I am gay and in my life i struggled with homosexuality. As a young boy i was molested and grew up to be gay. I was molested by a neighbor and abused by my father. My father had an iron fist i told my parents i was gay when i was in my 20s. Well as i was growing i was a struggle i started reading the and asking questions about life style. As i got older i began to cry i hate being gay. No I'm not happy i know it's a sin. I'm only human i always ask God to forgive me it's hard because i can go 10 yrs not engaging in homosexual acts, then out of no where i get a temptation feeling lord forgive me. I don't want to be gay. Forgive me
For 22 years I went to a Catholic Church, but I always thought there's no way that he could ever love someone like me! I had a Violent/Alcoholic father. My mother who was Schizophrenic and she Murdered my Twin baby sisters at 5 months old. 3 of my Siblings committed Suicide through a Drug Overdose with Heroin and Alcoholism. From age 6-26 I was Sexually Abused by Countless men. I was being Molested all through my Elementary years by the men that my mother took me to. After my parent’s Divorce, we were without any Child Support and ended up Homeless for 2 years and living in a Tent. I had to Steal food or else eat out of trash cans. I had OCD and Dyslexia; I Couldn’t Read very well so I was Bullied all through High School. Because we lived in the ghettos with The Bloods and The Crips, we had to use a friend’s address so I could go to schools in a safer neighborhood. I had to walk all the way home, or else sit in the bars all night with mom. Walking home alone meant I was regularly being raped by the men at the military base. My parents Never told me that they loved me. When I was 16 I started dating guys who were 21-30, because they were giving me Cocaine. The first man that ever told me he loved me, had convinced me to run away with him; but he ended up Kidnapping me for 14 Months as a Teenage and using me for Sex Trafficking. My Parents Didn’t even report me Missing. Once I was Rescued, my mother Forced me to have an Abortion, that caused me Never to be able to have any Children. I Suffered with Chronic Pain until age 42, so I decided to have a partial hysterectomy. Within 4 weeks, that surgery went terribly wrong and I almost died of major hemorrhaging, so they had to do an emergency C-section to remove my cervix. I never felt worthy of love, so I never got married. I was Stalked, Drugged, Video-taped, Humiliated, Robed and Blackmailed, losing over $30K. In 2 different Stock Market crashes I lost well over $100K. I was laid off after 12 years and I lost my 3 bedroom house. At age of 6, I started Hearing Demonic Voices in my Head, telling me that I was: Ugly, Alone, Stupid, Damaged, Unlovable, Worthless, Hated, Condemned and Completely Hopeless, so I should just Kill myself! I Suffered with Guilt, Shame, Fears, Lying, being Over Critical, Obesity, Insecurities, Loneliness, Pornography, Adultery, Unforgiveness, Self-Condemnation, Bitterness, Not Trusting God or Others, Jealousy, Isolation, Rejection, Alcoholism, Drug Addiction, an Eating Disorder, as well as Suicidal Thoughts and Attempts. I couldn’t understand Why God Kept Saving my Life. I was finally invited to a Christian Church and I instantly KNEW that they were Speaking the Truth!! I was saying The Sinner's Prayer Every single Sunday for 2 years...while I continued to party at the clubs. God knew that all I really wanted was just ‘Fire Insurance’. I didn’t believe that God could truly want a Relationship with someone like Me. I was haunted by the fact that I had Killed my own Baby! Nobody in that church had Ever said the word: "Abortion", and since it's not mentioned Anywhere in the Bible, Satan had me Convinced that it Must be the One and only Unforgivable sin! I started seeing a counselor that advised me to break up with my very rich and controlling boyfriend that visited from out of state every Th, F, S & N. He stalked me for 8 weeks before raping me. I bought a gun for my next suicide attempt, because I was sick of being abused by men. I ultimately couldn't kill myself, because I worried that even thou I said the sinner's prayer, I might still end up in Hell. The very next time I went to church, I Finally heard my Salvation message on Feb 5, 95 when I was 27 years old. 1 Tim 1:15-16 says: For here is a trustworthy saying that deserves Full Acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save Sinners-of whom I am the worst. But for that very reason I was shown Mercy so that in Me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might Display his Unlimited Patience as an example for those who would believe in him and receive eternal Life! Once I Understood that God could completely transform Saul who was the Worst of sinners; he had killed Countless Christian, yet he was specially Chosen by God, and he wrote most of our New Testament Bible. The pastor explained that even if you have had an abortion, God would forgive you! I finally felt Loved and Purified for the First time in my entire life. Mark 2:17 Jesus himself said: I have Not come to call the Righteous, but Sinners. I spent several years going through various Recovery programs and seeing different Counselors, but I was still struggling with Suicidal thoughts for another 22 years! Shortly after I turned 50...July 2018, I found a church that offers an intense DELIVERANCE Ministry. I started attending River of Life Fellowship Church lead by Pastor Scott and Sandy Boyd's in Garland, TX. (They just wrote the book: Transformed, in 2018 about her testimony in Witchcraft and how to fight Spiritual Warfare). After they took me through the deliverance, and I finally accepted the full power of the Holy Spirit, God was faithful and He broke off every single Demonic Spirit and Generational Curses that was causing me to constantly Backslide. Since 1995 I had always thought that I would have gone to heaven when I died, but bec so many Christian Churches taught against the Holy Spirit in the Book of Acts, I was actually committing the One and Only unforgivable sin. Mark 3:28-30: "Truly I tell you, all sins and blasphemes will be forgiven for the sons of men. But whoever blasphemes against the Holy Spirit will NEVER be forgiven, but is guilty of an eternal sin! God would have told me "I never Knew You. Away from me, you evildoers!" (Matt. 7:21-23). Even though I never missing a Sunday, I tithed, I volunteered in Pregnancy centers to Mentor young girls for 6 years. I did prison Ministries for 14 years to help both Men and Women Know that their past doesn't define them, I gave to the homeless, I disciplining young believers, I sang in the choir, I went on mission trips around the world, I evangelize on the streets, etc. It's not about me, myself and "I"! It's All about God, Jesus and the HOLY SPIRIT! God and Jesus are in Heaven. It's the Holy Spirit who is here for us, but if we don't allow him FULL Power, then we are rejecting God’s Holy Trinity! I can finally See myself through God’s eyes, and I no longer have to keep reminding myself! Scripture says that I am: Holy, Radiant, Accepted, Cherished, Pure, Clean, Free, Beautiful, Redeemed, Protected and Loved by my Heavenly Father! I am the Bride if Christ! The HOLY SPIRIT has Healed my Mind, Body, Soul and Spirit. I have finally been able to Forgive Everyone, and God has since used My Story to bring others into a TRUE Relationship with Him. No more Religious Spirits. No more listening to watered down teachings. No more living with one foot in the world and one foot in the church. No more worrying about measuring up, but all about living for Jesus and warning people to Fully Surrender their Life in these Last Days! Your Past Does NOT Define you...it's only our life lived for Jesus Christ that defines us! You CAN NOT do that without the Power of the Holy Spirit. Even though I've been in church my whole life 51 years, I actually didn't start having an Intimate Relationship with God until I received the power of the Holy Spirit during my Deliverance just last year: Aug 2017! Now I die daily to my flesh and live solely for God, and no longer working out of Religious Works! AMEN Praise God that He can use Anyone's past to encourage others to Believe in Him! So regardless of anything that You have Ever done or what others have done to you, Know that God has Seen it All, and yet He LOVES You and want a RELATIONSHIP with you. Everybody has Sinned, Separating us from a Holy and Righteous God who will Judge it all. But there is "GOOD NEWS" Jesus was Willing to Die on a Cross, so to Save You from Hell. He took your place as a perfect Sinless Sacrifice that God Required. You should watch the movie "Passion of the Christ". I watch it every Easter. We are clearly living in the End Times, as was Prophesied thousands of years ago: Catastrophic weather, Wars, Christian persecution, Perversion, major Rebellion, New World Order, a Cashless Society, you name it. The world is going crazy, because they have taken God out of everything: the Home, the Schools, and even Most of the Churches! God knows the Full Potential of who He Created you to be. It's never too late to start a relationship with the Triune God! He is Ready to radically Transform your life, so that you too can Finally Live a life Free from your Past and Start Living Solely for Him; so that You can Have the Full Assurance of Eternity in Heaven! Our problem is that, God cannot accept sinful people into His Heaven. We've all broken several of the 10 Commandments. We've All told a lie, stolen something. Committed Adultery simply by looking at someone with Lust. We've all disobeyed our Parents. Even if we've ever Hated someone, in God's sight that is Murder. Everything we've ever Done or even Thought will condemn us to an Eternity in Hell if we don't live for our Lord and Savior. God knew we were going to sin, so because of His love, he provided us with the Good News of the Gospel, that says: Anyone who believes that the Only way to get to Heaven when they DIE, is to Believe that Jesus had to take our punishment by Dying on the Cross for us. If anyone rejects that Jesus had to die for them, or they later fall away from their faith, that too is denying Jesus as their Savior. They will all have to endure God's terrible wrath that is to come upon the world. Know that it's not a prayer that saves you. God doesn't want Religion. He wants a Relationship, fully surrendered to the HOLY SPIRIT through the Baptism of fire, so to live a life Sold Out for Jesus Christ. God knows our heart and our motives.
Long story, but I’ve read all of it. The things you’ve been through were terrifying to say the least. God bless you and all others who are brave enough to share these stories.
What an indiscribable great testamoney, that has been my way of life for a while. I love reading this inspiring message. Thank you for sharing. Much blessings & love to you , my sister! !!!
The Lord God Bless you! You are a brave disciple of God and the bravery comes in giving your testimony! May you continue to walk with Our Father. 🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿
Same sex attracted people can be set free but they have to want it. Homosexuality is not a medical or scientific term. It is a term created by the gay community to try and make the lifestyle appear valid.
Why should a gay orientation be the dividing line whether or not her husband committed a wrong?? As an adult, he had sex acts with a minor -- THAT is the criminal act!!
Indeed it is... Most Christian men I have met in church surroundings are cold, aloof and judgemental towatds women, no kindness and warmth at all. However, men like David Kyle Foster who have been in that sinful lifestyle and were genuinely saved, often are so full of love and compassion... I would rather marry such an ex gay. There are many kinds of sexual brokenness, either lustful sins or cold pharisaical religion, and many men fall onto the latter side of the spectrum..
This lady's testimony has really touched some sore points in my life and brought to the fore some issues I'm struggling with, although in an entirely different area of my life.
You can't accept both. God hates sin. Love the sinner, for Jesus came for sinners. But hate the sin, for the sinner should repent. We're ALL sinners, but God still loves us soo much that He gave His only son, Jesus, to die for our sins on the cross; and to give us eternal life for EVERYONE who believes in Him. John3:16-21. Jesus is alive, risen from the dead in the power of the Lord. God loves you soo much with unconditional love, you can't even began to comprehend.💝
You know I listen to these testimonies and wonder how easily 'willful sin' and 'the lust of the flesh' is renamed 'struggling with same sex attraction'. If I, at age 47 am lusting after a 22 year old woman in the church, and then I want to act on that, I know that I am about to hurt many people, including my spouse, and even the whole church, if I do. There is no excuse, even to think about these things in my heart, let alone act on them. Jesus is quite clear about this that even lusting in the heart is sin against Him. Jesus also said that 'if I cause one of the least of these to sin, it would be better for me to tie a milestone around my neck...' - you know the rest. He died because he followed the lust of the flesh', and did not fear the Lord. If you think otherwise then why does it say in the Word that only the Marriage bed is sanctified? And why is he called 'gay' - the Lord never made people gay. It's so crazy to see people taking the Lord so lightly. When king David took Bathsheba, the Lord said that he despised Him, by not coming to the Lord for his needs.
'The arm of flesh will fail you, ye dare not trust your own'; it is only by trusting in the Lord and walking in the Spirit that we will not fulfill the lust of the flesh, and it is a daily battle. 'He that shall endure to the end shall be saved'; may God grant more grace.
For ten years I have been separated from my only son. Who has chosen to live a gay lifestyle. I love him and I love his partner. But he has chosen to not talk to me and has no contact with me for going on almost ten year's. He knows that God is first in my life. It breaks my heart and God loves them more than me. And this stem from me not excepting the lifestyle. Why does it have to be like that?
Fast and pray for him as often as you are able. Don't give up. I have a son who won't talk to me for a similar reason, not the same but similar. I won't agree with things he does that are evil. There is no pain that the Lord cannot heal you from. You are literally "bearing his burden" when you pray for him as he remains in his sin. That is what we are called to do, bear one another's burdens. Hang in there. Don't give up. God doesn't give up on us till we prove to him will not choose him. That's up till the very end.
Isaiah 53:5, he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes, we are healed. For salvation, people just need to follow the way they did it in Acts? They were baptized in the water and of the spirit. Here's why! The gospel is the death, burial, and resurrection of Jesus Christ. If we are to follow him, we must do the same thing. Death= repentance, Burial = baptism, and resurrection = being filled and rising again from the dead. That's what Acts 2:38 is. We must obey the gospel, 2 Thessalonians 1:8-9, in flaming fire taking vengeance on them that know not God, and that OBEY NOT THE GOSPEL of our Lord Jesus Christ... Matthew 7:21-23, Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of Heaven; but he that DOETH THE WILL OF MY FATHER which is in Heaven. St John 3:3-5, EXCEPT a man be born of WATER AND OF THE SPIRIT, he cannot enter into the kingdom of GOD. We can't come up with our own gospel. Galatians 1:8-9, But though we, or an angel from heaven, preach any other gospel unto you than that which we have preached unto you, let him be accursed. Don't be cursed. One way for all people. Jews, Gentiles, and Samaritan. Our salvation has to match-up with the scriptures and no scriptures on the subject can be taken away. Eternity is TOOO long to be WRONG! st John 5:39, Search the scriptures; for in them ye think ye have eternal life: and they are they which testify of me. The gospels show what Christ has done on the cross for us. The book of Acts shows us the beginning of Christ's Church and how to enter the Church, obeying Acts 2:38. The letters were written to the Church to show us how to behave now that we are born again into the Church. It's better to walk alone than to walk with a crowd going in the wrong direction. Are we supposed to follow the teachings of the apostles? Acts 2:42, They continued steadfastly in the apostle's doctrines. Ephesians 2:20, We are built upon the foundation of the apostles and prophets, Jesus Christ himself being the chief cornerstone. Don't get Titus 3:5 mixed up with James 2:14-26, about WORKS. One is a WORK of your OWN RIGHTEOUSNESS OR GOOD DEEDS and the other is a WORK OF FAITH, Obedience to God's command. God told Noah to build an ark to be saved. Noah believed and responded by building the ark. Mark 16:16. If you believe in this message, help spread it in the name of Jesus Christ so people can get saved the right way. God bless you!
i don't think God wants us to help a person commit theses sins....this is not biblical.....so the person continue to be a homosexual and you justify it with deception by saying stay with it...help the person hide their sin and hurting others and spreading diseases and lies and deception.....i dont believe God told anyone one to stay in sin of sodom and Gomorrah
Pamela Spicer I agree but today churches don’t want to offend people so the go along to get along My doctor offended me when he said I had stage 4 cancer but it was true and if I didn’t treat it I would be dead same thing with sin if not treated it will lead to death
So painful! I wonder what would have happened if this man had been able to get help when he first noticed his homosexual feelings as a very young person? It seems to me that many are already completely immersed into homosexuality by the time they can find effective help. Of course, some people are going to insist on going their own way, but getting effective help at an early age could save people so much pain and wasted years.
were these men born again ?? if not, and I'm guessing not, they were still lost, the lost do many, many, many horrible things "fun" things, hurtful things. when i was lost i lived for myself... whatever i wanted to do, i did. after the Lord revealed Himself to me, i was changed in a moment, delivered from all those "fun" things. these testimonies are great but they don't divulge the area of faith these men are in.
It's horrible when the false churches and false Christians help deceive and strengthen the hand of the wicked. These poor wives suffer so much. It's a crime.
why did she want to marry a pastor? Sometimes people have wrong motives for doing things they do, marrying someone for this or that...what did God say about him? was He for that marriage? was she right to be angry with God? Did He lead her to him?
SHE Sounds like And reminds me a lot of my mom when I told her I was gay when I was leaving home. 2 weeks later she told me holding my hand that she might not always condoned what I do in this world but that I had grown in her body for 9 months and I was a part of her and she would always always love me. I live the gay life for 48 years Henderson a lot more to my story but I hadn't my mom's Blind and I had moved back home to help her when my dad died. When she was much more physically challenged and what's going into dementia I Which changing her clothes which she had soiled and I ask God why do all the age years where I lost friends and acquaintances did you save me In the moment I set it the good Lord made me understandIn my heart that he saved me because he knew she would need me in her later years. I'll be honest I am still same sex attracted but I realised that I had a horrible horrible Choice when choosing partners. Tank God I'm older now And not as F LEAS HY And that there are people who And that there are people who God Has destined to live alone single in chaste. I don't miss it because the pain Off infidelity in relationships For me when I think of Go wing Back into that Chaos and I only speak for myself I think hell no. Unun my heart it's not my place to judge because I will always always love my gay brothers and sisters. But for me When Jesus touches your heart you will never be the same. You die to oneself. It made me realise how powerful prayer is. And I want gay people to understand the theory our lot millions of people who truly love them.🤗😻🙏🙀💞
She probably should have had the marriage annulled while she was young when they first married. I understand being a woman of God, but he obviously went into the marriage fraudulently, knowing he was gay. 😒
There should be no Dilemma on answering such a question of would I attend a gay wedding? There's no difficulty answering that for it is out of the question it would never be considered in other words Over My Dead Body! And my 22 year old son knows this and as long as I'm still alive he will not go there so that I died of a stroke or heart attack because deep down inside he still has a caring love for his mother. You people just don't give these gay people any credit for having some sense of dignity and some moral decency in side them. Because if they consider that their righteous parent is grieved enough to have a stroke at such a proceedings they will not proceed with such an abomination and if you have any faith in your Holy Father in Heaven whatsoever you would take a stand to to help get that confused one from proceeding in that direction even further into a cesspool and to get that one from furthering the Wrath of the Creator upon him!!! If you don't have any sense of anger grief total broken hardness of your child having a lover and if you don't make it clear to that 19-20 rolled 21 year old that if the two of you ever do some Farce-marriage ceremony While I'm Alive I will make sure that I attend and die in front of you!!! People do die from broken hearts!!!Jacob , in his age, used this as leverage with his wicked sons. So if it's not in your heart like it IS in the Holy Father , that they've chosen such a road of Destruction, you better check yourself!! The question of whether you're going to attend your child same-sex marriage should be- OUT OF THE QUESTION!!!!!!
Eliza Pellet what does a heart attack have to do with a gay marriage? I almost had one just trying to read all of that. And you prob almost had one typing that. A simple NO! I will not go! I won’t condone this! Would make life a lot easier. You sound more concerned about a stroke from what people will say than you do about your sons salvation.
I am gay and in my life i struggled with homosexuality. As a young boy i was molested and grew up to be gay. I was molested by a neighbor and abused by my father. My father had an iron fist i told my parents i was gay when i was in my 20s.
Well as i was growing i was a struggle i started reading the and asking questions about life style. As i got older i began to cry i hate being gay. No I'm not happy i know it's a sin. I'm only human i always ask God to forgive me it's hard because i can go 10 yrs not engaging in homosexual acts, then out of no where i get a temptation feeling lord forgive me. I don't want to be gay. Forgive me
Whatever it takes to be free.... WHATEVER it takes to be free...do that. You can be free through the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Why didn't he go to prison for being a pedophile?! How could the church not pursue this further!?
Too often, churches wanted to hush-hush any such scandals... even to this day.
Look at all the other cases hardly ever do they go
For 22 years I went to a Catholic Church, but I always thought there's no way that he could ever love someone like me! I had a Violent/Alcoholic father. My mother who was Schizophrenic and she Murdered my Twin baby sisters at 5 months old. 3 of my Siblings committed Suicide through a Drug Overdose with Heroin and Alcoholism. From age 6-26 I was Sexually Abused by Countless men. I was being Molested all through my Elementary years by the men that my mother took me to. After my parent’s Divorce, we were without any Child Support and ended up Homeless for 2 years and living in a Tent. I had to Steal food or else eat out of trash cans. I had OCD and Dyslexia; I Couldn’t Read very well so I was Bullied all through High School. Because we lived in the ghettos with The Bloods and The Crips, we had to use a friend’s address so I could go to schools in a safer neighborhood. I had to walk all the way home, or else sit in the bars all night with mom. Walking home alone meant I was regularly being raped by the men at the military base. My parents Never told me that they loved me. When I was 16 I started dating guys who were 21-30, because they were giving me Cocaine. The first man that ever told me he loved me, had convinced me to run away with him; but he ended up Kidnapping me for 14 Months as a Teenage and using me for Sex Trafficking. My Parents Didn’t even report me Missing. Once I was Rescued, my mother Forced me to have an Abortion, that caused me Never to be able to have any Children. I Suffered with Chronic Pain until age 42, so I decided to have a partial hysterectomy. Within 4 weeks, that surgery went terribly wrong and I almost died of major hemorrhaging, so they had to do an emergency C-section to remove my cervix. I never felt worthy of love, so I never got married. I was Stalked, Drugged, Video-taped, Humiliated, Robed and Blackmailed, losing over $30K. In 2 different Stock Market crashes I lost well over $100K. I was laid off after 12 years and I lost my 3 bedroom house.
At age of 6, I started Hearing Demonic Voices in my Head, telling me that I was: Ugly, Alone, Stupid, Damaged, Unlovable, Worthless, Hated, Condemned and Completely Hopeless, so I should just Kill myself! I Suffered with Guilt, Shame, Fears, Lying, being Over Critical, Obesity, Insecurities, Loneliness, Pornography, Adultery, Unforgiveness, Self-Condemnation, Bitterness, Not Trusting God or Others, Jealousy, Isolation, Rejection, Alcoholism, Drug Addiction, an Eating Disorder, as well as Suicidal Thoughts and Attempts. I couldn’t understand Why God Kept Saving my Life. I was finally invited to a Christian Church and I instantly KNEW that they were Speaking the Truth!! I was saying The Sinner's Prayer Every single Sunday for 2 years...while I continued to party at the clubs. God knew that all I really wanted was just ‘Fire Insurance’.
I didn’t believe that God could truly want a Relationship with someone like Me. I was haunted by the fact that I had Killed my own Baby! Nobody in that church had Ever said the word: "Abortion", and since it's not mentioned Anywhere in the Bible, Satan had me Convinced that it Must be the One and only Unforgivable sin! I started seeing a counselor that advised me to break up with my very rich and controlling boyfriend that visited from out of state every Th, F, S & N. He stalked me for 8 weeks before raping me. I bought a gun for my next suicide attempt, because I was sick of being abused by men. I ultimately couldn't kill myself, because I worried that even thou I said the sinner's prayer, I might still end up in Hell. The very next time I went to church, I Finally heard my Salvation message on Feb 5, 95 when I was 27 years old.
1 Tim 1:15-16 says: For here is a trustworthy saying that deserves Full Acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save Sinners-of whom I am the worst. But for that very reason I was shown Mercy so that in Me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might Display his Unlimited Patience as an example for those who would believe in him and receive eternal Life! Once I Understood that God could completely transform Saul who was the Worst of sinners; he had killed Countless Christian, yet he was specially Chosen by God, and he wrote most of our New Testament Bible. The pastor explained that even if you have had an abortion, God would forgive you! I finally felt Loved and Purified for the First time in my entire life. Mark 2:17 Jesus himself said: I have Not come to call the Righteous, but Sinners.
I spent several years going through various Recovery programs and seeing different Counselors, but I was still struggling with Suicidal thoughts for another 22 years! Shortly after I turned 50...July 2018, I found a church that offers an intense DELIVERANCE Ministry. I started attending River of Life Fellowship Church lead by Pastor Scott and Sandy Boyd's in Garland, TX. (They just wrote the book: Transformed, in 2018 about her testimony in Witchcraft and how to fight Spiritual Warfare). After they took me through the deliverance, and I finally accepted the full power of the Holy Spirit, God was faithful and He broke off every single Demonic Spirit and Generational Curses that was causing me to constantly Backslide. Since 1995 I had always thought that I would have gone to heaven when I died, but bec so many Christian Churches taught against the Holy Spirit in the Book of Acts, I was actually committing the One and Only unforgivable sin. Mark 3:28-30: "Truly I tell you, all sins and blasphemes will be forgiven for the sons of men. But whoever blasphemes against the Holy Spirit will NEVER be forgiven, but is guilty of an eternal sin! God would have told me "I never Knew You. Away from me, you evildoers!" (Matt. 7:21-23). Even though I never missing a Sunday, I tithed, I volunteered in Pregnancy centers to Mentor young girls for 6 years. I did prison Ministries for 14 years to help both Men and Women Know that their past doesn't define them, I gave to the homeless, I disciplining young believers, I sang in the choir, I went on mission trips around the world, I evangelize on the streets, etc. It's not about me, myself and "I"! It's All about God, Jesus and the HOLY SPIRIT! God and Jesus are in Heaven. It's the Holy Spirit who is here for us, but if we don't allow him FULL Power, then we are rejecting God’s Holy Trinity!
I can finally See myself through God’s eyes, and I no longer have to keep reminding myself! Scripture says that I am: Holy, Radiant, Accepted, Cherished, Pure, Clean, Free, Beautiful, Redeemed, Protected and Loved by my Heavenly Father! I am the Bride if Christ! The HOLY SPIRIT has Healed my Mind, Body, Soul and Spirit. I have finally been able to Forgive Everyone, and God has since used My Story to bring others into a TRUE Relationship with Him.
No more Religious Spirits. No more listening to watered down teachings. No more living with one foot in the world and one foot in the church. No more worrying about measuring up, but all about living for Jesus and warning people to Fully Surrender their Life in these Last Days! Your Past Does NOT Define you...it's only our life lived for Jesus Christ that defines us! You CAN NOT do that without the Power of the Holy Spirit.
Even though I've been in church my whole life 51 years, I actually didn't start having an Intimate Relationship with God until I received the power of the Holy Spirit during my Deliverance just last year: Aug 2017! Now I die daily to my flesh and live solely for God, and no longer working out of Religious Works! AMEN
Praise God that He can use Anyone's past to encourage others to Believe in Him! So regardless of anything that You have Ever done or what others have done to you, Know that God has Seen it All, and yet He LOVES You and want a RELATIONSHIP with you. Everybody has Sinned, Separating us from a Holy and Righteous God who will Judge it all. But there is "GOOD NEWS" Jesus was Willing to Die on a Cross, so to Save You from Hell. He took your place as a perfect Sinless Sacrifice that God Required. You should watch the movie "Passion of the Christ". I watch it every Easter.
We are clearly living in the End Times, as was Prophesied thousands of years ago: Catastrophic weather, Wars, Christian persecution, Perversion, major Rebellion, New World Order, a Cashless Society, you name it. The world is going crazy, because they have taken God out of everything: the Home, the Schools, and even Most of the Churches!
God knows the Full Potential of who He Created you to be. It's never too late to start a relationship with the Triune God! He is Ready to radically Transform your life, so that you too can Finally Live a life Free from your Past and Start Living Solely for Him; so that You can Have the Full Assurance of Eternity in Heaven! Our problem is that, God cannot accept sinful people into His Heaven. We've all broken several of the 10 Commandments. We've All told a lie, stolen something. Committed Adultery simply by looking at someone with Lust. We've all disobeyed our Parents. Even if we've ever Hated someone, in God's sight that is Murder. Everything we've ever Done or even Thought will condemn us to an Eternity in Hell if we don't live for our Lord and Savior. God knew we were going to sin, so because of His love, he provided us with the Good News of the Gospel, that says: Anyone who believes that the Only way to get to Heaven when they DIE, is to Believe that Jesus had to take our punishment by Dying on the Cross for us. If anyone rejects that Jesus had to die for them, or they later fall away from their faith, that too is denying Jesus as their Savior. They will all have to endure God's terrible wrath that is to come upon the world.
Know that it's not a prayer that saves you. God doesn't want Religion. He wants a Relationship, fully surrendered to the HOLY SPIRIT through the Baptism of fire, so to live a life Sold Out for Jesus Christ. God knows our heart and our motives.
So sorry to hear Jillian
Powerful testimony...continue to stay in Christ
Long story, but I’ve read all of it. The things you’ve been through were terrifying to say the least. God bless you and all others who are brave enough to share these stories.
What an indiscribable great testamoney, that has been my way of life for a while. I love reading this inspiring message. Thank you for sharing. Much blessings & love to you , my sister! !!!
The Lord God Bless you! You are a brave disciple of God and the bravery comes in giving your testimony! May you continue to walk with Our Father. 🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿
A great testimony and ministry by a woman God has brought through a tough test in life.
Same sex attracted people can be set free but they have to want it.
Homosexuality is not a medical or scientific term. It is a term created by the gay community to try and make the lifestyle appear valid.
Why should a gay orientation be the dividing line whether or not her husband committed a wrong?? As an adult, he had sex acts with a minor -- THAT is the criminal act!!
The fact that she still calls him her husband. Wow! God bless her heart.
Why did they allow the pedophile to continue to be around kids?
Blinded by the fact they didn't want to deal with it. Selfish, I know.
Stories like these are so sad!!! I feel like it is so hard for women to meet good men nowadays!!!
Indeed it is... Most Christian men I have met in church surroundings are cold, aloof and judgemental towatds women, no kindness and warmth at all. However, men like David Kyle Foster who have been in that sinful lifestyle and were genuinely saved, often are so full of love and compassion... I would rather marry such an ex gay. There are many kinds of sexual brokenness, either lustful sins or cold pharisaical religion, and many men fall onto the latter side of the spectrum..
@@NarnianLady : U don't need to find an ex-gay . Pray and envision urself with a man of God who loves his wife like Christ loves the church.
I agree so much with you.Its hard to believe and trust these days.sad.
That’s not the point of the story .
I appreciate and respect this lady; imperfect, but accepting that and learning humility and increased understanding.
Oh dear! I thank God that He allowed me to come back to Him and deliver me homosexuality. I was very close to aids but God healed me.
This lady's testimony has really touched some sore points in my life and brought to the fore some issues I'm struggling with, although in an entirely different area of my life.
You can't accept both. God hates sin. Love the sinner, for Jesus came for sinners. But hate the sin, for the sinner should repent. We're ALL sinners, but God still loves us soo much that He gave His only son, Jesus, to die for our sins on the cross; and to give us eternal life for EVERYONE who believes in Him. John3:16-21. Jesus is alive, risen from the dead in the power of the Lord. God loves you soo much with unconditional love, you can't even began to comprehend.💝
You know I listen to these testimonies and wonder how easily 'willful sin' and 'the lust of the flesh' is renamed 'struggling with same sex attraction'. If I, at age 47 am lusting after a 22 year old woman in the church, and then I want to act on that, I know that I am about to hurt many people, including my spouse, and even the whole church, if I do. There is no excuse, even to think about these things in my heart, let alone act on them. Jesus is quite clear about this that even lusting in the heart is sin against Him. Jesus also said that 'if I cause one of the least of these to sin, it would be better for me to tie a milestone around my neck...' - you know the rest. He died because he followed the lust of the flesh', and did not fear the Lord. If you think otherwise then why does it say in the Word that only the Marriage bed is sanctified? And why is he called 'gay' - the Lord never made people gay. It's so crazy to see people taking the Lord so lightly. When king David took Bathsheba, the Lord said that he despised Him, by not coming to the Lord for his needs.
'The arm of flesh will fail you, ye dare not trust your own'; it is only by trusting in the Lord and walking in the Spirit that we will not fulfill the lust of the flesh, and it is a daily battle. 'He that shall endure to the end shall be saved'; may God grant more grace.
If his sin had been decisively dealt with when first exposed in the church, things may have been very different. So very sad
Omg. Thank you for this. This could have been my life, but I was completely nieve and did not realize
I was deeply touched by this message.
For ten years I have been separated from my only son. Who has chosen to live a gay lifestyle. I love him and I love his partner. But he has chosen to not talk to me and has no contact with me for going on almost ten year's. He knows that God is first in my life. It breaks my heart and God loves them more than me. And this stem from me not excepting the lifestyle. Why does it have to be like that?
Dont give up praying, sister
Fast and pray for him as often as you are able. Don't give up. I have a son who won't talk to me for a similar reason, not the same but similar. I won't agree with things he does that are evil. There is no pain that the Lord cannot heal you from. You are literally "bearing his burden" when you pray for him as he remains in his sin. That is what we are called to do, bear one another's burdens. Hang in there. Don't give up. God doesn't give up on us till we prove to him will not choose him. That's up till the very end.
Isaiah 53:5, he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes, we are healed. For salvation, people just need to follow the way they did it in Acts? They were baptized in the water and of the spirit. Here's why! The gospel is the death, burial, and resurrection of Jesus Christ. If we are to follow him, we must do the same thing. Death= repentance, Burial = baptism, and resurrection = being filled and rising again from the dead. That's what Acts 2:38 is. We must obey the gospel, 2 Thessalonians 1:8-9, in flaming fire taking vengeance on them that know not God, and that OBEY NOT THE GOSPEL of our Lord Jesus Christ... Matthew 7:21-23, Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of Heaven; but he that DOETH THE WILL OF MY FATHER which is in Heaven. St John 3:3-5, EXCEPT a man be born of WATER AND OF THE SPIRIT, he cannot enter into the kingdom of GOD. We can't come up with our own gospel. Galatians 1:8-9, But though we, or an angel from heaven, preach any other gospel unto you than that which we have preached unto you, let him be accursed. Don't be cursed. One way for all people. Jews, Gentiles, and Samaritan. Our salvation has to match-up with the scriptures and no scriptures on the subject can be taken away. Eternity is TOOO long to be WRONG! st John 5:39, Search the scriptures; for in them ye think ye have eternal life: and they are they which testify of me. The gospels show what Christ has done on the cross for us. The book of Acts shows us the beginning of Christ's Church and how to enter the Church, obeying Acts 2:38. The letters were written to the Church to show us how to behave now that we are born again into the Church. It's better to walk alone than to walk with a crowd going in the wrong direction. Are we supposed to follow the teachings of the apostles? Acts 2:42, They continued steadfastly in the apostle's doctrines. Ephesians 2:20, We are built upon the foundation of the apostles and prophets, Jesus Christ himself being the chief cornerstone. Don't get Titus 3:5 mixed up with James 2:14-26, about WORKS. One is a WORK of your OWN RIGHTEOUSNESS OR GOOD DEEDS and the other is a WORK OF FAITH, Obedience to God's command. God told Noah to build an ark to be saved. Noah believed and responded by building the ark. Mark 16:16. If you believe in this message, help spread it in the name of Jesus Christ so people can get saved the right way. God bless you!
The light of God really shines through this women.🔥
THIS WAS SO POWERFUL!!!! I LOVE THIS CHANNEL!!!! omgoodness what testimonies!
i don't think God wants us to help a person commit theses sins....this is not biblical.....so the person continue to be a homosexual and you justify it with deception by saying stay with it...help the person hide their sin and hurting others and spreading diseases and lies and deception.....i dont believe God told anyone one to stay in sin of sodom and Gomorrah
sounds like a snake and if yiu keep playing with snakes they will bit you.....😂😀😊🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
Pamela Spicer I agree but today churches don’t want to offend people so the go along to get along My doctor offended me when he said I had stage 4 cancer but it was true and if I didn’t treat it I would be dead same thing with sin if not treated it will lead to death
Pamela Spicer...I agree
The devil has many disguises among the living.
Spoken beautifully. She's right on the money! The Lord has blessed her and her ministry though this hardship.
so glad she can identify with others and encourage couples to stay together and seek the Lord together.
Karen Lamb I’m sorry gotta disagree with you on this.... he died of aids... but for Gods protection she could have / would have been infected also.
So painful! I wonder what would have happened if this man had been able to get help when he first noticed his homosexual feelings as a very young person? It seems to me that many are already completely immersed into homosexuality by the time they can find effective help. Of course, some people are going to insist on going their own way, but getting effective help at an early age could save people so much pain and wasted years.
Very Powerful. I am Blessed hearing This. Jesus Christ Is Lord
I am so grateful for the testimony of this precious woman of God. Praying for her. Thanksgiving and Glory to Him.
were these men born again ?? if not, and I'm guessing not, they were still lost, the lost do many, many, many horrible things "fun" things, hurtful things. when i was lost i lived for myself... whatever i wanted to do, i did. after the Lord revealed Himself to me, i was changed in a moment, delivered from all those "fun" things. these testimonies are great but they don't divulge the area of faith these men are in.
It's horrible when the false churches and false Christians help deceive and strengthen the hand of the wicked. These poor wives suffer so much. It's a crime.
why did she want to marry a pastor? Sometimes people have wrong motives for doing things they do, marrying someone for this or that...what did God say about him? was He for that marriage? was she right to be angry with God? Did He lead her to him?
And people have to remember that satan was the most beautiful angel in heaven and that's how He gets his talents into people through seduction.
Keep up the great work.
SHE Sounds like And reminds me a lot of my mom when I told her I was gay when I was leaving home. 2 weeks later she told me holding my hand that she might not always condoned what I do in this world but that I had grown in her body for 9 months and I was a part of her and she would always always love me. I live the gay life for 48 years Henderson a lot more to my story but I hadn't my mom's Blind and I had moved back home to help her when my dad died. When she was much more physically challenged and what's going into dementia I Which changing her clothes which she had soiled and I ask God why do all the age years where I lost friends and acquaintances did you save me In the moment I set it the good Lord made me understandIn my heart that he saved me because he knew she would need me in her later years. I'll be honest I am still same sex attracted but I realised that I had a horrible horrible Choice when choosing partners. Tank God I'm older now And not as F LEAS HY And that there are people who And that there are people who God Has destined to live alone single in chaste. I don't miss it because the pain Off infidelity in relationships For me when I think of Go wing Back into that Chaos and I only speak for myself I think hell no. Unun my heart it's not my place to judge because I will always always love my gay brothers and sisters. But for me When Jesus touches your heart you will never be the same. You die to oneself. It made me realise how powerful prayer is. And I want gay people to understand the theory our lot millions of people who truly love them.🤗😻🙏🙀💞
She probably should have had the marriage annulled while she was young when they first married. I understand being a woman of God, but he obviously went into the marriage fraudulently, knowing he was gay. 😒
Codycole80 it's not that easy, trust me. Most times these men are like a dream come true.
You missed the point what she could have, should have & would do is gone she is now dealing with living faithfully to God & helping others
What a lovely smile
There should be no Dilemma on answering such a question of would I attend a gay wedding? There's no difficulty answering that for it is out of the question it would never be considered in other words Over My Dead Body! And my 22 year old son knows this and as long as I'm still alive he will not go there so that I died of a stroke or heart attack because deep down inside he still has a caring love for his mother. You people just don't give these gay people any credit for having some sense of dignity and some moral decency in side them. Because if they consider that their righteous parent is grieved enough to have a stroke at such a proceedings they will not proceed with such an abomination and if you have any faith in your Holy Father in Heaven whatsoever you would take a stand to to help get that confused one from proceeding in that direction even further into a cesspool and to get that one from furthering the Wrath of the Creator upon him!!! If you don't have any sense of anger grief total broken hardness of your child having a lover and if you don't make it clear to that 19-20 rolled 21 year old that if the two of you ever do some Farce-marriage ceremony While I'm Alive I will make sure that I attend and die in front of you!!! People do die from broken hearts!!!Jacob , in his age, used this as leverage with his wicked sons.
So if it's not in your heart like it IS in the Holy Father , that they've chosen such a road of Destruction, you better check yourself!! The question of whether you're going to attend your child same-sex marriage should be- OUT OF THE QUESTION!!!!!!
No real Christian would ever attend a homosexual fake marriage.
Eliza Pellet what does a heart attack have to do with a gay marriage? I almost had one just trying to read all of that. And you prob almost had one typing that. A simple NO! I will not go! I won’t condone this! Would make life a lot easier. You sound more concerned about a stroke from what people will say than you do about your sons salvation.
How sad poor lady.
God doesn't make junk.