed the house door when I was back from school and didn't wanted to let me in but wanted me to stay out of the house The most toxic woman on earth!!!
I am just too tired, too exhausted. This has been going on for too long, 8 years.... I was only 9. It was the first day I turned 9, when everything was taken away from me. My mother started showing manic episodes. She has BPD or so do I think. She's just always switching sides. It drove me and my father completely insane and it still does. And on top of that, I was a gifted kid. Always on top of the class. But now, I lost all my drive to this mental torture that is still going on. She switches sides so often. Playing into her illusions she drew up in her mind. Severe anger issues.... Sometimes, she would hit me till I had some blood falling from scratches. It worsened so much in lockdown. I was her punching bag. I was abused verbally, emotionally and physically. She would hit me so hard that I literally felt pain in my bones and muscles for weeks. Sometimes I wish that there were some scars on my body so that I can remember her cruelness. She would shame my father for things he did not do. Her language drove me crazy. I could hear voices in the night as if my parents were fighting. I could not sleep peacefully. I still can't. Moreover, any time someone died, she just goes completely nuts, mad, insane. I would come from my far away tution and school all exhausted and she would start her bullshit. My father also has anger issues, obviously from all these. He would sometimes hit me also. I live on the floor above my grandpa who's completely healthy and sound and my uncle. They would never help me. My father does not even know how much my mother hit me while he was outside during the pandemic. But they are the only people I can rely on. We three have gone through so many struggles since I was 1 and 1/2 yrs old. We lived in a rented house when my father would work with his minimal salary. I lost all my gifted child abilities and can't even get a perfect marks at any one subject now. Moreover, my friends think I live a dream life. They talk behind my back. Curse behind me. My so called "classmates" wish me bad luck and laugh from joy and satisfaction whenever I do bad in any one exams. And the good thing is that nobody knows about it. Or what else would they think of me? + I am going through my 10th Boards and my Mom is again showing this bpd behaviors. Always just before my exams. I simply want to feel complete comfort for once. And it all started when I was born. Can't help but blame myself for my mother's issues. My mother was the best person I knew in my life when we lived in our 1st rented house. She was my role model, my only love along with my father. But now I can't recognise my life and my parents. I never thought that my life would be like this before I was even 9. And the fact she can't remember what happened. I can't myself remember my memories when I was just only in grade 4 in my new school due to all the trauma. I always try to show my happy side in front of everybody but inside I am dead and nobody is aware of it. I can't even get happiness or satisfaction in my grades now. I can't even get a single perfect marks in any one subject , I mean at least in Science, my very best subject! I want to die but I want to keep living for the sake of finding peace and happiness or love probably in the future. Though I don't think anybody will ever love me. Sorry, it was too long. Just wanted to vent out. Edit: I found out my mom has atpd or acute and transient psychotic disorder (T_T). It does explain why she acts like a maniac sometimes and out of the blue, ig.
hey man are you doing alright? Im young and i definitely relate to you. Im tired of everything already. But im still here, fighting through it everyday, and trying to find a way to give a shit. Many people have hurt me but they never apologized so all i can do is feel sorry for myself. But honestly im tired of it. Im tired of having to struggle with money constantly, im tired of sweating and hating myself whenever I look in the mirror. But all i know is that when i have children theyll never know this side of me because I'll stay in school for them, and get a job that can support them. And if things dont go the right way then I wont bother bringing children into the struggling world. i hope you are willing to try and stay alive like me. I love you man and i know exactly how you feel. Stay safe
This edit reminds me two years ago when i was 18 and i asked my younger sibling to help me in math subject since she understood that exercise and also since i always help her She refused to help me back so we started fighting,my father enters that room knowing well i was in the right but yet since that one i was fighting with was his favorite daughter then he started beating me extremely hard violence which is like violence against women I started self defense and throwing stuff at him so he wouldn't come at me but yet he came so then i had to beat him back for self defense abd was i started screaming all my madness at him for what he did then he started being scared that neighborhood would come at him by hearing me sfreaming at him what he did to me The sibling didn't stop that and neither said it was her fault that she didn't help me bcak so i had all the blame on me That got me traumatized forever I talk with him only when i need something but i will never forgive him for violence me and not saying sorry and not accepting to say yeah it was my fault I shouldn't and also never will love him
Why can't they understand us, they once a kid like us too but why can't they understand our fillings, why they want us to suffer, why do they want us to take there dream because they can't, why do they blame us for their own mistake,why can't they love us and why they want us to be perfect Sorry for wrong grammar 😅
When i was a little kid,i was like 3 and 4 years old i was liking to move a lot like every kids and to jump and play and have fun and i wasn't obedient to rules like "don't run, don't go there.." i was just a kid that wanted to have fun and not conscious of importance of following rules and more and every time i would be moving and play around the house without putting the rules into actions then my mom instead being understanding and calm,explain slowly with nice maners then instead she would take a rope and tie me with it in the chair so i would not move and normally play around the house like kids are suppose to do and also tie my hands so when it was lunch time it was hard for me to eat with tie hands and all so then my father came and told this is not how little kids should be treated and untied me and made me eat freely Also a lot of times she would have beat me with the belt which the belt hurts extremely and would beat me also with the phone charger and there was no way to run away from there Also a lot of times would grab the extremely hot papper and force me to put it inside my mouth as punishment At that age kids get traumatized from such treatments really Older i got like teenager then would grab a knife to fight me with like serial killers that woman should be in jail already and i tried to call the cops on her but yeah
Also once she was a babysitter to a kid when like I was a teenager and she would literally beat that kid which is extremely wrong The kid wasn't even her daughter and all her job was supposed to be only to take care of her until her mother comes back and not beat her because plays all around the house with her toys and messes with it,like she was only 2 years old, neither her own mother beats her so who was she to do such shits
My mother once tied me to a table in one of the rooms because I did something. She turned off the lights and left the room after locking it from the outside. She told my sister that she would beat her too if she opens the door. I was 8. I know she loves me and everytime I remember all kind of things I have to remind myself that she loves me but what blunder an 8yr old must have done to be tied down?
Name Of Drama ( Only I Know ): 1. At Distance Spring Is Green 2. My Strange Heroes 3. Extraordinary You 4. Sky Castle 5. It's Okay To Be Not Okay 6. Tempted 7. Uncanny Counter
So true! I made a video similar to this about Yeo Jin Goo's character in Beyond Evil, because his relationship with his father in that show matches the lyrics of this song perfectly. I hope you like it!
Amazing edit, thank you for this!😊 Could you tell me which movie/show is at 1:15, when Kim Byung-chul is hitting people? I like the actor. Also, I recognised Im Si-Wan's sweet face around 0:30. Where is that scene from? Thanks in advance!
I hate my mom my mom feel so happy when i cry from her bitting but now a days i can control my tears and now a days my mother say why you don't cry 😅 it's funny but my own mother but me with blait and cut me 😊 💔
Not all the dramas but some of them: my strange hero, true beauty, sky castle, extraordinary you, doctors, it's okay not to be okay, school 2015, uncanny counter
The dramas are: 1.Clean with passion now 2.The great seducer 3.Clean with passion 3.now it's okay to not be okay 4.extraordinary you 5.sky Castle 6.true beauty 7.My strange hero
#Tempted2:24 #It's okay not to be okay 2:31 #Run On 0:30 #Sky castle 1:15 #School 2015 2:16 #A distance spring is green 2:28 #The doctors 1:40 #My strange hero 1:02 #Extraordinary you 1:22 #True Beauty 2:14 #The uncanny counter 1:54 #Weightlifting fairy kim book joo 0:33 #Are you human too?1:51 #Clean with passion now 0:14 #My ID is gangnam beauty 1:43
Tempted 2:24 Run on 0:30 It's okay not to be okay 2:31 Sky castle1:15 School 2015 2:16 The Doctors 1:40 A distance spring is green 2:28 My strange hero 1:02 Extraordinary you 1:22 True Beauty 2:14 The uncanny couter 1:54 Clean with passion for now 0:14 My ID is gangnam beauty 1:43
I was thrown out of the house by my mother in my childhood, so I went to the railway station, after one whole night my mother came to pick me up 🥺because my dad yelled at my mom 😅 I know this was funny but I was feeling very cold that day and also scared😔NOW..... I have ability to control my emotions
That’s…… really horrible
I hope your doing well now ❤
@@rinsharajesh4154 no dude my mom hates me a lot now🥲
I can relate 🤝 something similar happened to me as well
I feel so sorry for you and hope your doing better my mother wanted to kick me out of the house too,she thought I was meeting a boy secretly outside so started following me when I go out but after she seen me I was just walking and met nobody then she told me that she wanted to kick me out of house because I was one day after searching for a job at pizza restaurant to earn money since it was age of legally being not underage and start job,so she packed all my stuff in my room when I was at school and I came back and found a suitcase and I had nowhere to go,I screamed at her for doing nosense things and the house itself wasn't even hers it's on the dad name and he pays the bills and all so wtf
It's none her house neither then,anyway one other day closed the house door when I was back from school and didn't wanted to let me in but wanted me to stay out of the house
The most toxic woman on earth!!!
@@shammisaiyyed4940Ohh😢I wish I could hug you and comfort you . 🫂🫶
Why family can't understand our feelings
🥺
Offcourse😮😢
Exactly
Becoz they see..their dreams in us.. and forget that we exist
I am just too tired, too exhausted. This has been going on for too long, 8 years.... I was only 9. It was the first day I turned 9, when everything was taken away from me. My mother started showing manic episodes. She has BPD or so do I think. She's just always switching sides. It drove me and my father completely insane and it still does. And on top of that, I was a gifted kid. Always on top of the class. But now, I lost all my drive to this mental torture that is still going on. She switches sides so often. Playing into her illusions she drew up in her mind. Severe anger issues.... Sometimes, she would hit me till I had some blood falling from scratches. It worsened so much in lockdown. I was her punching bag. I was abused verbally, emotionally and physically. She would hit me so hard that I literally felt pain in my bones and muscles for weeks. Sometimes I wish that there were some scars on my body so that I can remember her cruelness. She would shame my father for things he did not do. Her language drove me crazy. I could hear voices in the night as if my parents were fighting. I could not sleep peacefully. I still can't. Moreover, any time someone died, she just goes completely nuts, mad, insane. I would come from my far away tution and school all exhausted and she would start her bullshit. My father also has anger issues, obviously from all these. He would sometimes hit me also. I live on the floor above my grandpa who's completely healthy and sound and my uncle. They would never help me. My father does not even know how much my mother hit me while he was outside during the pandemic. But they are the only people I can rely on. We three have gone through so many struggles since I was 1 and 1/2 yrs old. We lived in a rented house when my father would work with his minimal salary. I lost all my gifted child abilities and can't even get a perfect marks at any one subject now. Moreover, my friends think I live a dream life. They talk behind my back. Curse behind me. My so called "classmates" wish me bad luck and laugh from joy and satisfaction whenever I do bad in any one exams. And the good thing is that nobody knows about it. Or what else would they think of me? + I am going through my 10th Boards and my Mom is again showing this bpd behaviors. Always just before my exams. I simply want to feel complete comfort for once. And it all started when I was born. Can't help but blame myself for my mother's issues.
My mother was the best person I knew in my life when we lived in our 1st rented house. She was my role model, my only love along with my father.
But now I can't recognise my life and my parents. I never thought that my life would be like this before I was even 9. And the fact she can't remember what happened. I can't myself remember my memories when I was just only in grade 4 in my new school due to all the trauma. I always try to show my happy side in front of everybody but inside I am dead and nobody is aware of it. I can't even get happiness or satisfaction in my grades now. I can't even get a single perfect marks in any one subject , I mean at least in Science, my very best subject!
I want to die but I want to keep living for the sake of finding peace and happiness or love probably in the future. Though I don't think anybody will ever love me.
Sorry, it was too long. Just wanted to vent out.
Edit: I found out my mom has atpd or acute and transient psychotic disorder (T_T). It does explain why she acts like a maniac sometimes and out of the blue, ig.
I will pray that god gives you the strength and patience to get out of that house respectfully! Keep fighting till then
I hope that soon only happiness fill your life and you will never be sad again I hope in future you will walk in a path Full of flowers and sunshine 🌼
dude...i'm crying after reading this....hope everythings gets better...wishing best for u...keep going...ur doing great dude
😭😭😭😭😭😔😔💔💔💔💔
Bro are you girl or boy because I live the same life
"Because im dead inside" really made me upset
I feel like I'm dead from inside now. Nobody pain hurt me. They really made me to hate myself and everyone. I end being alone. I hate everyone.
hey man are you doing alright? Im young and i definitely relate to you. Im tired of everything already. But im still here, fighting through it everyday, and trying to find a way to give a shit. Many people have hurt me but they never apologized so all i can do is feel sorry for myself. But honestly im tired of it. Im tired of having to struggle with money constantly, im tired of sweating and hating myself whenever I look in the mirror. But all i know is that when i have children theyll never know this side of me because I'll stay in school for them, and get a job that can support them. And if things dont go the right way then I wont bother bringing children into the struggling world. i hope you are willing to try and stay alive like me. I love you man and i know exactly how you feel. Stay safe
This edit reminds me two years ago when i was 18 and i asked my younger sibling to help me in math subject since she understood that exercise and also since i always help her
She refused to help me back so we started fighting,my father enters that room knowing well i was in the right but yet since that one i was fighting with was his favorite daughter then he started beating me extremely hard violence which is like violence against women
I started self defense and throwing stuff at him so he wouldn't come at me but yet he came so then i had to beat him back for self defense abd was i started screaming all my madness at him for what he did then he started being scared that neighborhood would come at him by hearing me sfreaming at him what he did to me
The sibling didn't stop that and neither said it was her fault that she didn't help me bcak so i had all the blame on me
That got me traumatized forever
I talk with him only when i need something but i will never forgive him for violence me and not saying sorry and not accepting to say yeah it was my fault I shouldn't and also never will love him
Ohh hope ur ok now🫂
@@Jeonsuax08i'm doing better, thank you for your concern
@@sabrinasususa6957 good to hear. Be happy stay strong and smile 😊🫂🤗
@Jeonsuax08 thank you so much🤗🤗I wish you well too,smile,be positive and live happily
@@sabrinasususa6957 🫂🫶
Why can't they understand us, they once a kid like us too but why can't they understand our fillings, why they want us to suffer, why do they want us to take there dream because they can't, why do they blame us for their own mistake,why can't they love us and why they want us to be perfect
Sorry for wrong grammar 😅
Does grammer even matters while expressing feelings.......don't think so
i know how its feel like .no one is here by my side . i feel like im not living im surviving ,
It's okay to not be okay is so good
Yess❤
When i was a little kid,i was like 3 and 4 years old i was liking to move a lot like every kids and to jump and play and have fun and i wasn't obedient to rules like "don't run, don't go there.." i was just a kid that wanted to have fun and not conscious of importance of following rules and more and every time i would be moving and play around the house without putting the rules into actions then my mom instead being understanding and calm,explain slowly with nice maners then instead she would take a rope and tie me with it in the chair so i would not move and normally play around the house like kids are suppose to do and also tie my hands so when it was lunch time it was hard for me to eat with tie hands and all so then my father came and told this is not how little kids should be treated and untied me and made me eat freely
Also a lot of times she would have beat me with the belt which the belt hurts extremely and would beat me also with the phone charger and there was no way to run away from there
Also a lot of times would grab the extremely hot papper and force me to put it inside my mouth as punishment
At that age kids get traumatized from such treatments really
Older i got like teenager then would grab a knife to fight me with like serial killers that woman should be in jail already and i tried to call the cops on her but yeah
Also once she was a babysitter to a kid when like I was a teenager and she would literally beat that kid which is extremely wrong
The kid wasn't even her daughter and all her job was supposed to be only to take care of her until her mother comes back and not beat her because plays all around the house with her toys and messes with it,like she was only 2 years old, neither her own mother beats her so who was she to do such shits
My mother once tied me to a table in one of the rooms because I did something. She turned off the lights and left the room after locking it from the outside. She told my sister that she would beat her too if she opens the door. I was 8. I know she loves me and everytime I remember all kind of things I have to remind myself that she loves me but what blunder an 8yr old must have done to be tied down?
Amei o vídeo!!!!
Muito bom ♥️
Great edit 👍🏻🥺💘
Thanks ✨😍
My mom is exactly like that💔💔💔
I'm face this childhood
So emotional so bad 😢😢😢 but reality
Amo os dramas 😢❤
I am so much related to it but I am not crying cuz It's really dead inside.
Same
My parents and the world treat me like a useless person because I'm a sickle cell patient
Im cursed with depression because of my parents🥺
Can someone name all the dramas that are part of the video please 🙏
What are the names of the kdramas used?
Plz tell every drama name
Do anyone know all dramas name?
this edit is so good, what are the drama at 0:22 and what is the drama at 1:00 and 1:13?
0:22 / 1:13 Sky Castle
1:00 My strange hero
@@editsxwag thank you so much! you are very talented 💗🤭
Name of dramas pls
can u say what is the name of the drama 0.40
All drama's name?
Edit is so good!
Can u say name of kdramas 0:26 and 1:40 ?
0:26 Sky Castle
1:40 The doctors
Thank uu
Drama names please?
Can anyone tell me which is the kdrama in 0:59
I feel like its vincenzo but im not sure
My strange hero
Can i have all the drama/movie titles?? Pls
-It's okay to not be okay
-The doctors kdrama
The rest ones I don't know
True Beauty 2:14
School 2015 2:16
Sky castle 1:15
Name Of Drama ( Only I Know ):
1. At Distance Spring Is Green
2. My Strange Heroes
3. Extraordinary You
4. Sky Castle
5. It's Okay To Be Not Okay
6. Tempted
7. Uncanny Counter
Every children diserve parents but not every parents diserve a child
So true! I made a video similar to this about Yeo Jin Goo's character in Beyond Evil, because his relationship with his father in that show matches the lyrics of this song perfectly. I hope you like it!
@@wintersyve2000 oh I will see it 💜💜
@@parisharma1826 Thank you! Please let me know what if you like it!
2:45 whats the name of the drama
Sky Castle
Amazing edit, thank you for this!😊 Could you tell me which movie/show is at 1:15, when Kim Byung-chul is hitting people? I like the actor.
Also, I recognised Im Si-Wan's sweet face around 0:30. Where is that scene from? Thanks in advance!
0:30 Run on
1:15 Skycastle
Thank you so much! I just added them to my never ending watch list 😉
0:34 drama name and ep plz♥
I hate my mom my mom feel so happy when i cry from her bitting but now a days i can control my tears and now a days my mother say why you don't cry 😅 it's funny but my own mother but me with blait and cut me 😊 💔
I like the edit ❤
2:26name of drama please ♡
At spring distance is green
@@editsxwag I'm sorry but before that 😊
@@riizeareseven7 okay, name: *Sky Castle*
☺
@@editsxwag thankss
@@editsxwag at a distance spring is green
00:57 drama name
1:54 what is the name of this drama and ep pls?
the uncanny counter, but I don't know which episode :(
Uncanny Counter episode 15 or 16
All name please drama
0.35 drama name pls? Where he saud his mother came for money?
Weightlifting fairy kim bok joo
1:02 what's this drama? Can anyone tell me the name please?
My strange hero
Drama names?
0:23 can you tell me the drame name pls
Sky Castle
@@editsxwag ❤
what is the name of the dramaa in 1:13?
Sky Castle
Name of the drama 1:00 pls
My stranger hero
Can you please tell me all drama name's 🥺
Not all the dramas but some of them: my strange hero, true beauty, sky castle, extraordinary you, doctors, it's okay not to be okay, school 2015, uncanny counter
Run on
Tempted
The Doctors
2:09 name please?
Name: True Beauty
Kdrama Name Po
My own brother bite me with glass and cut my lips and face and he this such type of think in just for fun
1:32 drama name please
Weightlifting fairy kim bok joo
1:58 ep? And name?
True beauty ep 11
1.55
True Beauty
Drama name please when he get into the car and his dad hod his neck from back
The uncanny country Season1
No I watched the uncanny counter not this kdrama
@@user-jt4nd8hs2d that scene is def from there. its the evil possessed guy and his son, who bullies the protagonist
2.43
Sky castle
2:24 drama name please
Tempted
1:54 what's the name please??
The Uncanny Counter saison1
@@humain_ thank you!!!!
@@Marykpop77 you're welcome
Whats the name of this drama 2:42
Extraordinary you
0:54
Sky Castle
What is the name of the drama??
The dramas are:
1.Clean with passion now
2.The great seducer
3.Clean with passion 3.now it's okay to not be okay
4.extraordinary you
5.sky Castle
6.true beauty
7.My strange hero
1:22 can ya pls say the drama name
Extraordinary you
What drama is that at 0:58? 💜
My strange hero
@@editsxwag tq very much, I'm just looking for sad kdramas to watch especially parents abusive since I'm related. ... Can u recommend me any pls
@@wongnoir1841There's a lot about abusive parents : It's okay not to be okay
@@editsxwag oo alright TwT tq for recommending.... ❤
0:41 drama name
Name: Clean with passion for now
but my family not untersant my
0:58 drama name please?
My stranger hero
1:18 drama name please
Where the man tells the girl to die
It's okay if you're not okay
@@black_flower2816 thank you!!!!
1.55 name pls🥰
The uncanny counter
0:54 drama name Please 😢
Sky Castle
1:53 drama name
Uncanny counter
0:09 name?
Extraordinary you
0.01 drama name please
Name: Clean with passion for now
0:12 what's the name of drama
Sky Castle
0.12.5
@@photostore7248 It's okay not to be okay
and what drama is this 2:41?
The doctors
0.33?
Weightlifting fairy kim bok joo
0:47 drama name plss
it's okay not to be okay
1:21 drama name??
The uncanny counter
@@editsxwag thank you
@@editsxwagwhat is the name of drama 1:23??
@@Doraemon_19 Extraordinary you
1:01 what is the movie or series name?
My strange hero
@@editsxwag Thank You.
0:23which drama?
Sky Castle
@@editsxwag tysm
What's the drama at 1:12?
My strange hero
Thanks! And the one with Moon Ka Young in a white dress?
@@mahjabeenalhussaini5629 Tempted
1:36 kdrama name pretty please
The uncanny country
@@editsxwag tysm that was fast
which show at 1:51
Name: Are you human too?
1:43 name?
my id is gangnam beauty
@@editsxwag thanks for telling the k-drama name
0:20 drama name?
Are you human too?
0:50 - 0:53 name ?pls
Name: Clean with passion for now
What drama is 1:35? And ep
The uncanny counter Episode 15 or 16
Thanks
Alguien sabe como se llama el drama???cracias😘
#Tempted2:24
#It's okay not to be okay 2:31
#Run On 0:30
#Sky castle 1:15
#School 2015 2:16
#A distance spring is green 2:28
#The doctors 1:40
#My strange hero 1:02
#Extraordinary you 1:22
#True Beauty 2:14
#The uncanny counter 1:54
#Weightlifting fairy kim book joo
0:33
#Are you human too?1:51
#Clean with passion now 0:14
#My ID is gangnam beauty 1:43
1.54 drama name pls?
The uncanny counter
0:41 and 0:58 ??
Clean with passion for now
My strange hero
2:23 & 2:43 drama?
Tempted
Sky Castle
0:15 name please?
My strange hero
@@editsxwag thanks, do you know which episode it is?
@@jojo1074 Episode 05
@@editsxwag thank you so much
2:42?
Extraordinary you
1:43 ?
Name: my id is gangnam beauty
What is the name of the drama,1.20
School 2015
0:10 - 0:11 drama name pleasee?
•Extraordinary you
•Skycastle
O.17?
My strange hero
Can you tell the name of every Kdrama please
Tempted 2:24
Run on 0:30
It's okay not to be okay 2:31
Sky castle1:15
School 2015 2:16
The Doctors 1:40
A distance spring is green 2:28
My strange hero 1:02
Extraordinary you 1:22
True Beauty 2:14
The uncanny couter 1:54
Clean with passion for now 0:14
My ID is gangnam beauty 1:43
@@janetodeyemie2974 tysm
0:05 name
Name: Clean with passion for now
What's the one at 0:52?
Name: Clean with passion for now