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I know one young russian guy living in Prague. And he suffer from the same thing as you. Also (very early) divorced. He is good and kind guy. But trying to find in Prague "soulmate" is really naive and futile. There only money matters.
We are ready in the USA, we have guns honey...we also have good people that are willing to fight, this is a global war I think however it is more spiritual as in good vs evil war....and I think we will be okay. The global elites want to throw out our constitution, however they forget that we have many many vets here and many that are willing to fight for the good of it all.
I think you made a wonderful and good choice in going home to your motherland. Russia is a wonderful country, be proud of its incredible history, I believe Russia has a great future, and you are a strong, beautiful lady! 🇷🇺❤️
I am so sorry for your heartache. God is Reaching Out to you & to all with a broken heart 💔 This is what I found out: For God so loved ❤️ the World 🗺 that He gave His only Begotten Son that Whosever Believes In Him shall not perish but have Everlasting Life! ->Believe on the Lord Jesus & you will Be Saved. ->Jesus died for all of our sins. He wants to be your Savior & have a friendship with you. ->Romans 3:16 Says all have sinned. Romans 6:16 says the wages of sin is death but the free gift of God is eternal life. Romans 10:13 says Everyone who calls upon the Lord Jesus Christ will Be Saved. Pray this: “Heavenly Father, I believe that Jesus died on the cross for me & rose again. You know the way I have been living...I ask Jesus Christ to come into my life and Be the Boss of my life. Thank you for helping me to live for You until You come to take me back to Heaven. In Jesus Name Amen 🙏🏼
You are a good person with a good heart! I am American and I don't hate Russians. I hate the conflicts caused by senseless politics! I believe there are good people everywhere. Thanks for the video. With love from Minnesota, USA.
Senseless politics 🤷...an authoritarian with imperialist fantasies has invaded a peaceful nation, causing injury and death to over 700,000 human beings.
@@blossompure US is like so and this never will change. But when I watch at their president that is completely out of order, I have to laugh a lot all the time. It's simply unbelievable how this man is out of all.
Thank you for having the courage to share your story. As a single dad living with PTSD I completely empathise with you. Stay strong and know that you are never alone.
My cousin married a Russian 25 years ago. She's from St. Petersburg. He passed away a few years ago. She's still here in the States, has a job as an ultrasound tech, and still part of our family. We love her. I'm glad she didn't leave after my cousin passed. Thanks for sharing your story.
@@isabelmarias.s.quelhasribe3121 im guessing you have a good intention but maybe you shouldn't reply to this comment like that. This could be a real story and bringing politics into something that could've caused despair and sadness might not be great
I’m Czech, I live in Prague and listening to you now, I feel like you’re the kind of person I would like to build a friendship if I had met you in person 😊
Being back home with your Mom and family is the best medicine. You are a strong person and everything will work out for you. Things take time. I know I’ve had panic attacks myself and it’s hard to describe how terrifying they are. Take it one step at a time.
You sound like such a good person. It's difficult enough going through life with anxiety and having to worry about two children. I pray you find peace in your life and someone to share your life experiences and problems with. You have many friends watching your videos, so you will never be alone. Stay strong.❤
Copy-pasting my comment. Dude, she is the war supporter. Because of people like her - millions of Ukrainians have lost their homes due to Russian aggression. Where do you see a "good person" here?
Hi Nastya! I clicked on your video, because just like you, I’ve been away from home for the past 16 years (Russian from Moscow, living in the US), and these past couple of years the urge to go home is getting stronger and stronger. I am “stuck” here in a way, long story, but as soon as I can, I am going to move back to Moscow and be with my family. When you said you felt better instantly upon reuniting with your family, it almost brought tears to my eyes. It seems like 16 years should be long enough to start feeling at home in a foreign land, but for some reason, my heart has been with Russia the entire time and I just can’t call America my home despite having the citizenship and knowing life here very well. Thankfully, unlike you, I have never experienced any bias here because of the current situation and the tension between the US and Russia. I know it’s worse in Europe, but here regular American people continue to be friendly and almost lack curiosity about what’s happening outside of their country. I wish you all the very best, your video is very reassuring and even pacifying. I am glad you made it back home!
My situation is unique because for me " the current situation " started in 2014, the people I adore were already heavily involved on the Donbass Reb side so the FBI kind of made my choice for me when they started harassing me the minute I said, " No, I will not throw my Tsarev and Gubarev under the bus! ". I am head over heels in love with SF and the Peninsula so if certain people do manage to drive me out of the country it's gonna be Vladivostok- not Oleg's Yalta.
I’m impressed with your ability to communicate your thoughts so beautifully given that English is not your native language. I am so happy you decided to return to your homeland especially given the troubling times we are all experiencing. I do understand how challenging dealing with anxiety and panic attacks can be (I’ve struggled with them for many years). You, unlike so many of us, are blessed to have a loving family. May you find comfort in their presence.
00:52 🧳 Multiple factors contributed to the decision, with one key personal factor being the most significant. 01:24 🌍 Lived in Central Europe (Prague, Czech Republic) for 16 years, studying, working, and starting a family. 02:35 🇨🇿 Prague was a great city, but forming deep connections with locals was challenging due to cultural differences. 03:12 😔 Lack of fulfilling relationships and an unfulfilling job led to isolation, depression, and a feeling of being stuck. 04:15 🚸 Couldn’t return to Russia earlier due to co-parenting arrangements with her children’s fathers. 05:07 📉 The pandemic, military conflict, and geopolitical tensions added to personal anxiety and declining mental health. 06:29 💥 Panic attacks were a major turning point, driving the urgency to return home for mental and physical recovery. 07:26 🥩 Adopted a keto diet to help manage anxiety, seeing physical improvements but needing more healing time. 08:19 ✈️ Fathers agreed to let her take the kids to Russia, leading to a challenging journey through Kazakhstan. 09:01 🏡 Being back in Russia, close to family, brought immediate emotional relief, though long-term decisions remain uncertain.
I am half russian half ukrainian born and raised in ukraine , away from mother land for 15 years now and I want to go back to russia , to the village where my grandma still lives...
So much love to you. I am an American who lived in Prague for two years, and despite having a very lovely Czech boyfriend, I found the culture difficult to navigate, too. But I really loved the people I knew, and I will miss Praha forever. I now live in the Netherlands with my Dutch partner and two children, and while I am happy, it will never be the center of my universe: my grandma's house in Iowa. She still lives there.I really understand why you so love your grandmother's house. There is no place like home! I am happy you have your family close to you as you heal. ❤
U are a dear, brave, beautiful & kind soul. The universe will support you. We all need ur voice from deep inside Russia as we forget how we are exactly the same. Keep being your authentic self on your channel. If anyone criticizes you, it is their loss. The vast majority of us are cheering you on. I thot we Introverts were the only ones who required only a few deep meaningful relationships. So it’s a Russian thing too! No wondered I adored Russian music from a little girl onward thru life. Am proud of you! From San Francisco Bay Area
Hello Nastya, I am in my mid seventies and I want to tell you that you have made a very good decision because both you AND your children will benefit positively from your family support. Take care and good luck.🤗🤞
Привет, Настя! Случайно наткнулся на твой канал. Большое совпадение что я тоже живу в Нск и тоже недалеко от Монумента Славы (классный у нас там парк) Хотел написать пару слов поддержки. Желаю тебе поскорее найти новых близких людей, занятие по душе и жить максимально счастливую жизнь. Выше нос, уверен, у тебя все будет хорошо! :)
Thank you so much for sharing your story 💓 As someone who suffers from depression and panic attacks, I really emphasise with you. You are incredibly strong and brave 💗 I'm so happy the father's of your children found the compassion to let you take them with you. Wishing you love, happiness and healing 💓✨ xxxx
Thank you for sharing your experiences. I think it’s so important for people to learn about people from other countries and how we basically are the same. I wish we could all find peace and unity for the future of our children. I am so happy that you were able to get home and start healing.
I have extreme compassion for you. My daughter also has panic attacks and anxiety. Thank goodness you have a welcoming family and a home where you can heal. I wish you the best- From an American viewer.
Well done Nastya! That is quite a back story, you did the right thing going home. It is always best to be around family so that you have a support network that can help you. I wish you well I hope the panic attacks will subside so you can live a normal life! Best Wishes from London England
Ich glaube auch, dass du die richtige Entscheidung getroffen hast. Der Schritt wieder heimzukehren, fällt einem sicherlich nicht so schwer wie in ein fremdes Land zu gehen. Du hast beides getan, Respekt dafür. Deine Kinder brauchen Luft und Liebe, genauso wie eine gesunde Mutter. Daher musst du auf dich achten und in dich hineinhorchen, damit du deine eigenen Wünsche nicht außer Acht lässt.
Anxiety sucks...especially as a single father. Raised my son completly on my own with my son being autistic. I've always had depression and anxiety but got diagnosed while in the Army. Loneliness got the better and ended up rushing into a loveless marriage with the first woman to tell me she liked me. Best thing from that was my kids. Getting back into the Bible and closer to Jesus has helped me a Lot...I don't go anywhere, for one can't get my son to want to leave the house off his electronics. I gave up on trying to find love
I'm exactly where you were. Alone in the US with the kid desperately wanting to go back home to Russia. My kid is 11, and I'm planning to go as soon as she graduates high school. Happy for you that you made it home.
You definitely did the right thing. When you said you had returned back to Russia after traveling through Kazakhstan your eyes lit up. I think the fathers of your boys were very understanding and it's good you were all very mature about the situation for the sake of the boys. Please keep that relationship up with their fathers and let the boys keep in touch, they'll thank you in the future. ❤
You are a very pleasant, very calm woman! If you wouldn't have talked about your situation I don't think people would have guessed you got through such a rough period in your life. You are very strong person and you will be able to get through all of it. I am from Europe - Romania and I am watching your videos with great interest. Even though we are closer to Ukraine we don't hate Russians, we don't hate Russia. The problems caused in this world are only caused based on politics and rulers dictatorships. Ordinary people have no fault in these conflicts. It is sad that there's a lot of wrong doing in this world and we can't do much! 😔 Watching your videos I see a lot of similarities between countries - the way you live, the stores, the roads even. It is very interesting seeing how normal people live their daily life. It just shows that we are not that different in this world like most pretend to be!
You made the right call, and it’s so brave of you to share your story. Thank you. This can definitely help others going through the same thing. I’m really happy you could take your kids. God bless you and your family.
The best decision there is is to go to your own country. The homeland is the safest place if there is peace there. Novosibirsk is peaceful now, and probably will remain so. It's up to you with what kind of work and how much you find happiness. Man stands on two legs: family, and a meaningful job. You have two children, they are your family. Have a good life.
I feel like russians have a third leg, which is their land.. Once you are away, you lose something core that makes you a russian (or you become a miserable one). Nastya is a prime example.
Hello, Anastasia! Your channel was in recommendation and when i oppened i was surprised because i'm also from Novosibirsk 😊 You are very strong person to pass all those troubles in immigration. I'm living in Europe 9 years and i know how it could be difficult. About friends you're right it's not easy to find them in our days. You was very lucky to live counrty with your kids! Wishing you to find yourself in new life and total emotional recovery ❤ Siberians are strong 💪
Hello Nastya, I wish you the very best in your new life in Siberia. You are a courageous person and I'm sure you will adapt soon and your sons too. Just take one day at a time, no need to rush into things. The most important factor now is that you are with your family. My grandparents were Russian. Love from Brazil.
@@nastya_in_siberia Dear Nastia, wish you all the best in your new beginning. If you are Orthodox Christian, go back to church, participate in the Sacrament, find a good spiritual father, and study the Holy Books. This will help if not solve completely your problems with panic attacks and depression.
Your story is so sad. What a courageous woman and mother you are. RESPECT! As a single mother of 2, better happy in Russia than depressed in Europe. Wishing you strength and happiness ❤❤
I can watch your videos for days. As a black girl living in Sweden I understand your feeling. Living far away from your family and feeling anxiety. Love your calm and your pure lifestyle ❤❤
I just returned from my vlogging time in Mongolia. I was so surprised being the only black that a Russian family approached me and offered me a South Siberia gift. Good people. I am glad you found your way and started a new life. I wish those kids a better future life.
Hello Nastya, First time viewer. Very happy that you returned home to Novosibirsk, I have visited there once and came away very impressed and appreciated the natural beauty of the area. It was wonderful that your ex-husbands permitted you to return with the children. You deserve some happiness and I think returning to your roots will help you find it. I lost my wife of 32 years two years ago and now spend 3 to 4 months traveling the world. God Bless, TimE
All best wishes to you and your children. I have a sister in Novosibirsk. I believe that the future leadership of the world belongs to Russia. If I were you I would have done exactly what you did. Please raise your children to be brave and believe in God. ❤ From Nepal
Твои ноги на русской земле- the best thing for your your spirit and your health, Nastya. Make sure that you spend a lot of time outside in your bare feet, 'grounding' your body on the earth and taking in the sunshine. This will do wonders for your body and soul... You are not alone- so many of us have similar stories in these troubled times, especially in the West. Thank you for sharing and I wish you and your family all the best! You are on the right track.
Yes...this is true. Mostly she will feel better with The Lord who made the earth as He wants to heal her and she needs to forgive herself and others to gain peace. Self reflection is always a start to healing and peace. Let the awesome God of all creation guide you. His name is Yahweh. His son is Jesus.❤🙏
Случайно натолкнулся на это видео и имею, что сказать: Анастасия, вы сделали правильный выбор. В свое время я тоже вернулся из эмиграции и обрел счастье дома. Пусть у вас все будет хорошо. И не рвите душу, вам больше не надо никуда уезжать, вы на своем месте. Дома и стены помогают.
Sending love to you Nastya from Australia 🥰 Thank you for sharing your story and giving hope to others around the world. We all have our struggles but with courage and determination we can heal.
Привет Настя, досмотрел твоё видео до конца. Спасибо, что поделилась этой информацией. Я желаю тебе всего самого лучшего в будущем. Я думаю, раз ты решилась на этот трудный шаг и вернутся назад домой на свою родину, значит именно там твоё место и только там ты будешь себя чувствовать лучше, чем в другом месте. Главное, чтобы ты никогда не жалела о своём решении. Но я думаю ты не будешь ни о чём жалеть, ведь там где твои родные, лучше быть не может.
Blessings to you Nastya - congratulations on making a very interesting, authentic video about your journey from Russia and back home! You overcame some massive challenges. Thank you for sharing your story and I enjoy seeing what life is like over there too.
Nastya, you are very brave girl. Its not easy but you will find the way. I have 1 sugestion : - maybe you can make a video about beautiful places around you, what a lot of people like to see. And life in Novo Sibirsk, how ordenary people live , etc. Can be interesting, l gues. God bless
You should be so proud of yourself. I didn’t leave a toxic relationship and stayed for 40 years and now my health is so bad. I’ve divorced now but am still very emotionally and physically ill. I struggle daily with what I went through all those years and cry every morning still You are a beautiful soul my love 😊❤
Hi Nastya - Thank you for sharing your personal happenings with us. You are very brave to go through what you did. Going home is sometimes the best for us - if it’s possible. I enjoy your videos about Siberia and wish you all the best with your sons and your family. Take care 🌸🌸
I totally understand having panic attacks.. you feel like you’re dying! Praying your health gets better on track totally!! I just started watching your videos and enjoy watching you cook and how your apartment is coming along! Please continue to share how your overcoming the panic attacks!
What a brave person you are to tell your story this way.I am happy for you that you are in your old home with the people you love and who love you.I too suffer from panic attacks.As you know they are overwhelming so it makes your story especially important to me.May you be blessed with good health and happiness.
I am so sorry to hear that you didn't have any support in Czech Republic. I am from that country but became a single mother living in Canada now. So I really understand and feel with you ! You are an amazing human being. This was just one chapter of your life and I believe that now it's time for great and happy life for you! Wishing you many blessings and strong protection from God !
A few days before her belowed motherland started full scale murdering of the people they call “brothers”, she released a video on how perverted “the West” is, how only russsia has the real values, how we all are homosexuals etc. and russia “will save us”. Good she is back where she is. Too bad there are still people like here around here in CZ and EU in general… You know what they say: “You can get a girl out of russia, but you’ll never get russia out of a girl”…
Hello from California. I found your channel today and enjoyed hearing your story. I wish you and your children a happy life. I look forward to future videos.
I have no idea how I can across your channel, but I’m so glad I did. It’s insightful to see your way of life. We really are more similar than different. We all have our struggles, and are trying our best to live for ourselves and the ones we love around us. I will continue to watch your videos, and I wish you all the support in the world! You’re resilient and I know being around your family and back in your hometown will do wonders for your mental health and along with it your physical health will improve. Much ❤
Your honnest comment is an eye opening testimony of the times we're living in. Thank you for opening your heart to the world. Yes others are going through a lot also and yes your comment help. Thank you.
Sweet girl, sadly we often have no control over the political choices of our leaders. I think you made the right choice for yourself and your sons. Nothing is as good as your family surrounding you with love. Looking forward to your future vlogs, and hoping for the very best. Hugs from America. Peace to all of us. Judy
You are so naturally pretty. I was trapped in a relationship with a man for almost 20 years. 19 years I stayed in a separate room & never even kissed him again. He was very violent also. He is a disgusting narcissist. I list my entire family because of him. But if they are that toxic, my uncle said I was better off without them. I couldn't aford to live on my own & I got very sick also. Finally, I was able to escape & did going on 2 years ago. I understand. I am 74 years old! Never think it's too late.❤
I totally understand what you’re talking about. Same here-I moved to Canada five years ago. It’s a great and beautiful country, but the local mentality is so different. I feel sort of isolated and depressed. I’m also dealing with anxiety about my health, and overall, my mental state isn’t the healthiest. Not thinking of going back to my home country though (at least now).
Beautiful video... You've made a decision that has continuity! You've gone against and risen above your nature! This is so meaningful. Your journey of Strength is an inspiration to all of us. Have No fear or doubt ❤ You're on your right, amazing, Unique path❤
Wow. Nastya, you are an absolute gem. What a beautiful soul. What a beautiful woman. I'll repeat what I said in a comment on another of your videos: you are like a ray of sunshine on a cloudy day. Even with all your own struggles, you recognize and empathize with other people's difficulties, sharing what you have endured as well as actions that have helped you. You also recognized your children's fathers for helping you in a time of your need when it would have been easy for them not to do so, especially since it makes it more difficult for them to see their children. These are signs of a good, generous soul. You should feel very good about yourself -- at least satisfied in that you are trying to do the right thing, not just for yourself, but because it is the right thing to do. Disclaimer: Having done a fair amount of research, myself, a diabetic who made misinformed dietary choices for many years, happen to agree with your dietary decisions. I, an American, also happen to believe -- based on ample evidence -- that Russia has been maligned over events started by non-Russian subversive agencies and warmongers. It is such a shame that so many good people end up paying the ultimate price so that a few power- and profit-seeking people get their wishes. Most people are more alike than different. Keep being yourself and showing those bonds that we all share. Eventually, I think, we can overcome the forces that divide us. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you Nastya for sharing these videos. I first watched the tour of your grandms's lovely apartment, got subscribed and watched this one. It is obvious to me that you are kind hearted and brave (very seldom characteristics these days or may be all along the humanity).. Looking forward to the next videos, best wishes from Istanbul.
I too have had panic attacks. I was able to reform my thoughts and behaviors through classes offered by my medical provider. I wish you the same outcome. I am an old man (age 76). I attended the 1970 World Fair in Montreal. I was a young man at the time. There was a Cold War between the U.S. and Russia at the time. I intuitively knew that people were all basically the same and conflicts between nations were caused by corrupt politicians. I had a conversation with a young Russian woman working at the Russia Exhibit. Our conversation confirmed my suspicions. She was much like me and my friends. She was optimistic, had a positive outlook, and held no animosity towards Americans. I wish you and the Russian people the best. I live in hope that our nations will be able to become allied and amicable so that our nations people are not unnecessarily burdened by wars, sanctions and propaganda.
Copy-pasting my comment here. Dude, she is the war supporter. Because of people like her - millions of Ukrainians have lost their homes due to Russian aggression. Where do you see a "good person" here?
Prends soin de toi, prends le temps de vivre, et les choses vont se remettre en place, tu pourras vivre plus sereinement. Tu as eu beaucoup de courage pour tout ce que tu as traversé. Merci pour tes vidéos 🌞 Depuis la France 🇲🇫❤
With the support and love of all the strong women in your family who have all had to go through their own thing in their own ways you and your kids will get through this and be better than before! 😊 I promise. Hang in there, keep living simply and just be patient.
You seem to be such a good person with a good heart ❤ I really like to listen to your calm voice, but I also feel the pain and the strenght you bring with you. Once again you reminded me of my mother... you had quite the same experience as her and I admire women like you a lot! If being back home makes you feel better, it was the right decision. You've been brave and you should be proud of that ❤
You are an Inspiration and a Strong Woman. And I feel your Destiny now lies in Russia. What lies ahead are new opportunities for you and your children. All of you have a Happy life🙏🙏
Beautiful video. Panic attacks are no joke. I cannot imagine being away from my family when I have my attacks. You are amazing! God bless you, much happiness ❤❤❤❤
Nastya, I don't know how I found your video but I am glad I did. As a fellow introvert it felt like I was listening to myself when you were describing your life in Prague. I have lived in the city for almost 5 years and left last year. I have so many great memories from the city and what I experienced there however I have similar thoughts regarding Czechs that made it almost impossible to stay there long term (partially probably due to my fault as well) , my few friends from my time there were "expats"/immigrants. I am glad you didn't experience any racism cause from my understanding they can be very hostile towards Russians and Ukrainians. I hope everything works out for you, you did the right thing for yourself and your family. It is amazing that you found RUclips as way to channel your thoughts and I am sure it helps a lot! I wish you all the best!
Thank you for sharing your story! You are such a strong woman and wonderful Mom. I suffer with panic attacks and anxiety as well and I can’t imagine being away from my family in that state. You are very strong. Glad you found your way back home. Sending love from Canada. ❤❤❤
Канада отличное место.... для нацистов. Больше всех после 2 мировой войны приняли. И даже аплодировали нацисты в парламенте в прошлом году. Мои поздравления из Сибири. 😅
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I know one young russian guy living in Prague. And he suffer from the same thing as you.
Also (very early) divorced. He is good and kind guy. But trying to find in Prague "soulmate" is really naive and futile.
There only money matters.
We are ready in the USA, we have guns honey...we also have good people that are willing to fight, this is a global war I think however it is more spiritual as in good vs evil war....and I think we will be okay. The global elites want to throw out our constitution, however they forget that we have many many vets here and many that are willing to fight for the good of it all.
By being with your country in chalanging time you mean supporting your psycho presidents gonocidical war agaisnt Ukrainian people?
I think you made a wonderful and good choice in going home to your motherland. Russia is a wonderful country, be proud of its incredible history, I believe Russia has a great future, and you are a strong, beautiful lady! 🇷🇺❤️
I am so sorry for your heartache. God is Reaching Out to you & to all with a broken heart 💔 This is what I found out:
For God so loved ❤️ the World 🗺 that He gave His only Begotten Son that Whosever Believes In Him shall not perish but have Everlasting Life!
->Believe on the Lord Jesus & you will Be Saved. ->Jesus died for all of our sins. He wants to be your Savior & have a friendship with you.
->Romans 3:16 Says all have sinned. Romans 6:16 says the wages of sin is death but the free gift of God is eternal life. Romans 10:13 says Everyone who calls upon the Lord Jesus Christ will Be Saved. Pray this: “Heavenly Father, I believe that Jesus died on the cross for me & rose again. You know the way I have been living...I ask Jesus Christ to come into my life and Be the Boss of my life. Thank you for helping me to live for You until You come to take me back to Heaven. In Jesus Name Amen 🙏🏼
You are a good person with a good heart! I am American and I don't hate Russians. I hate the conflicts caused by senseless politics! I believe there are good people everywhere. Thanks for the video. With love from Minnesota, USA.
Lascia fare.
Senseless politics 🤷...an authoritarian with imperialist fantasies has invaded a peaceful nation, causing injury and death to over 700,000 human beings.
Oh remind me how many wars America raged? And still do !
Infact for me USA doesn't count something and doesn't exist.
@@blossompure US is like so and this never will change. But when I watch at their president that is completely out of order, I have to laugh a lot all the time. It's simply unbelievable how this man is out of all.
there's no place like home. thank you for sharing it takes a lot of courage to share such very personal experiences 😊
Dude, she is the war supporter. Because of people like her - millions of Ukrainians have lost their homes due to Russian aggression.
You absolutely did the right thing!
Speaking about it is away to heal.
God bless your journey!
Thank you for having the courage to share your story. As a single dad living with PTSD I completely empathise with you. Stay strong and know that you are never alone.
My cousin married a Russian 25 years ago. She's from St. Petersburg. He passed away a few years ago. She's still here in the States, has a job as an ultrasound tech, and still part of our family. We love her. I'm glad she didn't leave after my cousin passed. Thanks for sharing your story.
In what ‘states’? Is there only one set of ‘states’ in the world? The rest of the planet lives in jungle tribes?
@@isabelmarias.s.quelhasribe3121 im guessing you have a good intention but maybe you shouldn't reply to this comment like that. This could be a real story and bringing politics into something that could've caused despair and sadness might not be great
@@isabelmarias.s.quelhasribe3121В составе России🚩
Неудивительно, что вы ее любите! В Петербурге живут очень особенные, добрые люди!
You have struggled a lot, You came back to Russia, it was your best decision. I pray to God that the coming time will be very happy.👍👍
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I’m Czech, I live in Prague and listening to you now, I feel like you’re the kind of person I would like to build a friendship if I had met you in person 😊
Nastya, there is absolutely nothing better than family. God bless you and your children.
Thank you for your honesty and bravery. You are no doubt helping people.
I absolutely love your calmness and gentle way of being.
Being back home with your Mom and family is the best medicine. You are a strong person and everything will work out for you. Things take time. I know I’ve had panic attacks myself and it’s hard to describe how terrifying they are. Take it one step at a time.
You sound like such a good person. It's difficult enough going through life with anxiety and having to worry about two children. I pray you find peace in your life and someone to share your life experiences and problems with. You have many friends watching your videos, so you will never be alone. Stay strong.❤
Thank you for your kind words 🌸🤍
Copy-pasting my comment. Dude, she is the war supporter. Because of people like her - millions of Ukrainians have lost their homes due to Russian aggression. Where do you see a "good person" here?
Hi Nastya! I clicked on your video, because just like you, I’ve been away from home for the past 16 years (Russian from Moscow, living in the US), and these past couple of years the urge to go home is getting stronger and stronger. I am “stuck” here in a way, long story, but as soon as I can, I am going to move back to Moscow and be with my family.
When you said you felt better instantly upon reuniting with your family, it almost brought tears to my eyes.
It seems like 16 years should be long enough to start feeling at home in a foreign land, but for some reason, my heart has been with Russia the entire time and I just can’t call America my home despite having the citizenship and knowing life here very well. Thankfully, unlike you, I have never experienced any bias here because of the current situation and the tension between the US and Russia. I know it’s worse in Europe, but here regular American people continue to be friendly and almost lack curiosity about what’s happening outside of their country.
I wish you all the very best, your video is very reassuring and even pacifying. I am glad you made it back home!
Same situation with me! I feel you:)
My situation is unique because for me " the current situation " started in 2014, the people I adore were already heavily involved on the Donbass Reb side so the FBI kind of made my choice for me when they started harassing me the minute I said, " No, I will not throw my Tsarev and Gubarev under the bus! ". I am head over heels in love with SF and the Peninsula so if certain people do manage to drive me out of the country it's gonna be Vladivostok- not Oleg's Yalta.
I’m impressed with your ability to communicate your thoughts so beautifully given that English is not your native language. I am so happy you decided to return to your homeland especially given the troubling times we are all experiencing. I do understand how challenging dealing with anxiety and panic attacks can be (I’ve struggled with them for many years). You, unlike so many of us, are blessed to have a loving family. May you find comfort in their presence.
00:52 🧳 Multiple factors contributed to the decision, with one key personal factor being the most significant.
01:24 🌍 Lived in Central Europe (Prague, Czech Republic) for 16 years, studying, working, and starting a family.
02:35 🇨🇿 Prague was a great city, but forming deep connections with locals was challenging due to cultural differences.
03:12 😔 Lack of fulfilling relationships and an unfulfilling job led to isolation, depression, and a feeling of being stuck.
04:15 🚸 Couldn’t return to Russia earlier due to co-parenting arrangements with her children’s fathers.
05:07 📉 The pandemic, military conflict, and geopolitical tensions added to personal anxiety and declining mental health.
06:29 💥 Panic attacks were a major turning point, driving the urgency to return home for mental and physical recovery.
07:26 🥩 Adopted a keto diet to help manage anxiety, seeing physical improvements but needing more healing time.
08:19 ✈️ Fathers agreed to let her take the kids to Russia, leading to a challenging journey through Kazakhstan.
09:01 🏡 Being back in Russia, close to family, brought immediate emotional relief, though long-term decisions remain uncertain.
Hello from Alabama, USA. The world is watching you! Stay strong we are rooting for you and your children.
Slava Ukraine 🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦
America IS on Russias side. Media is not trustworthy as we have all seen. Bama here too.
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I am half russian half ukrainian born and raised in ukraine , away from mother land for 15 years now and I want to go back to russia , to the village where my grandma still lives...
So much love to you. I am an American who lived in Prague for two years, and despite having a very lovely Czech boyfriend, I found the culture difficult to navigate, too. But I really loved the people I knew, and I will miss Praha forever. I now live in the Netherlands with my Dutch partner and two children, and while I am happy, it will never be the center of my universe: my grandma's house in Iowa. She still lives there.I really understand why you so love your grandmother's house. There is no place like home! I am happy you have your family close to you as you heal. ❤
U are a dear, brave, beautiful & kind soul. The universe will support you. We all need ur voice from deep inside Russia as we forget how we are exactly the same. Keep being your authentic self on your channel. If anyone criticizes you, it is their loss. The vast majority of us are cheering you on. I thot we Introverts were the only ones who required only a few deep meaningful relationships. So it’s a Russian thing too! No wondered I adored Russian music from a little girl onward thru life. Am proud of you! From San Francisco Bay Area
Slava Ukraine 🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦
Hello Nastya, I am in my mid seventies and I want to tell you that you have made a very good decision because both you AND your children will benefit positively from your family support. Take care and good luck.🤗🤞
Привет, Настя! Случайно наткнулся на твой канал. Большое совпадение что я тоже живу в Нск и тоже недалеко от Монумента Славы (классный у нас там парк)
Хотел написать пару слов поддержки. Желаю тебе поскорее найти новых близких людей, занятие по душе и жить максимально счастливую жизнь. Выше нос, уверен, у тебя все будет хорошо! :)
Большое спасибо за теплые слова! Да, парк классный, мне теперь этот район нравится больше, чем центр 😅
Thank you so much for sharing your story 💓 As someone who suffers from depression and panic attacks, I really emphasise with you. You are incredibly strong and brave 💗 I'm so happy the father's of your children found the compassion to let you take them with you. Wishing you love, happiness and healing 💓✨ xxxx
Thank you and sending you love 🌸🤍
@@jessebrettjames How do you know ? You do not.
@@lauren6889she literally said it in the video
Thank you for sharing your experiences. I think it’s so important for people to learn about people from other countries and how we basically are the same. I wish we could all find peace and unity for the future of our children. I am so happy that you were able to get home and start healing.
I have extreme compassion for you. My daughter also has panic attacks and anxiety. Thank goodness you have a welcoming family and a home where you can heal. I wish you the best- From an American viewer.
Well done Nastya! That is quite a back story, you did the right thing going home. It is always best to be around family so that you have a support network that can help you. I wish you well I hope the panic attacks will subside so you can live a normal life! Best Wishes from London England
Ich glaube auch, dass du die richtige Entscheidung getroffen hast. Der Schritt wieder heimzukehren, fällt einem sicherlich nicht so schwer wie in ein fremdes Land zu gehen. Du hast beides getan, Respekt dafür. Deine Kinder brauchen Luft und Liebe, genauso wie eine gesunde Mutter. Daher musst du auf dich achten und in dich hineinhorchen, damit du deine eigenen Wünsche nicht außer Acht lässt.
Anxiety sucks...especially as a single father. Raised my son completly on my own with my son being autistic. I've always had depression and anxiety but got diagnosed while in the Army. Loneliness got the better and ended up rushing into a loveless marriage with the first woman to tell me she liked me. Best thing from that was my kids. Getting back into the Bible and closer to Jesus has helped me a Lot...I don't go anywhere, for one can't get my son to want to leave the house off his electronics. I gave up on trying to find love
i hope u find it
GOD bless u
You speak very well and so frank about your life experience. I wish you well in your homeland and lots of happiness and good health
Thank you for your story and your courage. Be well and may God bless you
I'm exactly where you were. Alone in the US with the kid desperately wanting to go back home to Russia. My kid is 11, and I'm planning to go as soon as she graduates high school. Happy for you that you made it home.
You definitely did the right thing. When you said you had returned back to Russia after traveling through Kazakhstan your eyes lit up. I think the fathers of your boys were very understanding and it's good you were all very mature about the situation for the sake of the boys. Please keep that relationship up with their fathers and let the boys keep in touch, they'll thank you in the future. ❤
You are a very pleasant, very calm woman!
If you wouldn't have talked about your situation I don't think people would have guessed you got through such a rough period in your life. You are very strong person and you will be able to get through all of it.
I am from Europe - Romania and I am watching your videos with great interest. Even though we are closer to Ukraine we don't hate Russians, we don't hate Russia. The problems caused in this world are only caused based on politics and rulers dictatorships. Ordinary people have no fault in these conflicts. It is sad that there's a lot of wrong doing in this world and we can't do much! 😔 Watching your videos I see a lot of similarities between countries - the way you live, the stores, the roads even. It is very interesting seeing how normal people live their daily life. It just shows that we are not that different in this world like most pretend to be!
Slava Ukraine 🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦🇺🇦
Nothing but kindness for you.
You made the right call, and it’s so brave of you to share your story. Thank you. This can definitely help others going through the same thing. I’m really happy you could take your kids. God bless you and your family.
Thank you 🌸💛
Hello from Florida. Life is like a roller coaster with its ups and downs. Hang in there. Love your videos. By the way, your English is very good.
Thank you 🤍
Admire your strength.. from USA California.. blessings to you 😇😇😇
The best decision there is is to go to your own country. The homeland is the safest place if there is peace there. Novosibirsk is peaceful now, and probably will remain so. It's up to you with what kind of work and how much you find happiness. Man stands on two legs: family, and a meaningful job. You have two children, they are your family. Have a good life.
Thank you 🌸
I feel like russians have a third leg, which is their land.. Once you are away, you lose something core that makes you a russian (or you become a miserable one). Nastya is a prime example.
Much love to you and your boys new journey
Hello, Anastasia! Your channel was in recommendation and when i oppened i was surprised because i'm also from Novosibirsk 😊
You are very strong person to pass all those troubles in immigration. I'm living in Europe 9 years and i know how it could be difficult. About friends you're right it's not easy to find them in our days. You was very lucky to live counrty with your kids! Wishing you to find yourself in new life and total emotional recovery ❤ Siberians are strong 💪
Hello Nastya, I wish you the very best in your new life in Siberia. You are a courageous person and I'm sure you will adapt soon and your sons too. Just take one day at a time, no need to rush into things. The most important factor now is that you are with your family. My grandparents were Russian. Love from Brazil.
Thank you 🤍🧡
@@nastya_in_siberia Dear Nastia, wish you all the best in your new beginning. If you are Orthodox Christian, go back to church, participate in the Sacrament, find a good spiritual father, and study the Holy Books. This will help if not solve completely your problems with panic attacks and depression.
Your story is so sad. What a courageous woman and mother you are. RESPECT! As a single mother of 2, better happy in Russia than depressed in Europe. Wishing you strength and happiness ❤❤
@@catherinerosman2110 💓
Stay strong young lady. Best of luck. Thank you for the video and life story.
I can watch your videos for days. As a black girl living in Sweden I understand your feeling. Living far away from your family and feeling anxiety. Love your calm and your pure lifestyle ❤❤
I just returned from my vlogging time in Mongolia. I was so surprised being the only black that a Russian family approached me and offered me a South Siberia gift. Good people. I am glad you found your way and started a new life. I wish those kids a better future life.
Hello Nastya, First time viewer. Very happy that you returned home to Novosibirsk, I have visited there once and came away very impressed and appreciated the natural beauty of the area. It was wonderful that your ex-husbands permitted you to return with the children. You deserve some happiness and I think returning to your roots will help you find it. I lost my wife of 32 years two years ago and now spend 3 to 4 months traveling the world. God Bless, TimE
I just discovered your channel, I am glad I did!!!!! Best of luck to you and your children!!!!
May the God bless you!
All best wishes to you and your children. I have a sister in Novosibirsk. I believe that the future leadership of the world belongs to Russia. If I were you I would have done exactly what you did. Please raise your children to be brave and believe in God. ❤ From Nepal
Sometimes you just need your mama. Thank you for sharing your story. I wish for you to find peace and healing ❤️
Be blessed I’m praying for you from Illinois in America. Being home with your mother was the best decision. You are a good mother.
Brave sweet girl. I am watching 👀 from Brazil 🇧🇷. All the best to you !
Твои ноги на русской земле- the best thing for your your spirit and your health, Nastya. Make sure that you spend a lot of time outside in your bare feet, 'grounding' your body on the earth and taking in the sunshine. This will do wonders for your body and soul... You are not alone- so many of us have similar stories in these troubled times, especially in the West. Thank you for sharing and I wish you and your family all the best! You are on the right track.
Thank you for your kind words 🤍
@@nastya_in_siberiaчерез впн сидишь?
Yes...this is true. Mostly she will feel better with The Lord who made the earth as He wants to heal her and she needs to forgive herself and others to gain peace. Self reflection is always a start to healing and peace. Let the awesome God of all creation guide you. His name is Yahweh. His son is Jesus.❤🙏
Случайно натолкнулся на это видео и имею, что сказать: Анастасия, вы сделали правильный выбор. В свое время я тоже вернулся из эмиграции и обрел счастье дома. Пусть у вас все будет хорошо. И не рвите душу, вам больше не надо никуда уезжать, вы на своем месте. Дома и стены помогают.
Sending love to you Nastya from Australia 🥰 Thank you for sharing your story and giving hope to others around the world. We all have our struggles but with courage and determination we can heal.
Привет Настя, досмотрел твоё видео до конца. Спасибо, что поделилась этой информацией. Я желаю тебе всего самого лучшего в будущем. Я думаю, раз ты решилась на этот трудный шаг и вернутся назад домой на свою родину, значит именно там твоё место и только там ты будешь себя чувствовать лучше, чем в другом месте. Главное, чтобы ты никогда не жалела о своём решении. Но я думаю ты не будешь ни о чём жалеть, ведь там где твои родные, лучше быть не может.
Blessings to you Nastya - congratulations on making a very interesting, authentic video about your journey from Russia and back home! You overcame some massive challenges. Thank you for sharing your story and I enjoy seeing what life is like over there too.
Nastya, you are very brave girl. Its not easy but you will find the way.
I have 1 sugestion : - maybe you can make a video about beautiful places around you, what a lot of people like to see. And life in Novo Sibirsk, how ordenary people live , etc. Can be interesting, l gues.
God bless
Thanks for your honesty. Best Wishes.
You made the right decision!
Your health is everything!!
You should be so proud of yourself. I didn’t leave a toxic relationship and stayed for 40 years and now my health is so bad. I’ve divorced now but am still very emotionally and physically ill. I struggle daily with what I went through all those years and cry every morning still
You are a beautiful soul my love 😊❤
You are a brave lady. You were smart to go with your gut. It never lies to you. I wish you happiness and calm. Take care of you and yours.
glad your back on your feet stay strong stay safe keep your chin up
Welcome home. Greetings from Serbia.
Hi Nastya - Thank you for sharing your personal happenings with us. You are very brave to go through what you did. Going home is sometimes the best for us - if it’s possible. I enjoy your videos about Siberia and wish you all the best with your sons and your family. Take care 🌸🌸
Thanks for sharing. And my God bless you and help you heal and have a happy and fulfilling life.
I totally understand having panic attacks.. you feel like you’re dying! Praying your health gets better on track totally!! I just started watching your videos and enjoy watching you cook and how your apartment is coming along! Please continue to share how your overcoming the panic attacks!
What a brave person you are to tell your story this way.I am happy for you that you are in your old home with the people you love and who love you.I too suffer from panic attacks.As you know they are overwhelming so it makes your story especially important to me.May you be blessed with good health and happiness.
Thank you and I wish you healing and happiness 🧡
I am so sorry to hear that you didn't have any support in Czech Republic. I am from that country but became a single mother living in Canada now. So I really understand and feel with you ! You are an amazing human being. This was just one chapter of your life and I believe that now it's time for great and happy life for you! Wishing you many blessings and strong protection from God !
A few days before her belowed motherland started full scale murdering of the people they call “brothers”, she released a video on how perverted “the West” is, how only russsia has the real values, how we all are homosexuals etc. and russia “will save us”. Good she is back where she is. Too bad there are still people like here around here in CZ and EU in general… You know what they say: “You can get a girl out of russia, but you’ll never get russia out of a girl”…
You made the right decision! Thank you for sharing your story! It does give all of us hope!
I’m so happy for you, you’ll make it, you just did the hardest part❤️❤️🇨🇦
Hello from California. I found your channel today and enjoyed hearing your story. I wish you and your children a happy life. I look forward to future videos.
🇺🇸 angels lol 🙃🙃🙃🙃
Being close to family is always the right decision. I think you will be feeling much better. ❤
I have no idea how I can across your channel, but I’m so glad I did. It’s insightful to see your way of life. We really are more similar than different. We all have our struggles, and are trying our best to live for ourselves and the ones we love around us.
I will continue to watch your videos, and I wish you all the support in the world! You’re resilient and I know being around your family and back in your hometown will do wonders for your mental health and along with it your physical health will improve.
Much ❤
Your honnest comment is an eye opening testimony of the times we're living in. Thank you for opening your heart to the world. Yes others are going through a lot also and yes your comment help. Thank you.
the body speaks loudly until we listen. been on a similar journey. wishing you luck and healing
Sweet girl, sadly we often have no control over the political choices of our leaders. I think you made the right choice for yourself and your sons. Nothing is as good as your family surrounding you with love. Looking forward to your future vlogs, and hoping for the very best. Hugs from America. Peace to all of us. Judy
You are so naturally pretty. I was trapped in a relationship with a man for almost 20 years. 19 years I stayed in a separate room & never even kissed him again. He was very violent also. He is a disgusting narcissist. I list my entire family because of him. But if they are that toxic, my uncle said I was better off without them.
I couldn't aford to live on my own & I got very sick also. Finally, I was able to escape & did going on 2 years ago. I understand. I am 74 years old! Never think it's too late.❤
Thanks for sharing your story❤ Good luck! I wish you best❤
I totally understand what you’re talking about. Same here-I moved to Canada five years ago. It’s a great and beautiful country, but the local mentality is so different. I feel sort of isolated and depressed. I’m also dealing with anxiety about my health, and overall, my mental state isn’t the healthiest. Not thinking of going back to my home country though (at least now).
Beautiful video... You've made a decision that has continuity! You've gone against and risen above your nature! This is so meaningful. Your journey of Strength is an inspiration to all of us. Have No fear or doubt ❤ You're on your right, amazing, Unique path❤
Wow. Nastya, you are an absolute gem. What a beautiful soul. What a beautiful woman. I'll repeat what I said in a comment on another of your videos: you are like a ray of sunshine on a cloudy day. Even with all your own struggles, you recognize and empathize with other people's difficulties, sharing what you have endured as well as actions that have helped you. You also recognized your children's fathers for helping you in a time of your need when it would have been easy for them not to do so, especially since it makes it more difficult for them to see their children. These are signs of a good, generous soul. You should feel very good about yourself -- at least satisfied in that you are trying to do the right thing, not just for yourself, but because it is the right thing to do.
Disclaimer: Having done a fair amount of research, myself, a diabetic who made misinformed dietary choices for many years, happen to agree with your dietary decisions. I, an American, also happen to believe -- based on ample evidence -- that Russia has been maligned over events started by non-Russian subversive agencies and warmongers. It is such a shame that so many good people end up paying the ultimate price so that a few power- and profit-seeking people get their wishes. Most people are more alike than different. Keep being yourself and showing those bonds that we all share. Eventually, I think, we can overcome the forces that divide us.
Thank you for sharing.
I think you made the right decision. You are a good woman and your children are lucky to have you. Good luck to you in everything you do...
I'm glad you are home and feeling better, and i hope you keep on healing.
Я плохо знаю английский. Друзья, спасибо за комментарии по ним я поняла смысл видео.
You are very brave. I can't imagine making that trip back home with two children. All the best to you and your family.
Glad you made it back to your home country safely. Sounds like you made the right decision. God Bless you.
Thank you for sharing your journey and healing process. No one has a right to judge you. We are all in this world trying to survive each day.
Thank you Nastya for sharing these videos. I first watched the tour of your grandms's lovely apartment, got subscribed and watched this one. It is obvious to me that you are kind hearted and brave (very seldom characteristics these days or may be all along the humanity).. Looking forward to the next videos, best wishes from Istanbul.
We live in a tragic time. I’m glad you can be with family and can heal and move on.
I too have had panic attacks. I was able to reform my thoughts and behaviors through classes offered by my medical provider. I wish you the same outcome.
I am an old man (age 76). I attended the 1970 World Fair in Montreal. I was a young man at the time. There was a Cold War between the U.S. and Russia at the time. I intuitively knew that people were all basically the same and conflicts between nations were caused by corrupt politicians. I had a conversation with a young Russian woman working at the Russia Exhibit. Our conversation confirmed my suspicions. She was much like me and my friends. She was optimistic, had a positive outlook, and held no animosity towards Americans.
I wish you and the Russian people the best. I live in hope that our nations will be able to become allied and amicable so that our nations people are not unnecessarily burdened by wars, sanctions and propaganda.
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Copy-pasting my comment here. Dude, she is the war supporter. Because of people like her - millions of Ukrainians have lost their homes due to Russian aggression. Where do you see a "good person" here?
I really enjoyed the video - Thank you for sharing your story and I wish you the very best!
You will be ok , wish you all the best,God bless you , thanks
Prends soin de toi, prends le temps de vivre, et les choses vont se remettre en place, tu pourras vivre plus sereinement. Tu as eu beaucoup de courage pour tout ce que tu as traversé. Merci pour tes vidéos 🌞
Depuis la France 🇲🇫❤
With the support and love of all the strong women in your family who have all had to go through their own thing in their own ways you and your kids will get through this and be better than before! 😊 I promise. Hang in there, keep living simply and just be patient.
You seem to be such a good person with a good heart ❤ I really like to listen to your calm voice, but I also feel the pain and the strenght you bring with you. Once again you reminded me of my mother... you had quite the same experience as her and I admire women like you a lot! If being back home makes you feel better, it was the right decision. You've been brave and you should be proud of that ❤
You are an Inspiration and a Strong Woman. And I feel your Destiny now lies in Russia.
What lies ahead are new opportunities for you and your children.
All of you have a Happy life🙏🙏
Beautiful video. Panic attacks are no joke. I cannot imagine being away from my family when I have my attacks. You are amazing! God bless you, much happiness ❤❤❤❤
Nastya, I don't know how I found your video but I am glad I did. As a fellow introvert it felt like I was listening to myself when you were describing your life in Prague. I have lived in the city for almost 5 years and left last year. I have so many great memories from the city and what I experienced there however I have similar thoughts regarding Czechs that made it almost impossible to stay there long term (partially probably due to my fault as well) , my few friends from my time there were "expats"/immigrants. I am glad you didn't experience any racism cause from my understanding they can be very hostile towards Russians and Ukrainians. I hope everything works out for you, you did the right thing for yourself and your family. It is amazing that you found RUclips as way to channel your thoughts and I am sure it helps a lot! I wish you all the best!
May God continue to Bless you & your family…So glad you were brave explaining your feelings to the Dads, & they AGREED❣️
Thank you for sharing your story! You are such a strong woman and wonderful Mom. I suffer with panic attacks and anxiety as well and I can’t imagine being away from my family in that state. You are very strong. Glad you found your way back home. Sending love from Canada. ❤❤❤
Канада отличное место.... для нацистов.
Больше всех после 2 мировой войны приняли.
И даже аплодировали нацисты в парламенте в прошлом году.
Мои поздравления из Сибири.
😅