Hey guys, I’m very aware that this video does NOT paint me in a very good light. I understand that a lot of ppl will judge and I’m okay with that. I’m not living the way I once was, but I do believe in being genuine, open, and honest. Trust me, I wish a lot of these things WEREN’T true but they are a part of my testimony. I’m at work right now and have to go back on the floor but I appreciate all of you being so kind. Thank you for being patient with me, I’m a work in progress and I’m not going to let myself down. ☮️❤️🙏🫶💯
You are doing great! We all have done things we aren’t proud of. The fact that you have acknowledged what was wrong and are bettering yourself, speaks volumes of your character. I think you have a huge heart and honestly want to stay clean….and you will! I can see it! 😊. Maybe sometime you could do a live on RUclips with your subscribers? We are all here for you!
Nobody is perfect! I think most of us have some sort of past that we may not be too proud of but I think you have shown to everyone how far you have come. You seem like an amazing person, please don't be hard on yourself . I think the idea about interviewing Mom would be cool! Look forward to seeing what's next! Have a great night!!!💜✌🏼
I have the same schedule!! 3 pm - 12 am !!! Then I work a barber shop a few hours a few days a week before my career government job I squeeze the gym in ! You got this ! ❤I’m tired always but keep it moving
Fully respect your grind. I'm retired and sober now for 32 years. It all pays off... Believe me. As far as your recent change in life, just know God is taking you where you need to be. Appreciate your videos. I'm a new subscriber, because you seen to be real about your goals. Looking forward to seeing where it goes. God Bless😊
Don't worry about responding to comments when you get out of work. If you work in a factory it's probably physically demanding. Focus on relaxing. If people get upset that you can't respond in the comments, don't mind them anyway. We are here to support you. Don't burn yourself out.
Love your videos. I am the stepmom of a stepson who died of a heroin overdose a few years ago and the wife of an addict who has been sober for 14 years. You are an inspiration.
Please do not feel pressure to respond to all comments. We totally understand and you have shown your efforts to build community. So be blessed and we will continue to pray for you and your sobriety.
Hi Sweetie! You look very tired too. Please, don't burn yourself out trying to keep up with replies here on your channel. We don't need a video every day either !!! The most important thing is taking care of YOU. You are constantly in my thoughts and prayers. Love you bunches, Hun !! Mama2 ❤🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻❤️ ❌️⭕️❌️⭕️❌️⭕️ P.S. I would love to meet Mama1. 😍 P.S.S. If you've talked to your boss there in MI and he'll hold your job or you two work something out, I think a trip home to see family would be great !!! You're more than welcome to come see Mama2 in Arkansas. 😍 I'm so, so sorry this has happened. I honestly don't get it, but I hate it and I don't think you deserved it. I also know that you are going to make it through this and come out victorious! Big hugs and lot's of prayers. ❤
We have saying here in Australia - good on ya mate! Meaning well done. So good on ya Four! I’m glad we are here to cheer you on and support you. Even if we don’t get a reply - it’s not about us! Use your time in the way that is least exhausting. A few good nights of sleep will be transforming and prob seeing the fam too. Just one foot in front of the other for the moment. You are safe and well that is the main thing. The stories of your past are real and raw and make your transcendence even more remarkable. I think we would all like to give you a collective hug! But a virtual one will do! ❤
He’s going to be just fine. He already looks and sounds better. Sobriety is number 1. Something and someone better suited for him is another day closer to finding him. ❤
Take in all the support from your family possible. You are in such a vulnerable place right now. Emotional, mental,spiritual and physical help is much needed and if they can provide that for you, I say go for it. Be kind to yourself. Don’t put so much pressure on yourself in responding to comments. Be more worried about letting yourself down than your YT community bc we understand where you are at. Take care of yourself. God bless.
It's always good to hang out with parents when going through hard stuff. Good idea. Im in Central Florida. Weather's great right now so good time to come.
You remind me so much of my dad growing up. He struggled with drugs & alcohol his entire life/fighting demons but was the sweetest man with the purest heart. He was my heart & soul. I miss him so much may he continue to R.I.P. Please continue to be positive & remain strong ❤❤❤
I am praying you get some sleep and rest. Keep going with your soberity and checking in with your sponsor and going to meetings. We all need a support group and people who care, esp if we are addicts. You are strong, and you are kind and hardworking. Gods gonna turn things around. Take one day at a time. God bless you, brother in Christ!! Sending you hugs and prayers!! 🤗💖🙏🙏PS- I think an interview with your Mom would be awesome. 😊
I’m so happy you have a supportive family and a wonderful boss. I know from past experience when you’re with some one who has a hard time making up their mind it’s best to not go back. It could be a life time of ups and downs…leaving, staying, not sure from the other person. The hard part is the other person is going through heartache too because they honestly can’t make up their mind of what they want to do. Time will pass and along the way people will meet new people and have new job opportunities and life goes on. It’s hell on earth being with someone who is up one minute and down the next. It would be an impossible journey to live in that situation. We can pray for people but it’s best to realize everyone has to walk their own journey, sometimes alone for awhile to get to the other end, then life becomes much easier. God bless and keep you. Meeting your sponsor is a great idea and seeing your family are all positive steps!❤🙏🕊I’m proud of you!
Ah. Yea I can't sleep at another place comfortably. I need my own room and bed to feel best to sleep. Things will get better as the days pass. Proud of you for being so open and still showing up for yourself at gym work recovery etc.❤💪🏻 WE LOVE YOU FOUR!
Prayers for you. You’ve got this! I’d love to see an interview with your mom! I’ve been through a lot with my son since the age of 17. He’s 35 now and still struggles. I’ll never lose faith. I know God’s got you! ❤️🙏
no this video shows your honesty, and that is a big part of recovery isn't it? Florida sounds like a great idea as long as you are not letting down your boss who sounds like an excellent person to let you crash with him. keep strong
You got this brother. Get to that family ❤ let them pour some love on to you. Make The Almighty your #1 and watch the blessings flow. Stay in constant repentance and Let Almighty be your first love ❤I was there and when I gave up and called out and made Him my #1 blessing in abundance came forth. Walk in Faith ❤
Hi Four im glad your working and taking care of yourself. Your a light to so many others. You need your rest and dont worry about answering comments, your mental health is key. Your truly a blessing
Just the fact that you're trying, makes all the difference.. You have a smile that lights up a Beautiful Aura around you.. Keep looking up,, Always keep looking up..❤
Four, can I suggest that you contact a couple of high schools or middle schools and offer to speak to groups of students? Give them the link to your "From the Heart" video so they can see your style.
Praying for you, Forr. I am sorry it is so hard right now. God will direct your steps and heal your heart. He is good at it. I know. Time with your sponsor and NA group and time with family sounds like it will help build you up. Lord, hold him close and help him see You through this hard time. Thank You for his boss and his generosity. Give Forr wisdom and help him as he makes decisions moving forward about what to do and where to be. I pray for comfort and encouragement. In Jesus name. Psalms are good to read...when David was going through it and he really opened up to God. He's got you, Forr And He won't let you go.
Four, you are doing great! I am sorry youre all out of sorts. broken heart, no real place to call your own, and shifts that leave you lacking sleep. You are an amazing, caring, sweet, handsome man! Your heart is so big! I know you will eventually find the right one! You deserve it. God knows the desires of our heart! Keep strong. You are like my little brother I want to tell you its going to be ok! YOU are doing it! You got this! MUCH LOVE AND LIGHT (and prayers) from Canada
I wish you all the best Four. Keep making the "next right decision", as you say. Just always be kind to yourself - you can only serve others when you first take care of yourself 🙏
Hang in there 4, we care and want you to do great things. I would love to see an interview with your Mom. I would also like to hear how your Mom coped with all that you have been through. I have a son that is 36 and seeing him go through all you went through would have tore me up. Take care, 4. You got this! ❤
We all need support throughout a lot of things. I’m glad you’re finding a big benefit to connecting with people through your channel. Sending you a lot of love and so much positive energy!!!☀️☀️
It's a good idea to go see your family. Life is short & in the end, they are so important. Keep your heart close to Jesus & he will guide you & give you peace & direction. Praying for you 🙏
You are going to do well in life. We all reap what we sow. Keep sowing good seed. You’re going to find a real lady who will appreciate you. You’ll look back & be so glad this relationship didn’t work. Hang in there!🙏💙
Four, please don’t take on anyone’s troubles right now.❤ this is your time to heal.❤allow yourself to heal. You seem like such a kind man. You will figure this out. Stay single for now. Love and 🥰 your cyber grandma
I’d like to meet your mum , you should do motivational talks in school about fitness and nutrition and to avoid bad choices you would be great at that ❤
Four, it doesn’t matter what happened in the past. All that matters is who you are now, and I have really grown to like you and admire you and I am really glad I can still follow you in your life through your videos. I think you are a sweet kind soul who is doing his best and there are not enough people in the world like you. Well done for wanting to always do the right thing ❤
Thank you four for being so honest, answering questions and being upright with us, in this world that means everything to me and others! You got this ! 👍 ❤
His heart ❤️🔥 burns for you!! Just one step at a time Brother. Awesome provision coming in on what you’re deciding to do on the channel! Even these videos of you expressing such common emotions after a breakup is mighty for those going through the same. Bless you! From glory to glory He takes those who trust Him. Holdfast, He could use it ALL FOR GOOD! HE SEE’S YOU AND HE IS WITH YOU! MAY YOUR EYES BE OPENED TO HIS UNDENIABLE PRESENCE IN GREATER MEASURE!!!
You are truly a courageous man. Please stay on the positive road and if you ever decide to have another love into, stay away from somebody that is still new in recovery. She doesn’t even know what she wants. I am afraid she will be heading to disaster. Oh, you interviewing your mom would be interesting. More doors are going to open for you. Staying focused on your body, mind and soul is important. Getting involved with youth in trouble and helping them would be great. This you tube channel can grow quickly. Stay hopeful
True, please stay positive.. your a strong man! I think visiting with your family if your P.O will allow you to go is a awesome idea. God bless you my friend....your Philly Grandma Pal 🙏❤
That is an exhausting schedule for anyone. I worked at a call center several years ago and started with shifts from 7pm to 3am, and it was hard to figure out how to get day to day stuff done, along with taking care of oneself. Try taking melatonin and magnesium to promote relaxation of your nervous system and sleep. Those work for me. There are also relaxing sleep music videos on RUclips that also help, along with videos on deep breathing techniques to calm the vagus nerve. When we are distressed, our system is too often in fight or flight mode, which is not conducive to sleep. Yes, you definitely should take a break to recharge and reconnect with your loving and supportive family if you can make that happen. You need some healing hugs!
Awesome that you are meeting with your sponsor soon and going to a meeting. The afternoon shift is tough, I've worked it before. You'll get it figured out and stay sober. Your sub count is going up, so that's a plus. This also gives you some time to be more introspective. Your boss is awesome for letting you crash. Sometimes we really have to SEARCH for the positive in a situation. For now, you are sober and you have a place to stay. The rest will come. This is temporary, things will be better soon. Yeah don't miss that probation officer!
Aww good Kevin I’m glad to hear that! Having kind people around you is such a blessing isn’t it? Peace and love from me to you my brother! Thanks for the support too! 💯💯🙏🙏🙏☮️❤️✝️
Routine, routine, routine keep your head up and keep focused on yourself and your next step. We all love, learn and thrive. Keep doing what your are doing there is positive in the near future
You got this Four! 😊. You’ve got that glistening in your eyes and smile that say “your good and determined”. You are already a success and I really see you helping others in the future. You have that beautiful spirit about you. It really shows. Keep looking forward and stay on your spiritual journey. God has great things planned for you! ❤
If you have a great relationship with your family, that sounds like a great idea (assuming your PO will allow it). If there are family members that trigger you and/or push your buttons, I feel like now wouldn't be a great time to be around them. I know this feels real challenging right now. You're doing great! Keep talking with your sponsor. Do you have a therapist/counselor? Here for you, bro! ❤🙏🏾
God has His hand on you every moment of every day. Lean on Him.♥️ You have a powerful story to share! For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. ~ Jeremiah 29:11
Yeah it’s really hard to make any decisions when tired. I would say to just make the plan to go home and have the last work day and then head out and go relax with fam and have someone to go to who loves you. And even if there are family issues you still have your sponsor and the program and some goals like this channel etc. main thing for now is getting thru the coming week of transition and then take a little bit of time to think out what you really want next. Maybe find an apartment and job closer to fam if you want and away from old places where you got in trouble. If you got in trouble there maybe just go for a visit and pick where you want to move and get a fresh start and a simple job and work on making plans and goals for something fun and fulfilling whether it’s your channel development or working and saving for some kind of vacation you always wanted to do. There’s so much great and amazingness in the world. You need more time in nature also. Nature helps ground you and regulate your patterns a bit also. Whether it’s taking a day hike around a nature preserve in Florida or helping your parents start a garden or doing some fishing or snorkeling or photographing cool birds in Florida. There is so much cool stuff to see when you stop and look around. Just don’t get stuck in the rut of work and staying home.
I appreciate how you talk more about your addiction and what you have done to overcome it. You are more relaxed and honest. I am sure you can talk about anything on here. I am not judging. Interview with 4 moms lol. That sounds great. I am sure people can learn from that. Instagram is easy and simple. Love to you and take care.❤
Hi 4, I'm not a recovering addict or anything but I wanted to say that your story is your story and the not-so-good parts of it don't define you unless you allow them to. You and a couple of other RUclipsrs have motivated me to start a RUclips channel as soon as my relocation is finished to educate people about my disability and document my life as a disabled music executive. I'm a writer so if this last thing I'm going to say to you is profound, that's why. Don't apologize for your past, just make a conscious effort to not let it follow you into your future. Keep motivating yourself and those of us who are motivated because of you. 😃
Hey four get as much sleep as you can your body doesn't function well without sleep or food both are considered fuel. As far as responding we know you do , please dont worry about that at the moment. Respond to a couple when you can. The biggest is just be honest about why . Thats all most people want. Have you tried any of those skeepy time teas or if you can something over the counter?.❤
I’ve been struggling with sleep and started taking 2 magnesium 30 mins before bed and it’s really helped me except the nights I wake up In night sweats. Getting older is hard.
I left you a kind of long comment on your last video. Not sure if you saw it but I want you to know you aren't alone. I told you a little of my son's story. Hang in there. You got this! This too shall pass. Peggy, from FL.
Visiting family is a really good idea. Having that support is important and a change of scenery can be a positive thing. Also maybe a chance to interview your Mum or even to chat about a future interview? Make sure to get healthy snacks and drinks for the road. 👍Road trips are also great for listening to audiobooks and uplifting music, podcasts, etc.
4, please ignore any negative comments! You’re on a good path and you’re going to be doing really well soon. I hope you visit your family soon. As a Mom myself, I know it would make your Mom happy to see you. Please stay on the path you’re on, working your program, praying and doing it One Day at a time. You have come so far! 🙏❤️🙏❤️
Aw thanks so much Patty, I def will! You guys give me so much strength I’m so grateful! 🙏❤️💯☮️ I hope I do too! Thank you Patty, hope you have an AMAZING day! ❤️❤️🙏🙏🫶💯
Bless you Four, you've been through so much and come so far! Thank you for sharing so much. Spending some time with family in Florida sounds a good plan. Keeping you in prayers, love and peace to you too 🙏
Hey guys, I’m very aware that this video does NOT paint me in a very good light. I understand that a lot of ppl will judge and I’m okay with that. I’m not living the way I once was, but I do believe in being genuine, open, and honest. Trust me, I wish a lot of these things WEREN’T true but they are a part of my testimony. I’m at work right now and have to go back on the floor but I appreciate all of you being so kind. Thank you for being patient with me, I’m a work in progress and I’m not going to let myself down. ☮️❤️🙏🫶💯
You are doing great! We all have done things we aren’t proud of. The fact that you have acknowledged what was wrong and are bettering yourself, speaks volumes of your character. I think you have a huge heart and honestly want to stay clean….and you will! I can see it! 😊. Maybe sometime you could do a live on RUclips with your subscribers? We are all here for you!
@@Nina-65 great idea
Nobody is perfect! I think most of us have some sort of past that we may not be too proud of but I think you have shown to everyone how far you have come. You seem like an amazing person, please don't be hard on yourself . I think the idea about interviewing Mom would be cool! Look forward to seeing what's next! Have a great night!!!💜✌🏼
I have the same schedule!! 3 pm - 12 am !!! Then I work a barber shop a few hours a few days a week before my career government job I squeeze the gym in ! You got this ! ❤I’m tired always but keep it moving
What do you do for work
An interview with your Mom would be awesome! Much love ❤😊
Don’t worry about responding to us all of the time ,you have a bed, roof over your head and a job, you are doing fantastic stay positive.
I was thinking the same.
Fully respect your grind. I'm retired and sober now for 32 years. It all pays off... Believe me. As far as your recent change in life, just know God is taking you where you need to be. Appreciate your videos. I'm a new subscriber, because you seen to be real about your goals. Looking forward to seeing where it goes. God Bless😊
Just try to take it easy..hugz to you..😊
The toilet story is hilarious!
An interview with your mother would really be special.
Don't worry about responding to comments when you get out of work. If you work in a factory it's probably physically demanding. Focus on relaxing. If people get upset that you can't respond in the comments, don't mind them anyway. We are here to support you. Don't burn yourself out.
Love your videos. I am the stepmom of a stepson who died of a heroin overdose a few years ago and the wife of an addict who has been sober for 14 years. You are an inspiration.
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I’m sorry for your loss.
Life has really thrown you for a loop lately, a visit with your family sounds like a much needed break, take care!
So proud of you for staying sober. God bless you.
Please do not feel pressure to respond to all comments. We totally understand and you have shown your efforts to build community. So be blessed and we will continue to pray for you and your sobriety.
Hi Sweetie! You look very tired too. Please, don't burn yourself out trying to keep up with replies here on your channel.
We don't need a video every day either !!! The most important thing is taking care of YOU. You are constantly in my thoughts and prayers. Love you bunches, Hun !!
Mama2 ❤🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻❤️
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P.S. I would love to meet Mama1. 😍
P.S.S. If you've talked to your boss there in MI and he'll hold your job or you two work something out, I think a trip home to see family would be great !!! You're more than welcome to come see Mama2 in Arkansas. 😍
I'm so, so sorry this has happened. I honestly don't get it, but I hate it and I don't think you deserved it. I also know that you are going to make it through this and come out victorious! Big hugs and lot's of prayers. ❤
You are doing good! We are praying and cheering you on! God has you! Lean on Him!!❤❤
We have saying here in Australia - good on ya mate! Meaning well done. So good on ya Four! I’m glad we are here to cheer you on and support you. Even if we don’t get a reply - it’s not about us! Use your time in the way that is least exhausting. A few good nights of sleep will be transforming and prob seeing the fam too. Just one foot in front of the other for the moment. You are safe and well that is the main thing. The stories of your past are real and raw and make your transcendence even more remarkable. I think we would all like to give you a collective hug! But a virtual one will do! ❤
Your smile makes me smile four. Thank you 🙂❤️
He’s going to be just fine. He already looks and sounds better. Sobriety is number 1. Something and someone better suited for him is another day closer to finding him. ❤
Love that you are working your program and meeting with your sponsor 😊
Take in all the support from your family possible. You are in such a vulnerable place right now. Emotional, mental,spiritual and physical help is much needed and if they can provide that for you, I say go for it. Be kind to yourself. Don’t put so much pressure on yourself in responding to comments. Be more worried about letting yourself down than your YT community bc we understand where you are at. Take care of yourself. God bless.
It's always good to hang out with parents when going through hard stuff. Good idea. Im in Central Florida. Weather's great right now so good time to come.
South Florida here but born and raised in North Carolina.
You remind me so much of my dad growing up. He struggled with drugs & alcohol his entire life/fighting demons but was the sweetest man with the purest heart. He was my heart & soul. I miss him so much may he continue to R.I.P. Please continue to be positive & remain strong ❤❤❤
Take care you’re a survivor keep pushing brother you will prosper in everything you do!❤️
I am praying you get some sleep and rest. Keep going with your soberity and checking in with your sponsor and going to meetings. We all need a support group and people who care, esp if we are addicts. You are strong, and you are kind and hardworking. Gods gonna turn things around. Take one day at a time. God bless you, brother in Christ!! Sending you hugs and prayers!! 🤗💖🙏🙏PS- I think an interview with your Mom would be awesome. 😊
A visit home would be so healing I bet! And we’d love to see Florida!!
You are so sweet. The best idea is to go see your Mum and Dad. 💞
I’m so happy you have a supportive family and a wonderful boss.
I know from past experience when you’re with some one who has a hard time making up their mind it’s best to not go back. It could be a life time of ups and downs…leaving, staying, not sure from the other person. The hard part is the other person is going through heartache too because they honestly can’t make up their mind of what they want to do.
Time will pass and along the way people will meet new people and have new job opportunities and life goes on.
It’s hell on earth being with someone who is up one minute and down the next. It would be an impossible journey to live in that situation. We can pray for people but it’s best to realize everyone has to walk their own journey, sometimes alone for awhile to get to the other end, then life becomes much easier.
God bless and keep you. Meeting your sponsor is a great idea and seeing your family are all positive steps!❤🙏🕊I’m proud of you!
Ah. Yea I can't sleep at another place comfortably. I need my own room and bed to feel best to sleep. Things will get better as the days pass. Proud of you for being so open and still showing up for yourself at gym work recovery etc.❤💪🏻 WE LOVE YOU FOUR!
Please get insta!!!! ❤
Wow… you are going to help so many people with your content, keep it up :)
We are all right behind you ... wishing you courage to keep moving forward xx. You got this ❤
Prayers for you. You’ve got this!
I’d love to see an interview with your mom! I’ve been through a lot with my son since the age of 17. He’s 35 now and still struggles. I’ll never lose faith. I know God’s got you! ❤️🙏
Go to your family, you need to be around people that love you right now! Your parents must be very proud of you x
no this video shows your honesty, and that is a big part of recovery isn't it? Florida sounds like a great idea as long as you are not letting down your boss who sounds like an excellent person to let you crash with him. keep strong
Even though I don’t know you you look like a really good guy so don’t let this bring you down ! You are handsome and strong and god is with you ❤
You got this brother. Get to that family ❤ let them pour some love on to you. Make The Almighty your #1 and watch the blessings flow. Stay in constant repentance and Let Almighty be your first love ❤I was there and when I gave up and called out and made Him my #1 blessing in abundance came forth. Walk in Faith ❤
Hi Four im glad your working and taking care of yourself. Your a light to so many others. You need your rest and dont worry about answering comments, your mental health is key. Your truly a blessing
Just the fact that you're trying, makes all the difference.. You have a smile that lights up a Beautiful Aura around you.. Keep looking up,, Always keep looking up..❤
Four, can I suggest that you contact a couple of high schools or middle schools and offer to speak to groups of students? Give them the link to your "From the Heart" video so they can see your style.
Florida!!! That is where i am. Smile and know God has you. Proud of you. Don't give up!
Praying for you, Forr. I am sorry it is so hard right now. God will direct your steps and heal your heart. He is good at it. I know. Time with your sponsor and NA group and time with family sounds like it will help build you up. Lord, hold him close and help him see You through this hard time. Thank You for his boss and his generosity. Give Forr wisdom and help him as he makes decisions moving forward about what to do and where to be. I pray for comfort and encouragement. In Jesus name. Psalms are good to read...when David was going through it and he really opened up to God. He's got you, Forr And He won't let you go.
Four, you are doing great! I am sorry youre all out of sorts. broken heart, no real place to call your own, and shifts that leave you lacking sleep. You are an amazing, caring, sweet, handsome man! Your heart is so big! I know you will eventually find the right one! You deserve it. God knows the desires of our heart! Keep strong. You are like my little brother I want to tell you its going to be ok! YOU are doing it! You got this! MUCH LOVE AND LIGHT (and prayers) from Canada
I wish you all the best Four. Keep making the "next right decision", as you say. Just always be kind to yourself - you can only serve others when you first take care of yourself 🙏
😢 I'm sorry. You're healing, and that's a great place to be.
I love how honest you are! Sending positive vibes your way 💜
Hang in there 4, we care and want you to do great things. I would love to see an interview with your Mom. I would also like to hear how your Mom coped with all that you have been through. I have a son that is 36 and seeing him go through all you went through would have tore me up. Take care, 4. You got this! ❤
One day at a time , it's just a moment. This too shall pass💪❤
Anytime you need to vent we are here to listen it's good to talk.
Keep strong and keep going brother.
We all need support throughout a lot of things. I’m glad you’re finding a big benefit to connecting with people through your channel. Sending you a lot of love and so much positive energy!!!☀️☀️
Yes, go to Florida and family who loves and wants you to be close. The farther away you can get, the better at this point.
It's a good idea to go see your family. Life is short & in the end, they are so important. Keep your heart close to Jesus & he will guide you & give you peace & direction. Praying for you 🙏
Blessings, love and peace in your mind, heart and soul! In your life and journey as well 4! ❤
Oh! Do a live... That way people can ask questions you can answer.
Thanks for checking in. Have a good day.
You are going to do well in life. We all reap what we sow. Keep sowing good seed. You’re going to find a real lady who will appreciate you. You’ll look back & be so glad this relationship didn’t work. Hang in there!🙏💙
Love your honesty and truth. Stay positive better things will come ❤
I’m glad we all got to know you through Nika. Proud of you.
Four, please don’t take on anyone’s troubles right now.❤ this is your time to heal.❤allow yourself to heal. You seem like such a kind man. You will figure this out. Stay single for now. Love and 🥰 your cyber grandma
I’d like to meet your mum , you should do motivational talks in school about fitness and nutrition and to avoid bad choices you would be great at that ❤
Four, it doesn’t matter what happened in the past. All that matters is who you are now, and I have really grown to like you and admire you and I am really glad I can still follow you in your life through your videos. I think you are a sweet kind soul who is doing his best and there are not enough people in the world like you. Well done for wanting to always do the right thing ❤
Thank you four for being so honest, answering questions and being upright with us, in this world that means everything to me and others! You got this ! 👍 ❤
His heart ❤️🔥 burns for you!! Just one step at a time Brother. Awesome provision coming in on what you’re deciding to do on the channel! Even these videos of you expressing such common emotions after a breakup is mighty for those going through the same. Bless you! From glory to glory He takes those who trust Him. Holdfast, He could use it ALL FOR GOOD!
HE SEE’S YOU AND HE IS WITH YOU! MAY YOUR EYES BE OPENED TO HIS UNDENIABLE PRESENCE IN GREATER MEASURE!!!
You are truly a courageous man. Please stay on the positive road and if you ever decide to have another love into, stay away from somebody that is still new in recovery. She doesn’t even know what she wants. I am afraid she will be heading to disaster. Oh, you interviewing your mom would be interesting. More doors are going to open for you. Staying focused on your body, mind and soul is important. Getting involved with youth in trouble and helping them would be great. This you tube channel can grow quickly. Stay hopeful
True, please stay positive.. your a strong man! I think visiting with your family if your P.O will allow you to go is a awesome idea. God bless you my friend....your Philly Grandma Pal 🙏❤
seeing your family sounds awesome Four, thats awesom
That is an exhausting schedule for anyone. I worked at a call center several years ago and started with shifts from 7pm to 3am, and it was hard to figure out how to get day to day stuff done, along with taking care of oneself. Try taking melatonin and magnesium to promote relaxation of your nervous system and sleep. Those work for me. There are also relaxing sleep music videos on RUclips that also help, along with videos on deep breathing techniques to calm the vagus nerve. When we are distressed, our system is too often in fight or flight mode, which is not conducive to sleep.
Yes, you definitely should take a break to recharge and reconnect with your loving and supportive family if you can make that happen. You need some healing hugs!
Awesome that you are meeting with your sponsor soon and going to a meeting. The afternoon shift is tough, I've worked it before. You'll get it figured out and stay sober. Your sub count is going up, so that's a plus. This also gives you some time to be more introspective. Your boss is awesome for letting you crash. Sometimes we really have to SEARCH for the positive in a situation. For now, you are sober and you have a place to stay. The rest will come. This is temporary, things will be better soon. Yeah don't miss that probation officer!
God will never leave you but I’m pretty sure you already know that. 🙏
Praying for you!!!
Patricia
I appreciate your honesty so much!!! Especially related to the toilet story 😅 I live with kind people who are helping us out rn too! I get it!
Aww good Kevin I’m glad to hear that! Having kind people around you is such a blessing isn’t it? Peace and love from me to you my brother! Thanks for the support too! 💯💯🙏🙏🙏☮️❤️✝️
Oh Four
I would love to talk to your mom. I have been in her shoes as well. Love and happiness to you. 😊
I have every confidence that you will figure things out. One right step at a time.
Routine, routine, routine keep your head up and keep focused on yourself and your next step. We all love, learn and thrive. Keep doing what your are doing there is positive in the near future
We appreciate you too!! God has a big plan for your life!! 🙌❤️ You are awesome! Keep looking up🌹🙏
Beautiful smile keep dmiling stay strong you got this ❤
You got this Four! 😊. You’ve got that glistening in your eyes and smile that say “your good and determined”. You are already a success and I really see you helping others in the future. You have that beautiful spirit about you. It really shows. Keep looking forward and stay on your spiritual journey. God has great things planned for you! ❤
So proud of you! Yes God has a plan for you For
If you have a great relationship with your family, that sounds like a great idea (assuming your PO will allow it). If there are family members that trigger you and/or push your buttons, I feel like now wouldn't be a great time to be around them. I know this feels real challenging right now. You're doing great! Keep talking with your sponsor. Do you have a therapist/counselor? Here for you, bro! ❤🙏🏾
God has His hand on you every moment of every day. Lean on Him.♥️ You have a powerful story to share!
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. ~ Jeremiah 29:11
I will pray now that you are able to achieve peaceful rest as soon as you get home from work. 🕊🙏🏻🕊
why don't you just move back to Florida if things don't work out with Nika? 🏝️ sorry you can't sleep gosh, I'm praying you get a good night's rest 🙏
Yeah it’s really hard to make any decisions when tired. I would say to just make the plan to go home and have the last work day and then head out and go relax with fam and have someone to go to who loves you. And even if there are family issues you still have your sponsor and the program and some goals like this channel etc. main thing for now is getting thru the coming week of transition and then take a little bit of time to think out what you really want next. Maybe find an apartment and job closer to fam if you want and away from old places where you got in trouble. If you got in trouble there maybe just go for a visit and pick where you want to move and get a fresh start and a simple job and work on making plans and goals for something fun and fulfilling whether it’s your channel development or working and saving for some kind of vacation you always wanted to do. There’s so much great and amazingness in the world. You need more time in nature also. Nature helps ground you and regulate your patterns a bit also. Whether it’s taking a day hike around a nature preserve in Florida or helping your parents start a garden or doing some fishing or snorkeling or photographing cool birds in Florida. There is so much cool stuff to see when you stop and look around. Just don’t get stuck in the rut of work and staying home.
I appreciate how you talk more about your addiction and what you have done to overcome it. You are more relaxed and honest. I am sure you can talk about anything on here. I am not judging. Interview with 4 moms lol. That sounds great. I am sure people can learn from that. Instagram is easy and simple. Love to you and take care.❤
Hi 4, I'm not a recovering addict or anything but I wanted to say that your story is your story and the not-so-good parts of it don't define you unless you allow them to. You and a couple of other RUclipsrs have motivated me to start a RUclips channel as soon as my relocation is finished to educate people about my disability and document my life as a disabled music executive. I'm a writer so if this last thing I'm going to say to you is profound, that's why. Don't apologize for your past, just make a conscious effort to not let it follow you into your future. Keep motivating yourself and those of us who are motivated because of you. 😃
I’m so sorry you are struggling but you are doing the right thing… do not give up… you are so inspirational for others 🤘🏻🆒🌞💪🏻✨
Tiny... deep...breaths ❤
So true. Deep breathing actually calms the vagus nerve, which helps promote relaxation and sleep.
Hey four get as much sleep as you can your body doesn't function well without sleep or food both are considered fuel. As far as responding we know you do , please dont worry about that at the moment. Respond to a couple when you can. The biggest is just be honest about why . Thats all most people want. Have you tried any of those skeepy time teas or if you can something over the counter?.❤
Sometimes I take magnesium glycine 500 mg and it works pretty well
I’ve been struggling with sleep and started taking 2 magnesium 30 mins before bed and it’s really helped me except the nights I wake up In night sweats. Getting older is hard.
Glycinate** stupid autocorrect.
Thank you for sharing your life with us
Aww thanks Georgia, it’s been my pleasure! Thank you for watching, seriously 🙏💯☮️❤️🥰👍
We love you too ❤❤❤❤- you got this!!!!!! One day at a time.
Take good care. So sorry, but you got this.
I left you a kind of long comment on your last video. Not sure if you saw it but I want you to know you aren't alone. I told you a little of my son's story. Hang in there. You got this! This too shall pass. Peggy, from FL.
Thanks. You are doing great..we have your back.
so happy for you !!!! prying for you !!!!
You got this sweetheart!! Stay strong
Visiting family is a really good idea. Having that support is important and a change of scenery can be a positive thing. Also maybe a chance to interview your Mum or even to chat about a future interview? Make sure to get healthy snacks and drinks for the road. 👍Road trips are also great for listening to audiobooks and uplifting music, podcasts, etc.
Sending you prayers and keep getting stronger you have this . Concentrate on your self now things will work out for you . ❤ love from the UK 🇬🇧 xxx
Praying for you, keep trying to be positive. Stay strong, maybe you two will get back together.
Getting back together with her would be a huge mistake. He deserves better.
@@muffydragonslayeryes and because it is too soon in recovery
Thinking of you. Thanks for keeping us in touch, but do what’s best for you.
4, please ignore any negative comments! You’re on a good path and you’re going to be doing really well soon. I hope you visit your family soon. As a Mom myself, I know it would make your Mom happy to see you. Please stay on the path you’re on, working your program, praying and doing it One Day at a time. You have come so far! 🙏❤️🙏❤️
Aw thanks so much Patty, I def will! You guys give me so much strength I’m so grateful! 🙏❤️💯☮️ I hope I do too! Thank you Patty, hope you have an AMAZING day! ❤️❤️🙏🙏🫶💯
Stay strong Four...I hope u get to visit your family...Prayers
Being with your family is a great idea.
God sees what you can't ! Thats why he allows things to happen we may not understand 😢 He is always moving us to our best YOU GOT THIS!!!
Take care, keep strong 😊 from Australia 🇦🇺 😊
Bless you Four, you've been through so much and come so far! Thank you for sharing so much. Spending some time with family in Florida sounds a good plan. Keeping you in prayers, love and peace to you too 🙏