jdeezy Right! I did everything I could to make her happy/smile I made sure she wouldn’t face her problems alone. We would talk everyday in school and after school I would try my hardest to make her laugh at least once a day Once she got a boyfriend she would barley reply or talk to me When I needed her the most when I was facing some rough times she wasn’t there for me even though I was there for her. I would reach out to her countless of times but instead she would leave me on seen and walk past me like I didn’t even exist. Had to face all my troubles alone. I eventually got over her but I still think about her sometimes.
Fuck that was a tight SLAP (I had so many friends and all like close ones, slowly as I chose study over anything I got distant, I've been losing friends everywhere They still accept me if I approach but I feel kinda guilty so I don't) now back to watching sad anime and engineering
Please never delete this video, it has so much meaning to me, so many memories and so so many moments that are now long gone.... Also, thanks to the person who's responsible for this.
I remember when this song was on lofi and I used the iPad of my brother and he saved the lofi playlist and I just read all the depressing comment on RUclips
i don't even miss nobody, i just am so afraid of myself. i'm afraid i won't be anything in life. i'm afraid that i won't live up to what i know i could be edit- I love all of you. thank you.
This is mostly what I get emotional about. I always said I’d rather die than not being successful . But then when I have no direction in life I get frustrated cause idk what to do next. If something makes you uncomfortable it’s prob good for you. So just do it. Plan it out today and do it tomorrow. It’ll all work out bro 🙏🏼💯
Pqffn- can’t help it when every single thing reminds you of him. Especially when both of you were in love with each other, so close to dating. Love like what we had was hard to find. Trust me, I’ve been in love a lot of times and it was never like this. Can’t help but feel like a huge part of you is missing everytime you look at things and get reminded of him.
Killer Red you were attached, i’ve been there more times then I would’ve liked to be but have faith in your ability to find someone else, theres no promises that it’ll replace his love or the affection you two had but its better then dwelling on it. Love isn’t something to be toyed with, and i’ve been hear broken far too many times and its gotten to a stage where seeing other people hurting, hurts me. Just keep an open mind and welcome opportunity in a new relationship :)
That's exactly how I feel right now you know? And you can't actually feel better... You just want to hear those word coming from that person you love, even though is not going to happen...
I'm here again, after a whole year but this time, I'm not sad. It's still 2 am and raining outside but I'm not crying, I'm happier then I have even been. My studies are going great. And I'm with this lovely person who doesn't make me cry and cries with me when I'm sad. I would have never imagined a day like this would come for me when I first listened to this a year ago. It's fine if things are not going fine,it's fine if you're sad or crying or going through hell. It will change, you'll be happy one day. You'll be alright, just don't lose hope.💞💞💞
There's not a guarantee that it will be or that things will develop like they should hope dwindle often,miss my dog,feels like parts of my brain n inner core are getting damaged where there's no repair the parts I felt were more sacred parts of myself,its concerning...nvrmd
GetOff MyWood10 she probably misses you too even if it doesn’t seem like it she has to be it’s hard for everyone. Some people are better at hiding it than others.
My crush at least texts me once a day without me saying anything but then I see her be the happiest and I start to get sad and hurt when I think that she is with her friends I feel like a normal person but then she feels like the world to me. Im gonna tell her I like her at the end of this month
Think about all the people scrolling through the comment section, not commentating but are just reading our comments. I wonder what they are thinking about.
I had a boyfriend back in high school. We were only 15. Reckless. Happy. In love. First love truly is as magical as it is. I remember him serenading me with his old dusty guitar at an old abandoned park. We would always meet there and would watch the sunset together. I remember him, so heavenly and soft. He would speak and it feels like liquid sunshine would run out from his lips. His gaze were affectionate and loving. But he was ripped away from me in a terrible accident. I hated God for what happened. It was unfair. He was young and full of life. But maybe it has a reason. Now I'm 23 and still in love. Guess that'll never change. I miss you, Lee.
Everyone is talking about how they miss people, but I just miss the feeling of comfort and happiness that I never really felt before . Depression ruins you and your relationships , I’m dead inside.
Pls dont be sad and dont feel empty. You didnt come to the world for nothing . Everything has a reason . And there is a reason being exist of you. Dont stay at home alone and go find something valuable. We are with you . Stay strong
How many times I felt the sadness or the emptiness inside me? Really a lot. Girl, which denied me, hard period on the work or existential crisis - I had my own reasons in the different moments of life. But... always my sun was coming back, people can't feel badly long, this is our nature. Keep this thought in your mind: sun is coming, regardless what is your mood now. It help me to live
Guys one thing: Don’t try to find happiness through somebody else. Love yourself first, work hard on your life and pursue what you love. That’s when you will be attractive to people because you are not needy of their opinion and approval anymore. For that to work out you first need to work on you technique. If you want to build a car, you first need some instructions. Same goes for a good life. I can’t give them to you, but here is how you can find them: Read books. Full stop. This is the key to success. It’s a hard path but that’s the only way. We aren’t meant to just sit around all day and play video games or watch youtube videos. Genetically seen we should be outside working out or walking, or with people, not eating too much and eating healthy (like what can be found in nature easily, like vegetables, fruits, etc.). Don’t eat too much fat or sugar either. They are like poison. You body was not meant to consume them on a regular basis. Look it up. It breaks you mood and spirit. You could consider starting with Jordan Petersons „12 rules for life“ or „models“ by Mark Manson. My life motto is this: Life is pain. Either you endure it now and get up and do something about your life. Or you can relax now and endure the pain later on with feelings of guilt, shame, anger and loneliness.
Tbh back then I knew I was living the good old days, I just didn't know they would end in such a impactful and quick way. Now I feel like it's too late to think about that, that time is gone and buried in the past and I can't do anything to make it come back to life. It's always gonna part of me though, it's a time that was essential for me to grow and become the person I am today. That's life, I guess. From time to time, it still makes me sad not being able to relive one of those days just for one last time, but I always reach the conclusion that it's preferable for me to accept that that phase already ended, rather than to find myself stuck in a time that no longer exists, amongst people that are no longer a part of my life.
Everyone is saying the miss someone.. I just miss myself... I mean who am I? I have no one special in my life.. I have lots of “friends” but not a single one I can talk to about my feelings :( literally dead inside
tua- vykngz one day you and I will meet and I promise i’ll listen to every detail of your problems, you are not alone and shouldn’t feel alone because loneliness takes lives.
pov: you’re constantly checking whether they texted you back, but they didn’t, and it hurts like hell. So for a little of a backstory (you can read this if you’re bored): I became friends with this boy and I started to really crush on him because he treated me really good and I never really got to experience that from a boy. So I confessed my feelings for him, but he didn’t like me back. That ruined our friendship for a while and my feelings started to fade a lot. I started to accept the fact that we would never be more than friends and so I started to treat him like a "bro" of mine too. I guess that he felt more comfortable around me around that time, because we started talking more. So it all started when I invited him to a party. We were drinking and we kept on telling each other how much we loved each other. Of course that wouldn’t have been enough for my feelings to get back, I was hurt too much. But after this party a lot went down in my private life and he seemed to be the only one that cared. So we started talking a lot on Snapchat. It sort of became our thing that we would share how our days were going everyday and whenever we would see each other we would cuddle and tell each other sweet things. It was at this point that my feelings were starting to get back again. But after a while it just stopped. He started leaving me on delivered for a long time and he would kind of ignore me in real life. Whenever we would talk he would sound annoyed by me and he never told me why. I was hoping that he was just busy or stressed and that eventually he would come back, but we stopped talking. Now he’s in love with another girl. Big L.
I met someone in 2020 who used to listen to this playlist all the time and he turned out to be a terrible person and I spiraled to rock bottom after that. I used to resent listening to this playlist because of him. I used to hate the way I let someone take away my feelings for music and ruin it for me. I'm in such a different place in my life now and I found this playlist again. It felt calming to listen to. I don't have resentment anymore and I'm so proud of the work I've put into myself and where I've come. I met someone so amazing this year and he treats me so good and I get to love him too. If you're struggling, just take life hour by hour and then day by day- you'll be okay 🤍
When you go to bed, lights out, phone off, just you with your thoughts. During the day you do something, you are busy, but at night, in bed, bad thoughts just keep coming
It's not like I hate being adult, I mean when I was younger there's no difference with responsibilities. What have changed is how we look at life. And also the reason why get sadder we get to know what reality is. You'll get through with it too :) I didn't meant to say something you know Even I get tired of some stuffs
do you ever wanna call someone out of the blue just to talk and catch up but you’re too afraid you’ll bother them? that’s how i feel rn. sucks missing someone who doesn’t miss you. edit: thanks for the likes and replies guys. i saw him a few days ago but had no time to really talk. sent a text after but no reply. not sure what to do but i think it might be time to move on. wishing everyone the best!!
It’s a strange phenomenon that so many people can come together in this lonely corner of the internet completely unknown to the general public, and yet feel so comforted by each others presence.
We are just depressed people telling each other that it’s all gonna be ok (Edit - Thanks to you guys and your words, I’m feeling a lot better and have made things in my life better and have realized that there’s always hope 🙂 thank you)
When I was in primary school, I knew this boy who just really wanted to be friends with me. Thing is, he was ginger and he wore really thick glasses, so the whole school just kind of... Hated him. When I was younger, I just kind of followed everyone else, so I started to hate him for no reason. When we got to high school, he developed feelings for me. I turned him down since at that time, I didn't really know him that well. But I agreed to be friends with him, and that was the best decision I've ever made. He was really funny, he always knew how to make me smile, even in times when I felt really down... Soon enough, it was my turn to fall for him. He was always kind to everyone, but I felt like he was even kinder towards me. I mean, he probably wasn't, but I liked to think that he was. He was my best friend, and at the time, my only friend. But then... on the evening of November 22nd, 2017, he disappeared. Nobody knew where he went, not his parents, not his friends, I mean he hadn't even shown up at school that day. I wasn't able to sleep that night. On November 23rd, 2017, I was told that he had died. Suicide. I hate myself for not seeing that he wasn't ok. I hate myself for not realizing that he needed help. I hate myself for not being his friend earlier. I hate myself for turning him down. I hate myself for not telling him how I feel... Since then, time has been... weird. Hours either feel like days or seconds, I didn't see my graduation pass, I didn't see my prom happen, I didn't see my first day of college... I've felt empty since then. I still blame myself. I still miss him at 1am, at 2am, at 3am, at 4am, at 5am... And I know that I can't go back. I know that I'll never get him back. But it still hurts. And I'm just not sure for how long I can take all this pain...
Gabrielle Caron hey I know it’s hard but you gotta keep on moving forward and just know that he’s up there watching over you and he still wants you to be happy. Remember there’s no such thing as a goodbye only a see you later. Right now you gotta make the most outta your life, you gotta give your life meaning. And when your successful, honor it all in his name. You got this and you’re not in this alone.
You should know that it’s not your fault❤️ Pain is not always worn on people’s sleeves. You were a great friend and that’s all that matters! You will meet him in another lifetime where you will both rejoice of the grand friendship you shared! Stay strong! ❤️
Don’t ever blame yourself. You did the best you could to be in his life & I bet he was happier that you were a part of his. Best thing is to move on & let his energy feed on to you & spread the same positivity this man has given you & the world. He’s angel now & his spirit will remain with you as long as you live. Live on, love life, & most importantly love yourself 💙 because at the end of the day you’re an amazing human being!!
Gabrielle Caron you aren’t responsible for any of this. That boy saw you as one of his dearest friends, and even if you think that he hates you, you’re completely wrong. He loves you and he thinks of you as an angel. You were that boy’s everything, and that’s something that he’s grateful for. Even though he passed away, I can tell you that he doesn’t want you to feel the way that he did. He wants the best for you, Gabrielle. I know I’m some random stranger on RUclips and this’ll probably be the only time we cross paths ever again. But let me just tell you this and I hope it’ll stick with you. It’s not your fault, he wants the best for you, and he loves you. Take care. P.S. how funny is it that my real name is Gabriel lol
you've been frequently visiting me in my dreams...it makes me sad when I wake up and I realize it wasn't real. I'll never watch your mouth turn upwards into that crooked smile again, hear the kindness in your voice when you say my name, hear your jaw pop every time you chew, or grasp my pinky tightly with yours. it's cold snap season, our favorite beer that so many memories can be attributes to. it's been nine months since I heard from you. this was not a clean break so I'm picking up the pieces that were mine to begin with, trying to find out who I am without you. it's 2:50 a.m. and I still miss you. -bell
2019 has been the worst year ever. I've lost so many people. I don’t even know what I‘m doing with my life I just feel so empty. 2020 Update: what the fuck 2021 Update: yo I’m so confused. Time flies so fast. Oh and I still don’t know what I‘m doing with my life but I‘m feeling kinda better✨🙄 2022 Update: I gotta say, life is still pretty complicated but I’m growing. I do have hope though. I will find my happiness and I‘m sure all of you will too. 2023 Update: Let's see how it will be this year. I definitely have more stamina than the years before. I have big goals, even if I have to fight hard to achieve them. I've learned to get by on my own, to stay away from people who aren't good for me. I realize that many people are trying to throw hurdles at me to block my way. It's gonna be tough, but we only live once. I will keep fighting, just like all of you! 2024 Update: This year, I fulfilled a lot of dreams I wished for in 2023. But there are still many goals left. I lost a lot, but I also gained a lot. I lost people, I lost myself, and found myself again. It took a long time, but now I know what I can do with my life. I always wanted a peaceful life, but now I realize that life tests us with obstacles all over again. It has to be that way so we can grow. Sometimes we need to feel sadness to understand what bliss truly is. For the first time, I can say that I want to live. I’m happy to be alive, no matter what happens, no matter how hard it gets.
Yeah man, 2 funerals for me. Gf also got T boned bad in her car but pulled through. Then my sister's husband cheated on her after her maternity leave ended where she almost died from child birth. Then my gf left me. Keep that chin up because things run its course. Life. Death. Relationships. I'm starting my new job and building from the ashes and it feels good man
“The loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their whole world fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly.” It was us against the world. Now it’s just me staring into space wondering where it all went wrong.
smokey tokes anxiety would control my life and how I acted. I wasn’t me and I started to scratch myself till I bled to make the pain go away. I fought so hard with my parents and I was sent to therapy. It was a long hard journey but I was finally stopping self harm. I was clean for about maybe 5 months and I did it again. My life has been going down hill the past few years. I didn’t have a will to live and I just wanted the pain to go away. After months of therapy and I was on medication I started to feel myself. I found motivation to stay clean in my friends. If I left this world behind I just left more pain to them. Now I don’t know how my story ends but it’s not over yet and I still have a long ways to go. Addiction is hard and the want to get high and numb the pain is strong. But your stronger than that. I don’t know how to give someone good advice I just tell them my story that is still going. There are ups and downs and people who might make us happy and people who might make us want to turn to our old habits. Every time I’m in pain I struggle to think clearly but I get through it because the want to do (bad habit) is there but it is not a need. Now I don’t want to tell you how to live your life or what to do it just here trying to relate to people to tell them they are not alone. Life will get better trust me. Stay strong I believe in you ❤️. Stay clean with me and everyone else.
Saturday night, 2am in the morning, the coffee has gone cold and the sandwich looks damp and unappetising. The house lights are switched off, the table lamp flickers, the computer screen is dimmed, lines and lines of text sprawled onto it. A yawn, a sigh, a distracted, anxious mind whirling on and on. The neon lights outside the window have a gravitational pull. Fumbling hands and fingers, an awkward walk. The keys allow a metallic click and the door rattles open and shut. Slouched shoulders, stiff jaw. The air is cold tonight. The windbreaker is pulled tighter and closer. The pace hastens. A hundred metre long walk, two buildings away. An abandoned alley. Narrow, tackily-painted open staircase. Thirty minutes of lofi till the top, thirty minutes of thinking, of missing, of numb and emptiness. The rooftop is spacious, ground wet from the rain, smelling like moss, childhood and forgotten memories. Lighter in hand, cigarette in another. A spark of light. Smoke. Stiff legs cross over the ledge. The city offers a striking view, but it’s hazy and underwhelming behind the dull smoke that numbs the pain and the senses. “Missing you” The letters jump from a building to another. A sigh. Footsteps. A tossed out cigarette. The rooftop is empty when the city turns bright and bustling. -Been having half a year’s worth of writers’ block, this is nice for a change, if anyone comes across this thanks for reading
Damn its been 10 months huh? a lot has happened since then. i went through a bad depressive episode and was diagnosed with depression and ocd, i was put on meds, went for and am still going for psychotherapy, i also got through the toughest academic year so far and this year i will be taking very different subjects, in fact im going for a linguistics selection test in two days time. Things are getting better, sort of. I haven't written anything since I posted this, but I promise myself that I will write something, anything, soon, and I will post it here for me to see and to remember. Also i guess the theme of missing someone finally make sense for me, i started crushing on someone and is still crushing on them. Would totally take them out, 2am at night, two coffees in hand to the rooftop for stargazing or something.
I've been reading the comments and I've seen lots of sad things. For the person who is reading this, I hope you have a lot of luck in your life and that everything goes well. And if things are going wrong, be calm, bad vibes will eventually leave, you always have to try to raise your head and continue with life. Sometimes love is bullshit, be strong.
the comment section makes me feel at home. I believe i’ve found my people. Edit: Not long after I made this comment I got back with the ex who i thought was the love of my life. I was wrong. Things were terrible. I still struggle with moving on. we broke up christmas day 2022. He left me again, and has no feelings left for me. I’ve come to think of it as a good thing. If someone could pack up one day and stop caring about you, then they were never worth it. Do not spend your time lingering on someone who wouldn’t put in that same time in for you. you are worth, and you are deserving, of so much more than that.
I know 3 months ago I was here listening to this or reading the comments but then my love of my life gave me a 3rd chance she’s broken up with me before twice and we were together for 3 months then she broke up with me today now I’m back here thinking about her
Dawson Morrison i was here 6 months before a left the comment above thinking about how i lost mine too, eventually i accepted it and now i’m just waiting for someone better. it’ll come to us no doubt :)
I grew up with a schizophrenic paranoia father on hard drugs and a mother that loves me but worked from 7am to 9pm. So, I would go to school and then come home and be alone for hours on end and even when my mother got home we wouldn't talk much and then bed time. I'm now 25 and still have problems wanting to be left alone most of the time. I find myself just sitting in a dark room alone yet finding comfort in it.
She broke up w me like 4 months ago I’ve moved on, on a different career path than most, happier now But sometimes, some nights, I still think about her I hate it.
This made me cry. Me and my ex broke up and i still think everyday that we might get back together, he might come back to me. But what if we never see each other ever again? This thought is so bitter I can't help but cry
@CryinSquirrel same for me, we broke up 2 weeks ago. Try to think it : The Best thing about this, is that we can think about her/him and be happy only by seeing his smile. Be happy about what u do with her/him, be habby about time u spend with, no the time u spend without. I love you, take care of u and don't fall in depression and melancholy like I try not to
@@timbrtl thanks . Yeah all that's left now are good memories , but they make me feel melancholic and it makes me feel so upset that none of that continued. Memories hurt me so much, it's not worth it to keep a good thought about certain people...
Man, she was the main focus of my life, everyday I was motivated just to see her smile. But she lied, pretended to be someone else, and I was in love with a mask. Then I discovered all those promises where empty: She acted different when I wasn't around, kissed other guys, told every handsome stranger she was single. I been feeling like a piece of shit for the last 6 months, and everytime I see her, she's so different, as if she was another person. I just want to cry... It's like she died, or never existed in the first place.
She doesn't deserve you, just let it go. Take a deep breath, light a cigarette if you smoke, and let it go. She wasn't even yours to begin with. Accept it, put your shit together and let it go...
Jose Ch29 Maybe it’s not the best way to put it, but use this as motivation. You’re not worthless, she is. She wasted her chance with you, a considerate, a loving, beautiful, human being. She is nothing but trash. You’re much more, and deep inside of yourself you know that. Fuck her, fuck what she meant, fuck what she said, fuck what she did, she is nothing. Prove to yourself that you’re better, show her what she missed and what she will be missing forever. You will find the person that stays true to you.
Bro, it's hard. There are women out there who can really hurt you, but there are also women out there who can really love you. If she didn't really love you, then she wasn't the one. That is very hard to hear, I know, all those experiences you had, all the good times now have bad connotations, but time heals all wounds. There's a special someone out there that's waiting for you, and when they find you and you find them, and you will, because you always will, then it'll be worth it. Hang in there, Jose
John Virgil Bocalere or a really faint smell of something. I hate it man this girl that I really liked we stopped talking 4 years ago but she still on my mind
I don't miss anyone but myself, i want my old self back. I'm tired of these shits that's going through my head everyday specially at night. How i wish i can sleep for some years to end this pain for a while.
Kookie Dough Hey, I know what you mean I’ve been through that same phase before. You can’t compare yourself to yourself. I know it’s hard but trust me, try as hard as you can to move on, focus and grow the person you are now. Much love
What pain? These teenage kids are so emotionally weak acting like their family got murdered infront of them when their stupid short term little date dumped em, grow the fuck up..
Does any body feel like me? I mean I have everything but I have nothing... I got good friends, really good friends but I have no one who I am really emotionally connected with. I feel literally like an empty Void.
i was just reading the comments and i saw this one... you literally wrote the things in my mind. stuff that strangles me. there are lots of people for me but i feel alone in the crowded. so you're not alone buddy.
Idk if this will help the people who are feeling like this... but it gets a little bit better . Sure my life is still fucked up tbh but it’s better than it was a few months ago when I felt like that. But then one day I just said “fuck it” and tried opening up to my friends who I felt like I didn’t have much of an emotional connection with and slowly but surely I guess we kind of got a little more emotionally connected than we we’re before. There were a few rough patches and times when I felt like really confused and asked myself what was the point of me opening up. I guess I never believed the crap that if you open up you’ll feel better and at first you don’t but eventually you do I guess... and it took me my whole lofe to realize that and I hope you realize this sooner so that you yourself can find peace/happiness sooner. I’m am definitely not close to being happy but for sure I am closer than I was before. For the first time in a long time I actually have a little hope. It’s not that much hope but atleast I have it . I hope you guys find happiness one day whoever you are! :)
trust me, the time when your worst memory turns into a beautiful one will come, I promise you. You will not regret anything you did with that person, you'd be grateful because it taught you many lessons
“Anyone can give up; it is the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone would expect you to fall apart, now that is true strength.”
i know what you’re feeling brother.. i got the same situation. I swear you’ll eventually find someone that’ll give you all of the love and affection you need. Love you, take care.
@Bruxy thanks bro, i’m doing fine. make sure you do everything for in your power to keep her because that girl rare, many people don’t stay in relationships with their first “everything”
I Am a Dad,of 3 Daughters that I love more than Anything Ive ever loved in this Life,their Mom has a problem with dope and booze and so shes not around now and its just been me and the girls for years now...had to borrow my daughters phone to watch some vids my phone is Toast....anyways ran across this video,then this comment and it reached a place inside I go to sometimes and maybe itll help someone...I think about it sometimes..that I will at some point have to leave this life,as it Should be because NO parent should ever have to bury their child,its the Natural Way of Life that the old leave and the young live on..Im 47 and Honestly I Am NOT afraid of Death,Everyone must take this path..What I am Afraid of,what hurts me to my core is leaving my children behind..who will take care of them when they hurt inside,Who'll comfort them when the hands out the hurt it does:(Who'll Protect them from the evil that people do:(You must understand that the hurt you feel is no less than a Parent does when they know thwy have to move on..and the Greatest hurt I feel is the thought of my girls living on in Pain because Im gone..My God no Parent wants that its Heartbreaking...I Want my girls to LIVE this life,to feel Joy,Love,Happiness and all the Best things in Life,but their is no sweet without the sour and I Know they will feel hurt as well....but Please God dont let it be over Me..I want them to remember Me ofcourse but I want it to be with a smile not tears...I don't know you but I know one thing is for Sure...that your Father obviously Loved you because you loved him too:)And the LAST thing in this life that he wanted was for you to be in Pain:(I Understand that greiving is a natural part of loss but Im without doubt that your Dad Prayed for your Happiness:)I hope you'll consider these things and it brings you some comfort,and I Will Not belive death is the last time Ill see my girls because even the next life wont be enough to keep me from them...Best of Luck to you and I hope you are feeling better:)
Sometimes life is like this dark tunnel. You can't always see the light at the end of the tunnel, but if you just keep moving... you will come to a better place. Uncle Iroh
"It's funny how these 8 letters from your mouth can change my entire life. But these same letters from my mouth won't make a difference to you." ~Yours truly
Pain, love, after scrolling through these comments I’ve realized something. Almost all of us are empty in some way, whether it’s from a loss or not having an emotional connection with any friends. We’re all empty, but we don’t have to be. If you know yourself so well then go out there and fix it. For me my entire life I’ve been alone, single mom, two kids, older sibling I couldn’t play with. I really never couldn’t get close to anybody when I was growing up, and even when I did they rejected me eventually. And bullied me, I know the feeling of having the whole world against you, I couldn’t even walk outside the whole neighborhood without being threatened or yelled at by a bunch of hoodlem kids. I didn’t have a warm cozy house during the winter or a nice cool house during the summer. I didn’t have a mom who cared about me to show it. Everytime I would talk to her she would take out all her anger on me. It fucking hurts man. At school I pretended everything was okay, I always made people laugh just to cover up my pain. I always smiled in order to fake happiness. But one thing I realized is that people cannot win against themselves. You and your self are equal, it will forever stay that way. The more you try to fight yourself the more fighting theres gonna be because you aren’t getting any stronger. The only way we can win against the pain and hate in our lives is with other people. Don’t ever try to do anything alone, and never give up. Even now I’m still fighting these feels, trying to figure out my place in this world, still chasing those bonds with people I don’t have. I know I don’t have anything right now, I mean like I know people and they think I’m pretty cool. But I still feel lonely at the end of the day. I know i should be feeling sad right now, but for me I want to fight it. I go back out there every day and give it all my might to go out there and fight the world. Even right now I’m getting so fired up I can’t even fucking believe it. I won’t give up no matter what, and so should you.
Fuuck man, hits home deep, same family situation cept im the older bro. Father abused my mother, leave country, mother develops a habit. It made me feel weird and at such a young age I didn't know how to handle it. I played video games to take me out of it all. I never developed the skills, the morales and other essential attributes from having functional parents. I went to a big Secondary school and anxiety ate me to the core and I just let my social life die, depression the whole shebang. Worst years of my life hands down, the pain I felt day in day out cannot be put into words. I very likely could have done something atrocious to myself. But alas I am still here, making progress. I have been doing fitness for months now, looking strong and lean. I've come so far socially, still lacking connection with someone, but I can wait. There will be good times, and bad times. You gotta know that man, you gotta. Just yesterday I was so happy and I went to work and just died inside but while I was happy I told myself stay strong when it hits you, grind it out. We all deserve love and care but take it from me you gotta watch out for yourself. Don't ever let anybody talk shit to you, fuck them, I've been through enough shit in this life to let someone take me down, stay strong brother, do what you love cuz thats all we got.
Haneix thnx man and a update on my letter. Those kids that used to bully me and hate me now respect and are my friends. I don’t have to go through that anymore, I also found my true friends and got my own group now. Even though I’m still lonely at home, when I go out there I got them. Now I want a girl that I can truly love and have a group of people as close as family. To make up for the lack of family I have. I can’t even share my true self with them cause they’ll go back and tell others or blame me for stuff they caused. It’s like dealing with strangers. Plus now we’re being threatened of being put out or going broke, since I’m the only man in the house I’m gonna have to step up and do something about it.
Haneix but for you man. Please remember to never go through anything alone, when we are truly alone is when we feel the worst pain of this world. Stay in the present and keep mind of your goal, if it’s happiness surround people around you who share your thought, ideas, goals. Accept you for who you truly are and never change yourself. Let your mind go free and breathe, and dont get caught up in the internet either. And if you never give up and keep enduring you’ll make it. I never thought that the people who once made me want to die would be the reason why I want to live my life again. Alls I can say is even if you do fail when people see you trying over and over again, they start to change and want to help you.
@@youtubespeasant893 That's rough, I can fully sympathise with struggling to share deep feelings with family members for fear of them talking behind your back. Look after yourself and do what you enjoy and you'll find a girl someday. Having to step up to the plate is hard, it might seem so unjust and unfair but it will make you ever so much stronger as a person. Responsibility forces us to act and gets things done, it is far better than to be left to your own devices.
I was 17 at that time and he was 25. I had gone to visit my hometown during the summer break. When i first saw him i instantly got this giddy weird feeling but did not understand what it was all about. He decided to drop us all home that night. It was a cool night even though it was in the middle of June. When i was getting dropped off i caught him looking at me from the center mirror of the car. That night i was thinking of him untill i fell asleep. All this feeling was so new to me but it felt really good. The next day i asked a friend if he was seeing anyone and she understood i had a thing for him. The weird thing is even though she felt that i liked him, because i did not understand why all of a sudden i was asking about him either. I guess that was what the first real crush felt like. The next day he called me because she gave him my number. I remember walking out of the house and even though there were so many mosquitoes biting me i was standing there talking to him. The rest of the summer was a blur and beautiful. He would call me up in the middle of the night if it rained because i told him i loved rain. We would go for drives around town eating good food in cafes. Summer afternoons in a lake. Ice cream in a mall. The whole shenanigans. I once told him i liked Bryan Adams songs and he came down my house and sang out loud! it was just crazy! I was slowly getting swoon by him. But he had problems. He had a lot of problems. He had drinking issues and not a long time ago back then he was into drugs. He had friends who were only in it for the money and had bad influence. I soon had to leave and go back to my residing city and he called me up and said wants to see me for the last time. He hugged me and told me I was too young for anything else lol. His hug. The scent from his cologne. I still remember. Back in the city he calls me up. My dad did not like him at all so he shouted him over the phone to never call me up (for obvious reasons). After months i call him to ask how he is doing but he tells me i should not stay in touch. And that was the end of it. Fast forward to when i am 30. Over the years I would occasionally think of him, especially when it rained. But life got in the way. Work, marriage and then children. I just learned that he has passed away. He over dosed on drugs and he died in rehab. His parents too passed away before him so he probably died alone too. Now i think of it, if i would have been able to save him if i had ever gone out with him. Or at least have an impact to save his life? Now I am getting a divorce and think if he was alive would i be in touch with him? I still remember him always standing next to his car when he would wait for me. My mind would always wonder if i did go out with him what would have been.
i ruined an incredible person with my insecurities and never feeling like i was enough for her. i regret leaving her so many times i regret not cherishing her. i regret wasting her time and love. she was everything to me and i threw it all away because of insecurities. i had the perfect person in life that made me feel complete but i didn’t have my life together. i didn’t have enough for the both of us. i hate myself for being so sickly and diseased. i could never love myself the way she loved me. i miss her always. she’ll forever be the ray of sunshine in my dark twisted idea of a life. i love you.
its been 9 months, since the breakup 12 months since I felt you drifting away 15 months since you told me it was going to be okay and there was nothing to worry about 18 months since my grandfather passed on and you said I love you 21 since i asked you out. 2 years since I was happy Now I lay at night, not most thinking, crying of those memories we had But I smile most, because I’m now more me than ever before.
You know, I fell in love with a girl, and I loved her for about 8 months. I didn't tell her about that. So, once we went for a walk and she asked me to text her crush from her phone, 'cause she was like scared to text him and she deleted all messages she wrote. I texted him from her phone about her feelings to her crush, and he said that it would be better if they continue their friendship. You know, I was a bit happy about that. I almost forgot about that situation, and in general we haven't been even chatting after that for half a year or even more. But I was in love with other girls, so I didn't actually care about her life. We started chatting again when coronavirus pandemic came to my country, and at that time I started dating another girl, and I stucked in abusive relationships. I managed to get out of it, but after I felt empty. So my ex crush helped me to restore my self-confidence, we met many times, chatted a lot, and i fell in love with her again. I thought that we could actually date, and i will do everything for her to make her become my girlfriend. Do you know what turned out later? That she's dating her crush, like that guy I texted to. I have started their relationship and ruined mine. Perfect. I still love her, and she still loves this guy. I'm sorry for mistakes in English, I'm just learning it. And thank you so much if you've read my story 💖
keep ur head up man and leave her get her out of ur head I know iths hard bat that is what u have to do chase ur dreams and work on urself bro u got it!!
trust me i had some relative shit like that its besser to drop her trust me i dropped her also and now after 1 1/2 months i realise what idiot i was for loving her so long and she never be thankful for that sorry for my bad english, i'm german
If you truly love her, don’t let her go man. It’s a mistake i have made, so you better not. Even, even if she doesn’t love you back don’t hold your head down. Leave her knowing that you gave it your all and that you will find the one for you. Good luck dude
this is the most accurate thing ever. for the first half of my year i was living ny best life, always having fun with my friends and acing school. then the second half came. i stopped caring about school and lost all my friends. not sure what to do. i have several therapists and they arent helping :(
How did you know? But really, it does suck because it's just apart of our life and knowing we're are broken but can't fix ourselves is a huge disappointment
Kyle Majerczyk we all are humans and feel emotions expressing ur sadness and finding comfort in it isn’t all that bad you can be positive and be sad but being negative and sad now that’s bad
i am tired of living in this fake world. its full of pain. i wanna go back to the time where there was pure love, pure friendship. its hurts so much i feel like crying. thank you for this music. it keeps me alive somehow. thank u so much. please never stop uploading such lofi music. it helps many people like me who arent okay who are depressed and extremely sad. thank u once again so much
Crazy, its 4 years ago, and when I'm listening to this Music, and close my eyes, I see her smile, smell her perfume... and she was right... I'm a loser, living in the past.
You can’t make someone else happy till you make yourself happy keep your head up there’s many people out there to create a new future with you’ll find your flame I promise ❤️
It’s not that I miss you, it’s that i feel that I was not good enough for you. You couldn’t find happiness in me. But I found it in you. I tried to make you feel love but I can’t force love into you, I can’t make you feel like how I feel of you. I was blinded by the quote “ The one” or the word “ Fate “ but I noticed nothing of that is real. Not as real as the love I had for you.
it's so sad knowing we could've experienced so much together, overcome our problems, and so much more. But because I was too selfish and left you. And here I am now hoping for us to be together.
@@billy2485 I'm nvr doing better,my life is how is been n I'm miserable,dying inside doesn't make me appreciate life or seeing the world from here,doesn't help,miss my dog,if I had an abrupt n quick death I wouldn't be living like this,shrug mmhmm,nothing/nobody in my so called life/world makes me happy it isnt even tolerable,just is I suppose n I dont even want it to be like this..yet it hasnt changed for the better n I've obviously not moved from herenmydogisntwme
Never put everything you have into the relationship. You can show them you care but don't try to crush them with affection. Stay yourself, don't let the relationship overwrite you. If you really love them, let them go. If you really love yourself, let it go. We often do not know how things got complicated and why it became cold between you two. There is no need to break yourself finding it out. The search for a "why" will only waste more time that you should rather spend loving yourself. Learn to be even more grateful. If the whole ride was enjoyable do not cry that it is over. Be grateful that it happened. If it was a nightmare thank god you are free now. If you are like me and still feel hurt, be patient. Try something new in life or pick up something you haven't done during the relationship. Build up your confidence. This is not the job of a partner it is our own task. Do it. Don't pursue the affirmation of someone else. Respect yourself and love yourself. Why should anyone else do it if you can't? One thing that could help is finding out why people love or respect you. You are stuck with yourself 24/7. Better start appreciating this person that will never go away, will never leave you. This also helps if your goal is to find someone new. Show that you care for yourself and eventually others will see and care too. Don't do it solely for others though. Do it for yourself. You are the pilot of the flight you call your life. You are the sun that gives you vision and warmth. You are the hero that will take this flight back home. Never forget that this plane needs you. And everyone on there trusts and believes in you.
I don't regret, I have no regret. But damn, I'm 18, just finished high school, gonna moove to the other side of the country to study in a prestigious school. Gonna leave all my friends, my family, my crush too. It feels like time is flowing through my hands and nothing can stop it. God, I'd never think growing was such a sacrifice.
Think about others, Cristiano Ronaldo left his mother and father at home when he was 13, he cried everyday, he didn’t get to see them, now he passed the hard times for greatness
honestly, I've been listening to this playlist for three years now. I always go to RUclips to find a new playlist and always come back here. it's like my personal place of calm. thank you very much!
It's sad time once again boys . . . I understand what it is like to be without someone that you care about; The emptiness that surrounds you, the silence that prefaces every day, and the confusion of what to do and where to go next. I am truly sorry for what you've been left to deal with - you deserve love, not loneliness. While life may not always offer second chances and opportunities to go over past events, it is always changing, giving you the ability to move past those who you miss and meet those who won't miss you - instead, they'll be right by your side. It's 2am and you still miss them - tomorrow is a new day, however, and something will change, for better or for worse. Until good times roll around, in the mean time, listen to some music. Enjoy.
Thanks it hurts with every heart beat but knowing that the pain will never win as long as you keep living is interesting to think about and knowing you'll never let it win is enough to make you stronger than you were life will never be fair but knowing that you make it work anyway just shows how strong you are anyways YEET!!¡¡!!
I miss her. My first love at 19 yo. I was her first real boyfriend, her first kiss, she was my third girlfriend and my first real love. We went through many things together. We went through hard distancing times, we went through the hate of her father towards me (even though there's no reason for him to hate me), we went through the times that she felt like the world was crushing her together and many more things that I could list but I'm too tired for remembering. When she broke up with me, she told me many things that made her take the decision. She said that being with someone who's depressed was very exhausting. She said that she couldn't see a future with me and that's why she wanted to end things there... Man... To say I was crushed is a understatement, I cried -because men can cry- and I did it for weeks, nonstop. As time went by I started crying less, but the pain I felt never faded away. During that time, I became closer to my father, he would pick up the phone just lo listen to me sobbing nonstop. I really needed him, but destiny planned things differently. He got sick, and in a matter of 2 weeks, his soul left this world, leaving me alone. I had to start becoming an actual man, an adult. If I ever felt like crying, I'd cry alone. I started exercising to deal with the pain that I felt, and it kind of worked. The other day, I felt like I was a different man, a stronger, more mature, wiser man. So I decided to call my ex girlfriend with hopes of coming back together, and maybe get a second chance now that I am a different person. I called her. The conversation went smoothly, as if nothing changed. I said to her all the things that I changed and not only for herself but for myself as well. I was so happy because I felt like no one could stop me... But, then she said "Sebastian... I don't know how to tell you this, but I have a boyfriend now...". After that we kept talking for a bit, and then we said our final goodbyes. I don't know why I didn't get a second chance. I'm sure I'm a good, a really good man, but things doesn't end like fairy tales. Some of us don't have a happy ending.
Dont worry there are many people who come in our life and goes...some day eventually you will find someone who will like you for who you are ....who will not care about what other people tells...who will always be in your side no matter what .....You just have for the right moment...... Thank you I would like to end my speech here🤣🤣🤣🤣
I know it sounds cliché, but you will meet a woman who will share your pain! You’ll love her even more than your first love, even if it doesn’t seem like it. Trust the process, keep bettering yourself to become the best possible man you can be and that one lucky girl will notice that! Much love, man!
You can now listen to this whole series on Spotify - spoti.fi/3KcUrfw 💜
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Can you please re-order the "it's 3 am and I still miss you" playlist so it actually goes from 1 to 6? It's kinda bugging me :P
It’s strange how that when I’m sad, I listen to music that makes me even sadder, yet I find comfort in doing so...
Same
I think sad music can be a nice hug of understanding to feeling sad. A warm embrace of empathy.
Noah Rocha when I'm sad listening to sad music just makes me feel better some how
The thing is music help you to canalize your feelings, and by doing that, you receive some comfort
Only love!
From bestfriends to strangers, honestly one of the worst feelings in the world
hurts like hell.
jdeezy Right! I did everything I could to make her happy/smile
I made sure she wouldn’t face her problems alone.
We would talk everyday in school and after school
I would try my hardest to make her laugh at least once a day
Once she got a boyfriend she would barley reply or talk to me
When I needed her the most when I was facing some rough times she wasn’t there for me even though I was there for her. I would reach out to her countless of times but instead she would leave me on seen and walk past me like I didn’t even exist. Had to face all my troubles alone. I eventually got over her but I still think about her sometimes.
Fuck that was a tight SLAP
(I had so many friends and all like close ones, slowly as I chose study over anything I got distant, I've been losing friends everywhere
They still accept me if I approach but I feel kinda guilty so I don't)
now back to watching sad anime and engineering
TheGameFreak geez, are you me from a parallel universe?
Vinz Ardevaas this comment section mades me so crying .. love ya all
this comment section shows me how many beautiful souls live in this world. Stay as you are guys.
Well said . I'm sure you are among the beutiful soul out there.
This comment really touched me 😟
Johanna Umstätter can’t stay who you are when your constantly hurting 💔
Thank you :(
What if I kill?
Please never delete this video, it has so much meaning to me, so many memories and so so many moments that are now long gone....
Also, thanks to the person who's responsible for this.
I remember when this song was on lofi and I used the iPad of my brother and he saved the lofi playlist and I just read all the depressing comment on RUclips
i don't even miss nobody, i just am so afraid of myself. i'm afraid i won't be anything in life. i'm afraid that i won't live up to what i know i could be
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I love all of you. thank you.
Uh this is really weird, but i was literally just thinking about the same thing, i hope we all become what we want to be , best of lucks bro
This is mostly what I get emotional about. I always said I’d rather die than not being successful . But then when I have no direction in life I get frustrated cause idk what to do next. If something makes you uncomfortable it’s prob good for you. So just do it. Plan it out today and do it tomorrow. It’ll all work out bro 🙏🏼💯
Yikes. This shit hit me hard af, happening right before my eyes
Sadly it happens all the time. Everyone could be the greatest if they just found their calling...
I scrolled happily through the comments until I saw your comment and it hit exactly this one spot
I don't want to be alone but I like being alone at the same time
Same
Same. And its incredible, how we all want to be with someone, but at the same time want be alone
Wanna be alone but hate the feeling of loneliness? Me too...
Preach
My current mood
That feeling of missing someone who was never yours to begin with, that’s true sadness.
Killer Red don’t let that breed depression, once it gets to that stage it’ll be a lot harder to find yourself
Pqffn- can’t help it when every single thing reminds you of him. Especially when both of you were in love with each other, so close to dating. Love like what we had was hard to find. Trust me, I’ve been in love a lot of times and it was never like this. Can’t help but feel like a huge part of you is missing everytime you look at things and get reminded of him.
Killer Red you were attached, i’ve been there more times then I would’ve liked to be but have faith in your ability to find someone else, theres no promises that it’ll replace his love or the affection you two had but its better then dwelling on it. Love isn’t something to be toyed with, and i’ve been hear broken far too many times and its gotten to a stage where seeing other people hurting, hurts me. Just keep an open mind and welcome opportunity in a new relationship :)
Killer Red have faith in your ability, nothing comes easy
That's exactly how I feel right now you know? And you can't actually feel better... You just want to hear those word coming from that person you love, even though is not going to happen...
I'm here again, after a whole year but this time, I'm not sad. It's still 2 am and raining outside but I'm not crying, I'm happier then I have even been. My studies are going great. And I'm with this lovely person who doesn't make me cry and cries with me when I'm sad. I would have never imagined a day like this would come for me when I first listened to this a year ago. It's fine if things are not going fine,it's fine if you're sad or crying or going through hell. It will change, you'll be happy one day. You'll be alright, just don't lose hope.💞💞💞
Good for you man hope it stays the same
Fuck that's comment is making something deep in my heart
There's not a guarantee that it will be or that things will develop like they should hope dwindle often,miss my dog,feels like parts of my brain n inner core are getting damaged where there's no repair the parts I felt were more sacred parts of myself,its concerning...nvrmd
thanks for this ❤️
I just hope whatever is happening right now that you're happy, your message almost made me cry. Take care
Missing her and knowing she doesn’t miss you back hurts so much
GetOff MyWood10 she probably misses you too even if it doesn’t seem like it she has to be it’s hard for everyone. Some people are better at hiding it than others.
@@hellokittyswitchblade36 i know whenever she texts me, but this time its been 2 months
My crush at least texts me once a day without me saying anything but then I see her be the happiest and I start to get sad and hurt when I think that she is with her friends I feel like a normal person but then she feels like the world to me. Im gonna tell her I like her at the end of this month
@@jdmnausc3675 if you made at the end of the month, i would say always, respect her values whatever be the situation.
CHANAKYA SINHA yes it is important to respect someones values
it sucks knowing that person you’re thinking about right now probably isn’t thinking about you 😓
truth
NETA‼️‼️💯
Shit hits hard big dawg😓
yeah.
So true
Now you're just a stranger with all my secrets
😭
That just set my crying ass off again
Wow... that hit me
Hits us all
Damn
Think about all the people scrolling through the comment section, not commentating but are just reading our comments. I wonder what they are thinking about.
Reflecting...
It’s me right now lol thinking damn it’s some sad things going on
Wondering where I went wrong homie
Pain
Someone real to love 🌸
The person I miss is just the happy, smiling kid that I used to be...
Travahn Adonis this broke me
Your comment is something that I always think about and it breaks my heart
this comment breaks me
I know I’m late but if you’d like a person to talk to, I’m here :) . I can share my number with you just lmk
I feel that too
I had a boyfriend back in high school. We were only 15. Reckless. Happy. In love. First love truly is as magical as it is. I remember him serenading me with his old dusty guitar at an old abandoned park. We would always meet there and would watch the sunset together. I remember him, so heavenly and soft. He would speak and it feels like liquid sunshine would run out from his lips. His gaze were affectionate and loving. But he was ripped away from me in a terrible accident. I hated God for what happened. It was unfair. He was young and full of life. But maybe it has a reason. Now I'm 23 and still in love. Guess that'll never change. I miss you, Lee.
I'm not crying.
im sry baby u will find some one and one day u will meet him again.
Hope you find someone who can fill in his shoes and loves you as much he did.
coco loco I am so sorry for your loss 😭
It fucking hurts!
“the devil doesn’t always come with horns and a pitchfork sometimes she comes as everything you’ve ever wanted”
And know i’ll know for what to look! Taught me lessons i’d never know otherwise, much love to you K!
Just wow
Yep…
Me: It’s time to let her go...
RUclips: Not Yet
Not yet...
Felt that
Austin Kata 😂😂
fvck
precisely
Everyone is talking about how they miss people, but I just miss the feeling of comfort and happiness that I never really felt before . Depression ruins you and your relationships , I’m dead inside.
Stay strong, dont lose hope, things will get better.
Pls dont be sad and dont feel empty. You didnt come to the world for nothing . Everything has a reason . And there is a reason being exist of you. Dont stay at home alone and go find something valuable. We are with you . Stay strong
How many times I felt the sadness or the emptiness inside me? Really a lot. Girl, which denied me, hard period on the work or existential crisis - I had my own reasons in the different moments of life. But... always my sun was coming back, people can't feel badly long, this is our nature.
Keep this thought in your mind: sun is coming, regardless what is your mood now. It help me to live
I feel you 😭😭😭💔💔💔 but now I'm trying to forget all .
Such a depressed profile pic
the person I dream about is the reason I can’t sleep
so true
fucking true
it's sad to know that I will never be good enough for her
Lost My Lover- Ali Gatie?
fuhreaaaaal
This is hitting me hard right now.....whatever y’all are going through....I hope it gets better (Hopefully mine does too)
I wish I could turn back time and start over again.
I definitely would not of wanted to have these last few yrs have all the things that occurred ever happen,
same bro
maybe one day
We’re just a bunch of people who aren’t okay, telling each other it will be okay. :(
Christian Warren that’s life I guess. You have to find your own happiness.
It will be okay. I love you.
I don't even know u who you are but I really appreciate that words... It will be okay
Christian Warren Find The Truth, find Islam
Guys one thing: Don’t try to find happiness through somebody else.
Love yourself first, work hard on your life and pursue what you love. That’s when you will be attractive to people because you are not needy of their opinion and approval anymore.
For that to work out you first need to work on you technique. If you want to build a car, you first need some instructions. Same goes for a good life.
I can’t give them to you, but here is how you can find them:
Read books. Full stop. This is the key to success.
It’s a hard path but that’s the only way.
We aren’t meant to just sit around all day and play video games or watch youtube videos. Genetically seen we should be outside working out or walking, or with people, not eating too much and eating healthy (like what can be found in nature easily, like vegetables, fruits, etc.).
Don’t eat too much fat or sugar either. They are like poison. You body was not meant to consume them on a regular basis. Look it up. It breaks you mood and spirit.
You could consider starting with Jordan Petersons „12 rules for life“ or „models“ by Mark Manson.
My life motto is this:
Life is pain. Either you endure it now and get up and do something about your life. Or you can relax now and endure the pain later on with feelings of guilt, shame, anger and loneliness.
“I wish there was a way to know you're in the good old days before you've actually left them.”
-Andy Bernard
This hit diffrent
Tbh back then I knew I was living the good old days, I just didn't know they would end in such a impactful and quick way. Now I feel like it's too late to think about that, that time is gone and buried in the past and I can't do anything to make it come back to life. It's always gonna part of me though, it's a time that was essential for me to grow and become the person I am today. That's life, I guess. From time to time, it still makes me sad not being able to relive one of those days just for one last time, but I always reach the conclusion that it's preferable for me to accept that that phase already ended, rather than to find myself stuck in a time that no longer exists, amongst people that are no longer a part of my life.
Good days wont last anyway even if we knew it, i would say make memories in life as much as you can
@@RicardoPereira-dg6lh cherish every day... so now I'm gonna exit yt and start get to sleep (10:40now)
Bashar Alasmar, yes, but if we knew then we would of valued it and cherished it and made every moment count.
Everyone is saying the miss someone.. I just miss myself... I mean who am I? I have no one special in my life.. I have lots of “friends” but not a single one I can talk to about my feelings :( literally dead inside
tua- vykngz one day you and I will meet and I promise i’ll listen to every detail of your problems, you are not alone and shouldn’t feel alone because loneliness takes lives.
you wanna talk?
wow you just put my feelings into words. damn.
You can really only connect with others as far as you met yourself. Start connecting to you. You’re not dead inside.
So this is what I’m feeling..
pov: you’re constantly checking whether they texted you back, but they didn’t, and it hurts like hell.
So for a little of a backstory
(you can read this if you’re bored):
I became friends with this boy and I started to really crush on him because he treated me really good and I never really got to experience that from a boy. So I confessed my feelings for him, but he didn’t like me back. That ruined our friendship for a while and my feelings started to fade a lot. I started to accept the fact that we would never be more than friends and so I started to treat him like a "bro" of mine too. I guess that he felt more comfortable around me around that time, because we started talking more.
So it all started when I invited him to a party. We were drinking and we kept on telling each other how much we loved each other. Of course that wouldn’t have been enough for my feelings to get back, I was hurt too much. But after this party a lot went down in my private life and he seemed to be the only one that cared.
So we started talking a lot on Snapchat. It sort of became our thing that we would share how our days were going everyday and whenever we would see each other we would cuddle and tell each other sweet things. It was at this point that my feelings were starting to get back again.
But after a while it just stopped. He started leaving me on delivered for a long time and he would kind of ignore me in real life. Whenever we would talk he would sound annoyed by me and he never told me why.
I was hoping that he was just busy or stressed and that eventually he would come back, but we stopped talking.
Now he’s in love with another girl.
Big L.
true
true
truetrue
Yea.
Damn 😔
I met someone in 2020 who used to listen to this playlist all the time and he turned out to be a terrible person and I spiraled to rock bottom after that. I used to resent listening to this playlist because of him. I used to hate the way I let someone take away my feelings for music and ruin it for me. I'm in such a different place in my life now and I found this playlist again. It felt calming to listen to. I don't have resentment anymore and I'm so proud of the work I've put into myself and where I've come. I met someone so amazing this year and he treats me so good and I get to love him too. If you're struggling, just take life hour by hour and then day by day- you'll be okay 🤍
Why is it that you only realise how broken you are when you're trying to sleep
Fr tho like man i wanna sleep more than 1 hour a night
Because that’s the only time where you have time to do that. I’m pretty sure a lot of people feel the same way like you and I
When you go to bed, lights out, phone off, just you with your thoughts. During the day you do something, you are busy, but at night, in bed, bad thoughts just keep coming
Marksman_Ollie your mind finally has time to remind you how broken you are.
@@phantom58285 Facts dude
never cried so much in life. I hate being an adult. Life was so much easier being a child.
sdadqwedas dadqweads stay strong, a lot of people go thru that and i will too, just chin up and don’t let yourself be depressed, try to be happy 🙏🏻❤️
So u mean u r scared of responsibilities in life
You’ll get through it buddy. It’s hard at first but I’m positive you’ll get the hang of it. Stay strong🥰
It's not like I hate being adult, I mean when I was younger there's no difference with responsibilities. What have changed is how we look at life. And also the reason why get sadder we get to know what reality is.
You'll get through with it too :)
I didn't meant to say something you know
Even I get tired of some stuffs
sdadqwedas dadqweads being a adult sucks I just became 18 in April and now I'm stressing out about life and my future I want to be 16 or 17 again
do you ever wanna call someone out of the blue just to talk and catch up but you’re too afraid you’ll bother them? that’s how i feel rn. sucks missing someone who doesn’t miss you.
edit: thanks for the likes and replies guys. i saw him a few days ago but had no time to really talk. sent a text after but no reply. not sure what to do but i think it might be time to move on. wishing everyone the best!!
Agree..bottling emotions is really bad and I feel like im gonna burst
literally how i’m feeling rn .. i swear i’m just clingy. 💤
Same here 😢
Stranger from each other but not to this feeling.
I feel for you so much. This one guy doesn’t miss me at all when all I do is miss him...
“I'd rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not.”
-kurt cobain
@@zlamb8589 first one to recognize
@@_______7504 how could i not, kurt is so inspiring
But what if I dont even love the real me
it's so sad, l don't even know who l am
It’s a strange phenomenon that so many people can come together in this lonely corner of the internet completely unknown to the general public, and yet feel so comforted by each others presence.
I mean i don't know about a lonely corner the videos on 7.7 million views at this point.
@@titasuzemeckas6585 or the comforted part... people suck lol
Cringe
We are just depressed people telling each other that it’s all gonna be ok
(Edit - Thanks to you guys and your words, I’m feeling a lot better and have made things in my life better and have realized that there’s always hope 🙂 thank you)
Very true...one dayyy 😑
that's the fuckin truth...holy moly,we're trully fucked...
Yes we are.
I agree. Truly agree
but it will be okay
When I was in primary school, I knew this boy who just really wanted to be friends with me. Thing is, he was ginger and he wore really thick glasses, so the whole school just kind of... Hated him. When I was younger, I just kind of followed everyone else, so I started to hate him for no reason. When we got to high school, he developed feelings for me. I turned him down since at that time, I didn't really know him that well. But I agreed to be friends with him, and that was the best decision I've ever made. He was really funny, he always knew how to make me smile, even in times when I felt really down... Soon enough, it was my turn to fall for him. He was always kind to everyone, but I felt like he was even kinder towards me. I mean, he probably wasn't, but I liked to think that he was. He was my best friend, and at the time, my only friend. But then... on the evening of November 22nd, 2017, he disappeared. Nobody knew where he went, not his parents, not his friends, I mean he hadn't even shown up at school that day. I wasn't able to sleep that night. On November 23rd, 2017, I was told that he had died. Suicide. I hate myself for not seeing that he wasn't ok. I hate myself for not realizing that he needed help. I hate myself for not being his friend earlier. I hate myself for turning him down. I hate myself for not telling him how I feel... Since then, time has been... weird. Hours either feel like days or seconds, I didn't see my graduation pass, I didn't see my prom happen, I didn't see my first day of college... I've felt empty since then. I still blame myself. I still miss him at 1am, at 2am, at 3am, at 4am, at 5am... And I know that I can't go back. I know that I'll never get him back. But it still hurts. And I'm just not sure for how long I can take all this pain...
Gabrielle Caron holy shit............
Gabrielle Caron hey I know it’s hard but you gotta keep on moving forward and just know that he’s up there watching over you and he still wants you to be happy. Remember there’s no such thing as a goodbye only a see you later. Right now you gotta make the most outta your life, you gotta give your life meaning. And when your successful, honor it all in his name. You got this and you’re not in this alone.
You should know that it’s not your fault❤️
Pain is not always worn on people’s sleeves.
You were a great friend and that’s all that matters! You will meet him in another lifetime where you will both rejoice of the grand friendship you shared! Stay strong! ❤️
Don’t ever blame yourself. You did the best you could to be in his life & I bet he was happier that you were a part of his. Best thing is to move on & let his energy feed on to you & spread the same positivity this man has given you & the world. He’s angel now & his spirit will remain with you as long as you live. Live on, love life, & most importantly love yourself 💙 because at the end of the day you’re an amazing human being!!
Gabrielle Caron you aren’t responsible for any of this. That boy saw you as one of his dearest friends, and even if you think that he hates you, you’re completely wrong. He loves you and he thinks of you as an angel. You were that boy’s everything, and that’s something that he’s grateful for. Even though he passed away, I can tell you that he doesn’t want you to feel the way that he did. He wants the best for you, Gabrielle. I know I’m some random stranger on RUclips and this’ll probably be the only time we cross paths ever again. But let me just tell you this and I hope it’ll stick with you. It’s not your fault, he wants the best for you, and he loves you. Take care.
P.S. how funny is it that my real name is Gabriel lol
you've been frequently visiting me in my dreams...it makes me sad when I wake up and I realize it wasn't real. I'll never watch your mouth turn upwards into that crooked smile again, hear the kindness in your voice when you say my name, hear your jaw pop every time you chew, or grasp my pinky tightly with yours. it's cold snap season, our favorite beer that so many memories can be attributes to. it's been nine months since I heard from you. this was not a clean break so I'm picking up the pieces that were mine to begin with, trying to find out who I am without you. it's 2:50 a.m. and I still miss you. -bell
Beautifully written
2019 has been the worst year ever. I've lost so many people. I don’t even know what I‘m doing with my life I just feel so empty.
2020 Update: what the fuck
2021 Update: yo I’m so confused. Time flies so fast. Oh and I still don’t know what I‘m doing with my life but I‘m feeling kinda better✨🙄
2022 Update: I gotta say, life is still pretty complicated but I’m growing. I do have hope though. I will find my happiness and I‘m sure all of you will too.
2023 Update: Let's see how it will be this year. I definitely have more stamina than the years before. I have big goals, even if I have to fight hard to achieve them. I've learned to get by on my own, to stay away from people who aren't good for me. I realize that many people are trying to throw hurdles at me to block my way. It's gonna be tough, but we only live once. I will keep fighting, just like all of you!
2024 Update: This year, I fulfilled a lot of dreams I wished for in 2023. But there are still many goals left. I lost a lot, but I also gained a lot. I lost people, I lost myself, and found myself again. It took a long time, but now I know what I can do with my life. I always wanted a peaceful life, but now I realize that life tests us with obstacles all over again. It has to be that way so we can grow. Sometimes we need to feel sadness to understand what bliss truly is. For the first time, I can say that I want to live. I’m happy to be alive, no matter what happens, no matter how hard it gets.
I hope you're comforted by knowing nothing lasts forever. Not even 2019. Prepare yourself for a better year in 2020. You deserve it. Love and light.
Naruhina U stay strong man. Ik it sounds cliche but you have to!
you are not alone honey, i feel the same :/
Stay up bro, it gets better
Yeah man, 2 funerals for me. Gf also got T boned bad in her car but pulled through. Then my sister's husband cheated on her after her maternity leave ended where she almost died from child birth. Then my gf left me. Keep that chin up because things run its course. Life. Death. Relationships. I'm starting my new job and building from the ashes and it feels good man
“The loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their whole world fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly.”
It was us against the world. Now it’s just me staring into space wondering where it all went wrong.
Falling deeper and deeper into blankness
Ikr
ye i got the same shit idk what i did wrong its so depressing
AlexFN sometimes it’s not what we’ve done. It’s what they have become and what we haven’t done to stop it
smokey tokes anxiety would control my life and how I acted. I wasn’t me and I started to scratch myself till I bled to make the pain go away. I fought so hard with my parents and I was sent to therapy. It was a long hard journey but I was finally stopping self harm. I was clean for about maybe 5 months and I did it again. My life has been going down hill the past few years. I didn’t have a will to live and I just wanted the pain to go away. After months of therapy and I was on medication I started to feel myself. I found motivation to stay clean in my friends. If I left this world behind I just left more pain to them. Now I don’t know how my story ends but it’s not over yet and I still have a long ways to go. Addiction is hard and the want to get high and numb the pain is strong. But your stronger than that. I don’t know how to give someone good advice I just tell them my story that is still going. There are ups and downs and people who might make us happy and people who might make us want to turn to our old habits. Every time I’m in pain I struggle to think clearly but I get through it because the want to do (bad habit) is there but it is not a need. Now I don’t want to tell you how to live your life or what to do it just here trying to relate to people to tell them they are not alone. Life will get better trust me. Stay strong I believe in you ❤️. Stay clean with me and everyone else.
When someone becomes your happiness..your smile..your comfort. They also become your pain..your sadness..your tears..
Why is all this so true 😭. Thought I was alone, maybe going crazy. Hope we all find happiness
@@chunleeofficial hope so too :(
can I use this comment for captions on my Instagram?
@@OmargalihM yeah sure
FUCKKKKKK I FELT THIS ONE 😭😭
Saturday night, 2am in the morning, the coffee has gone cold and the sandwich looks damp and unappetising. The house lights are switched off, the table lamp flickers, the computer screen is dimmed, lines and lines of text sprawled onto it. A yawn, a sigh, a distracted, anxious mind whirling on and on. The neon lights outside the window have a gravitational pull. Fumbling hands and fingers, an awkward walk. The keys allow a metallic click and the door rattles open and shut. Slouched shoulders, stiff jaw. The air is cold tonight. The windbreaker is pulled tighter and closer. The pace hastens. A hundred metre long walk, two buildings away. An abandoned alley. Narrow, tackily-painted open staircase. Thirty minutes of lofi till the top, thirty minutes of thinking, of missing, of numb and emptiness. The rooftop is spacious, ground wet from the rain, smelling like moss, childhood and forgotten memories. Lighter in hand, cigarette in another. A spark of light. Smoke. Stiff legs cross over the ledge. The city offers a striking view, but it’s hazy and underwhelming behind the dull smoke that numbs the pain and the senses. “Missing you” The letters jump from a building to another. A sigh. Footsteps. A tossed out cigarette. The rooftop is empty when the city turns bright and bustling.
-Been having half a year’s worth of writers’ block, this is nice for a change, if anyone comes across this thanks for reading
very visual. hope your on track now bro 🤝
It's a super nice read, i love your writing.
Damn its been 10 months huh? a lot has happened since then.
i went through a bad depressive episode and was diagnosed with depression and ocd, i was put on meds, went for and am still going for psychotherapy, i also got through the toughest academic year so far and this year i will be taking very different subjects, in fact im going for a linguistics selection test in two days time. Things are getting better, sort of. I haven't written anything since I posted this, but I promise myself that I will write something, anything, soon, and I will post it here for me to see and to remember.
Also i guess the theme of missing someone finally make sense for me, i started crushing on someone and is still crushing on them. Would totally take them out, 2am at night, two coffees in hand to the rooftop for stargazing or something.
@@loungecat looking forward to it (: I myself am in a depressive phase as well. I hope there's more in the future.
It sucks when the person that gave you the best memories becomes your best memory.
Sleep well. 🖤
I feel you I left the best people in my life and now I’m all alone with no one by my side!
@@mothoo3751 I feel the same bro
Felt that
I did all the best i can.. in the end..its just a memory. 🚶🏾♂️
Take care stranger 🖤
Saying “I love you” takes 3 seconds to say..
3 hours to explain..
But a lifetime to prove..
Thanks for the likes guys, I hope u have a blessed day.
and 1 arigatou brother
oh shit~
DAMN. felt that different bro
That's deep .
I certainly love this comment , it's really true
I've been reading the comments and I've seen lots of sad things. For the person who is reading this, I hope you have a lot of luck in your life and that everything goes well. And if things are going wrong, be calm, bad vibes will eventually leave, you always have to try to raise your head and continue with life. Sometimes love is bullshit, be strong.
Javibu thank u
the same goes for you.
@@norlyortiz2648
@@lovingleohours9681 Thanks dude!
Is love really bullshit, tell me the truth pls, and I can completely give up
People keep telling me that life goes on, but to me that’s the saddest part
Don’t even think about it...
Yeah.. just gotta take it day by day man...
You just want it to stop there
Its better to have loved and lost bud
i can feel you
the comment section makes me feel at home. I believe i’ve found my people.
Edit: Not long after I made this comment I got back with the ex who i thought was the love of my life. I was wrong. Things were terrible. I still struggle with moving on. we broke up christmas day 2022. He left me again, and has no feelings left for me. I’ve come to think of it as a good thing. If someone could pack up one day and stop caring about you, then they were never worth it. Do not spend your time lingering on someone who wouldn’t put in that same time in for you. you are worth, and you are deserving, of so much more than that.
I know 3 months ago I was here listening to this or reading the comments but then my love of my life gave me a 3rd chance she’s broken up with me before twice and we were together for 3 months then she broke up with me today now I’m back here thinking about her
Dawson Morrison i was here 6 months before a left the comment above thinking about how i lost mine too, eventually i accepted it and now i’m just waiting for someone better. it’ll come to us no doubt :)
JebaydenSmith me too honestly.
Right this is the place I belong to
Although my state may be even worst than yours , still I hope u find happiness
I guess we sometimes like to be alone but we hate feeling alone.
Thats me i hate it too múch i have feelings like my friends its fake ;(
you got it
I grew up with a schizophrenic paranoia father on hard drugs and a mother that loves me but worked from 7am to 9pm. So, I would go to school and then come home and be alone for hours on end and even when my mother got home we wouldn't talk much and then bed time. I'm now 25 and still have problems wanting to be left alone most of the time. I find myself just sitting in a dark room alone yet finding comfort in it.
Matthew Sowers oh thats sad Man
Matthew Sowers i dont have that or smthing like that so i really dont know how to help you i am sorry but what i can say is Goodluck
its funny how we are all listening to the same song but thinking about different people
Who are you thinking of?
That some shit
naw i'm thinking of the same person you're thinking of
Ash...
Im thinking about myself, one of the few persons in my life worth of my thoughts
Can we all take a moment to appreciate the golden people in the comment section. A round of applause fam
_“Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you troubles.”_
👀
dergeihe ._. Deep, but sadly extremelly true
So true yo
Wow, my eyes have been opened to the truth
Dam that is deep
She broke up w me like 4 months ago
I’ve moved on, on a different career path than most, happier now
But sometimes, some nights, I still think about her
I hate it.
shii im crying in the club rn
sad bro 😔 it hurts
This made me cry. Me and my ex broke up and i still think everyday that we might get back together, he might come back to me. But what if we never see each other ever again? This thought is so bitter I can't help but cry
@CryinSquirrel same for me, we broke up 2 weeks ago. Try to think it : The Best thing about this, is that we can think about her/him and be happy only by seeing his smile. Be happy about what u do with her/him, be habby about time u spend with, no the time u spend without. I love you, take care of u and don't fall in depression and melancholy like I try not to
@@timbrtl thanks . Yeah all that's left now are good memories , but they make me feel melancholic and it makes me feel so upset that none of that continued. Memories hurt me so much, it's not worth it to keep a good thought about certain people...
Man, she was the main focus of my life, everyday I was motivated just to see her smile. But she lied, pretended to be someone else, and I was in love with a mask. Then I discovered all those promises where empty: She acted different when I wasn't around, kissed other guys, told every handsome stranger she was single. I been feeling like a piece of shit for the last 6 months, and everytime I see her, she's so different, as if she was another person. I just want to cry... It's like she died, or never existed in the first place.
She doesn't deserve you, just let it go. Take a deep breath, light a cigarette if you smoke, and let it go. She wasn't even yours to begin with. Accept it, put your shit together and let it go...
Jose Ch29
Maybe it’s not the best way to put it, but use this as motivation. You’re not worthless, she is. She wasted her chance with you, a considerate, a loving, beautiful, human being.
She is nothing but trash. You’re much more, and deep inside of yourself you know that.
Fuck her, fuck what she meant, fuck what she said, fuck what she did, she is nothing. Prove to yourself that you’re better, show her what she missed and what she will be missing forever.
You will find the person that stays true to you.
Hey man same thing happend here, she never even existed in the first place trust me. There are people who will take advantage of empathetic men
I'm sorry... that hurts 💔💔💔💔💔
Bro, it's hard. There are women out there who can really hurt you, but there are also women out there who can really love you. If she didn't really love you, then she wasn't the one. That is very hard to hear, I know, all those experiences you had, all the good times now have bad connotations, but time heals all wounds. There's a special someone out there that's waiting for you, and when they find you and you find them, and you will, because you always will, then it'll be worth it. Hang in there, Jose
If you’re taking her for granted, trust me you will KNOW how much you love her only when she’s gone.
So true!!
true :/
true asf
Isn't it funny how a glimpse of someone can bring back a thousand memories?
John Virgil Bocalere or a really faint smell of something. I hate it man this girl that I really liked we stopped talking 4 years ago but she still on my mind
😔
I don't miss anyone but myself, i want my old self back. I'm tired of these shits that's going through my head everyday specially at night. How i wish i can sleep for some years to end this pain for a while.
Kookie Dough Hey, I know what you mean I’ve been through that same phase before. You can’t compare yourself to yourself. I know it’s hard but trust me, try as hard as you can to move on, focus and grow the person you are now. Much love
Same :(
What pain? These teenage kids are so emotionally weak acting like their family got murdered infront of them when their stupid short term little date dumped em, grow the fuck up..
Same bro..
Does any body feel like me? I mean I have everything but I have nothing...
I got good friends, really good friends but I have no one who I am really emotionally connected with.
I feel literally like an empty Void.
i was just reading the comments and i saw this one... you literally wrote the things in my mind. stuff that strangles me. there are lots of people for me but i feel alone in the crowded. so you're not alone buddy.
Idk if this will help the people who are feeling like this... but it gets a little bit better . Sure my life is still fucked up tbh but it’s better than it was a few months ago when I felt like that. But then one day I just said “fuck it” and tried opening up to my friends who I felt like I didn’t have much of an emotional connection with and slowly but surely I guess we kind of got a little more emotionally connected than we we’re before. There were a few rough patches and times when I felt like really confused and asked myself what was the point of me opening up. I guess I never believed the crap that if you open up you’ll feel better and at first you don’t but eventually you do I guess... and it took me my whole lofe to realize that and I hope you realize this sooner so that you yourself can find peace/happiness sooner. I’m am definitely not close to being happy but for sure I am closer than I was before. For the first time in a long time I actually have a little hope. It’s not that much hope but atleast I have it . I hope you guys find happiness one day whoever you are! :)
YES. OH MY GOD. NEVER KNEW HOT TO PUT IT INTO WORDS UNTIL YOU
I felt this just feels so empty right
i feel exactlyy the same
It's sad that the person who gave you the best memories became a memory.
@Devin Merrick and i here got ghosted to oblivion. He probably have a better life now ig…
They left for a reason I didn't know how much I hurt them until it was too late
Bro...
Yeah 💔💔
Wow repos
Too many people here are broken, this world sucks, but I hope things go better for you. 🖤
Hate the sadness.. if I had a button I'd end the sadness for all
If i had a button I'd end my life
It's funny how we're all from different places but we're here for the same reason
Thank you.
You too stranger. I hope your life brings lots of great things 🙏
The worst feeling is when the person who gave you the best of times and memories become your worst memory
True...
trust me, the time when your worst memory turns into a beautiful one will come, I promise you. You will not regret anything you did with that person, you'd be grateful because it taught you many lessons
stay strong bro.. we are gonna go through this.. dun worry
Hurt
@@p3gasussaint775 amen brother, the sunny days will come
It’s when you see them move on,
that’s when you truly feel it.
Matthew Fisher I felt this on a new level
ouch.
that's all i can say.
she's gone with someone else.
ouch.
Right..
Move on..! I hate this word .....
ever saw someone you loved just hold hands with her new love, shit hurts man
It’s crazy how we’re all connecting through our own issues right now. It makes me feel less lonely♥️
“Anyone can give up; it is the easiest thing in the world to do.
But to hold it together when everyone would expect you to fall apart, now that is true strength.”
:(((((
Etika :(
🔥🔥🔥
such a good phrase. I'll hang it on my wall. Thanks
👏🏽
"gotta go bud"
"sure tomorrow i'll be here"
*last time online 6 years ago*
damn u man 😭
😭
true pain
where are you dan * sobs *
The same beat but instead I moved before social media and it makes it hurt to think I won't ever see my friends again.
I don't miss her as a person because she hurt me, I miss what she was for me. Someone I could trust and talk to...
i know what you’re feeling brother.. i got the same situation. I swear you’ll eventually find someone that’ll give you all of the love and affection you need.
Love you, take care.
@@underscoreatickx9107 thanks man, I am sure you will too...
I feel the same thing right now
Im gonna take ur words because u expressed what I couldn’t
@@ikramdeham6635 Believe me, I couldn't think about anything for the last few months
she was the first girl i truly loved, she was the first girl i ever kissed, the first girl i ever hugged, the first girl to make me truly happy...
@Bruxy thanks bro, i’m doing fine. make sure you do everything for in your power to keep her because that girl rare, many people don’t stay in relationships with their first “everything”
"i always like walking in the rain,so no one can see me crying"
- Charlie Chaplin
Me 2
great
This was my high school senior Quote
been using this quote since middle school
"I always like walking in fog, so no one can see me smoking" 😁
For those who came here for the vibes, it's better you don't read the comments. Damn, y'all getting me depressed..
Yeah.. i get this..
@@alexbrt333 Stfu don't get me depressed 😭
Alex Brt hahahhhah shit bro
RUclips is like a venting place, I love it 🥺
😭
Crying at 2am.
I miss you. So much.
Never thought you gonna leave us this early.
Rest in peace.
Dad.
😔
Be strong
idk who u are but stay strong :(
He will always watch over you. Stay strong
dont give up
I Am a Dad,of 3 Daughters that I love more than Anything Ive ever loved in this Life,their Mom has a problem with dope and booze and so shes not around now and its just been me and the girls for years now...had to borrow my daughters phone to watch some vids my phone is Toast....anyways ran across this video,then this comment and it reached a place inside I go to sometimes and maybe itll help someone...I think about it sometimes..that I will at some point have to leave this life,as it Should be because NO parent should ever have to bury their child,its the Natural Way of Life that the old leave and the young live on..Im 47 and Honestly I Am NOT afraid of Death,Everyone must take this path..What I am Afraid of,what hurts me to my core is leaving my children behind..who will take care of them when they hurt inside,Who'll comfort them when the hands out the hurt it does:(Who'll Protect them from the evil that people do:(You must understand that the hurt you feel is no less than a Parent does when they know thwy have to move on..and the Greatest hurt I feel is the thought of my girls living on in Pain because Im gone..My God no Parent wants that its Heartbreaking...I Want my girls to LIVE this life,to feel Joy,Love,Happiness and all the Best things in Life,but their is no sweet without the sour and I Know they will feel hurt as well....but Please God dont let it be over Me..I want them to remember Me ofcourse but I want it to be with a smile not tears...I don't know you but I know one thing is for Sure...that your Father obviously Loved you because you loved him too:)And the LAST thing in this life that he wanted was for you to be in Pain:(I Understand that greiving is a natural part of loss but Im without doubt that your Dad Prayed for your Happiness:)I hope you'll consider these things and it brings you some comfort,and I Will Not belive death is the last time Ill see my girls because even the next life wont be enough to keep me from them...Best of Luck to you and I hope you are feeling better:)
Who ever is reading this
Now stop crying better days are yet to come ur masterpiece
Never been in relationship
Never had a break up
And yet here I am
Why? Because heartbreaks can come in different ways
I know what it feels bro
no
@@westsidejb9660 ?
Same, often I just feel lonely and sad without any particular reason
@@qamararfin7534 NO?????????
it’s so weird , I gave her my everything but it wasn’t good enough, yet she gave me nothing and it was more then good enough
Relate on this one so much
I feel ya bro but this just shows she wasnt good enough and you were too good for her. Life is infront of ya and you have people with you
keep your head up king you're gonna drop your crown
No Cap 😂😂😂
That's when you fall in love mate, everything looks beautiful when it's not. Keep up, love you.
im so Lonely
Oh you too?
then sit and listen to the music with me
you see?
now we got eachother
youre not lonely anymore
💙
❤️
🖤
@@ghostt2250 🖤
I hope everyone reading this comment is doing well during these strange times. I wish you all the best, good luck and stay healthy!
“When we hit our lowest point we are open to the greatest change”
Remember this quote, maybe it’ll help you someday, like it did for me🙂
Rick I was deadass just watching the last airbender then I remembered that quote wtff
This is so true. I’ve experienced this myself
Legend
Sometimes life is like this dark tunnel. You can't always see the light at the end of the tunnel, but if you just keep moving... you will come to a better place.
Uncle Iroh
@@Rick-tx9rn omg the last airbender really is my fav series
"It's funny how these 8 letters from your mouth can change my entire life. But these same letters from my mouth won't make a difference to you."
~Yours truly
wow this one actually hit my feelings so hard right now
Kinchok Wangdi AMEN i
Pain, love, after scrolling through these comments I’ve realized something. Almost all of us are empty in some way, whether it’s from a loss or not having an emotional connection with any friends. We’re all empty, but we don’t have to be. If you know yourself so well then go out there and fix it. For me my entire life I’ve been alone, single mom, two kids, older sibling I couldn’t play with. I really never couldn’t get close to anybody when I was growing up, and even when I did they rejected me eventually. And bullied me, I know the feeling of having the whole world against you, I couldn’t even walk outside the whole neighborhood without being threatened or yelled at by a bunch of hoodlem kids. I didn’t have a warm cozy house during the winter or a nice cool house during the summer. I didn’t have a mom who cared about me to show it. Everytime I would talk to her she would take out all her anger on me. It fucking hurts man. At school I pretended everything was okay, I always made people laugh just to cover up my pain. I always smiled in order to fake happiness. But one thing I realized is that people cannot win against themselves. You and your self are equal, it will forever stay that way. The more you try to fight yourself the more fighting theres gonna be because you aren’t getting any stronger. The only way we can win against the pain and hate in our lives is with other people. Don’t ever try to do anything alone, and never give up. Even now I’m still fighting these feels, trying to figure out my place in this world, still chasing those bonds with people I don’t have. I know I don’t have anything right now, I mean like I know people and they think I’m pretty cool. But I still feel lonely at the end of the day. I know i should be feeling sad right now, but for me I want to fight it. I go back out there every day and give it all my might to go out there and fight the world. Even right now I’m getting so fired up I can’t even fucking believe it. I won’t give up no matter what, and so should you.
Dude, thx for your letter, i mean big thx for you :)
Fuuck man, hits home deep, same family situation cept im the older bro. Father abused my mother, leave country, mother develops a habit. It made me feel weird and at such a young age I didn't know how to handle it. I played video games to take me out of it all. I never developed the skills, the morales and other essential attributes from having functional parents. I went to a big Secondary school and anxiety ate me to the core and I just let my social life die, depression the whole shebang. Worst years of my life hands down, the pain I felt day in day out cannot be put into words. I very likely could have done something atrocious to myself. But alas I am still here, making progress. I have been doing fitness for months now, looking strong and lean. I've come so far socially, still lacking connection with someone, but I can wait. There will be good times, and bad times. You gotta know that man, you gotta. Just yesterday I was so happy and I went to work and just died inside but while I was happy I told myself stay strong when it hits you, grind it out. We all deserve love and care but take it from me you gotta watch out for yourself. Don't ever let anybody talk shit to you, fuck them, I've been through enough shit in this life to let someone take me down, stay strong brother, do what you love cuz thats all we got.
Haneix thnx man and a update on my letter. Those kids that used to bully me and hate me now respect and are my friends. I don’t have to go through that anymore, I also found my true friends and got my own group now. Even though I’m still lonely at home, when I go out there I got them. Now I want a girl that I can truly love and have a group of people as close as family. To make up for the lack of family I have. I can’t even share my true self with them cause they’ll go back and tell others or blame me for stuff they caused. It’s like dealing with strangers. Plus now we’re being threatened of being put out or going broke, since I’m the only man in the house I’m gonna have to step up and do something about it.
Haneix but for you man. Please remember to never go through anything alone, when we are truly alone is when we feel the worst pain of this world. Stay in the present and keep mind of your goal, if it’s happiness surround people around you who share your thought, ideas, goals. Accept you for who you truly are and never change yourself. Let your mind go free and breathe, and dont get caught up in the internet either. And if you never give up and keep enduring you’ll make it. I never thought that the people who once made me want to die would be the reason why I want to live my life again. Alls I can say is even if you do fail when people see you trying over and over again, they start to change and want to help you.
@@youtubespeasant893 That's rough, I can fully sympathise with struggling to share deep feelings with family members for fear of them talking behind your back. Look after yourself and do what you enjoy and you'll find a girl someday. Having to step up to the plate is hard, it might seem so unjust and unfair but it will make you ever so much stronger as a person. Responsibility forces us to act and gets things done, it is far better than to be left to your own devices.
I was 17 at that time and he was 25. I had gone to visit my hometown during the summer break. When i first saw him i instantly got this giddy weird feeling but did not understand what it was all about. He decided to drop us all home that night. It was a cool night even though it was in the middle of June. When i was getting dropped off i caught him looking at me from the center mirror of the car. That night i was thinking of him untill i fell asleep. All this feeling was so new to me but it felt really good. The next day i asked a friend if he was seeing anyone and she understood i had a thing for him. The weird thing is even though she felt that i liked him, because i did not understand why all of a sudden i was asking about him either. I guess that was what the first real crush felt like. The next day he called me because she gave him my number.
I remember walking out of the house and even though there were so many mosquitoes biting me i was standing there talking to him. The rest of the summer was a blur and beautiful. He would call me up in the middle of the night if it rained because i told him i loved rain. We would go for drives around town eating good food in cafes. Summer afternoons in a lake. Ice cream in a mall. The whole shenanigans. I once told him i liked Bryan Adams songs and he came down my house and sang out loud! it was just crazy! I was slowly getting swoon by him. But he had problems. He had a lot of problems. He had drinking issues and not a long time ago back then he was into drugs. He had friends who were only in it for the money and had bad influence. I soon had to leave and go back to my residing city and he called me up and said wants to see me for the last time. He hugged me and told me I was too young for anything else lol. His hug. The scent from his cologne. I still remember.
Back in the city he calls me up. My dad did not like him at all so he shouted him over the phone to never call me up (for obvious reasons). After months i call him to ask how he is doing but he tells me i should not stay in touch. And that was the end of it.
Fast forward to when i am 30. Over the years I would occasionally think of him, especially when it rained. But life got in the way. Work, marriage and then children. I just learned that he has passed away. He over dosed on drugs and he died in rehab. His parents too passed away before him so he probably died alone too. Now i think of it, if i would have been able to save him if i had ever gone out with him. Or at least have an impact to save his life? Now I am getting a divorce and think if he was alive would i be in touch with him? I still remember him always standing next to his car when he would wait for me. My mind would always wonder if i did go out with him what would have been.
my heart get broke again after read this... are you ok ?
this was very hard to read.
i ruined an incredible person with my insecurities and never feeling like i was enough for her. i regret leaving her so many times i regret not cherishing her. i regret wasting her time and love. she was everything to me and i threw it all away because of insecurities. i had the perfect person in life that made me feel complete but i didn’t have my life together. i didn’t have enough for the both of us. i hate myself for being so sickly and diseased. i could never love myself the way she loved me. i miss her always. she’ll forever be the ray of sunshine in my dark twisted idea of a life. i love you.
oGHOSTbear Same brother same :(
I was looking for a comment that could relate to my situation and you’ve done it. I had everything.
Sameeeee :/
oGHOSTbear just fucked it up cause i did the same thing, you aren’t alone in this :/
i almost dropped a tear reading this cuz its so relatable
its been 9 months, since the breakup
12 months since I felt you drifting away
15 months since you told me it was going to be okay and there was nothing to worry about
18 months since my grandfather passed on and you said I love you
21 since i asked you out.
2 years since I was happy
Now I lay at night, not most
thinking, crying of those memories we had
But I smile most, because I’m now more me than ever before.
You smile but yet you are devoid of happiness? Think about that.
You just made me cry 😭
that’s full of hope
KerPloonk grow a pair and man up
We have similar break up history. 😭 But, I'm more okay now.
You know, I fell in love with a girl, and I loved her for about 8 months. I didn't tell her about that. So, once we went for a walk and she asked me to text her crush from her phone, 'cause she was like scared to text him and she deleted all messages she wrote. I texted him from her phone about her feelings to her crush, and he said that it would be better if they continue their friendship. You know, I was a bit happy about that. I almost forgot about that situation, and in general we haven't been even chatting after that for half a year or even more. But I was in love with other girls, so I didn't actually care about her life. We started chatting again when coronavirus pandemic came to my country, and at that time I started dating another girl, and I stucked in abusive relationships. I managed to get out of it, but after I felt empty. So my ex crush helped me to restore my self-confidence, we met many times, chatted a lot, and i fell in love with her again. I thought that we could actually date, and i will do everything for her to make her become my girlfriend. Do you know what turned out later? That she's dating her crush, like that guy I texted to. I have started their relationship and ruined mine. Perfect. I still love her, and she still loves this guy.
I'm sorry for mistakes in English, I'm just learning it.
And thank you so much if you've read my story 💖
F in the chat boy, live is harsh, but we got to keep a smile on our faces.
Love!
keep ur head up man and leave her get her out of ur head I know iths hard bat that is what u have to do chase ur dreams and work on urself bro u got it!!
trust me i had some relative shit like that its besser to drop her trust me i dropped her also and now after 1 1/2 months i realise what idiot i was for loving her so long and she never be thankful for that
sorry for my bad english, i'm german
I know dude its hard to think that only you think that way. I wish i could tell her how much i care for her but i know she doesnt think the same
If you truly love her, don’t let her go man. It’s a mistake i have made, so you better not. Even, even if she doesn’t love you back don’t hold your head down. Leave her knowing that you gave it your all and that you will find the one for you. Good luck dude
Almost every night since 2020 I've been listening to this mix. Food to my soul
fr
2019 has been the best but also the worst year of my life so far..
Relatable af
Dont be sad because it can always get worse:)
I Totally relate!
this is the most accurate thing ever. for the first half of my year i was living ny best life, always having fun with my friends and acing school. then the second half came. i stopped caring about school and lost all my friends. not sure what to do. i have several therapists and they arent helping :(
Same for me.
Me : feeling perfectly fine
RUclips : don’t you miss her?
Me: ....smh
Hit me hard too man
True af
Man imma kill myself
@@Chombascuss Same
Lmao tell me why this hit me, literally was doing fine and then I seen this video..
I love you guys. every single one of you that ended up here
Martina XO we love u too XO fam❤️
heartbreak club ❤️.
Ly too even i miss clicked a video
❤️
I can feel the pain behind those words brother ❤️ u r not alone
I listen to this when I'm sad and got no one to talk to, just cry my heart out. It hurts but it got the comfort that I like.
Hey I’m here if you wanna talk to me
@@billy2485 😂
@@rezahadad6971 ?
dont pretend like i didnt mean anything to you, i was there, i saw the way you looked at me
I related
i thought about the night when i realised i fell in love because of his fucking look, two years later i’m still trying to forget about him
I didn't Clara, in fact, I don't even know who you are xdxddd
@@anais7083 you are a girl but how you are heatbroken.?
:((
If u ended up getting the suggestion of this video from YT, congrats u r broken
Abhilash Das just got recommended to me, I clicked because the aesthetics were cool. Didn’t know I’d end up sobbing from the comments
Damn right I'm broken.
sadly, i’m broken:/
Damnit
How did you know?
But really, it does suck because it's just apart of our life and knowing we're are broken but can't fix ourselves is a huge disappointment
It’s okay to find comfort in sadness sometimes.
LeMon ShaunDreya I love you for that comment
Amen
LeMon ShaunDreya
How? Sadness and darkness just..traps you.
Idk how you can find comfort in it..you can escape it though.
It sounds so weird and like a contradiction, but it's true
Kyle Majerczyk we all are humans and feel emotions expressing ur sadness and finding comfort in it isn’t all that bad you can be positive and be sad but being negative and sad now that’s bad
i am tired of living in this fake world. its full of pain. i wanna go back to the time where there was pure love, pure friendship. its hurts so much i feel like crying. thank you for this music. it keeps me alive somehow. thank u so much. please never stop uploading such lofi music. it helps many people like me who arent okay who are depressed and extremely sad. thank u once again so much
You are the most important person of your life, remember that.
True
So far man. So far.
"goodbye..?
oh no, please. can't
we go back to page one
and do it all over
again?" ~winnie the pooh
No
I feel your pain
damn why does winnie the pooh have so many emotional quotes? this is like the 2nd ive seen that hits me In My Feels™
She: still no.. :(
Crazy, its 4 years ago, and when I'm listening to this Music, and close my eyes, I see her smile, smell her perfume... and she was right... I'm a loser, living in the past.
Relatable
You can’t make someone else happy till you make yourself happy keep your head up there’s many people out there to create a new future with you’ll find your flame I promise ❤️
Because the past is beautiful... unlike todays.. its okay mate I am living in the past two
So relatable I miss mine from a year ago but stay strong
Now be a winner looking towards the future it's hard itll take awhile but doing you is always worth it
I just miss when we smiled together and held hands and it was just us.
😌😔
Idk who needs to hear this but:
You are loved, you are not alone
CR0SSEYED JESUS thank you.
❤️
Ily
you're a legend
Its not True 😶
It’s not that I miss you, it’s that i feel that I was not good enough for you. You couldn’t find happiness in me. But I found it in you. I tried to make you feel love but I can’t force love into you, I can’t make you feel like how I feel of you. I was blinded by the quote “ The one” or the word “ Fate “ but I noticed nothing of that is real. Not as real as the love I had for you.
Compa Mario I feel you
aww
I didn’t know that’s how I felt, but this lined up perfectly
Me crying
You make me want to end this all.
it’s 3am and I can’t stop thinking about everything we could have been
Hit me hard
it's so sad knowing we could've experienced so much together, overcome our problems, and so much more. But because I was too selfish and left you. And here I am now hoping for us to be together.
she left me for no reason ... its been 3 years and i still see her in my dreams ... if its not love then why i still see her in my dreams .. i cant
Shrug
Hopefully you found someone else and your doing better
@@billy2485 I'm nvr doing better,my life is how is been n I'm miserable,dying inside doesn't make me appreciate life or seeing the world from here,doesn't help,miss my dog,if I had an abrupt n quick death I wouldn't be living like this,shrug mmhmm,nothing/nobody in my so called life/world makes me happy it isnt even tolerable,just is I suppose n I dont even want it to be like this..yet it hasnt changed for the better n I've obviously not moved from herenmydogisntwme
@@hippiegoddess8372 I’m sorry I wish I could do something but if you wanna talk elsewhere just let me know
Never put everything you have into the relationship. You can show them you care but don't try to crush them with affection. Stay yourself, don't let the relationship overwrite you.
If you really love them, let them go. If you really love yourself, let it go.
We often do not know how things got complicated and why it became cold between you two. There is no need to break yourself finding it out. The search for a "why" will only waste more time that you should rather spend loving yourself.
Learn to be even more grateful. If the whole ride was enjoyable do not cry that it is over. Be grateful that it happened. If it was a nightmare thank god you are free now.
If you are like me and still feel hurt, be patient. Try something new in life or pick up something you haven't done during the relationship.
Build up your confidence. This is not the job of a partner it is our own task. Do it. Don't pursue the affirmation of someone else. Respect yourself and love yourself. Why should anyone else do it if you can't?
One thing that could help is finding out why people love or respect you. You are stuck with yourself 24/7. Better start appreciating this person that will never go away, will never leave you. This also helps if your goal is to find someone new. Show that you care for yourself and eventually others will see and care too. Don't do it solely for others though. Do it for yourself. You are the pilot of the flight you call your life. You are the sun that gives you vision and warmth. You are the hero that will take this flight back home. Never forget that this plane needs you. And everyone on there trusts and believes in you.
Wow! Thanks! That actually helped!
Thank you for this!
@@Dan-da-Lion Hold your head up high my friend. Give yourself some love and attention.
I needed to read this. Losing her has made me into a broken man.
@@darylianraja7522 There are always two sides on a coin. She lost you too. I hope you give your heart time to heal and time to forgive.
I don't regret, I have no regret.
But damn, I'm 18, just finished high school, gonna moove to the other side of the country to study in a prestigious school.
Gonna leave all my friends, my family, my crush too. It feels like time is flowing through my hands and nothing can stop it.
God, I'd never think growing was such a sacrifice.
i feel you, i feel the same. Im 17 and if also worried whats gonna happen when im 18, scary times man, scary times............
Life gonna be shit more than you could ever imagine. Have someone you trust and live
You are soooooooooooooooooo young
@@goneburnforher yeah we are
Think about others, Cristiano Ronaldo left his mother and father at home when he was 13, he cried everyday, he didn’t get to see them, now he passed the hard times for greatness
“We didn’t know we were making memories, we just knew we were having fun!” - Winnie the Pooh
what about the memories that weren't fun?
@@foolishwolf3700 That's basically life, isn't it? There's no good without the bad and vice-versa.
Honestly at this point i feel like I’m just staying and tolerating it so we can look back at good memories instead of bad ones.
Your name is literally Formal egg dude.
Damn what a quote, I'm gonna wrote that in my philosophy essay
honestly, I've been listening to this playlist for three years now. I always go to RUclips to find a new playlist and always come back here. it's like my personal place of calm. thank you very much!
It's sad time once again boys . . .
I understand what it is like to be without someone that you care about; The emptiness that surrounds you, the silence that prefaces every day, and the confusion of what to do and where to go next. I am truly sorry for what you've been left to deal with - you deserve love, not loneliness. While life may not always offer second chances and opportunities to go over past events, it is always changing, giving you the ability to move past those who you miss and meet those who won't miss you - instead, they'll be right by your side. It's 2am and you still miss them - tomorrow is a new day, however, and something will change, for better or for worse. Until good times roll around, in the mean time, listen to some music.
Enjoy.
thank you
Chemo Emo i needed that, thank you ♡
Because of u Depression was rly not that hard as it would be if u were not here.
Now I feel better and I have to give u a big thank you
So good to see you under every video on this channel. It‘s a nice thing to know that you‘re here.
Thanks it hurts with every heart beat but knowing that the pain will never win as long as you keep living is interesting to think about and knowing you'll never let it win is enough to make you stronger than you were life will never be fair but knowing that you make it work anyway just shows how strong you are anyways YEET!!¡¡!!
I miss having feelings.. I just feel empty. Like something is missing, but I don't know what.
Lana Del Bae good luck
Me too. Like, I have one feeling and it is just kind of a big open loneliness. Like, I could stare off into nothingness forever
@@john-carlosynostroza same
@@john-carlosynostroza i honedtly wish I could fall in love with someone but I seriously don't feel anything for anyone
Same. Something just feels empty... I don't know what but the emptiness kills all the way in
I miss her. My first love at 19 yo.
I was her first real boyfriend, her first kiss, she was my third girlfriend and my first real love. We went through many things together. We went through hard distancing times, we went through the hate of her father towards me (even though there's no reason for him to hate me), we went through the times that she felt like the world was crushing her together and many more things that I could list but I'm too tired for remembering.
When she broke up with me, she told me many things that made her take the decision. She said that being with someone who's depressed was very exhausting. She said that she couldn't see a future with me and that's why she wanted to end things there...
Man... To say I was crushed is a understatement, I cried -because men can cry- and I did it for weeks, nonstop.
As time went by I started crying less, but the pain I felt never faded away.
During that time, I became closer to my father, he would pick up the phone just lo listen to me sobbing nonstop. I really needed him, but destiny planned things differently. He got sick, and in a matter of 2 weeks, his soul left this world, leaving me alone.
I had to start becoming an actual man, an adult. If I ever felt like crying, I'd cry alone.
I started exercising to deal with the pain that I felt, and it kind of worked.
The other day, I felt like I was a different man, a stronger, more mature, wiser man. So I decided to call my ex girlfriend with hopes of coming back together, and maybe get a second chance now that I am a different person.
I called her. The conversation went smoothly, as if nothing changed. I said to her all the things that I changed and not only for herself but for myself as well. I was so happy because I felt like no one could stop me... But, then she said "Sebastian... I don't know how to tell you this, but I have a boyfriend now...".
After that we kept talking for a bit, and then we said our final goodbyes.
I don't know why I didn't get a second chance. I'm sure I'm a good, a really good man, but things doesn't end like fairy tales. Some of us don't have a happy ending.
Someone who leaves u when u r depressed doesn't deserve u , u r a good man sir , never think otherwise
You are a good man,, you will find a person who can thread you better.
Dont worry there are many people who come in our life and goes...some day eventually you will find someone who will like you for who you are ....who will not care about what other people tells...who will always be in your side no matter what .....You just have for the right moment......
Thank you
I would like to end my speech here🤣🤣🤣🤣
Yo bro ur such a strong person! U definetly deserve better than her. :)
I know it sounds cliché, but you will meet a woman who will share your pain! You’ll love her even more than your first love, even if it doesn’t seem like it. Trust the process, keep bettering yourself to become the best possible man you can be and that one lucky girl will notice that! Much love, man!