Being awake at 4am feels like everyone else on Earth is gone, and while that's a bad thing, you're at peace with it. This playlist really encapsulates that feeling.
As a teenager, I would often stay awake all night and sleep most of the morning away. This playlist brings to mind one of my favorite memories of that timeframe: my brother had to work early in the morning and his car had broken down so I'd offered to give him a ride. He needed to be there around 6AM, a tad bit after I'd normally just have fallen asleep but I figured I'd push through to help out my sibling. Around 4 or so, I started to feel my normal fatigue and was worried I might pass out and not wake up for my alarm so I decided that I would go out to the pool to wake myself up. It was a clear night and the stars shined so brightly. It seemed absolutely quiet as I lay on my back in the pool, floating, staring at the beautiful night sky. I recall wondering how many people were doing the same thing as I was in that moment across our expanse of our world. It felt special to me, as though I was the only person to be experiencing that moment as I was. I think about that memory quite often.
The night before my dad died, he had called me into his room. When he did, he told me how much he loved me, and how proud he was of me. Then he told me goodnight, and that he would see me soon. 16 year old me didn't understand what he meant by that. Almost 5 years later, I'm 21 now and still feeling the raw pain of his absence in my soul. I had a dream about him yesterday that I was that little girl all over again, and him and I went to the beach and collected shells. I have never gone to the beach my whole life, but I have always wanted to go with my father. There were so many things I wanted to experience with him that I know I will never be able to experience with him in this lifetime. Maybe in my next life or in the afterlife, him and I will go looking for shells while holding each other's hands. To my father, I miss you more and more each day. The pain never went away, and I still cry for you even at my big age. Birthdays and holidays are never the same without you here. I still listen to your favorite music from time to time. I still celebrate Father's day for you, and make you a card and your favorite German chocolate cake like I used to. Do you read the letters I write to you to this day? I hope you do. I write to you every year for your birthday in hopes that you read the letters and poems I write for you. You were there for me when I took my first breath in this life, and I was there for you when you took your last breath in this life. I know you are no longer in pain, and you are in the peace that you so desperately craved for such a long time. I miss feeling your hugs. I miss hearing your voice and laugh. I miss seeing your face, and your smile. I'm sorry for not being the best daughter to you. I'm sorry if I ever hurt you in any way. I'm sorry for not trying hard enough to make sure you were ok. I hope you weren't scared in your last moments of life. I hope you were at peace, and finally happy. I don't know where you are, but I hope it's somewhere that you can experience true freedom and happiness in. One day, you and I will reunite again, but for now, I will keep living through this thing called "life". Everything I do, is for you. I love you so much, dada. Please never forget about me as I have never forgotten about you. Until we meet again.
The best part about being awake this early is that you feel like it’s only you in the world. The silence is beautiful. The stillness is beautiful. I think more people need to witness this level of peace
I had a moment in my life, around 16's, when I used to sleep really early after I got from school/work, so I could wake up late at night and silently leave home at 2-3am and walk around town. There were some gas stations and vendors open the whole night, so I would just go to some store, buy a soda and some snacks, stay a while and walk again. I lived uphill and the way down was totally dark, a trail across the woods. Somehow I enjoyed walking the dark path, felt afraid but wanted to face it everytime. I was totally conscious doing so, but couldn't identify the source of fear. As time passed, I questioned myself if I was really afraid, and concluded I never was. Perhaps it was an excitement found when confronting the unknown in total solitude. I used to return home by the sunrise, so I could make coffee and leave real early for school. I had problems at home and questioned my existence since young. During my walks I met interesting people and figured out many things that I carry until this day. Anyways, congratulations on your music. As you can see it got me right there. You are very talented, keep doing it.
When I used to travel a lot across the ocean, when I'd get back home, the first day my sleep schedule would be messed up hard. So I'd get outside and walk the streets as the city slowly woke up around me.
Your story is familiar one to me. My parents split when I was 5 yrs. I began sneak out at night for as long as I can remember ... early from 4 am things felt still enough for me to go outside and go everywhere. I lived in Gainesville near downtown .. mid 1960s thru the early 70s .... I would roam the town .... it definitely was the most exhilarating thing to experiment with. Cheers ....
I'm convinced 4am is the time of day most people are asleep. Most people go to bed before 4 and wake up after 4. It's the most calming and quiet hour of the night.
Personally, this may sound a little off putting to you (sorry in advance), but for me midnight (specifically 1 - well, 4AM) is when I’m most energetic and when I’m not nearly as pervaded and immobilized by overthinking and anxiety :/ “fun” fact it’s partly a reason as to why my name is what it is, with the other being well.. Sif is far too underrated for how amazing he really is. (If ya get it ya get it)
So done my fair share of night drives cross country. I'll tell you... 1-3 am are the most desolate. Trucks lay in around midnight. Families lay in around 9 or 10. It's just you, your car, the road, and the sky above. Especially already feeling lonely and depressed, you really get the feeling nobody is out there for you. You leave the places you call home to get told it's not home anymore. Where do you belong? Driving through Montana late at night was one of the most soul taking experience I have had. Nobody out there. Just nobody.
It's 4:48 right now, honestly, this sounds about right. 4 am is when you feel like you're the only one awake in the world. Wether that's a good thing or a bad thing you don't know, but it's peaceful in some way.
Yeah, except if you're still trying to sleep, in that case is kinda frustrating laying on the bed for hours tryna get some sleep and your conscious just gets more and more active
It’s the exact reason why I am up at this time. 4am right now. My kids and wife are upstairs in bed so I’m downstairs listening to music and about to go drive for an hour and come back home and go to bed. I’ve been doing it for a year and a half. Battling depression.
@@PickledPork420 same man. It will get better. Remember they love and value you. Your feelings matter. If you don't already, open up to those that care and allow yourself to receive support. The most important is to have hope. When I lost hope it got so bad. It's difficult but it won't always be like that. Stay strong
I’m a 14 year old boy who is barely passing school. I use to blame the world and my teachers, but now I realize its all me. I get in trouble a lot, and don’t fit in most places because I’m awkward, and nobody likes me that much. I will stay up until 4am staring outside my second story window at the moon, and at the stars. It’s the only thing that keeps me calm. The only thing I can cry in peace to. The only thing that keeps me…. Me. My dog died last week, and I’ve been very depressed. Sometimes I just wanna end it all, but then I remember that even though life is tough, there’s a path for you. Things WILL get better. I may be going through a hard time now, but it will get better. I want you to know how special you are. How beautiful, talented, and amazing you are. You are better than you think, you are funnier than you think. There are people that love you in this world, and the fact that you had a 1/47trillion percent chance to be born makes you special. If your reading this up to this point, I bless you with all my heart. Stay safe. Stay healthy. Stay alive. You matter. No matter what anybody tells you. You. Matter.
@@jveson8657 the fact that you wrote this means you have something special to offer the world. School isn’t for everyone, even though you have to get through it. Ask for help, people are more willing than you might think. Be cool with yourself and if you get a friend opportunity, take a chance. Let your heart get broken, you’ll be stronger than you think.
This playlist reminds me of when I used to run away from home at night, because my father was always drunk and he could rant and shout all night. I would go to a fallen tree in the middle of an empty cornfield, spread a blanket on its trunk and lie down facing up the open sky, watch the stars until I fall asleep. This experience taught me to be unafraid of the dark, of being alone, and being far away from home.
This playlist reminds me of when me and my grandma would sleep on the couch together. I use to get very bad panic attacks at night when I was a kid and my parents would get angry with me if I woke them up. Me and my family lived with my grandparents and my grandma slept in the living room most nights. I would usually leave my shared room with my sister and go see my grandma. She usually is awake all night watching tv because it also helps her calm down. I sit next to her and we both always ate a piece of cheese before me explaining what my panic attack was about. She would ask if I wanted to watch anything special and I usually said the show where they build treehouses. We would lay down and watch TV while we both fall asleep. usually those mornings Me and my grandma would wake up early and go get breakfast from McDonald's if I had school she would take me( or take me to the beach). I miss my grandma. Shes still alive but she lives far away now. I moved to Kansas while she stayed in the same house on the same couch. I still get very bad panic attacks at night and I always hold anything that deals with my grandma. I want to be home with her. I want to watch the treehouse makers and tell my grandma we should make one. I want to be home. This place isn't home.
Home could also be when you think of your grandma, you always carry those awesome memories around with you. Even if she's far away. Keep writing. I enjoyed reading what you wrote.
I wish I still had my grandma. We did everything together, she was my Best friend. Cherish every moment you have with her because one day God is going to take her and he doesn't care about what you feel about it. Sometimes I wish I could turn back time and spend the last few moments with her as she passed, one day I hope to see her where we will walk the clouds of heaven.
Since everyone is sharing their beautiful 4am stories, I might as well share mine: It was somewhere around 4am and when my friends called me and asked if I could sneak out the house and hang out. I thought I might as well try so I somehow successfully snuck out and met with them. One person in the group was my crush, he was literally shining under the silver light the moon was producing. After some few hours the rest left but my crush stayed behind with me and we hung out. He suggested we went to the beach and watch the sunrise together. I was overjoyed and my heart felt as if it was going to jump out of my chest. We walked along the beach for literal hours before we same the hint of light, me and him both looked at each other and smile. We sat down and I dug my hand under the sand. The wind was gentle and the atmosphere was as perfect as it could be. I felt so free as the wind hit my face gently. I closed my eyes and leaned my head back. I seriously never felt so alive. We’ve been together for 5 years now and still counting🫶
8 months ago my one and only brother had an serious accident. The doctors were confirmed that there is no way that he can survive. My family was in great misery. We all were praying so hard for him. And the miracle happened. He was in the hospital for 5 months 20 days. My parents were giving all it takes to save their son. We got him back safe and fully recovered. It's 12:50 am right now and sitting next to my brother. He is in fever and I am pampering him right now and listening to this calm beautiful music. I don't know why I just cried thinking that at that time when he was in the hospital I prayed to God so hard for this moment today and now I have it. Life has taught me to appreciate each moment from that accident. I am very thankful to God for this moment and for my brother and my family. After reading all of yours comments I thought to share this story. To whoever reading this God bless you.
I'm so glad that he is better, I can *never* imagine losing those I love, and seeing others suffer from his misery breaks my heart... hopefully we all can appreciate even the smallest moments of our lives with those we cherish so much before they go. Have a nice day
About a year ago, I snuck out of the house to go on a walk at night. To be honest, it was kind of spiritual for me. I went to the park and it was completely empty. I could see the stars in the sky and the only lighting being the street lamps along the sidewalk. At first I was frightened and scared that I’d get hurt because that’s all I’ve ever heard about what things are like outside at night. But I calmed down once I laid in the grass and listened to everything around me. Pure silence. My brain not making me feel horrible about everything, nobody talking down to me… just silence. And that was truly the best feeling I have ever felt. Since then, I’ve been sneaking out when life has been hard for me. That’s quite often, of course, but it does seem to really help me calm myself down. Life has been hard lately but it’s been hard trying to find time to sneak out. Hopefully I can go back soon, but this playlist reminds me of it. It’s very calming.
it's so soothing to even read this. i feel good that you have found your happy place. even if it's outside of your so called home. take warm wishes stranger
I know exactly what you mean, about a 7 minute walk from my house is a field beside a river. Whenever I need some time to truly be alone I go there in the dark of the night. My thoughts accompanied by the sound of the flowing river.
I do this too, but I find it is even more soothing for me when it is raining. My area doesn't have rain often and that little benefit of my favorite weather on top of being completely alone in nature is just perfect.
I wish I could a moment when no one is screaming or blaming something on you just to stare up at the stars alone just enjoy the calm atmosphere...sound like heaven ^^ maybe when I get older?
I go on 3 am walks every few weeks. They're so peaceful, as no cars are around and its so quiet, just me and the world. I'd go to a local park and just lie on the hillside watching the lights of the city. One time I saw a coyote or something in the grass which was kind of spooky, but it went away after a brief staring contest. Once I accadentally fell alseep on the hillside and woke up at around 6 when the sun was rising. I was like "oh shoot" and rushed back home before my parents found out I had left. Fun times
Once a week, I wake up at 4AM and sneak outside with a grabber and plastic bag n start picking up trash from the local playground. Usually I do this around the start of the week, because on the weekend youth n other people hang out at night on the playground leaving behind trash like broken beer bottles, sharp bits of random plastic, used small plastic bags with drug remains, very rarely a used needle. Then I broaden the range to around the block where I know kids play outside bare feet. Somewhere around 5:30 I'd have a bag full and dump it in the local communal underground trash container before it's picked up by the trash collector. I'm gone before the first morning people go to work in my neighborehood. Clean streets is that easy. One person with a grabber n a plastic bag. They'll never know who and they don't need to.
One of my cousins, when a little kid, picked up a needle he found, put it in his pocket and gave himself a jab. That was quite the scare and could've easily been a disaster, but he was fine afterwards. You're awesome. Dont let anyone make you think otherwise.
1AM - scrolling through your socials until your fingers go numb. 2AM - hyper music, cool beats, dancing. vibing until your ears ring. 3AM - dark and funny rituals, silly potions, cringe videos. laughing until your lungs hurt. 4AM - peace, quiet, calm. birds have started singing. reading until your eyes are dry. 5AM - its time to sleep now, you had fun tonight. time to rest, youve done enough. 6AM - good morning.
I didn't realize how much I missed the feeling of being awake, intentionally, without obligations or commitments at 4AM. Walking on train tracks or going for a drive. The air's cool and misty, the roads are quiet and empty, everything seems at peace for once. Way to capture that in a single playlist. I'm impressed.
This reminded me of some very lost memories. I always used to be an odd kid. I was more mentally mature then other kids and was very self reflective for a young child. My upbringing was pretty normal nothing to bad. But for some reason I always would get this feeling of adrenaline and would love the feel of the cold early mornings on my skin in the summer. Fast forward in life and it is middle school. I have no real friends, a rather smart kid but didn't do well in school, and overall found no real purpose in life. This is when I started going to my father's baseball games in a league made up with middle aged fathers. I ended up meeting a group of friends and we would spend hours talking before the games and after when our parents drinked beers and chatted until four in the morning. The group consisted of me, another guy friend, and two sisters. Over the course of two summers we all became inseparable. That was until the other guy in our group had his parents divorce and he moved away. It was just me and the two sisters left. Until their father died in a DUI accident. He was killed by a drinking semi truck driver. They ended up moving away to their mentally unstable mother's a great distance away. Just three years ago I was looking through my memories and realized that the older sister was the closest thing to true love I have ever felt. I went to go reconnect with her to find and obituary saying she had ended her life with pills. The younger sister at some point ended up in jail. I live about a two hour walk to and from the old baseball field. So whenever I felt uneasy at night I would pick some flowers put some music in my ears and walk to the field. I would put the flowers on an old bench and sit there until I saw the sun. I never really felt sad. Never cried. Never felt anything really. It was just a calming stillness of brisk summer air and familiarity of the bench. I also realized that a single bench probably saved me from a similar fate of the sister's. It was because I found that you don't need a purpose in life to enjoy it. I don't need to be the one to benefit from connections of people. It turns out I want to be the person that would cause someone to walk in a dark early summer morning and enjoy a rising sun. This video reminded me of that bench. And a lost smile that hasn't been forgotten.
Reading everyone's comments, i just realized how similar all of us are. How similar we all feel and think, it's like we all are experiencing the same thing. During highschool, even though i had to go to class in the morning, i would always stay up all night, and think about the little things in life. I would look at the moon and admire how peaceful it is, i would look at the stars and think about where they are in the space, i would stay up all night, just to watch the sky turn blue. Just to hear the birds sing, to feel the cold morning breeze. I would admire everything in the world, while lying in my tiny little bed, away from everyone else. I felt so happy during those times, it really felt like i needed to be alone after dealing with people at school. It was so drainig that all i longed for during the day, was to finally get home, lie in bed, play some music, and just chill. To all of you who are struggling with school, who find it draining to talk to people or to be around them, it's okay. Highschool will also end. Remmeber to keep doing the things that make you feel happy or at ease. Remmeber to find something that will make you feel calm. It can be the moon, the stars, the blue sky in the early morning, the birds singing, or just the cold morning breeze. Remember to love yourself, you are so much cooler than you think, so much better than you think. I hope you are happy, i hope you are healthy, and if you aren't, there is no need to worry. Things WILL get better. Trust me. If you read untill here, thank you. Have a peacefull night, and atay safe. thanks for this amazing playlist.
this comment section feels like a safe place. Where we all are laying Inside a camp like thing under starry night and listening to the same music and one by one everyone tells about their experiences and each one of us gets to hear it. It's so lovely, This comment box and this music is my favourite thing. Hugs for y'all ❤️
I was homeless when I was younger. New York City is different when you're up at the witching hour. This music gives me the feeling of when I would explore to keep myself up at night. I was lost but the night and stars always guided me the right way and this album truly expresses those moments. It was a tough time in my life but those moments helped me grow both spiritually and mentally. I currently work overnights as security guard and I listen to this at 4am. By the time the album is finished. I open up the doors and if it's Summer (currently it's 7/7/22), I get to see the sunrise and the beauty it brings with it.
@@richullingfivefivefive1745 There was a time I did want to write but my family shunned the idea of doing anything that is too risky. I regret letting them mold me but I'll look into writing my feelings like I did above and see how it works out. Thanks for the advice
It’s currently 3:39am and I decided to go out for a walk and made it pretty far. I made it to a bus stop with this peculiar light that flickers on and off right above me. I feel so alone but at peace, yesterday I woke up around same time and went for a hike to a mountain and stared off a cliff as I stood at the edge. There’s something about feeling very close to your demise. I look up at the stars and wonder just how many other people are walking around just as I am right now and what goes through their heads. My names Jorge by the way but people call me George. I’m 21 years old and I wish to someday make more of myself by moving into the mountains out of California with my dog and becoming a firefighter.
My husband drives OTR and one of his coworkers will only drive at night unless he HAS TO drive during the day. If you bought it, a truck brought it. Thanks for what you do 😊
When I was thirteen, I had horrible bouts of insomnia. One November, during a full moon, I took a walk around 4 a.m. It was clear, cold and achingly beautiful walking through the small forested area behind the house. I walked for hours. No light to guide me other than moonlight. I have rarely felt so at peace, yet so alive at the same time. That was forty-six years ago and I remember it like it was yesterday. This music reminds me of that magical walk.
I can never find much to say in comments, but..I’m glad spaces like this exist, somewhere. It almost feels like a miracle sometimes, this day and age. I feel at peace here, listening to this music. Even now, I’m sat outside at 2:45 AM in 40° weather, just..listening. Reading people’s stories. Feeling the cold wind on my face. It’s..freeing. I’ve always been a recluse. Felt like an outcast. Depression hits people like that hard sometimes. But..I consider myself lucky nowadays. In this silly little thing called life, I’m finally beginning to find myself, little by little. I’m finding peace and happiness in my own way, little by little. For anybody else out there reading this, who feels like they’re wandering aimlessly..I hope you can find your way. Take it one step at a time, if you need. Its not too late; It’s never too late.
Me too. I feel the same way. 40 degrees is pretty cold. I'm from Southern CA so maybe I'm biased. Was just in the PNW last week and it got down to 20 overnight... now that was cold.
You're not alone 💯 Easy times make weak men. Weak men make hard times. Hard times make strong men. We're in the stage were most guys are tired of the bullshit and just want peace with themselves.
*To anybody who's reading this, I pray that whatever is hurting you or whatever you are constantly stressing about gets better. May the dark thoughts, the overthinking, and the doubt exit your mind. May clarity replace confusion. May peace and calmness fill your life. *
@@trendingone42 depends what place you live in, around my area, barely anyone is awake. Plus biking at 4am is such a nice thing, you have so much area to urself
I really, really hope you guys never stop sharing these stories. I’m going through it pretty bad right now but this feels like such a safe haven. You all are awesome
Hi Bradyn. Im not sure what your going through,i dont know you,your story or anything about you. Im a stranger who you will most likely never meet. But i want you to know something Bradyn: I want you to know that whatever it is or however hopeless it may seem,that you have a choice. You have a choice to be kinder A choice to be better A choice to overcome A choice to go the extra mile A choice to change You have a choice to live. Not because life is easy,but because it isnt. Because life is a gift and a great challenge. Never forget that in your darkest dark there is a way out. I know because, just like you can, i fought to it and found it.
I struggle alot of the month and find myself awake at 4am wondering if anyone else is doing the same. I listen to my family sleep and try to be as quiet as I can. Up just staring into the fire some nights..just...thinking...u are not alone. I guess if life didn't have struggles we wouldn't know what true joy is..
As an introvert, the night owl and a person who needs so much courage to do literally anything because of anxiety.. I rarely comment. But reading people's comments here gave the feeling of extraordinary connection that I can't feel often. I always wonder if there's anyone who thinks and do what I do. If there's someone who feels so much, so deeply but at the same time feels empty, broken and lonely, who needs somebody to hold their hand. It's 7am and I'm still awake, my day and my sleep schedule got unhealthy again these days. But I've always preferred the night time, the stars, the moon and that peaceful yet longing feeling. Like.. Nobody wants anything from you and you can just exist. Pretending that time doesn't. Only the blue early morning light breaking through the windows reminds of it. I used to think about the past so much, think about some people's shadows and crying. Or think about the future which is very stressful when you have no idea what to do. So I'm trying to stay in the present and just catching moments, I think. Being so sensitive is difficult, like a curse. But they say that we should think of it as a superpower. And I kinda like it. The world needs us, right? Listening to this music makes me miss something that I don't have. Dreamy. I feel like there's so much to give, so much to tell. Whenever I look at the night sky I wonder, where's this soul who does the same and looks for a soulmate? If you're reading this - hello and thank you! ✨
You know I've been exactly the same way at different times in my life. I'd stay up all night until the sky started to get light outside, then sleep all day. I was also really anxious about going out, seeing people... even anxious about leaving my room. But I always hated seeing the sky get light in the morning. It just felt like I had wasted an entire night of sleep and I was about to waste an entire day, getting bad quality sleep while the sun is up. For your sake I really hope you turn around your sleep schedule. No matter whatever I went through God was always there for me. Even in those darkest times when I had no one, he was there, forgiving my sins and taking care of me. ❤
@James Codz You wrote it beautifully. The cold embrace of the dawn.. Pretty romantic. I can relate to you. There's something in sharing moments with another understanding person. That's my biggest wish I think.
I've never been one to comment on videos, but reading the comments gave me inspiration. As a young teenager, I remember spending many nights wide awake at 3AM laying on my friend's trampoline wondering how many people were staring up at the sky the same way I was at that very moment. I was in a small rural midwestern town and would take walks around down back roads while the sun just began to light up the sky. During the day, some of the worst times of my life happened, but at night, after the sun had been down for hours and in a few more the sun would be rising, there was such a sense of calmness and peace. People always talk about how high school are the best days of your life. I never understood that at the time. I still don't believe it was the best time of my life, but I would give anything to be thirteen again staring up at the midnight sky, listening to music without a care in the world.
I'm 23 y.o. and it's exhausting because i thought i'd dead by now. no plans, no thoughts, just existence. i like to lie on the floor at night and listen to such playlists
Damn brother 20 years here pretty much same except it hit me about a year ago when I was like shit I’m still here and realized I have to start helping myself or imma just drown in silence I wish you the best of luck
I'll be 40 in 2 weeks, most of my adult life I have felt the same. I hope things get better. I'm just trying to focus on the beautiful people and things in life, thats what gets me through
This music takes me back to a time when nothing mattered. I used to stay up till the crack of dawn with friends across the world playing video games thinking the good times would never end. That was over 6 years ago and now in just a month I will be leaving for college. I now have the burden of worrying about my future, my finances, and my relationships. I wish I could go back to one of those winter nights at 4am playing video games without a care in the world. All I have to say is to enjoy the simple times while you have them because nothing gets easier in life.
It's a bit saddening that the general human spirit it to learn, to explore, to yearn for information of everything that exists. When we grow older, we do lose that child-like mindset of being perfectly content with just playing video games. But in every person's life, there will come a point where we realize there's more to life than just the small things, like video games. Sure, those times were the easiest, not knowing anything but fun and games, but... Is that all you really want to know?
Boy if this ain't the realest story. I just told my own late-night story in a new comment and I pretty much had the same feeling there, it was the year I graduated high school and the world was full of possibilities and worries.
Honestly, modern society destroys who we once were. Life is definitely not easy and it does indeed get worse; but I find that people usually trap themselves in a cycle of misery. The system does not care about us and traps us into a loop and we become complacent and simply go along with it instead of standing up for ourselves. If you want to enjoy your life through your adulthood, start doing things that are meaningful for you and try your best to find other options to make income. Also look into minimalism. The best we can do is reduce our suffering as much as possible. Make time for hobbies or things you enjoyed as a kid and that you still do enjoy. Do not lose yourself in this corrupt system, for the system does not care for you; neither should you care for the system. Rebel against it in whatever way you can.
Thanks for sharing your perspective. Lots of young people feel this way, but in a way it's not about you finding your way in this material and superficial world. The real journey is about finding yourself and understanding that there us purpose in your existence, you may not think it's significant, but it is. The molecules within your body was made from the stars (fusion process), and eventually your energy will return there...... Just remember a few simple things (that helped me) 1. Live simply and within your means 2. Avoid materialism and following the crowd 3. Everything in the material world is designed for one thing, to distract you from your true self 4. Seek nature, eat healthy, exercise, and seek people (or animals) of good character 5. Helping others gives far greater inner reward and peace that a high powered career 6. The greatest things you have if value are your health, time, and good family or friends (the rest actually doesn't matter that much at the end) 7. Learn a practical hobby, be self sufficient as much as you can, cook for yourself 8 Don't chase women, focus on improving yourself, and avoid marriage in the West 9. Be kind and tolerant to others, but don't let them step over you 10. The best things in life ARE free, learn to enjoy them. 11. Avoid mainstream media, newspapers, politicians, lawyers and criminals, learn to think for yourself, don't assume what you others say is the truth... There are always at least two sides to a story Don't fear the future, it doesn't exist. Live in the moment and appreciate now. Plan for the future, but do not worry if it does not work out for you. The universe intended for you to be where you are, and tje future is unwritten. All the best and cherish the good memories of life, life has ups and downs, but learn to appreciate what is good in your life and be content with what you have (but strive for more)
I just wanted to say something to the hero behind this channel. Many of your subscribers here that are listening to your wonderful selection of music, are mostly misunderstood, in pain or just seeking some solitude and someone, something to understand them. As you know, music is the best companion to make you feel sane when no one understands what you are going through. So my friend, thanks.
Sometimes, only God understands and cares, but that's alright, because He will give us love like none found in the world. God is so amazing, He has gifts and plans for each and every one of us. Unfortunately, broad is the road to destruction, as many will never listen to Him, and choose their own ways of limited knowledge instead of leaning on Him and His infinite wisdom. The Lord has great plans for those that heed the call.
What you're saying is very true and very beautiful. Yet i would also like to add that soon, this comment will have 420 likes and thats funny; have a nice day/night
Being awake at 4AM is a very sacred time, Since going to college and getting a girlfriend I never really stay up this late, but tonight was different. My head just didn't seem to calm down so here I am with the same kind of people, up at 4 feeling that peace in the loneliness. I hope whoever is reading this is happy with where they are in life and if you aren't, I hope you strive to make yourself better day by day. I love you
I feel this! I’m here because I’m staying away from my partner for a night (not because anything’s wrong, just because I’m visiting my parents). Haven’t been here in a while… it’s quite an experience 🌌
a couple nights ago i was awake at 4am and decided to take a little walk through my snowy neighborhood. it was an unmatchable calming experience. i really can’t explain how extraordinary it was. thank you for this
I did this recently, and it was so magical. I walked in the street looking up at the sky. Those are the moments that will be remembered for a life time
Please, do it again, but play this playlist and just walk, and walk... Until you meet the first rays of the sunrise, then get back home and appreciate the gift of freedom you've been given. We can literally go everywhere and anywhere at any given time. How wonderful is that!
@@Milena-ix5mq yeah bro we’re not tryna die or get get frostbite amputations here. Stop trying to be deep and go touch some grass under the snow. Go hug a tree. Give up on your dreams and aspirations because you’re never getting them.
@@Jaxon_Klein that isnt true. the more you are attached to your aspirations and dreams, and you really believe they will happen, they are eventually going to happen. also, she isnt trying to be deep, its just a magnifecent recommendation for doing something that can be a beautiful experience. and, sometimes it isnt bad to be deep, it can actually lead to good thoughts and wrap you into a inmense sense of calm and peace. after all, that can be another experience. you are the only one to decide if it is a bad experience or a good one. its all up to you.
Just after COVID lockdowns hit I had a lotta time off work alone, so I started riding around Tokyo on my bicycle in the middle of the night. Thanks to the pandemic, everywhere was completely deserted and still. I saw one of the most populated cities in the world in total peace. A truly surreal, beautiful and yet brief time in my life that I will never forget.
I love staying up past 4. No phones ringing, no one asking questions, no obligations. Just you and the night. Its like at that moment you know who you are.
I grew up in a neighborhood in rural Pennsylvania. This playlist brings me back to my childhood. My friends and I would sneak out and wonder the town deep into the morning hours without a worry in the world. The buildings and streets felt so lifeless but were alive with the awe of youth. At that time we had no idea where our lives would take us. Life was calm and still. 13 years later I am 25 years old and live in a city. I have loved, lost, laughed, cried, hated, and forgave many times since then. Most of my childhood friends have moved on, some died, and a few I still talk to. It all seems like a distant memory from another life. And I know all my friends that explored the streets with me on those nights have done the same wherever they may be. I am content as I lay here.
I also did the same in central PA. I miss those times during the summer where my friends and I would go all around the woods and into abandoned buildings to just explore and do whatever. Times were easier back then
I read the title of this playlist, and the word/number “4am” really brought me back. It was November of 2020. 4am on some sad Friday night. I wasn’t feeling too good so I reached out to this girl whom I found attractive. I’ve only spoken to her a few times, but I said “screw it, what do I have to lose…” I texted her, and not 2min later she responds. I asked if I could call, for I was feeling lonely. She called for me. I crawled onto the roof of my back patio, and we sat on the phone until about 6:30. For the next few months, every weekend, we’d find a 4am-6:30-ish slot of time to speak on the phone. It was a perfect time to talk, because everyone at the house would be asleep, so we could talk without distraction. The date is May 2021. She and I haven’t spoken in a few weeks, so I decide to reach out around 1am. She responds…almost as if nothing had changed. I have began to grow feelings for her, and I tell her everything of how I feel about her. She goes quiet. Phone call ends soon. It is now 1am, July 14th, 2022… I still think about her. I’ve met other girls, been with other girls…but none are her. I know I gotta let go and/or move on some how…But there is this feeling that she is the one. It’s a blessing and a curse. This playlist just brought Everything back up… My emotions of when I first spoke to her, To my emotions of when she never spoke to me again. Life does move on, but sometimes it’s nice to be stuck in the past… Thank you for making this playlist. It’s been a pleasant trip to my patio roof…❤️
i got a similar past story with a boy i loved. this hits hard. i want to move on but just like you said there is this particular feeling… it seems like it never goes away. and the fact that he‘s probably feeling the same way makes it even worse because i can‘t imagine how we possibly would find our way back to each other.
@@thegirlwhodreams7528 text him and if he feels the same way then you have your answer, if he doesn’t, what do you lose? Life is too short for being ashamed or shy, seek the opportunity before it’s too late
I had the same thing too, we’d talk from 3am - 7am, every Saturday, we eventually got together but we lived 5 hours apart on car, things eventually didn’t work out and now she doesn’t respond to me when I ask how shes doing. I also believe she was the one but I did everything I could. You need to believe that the universe or cosmic fate is rational, everything happens for a reason. Do everything you can on your part but outside of that, it’s out of your control. Goodluck to you all and I hope you’re able to heal :)
This reminds me of being at a sleepover, while you randomly wake up, while all of your friends are still asleep around you. The moonlight from the window casts a beautiful glow across their faces, and you can’t help but smile; having the most wonderful friends ever. You get up and get a glass of water in the kitchen. The air is still and your mind is half asleep. This is when I feel most at peace, In the dead of night.
Being Awake at 4 feels like being a college student and knowing you’re going to wake up super late and miss things, but feeling like your sleep schedule is already so screwed up that you can’t do much about it. But then, the next day, around maybe 10 ish, your friend comes up to you and asks how you’re doing. You tell them that it’s rough. Sleep isn’t going so good. And then they say “That sucks man. Anything I can do?” And even though they can’t really, you instantly feel better. You have a friend that cared enough to ask. That’s more than you’ve ever had before. Even if you feel like you have no routine or control, life is still getting better everyday. You got this. Take it from a guy who knows. Even if you don’t have that someone in person, there’s always someone to talk to. Or even just somebody who cares. If anyone comments, know that I care. Share your stories. It’s good to get them out there, good bad or ugly.
As a person who goes out on late night drives for relaxation due to the calmness that empty roads give during that time of the night, this playlist best describes this feeling when taking these drives. Its not that I'm depressed, sad or have stress on my mind. The night drives are mostly a form of meditation or "peace moment" for me and even gives me a chance to self reflect about things, mostly positive or curious thoughts. It's amplified more so if you take these trips with friend(s) and/or family member(s) who have that same self reflective mindset.
i remember going on non-stop road trips where we wouldn’t sleep at hotels, and we started often around sunset or nighttime. i often just stayed awake for the entire night before we got there the next day, and it felt lonely and desolate. i also remember everything about the gas stops we took, right down to the smell of the gas and the vibe of the store. those gas stations were often empty, too, so it truly felt like i was the last one on earth left.
When i was a kid, my grandma used to wake up at 4am to go for a walk with her friends they together go to the park then do some exercises, after that they go to a small caffe to rest and talk I said i wanna try it too and she said yes, you know as a kid, waking up at 4am was really amazing to me cause it felt so weird, kinda mix of being sleepy and excited Me, her, my little brother and my big cousin woke up at 4am and got ready to go the park The night was dark blue which looked so magical, the street was empty, there were some random containers passing by every 5 mins I felt like we were the only one living in this world, the feeling didnt last long until we met her friendgroup, they were all old just like her, sadly most of them passed away now, idk how it feels when your friends are just slowly dying one by one So we did exercises, i laughed a lot because of the poses, i laughed so much that the leader, idk what should i called him, english is not my first language, basically he was the one showed people how to pose, laughed too and told me to stop laughin or he couldnt do it Finally the exercises done, me and my brothers ran around the park, we ended up getting so tired, when we got home, all of us fell at sleep immediately, i woke up again at 9am It was a memorable experiment, now everytime i heard about 4am, i always think of it
It sounds like you were very young back then like 8-10 years old. your story reminded of my memories of the time when I was around 8-10 years old. The best days of life my life ie childhood is gone. Now being 23 I miss being a kid so much.
Im so happy to know this exists, after reading some of these stories I reflect on how I used to be as a teenager. I’m 23 now but for a long time during my teen years I would stay awake all night and sleep the morning away. I was homeschooled so my time was all mine. I played a lot of video games and really hated going outside. I had severe social anxiety and depression. I isolated myself from everyone around me, even my family for days sometimes, just to sit in the solitude. It wasn’t really dark, it was just quiet all night, every night and that’s how I liked it. Until I didn’t anymore. When I turned 20 I realized I hadn’t enjoyed the long nights gaming anymore, I wanted to meet people, I wanted to do things and experience life in some way. So I did, it was so scary but I did, and it was fast too August 2020 I got my first job at a gym, January 2021 I got my drivers license, May 2021 I earned my GED. I was making friends, I was doing things, I was making money, yet I still felt unfulfilled and unhappy, I kept wondering why I still felt the way I did even though I had begun to do things, January 2022 earlier this year I began to really improve myself physically, mentally and emotionally. I started taking my fitness journey seriously, consistent exercise, meal prepping, drinking water, sleeping well and ended up losing 60 pounds. I started to talk to people more and make real connections, open up to people and made the best friends of my life. I began reading books and journaling even considered going to therapy because even though I had made great friends, I still felt lonely. I still had the same feeling I had since I was a teenager. And at this point I was 22, I was high on life and on confidence, I was losing weight and doing great things for myself, my next choice kind of destroys everything I was building. In May of 2022 I decided to enlist into the United States Army. I thought it would improve me as a person, teach me discipline, make me stronger and faster and improve me mentally and financially than I ever could myself, while I respect the military, the choice I made was one of the worst ones I could’ve made. I still had insecurity and was driven by it, I felt as though I wasn’t good enough to do something else with myself, as though all those years in isolation had made me lesser than everyone around me and I had nothing to offer and even if I did I felt like no one would accept it. So I joined, having convinced myself that it was the only thing I could do, and I finished basic training, I completed the forge, I made it to AIT, and I settled in to it. Now I’m on holiday leave, back home, where it all started for me, and being home has taught me something. I was worth so much more than I thought I was. I could’ve done anything I wanted to with the determination I had, and now I’m sitting here at 4:26am central standard time, regretting what I did, because now im locked into something that makes me a much worse person than who I was trying to become, all my motivation has been sucked out of me, the drive I once had is now gone, my friends who I made connections with are broken hearted at how long I will be gone, as is my family, the connections I finally made after years of severe loneliness and social anxiety are likely going to fade, because I will not be able to have a presence in their lives. My mental health is in the worst place it’s been in my life, I’m still doing my best however. Maybe one day I’ll pull myself out of this rut, like I did before. I sure hope so. If you read all the way down here thank you. I hope you truly take into consideration how your actions will affect your life and the lives of those around you. I hope you’re healthy, I hope you’re happy, I hope all your dreams are coming true. If none of that is happening I just want you to know things will get better. Stay determined, don’t give up. You will win, and I love you.
People underestimate how much words can mean to someone, and this is an example of why people shouldn't. Those words helped me alot right now, thank you.
You know, when it's late at night, and I feel alone, or sad, I search "4am musics" on RUclips. Cause I can listen to this songs all night, dreaming about peace, but also because I know there is thousand of people in comments who have stories to tell, passion, emotion, feelings to tell. I know that when I click on this kind of videos, I'll find my peace. People who actually understand me. And I feel like when I'm here, we are in another world. Like nobody except us are awake. Like everybody can read this comment, but also nobody. People here actually takes time to read all this stories, even if they don't like, comment or anything, they read them and that's so amazing. It's kind off early for me, but this feeling is here. And I wish sometimes I could escape home and go for a walk, just seeing the town sleeping while I'm awake.
i feel exactly the same, it's crazy how human's can all connect without even knowing they are, i'm glad people think the same way i do, and you've put it into perfect words. i hope you're doing well and take care
2 years ago i had just joined brazillian army, we had to be ready at 5am for morning obligations so most of us were generally awaken at 4am. But sometimes, 3:30am was the best time to wake up because we could see, at least for 5-10 minutes, the sun rising up in the sky and it was one of the most beautiful views i have ever seen in my life, specially in rainy seasons. When i did my 1 year minimun required time of active service, i still find myself awaken at 4am staring at the sunrise before going to college. I can't explain the feelings, but sadnees is definetely not one of them.
Woke up an early summer morning last year, and i had to drive home from my girlfriend, who lives 150KM away from me. It was around 4AM in the morning, and I drove on the highway as the only person for quite some time. I did probably only see 3-4 cars on the whole way home. I have a hard time describing the feeling it gave me, listening to ambient music like this while driving that morning. Its just something that i won't forget. Such an inner peace. I really felt like i was the last person in this world. That feeling is very fascinating, because it feels really good in some ways, but can be truly scary in other ways.
I remember one of the first times I got high was with my best friend in his backyard at 2am, we decided to smoke in the hottub and look up at the stars together. Something about watching the stars with him made me feel whole, like he understood the sadness I felt. We just gazed at the stars until the sun came up. He's passed away now, and I often think about that time when we were just dumb kids trying to be happy.
All the best to You, fella. Be strong 💪 Almost three months ago I've lost my best friend as well (13th Sep). Suddenly. He would be 33yo on 11th Nov. I consider myself as an introvert in most part. Didn't really ever had the need to be sorounded by dozens of "friends", because time & life itself have showed me with every single year, that quality is more important than quantity. We knew each other for about 20 years. Once when we got high, He admitted that He kissed my girlfriend, when we were about 15-17yo. But that didn't stopped me from cleaning His house after a party, when everybody bailed and I was the last one left at around 4am. His parents were coming back on the same day afternoon and I knew, seeing Him completely wasted, that He won't be able to clean up later all of that mess. Countless times when He thanked me for that. I think that I'm still in a phase of some kind of denial, just hard to accept it. Miss You, Buddy 💔
Really hope your doing good so many stories lost to suicide like this and ppl with amazing experinces idk what I would’ve done back then without my friend if he passed too many good things we lose
It's 4:25 am right now. Life for me is pretty rough right now. Anxiety has gotten to me a lot lately. I'm almost 18, and I feel like I've done absolutely nothing with my life. I'm a senior in high school, and honestly, I wasn't supposed to be around this long. So now, I don't know what to do with my life, or with myself. I don't really have a lot of friends, and I don't really talk to people. I hardly leave my house because of social anxiety. Sometimes it feels like I don't even exist and that people just don't care enough to acknowledge my existence. I know that's not the case but it feels like it. I feel so insignificant. So unimportant. It feels like my life is meaningless. It feels like I have no point to keep going. I'm not suicidal, or anything like that, I just feel unimportant. I feel like if I was gone, nobody would care, or notice. Life would just keep on going. Time wouldn't stop. Nobody would notice enough to care. I've been consistently taking my meds, but it feels like nothing helps. I feel like I'm gonna do nothing in life. I'm not going to accomplish anything. I'm not the little girl who thought she was gonna change the world anymore. This world is too damaged to be changed, and even if I could, I'm too insignificant. In the end, I'm just a stupid kid with big dreams that will never come true. So what is the point of living? This world is over 4 billion years old, and will continue to exist for another million billion years. I'll have no impact on it. So what's the point? What's the point of living if you won't have an impact? Sorry for rambling. But if you read, thanks. -Sam
I am the same, I just graduated and have done nothing. I never really had friends or even talk to others much. I don’t know what to do. I had big plans once but now I don’t. Everywhere I look there is corruption, I don’t even know what I can do at this point. But there is one thing I like it’s kinda weird but I like to go to old places that are lost, like an old cabin in the woods or an old trailhead that’s isn’t traveled on anymore and reminisce about all the stories and memories people could have made at that place. Another thing (also weird) is I like to go to places where journeys are split little hard to explain but for example there is this place where a river splits and both sides run to the opposite coast, I think it’s called parting of the waters. Anyway it’s cool to think of the stories along the way but something happens and they split apart. Until one day they meet back together again just as randomly. It takes my mind off of the bad things in life. I hope you find something truly wonderful in life one day. ❤ -Andrew
Nothing on this earth will satisfy. Nothing on this earth will truly fulfill. Nothing on this earth brings true hope or Joy. BUT....a life lived for Jesus brings true satisfaction, true fulfillment, true Hope and Joy. Worldly impact is temporal, but the impact of a life that is lived for Jesus will last forever. Believe on Jesus' Death and resurrection for the sins of the world. He did it for you, and for me. He loves you, He wants you. In this there is Hope and Peace:)
Oh, how's your live going after nearly 1 year after? Do you have the same view on the world as before? I'd with pleasure hear out ur answer but as I can predict you probably won't see this comment. I leave a hear for another generations seeing this answer❤❤
I don't usually write comments because of my anxiety, but something about reading through these comments for the last 10 minutes makes me want to share how I resonate with this playlist and what the feeling of 4 am reminds me of. I have an addiction to daydreaming to put it short. The name would be called maladaptive daydreaming disorder. For as long as I've known I've used daydreaming to cope with the amount of loneliness and neglect I've faced through the years and even now. It's late at night that I find I do it the most. Whenever the day has ended from all its responsibilities and the 2 friends I have go offline to sleep. It leaves me alone with silence and boredom, and scrolling through tiktok can only do so much to fill that void until it just gets old. So I go to the place that I've always felt comfort in, my daydreams. The carefully crafted world I've made to be exactly how I wish my life would be. With a big happy family, a large friend group, people that check in, never feeling put down for interests or things that are out of my control, always feeling protected and loved, etc. A world I can feel free in a world where I feel trapped, even if I play as another character. This world tends to consume my brain. No matter how much I love it and it makes me happy, it still takes from me like any other disorder would. One prominent thing it takes is my sleep. My brain attaches to a certain scenario and repeats it, adding onto it each time the scene is played out, playing a cinematic movie in my head that can last for hours. Before I know it the time has passed from 11pm to 4am. I snap out of my daydream to check the time on my phone and almost gasp in surprise at how late it's gotten, without any plan to stay awake to this hour. Then I tell myself that it's time I let my mind rest and finally get some sleep just for the cycle to repeat the next day and the day after.
I'm glad you wrote that. I do this so often and it's easy to feel alone, or as if you're the only one experiencing something. Hope you're doing ok, from one daydreamer to another.
Since everyone is sharing their 4am story why not share mine right? :) Well it was around 4am a winter day which means the sun would go up around 7-8am pretty late. I was in my deepest back then and was always holding myself back from ending it all. I remember it so clearly I opened my window that day and sat there watched the stars and the moon cried and cried and asked god why I have to live like this. I would have done that so many times. Do an all nighter just to cry and sit there on my window in the cold watching the moon and stars. It felt like god was talking with me all the time so I would look at the moon and just vent on it telling the moon everything but it felt like I was talking to god or the closest people specifically my dead cat. It felt like they were hugging me and telling me that everything will be alright one day. I never lost hope until now. I’m back in my deepest I’ve ever been and I don’t know how long I can keep up with this. Knowing other people feel the same makes me so sad. Please know you are valid and special
I don't know how much this will mean to you, since I am just a random person on the Internet, but remember that you are valid and special too. Everything you are feeling is valid. I know how hard it is to believe all of that. I am in the same position right now, but we just have to keep going. One day at a time. Find the things in life that bring you joy, no matter how little or brief. If you can't, think about me, a random stranger who truly cares. Just keep going
Please just know that YOU are valid and special. Each moment is a gift, and each breath is precious. You are wholly unique - in this world and in this universe, no one else can be you. The odds of your being alive and existing is 1 in 10^2,685,000 - that's 10, followed by 2,685,000 zeros. Your life is as important as any other, and you are irreplaceable. You may feel useless, worthless, desolate, and a million other things but you aren't. You are just as much a part of this universe as anything else and you are made of atoms conceived in the hearts of long-dead stars. You are precious. You are loved. The fact that you are alive is a miracle.
I've always been a night owl -- I was actually diagnosed with DSPD, delayed sleep phase disorder, later in life which just explained SO so much -- it's essentially just a shift in normal sleep schedule, where you're pretty much just a medically certified night owl LOL. Anyway, my first summer out of high school (2003) I got myself a job at Blockbuster, where I was making six bucks an hour while saving up for my new adult life. I requested off every Wednesday closing shift and every Thursday opening shift because Wednesday nights were my night out. My friend Bair would come pick me up at maybe ten or ten thirty, and we'd go get our other friends; there'd be maybe four or five of us. We would make our way downtown to the Alamo Drafthouse, where we'd attend Weird Wednesday, which was free at that time. It started at midnight and showed just the most bizarre and goofy B-movies from the fifties through eighties, some even starring some big names (I remember one with Jack Nicholson???). Afterwards, we'd head to the arcade down at the college campus, and grab some coffee from our favourite little hole in the wall coffee shop, which was absolutely lovely at night out on the patio, with strings of lights and off-kilter furniture. There was a 24-hr diner on the same street, between the arcade and the coffee shop, and if we were hungry, we'd grab food. I wouldn't get home until maybe four or so. One night we were all having so much fun..... we made new friends at the arcade, including an exchange student from France named Vincent, and we walked up and down the Drag (the main road at UT campus in Austin), talking and laughing..... sat on the steps to the college, talking late into the night, with Vincent lying out on the step with his head in my lap. We spent all our quarters at the arcade and bought an extra coffee at the shop. Eventually, one by one, all our friends found their ways home; most of them had come by on their own that night anyway. And soon it was five in the morning and it was just me and Bair left. We were still content to just enjoy each other's company, so we popped into Ken's Donuts, mercifully always 24hrs, and split the cost of a dozen. I ended up taking four of them home to my mom and my brother but we sat there in that little donut shop and enjoyed our two donuts and orange juice together. We were in no hurry. He had me home at about six, and I was washing off my makeup and changing into my pajamas just as the sun was emerging. I'd left the box of donuts on the kitchen counter with a note for my mom and my brother. They were appreciative and split them while I was sleeping. But for as long as I live I will never forget sitting in that donut shop at a quarter past five in the morning after a beautiful night out, sitting across from Bair, laughing and enjoying our donuts and our friendship. I'm thirty-seven years old now, next year I'll be attending my twentieth high school reunion, but I look back on that night as an absolute core memory. I hope I never forget it as long as I live. 🍩🍩🍩🍩
Thanks for sharing that. I love reading through these comments … The music wouldn’t be quite the same without comments like yours. … Hope you and Bair are doing well. By the story I read from your description that friendship was/is something truly precious :)
You all are my people. Its nice to see people here who don't jump straight to depression and addictions as the only reason people willingly stay up so late. Sometimes that is just how your body works though, you're naturally more awake and motivated in the dead of night than you ever can be during the day and there's absolutely nothing wrong with that.
Well for me i think it does come from depression and addiction 😅 but I also just like the night a lot. There's less pressure at night. You're usually in a quiet, lonely situation that you can control. During the day all kinds of stressful and out of control things can happen. A lot of good things can happen too. Daytime is really important for physical/mental health. But its still nice to just rest quietly at night.
I'm a really big late night driver. I love just getting in my car and taking off on some random highway or interstate, radio blasting and the windows down. It just feels, calming? Being alone out on the road, having the trees fly past me, it feels like I've found a sort of freedom, like a bird that's taken first flight. Although this playlist isn't the sort of music I play during these drives, it does perfectly match the feelings I get
I have issues with sleep, and im a horrible introvert. I express myself through music a lot and spent most of my time alone because of these 2 things and i just wanted to say thank you for making a playlist that reminded me im not alone. Weird as it may sound. Its good to know there are people out there who think of us and make playlists with us in thought. Thank you.
Music has helped me through some really hard times. I feel as if I have a special connection to it, more special than most people do. It's people like you I look out for, so I admire the fact you took the bravery to leave this comment here! Have a great night/day :)
Im a mental health professional/ therapist these days. I had insomnia and anxious nights throughout my younger years. This playlist and pictures symbolize to me so much of what it feels like to feel like that again. Im thankful that I have gotten to a better place mentally and I hope everyone else watching this is doing ok.
My brother and I used to stay up all the way till 6 am playing games (gta, max payne, hitman) I never got to play much since I was young, but I enjoyed watching him play, the sounds of our silent house and neighborhood with only our pc's noise were the most amazing inexplicable feeling to me as a kid. Sadly life happens to people, and we grew apart, he's a happy married man with a beautiful daughter! And I'm so happy for him. And now I'm listening to this, about to cry because I miss those simpler times.
When I was in middle school, I had several undiagnosed mental disorders that I had no idea about. As I got older, the worse they became. My coping skill was to stay up until 3 or 4 in the morning reading wattpad (I know, I know) or listening to music, simply enjoying the peace of being the only one awake. I felt so grounded, and so at peace. 4 am really is something special.
It’s crazy to think that so many people on earth feel like they’re the only people on earth at 4 AM but are all awake at the same time basking in the peaceful loneliness
Lots of good comments here. As another introvert, I have always loved those off-hours times when no one else is around. I used to live in Minneapolis, and very early winter mornings were a special time. I used to play video games until very late, and then before going to bed spend time looking out my living room window that had a view of an urban residential alley way. Snow falling under the light of an orange sodium gas street light against an overcast sky, filling up the road with more fresh snow. Absolute quiet and peace. I miss those times.
I had a best friend once, we used to do everything together. After going through the overwhelming stress of collage, tedious family arguments, and a decaying relationship throughout the week I would always find myself in his company at the end of it all. We were always together at every opportunity. My fondest memories were when we would take walks together. We would spend hours exploring the many streets and avenues around his neighborhood. We would always find ourselves getting distracted by some thrown out piece of junk in a neighbors yard and spend the next few hours discussing about all the ways we could turn it into some new invention or game. We would spend the rest of our visit dragging that said piece of junk home which would usually end up being thwarted by his unamused and passively agitated mother. But my favorite memories are when we would stay up all night. We would watch movies and draw all night long. When we were tired we would put something like this on and drift asleep and do it all again the next day. Due to a decline in his mental health our friendship became very strained at one point and one day we got into a fight. This fight became very nasty and bitter and went on for a year and a half. We were no longer friends anymore we hated each other. The bitterness that had grown between us lead to things that can never be taken back. The situation had escalated so much that I had fallen into a dark depression. All I felt was violence, all I wanted to do was sleep, and all I ever did was wallow in that bitterness. I am in a much better place now and we have stayed as far away from each other as possible but in these times when I'm alone late at night I cant help but feel a little melancholic. After all the things that had been said and done and after all of the hatred that had come out of us I still cant help but mourn him. I miss those days but mostly, I miss my best friend.
its an sad feeling bro. I also used to have friends in school who are kind of strangers now. we drifted apart we don't talk often. I miss them. there was no fight between us but its just after we finished school we didn't hung out as much as we used to do. there is this one guy kinda my closest friend back then he chose other course and I chose other so we went to different colleges. I still have his number sometimes I text him he does reply but there is no spark left between us. I wish we go back at being best friends all over again like the school days.
We punish ourselves sometimes, but it’s okay to outgrow relationships. They were the best person for that particular point in time, and maybe they’ll be again, in the future…or maybe not. We’re always meant to be moving forward though. It’s natural.
My mom used to sit up awake in the dark pre dawn kitchen (I remember seeing her cigarettes' glowing) She had recently lost her son-my nine year old brother-who died in a car accident (which she witnessed) This music makes me think of her-how lonely and sad she was. How we never understood her pain. Somehow this music makes it clearer. Thank you
Kathleen Cabot I understand how hard it is to lose loved ones, my grandfather died of COVID in 2021 just before Christmas... I can still remember my last time with him, we had a fight and it was devastating we couldn't reconcile, I felt numb at his funeral... I had no tears left to cry anymore. Many nights I would lament how he died looking up at the sky, hoping he found peace in death.
@@maluspezzano7928 thanks kid, it had a more devastating effect on my grandmother, she had fifty four years with him... She's seen him drunk, sober, beat down, and everything else, my mother started burying herself in booze after he died. I felt empty and apathetic towards him after that fight we had.
I've always cry alone, in silence. It's late night and the only lightning comes from my window. This empty feeling, sadness, trap me and the only thing I can do is to cover my mouth with my hands and try my hardest to be silent. Moon shines in front of me in a beautiful way. The hole world is quiet, and I feel I'm the only one living in it. This playlist remind me of those moments. It feels... lonely
There have been countless nights where i have stayed up all night and left my room to go watch the sunrise. I can't recall any one specific moment, but the feeling of doing this is so incredibly special, it makes me feel like i'm the only person around for miles: quietly somber, but content. It's incredibly draining but I've never had any regrets
It’s half 4 in the morning now.. exactly a year ago I moved by myself to the city and thought life would be a lot different, I thought somehow I would change overnight and get to be happy. Things have been tough and for the past 2 years around this time I seem to have to say goodbye to someone. I feel stupid for letting people in when I just disappoint them and myself over and over.. I did spent the last hour drawing and editing a video though when I struggled the whole day to move. I feel safer at night when everyone is asleep..I should stop thinking and sleep myself, thanks for the playlist. I can smell the vanilla candle I blew out a while ago.. it’s already getting light outside. I’m scared moments like these are the only time I get to feel free
For some reason, this playlist makes me cry. This whole playlist reminds me of my late grandpa. He died right after my birthday in 2020, still remember my brother knocking on my door so well, it was around 4am as well. I remember it so well...we had just bought him back home from the hospital, the docs had told us that he doesn't have much time to live so it'd be better if we'd all stayed with him together. The cold chilly feeling of that December night when the ambulance had pulled up at 1am and they got him out and we all went inside together into our house. I remember standing next to his bed as he looked at me while i was trying so hard not to breakdown as my shaky hands reached up to his mouth to feed him my birthday cake. I remember him mumbling something, but i don't remember what he said. Ever since i was a kid, I've been the closest to that man. Literally, the only man i look up to. We used to play games i had created on my own where I'd make new rules every single time we played, he'd always let me win. I remember those days when both of us would sneak out of the house to go eat something without grandma knowing. Death doesn't scare me. The memories the dead leave me with scares me.
it’s kind of scary how much i can relate. my grandpa died too in 2020, barely a month before my birthday. i remember my brother knocking on my door at 5am, and then going over to my grandpas house in the night to say goodbye. i’m sure that even after 2/3 years it’s hard but one thing i know is that we’ll be okay
the last few months of my senior year of highschool were cut short by the pandemic in 2020. I went from sleeping at 12 and waking up at 7:30 to sleeping at 4:00 everyday. Those late night hours were some of the most peaceful times of my life. Now I'm back to grinding school/internships and I kinda miss that period of time when I didn't have responsibilities and could sleep whenever I wanted.
yeah, i can see that. However, the pandemic took a huge chunk of my time and i missed a lot of opportunities to network and build relationships. Those days were a blur as I would constantly wake up and not even know what day it was. After society began to open up in my area, it was kinda hard to adjust and try to gain back my lost time. However, I did kinda missed those days of peace knowing that next day would be the same as yesterday. It was like a very long lunch break that seemed like it would never end but life isn't really about what is comfortable. That comes when you overcome your struggles and look back at your life in your later years and think "i'm content with how my life went". Well anyhoo, if you read my message, hope you doing good in life, from a stranger to another :)
This brings me back when I was younger (like very young like 6yrs old) I would sneak out of my house in the morning to watch the sunrise and sunset. I remember the night after my grandmother passed the sky was beautiful it had a strong orange with a slight pink hint in it, I remember then crying and asking why she had to leave me and feeling a breeze as if it was her giving me a hug and apologizing. I still miss her and watch sunsets and sunrises to this day.
Currently in college, I just always love staying up late and lying in bed looking up into the darkness every night just thinking about everything. It’s just so peaceful and relaxing
One time I woke up at 3am I went out to the balcony and saw the moon shining in the sky. I have a friend who studies abroad in Italy and I live in Vietnam so we are 5 times zones apart. Whenever I see the moon I often think about her and I called her that night and had a lovely chat with her while watching the moon. Before she went to Italy, we used to hang out at midnight in a solitary place to take a walk and watch the stars and the moon. I think the most beautiful thing in the world is to share the moments with the person we love. I hope everyone would have at least a special person to share feelings with and to feel alive.
your story made me realise how there's just 1 moon, and every night different people with different stories and many lonely souls look up at it. people who never knew eachother and never will connect with eachother, the only connection between them being the moon. its so beatiful
This reminds me of one of the most peaceful nights i’ve ever had in the woods. I used to be part of the national scouts association in my country and we would go camping in different forests every season. Usually, we have this thing where one person with a high rank has to stay awake the whole night to guard the campsite and keep the fire going. I was that person that night. I remember setting my sleeping back right next to the fire and huddling as close as possible to save myself from the winter cold. Everyone was asleep in the tents as I lay on my back outside and was taken aback when I saw the starry night sky filled with never ending stars. There was no light pollution in the forest so I could even see the milky way blinking in and out of existence. The only sounds in the air were of crickets coming from the cedar trees and the burning wood in the fire. I was the only person awake at the campsite and it felt like I was in a dream-like state, half asleep but still aware of my surroundings, just surrounded by tranquility, the sounds of the night, the occasional winter breeze and the warmth from the fire. All i could see were stars everywhere. I don’t know how to describe the feeling that came over me back then, but i remember this deep lull that washed over me and my chest aching at how beautiful it all was.
This playlist evokes a very strong memory from in my mind. I used to work at a fast food place on the closing shift. some nights, we wouldn't even leave the store till 3:30 in the morning. Walking was my only real trusted method of getting back and forth. Summer heat, Winter cold, I had no choice cause I was working minimum wage. One particular night, in the middle of December, it had just dropped a fresh coat of snow. Not much, maybe half an inch, enough to dust the roads but that's about it. As I rounded the final corner leading to my apartment, the snow was fresh, powdery, and untouched by man, vehicle, or beast. Just a perfect, light dusting of snow, That I almost didn't want to walk on, but to take another detour would take me anther 10 or 20 minutes out of my way. And just as I began the trek home on that final leg, The moon came out to greet me from behind the gray clouds of the wintry sky. No wind, no cars, no barking dogs or cats fighting in the distance. Just the subtle crunch, crunch, crunch, of each new step on my path home, my slightly hitched breath from carrying a bag full of food and work clothes. It was quite possibly the most peaceful moment of my life, and I long for that peace again. This music perfectly encapsulates what that moment in time felt like for me. Occasionally I'll sit back, close my eyes, and remember the crunch of the snow beneath my feet, and if thatm oment had a soundtrack, this would be that soundtrack. Thank you so much.
I have a similar experience involving snow that I would like to share. So growing up, I lived in the northern United States. The particular place that I lived was known for a good winter storm every few years. If it was going to be a bad one, they would call a state of emergency, tell everyone to get their supplies and usually close down the roads the night of the storm to allow the emergency vehicles to treat the roads and such. I would ALWAYS take this time to go out on walks. And I remember one particular time in my early twenties I went out for a walk, the roads were closed and the snow was already coming down hard. There was already a foot of snow on the ground. It was around 8pm, the street lights were already on, and the snow glistened. And at one point I remember stopping and listening. There was no loud cars or engines. No sirens or people. The only thing you heard was a gentle breeze and a light rustle of the trees. I think this is the only time in my life where I have truly felt at peace. Over 20 years later and it is a memory that is still so strong in my mind. Music like this always brings me back to that.
Beside my past and present habits, staying up most of the night still makes me feel different and a bit lonely, and nothing beats your parent or friend waking up and deciding to keep you company. For a bit, it's like being a kid again and showing them your strange world out of time and space, where you are yourself and there's only you and that person. Really a special moment to live out
i love reading everyone's story about their pasts and 4am moments while listening to this playlist. it heartwarms me and makes me feel like im reading a calming novel. thanks and hope everyone is having a good day, year and life
Around this time last year, I kept waking up at 3:00am on the dot. I would just toss and turn until either the sun came up or I eventually went back to sleep. Then one night I just decided to get up, went for a drive to the inlet and walked onto the beach. Nobody around, dead silent except for the wind and waves crashing. I just laid my coat down and laid on the sand staring up at the stars. Was going through a bit of a rough patch and have some kind of institutionalized paranoia. Always think somebody is looking at me or just generally doesn't mean well for me. Realizing nobody was around I was able to completely just be at ease and let my mind flow freely feeling the cool wind hit me as I watched the stars dance. I feel like something kept waking up me so I could experience that moment.
One time at like 4am, I was at my grandmas house and I couldn’t sleep. I got up and went to get water, and as I opened my door I saw my grandma there getting water too. Usually, she would yell at me for being up this late, but this time she just smiled at me and silently got me a glass of water. I don’t know if she could she the look in my eyes or if she just had a feeling, but we just silently sat in the kitchen and drank water together. That’s one of the few actually good memories I have of her, she’s very angry all the time but when shes at peace, she is the kindest person. I don’t talk to her as much anymore, but I know that this playlist encapsulates the peace that we both feel that late at night.
100 reasons to stay alive: 1. to make your parents proud 2. to conquer your fears 3. to see your family again 4. to see your favourite artist live 5. to listen to music again 6. to experience a new culture 7. to make new friends 8. to inspire 9. to have your own children 10. to adopt your own pet 11. to make yourself proud 12. to meet your idols 13. to laugh until you cry 14. to feel tears of happiness 15. to eat your favorite food 16. to see your siblings grow 17. to pass school 18. to get tattoo 19. to smile until your cheeks hurt 20. to meet your internet friends 21. to find someone who loves you like you deserve 22. to eat ice cream on a hot day 23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day 24. to see untouched snow in the morning 25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire 26. to see stars light up the sky 27. to read a book that changes your life 28. to see the flowers in the spring 29. to see the leaves change from green to brown 30. to travel abroad 31. to learn a new language 32. to learn to draw 33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them 34. Puppy kisses. 35. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek). 36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them. 37. Trampolines. 38. Ice cream. 39. Stargazing. 40. Cloud watching. 41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets. 42. Receiving thoughtful gifts. 43. “I saw this and thought of you." 44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you." 45. The relief you feel after crying. 46. Sunshine. 47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention. 48. Your future wedding. 49. Your favorite candy bar. 50. New clothes. 51. Witty puns. 52. Really good bread. 53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time. 54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.) 55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling. 56. The smell before and after it rains 57. The sound of rain against a rooftop. 58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing. 59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them. 60. Trying out new recipes. 61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio. 62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage. 63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable. 64.Breakfast in bed. 65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater. 66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning). 67. Pray (if you are religious) 68. Forgiveness. 69. Water balloon fights. 70. New books by your favorite authors. 71. Fireflies. 72. Birthdays. 73. Realizing that someone loves you. 74. Spending the day with someone you 75. Opportunity to create meaningful and lasting relationships. 76. Potential to learn, grow, and evolve as a person. 77. Joy and happiness in the little things. 78. The power to inspire others. 79. The ability to create art, music, and other forms of self-expression. 80. To explore different cultures, traditions, and ways of life. 81. To make a positive impact on the environment and help protect the planet. 82. Experience the joys of parenthood and raise a family. 83. Learn new things and develop new skills. 84. Create a legacy that will outlive you. 85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed. 86. Cuddles 87. Holding hands. 88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world. 89. Singing off key with your best friends. 90. Road trips. 91. Spontaneous adventures. 92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes. 93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees. 94. Thunderstorms. 95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland. 96. The taste of your favorite food. 97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning. 98. The day when everything finally goes your way. 99. Compliments and praise. 100. to look on this moment in 10 years time and realize you did it. Ps : Never forget you are a beautiful person Life is so beautiful so live, live like no one else exist, live for yourself, don't care of bad people, you are strong, i love you ❤
Hey guys! I just wanted to say how much i appreciate all of your stories, I think that its incredibile that even tho we have never met and we probably never will, with these beautiful memories that you’ve all shared, you have done a much better job at making me feel better compared to the people I know. It’s almost as if with your stories you have bought me into your life and showed me one of your core memories and by doing that even for small moment you’ve made me forget about my problems and about how shitty life can be. So thank you all very much for sharing, and thank you also for making me feel like I belong. PS: I’m sorry for my english,it’s not really my first language.
I couldn’t tell that English wasn’t your first language- your writing is better than 90% of the native English speakers in these comments sections. No need to apologize! And thanks for what you wrote-
In the midst of summer my best friend and I went to the lake to swim. It was 3 or so in the morning and we both lay atop the water floating with the current in complete tranquility. We watched the stars as the warm water engulfed us. We ended up holding hands as our minds drifted together. We pointed out every shooting star, all we heard were muffled voices as our ears were under the water but we both knew what it meant. That moment leaves me in awe as I’ve never felt so content and okay in my life.
When it’s 4am I like to sit in the garden at stare at the stars and listen to my surroundings and passing cars, although I have a phobia of the dark I find it so peaceful with the lovely fresh wind and the fresh smell in the air, I can never get enough of it
When you put yourself in a calm, and safe mindset, even the darkest of places can feel like peace. You are no longer wondering what is out there. You are just with yourself and to yourself. At peace with the emptiness that the world doesn't bring. And it's hard finding that peace again.
Going for a walk or run at 4am with this playlist is truly something special. It melts away worry, doubt, and stress for the day to come. It is part of my daily routine now
I've always had issues with insomnia, Anxiety and seasonal depression(mainly around winter and fall) each year it feels like it's harder then last year, I stay up till 2 or so in the morning and recently an idea popped into my mind, what if there are other people around the world feeling and doing the same thing as me right now, something about that idea brought comfort and suddenly even though I don't know those people it feels like a bond has been made or a connection of sorts, night doesn't feel as lonely anymore. So whoever is reading this thank you, thank you to the people that could possibly be doing the same things and keeping me company even though I don't even know you
although i dont have insomnia, i do find it hard to sleep alot. just letting you know your NOT alone, and that i, too, wondered if anyone else were up late in the night. God bless you, and may you enjoy the peaceful midnight hours
The feeling of solitude when waking up early is indescribable through words. The feeling of being up before the birds begin chirping, before the crickets go silent, when the clouds are filled with that bright pink and orange hue that is just so beautiful, is just amazing. You are alone, but not in a bad way. You are there before everything. You started before the day started. You beat the early bird to the worm. You have hours of free time just waiting there for you to do something with them. I spend my time finding playlists like these so I can open up my mind to something new. I like writing stories that put things into perspective that you don't ever really think about. It's that amazing feeling of freedom when you are up before the others. I live in a full house where there is constant conflict over who gets what and it always causes problems, but being awake before my siblings gives me the freedom to write these things and play my games and learn new things without being interrupted by someone wanting a turn on the computer. Thanks Nobody for creating these places where I can feel free to write and open my mind up.
Just from this very short comment, I have a feeling you're insightful and smart. That's a good gift from God too... you can open up the world for yourself and others, through sharing what you see. I think you should keep doing it 👍
Make the most out of it, it goes by so much quicker than you think. Life can change in an instant, enjoy the time you have while you have it, take those risks and live your life while you can
Past midnight, it's a different feeling. A good feeling to me. Everything is so... still, almost like it gets put on pause, waiting to unpause when the sun rises. It's a peaceful time. It's a time where no one is there to complain, to bother you, to push you farther over the edge. It's so beautiful that I wish it would never stop, never go away. We all stay up late because we don't want today to end and tomorrow to start. We all know the feeling of tranquility that comes at this time, and we don't want to feel anything else at that moment but the calmness, peacefulness, and solitude.
I couldn't put how I felt at night into words properly. Your comment did. Thank you for writing this comment. It feels nice to know more people feel the same way.
Up at 4am. Can't go to sleep. My dreams keep me up at night. Currently studying to get myself out of my living situation. Thank you for this playlist. It randomly appeared at 4am. Best wishes to anyone out there working hard for a better life. Much love.
This playlist honestly reminds me of the happiest times of my teenage years so far. I’ve always been so quiet but i fell in love last year and threw it away because I was depressed and she deserved better. This playlist makes me think of the amazing memories I had with her. She’s changed so much from then, she’s a whole new person. It hurts so much to look back.
Its not too late. You will have a new beginning. Even if not with her, with someone new. You don't have to look back at the past... there's hope in the future. God loves you... walk with him and he will lead you where he wants you to go.
I did the same thing….. I was finally happy, but then I threw it all away when my anxiety started to worsen… instead of letting my partner know about my mental health, I pushed them away. Last year they moved away to a different school, so I started slowly rebuilding myself. Learning how to stand on my own again. This year they are back, and not only that but they are now dating my ‘ex-best friend’. It hurts so much to see them together…. They look so happy together and it eats me from the inside out. It feels like an empty whole is where my heart should be… I can’t help but think about what I could have done differently… I know it’s stupid…. And that I need to move on… but it’s hard… I need time that I don’t have, and I don’t know what to do. Right now I’m just getting by with the thought that maybe some day I’ll get the nerve to tell them what I should have said. All the words that I wanted to say but never did. I’m not sure when that day will be or even if that day will ever come… but I can hope….
@@t1red.cr3ature I'm 25, and met my first love when I was 15. We broke up when I was 16, I didn't get over her for 6 years even while in other relationships over that time. Met someone else really special when I was 21, dated for a year, then we broke up shortly after my 23rd birthday. Then the first girl came back. And we dated for a year, but that time I wasn't over the second girl. So, we broke up again when second girl tried to come back. Then second girl broke up with me again 6 months later. And now? I'm back to not being over the first girl. Moral of the story. Learn to move on however you can. Learn to let go. Because it will ruin whatever future prospects you're supposed to have. When they say, "if it comes back to you, it's meant to be?" You gotta have faith in that shit and not chase it, but let it go. Whatever's supposed to happen in your life will happen regardless of what you do. So let go. Live for the future. Because even if your future is just that again, if you aren't in the right headspace, you'll just fuck it up again. Let go now, so that you can hold on to when you need to.
Being awake at 4am feels like everyone else on Earth is gone, and while that's a bad thing, you're at peace with it. This playlist really encapsulates that feeling.
Why would it be a bad thing....
@@halcyonzenith4411 gives a sense of loneliness, but once ur at peace w it all, its not so much a bad thing anymore.
@@xena1254 I remember loneliness. Haven't experienced that in decades. Life's not so bad, it's not great but it's not that bad.
@@xena1254 cause everyone still sleep or else
Literally
It's interesting how 3am is the time where all the spooky stuff happens but 4am is the time of pure serenity
This
Calm always comes after the storm I guess no matter how spooky the storm was lol
3am has been fine for me
@@Strawfungus same
However 2-3 am is the peak time for people to murder....
As a teenager, I would often stay awake all night and sleep most of the morning away. This playlist brings to mind one of my favorite memories of that timeframe: my brother had to work early in the morning and his car had broken down so I'd offered to give him a ride. He needed to be there around 6AM, a tad bit after I'd normally just have fallen asleep but I figured I'd push through to help out my sibling. Around 4 or so, I started to feel my normal fatigue and was worried I might pass out and not wake up for my alarm so I decided that I would go out to the pool to wake myself up. It was a clear night and the stars shined so brightly. It seemed absolutely quiet as I lay on my back in the pool, floating, staring at the beautiful night sky. I recall wondering how many people were doing the same thing as I was in that moment across our expanse of our world. It felt special to me, as though I was the only person to be experiencing that moment as I was. I think about that memory quite often.
Me pasa a veces.
that’s beautiful. i wish i could experience something like that at least once in my life.
If ever you're dropping a duece remember millions are doing the same thing my friend. It's truely a beautiful thing to think about. 🤔
@@silentneo1431 This is legit the thing I specifically try not to think about while dropping a clinker. It's a form of brotherhood I can do without.
@@EvilSapphireR 🤣
The night before my dad died, he had called me into his room. When he did, he told me how much he loved me, and how proud he was of me. Then he told me goodnight, and that he would see me soon. 16 year old me didn't understand what he meant by that. Almost 5 years later, I'm 21 now and still feeling the raw pain of his absence in my soul. I had a dream about him yesterday that I was that little girl all over again, and him and I went to the beach and collected shells. I have never gone to the beach my whole life, but I have always wanted to go with my father. There were so many things I wanted to experience with him that I know I will never be able to experience with him in this lifetime. Maybe in my next life or in the afterlife, him and I will go looking for shells while holding each other's hands. To my father, I miss you more and more each day. The pain never went away, and I still cry for you even at my big age. Birthdays and holidays are never the same without you here. I still listen to your favorite music from time to time. I still celebrate Father's day for you, and make you a card and your favorite German chocolate cake like I used to. Do you read the letters I write to you to this day? I hope you do. I write to you every year for your birthday in hopes that you read the letters and poems I write for you. You were there for me when I took my first breath in this life, and I was there for you when you took your last breath in this life. I know you are no longer in pain, and you are in the peace that you so desperately craved for such a long time. I miss feeling your hugs. I miss hearing your voice and laugh. I miss seeing your face, and your smile. I'm sorry for not being the best daughter to you. I'm sorry if I ever hurt you in any way. I'm sorry for not trying hard enough to make sure you were ok. I hope you weren't scared in your last moments of life. I hope you were at peace, and finally happy. I don't know where you are, but I hope it's somewhere that you can experience true freedom and happiness in. One day, you and I will reunite again, but for now, I will keep living through this thing called "life". Everything I do, is for you. I love you so much, dada. Please never forget about me as I have never forgotten about you. Until we meet again.
He's so proud of you dear human 💗...
Your weird
Hope you're doing well. Lots of love ❤️ :)
i started crying. im so sorry for ur loss.
Tears streaming down my face. I’ve had a similar experience. Hope you’re doing ok.
The best part about being awake this early is that you feel like it’s only you in the world. The silence is beautiful. The stillness is beautiful. I think more people need to witness this level of peace
it is truly amazing, especially with this playlist.
may you enjoy the peaceful midnight hours.
realmente parece mesmo que você está sozinho
Absolutely
Not where I'm from. 4am still feels like noon here
5am and I'm awake, but going to sleep, so not quite the same i suppose
I had a moment in my life, around 16's, when I used to sleep really early after I got from school/work, so I could wake up late at night and silently leave home at 2-3am and walk around town. There were some gas stations and vendors open the whole night, so I would just go to some store, buy a soda and some snacks, stay a while and walk again. I lived uphill and the way down was totally dark, a trail across the woods. Somehow I enjoyed walking the dark path, felt afraid but wanted to face it everytime. I was totally conscious doing so, but couldn't identify the source of fear. As time passed, I questioned myself if I was really afraid, and concluded I never was. Perhaps it was an excitement found when confronting the unknown in total solitude. I used to return home by the sunrise, so I could make coffee and leave real early for school. I had problems at home and questioned my existence since young. During my walks I met interesting people and figured out many things that I carry until this day.
Anyways, congratulations on your music. As you can see it got me right there. You are very talented, keep doing it.
When I used to travel a lot across the ocean, when I'd get back home, the first day my sleep schedule would be messed up hard. So I'd get outside and walk the streets as the city slowly woke up around me.
That is beautiful.
Thank you for sharing this story. It is so beautiful and comforting for me in a way. Take care and enjoy the rest of your day/night.
Your story is familiar one to me. My parents split when I was 5 yrs. I began sneak out at night for as long as I can remember ... early from 4 am things felt still enough for me to go outside and go everywhere. I lived in Gainesville near downtown .. mid 1960s thru the early 70s .... I would roam the town .... it definitely was the most exhilarating thing to experiment with. Cheers ....
This is was deeply and differently beautiful. I wish I could live such days ahead
This isn't depression, this isn't sadness, this is peace.
Peace, silence and blissful solitude
peesuh
😊
true talk.
only when you let go of everything will you ever start to gain something.
I want my childhood brain back, the one that was so full of joy, courage, and honor. This makes me feel closer to that
Everything will be alright.
You got this
Not this guy again…
trust me you don't want your childhood brain bak bro... u might wanna add to it like u already are tho
I'm convinced 4am is the time of day most people are asleep. Most people go to bed before 4 and wake up after 4. It's the most calming and quiet hour of the night.
Personally, this may sound a little off putting to you (sorry in advance), but for me midnight (specifically 1 - well, 4AM) is when I’m most energetic and when I’m not nearly as pervaded and immobilized by overthinking and anxiety :/ “fun” fact it’s partly a reason as to why my name is what it is, with the other being well.. Sif is far too underrated for how amazing he really is. (If ya get it ya get it)
@@officialprincelouie fr, and I'm reading this at almost 4 am
Only in your time zone.
It's like the world is ours at that time
So done my fair share of night drives cross country. I'll tell you... 1-3 am are the most desolate.
Trucks lay in around midnight.
Families lay in around 9 or 10.
It's just you, your car, the road, and the sky above.
Especially already feeling lonely and depressed, you really get the feeling nobody is out there for you. You leave the places you call home to get told it's not home anymore. Where do you belong?
Driving through Montana late at night was one of the most soul taking experience I have had.
Nobody out there.
Just nobody.
It's 4:48 right now, honestly, this sounds about right.
4 am is when you feel like you're the only one awake in the world. Wether that's a good thing or a bad thing you don't know, but it's peaceful in some way.
well said *sigh
exactly! It's like, I don't know if kind of the perfect hour but somewhere around there.
I feel like I’m on mars just looking at the earth. Imagine how lonely her magnificent that must feel for the extreme few who may get to do it …
i literally saw your comment at 4:48am too!!!!!!!!!! holy shit
I like the idea of that being the case even for a moment, as the day eventually awakens around you
Being up at 4am while knowing most of the others are still asleep is like having a little piece of the world to yourself for a bit.
Yeah, except if you're still trying to sleep, in that case is kinda frustrating laying on the bed for hours tryna get some sleep and your conscious just gets more and more active
It’s the exact reason why I am up at this time. 4am right now. My kids and wife are upstairs in bed so I’m downstairs listening to music and about to go drive for an hour and come back home and go to bed. I’ve been doing it for a year and a half. Battling depression.
I felt this so much
@@PickledPork420 same man. It will get better. Remember they love and value you. Your feelings matter. If you don't already, open up to those that care and allow yourself to receive support. The most important is to have hope. When I lost hope it got so bad. It's difficult but it won't always be like that. Stay strong
@@PickledPork420 you have a family, whatever their reason, whatever it is, I hope you're better, all the best to you and don't give up. 🇧🇷🤍
I’m a 14 year old boy who is barely passing school. I use to blame the world and my teachers, but now I realize its all me. I get in trouble a lot, and don’t fit in most places because I’m awkward, and nobody likes me that much. I will stay up until 4am staring outside my second story window at the moon, and at the stars. It’s the only thing that keeps me calm. The only thing I can cry in peace to. The only thing that keeps me…. Me. My dog died last week, and I’ve been very depressed. Sometimes I just wanna end it all, but then I remember that even though life is tough, there’s a path for you. Things WILL get better. I may be going through a hard time now, but it will get better. I want you to know how special you are. How beautiful, talented, and amazing you are. You are better than you think, you are funnier than you think. There are people that love you in this world, and the fact that you had a 1/47trillion percent chance to be born makes you special. If your reading this up to this point, I bless you with all my heart. Stay safe. Stay healthy. Stay alive. You matter. No matter what anybody tells you. You. Matter.
You matter as well. A path has been cleared for you, and tough times will serve to build your strength and character. God loves you.
@@jveson8657 the fact that you wrote this means you have something special to offer the world. School isn’t for everyone, even though you have to get through it. Ask for help, people are more willing than you might think. Be cool with yourself and if you get a friend opportunity, take a chance. Let your heart get broken, you’ll be stronger than you think.
@@jveson8657 thank you... Thank you... Thank you very much 😕😢
This playlist reminds me of when I used to run away from home at night, because my father was always drunk and he could rant and shout all night. I would go to a fallen tree in the middle of an empty cornfield, spread a blanket on its trunk and lie down facing up the open sky, watch the stars until I fall asleep. This experience taught me to be unafraid of the dark, of being alone, and being far away from home.
you're amazing 💚 i Was brought up with a drunk mother
You're the type of people I would like to have a cup of coffee with, or maybe breakfast. Idk but y'all cool
While bugs start crawling on you and stuff
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lyin ass this aint happen
This playlist reminds me of when me and my grandma would sleep on the couch together. I use to get very bad panic attacks at night when I was a kid and my parents would get angry with me if I woke them up. Me and my family lived with my grandparents and my grandma slept in the living room most nights. I would usually leave my shared room with my sister and go see my grandma. She usually is awake all night watching tv because it also helps her calm down. I sit next to her and we both always ate a piece of cheese before me explaining what my panic attack was about. She would ask if I wanted to watch anything special and I usually said the show where they build treehouses. We would lay down and watch TV while we both fall asleep. usually those mornings Me and my grandma would wake up early and go get breakfast from McDonald's if I had school she would take me( or take me to the beach). I miss my grandma. Shes still alive but she lives far away now. I moved to Kansas while she stayed in the same house on the same couch. I still get very bad panic attacks at night and I always hold anything that deals with my grandma. I want to be home with her. I want to watch the treehouse makers and tell my grandma we should make one. I want to be home. This place isn't home.
Home could also be when you think of your grandma, you always carry those awesome memories around with you. Even if she's far away. Keep writing. I enjoyed reading what you wrote.
Your grandma sounds like a special person... you were blessed to have her there. Keep in touch with her
Sounds like you got an awesome grandma
I wish I still had my grandma. We did everything together, she was my Best friend. Cherish every moment you have with her because one day God is going to take her and he doesn't care about what you feel about it. Sometimes I wish I could turn back time and spend the last few moments with her as she passed, one day I hope to see her where we will walk the clouds of heaven.
this made me cry stop it rn
Since everyone is sharing their beautiful 4am stories, I might as well share mine: It was somewhere around 4am and when my friends called me and asked if I could sneak out the house and hang out. I thought I might as well try so I somehow successfully snuck out and met with them. One person in the group was my crush, he was literally shining under the silver light the moon was producing. After some few hours the rest left but my crush stayed behind with me and we hung out. He suggested we went to the beach and watch the sunrise together. I was overjoyed and my heart felt as if it was going to jump out of my chest. We walked along the beach for literal hours before we same the hint of light, me and him both looked at each other and smile. We sat down and I dug my hand under the sand. The wind was gentle and the atmosphere was as perfect as it could be. I felt so free as the wind hit my face gently. I closed my eyes and leaned my head back. I seriously never felt so alive.
We’ve been together for 5 years now and still counting🫶
Wow, that is so cute!!
WOWW that sounds sooo nice
So nice of you 🥺💫 Stay Happy ☺️
wow you are making me cry this is so beautiful
Dannnng that’s awesome… I wish I could feel that one day! God bless y’all ❤️
8 months ago my one and only brother had an serious accident. The doctors were confirmed that there is no way that he can survive. My family was in great misery. We all were praying so hard for him. And the miracle happened. He was in the hospital for 5 months 20 days. My parents were giving all it takes to save their son. We got him back safe and fully recovered.
It's 12:50 am right now and sitting next to my brother. He is in fever and I am pampering him right now and listening to this calm beautiful music. I don't know why I just cried thinking that at that time when he was in the hospital I prayed to God so hard for this moment today and now I have it. Life has taught me to appreciate each moment from that accident. I am very thankful to God for this moment and for my brother and my family.
After reading all of yours comments I thought to share this story.
To whoever reading this God bless you.
Ah I am so glad to hear this 😎 Hope he's gotten better.
O Coração ficou quentinho com seu comentário...melhoras para seu irmão
God bless
So glad your brother is ok. Wishing him and your family many more years on this beautiful earth
I'm so glad that he is better, I can *never* imagine losing those I love, and seeing others suffer from his misery breaks my heart... hopefully we all can appreciate even the smallest moments of our lives with those we cherish so much before they go. Have a nice day
About a year ago, I snuck out of the house to go on a walk at night. To be honest, it was kind of spiritual for me. I went to the park and it was completely empty. I could see the stars in the sky and the only lighting being the street lamps along the sidewalk. At first I was frightened and scared that I’d get hurt because that’s all I’ve ever heard about what things are like outside at night. But I calmed down once I laid in the grass and listened to everything around me. Pure silence. My brain not making me feel horrible about everything, nobody talking down to me… just silence. And that was truly the best feeling I have ever felt.
Since then, I’ve been sneaking out when life has been hard for me. That’s quite often, of course, but it does seem to really help me calm myself down. Life has been hard lately but it’s been hard trying to find time to sneak out. Hopefully I can go back soon, but this playlist reminds me of it. It’s very calming.
it's so soothing to even read this. i feel good that you have found your happy place. even if it's outside of your so called home. take warm wishes stranger
I know exactly what you mean, about a 7 minute walk from my house is a field beside a river. Whenever I need some time to truly be alone I go there in the dark of the night. My thoughts accompanied by the sound of the flowing river.
I do this too, but I find it is even more soothing for me when it is raining. My area doesn't have rain often and that little benefit of my favorite weather on top of being completely alone in nature is just perfect.
I wish I could a moment when no one is screaming or blaming something on you just to stare up at the stars alone just enjoy the calm atmosphere...sound like heaven ^^ maybe when I get older?
I go on 3 am walks every few weeks. They're so peaceful, as no cars are around and its so quiet, just me and the world. I'd go to a local park and just lie on the hillside watching the lights of the city. One time I saw a coyote or something in the grass which was kind of spooky, but it went away after a brief staring contest. Once I accadentally fell alseep on the hillside and woke up at around 6 when the sun was rising. I was like "oh shoot" and rushed back home before my parents found out I had left. Fun times
reading comments of other people's experiences and moments before sunrise while listening to this also after midnight is... very calming
Got me sobbing
indeed
@@charli3824 same I'm glad I'm not alone
Same
It gets me feeling some type of way, sorta sentimental for some reason. Gets me thinking too.
Once a week, I wake up at 4AM and sneak outside with a grabber and plastic bag n start picking up trash from the local playground. Usually I do this around the start of the week, because on the weekend youth n other people hang out at night on the playground leaving behind trash like broken beer bottles, sharp bits of random plastic, used small plastic bags with drug remains, very rarely a used needle. Then I broaden the range to around the block where I know kids play outside bare feet. Somewhere around 5:30 I'd have a bag full and dump it in the local communal underground trash container before it's picked up by the trash collector. I'm gone before the first morning people go to work in my neighborehood.
Clean streets is that easy. One person with a grabber n a plastic bag. They'll never know who and they don't need to.
One of my cousins, when a little kid, picked up a needle he found, put it in his pocket and gave himself a jab. That was quite the scare and could've easily been a disaster, but he was fine afterwards.
You're awesome. Dont let anyone make you think otherwise.
That’s very nice of you, god bless 🙏
You’re awesome
I just want to thank you a lot
For this much of kindness ✨
Real heroes never wear capes and are never known. You're a real one
1AM - scrolling through your socials until your fingers go numb.
2AM - hyper music, cool beats, dancing. vibing until your ears ring.
3AM - dark and funny rituals, silly potions, cringe videos. laughing until your lungs hurt.
4AM - peace, quiet, calm. birds have started singing. reading until your eyes are dry.
5AM - its time to sleep now, you had fun tonight. time to rest, youve done enough.
6AM - good morning.
❤
Im gonna do this tonight I just decided
❤
sounds accurate
Wake up at 3PM & repeat :D
I didn't realize how much I missed the feeling of being awake, intentionally, without obligations or commitments at 4AM. Walking on train tracks or going for a drive. The air's cool and misty, the roads are quiet and empty, everything seems at peace for once. Way to capture that in a single playlist. I'm impressed.
the best feeling
I love these titles. Nobody has the playlist for every situation
fr, this is my fav channel
Nobody has a playlist for every occasion? Well this guy has a playlist for every occasion
@@N____er lol
@@N____er Just somebody has a playlist for every occasion
hol'up
This reminded me of some very lost memories. I always used to be an odd kid. I was more mentally mature then other kids and was very self reflective for a young child. My upbringing was pretty normal nothing to bad. But for some reason I always would get this feeling of adrenaline and would love the feel of the cold early mornings on my skin in the summer.
Fast forward in life and it is middle school. I have no real friends, a rather smart kid but didn't do well in school, and overall found no real purpose in life.
This is when I started going to my father's baseball games in a league made up with middle aged fathers. I ended up meeting a group of friends and we would spend hours talking before the games and after when our parents drinked beers and chatted until four in the morning.
The group consisted of me, another guy friend, and two sisters. Over the course of two summers we all became inseparable. That was until the other guy in our group had his parents divorce and he moved away. It was just me and the two sisters left. Until their father died in a DUI accident. He was killed by a drinking semi truck driver. They ended up moving away to their mentally unstable mother's a great distance away.
Just three years ago I was looking through my memories and realized that the older sister was the closest thing to true love I have ever felt. I went to go reconnect with her to find and obituary saying she had ended her life with pills. The younger sister at some point ended up in jail.
I live about a two hour walk to and from the old baseball field. So whenever I felt uneasy at night I would pick some flowers put some music in my ears and walk to the field. I would put the flowers on an old bench and sit there until I saw the sun.
I never really felt sad. Never cried. Never felt anything really. It was just a calming stillness of brisk summer air and familiarity of the bench.
I also realized that a single bench probably saved me from a similar fate of the sister's. It was because I found that you don't need a purpose in life to enjoy it. I don't need to be the one to benefit from connections of people. It turns out I want to be the person that would cause someone to walk in a dark early summer morning and enjoy a rising sun.
This video reminded me of that bench. And a lost smile that hasn't been forgotten.
This is truly beautiful.I’m sorry for your losses as well. You take care stranger and may you have a wonderful life❤️
I hope you are doing well mate, take care
Hope you're doing well dude, thank you for sharing
What happened to the guy in the group that moved away? Perhaps you could try to build contact with him.
Heartbreaking and beautiful. God bless ❤️
Reading everyone's comments, i just realized how similar all of us are. How similar we all feel and think, it's like we all are experiencing the same thing.
During highschool, even though i had to go to class in the morning, i would always stay up all night, and think about the little things in life. I would look at the moon and admire how peaceful it is, i would look at the stars and think about where they are in the space, i would stay up all night, just to watch the sky turn blue. Just to hear the birds sing, to feel the cold morning breeze.
I would admire everything in the world, while lying in my tiny little bed, away from everyone else.
I felt so happy during those times, it really felt like i needed to be alone after dealing with people at school. It was so drainig that all i longed for during the day, was to finally get home, lie in bed, play some music, and just chill.
To all of you who are struggling with school, who find it draining to talk to people or to be around them, it's okay.
Highschool will also end.
Remmeber to keep doing the things that make you feel happy or at ease. Remmeber to find something that will make you feel calm. It can be the moon, the stars, the blue sky in the early morning, the birds singing, or just the cold morning breeze.
Remember to love yourself, you are so much cooler than you think, so much better than you think.
I hope you are happy, i hope you are healthy, and if you aren't, there is no need to worry. Things WILL get better. Trust me.
If you read untill here, thank you.
Have a peacefull night, and atay safe. thanks for this amazing playlist.
🙌🏻
thanks man,you're a good person :)
That's so beautiful. ❤ I wish you well and thank you for sharing your story and wisdom! 😊
People with mindsets like yours always succeed in life
Thank you.. so much
this comment section feels like a safe place. Where we all are laying Inside a camp like thing under starry night and listening to the same music and one by one everyone tells about their experiences and each one of us gets to hear it. It's so lovely, This comment box and this music is my favourite thing. Hugs for y'all ❤️
God bless ya. May you enjoy the peaceful midnight hours.
This comment is both heartwarming and underrated. Thanks for posting 😄
@@MeticulousMaledictionX aw tysm ❤️
@@smartgem9717 u too !
Thanks and I completely feel that too though that’s crazy (hugs)
I was homeless when I was younger. New York City is different when you're up at the witching hour. This music gives me the feeling of when I would explore to keep myself up at night. I was lost but the night and stars always guided me the right way and this album truly expresses those moments. It was a tough time in my life but those moments helped me grow both spiritually and mentally. I currently work overnights as security guard and I listen to this at 4am. By the time the album is finished. I open up the doors and if it's Summer (currently it's 7/7/22), I get to see the sunrise and the beauty it brings with it.
that is an amazing story, man. thank you for sharing
Damn that’s amazing to hear. Hope things keep going well for you brother
youre a king
I feel you can write really good. Have you ever considered this? I think it has something to do with you optimism and good spirit.
@@richullingfivefivefive1745 There was a time I did want to write but my family shunned the idea of doing anything that is too risky. I regret letting them mold me but I'll look into writing my feelings like I did above and see how it works out. Thanks for the advice
It’s currently 3:39am and I decided to go out for a walk and made it pretty far. I made it to a bus stop with this peculiar light that flickers on and off right above me. I feel so alone but at peace, yesterday I woke up around same time and went for a hike to a mountain and stared off a cliff as I stood at the edge. There’s something about feeling very close to your demise. I look up at the stars and wonder just how many other people are walking around just as I am right now and what goes through their heads. My names Jorge by the way but people call me George. I’m 21 years old and I wish to someday make more of myself by moving into the mountains out of California with my dog and becoming a firefighter.
i wish you and your dog the best
All the best to you, Jorge. Hi five from Brazil.
You can do it man. If you really want to.
My name is Jorge too and we have a same dream to be a fire fighter. Godbless you mate.
I’ll be praying for you Jorge....my dream is to be isolated from the world into the mountains as well someday where there is no distractions
I am a trucker and hit the road at 4am to have the road to myself and let me tell you this playlist is amazing to drive to at 4am.
Drive safe
best time to drive
@@lifeisabadjoke5750 Stay safe on the road 🙂
My husband drives OTR and one of his coworkers will only drive at night unless he HAS TO drive during the day.
If you bought it, a truck brought it. Thanks for what you do 😊
Cool, but be careful this music makes you want to sleep
this doesn’t feel like the walk itself, it feels like *why* you’re on the walk.
facts my man.
Indeed it does. Reminiscence and regret, among other feelings, rushing through the mind. I wish I could go back...
When I was thirteen, I had horrible bouts of insomnia. One November, during a full moon, I took a walk around 4 a.m. It was clear, cold and achingly beautiful walking through the small forested area behind the house. I walked for hours. No light to guide me other than moonlight. I have rarely felt so at peace, yet so alive at the same time. That was forty-six years ago and I remember it like it was yesterday. This music reminds me of that magical walk.
Lovely
It's a lovely feeling knowing how simply going for a walk at such a time can bring such a euphoric feeling to oneself
chills!
That’s beautiful
@Fiskas that hits harder than I think :/
I can never find much to say in comments, but..I’m glad spaces like this exist, somewhere. It almost feels like a miracle sometimes, this day and age. I feel at peace here, listening to this music. Even now, I’m sat outside at 2:45 AM in 40° weather, just..listening. Reading people’s stories. Feeling the cold wind on my face. It’s..freeing.
I’ve always been a recluse. Felt like an outcast. Depression hits people like that hard sometimes. But..I consider myself lucky nowadays. In this silly little thing called life, I’m finally beginning to find myself, little by little. I’m finding peace and happiness in my own way, little by little.
For anybody else out there reading this, who feels like they’re wandering aimlessly..I hope you can find your way. Take it one step at a time, if you need. Its not too late; It’s never too late.
Me too. I feel the same way.
40 degrees is pretty cold. I'm from Southern CA so maybe I'm biased. Was just in the PNW last week and it got down to 20 overnight... now that was cold.
Shoot man, that almost made me cry
You're not alone 💯 Easy times make weak men. Weak men make hard times. Hard times make strong men. We're in the stage were most guys are tired of the bullshit and just want peace with themselves.
@@kylesinclair6324 Same.
*To anybody who's reading this, I pray that whatever is hurting you or whatever you are constantly stressing about gets better. May the dark thoughts, the overthinking, and the doubt exit your mind. May clarity replace confusion. May peace and calmness fill your life. *
Hey... thanks.
Thank you..
Thank you. x
thank you so much
Thank you mate ;)
Being awake at night is such a peace i can finally breathe normally
Its just better because the whole world is sleeping while ur awake
You thought you ate that up fr. Superficial ass comment
@@Jaxon_Klein shut up
Technically, half a good percentage of the world is awake too. However, statistically speaking, few of them can speak your language.
@@trendingone42 depends what place you live in, around my area, barely anyone is awake. Plus biking at 4am is such a nice thing, you have so much area to urself
Best way to explain it
I really, really hope you guys never stop sharing these stories. I’m going through it pretty bad right now but this feels like such a safe haven. You all are awesome
I'm sorry that you're having a rough time and hope things get better for you soon.
@@Slartibartfasts_Cat thank you so much actually. You’re the best man
Sorry to hear that ! If you want to talk, tell me ❤️
Hi Bradyn. Im not sure what your going through,i dont know you,your story or anything about you. Im a stranger who you will most likely never meet. But i want you to know something Bradyn:
I want you to know that whatever it is or however hopeless it may seem,that you have a choice.
You have a choice to be kinder
A choice to be better
A choice to overcome
A choice to go the extra mile
A choice to change
You have a choice to live. Not because life is easy,but because it isnt. Because life is a gift and a great challenge. Never forget that in your darkest dark there is a way out. I know because, just like you can, i fought to it and found it.
I struggle alot of the month and find myself awake at 4am wondering if anyone else is doing the same. I listen to my family sleep and try to be as quiet as I can. Up just staring into the fire some nights..just...thinking...u are not alone. I guess if life didn't have struggles we wouldn't know what true joy is..
As an introvert, the night owl and a person who needs so much courage to do literally anything because of anxiety.. I rarely comment. But reading people's comments here gave the feeling of extraordinary connection that I can't feel often. I always wonder if there's anyone who thinks and do what I do. If there's someone who feels so much, so deeply but at the same time feels empty, broken and lonely, who needs somebody to hold their hand. It's 7am and I'm still awake, my day and my sleep schedule got unhealthy again these days. But I've always preferred the night time, the stars, the moon and that peaceful yet longing feeling. Like.. Nobody wants anything from you and you can just exist. Pretending that time doesn't. Only the blue early morning light breaking through the windows reminds of it. I used to think about the past so much, think about some people's shadows and crying. Or think about the future which is very stressful when you have no idea what to do. So I'm trying to stay in the present and just catching moments, I think. Being so sensitive is difficult, like a curse. But they say that we should think of it as a superpower. And I kinda like it. The world needs us, right?
Listening to this music makes me miss something that I don't have. Dreamy. I feel like there's so much to give, so much to tell. Whenever I look at the night sky I wonder, where's this soul who does the same and looks for a soulmate? If you're reading this - hello and thank you! ✨
You know I've been exactly the same way at different times in my life. I'd stay up all night until the sky started to get light outside, then sleep all day. I was also really anxious about going out, seeing people... even anxious about leaving my room. But I always hated seeing the sky get light in the morning. It just felt like I had wasted an entire night of sleep and I was about to waste an entire day, getting bad quality sleep while the sun is up. For your sake I really hope you turn around your sleep schedule. No matter whatever I went through God was always there for me. Even in those darkest times when I had no one, he was there, forgiving my sins and taking care of me. ❤
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@James Codz You wrote it beautifully. The cold embrace of the dawn.. Pretty romantic. I can relate to you. There's something in sharing moments with another understanding person. That's my biggest wish I think.
My therapist told me today that I talk about others with so much care, leaving myself behind. That I need to take care of the "little me"..
I've never been one to comment on videos, but reading the comments gave me inspiration. As a young teenager, I remember spending many nights wide awake at 3AM laying on my friend's trampoline wondering how many people were staring up at the sky the same way I was at that very moment. I was in a small rural midwestern town and would take walks around down back roads while the sun just began to light up the sky. During the day, some of the worst times of my life happened, but at night, after the sun had been down for hours and in a few more the sun would be rising, there was such a sense of calmness and peace. People always talk about how high school are the best days of your life. I never understood that at the time. I still don't believe it was the best time of my life, but I would give anything to be thirteen again staring up at the midnight sky, listening to music without a care in the world.
I'm 23 y.o. and it's exhausting because i thought i'd dead by now. no plans, no thoughts, just existence. i like to lie on the floor at night and listen to such playlists
Jesus loves you, He is waiting for you to trust Him with open arms and give you purpose ..
Im right there with you. Just keep on marching on, and hope it gets better.
Damn brother 20 years here pretty much same except it hit me about a year ago when I was like shit I’m still here and realized I have to start helping myself or imma just drown in silence I wish you the best of luck
@@dexxfa7274 I sometimes ask myself am I really here? Because I never thought I’d make it this far.
I'll be 40 in 2 weeks, most of my adult life I have felt the same. I hope things get better. I'm just trying to focus on the beautiful people and things in life, thats what gets me through
This music takes me back to a time when nothing mattered. I used to stay up till the crack of dawn with friends across the world playing video games thinking the good times would never end. That was over 6 years ago and now in just a month I will be leaving for college. I now have the burden of worrying about my future, my finances, and my relationships. I wish I could go back to one of those winter nights at 4am playing video games without a care in the world.
All I have to say is to enjoy the simple times while you have them because nothing gets easier in life.
It's a bit saddening that the general human spirit it to learn, to explore, to yearn for information of everything that exists. When we grow older, we do lose that child-like mindset of being perfectly content with just playing video games. But in every person's life, there will come a point where we realize there's more to life than just the small things, like video games. Sure, those times were the easiest, not knowing anything but fun and games, but... Is that all you really want to know?
Cherish your youth but do not waste your 20s. Realize those times are not coming back ever again but look on them fondly.
Boy if this ain't the realest story. I just told my own late-night story in a new comment and I pretty much had the same feeling there, it was the year I graduated high school and the world was full of possibilities and worries.
Honestly, modern society destroys who we once were. Life is definitely not easy and it does indeed get worse; but I find that people usually trap themselves in a cycle of misery. The system does not care about us and traps us into a loop and we become complacent and simply go along with it instead of standing up for ourselves.
If you want to enjoy your life through your adulthood, start doing things that are meaningful for you and try your best to find other options to make income. Also look into minimalism. The best we can do is reduce our suffering as much as possible. Make time for hobbies or things you enjoyed as a kid and that you still do enjoy. Do not lose yourself in this corrupt system, for the system does not care for you; neither should you care for the system. Rebel against it in whatever way you can.
Thanks for sharing your perspective.
Lots of young people feel this way, but in a way it's not about you finding your way in this material and superficial world. The real journey is about finding yourself and understanding that there us purpose in your existence, you may not think it's significant, but it is. The molecules within your body was made from the stars (fusion process), and eventually your energy will return there...... Just remember a few simple things (that helped me)
1. Live simply and within your means
2. Avoid materialism and following the crowd
3. Everything in the material world is designed for one thing, to distract you from your true self
4. Seek nature, eat healthy, exercise, and seek people (or animals) of good character
5. Helping others gives far greater inner reward and peace that a high powered career
6. The greatest things you have if value are your health, time, and good family or friends (the rest actually doesn't matter that much at the end)
7. Learn a practical hobby, be self sufficient as much as you can, cook for yourself
8 Don't chase women, focus on improving yourself, and avoid marriage in the West
9. Be kind and tolerant to others, but don't let them step over you
10. The best things in life ARE free, learn to enjoy them.
11. Avoid mainstream media, newspapers, politicians, lawyers and criminals, learn to think for yourself, don't assume what you others say is the truth... There are always at least two sides to a story
Don't fear the future, it doesn't exist. Live in the moment and appreciate now. Plan for the future, but do not worry if it does not work out for you. The universe intended for you to be where you are, and tje future is unwritten.
All the best and cherish the good memories of life, life has ups and downs, but learn to appreciate what is good in your life and be content with what you have (but strive for more)
I just wanted to say something to the hero behind this channel.
Many of your subscribers here that are listening to your wonderful selection of music, are mostly misunderstood, in pain or just seeking some solitude and someone, something to understand them.
As you know, music is the best companion to make you feel sane when no one understands what you are going through.
So my friend, thanks.
Sometimes, only God understands and cares, but that's alright, because He will give us love like none found in the world.
God is so amazing, He has gifts and plans for each and every one of us. Unfortunately, broad is the road to destruction, as many will never listen to Him, and choose their own ways of limited knowledge instead of leaning on Him and His infinite wisdom.
The Lord has great plans for those that heed the call.
@@skorp265 Amen. 🤍🔥
This channel has really helped me quiet my mind and focus on what's important.
What you're saying is very true and very beautiful. Yet i would also like to add that soon, this comment will have 420 likes and thats funny; have a nice day/night
I don’t even understand me bro
And then there's me who just wants to listen to some music :I
Being awake at 4AM is a very sacred time, Since going to college and getting a girlfriend I never really stay up this late, but tonight was different. My head just didn't seem to calm down so here I am with the same kind of people, up at 4 feeling that peace in the loneliness. I hope whoever is reading this is happy with where they are in life and if you aren't, I hope you strive to make yourself better day by day. I love you
What was it that had you feeling stressed out yesterday?
I feel this! I’m here because I’m
staying away from my partner for a night (not because anything’s wrong, just because I’m visiting my parents). Haven’t been here in a while… it’s quite an experience 🌌
a couple nights ago i was awake at 4am and decided to take a little walk through my snowy neighborhood. it was an unmatchable calming experience. i really can’t explain how extraordinary it was. thank you for this
I did this recently, and it was so magical. I walked in the street looking up at the sky. Those are the moments that will be remembered for a life time
Please, do it again, but play this playlist and just walk, and walk... Until you meet the first rays of the sunrise, then get back home and appreciate the gift of freedom you've been given. We can literally go everywhere and anywhere at any given time. How wonderful is that!
@@Milena-ix5mq yeah bro we’re not tryna die or get get frostbite amputations here. Stop trying to be deep and go touch some grass under the snow. Go hug a tree. Give up on your dreams and aspirations because you’re never getting them.
@@luv1d28 lmfaoooo
@@Jaxon_Klein that isnt true. the more you are attached to your aspirations and dreams, and you really believe they will happen, they are eventually going to happen. also, she isnt trying to be deep, its just a magnifecent recommendation for doing something that can be a beautiful experience.
and, sometimes it isnt bad to be deep, it can actually lead to good thoughts and wrap you into a inmense sense of calm and peace.
after all, that can be another experience. you are the only one to decide if it is a bad experience or a good one. its all up to you.
Just after COVID lockdowns hit I had a lotta time off work alone, so I started riding around Tokyo on my bicycle in the middle of the night. Thanks to the pandemic, everywhere was completely deserted and still. I saw one of the most populated cities in the world in total peace. A truly surreal, beautiful and yet brief time in my life that I will never forget.
You mean the whole city was empty? I wish i could’ve experienced that. But unfortunately i live in the USA, the country that never sleeps.
that sounds fuckin creepy
i hope to move there one day
that's sounds like and awesome experience
i am in love with nights like that.. where nothing is out but you and the stars!
I love staying up past 4. No phones ringing, no one asking questions, no obligations. Just you and the night. Its like at that moment you know who you are.
One of the best times in the day.
I agree it gives you time to think and compose yourself before starting a another stressful day
Chilling in bed, total darkness I just had that exact feeling of being at peace. Wow its nice 😂
This describes sm...
waking up early tho >>>
I grew up in a neighborhood in rural Pennsylvania. This playlist brings me back to my childhood. My friends and I would sneak out and wonder the town deep into the morning hours without a worry in the world. The buildings and streets felt so lifeless but were alive with the awe of youth. At that time we had no idea where our lives would take us. Life was calm and still. 13 years later I am 25 years old and live in a city. I have loved, lost, laughed, cried, hated, and forgave many times since then. Most of my childhood friends have moved on, some died, and a few I still talk to. It all seems like a distant memory from another life. And I know all my friends that explored the streets with me on those nights have done the same wherever they may be. I am content as I lay here.
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I also did the same in central PA. I miss those times during the summer where my friends and I would go all around the woods and into abandoned buildings to just explore and do whatever. Times were easier back then
I read the title of this playlist, and the word/number “4am” really brought me back.
It was November of 2020. 4am on some sad Friday night. I wasn’t feeling too good so I reached out to this girl whom I found attractive.
I’ve only spoken to her a few times, but I said “screw it, what do I have to lose…”
I texted her, and not 2min later she responds. I asked if I could call, for I was feeling lonely. She called for me.
I crawled onto the roof of my back patio, and we sat on the phone until about 6:30.
For the next few months, every weekend, we’d find a 4am-6:30-ish slot of time to speak on the phone.
It was a perfect time to talk, because everyone at the house would be asleep, so we could talk without distraction.
The date is May 2021.
She and I haven’t spoken in a few weeks, so I decide to reach out around 1am. She responds…almost as if nothing had changed.
I have began to grow feelings for her, and I tell her everything of how I feel about her. She goes quiet. Phone call ends soon.
It is now 1am, July 14th, 2022…
I still think about her.
I’ve met other girls, been with other girls…but none are her.
I know I gotta let go and/or move on some how…But there is this feeling that she is the one. It’s a blessing and a curse.
This playlist just brought Everything back up…
My emotions of when I first spoke to her,
To my emotions of when she never spoke to me again.
Life does move on, but sometimes it’s nice to be stuck in the past…
Thank you for making this playlist.
It’s been a pleasant trip to my patio roof…❤️
i got a similar past story with a boy i loved. this hits hard. i want to move on but just like you said there is this particular feeling… it seems like it never goes away. and the fact that he‘s probably feeling the same way makes it even worse because i can‘t imagine how we possibly would find our way back to each other.
i totally get it... I'm no scared i will never feel like that with anyone ever again...
@@thegirlwhodreams7528 text him and if he feels the same way then you have your answer, if he doesn’t, what do you lose? Life is too short for being ashamed or shy, seek the opportunity before it’s too late
I had the same thing too, we’d talk from 3am - 7am, every Saturday, we eventually got together but we lived 5 hours apart on car, things eventually didn’t work out and now she doesn’t respond to me when I ask how shes doing.
I also believe she was the one but I did everything I could. You need to believe that the universe or cosmic fate is rational, everything happens for a reason. Do everything you can on your part but outside of that, it’s out of your control. Goodluck to you all and I hope you’re able to heal :)
@@LoverIsaDayy sadly it‘s more complicated then that because of how things ended, but still you‘re right. thank you for motivating me this means a lot
This reminds me of being at a sleepover, while you randomly wake up, while all of your friends are still asleep around you. The moonlight from the window casts a beautiful glow across their faces, and you can’t help but smile; having the most wonderful friends ever. You get up and get a glass of water in the kitchen. The air is still and your mind is half asleep. This is when I feel most at peace, In the dead of night.
Being Awake at 4 feels like being a college student and knowing you’re going to wake up super late and miss things, but feeling like your sleep schedule is already so screwed up that you can’t do much about it. But then, the next day, around maybe 10 ish, your friend comes up to you and asks how you’re doing. You tell them that it’s rough. Sleep isn’t going so good. And then they say “That sucks man. Anything I can do?” And even though they can’t really, you instantly feel better. You have a friend that cared enough to ask. That’s more than you’ve ever had before. Even if you feel like you have no routine or control, life is still getting better everyday. You got this.
Take it from a guy who knows.
Even if you don’t have that someone in person, there’s always someone to talk to. Or even just somebody who cares. If anyone comments, know that I care. Share your stories. It’s good to get them out there, good bad or ugly.
As a person who goes out on late night drives for relaxation due to the calmness that empty roads give during that time of the night, this playlist best describes this feeling when taking these drives. Its not that I'm depressed, sad or have stress on my mind. The night drives are mostly a form of meditation or "peace moment" for me and even gives me a chance to self reflect about things, mostly positive or curious thoughts. It's amplified more so if you take these trips with friend(s) and/or family member(s) who have that same self reflective mindset.
I want to do this when I get my driver's licence
i remember going on non-stop road trips where we wouldn’t sleep at hotels, and we started often around sunset or nighttime. i often just stayed awake for the entire night before we got there the next day, and it felt lonely and desolate. i also remember everything about the gas stops we took, right down to the smell of the gas and the vibe of the store. those gas stations were often empty, too, so it truly felt like i was the last one on earth left.
Reminds me of driving during covid.
No one on the roads. And it's just you and your business
I do this too! Love those drives. ❤
When i was a kid, my grandma used to wake up at 4am to go for a walk with her friends
they together go to the park then do some exercises, after that they go to a small caffe to rest and talk
I said i wanna try it too and she said yes, you know as a kid, waking up at 4am was really amazing to me cause it felt so weird, kinda mix of being sleepy and excited
Me, her, my little brother and my big cousin woke up at 4am and got ready to go the park
The night was dark blue which looked so magical, the street was empty, there were some random containers passing by every 5 mins
I felt like we were the only one living in this world, the feeling didnt last long until we met her friendgroup, they were all old just like her, sadly most of them passed away now, idk how it feels when your friends are just slowly dying one by one
So we did exercises, i laughed a lot because of the poses, i laughed so much that the leader, idk what should i called him, english is not my first language, basically he was the one showed people how to pose, laughed too and told me to stop laughin or he couldnt do it
Finally the exercises done, me and my brothers ran around the park, we ended up getting so tired, when we got home, all of us fell at sleep immediately, i woke up again at 9am
It was a memorable experiment, now everytime i heard about 4am, i always think of it
@@you_are_your_sunshine we’re only getting older:)
@@ayan4400 indeed
It sounds like you were very young back then like 8-10 years old. your story reminded of my memories of the time when I was around 8-10 years old. The best days of life my life ie childhood is gone. Now being 23 I miss being a kid so much.
@@ayan4400 its a scary feeling
Im so happy to know this exists, after reading some of these stories I reflect on how I used to be as a teenager. I’m 23 now but for a long time during my teen years I would stay awake all night and sleep the morning away. I was homeschooled so my time was all mine. I played a lot of video games and really hated going outside. I had severe social anxiety and depression. I isolated myself from everyone around me, even my family for days sometimes, just to sit in the solitude. It wasn’t really dark, it was just quiet all night, every night and that’s how I liked it. Until I didn’t anymore. When I turned 20 I realized I hadn’t enjoyed the long nights gaming anymore, I wanted to meet people, I wanted to do things and experience life in some way. So I did, it was so scary but I did, and it was fast too August 2020 I got my first job at a gym, January 2021 I got my drivers license, May 2021 I earned my GED. I was making friends, I was doing things, I was making money, yet I still felt unfulfilled and unhappy, I kept wondering why I still felt the way I did even though I had begun to do things, January 2022 earlier this year I began to really improve myself physically, mentally and emotionally. I started taking my fitness journey seriously, consistent exercise, meal prepping, drinking water, sleeping well and ended up losing 60 pounds. I started to talk to people more and make real connections, open up to people and made the best friends of my life. I began reading books and journaling even considered going to therapy because even though I had made great friends, I still felt lonely. I still had the same feeling I had since I was a teenager. And at this point I was 22, I was high on life and on confidence, I was losing weight and doing great things for myself, my next choice kind of destroys everything I was building. In May of 2022 I decided to enlist into the United States Army. I thought it would improve me as a person, teach me discipline, make me stronger and faster and improve me mentally and financially than I ever could myself, while I respect the military, the choice I made was one of the worst ones I could’ve made. I still had insecurity and was driven by it, I felt as though I wasn’t good enough to do something else with myself, as though all those years in isolation had made me lesser than everyone around me and I had nothing to offer and even if I did I felt like no one would accept it. So I joined, having convinced myself that it was the only thing I could do, and I finished basic training, I completed the forge, I made it to AIT, and I settled in to it. Now I’m on holiday leave, back home, where it all started for me, and being home has taught me something. I was worth so much more than I thought I was. I could’ve done anything I wanted to with the determination I had, and now I’m sitting here at 4:26am central standard time, regretting what I did, because now im locked into something that makes me a much worse person than who I was trying to become, all my motivation has been sucked out of me, the drive I once had is now gone, my friends who I made connections with are broken hearted at how long I will be gone, as is my family, the connections I finally made after years of severe loneliness and social anxiety are likely going to fade, because I will not be able to have a presence in their lives. My mental health is in the worst place it’s been in my life, I’m still doing my best however. Maybe one day I’ll pull myself out of this rut, like I did before. I sure hope so. If you read all the way down here thank you. I hope you truly take into consideration how your actions will affect your life and the lives of those around you. I hope you’re healthy, I hope you’re happy, I hope all your dreams are coming true. If none of that is happening I just want you to know things will get better. Stay determined, don’t give up. You will win, and I love you.
That was deep man. It really made me think about my outlook on life. I hope everything turns around for you for the better. ❤
Love you man
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People underestimate how much words can mean to someone, and this is an example of why people shouldn't. Those words helped me alot right now, thank you.
You know, when it's late at night, and I feel alone, or sad, I search "4am musics" on RUclips. Cause I can listen to this songs all night, dreaming about peace, but also because I know there is thousand of people in comments who have stories to tell, passion, emotion, feelings to tell. I know that when I click on this kind of videos, I'll find my peace. People who actually understand me. And I feel like when I'm here, we are in another world. Like nobody except us are awake. Like everybody can read this comment, but also nobody. People here actually takes time to read all this stories, even if they don't like, comment or anything, they read them and that's so amazing. It's kind off early for me, but this feeling is here. And I wish sometimes I could escape home and go for a walk, just seeing the town sleeping while I'm awake.
i feel exactly the same, it's crazy how human's can all connect without even knowing they are, i'm glad people think the same way i do, and you've put it into perfect words. i hope you're doing well and take care
Perfect.
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2 years ago i had just joined brazillian army, we had to be ready at 5am for morning obligations so most of us were generally awaken at 4am. But sometimes, 3:30am was the best time to wake up because we could see, at least for 5-10 minutes, the sun rising up in the sky and it was one of the most beautiful views i have ever seen in my life, specially in rainy seasons. When i did my 1 year minimun required time of active service, i still find myself awaken at 4am staring at the sunrise before going to college. I can't explain the feelings, but sadnees is definetely not one of them.
Woke up an early summer morning last year, and i had to drive home from my girlfriend, who lives 150KM away from me. It was around 4AM in the morning, and I drove on the highway as the only person for quite some time. I did probably only see 3-4 cars on the whole way home. I have a hard time describing the feeling it gave me, listening to ambient music like this while driving that morning. Its just something that i won't forget. Such an inner peace. I really felt like i was the last person in this world. That feeling is very fascinating, because it feels really good in some ways, but can be truly scary in other ways.
I remember one of the first times I got high was with my best friend in his backyard at 2am, we decided to smoke in the hottub and look up at the stars together. Something about watching the stars with him made me feel whole, like he understood the sadness I felt. We just gazed at the stars until the sun came up. He's passed away now, and I often think about that time when we were just dumb kids trying to be happy.
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All the best to You, fella. Be strong 💪
Almost three months ago I've lost my best friend as well (13th Sep). Suddenly. He would be 33yo on 11th Nov. I consider myself as an introvert in most part. Didn't really ever had the need to be sorounded by dozens of "friends", because time & life itself have showed me with every single year, that quality is more important than quantity. We knew each other for about 20 years. Once when we got high, He admitted that He kissed my girlfriend, when we were about 15-17yo. But that didn't stopped me from cleaning His house after a party, when everybody bailed and I was the last one left at around 4am. His parents were coming back on the same day afternoon and I knew, seeing Him completely wasted, that He won't be able to clean up later all of that mess. Countless times when He thanked me for that.
I think that I'm still in a phase of some kind of denial, just hard to accept it. Miss You, Buddy 💔
Really hope your doing good so many stories lost to suicide like this and ppl with amazing experinces idk what I would’ve done back then without my friend if he passed too many good things we lose
@@dexxfa7274 I'm doing good I appreciate you for asking. Just life is different without them you know
I am in fact awake most days at this hour, the world feels peaceful, chaos is gone, nature takes over, and it makes life worth living
this is so true!
It's 4:25 am right now. Life for me is pretty rough right now. Anxiety has gotten to me a lot lately. I'm almost 18, and I feel like I've done absolutely nothing with my life. I'm a senior in high school, and honestly, I wasn't supposed to be around this long. So now, I don't know what to do with my life, or with myself. I don't really have a lot of friends, and I don't really talk to people. I hardly leave my house because of social anxiety. Sometimes it feels like I don't even exist and that people just don't care enough to acknowledge my existence. I know that's not the case but it feels like it. I feel so insignificant. So unimportant. It feels like my life is meaningless. It feels like I have no point to keep going. I'm not suicidal, or anything like that, I just feel unimportant. I feel like if I was gone, nobody would care, or notice. Life would just keep on going. Time wouldn't stop. Nobody would notice enough to care. I've been consistently taking my meds, but it feels like nothing helps. I feel like I'm gonna do nothing in life. I'm not going to accomplish anything. I'm not the little girl who thought she was gonna change the world anymore. This world is too damaged to be changed, and even if I could, I'm too insignificant. In the end, I'm just a stupid kid with big dreams that will never come true. So what is the point of living? This world is over 4 billion years old, and will continue to exist for another million billion years. I'll have no impact on it. So what's the point? What's the point of living if you won't have an impact?
Sorry for rambling. But if you read, thanks.
-Sam
I am the same, I just graduated and have done nothing. I never really had friends or even talk to others much. I don’t know what to do. I had big plans once but now I don’t. Everywhere I look there is corruption, I don’t even know what I can do at this point. But there is one thing I like it’s kinda weird but I like to go to old places that are lost, like an old cabin in the woods or an old trailhead that’s isn’t traveled on anymore and reminisce about all the stories and memories people could have made at that place. Another thing (also weird) is I like to go to places where journeys are split little hard to explain but for example there is this place where a river splits and both sides run to the opposite coast, I think it’s called parting of the waters. Anyway it’s cool to think of the stories along the way but something happens and they split apart. Until one day they meet back together again just as randomly. It takes my mind off of the bad things in life.
I hope you find something truly wonderful in life one day. ❤
-Andrew
Nothing on this earth will satisfy. Nothing on this earth will truly fulfill. Nothing on this earth brings true hope or Joy.
BUT....a life lived for Jesus brings true satisfaction, true fulfillment, true Hope and Joy.
Worldly impact is temporal, but the impact of a life that is lived for Jesus will last forever.
Believe on Jesus' Death and resurrection for the sins of the world. He did it for you, and for me. He loves you, He wants you. In this there is Hope and Peace:)
Oh, how's your live going after nearly 1 year after? Do you have the same view on the world as before? I'd with pleasure hear out ur answer but as I can predict you probably won't see this comment. I leave a hear for another generations seeing this answer❤❤
I don't usually write comments because of my anxiety, but something about reading through these comments for the last 10 minutes makes me want to share how I resonate with this playlist and what the feeling of 4 am reminds me of. I have an addiction to daydreaming to put it short. The name would be called maladaptive daydreaming disorder. For as long as I've known I've used daydreaming to cope with the amount of loneliness and neglect I've faced through the years and even now. It's late at night that I find I do it the most. Whenever the day has ended from all its responsibilities and the 2 friends I have go offline to sleep. It leaves me alone with silence and boredom, and scrolling through tiktok can only do so much to fill that void until it just gets old. So I go to the place that I've always felt comfort in, my daydreams. The carefully crafted world I've made to be exactly how I wish my life would be. With a big happy family, a large friend group, people that check in, never feeling put down for interests or things that are out of my control, always feeling protected and loved, etc. A world I can feel free in a world where I feel trapped, even if I play as another character.
This world tends to consume my brain. No matter how much I love it and it makes me happy, it still takes from me like any other disorder would. One prominent thing it takes is my sleep. My brain attaches to a certain scenario and repeats it, adding onto it each time the scene is played out, playing a cinematic movie in my head that can last for hours. Before I know it the time has passed from 11pm to 4am. I snap out of my daydream to check the time on my phone and almost gasp in surprise at how late it's gotten, without any plan to stay awake to this hour. Then I tell myself that it's time I let my mind rest and finally get some sleep just for the cycle to repeat the next day and the day after.
Hey just checking in on you. Hope your Friday night is going well. I'm in a pretty similar place these days, so just thought I'd say hi.
Write those stories and i believe we have a future best selling author ;)
@@LR_84 Thats exactly what I plan on doing, so this comment means a lot to me, thank you.
@@friendofghost and you for sharing 🙏 good luck
I'm glad you wrote that. I do this so often and it's easy to feel alone, or as if you're the only one experiencing something. Hope you're doing ok, from one daydreamer to another.
Since everyone is sharing their 4am story why not share mine right? :)
Well it was around 4am a winter day which means the sun would go up around 7-8am pretty late. I was in my deepest back then and was always holding myself back from ending it all. I remember it so clearly I opened my window that day and sat there watched the stars and the moon cried and cried and asked god why I have to live like this. I would have done that so many times. Do an all nighter just to cry and sit there on my window in the cold watching the moon and stars. It felt like god was talking with me all the time so I would look at the moon and just vent on it telling the moon everything but it felt like I was talking to god or the closest people specifically my dead cat. It felt like they were hugging me and telling me that everything will be alright one day. I never lost hope until now. I’m back in my deepest I’ve ever been and I don’t know how long I can keep up with this. Knowing other people feel the same makes me so sad. Please know you are valid and special
be strong, be your friend. tomorrow is always another day where you can move on.
I don't know how much this will mean to you, since I am just a random person on the Internet, but remember that you are valid and special too. Everything you are feeling is valid. I know how hard it is to believe all of that. I am in the same position right now, but we just have to keep going. One day at a time. Find the things in life that bring you joy, no matter how little or brief. If you can't, think about me, a random stranger who truly cares. Just keep going
Please just know that YOU are valid and special. Each moment is a gift, and each breath is precious. You are wholly unique - in this world and in this universe, no one else can be you. The odds of your being alive and existing is 1 in 10^2,685,000 - that's 10, followed by 2,685,000 zeros. Your life is as important as any other, and you are irreplaceable. You may feel useless, worthless, desolate, and a million other things but you aren't. You are just as much a part of this universe as anything else and you are made of atoms conceived in the hearts of long-dead stars. You are precious. You are loved. The fact that you are alive is a miracle.
@@JosselynSings
@@Asmodeusi thank you so much
I've always been a night owl -- I was actually diagnosed with DSPD, delayed sleep phase disorder, later in life which just explained SO so much -- it's essentially just a shift in normal sleep schedule, where you're pretty much just a medically certified night owl LOL. Anyway, my first summer out of high school (2003) I got myself a job at Blockbuster, where I was making six bucks an hour while saving up for my new adult life. I requested off every Wednesday closing shift and every Thursday opening shift because Wednesday nights were my night out. My friend Bair would come pick me up at maybe ten or ten thirty, and we'd go get our other friends; there'd be maybe four or five of us. We would make our way downtown to the Alamo Drafthouse, where we'd attend Weird Wednesday, which was free at that time. It started at midnight and showed just the most bizarre and goofy B-movies from the fifties through eighties, some even starring some big names (I remember one with Jack Nicholson???). Afterwards, we'd head to the arcade down at the college campus, and grab some coffee from our favourite little hole in the wall coffee shop, which was absolutely lovely at night out on the patio, with strings of lights and off-kilter furniture. There was a 24-hr diner on the same street, between the arcade and the coffee shop, and if we were hungry, we'd grab food. I wouldn't get home until maybe four or so. One night we were all having so much fun..... we made new friends at the arcade, including an exchange student from France named Vincent, and we walked up and down the Drag (the main road at UT campus in Austin), talking and laughing..... sat on the steps to the college, talking late into the night, with Vincent lying out on the step with his head in my lap. We spent all our quarters at the arcade and bought an extra coffee at the shop. Eventually, one by one, all our friends found their ways home; most of them had come by on their own that night anyway. And soon it was five in the morning and it was just me and Bair left. We were still content to just enjoy each other's company, so we popped into Ken's Donuts, mercifully always 24hrs, and split the cost of a dozen. I ended up taking four of them home to my mom and my brother but we sat there in that little donut shop and enjoyed our two donuts and orange juice together. We were in no hurry. He had me home at about six, and I was washing off my makeup and changing into my pajamas just as the sun was emerging. I'd left the box of donuts on the kitchen counter with a note for my mom and my brother. They were appreciative and split them while I was sleeping. But for as long as I live I will never forget sitting in that donut shop at a quarter past five in the morning after a beautiful night out, sitting across from Bair, laughing and enjoying our donuts and our friendship. I'm thirty-seven years old now, next year I'll be attending my twentieth high school reunion, but I look back on that night as an absolute core memory. I hope I never forget it as long as I live.
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Thanks for sharing that. I love reading through these comments … The music wouldn’t be quite the same without comments like yours. … Hope you and Bair are doing well. By the story I read from your description that friendship was/is something truly precious :)
You are a good man
that was just. beautiful. truly.
@@jamesjustin9181 I’m actually a woman (you can tell by my name and photo) but thanks! ☺️
Good memories. Nostalgic feeling is something only humans have, i think. I wish all the best to you Virginia. From a country way down south.
You all are my people. Its nice to see people here who don't jump straight to depression and addictions as the only reason people willingly stay up so late. Sometimes that is just how your body works though, you're naturally more awake and motivated in the dead of night than you ever can be during the day and there's absolutely nothing wrong with that.
Well for me i think it does come from depression and addiction 😅 but I also just like the night a lot. There's less pressure at night. You're usually in a quiet, lonely situation that you can control. During the day all kinds of stressful and out of control things can happen. A lot of good things can happen too. Daytime is really important for physical/mental health. But its still nice to just rest quietly at night.
I'm a really big late night driver. I love just getting in my car and taking off on some random highway or interstate, radio blasting and the windows down. It just feels, calming? Being alone out on the road, having the trees fly past me, it feels like I've found a sort of freedom, like a bird that's taken first flight. Although this playlist isn't the sort of music I play during these drives, it does perfectly match the feelings I get
Wow same here, nothing better than cruising around late night, admiring the city lights and feeling the breeze hit your face as you shift gears.
Don't be shy and share all the things that's in your mind so people can read it while listening to this masterpiece.
I started watching this video and reading comments at around 1:00 A.M. and it's 4:03 now
@@jellybean9551 Woah :O
@@jellybean9551 but the video is only an hour lmfao
@@Jaxon_Klein maybe they looped it
@@jellybean9551 cool
I have issues with sleep, and im a horrible introvert. I express myself through music a lot and spent most of my time alone because of these 2 things and i just wanted to say thank you for making a playlist that reminded me im not alone. Weird as it may sound. Its good to know there are people out there who think of us and make playlists with us in thought. Thank you.
Music has helped me through some really hard times. I feel as if I have a special connection to it, more special than most people do. It's people like you I look out for, so I admire the fact you took the bravery to leave this comment here! Have a great night/day :)
Music is something special truly
WE ARE NEVER REALLY ALONE!
Im a mental health professional/ therapist these days. I had insomnia and anxious nights throughout my younger years. This playlist and pictures symbolize to me so much of what it feels like to feel like that again. Im thankful that I have gotten to a better place mentally and I hope everyone else watching this is doing ok.
My brother and I used to stay up all the way till 6 am playing games (gta, max payne, hitman) I never got to play much since I was young, but I enjoyed watching him play, the sounds of our silent house and neighborhood with only our pc's noise were the most amazing inexplicable feeling to me as a kid. Sadly life happens to people, and we grew apart, he's a happy married man with a beautiful daughter! And I'm so happy for him. And now I'm listening to this, about to cry because I miss those simpler times.
When I was in middle school, I had several undiagnosed mental disorders that I had no idea about. As I got older, the worse they became. My coping skill was to stay up until 3 or 4 in the morning reading wattpad (I know, I know) or listening to music, simply enjoying the peace of being the only one awake. I felt so grounded, and so at peace. 4 am really is something special.
How are you doing these days?
how are you now?
i am like this now, literally, it's 4 am in brazil, i am listening some music and reading some books to avoid my mental disorders and lonely
@@the.seagull.35 I'm doing much better, thank you so much for asking! :)
@@taehylips_ I know how it feels. I hope you're doing much better now. You can do it
It’s crazy to think that so many people on earth feel like they’re the only people on earth at 4 AM but are all awake at the same time basking in the peaceful loneliness
Lots of good comments here. As another introvert, I have always loved those off-hours times when no one else is around. I used to live in Minneapolis, and very early winter mornings were a special time. I used to play video games until very late, and then before going to bed spend time looking out my living room window that had a view of an urban residential alley way. Snow falling under the light of an orange sodium gas street light against an overcast sky, filling up the road with more fresh snow. Absolute quiet and peace. I miss those times.
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Fellow introvert here. I once went on a walk at 4 am because I couldn't sleep and didn't need to either and it was the best walk of my life.
I had a best friend once, we used to do everything together. After going through the overwhelming stress of collage, tedious family arguments, and a decaying relationship throughout the week I would always find myself in his company at the end of it all. We were always together at every opportunity. My fondest memories were when we would take walks together. We would spend hours exploring the many streets and avenues around his neighborhood. We would always find ourselves getting distracted by some thrown out piece of junk in a neighbors yard and spend the next few hours discussing about all the ways we could turn it into some new invention or game. We would spend the rest of our visit dragging that said piece of junk home which would usually end up being thwarted by his unamused and passively agitated mother. But my favorite memories are when we would stay up all night. We would watch movies and draw all night long. When we were tired we would put something like this on and drift asleep and do it all again the next day. Due to a decline in his mental health our friendship became very strained at one point and one day we got into a fight. This fight became very nasty and bitter and went on for a year and a half. We were no longer friends anymore we hated each other. The bitterness that had grown between us lead to things that can never be taken back. The situation had escalated so much that I had fallen into a dark depression. All I felt was violence, all I wanted to do was sleep, and all I ever did was wallow in that bitterness. I am in a much better place now and we have stayed as far away from each other as possible but in these times when I'm alone late at night I cant help but feel a little melancholic. After all the things that had been said and done and after all of the hatred that had come out of us I still cant help but mourn him. I miss those days but mostly, I miss my best friend.
its crazy. i had a similar situation and you describe it perfectly. i feel for you and hope that changes someday
So do I dude I miss my best friend as well
its an sad feeling bro. I also used to have friends in school who are kind of strangers now. we drifted apart we don't talk often. I miss them. there was no fight between us but its just after we finished school we didn't hung out as much as we used to do. there is this one guy kinda my closest friend back then he chose other course and I chose other so we went to different colleges. I still have his number sometimes I text him he does reply but there is no spark left between us. I wish we go back at being best friends all over again like the school days.
We punish ourselves sometimes, but it’s okay to outgrow relationships.
They were the best person for that particular point in time, and maybe they’ll be again, in the future…or maybe not.
We’re always meant to be moving forward though.
It’s natural.
@@basilbaby7678 very well said, thank you
My mom used to sit up awake in the dark pre dawn kitchen (I remember seeing her cigarettes' glowing) She had recently lost her son-my nine year old brother-who died in a car accident (which she witnessed) This music makes me think of her-how lonely and sad she was. How we never understood her pain. Somehow this music makes it clearer. Thank you
Kathleen Cabot I understand how hard it is to lose loved ones, my grandfather died of COVID in 2021 just before Christmas... I can still remember my last time with him, we had a fight and it was devastating we couldn't reconcile, I felt numb at his funeral... I had no tears left to cry anymore. Many nights I would lament how he died looking up at the sky, hoping he found peace in death.
A loss will do that. It has done that to me maybe this is why I now work early around the same time.
I am sorry about your loss. Sending Love.
@@maluspezzano7928 thanks kid, it had a more devastating effect on my grandmother, she had fifty four years with him... She's seen him drunk, sober, beat down, and everything else, my mother started burying herself in booze after he died. I felt empty and apathetic towards him after that fight we had.
I've always cry alone, in silence. It's late night and the only lightning comes from my window. This empty feeling, sadness, trap me and the only thing I can do is to cover my mouth with my hands and try my hardest to be silent. Moon shines in front of me in a beautiful way. The hole world is quiet, and I feel I'm the only one living in it. This playlist remind me of those moments. It feels... lonely
It's okay to feel lonely sometimes. Dont give up
I wish you happiness in your life
i feel the same, you are not alone
Dnt loose ur hope dear.. M also going through the same.. All i wish u get the peace..
Night time is an influential time - you either feel much better or much worse.
I feel the same
There have been countless nights where i have stayed up all night and left my room to go watch the sunrise. I can't recall any one specific moment, but the feeling of doing this is so incredibly special, it makes me feel like i'm the only person around for miles: quietly somber, but content. It's incredibly draining but I've never had any regrets
It’s half 4 in the morning now.. exactly a year ago I moved by myself to the city and thought life would be a lot different, I thought somehow I would change overnight and get to be happy. Things have been tough and for the past 2 years around this time I seem to have to say goodbye to someone. I feel stupid for letting people in when I just disappoint them and myself over and over.. I did spent the last hour drawing and editing a video though when I struggled the whole day to move. I feel safer at night when everyone is asleep..I should stop thinking and sleep myself, thanks for the playlist. I can smell the vanilla candle I blew out a while ago.. it’s already getting light outside. I’m scared moments like these are the only time I get to feel free
You’ll be fine. Takes time in big cities. 2 yrs isn’t that long! Start cooking
i relate to that last sentence so much. it hurts.
For some reason, this playlist makes me cry. This whole playlist reminds me of my late grandpa. He died right after my birthday in 2020, still remember my brother knocking on my door so well, it was around 4am as well. I remember it so well...we had just bought him back home from the hospital, the docs had told us that he doesn't have much time to live so it'd be better if we'd all stayed with him together. The cold chilly feeling of that December night when the ambulance had pulled up at 1am and they got him out and we all went inside together into our house. I remember standing next to his bed as he looked at me while i was trying so hard not to breakdown as my shaky hands reached up to his mouth to feed him my birthday cake. I remember him mumbling something, but i don't remember what he said. Ever since i was a kid, I've been the closest to that man. Literally, the only man i look up to. We used to play games i had created on my own where I'd make new rules every single time we played, he'd always let me win. I remember those days when both of us would sneak out of the house to go eat something without grandma knowing. Death doesn't scare me. The memories the dead leave me with scares me.
My dad died in 2020 a month before my birthday 🥺😔
it’s kind of scary how much i can relate. my grandpa died too in 2020, barely a month before my birthday. i remember my brother knocking on my door at 5am, and then going over to my grandpas house in the night to say goodbye. i’m sure that even after 2/3 years it’s hard but one thing i know is that we’ll be okay
Lots of people would probably listen to this and call it depressing or sad, but for others it's really nice.
Its different for everyone, its unsettling for me, maybe even scary
It does something to my brain and makes me focus
4:00am (or there abouts) is my favourite time of day, it’s so quiet and peaceful.
Couldn't agree more
its 3 am and i am getting goosebumps reading everyone's 4am stories. its the best
no you ain’t 😭 take that vibrator out and close your window. they should go away pretty quick
the last few months of my senior year of highschool were cut short by the pandemic in 2020. I went from sleeping at 12 and waking up at 7:30 to sleeping at 4:00 everyday. Those late night hours were some of the most peaceful times of my life. Now I'm back to grinding school/internships and I kinda miss that period of time when I didn't have responsibilities and could sleep whenever I wanted.
yeah, i can see that. However, the pandemic took a huge chunk of my time and i missed a lot of opportunities to network and build relationships. Those days were a blur as I would constantly wake up and not even know what day it was. After society began to open up in my area, it was kinda hard to adjust and try to gain back my lost time. However, I did kinda missed those days of peace knowing that next day would be the same as yesterday. It was like a very long lunch break that seemed like it would never end but life isn't really about what is comfortable. That comes when you overcome your struggles and look back at your life in your later years and think "i'm content with how my life went". Well anyhoo, if you read my message, hope you doing good in life, from a stranger to another :)
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This brings me back when I was younger (like very young like 6yrs old) I would sneak out of my house in the morning to watch the sunrise and sunset. I remember the night after my grandmother passed the sky was beautiful it had a strong orange with a slight pink hint in it, I remember then crying and asking why she had to leave me and feeling a breeze as if it was her giving me a hug and apologizing. I still miss her and watch sunsets and sunrises to this day.
Beautiful
Currently in college, I just always love staying up late and lying in bed looking up into the darkness every night just thinking about everything. It’s just so peaceful and relaxing
One time I woke up at 3am I went out to the balcony and saw the moon shining in the sky. I have a friend who studies abroad in Italy and I live in Vietnam so we are 5 times zones apart. Whenever I see the moon I often think about her and I called her that night and had a lovely chat with her while watching the moon. Before she went to Italy, we used to hang out at midnight in a solitary place to take a walk and watch the stars and the moon. I think the most beautiful thing in the world is to share the moments with the person we love. I hope everyone would have at least a special person to share feelings with and to feel alive.
In the ending of your lines.
You broke me again 💫
your story made me realise how there's just 1 moon, and every night different people with different stories and many lonely souls look up at it. people who never knew eachother and never will connect with eachother, the only connection between them being the moon.
its so beatiful
This reminds me of one of the most peaceful nights i’ve ever had in the woods. I used to be part of the national scouts association in my country and we would go camping in different forests every season. Usually, we have this thing where one person with a high rank has to stay awake the whole night to guard the campsite and keep the fire going.
I was that person that night. I remember setting my sleeping back right next to the fire and huddling as close as possible to save myself from the winter cold. Everyone was asleep in the tents as I lay on my back outside and was taken aback when I saw the starry night sky filled with never ending stars. There was no light pollution in the forest so I could even see the milky way blinking in and out of existence. The only sounds in the air were of crickets coming from the cedar trees and the burning wood in the fire. I was the only person awake at the campsite and it felt like I was in a dream-like state, half asleep but still aware of my surroundings, just surrounded by tranquility, the sounds of the night, the occasional winter breeze and the warmth from the fire. All i could see were stars everywhere. I don’t know how to describe the feeling that came over me back then, but i remember this deep lull that washed over me and my chest aching at how beautiful it all was.
That sounds great 🙂 I'm happy for You, that You were able to experience it in this way. All the best! 👍 🙂
a dream.
happy you got to experience that 🤍
This playlist evokes a very strong memory from in my mind. I used to work at a fast food place on the closing shift. some nights, we wouldn't even leave the store till 3:30 in the morning. Walking was my only real trusted method of getting back and forth. Summer heat, Winter cold, I had no choice cause I was working minimum wage. One particular night, in the middle of December, it had just dropped a fresh coat of snow. Not much, maybe half an inch, enough to dust the roads but that's about it. As I rounded the final corner leading to my apartment, the snow was fresh, powdery, and untouched by man, vehicle, or beast. Just a perfect, light dusting of snow, That I almost didn't want to walk on, but to take another detour would take me anther 10 or 20 minutes out of my way. And just as I began the trek home on that final leg, The moon came out to greet me from behind the gray clouds of the wintry sky. No wind, no cars, no barking dogs or cats fighting in the distance. Just the subtle crunch, crunch, crunch, of each new step on my path home, my slightly hitched breath from carrying a bag full of food and work clothes. It was quite possibly the most peaceful moment of my life, and I long for that peace again. This music perfectly encapsulates what that moment in time felt like for me. Occasionally I'll sit back, close my eyes, and remember the crunch of the snow beneath my feet, and if thatm oment had a soundtrack, this would be that soundtrack. Thank you so much.
@Rose Rry hi
@Rose Rry Doing just fine. Enjoying my day off.
@Rose Rry old enough. Are you sure this is a good place to have a personal conversation? Lol.
@Rose Rry what do you mean a live?
I have a similar experience involving snow that I would like to share. So growing up, I lived in the northern United States. The particular place that I lived was known for a good winter storm every few years. If it was going to be a bad one, they would call a state of emergency, tell everyone to get their supplies and usually close down the roads the night of the storm to allow the emergency vehicles to treat the roads and such. I would ALWAYS take this time to go out on walks. And I remember one particular time in my early twenties I went out for a walk, the roads were closed and the snow was already coming down hard. There was already a foot of snow on the ground. It was around 8pm, the street lights were already on, and the snow glistened. And at one point I remember stopping and listening. There was no loud cars or engines. No sirens or people. The only thing you heard was a gentle breeze and a light rustle of the trees. I think this is the only time in my life where I have truly felt at peace. Over 20 years later and it is a memory that is still so strong in my mind. Music like this always brings me back to that.
Beside my past and present habits, staying up most of the night still makes me feel different and a bit lonely, and nothing beats your parent or friend waking up and deciding to keep you company. For a bit, it's like being a kid again and showing them your strange world out of time and space, where you are yourself and there's only you and that person. Really a special moment to live out
i love reading everyone's story about their pasts and 4am moments while listening to this playlist. it heartwarms me and makes me feel like im reading a calming novel. thanks and hope everyone is having a good day, year and life
Around this time last year, I kept waking up at 3:00am on the dot. I would just toss and turn until either the sun came up or I eventually went back to sleep. Then one night I just decided to get up, went for a drive to the inlet and walked onto the beach. Nobody around, dead silent except for the wind and waves crashing. I just laid my coat down and laid on the sand staring up at the stars. Was going through a bit of a rough patch and have some kind of institutionalized paranoia. Always think somebody is looking at me or just generally doesn't mean well for me.
Realizing nobody was around I was able to completely just be at ease and let my mind flow freely feeling the cool wind hit me as I watched the stars dance. I feel like something kept waking up me so I could experience that moment.
rip chris farley
One time at like 4am, I was at my grandmas house and I couldn’t sleep. I got up and went to get water, and as I opened my door I saw my grandma there getting water too. Usually, she would yell at me for being up this late, but this time she just smiled at me and silently got me a glass of water. I don’t know if she could she the look in my eyes or if she just had a feeling, but we just silently sat in the kitchen and drank water together. That’s one of the few actually good memories I have of her, she’s very angry all the time but when shes at peace, she is the kindest person. I don’t talk to her as much anymore, but I know that this playlist encapsulates the peace that we both feel that late at night.
That is a lovely story.
100 reasons to stay alive:
1. to make your parents proud
2. to conquer your fears
3. to see your family again
4. to see your favourite artist live
5. to listen to music again
6. to experience a new culture
7. to make new friends
8. to inspire
9. to have your own children
10. to adopt your own pet
11. to make yourself proud
12. to meet your idols
13. to laugh until you cry
14. to feel tears of happiness
15. to eat your favorite food
16. to see your siblings grow
17. to pass school
18. to get tattoo
19. to smile until your cheeks hurt
20. to meet your internet friends
21. to find someone who loves you like you deserve
22. to eat ice cream on a hot day
23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day
24. to see untouched snow in the morning
25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire
26. to see stars light up the sky
27. to read a book that changes your life
28. to see the flowers in the spring
29. to see the leaves change from green to brown
30. to travel abroad
31. to learn a new language
32. to learn to draw
33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them
34. Puppy kisses.
35. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek).
36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them.
37. Trampolines.
38. Ice cream.
39. Stargazing.
40. Cloud watching.
41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets.
42. Receiving thoughtful gifts.
43. “I saw this and thought of you."
44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you."
45. The relief you feel after crying.
46. Sunshine.
47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention.
48. Your future wedding.
49. Your favorite candy bar.
50. New clothes.
51. Witty puns.
52. Really good bread.
53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time.
54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.)
55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling.
56. The smell before and after it rains
57. The sound of rain against a rooftop.
58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing.
59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them.
60. Trying out new recipes.
61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio.
62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage.
63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable.
64.Breakfast in bed.
65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater.
66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning).
67. Pray (if you are religious)
68. Forgiveness.
69. Water balloon fights.
70. New books by your favorite authors.
71. Fireflies.
72. Birthdays.
73. Realizing that someone loves you.
74. Spending the day with someone you
75. Opportunity to create meaningful and lasting relationships.
76. Potential to learn, grow, and evolve as a person.
77. Joy and happiness in the little things.
78. The power to inspire others.
79. The ability to create art, music, and other forms of self-expression.
80. To explore different cultures, traditions, and ways of life.
81. To make a positive impact on the environment and help protect the planet.
82. Experience the joys of parenthood and raise a family.
83. Learn new things and develop new skills.
84. Create a legacy that will outlive you.
85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed.
86. Cuddles
87. Holding hands.
88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world.
89. Singing off key with your best friends.
90. Road trips.
91. Spontaneous adventures.
92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes.
93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees.
94. Thunderstorms.
95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland.
96. The taste of your favorite food.
97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning.
98. The day when everything finally goes your way.
99. Compliments and praise.
100. to look on this moment in 10 years time and realize you did it.
Ps : Never forget you are a beautiful person Life is so beautiful so live, live like no one else exist, live for yourself, don't care of bad people, you are strong, i love you ❤
Thank you for such lovely statements that uplifted me🩷✨
The Emperor Protects....
i think i saw a similar one in someone's google drive before
bullsh*t
u lost me at point 9
Hey guys! I just wanted to say how much i appreciate all of your stories, I think that its incredibile that even tho we have never met and we probably never will, with these beautiful memories that you’ve all shared, you have done a much better job at making me feel better compared to the people I know. It’s almost as if with your stories you have bought me into your life and showed me one of your core memories and by doing that even for small moment you’ve made me forget about my problems and about how shitty life can be. So thank you all very much for sharing, and thank you also for making me feel like I belong.
PS: I’m sorry for my english,it’s not really my first language.
You don't have to apologize, your English is more than understandable :)
I couldn’t tell that English wasn’t your first language- your writing is better than 90% of the native English speakers in these comments sections. No need to apologize! And thanks for what you wrote-
Thank you for this connection. It is, I feel, a bittersweet feeling.
Why is it that the most eloquent,well written comments always end with "sorry for my bad English"?
@@jaushuagrahamthefloridaman1124 Right? 👍🏻
In the midst of summer my best friend and I went to the lake to swim. It was 3 or so in the morning and we both lay atop the water floating with the current in complete tranquility. We watched the stars as the warm water engulfed us. We ended up holding hands as our minds drifted together. We pointed out every shooting star, all we heard were muffled voices as our ears were under the water but we both knew what it meant. That moment leaves me in awe as I’ve never felt so content and okay in my life.
That sounds like a wonderful moment and I will try to remember this.
When it’s 4am I like to sit in the garden at stare at the stars and listen to my surroundings and passing cars, although I have a phobia of the dark I find it so peaceful with the lovely fresh wind and the fresh smell in the air, I can never get enough of it
When you put yourself in a calm, and safe mindset, even the darkest of places can feel like peace. You are no longer wondering what is out there. You are just with yourself and to yourself. At peace with the emptiness that the world doesn't bring. And it's hard finding that peace again.
@@softcore307 yeah exactly!
Going for a walk or run at 4am with this playlist is truly something special. It melts away worry, doubt, and stress for the day to come. It is part of my daily routine now
I've always had issues with insomnia, Anxiety and seasonal depression(mainly around winter and fall) each year it feels like it's harder then last year, I stay up till 2 or so in the morning and recently an idea popped into my mind, what if there are other people around the world feeling and doing the same thing as me right now, something about that idea brought comfort and suddenly even though I don't know those people it feels like a bond has been made or a connection of sorts, night doesn't feel as lonely anymore. So whoever is reading this thank you, thank you to the people that could possibly be doing the same things and keeping me company even though I don't even know you
although i dont have insomnia, i do find it hard to sleep alot. just letting you know your NOT alone, and that i, too, wondered if anyone else were up late in the night. God bless you, and may you enjoy the peaceful midnight hours
thank you for this.
The feeling of solitude when waking up early is indescribable through words. The feeling of being up before the birds begin chirping, before the crickets go silent, when the clouds are filled with that bright pink and orange hue that is just so beautiful, is just amazing. You are alone, but not in a bad way. You are there before everything. You started before the day started. You beat the early bird to the worm. You have hours of free time just waiting there for you to do something with them. I spend my time finding playlists like these so I can open up my mind to something new. I like writing stories that put things into perspective that you don't ever really think about. It's that amazing feeling of freedom when you are up before the others. I live in a full house where there is constant conflict over who gets what and it always causes problems, but being awake before my siblings gives me the freedom to write these things and play my games and learn new things without being interrupted by someone wanting a turn on the computer.
Thanks Nobody for creating these places where I can feel free to write and open my mind up.
You are thoughtful and have the art of feeling expressed into words.
i never reply to comments but you have a way with words
I don’t think I do enough as a teenager, These stories are beautiful.
Just from this very short comment, I have a feeling you're insightful and smart. That's a good gift from God too... you can open up the world for yourself and others, through sharing what you see. I think you should keep doing it 👍
most of these stories are fake/exaggerated, you're doing fine
@@ZorroVulpes Bingo.
Make the most out of it, it goes by so much quicker than you think. Life can change in an instant, enjoy the time you have while you have it, take those risks and live your life while you can
I’m 30 now and I felt like this, but let me tell you a little secret - it’s never too late to make the memories you wanna have
I suffer really badly from not sleeping, and it really does feel this way. Like you are the only person alive
Past midnight, it's a different feeling. A good feeling to me. Everything is so... still, almost like it gets put on pause, waiting to unpause when the sun rises. It's a peaceful time. It's a time where no one is there to complain, to bother you, to push you farther over the edge. It's so beautiful that I wish it would never stop, never go away. We all stay up late because we don't want today to end and tomorrow to start. We all know the feeling of tranquility that comes at this time, and we don't want to feel anything else at that moment but the calmness, peacefulness, and solitude.
I couldn't put how I felt at night into words properly. Your comment did. Thank you for writing this comment. It feels nice to know more people feel the same way.
@@nowrinafsana498 🤝
Up at 4am. Can't go to sleep. My dreams keep me up at night. Currently studying to get myself out of my living situation. Thank you for this playlist. It randomly appeared at 4am. Best wishes to anyone out there working hard for a better life. Much love.
Good luck to you. Keep pushing forward! Everything will work out soon
I thought i was the only one being kept up by my dreams. I was starting to feel like a psyco, i'm so relieved i'm not the only one.
This playlist honestly reminds me of the happiest times of my teenage years so far. I’ve always been so quiet but i fell in love last year and threw it away because I was depressed and she deserved better. This playlist makes me think of the amazing memories I had with her. She’s changed so much from then, she’s a whole new person. It hurts so much to look back.
Its not too late. You will have a new beginning. Even if not with her, with someone new. You don't have to look back at the past... there's hope in the future. God loves you... walk with him and he will lead you where he wants you to go.
I did the same thing….. I was finally happy, but then I threw it all away when my anxiety started to worsen… instead of letting my partner know about my mental health, I pushed them away. Last year they moved away to a different school, so I started slowly rebuilding myself. Learning how to stand on my own again. This year they are back, and not only that but they are now dating my ‘ex-best friend’. It hurts so much to see them together…. They look so happy together and it eats me from the inside out. It feels like an empty whole is where my heart should be… I can’t help but think about what I could have done differently… I know it’s stupid…. And that I need to move on… but it’s hard… I need time that I don’t have, and I don’t know what to do. Right now I’m just getting by with the thought that maybe some day I’ll get the nerve to tell them what I should have said. All the words that I wanted to say but never did. I’m not sure when that day will be or even if that day will ever come… but I can hope….
Jesus loves yalls
It's never too late for love. She might be loving you still and missing you, but she might not know. Go back to her, go tell her you still love her.
@@t1red.cr3ature I'm 25, and met my first love when I was 15. We broke up when I was 16, I didn't get over her for 6 years even while in other relationships over that time. Met someone else really special when I was 21, dated for a year, then we broke up shortly after my 23rd birthday. Then the first girl came back. And we dated for a year, but that time I wasn't over the second girl. So, we broke up again when second girl tried to come back. Then second girl broke up with me again 6 months later. And now? I'm back to not being over the first girl.
Moral of the story. Learn to move on however you can. Learn to let go. Because it will ruin whatever future prospects you're supposed to have. When they say, "if it comes back to you, it's meant to be?" You gotta have faith in that shit and not chase it, but let it go. Whatever's supposed to happen in your life will happen regardless of what you do. So let go. Live for the future. Because even if your future is just that again, if you aren't in the right headspace, you'll just fuck it up again.
Let go now, so that you can hold on to when you need to.