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Wayward Abode
Добавлен 15 дек 2023
Hi! I'm Birdie, and I seem to have tripped into vanlife. I'm learning how to make the best of it!
Also, mental illness. I have it! In the form of chronic depression and ADHD. I'll talk about living with mental illness partly because that's how I ended up in the van in the first place. :)
I am bowled over by you guys' request to support me. I want you to know that you watching my videos is more than I could ever ask for. You are literally changing my life. You are my rainbow. Too cheesy? Sorry. It's how I feel. ☺️
I have added links* below. But please do not feel obligated in any way! Thank you so, so, so, so much. Goodness, I wish there were better words than those.
*Please note the PayPal username is a very old one. I'm working on getting it updated. But it's mine. :)
Folks have asked for my email, so I'll list it here. But please understand I almost NEVER answer emails. It's one of my biggest brain blocks. :) WaywardBirdie@yahoo.com ❤️
Also, mental illness. I have it! In the form of chronic depression and ADHD. I'll talk about living with mental illness partly because that's how I ended up in the van in the first place. :)
I am bowled over by you guys' request to support me. I want you to know that you watching my videos is more than I could ever ask for. You are literally changing my life. You are my rainbow. Too cheesy? Sorry. It's how I feel. ☺️
I have added links* below. But please do not feel obligated in any way! Thank you so, so, so, so much. Goodness, I wish there were better words than those.
*Please note the PayPal username is a very old one. I'm working on getting it updated. But it's mine. :)
Folks have asked for my email, so I'll list it here. But please understand I almost NEVER answer emails. It's one of my biggest brain blocks. :) WaywardBirdie@yahoo.com ❤️
Видео
Mount Hood and Bend | Vanlife Vlog
Просмотров 4,7 тыс.21 час назад
We made our way to Bend by way of Mount Hood to pick up some hiking poles! Two very different places. Both lovely in their own way. :) Thank you so much for watching!! Trillium Lake camping coordinates: N 45°16.921', W 121°44.173'
Waterfalls, Wolf Dogs, and New Bangs | Vanlife Vlog
Просмотров 5 тыс.14 дней назад
We visited Bridal Veil, Wahkeena, Multnomah, and Horsetail Falls in the Columbia River Gorge, got clean clothes, and a new haircut in this one, ya'll. :) Thank you so much for watching!!
Mount Rainier | Vanlife Vlog
Просмотров 7 тыс.21 день назад
I'll never be able to thank you enough for this trip we're on.
Why I Sometimes Have a Southern Accent
Просмотров 5 тыс.28 дней назад
Just a little clarification if you're wondering why my accent sometimes sounds southern. :)
Fidalgo Island, Baby! | Vanlife Vlog
Просмотров 6 тыс.Месяц назад
Washington is just one gem after another, I tell you what!! All music is from Epidemic Sound. The song with lyrics is Va a Amanecer. Lyrics: Dime adónde vas? Y en qué piensas? (Tell me where are you going? And what do you think about?) El sol volverá y te iluminará. Las nubes se irán y todo cambiará. (The sun will return and it will illuminate you. The clouds will go away and everything will ch...
Q&A From What It's Like To Live When You Don't Want To Video
Просмотров 9 тыс.Месяц назад
Hi, my friends. Here's the Q&A video I promised at the end of the last video I made about mental illness. Please know that I can't speak for everyone and not everything I say will apply to everyone with mental illness. But I'm hoping that I can help folks better understand, at least a little bit, what it's like to live with chronic major depression. Thank you so much for taking the time to watc...
A Beautifully Stormy Week on Whidbey Island | Van Life Vlog
Просмотров 12 тыс.Месяц назад
Thank you so much for watching, beautiful friends!! Music is from Epidemic Sound. The songs with lyrics were: Instincts by Ludlow I'm Looking Ahead by Ebo Krdum Affiliate link to the shoes I talked about: amzn.to/4cCuKQ5
How I Ended Up Agnostic
Просмотров 6 тыс.Месяц назад
This is the journey I took to believing it all! Please know that I respect your beliefs with all my heart. And I'm wide open to believing you're right. I simply do not know. and I've come to be okay with that. I hope you're okay with it, too. ❤️ Here's a video about Schrodinger's cat, if you're interested: ruclips.net/video/UjaAxUO6-Uw/видео.htmlsi=BJmkjOvN SXqtw8 Music from Epidemic Sound.
Whale Watching Cruise!! | Van Life Vlog
Просмотров 6 тыс.Месяц назад
We did it, ya'll! What a fantastic day/gift you've given me. I will never forget this day! Most music is from Epidemic Sound.
Port Townsend!
Просмотров 7 тыс.2 месяца назад
This town is phenomenal! I ended up being there longer than expected. And boy was it worth it! I fell so hard I had to write the town a love letter! :) Thank you so much for watching!! Most music is from Epidemic Sound
Upper Peninsula, Washington = Fan-Freaking-Tastic!
Просмотров 8 тыс.2 месяца назад
We made it to the U.P., neighbors! This place is brilliant. Found some cool parking spots and a couple of cute little towns. And been keeping an eye on the water! 👀🐳 Haven't seen a whale yet, but we do see some otters and ocean deer! 😃
Coast Crawling and Decision Making | Van Life Vlog
Просмотров 10 тыс.2 месяца назад
We made it to Washington! And sorta decided what's next. Mission Marine Life, of course! Coordinates (all of these are also on iOverlander, which is my favorite app for finding spots): Newport: N 44.63693, W 124.06277 South of Cannon beach: N 45.74396, W 123.95942 Astoria: N 46°11'19.32", W 123°49'27.54" Willapa National Wildlife Refuge (where the tide came in): N 46°24.184', W 123°57.052' Raym...
Opening Your Gifts 4! ❤️❤️❤️
Просмотров 7 тыс.2 месяца назад
Thank you so much for being such lights in my life! Links to the items I received are below. Please note they are affiliate links, which means I get a small commission. It doesn't cost you anymore, though. :) NatraCare Cold Socks: amzn.to/4cLPYfh Magnets: amzn.to/3y2nb6Z Comforter: amzn.to/4bMnJvu
We're On The Coast!! | Van Life Vlog
Просмотров 8 тыс.2 месяца назад
We're doing it guys!! Coordinates are listed below: 1st night False Klamath, Wilson Creek Beach: N 41.60352, W 124.10058 2nd night North of Pistol River: N 42.31228, W 124.41481 Beach in gold beach where I charged solar: N 42.41286, W 124.42561 3rd night Nesika Road: N 42.51443, W 124.40969 4th night South of Coos Bay, where I thought I heard the bear: N 43.23452, W 124.34648 5th night Lighthou...
Motel Productivity Time :) | Van Life Vlog
Просмотров 11 тыс.3 месяца назад
Motel Productivity Time :) | Van Life Vlog
What It's Like to Live When You Don't Want To
Просмотров 222 тыс.4 месяца назад
What It's Like to Live When You Don't Want To
I came across so much rubbish out there! | Van Life Vlog
Просмотров 10 тыс.4 месяца назад
I came across so much rubbish out there! | Van Life Vlog
My name is Birdie. But not "really."
Просмотров 8 тыс.4 месяца назад
My name is Birdie. But not "really."
Escaping the Heat, Food Conglomeration, and Insects Galore | Van Life Vlog
Просмотров 10 тыс.4 месяца назад
Escaping the Heat, Food Conglomeration, and Insects Galore | Van Life Vlog
Curtains and Tiffing with Van Life | Vanlife Vlog
Просмотров 15 тыс.5 месяцев назад
Curtains and Tiffing with Van Life | Vanlife Vlog
Maneuvering to the Toilet in a Minivan with a Big Body | Vanlife Tip
Просмотров 11 тыс.5 месяцев назад
Maneuvering to the Toilet in a Minivan with a Big Body | Vanlife Tip
The Squish of the Mud and Finally Camping | Van Life Vlog
Просмотров 13 тыс.5 месяцев назад
The Squish of the Mud and Finally Camping | Van Life Vlog
Almost Camping and Random Ramblings | Van Life Vlog
Просмотров 12 тыс.6 месяцев назад
Almost Camping and Random Ramblings | Van Life Vlog
How Mental Illness Hijacked My Life
Просмотров 91 тыс.6 месяцев назад
How Mental Illness Hijacked My Life
If all that happened to a16 year old girl now, would you really blame the girl? I'm alfraid you have internalized some misogyny as you seem to think you had it all coming or that you were a bad person. Don't you think a bit more responsibility should be required from adult men? Were those men good people? Why do you think you should have developed a good personality by 16, but adult men are ok to be abusers at 20 - 30 - 40 ? Is it ok for an adult man to abuse a 16 year old homeless girl when the girl has no place to go? No matter how stupid or selfish the girl is, she doesn't deserve to be abused. Maybe you should process with a professional what happened to you, your self-worth, your sense of safety, your idea of minimal requirements for a good person as a man or as a woman. Someone tried to abuse me when I was 14. I of course blamed myself at the time - but later realized the man was to blame. I did nothing but walk to go home by a road. I didn't lure to man to show his thing at me. In any way. I'm sorry those men were assholes.
New secret password suggestion: “Wowsah Bowsah!” Love the content.
Those are sea kayaks. You can definitely do it. I’m at least as heavy a gal as you and an active and avid kayaker. It’s all about the technique and using the paddle to make the boat steady, which you can probably learn on RUclips, although a quick lesson would be optimal. And literally worst case scenario, you fall into 8-10 inches of water and suffer some minor indignity. Been there, done that.
Love seeing you again! You are a survivor is what I am hearing. Only you, as an adult, can truly say what happened when you weren't an adult. You can understand where people are coming from when they express concern/anger/sorrow. Sometimes compartmentalizing isn't necessary at the moment. I love story time. You did raise an intelligent daughter. I love learning from my children and really all ages of people. Homeless? Again, that IS for YOU to decide. The federal government says if you don't live in a "fixed" abode then you are homeless. I'm thinking about all the indigionus people who didn't or don't live in a fixed structure, anyone who lives in rv parks or are on BLM land. Is a tent that has stakes in the ground fixed? We are an evolving people, things change. The meaning of something could be absolutely different between two people. So often we are being defined by others. Some people live in a fixed home, but don't consider it home. Are they homeless? Is Bob Wells homeless? I doubt he considers himself homeless. I think he is quite at home. When you decide, then you'll know. You may change your mind later down the road. It doesn't matter what others think. Birdie, you are a treasure and I appriciate you! Thank you for the gift you give us everytime you post. I really appreciate the way you think about things. Be well my friend!
16, fine, but you must be at least 40. Why are you still living in a car ? Gee! Now you are someone. You are an influencer . And why should people listen to you?
move on with your judgement
Namaste 🙏 Humonaste
Speak ur TRUTH ❤
I had to stop at 5:55 to tell you this: You did not get what you deserved at 16. You were abused by Dave. So you shouldn't have taken the bag of pot. Big deal! He was an adult and should have treated the situation like an adult would and have you return it or pay for it if it was gone or partly gone. Also, and primarily, he should not have taken advantage of you sexually. What happened to you makes me very, very angry.
I completely agree. Most teenagers are selfish and stupid. And make bad choices. But a 16 yo is a CHILD, and a 35 yo is an adult. And sorry to your mom but wtah did she let you move in with these guys?
I didn’t even know it was a holiday until I looked. The calendar on my phone says indigenous peoples day. Your mother did a terrible thing, even if you were a terrible person, you were a CHILD. And, you’re still pretty.
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Another great video, thanks agsin for all the inspiration!
I'm sure other people have already mentioned this to you, but imo the best thing you could do for your knees is to start going to the gym. Yes, I know everyone hates that horrific word, BUT, it is kinda what actually helps. I've learned through my own knee injuries and subsequent physical therapy how amazing leg workouts on the leg machines can be. They are a real game changer. Idk how convenient gymming it up is for you, or if there are Planet Finesses nearby for you to use. There are also workouts you can do at home to strengthen your quads. Getting the quads and hips stronger takes so much pressure off the knee joints. If you do ever want to give Planet Fitness a try, there are a bunch of youtube videos that show you all the PF machines and how to use them. Hope all goes well for you, I love your videos!
Story time is never boring and it takes courage to relive the more “odd” portions of our lives in front of strangers - or you tube communities. Love you.. Keep on keeping on
Not young and dumb at all, though how your Mom thought going to live with a band was ok is beyond me. How she could choose to kick you out to keep her home is quite disgusting to be Frank and then for the forms of abuse by those men, was not your fault. Thank God there was still some nice people who tried to help. I think we all have pasts in one form of another where we made mistakes but that is due to being naive. I do love your stories though as we get to know you a little bit more 😊
I was on my own at 16......lots and lots of mistakes.....it so hard being that young on ur own.......
Birdie my friend… these adults failed you not the other way around you were a child YES a child‼️These men were adults and took advantage of you and this happened to me also snd makes me soooo angry 😡 This kind of behavior devastated my life and my identity was stolen from me wich led to depression anxiety and a self harming promiscuous life style‼️😝 But God‼️ When I gave my life to God he changed me and is still loving me back to life and wholeness‼️❤️ I pray that you would let him do the same for you. You were/are not a bad girl… you were a little girl ‼️❤️
💚Thank you for sharing your past! You definitely have a gift for story telling! I look forward to your posts and listen to them while I work or watch when you travel! ❤ I think you DO have a home...Right here on your channel! Like a turtle with its home on it back! Every where you go, it's home! Giggling! Not calling you a turtle! But I am grateful for your adventures! Keep them coming! 🤠
We were all young and dumb at a time ❤
You need to stop telling yourself you deserved what happened at 16. Nothing justifies an adult ab*sing a minor. That is what happened to you. Being grounded would be what you'd deserve. Not being taken advantage of by older men.
good grief birdie. you were still a child, none of that was your fault, nor were you a bad, selfish person. ADHD is notorious for making us terrible at risk assessment, which as an teenager you are already! just imagine your precious daughter had gone thru that sort of hell and then treat yourself as tenderly as you would her!
You told your story brilliantly. It brought me back to my teenage years, similar to yours. ❤😮
Birdie you are a precious soul and I’m sorry your mother abandoned you. Don’t be hard on yourself, you were still a kid and should have never been left alone in the first place. Childhood trauma is real and digging into that will help you love yourself more. I see so much familiar watching you, trying to always take the blame for everything and everyone else’s mistakes. Love you! Great video!
I just came accross your video by accident.To me you are an amaizing person making the video about your depression. I have faced extreme problems in my life, many due to me actions but I'm not that person anymore. I have suffered for years being depressed and passive suicidal thoughts. I'm sorry you are struggling. You need alot of love and understanding dear girl. ❤
Wow you were brave. Very interesting life!
Your candor and vulnerability is your appeal You are special and mean so much to so many. Thank you for sharing your story Birdie.
You are working you're making these videos I know it's a struggle but every time you make a video that's you working
God bless you I pray you finally get what you wish for x
You are so special Birdie. Don’t ever quit entertaining us! You encourage and inspire us all. Love you!
I’ve missed you! Somehow you fell off my feed. Love you!
It’s just not right you were taken advantage of by several adults in this story. Your mom who drops you off at a house where a band lives? Come on!! Really?? And then leaves the island so you have *no one* to turn to? And the creepy men in this story should have gone to jail. It’s disgusting. I just feel so bad for that 16 year old child. I wish you could give yourself grace. You did the best you could with what you had Birdie. No 16 year old brain is fully developed. You weren’t an adult! You were pretty then, but you are beautiful now. Inside and out. ❤
At 16 we think we know it all Unfortunately we don't Sending love ❤️
Wow beautiful voice!
Loved your story! It was like the beginning of a novel. I can’t wait for the next chapter.
There is a point in the middle of your story where you were thinking of the past, and smiled, and for a moment I could literally see that 16 year old girl superimposed on your face. She was undoubtedly beautiful then, just as you are today. I think one thing you’ve failed to give yourself grace about is that many mental health issues manifest in girls in their mid to late teens. it’s quite possible that the choices you made in those days were influenced by your brain starting to take a turn. I, like many others here in the comments, feel like your situation was made a heck of a lot worse than it could have been by the adults in your life. For one thing, even if you were the worst child going, your mother should have given you financial support until you were 18. And shouldn’t a high school that knows you have to work full time, have a guidance counselor who you could have gone to for help getting some kind of shelter? I could rant on…but just know that many of us weren’t saints as teens, and I admire that you got through that time, however you had to. And I love a short story, so feel free to do more of them! Maybe you can think about all the gifts you unboxed a while back and re-review the ones that you found the most useful on your trip this summer. Best Wishes!
I agree....as a woman who was on her own at 16.....I would have NEVER let my daughter live with a male band....thats never a good idea under any circumstances....Birdie acted like any 16 years old.
A 30 something cop named chainsaw.....inviting a CHILD to sleep at his house, what could possibly go wrong 🤔
Your not a bad person, your a good person who did some, not smart things....just like everyone else
Girl you have lived, we all have. Our pass does not define us. Your life experiences have made you the beautiful person you are today. Rock on 🤘
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I love your stories. Would love to hear more. Keep them coming. ❤
Sweetie, you where a child!! It was not your fault!! You are a wonderful person❤ We are human, & not perfect.❤❤
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You are beautiful, first of all. Secondly, no parent should allow their child to just move in with a grown ass adult she doesn't know and drop of their child. This is not an attack on your mother but at 16, knowing that you raised a child past that age, you are not prepared to make those choices at that age. You should not have been in any of those situations and I'm sorry you had to go through that. If your daughter went through the same things, you'd feel responsible and not let them say "that's all on me for being a really bad person then". Yes, choices were made but you are amazing. Everything is leading you to bigger places and this is not the end. Thank you for sharing this my dear. You are so very loved.
You could do silly little story time every freaking week and I would watch them all! you are so refreshingly authentic
That was NOT your fault. At all. You did NOT deserve any of that. Wish I could just hug you!! You were a child. NOT your fault. At all!!!!
Aloha! I am from Hawaii. What school did you go to on Oahu?
lol sounds like we've had similar life experiences....one day if I'm brave I'll tell my own story somehow, but I think I wouldn't be as poised as you (I envision me unable to speak through my tears). Until then, I appreciate your videos and your honesty. How you tell your stories is very encapsulating and entertaining, although I can see the underlying pain, especially when I can "relate". All the best to you!
Ohhhh.....there is nothing dumb and selfish about teenager Birdie! Many of us have had some rough patches growing up. All of life's experiences add to who we are. It's unfortunate, though, that adults take advantage of young girls (and boys) because they know they can. I'm just happy you are here to share that story with us so thank you! 🌺❤💛🌺
We all have a past!! But we wouldn’t be who we are now …hopefully learning along the way!!! 💜🙏💕
All I know is I love this little Birdie and 🙏 for blessings for you…sending hug…
Love the story, more please! It’s mostly your mom’s fault, stop blaming yourself, you were just a child!
Birdie Thank You for sharing your story!! You are so so so not a Bad Person. Your quite the opposite and you Brighten my day every time I see your face!! I'm old enough to be your mom and I absolutely hate you went through all that. None of this was your fault and you are doing amazing things with your life!!! Such a treasure you are. We all know this!! It's time you know as well!! Much Love honey❤🎉❤