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Christalisdetermined
Добавлен 20 июл 2009
OCD Vlog Update!
"Our doubts are traitors, and make us lose the good we oft might win, by fearing to attempt."
- Shakespeare, from Measure for Measure
Hello, Hello! :)
Nice to see you all again! My thoughts are a little scattered (as usual, lol) but since I had some time, I figured I'd FINALLY update ya'll on my whereabouts! Never believe that you are incapable of becoming and doing more than what you currently think!
- Shakespeare, from Measure for Measure
Hello, Hello! :)
Nice to see you all again! My thoughts are a little scattered (as usual, lol) but since I had some time, I figured I'd FINALLY update ya'll on my whereabouts! Never believe that you are incapable of becoming and doing more than what you currently think!
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I won something :)
Просмотров 48914 лет назад
Hello everyone! Sorry this isnt much of an *update* on my life/ current battles and this video is totally unedited...but it was something that, for me, was very exciting and wanted to share with you all. I was very proud of myself for gathering up the courage to enter the contest and after all the stress and, of course, anxiety/ intrusive thoughts, i actually won! I was asked by the contest hol...
OCD Vlog 8
Просмотров 83814 лет назад
"Instead of giving myself reasons why I can't, I give myself reasons why I can." ~ Unknown Hey everyone! This video is actually kinda late being posted, its from almost 2 weeks ago! I had to do some heavy editing because i said "like" WAYYYY too much! haha, i guess i was having a lot of brain farts/ forgetfulness :) Thank you for watching and for your nice comments and messages, we're in it tog...
OCD Vlog 7
Просмотров 1,8 тыс.14 лет назад
Im Back! Thank you to all of you who have continued to not only subscribe, but support me and even open up to me about your own struggles and journeys with OCD and anxiety-related disorders! i really appreciate all of you! :) Online support group/ OCD community: www.ocdtribe.com
My love- his name is Guapo :)
Просмотров 21014 лет назад
This is my son Guapo (which means handsome in spanish) He is a BEAUTIFUL rescue dog! He walked up to my uncle one day outside, he was roaming the neighborhood homeless :( ...we searched and searched for his owner and no one claimed him, but i was MORE than happy to keep him! He is such a happy soul and brings much light into my life. He might not know it, but he means the world to me and I love...
Update! and OCD Vlog 6 intro!
Просмотров 72414 лет назад
Thank you everyone for your continued support!!! I didn't edit this video so hopefully you don't find the pauses and whatnot too boring :) Im working on my OCD Vlog 6 right now, so it should be up soon :) Thanks for your kind patience, i really appreciate all of your friendships!
OCD Recovery Vlog 5
Просмотров 1,9 тыс.14 лет назад
I know this video is still a bit long but heres some talking points of the things i discuss :) -current battles & exposures of walking/ being alone -a small look into one of my traumas with being kidnapped -frustrations/ distorted thinking and intrusive thoughts if you have any requests or questions, let me know, i'm an open book! p.s. i saw janeyfromkorea post this quote and i fell in love wit...
Venice Beach Drum Circle
Просмотров 37214 лет назад
This is one of the many reasons why i love Venice Beach- a drum circle that anyone could join in on. its a beautiful thing to see people of all kinds of backgrounds just come together and move to the beat of the drum. One of those simple moments in life that you just cant take for granted :)
Skateboarding Doggie!
Просмотров 17114 лет назад
Cute dog skateboarding at the 3rd street promenade in santa monica, this was recorded a whileeeee ago, before my OCD hit hard, something to remind me of the good times and to keep me motivated to the future :) hope you like!
OCD Vlog 4
Просмотров 1,2 тыс.14 лет назад
This video is long overdue! I made this two weeks ago i think, but i began avoiding it because I was overly worried with it not being "perfect"....so today i finally told the OCD "no!" and was able to post it...so without you all even knowing it, these videos are great exposures for me in regards to my fears of being judged, perfectionism (with doing the editing), and being more social....a var...
getting my piercing
Просмотров 1,5 тыс.15 лет назад
AHHH sorry about the quality of the video, it some how messed up when i uploaded it! my friend took this video on New Year's day, Jan 1st when i went to get my lip pierced...nothing special, but a great memory...which reminds me, i should upload my video of my bf eating this gross ice cream concoction... lol
Grandma's Interpretation of the Turtle and the Shoe
Просмотров 29615 лет назад
LOL i love my grandma..she had a piece of a bread roll and said it looked like that turtles head and this is what she said about it :D in case you dont speak spanish, i asked her "so what noise is it that the turtle makes?" and she said PEEP! hahahaha...that beautiful woman is too precious for words.....
OCD Vlog 3
Просмотров 2,3 тыс.15 лет назад
Hey everyone...so im REALLY late on posting this video, it was done about a week and a half ago i think...i ended up talking for almost 40 minutes and had to edit it down to under the 10 minute limit!...im still getting to know iMovie, so please forgive me if my editing skills are crappy lol..... Im trying to stay on top of these videos, I just get so worried about whether or not im making sens...
OCD Vlog- Treatment Day 2
Просмотров 3,6 тыс.15 лет назад
Just an update on the past two days and how theyve been. I began Exposure Therapy today and so far....im anxious...but motivated to get better. OCD is one step further away from controlling me :)
Introduction/ First Vlog
Просмотров 2,3 тыс.15 лет назад
Hello RUclips World! This is just my intro video...kinda of explaining why Im doing this and a little bit about my OCD...I hope you stick around to see how my experience goes and hope that I can be of support to you in your journey, just as much as I hope you can be support to mine....Thank you for watching...and please, be nice. :) P.S. Sorry if im babbling, or take random pauses...I was very ...
thanks for uploading...
beautiful ,he is a Guapo
awwww haha!
Ok , stop apologizing about blinking and other stuff , you`re great , being someone who had OCD and I have beaten it , I say if OCD is the worst thing in the world , then the feeling you get when you beat it and get rid of it is the best feeling in the world , one should be looking for that
Very Helpful , I hope you find relief as fast as possible , I had OCD 10 years ago , I got rid of it and know one of my relatives is having problems with it , I hope this video might be helpful for him , thanks alot
I've found that squeezing silly putty really helps relieve stress and is therapeutic for dermatillomania! :)
Im honestly so inspired by you for facing your fears head on and vlogging about it! I really want to make some more videos talking openly about my OCD but my OCD itself is preventing it, Im afraid if I talk about my worries or fears they might come true, I think I'll try my best to make some videos soon and hope it will be ok lol Im sure it will
Im soooooo ocd so I just smoke a bunch of weed all day long, im baked right now people always tell me I look burnt
I need other people with pcs to talk to!
ya i have a million fears of being judged and when someone does, i go into a "mental shock" and my ocd, and panic attacks get worse and worse and worse!
thanks for speaking on that, your so pretty btw~ :)
This video gives me hope that some day I'll get better so that I won't be afraid of applying for jobs for fear of making a fool of myself. Maybe I'll even finish college some day when my OCD gets better.
Good to see you in good form. Keep getting better.
That's great! :)
Congrats on straight A´s.... And good to see you taking up school again, me and my girl made a big thing on July 31... We got Married =] So now we are Mr and Mrs Lundqvist, thats my update to you =] Good to see that you and your Love of your life is holding strong, and maybe you will take the leap in the future? Hope your doing fine and that you had a great Christmas, and from me and my wife i hope you will have a Happy New Year...
congrats darlin! So nice to see you update <3
Im so proud if you!!! You have accomplished soooo much!!! P.s....I loooove your lipstick :))
I pray you will be blessed with the strength to be sustained through the rough times and truly learn how to enjoy the good times when they come. Byee, Sonya
I think your skin looks alright.
girl, i see myself in you SO much. i have OCD too. it is really hard. i wish the best for you. it's impossible to explain it to others.. they just wonder why we can't STOP doing what we're doing..but as you know it is nottt that easy. GOOD LUCK with everything and never give up!!!!! never never never give up!<3
YAYYYYY Congratzzzz....Hiyeeee Gorgeous ive missed yah:)You look amazing!!!<3
Hi, my name is Kelly I also have OCD and have the same obsessive rituals that you have I do not get out of the house much either. I would like to be able to have a friend like you so we could help each other overcome this. I hope you have a good weekend, If you would like to email me it is kellysfabgems@yahoo.com Have a good weekend:)
did it hurt ? ><
Congrats!
Thanks for sharing.u look well:) stay blessed. xxx
You have a lot of courage to talk about the things that have happened to you. I have gone through a lot of traumatic experiences as well and I have a lot of trouble talking about them like that, mostly because I have trust issues with people. I feel like if I open up too much, people will turn on me and use the information against me in some way. It just makes me feel vulnerable but I know it is a fear I need to overcome.
I have a tendency to pick my lips, similar to your skin picking habit. My lips get chapped often so I tend to pick and peel the skin off to the point where they start to bleed.
Hey Christal it's good to see you back!
Your skin is way better than mine. I never want to go out in public for the same reason... I always look/feel like a joke. Thought I had BDD for a while but I don't know. It's not about looking good, it's about not looking bad. I like when it's raining. That's motivating to me.
check out my OCD Vlog..... these videos we do are good for us 5 stars
amigaaa.... im so proud of you.. and heyyy.. we have the same shirt!! hehe.. i wonder why? lol!
Hey christal thanks for your Kind message. Looking forward to more videos from you.
amigaa!!!! om soo proud of you and how far youve come along..... hanging out with you pretty much all day friday seems to me like youre as normal as they come .... hang in there!! youre doing soooo good..... after the way you explained OCD to me friday..... i just wanted to do some research on it.. and here i am... i stumbled across your journal... love you tons!!! and im behind you 100% across the miles! :o)
Oh one more thing..becuase of scruplosity, I cant have my meal as I strongly feel it will offend God if I have food without praying, it effects the way I breath, and work. Eventually, I start ignoring everything and get lost in thoughts which is another disorder "de personalisation or Derealization", Sometimes I cannot sleep for more than 24 hours, that too without having meal. I have lost weight and my health beacause of this, and I am still coping up with it.
In case you could get me few tips on Scruplosity, I would be grateful. In the meantime I will try to describe my experiences in a video shortly when I fix my microphone issues with my laptop.
Hi Christal, I have OCD since childhood,and I guess the severity is a bit higher as yours. I see hope when I see your videos. Thanks. Cleaning the whole carpet or washing hands because of fear of contamination is only one of the compulsions out of many. One of the major disorder that I have, is something called as scruplosity. I keep praying to God, thinking that I have offended God in my thoughts. It may sound silly But it has effeced my Life a Lot!
Keep it up girl! You are really making progress! I really like your honesty. It takes a lot of guts to put yourself out there and you don't seem nervous either. I don't have OCD but I TOTALLY get what you mean with the 2 minds. You want to do something but your body/mind thinks different and although YOU have the choice, it doens't make it any easier. If only it wasn't so extreme as to be OCD, you'd probably be like a kick ass maid or something lol. Or like Dyson and invent new technology.
Great video! its good to see your getting on well. Keep making them videos! Wish you the best Dave
Your room is nice :) That's the first thing I noticed in your video, that you were sitting in a room with stuff in it! I remember last time you didn't have anything.
Nice to have you back on youtube, nice desk it have the same name as me (Mikael) *lol* Im sure you are gonna be the one who controls your life... It can be hard but im sure with good support your gonna make it...
i love him too now. lol He looks like either pure shihtzu, or a shihtzu lapso mix. Eitherway that is extremley rare(especially if he is a pure bred) for someone to lose him and not try to find him. You are truley blessed to have him! <3 I have had 2 shihtzu and they are incredible.
my mum washes her hands alot maybe 40 50 time a day to the extent that she bleeds where the skin cracks my advice would be to look into self-realization and embrace it Self-discipline beings with the mastery of your thoughts. If you don't control what you think, you can't control what you do. - Napoleon Hill
I watched a show on A&E called Obsessed and they did Exposure Therapy. It sounds like your boyfriend really loves you. And it sounds like he is willing to do whatever to help you and support you.
That's really cool you're going to do a therapy treatment for your OCD. I really wish I could get into something like that, but my insurance doesn't cover that. Good luck! This video was made a long time ago..I hope you are doing well right now! You did a good job sharing your story. :)
your gorgeous girl!!!
It's not easy to share such deeply personal things about your life with others.. I don't think I could do it! Thanks for sharing and I wish you the best.. :)
Just watched this vid cause of another one you made. Just wanted to say i have ocd over counting, and showering, and cleaning teeth, And i have to do things in a certain way. Please don't feel like you are the only one because i feel you.
Hey i'm 30 years old and still don't want to get help cause i'm embarrased. But one day i will. And it's because of vids like yours. Because you have the courage to talk about it. I count everything i do and it's getting me down. If i don't count and don't count the right way? Then i worry i may have made something bad happen. Sounds silly but that's what happens to me. Anyway you are beautiful and i hope one day i wil be as brave as you. Take care.
I dont really know you, but I feel your pain. I can see you getting strong and better with time. You did a great video, and keep your head up and stay focused, it will get better. I will pray for you.
This was such an cute video. My grandmother passed a few years ago, and I miss her like crazy. God Bless your grandmother, she is so adorable.