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Losing your sense of reality must be one of the most terrifying things. It's like wandering an ever-changing maze built by Lovecraft that only you can see.
Believe me, the best part of frying on acid, is the Lovecraft idea! (Also, the worst part of frying,is also the Lovecraft thing!). I’m glad you don’t know what it’s like honey. Your perception of life isn’t altered. You’re better off living in reality. Maybe smoking a joint once in a while isn’t so bad, but all that other stuff is stupid.
You already have to be in susceptible to stuff like that. I've gone so hard that I was worthless and very dissociated, but I was still aware I was a person and where I was.
This had all the red-flags: 1. New, unfamiliar environment 2. Alone when not used to it 3. "Double dipped" tab 4. He has no idea how much he's dosing himself, you can tell because he measures in number of Tabs, which is more useless than measuring someone's net worth by number of mattresses they own. On top of so many others.
yup most guys tell it white on white or double dipped and if don't have test as should you could be doing something you don't want too do. been there done that nbome fucking worst time not sure if was going to die or not. my friend was like don't feel anything its normal tab but numb and metal taste was bad sign never trip from that guy again tho and go test kit next day. same dumb friend wants to trip on datura told fuck no i know the darkness i have no way i want face it that way.
@@rowan-priince1860 yeah and the smart ones try not listen to the person since the guys that have got gud stuff from just most time say be careful and be in right place and mindset.
I used to smoke weed a lot, and after about 2 years of smoking every day, I lost it. I got really anxious out of nowhere. And realized that I had not thought about my life in months. I had just been on autopilot. I had no idea who I was. I couldn’t think about my character traits, what made me me. I was convinced that the world was all a lie and that there was no truth and we all just made it up. I don’t know exactly how to explain it, but it took me months to get back in touch with reality. Drugs are crazy man
@Restless yeah if your predisposed to mental illness any drug that has psychoactive properties can trigger you just like that. it can also easily become a crutch for unresolved issues, and in turn you'll become dependant in a way. it can also effect teenage brain developement. dont get me wrong, cbd/thc has tons of positive effects for people with disabilities, but like everything, there are potential cons.
This is why if you are ever going to take a psychedelic, ALWAYS have a trip sitter. Imagine if there’d been someone there to just be like “hey you took acid earlier and blacked out” and prevented the freak out
Yea, this is true. And if that doesn't work, at least they can physically restrain you and prevent you from doing something horrific. I've had to do this more than once when trying to share my passion with people who don't approach it with fear and respect, including my own younger brother who after being given a few drops of liquid diluted and not "feeling it" after 15 minutes or so, went and found my little jar and drowned the ENTIRE fucking thing. Can only thank God it was clean and I knew two people removed from the source and so could be as ascertained of this as possible. After trying everything I eventually had to ask a friend to sit on his legs while I sat on his back and held him down through fits of seizure-like shocks of incoherency and screaming at the tops of his lungs at before dawn in my old apartment, lol. The final straw was after he threw an open soda bottle as hard as he could against my windows then half ripped my ceiling fan out of the kitchen ceiling. He came out of it about 8 hours later and was fine but imagine if that had been some weirdo phenethylamine or something? Kid got so lucky and learned a very, very painful lesson. Also robbed me of what I planned on storing for at least a decade of occasional use but I didn't say anything, it was punishment enough.
@@weliveinasusciety1279 I've taken psychedelics alone, far more times than in the company of others. Obviously you can, it just needs to be understood the fully gravity of the situation you're putting yourself into, which without experience is utterly impossible unfortunately. I'm not an advocate of the medicinal or government sanctioned use of psychedelics in clinical monitored environments, but I will likely die with the conviction that psychedelics are among the most important phenomena humans have ever encountered. That being said it is my opinion that they are not for everybody, and far from the majority of the population, at least not those conditioned to acquiesce uncritically to the established norms of modern cultures. The mind is an extraordinarily fragile thing that is conditioned to "tune out" the unfathomable depths of darkness and chaos writhing beneath its surface, so for many people who have never explored inwardly the sudden eruption of these contents into waking consciousness can be awfully traumatizing and disorienting in perpetuity. There is a kind of fragmentation and depersonalization that is often overwhelming, and getting stuck in repetitive thought patterns of demented mania (what mushroom enthusiasts used to call "time loops") can lead to disastrous consequences, even in the most enthusiastic and seasoned veteran. Regardless of who you are, consuming significant quantities of any psychedelic is always a high risk activity that there is no turning back from once it takes hold, thus having a sober friend or at least sympathetic company is an invaluable means of mitigating any potential harm. I think pretty much our entire cultural attitudes towards these substances is wrong; they aren't recreational intoxicants, and they aren't necessarily "spiritual" tools in the sense many seem to think of them. They are utterly bizarre visionary chemicals that are not to be taken lightly, opening vistas of unexpected grotesquery and impossible geometric wonder both in the minds eye and out in the surroundings. Nobody knows what to make of them, opinions differ from culture to culture and person to person, and have throughout known history. For my part I can't even settle my opinion on particular aspects of which there are many, whether the state is of a spiritual or trans-dimensional or purely existential and psychological; somehow it seems equally plausible that it is both simultaneously. The visionary aspect especially is just totally confounding to me, almost painfully so. Having a friend to sit with you or at least be in proximity is a safety precaution with significant potential to reduce harm, but it itself is also no absolute guarantee of safety. If taking them in solitude, for instance if ordered online or bought through channels through which there is no way to ascertain exactly what you're taking and how much, I can only recommend starting with very low amounts and cautiously increasing after roughly an hour. Any other common sense precautions like doing your best to prevent unannounced visitors of any kinds, and turning off your phone and putting it away somewhere are also helpful. If it ends up overtaking you and becomes alarming, like you feel as if it keeps getting more and more intense and your sense of self is spiraling away from you, what has always helped me is to just lay down and ride it out as long as it takes. Shuddering back into and out of coherent reality can be an excruciating ordeal, but reacting to fear by moving about greatly increases the possibility of harm. When you're so deep into it that you can't even remember that you took drugs, or don't know your own name, or forget your native language, there is nothing you can do to reassure yourself and so you have to rely on animal preservation instinct; forcing yourself to stay in one place, "playing dead" in other words, has been what kept me out of the emergency room or police stations, or worse.
For me the worst part of my psych trips has always been other people that you weren't expecting to be around. The first time I did acid 3 buddies and I were watching JoJo's Bizarre Adventure when one guys parents come home early and sit in the living room with us. Went from vibing to trying to keep my shit together while his mom goes "You guys know this isnt in english right"
I think psychedelics are great, but good god man, TREAT THEM WITH RESPECT. Know how much you're taking, don't take it in an uncomfortable environment, don't take it when you're in a terrible headspace, and never hold any serious expectations going into it. A "bad trip" can be among the worst, if not THE WORST thing a human can experience, because it's completely confined to YOU. Nobody can go in your head and save you...
fr. I took lsd and started freaking out and someone hit me. idk if I got knocked out or if I just can't remember any of it for what it really was but I was in a nightmare. everyone and everything I had ever known was ripped away from me and I thought I was dead. When I woke up, I thought it was the same because I wasn't aware that it had been a dream, and I still thought I was in hell. I begged my cousin to tell me how to die so I could have peace and broke his tv. I didn't find out what actually happened until a week later, I was just piecing together the parts of the trip that seemed most plausible to try to figure out what happened.
Well said. Luckily never had a real bad trip, but just the possibility is reason enough to always consider twice before actually taking it. Its really not that hard to avoid them, if the basic respect is always there. Just be able to look after your safety,
After the first time I took 7g of shrooms I made a rule to never exceed 4g and only do it once or twice every other season. Took it alone in the middle of the night and felt so horrified by my most prevelant fear of being abandoned as the white noise from my house overwhelmed my ears.
@@_d2082 jesus god man, I really feel for you. I've never gone insane to the point other people had to fight or restrain me, but I absolutely know what kind of nightmare you're talking about. It's all very real and visceral shit. I wish you the best in healing, that experience, like any other, is not a "whole" depiction of reality. Just take it easy brother☯
I’ve got one darker. When I had first started doing acid I decided one night I’d take a tab when my family was going to sleep, and I’d throw something dumb on Netflix to pass the time. 8 hours later I had spent all night watching Adam Sandler movies sober while the acid never hit. I think I was given a piece of paper and told it was acid, lol.
Isn't that from some bit on an Adam Sandler record? Something like making this guy think you gave them beer and it was non alcoholic, something that wasn't pot and then told him you gave him acid but it was just like pieces of paper. I can't remember how it all went I think this is like 25 years since I heard it.
I remember few years back after my wife died, I was left alone with 3 kids. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got diagnosed with bipolar. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment changed my life for better. I can proudly say i'm totally clean for 6 years and still counting. Always look to nature for solution to tough problems, Shrooms are phenomenal.
I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.
Hey mates! Can you help with the source? I suffer severe anxiety, panic and depression and I usually take prescription medicine, but they don't always help. Where can I find those psilocybin mushrooms? I'm really interested in treating my mental health without Rxs. I live in Australia don't know much about these. I'm so glad they helped you. I can't wait to get them too. Really need a reliable source 🙏
YES sure of mycologist Pedroshrooms. Mushrooms literally got me off my feet and turned my whole life around. I am currently a housing manager for a recovery program. I wouldn't have been able to do that shit without psilocybin.
I'm so very happy for you mate, Psilocybin is absolutely amazing, the way it shows you things, the way it teaches you things. I can not believe our world and our people shows less interest about it's helpfulness to humanity. It's love. The mushrooms heals people by showing the truth, it would be so beneficial for so many people, especially politicians and the rich who have lost their way and every other persons out there.
My buddy took acid once. He completely changed after. Went from overweight and depressed to jacked and got married better job. He's just nicer overall. He said everything just clicked instantly. Everything he wanted was clear on how to get it during the trip.
Drug-induced panic psychosis is literally the single most horrendous feeling I can imagine. The worst part is it never leaves you after the trip ends; even when completely sober, there's still that itch in the back of your mind wondering if and when you're going to be pulled back into the void.
i've never been able to put that feeling into words but it's almost like you can never go back to who you we're or how you felt as a person afterwards and i don't mean like just my ego, i mean literally the way i perceive my senses and the way i construct thoughts. everything is forever changed except my yearning for people. "the void" is an emptiness which can only be described as if you knew the entire world was going to end but didn't know the exact time or if it would happen.
@@S-6-6-6 you're not alone there, mate. It's been years since my first 'bad' acid trip, and I don't think i'll ever be the same person I was before. I got all the Answers, and they were so terrifying and beyond articulation that I know I'll never touch LSD again. That stomach churning sense of 'dropping out of the Matrix' is not something I want to be reminded of.
@@S-6-6-6 To me i had that feeling after a bad trip. I was certain that im never going to be back the way i used to be. I was convinced that something inside me broke, and there's no way of fixing it. It went away within time. I think the fact that i had a nice acid trip something like a year later somehow fixed it. But my dosage wasnt high. The bad trip wasnt due to the stuff, it was due to the fact that one crazy guy was about to chop me into the face with an axe after giving me a black eye because he thought i was making fun of him or something like that. While he told me that something is going to happen i thought he was just trying to mind fuck and wasnt serious so i laughed into his face. He was also tripping really hard and we were pretty much in good mood the whole night prior to that. I wouldnt have tripped with him if i knew he is batshit insane even without any drugs in his system. Propably would have been quite stressful situation even when sober, but that acid certainly amplified the effect since when you are tripping hard you are quite defenceless. Well, lesson learned. Make sure you have good set and settings and also make sure that you only trip with your good pals who you are familiar and close with.
@Sacc its really an indescribable feeling of anxiety mixed with thinking you know everything but at the same time feeling like you know nothing at all, you really have to try it yourself a trip can be different everytime
Had an awful trip, never took a hallucinogenic again. Worst part was while all this was going on. I thought I was screaming for help, but my friends told me I hadn’t moved an inch in like an hour.
I once had a trip that felt just like this and I actually recorded a lot of it on video and I played it back sober and I definitely was asking for help and my friends were just kind of ignoring me. So you might not be as crazy if you think if you just tripped with assholes
Acid was mind blowing for me. I found myself in a world where swirling colors created a mesmerizing kaleidoscope. Time stretched as I explored cosmic landscapes, feeling a profound connection to everything. It left me with a deep sense of peace and wonder, realizing the limitless potential of the mind.
One time I was on acid at my house and had a few friends over. We were having a great time. All I can remember is everyone laughing at everything that was said. Like, someone would say something, then laughter would fill the room as if we were on stage at a comedy show. This went on for what felt like hours, while at the same time, feeling like only 10 minutes went by (hard to understand the feeling if you haven't tripped.) At one point I went into the bathroom to get a look at myself. When I shut the door, I realized it got really quiet in the living room. All the the talking and laughing my friends were doing, immediately stopped. I thought that was weird but figured it was the acid fucking with my senses. I finished up and when I came out, everyone was gone. The house was silent. I went and looked out the front and backdoors, assuming they all went out to smoke. No one was there. No cars in the driveway, everyone had left... I thought "wtf? Did they all just take off?... That's kind of rude, I thought we were having a good time." I managed to find my phone, then somehow managed to find and dial the number of one of the friends that had just left. When he picked up I said "Dude! What the fuck, where'd all you guys go?" After a pause he kinda laughs and says "Uuuh. What?" I said "dude, you (and I started naming all the people that were just at my place) were having great time and you all just leave without saying a word? Kinda messed up bro." I can hear a smile in his voice as he says "Oh, we were?" I think "oh shit, did I do something and piss someone off?" I said "Yea, I mean, I thought we were... weren't we?" He starts howling laughing. "Bro, I dropped you off at your place 6 hours ago...." Which means I'd been wandering around my living room, talking to myself, for hours. Still one of the best solo trips I ever had. If only for the pure mind fuck of it all afterwards.
“I noticed a cross which had a festering pile of bloody guts and organs spread across it, staining the wood in crimson. The guts were smothered in wasps, stinging the ruined flesh causing venomous pestles. It was an image of impossible pain, and then the monologue returned, booming over the sirens, droning over the wasps: ‘this is Christ; he is still suffering for your sins, still paying the price.’” Holy shit.
And then he describes himself as being in an abyss of endless impossible pain,- full union with that Christ! That is a genuine religious cosmic experience!
First rule of psychedelics, NEVER trip alone. People around you don’t have to be tripping, but you need someone around who knows what you’re up to and a safe spot. Always.
And how many people break that rule? I know I have. If it's something like magic mushrooms where you've a good idea of just how much you're taking and you've plenty of things to occupy your mind with it can be interesting / fun. Naturally, it's certainly not the best idea on your first trip. I'd say the first rule is always know that at some point you will come down.
Nope. In the first trip I was alone, glad that nobody interrupted my almost religious experience. Ofc it's safer to do it at home, with close friends or loved ones, but sometimes you just need to trip with yourself, feels like a huge upgrade after you come back to earth
@@DESTROFURITY89everytime ive done acid with mates never a bad trip but one time i did alone ive never had the urge to kill myself the visual just became to intense id do something
@@TyreeceDavis I guess I know what you're talking about, even with my trippiest buddies there's a possibility of these overwhelming visuals. It can be frightening when you're not used to it, meditation is a helpful thing to control it
This is my "bad trip" experience. Psychedelics are potentially the most dangerous drugs you can take. For some people it is good fun and for some it is the end of their "normal" life I experienced a drug enduced psychosis which lasted over 4 months. It all started when i smoked some alleged "weed" at about 10pm in my room. I remember starting to feel really bad and felt that i was not breathing. I couldn't feel or really hear anything. It felt like i totally lost all touch with reality. I went crazy that night and thought if this won't go away till the next morning i have to kill myself because it was so terrifying, i thought suicide was the only way out of this. I started shaking and having delusions. I woke up the next morning and it didn't stop... I found out that i was experiencing something that you call "derealisation and depersonalisation" Honestly it is the worst feeling you can experience because in fact you do not experience anything at all. You are not there, you are not real. At least that's what it feels like. After a few weeks of this i developed extreme symtoms like sleep disorders, i didn't eat for days and days, i lost contact with my friends and couldn't leave the house. I was having so many delusions and everytime i woke up i immediately started shaking. I just couldn't comprehend the fact that i exist. I was trapped in my own existence. Noone understood what i was talking about and i felt hopeless. Nevertheless, the situation got way worse than this, way worse... My delusions increased, i couldn't stop shaking and i could not sleep. I developed schizophrenia (hearing voices in form of loud and dominant thoughts of which you are not in control) and panic disorder. I was not able to calm down for days. I could not stop shaking, in fact it got worse with everyday. Some weeks had passed and i was already at home from work. (At some point i lost my job because there was no hope for me.) The feeling that you are going insane is not the worst. The worst thing is that you can do nothing about it and you are concious at all times, i remember everything. At the worst stage of the psychosis i started hallucinating when i tried to go to sleep. I remember walking up and down in the house, being around other people and just doing all kinds of stuff just to find myself in bed again realizing i just hallucinated. It all came to an end when i finally got help from a psychiatrist who gave me an antipsychotic pill which i took for about 6 weeks. It was terrible because it decreases your conciousness and you are tired all day, but at least it helps. All of this lasted about 4 months in total and i can with 100% certanly say, this is the worst thing i will ever have experienced in all my life. Psychosis is possibly and probably the worst thing a human being can experience. This was a few months ago and i look at existence itselft differently now, it changed my way of thinking but i found back to a normal and good life. All of the symptoms have disappeared. If you came this far i want to thank you for reading this, take care dear stranger!
i struggle with both derealization and depersonalization, to this day still. it’s interesting to see someone else’s pov of things :0 it’s terrifying, absolutely agree with you there
@@fir-endflames If you want help we can talk about it, i would love to help someone out of this... I inow how to get rid of it. (from my own experience) But don't worry, i inow how hard it is but it won't stay forever :)
They say you explained it is crazy. I took a 1100 ug dose of LSD and was on the brink of going into psychosis. I had to take a bar to kill the trip or else it would’ve been bad
Music is extremely powerful during trips, my first time truly tripping my friend and I took a decent dose and were both right on the edge of things getting scary. While gripping our seats we changed the music from some super hardcore psychedelic stuff to more light and relaxing, meditative music, like something you’d hear at a spa. I remember throughout the night noticing how much my entire mood and experience changed along with the mood of the music we listened to. Even the littlest things can completely alter your experience, so do yourself as many favors beforehand as you can
Yeah that's what saved me from a bad trip one time when my friend I was dropping with thought it wasn't working and left early and I started hallucinating shadows dancing on my bedroom walls.
Music is unreal on psychedelics. First time I did some, my friends had an absolute bangin playlist that would completely alter the mood and moved you to your core. When some light "vibe-y" jazz came on, I felt like I was walking down the street of 50's New York. Then intense rock music made me feel like an absolute superhero that could conquer the world. Then the Shire music from LoTR that made me cry with complete peace and tranquility. So yeah, with the right dose, friends, and atmosphere, it can be an amazing, life-changing experience.
@@seanrrr the one bad trip ive had was actually caused by music lol. i was listening to really trippy and intense music and when it dropped and intensified i started tripping so much harder. i was tripping so hard i was scared and started to panic, ended up killing the trip an hour later after accidentally seeing myself in a mirror and seeing my reflection staring back at me every time i blinked or closed my eyes at all
Acid, lsd, dmt and psilocybin containing mushroom are amazing. I got diagnosed with ADHD 18 years ago as a teenage. Spent my whole life fighting ADHD. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 9 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here .
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Germany. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them
YES very sure of dr.bradshrooms. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
an old friend of mine once tried acid whilst he was in a heavily depressed state of his life. He described the trip as life-changing, even claiming he it was a key to helping him to cure his depression. lost contact of him ages ago
@@abrahamdomingo8239 it can be fun but in all honesty it's not worth the risk of it being a bad trip. A bad trip is truly one of the most awful things you can go through.
For real though. Turn on something calm and pleasant, the positive energy will radiate into you. Just don't go listening to some real hard shit, obviously
sometimes i want to hear music but i get addicted to the bad trip feeling. I’m not a good person and have a lot of things i don’t talk about or heal from so when I take acid I go crazy lol
Two words: *SET and SETTING* 1.) Be honest with yourself about your *mindset* going into a psychedelic experience. Do you have any stressors on your mind? Any negative core beliefs about yourself you haven’t been addressing? These subconscious thoughts WILL come to the forefront of your mind during a trip. Be sure you have psychological tools you can fall back on if the experience gets intense (i.e. a mantra or positive affirmation). 2.) Be mindful of your *environment.* Not just for safety reasons, but also to create a relaxing and comfortable space that doesn’t have any overwhelming stimuli (i.e. a music festival is always a gamble since it’s an unpredictable environment). 3.) *YOU NEED A SOBER BUDDY* (a.k.a. a “sitter”). This is obviously for your physical safety, but they also act as a grounding force if your trip starts going haywire. 4.) Set an *intention* going into the experience. This way, you get to choose which thoughts are at the forefront of your mind when you slip into an altered state of consciousness. Keep in mind, psychedelic medicine is ancient and many cultures have similar practices in place to guide the experience. 5.) *Test your drugs.* Some people who sell don’t even know what’s in their own batch, and some will even try to trick you intentionally. Especially with the current fetynal crisis, it’s SO important to know what you’re putting into your body. 6.) If you have *any* hesitation around the experience *at all*-don’t do it. Wait until you feel ready and confident that you’ve taken all necessary precautions to get the most out of your experience. *Hope this helps! Stay safe, friends.* Sincerely, an employee of a psychedelic mental wellness center
@@Spats2Bats Great question! Psychedelics have been clinically proven to help with both anxiety and trauma. However, complex trauma could require additional support. I’d recommend connecting with a mental health professional who can help guide you through the experience and support you as you heal from your trauma. It’s always best practice to pair your psychedelic experiences with weekly therapy if you’re able. Hope this helps. 🙂
I think you should do a deep dive into Alzheimer’s. I think it could be an interesting topic to talk about. Edit: I should also mention William Utermohlen, Everywhere At The End Of Time (The Caretaker) and SAVE AS (PAHC).
I was punched and maybe knocked out on it and it _was_ horrifying. I remember thinking about what hell was like before it and what the worst sort of hell could be like, and that's pretty much where I was, except with even more stuff that I didn't even think about to torment me.
Never tried hard drugs and these stories, as entertaining as they are, make me want to try that crap even less. Like an action or horror movie, you love it because it's fiction, but you'd never want to face a killer or get chased at high speed in a car. Truly that whole experience sounded like a horror movie. Hope that guy is clean now.
@@arsemyth8920There's no Park Lane Hotel in Norwich, the only Park Lane at all is nowhere near any cul de sacs or play areas, and frankly, Norwich is almost entirely flat, so the idea of any kind of embankment is a bit odd. The weirdly specific details there are don't really seem to add up, probably fiction.
A friend of mine just passed away because he got hit by a car while on LSD and all his "sitters" were also under the influence of other substances. ALWAYS have someone FULLY SOBER with you when doing psychs
sitters can be tripping, but they need to be experienced. Ive tripped over 100 times, ive had 1 bad trip and that was within my first 3 months of doing mushrooms and i took 6g You should not allow yourself to leave, or have someone else that wont allow you
I had the most terrifying experiance of my life on mushrooms. Lost my grip on reality completely in a very scary way. Was disassociated for about 3 weeks after that. Had my mum and little sister visit me and i didnt even feel human, even 2 weeks later. Nothing scarier than thinking you have permanently lost your mind
I completely understand, i remember the night i took somewhere between 4-8 grams of some P.E. and while it started off nice, with dancing lights and fuzzy graphics. It soon turned into a hazy mess with me laying in my bed gripping to reality while i felt my dog melting into the bed. The morning after I felt as you described: completely dissociated and I had never felt more alienated from my body in my life. I felt my whole life was a cycle, and you get that sense of “is this actually reality?” Crazy stuff.
@@khalilsmedeye1346 yeah man a bit of that for sure. I felt completely disconnected from myself and everything around me and had constant sense of panic. I have been unsure of reality in a less severe way ever since. If I start to question reality I can start to panic again so I try not to
@@TM66240talking i had something similar i took like a 5 gram shroom right off the jump it was bad i didnt feel good at all and i was in a panic and for sum reason outta no where my vision would go black and come back and keep in mind it was 4:00 all of a sudden i remember is waking up and its like 8:30 till this day i dont know what happened in that time span that i couldn’t see but since i will never take nothing at all.
I took 4 grams of shrooms on my 3rd ever trip. I got cocky. I loved the visuals and the giggles but I got that overwhelming sense of nausea that you could only get from eating a dead thing that used to eat dead things. It was minor, I handled worst before but that single negative sensation was enough to drag me down a hole. I tried to take a dump after a shower to maybe relieve the nausea but as I sat on my toilet (still naked) I suddenly convulsed strong enough to slam my head on the corner of my bathroom counter. I leaned back, suddenly terrified and puked on the floor. I remember clinging on to the counter and the towel rack, still convulsing and scared as hell. I fell on to the floor and had what I could only describe as a seizure. I’ve had the misfortune of seeing a seizure in person and it isn’t an exact comparison but close enough. All my motor skills were fried and I just convulsed on my bathroom floor, covered in puke. I must have recovered because I have the faintest memory of sitting on the tile floor and my vision was looped. It was like a Microsoft transition, I just kept getting up. I remember feeling terrible because I thought it had already gone for decades and I’m probably in a mental hospital, burdening my family with medical bills. At some point I had somehow got in the tub and I’m assuming randomly convulsing? The faucet came on and was extremely hot burning my feet. In that state of mind, I just assumed I was a witch being burned at the stake. Not sure what my rationale was because I interpreted that to mean that I had to live EVERY SINGLE PERSONS life. I swear to God I’ve lived for eternity or at the very least, I know what it feels like. My last thought was being a boiling soup. My sister was a bubble, my room was a pop. Everything was swampy soup. Just a mash of brownish green colors and waves. I remember waking up and all the sounds were playing at once. Like a frozen game trying to catch up on all the audio that was bugged out. I stood in front of my door hearing my family pass by insanely fast, knocking, talking and eventually a loud bang. Then it all stopped. I worked up the bravery to open the door and my grandpa was sitting on the couch, mad that I had been in the bathroom for so long. I screamed at him. Thought it wasn’t real. I still do shrooms but I’ve seen into the abyss and the abyss was a real jerk.
DMT is the most craziest experience have ever had in my entire life,but I was been helped out by a specialist who guided me through my first ever DMT experience,he got all kinds of psychedelics stuffs
I had only one bad acid trip. All I remember from it is nonstop thinking "it keeps going, it keeps going, it keeps going, it doesn't stop" fo what felt like several eternities.
If one plans to take Psychedelics, you need to be very careful about your set, setting and dosage. There are new studies going on right now that are using them to treat treatment resistant mental illness; things like Depression and PTSD. (Note: Treatment resistant generally means that the other medications and/or psychology methods have not worked) These drugs are VERY powerful, and if used irresponsibly can cause incredible damage to a person's psyche.
well if you want to be scared cuz you are a horror junkie then nothing happens cuz you want it and it sucks. i'd love to have a scary trip but i guess i'm just too logical to fool myself
@@banquetoftheleviathan1404 "Too logical to fool myself" has got to be the funniest shit I've read all day lmao. Drugs don't work by logic nor do they care about your logic lol
I dropped acid with my best friend and his girlfriend (also a good friend) We listened to music and watched fractals on RUclips and had a great time. Eventually at some point after peaking, for some reason I took some more acid. We all started discussing philosophy and ideas about spirituality. And when I say we were discussing, it was more like they were discussing and I was listening intently because I was a little too frazzled to talk coherently and add anything of value to the discussion. Anyway, at one point they were discussing where we all came from. Like how humanity came into existence. And then I started hearing a voice that wasn't from either of them. Or maybe it was from one or both of them. But it wasn't coming from their mouths and speaking out loud. It was definitely in my head. And I started thinking back to it and having a conversation. I wasn't sure if I was communicating with them telepathically, or if I was communicating with some sort of spiritual entity. I don't quite remember exactly what was said, but I very clearly remember it saying that, me, my best friend, his girlfriend, my mom, dad, ex girlfriend, everyone. They're all me. And I'm them, and everyone else, all along. And I believed it as fact instantly. It became my reality. And with that realization, I felt the most overwhelming sense of pure love for those around me that I'd ever felt in my entire life. It was like realizing that your first love, your childhood friends, everyone that's ever helped you along the way, have always been there for you all along. And that you were never struggling through life alone. Because they all subconsciously knew the deepest parts of you. They just didn't know that they knew you so well, because they didn't know that you and they were the same. I asked the voice who it was and it didn't give me a name, but it said that I could call it love. And it said that it was also me. And this is where it got a little spooky. It said that It's been waiting for a very very long time for me to wake up and realize what I was now understanding. I can only assume that long time would be the entire history of humanity. That trip changed my outlook on life and people for the better. Indefinitely. I've never had that happen before during any of my acid trips. It was more than just an ego death. It was a profound spiritual connection. I was already an empathetic person before then, but now, I see no difference between you and I anymore. Nothing other than the physical body and experiences. So I always try to help others whenever I have the opportunity.
"I was already an empathetic person before then, but now, I see no difference between you and I anymore. Nothing other than the physical body and experiences. So I always try to help others whenever I have the opportunity." I could've written this myself. It's something that I've tried to express to other people but many don't seem to get it. I don't know when exactly I started to feel this way. I haven't done psychedelics yet but the first time I tried weed I did *way* too much and experienced what other people have described as ego death. It felt like I lost all sense of myself and I remember thinking "this must be what it feels like to be dead" or something similar. It was a profound experience. I don't remember hearing any voices or having any specific epiphanies, though I do remember saying "this is a religious experience" as I reached out to grab my Xbox controller at one point lmao. Suffice to say that I've arrived at very similar conclusions - we are indeed all the same. Though we are differentiated by our physical bodies and unique experiences, yes, I think we are also differentiated by genetic factors that influence our psychology in different ways. But even so, we are still all cut from the same cloth.
@@Luke-ih1oc Well worded. I haven't taken psychedelics either, but this one time I smoked weed I immediately felt like an alien for the next two weeks. It was definitely terrifying, but thank goodness I'm a spiritual person so I handled this kundalini awakening consciously so it didn't have any negative affects on me. With one's mental state the law of polarity will have them come out on the other side either psychotic or spiritually endowed
This is beautiful and i had a similar experience that also changed my life for the better entirely 🤍 after a horrible trip experience on a large amount of shrooms i finally let go and stopped fighting what i thought was my death and i was transformed out of my body and into the stars and beyond and i was light energy and i saw that everyone and everything in this universe every single piece of everything is all the very same thing it more than energy its all one energy and a loving energy.
started smoking since my teenage. Got addicted to cocaine. Also suffered severe depression and mental illness. It's just amazing how psilocybin mushrooms treatment actually saved my life. 3 years clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms
0:09 they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here. and mushrooms are one of the most amazing things on this planet i wish people would all realize. they could solve a lot of problems, more than just mental treatments, environmental clean up; the possibilities are endless with fungus
LSD saved my life in the weirdest way at 18. I was a stupid kid, popping pills and just living like a zombie. I couldn't see anything beyond myself. I had a bad trip at a rave. I took other pills that were crushed and snorted them earlier which were downers. Assuming these things collided with each other, it was as if life were a movie. Dada life was on stage and the lights were so intense. However, I could hear nothing but my inner monologue. I spoke to myself so loudly. I was making a list of all the people who who be disappointed in me if they knew what I was up to. I had intense fear. I could hear the people I love tell me vocally that they were upset with me. My friends around me were concerned as I was zoned out into the lights. It felt like hours of me in an "avatar" state, speaking in my head. I lost all my belongings including my glasses, cellphone and hat. The next day, I was such a depressed mess. I refused to get out of bed. When Monday came around and I went back to school, I went to my most trusted teacher and told the truth of my drug issues. The acid just...woke me up. I went to a center and got clean. My school was very supportive because I sought the help. I'm 28 now and I really think that was such a rock bottom, vulnerable moment in my life.
I'm not the one to judge but I wouldn't say that the drug was your savior. You probably would've come to that realization if you fucked up with another thing. Life has a way of giving us a wake up call through mistakes and shame. Its all you not the drug.
Congratulations! I'm proud of you for experiencing that horrible trip but finding help afterwards. You really pulled yourself out when you asked for help and you should be proud of yourself.
I constantly tell myself “i bought this, this is what I wanted” whenever i feel uncomfy or It becomes to much for me. That usually helps a lot and gets me back to a good mood It’s crazy how just by changing the way you think about things changes your perspective when you are in that state of mind. Thats the only things that got me through eating a quarter of shrooms and downing it with vodka. Not my smartest moment tbh.
Very true. I was dosed with 22 hits of blotter one night and for most of the trip I was lost in the woods in the middle of the night only able to see 2 dimensional kaleidoscope for most the trip while language sounded like jibberish. I repeated in my head. This is a drug I bought it and it will wear off
In the past I would often atleast once or twice a trip think to myself " why would anyone pay money to feel like this" then laugh at myself and enjoy the rest of the trip. Nowadays i consider myself a Jedi having tripped 1000 times atleast, never having these thoughts as my use for it has changed. When your young you just wanna get fucked up Now I'm older and just occasionally wanna let pandora out and go on a adventure, of my mind evaluate some shit or escape to a beautiful place for a few. Like a mental vacation maybe
That sounds, scary. And it reminds me of some of my own experiences dealing with psychosis after a traumatic event. For a second I "glimpsed the infinite" and I understood everything in that moment. I remember looking at myself as I fell to the floor laughing. It was all a giant joke. Then I remember watching myself for months. But I don't remember really what happened during that time. Just that the funeral took place. My memory has been garbage ever since. It makes me wonder about the what self really is.
That's not psycosis, that's derealization. Your memory is shit because you are minorly dissociated all of the time. You should see a CBT trauma therapist.
@@LarsHarvey-dy4vpassociated with the world’s four most popular psychedelic drugs. Ayahuasca, DMT, MDMA and psilocybin mushrooms can all take users through a wild mind-bending ride that can open up your senses and deepen your connection to the spirit world. Not all trips are created equal, though - if you’re sipping ayahuasca, your high could last a couple of hours. But if you’re consuming DMT, that buzz will last under than 20 minutes.
@@StephenOscar-jj9qsDMT to be used as a therapy tool to treat depression, anxiety and other mental health conditions, as well as aid with self-improvement and discovery. But studies of DMT are actually scarce, so it’s hard to know the full extent of its therapeutic benefits.
As someone who deals with bouts of psychosis, even I can't imagine a trip like that. Granted, my episodes **usually** involve me completely dissociating and collapsing into myself rather than anything hallucinatory, but there's still a lot of, like... inability to distinguish what's real and what isn't. Though some of my psychotic episodes have manifested as night terrors. For those who don't know, a night terror isn't the same as a nightmare, but basically a sleep psychosis. Sometimes completely unconscious, sometimes semi-conscious. And boy howdy, let me tell you, thrashing and screaming bloody murder when your SO is - or was - asleep next to you, then trying to stop her from turning on the light because you don't know who she is and if she turns the light on she'll reveal herself as an evil, monstrous demon... not a good time. That wouldn't be the last time I refused to let her turn on the light, either, because during my terrors, I heard her voice, I recognized her saying who she was, but it wasn't really her. At least that's what I thought in those moments. I apparently had terrors fairly frequently as a child, but they weren't violent the way the one above was. I don't know if I still get them, but I would imagine so. I genuinely can't fathom why people take LSD. Don't get me wrong, I don't judge; to each their own. However, with the terrible places my mind has gone, the fact that people like to go there for fun absolutely perplexes me 😅
this isn’t what normally happens, it’s usually peaceful and feels meaningful. I guess it’s the same way how I can only imagine what you go/went through. I’m sorry you gotta deal with that man it sounds horrible
Been there man, especially the terrors. They appear if I have gone too long without sleep and then when I finally do I get woken by the greatest fear one has ever known. Its like all the horror movie characters came at you at once with Wolves, snakes spiders and any other trigger of terror all joining forces to push adrenaline through you. Pure terror but its like nothing was there, no dream or nothing just terror. Then there are the nightmare lucid dreams where I wake....and wake.... and wake into endless versions of reality, never knowing which is real only to have them interrupted by demons or like the other day repeatedly attacked by a witch biting and scratching me.
@@seditt5146 ah yes, the waking up to giant spiders and spider webs everywhere... I'm sorry you've gone through it as well. For what it's worth, you're not alone ♡
@@meechie9z yeah, I've heard that it's usually much more pleasant than this. Based on my own experience it wouldn't be worth it to risk a bad trip, but that's just me and knowing my own brain chemistry. I'm not sure if you were implying that you do the thing, but if so, may your trips always be good ones ♡
I think it depends on the person and the mindset they have going in. Somethings can freak you out even more like looking into a mirror. Some people get extremely anxious when things start getting weird and work themselves up more. I always like to tell people what I was told before I tried it. Don’t go out in public, don’t do it alone (mostly if you’re not used to it), and remind yourself that this is all part of the trip and everything is fine. It’s definitely not for everyone but as an anxious person with these rules I had a wonderful time. The guys I did it with were very kind and we had so many meaningful and explorative conversations. Also touching different textures is extremely fun since your senses are maxed out lol.
Idk if this has been pointed out or not, but great choice for the thumbnail. For those who don't know, the drawing of the eyes was made by August Natterer and is titled "My eyes at the moment of the apparitions." Natterer was a German artist of the early 1900's known to have suffered from severe schizophrenia, reportedly experiencing florid delusions of other realms: " God himself occurred, the witch, who created the world - in between worldly visions: images of war, continents, memorials, castles, beautiful castles, just the glory of the world - but all of this to see in supernal images. " I think he really captured his madness in that drawing, and it relates so perfectly to the madness wrought by a bad trip on psychedelics. So again, bravo on the thumbnail.
I went to the er a few months back after "oding" on some freshly picked mushrooms. When the medics arrived I had been screaming at the top of my lungs for the past 10 minutes. I don't remember screaming. I didn't hear anything. I just remember being huddled in the corner of the room i was in, my attention fully on the shadowed figure opposite of me, that had been chasing me all around the house for the past minutes/hours/days. It wanted to hurt me. It was like my past trauma had come back and materialized. I don't know. The details are fuzzy, and that's a very brief version, but yeah. Don't fuck around with psychedelics unless you fully understand what you're getting into. Never do it alone. It doesn't matter how tough you think you are, your imagination is unspeakably terrifying when you remove its limits.
I remember one time i had surgery when i was like 10. I was always scared of needles so they used gas anesthetic before they put an iv in. Well, turns out, the gas anesthesia made me start tripping balls. I was in a white room, 3 black shapes spinning in front of me. A square within a square rotating, a star that was flashing, and a circle. People were screaming, my skin was stinging like hell, i heard ticking and sirens. Then after what felt like three minutes, i woke up screaming, and finally went out again no problem. Was crazy as hell.
I was about 10 too and I remember waking up to see my crotch cut open and a skin flap on my left hip with surgical tools laying on that flap on a little cloth. I just looked into my body then looked at my surgeons who looked at me and I said “So um what now” and they said something along the lines of put him back under and the mask went back on. I woke up having no concept of reality, self or memory at all. It was terrifying. I didn’t know who my mom was so I panicked screaming “I don’t want to go! I don’t know who she is!”. Edit: It was a hernia surgery next to my penis.
@@Zanemob Woah, you actually woke up?? That's crazy. I admit I'm completely ignorant on law or malpractice but dude, sounds like you probably could have sued them.
Yeah apparently most people don’t hallucinate from the gas stuff but I did. It wasn’t a traumatizing experience but I didn’t like it and it has made me afraid to have it again. I have a panic disorder so a bad trip could easily just break me.
I remember having some minor surgery years ago and at that point I had never done any kind of drug at all. I didn't even drink small amounts of coffee or alcohol. They hit me with an intravenous dose of Demerol and I felt worst so after my mushroom hit I found a better part of myself.
Moral of the story: Have a babysitter, and preferably something that can reverse the effects. This probably could have all been prevented, by saying "You took some acid. Everything is OK. Just lay back and relax, I'll get you some orange juice" before the trip got on top of him.
@@_d2082 Common myth, but no. Citric acid helps the body process LSD faster. Faster doesn't neccesarily mean a more potent trip. As with most substances the intoxicating effects are caused by too much of it built up in your system. This can sometimes trigger parasympathetic nervous activity that causes the release of cortisol and norepinephrine. Which can cause "bad trips". Citric acid prevents this buildup from getting out of hand. Causing a more mellow trip with less chance of it turning on you.
@@Mr.BadExampleMT Ohhhhh, interesting. I had a very bad trip B4 and we all drank orange juice before it cause we heard itd make it more potent. I assumed it made it a lot more intense but I guess not. I wonder what it would have been like had I not drank any. I know you're not google lol but do you know if milk affects your trip at all?
@@_d2082 Oof. Sounds like you got in your head a bit. That's very common though. Taking OJ to make a more potant high is a pop cultural leftover. Though that's weird because they always accurately show people drinking OJ during the trip. This is because it's used as a method of titration. Sounds, by what you're saying, you probably had a little too much and panicked. Especially for first timers, they tend to also get excited to trip. Problem is, excitement shares a lot of endocrine and parasympathetic responses as fear. This is why "terrific" and "terrifying" are antonyms but share a common root.
no way no in hell im ever taking lsd, my mental state is so fragile that i lose touch with reality and spiral completely sober. I feel like if it went bad there would be no coming back from it for me. It's so interesting hearing other people's experiences though and this guy wrote it beautifully, i could perfectly picture the scenery and emotions
There were some moments I had to pause and take a breather cause of how well I they wrote it, it genuinely felt like I was experiencing it, so much anxiety...
Same. It's strange to me how many people seem to have complete control of their mind. The idea he believes he would have been fine if he hadn't forgotten is insane - it implies he could have successfully just told himself to calm down. When I tell myself to calm down, usually the next thought is - but what if you can't...
@@drankydrank1It's not about having control of your mind, you don't. You just have to learn how to deal with it and make your mind to what you want. That's why psychidelics is a learnt experience. I never learnt to control it but I just now know what to do incase I spiral. It's all about understanding yourself
Diazepam is a trip killer. If you are going to take psychedelics it’s a wise idea to have some nearby just in case things go wrong. It will calm you down very quickly. Meditation is also very helpful. The ability to unidentify with your thoughts is wonderful.
i have done meditation for a long time at a constant pace meditating around 2 hrs per day, doing shrooms here and there, there is a moment where meditation gets you in a similar state that low dose of shrooms get you, its really awesome :D
@@juandavidcorzo3893 Do you do breathing excercises when meditating? If so, it may just be a slightly too low or too high level of oxygen in the blood, messing with brain chemistry. After all, psychodelics are just things that mess with your brain chemistry, and causing it to go haywire.
*Mushrooms did wonders in my life. I could remember several years ago, I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Was actually diagnosed with ADHD. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. This is something that really need to be use globally to help people with related health challenges.*
Psychedelic's definitely have potential to deal with mental health symptoms like anxiety and depression, I would like to try them again but it's just so hard to source here..
Can you help me out with a source? I suffer from severe anxiety and depression and have been on prescription meds, but they haven't really helped. Where can I find psilocybin mushrooms?
The way he described the sensations of his trip was fucking immaculate. I could clearly visualize every scene he wrote about, even when he became a writhing amalgamation of pain. Listening to these bad trip videos really makes me want to watch some type of horror movie about a bad trip, but I also realize that it would only really be horrifying if I were the one tripping.
I’ve tripped many times so I would say I’m a pretty experienced tripper gaining experience while helping people have a bad trip while tripping myself. But one day i took a triple dipped tab, i didn’t know this at the time but i went into complete darkness I had no feeling in my entire body, and I would close my eyes and open them and see the same thing. Luckily from my experience i handled it really well and my friends told me I just sat there in silence. But from the small vivid bits and pieces I remember being horrified knowing I was long gone from reality and nobody could help me
I kept getting trapped in time loops. My dog whined at me, so I stand up, walk to the front door and open it for her. Soon as I opened the door, I’d be at the couch with my dog whining at me. It repeated a good 7 times before I was like BRO WHERE IS A CLOCK.
personally i have never taken acid and most likely never will but hearing other people's experiences with lsd is just so interesting to me, just trying to fathom what people go through on this trip is so trippy in its self
Acid is crazy but if u ever do it make sure u do it w ppl u rlly trust and feel comfortable around cus I almost had a horrible trip bc I was w ppl I wasn't rlly close w
No no no habib, you have no fuckin idea what this shit does😭😭😭 if you take it take a sensible amount and if you do take i wish you a wonderful and eye opening trip🙌
Its just as if you have a projector wheel right behind your eye, its some crazy stuff, can really heal you or can really fuck you up, act towards it as you do with electricity, respect and fear and you will be fine
Everyone who has experienced the acid loop can relate...also it always seems like the universe laughs at us when we are in that kind of state...it's like the worst moment of your life and something or someone is laughing at you....strange
I think this is because of the balance of Yin and Yang. Terror implies laughter the same as man implies woman, and black implies white. There is humor in bad experiences. After all we have all sat around with our friends and laughed sharing our worst experiences in life, from our past.
I just imagined myself in that state in the past while on lsd . And I see why the universe would laugh 🤣 it is pretty funny , how much we tend to go in circles
Loops are always terrifying in the moment but when you think back to it it's always hilarious considering what was actually going on and how you were behaving
it wouldn't be the Universe, it'd be the toxic side of your ego-self not your cosmic-self. The Universe (cosmic-self) in its highest state is of truly unconditional love, I’ve felt it before whilst on psyches with the channel of my Crown opening.
I tried micro-dosing yesterday for the first time, and I had wonderful experience. I'm someone who suffers from chronic depression, and I was simply happy, not overly ecstatic, but genuinely happy and active with my friends and family. I was even excited to get out of bed this morning.
Please does anyone know where I can get them? I put so much on my plate and it really affects my stress and anxiety levels, I would love to try shrooms
A lot of people have testified about this and I really want to give it a shot. I put so much on my plate and it definitely affects my stress and anxiety levels
The Trips I've been having have really helped me a lot,I finally feel in control of my emotions and my future and things that used to be mundane to me now seem incredible and full of nuance on top of that I'm way less driven by my ego and I have alot more empathy as well
Finally someone spoke about the dots .. I took two tabs one time , and ever since then my trips have never been the same . I was tripping so hard that day I got to the point where it felt like I had to make a decision between the dots , it’s how u said you had to move them with your vision to get down to the last two dots , and I would feel the pressure intensified as I had to pick and if I looked off just by a glimpse they would disperse and I would have to start all over again with thousands of dots …. It felt like a battle of black and white and the fear of not picking the right dot … of the unknown to where I would ultimately change the course of the trip , I didn’t want to open the door and I kept the trip inside the apartment where me and my friend where and we just stayed in a Limbo , it was really weird I could see and hear her inner thoughts and vice versa .
Same, I feel like most people do it thinking it's gonna be all sunshine and rainbows when it could turn for the worst. Also, what is with the bots? It's like those bots that find videos with a keyword and just spam. Really the wrong video to spam under though.
@@thetarr2 While it could be something incredible, something beyond my imagination etc, I don't want to run the risk of what this poor soul suffered. Also yeah, that bot is weird.
Honestly I’ve done acid a bunch of times and my first reaction to a story like this is that it’s complete bullshit. But I’ve seen first hand someone get their brain fucked up by drugs so idk what to think. Maybe I’m just lucky I never had a trip this bad or maybe this is bullshit who’s to say
I've never taken psychedelics, and I most likely never will, but it's so fascinating to me when I hear about what the human brain can do when affected. I might do some research because this type of stuff is really interesting.
Not for everyone. During my first year in the Netherlands, me and my buddies used to do magic truffles which contain the same substance (Psilocybin) which is in mushrooms. I've had some of my best times on them, some were bad but nothing too fucked up. But one guy has a horrendous experience, he never recovered fully tbh, quite scary, i believe it has something to do with his subconscious.
A childhood friend of mine was in a car accident and a vile in their pocket was smashed into their leg. They were changed fundamentally. Refusing to go by their name and creating a new identity/personality. I visited them some years later. What stuck out the most was how they read novels. They would tear out all the pages and scatter them everywhere. Over the next few weeks they would organically encounter the misplaced pages and read them in whatever order they encountered them. When asked about this they told me it made for a much better story.
I think your friend is a moron and naturally mentally ill. People have taken thumbprint doses of lsd and came out perfectly fine. A thumbprint is when you dip your thumb in crystal LSD and then lick it, typically ranging from 20,000-80,000 doses. A vial is typically 30 doses. Also the car accident must've given him brain damage or something, don't blame LSD as it's clearly not the culprit and it never has been.
@@IncredibleIceCastle Maybe. They don't seem to look at reality the same way as they used to or the way we do for that matter. They were not painting the walls with squirrel blood or anything like that though. We were both guitar players before and after and their music had changed as well. I found it impossible to play together after the accident. Not that it was bad but because you couldn't predict what was coming next. It's like they just made it up as the went but you could ask them to play it again and they would. I think I recall that it wouldn't be the same and this made it hard for them to perform with others. I think this passed eventually and they can play cover versions of popular songs without get lost.
Psychedelics are great. Funny story, LSD actually saved my life, I was going down the wrong path in my youth, alcohol, drugs, crime etc. One day a friend convinced me to try some acid, it was very potent, after getting over the giggles, I realized that my perception of everything completely changed, I saw life in a more logical sense, I literally looked into the mirror and I immediately saw the stupidity of my behavior, when I watched TV, I was able to see how extremely stupid it is, you actually see the subliminal messages in commercials, amazing! It changed my life for the better... Looking forward to tryout the magic mushrooms next just don't know where or how to get them, so rare in my area
I remember the first time I ever tried LSD. I had just turned 30 and I was in an experimental stage. I didn't know what I was doing and I took 13 hits. It took a long time to come back down. It was a trip!
when i tried shrooms i ate way more than i should of because i thought they wouldn’t work and then my face got numb and i threw up shrooms and my friend was laughing but trying to comfort me and the bathroom lights were flickering cuz they were old and i had to go home
Omg some of the acid trips I’ve had in my lifetime.. Orange Sunshine, Purple Microdot, Banana and tabs.. You can NOT go into it with a fucked up mind.. It all seems real when it’s happening. Same with mescaline and shrooms
Which is why I’ll never do psychedelics. Well, again. I tried shrooms once but it made me anxious so I accepted it wasn’t for me. I’m just happy in hindsight all I felt was anxiety for a day and nothing worse.
@@jambothejoyful2966 sorry, I guess I could have expounded a little more.. It doesn’t matter your spiritual walk, or your ability to tune into esoteric things.. What matters is that you never do *any* kind of psychedelics when you have immediate problems in your life. I.e. relationship issues, anger at someone, any irrational fears of some kind, a bad home life, paranoia. Just think of it this way: Whatever is in your mind, or the back of your mind, is going to come out magnified by a thousand. When you’re tripping, you can’t just tell yourself it’s not real. You can’t even think those kind of thoughts because everything is so outrageous and weird. You can smell and taste color and sound. A bad childhood memory could come back up as if it were really happening again. You don’t dare look at your own face in the mirror (or at anyones else’s face for too long for that matter) ABOVE ALL, you DONT want to do it with immature asshole friends who won’t be there to help if you have a bad trip!! Make sure someone you really really trust is there with you. (You probably won’t want to,but just in case, don’t try to have sex either! It could literally ruin sex for th rest of your life if it goes bad or weird!! (Besides, if you have lucid dream and remote view, why would you even want to trip on LSD or any other hallucinogens?! ) Lucid dreaming is cool as fekk!! It takes a really tuned in person to be able to do that.. almost god status! Don’t ruin it with drugs! But if you must, I suggest chocolate mescaline or straight up magic mushrooms, but only take a small fraction of what you think you should, and don’t take anymore! Wait a full 12 hours till you know how it effects you, cuz a bad trip could mean murder or accidental death. Please honey, if you’re going to try it, choose a safe SOBER person to stay with you, and INSIST that you both read and watch vids about how to fry, and how to be a caregiver for someone who’s going to fry. Knowledge is power, if you want to have a good experience. Lastly.. just know that once you take it, you’re not going to come down for a minimum of at least 12 to 16 hours, but it could last for several days depending on what you eat, and how much you ingest. Sorry for the long response, but I really do care about you!
Even in "good" trips, there can come times when you dont feel well, or your psyche is trying to avoid some kind of internal change. That is something that just comes with psycheds, either unwell bodily sensations, (feeling like you need to puke, weird sensations while breathing, problems with balance, etc.), or problems with your thoughts, or percrption of whats happening, because the survival of your ego, and everything that it is becomes threatened, which is why it tries everything it can to stop its desolution, even if it means to throw you into an anxiety disorder or a full blown psychosis. Just trust me when i say, that its already powerful enough, and you should think twice before giving it more leverage, by doing psycheds in an unstable enviroment. Once you get into a state in which you can see how your ego is operating to get you out of the present moment, you will become speechless at how extremely intelligent, and concentrated your ego is, when it comes to distracting you from your true self. It acts in layers upon layers, and will use every oportunity to get you back under control. Thats why you have to be in a controled setting and have to be able to think for yourself if you concider higher doeses. And just dont leave your property, thats always a good idea, if you go deep. Just do it at home if you feel good there, otherwise get yourself a tripsitter, preferable someone that knows what he is doing.
I had a bad trip where I totally lost myself and ran miles down my country road barefoot, hallucinating false omniscience. When I approached a highway, I came back to myself and heard a motherly voice that asked, "Isn't this what you asked for? Didn't you want to understand it all?" I started walking home and was picked up by a friend, but that night took months for me to unpack and although I'm better from it, I put my life in serious danger. Someone once said, "be wary of free wisdom."
The one thing u don’t wanna do while on psychedelics is to go into a loop in ur head it’s very important to make sure you’re in a good mental state and to not think to much about what’s happening
The mental loops are terrifying, especially when you pass out and wake up, completely forgetting you had taken LSD in the first place and have no idea what the hell is going on. Been there, done that. Never, ever again.
I actually love the loops. I get to the end of the loop, realize I'm in a loop, and start laughing my ass off because I know it's about to happen all over again. And you can't help but think that it's going to be this way forever.
The moment he messed up was as soon as he started to panic. If you ever feel uncomfortable take a breath and go to your happy safe place before you start to stress yourself out. That way you can clear your mind
That's a horribly callous comment considering he was BLACKING OUT, and walking places against his own will. Walking through the street. Panic is appropriate almost. Getting caught becomes more important than not getting caught AT SOME FUCKING POINT. You can't tell a man to surrender to the trip when he's already outside in the street, in someone's yard, in someone's house. At that point he is purely fucked, and only luck and grace would have taken him back to a safe place.
I did acid a few times in my late teenage years. I remember laughing hysterically and having a food fight with friends the first time. Each time, I've never been able to sleep. I felt invincible too. When I got a little older, I realized how dangerous it was when seeing videos of people not returning from their trips. The furthest I'll ever go now is shrooms, but I haven't done those in a long time either. I've gone straight for the most part. A few occasions of getting drunk or stoned but that's about it. Don't do the harder drugs kids. It's always a risk. You're playing with your life everytime. Insanity is not worth a night of fun.
100% agree did a tab recently as a teenager and had a terrifying time when i realised i dosed too late and i would be tripping potentially in front of my parents.. this caused a spiral of anxious thoughts.. then it got worse when I actually caught a cold and started getting other symptoms like tingling in the arms and legs… spend an entire day on the couch stroking my cat telling my self I’ll be fine.. realised if ur gonna take these substances theres no messing about
@@TaroTimes Are you fucking stupid? Look for it yourself you lazy langer. All these stories of people fearing the permahigh and you're here asking me for proof.
Look, some of these trip reports over on erowid are pure creative writing. If you were that far gone, there is zero chance you are remembering this much detail. And most likely in jail.
Same here, the story combined with the background sound and visuals really does immerse you fully in the experience, as if you were the one having a bad scary trip 😂 I enjoyed it 🤌🏻
My 19 year old little brother once had a bad trip (he said something about someone slipping him a mushroom). I remember how scared he was. His voice sounded small, shaky and meek like a scared little kid on the verge of tears. He was begging our mom to take him to the hospital. I hadn’t seen him that scared since we were little. I wanted to comfort him, but I had no idea how and I was worried that I might accidentally scare him even more. I have no idea what he saw during that bad trip and I haven’t asked him about it. Hearing this story has made me wonder what kind of horrifying visions my brother saw during that bad trip.
Not sure how you could slip someone a mushroom when they taste like shit and you have to eat a decent amount to trip. My guess is he was on a very small dose but just didn’t know what to expect so started panicking, which makes everything worse no matter how small the dose.
I'm loving this new channel. Something about the way you present things and how you talk is just amazing when it comes to these. I hope you continue these in the future.
when i was a student i was a lazy sack and my grades were accordingly. one evening we threw in acid and after a while everything turned blue and purple and a voice so clear and distinct, but so beautiful and gentle made it unmistakably clear to me that i was just not getting anywhere because i was afraid of making mistakes and that i should trust her that if i got going everything would get better. after that experience i went through with my studies and have had a great work ethic ever since
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i've done acid a few times when i was around 18-19. the first time i did it i took 4 tabs- not sure what possessed me to take so much especially for my first time lol. the trip overall was a beautiful experience even though i had recently developed a panic disorder. it all comes down to this: setting, people that you genuinely enjoy being around, and music, trippy shows/videos. if you're around someone who you have even the TINIEST negative feeling about, it will fuck the whole trip up. you need to be around someone or a group of people that you truly enjoy. make sure you're in a completely comfortable place, setting makes all the difference as well. i've had a negative trip before and it was because i was around people who i did not like. set yourself up for a good trip if you ever plan on doing acid. also it is not just any drug- it's probably one of the biggest commitments as you will be tripping for 12-17 hours. there is no escaping once you start tripping and when you start falling into a negative headspace there is absolutely no way out. acid is NOT for everyone, it is EXTREMELY intense.
I will SLIGHTLY disagree. There IS a way out but you need an experienced trip-sitter and some kind of massive stimulus change to "get out" of the panic-loops. I have steered my way out of 2 bad trips with the help of others and change of venue. Sometimes you don't realize that you're just really uncomfortable where you are (a bad chair, a weird hard spot on the floor) and your body interprets this as panic/evil. So just moving to a comfy bean bag and changing the music can do WONDERS if you are heading towards a panic loops.
Great piece! My experience with acid is not even remotely close to this, my first time was super cliché at a Grateful Dead Concert, the 2nd and last time with my best friend and I were both leaving for school so we both dropped tabs together at sunset and played on the beach for 12 hours.
@@ozone8897 I'm sorry I don't understand my friend was going to school locally but I was attending college across the other side of the country so we thought it would be a fun way to say goodbye and it was, is that what ur asking
I have a lot of stuff to defend myself with. Like 1 wooden bat, a machete that has another knife in the handle, and I just realised I need more defensive measures.
@@Thewalliest yeah, but the people i live with can't have guns around them. i could build a kind of projectile launcher though. magnetic induction is fascinating in that sort of way, where if you use a magnetic force to pull something through a tube at multiple points in the tube, the speed on the object stacks creating a higher muzzle velocity. in firearms this is achieved by a higher amount of gunpowder and a smaller projectile, but in a coilgun or railgun like i described the mass of the projectile doesn't matter.
After seeing some of these stories, I kind of want to tell mine. It disturbs me to this day. I had a friend named Capone, we were very close at the time. We all partied every weekend, almost every single weekend we spent doing acid or mushrooms. One night, i decide to mix them. I take 2 tabs and an 8th of shrooms. At one point in the trip, I could not see past my hands. Everything looked like shattered glass beyond the reach of my hand, I went inside and laid on the couch. I felt very peaceful, too peaceful. While in complete Bliss. The most frightening, distorted image of my friend Capones face flashed in my head while my eyes were closed. I literally sprang up and tried to tell myself it wasnt real what I saw. I went in the garage, saw him. Went back to the party and just being to myself, assuring myself it was just my mind playing tricks on me. Months later. He took his own life. It was almost as if my subconscious knew what was going to happen but I couldn't accept it. I've been hesitant to ever mix psychedelics again.
@@brysongines3586it’s a bot homie don’t care abt the other reply comment. But hey sounds like you and your friend had amazing memories together. Hope you’re doing good dude!
The last time I did LSD I reached a place in my trip where I had thought I had already died and was simply sitting in purgatory. I had a complete conversation with my friends who I thought were there as representatives of what was God and the concepts of good and evil. It took a while and an epiphany that I may have to kill myself to move on to really snap myself out of it. I was stuck in a thought loop considering what would happen if I died and even came to terms with the meaning of life and what would become of me. One thing I did take away from it all was to not hold regrets, to live for what is good, to pursue love and to be content with my own experience.
I had psychosis induced by insomnia (couldn't sleep for almost 2 weeks) and I was also stuck in purgatory! My whole family was in heaven, in the clouds, and i could communicate with them but I could not physically reach them. It was fucking horrible feeling trapped and stuck.
I had a bad trip that involved purgatory also, at the end of my bad trip my eyes could not see color any more (after the most intense colorful bad trip, I saw colors never seen before)
Dude. This is insane. I’ve had these exact same thoughts and conversations with people during my trips. Really makes you wonder. Peace and love ❤️🩹☮️✌🏼
@@gagriel6737 haha glad to hear I havnt been the only one. One thought that was cemented in my mind since then is the idea that the entirety of humanity is literally the same soul that is reincarnated infinitely . We experience the life of every person that has lived or ever will live with each death with the idea being once our soul has experienced the entirety of humanity we will become what God is. I remember seeing that idea around and when in that purgatory during my trip I truly believed it.
i had a bad trip around this time last year and it was truly one of the most terrifying things i’ve ever gone through. my birthday was merely days away and i decided i wanted to take tabs, but my dealer wasn’t selling anymore. however, i had a close friend who was big on psychedelics so i asked him for his dealer, and long story short, his tabs were very different from the one my og sold. they were supposed to be more intense because they were gel tabs and i ended up taking 450ugs that night, even though the highest dose i’ve ever done before that was 200. i was 3 ish hours into the trip and i was barely seeing anything. i quite literally saw more on the og’s weakest tabs than from the gels. however, one of my friends had top shelf bud, and i knew weed made psychs more intense, so i decided to smoke. the second i exhaled my last hit, everything melted in front of me and from then on, it was almost like one of those tik tok glitch videos where it freezes on an object and it pixelates into something completely different. i was no longer surrounded by my original environment, and instead in what looked to be a video game??? i remember everything being purple and yellow, and my brain starting to feel like it was falling backwards, down a rabbit hole, and would randomly spawn back in my head. the feeling was like going to sleep dunk and having your head spin. i also heard rapid demonic whispering in what seemed to be another language, as well as bloodcurdling screams. this was when i completely lost sight of reality, and i started seeing insects and shadow figures. i was completely stuck in a spiral- going through constant thought loops, and not being able to process what was going on around me, let alone where i was. i convinced myself i died and that everything i was seeing was my brain just dreaming. it felt absolutely endless and i will forever be traumatized from it. i zone out often, but sometimes, if it’s really bad, i’ll see patterns again, and i’ve even gotten acid flashbacks while smoking.
Macro vs Micro had success in doing a few Macro first . Allowing the mushrooms to blast you into self awareness , showing you the shadows and trauma that have been hiding under the rug . Micro dosing has helped me stay on the pulse of my shadow work , helping me remember my best self .
Microdosing makes me feel more human . I personally feel like microdosing increases my ADD for the day , but I may have to dial the dose down a little . The benefits outweigh the downsides . 1:18
@@JeniferChristian-xw3bn0:06 I've talked to people who micro and macrodose to help with a TBIs . I'm told that it's easier to find words when talking , and it helps improve short term memory . I've also heard of it helping with hearing , where people who could no longer hear birds could hear them again .
DMT is the most craziest experience have ever had in my entire life,but I was been helped out by a specialist who guided me through my first ever DMT experience,he got all kinds of psychedelics stuffs
Losing my reality is one of my biggest fears. Not knowing where i am, who I am or even what I'm doing will always scare me shitless. It's like that scary DMT trip scary that I've seen on RUclips. Seeing demons and other scary shit will never cease to haunt me.
I *may* have accidentally taken some sort of drug when I was around 11.. as I suddenly began remembering every dream I had ever had in my entire life, in extreme detail until I was in a raging storm of images and then awoke in a highly detailed library where a white rabbit and a shadow man tried to convince me to go to sleep and I remembered sobbing and rocking back and forth after hours of them trying to break me down and make me sleep because I had this intense feeling that if I did sleep I would never wake up again but then a door appeared and it was the door to my bedroom and I escaped it only to become lost in a never ending hallway and a timeloop with my mother where I tried to explain to her what the rabbit was telling me only for time to reset again and have to do it all over. This continued several times over until I snapped and yelled at her, at this point my brother magically appeared beside me and the entire hallucination seemed to just vanish all at once with both my mother and my brother asking if I was okay. The whole event lasted around six hours and my brother was experimenting with shrooms and other drugs at that period of time, but I didn't find out about it until years later. I now assume I had eaten or drank something spiked, looking back on how nervous my brother was about my behavior.
“Today a young man on acid realized that all matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration, that we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively, there is no such thing as death, life is only a dream, and we are the imagination of ourselves. Heres Tom with the Weather.”
As someone who has experienced these things, and has quit since, it makes me really anxious to listen to the description of the trip. I have to pause the video to take a breath and calm down lol
I feel as though the words made it appear worst than it truly was. I noticed alot of the words seemed heinous for the scenario. as if it was intonally meant to be over dramatized.
This sounds more like some kind of research chemicals than acid, especially because of how visual it was. I don't do psychadelics myself but I used to be a musician and heard a lot of people's firsthand accounts, and I've heard this kind of story from a few people, and usually those stories are followed by some kind of really brutal long term mental health consequences. Always test stuff beforehand, if you can't get ahold of test kits don't drop acid :(
As a person who has experience with LSD I agree. Either RC or some deliriant. Not LSD. It's what what you think guys. There a NO hallucinations. Just deep thought processes and world around you is kind of 'breathing'. Perception is altered but no hallucinations
@27_ECE_Gokul V RC is research chemicals, basically synthetic versions of another drug designed for super cheap sometimes to circumvent existing drug laws. Most of them produce a real fucking nasty trip and can be a lot more dangerous than normal psychs in terms of heart problems, psychosis etc. Deliriants are a class of hallucinogen that also tend to be more dangerous and unpleasant than psychedelics, like poisonous mushrooms or nightshade or taking too much Benadryl etc. it feels like a fever dream, you see shadow people, feel bugs crawling on you, have trouble moving or speaking or even breathing, can even make you think you are already dead or caught in some kind of time loop or forget who you are entirely. Lots of historians believe old reports of those cursed or hexed by witchcraft were actually people getting dosed accidentally or intentionally with various deleriant class substances...hope that makes sense
@27_ECE_Gokul V RC = research chemicals, deliriants r a class of hallucinogenic drugs different from psychedelics known to cause more vivid external hallucinations and, well, delirium. Most well known deliriants r probably Datura and Benadryl.
One time, i was so flipped out on mushrooms, that I got out of the car while me, my childhood best friend, and a couple of girls were entering an apartment complex to grab more shrooms so everyone could get on our level per sé, and the mushrooms made me get out of the car, and brought me to the place my stepsister had been shot months prior. I didn’t realize I was there until I saw the neon sign that said “Janet’s Cakery”, and I spun back around and started walking the opposite direction…my childhood best friend was trailing behind me, saw me turn around and walk the opposite direction, and said, “where are you going now?!” I said, “you know how I kept saying l, “I dont like where this trip is taking me? Well, we’re here. We’re at Janet’s” He knew exactly where we were at when I said that. His mother was the one who came to my parent’s house and told me that I needed to call my dad, that something “very serious” had happened. I had ignored my dad’s call because I was in the shower, and just not in the mood to talk. My best friend was at my sister’s funeral…his family-especially his parents and his holder brother who was a couple yrs older than us were there, too…I collapsed into his arms. Seeing them there was the first time I really cried hard about what happened outside of the hospital the day she was shot. We stood underneath the sign for a second in shock that the mushrooms had brought us thereHe looked up at the sign, and in the stoniest voice, he said, “noooo WAY, dude.” We burst out laughing, and kept walking, and I watched him keep turning around and looking at the sign in bewilderment. I knew my sister was there with us, and I knew that the mushrooms were trying to tell me to face the pain…quit trying to hide from it. It took a long time, and I have accepted that it’s a process, and that I’m 35-almost 36…and I am still, and probly always will, beworking on it…and that’s okay.
Cool experience. Sorry about the loss of your sister though. I might be crazy but I believe that these drugs can thin the Vail between our perception reality and the next... Whatever or where ever that is, maybe your sister was there. Or maybe I'm taking nonsense. Thanks for sharing.
Thanks for sharing your story this made me get a little emotional idk why but just reading how nature took you to a place to face your pain got me a little emotional.
@@georjiep4338 not nonsense, you’re absolutely right…mushrooms share truth. It’s amazing. Thank you for your kind words. I recently told the story of how I faced her killer in court, and what I said to him. Two people starting saying things like, “I’m gonna press X for doubt” and other nasty things…like I’d tell such stories, just to lie…it really angered & hurt me…and I usually don’t get angry about internet idiots. It’s pretty interesting seeing that people who have had experiences with mushrooms are so much more open and understanding…on the other hand, people who haven’t…cold, lacking empathy for no reason. I appreciate everyone in this thread. Thank for restoring my faith in humanity.
@@ezequielsosa6557 true, however in my anecdotal experience a tab has never been more than 200ug. Its frustrating that there is a lack of standardization to make comparisons easier, but for me personally I don’t think I would have anywhere near this kind of experience off of 200ug. Probably more like 1000ug
I had an exceptionally crazy experience for my second time and honestly can’t even begin to describe it. No point, I don’t know how people can so vividly describe their trips like this. I find it to be hard to believe because of how crazy mine was.
Did you go to hell? I went to hell on my trip, but at not one point did I found it to be a bad trip, I was like... cool, dead souls stuck in time all around me everywhere. I was having a good time in hell 😂
@@timspikerI’ve been to Hell twice. The first time felt like a borderline psychotic episode. Scariest shit of my life. I was screaming at the sky seeing figures in the clouds. I had to be sedated and sent to a hospital. I woke up without a wallet but made it home without anyone suspecting anything had happened. The second time was after my friend had passed. I tried to visit his gravesite but was too depressed to make it all the way. I remember being on a bus and seeing spirits flying overhead, ‘as they should’, I thought. I guess that trip reconciled my fear of an afterlife.
@@dhnyl What I experienced was the lake of fire. I stood on top of billions of dead souls stretching from my feet to the horizon, but instead of being scared I was just fascinated. I was aware that my body was still in the physical world and all I could think was how I must be observing the world that is hidden from the living. I'm a logical person so my logic always helps me trough everything in life. I was also very depressed at the time, so I guess it made no difference to me. Ultimately I took it as a warning of where I was headed in life at the time. 2 years later I bought a bible and turned to Christianity as I don't really know anyone who could save me from such a place other than Jesus himself. I was addicted to many substances but after praying just once I was able to quit all my addictions cold turkey over night. I call that a mirracle.
@@timspiker “observing the world that is hidden from the living” This descriptor is spot-on in relation to my trips as well. I find your journey to faith very admirable. I’m not quite there yet. I have this hang up about prayer which is itself hard for me to reconcile but I do have a Bible. I’m interested in Revelations. Should I start from there?
@@dhnyl Yes, read the bible, visit a church. Every time I go to church I'm very welcomed there and meet very nice people. It's great for restoring faith in humanity
I remember once that i was just basically at the end of my trip when suddenly i felt a HUGE spike of hallucinations and not the good ones. Everytime i closed my eyes i saw fleshy and grotesque rashes and wounds everywhere covering my view. It got so bad to the point that i did not blink for as long as i was able to handle the burn in my eyes just so i did not see that again
@@j_bizzle04 your ego is everything that makes up "you", it is what your conciousness sees as part of you, your personality, your body, your actions. But, in the end, what splits you apart from your surroundings is more of a mental thing, and ego death is when what makes up you merges with everything else as the whole universe merges with you; you are the universe and the universe is you. Ego death is a realisation. I had a near ego death experience when I watched Neon Genesis Evangelion at midnight.
@@shlecko i want ego death. i think my ego is getting in the way of my relationship. i’ve been smoking weed for a year but never done psychedelics or got an experience. i think im ready. i need the ego death thing it sound like a real waker and life changer. i think im stuck in life rn and me having an awakening will help.
Most psychedelic experiences are not ego deaths but rather a profound feeling of unity and connection with everything else. You are still within the confines of this reality. A true ego death is akin to death. The only psychedelic that provides that experience as far as I know is 5MeO-DMT.
I have both good and bad trips, confusion is definitely part of an intense acid trip, the fact that buddy went out wandering alone tripping balls is madness
Yep. I remember the very first time I took a gram of 'shrooms my left arm was completely paralyzed, it was laying on my chest with the hand hanging down so I had to drink water and use my phone to change songs or increase volume with my other hand. So weird.
My "Bad Trip" experience is not comparable to this but after years have passed i find it quite humorous what my thoughts at that time were. This is a longer story so if you'd like to read it i appreciate you. I had taken a heroic dose of mushrooms (5 grams) with my friend. I remember eating them with the salsa sun chips, oh man did they taste bad, it took about an hour to eat them all, it was horrendous. Approximately an hour later i noticed while watching tv that i could suddenly feel my heart beat growing and the lights on the tv became blurry almost like seeing all the lights from the window of a car. I felt amazing as if all the problems in the world melted away and life as i knew it was a movie. My friend, at the time, was absolutely addicted to drinking Coca Cola so we went to the clubhouse that resided in my apartment complex to use the vending machine. On the walk over the hallucinations became extremely dark. I saw naked bodies in the tree clawing a begging to be let free as if they were tangled in the bendy wires of the trees. The darkness of the night had become pitch black and it was as almost i had went blind. We got inside the clubhouse and my mind is going 100 MPH, I felt so overwhemeled and regret every bite I had taken of the magical mushrooms. Quite magical but this time I had overdone it. My friend noticed people she knew and both of us seriously questioned if we could speak english right now. She spoke a few words and we made our way for the exit. I frantically rushed home to avoid seeing anyone and once we got inside for a sheer moment i felt so relieved as if seeing a person would ruin any bit of sanity i had left. I practically blackout in the swarm of the dark thoughts that clouded around me. Thinking about suicide and how singular humans are so small on the scale of the universe and how my death would not matter no mind how much i tried to convince myself the opposite. Questioning who I was who the person in the room with me was. Just extremely overwhelming thoughts. (This is the funny part) I remember watching "Orange is the New Black" the 5th season where after the riot the girls invovled get sent to maximum security. Crazy eye's mental condition was portrayed to the camera. Crazy eye's goed to "turn on TV" and every character was in their own fucked up show. (By the way crazy eyes has schizophrenia) One character was pretending to be a magician.... and the act.... sliting her wrist. At the time i did metion i was having suicidal thoughs so seeing that accelerated them to beyond. I cant recall what the other characters were doing but seeing the magician act really sent me into a loop hole. The only thing i wanted in the world was to call my parents. I was convinced that my parents would send me to jail and persecute for taking a psychedelic. ( I have a birth defect where the tip of my tounge is connected to the bottom of my mouth, so i cant stick it out and i look like i have a snake tounge with two tounge ends) I kept thinking to myself thers no way i will survive in jail. Im not a fighter or even aggressive whatsoever. I believe in love and peace. So with that being said I made up this hypothetical lie that i was going to jail. *I sat silently sobbing behind my friend because I was going to be made someone's bitch in jail and i cannot go down on a female so i would obviously be murdered.* I had 100% convinced myself this to be true and I'm having backround thoughts as well as conscious thoughts at the same time. its like i had been given a brain booster to use all percentage of our brain. As this is happening mentally... my living room goes red and the floor turn into lava, (I've taken DMT before and these shrooms halluncination resemble those of DMT) I knew it wasnt real but it looked and felt so real. I saw shadow people and I thought I was going crazy. Just in absolute terror, i proceed to swallow a whole bottle of melatonin. I just wanted to go to sleep and wake up once it was over. I went downstairs to my room and mustered the courage to close my eyes in bed. All i could hear was soft little whispers and saw what looked like color fractals exploding and multiplying. It was so intense I was so afraid of falling into the astral realm because I knew i was not ready. I just lied there for hours eyes open and just getting absolutley beaten up by these thoughts and after a while the melatonin did its job. I was not the same after that.... for 4 months I felt like the puzzle pieces that make me where all jumbled and could not find there way back home. But once i got back to normal life became amazing. I felt as if i had a second chance at life, i had this new found confidence, and ability to put my life together perfectly. I had a sales job where i made over 5000 dollars in one week, repaired old friendships that I had missed, doing amazing in school. If you ask me sometimes... bad trips can be so eye awakening to whats going wrong in your life and getting the answers. Almost feeling like youre kissing death and you got away just by a sliver of luck. Having the intense and brutalizing thoughts as well as the intense halluncinations can make anyone no matter how strong you are mentally shit your pants and question anything you thought was real. But in the end it made me realize a lot of things of profound nature. I'm thankful for that moment because I can finally see. Thank you beyond words if you read this entire thing.
My worse trip- watching my best friend in the world die when I was 17. She had a seizure while I was in the shower fell down the stairs and wasn’t breathing. She died that night. RIP KT. I’m sorry. I’ll never forgive myself.
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Losing your sense of reality must be one of the most terrifying things. It's like wandering an ever-changing maze built by Lovecraft that only you can see.
Believe me, the best part of frying on acid, is the Lovecraft idea! (Also, the worst part of frying,is also the Lovecraft thing!). I’m glad you don’t know what it’s like honey. Your perception of life isn’t altered. You’re better off living in reality. Maybe smoking a joint once in a while isn’t so bad, but all that other stuff is stupid.
if you expect it like takin lsd its pretty good, if you dont then its the worst
I shouldn’t be able to relate to that
You already have to be in susceptible to stuff like that. I've gone so hard that I was worthless and very dissociated, but I was still aware I was a person and where I was.
It very much is mane
This had all the red-flags:
1. New, unfamiliar environment
2. Alone when not used to it
3. "Double dipped" tab
4. He has no idea how much he's dosing himself, you can tell because he measures in number of Tabs, which is more useless than measuring someone's net worth by number of mattresses they own.
On top of so many others.
yup most guys tell it white on white or double dipped and if don't have test as should you could be doing something you don't want too do. been there done that nbome fucking worst time not sure if was going to die or not. my friend was like don't feel anything its normal tab but numb and metal taste was bad sign never trip from that guy again tho and go test kit next day. same dumb friend wants to trip on datura told fuck no i know the darkness i have no way i want face it that way.
Now... how do you know this?🤨
Some people do drugs, my friend
@@rowan-priince1860 yeah and the smart ones try not listen to the person since the guys that have got gud stuff from just most time say be careful and be in right place and mindset.
@@rowan-priince1860 and some people don’t. Should I take a guess at which side of the spectrum you fall into?
I used to smoke weed a lot, and after about 2 years of smoking every day, I lost it. I got really anxious out of nowhere. And realized that I had not thought about my life in months. I had just been on autopilot. I had no idea who I was. I couldn’t think about my character traits, what made me me. I was convinced that the world was all a lie and that there was no truth and we all just made it up. I don’t know exactly how to explain it, but it took me months to get back in touch with reality. Drugs are crazy man
weed cause dissociative symptoms
Did watching DHIS have anything do with it?
I hope you're doing better now and that you've built back your life.
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@Restless yeah if your predisposed to mental illness any drug that has psychoactive properties can trigger you just like that. it can also easily become a crutch for unresolved issues, and in turn you'll become dependant in a way. it can also effect teenage brain developement. dont get me wrong, cbd/thc has tons of positive effects for people with disabilities, but like everything, there are potential cons.
This is why if you are ever going to take a psychedelic, ALWAYS have a trip sitter. Imagine if there’d been someone there to just be like “hey you took acid earlier and blacked out” and prevented the freak out
Yea, this is true. And if that doesn't work, at least they can physically restrain you and prevent you from doing something horrific. I've had to do this more than once when trying to share my passion with people who don't approach it with fear and respect, including my own younger brother who after being given a few drops of liquid diluted and not "feeling it" after 15 minutes or so, went and found my little jar and drowned the ENTIRE fucking thing. Can only thank God it was clean and I knew two people removed from the source and so could be as ascertained of this as possible. After trying everything I eventually had to ask a friend to sit on his legs while I sat on his back and held him down through fits of seizure-like shocks of incoherency and screaming at the tops of his lungs at before dawn in my old apartment, lol. The final straw was after he threw an open soda bottle as hard as he could against my windows then half ripped my ceiling fan out of the kitchen ceiling. He came out of it about 8 hours later and was fine but imagine if that had been some weirdo phenethylamine or something? Kid got so lucky and learned a very, very painful lesson. Also robbed me of what I planned on storing for at least a decade of occasional use but I didn't say anything, it was punishment enough.
Guess you can't do it if you have no friends then.
@@weliveinasusciety1279 I've taken psychedelics alone, far more times than in the company of others. Obviously you can, it just needs to be understood the fully gravity of the situation you're putting yourself into, which without experience is utterly impossible unfortunately. I'm not an advocate of the medicinal or government sanctioned use of psychedelics in clinical monitored environments, but I will likely die with the conviction that psychedelics are among the most important phenomena humans have ever encountered.
That being said it is my opinion that they are not for everybody, and far from the majority of the population, at least not those conditioned to acquiesce uncritically to the established norms of modern cultures. The mind is an extraordinarily fragile thing that is conditioned to "tune out" the unfathomable depths of darkness and chaos writhing beneath its surface, so for many people who have never explored inwardly the sudden eruption of these contents into waking consciousness can be awfully traumatizing and disorienting in perpetuity. There is a kind of fragmentation and depersonalization that is often overwhelming, and getting stuck in repetitive thought patterns of demented mania (what mushroom enthusiasts used to call "time loops") can lead to disastrous consequences, even in the most enthusiastic and seasoned veteran. Regardless of who you are, consuming significant quantities of any psychedelic is always a high risk activity that there is no turning back from once it takes hold, thus having a sober friend or at least sympathetic company is an invaluable means of mitigating any potential harm.
I think pretty much our entire cultural attitudes towards these substances is wrong; they aren't recreational intoxicants, and they aren't necessarily "spiritual" tools in the sense many seem to think of them. They are utterly bizarre visionary chemicals that are not to be taken lightly, opening vistas of unexpected grotesquery and impossible geometric wonder both in the minds eye and out in the surroundings. Nobody knows what to make of them, opinions differ from culture to culture and person to person, and have throughout known history. For my part I can't even settle my opinion on particular aspects of which there are many, whether the state is of a spiritual or trans-dimensional or purely existential and psychological; somehow it seems equally plausible that it is both simultaneously. The visionary aspect especially is just totally confounding to me, almost painfully so.
Having a friend to sit with you or at least be in proximity is a safety precaution with significant potential to reduce harm, but it itself is also no absolute guarantee of safety. If taking them in solitude, for instance if ordered online or bought through channels through which there is no way to ascertain exactly what you're taking and how much, I can only recommend starting with very low amounts and cautiously increasing after roughly an hour. Any other common sense precautions like doing your best to prevent unannounced visitors of any kinds, and turning off your phone and putting it away somewhere are also helpful. If it ends up overtaking you and becomes alarming, like you feel as if it keeps getting more and more intense and your sense of self is spiraling away from you, what has always helped me is to just lay down and ride it out as long as it takes. Shuddering back into and out of coherent reality can be an excruciating ordeal, but reacting to fear by moving about greatly increases the possibility of harm. When you're so deep into it that you can't even remember that you took drugs, or don't know your own name, or forget your native language, there is nothing you can do to reassure yourself and so you have to rely on animal preservation instinct; forcing yourself to stay in one place, "playing dead" in other words, has been what kept me out of the emergency room or police stations, or worse.
Always have a trip killer aka a benzodiazepine
@@mikeyy2322 benzodiazepines are far, FAR more dangerous than acid. I would not recommend that as a solution to anyone.
For me the worst part of my psych trips has always been other people that you weren't expecting to be around. The first time I did acid 3 buddies and I were watching JoJo's Bizarre Adventure when one guys parents come home early and sit in the living room with us. Went from vibing to trying to keep my shit together while his mom goes "You guys know this isnt in english right"
This is hilarious 😂
I love jojo but I never watch on acid
I’m dead😂😂😂😂
at least you watched jojo
LOL WHAT
I think psychedelics are great, but good god man, TREAT THEM WITH RESPECT. Know how much you're taking, don't take it in an uncomfortable environment, don't take it when you're in a terrible headspace, and never hold any serious expectations going into it.
A "bad trip" can be among the worst, if not THE WORST thing a human can experience, because it's completely confined to YOU. Nobody can go in your head and save you...
I'm reporting you to the FBI no joke, I'm tired of dumbasses like you promoting drugs like a fucking moron
fr. I took lsd and started freaking out and someone hit me. idk if I got knocked out or if I just can't remember any of it for what it really was but I was in a nightmare. everyone and everything I had ever known was ripped away from me and I thought I was dead. When I woke up, I thought it was the same because I wasn't aware that it had been a dream, and I still thought I was in hell. I begged my cousin to tell me how to die so I could have peace and broke his tv. I didn't find out what actually happened until a week later, I was just piecing together the parts of the trip that seemed most plausible to try to figure out what happened.
Well said.
Luckily never had a real bad trip, but just the possibility is reason enough to always consider twice before actually taking it.
Its really not that hard to avoid them, if the basic respect is always there.
Just be able to look after your safety,
After the first time I took 7g of shrooms I made a rule to never exceed 4g and only do it once or twice every other season.
Took it alone in the middle of the night and felt so horrified by my most prevelant fear of being abandoned as the white noise from my house overwhelmed my ears.
@@_d2082 jesus god man, I really feel for you. I've never gone insane to the point other people had to fight or restrain me, but I absolutely know what kind of nightmare you're talking about. It's all very real and visceral shit.
I wish you the best in healing, that experience, like any other, is not a "whole" depiction of reality. Just take it easy brother☯
I’ve got one darker.
When I had first started doing acid I decided one night I’d take a tab when my family was going to sleep, and I’d throw something dumb on Netflix to pass the time. 8 hours later I had spent all night watching Adam Sandler movies sober while the acid never hit. I think I was given a piece of paper and told it was acid, lol.
nah dude adam sandler movies just block anything psychedelic out
That is truly horrifying
Isn't that from some bit on an Adam Sandler record? Something like making this guy think you gave them beer and it was non alcoholic, something that wasn't pot and then told him you gave him acid but it was just like pieces of paper. I can't remember how it all went I think this is like 25 years since I heard it.
that's the worst kind of trip
😂😂😂😂 Oh my god dead!
I remember few years back after my wife died, I was left alone with 3 kids. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got diagnosed with bipolar. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment changed my life for better. I can proudly say i'm totally clean for 6 years and still counting. Always look to nature for solution to tough problems, Shrooms are phenomenal.
right on, rock on
I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.
Hey mates! Can you help with the source? I suffer severe anxiety, panic and depression and I usually take prescription medicine, but they don't always help. Where can I find those psilocybin mushrooms? I'm really interested in treating my mental health without Rxs. I live in Australia don't know much about these. I'm so glad they helped you. I can't wait to get them too. Really need a reliable source 🙏
YES sure of mycologist Pedroshrooms. Mushrooms literally got me off my feet and turned my whole life around. I am currently a housing manager for a recovery program. I wouldn't have been able to do that shit without psilocybin.
I'm so very happy for you mate, Psilocybin is absolutely amazing, the way it shows you things, the way it teaches you things. I can not believe our world and our people shows less interest about it's helpfulness to humanity. It's love. The mushrooms heals people by showing the truth, it would be so beneficial for so many people, especially politicians and the rich who have lost their way and every other persons out there.
My buddy took acid once. He completely changed after. Went from overweight and depressed to jacked and got married better job. He's just nicer overall. He said everything just clicked instantly. Everything he wanted was clear on how to get it during the trip.
Lol, he took NZT-48 and turned into Bradley Cooper
To be honest that’s a BIG W good for your homie
Yes! This is what I want!
@@The7thLove 😂😂😂 I was gonna say same thing
@@SOLIDSNAKE. Be careful, not everyone will have the same experience.
Drug-induced panic psychosis is literally the single most horrendous feeling I can imagine. The worst part is it never leaves you after the trip ends; even when completely sober, there's still that itch in the back of your mind wondering if and when you're going to be pulled back into the void.
i've never been able to put that feeling into words but it's almost like you can never go back to who you we're or how you felt as a person afterwards and i don't mean like just my ego, i mean literally the way i perceive my senses and the way i construct thoughts. everything is forever changed except my yearning for people. "the void" is an emptiness which can only be described as if you knew the entire world was going to end but didn't know the exact time or if it would happen.
@@S-6-6-6 you're not alone there, mate. It's been years since my first 'bad' acid trip, and I don't think i'll ever be the same person I was before. I got all the Answers, and they were so terrifying and beyond articulation that I know I'll never touch LSD again. That stomach churning sense of 'dropping out of the Matrix' is not something I want to be reminded of.
@@S-6-6-6 To me i had that feeling after a bad trip. I was certain that im never going to be back the way i used to be. I was convinced that something inside me broke, and there's no way of fixing it. It went away within time. I think the fact that i had a nice acid trip something like a year later somehow fixed it.
But my dosage wasnt high. The bad trip wasnt due to the stuff, it was due to the fact that one crazy guy was about to chop me into the face with an axe after giving me a black eye because he thought i was making fun of him or something like that. While he told me that something is going to happen i thought he was just trying to mind fuck and wasnt serious so i laughed into his face. He was also tripping really hard and we were pretty much in good mood the whole night prior to that. I wouldnt have tripped with him if i knew he is batshit insane even without any drugs in his system.
Propably would have been quite stressful situation even when sober, but that acid certainly amplified the effect since when you are tripping hard you are quite defenceless. Well, lesson learned. Make sure you have good set and settings and also make sure that you only trip with your good pals who you are familiar and close with.
@Sacc its really an indescribable feeling of anxiety mixed with thinking you know everything but at the same time feeling like you know nothing at all, you really have to try it yourself a trip can be different everytime
I used to enjoy lsd but the first time i had a bad trip i never used it again and never will. Can’t risk ever feeling that again, it’s terrifying af
Had an awful trip, never took a hallucinogenic again. Worst part was while all this was going on. I thought I was screaming for help, but my friends told me I hadn’t moved an inch in like an hour.
That's the things about psychedelics. If you don't show them respect, they will show you khaos. Sounds like you took a rather high dose?
jus stay off drugs bro @@Hueghjean
mental weakling, pathetic.
Ive only tripped with one female that didn't have a bad trip. For some reason girls just don't handle it well
I once had a trip that felt just like this and I actually recorded a lot of it on video and I played it back sober and I definitely was asking for help and my friends were just kind of ignoring me. So you might not be as crazy if you think if you just tripped with assholes
Acid was mind blowing for me. I found myself in a world where swirling colors created a mesmerizing kaleidoscope. Time stretched as I explored cosmic landscapes, feeling a profound connection to everything. It left me with a deep sense of peace and wonder, realizing the limitless potential of the mind.
Psychedelics have the ability to induce profound altered states of consciousness
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psychedelics that I know. 0:01
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Man actually turned into a sims character with a sadistic player. 😂😂😂
he really did ☠
Absolutely hilarious lol
Bro got that bad rng
jerma was playing him for that time
In the pool no ladder 🙃
One time I was on acid at my house and had a few friends over. We were having a great time. All I can remember is everyone laughing at everything that was said. Like, someone would say something, then laughter would fill the room as if we were on stage at a comedy show. This went on for what felt like hours, while at the same time, feeling like only 10 minutes went by (hard to understand the feeling if you haven't tripped.)
At one point I went into the bathroom to get a look at myself. When I shut the door, I realized it got really quiet in the living room. All the the talking and laughing my friends were doing, immediately stopped. I thought that was weird but figured it was the acid fucking with my senses. I finished up and when I came out, everyone was gone. The house was silent. I went and looked out the front and backdoors, assuming they all went out to smoke. No one was there. No cars in the driveway, everyone had left... I thought "wtf? Did they all just take off?... That's kind of rude, I thought we were having a good time."
I managed to find my phone, then somehow managed to find and dial the number of one of the friends that had just left. When he picked up I said "Dude! What the fuck, where'd all you guys go?" After a pause he kinda laughs and says "Uuuh. What?" I said "dude, you (and I started naming all the people that were just at my place) were having great time and you all just leave without saying a word? Kinda messed up bro." I can hear a smile in his voice as he says "Oh, we were?" I think "oh shit, did I do something and piss someone off?"
I said "Yea, I mean, I thought we were... weren't we?"
He starts howling laughing. "Bro, I dropped you off at your place 6 hours ago...." Which means I'd been wandering around my living room, talking to myself, for hours.
Still one of the best solo trips I ever had. If only for the pure mind fuck of it all afterwards.
That would’ve freaked me tf out
Brooooo that's my biggest fearr
That sounds so creepy but i could see myself enjoying the hell out of that too haha
Dang you time traveled
@@Dre33-23😂
“I noticed a cross which had a festering pile of bloody guts and organs spread across it, staining the wood in crimson. The guts were smothered in wasps, stinging the ruined flesh causing venomous pestles. It was an image of impossible pain, and then the monologue returned, booming over the sirens, droning over the wasps: ‘this is Christ; he is still suffering for your sins, still paying the price.’”
Holy shit.
right out of a Beksiński painting
Make things right. Do it.
Potent shyt
i love this qoute
And then he describes himself as being in an abyss of endless impossible pain,- full union with that Christ! That is a genuine religious cosmic experience!
First rule of psychedelics, NEVER trip alone. People around you don’t have to be tripping, but you need someone around who knows what you’re up to and a safe spot. Always.
And how many people break that rule? I know I have. If it's something like magic mushrooms where you've a good idea of just how much you're taking and you've plenty of things to occupy your mind with it can be interesting / fun. Naturally, it's certainly not the best idea on your first trip.
I'd say the first rule is always know that at some point you will come down.
Nope. In the first trip I was alone, glad that nobody interrupted my almost religious experience. Ofc it's safer to do it at home, with close friends or loved ones, but sometimes you just need to trip with yourself, feels like a huge upgrade after you come back to earth
@@DESTROFURITY89everytime ive done acid with mates never a bad trip but one time i did alone ive never had the urge to kill myself the visual just became to intense id do something
@@TyreeceDavis I guess I know what you're talking about, even with my trippiest buddies there's a possibility of these overwhelming visuals. It can be frightening when you're not used to it, meditation is a helpful thing to control it
Meh ive always done it alone
I cant do that shit around others i need my personal "zen"
This is my "bad trip" experience.
Psychedelics are potentially the most dangerous drugs you can take.
For some people it is good fun and for some it is the end of their "normal" life
I experienced a drug enduced psychosis which lasted over 4 months.
It all started when i smoked some alleged "weed" at about 10pm in my room.
I remember starting to feel really bad and felt that i was not breathing.
I couldn't feel or really hear anything. It felt like i totally lost all touch with reality.
I went crazy that night and thought if this won't go away till the next morning i have to kill myself because it was so terrifying, i thought suicide was the only way out of this.
I started shaking and having delusions.
I woke up the next morning and it didn't stop...
I found out that i was experiencing something that you call "derealisation and depersonalisation"
Honestly it is the worst feeling you can experience because in fact you do not experience anything at all. You are not there, you are not real. At least that's what it feels like.
After a few weeks of this i developed extreme symtoms like sleep disorders, i didn't eat for days and days, i lost contact with my friends and couldn't leave the house.
I was having so many delusions and everytime i woke up i immediately started shaking. I just couldn't comprehend the fact that i exist. I was trapped in my own existence.
Noone understood what i was talking about and i felt hopeless.
Nevertheless, the situation got way worse than this, way worse...
My delusions increased, i couldn't stop shaking and i could not sleep.
I developed schizophrenia (hearing voices in form of loud and dominant thoughts of which you are not in control) and panic disorder. I was not able to calm down for days. I could not stop shaking, in fact it got worse with everyday. Some weeks had passed and i was already at home from work. (At some point i lost my job because there was no hope for me.)
The feeling that you are going insane is not the worst. The worst thing is that you can do nothing about it and you are concious at all times, i remember everything.
At the worst stage of the psychosis i started hallucinating when i tried to go to sleep. I remember walking up and down in the house, being around other people and just doing all kinds of stuff just to find myself in bed again realizing i just hallucinated.
It all came to an end when i finally got help from a psychiatrist who gave me an antipsychotic pill which i took for about 6 weeks.
It was terrible because it decreases your conciousness and you are tired all day, but at least it helps.
All of this lasted about 4 months in total and i can with 100% certanly say, this is the worst thing i will ever have experienced in all my life.
Psychosis is possibly and probably the worst thing a human being can experience.
This was a few months ago and i look at existence itselft differently now, it changed my way of thinking but i found back to a normal and good life.
All of the symptoms have disappeared.
If you came this far i want to thank you for reading this, take care dear stranger!
i struggle with both derealization and depersonalization, to this day still. it’s interesting to see someone else’s pov of things :0
it’s terrifying, absolutely agree with you there
@@fir-endflames If you want help we can talk about it, i would love to help someone out of this...
I inow how to get rid of it. (from my own experience)
But don't worry, i inow how hard it is but it won't stay forever :)
Sorry you had to experience this, congratulations on getting out of it
They say you explained it is crazy. I took a 1100 ug dose of LSD and was on the brink of going into psychosis. I had to take a bar to kill the trip or else it would’ve been bad
ego death from psychedelics sound terrible.
Music is extremely powerful during trips, my first time truly tripping my friend and I took a decent dose and were both right on the edge of things getting scary. While gripping our seats we changed the music from some super hardcore psychedelic stuff to more light and relaxing, meditative music, like something you’d hear at a spa. I remember throughout the night noticing how much my entire mood and experience changed along with the mood of the music we listened to. Even the littlest things can completely alter your experience, so do yourself as many favors beforehand as you can
Yeah that's what saved me from a bad trip one time when my friend I was dropping with thought it wasn't working and left early and I started hallucinating shadows dancing on my bedroom walls.
It's the vibration u get
Honestly I started tripping hard a few hours ago, but calm music helped so much
Music is unreal on psychedelics. First time I did some, my friends had an absolute bangin playlist that would completely alter the mood and moved you to your core. When some light "vibe-y" jazz came on, I felt like I was walking down the street of 50's New York. Then intense rock music made me feel like an absolute superhero that could conquer the world. Then the Shire music from LoTR that made me cry with complete peace and tranquility. So yeah, with the right dose, friends, and atmosphere, it can be an amazing, life-changing experience.
@@seanrrr the one bad trip ive had was actually caused by music lol. i was listening to really trippy and intense music and when it dropped and intensified i started tripping so much harder. i was tripping so hard i was scared and started to panic, ended up killing the trip an hour later after accidentally seeing myself in a mirror and seeing my reflection staring back at me every time i blinked or closed my eyes at all
if someone posted a trip this bad in the internet, imagine the worst one in history
Oh I have an even worst acid story I wanna post about it
@@jayluvjames6584go ahead bro , I’ll post about my k2 experience as well
some people have tripped and completely and permanently gone into a state of hypnosis and never returned to normal
One time I ate 6 gram of Penis envy mushrooms 🍄 it was similar but not this dense
Yea I’ve had worse and have friends that had worse, one of them got kidnapped while tripping balls
Acid, lsd, dmt and psilocybin containing mushroom are amazing. I got diagnosed with ADHD 18 years ago as a teenage. Spent my whole life fighting ADHD. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 9 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here .
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Germany. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them
YES very sure of dr.bradshrooms. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta
Yes he's Dr.bradshrooms.Lsd and psilocybin are amazing teachers along its dmt mah dudes have safe trips all. Shrooms are blessings from nature.
an old friend of mine once tried acid whilst he was in a heavily depressed state of his life. He described the trip as life-changing, even claiming he it was a key to helping him to cure his depression. lost contact of him ages ago
Your pal probably lives with gnomes in the woods now.
Lmao, I've been trying to get my hands on a small amount of lsd and all the stories I've heard are completely split 50/50 on good and bad. Can't wait!
@@abrahamdomingo8239 it can be fun but in all honesty it's not worth the risk of it being a bad trip. A bad trip is truly one of the most awful things you can go through.
Dang was about to ask how he's going now
@@aaronsosa7736 agreed I’ve never had a bad trip, but only because I was able to straighten myself out before it got bad. A couple close calls
People don't realize how much music helps during trips
For real though. Turn on something calm and pleasant, the positive energy will radiate into you. Just don't go listening to some real hard shit, obviously
@@MrCdog85 music has literally saved me from a bunch of bad trips lmfao
sometimes i want to hear music but i get addicted to the bad trip feeling. I’m not a good person and have a lot of things i don’t talk about or heal from so when I take acid I go crazy lol
@@MrCdog85 i listen to some crazy trippy screamo rap tho, and I'm fine lol. That shit makes me wanna headbang forever
@@tacx_2222 hey man if that's how you like it then great, but I would never recommend that shit to someone just getting into it lol
Two words: *SET and SETTING*
1.) Be honest with yourself about your *mindset* going into a psychedelic experience. Do you have any stressors on your mind? Any negative core beliefs about yourself you haven’t been addressing? These subconscious thoughts WILL come to the forefront of your mind during a trip. Be sure you have psychological tools you can fall back on if the experience gets intense (i.e. a mantra or positive affirmation).
2.) Be mindful of your *environment.* Not just for safety reasons, but also to create a relaxing and comfortable space that doesn’t have any overwhelming stimuli (i.e. a music festival is always a gamble since it’s an unpredictable environment).
3.) *YOU NEED A SOBER BUDDY* (a.k.a. a “sitter”). This is obviously for your physical safety, but they also act as a grounding force if your trip starts going haywire.
4.) Set an *intention* going into the experience. This way, you get to choose which thoughts are at the forefront of your mind when you slip into an altered state of consciousness. Keep in mind, psychedelic medicine is ancient and many cultures have similar practices in place to guide the experience.
5.) *Test your drugs.* Some people who sell don’t even know what’s in their own batch, and some will even try to trick you intentionally. Especially with the current fetynal crisis, it’s SO important to know what you’re putting into your body.
6.) If you have *any* hesitation around the experience *at all*-don’t do it. Wait until you feel ready and confident that you’ve taken all necessary precautions to get the most out of your experience.
*Hope this helps! Stay safe, friends.*
Sincerely, an employee of a psychedelic mental wellness center
If someone has both an anxiety disorder and C-PTSD, would you recommend they stay away from psychedelics/weed entirely?
@@Spats2Bats Great question! Psychedelics have been clinically proven to help with both anxiety and trauma. However, complex trauma could require additional support. I’d recommend connecting with a mental health professional who can help guide you through the experience and support you as you heal from your trauma. It’s always best practice to pair your psychedelic experiences with weekly therapy if you’re able. Hope this helps. 🙂
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@@Spats2Bats yes!
All this to take the drug lmfaooo
not only do i love how this was written, but i love the way you tell it with such energy. thank you for this content, subbed :)
I think you should do a deep dive into Alzheimer’s. I think it could be an interesting topic to talk about.
Edit: I should also mention William Utermohlen, Everywhere At The End Of Time (The Caretaker) and SAVE AS (PAHC).
He should listen to everywhere at the end of time
Alzheimer's trip report
ruclips.net/video/_N-pksVh4-4/видео.html
I've heard Alzheimer's is like a bad acid trip that never ends. I'd rather die lmao
Hey, you, you should listen to Everywhere at the End of the World by The Caretaker. Also watch someone explain it. It gets deep quickly.
12:32 This entire imagery paired with "this is Christ" was the scariest moment for me. The mind on drugs can be a horrifyingly genius artist.
@@MicrogramHeathen yep
And then immediately a wasp getting on him was the cherry on top
I was punched and maybe knocked out on it and it _was_ horrifying. I remember thinking about what hell was like before it and what the worst sort of hell could be like, and that's pretty much where I was, except with even more stuff that I didn't even think about to torment me.
i wish i could get my brain to scare me like ths, but seems like if you want it it eludes you. i've tried everything
@@banquetoftheleviathan1404 you wouldn't want it if you got it
Never tried hard drugs and these stories, as entertaining as they are, make me want to try that crap even less. Like an action or horror movie, you love it because it's fiction, but you'd never want to face a killer or get chased at high speed in a car. Truly that whole experience sounded like a horror movie. Hope that guy is clean now.
They just want farm exp points😂😂😂
Lsd isnt a hard drug
Bro you have no idea of psychedelics Fr😂.
@@averagezyzzenjoyer5630 Bet
@@momoshikadora and if im Fr im prettie sure that wasnt just lsd
1. Don't go outside
Things get awkward real quick. You can never control what other people are doing. This will throw you off.
I feel like going outside is the last thing I’d do if I’m tripping balls
Okay but can we talk about how great of a writer this person is? They need to write a book
Yes it did come across as a work of fiction. Not a bad effort
Well read also.
they need to try lsd so they can see how laughable this story is
I found it incredibly hard to listen to honestly
@@arsemyth8920There's no Park Lane Hotel in Norwich, the only Park Lane at all is nowhere near any cul de sacs or play areas, and frankly, Norwich is almost entirely flat, so the idea of any kind of embankment is a bit odd.
The weirdly specific details there are don't really seem to add up, probably fiction.
A friend of mine just passed away because he got hit by a car while on LSD and all his "sitters" were also under the influence of other substances. ALWAYS have someone FULLY SOBER with you when doing psychs
I’ve tripped over 40 times, mostly on mushrooms. Never have had a sitter. The problem is when you don’t respect the substance.
sitters can be tripping, but they need to be experienced. Ive tripped over 100 times, ive had 1 bad trip and that was within my first 3 months of doing mushrooms and i took 6g
You should not allow yourself to leave, or have someone else that wont allow you
or don't do at all
Or drive Alone, in some backroads at night, where there is no harm, and no soul
@@arthurmcaryanmcnuggetsblackoneyes driving while hallucinating is much safer!
I had the most terrifying experiance of my life on mushrooms. Lost my grip on reality completely in a very scary way. Was disassociated for about 3 weeks after that. Had my mum and little sister visit me and i didnt even feel human, even 2 weeks later. Nothing scarier than thinking you have permanently lost your mind
I completely understand, i remember the night i took somewhere between 4-8 grams of some P.E. and while it started off nice, with dancing lights and fuzzy graphics. It soon turned into a hazy mess with me laying in my bed gripping to reality while i felt my dog melting into the bed. The morning after I felt as you described: completely dissociated and I had never felt more alienated from my body in my life. I felt my whole life was a cycle, and you get that sense of “is this actually reality?” Crazy stuff.
I guess what you are saying here it is called derealisation phenomenon check it and tell me that what you felt
@@khalilsmedeye1346 yeah man a bit of that for sure. I felt completely disconnected from myself and everything around me and had constant sense of panic. I have been unsure of reality in a less severe way ever since. If I start to question reality I can start to panic again so I try not to
@@TM66240talking i had something similar i took like a 5 gram shroom right off the jump it was bad i didnt feel good at all and i was in a panic and for sum reason outta no where my vision would go black and come back and keep in mind it was 4:00 all of a sudden i remember is waking up and its like 8:30 till this day i dont know what happened in that time span that i couldn’t see but since i will never take nothing at all.
when i remember getting my my consciousness back and it didnt feel real my friend was talking to me but i didnt say a word cuz of i stunned i was.
I took 4 grams of shrooms on my 3rd ever trip. I got cocky. I loved the visuals and the giggles but I got that overwhelming sense of nausea that you could only get from eating a dead thing that used to eat dead things. It was minor, I handled worst before but that single negative sensation was enough to drag me down a hole.
I tried to take a dump after a shower to maybe relieve the nausea but as I sat on my toilet (still naked) I suddenly convulsed strong enough to slam my head on the corner of my bathroom counter. I leaned back, suddenly terrified and puked on the floor. I remember clinging on to the counter and the towel rack, still convulsing and scared as hell.
I fell on to the floor and had what I could only describe as a seizure. I’ve had the misfortune of seeing a seizure in person and it isn’t an exact comparison but close enough. All my motor skills were fried and I just convulsed on my bathroom floor, covered in puke.
I must have recovered because I have the faintest memory of sitting on the tile floor and my vision was looped. It was like a Microsoft transition, I just kept getting up. I remember feeling terrible because I thought it had already gone for decades and I’m probably in a mental hospital, burdening my family with medical bills.
At some point I had somehow got in the tub and I’m assuming randomly convulsing? The faucet came on and was extremely hot burning my feet. In that state of mind, I just assumed I was a witch being burned at the stake. Not sure what my rationale was because I interpreted that to mean that I had to live EVERY SINGLE PERSONS life. I swear to God I’ve lived for eternity or at the very least, I know what it feels like.
My last thought was being a boiling soup. My sister was a bubble, my room was a pop. Everything was swampy soup. Just a mash of brownish green colors and waves.
I remember waking up and all the sounds were playing at once. Like a frozen game trying to catch up on all the audio that was bugged out. I stood in front of my door hearing my family pass by insanely fast, knocking, talking and eventually a loud bang. Then it all stopped. I worked up the bravery to open the door and my grandpa was sitting on the couch, mad that I had been in the bathroom for so long.
I screamed at him. Thought it wasn’t real. I still do shrooms but I’ve seen into the abyss and the abyss was a real jerk.
DMT is the most craziest experience have ever had in my entire life,but I was been helped out by a specialist who guided me through my first ever DMT experience,he got all kinds of psychedelics stuffs
¿¿Dude is on telegram
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I had only one bad acid trip. All I remember from it is nonstop thinking "it keeps going, it keeps going, it keeps going, it doesn't stop" fo what felt like several eternities.
"Everything everywhere keeps going forever and ever. You can't get off the ride and even if you could, you're too scared to."
i don’t care
@@misruledd I don't care that you don't care
Same.
@@misruledd le pol face lmao
If one plans to take Psychedelics, you need to be very careful about your set, setting and dosage. There are new studies going on right now that are using them to treat treatment resistant mental illness; things like Depression and PTSD. (Note: Treatment resistant generally means that the other medications and/or psychology methods have not worked)
These drugs are VERY powerful, and if used irresponsibly can cause incredible damage to a person's psyche.
Yeah Ive heard of people who take too much LSD and get permanent hallucinations
@Chris Pesce Oh yeah. Caution is everything. Yes, they can be fun and enlightening, but never underestimate them
well if you want to be scared cuz you are a horror junkie then nothing happens cuz you want it and it sucks. i'd love to have a scary trip but i guess i'm just too logical to fool myself
@Chris Pesce dude prob already had it
@@banquetoftheleviathan1404 "Too logical to fool myself" has got to be the funniest shit I've read all day lmao. Drugs don't work by logic nor do they care about your logic lol
I dropped acid with my best friend and his girlfriend (also a good friend) We listened to music and watched fractals on RUclips and had a great time. Eventually at some point after peaking, for some reason I took some more acid. We all started discussing philosophy and ideas about spirituality. And when I say we were discussing, it was more like they were discussing and I was listening intently because I was a little too frazzled to talk coherently and add anything of value to the discussion. Anyway, at one point they were discussing where we all came from. Like how humanity came into existence. And then I started hearing a voice that wasn't from either of them. Or maybe it was from one or both of them. But it wasn't coming from their mouths and speaking out loud. It was definitely in my head. And I started thinking back to it and having a conversation. I wasn't sure if I was communicating with them telepathically, or if I was communicating with some sort of spiritual entity. I don't quite remember exactly what was said, but I very clearly remember it saying that, me, my best friend, his girlfriend, my mom, dad, ex girlfriend, everyone. They're all me. And I'm them, and everyone else, all along. And I believed it as fact instantly. It became my reality. And with that realization, I felt the most overwhelming sense of pure love for those around me that I'd ever felt in my entire life. It was like realizing that your first love, your childhood friends, everyone that's ever helped you along the way, have always been there for you all along. And that you were never struggling through life alone. Because they all subconsciously knew the deepest parts of you. They just didn't know that they knew you so well, because they didn't know that you and they were the same.
I asked the voice who it was and it didn't give me a name, but it said that I could call it love. And it said that it was also me. And this is where it got a little spooky. It said that It's been waiting for a very very long time for me to wake up and realize what I was now understanding. I can only assume that long time would be the entire history of humanity.
That trip changed my outlook on life and people for the better. Indefinitely. I've never had that happen before during any of my acid trips. It was more than just an ego death. It was a profound spiritual connection.
I was already an empathetic person before then, but now, I see no difference between you and I anymore. Nothing other than the physical body and experiences. So I always try to help others whenever I have the opportunity.
Yes ❣️🤞
thats the energy that you'll feel with everything soon. love is the new age brother
"I was already an empathetic person before then, but now, I see no difference between you and I anymore. Nothing other than the physical body and experiences. So I always try to help others whenever I have the opportunity."
I could've written this myself. It's something that I've tried to express to other people but many don't seem to get it. I don't know when exactly I started to feel this way. I haven't done psychedelics yet but the first time I tried weed I did *way* too much and experienced what other people have described as ego death. It felt like I lost all sense of myself and I remember thinking "this must be what it feels like to be dead" or something similar. It was a profound experience. I don't remember hearing any voices or having any specific epiphanies, though I do remember saying "this is a religious experience" as I reached out to grab my Xbox controller at one point lmao.
Suffice to say that I've arrived at very similar conclusions - we are indeed all the same. Though we are differentiated by our physical bodies and unique experiences, yes, I think we are also differentiated by genetic factors that influence our psychology in different ways. But even so, we are still all cut from the same cloth.
@@Luke-ih1oc Well worded. I haven't taken psychedelics either, but this one time I smoked weed I immediately felt like an alien for the next two weeks. It was definitely terrifying, but thank goodness I'm a spiritual person so I handled this kundalini awakening consciously so it didn't have any negative affects on me. With one's mental state the law of polarity will have them come out on the other side either psychotic or spiritually endowed
This is beautiful and i had a similar experience that also changed my life for the better entirely 🤍 after a horrible trip experience on a large amount of shrooms i finally let go and stopped fighting what i thought was my death and i was transformed out of my body and into the stars and beyond and i was light energy and i saw that everyone and everything in this universe every single piece of everything is all the very same thing it more than energy its all one energy and a loving energy.
started smoking since my teenage. Got addicted to cocaine. Also suffered severe depression and mental illness. It's just amazing how psilocybin mushrooms treatment actually saved my life. 3 years clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms
0:09 they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here. and mushrooms are one of the most amazing things on this planet i wish people would all realize. they could solve a lot of problems, more than just mental treatments, environmental clean up; the possibilities are endless with fungus
I've been looking to try shrooms for depression, just very difficult to get a
reliable source here in Australia. Really need! 0:07
Hey! Yes very sure of Dr.johnsonshroom. a single dose of shrooms saved me from Alcohol addiction. 6 years clean. no cravings. 0:10
0:01 Psychedelics made me quit a lot of bad habits and gave me a more positive outlook on life and the appreciation for other people 0:01
@@MichaelHart-to3mfIs he on insta? 0:13
LSD saved my life in the weirdest way at 18. I was a stupid kid, popping pills and just living like a zombie. I couldn't see anything beyond myself. I had a bad trip at a rave. I took other pills that were crushed and snorted them earlier which were downers. Assuming these things collided with each other, it was as if life were a movie. Dada life was on stage and the lights were so intense. However, I could hear nothing but my inner monologue. I spoke to myself so loudly. I was making a list of all the people who who be disappointed in me if they knew what I was up to. I had intense fear. I could hear the people I love tell me vocally that they were upset with me. My friends around me were concerned as I was zoned out into the lights. It felt like hours of me in an "avatar" state, speaking in my head. I lost all my belongings including my glasses, cellphone and hat. The next day, I was such a depressed mess. I refused to get out of bed.
When Monday came around and I went back to school, I went to my most trusted teacher and told the truth of my drug issues. The acid just...woke me up. I went to a center and got clean. My school was very supportive because I sought the help.
I'm 28 now and I really think that was such a rock bottom, vulnerable moment in my life.
im so glad for this
congrats to you for realizing the message, accepting your problem and getting the help you need. that's super brave and admirable
Acid do be showing you what you need to see and not what you wanna see lol
I'm not the one to judge but I wouldn't say that the drug was your savior. You probably would've come to that realization if you fucked up with another thing. Life has a way of giving us a wake up call through mistakes and shame. Its all you not the drug.
Congratulations! I'm proud of you for experiencing that horrible trip but finding help afterwards. You really pulled yourself out when you asked for help and you should be proud of yourself.
I constantly tell myself “i bought this, this is what I wanted” whenever i feel uncomfy or It becomes to much for me. That usually helps a lot and gets me back to a good mood It’s crazy how just by changing the way you think about things changes your perspective when you are in that state of mind. Thats the only things that got me through eating a quarter of shrooms and downing it with vodka. Not my smartest moment tbh.
xD yea i can imagine.
These "savetynets" are really great to have, the more the better.
Very true. I was dosed with 22 hits of blotter one night and for most of the trip I was lost in the woods in the middle of the night only able to see 2 dimensional kaleidoscope for most the trip while language sounded like jibberish. I repeated in my head. This is a drug I bought it and it will wear off
I had to fall asleep 😭😂
In the past I would often atleast once or twice a trip think to myself " why would anyone pay money to feel like this" then laugh at myself and enjoy the rest of the trip.
Nowadays i consider myself a Jedi having tripped 1000 times atleast, never having these thoughts as my use for it has changed.
When your young you just wanna get fucked up
Now I'm older and just occasionally wanna let pandora out and go on a adventure, of my mind evaluate some shit or escape to a beautiful place for a few. Like a mental vacation maybe
To me, the phrase that helps me is “this is temporary. You’ll be fine in a matter of hours”
That sounds, scary.
And it reminds me of some of my own experiences dealing with psychosis after a traumatic event.
For a second I "glimpsed the infinite" and I understood everything in that moment.
I remember looking at myself as I fell to the floor laughing. It was all a giant joke.
Then I remember watching myself for months. But I don't remember really what happened during that time. Just that the funeral took place. My memory has been garbage ever since.
It makes me wonder about the what self really is.
So sorry to hear that, hope you’re doing better❤️
That's not psycosis, that's derealization.
Your memory is shit because you are minorly dissociated all of the time.
You should see a CBT trauma therapist.
yeah depersonalisation is really really awful, i never want to experience it again.
@@thegrandnil764 a WHAT therapist?
@@adi9530 In case you ain't joking, cognitive behavioral therapy. Fuckin acronyms lol
DMT is a naturally occurring hallucinogenic drug with spiritual and cultural significance in indigenous cultures.
consumption can produce different intensities and durations of effects, as well as potential risks and side effects.
@@LarsHarvey-dy4vpassociated with the world’s four most popular psychedelic drugs. Ayahuasca, DMT, MDMA and psilocybin mushrooms can all take users through a wild mind-bending ride that can open up your senses and deepen your connection to the spirit world. Not all trips are created equal, though - if you’re sipping ayahuasca, your high could last a couple of hours. But if you’re consuming DMT, that buzz will last under than 20 minutes.
@@StephenOscar-jj9qsDMT to be used as a therapy tool to treat depression, anxiety and other mental health conditions, as well as aid with self-improvement and discovery. But studies of DMT are actually scarce, so it’s hard to know the full extent of its therapeutic benefits.
@@AmadaBlackI've been looking to try shrooms, anyone knows where can I acquire some?
@@BrieflyCarmel-vw1znyeah , he's Dr jeffshrooom he got magic mushrooms , DMT , LSD and other psychs
Chill dude, don't have to read it so well so i start having a bad trip while completely sober as well
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Thought I was on acid too😂
As someone who deals with bouts of psychosis, even I can't imagine a trip like that. Granted, my episodes **usually** involve me completely dissociating and collapsing into myself rather than anything hallucinatory, but there's still a lot of, like... inability to distinguish what's real and what isn't.
Though some of my psychotic episodes have manifested as night terrors. For those who don't know, a night terror isn't the same as a nightmare, but basically a sleep psychosis. Sometimes completely unconscious, sometimes semi-conscious.
And boy howdy, let me tell you, thrashing and screaming bloody murder when your SO is - or was - asleep next to you, then trying to stop her from turning on the light because you don't know who she is and if she turns the light on she'll reveal herself as an evil, monstrous demon... not a good time.
That wouldn't be the last time I refused to let her turn on the light, either, because during my terrors, I heard her voice, I recognized her saying who she was, but it wasn't really her. At least that's what I thought in those moments.
I apparently had terrors fairly frequently as a child, but they weren't violent the way the one above was. I don't know if I still get them, but I would imagine so.
I genuinely can't fathom why people take LSD. Don't get me wrong, I don't judge; to each their own. However, with the terrible places my mind has gone, the fact that people like to go there for fun absolutely perplexes me 😅
this isn’t what normally happens, it’s usually peaceful and feels meaningful. I guess it’s the same way how I can only imagine what you go/went through. I’m sorry you gotta deal with that man it sounds horrible
Been there man, especially the terrors. They appear if I have gone too long without sleep and then when I finally do I get woken by the greatest fear one has ever known. Its like all the horror movie characters came at you at once with Wolves, snakes spiders and any other trigger of terror all joining forces to push adrenaline through you. Pure terror but its like nothing was there, no dream or nothing just terror.
Then there are the nightmare lucid dreams where I wake....and wake.... and wake into endless versions of reality, never knowing which is real only to have them interrupted by demons or like the other day repeatedly attacked by a witch biting and scratching me.
@@seditt5146 ah yes, the waking up to giant spiders and spider webs everywhere... I'm sorry you've gone through it as well. For what it's worth, you're not alone ♡
@@meechie9z yeah, I've heard that it's usually much more pleasant than this. Based on my own experience it wouldn't be worth it to risk a bad trip, but that's just me and knowing my own brain chemistry. I'm not sure if you were implying that you do the thing, but if so, may your trips always be good ones ♡
I think it depends on the person and the mindset they have going in. Somethings can freak you out even more like looking into a mirror. Some people get extremely anxious when things start getting weird and work themselves up more. I always like to tell people what I was told before I tried it. Don’t go out in public, don’t do it alone (mostly if you’re not used to it), and remind yourself that this is all part of the trip and everything is fine. It’s definitely not for everyone but as an anxious person with these rules I had a wonderful time. The guys I did it with were very kind and we had so many meaningful and explorative conversations. Also touching different textures is extremely fun since your senses are maxed out lol.
Idk if this has been pointed out or not, but great choice for the thumbnail.
For those who don't know, the drawing of the eyes was made by August Natterer and is titled "My eyes at the moment of the apparitions." Natterer was a German artist of the early 1900's known to have suffered from severe schizophrenia, reportedly experiencing florid delusions of other realms: " God himself occurred, the witch, who created the world - in between worldly visions: images of war, continents, memorials, castles, beautiful castles, just the glory of the world - but all of this to see in supernal images. " I think he really captured his madness in that drawing, and it relates so perfectly to the madness wrought by a bad trip on psychedelics. So again, bravo on the thumbnail.
"I wrote a note to reassure myself if I passed out while on acid. Alas, being on acid, I couldn't read it."
Man.
I went to the er a few months back after "oding" on some freshly picked mushrooms.
When the medics arrived I had been screaming at the top of my lungs for the past 10 minutes. I don't remember screaming. I didn't hear anything. I just remember being huddled in the corner of the room i was in, my attention fully on the shadowed figure opposite of me, that had been chasing me all around the house for the past minutes/hours/days. It wanted to hurt me. It was like my past trauma had come back and materialized. I don't know. The details are fuzzy, and that's a very brief version, but yeah. Don't fuck around with psychedelics unless you fully understand what you're getting into. Never do it alone. It doesn't matter how tough you think you are, your imagination is unspeakably terrifying when you remove its limits.
Are you ok now?
@@_d2082 no, they died
@@blimm8995 lol
ur story better than this whole video lmfao
Thanks for driving me even farther away from ever trying drugs
comment section full of bots trying to get ppl addicted to drugs lmfao
Seriously though lol
Bruh it's not drugs, psichedelics are anti-drugs. You should watch Eternalised video on psichedelics
@@fastestdeath no, anti drugs dont exist, thats not a real thing. psychedelics are absolutely drugs in that they make you hallucinate
You already do drugs, amigo.
I remember one time i had surgery when i was like 10. I was always scared of needles so they used gas anesthetic before they put an iv in. Well, turns out, the gas anesthesia made me start tripping balls. I was in a white room, 3 black shapes spinning in front of me. A square within a square rotating, a star that was flashing, and a circle. People were screaming, my skin was stinging like hell, i heard ticking and sirens. Then after what felt like three minutes, i woke up screaming, and finally went out again no problem. Was crazy as hell.
I was about 10 too and I remember waking up to see my crotch cut open and a skin flap on my left hip with surgical tools laying on that flap on a little cloth. I just looked into my body then looked at my surgeons who looked at me and I said “So um what now” and they said something along the lines of put him back under and the mask went back on. I woke up having no concept of reality, self or memory at all. It was terrifying. I didn’t know who my mom was so I panicked screaming “I don’t want to go! I don’t know who she is!”.
Edit: It was a hernia surgery next to my penis.
@@Zanemob Woah, you actually woke up?? That's crazy. I admit I'm completely ignorant on law or malpractice but dude, sounds like you probably could have sued them.
Look up this poor guy Sherman Sizemore (not a joke, just a weird name). His story was like waking up in surgery, but way worse.
Yeah apparently most people don’t hallucinate from the gas stuff but I did. It wasn’t a traumatizing experience but I didn’t like it and it has made me afraid to have it again. I have a panic disorder so a bad trip could easily just break me.
Hernia surgery too. Gas black out. Saw different doctors far off working while real ones in reality worked too.
If you looking for any way to treat any mental health related issue, I'll recommend magic mushrooms.
I remember having some minor surgery years ago and at that point I had never done any kind of drug at all. I didn't even drink small amounts of coffee or alcohol. They hit me with an intravenous dose of Demerol and I felt worst so after my mushroom hit I found a better part of myself.
I was skeptical at first, but psilocybin mushrooms have been a game-changer for my mental health.
How do you get your supplies of psychedelic products and supplements?
where do you get from ?
doc_hayles
Moral of the story: Have a babysitter, and preferably something that can reverse the effects.
This probably could have all been prevented, by saying "You took some acid. Everything is OK. Just lay back and relax, I'll get you some orange juice" before the trip got on top of him.
You mean tripsitter
ORANGE JUICE? doesn't that make the trip more intense??
@@_d2082
Common myth, but no. Citric acid helps the body process LSD faster. Faster doesn't neccesarily mean a more potent trip.
As with most substances the intoxicating effects are caused by too much of it built up in your system. This can sometimes trigger parasympathetic nervous activity that causes the release of cortisol and norepinephrine. Which can cause "bad trips".
Citric acid prevents this buildup from getting out of hand. Causing a more mellow trip with less chance of it turning on you.
@@Mr.BadExampleMT Ohhhhh, interesting. I had a very bad trip B4 and we all drank orange juice before it cause we heard itd make it more potent. I assumed it made it a lot more intense but I guess not. I wonder what it would have been like had I not drank any. I know you're not google lol but do you know if milk affects your trip at all?
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Oof. Sounds like you got in your head a bit. That's very common though. Taking OJ to make a more potant high is a pop cultural leftover. Though that's weird because they always accurately show people drinking OJ during the trip. This is because it's used as a method of titration.
Sounds, by what you're saying, you probably had a little too much and panicked. Especially for first timers, they tend to also get excited to trip. Problem is, excitement shares a lot of endocrine and parasympathetic responses as fear. This is why "terrific" and "terrifying" are antonyms but share a common root.
no way no in hell im ever taking lsd, my mental state is so fragile that i lose touch with reality and spiral completely sober. I feel like if it went bad there would be no coming back from it for me. It's so interesting hearing other people's experiences though and this guy wrote it beautifully, i could perfectly picture the scenery and emotions
There were some moments I had to pause and take a breather cause of how well I they wrote it, it genuinely felt like I was experiencing it, so much anxiety...
@@thatpandaz6094nah u good bro, you have the power to change your reality
Same. It's strange to me how many people seem to have complete control of their mind. The idea he believes he would have been fine if he hadn't forgotten is insane - it implies he could have successfully just told himself to calm down. When I tell myself to calm down, usually the next thought is - but what if you can't...
@@drankydrank1It's not about having control of your mind, you don't. You just have to learn how to deal with it and make your mind to what you want.
That's why psychidelics is a learnt experience. I never learnt to control it but I just now know what to do incase I spiral.
It's all about understanding yourself
Never take it.
Diazepam is a trip killer. If you are going to take psychedelics it’s a wise idea to have some nearby just in case things go wrong. It will calm you down very quickly. Meditation is also very helpful. The ability to unidentify with your thoughts is wonderful.
i have done meditation for a long time at a constant pace meditating around 2 hrs per day, doing shrooms here and there, there is a moment where meditation gets you in a similar state that low dose of shrooms get you, its really awesome :D
Diazepam is also really useful for steadying your aim when you're engaged in a sniper battle with a russian woman in an Alaskan military base
It doesn't kill the trip, it more so just relaxes you. But you'll still be getting some visuals/hallucinations. Just less intense, and keeps you calm.
@@juandavidcorzo3893
Do you do breathing excercises when meditating?
If so, it may just be a slightly too low or too high level of oxygen in the blood, messing with brain chemistry.
After all, psychodelics are just things that mess with your brain chemistry, and causing it to go haywire.
@@urmumsbapsI actually love you for this comment
*Mushrooms did wonders in my life. I could remember several years ago, I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Was actually diagnosed with ADHD. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. This is something that really need to be use globally to help people with related health challenges.*
Psychedelic's definitely have potential to deal with mental health symptoms like anxiety and depression, I would like to try them again but it's just so hard to source here..
Can you help me out with a source? I suffer from severe anxiety and depression and have been on prescription meds, but they haven't really helped. Where can I find psilocybin mushrooms?
*Myco_kings.* He's the most knowledgeable about psychedelics that I know.
Thank you. He's on instgrm??
Yes
The way he described the sensations of his trip was fucking immaculate. I could clearly visualize every scene he wrote about, even when he became a writhing amalgamation of pain. Listening to these bad trip videos really makes me want to watch some type of horror movie about a bad trip, but I also realize that it would only really be horrifying if I were the one tripping.
watch climax! its much like this :) its in french tho, by gaspar noe
It sounds fake
@@certhal86 they will shatter your understanding of your reality and your own thoughts if psychedelics aren’t something you’re savvy with.
@@certhal86 i’ve watched people lose their minds on acid it’s not something to play with if you’re not in the right state of mind.
@Mark Kyrie fed
I’ve tripped many times so I would say I’m a pretty experienced tripper gaining experience while helping people have a bad trip while tripping myself. But one day i took a triple dipped tab, i didn’t know this at the time but i went into complete darkness I had no feeling in my entire body, and I would close my eyes and open them and see the same thing. Luckily from my experience i handled it really well and my friends told me I just sat there in silence. But from the small vivid bits and pieces I remember being horrified knowing I was long gone from reality and nobody could help me
Damn
@Mark Kyrie Quran 36:66 💚
REAL
stop taking drug then idk
I kept getting trapped in time loops. My dog whined at me, so I stand up, walk to the front door and open it for her. Soon as I opened the door, I’d be at the couch with my dog whining at me. It repeated a good 7 times before I was like BRO WHERE IS A CLOCK.
I love loop trips 😭
personally i have never taken acid and most likely never will but hearing other people's experiences with lsd is just so interesting to me, just trying to fathom what people go through on this trip is so trippy in its self
Acid is crazy but if u ever do it make sure u do it w ppl u rlly trust and feel comfortable around cus I almost had a horrible trip bc I was w ppl I wasn't rlly close w
It's Soo fun tho when u have a good trip
No no no habib, you have no fuckin idea what this shit does😭😭😭 if you take it take a sensible amount and if you do take i wish you a wonderful and eye opening trip🙌
The high puts you in another state of your world/mind. Your so trippy in yourself lmaoo .
Its just as if you have a projector wheel right behind your eye, its some crazy stuff, can really heal you or can really fuck you up, act towards it as you do with electricity, respect and fear and you will be fine
Everyone who has experienced the acid loop can relate...also it always seems like the universe laughs at us when we are in that kind of state...it's like the worst moment of your life and something or someone is laughing at you....strange
I think this is because of the balance of Yin and Yang. Terror implies laughter the same as man implies woman, and black implies white. There is humor in bad experiences. After all we have all sat around with our friends and laughed sharing our worst experiences in life, from our past.
@@04dram04 I think it’s a demonic entity laughing at us for trying to gain access to gods knowledge
I just imagined myself in that state in the past while on lsd . And I see why the universe would laugh 🤣 it is pretty funny , how much we tend to go in circles
Loops are always terrifying in the moment but when you think back to it it's always hilarious considering what was actually going on and how you were behaving
it wouldn't be the Universe, it'd be the toxic side of your ego-self not your cosmic-self. The Universe (cosmic-self) in its highest state is of truly unconditional love, I’ve felt it before whilst on psyches with the channel of my Crown opening.
I tried micro-dosing yesterday for the first time, and I had wonderful experience. I'm someone who suffers from chronic depression, and I was simply happy, not overly ecstatic, but genuinely happy and active with my friends and family. I was even excited to get out of bed this morning.
Please does anyone know where I can get them? I put so much on my plate and it really affects my stress and anxiety levels, I would love to try shrooms
@@VictoriaReese-ch1xzYes, bergwilly11_
A lot of people have testified about this and I really want to give it a shot. I put so much on my plate and it definitely affects my stress and anxiety levels
The Trips I've been having have really helped me a lot,I finally feel in control of my emotions and my future and things that used to be mundane to me now seem incredible and full of nuance on top of that I'm way less driven by my ego and I have alot more empathy as well
@@zarkos2313Is he on instagram?
Finally someone spoke about the dots .. I took two tabs one time , and ever since then my trips have never been the same . I was tripping so hard that day I got to the point where it felt like I had to make a decision between the dots , it’s how u said you had to move them with your vision to get down to the last two dots , and I would feel the pressure intensified as I had to pick and if I looked off just by a glimpse they would disperse and I would have to start all over again with thousands of dots …. It felt like a battle of black and white and the fear of not picking the right dot … of the unknown to where I would ultimately change the course of the trip , I didn’t want to open the door and I kept the trip inside the apartment where me and my friend where and we just stayed in a Limbo , it was really weird I could see and hear her inner thoughts and vice versa .
Always wondered what doing drugs like this would feel like, even if I never ended up doing any. Now I know that I'm not even gonna take the risk.
Same, I feel like most people do it thinking it's gonna be all sunshine and rainbows when it could turn for the worst.
Also, what is with the bots? It's like those bots that find videos with a keyword and just spam. Really the wrong video to spam under though.
@@thetarr2 While it could be something incredible, something beyond my imagination etc, I don't want to run the risk of what this poor soul suffered.
Also yeah, that bot is weird.
To be fair trip sitters exist for this reason. Also his first drop probably shouldn't have been a whole tab
Honestly I’ve done acid a bunch of times and my first reaction to a story like this is that it’s complete bullshit. But I’ve seen first hand someone get their brain fucked up by drugs so idk what to think. Maybe I’m just lucky I never had a trip this bad or maybe this is bullshit who’s to say
This stuff can be one of most wonderful things in life if done in right way
I've never taken psychedelics, and I most likely never will, but it's so fascinating to me when I hear about what the human brain can do when affected. I might do some research because this type of stuff is really interesting.
Not for everyone. During my first year in the Netherlands, me and my buddies used to do magic truffles which contain the same substance (Psilocybin) which is in mushrooms. I've had some of my best times on them, some were bad but nothing too fucked up. But one guy has a horrendous experience, he never recovered fully tbh, quite scary, i believe it has something to do with his subconscious.
love this comment!
A childhood friend of mine was in a car accident and a vile in their pocket was smashed into their leg. They were changed fundamentally. Refusing to go by their name and creating a new identity/personality. I visited them some years later. What stuck out the most was how they read novels. They would tear out all the pages and scatter them everywhere. Over the next few weeks they would organically encounter the misplaced pages and read them in whatever order they encountered them. When asked about this they told me it made for a much better story.
I think your friend is a moron and naturally mentally ill. People have taken thumbprint doses of lsd and came out perfectly fine. A thumbprint is when you dip your thumb in crystal LSD and then lick it, typically ranging from 20,000-80,000 doses. A vial is typically 30 doses. Also the car accident must've given him brain damage or something, don't blame LSD as it's clearly not the culprit and it never has been.
That’s insane, but so interesting
Bros on a whole other level of reality (‘◉⌓◉’)
Fascinating! They sound fucking insane 💀
@@IncredibleIceCastle Maybe. They don't seem to look at reality the same way as they used to or the way we do for that matter. They were not painting the walls with squirrel blood or anything like that though. We were both guitar players before and after and their music had changed as well. I found it impossible to play together after the accident. Not that it was bad but because you couldn't predict what was coming next. It's like they just made it up as the went but you could ask them to play it again and they would. I think I recall that it wouldn't be the same and this made it hard for them to perform with others. I think this passed eventually and they can play cover versions of popular songs without get lost.
I don’t know how he recalled all of this. Fascinating.
Im a bit of a skeptic but i feel most of these stories are fake ngl
Psychedelics are great. Funny story, LSD actually saved my life, I was going down the wrong path in my youth, alcohol, drugs, crime etc. One day a friend convinced me to try some acid, it was very potent, after getting over the giggles, I realized that my perception of everything completely changed, I saw life in a more logical sense, I literally looked into the mirror and I immediately saw the stupidity of my behavior, when I watched TV, I was able to see how extremely stupid it is, you actually see the subliminal messages in commercials, amazing! It changed my life for the better... Looking forward to tryout the magic mushrooms next just don't know where or how to get them, so rare in my area
I remember the first time I ever tried LSD. I had just turned 30 and I was in an experimental stage. I didn't know what I was doing and I took 13 hits. It took a long time to come back down. It was a trip!
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@@userconspiracynut is he on IG or what?
when i tried shrooms i ate way more than i should of because i thought they wouldn’t work and then my face got numb and i threw up shrooms and my friend was laughing but trying to comfort me and the bathroom lights were flickering cuz they were old and i had to go home
@@ugmiles. yeah, He has variety of stuffs like mushrooms, lsd, DMT even the chocolate bars
Omg some of the acid trips I’ve had in my lifetime.. Orange Sunshine, Purple Microdot, Banana and tabs.. You can NOT go into it with a fucked up mind.. It all seems real when it’s happening. Same with mescaline and shrooms
Which is why I’ll never do psychedelics. Well, again. I tried shrooms once but it made me anxious so I accepted it wasn’t for me. I’m just happy in hindsight all I felt was anxiety for a day and nothing worse.
If you’re a lucid dreamer does it make it easier to stay in control?
@@jambothejoyful2966 no!
@@jambothejoyful2966 sorry, I guess I could have expounded a little more.. It doesn’t matter your spiritual walk, or your ability to tune into esoteric things.. What matters is that you never do *any* kind of psychedelics when you have immediate problems in your life. I.e. relationship issues, anger at someone, any irrational fears of some kind, a bad home life, paranoia. Just think of it this way: Whatever is in your mind, or the back of your mind, is going to come out magnified by a thousand. When you’re tripping, you can’t just tell yourself it’s not real. You can’t even think those kind of thoughts because everything is so outrageous and weird. You can smell and taste color and sound. A bad childhood memory could come back up as if it were really happening again. You don’t dare look at your own face in the mirror (or at anyones else’s face for too long for that matter) ABOVE ALL, you DONT want to do it with immature asshole friends who won’t be there to help if you have a bad trip!! Make sure someone you really really trust is there with you. (You probably won’t want to,but just in case, don’t try to have sex either! It could literally ruin sex for th rest of your life if it goes bad or weird!! (Besides, if you have lucid dream and remote view, why would you even want to trip on LSD or any other hallucinogens?! ) Lucid dreaming is cool as fekk!! It takes a really tuned in person to be able to do that.. almost god status! Don’t ruin it with drugs! But if you must, I suggest chocolate mescaline or straight up magic mushrooms, but only take a small fraction of what you think you should, and don’t take anymore! Wait a full 12 hours till you know how it effects you, cuz a bad trip could mean murder or accidental death. Please honey, if you’re going to try it, choose a safe SOBER person to stay with you, and INSIST that you both read and watch vids about how to fry, and how to be a caregiver for someone who’s going to fry. Knowledge is power, if you want to have a good experience. Lastly.. just know that once you take it, you’re not going to come down for a minimum of at least 12 to 16 hours, but it could last for several days depending on what you eat, and how much you ingest. Sorry for the long response, but I really do care about you!
@@BucketHeadianHagg Listen to this person 😅
Even in "good" trips, there can come times when you dont feel well, or your psyche is trying to avoid some kind of internal change. That is something that just comes with psycheds, either unwell bodily sensations, (feeling like you need to puke, weird sensations while breathing, problems with balance, etc.), or problems with your thoughts, or percrption of whats happening, because the survival of your ego, and everything that it is becomes threatened, which is why it tries everything it can to stop its desolution, even if it means to throw you into an anxiety disorder or a full blown psychosis. Just trust me when i say, that its already powerful enough, and you should think twice before giving it more leverage, by doing psycheds in an unstable enviroment. Once you get into a state in which you can see how your ego is operating to get you out of the present moment, you will become speechless at how extremely intelligent, and concentrated your ego is, when it comes to distracting you from your true self. It acts in layers upon layers, and will use every oportunity to get you back under control. Thats why you have to be in a controled setting and have to be able to think for yourself if you concider higher doeses. And just dont leave your property, thats always a good idea, if you go deep. Just do it at home if you feel good there, otherwise get yourself a tripsitter, preferable someone that knows what he is doing.
I had a bad trip where I totally lost myself and ran miles down my country road barefoot, hallucinating false omniscience. When I approached a highway, I came back to myself and heard a motherly voice that asked, "Isn't this what you asked for? Didn't you want to understand it all?" I started walking home and was picked up by a friend, but that night took months for me to unpack and although I'm better from it, I put my life in serious danger. Someone once said, "be wary of free wisdom."
The one thing u don’t wanna do while on psychedelics is to go into a loop in ur head it’s very important to make sure you’re in a good mental state and to not think to much about what’s happening
The mental loops are terrifying, especially when you pass out and wake up, completely forgetting you had taken LSD in the first place and have no idea what the hell is going on. Been there, done that. Never, ever again.
@@atierintelomg yes it’s the worst
I actually love the loops. I get to the end of the loop, realize I'm in a loop, and start laughing my ass off because I know it's about to happen all over again. And you can't help but think that it's going to be this way forever.
As a over thinker I totally agree with this!
@@marcianacee8968 yes me too
The moment he messed up was as soon as he started to panic. If you ever feel uncomfortable take a breath and go to your happy safe place before you start to stress yourself out. That way you can clear your mind
It dont work when you can feel yourself loosing reality and that nothing can give you a lil break now
@@snek7638 you have to surrender to not being in control that’s how you get that control back
@@raw_penguin2316 I understand what you’re saying but it only works if you tell yourself it won’t work. Trust me it works. Peace and love ❤️
That's a horribly callous comment considering he was BLACKING OUT, and walking places against his own will. Walking through the street. Panic is appropriate almost. Getting caught becomes more important than not getting caught AT SOME FUCKING POINT. You can't tell a man to surrender to the trip when he's already outside in the street, in someone's yard, in someone's house. At that point he is purely fucked, and only luck and grace would have taken him back to a safe place.
Don't assume you're better at tripping just because this hasn't happened to you yet.
I did acid a few times in my late teenage years. I remember laughing hysterically and having a food fight with friends the first time. Each time, I've never been able to sleep. I felt invincible too. When I got a little older, I realized how dangerous it was when seeing videos of people not returning from their trips. The furthest I'll ever go now is shrooms, but I haven't done those in a long time either. I've gone straight for the most part. A few occasions of getting drunk or stoned but that's about it.
Don't do the harder drugs kids. It's always a risk. You're playing with your life everytime. Insanity is not worth a night of fun.
It’s not even that bad lmao, mfs that get this are first timers that don’t know what they’re doing
100% agree did a tab recently as a teenager and had a terrifying time when i realised i dosed too late and i would be tripping potentially in front of my parents.. this caused a spiral of anxious thoughts.. then it got worse when I actually caught a cold and started getting other symptoms like tingling in the arms and legs… spend an entire day on the couch stroking my cat telling my self I’ll be fine.. realised if ur gonna take these substances theres no messing about
@@TaroTimes Are you fucking stupid? Look for it yourself you lazy langer. All these stories of people fearing the permahigh and you're here asking me for proof.
@@TaroTimes Not comments. But okay you lazy bitch. I'll look for you.
@@TaroTimes Yeah, that's why your comment got deleted.
Look, some of these trip reports over on erowid are pure creative writing. If you were that far gone, there is zero chance you are remembering this much detail. And most likely in jail.
This should be considered a type of horror genre. I felt so uneasy listening to this lol
There’s a game called “LSD Dream Emulator” for the PlayStation, very uneasy trippy game, highly recommend
Same here, the story combined with the background sound and visuals really does immerse you fully in the experience, as if you were the one having a bad scary trip 😂 I enjoyed it 🤌🏻
Ever seen Midsommer? Lots of psychedelic themes. Probably the best Ive ever seen tripping portrayed in a film.
@@lugubriouslegostepper no, but I'll have to watch it!
it is have you ever played the game LSD on steam its free its a crazy ass gane
My 19 year old little brother once had a bad trip (he said something about someone slipping him a mushroom). I remember how scared he was. His voice sounded small, shaky and meek like a scared little kid on the verge of tears. He was begging our mom to take him to the hospital. I hadn’t seen him that scared since we were little. I wanted to comfort him, but I had no idea how and I was worried that I might accidentally scare him even more.
I have no idea what he saw during that bad trip and I haven’t asked him about it. Hearing this story has made me wonder what kind of horrifying visions my brother saw during that bad trip.
Not sure how you could slip someone a mushroom when they taste like shit and you have to eat a decent amount to trip. My guess is he was on a very small dose but just didn’t know what to expect so started panicking, which makes everything worse no matter how small the dose.
@@bushwxcker540You can chop it up in a blender and hand it in a glass of juice or yogurt I guess. That would mask the flavor
I'm loving this new channel. Something about the way you present things and how you talk is just amazing when it comes to these. I hope you continue these in the future.
The voice he did for the video ed perfection
when i was a student i was a lazy sack and my grades were accordingly. one evening we threw in acid and after a while everything turned blue and purple and a voice so clear and distinct, but so beautiful and gentle made it unmistakably clear to me that i was just not getting anywhere because i was afraid of making mistakes and that i should trust her that if i got going everything would get better. after that experience i went through with my studies and have had a great work ethic ever since
Psych saved me from depression and Anxiety,all thanks to my buddy who connected me to this mycologist who guided me through on my experience, he's got all kinds of psychedelics stuffs such as microdosing mushrooms Ayahuasca LSD Adderall Xanax chocolate bars and lot more and he delivers to all countries locally and overseas
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i've done acid a few times when i was around 18-19. the first time i did it i took 4 tabs- not sure what possessed me to take so much especially for my first time lol. the trip overall was a beautiful experience even though i had recently developed a panic disorder. it all comes down to this: setting, people that you genuinely enjoy being around, and music, trippy shows/videos. if you're around someone who you have even the TINIEST negative feeling about, it will fuck the whole trip up. you need to be around someone or a group of people that you truly enjoy. make sure you're in a completely comfortable place, setting makes all the difference as well. i've had a negative trip before and it was because i was around people who i did not like. set yourself up for a good trip if you ever plan on doing acid. also it is not just any drug- it's probably one of the biggest commitments as you will be tripping for 12-17 hours. there is no escaping once you start tripping and when you start falling into a negative headspace there is absolutely no way out. acid is NOT for everyone, it is EXTREMELY intense.
I will SLIGHTLY disagree. There IS a way out but you need an experienced trip-sitter and some kind of massive stimulus change to "get out" of the panic-loops. I have steered my way out of 2 bad trips with the help of others and change of venue. Sometimes you don't realize that you're just really uncomfortable where you are (a bad chair, a weird hard spot on the floor) and your body interprets this as panic/evil. So just moving to a comfy bean bag and changing the music can do WONDERS if you are heading towards a panic loops.
I’ve pulled myself out of a bad trip before
@@ralphralpherson9441the panic loops are the scariest 😭
Just don't do drug kids.
Great piece! My experience with acid is not even remotely close to this, my first time was super cliché at a Grateful Dead Concert, the 2nd and last time with my best friend and I were both leaving for school so we both dropped tabs together at sunset and played on the beach for 12 hours.
That sounds awesome dude I just took shrooms with my best friend
School?
@@thisguysgaming7246 cringe
@@ozone8897 I'm sorry I don't understand my friend was going to school locally but I was attending college across the other side of the country so we thought it would be a fun way to say goodbye and it was, is that what ur asking
@@madmonty4761 how is that cringe what are you 5?
I am so excited to hear about more stuff that motivates me to sleep with an aluminum bat next to my bed.
Lol! Speaking of aluminum.. did you have to have a sales associate come unlock the plexiglass case that it was safely kept behind? 😂
Better than having it injected into you that is for sure. Aluminum it can save you or kill you... The choice is yours.
I have a lot of stuff to defend myself with.
Like 1 wooden bat, a machete that has another knife in the handle, and I just realised I need more defensive measures.
@@anonomuse9094 eh, i think a bat and a machete cover's all the ground's, maybe next step up is a gun? I dunno
@@Thewalliest yeah, but the people i live with can't have guns around them. i could build a kind of projectile launcher though. magnetic induction is fascinating in that sort of way, where if you use a magnetic force to pull something through a tube at multiple points in the tube, the speed on the object stacks creating a higher muzzle velocity. in firearms this is achieved by a higher amount of gunpowder and a smaller projectile, but in a coilgun or railgun like i described the mass of the projectile doesn't matter.
After seeing some of these stories, I kind of want to tell mine. It disturbs me to this day. I had a friend named Capone, we were very close at the time. We all partied every weekend, almost every single weekend we spent doing acid or mushrooms. One night, i decide to mix them. I take 2 tabs and an 8th of shrooms. At one point in the trip, I could not see past my hands. Everything looked like shattered glass beyond the reach of my hand, I went inside and laid on the couch. I felt very peaceful, too peaceful. While in complete Bliss. The most frightening, distorted image of my friend Capones face flashed in my head while my eyes were closed. I literally sprang up and tried to tell myself it wasnt real what I saw. I went in the garage, saw him. Went back to the party and just being to myself, assuring myself it was just my mind playing tricks on me. Months later. He took his own life. It was almost as if my subconscious knew what was going to happen but I couldn't accept it. I've been hesitant to ever mix psychedelics again.
@KellyLove-m2j what
@@brysongines3586it’s a bot homie don’t care abt the other reply comment. But hey sounds like you and your friend had amazing memories together. Hope you’re doing good dude!
The last time I did LSD I reached a place in my trip where I had thought I had already died and was simply sitting in purgatory. I had a complete conversation with my friends who I thought were there as representatives of what was God and the concepts of good and evil. It took a while and an epiphany that I may have to kill myself to move on to really snap myself out of it. I was stuck in a thought loop considering what would happen if I died and even came to terms with the meaning of life and what would become of me. One thing I did take away from it all was to not hold regrets, to live for what is good, to pursue love and to be content with my own experience.
I had psychosis induced by insomnia (couldn't sleep for almost 2 weeks) and I was also stuck in purgatory! My whole family was in heaven, in the clouds, and i could communicate with them but I could not physically reach them. It was fucking horrible feeling trapped and stuck.
I had a bad trip that involved purgatory also, at the end of my bad trip my eyes could not see color any more (after the most intense colorful bad trip, I saw colors never seen before)
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Dude. This is insane. I’ve had these exact same thoughts and conversations with people during my trips. Really makes you wonder. Peace and love ❤️🩹☮️✌🏼
@@gagriel6737 haha glad to hear I havnt been the only one. One thought that was cemented in my mind since then is the idea that the entirety of humanity is literally the same soul that is reincarnated infinitely . We experience the life of every person that has lived or ever will live with each death with the idea being once our soul has experienced the entirety of humanity we will become what God is. I remember seeing that idea around and when in that purgatory during my trip I truly believed it.
i had a bad trip around this time last year and it was truly one of the most terrifying things i’ve ever gone through. my birthday was merely days away and i decided i wanted to take tabs, but my dealer wasn’t selling anymore. however, i had a close friend who was big on psychedelics so i asked him for his dealer, and long story short, his tabs were very different from the one my og sold. they were supposed to be more intense because they were gel tabs and i ended up taking 450ugs that night, even though the highest dose i’ve ever done before that was 200. i was 3 ish hours into the trip and i was barely seeing anything. i quite literally saw more on the og’s weakest tabs than from the gels. however, one of my friends had top shelf bud, and i knew weed made psychs more intense, so i decided to smoke. the second i exhaled my last hit, everything melted in front of me and from then on, it was almost like one of those tik tok glitch videos where it freezes on an object and it pixelates into something completely different. i was no longer surrounded by my original environment, and instead in what looked to be a video game??? i remember everything being purple and yellow, and my brain starting to feel like it was falling backwards, down a rabbit hole, and would randomly spawn back in my head. the feeling was like going to sleep dunk and having your head spin. i also heard rapid demonic whispering in what seemed to be another language, as well as bloodcurdling screams. this was when i completely lost sight of reality, and i started seeing insects and shadow figures. i was completely stuck in a spiral- going through constant thought loops, and not being able to process what was going on around me, let alone where i was. i convinced myself i died and that everything i was seeing was my brain just dreaming. it felt absolutely endless and i will forever be traumatized from it. i zone out often, but sometimes, if it’s really bad, i’ll see patterns again, and i’ve even gotten acid flashbacks while smoking.
I suggest you practice meditation. I think it will help you heal from your truma.
"Everything started to melt" I know exactly what your mean. Walls starting to move and shit...
Macro vs Micro had success in doing a few Macro first . Allowing the mushrooms to blast you into self awareness , showing you the shadows and trauma that have been hiding under the rug . Micro dosing has helped me stay on the pulse of my shadow work , helping me remember my best self .
Microdosing makes me feel more human . I personally feel like microdosing increases my ADD for the day , but I may have to dial the dose down a little . The benefits outweigh the downsides . 1:18
@@JeniferChristian-xw3bn0:06 I've talked to people who micro and macrodose to help with a TBIs . I'm told that it's easier to find words when talking , and it helps improve short term memory . I've also heard of it helping with hearing , where people who could no longer hear birds could hear them again .
@@AndrewRobertson-iq4hf
What's the difference macro and micro sounds exciting and I would love to try. where can I get em ? 0:09
@FernandoLucas-cy9wpIs he on inst? I've been looking to get some dmt & acid. 0:16
@@Alex-ik9pd0:06 Sure, dr.johnsonshroom
On acid i was the universe that dissintegrated and recovered.
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DMT is the most craziest experience have ever had in my entire life,but I was been helped out by a specialist who guided me through my first ever DMT experience,he got all kinds of psychedelics stuffs
Losing my reality is one of my biggest fears. Not knowing where i am, who I am or even what I'm doing will always scare me shitless. It's like that scary DMT trip scary that I've seen on RUclips. Seeing demons and other scary shit will never cease to haunt me.
I know of some people who have tried 5-meO-DMT and claimed it cured depression/anxiety permanently it’s very dependent on circumstances.
Damn that be happening to me while being the most sober mf in the world
I felt like I lost my reality when I smoked green for the first time.. just awful
i've had something comparable to this
i never took lsd
i have schizophrenia
and was extremely sleep deprived
Same as someone whos tripped many times on L this sounds more like some times I have stayed up for a few days smoking ice.
I *may* have accidentally taken some sort of drug when I was around 11.. as I suddenly began remembering every dream I had ever had in my entire life, in extreme detail until I was in a raging storm of images and then awoke in a highly detailed library where a white rabbit and a shadow man tried to convince me to go to sleep and I remembered sobbing and rocking back and forth after hours of them trying to break me down and make me sleep because I had this intense feeling that if I did sleep I would never wake up again but then a door appeared and it was the door to my bedroom and I escaped it only to become lost in a never ending hallway and a timeloop with my mother where I tried to explain to her what the rabbit was telling me only for time to reset again and have to do it all over. This continued several times over until I snapped and yelled at her, at this point my brother magically appeared beside me and the entire hallucination seemed to just vanish all at once with both my mother and my brother asking if I was okay.
The whole event lasted around six hours and my brother was experimenting with shrooms and other drugs at that period of time, but I didn't find out about it until years later. I now assume I had eaten or drank something spiked, looking back on how nervous my brother was about my behavior.
Sounds like he could have dosed you on purpose
Your brother watching you from the doorway as you drink from the spiked water bottle: "The die is cast."
bro i am not fucking kidding this exact thing happened to me same age except it was all a dream and i didnt take a drug
“Today a young man on acid realized that all matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration, that we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively, there is no such thing as death, life is only a dream, and we are the imagination of ourselves. Heres Tom with the Weather.”
As someone who has experienced these things, and has quit since, it makes me really anxious to listen to the description of the trip. I have to pause the video to take a breath and calm down lol
I feel as though the words made it appear worst than it truly was. I noticed alot of the words seemed heinous for the scenario. as if it was intonally meant to be over dramatized.
I feel uu
Jesus was the experience that dramatic? That’s crazy man
This sounds more like some kind of research chemicals than acid, especially because of how visual it was. I don't do psychadelics myself but I used to be a musician and heard a lot of people's firsthand accounts, and I've heard this kind of story from a few people, and usually those stories are followed by some kind of really brutal long term mental health consequences. Always test stuff beforehand, if you can't get ahold of test kits don't drop acid :(
As a person who has experience with LSD I agree. Either RC or some deliriant. Not LSD. It's what what you think guys. There a NO hallucinations. Just deep thought processes and world around you is kind of 'breathing'. Perception is altered but no hallucinations
@27_ECE_Gokul V RC is research chemicals, basically synthetic versions of another drug designed for super cheap sometimes to circumvent existing drug laws. Most of them produce a real fucking nasty trip and can be a lot more dangerous than normal psychs in terms of heart problems, psychosis etc. Deliriants are a class of hallucinogen that also tend to be more dangerous and unpleasant than psychedelics, like poisonous mushrooms or nightshade or taking too much Benadryl etc. it feels like a fever dream, you see shadow people, feel bugs crawling on you, have trouble moving or speaking or even breathing, can even make you think you are already dead or caught in some kind of time loop or forget who you are entirely. Lots of historians believe old reports of those cursed or hexed by witchcraft were actually people getting dosed accidentally or intentionally with various deleriant class substances...hope that makes sense
Can I ask what being a musician has to do with dropping acid?
@@emmettolson3499 music scene is very intertwined with psychedelics. Hard to meet a passionate musician who has never done psychedelics or smoked weed
@27_ECE_Gokul V RC = research chemicals, deliriants r a class of hallucinogenic drugs different from psychedelics known to cause more vivid external hallucinations and, well, delirium. Most well known deliriants r probably Datura and Benadryl.
One time, i was so flipped out on mushrooms, that I got out of the car while me, my childhood best friend, and a couple of girls were entering an apartment complex to grab more shrooms so everyone could get on our level per sé, and the mushrooms made me get out of the car, and brought me to the place my stepsister had been shot months prior. I didn’t realize I was there until I saw the neon sign that said “Janet’s Cakery”, and I spun back around and started walking the opposite direction…my childhood best friend was trailing behind me, saw me turn around and walk the opposite direction, and said, “where are you going now?!”
I said, “you know how I kept saying l, “I dont like where this trip is taking me? Well, we’re here. We’re at Janet’s”
He knew exactly where we were at when I said that. His mother was the one who came to my parent’s house and told me that I needed to call my dad, that something “very serious” had happened.
I had ignored my dad’s call because I was in the shower, and just not in the mood to talk. My best friend was at my sister’s funeral…his family-especially his parents and his holder brother who was a couple yrs older than us were there, too…I collapsed into his arms. Seeing them there was the first time I really cried hard about what happened outside of the hospital the day she was shot.
We stood underneath the sign for a second in shock that the mushrooms had brought us thereHe looked up at the sign, and in the stoniest voice, he said, “noooo WAY, dude.”
We burst out laughing, and kept walking, and I watched him keep turning around and looking at the sign in bewilderment. I knew my sister was there with us, and I knew that the mushrooms were trying to tell me to face the pain…quit trying to hide from it. It took a long time, and I have accepted that it’s a process, and that I’m 35-almost 36…and I am still, and probly always will, beworking on it…and that’s okay.
Cool experience. Sorry about the loss of your sister though. I might be crazy but I believe that these drugs can thin the Vail between our perception reality and the next... Whatever or where ever that is, maybe your sister was there. Or maybe I'm taking nonsense. Thanks for sharing.
Thanks for sharing your story this made me get a little emotional idk why but just reading how nature took you to a place to face your pain got me a little emotional.
Thanks for sharing 🌌
@@georjiep4338 not nonsense, you’re absolutely right…mushrooms share truth. It’s amazing. Thank you for your kind words. I recently told the story of how I faced her killer in court, and what I said to him. Two people starting saying things like, “I’m gonna press X for doubt” and other nasty things…like I’d tell such stories, just to lie…it really angered & hurt me…and I usually don’t get angry about internet idiots. It’s pretty interesting seeing that people who have had experiences with mushrooms are so much more open and understanding…on the other hand, people who haven’t…cold, lacking empathy for no reason.
I appreciate everyone in this thread. Thank for restoring my faith in humanity.
@@Darthmoonfairy91 it was definitely a beautiful and powerful experience, something I’ll never forget.
This is like 6-10 tabs worth of visuals being described, no way it was a “double-dip”
Well different organisms respond diferently too man, it could have been a really high dose for him, but maybe not so much for you.
A tab is not a unit to measure the amount of a drug someone is taking. Depending on who you buy from it could also be 20 tabs or a half.
@@ezequielsosa6557 true, however in my anecdotal experience a tab has never been more than 200ug. Its frustrating that there is a lack of standardization to make comparisons easier, but for me personally I don’t think I would have anywhere near this kind of experience off of 200ug. Probably more like 1000ug
@@theponderingplumb9790y agreed, but for standardization you need legalization.
I had an exceptionally crazy experience for my second time and honestly can’t even begin to describe it. No point, I don’t know how people can so vividly describe their trips like this. I find it to be hard to believe because of how crazy mine was.
Did you go to hell? I went to hell on my trip, but at not one point did I found it to be a bad trip, I was like... cool, dead souls stuck in time all around me everywhere. I was having a good time in hell 😂
@@timspikerI’ve been to Hell twice. The first time felt like a borderline psychotic episode. Scariest shit of my life. I was screaming at the sky seeing figures in the clouds. I had to be sedated and sent to a hospital. I woke up without a wallet but made it home without anyone suspecting anything had happened.
The second time was after my friend had passed. I tried to visit his gravesite but was too depressed to make it all the way. I remember being on a bus and seeing spirits flying overhead, ‘as they should’, I thought. I guess that trip reconciled my fear of an afterlife.
@@dhnyl What I experienced was the lake of fire. I stood on top of billions of dead souls stretching from my feet to the horizon, but instead of being scared I was just fascinated. I was aware that my body was still in the physical world and all I could think was how I must be observing the world that is hidden from the living. I'm a logical person so my logic always helps me trough everything in life. I was also very depressed at the time, so I guess it made no difference to me. Ultimately I took it as a warning of where I was headed in life at the time. 2 years later I bought a bible and turned to Christianity as I don't really know anyone who could save me from such a place other than Jesus himself. I was addicted to many substances but after praying just once I was able to quit all my addictions cold turkey over night. I call that a mirracle.
@@timspiker “observing the world that is hidden from the living”
This descriptor is spot-on in relation to my trips as well.
I find your journey to faith very admirable. I’m not quite there yet. I have this hang up about prayer which is itself hard for me to reconcile but I do have a Bible. I’m interested in Revelations. Should I start from there?
@@dhnyl Yes, read the bible, visit a church. Every time I go to church I'm very welcomed there and meet very nice people. It's great for restoring faith in humanity
I remember once that i was just basically at the end of my trip when suddenly i felt a HUGE spike of hallucinations and not the good ones. Everytime i closed my eyes i saw fleshy and grotesque rashes and wounds everywhere covering my view. It got so bad to the point that i did not blink for as long as i was able to handle the burn in my eyes just so i did not see that again
Have you also heard about people holding their breath bc they thought they were under water?
Ego death was a very humbling but beautiful experience for me. My first time I experienced it was at a beach at night & I’ll never forget it.
explain ego death
@@j_bizzle04 your ego is everything that makes up "you", it is what your conciousness sees as part of you, your personality, your body, your actions. But, in the end, what splits you apart from your surroundings is more of a mental thing, and ego death is when what makes up you merges with everything else as the whole universe merges with you;
you are the universe and the universe is you. Ego death is a realisation. I had a near ego death experience when I watched Neon Genesis Evangelion at midnight.
@@shlecko i want ego death. i think my ego is getting in the way of my relationship. i’ve been smoking weed for a year but never done psychedelics or got an experience. i think im ready. i need the ego death thing it sound like a real waker and life changer. i think im stuck in life rn and me having an awakening will help.
@@j_bizzle04 dude😭😭😭
Most psychedelic experiences are not ego deaths but rather a profound feeling of unity and connection with everything else. You are still within the confines of this reality. A true ego death is akin to death. The only psychedelic that provides that experience as far as I know is 5MeO-DMT.
I have both good and bad trips, confusion is definitely part of an intense acid trip, the fact that buddy went out wandering alone tripping balls is madness
I literally can’t imagine anything worse than being in that much public places tripping
It’s like remembering how to walk and speak again, losing what makes us human to find what’s so beautiful about life
Yep. I remember the very first time I took a gram of 'shrooms my left arm was completely paralyzed, it was laying on my chest with the hand hanging down so I had to drink water and use my phone to change songs or increase volume with my other hand. So weird.
I love these Ailurus after hours vids
My "Bad Trip" experience is not comparable to this but after years have passed i find it quite humorous what my thoughts at that time were. This is a longer story so if you'd like to read it i appreciate you. I had taken a heroic dose of mushrooms (5 grams) with my friend. I remember eating them with the salsa sun chips, oh man did they taste bad, it took about an hour to eat them all, it was horrendous. Approximately an hour later i noticed while watching tv that i could suddenly feel my heart beat growing and the lights on the tv became blurry almost like seeing all the lights from the window of a car. I felt amazing as if all the problems in the world melted away and life as i knew it was a movie. My friend, at the time, was absolutely addicted to drinking Coca Cola so we went to the clubhouse that resided in my apartment complex to use the vending machine. On the walk over the hallucinations became extremely dark. I saw naked bodies in the tree clawing a begging to be let free as if they were tangled in the bendy wires of the trees. The darkness of the night had become pitch black and it was as almost i had went blind. We got inside the clubhouse and my mind is going 100 MPH, I felt so overwhemeled and regret every bite I had taken of the magical mushrooms. Quite magical but this time I had overdone it. My friend noticed people she knew and both of us seriously questioned if we could speak english right now. She spoke a few words and we made our way for the exit. I frantically rushed home to avoid seeing anyone and once we got inside for a sheer moment i felt so relieved as if seeing a person would ruin any bit of sanity i had left. I practically blackout in the swarm of the dark thoughts that clouded around me. Thinking about suicide and how singular humans are so small on the scale of the universe and how my death would not matter no mind how much i tried to convince myself the opposite. Questioning who I was who the person in the room with me was. Just extremely overwhelming thoughts. (This is the funny part) I remember watching "Orange is the New Black" the 5th season where after the riot the girls invovled get sent to maximum security. Crazy eye's mental condition was portrayed to the camera. Crazy eye's goed to "turn on TV" and every character was in their own fucked up show. (By the way crazy eyes has schizophrenia) One character was pretending to be a magician.... and the act.... sliting her wrist. At the time i did metion i was having suicidal thoughs so seeing that accelerated them to beyond. I cant recall what the other characters were doing but seeing the magician act really sent me into a loop hole. The only thing i wanted in the world was to call my parents. I was convinced that my parents would send me to jail and persecute for taking a psychedelic. ( I have a birth defect where the tip of my tounge is connected to the bottom of my mouth, so i cant stick it out and i look like i have a snake tounge with two tounge ends) I kept thinking to myself thers no way i will survive in jail. Im not a fighter or even aggressive whatsoever. I believe in love and peace. So with that being said I made up this hypothetical lie that i was going to jail. *I sat silently sobbing behind my friend because I was going to be made someone's bitch in jail and i cannot go down on a female so i would obviously be murdered.* I had 100% convinced myself this to be true and I'm having backround thoughts as well as conscious thoughts at the same time. its like i had been given a brain booster to use all percentage of our brain. As this is happening mentally... my living room goes red and the floor turn into lava, (I've taken DMT before and these shrooms halluncination resemble those of DMT) I knew it wasnt real but it looked and felt so real. I saw shadow people and I thought I was going crazy. Just in absolute terror, i proceed to swallow a whole bottle of melatonin. I just wanted to go to sleep and wake up once it was over. I went downstairs to my room and mustered the courage to close my eyes in bed. All i could hear was soft little whispers and saw what looked like color fractals exploding and multiplying. It was so intense I was so afraid of falling into the astral realm because I knew i was not ready. I just lied there for hours eyes open and just getting absolutley beaten up by these thoughts and after a while the melatonin did its job. I was not the same after that.... for 4 months I felt like the puzzle pieces that make me where all jumbled and could not find there way back home. But once i got back to normal life became amazing. I felt as if i had a second chance at life, i had this new found confidence, and ability to put my life together perfectly. I had a sales job where i made over 5000 dollars in one week, repaired old friendships that I had missed, doing amazing in school. If you ask me sometimes... bad trips can be so eye awakening to whats going wrong in your life and getting the answers. Almost feeling like youre kissing death and you got away just by a sliver of luck. Having the intense and brutalizing thoughts as well as the intense halluncinations can make anyone no matter how strong you are mentally shit your pants and question anything you thought was real. But in the end it made me realize a lot of things of profound nature. I'm thankful for that moment because I can finally see. Thank you beyond words if you read this entire thing.
Wow that’s crazy
I AINT reading allat 🤣🤣🤣🤣💯💯🔥🔥🔥
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I read it all. Ur so articulate and funny. Great story. Keep this good energy abbie.
@@lilybret7925 I appreciate you, much love❤️
My worse trip- watching my best friend in the world die when I was 17. She had a seizure while I was in the shower fell down the stairs and wasn’t breathing. She died that night. RIP KT. I’m sorry. I’ll never forgive myself.