jdeezy Right! I did everything I could to make her happy/smile I made sure she wouldn’t face her problems alone. We would talk everyday in school and after school I would try my hardest to make her laugh at least once a day Once she got a boyfriend she would barley reply or talk to me When I needed her the most when I was facing some rough times she wasn’t there for me even though I was there for her. I would reach out to her countless of times but instead she would leave me on seen and walk past me like I didn’t even exist. Had to face all my troubles alone. I eventually got over her but I still think about her sometimes.
Fuck that was a tight SLAP (I had so many friends and all like close ones, slowly as I chose study over anything I got distant, I've been losing friends everywhere They still accept me if I approach but I feel kinda guilty so I don't) now back to watching sad anime and engineering
GetOff MyWood10 she probably misses you too even if it doesn’t seem like it she has to be it’s hard for everyone. Some people are better at hiding it than others.
My crush at least texts me once a day without me saying anything but then I see her be the happiest and I start to get sad and hurt when I think that she is with her friends I feel like a normal person but then she feels like the world to me. Im gonna tell her I like her at the end of this month
I'm here again, after a whole year but this time, I'm not sad. It's still 2 am and raining outside but I'm not crying, I'm happier then I have even been. My studies are going great. And I'm with this lovely person who doesn't make me cry and cries with me when I'm sad. I would have never imagined a day like this would come for me when I first listened to this a year ago. It's fine if things are not going fine,it's fine if you're sad or crying or going through hell. It will change, you'll be happy one day. You'll be alright, just don't lose hope.💞💞💞
There's not a guarantee that it will be or that things will develop like they should hope dwindle often,miss my dog,feels like parts of my brain n inner core are getting damaged where there's no repair the parts I felt were more sacred parts of myself,its concerning...nvrmd
I had a boyfriend back in high school. We were only 15. Reckless. Happy. In love. First love truly is as magical as it is. I remember him serenading me with his old dusty guitar at an old abandoned park. We would always meet there and would watch the sunset together. I remember him, so heavenly and soft. He would speak and it feels like liquid sunshine would run out from his lips. His gaze were affectionate and loving. But he was ripped away from me in a terrible accident. I hated God for what happened. It was unfair. He was young and full of life. But maybe it has a reason. Now I'm 23 and still in love. Guess that'll never change. I miss you, Lee.
Pqffn- can’t help it when every single thing reminds you of him. Especially when both of you were in love with each other, so close to dating. Love like what we had was hard to find. Trust me, I’ve been in love a lot of times and it was never like this. Can’t help but feel like a huge part of you is missing everytime you look at things and get reminded of him.
Killer Red you were attached, i’ve been there more times then I would’ve liked to be but have faith in your ability to find someone else, theres no promises that it’ll replace his love or the affection you two had but its better then dwelling on it. Love isn’t something to be toyed with, and i’ve been hear broken far too many times and its gotten to a stage where seeing other people hurting, hurts me. Just keep an open mind and welcome opportunity in a new relationship :)
That's exactly how I feel right now you know? And you can't actually feel better... You just want to hear those word coming from that person you love, even though is not going to happen...
“The loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their whole world fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly.” It was us against the world. Now it’s just me staring into space wondering where it all went wrong.
smokey tokes anxiety would control my life and how I acted. I wasn’t me and I started to scratch myself till I bled to make the pain go away. I fought so hard with my parents and I was sent to therapy. It was a long hard journey but I was finally stopping self harm. I was clean for about maybe 5 months and I did it again. My life has been going down hill the past few years. I didn’t have a will to live and I just wanted the pain to go away. After months of therapy and I was on medication I started to feel myself. I found motivation to stay clean in my friends. If I left this world behind I just left more pain to them. Now I don’t know how my story ends but it’s not over yet and I still have a long ways to go. Addiction is hard and the want to get high and numb the pain is strong. But your stronger than that. I don’t know how to give someone good advice I just tell them my story that is still going. There are ups and downs and people who might make us happy and people who might make us want to turn to our old habits. Every time I’m in pain I struggle to think clearly but I get through it because the want to do (bad habit) is there but it is not a need. Now I don’t want to tell you how to live your life or what to do it just here trying to relate to people to tell them they are not alone. Life will get better trust me. Stay strong I believe in you ❤️. Stay clean with me and everyone else.
2019 has been the worst year ever. I've lost so many people. I don’t even know what I‘m doing with my life I just feel so empty. 2020 Update: what the fuck 2021 Update: yo I’m so confused. Time flies so fast. Oh and I still don’t know what I‘m doing with my life but I‘m feeling kinda better✨🙄 2022 Update: I gotta say, life is still pretty complicated but I’m growing. I do have hope though. I will find my happiness and I‘m sure all of you will too. 2023 Update: Let's see how it will be this year. I definitely have more stamina than the years before. I have big goals, even if I have to fight hard to achieve them. I've learned to get by on my own, to stay away from people who aren't good for me. I realize that many people are trying to throw hurdles at me to block my way. It's gonna be tough, but we only live once. I will keep fighting, just like all of you!
Yeah man, 2 funerals for me. Gf also got T boned bad in her car but pulled through. Then my sister's husband cheated on her after her maternity leave ended where she almost died from child birth. Then my gf left me. Keep that chin up because things run its course. Life. Death. Relationships. I'm starting my new job and building from the ashes and it feels good man
When you go to bed, lights out, phone off, just you with your thoughts. During the day you do something, you are busy, but at night, in bed, bad thoughts just keep coming
Please never delete this video, it has so much meaning to me, so many memories and so so many moments that are now long gone.... Also, thanks to the person who's responsible for this.
I remember when this song was on lofi and I used the iPad of my brother and he saved the lofi playlist and I just read all the depressing comment on RUclips
I've been reading the comments and I've seen lots of sad things. For the person who is reading this, I hope you have a lot of luck in your life and that everything goes well. And if things are going wrong, be calm, bad vibes will eventually leave, you always have to try to raise your head and continue with life. Sometimes love is bullshit, be strong.
Sometimes life is like this dark tunnel. You can't always see the light at the end of the tunnel, but if you just keep moving... you will come to a better place. Uncle Iroh
i don't even miss nobody, i just am so afraid of myself. i'm afraid i won't be anything in life. i'm afraid that i won't live up to what i know i could be edit- I love all of you. thank you.
This is mostly what I get emotional about. I always said I’d rather die than not being successful . But then when I have no direction in life I get frustrated cause idk what to do next. If something makes you uncomfortable it’s prob good for you. So just do it. Plan it out today and do it tomorrow. It’ll all work out bro 🙏🏼💯
do you ever wanna call someone out of the blue just to talk and catch up but you’re too afraid you’ll bother them? that’s how i feel rn. sucks missing someone who doesn’t miss you. edit: thanks for the likes and replies guys. i saw him a few days ago but had no time to really talk. sent a text after but no reply. not sure what to do but i think it might be time to move on. wishing everyone the best!!
John Virgil Bocalere or a really faint smell of something. I hate it man this girl that I really liked we stopped talking 4 years ago but she still on my mind
Guys one thing: Don’t try to find happiness through somebody else. Love yourself first, work hard on your life and pursue what you love. That’s when you will be attractive to people because you are not needy of their opinion and approval anymore. For that to work out you first need to work on you technique. If you want to build a car, you first need some instructions. Same goes for a good life. I can’t give them to you, but here is how you can find them: Read books. Full stop. This is the key to success. It’s a hard path but that’s the only way. We aren’t meant to just sit around all day and play video games or watch youtube videos. Genetically seen we should be outside working out or walking, or with people, not eating too much and eating healthy (like what can be found in nature easily, like vegetables, fruits, etc.). Don’t eat too much fat or sugar either. They are like poison. You body was not meant to consume them on a regular basis. Look it up. It breaks you mood and spirit. You could consider starting with Jordan Petersons „12 rules for life“ or „models“ by Mark Manson. My life motto is this: Life is pain. Either you endure it now and get up and do something about your life. Or you can relax now and endure the pain later on with feelings of guilt, shame, anger and loneliness.
When I was in primary school, I knew this boy who just really wanted to be friends with me. Thing is, he was ginger and he wore really thick glasses, so the whole school just kind of... Hated him. When I was younger, I just kind of followed everyone else, so I started to hate him for no reason. When we got to high school, he developed feelings for me. I turned him down since at that time, I didn't really know him that well. But I agreed to be friends with him, and that was the best decision I've ever made. He was really funny, he always knew how to make me smile, even in times when I felt really down... Soon enough, it was my turn to fall for him. He was always kind to everyone, but I felt like he was even kinder towards me. I mean, he probably wasn't, but I liked to think that he was. He was my best friend, and at the time, my only friend. But then... on the evening of November 22nd, 2017, he disappeared. Nobody knew where he went, not his parents, not his friends, I mean he hadn't even shown up at school that day. I wasn't able to sleep that night. On November 23rd, 2017, I was told that he had died. Suicide. I hate myself for not seeing that he wasn't ok. I hate myself for not realizing that he needed help. I hate myself for not being his friend earlier. I hate myself for turning him down. I hate myself for not telling him how I feel... Since then, time has been... weird. Hours either feel like days or seconds, I didn't see my graduation pass, I didn't see my prom happen, I didn't see my first day of college... I've felt empty since then. I still blame myself. I still miss him at 1am, at 2am, at 3am, at 4am, at 5am... And I know that I can't go back. I know that I'll never get him back. But it still hurts. And I'm just not sure for how long I can take all this pain...
Gabrielle Caron hey I know it’s hard but you gotta keep on moving forward and just know that he’s up there watching over you and he still wants you to be happy. Remember there’s no such thing as a goodbye only a see you later. Right now you gotta make the most outta your life, you gotta give your life meaning. And when your successful, honor it all in his name. You got this and you’re not in this alone.
You should know that it’s not your fault❤️ Pain is not always worn on people’s sleeves. You were a great friend and that’s all that matters! You will meet him in another lifetime where you will both rejoice of the grand friendship you shared! Stay strong! ❤️
Don’t ever blame yourself. You did the best you could to be in his life & I bet he was happier that you were a part of his. Best thing is to move on & let his energy feed on to you & spread the same positivity this man has given you & the world. He’s angel now & his spirit will remain with you as long as you live. Live on, love life, & most importantly love yourself 💙 because at the end of the day you’re an amazing human being!!
Gabrielle Caron you aren’t responsible for any of this. That boy saw you as one of his dearest friends, and even if you think that he hates you, you’re completely wrong. He loves you and he thinks of you as an angel. You were that boy’s everything, and that’s something that he’s grateful for. Even though he passed away, I can tell you that he doesn’t want you to feel the way that he did. He wants the best for you, Gabrielle. I know I’m some random stranger on RUclips and this’ll probably be the only time we cross paths ever again. But let me just tell you this and I hope it’ll stick with you. It’s not your fault, he wants the best for you, and he loves you. Take care. P.S. how funny is it that my real name is Gabriel lol
Everyone is saying the miss someone.. I just miss myself... I mean who am I? I have no one special in my life.. I have lots of “friends” but not a single one I can talk to about my feelings :( literally dead inside
tua- vykngz one day you and I will meet and I promise i’ll listen to every detail of your problems, you are not alone and shouldn’t feel alone because loneliness takes lives.
I grew up with a schizophrenic paranoia father on hard drugs and a mother that loves me but worked from 7am to 9pm. So, I would go to school and then come home and be alone for hours on end and even when my mother got home we wouldn't talk much and then bed time. I'm now 25 and still have problems wanting to be left alone most of the time. I find myself just sitting in a dark room alone yet finding comfort in it.
She broke up w me like 4 months ago I’ve moved on, on a different career path than most, happier now But sometimes, some nights, I still think about her I hate it.
This made me cry. Me and my ex broke up and i still think everyday that we might get back together, he might come back to me. But what if we never see each other ever again? This thought is so bitter I can't help but cry
@CryinSquirrel same for me, we broke up 2 weeks ago. Try to think it : The Best thing about this, is that we can think about her/him and be happy only by seeing his smile. Be happy about what u do with her/him, be habby about time u spend with, no the time u spend without. I love you, take care of u and don't fall in depression and melancholy like I try not to
@@Ouhouhouhouh thanks . Yeah all that's left now are good memories , but they make me feel melancholic and it makes me feel so upset that none of that continued. Memories hurt me so much, it's not worth it to keep a good thought about certain people...
This is really strange, I had this on my “watch later” and I was studying math and decided to give it a shot. I just started writing my feelings and my god. I came for the vibe and left with tears reading certain comments and a feeling of emptiness. If anyone is reading this, I hope you have an incredible year and life, be proud of yourself and enjoy every moment (good or bad)! You are loved. We are all lucky to be alive. ✨🙌🏻
trust me, the time when your worst memory turns into a beautiful one will come, I promise you. You will not regret anything you did with that person, you'd be grateful because it taught you many lessons
you've been frequently visiting me in my dreams...it makes me sad when I wake up and I realize it wasn't real. I'll never watch your mouth turn upwards into that crooked smile again, hear the kindness in your voice when you say my name, hear your jaw pop every time you chew, or grasp my pinky tightly with yours. it's cold snap season, our favorite beer that so many memories can be attributes to. it's been nine months since I heard from you. this was not a clean break so I'm picking up the pieces that were mine to begin with, trying to find out who I am without you. it's 2:50 a.m. and I still miss you. -bell
We are just depressed people telling each other that it’s all gonna be ok (Edit - Thanks to you guys and your words, I’m feeling a lot better and have made things in my life better and have realized that there’s always hope 🙂 thank you)
You know, I fell in love with a girl, and I loved her for about 8 months. I didn't tell her about that. So, once we went for a walk and she asked me to text her crush from her phone, 'cause she was like scared to text him and she deleted all messages she wrote. I texted him from her phone about her feelings to her crush, and he said that it would be better if they continue their friendship. You know, I was a bit happy about that. I almost forgot about that situation, and in general we haven't been even chatting after that for half a year or even more. But I was in love with other girls, so I didn't actually care about her life. We started chatting again when coronavirus pandemic came to my country, and at that time I started dating another girl, and I stucked in abusive relationships. I managed to get out of it, but after I felt empty. So my ex crush helped me to restore my self-confidence, we met many times, chatted a lot, and i fell in love with her again. I thought that we could actually date, and i will do everything for her to make her become my girlfriend. Do you know what turned out later? That she's dating her crush, like that guy I texted to. I have started their relationship and ruined mine. Perfect. I still love her, and she still loves this guy. I'm sorry for mistakes in English, I'm just learning it. And thank you so much if you've read my story 💖
keep ur head up man and leave her get her out of ur head I know iths hard bat that is what u have to do chase ur dreams and work on urself bro u got it!!
trust me i had some relative shit like that its besser to drop her trust me i dropped her also and now after 1 1/2 months i realise what idiot i was for loving her so long and she never be thankful for that sorry for my bad english, i'm german
If you truly love her, don’t let her go man. It’s a mistake i have made, so you better not. Even, even if she doesn’t love you back don’t hold your head down. Leave her knowing that you gave it your all and that you will find the one for you. Good luck dude
Saturday night, 2am in the morning, the coffee has gone cold and the sandwich looks damp and unappetising. The house lights are switched off, the table lamp flickers, the computer screen is dimmed, lines and lines of text sprawled onto it. A yawn, a sigh, a distracted, anxious mind whirling on and on. The neon lights outside the window have a gravitational pull. Fumbling hands and fingers, an awkward walk. The keys allow a metallic click and the door rattles open and shut. Slouched shoulders, stiff jaw. The air is cold tonight. The windbreaker is pulled tighter and closer. The pace hastens. A hundred metre long walk, two buildings away. An abandoned alley. Narrow, tackily-painted open staircase. Thirty minutes of lofi till the top, thirty minutes of thinking, of missing, of numb and emptiness. The rooftop is spacious, ground wet from the rain, smelling like moss, childhood and forgotten memories. Lighter in hand, cigarette in another. A spark of light. Smoke. Stiff legs cross over the ledge. The city offers a striking view, but it’s hazy and underwhelming behind the dull smoke that numbs the pain and the senses. “Missing you” The letters jump from a building to another. A sigh. Footsteps. A tossed out cigarette. The rooftop is empty when the city turns bright and bustling. -Been having half a year’s worth of writers’ block, this is nice for a change, if anyone comes across this thanks for reading
Damn its been 10 months huh? a lot has happened since then. i went through a bad depressive episode and was diagnosed with depression and ocd, i was put on meds, went for and am still going for psychotherapy, i also got through the toughest academic year so far and this year i will be taking very different subjects, in fact im going for a linguistics selection test in two days time. Things are getting better, sort of. I haven't written anything since I posted this, but I promise myself that I will write something, anything, soon, and I will post it here for me to see and to remember. Also i guess the theme of missing someone finally make sense for me, i started crushing on someone and is still crushing on them. Would totally take them out, 2am at night, two coffees in hand to the rooftop for stargazing or something.
the comment section makes me feel at home. I believe i’ve found my people. Edit: Not long after I made this comment I got back with the ex who i thought was the love of my life. I was wrong. Things were terrible. I still struggle with moving on. we broke up christmas day 2022. He left me again, and has no feelings left for me. I’ve come to think of it as a good thing. If someone could pack up one day and stop caring about you, then they were never worth it. Do not spend your time lingering on someone who wouldn’t put in that same time in for you. you are worth, and you are deserving, of so much more than that.
I know 3 months ago I was here listening to this or reading the comments but then my love of my life gave me a 3rd chance she’s broken up with me before twice and we were together for 3 months then she broke up with me today now I’m back here thinking about her
Dawson Morrison i was here 6 months before a left the comment above thinking about how i lost mine too, eventually i accepted it and now i’m just waiting for someone better. it’ll come to us no doubt :)
pov: you’re constantly checking whether they texted you back, but they didn’t, and it hurts like hell. So for a little of a backstory (you can read this if you’re bored): I became friends with this boy and I started to really crush on him because he treated me really good and I never really got to experience that from a boy. So I confessed my feelings for him, but he didn’t like me back. That ruined our friendship for a while and my feelings started to fade a lot. I started to accept the fact that we would never be more than friends and so I started to treat him like a "bro" of mine too. I guess that he felt more comfortable around me around that time, because we started talking more. So it all started when I invited him to a party. We were drinking and we kept on telling each other how much we loved each other. Of course that wouldn’t have been enough for my feelings to get back, I was hurt too much. But after this party a lot went down in my private life and he seemed to be the only one that cared. So we started talking a lot on Snapchat. It sort of became our thing that we would share how our days were going everyday and whenever we would see each other we would cuddle and tell each other sweet things. It was at this point that my feelings were starting to get back again. But after a while it just stopped. He started leaving me on delivered for a long time and he would kind of ignore me in real life. Whenever we would talk he would sound annoyed by me and he never told me why. I was hoping that he was just busy or stressed and that eventually he would come back, but we stopped talking. Now he’s in love with another girl. Big L.
i ruined an incredible person with my insecurities and never feeling like i was enough for her. i regret leaving her so many times i regret not cherishing her. i regret wasting her time and love. she was everything to me and i threw it all away because of insecurities. i had the perfect person in life that made me feel complete but i didn’t have my life together. i didn’t have enough for the both of us. i hate myself for being so sickly and diseased. i could never love myself the way she loved me. i miss her always. she’ll forever be the ray of sunshine in my dark twisted idea of a life. i love you.
am i only one who feels empty right now.not because i am heartbroken. because i have no one by my side and i really need someone who will love me as i am🥺
same here i'm absolutely alone probably why i'm listening to this right now... fak this shit atleast im not the only one suffering ... hope u all get better
You are not alone.. i feel totally empty and vulnerable right now. We all need someone to love us because we have a whole lot if love to give back. Your love will walk into your life and never look back and all pain will be gone instantly. I wish the best for you and i hope that person is closer than you think. Much love...
i know what you’re feeling brother.. i got the same situation. I swear you’ll eventually find someone that’ll give you all of the love and affection you need. Love you, take care.
@Bruxy thanks bro, i’m doing fine. make sure you do everything for in your power to keep her because that girl rare, many people don’t stay in relationships with their first “everything”
@@billy2485 I'm nvr doing better,my life is how is been n I'm miserable,dying inside doesn't make me appreciate life or seeing the world from here,doesn't help,miss my dog,if I had an abrupt n quick death I wouldn't be living like this,shrug mmhmm,nothing/nobody in my so called life/world makes me happy it isnt even tolerable,just is I suppose n I dont even want it to be like this..yet it hasnt changed for the better n I've obviously not moved from herenmydogisntwme
"It's funny how these 8 letters from your mouth can change my entire life. But these same letters from my mouth won't make a difference to you." ~Yours truly
its been 9 months, since the breakup 12 months since I felt you drifting away 15 months since you told me it was going to be okay and there was nothing to worry about 18 months since my grandfather passed on and you said I love you 21 since i asked you out. 2 years since I was happy Now I lay at night, not most thinking, crying of those memories we had But I smile most, because I’m now more me than ever before.
Once you’ve been broke and at ur lowest you can finally appreciate the little things once you’ve been broken you slow down to 10 where the rest of the world speeds up to 100 to find something they will be going to fast to even see
experiences are on a range the more you've had good and bad feelings in part of life, the more you see life those who explored what it is to be alive have the most battle scars and know what drives the human being more than others
I've been changing a lot and I thought it was for the better.. Now at times I just think to myself, "Who even are you right now? You pretended to be someone you're not and now it's too late to turn back to what you were. You're just messed up now"
@@dawsonmorrison6093 Bro you should be proud of that shit. Most people don't get out on their own till they are like 23. Keep grinding. Get that diploma and figure out your next move.
“Anyone can give up; it is the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone would expect you to fall apart, now that is true strength.”
Love is too cruel, man. I miss the feeling, the euphoria of awaking to messages from her on my phone. Now its 2:30am and I can hardly breathe through the tears.
honestly, I've been listening to this playlist for three years now. I always go to RUclips to find a new playlist and always come back here. it's like my personal place of calm. thank you very much!
Think about all the people scrolling through the comment section, not commentating but are just reading our comments. I wonder what they are thinking about.
it's 2:06 a.m., April 23, 2022. I'm listening to this again, almost three months since i lived the worst day of my life. how can this hurt so bad to listen to, but be so healing at the same time ? it must be this comments section. it tells me that everyone hurts, not only me.
for anyone worried about finding the right one, or even someone, just know that they will eventually come along. I'm listening to this just because it has some sweet lo-fi beats, but I've really found the perfect one. she's amazing and truly cares about me and it's an overwhelming feeling of just pure happiness. it takes time and it always comes when you least expect it. stay positive, you'll find what you're looking for I promise. you got this I believe in you. maybe no one has said that to you before, but just know if you are reading this, I truly believe in you and I love you
Q Ff you can’t have such a constant pessimistic view on life, yes sometimes it feels like there’s an end to everything but maybe this guys really found the one, you never know until the end, whether that’s with her by your side or you all alone
tbh i don't believe in loving a stranger anymore, loving someone, everyone just breaks up, divorce, whats the point? I believe in romance in drama, but i don't believe in those things in this reality. Cuz in reality u spend most of the time being alone. In a movie things are just made to be like that but life is not. I made a promise that i will not fall for someone real cuz i first of all idw to waste my time and second, im used being just someone that exists randomly
Will Fallon I still find it weird that we are still texting to this day. Like hell I even told her we could always text other day but she is like yes !!! I’ll text you tomorrow , or I’m sorry I’m really busy then she talk about her day... idk I’m surprise she hasn’t left me on open. Any thoughts?
It’s funny how time flies, I was 14 in love with the girl who lived around the block. She kept me off the streets when I was so young and easily swayed I thank her for that, I remember when we first met in 7th grade and the years later, we never went out but we were the best of friends she knew my feelings for her and I knew her feelings for me but we never acted on it, we were on and off all through 8th grade and high school. It’s crazy we met each others entire family, spent Christmas and New Years together, I remember the first time we ever kissed it was a rush and a high, so comforting. We haven’t talked since the beginning of our senior year (we graduated in 2018). Maybe it’s just me but I long for her comfort, her presence kept me sane, whatever we had was something I couldn’t put into words, I miss her like crazy we’re both set to turn 20 before the New Year and every Holiday or birthday is a heavy reminder of what we had and how we spent that time together. I don’t usually vent like this but the music kinda just had me in tune and I went for it, but I pray everyone going through something makes it to the end of the tunnel. Much Love !
Hey brother reach out to her and try your best, conquer her. Cherish her and love her. Don’t ever lose her. I’ve lost my soulmate and it’s put me in a black void I might never make it out of.
Idk why but life has just been moving so fast recently. The weeks are flying by, I feel like a bystander just watching the world go by. Work days are hard, the weekends disappear in a glimpse of an eye, but these mixes help give us all those moments of self reflection, those late night's where its nothing but you and the music, where finally you can catch a breath. Thank you Bootleg Boy
I feel this. Life can go by in the blink of an eye, but at the same time it can drag like there's no tomorrow. The hourglass flips on an endless rotation, and yet I stay the same. Stuck in between grains of time, not fitting into the channel that leads towards connections but neither fully apart. My life is objectively going well at the moment, but I still feel the emptiness crawling in sometimes. It's subtle at first, but then takes over my whole self until I'm longing for nothing more than to be seen by someone caring. It's at those times that music helps the most because I know that I'm still looking to recapture the love from my past, but relying on someone else to bring me that sense of peace isn't sustainable. I feel whole when I'm sad with you guys, and I appreciate all the love that's in this community.
It'll only go by faster. If you spend all your time looking in the past you'll turn around one day and realize you're almost at the end with nothing to show for it.
Pain, love, after scrolling through these comments I’ve realized something. Almost all of us are empty in some way, whether it’s from a loss or not having an emotional connection with any friends. We’re all empty, but we don’t have to be. If you know yourself so well then go out there and fix it. For me my entire life I’ve been alone, single mom, two kids, older sibling I couldn’t play with. I really never couldn’t get close to anybody when I was growing up, and even when I did they rejected me eventually. And bullied me, I know the feeling of having the whole world against you, I couldn’t even walk outside the whole neighborhood without being threatened or yelled at by a bunch of hoodlem kids. I didn’t have a warm cozy house during the winter or a nice cool house during the summer. I didn’t have a mom who cared about me to show it. Everytime I would talk to her she would take out all her anger on me. It fucking hurts man. At school I pretended everything was okay, I always made people laugh just to cover up my pain. I always smiled in order to fake happiness. But one thing I realized is that people cannot win against themselves. You and your self are equal, it will forever stay that way. The more you try to fight yourself the more fighting theres gonna be because you aren’t getting any stronger. The only way we can win against the pain and hate in our lives is with other people. Don’t ever try to do anything alone, and never give up. Even now I’m still fighting these feels, trying to figure out my place in this world, still chasing those bonds with people I don’t have. I know I don’t have anything right now, I mean like I know people and they think I’m pretty cool. But I still feel lonely at the end of the day. I know i should be feeling sad right now, but for me I want to fight it. I go back out there every day and give it all my might to go out there and fight the world. Even right now I’m getting so fired up I can’t even fucking believe it. I won’t give up no matter what, and so should you.
Fuuck man, hits home deep, same family situation cept im the older bro. Father abused my mother, leave country, mother develops a habit. It made me feel weird and at such a young age I didn't know how to handle it. I played video games to take me out of it all. I never developed the skills, the morales and other essential attributes from having functional parents. I went to a big Secondary school and anxiety ate me to the core and I just let my social life die, depression the whole shebang. Worst years of my life hands down, the pain I felt day in day out cannot be put into words. I very likely could have done something atrocious to myself. But alas I am still here, making progress. I have been doing fitness for months now, looking strong and lean. I've come so far socially, still lacking connection with someone, but I can wait. There will be good times, and bad times. You gotta know that man, you gotta. Just yesterday I was so happy and I went to work and just died inside but while I was happy I told myself stay strong when it hits you, grind it out. We all deserve love and care but take it from me you gotta watch out for yourself. Don't ever let anybody talk shit to you, fuck them, I've been through enough shit in this life to let someone take me down, stay strong brother, do what you love cuz thats all we got.
Haneix thnx man and a update on my letter. Those kids that used to bully me and hate me now respect and are my friends. I don’t have to go through that anymore, I also found my true friends and got my own group now. Even though I’m still lonely at home, when I go out there I got them. Now I want a girl that I can truly love and have a group of people as close as family. To make up for the lack of family I have. I can’t even share my true self with them cause they’ll go back and tell others or blame me for stuff they caused. It’s like dealing with strangers. Plus now we’re being threatened of being put out or going broke, since I’m the only man in the house I’m gonna have to step up and do something about it.
Haneix but for you man. Please remember to never go through anything alone, when we are truly alone is when we feel the worst pain of this world. Stay in the present and keep mind of your goal, if it’s happiness surround people around you who share your thought, ideas, goals. Accept you for who you truly are and never change yourself. Let your mind go free and breathe, and dont get caught up in the internet either. And if you never give up and keep enduring you’ll make it. I never thought that the people who once made me want to die would be the reason why I want to live my life again. Alls I can say is even if you do fail when people see you trying over and over again, they start to change and want to help you.
@@youtubespeasant893 That's rough, I can fully sympathise with struggling to share deep feelings with family members for fear of them talking behind your back. Look after yourself and do what you enjoy and you'll find a girl someday. Having to step up to the plate is hard, it might seem so unjust and unfair but it will make you ever so much stronger as a person. Responsibility forces us to act and gets things done, it is far better than to be left to your own devices.
The worst feeling is to see how everything is falling apart and you can’t do shit to stop it and you think tomorrow will be a better day...but It won’t be..
keep believing, keep climbing step by step. something will open most unexpectedly. trust me, i’ve hit rock bottom myself and crawled out of the pit by believing and pushing forward.
When I was at the lowest of my life and my operation was about to begin I felt it again; Feelings that I still miss her and at that moment I thought to myself, ''I don't wanna die while feeling missing her again''. My operation ended and it was successful, I'm still alive no matter what, I got hope and determined to become a new version of myself, To change and let go of the past. I will be alright, My victory line is waiting, I will get there someday.
I listened to this on repeat all the way from Sweden to Spain. I arrived late night at the hospital, the day after my dad passed away. I can't express how much these songs means to me... I just love it so much.
You know you are broken when you can’t fall asleep because in your dreams you are going to see her again and wake up just to realize it was a dream and reality is just a nightmare you wake up to.
:( I really miss those late night conversations. We would talk about our future together and make plans that never came up. We were both there for each other,and now she’s gone. What hit hardest was that “I’ll always be there for you” text I got from her before the breakup.
Hey, let me tell you something which will ache right in your heart, the person you're wanting to come back? Will never come back. Because they are coward(s) to have left you in the first place anyway. Yeah, man. Life is hard, but don't make it harder by reading all the false promises which the other long gone person had made. They mean nothing anymore. Also, life's short, you'll be amazed when you least want to be, and mark my words, you'll not regret a single thing. Be patient. Don't give up. You all are beautiful than you think. 🖤
Listen closely at 6:00 - I didn't think it would end this way. -End? No, the journey doesn't end here. Death is just another path, one that we all must take. The grey rain-curtain of this world rolls back, and all turns to silver glass, and then you see it. -What? Gandalf? See what? - White shores, and beyond, a far green country under a swift sunrise. -Well, that isn't so bad. - No. No, it isn't. I was listening to this and I heard a familiar voice calming me down... I thought I was making it up myself in my head. Thank you for inserting this quote here. It hugged me, comforted me in the best way.
I miss her. My first love at 19 yo. I was her first real boyfriend, her first kiss, she was my third girlfriend and my first real love. We went through many things together. We went through hard distancing times, we went through the hate of her father towards me (even though there's no reason for him to hate me), we went through the times that she felt like the world was crushing her together and many more things that I could list but I'm too tired for remembering. When she broke up with me, she told me many things that made her take the decision. She said that being with someone who's depressed was very exhausting. She said that she couldn't see a future with me and that's why she wanted to end things there... Man... To say I was crushed is a understatement, I cried -because men can cry- and I did it for weeks, nonstop. As time went by I started crying less, but the pain I felt never faded away. During that time, I became closer to my father, he would pick up the phone just lo listen to me sobbing nonstop. I really needed him, but destiny planned things differently. He got sick, and in a matter of 2 weeks, his soul left this world, leaving me alone. I had to start becoming an actual man, an adult. If I ever felt like crying, I'd cry alone. I started exercising to deal with the pain that I felt, and it kind of worked. The other day, I felt like I was a different man, a stronger, more mature, wiser man. So I decided to call my ex girlfriend with hopes of coming back together, and maybe get a second chance now that I am a different person. I called her. The conversation went smoothly, as if nothing changed. I said to her all the things that I changed and not only for herself but for myself as well. I was so happy because I felt like no one could stop me... But, then she said "Sebastian... I don't know how to tell you this, but I have a boyfriend now...". After that we kept talking for a bit, and then we said our final goodbyes. I don't know why I didn't get a second chance. I'm sure I'm a good, a really good man, but things doesn't end like fairy tales. Some of us don't have a happy ending.
Dont worry there are many people who come in our life and goes...some day eventually you will find someone who will like you for who you are ....who will not care about what other people tells...who will always be in your side no matter what .....You just have for the right moment...... Thank you I would like to end my speech here🤣🤣🤣🤣
I know it sounds cliché, but you will meet a woman who will share your pain! You’ll love her even more than your first love, even if it doesn’t seem like it. Trust the process, keep bettering yourself to become the best possible man you can be and that one lucky girl will notice that! Much love, man!
It’s the best memory you had of that person when they where with you no matter what Is just on loop in your head and you get attached to anything so you can feel whole
It’s not that I miss you, it’s that i feel that I was not good enough for you. You couldn’t find happiness in me. But I found it in you. I tried to make you feel love but I can’t force love into you, I can’t make you feel like how I feel of you. I was blinded by the quote “ The one” or the word “ Fate “ but I noticed nothing of that is real. Not as real as the love I had for you.
Bro you look really nice ngl i miss my ex too but fuck them hoes man there are other girls on this planet that are better than her ik you just want her but fuck that homie we gotta move on
I think 2019 really taught me some life lessons. You can love someone deeply only to realize it's one sided. You can have the best of friends only to notice you're still alone. You can give people the world only to be told it's still not enough. 2019 was a blessing now that I deeply think about everything that's taken place this year. 2020 I'm going in with no friends, no love and my own world. 2020 will be the year I dedicate true love to myself, heal my soul and rebuild my world around me. I will not associate myself with people who use and abuse my love, I will not surround myself with "friends" who make me feel alone , and I will not give anyone the world because I will be giving it to myself. Anyone reading this should do the same, because we deserve the purest form of happiness, love, and belonging. xoxo God Bless, May 2020 be YOUR year and every year after. YOU matter. YOU.
You ever get that feeling when you’re drifting away from someone and you’re trying so hard not to let them go but the more you try the farther away they drift
Hey you, scrolling through the comments. Life can be hard sometimes, you feel lonely, you feel left out, just know that you're not alone, you're not alone in this. Just remember to keep going, move forward, and keep living. I love you all and I wish you all good luck
Willy Wijaya nah I’m different I don’t think I’m lonely I know I’m lonely you could tell a sad person all fucking day that there not alone but they only get sadder why because nobody want the fucking truth who gives a fuck about the truth right the truth is people are sick and dead and only thing I can do is sit here at my house and say that I’m saving lives but not mine
Looking back on all the memories made with the people closest to you, realizing things aren’t the same as they used to be and you feel more alone now than ever. You have everything you’ve ever wanted and it still isn’t enough. The pain, sadness, and anger of the world is a crushing blow to what you used to think was reality as you slowly begin to realize that the only way from here is up as your moving backwards. You’re to scared to speak your mind but then never find the time to find the courage to be yourself. Let all your worries, all your fears, let them float down the river as you lose yourself in what makes you happy.
Idk whether she thinks about me... i guess not but i want her so bad and im walking after her since 2 years and no progress at all... just like a robot..
We broke up after 2 and a half year. I still can't get it. She starts loving someone new... my best friend. 2019 was the worst year I ever lift. 2020 still fucked me up. Maybe there will no 2021 be for me :)
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Can you please re-order the "it's 3 am and I still miss you" playlist so it actually goes from 1 to 6? It's kinda bugging me :P
It’s strange how that when I’m sad, I listen to music that makes me even sadder, yet I find comfort in doing so...
Same
I think sad music can be a nice hug of understanding to feeling sad. A warm embrace of empathy.
Noah Rocha when I'm sad listening to sad music just makes me feel better some how
The thing is music help you to canalize your feelings, and by doing that, you receive some comfort
Only love!
From bestfriends to strangers, honestly one of the worst feelings in the world
hurts like hell.
jdeezy Right! I did everything I could to make her happy/smile
I made sure she wouldn’t face her problems alone.
We would talk everyday in school and after school
I would try my hardest to make her laugh at least once a day
Once she got a boyfriend she would barley reply or talk to me
When I needed her the most when I was facing some rough times she wasn’t there for me even though I was there for her. I would reach out to her countless of times but instead she would leave me on seen and walk past me like I didn’t even exist. Had to face all my troubles alone. I eventually got over her but I still think about her sometimes.
Fuck that was a tight SLAP
(I had so many friends and all like close ones, slowly as I chose study over anything I got distant, I've been losing friends everywhere
They still accept me if I approach but I feel kinda guilty so I don't)
now back to watching sad anime and engineering
TheGameFreak geez, are you me from a parallel universe?
Vinz Ardevaas this comment section mades me so crying .. love ya all
Missing her and knowing she doesn’t miss you back hurts so much
GetOff MyWood10 she probably misses you too even if it doesn’t seem like it she has to be it’s hard for everyone. Some people are better at hiding it than others.
@@hellokittyswitchblade36 i know whenever she texts me, but this time its been 2 months
My crush at least texts me once a day without me saying anything but then I see her be the happiest and I start to get sad and hurt when I think that she is with her friends I feel like a normal person but then she feels like the world to me. Im gonna tell her I like her at the end of this month
@@jdmnausc3675 if you made at the end of the month, i would say always, respect her values whatever be the situation.
CHANAKYA SINHA yes it is important to respect someones values
I'm here again, after a whole year but this time, I'm not sad. It's still 2 am and raining outside but I'm not crying, I'm happier then I have even been. My studies are going great. And I'm with this lovely person who doesn't make me cry and cries with me when I'm sad. I would have never imagined a day like this would come for me when I first listened to this a year ago. It's fine if things are not going fine,it's fine if you're sad or crying or going through hell. It will change, you'll be happy one day. You'll be alright, just don't lose hope.💞💞💞
Good for you man hope it stays the same
Fuck that's comment is making something deep in my heart
There's not a guarantee that it will be or that things will develop like they should hope dwindle often,miss my dog,feels like parts of my brain n inner core are getting damaged where there's no repair the parts I felt were more sacred parts of myself,its concerning...nvrmd
thanks for this ❤️
I just hope whatever is happening right now that you're happy, your message almost made me cry. Take care
I had a boyfriend back in high school. We were only 15. Reckless. Happy. In love. First love truly is as magical as it is. I remember him serenading me with his old dusty guitar at an old abandoned park. We would always meet there and would watch the sunset together. I remember him, so heavenly and soft. He would speak and it feels like liquid sunshine would run out from his lips. His gaze were affectionate and loving. But he was ripped away from me in a terrible accident. I hated God for what happened. It was unfair. He was young and full of life. But maybe it has a reason. Now I'm 23 and still in love. Guess that'll never change. I miss you, Lee.
I'm not crying.
im sry baby u will find some one and one day u will meet him again.
Hope you find someone who can fill in his shoes and loves you as much he did.
coco loco I am so sorry for your loss 😭
It fucking hurts!
That feeling of missing someone who was never yours to begin with, that’s true sadness.
Killer Red don’t let that breed depression, once it gets to that stage it’ll be a lot harder to find yourself
Pqffn- can’t help it when every single thing reminds you of him. Especially when both of you were in love with each other, so close to dating. Love like what we had was hard to find. Trust me, I’ve been in love a lot of times and it was never like this. Can’t help but feel like a huge part of you is missing everytime you look at things and get reminded of him.
Killer Red you were attached, i’ve been there more times then I would’ve liked to be but have faith in your ability to find someone else, theres no promises that it’ll replace his love or the affection you two had but its better then dwelling on it. Love isn’t something to be toyed with, and i’ve been hear broken far too many times and its gotten to a stage where seeing other people hurting, hurts me. Just keep an open mind and welcome opportunity in a new relationship :)
Killer Red have faith in your ability, nothing comes easy
That's exactly how I feel right now you know? And you can't actually feel better... You just want to hear those word coming from that person you love, even though is not going to happen...
When someone becomes your happiness..your smile..your comfort. They also become your pain..your sadness..your tears..
Why is all this so true 😭. Thought I was alone, maybe going crazy. Hope we all find happiness
@@chunleeofficial hope so too :(
can I use this comment for captions on my Instagram?
@@OmargalihM yeah sure
FUCKKKKKK I FELT THIS ONE 😭😭
I wish I could turn back time and start over again.
I definitely would not of wanted to have these last few yrs have all the things that occurred ever happen,
same bro
“The loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their whole world fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly.”
It was us against the world. Now it’s just me staring into space wondering where it all went wrong.
Falling deeper and deeper into blankness
Ikr
ye i got the same shit idk what i did wrong its so depressing
AlexFN sometimes it’s not what we’ve done. It’s what they have become and what we haven’t done to stop it
smokey tokes anxiety would control my life and how I acted. I wasn’t me and I started to scratch myself till I bled to make the pain go away. I fought so hard with my parents and I was sent to therapy. It was a long hard journey but I was finally stopping self harm. I was clean for about maybe 5 months and I did it again. My life has been going down hill the past few years. I didn’t have a will to live and I just wanted the pain to go away. After months of therapy and I was on medication I started to feel myself. I found motivation to stay clean in my friends. If I left this world behind I just left more pain to them. Now I don’t know how my story ends but it’s not over yet and I still have a long ways to go. Addiction is hard and the want to get high and numb the pain is strong. But your stronger than that. I don’t know how to give someone good advice I just tell them my story that is still going. There are ups and downs and people who might make us happy and people who might make us want to turn to our old habits. Every time I’m in pain I struggle to think clearly but I get through it because the want to do (bad habit) is there but it is not a need. Now I don’t want to tell you how to live your life or what to do it just here trying to relate to people to tell them they are not alone. Life will get better trust me. Stay strong I believe in you ❤️. Stay clean with me and everyone else.
2019 has been the worst year ever. I've lost so many people. I don’t even know what I‘m doing with my life I just feel so empty.
2020 Update: what the fuck
2021 Update: yo I’m so confused. Time flies so fast. Oh and I still don’t know what I‘m doing with my life but I‘m feeling kinda better✨🙄
2022 Update: I gotta say, life is still pretty complicated but I’m growing. I do have hope though. I will find my happiness and I‘m sure all of you will too.
2023 Update: Let's see how it will be this year. I definitely have more stamina than the years before. I have big goals, even if I have to fight hard to achieve them. I've learned to get by on my own, to stay away from people who aren't good for me. I realize that many people are trying to throw hurdles at me to block my way. It's gonna be tough, but we only live once. I will keep fighting, just like all of you!
I hope you're comforted by knowing nothing lasts forever. Not even 2019. Prepare yourself for a better year in 2020. You deserve it. Love and light.
Naruhina U stay strong man. Ik it sounds cliche but you have to!
you are not alone honey, i feel the same :/
Stay up bro, it gets better
Yeah man, 2 funerals for me. Gf also got T boned bad in her car but pulled through. Then my sister's husband cheated on her after her maternity leave ended where she almost died from child birth. Then my gf left me. Keep that chin up because things run its course. Life. Death. Relationships. I'm starting my new job and building from the ashes and it feels good man
Me: It’s time to let her go...
RUclips: Not Yet
Not yet...
Felt that
Austin Kata 😂😂
fvck
precisely
“the devil doesn’t always come with horns and a pitchfork sometimes she comes as everything you’ve ever wanted”
And know i’ll know for what to look! Taught me lessons i’d never know otherwise, much love to you K!
Just wow
Yep…
Now you're just a stranger with all my secrets
😭
That just set my crying ass off again
Wow... that hit me
Hits us all
Damn
Why is it that you only realise how broken you are when you're trying to sleep
Fr tho like man i wanna sleep more than 1 hour a night
Because that’s the only time where you have time to do that. I’m pretty sure a lot of people feel the same way like you and I
When you go to bed, lights out, phone off, just you with your thoughts. During the day you do something, you are busy, but at night, in bed, bad thoughts just keep coming
Marksman_Ollie your mind finally has time to remind you how broken you are.
@@phantom58285 Facts dude
I don't want to be alone but I like being alone at the same time
Same
Same. And its incredible, how we all want to be with someone, but at the same time want be alone
Wanna be alone but hate the feeling of loneliness? Me too...
Preach
My current mood
Please never delete this video, it has so much meaning to me, so many memories and so so many moments that are now long gone....
Also, thanks to the person who's responsible for this.
I remember when this song was on lofi and I used the iPad of my brother and he saved the lofi playlist and I just read all the depressing comment on RUclips
The person I miss is just the happy, smiling kid that I used to be...
Travahn Adonis this broke me
Your comment is something that I always think about and it breaks my heart
this comment breaks me
I know I’m late but if you’d like a person to talk to, I’m here :) . I can share my number with you just lmk
I feel that too
I've been reading the comments and I've seen lots of sad things. For the person who is reading this, I hope you have a lot of luck in your life and that everything goes well. And if things are going wrong, be calm, bad vibes will eventually leave, you always have to try to raise your head and continue with life. Sometimes love is bullshit, be strong.
Javibu thank u
the same goes for you.
@@norlyortiz2648
@@lovingleohours9681 Thanks dude!
Is love really bullshit, tell me the truth pls, and I can completely give up
“When we hit our lowest point we are open to the greatest change”
Remember this quote, maybe it’ll help you someday, like it did for me🙂
Rick I was deadass just watching the last airbender then I remembered that quote wtff
This is so true. I’ve experienced this myself
Legend
Sometimes life is like this dark tunnel. You can't always see the light at the end of the tunnel, but if you just keep moving... you will come to a better place.
Uncle Iroh
@@Rick-tx9rn omg the last airbender really is my fav series
People keep telling me that life goes on, but to me that’s the saddest part
Don’t even think about it...
Yeah.. just gotta take it day by day man...
You just want it to stop there
Its better to have loved and lost bud
i can feel you
i don't even miss nobody, i just am so afraid of myself. i'm afraid i won't be anything in life. i'm afraid that i won't live up to what i know i could be
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I love all of you. thank you.
Uh this is really weird, but i was literally just thinking about the same thing, i hope we all become what we want to be , best of lucks bro
This is mostly what I get emotional about. I always said I’d rather die than not being successful . But then when I have no direction in life I get frustrated cause idk what to do next. If something makes you uncomfortable it’s prob good for you. So just do it. Plan it out today and do it tomorrow. It’ll all work out bro 🙏🏼💯
Yikes. This shit hit me hard af, happening right before my eyes
Sadly it happens all the time. Everyone could be the greatest if they just found their calling...
I scrolled happily through the comments until I saw your comment and it hit exactly this one spot
do you ever wanna call someone out of the blue just to talk and catch up but you’re too afraid you’ll bother them? that’s how i feel rn. sucks missing someone who doesn’t miss you.
edit: thanks for the likes and replies guys. i saw him a few days ago but had no time to really talk. sent a text after but no reply. not sure what to do but i think it might be time to move on. wishing everyone the best!!
Agree..bottling emotions is really bad and I feel like im gonna burst
literally how i’m feeling rn .. i swear i’m just clingy. 💤
Same here 😢
Stranger from each other but not to this feeling.
I feel for you so much. This one guy doesn’t miss me at all when all I do is miss him...
“I'd rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not.”
-kurt cobain
@@zlamb8589 first one to recognize
@@_______7504 how could i not, kurt is so inspiring
But what if I dont even love the real me
it's so sad, l don't even know who l am
Isn't it funny how a glimpse of someone can bring back a thousand memories?
John Virgil Bocalere or a really faint smell of something. I hate it man this girl that I really liked we stopped talking 4 years ago but she still on my mind
😔
We’re just a bunch of people who aren’t okay, telling each other it will be okay. :(
Christian Warren that’s life I guess. You have to find your own happiness.
It will be okay. I love you.
I don't even know u who you are but I really appreciate that words... It will be okay
Christian Warren Find The Truth, find Islam
Guys one thing: Don’t try to find happiness through somebody else.
Love yourself first, work hard on your life and pursue what you love. That’s when you will be attractive to people because you are not needy of their opinion and approval anymore.
For that to work out you first need to work on you technique. If you want to build a car, you first need some instructions. Same goes for a good life.
I can’t give them to you, but here is how you can find them:
Read books. Full stop. This is the key to success.
It’s a hard path but that’s the only way.
We aren’t meant to just sit around all day and play video games or watch youtube videos. Genetically seen we should be outside working out or walking, or with people, not eating too much and eating healthy (like what can be found in nature easily, like vegetables, fruits, etc.).
Don’t eat too much fat or sugar either. They are like poison. You body was not meant to consume them on a regular basis. Look it up. It breaks you mood and spirit.
You could consider starting with Jordan Petersons „12 rules for life“ or „models“ by Mark Manson.
My life motto is this:
Life is pain. Either you endure it now and get up and do something about your life. Or you can relax now and endure the pain later on with feelings of guilt, shame, anger and loneliness.
When I was in primary school, I knew this boy who just really wanted to be friends with me. Thing is, he was ginger and he wore really thick glasses, so the whole school just kind of... Hated him. When I was younger, I just kind of followed everyone else, so I started to hate him for no reason. When we got to high school, he developed feelings for me. I turned him down since at that time, I didn't really know him that well. But I agreed to be friends with him, and that was the best decision I've ever made. He was really funny, he always knew how to make me smile, even in times when I felt really down... Soon enough, it was my turn to fall for him. He was always kind to everyone, but I felt like he was even kinder towards me. I mean, he probably wasn't, but I liked to think that he was. He was my best friend, and at the time, my only friend. But then... on the evening of November 22nd, 2017, he disappeared. Nobody knew where he went, not his parents, not his friends, I mean he hadn't even shown up at school that day. I wasn't able to sleep that night. On November 23rd, 2017, I was told that he had died. Suicide. I hate myself for not seeing that he wasn't ok. I hate myself for not realizing that he needed help. I hate myself for not being his friend earlier. I hate myself for turning him down. I hate myself for not telling him how I feel... Since then, time has been... weird. Hours either feel like days or seconds, I didn't see my graduation pass, I didn't see my prom happen, I didn't see my first day of college... I've felt empty since then. I still blame myself. I still miss him at 1am, at 2am, at 3am, at 4am, at 5am... And I know that I can't go back. I know that I'll never get him back. But it still hurts. And I'm just not sure for how long I can take all this pain...
Gabrielle Caron holy shit............
Gabrielle Caron hey I know it’s hard but you gotta keep on moving forward and just know that he’s up there watching over you and he still wants you to be happy. Remember there’s no such thing as a goodbye only a see you later. Right now you gotta make the most outta your life, you gotta give your life meaning. And when your successful, honor it all in his name. You got this and you’re not in this alone.
You should know that it’s not your fault❤️
Pain is not always worn on people’s sleeves.
You were a great friend and that’s all that matters! You will meet him in another lifetime where you will both rejoice of the grand friendship you shared! Stay strong! ❤️
Don’t ever blame yourself. You did the best you could to be in his life & I bet he was happier that you were a part of his. Best thing is to move on & let his energy feed on to you & spread the same positivity this man has given you & the world. He’s angel now & his spirit will remain with you as long as you live. Live on, love life, & most importantly love yourself 💙 because at the end of the day you’re an amazing human being!!
Gabrielle Caron you aren’t responsible for any of this. That boy saw you as one of his dearest friends, and even if you think that he hates you, you’re completely wrong. He loves you and he thinks of you as an angel. You were that boy’s everything, and that’s something that he’s grateful for. Even though he passed away, I can tell you that he doesn’t want you to feel the way that he did. He wants the best for you, Gabrielle. I know I’m some random stranger on RUclips and this’ll probably be the only time we cross paths ever again. But let me just tell you this and I hope it’ll stick with you. It’s not your fault, he wants the best for you, and he loves you. Take care.
P.S. how funny is it that my real name is Gabriel lol
Can we all take a moment to appreciate the golden people in the comment section. A round of applause fam
Everyone is saying the miss someone.. I just miss myself... I mean who am I? I have no one special in my life.. I have lots of “friends” but not a single one I can talk to about my feelings :( literally dead inside
tua- vykngz one day you and I will meet and I promise i’ll listen to every detail of your problems, you are not alone and shouldn’t feel alone because loneliness takes lives.
you wanna talk?
wow you just put my feelings into words. damn.
You can really only connect with others as far as you met yourself. Start connecting to you. You’re not dead inside.
So this is what I’m feeling..
I guess we sometimes like to be alone but we hate feeling alone.
Thats me i hate it too múch i have feelings like my friends its fake ;(
you got it
I grew up with a schizophrenic paranoia father on hard drugs and a mother that loves me but worked from 7am to 9pm. So, I would go to school and then come home and be alone for hours on end and even when my mother got home we wouldn't talk much and then bed time. I'm now 25 and still have problems wanting to be left alone most of the time. I find myself just sitting in a dark room alone yet finding comfort in it.
Matthew Sowers oh thats sad Man
Matthew Sowers i dont have that or smthing like that so i really dont know how to help you i am sorry but what i can say is Goodluck
She broke up w me like 4 months ago
I’ve moved on, on a different career path than most, happier now
But sometimes, some nights, I still think about her
I hate it.
shii im crying in the club rn
sad bro 😔 it hurts
This made me cry. Me and my ex broke up and i still think everyday that we might get back together, he might come back to me. But what if we never see each other ever again? This thought is so bitter I can't help but cry
@CryinSquirrel same for me, we broke up 2 weeks ago. Try to think it : The Best thing about this, is that we can think about her/him and be happy only by seeing his smile. Be happy about what u do with her/him, be habby about time u spend with, no the time u spend without. I love you, take care of u and don't fall in depression and melancholy like I try not to
@@Ouhouhouhouh thanks . Yeah all that's left now are good memories , but they make me feel melancholic and it makes me feel so upset that none of that continued. Memories hurt me so much, it's not worth it to keep a good thought about certain people...
It's sad that the person who gave you the best memories became a memory.
@Devin Merrick and i here got ghosted to oblivion. He probably have a better life now ig…
They left for a reason I didn't know how much I hurt them until it was too late
Bro...
Yeah 💔💔
Wow repos
This is really strange, I had this on my “watch later” and I was studying math and decided to give it a shot. I just started writing my feelings and my god. I came for the vibe and left with tears reading certain comments and a feeling of emptiness. If anyone is reading this, I hope you have an incredible year and life, be proud of yourself and enjoy every moment (good or bad)! You are loved. We are all lucky to be alive. ✨🙌🏻
Thank you for this heart warming comment. Appreciate it a lot
I hope you have a wonderful year as well you whole hearted human being!
Thank you
DAMN I AM DOING MATHS TOO HERE IN FRANCE AND I WAS SUGESTED THIS TO LISTEN 😂😂
Ujka Xhuliano omg what the hell hahaha we are almost ( a big almost) neighbors! I’m from Portugal.
The worst feeling is when the person who gave you the best of times and memories become your worst memory
True...
trust me, the time when your worst memory turns into a beautiful one will come, I promise you. You will not regret anything you did with that person, you'd be grateful because it taught you many lessons
stay strong bro.. we are gonna go through this.. dun worry
Hurt
@@p3gasussaint775 amen brother, the sunny days will come
Sometimes I wish I were a little kid again, skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts.
I felt that :(
Damn 😔
Ok Boomer
Facts our biggest problem was a bruised knee or not getting the swing 😔 I wanna go back
Damn that’s So true crying for just a few seconds is better than crying yourself to sleep
you've been frequently visiting me in my dreams...it makes me sad when I wake up and I realize it wasn't real. I'll never watch your mouth turn upwards into that crooked smile again, hear the kindness in your voice when you say my name, hear your jaw pop every time you chew, or grasp my pinky tightly with yours. it's cold snap season, our favorite beer that so many memories can be attributes to. it's been nine months since I heard from you. this was not a clean break so I'm picking up the pieces that were mine to begin with, trying to find out who I am without you. it's 2:50 a.m. and I still miss you. -bell
Beautifully written
We are just depressed people telling each other that it’s all gonna be ok
(Edit - Thanks to you guys and your words, I’m feeling a lot better and have made things in my life better and have realized that there’s always hope 🙂 thank you)
Very true...one dayyy 😑
that's the fuckin truth...holy moly,we're trully fucked...
Yes we are.
I agree. Truly agree
but it will be okay
You know, I fell in love with a girl, and I loved her for about 8 months. I didn't tell her about that. So, once we went for a walk and she asked me to text her crush from her phone, 'cause she was like scared to text him and she deleted all messages she wrote. I texted him from her phone about her feelings to her crush, and he said that it would be better if they continue their friendship. You know, I was a bit happy about that. I almost forgot about that situation, and in general we haven't been even chatting after that for half a year or even more. But I was in love with other girls, so I didn't actually care about her life. We started chatting again when coronavirus pandemic came to my country, and at that time I started dating another girl, and I stucked in abusive relationships. I managed to get out of it, but after I felt empty. So my ex crush helped me to restore my self-confidence, we met many times, chatted a lot, and i fell in love with her again. I thought that we could actually date, and i will do everything for her to make her become my girlfriend. Do you know what turned out later? That she's dating her crush, like that guy I texted to. I have started their relationship and ruined mine. Perfect. I still love her, and she still loves this guy.
I'm sorry for mistakes in English, I'm just learning it.
And thank you so much if you've read my story 💖
F in the chat boy, live is harsh, but we got to keep a smile on our faces.
Love!
keep ur head up man and leave her get her out of ur head I know iths hard bat that is what u have to do chase ur dreams and work on urself bro u got it!!
trust me i had some relative shit like that its besser to drop her trust me i dropped her also and now after 1 1/2 months i realise what idiot i was for loving her so long and she never be thankful for that
sorry for my bad english, i'm german
I know dude its hard to think that only you think that way. I wish i could tell her how much i care for her but i know she doesnt think the same
If you truly love her, don’t let her go man. It’s a mistake i have made, so you better not. Even, even if she doesn’t love you back don’t hold your head down. Leave her knowing that you gave it your all and that you will find the one for you. Good luck dude
Saturday night, 2am in the morning, the coffee has gone cold and the sandwich looks damp and unappetising. The house lights are switched off, the table lamp flickers, the computer screen is dimmed, lines and lines of text sprawled onto it. A yawn, a sigh, a distracted, anxious mind whirling on and on. The neon lights outside the window have a gravitational pull. Fumbling hands and fingers, an awkward walk. The keys allow a metallic click and the door rattles open and shut. Slouched shoulders, stiff jaw. The air is cold tonight. The windbreaker is pulled tighter and closer. The pace hastens. A hundred metre long walk, two buildings away. An abandoned alley. Narrow, tackily-painted open staircase. Thirty minutes of lofi till the top, thirty minutes of thinking, of missing, of numb and emptiness. The rooftop is spacious, ground wet from the rain, smelling like moss, childhood and forgotten memories. Lighter in hand, cigarette in another. A spark of light. Smoke. Stiff legs cross over the ledge. The city offers a striking view, but it’s hazy and underwhelming behind the dull smoke that numbs the pain and the senses. “Missing you” The letters jump from a building to another. A sigh. Footsteps. A tossed out cigarette. The rooftop is empty when the city turns bright and bustling.
-Been having half a year’s worth of writers’ block, this is nice for a change, if anyone comes across this thanks for reading
very visual. hope your on track now bro 🤝
It's a super nice read, i love your writing.
Damn its been 10 months huh? a lot has happened since then.
i went through a bad depressive episode and was diagnosed with depression and ocd, i was put on meds, went for and am still going for psychotherapy, i also got through the toughest academic year so far and this year i will be taking very different subjects, in fact im going for a linguistics selection test in two days time. Things are getting better, sort of. I haven't written anything since I posted this, but I promise myself that I will write something, anything, soon, and I will post it here for me to see and to remember.
Also i guess the theme of missing someone finally make sense for me, i started crushing on someone and is still crushing on them. Would totally take them out, 2am at night, two coffees in hand to the rooftop for stargazing or something.
@@loungecat looking forward to it (: I myself am in a depressive phase as well. I hope there's more in the future.
Me : feeling perfectly fine
RUclips : don’t you miss her?
Me: ....smh
Hit me hard too man
True af
Man imma kill myself
@@Chombascuss Same
Lmao tell me why this hit me, literally was doing fine and then I seen this video..
Too many people here are broken, this world sucks, but I hope things go better for you. 🖤
Hate the sadness.. if I had a button I'd end the sadness for all
If i had a button I'd end my life
It's funny how we're all from different places but we're here for the same reason
Thank you.
You too stranger. I hope your life brings lots of great things 🙏
the comment section makes me feel at home. I believe i’ve found my people.
Edit: Not long after I made this comment I got back with the ex who i thought was the love of my life. I was wrong. Things were terrible. I still struggle with moving on. we broke up christmas day 2022. He left me again, and has no feelings left for me. I’ve come to think of it as a good thing. If someone could pack up one day and stop caring about you, then they were never worth it. Do not spend your time lingering on someone who wouldn’t put in that same time in for you. you are worth, and you are deserving, of so much more than that.
I know 3 months ago I was here listening to this or reading the comments but then my love of my life gave me a 3rd chance she’s broken up with me before twice and we were together for 3 months then she broke up with me today now I’m back here thinking about her
Dawson Morrison i was here 6 months before a left the comment above thinking about how i lost mine too, eventually i accepted it and now i’m just waiting for someone better. it’ll come to us no doubt :)
JebaydenSmith me too honestly.
Right this is the place I belong to
Although my state may be even worst than yours , still I hope u find happiness
pov: you’re constantly checking whether they texted you back, but they didn’t, and it hurts like hell.
So for a little of a backstory
(you can read this if you’re bored):
I became friends with this boy and I started to really crush on him because he treated me really good and I never really got to experience that from a boy. So I confessed my feelings for him, but he didn’t like me back. That ruined our friendship for a while and my feelings started to fade a lot. I started to accept the fact that we would never be more than friends and so I started to treat him like a "bro" of mine too. I guess that he felt more comfortable around me around that time, because we started talking more.
So it all started when I invited him to a party. We were drinking and we kept on telling each other how much we loved each other. Of course that wouldn’t have been enough for my feelings to get back, I was hurt too much. But after this party a lot went down in my private life and he seemed to be the only one that cared.
So we started talking a lot on Snapchat. It sort of became our thing that we would share how our days were going everyday and whenever we would see each other we would cuddle and tell each other sweet things. It was at this point that my feelings were starting to get back again.
But after a while it just stopped. He started leaving me on delivered for a long time and he would kind of ignore me in real life. Whenever we would talk he would sound annoyed by me and he never told me why.
I was hoping that he was just busy or stressed and that eventually he would come back, but we stopped talking.
Now he’s in love with another girl.
Big L.
true
true
truetrue
Yea.
Damn 😔
i ruined an incredible person with my insecurities and never feeling like i was enough for her. i regret leaving her so many times i regret not cherishing her. i regret wasting her time and love. she was everything to me and i threw it all away because of insecurities. i had the perfect person in life that made me feel complete but i didn’t have my life together. i didn’t have enough for the both of us. i hate myself for being so sickly and diseased. i could never love myself the way she loved me. i miss her always. she’ll forever be the ray of sunshine in my dark twisted idea of a life. i love you.
oGHOSTbear Same brother same :(
I was looking for a comment that could relate to my situation and you’ve done it. I had everything.
Sameeeee :/
oGHOSTbear just fucked it up cause i did the same thing, you aren’t alone in this :/
i almost dropped a tear reading this cuz its so relatable
"gotta go bud"
"sure tomorrow i'll be here"
*last time online 6 years ago*
damn u man 😭
😭
true pain
where are you dan * sobs *
The same beat but instead I moved before social media and it makes it hurt to think I won't ever see my friends again.
“We didn’t know we were making memories, we just knew we were having fun!” - Winnie the Pooh
what about the memories that weren't fun?
@@foolishwolf3700 That's basically life, isn't it? There's no good without the bad and vice-versa.
Honestly at this point i feel like I’m just staying and tolerating it so we can look back at good memories instead of bad ones.
Your name is literally Formal egg dude.
Damn what a quote, I'm gonna wrote that in my philosophy essay
am i only one who feels empty right now.not because i am heartbroken. because i have no one by my side and i really need someone who will love me as i am🥺
Not the only one huh
same here i'm absolutely alone probably why i'm listening to this right now... fak this shit atleast im not the only one suffering ... hope u all get better
❤😔
You are not alone.. i feel totally empty and vulnerable right now. We all need someone to love us because we have a whole lot if love to give back. Your love will walk into your life and never look back and all pain will be gone instantly. I wish the best for you and i hope that person is closer than you think. Much love...
Same vibe here
If you’re taking her for granted, trust me you will KNOW how much you love her only when she’s gone.
So true!!
true :/
true asf
I don't miss her as a person because she hurt me, I miss what she was for me. Someone I could trust and talk to...
i know what you’re feeling brother.. i got the same situation. I swear you’ll eventually find someone that’ll give you all of the love and affection you need.
Love you, take care.
@@underscoreatickx9107 thanks man, I am sure you will too...
I feel the same thing right now
Im gonna take ur words because u expressed what I couldn’t
@@ikramdeham6635 Believe me, I couldn't think about anything for the last few months
It’s when you see them move on,
that’s when you truly feel it.
Matthew Fisher I felt this on a new level
ouch.
that's all i can say.
she's gone with someone else.
ouch.
Right..
Move on..! I hate this word .....
ever saw someone you loved just hold hands with her new love, shit hurts man
I miss having feelings.. I just feel empty. Like something is missing, but I don't know what.
Lana Del Bae good luck
Me too. Like, I have one feeling and it is just kind of a big open loneliness. Like, I could stare off into nothingness forever
@@john-carlosynostroza same
@@john-carlosynostroza i honedtly wish I could fall in love with someone but I seriously don't feel anything for anyone
Same. Something just feels empty... I don't know what but the emptiness kills all the way in
she was the first girl i truly loved, she was the first girl i ever kissed, the first girl i ever hugged, the first girl to make me truly happy...
@Bruxy thanks bro, i’m doing fine. make sure you do everything for in your power to keep her because that girl rare, many people don’t stay in relationships with their first “everything”
I love you guys. every single one of you that ended up here
Martina XO we love u too XO fam❤️
heartbreak club ❤️.
Ly too even i miss clicked a video
❤️
I can feel the pain behind those words brother ❤️ u r not alone
I listen to this when I'm sad and got no one to talk to, just cry my heart out. It hurts but it got the comfort that I like.
Hey I’m here if you wanna talk to me
@@billy2485 😂
@@rezahadad6971 ?
im so Lonely
Oh you too?
then sit and listen to the music with me
you see?
now we got eachother
youre not lonely anymore
💙
❤️
🖤
@@ghostt2250 🖤
she left me for no reason ... its been 3 years and i still see her in my dreams ... if its not love then why i still see her in my dreams .. i cant
Shrug
Hopefully you found someone else and your doing better
@@billy2485 I'm nvr doing better,my life is how is been n I'm miserable,dying inside doesn't make me appreciate life or seeing the world from here,doesn't help,miss my dog,if I had an abrupt n quick death I wouldn't be living like this,shrug mmhmm,nothing/nobody in my so called life/world makes me happy it isnt even tolerable,just is I suppose n I dont even want it to be like this..yet it hasnt changed for the better n I've obviously not moved from herenmydogisntwme
@@hippiegoddess8372 I’m sorry I wish I could do something but if you wanna talk elsewhere just let me know
"It's funny how these 8 letters from your mouth can change my entire life. But these same letters from my mouth won't make a difference to you."
~Yours truly
wow this one actually hit my feelings so hard right now
Kinchok Wangdi AMEN i
"and yet the hardest thing is to have to grieve the loss of someone who is still alive"
I lost myself but i am still alive
Who ever is reading this
Now stop crying better days are yet to come ur masterpiece
its been 9 months, since the breakup
12 months since I felt you drifting away
15 months since you told me it was going to be okay and there was nothing to worry about
18 months since my grandfather passed on and you said I love you
21 since i asked you out.
2 years since I was happy
Now I lay at night, not most
thinking, crying of those memories we had
But I smile most, because I’m now more me than ever before.
You smile but yet you are devoid of happiness? Think about that.
You just made me cry 😭
that’s full of hope
KerPloonk grow a pair and man up
We have similar break up history. 😭 But, I'm more okay now.
Looking at all of these comments is inspiring. Why are the most broken people the most beautiful writers
Broken people appreciates hapiness more than others. They also know how to treat broken people , cuz they know how it be..
Once you’ve been broke and at ur lowest you can finally appreciate the little things once you’ve been broken you slow down to 10 where the rest of the world speeds up to 100 to find something they will be going to fast to even see
Cause reality hit them
Because only writing is whats left....
experiences are on a range
the more you've had good and bad feelings in part of life, the more you see life
those who explored what it is to be alive have the most battle scars and know what drives the human being more than others
_“Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you troubles.”_
👀
dergeihe ._. Deep, but sadly extremelly true
So true yo
Wow, my eyes have been opened to the truth
Dam that is deep
I just miss when we smiled together and held hands and it was just us.
😌😔
do y'all ever just sit down and think for a moment, damn what have I been doing with my life
Camar Thompson all the time dude I’m 18 and I’ve been moved out of the house for 6 months now and I’m still in high school as a senior
I’m 23 bro and in the same fuckin spot I was in 2014 just trynna figure it out man 😔
John Johnson I’m glad someone feels me it’s tough out here man I’ve missed my senior year as a basketball player because I gotta pay this damn bills
I've been changing a lot and I thought it was for the better.. Now at times I just think to myself, "Who even are you right now? You pretended to be someone you're not and now it's too late to turn back to what you were. You're just messed up now"
@@dawsonmorrison6093 Bro you should be proud of that shit. Most people don't get out on their own till they are like 23. Keep grinding. Get that diploma and figure out your next move.
“Anyone can give up; it is the easiest thing in the world to do.
But to hold it together when everyone would expect you to fall apart, now that is true strength.”
:(((((
Etika :(
🔥🔥🔥
such a good phrase. I'll hang it on my wall. Thanks
👏🏽
For those who came here for the vibes, it's better you don't read the comments. Damn, y'all getting me depressed..
Yeah.. i get this..
@@alexbrt333 Stfu don't get me depressed 😭
Alex Brt hahahhhah shit bro
RUclips is like a venting place, I love it 🥺
😭
"My eyes refuse to watch you leave, so tears will blur the memory..."
I feel that too bro,
I love this quote and I can really relate to this. This made me cry reading that quote
Love is too cruel, man. I miss the feeling, the euphoria of awaking to messages from her on my phone. Now its 2:30am and I can hardly breathe through the tears.
It will pass man
you're not alone, and it will get better
Bro, get some damn sleep, pussy ain’t even all that.
She used to message me at 3-4 am that ,,bae, ily more than u do"
its been 1 year and 2 months she left me all alone, never thought how would i survive this but finally here i am, it will pass brother, be strong!
honestly, I've been listening to this playlist for three years now. I always go to RUclips to find a new playlist and always come back here. it's like my personal place of calm. thank you very much!
Think about all the people scrolling through the comment section, not commentating but are just reading our comments. I wonder what they are thinking about.
I am one of these guys actually, I'm not reading it.. I'm feeling it
Reflecting...
It’s me right now lol thinking damn it’s some sad things going on
Wondering where I went wrong homie
Pain
Idk who needs to hear this but:
You are loved, you are not alone
CR0SSEYED JESUS thank you.
❤️
Ily
you're a legend
Its not True 😶
it's 2:06 a.m., April 23, 2022. I'm listening to this again, almost three months since i lived the worst day of my life. how can this hurt so bad to listen to, but be so healing at the same time ? it must be this comments section. it tells me that everyone hurts, not only me.
for anyone worried about finding the right one, or even someone, just know that they will eventually come along. I'm listening to this just because it has some sweet lo-fi beats, but I've really found the perfect one. she's amazing and truly cares about me and it's an overwhelming feeling of just pure happiness. it takes time and it always comes when you least expect it. stay positive, you'll find what you're looking for I promise. you got this I believe in you. maybe no one has said that to you before, but just know if you are reading this, I truly believe in you and I love you
I haven't found the one, but being sad about it is not gonna help me... I'm also here for the awesome lo-fi
Enjoy while it lasts lol. Sounds pessimistic but that's what happens eventually. Hope you have a great time and don't crash too hard
Q Ff you can’t have such a constant pessimistic view on life, yes sometimes it feels like there’s an end to everything but maybe this guys really found the one, you never know until the end, whether that’s with her by your side or you all alone
pog
tbh i don't believe in loving a stranger anymore, loving someone, everyone just breaks up, divorce, whats the point? I believe in romance in drama, but i don't believe in those things in this reality. Cuz in reality u spend most of the time being alone. In a movie things are just made to be like that but life is not. I made a promise that i will not fall for someone real cuz i first of all idw to waste my time and second, im used being just someone that exists randomly
Me: delivered message 2 hrs ago
Her: Active 2 mins ago
Rolando Lopez this the funniest comment 😂😂
@@Abundantparadigm it's sad though like maybe have some sympathy, hope your ok Rolando!
Me: We can play tomorrow?
Her: Of couse! Bye!
Me: Bye!
Her: Last time online - *_4 Years_*
Will Fallon I still find it weird that we are still texting to this day. Like hell I even told her we could always text other day but she is like yes !!! I’ll text you tomorrow , or I’m sorry I’m really busy then she talk about her day... idk I’m surprise she hasn’t left me on open. Any thoughts?
@@sunnyyy1437 BRO thats so SAD mate
It’s funny how time flies, I was 14 in love with the girl who lived around the block. She kept me off the streets when I was so young and easily swayed I thank her for that, I remember when we first met in 7th grade and the years later, we never went out but we were the best of friends she knew my feelings for her and I knew her feelings for me but we never acted on it, we were on and off all through 8th grade and high school. It’s crazy we met each others entire family, spent Christmas and New Years together, I remember the first time we ever kissed it was a rush and a high, so comforting. We haven’t talked since the beginning of our senior year (we graduated in 2018). Maybe it’s just me but I long for her comfort, her presence kept me sane, whatever we had was something I couldn’t put into words, I miss her like crazy we’re both set to turn 20 before the New Year and every Holiday or birthday is a heavy reminder of what we had and how we spent that time together. I don’t usually vent like this but the music kinda just had me in tune and I went for it, but I pray everyone going through something makes it to the end of the tunnel.
Much Love !
Anthony C’s Text her bro! Trust me
maybe you two were meant to be, text her!
Lmk what happens!
Hey brother reach out to her and try your best, conquer her. Cherish her and love her. Don’t ever lose her. I’ve lost my soulmate and it’s put me in a black void I might never make it out of.
I cried bc you told my story, except we WERE together like 1 1/2 year and than we broke up and now she’s with my best friend.
I’ve been listening to this for so long, I always put it on and sit by an open window in the early morning hours. It makes me feel at peace ✌️
Idk why but life has just been moving so fast recently. The weeks are flying by, I feel like a bystander just watching the world go by. Work days are hard, the weekends disappear in a glimpse of an eye, but these mixes help give us all those moments of self reflection, those late night's where its nothing but you and the music, where finally you can catch a breath. Thank you Bootleg Boy
I feel this.
Life can go by in the blink of an eye, but at the same time it can drag like there's no tomorrow. The hourglass flips on an endless rotation, and yet I stay the same. Stuck in between grains of time, not fitting into the channel that leads towards connections but neither fully apart.
My life is objectively going well at the moment, but I still feel the emptiness crawling in sometimes. It's subtle at first, but then takes over my whole self until I'm longing for nothing more than to be seen by someone caring. It's at those times that music helps the most because I know that I'm still looking to recapture the love from my past, but relying on someone else to bring me that sense of peace isn't sustainable. I feel whole when I'm sad with you guys, and I appreciate all the love that's in this community.
I feel this..
damn man...
Not just time is relative, its also success which is relative
It'll only go by faster. If you spend all your time looking in the past you'll turn around one day and realize you're almost at the end with nothing to show for it.
Pain, love, after scrolling through these comments I’ve realized something. Almost all of us are empty in some way, whether it’s from a loss or not having an emotional connection with any friends. We’re all empty, but we don’t have to be. If you know yourself so well then go out there and fix it. For me my entire life I’ve been alone, single mom, two kids, older sibling I couldn’t play with. I really never couldn’t get close to anybody when I was growing up, and even when I did they rejected me eventually. And bullied me, I know the feeling of having the whole world against you, I couldn’t even walk outside the whole neighborhood without being threatened or yelled at by a bunch of hoodlem kids. I didn’t have a warm cozy house during the winter or a nice cool house during the summer. I didn’t have a mom who cared about me to show it. Everytime I would talk to her she would take out all her anger on me. It fucking hurts man. At school I pretended everything was okay, I always made people laugh just to cover up my pain. I always smiled in order to fake happiness. But one thing I realized is that people cannot win against themselves. You and your self are equal, it will forever stay that way. The more you try to fight yourself the more fighting theres gonna be because you aren’t getting any stronger. The only way we can win against the pain and hate in our lives is with other people. Don’t ever try to do anything alone, and never give up. Even now I’m still fighting these feels, trying to figure out my place in this world, still chasing those bonds with people I don’t have. I know I don’t have anything right now, I mean like I know people and they think I’m pretty cool. But I still feel lonely at the end of the day. I know i should be feeling sad right now, but for me I want to fight it. I go back out there every day and give it all my might to go out there and fight the world. Even right now I’m getting so fired up I can’t even fucking believe it. I won’t give up no matter what, and so should you.
Dude, thx for your letter, i mean big thx for you :)
Fuuck man, hits home deep, same family situation cept im the older bro. Father abused my mother, leave country, mother develops a habit. It made me feel weird and at such a young age I didn't know how to handle it. I played video games to take me out of it all. I never developed the skills, the morales and other essential attributes from having functional parents. I went to a big Secondary school and anxiety ate me to the core and I just let my social life die, depression the whole shebang. Worst years of my life hands down, the pain I felt day in day out cannot be put into words. I very likely could have done something atrocious to myself. But alas I am still here, making progress. I have been doing fitness for months now, looking strong and lean. I've come so far socially, still lacking connection with someone, but I can wait. There will be good times, and bad times. You gotta know that man, you gotta. Just yesterday I was so happy and I went to work and just died inside but while I was happy I told myself stay strong when it hits you, grind it out. We all deserve love and care but take it from me you gotta watch out for yourself. Don't ever let anybody talk shit to you, fuck them, I've been through enough shit in this life to let someone take me down, stay strong brother, do what you love cuz thats all we got.
Haneix thnx man and a update on my letter. Those kids that used to bully me and hate me now respect and are my friends. I don’t have to go through that anymore, I also found my true friends and got my own group now. Even though I’m still lonely at home, when I go out there I got them. Now I want a girl that I can truly love and have a group of people as close as family. To make up for the lack of family I have. I can’t even share my true self with them cause they’ll go back and tell others or blame me for stuff they caused. It’s like dealing with strangers. Plus now we’re being threatened of being put out or going broke, since I’m the only man in the house I’m gonna have to step up and do something about it.
Haneix but for you man. Please remember to never go through anything alone, when we are truly alone is when we feel the worst pain of this world. Stay in the present and keep mind of your goal, if it’s happiness surround people around you who share your thought, ideas, goals. Accept you for who you truly are and never change yourself. Let your mind go free and breathe, and dont get caught up in the internet either. And if you never give up and keep enduring you’ll make it. I never thought that the people who once made me want to die would be the reason why I want to live my life again. Alls I can say is even if you do fail when people see you trying over and over again, they start to change and want to help you.
@@youtubespeasant893 That's rough, I can fully sympathise with struggling to share deep feelings with family members for fear of them talking behind your back. Look after yourself and do what you enjoy and you'll find a girl someday. Having to step up to the plate is hard, it might seem so unjust and unfair but it will make you ever so much stronger as a person. Responsibility forces us to act and gets things done, it is far better than to be left to your own devices.
The worst feeling is to see how everything is falling apart and you can’t do shit to stop it and you think tomorrow will be a better day...but It won’t be..
keep believing, keep climbing step by step. something will open most unexpectedly. trust me, i’ve hit rock bottom myself and crawled out of the pit by believing and pushing forward.
The way this is my surtent life
It will
Today is the day it ended for me.
It will
When I was at the lowest of my life and my operation was about to begin I felt it again; Feelings that I still miss her and at that moment I thought to myself, ''I don't wanna die while feeling missing her again''. My operation ended and it was successful, I'm still alive no matter what, I got hope and determined to become a new version of myself, To change and let go of the past. I will be alright, My victory line is waiting, I will get there someday.
Never been in relationship
Never had a break up
And yet here I am
Why? Because heartbreaks can come in different ways
I know what it feels bro
no
@@westsidejb9660 ?
Same, often I just feel lonely and sad without any particular reason
@@qamararfin7534 NO?????????
I listened to this on repeat all the way from Sweden to Spain.
I arrived late night at the hospital, the day after my dad passed away.
I can't express how much these songs means to me...
I just love it so much.
Hopefully you and your family are doing well, keep your head up
Hope your dad rest in peace brother, and wish all the best for you
@@billy2485Thanks
@@jason7401Thanks
“You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.” -Dr. Seuss
You know you are broken when you can’t fall asleep because in your dreams you are going to see her again and wake up just to realize it was a dream and reality is just a nightmare you wake up to.
Brian B yessir😕
sefa sert literal facts
But to other people... Dream is better than reality.. 🙃
She staying up with someone else... fuck.
i'm re-reading our conversations
the ones we had at three am
i smile
and cringe
but i miss you
please come back
it's been a while.
☹️☹️☹️
:( I really miss those late night conversations. We would talk about our future together and make plans that never came up. We were both there for each other,and now she’s gone. What hit hardest was that “I’ll always be there for you” text I got from her before the breakup.
Hey, let me tell you something which will ache right in your heart, the person you're wanting to come back? Will never come back. Because they are coward(s) to have left you in the first place anyway. Yeah, man. Life is hard, but don't make it harder by reading all the false promises which the other long gone person had made. They mean nothing anymore.
Also, life's short, you'll be amazed when you least want to be, and mark my words, you'll not regret a single thing. Be patient. Don't give up.
You all are beautiful than you think. 🖤
moonbyun문변 me rn bruh lol
Listen closely at 6:00
- I didn't think it would end this way.
-End? No, the journey doesn't end here. Death is just another path, one that we all must take. The grey rain-curtain of this world rolls back, and all turns to silver glass, and then you see it.
-What? Gandalf? See what?
- White shores, and beyond, a far green country under a swift sunrise.
-Well, that isn't so bad.
- No. No, it isn't.
I was listening to this and I heard a familiar voice calming me down... I thought I was making it up myself in my head. Thank you for inserting this quote here. It hugged me, comforted me in the best way.
true
Wish it wasn't so quiet in the audio.
Thanks
I deeply needed this, I truly hope there is an after life.. death will come but damn.. I hope it's not straight pitch black for eternity.
Yes there is, an after life that depends on your deeds in this world. So be sure to do your best.
I miss her. My first love at 19 yo.
I was her first real boyfriend, her first kiss, she was my third girlfriend and my first real love. We went through many things together. We went through hard distancing times, we went through the hate of her father towards me (even though there's no reason for him to hate me), we went through the times that she felt like the world was crushing her together and many more things that I could list but I'm too tired for remembering.
When she broke up with me, she told me many things that made her take the decision. She said that being with someone who's depressed was very exhausting. She said that she couldn't see a future with me and that's why she wanted to end things there...
Man... To say I was crushed is a understatement, I cried -because men can cry- and I did it for weeks, nonstop.
As time went by I started crying less, but the pain I felt never faded away.
During that time, I became closer to my father, he would pick up the phone just lo listen to me sobbing nonstop. I really needed him, but destiny planned things differently. He got sick, and in a matter of 2 weeks, his soul left this world, leaving me alone.
I had to start becoming an actual man, an adult. If I ever felt like crying, I'd cry alone.
I started exercising to deal with the pain that I felt, and it kind of worked.
The other day, I felt like I was a different man, a stronger, more mature, wiser man. So I decided to call my ex girlfriend with hopes of coming back together, and maybe get a second chance now that I am a different person.
I called her. The conversation went smoothly, as if nothing changed. I said to her all the things that I changed and not only for herself but for myself as well. I was so happy because I felt like no one could stop me... But, then she said "Sebastian... I don't know how to tell you this, but I have a boyfriend now...".
After that we kept talking for a bit, and then we said our final goodbyes.
I don't know why I didn't get a second chance. I'm sure I'm a good, a really good man, but things doesn't end like fairy tales. Some of us don't have a happy ending.
Someone who leaves u when u r depressed doesn't deserve u , u r a good man sir , never think otherwise
You are a good man,, you will find a person who can thread you better.
Dont worry there are many people who come in our life and goes...some day eventually you will find someone who will like you for who you are ....who will not care about what other people tells...who will always be in your side no matter what .....You just have for the right moment......
Thank you
I would like to end my speech here🤣🤣🤣🤣
Yo bro ur such a strong person! U definetly deserve better than her. :)
I know it sounds cliché, but you will meet a woman who will share your pain! You’ll love her even more than your first love, even if it doesn’t seem like it. Trust the process, keep bettering yourself to become the best possible man you can be and that one lucky girl will notice that! Much love, man!
i thought i forgot about you. but when it comes at midnight, those memories just pop up on my head over and over again
It’s the best memory you had of that person when they where with you no matter what Is just on loop in your head and you get attached to anything so you can feel whole
It’s not that I miss you, it’s that i feel that I was not good enough for you. You couldn’t find happiness in me. But I found it in you. I tried to make you feel love but I can’t force love into you, I can’t make you feel like how I feel of you. I was blinded by the quote “ The one” or the word “ Fate “ but I noticed nothing of that is real. Not as real as the love I had for you.
Compa Mario I feel you
aww
I didn’t know that’s how I felt, but this lined up perfectly
Me crying
You make me want to end this all.
8 years later and I’m still waiting and hoping she’d come back
Hey 😊 please stop
Bro you look really nice ngl i miss my ex too but fuck them hoes man there are other girls on this planet that are better than her ik you just want her but fuck that homie we gotta move on
move on bro wtf
its funny how we are all listening to the same song but thinking about different people
Who are you thinking of?
That some shit
naw i'm thinking of the same person you're thinking of
Ash...
Im thinking about myself, one of the few persons in my life worth of my thoughts
I think 2019 really taught me some life lessons.
You can love someone deeply only to realize it's one sided.
You can have the best of friends only to notice you're still alone.
You can give people the world only to be told it's still not enough.
2019 was a blessing now that I deeply think about everything that's taken place this year. 2020 I'm going in with no friends, no love and my own world. 2020 will be the year I dedicate true love to myself, heal my soul and rebuild my world around me. I will not associate myself with people who use and abuse my love, I will not surround myself with "friends" who make me feel alone , and I will not give anyone the world because I will be giving it to myself.
Anyone reading this should do the same, because we deserve the purest form of happiness, love, and belonging.
xoxo
God Bless,
May 2020 be YOUR year and every year after. YOU matter. YOU.
I feel u g stay strong
Such a beautiful soul.
It's strange to read about a feeling that you find yourself having at the exact moment only measured by time.
You ever get that feeling when you’re drifting away from someone and you’re trying so hard not to let them go but the more you try the farther away they drift
❤😔
Right ... getting closer to him just make him farther ~ like elastic u won't get him back only if ur gone
Hey you, scrolling through the comments.
Life can be hard sometimes, you feel lonely, you feel left out, just know that you're not alone, you're not alone in this. Just remember to keep going, move forward, and keep living.
I love you all and I wish you all good luck
Willy Wijaya nah I’m different I don’t think I’m lonely I know I’m lonely you could tell a sad person all fucking day that there not alone but they only get sadder why because nobody want the fucking truth who gives a fuck about the truth right the truth is people are sick and dead and only thing I can do is sit here at my house and say that I’m saving lives but not mine
Your comment made me cry, and i dont know why...
@@iloveyourecommentbut9400 you can do this, i trust in you :)
Ariana Cabrejos thank you even though I hate myself I will try😪
Thank you so much for the comment, i love you, have a great day/night too and stay safe
Looking back on all the memories made with the people closest to you, realizing things aren’t the same as they used to be and you feel more alone now than ever. You have everything you’ve ever wanted and it still isn’t enough. The pain, sadness, and anger of the world is a crushing blow to what you used to think was reality as you slowly begin to realize that the only way from here is up as your moving backwards. You’re to scared to speak your mind but then never find the time to find the courage to be yourself. Let all your worries, all your fears, let them float down the river as you lose yourself in what makes you happy.
“i just wanna go to bed” “i’m just tired” “no i’m fine” < said everyone listening to this at night
The thing is: she isnt thinking about me at all..
Hey man i need to talk to you...
Discord?insta? Anythin?
Idk whether she thinks about me... i guess not but i want her so bad and im walking after her since 2 years and no progress at all... just like a robot..
Daniel. Damn bro. That’s my future. Im running after her for 2 months yet
We broke up after 2 and a half year. I still can't get it. She starts loving someone new... my best friend.
2019 was the worst year I ever lift.
2020 still fucked me up.
Maybe there will no 2021 be for me :)
DerJulius hang in there bro, it will get better
The cruelest thing the world can do is have you meet the right person at the wrong time
honestly man
Cruel
I agree
I feel you
and in the wrong side of the world, bro :/
Always trying to be the best version of me for everyone and always making people happy but I feel empty and more lonely than ever...
Man... you are not alone. I feel what you say, stupid "best version of oneself" as the antidote for all the pain... as if it was the ultimate solution
Welcome to the ＢＲＯＫＥＮ side of youtube where no one is happy.
🖤
I am 😃, it’s just relaxation music for me. Now a year ago I needed this for my feelings lol.
😔❤
I wanna make u happy so please don’t cry, don’t be upset everything is going to be good. U gonna feel better..
@@aidtananyan8271 nothing is going to be fine everything is over..
Thank you
hey random people scrolling through the comments.. i just wanted to say that i love you and you are beautiful❤️
Thank you for saying that to me, you too💚
someone in your back ❤️
I mean it's probably meant nice but I still feel like a piece of shit.
Made me smile haha
Andreas Timmermann try to make the Best out of the Situation