I watched this coming home from London on Wednesday, trying to hide the tears from the rest of the train. It has taken a dude riding a bike on the internet to help me work out what is 'wrong' with me...and it already feels like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders. Been following BvG for years and 44T since the beginning, living the lifestyle vicariously has helped me up out of the fog more than once! All the best for your continued recovery Chris and keep up the good work...
Chris, you give so many ppl masses of laughs, tell hilarious anecdotes, interesting stories and provide buckets of vicarious enjoyment through these vids and what you do. Don't ever for get that. I've been a fan of BVG since the Gixxer went off roading (lol) and always enjoy catching up on what you the 44 lads are up to. Keep it up fella.
It took me 2 hours to finish watching this video. Every few sentences I paused the video and reflected upon my current mental state. I'm having difficulty putting my thoughts together as I'm typing this comment. I need help and have been reluctant to talk to someone about it. Maybe because I think nobody would understand, or that they would laugh at my problems, or that I'm embarrassed to be so vulnerable and open about my feelings, or it could be several other things that have been preventing me to seek help. Most times I'm a normal functioning adult, but there are times when I don't even want to move. I make people think I'm happy and going about my merry life, but the truth is I'm struggling. I've pushed people away, good people, people who at every opportunity have selflessly helped me. Thank you for helping me get some clarity on my mental state.
The Barron is back:! Your absence has been noticed and your return is welcomed. It takes courage to talk openly and its touching to wathc your humility. Keep smiling.
To be honest, Chris, I’ve been struggling for some years now. Very unhealthy work life balance; but rewatching the BvG videos has kept me north of depro
Depression isnt real for men. The issue is women are taking the healthcare role and treating it like female depression. Depression is a result of helplessness in solving problems. You stated already youre stuck working so many hours which is the issue not actually mental health.
Years ago when i was really down it honestly would light up my day seeing that you’d uploaded. Hearing that jingle and seeing your cam POV is giving me so much nostalgia. I’m so happy you’re doing these vids again Baron
The thing about injustice really struck a chord with me. It's everywhere, and whenever you get visibly frustrated or even angry about it, people around you seem baffled like there's something wrong with you. Maybe if more of us would be angry about things like that, the world wouldn't suck so much. I guess it's not obvious to most people.
Sadly we live in a world of labels, even to the point that people will actively try and ruin your career and life if you say the wrong thing. No idea where it goes from here TBH
I think an issue with “injustice” is that what is injustice to one, isn’t defined as such by another. As an example, the abortion issue flaming up right now. I think vocalizing our opinions is good. It’s a strange line...
God Chris, I wrote a rant on this the other day on one of my blogs just to get all this stuff off my chest. I’ve suffered with depression and anxiety for years. Got a hold of it for quite a few years but the last couple of years (covid, relationship issues) has brought it all back and I’m trying to get a hold of it. For me Gym at home works plus riding bikes but half the time I sit here looking at my garage of bikes and can’t even be arsed to ride them. Mornings are always the worst but if I exercise then later in the day I get motivated but wake up the next morning struggling again. Anyway, just to say these videos of yours are great to watch and I’m sure help a lot of people. I’m jealous you’re in the Cotswolds, I used to live there before I got stuck out here in the Philippines (no it’s not a paradise). I miss back home but am trying to make the most of things out here. Totally agree about ‘conspiracy stuff’ , I went down that rabbit hole and just try not to think about it too much now because it’s bloody depressing. Enjoy the GS, I’ve got my Africa Twin which I feel the same about as your GS.
Honestly Chris it sounds just like you’re describing me, rather than yourself. Took a hit earlier in the year after losing my Dad the day after Boxing Day. I’ll even forgo a motorcycle ride just to get out for a walk. Even typing this, my heart is racing and my chest is pounding with the anxiety. It’s horrible. Thanks for talking about it. X
Glad you chimed in , we are all in this together. Life is one moment at a time and too short to spend with regrets about anything large or small. I hope this finds you well and know you matter .
Best thing to do is accept it. Say to yourself "yeah that's me, been though______ this is my response" I am human. Then start with change that moment. Like positive thoughts fuck it just start singing in the car or riding. A thing that helped me is hearing "People don't care about you. They are to wrapped up in their own heads to notice. So if you are dressed funky, hairs messed up, misspeak, no one is going to notice." I am still trying to follow this advice. But it helps with social anxiety or going to new places.
Thanks Chris, you've convinced me to finally go and see the doc after a lot of typical male denial.I spent a couple of hours writing, editing, deleting my circumstances. I just think that if you have convinced 'just' me to seek some extra form of help then you can take a lot of positive from your posting.
My wife died of breast cancer, my children were one four and seven, I had to bring them up on my own . I struggled with anxiety from an early age because of my dad and when she died it got way worse. To see my daughter at 1 with no mom nearly finished me and is still difficult today even though she's 19 now. My dad didn't mean to break my spirit but at 53 now I'm so self effacing, guilty about my life and struggle to make connections or friends . Thank God for my loving partner she's saved me many times from myself. I've read lots of these comments and feel part of something in a good way I want to change but it's like an inhibitor , I'm not the best I can be Ricky gervase nailed it in Afterlife. But anyway thank you for sharing Best regards
I have done the same for the last yr. Every night. Not sure what it felt like sleeping through a night and not waking throughout 100% stressed and anxious.
@St John Smythe I'm sorry to hear that friend. Take comfort in the fact that the ability to climb out of this pit is within your grasp. You can be the author of your own joy. Message me anytime.
@@BojF1 I'm sorry to hear that friend; I can't imagine how taxing that must be on you. Know that the ability to live a happy life is within your grasp; even if right now it really doesn't seem that way. Message me any time.
Unfortunately depression is an issue social media has exacerbated so much throughout the years, too much people suffer in silence. Thank you for speaking out, I’m an OG follower & I wish you the best!
Walking at the crack of dawn in the summer at about 5am is particularly great, catching the first rays of the sun gives you extra hope, and you usually have the streets to yourself for a while. Peace.
Definitely. The other thing that’s worked for me (after many years of struggles): I started taking a Vitamin D supplement this winter, traditionally my worst time. Really felt like it made a difference.
I don't lift anymore (I'm starting again soon, promise) but packing a load of muscle on my genetically skinny frame made a world of difference. It didn't cure my anxiety but it got rid of most of it. I felt like people treated me differently, I was no longer intimidated about interacting with strangers. I was a nervous wreck the first time I went to the gym, soon after it became I place I enjoyed, a place I felt comfortable. I think seeing the progression of that, plus the rewards of my exercise, made an absolute life changing difference. I couldn't recommend it enough.
Fellow rabbit holer/rationalist here. Hard not to fall into a depression when you have an objective view and can connect the dots regarding the real intentions of the facist flu that was going round. Stoicism has helped me greatly, highly recommended. Ancient greek philosophy of which the main premise is not allowing external events to affect you (as best you can). I don't know how much you know but sadly I think the world economic forum are just beginning. Study the works of Marcus Aurelius, Epictetus, Seneca and overtime you will adopt a similar mindset which has helped me tremendously. Great vid glad to see you back.
Chris you’re an amazing man. Mental health issues can happen to any of us, anytime. Mine’s been worse since losing my Dad but two years later, I’m finally getting through it. When you’re feeling down, try think of all the people that love you and couldn’t live without you; your parents, your son and your stunning girlfriend. Virus has heightened everything also. Here’s to a fantastic summer!!
Had exactly the same..lost.my dad and then my mum then lockdown.....I think keeping busy and motorbikes kept me sain and kept the dark moments to the few.
4:21 - almost spat my cup of tea out Chris! Suffered all my life in a similar way to you, and many others out there. To you and anyone else reading this - tomorrow is another day and the bad days will pass.
Chris, I followed your walking-advice from the 44 Teeth video that you recently made. I walked 30 kms over the weekend with my son, and it did wonders for my disposition. Thank-you. I need to buy better shoes, though, lol. My family member has a very serious illness (cancer) and I recently lost my dream job, too, (--they wanted me to stay but I couldn't). ...I know what you mean about everything happening at once and finding it difficult to cope, brother. Add to that the anxiety of reaching 50, and knowing your best years are behind you.... it can be a bit much. Keep your chin up. You're handsome, charismatic, people love you, and you own some truly gorgeous bikes, etc. The world will never be 'perfect...' so don't sweat the stuff out of your control. Reminding myself of this, (and walking), helped me get through. I'm eating properly, and a fitbit has been a useful tool, as well.
10 yrs ago my wife's brother was murdered. Then, last year in December, my wife's sister was murdered. You can imagine the depths of depression one would go through with situations like that. I've been riding for about 7 yrs now so I bought another motorcycle and taught her how to ride. Now we ride together on a daily basis and it's really helped her with anxiety/depression. She actually thanked me and said it saved her life! Anyone going through this should try a few things: Get on a regular sleep schedule, make sure you eat breakfast, exercise and find something to focus on that keeps you busy. I know that's easier said than done but it really can help. I love you all ❤
I have had similar symptoms (severe depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts etc) and was suffering for about two years almost leading to suicide. It turned out later that I had the testosterone level of an 80 years old man (secondary onset hypogonadism). I've been on TRT for about two years now (Dr Rob if anyone's interested) and for the first time in a long time, I feel normal, balanced. I wish everyone who is fighting this disease best of luck and please never ever give up.
@@BaronVonGrumble It's a tricky one, Chris. More and more men are suffering from this but we rarely speak up because of the stigma associated with low T. I'm not even going to get into the problem that so many of us are being given SSRIs and other crap by the NHS instead of addressing the root cause of the problems. It's a very complicated subject anyways but it is at least fairly easy to diagnose.
@@silamarie4406 Very, very true ! I was low some years ago, my testo was very low..started to lift wheights and eat proper, that got my testo up to normal...I'm very glad that it worked, not a fan of shots. It seems like it works both ways, low testo=low mood, and low mood=low testo. Get a bloodtest is my advice, then you will know...and act according to that.
Hello from Sweden, and thank you for this video. I also suffer from depression and have been on Escitalopram, i quit them because of side effects. Just want to comment on testosterone, i had very low testosterone level and now have to take a gel every day to reach a healthy testosterone level. The doctor explained to me what happens when your level are to low, i advice you to read about how low testosterone level affects your body and brain. Also read about too low levels of vitamine D. I think theese two levels are someting that should be checked before the doctor subscribes happy pills like Escitalopram and so on, but they usually don't. Of course this isn't the cause for everyone, but it's just a blood test so no harm in checking right. Please excuse my English gramma and so on, and p.s i have a 2019 Gs exclusive and loving it😉 Going for a ride clears my head from all thougts and makes me happy. Or when it's bad weather i can just watch someone else go for a ride on RUclips😅👍
@@silamarie4406 I agree with the comments on T, I've heard many similar comments from people. I just have to say, SSRIs are not crap. The science behind them is genuine. They don't work for everyone, no doctor will tell you that they do, but they make a massive difference for many people in the country. Medicine isn't going to help you with personal life issues, but they can give you the ability to get some motivation back that's needed to make the changes.
I'm a Registered Mental Health Nurse and have seen an incredible increase in demand since the pandemic. Lots of people are really struggling. This is a truly inspiring video and you should be proud of yourself. Men often struggle in reaching out to others for help. Raising awareness for mental health by sharing your journey and what has helped you may help to further reduce stigma, and may just help someone else too. Nice wheels, by the way!
Nice to know I’m not alone. Biggest frustration for me is everyone I know thinks I’m totally fine and happy. Overthinking the smallest thing can ruin any event for me. Last 2 years hasn’t helped as I’m also a social outcast due to lack of a certain medical intervention. Stay safe. Keep the vlogs coming
no medical intervention at all for me too, social outcast because of the" look at me brigade" who took medical intervention to go on holiday, and can't see the woods for the trees. Those of us who recognise our anxiety and depression put up the fake face and appearance to hide ourselves from the world. I've been suffering for 45 years with it and only told my dad about it in 2020, and he said he didn't have a clue that I was suffering from it as i hid it so well.
I’m SO glad to see you creating again. I thought RUclips had just stopped serving your videos to me. “The Great Pretender” is a very apt song for the likes of you and me. Welcome back - you were missed!
Chris, the last 4 years have been a misery and I never believed in depression until one day I realised I am getting less and less happy for no reason, and I started realising what people were referring to when they spoke about depression and anxiety. I can not get up in the mornings, its the worst in the mornings, by far! All I want to do is go back to bed and be unproductive and shy away from the world (I use to be a huge extrovert). I feel physically sick and feel like I constantly have to vomit in the mornings because of the anxiety, sometimes I actually do vomit. Im 33, and healthy, but man, this shit is real. Once I am up and about eventually after snoozing a lot, things are not as bad. (Your tip to get up and immediately do something is really hard, but very good). I understand now what it feels like, to be sad and unhappy for no particular reason. I am actually considering deleting all social media apps and not watching any news as I believe all the media bullshit and constant social media exposure has a lot to do with depression these days, even if you don't realise it, it creeps in. Thank you for your advice and chatting to us. I tend to also push people away during these moments in my life, even when I have no reason to do so. We must talk to one another, even if its to someone just to listen to, one doesn't always need immediate advice. Just need someone to listen and hear you out. I realise chatting to older, wiser men or women, can help with this stuff. People you can trust. Cheers mate. Great to hear your voice again and the bike in the background and sharing with us. You will help other people by talking about this. Thank you.
Hey man, I am 33 also and in my mid 20s I believe I was suffering with depression which had slowly crept up on me over the corse of 3/4 years. It got to a point where something had to change, I hated my job(courier) I had a lot of stress with my mum who was bed bound suffering with chronic fatigue syndrome, my wonderful partner who I am still with was ready for children and I just could not deal with it all, so we made some big changes, we moved back down south to where we grew up, although it wasn’t a lot we both stopped smoking weed, I started a new profession which I still love ( landscaping)! I stopped paying Any attention to the news or anything that I could not do anything about! The key is getting rid of the shit regardless to what it is! shit friends! Shit jobs! Shit food etc etc AND the number 1 rule is you have to want to be happy and you have to tell yourself that you WANT to be happy, you have to take note of the small things that bring you joy like birds tweeting outside your window or the smell of freshly cut grass in the summer! Or the leaves turning in autumn! I feel deeply for anyone going through it and I can tell you without any bs, if you have the necessary knowledge and want to be happy you can do it as I have!!, changes and outlooks have to be made full stop! It’s no joke! I can no longer remember or feel the horrible feelings that I felt! I feel content and satisfied and I fully understand that we are alive for a short period of time and we have to live it the best way we can! I certainly give permission to torque! Head up crack on boys
@@TheBarnz91 cheers mate. That's brilliant advice and glad to hear you got out, and that there is a way out. So right in what you say man, start appreciating the small things and the beautiful things in life, I love that. Thank you for your message, I hope others that need to hear it, read it too. Take care my friend.
I'm a 10year veteran of this bullshit, some people still don't understand how crippling it can be. I hope you're feeling better. Love the videos and 44teeth
Chris, I’ve been a fan for so many years now, you inspired me at the start of my journey and I’ve had many happy years of motorcycling thanks to you. I’ve always been so envious of your life! It goes to show that no matter how happy someone seems on the outside, you never know who is struggling. Thank you for using your audience to highlight the importance of talking about mental health ♥️
Thank you for making this video. As someone with real bad depression so bad I have tryed to take my life 2 times now. I have a learning disability so I have a hard time fitting in so it makes me sad. But riding my motorcycle also watching great people like you help me make it each day. So thank you for all you do because content like this could save someone like my life 😊👍
@@SolarEclips86 what do you ride? H2 SX se plus here. What a machine. Finally can ride daily up here and been riding into work. Much easier to deal with the stress and bs throwing a ride into the mix. Have a good day , all the fellas off on Friday, going for a ride .
Thanks for sharing your thoughts Chris. I lost my wife this last week or so after her battles with anxiety and depression. Anyone who met her would never suspect as on the surface she was so warm and loving. I hope this video helps anyone feeling this way as it is so hard to spot, and if you have never suffered yourself, so hard to understand. As you said, this is an illness, and not something to be embarrassed about. Talk to friends, talk to family, talk to your GP. As long as you talk to someone and reach out. I can be controlled, but not on your own.
I too lost my wife to anxiety and depression and she as she went about her day no one would never suspect she had issues. She was a medical professional, and could not let that cat out of the bag. I of course was ostrisized for letting it happen by her family. And it has taken a toll on me as well. I have hardened a fair bit but now keep to myself. Its been over ten years and am still alone. Although I have my own family for support if needed. I wouldnt normally comment on such things but you letter got me thinking and writing. Therapy. Time for a ride on my MOto. Thanks.
I like how outspoken you are about this. It’s refreshing to get away from the macho bs. I have enjoyed your videos and humour for a long time chris. Follow you on instagram. Keep positive mate. Always good to experience a good day amongst the monotony of everyday life. 👍🏻
Mate, long time intermittent viewer but.... You fucking hit the head on the nail with literally every point in this vid. GS, fly tipping, anxiety and depression and exercise. 11/10
We’re all proud of you, Chris!! I’ll stick a sticker on my Tuono! I hope you realize how much you’re helping so many people, you’re very much appreciated ♥️
Can absolutely vouch for walking. It is the best thing in my life. Earlier this year ('22) I took up hiking, just once a week on a weekend, about 10 miles or so, and this helped me feel even better. Especially at this crappy time of year (winter), it's actually something to look forward to and a good way to work your way through it week by week. After about the first month or two I started to notice a very positive change in my general mood and overall productivity. After about 3 months I went and climbed Scafell Pike, and now planning Snowdon for early next year. It's not a click your fingers and be happy kind of thing, there's a little bit of effort and work required, but you have to take that first step towards making yourself feel better.
Thank you Chris, I am struggling at the moment with my mental health and actually reached out for help last week, hearing someone in the public eye talk about it really helps normalise something that to be honest is really normal. Keep the videos coming as I love having you back
This video sums up my feeling and thoughts over the past 2 years. Brilliant to hear it from someone else. I met you guys in Alcaniz a few years back when the Hall effect sensor on my 1150GSA shit itself. You a Al were great chat in the bar/restaurant to think we both had anxiety issues and no one would have known
For the last couple of years Iv really struggled, ever since my son was born. I’ve felt like a horrible farther and a horrible person simply for feeling that way and Iv had moments where I’ve been at the lowest iv ever been. My marriage has come close to collapse because it. Throughout all of it I haven’t really had anyone to talk to, iv tried but no one seems to understand and I’ve been reluctant to seek medical help because of my job. Hearing stories and experiences like yours really help. I’m not the only one, there is hope, and it’s fixable.
Yep, the fatherhood guilt is real. But you know, ive never met anyone who "struggles" that is a crap person. The fact you struggle and care by definition means you are a GOOD person. remember that :)
@@sandybre1 Hey, glad you wrote in. If you haven't found someone to open up to, try your GP, although, you've made a start just by posting. One day, and if it gets real hard, one breath at a time. And if you have a bike, Njoy the serenity 🙏👍🌈💞
I started getting anxiety after I was hit by a car last year and had a traumatic brain injury. It took me many months to be able to do anything again, but I tried my hardest to stay positive and focus on things that made me happy and that I enjoy. Focusing on things that you enjoy and make you happy is the most important thing.
WOW, I can 100% relate to what you're saying & have experienced. You're not alone, we're not alone. Injustices in life are the same reasons why I get depressed...& unfortunately there are many Injustices these days for us all to deal with. All the best to you & all.
Hi Chris, I'm a old guy in my 50s and have been suffering with anxiety and depression for about 3 years now. The side effects on the rest of my body has been terrible. Waiting time for help can be months. I definitely can relate that walking and cycling does help alot. I tend to do it at night to try and tire myself out so I will sleep better. Keep up the good work and keep healthy.
God I miss your content. Every time I watch you i have a conversation with my phone 💙 I suffer with depression and anxiety too if you ever need someone to chat to hit me up. Glad your back Baron 💙
Great discussion Chris, many guys struggle in the darkness for many years in life. As a guy a lot is expected of us and few places to go talk to someone who’s been thru the same issues. Be safe and glad you stayed with us thru these difficult times. You’re a one in a million guy, and a lot of us that have followed you for years have enjoyed your rants and raves. Be safe brother sending best wishes from Canada 🇨🇦 👍👍👍👍
Thank you so much. I don't suffer like many, but still slip into nothingness sometimes. So, getting out for a walk (I also live in a pleasant place) is absolutely the perfect way to start the day. And injustice is the worst! Agreed! Stay well and healthy..
We’ve had a lifting of the winter season here in SE BC, and walking has become a daily staple… also helped by the fact that the bike is now insured (waking up to Blizzard yesterday was a punch in the dick 🤣🤣)
Speaking as someone who has always had demons, always had to deal with lows and lower lows I love watching your vids mate and the videos from the 44 crew. To help battle those pesky demons I finally did a DAS course last month and got my bike license. Am currently test riding everything I can get my leg over, getting around on a little 125 at the minute but love every minute I'm out on a bike. Honestly its done wonders, I've never been happier, its strange that after 20 odd years of trying to deal with crap it only took this one change to make a massive difference. Anyways keep up the good work buddy
Lost my father-in-law a few years back through depression. He was from an older generation who simply didn’t understand that it was good to torque. Maybe if he was around today he would feel less alone as there is certainly less stigma attached to this subject . Respect to you . 👍
Chris mate, I dont know you from Adam, however I just got to say what an awesome bloke you are for wearing your heart on your sleeve and not doing the usual bloke bollocks of sticking your head in the sand, your openess and honesty is so brilliant, I love you fella ....... 44 teeth makes me laugh so much, never forget that you shine a light and make so many peoples lives happy, well done fella, you aint too shabby at riding a bike either ....... even a big girly GS thant is clearly making up for you having a very small wanger :-), keep up the awesome work, long may your openess, humour and chrisness continue
I've been a subscriber for about 10 years now. From watching you rant about insurance companies to this. Over the years I have found your videos hugely entertaining, informing and now, emotional. This was a tough watch for me but I am so glad you are moving forward and helping raise awareness for these kind of difficult topics. Thank you.
As someone who was prescribed Citalopram for 10 years, finally starting to supplement Vitamin D every day honestly changed my life. I have gone from wanting to die everyday to actually enjoying getting up in the morning, I may have to start going on walks as well. I really appreciate you coming forward and bringing more attention to this issue that we and many others deal with on a day to day
Thank you Chris. I am in the middle of therapy right now and struggling a bit. This video and your fantastic way of approaching the subject is exactly what I , possibly we all, need. I am pleased you are on the mend and hopefully, with walking boots firmly fastened, I will soon follow in your footsteps 🙏🙏. Sticker ordered for my Tracer 900 ……… stay safe and thanks again . Mick x
so his advice is "take a walk and pills" while he himself is not reallly getting better.... yeah dont know about that. but yes mental illness doesnt get enough attantion and has so much negative stigma
Man I miss your videos, I'm so happy that you've posted recently. I used to watch your videos all the time back when you were just doing the first few videos like Puss in Boots. I ended up getting a Ducati Panigale 899 as my first bike shortly after you posted that review. You're an awesome person and we all love you brother. Some of my fav vids you've done: Puss in Boots Tour De Baron - all the episodes Ducati 899 Review - This made me buy the Panigale Disabled Prostitutes The Urination Diaries
Thanks Chris. I'm a competitive cyclist who's been struggling with motivation lately. This was enough to get me back on the bike today. Felt great to start the day in a positive way again.
This hit me right in the feels. I’ve gone through similar things and have only lately started to find stuff to relax me that isn’t harmful. Thanks for sharing
On the same page as you, including the rabbit holes and the current 'situation'. I came here looking for GS reviews and left with a smile knowing good guys like you also get 'it'.
I’m dealing with some personal stuff at the moment and it’s great to see people being so open about it! Thanks for this vid! Good to see you back baron 👌
Ive been needing a serious break. When my underground parking was in renovations, I had to park my bike a few blocks away which forced me to walk ever morning for a few minutes. I started to notice the trees, the sun rise, all the flowers blooming, the families going to school. It really does make a difference to get up and exercise whenever you can.. So I've been needing a serious break lately. I just bought a Super Tenere, I am going to ride across the country and I've been thinking of aligning some of my trip goals with fundraising and awareness. Glad to see you taking care of yourself. Riding will always be our saviour!
Great video Chris, and despite how the larger media try and make us feel.. you’re not alone in questioning the current narrative of what the phuck is going on in the world. So many more people are realising they’ve been had, lives ruined, and the injustices shitt me off as well. Keep up the videos and thanks for the honest and great content. Sending calibrated vibrations from Australia land. Namaste.
I only found 44 teeth when searching for videos to help me when I was going to do my mod 1 and mod 2 less than 2 months ago. The first day I found your page I was instantly hooked, I have spent the past few months watching every single video you have uploaded to your channels and every day I wake up hoping to see a notification saying you have posted a new one. Your an inspiration to thousands if not millions of people and I genuinely love you guys. I have been through some depression and anxiety a few years back and at that point I had nobody to talk to and what your doing is more than amazing. I wish you all the best in life and hope our paths cross one day so I can shake your hand and tell you how amazing You are. Stay safe my friend ❤️
Thanks for sharing so openly Chris. I've been a fan for years now and I've never felt so connected to someone I've never met in person before. You've helped more people than you know with this video.
Suffered with depression for many many years and can absolutely relate to a lot of what you said on here. Feeling like the world would be better off without you as you weren't a nice person. Treating those you love and care about most badly. Self harming. Feeling worthless. The list goes on and on but you most definitely are not alone.
Shout out from New Zealand from another long term depression sufferer. Some really good advice here, so on point about the mind getting at you from the first moment you awake. 100% agree depression needs to be talked about more and coming from a tuff motorcycle family its really hard here in NZ. Stay jab free brother.
Have never heard such honesty. You are spot on. Walking yes, but ALL that you said rings so loudly. I went thru a period of time that was an awakening. April and May of 2020, I remember little of and no one went to the facility, but it was close. I'm in Oregon, USA, and the last couple of years have been life changing. Clowns running the show and me doom scrolling,... PLEASE. I am much better! Back on 2 wheels again (24 years of no MC) and that is my walking!! The focus required to avoid getting creamed by the same folks who created an ASS WIPE shortage! IS part of my Tork!! It is a great therapy, and a blast. Thank you very much for your story, I hope you can find equilibrium. What you said, again you are soooo spot on!!
I’ve watched a few 44 teeth episodes and now I stumbled onto this. It’s a small world, I have a thread of motorcycles through my life, I’m bipolar, I walk to help combat it and I’m also called Chris. I’d like to add acceptance to the list, the day I came to terms with the illness and became very open about suffering with it was the day I started moving forward again. Keep up the good work, somebody in the public eye openly talking about their own experiences of mental health can only be a good thing 👍.
Thanks for these videos Chris. It's genuinely appreciated talking about anxiety/depression issues. I know for myself, I have had a fucker of a year so far. As someone from Scotland who now lives in the USA I was recently diagnosed with a form of cancer and having gone through all the treatments I received the medical bills ($114,000+) I am praying that my medical insurance covers most of it. I missed a month of work as a result and then when something simple as my car breaking down (needed a new battery, that's all) I felt as though the world was coming down on me and I almost cried in despair. (BTW I'm not about to hit you up for money! Lol) I'll be fine in the end. I'm normally a pretty chipper person and never let on about troubles that affect me but sometimes it just gets me really down. Hearing about you and how you deal with things DOES HELP. Thank you. Next step is to try and get back on a bike (whenever I can get these bills down a bit) Cheers Chris!
Thanks for talking about such person thoughts and feelings in your life Chris . I've struggled for many years with anxiety , depression and at times some very dark thoughts as well and the trouble with anxiety it even makes you worry about telling someone or even asking for help incase they don't understand or believe you 😳 although since covid and lockdown restrictions , mental health has been highlighted more but I'm yet to take that first step for proper help to be honest . I passed my test 2yrs ago and getting out on the bike , even for a few hours with no real agenda , just ride and see where it takes me definitely helps . So thanks again for sharing Chris 😉👍
Hey Chris, I commented on your 44T where you started this conversation. Obviously, or not, I'm quite proud of you. I have similar but very different issues. Bad motorbike accident 4 years ago. PTSD, massive anxiety. Issues dealing with people. Restricted my circle of people to 2. Two people I can trust to not fk me up. This year has been amazing for me. Therapy with the right therapist. Working out the people that were negatively affecting me, Before Christmas I chose to drop the main person that was breaking me. That actually was my mother. Doing that has made me able to focus on myself and look after myself. I have made great progress this year and the main gig is about looking after yourself. I couldnt do it while i was massively stressed. I am much better now with the help of the right people. If I can help you in this campaign you just have to let me know. I have been through the mill and I think I am breaking through to the other side. I would love to give you the biggest hug in the world. Then get very drunk and talk absolute shit. Love you. Lets go for a ride PS i got a 2010 R1200GS Adventure and a Fireblade... pick ur poison :) xx
Very honest, thought provoking and helpful video, Chris. I've noticed, not just from the people who watch our adventures but also as a leadership and sales trainer, that behind the tough veneer of many directors, CEOs and hardened bikers, there are often many of the feelings you mentioned (and a significant increase over the last couple of years). Whilst I can often encourage the people I work closely with to open up and accept some help, many sadly still see depression - and all of the associated, debilitating symptoms - as weaknesses and don't feel able to ask for support - medical or otherwise. Thank you for being brave enough to discuss this. Hopefully it will encourage others to 'torque'🙂👍
Think most breakdown at some point. The fact that you came here to talk about it so compassionately and with great understanding shows just how much stronger it's made you. Well done Chris. I know a fair few that have suffered the same for the same reasons over the last 2 years.
Hi Chris I’m glad that you had the mental clarity to say no to “medical intervention” and you stuck to your principles. Yes you had the sniffles recently but I’m sure you know a lot of people who have also had the sniffles, have had medical intervention and are well and truly fubard! Walking is great for the soul, you automatically connect with your surroundings and it grounds you. Keep doing what works for you. Unbeknown to many, we are all going to be mentally and physically challenged very soon. Stay strong Mucker, you are not alone by any stretch of the imagination 👍
Your getting somethings absolutely right. And this darkness is whatever it is. Im in my sixtys and have been through this condition. With that said, it's nothing new to mankind. All the thing's Your doing that are helping are thing's Jesus christ taught me through the righteous written word's in the Bible. There's no magic pills that can sustain us. Most evangelical Christians still need to figure it out. Life was impossible, and now that ive surenderd to be faithful it's still very hard. It's like the seasons, and sometimes it's a long winter. But if i truly pray and ask for the better choice and focus on what is inportent thing's in the mind and heart do get to the self control that one of the closest flowers of GOD'S Son was like. Even all true followers need the part of them that the death on the cross opened up to all mankind. A supernatural deposit that only GOD can supply. He's called the holy spirit. Father GOD, HIS SON, and the holy spirit have been working together. The deposit is the HOLY SPIRIT. Many born again Christians haven't even found the thing's your figuring out. God's favor is drawing you as HE did with me. Keep making good choices and find a good pastor and get saved like i did forty years ago. Choose well
Thank You for making and sharing this video. Bought a motorbike in April and found your channel tonight. I lost everything I held dear in 2022 and it’s been really hard. The bike has been my salvation. Your video has really helped too. Thank You.
Thank you so much for this Chris. It helps massively to be able to relate to the experiences and trials you have so honestly and openly shared. As someone going through similar challenging times its good to know that I am not alone.....
You give a lot of people a smile mate that makes anything you do worthwhile and keep up the walking or anything that helps there’s too much stigma STILL over mental health. I cycle a lot and that is also good for the head. Glad your feeling a little better 👍👍👍❤️
Chris, I've just caught up with this video. And my word, absolutely brilliant. I've gone through a torrid time work wise, being chucked out 'due to covid' etc which is a load of arse. And since struggled to find meaning and worth in my life, the feelings of guilt that I've let my family down have been massive and I still wrestle with that everyday. Not to mention that, because of my previous job and the daft 'normal' hours working in the media dept of a professional sports club brought, I sold my bike as I couldn't get out on it and thought it would be better to let someone else enjoy it as I couldn't. It's something I absolutely beat myself up for now, as I can't afford a new (to me) bike and I so regret it. However, watching this has definitely made me feel better, I went out for a walk with a friend for an hour and feel so much better. Keep up the good work pal. Love it.
Thank you for sharing this Chris. As someone's who's been in denial about their mental health for too many years. This dialogue really helps encourage me to seek support, I envy your strength. I hope I can get there too. Thanks for the video mate 👍
You kept me holding on to what was left of a sliver of my sanity on the journey of 24/7 caregiving for my spouse with early onset Alzheimer’s. Rarely any sleep. Despair . Crushing depression. Out the other side years later. Piles of motovloggers later and getting ready to purchase my sons HD Ultra Classic from him to start my journey. My eternal thanks for your creation of magical content .
Ahhhh you’re back!!! I’m sorry to hear what you’ve been through. Ironically your videos were the things keeping me going through my years of surgeries and post surgery depression. I bumped into you at loomies once but wasn’t able to fully tell you how much I appreciate it! So from myself a big thankyou Baron 🤘
Baron that last bit about the tube, man that hits home hard, probably the best way anyone has ever described it! I think what you want to do with the stickers is an amazing idea, and you have already helped so many people with this channel be it in the past when you took your gixer offroad until now, without even realising it! We are all behind you and hopefully you find a way to heal from all this!!
Went straight on to 44t to order one. I watch your old videos when I feel like shit sometimes. Makes me feel less alone. Thank you for all you've done and continue to do.
Thank you so much for making this vid, I ordered a sticker immediately after watching this. I have struggled for a few years with Anxiety more than depression and after 1st lockdown I went out on my bike for what was supposed to be a chilled ride, completely broke down in tears on the side of the road and soaked the inside of my skid lid. Since then it's been really extreme at times, can't eat or sleep and worry about the most stupid of things. I started cycling the 4 miles each way to work in April '20 and it helps massively. Reading these comments is also really helpful. Thank you again.
Knowing that you suffer from the same thing as me....really makes me feel better. I really need to go to bed earlier and change my morning routine. Thank you for this video. Honestly, thank you.
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Well this feels like meeting an old friend again.
Hello Old Friends ❤
@@BaronVonGrumble You bring joy to many. Keep it up!
I watched this coming home from London on Wednesday, trying to hide the tears from the rest of the train. It has taken a dude riding a bike on the internet to help me work out what is 'wrong' with me...and it already feels like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders.
Been following BvG for years and 44T since the beginning, living the lifestyle vicariously has helped me up out of the fog more than once!
All the best for your continued recovery Chris and keep up the good work...
Chris, you give so many ppl masses of laughs, tell hilarious anecdotes, interesting stories and provide buckets of vicarious enjoyment through these vids and what you do. Don't ever for get that. I've been a fan of BVG since the Gixxer went off roading (lol) and always enjoy catching up on what you the 44 lads are up to. Keep it up fella.
It took me 2 hours to finish watching this video. Every few sentences I paused the video and reflected upon my current mental state. I'm having difficulty putting my thoughts together as I'm typing this comment. I need help and have been reluctant to talk to someone about it. Maybe because I think nobody would understand, or that they would laugh at my problems, or that I'm embarrassed to be so vulnerable and open about my feelings, or it could be several other things that have been preventing me to seek help. Most times I'm a normal functioning adult, but there are times when I don't even want to move. I make people think I'm happy and going about my merry life, but the truth is I'm struggling. I've pushed people away, good people, people who at every opportunity have selflessly helped me. Thank you for helping me get some clarity on my mental state.
So glad you're back to making these kind of videos, even if for a shortwhile or as a hobby. Great stuff.
The Barron is back:! Your absence has been noticed and your return is welcomed. It takes courage to talk openly and its touching to wathc your humility. Keep smiling.
To be honest, Chris, I’ve been struggling for some years now. Very unhealthy work life balance; but rewatching the BvG videos has kept me north of depro
Depression isnt real for men. The issue is women are taking the healthcare role and treating it like female depression. Depression is a result of helplessness in solving problems. You stated already youre stuck working so many hours which is the issue not actually mental health.
@@Row2nd Stress caused by work directly impacts your mental health. Mental health isn't a disease it's a sliding scale, everybody has it.
@@pendulum1997 mental health isn't a disease are you for real!?
@@Row2nd Pretty simplistic perspective. Totally ignores factual neuroscience.
@@ImLazarus666 for real, depression is not a disease.
Years ago when i was really down it honestly would light up my day seeing that you’d uploaded. Hearing that jingle and seeing your cam POV is giving me so much nostalgia. I’m so happy you’re doing these vids again Baron
The thing about injustice really struck a chord with me. It's everywhere, and whenever you get visibly frustrated or even angry about it, people around you seem baffled like there's something wrong with you. Maybe if more of us would be angry about things like that, the world wouldn't suck so much. I guess it's not obvious to most people.
100% this
Damn right.
Sadly we live in a world of labels, even to the point that people will actively try and ruin your career and life if you say the wrong thing. No idea where it goes from here TBH
I think an issue with “injustice” is that what is injustice to one, isn’t defined as such by another. As an example, the abortion issue flaming up right now. I think vocalizing our opinions is good. It’s a strange line...
Many years ago I heard a doctor say that the trouble is that the people who get the most stressed are the one that see the world as it actually is.
God Chris, I wrote a rant on this the other day on one of my blogs just to get all this stuff off my chest. I’ve suffered with depression and anxiety for years. Got a hold of it for quite a few years but the last couple of years (covid, relationship issues) has brought it all back and I’m trying to get a hold of it. For me Gym at home works plus riding bikes but half the time I sit here looking at my garage of bikes and can’t even be arsed to ride them. Mornings are always the worst but if I exercise then later in the day I get motivated but wake up the next morning struggling again.
Anyway, just to say these videos of yours are great to watch and I’m sure help a lot of people. I’m jealous you’re in the Cotswolds, I used to live there before I got stuck out here in the Philippines (no it’s not a paradise). I miss back home but am trying to make the most of things out here.
Totally agree about ‘conspiracy stuff’ , I went down that rabbit hole and just try not to think about it too much now because it’s bloody depressing.
Enjoy the GS, I’ve got my Africa Twin which I feel the same about as your GS.
Honestly Chris it sounds just like you’re describing me, rather than yourself. Took a hit earlier in the year after losing my Dad the day after Boxing Day. I’ll even forgo a motorcycle ride just to get out for a walk. Even typing this, my heart is racing and my chest is pounding with the anxiety. It’s horrible. Thanks for talking about it. X
I hope you are feeling even a bit better now bud 👊🏻 I suffer the same
Glad you chimed in , we are all in this together. Life is one moment at a time and too short to spend with regrets about anything large or small. I hope this finds you well and know you matter .
you're not alone Mark, I suffer too. I hope you get some support mate
Best thing to do is accept it. Say to yourself "yeah that's me, been though______ this is my response" I am human. Then start with change that moment. Like positive thoughts fuck it just start singing in the car or riding.
A thing that helped me is hearing "People don't care about you. They are to wrapped up in their own heads to notice. So if you are dressed funky, hairs messed up, misspeak, no one is going to notice."
I am still trying to follow this advice. But it helps with social anxiety or going to new places.
And if you get the I call them "night time demons" workout at night rather than the morning. It puts me in a better mood.
Taking a daily hour walk is absolutely tremendous for mental, emotional and physical health.
Thanks Chris, you've convinced me to finally go and see the doc after a lot of typical male denial.I spent a couple of hours writing, editing, deleting my circumstances. I just think that if you have convinced 'just' me to seek some extra form of help then you can take a lot of positive from your posting.
Good luck dude . It will help 👍😎
Good luck friend
My wife died of breast cancer, my children were one four and seven, I had to bring them up on my own . I struggled with anxiety from an early age because of my dad and when she died it got way worse. To see my daughter at 1 with no mom nearly finished me and is still difficult today even though she's 19 now. My dad didn't mean to break my spirit but at 53 now I'm so self effacing, guilty about my life and struggle to make connections or friends . Thank God for my loving partner she's saved me many times from myself. I've read lots of these comments and feel part of something in a good way
I want to change but it's like an inhibitor , I'm not the best I can be
Ricky gervase nailed it in Afterlife.
But anyway thank you for sharing
Best regards
I woke up at 3am stressing about work and some personal things in my life. This video was EXACTLY what I needed - thanks Sue; you're a life saver.
I have done the same for the last yr. Every night. Not sure what it felt like sleeping through a night and not waking throughout 100% stressed and anxious.
@St John Smythe I'm sorry to hear that friend. Take comfort in the fact that the ability to climb out of this pit is within your grasp. You can be the author of your own joy.
Message me anytime.
@@BojF1 I'm sorry to hear that friend; I can't imagine how taxing that must be on you.
Know that the ability to live a happy life is within your grasp; even if right now it really doesn't seem that way.
Message me any time.
Unfortunately depression is an issue social media has exacerbated so much throughout the years, too much people suffer in silence. Thank you for speaking out, I’m an OG follower & I wish you the best!
Chris, I just wanted to say thank you for this: I'm sure a lot of people will appreciate the honesty and the ideas, myself included.
Walking at the crack of dawn in the summer at about 5am is particularly great, catching the first rays of the sun gives you extra hope, and you usually have the streets to yourself for a while. Peace.
I find lifting and jiu-jitsu really helps my mental health. Physical activity is super important. Thank you for talking about this.
Definitely. The other thing that’s worked for me (after many years of struggles): I started taking a Vitamin D supplement this winter, traditionally my worst time. Really felt like it made a difference.
I don't lift anymore (I'm starting again soon, promise) but packing a load of muscle on my genetically skinny frame made a world of difference. It didn't cure my anxiety but it got rid of most of it. I felt like people treated me differently, I was no longer intimidated about interacting with strangers. I was a nervous wreck the first time I went to the gym, soon after it became I place I enjoyed, a place I felt comfortable. I think seeing the progression of that, plus the rewards of my exercise, made an absolute life changing difference. I couldn't recommend it enough.
Fellow rabbit holer/rationalist here. Hard not to fall into a depression when you have an objective view and can connect the dots regarding the real intentions of the facist flu that was going round. Stoicism has helped me greatly, highly recommended. Ancient greek philosophy of which the main premise is not allowing external events to affect you (as best you can). I don't know how much you know but sadly I think the world economic forum are just beginning. Study the works of Marcus Aurelius, Epictetus, Seneca and overtime you will adopt a similar mindset which has helped me tremendously. Great vid glad to see you back.
Chris you’re an amazing man. Mental health issues can happen to any of us, anytime. Mine’s been worse since losing my Dad but two years later, I’m finally getting through it. When you’re feeling down, try think of all the people that love you and couldn’t live without you; your parents, your son and your stunning girlfriend. Virus has heightened everything also. Here’s to a fantastic summer!!
Had exactly the same..lost.my dad and then my mum then lockdown.....I think keeping busy and motorbikes kept me sain and kept the dark moments to the few.
4:21 - almost spat my cup of tea out Chris! Suffered all my life in a similar way to you, and many others out there. To you and anyone else reading this - tomorrow is another day and the bad days will pass.
Chris, I followed your walking-advice from the 44 Teeth video that you recently made. I walked 30 kms over the weekend with my son, and it did wonders for my disposition. Thank-you. I need to buy better shoes, though, lol. My family member has a very serious illness (cancer) and I recently lost my dream job, too, (--they wanted me to stay but I couldn't). ...I know what you mean about everything happening at once and finding it difficult to cope, brother. Add to that the anxiety of reaching 50, and knowing your best years are behind you.... it can be a bit much. Keep your chin up. You're handsome, charismatic, people love you, and you own some truly gorgeous bikes, etc. The world will never be 'perfect...' so don't sweat the stuff out of your control. Reminding myself of this, (and walking), helped me get through. I'm eating properly, and a fitbit has been a useful tool, as well.
I'm over 50. You're best years aren't behind you.
@@witnesspropro Thank you. I need to be more positive. On that note, I just passed 112kms on my Fitbit. And I put my bike back on insurance. :)
10 yrs ago my wife's brother was murdered. Then, last year in December, my wife's sister was murdered. You can imagine the depths of depression one would go through with situations like that.
I've been riding for about 7 yrs now so I bought another motorcycle and taught her how to ride. Now we ride together on a daily basis and it's really helped her with anxiety/depression. She actually thanked me and said it saved her life!
Anyone going through this should try a few things:
Get on a regular sleep schedule, make sure you eat breakfast, exercise and find something to focus on that keeps you busy.
I know that's easier said than done but it really can help. I love you all ❤
You and your wife are tougher than I could ever hope to be. I hope the 2 of you share many miles together, through the good and the bad.
@@jeremyt7722
Life is a wild ride for sure. Thanks for the kind words!
I have had similar symptoms (severe depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts etc) and was suffering for about two years almost leading to suicide. It turned out later that I had the testosterone level of an 80 years old man (secondary onset hypogonadism). I've been on TRT for about two years now (Dr Rob if anyone's interested) and for the first time in a long time, I feel normal, balanced. I wish everyone who is fighting this disease best of luck and please never ever give up.
interesting, thats the 3rd time ive heard of this today.. 🤔
@@BaronVonGrumble It's a tricky one, Chris. More and more men are suffering from this but we rarely speak up because of the stigma associated with low T. I'm not even going to get into the problem that so many of us are being given SSRIs and other crap by the NHS instead of addressing the root cause of the problems. It's a very complicated subject anyways but it is at least fairly easy to diagnose.
@@silamarie4406 Very, very true ! I was low some years ago, my testo was very low..started to lift wheights and eat proper, that got my testo up to normal...I'm very glad that it worked, not a fan of shots. It seems like it works both ways, low testo=low mood, and low mood=low testo.
Get a bloodtest is my advice, then you will know...and act according to that.
Hello from Sweden, and thank you for this video. I also suffer from depression and have been on Escitalopram, i quit them because of side effects. Just want to comment on testosterone, i had very low testosterone level and now have to take a gel every day to reach a healthy testosterone level.
The doctor explained to me what happens when your level are to low, i advice you to read about how low testosterone level affects your body and brain. Also read about too low levels of vitamine D. I think theese two levels are someting that should be checked before the doctor subscribes happy pills like Escitalopram and so on, but they usually don't. Of course this isn't the cause for everyone, but it's just a blood test so no harm in checking right.
Please excuse my English gramma and so on, and p.s i have a 2019 Gs exclusive and loving it😉 Going for a ride clears my head from all thougts and makes me happy. Or when it's bad weather i can just watch someone else go for a ride on RUclips😅👍
@@silamarie4406 I agree with the comments on T, I've heard many similar comments from people. I just have to say, SSRIs are not crap. The science behind them is genuine. They don't work for everyone, no doctor will tell you that they do, but they make a massive difference for many people in the country. Medicine isn't going to help you with personal life issues, but they can give you the ability to get some motivation back that's needed to make the changes.
I'm a Registered Mental Health Nurse and have seen an incredible increase in demand since the pandemic. Lots of people are really struggling. This is a truly inspiring video and you should be proud of yourself. Men often struggle in reaching out to others for help. Raising awareness for mental health by sharing your journey and what has helped you may help to further reduce stigma, and may just help someone else too. Nice wheels, by the way!
Nice to know I’m not alone. Biggest frustration for me is everyone I know thinks I’m totally fine and happy. Overthinking the smallest thing can ruin any event for me. Last 2 years hasn’t helped as I’m also a social outcast due to lack of a certain medical intervention. Stay safe. Keep the vlogs coming
no medical intervention at all for me too, social outcast because of the" look at me brigade" who took medical intervention to go on holiday, and can't see the woods for the trees.
Those of us who recognise our anxiety and depression put up the fake face and appearance to hide ourselves from the world. I've been suffering for 45 years with it and only told my dad about it in 2020, and he said he didn't have a clue that I was suffering from it as i hid it so well.
@@robnewman4286 I’ve suffered bad anxiety all my life. So many of us suffer in silence.
I’m SO glad to see you creating again. I thought RUclips had just stopped serving your videos to me.
“The Great Pretender” is a very apt song for the likes of you and me.
Welcome back - you were missed!
Chris, the last 4 years have been a misery and I never believed in depression until one day I realised I am getting less and less happy for no reason, and I started realising what people were referring to when they spoke about depression and anxiety.
I can not get up in the mornings, its the worst in the mornings, by far! All I want to do is go back to bed and be unproductive and shy away from the world (I use to be a huge extrovert). I feel physically sick and feel like I constantly have to vomit in the mornings because of the anxiety, sometimes I actually do vomit.
Im 33, and healthy, but man, this shit is real. Once I am up and about eventually after snoozing a lot, things are not as bad. (Your tip to get up and immediately do something is really hard, but very good).
I understand now what it feels like, to be sad and unhappy for no particular reason. I am actually considering deleting all social media apps and not watching any news as I believe all the media bullshit and constant social media exposure has a lot to do with depression these days, even if you don't realise it, it creeps in.
Thank you for your advice and chatting to us. I tend to also push people away during these moments in my life, even when I have no reason to do so.
We must talk to one another, even if its to someone just to listen to, one doesn't always need immediate advice. Just need someone to listen and hear you out. I realise chatting to older, wiser men or women, can help with this stuff. People you can trust.
Cheers mate. Great to hear your voice again and the bike in the background and sharing with us. You will help other people by talking about this. Thank you.
I changed to a 'dumb phone' which helped a lot. It feels like all I get is dark news from the world and it is overwhelming!
@@james5553 yeah mate. I agree man, we need to get away feom this toxicity in the world, social media and the news is cancer.
You're not alone my mate, take each day one micro step at a time
Hey man, I am 33 also and in my mid 20s I believe I was suffering with depression which had slowly crept up on me over the corse of 3/4 years. It got to a point where something had to change, I hated my job(courier) I had a lot of stress with my mum who was bed bound suffering with chronic fatigue syndrome, my wonderful partner who I am still with was ready for children and I just could not deal with it all, so we made some big changes, we moved back down south to where we grew up, although it wasn’t a lot we both stopped smoking weed, I started a new profession which I still love ( landscaping)! I stopped paying Any attention to the news or anything that I could not do anything about! The key is getting rid of the shit regardless to what it is! shit friends! Shit jobs! Shit food etc etc AND the number 1 rule is you have to want to be happy and you have to tell yourself that you WANT to be happy, you have to take note of the small things that bring you joy like birds tweeting outside your window or the smell of freshly cut grass in the summer! Or the leaves turning in autumn!
I feel deeply for anyone going through it and I can tell you without any bs, if you have the necessary knowledge and want to be happy you can do it as I have!!, changes and outlooks have to be made full stop! It’s no joke! I can no longer remember or feel the horrible feelings that I felt! I feel content and satisfied and I fully understand that we are alive for a short period of time and we have to live it the best way we can!
I certainly give permission to torque! Head up crack on boys
@@TheBarnz91 cheers mate. That's brilliant advice and glad to hear you got out, and that there is a way out. So right in what you say man, start appreciating the small things and the beautiful things in life, I love that.
Thank you for your message, I hope others that need to hear it, read it too.
Take care my friend.
I'm a 10year veteran of this bullshit, some people still don't understand how crippling it can be. I hope you're feeling better. Love the videos and 44teeth
Chris, I’ve been a fan for so many years now, you inspired me at the start of my journey and I’ve had many happy years of motorcycling thanks to you. I’ve always been so envious of your life! It goes to show that no matter how happy someone seems on the outside, you never know who is struggling. Thank you for using your audience to highlight the importance of talking about mental health ♥️
this is the kind of stuff no one makes such open and honest videos the way you have , thanks Chris
Thank you for making this video. As someone with real bad depression so bad I have tryed to take my life 2 times now. I have a learning disability so I have a hard time fitting in so it makes me sad. But riding my motorcycle also watching great people like you help me make it each day. So thank you for all you do because content like this could save someone like my life 😊👍
You matter J. Look at the responses on here. People are hurting and we need to at least understand it is a disease.
@@chrispawlak14 thank you so much for such a nice comment. It really means a lot to me
@@SolarEclips86 what do you ride?
H2 SX se plus here. What a machine. Finally can ride daily up here and been riding into work. Much easier to deal with the stress and bs throwing a ride into the mix.
Have a good day , all the fellas off on Friday, going for a ride .
@@chrispawlak14 I have a Yamaha mt03. Looking to get a Honda 600 rr this summer
Thanks for sharing your thoughts Chris. I lost my wife this last week or so after her battles with anxiety and depression. Anyone who met her would never suspect as on the surface she was so warm and loving.
I hope this video helps anyone feeling this way as it is so hard to spot, and if you have never suffered yourself, so hard to understand. As you said, this is an illness, and not something to be embarrassed about. Talk to friends, talk to family, talk to your GP. As long as you talk to someone and reach out. I can be controlled, but not on your own.
Hope you're holding in there alright.
Sorry for your loss :(
I too lost my wife to anxiety and depression and she as she went about her day no one would never suspect she had issues. She was a medical professional, and could not let that cat out of the bag. I of course was ostrisized for letting it happen by her family. And it has taken a toll on me as well. I have hardened a fair bit but now keep to myself. Its been over ten years and am still alone. Although I have my own family for support if needed. I wouldnt normally comment on such things but you letter got me thinking and writing. Therapy. Time for a ride on my MOto. Thanks.
Crystals and hippy stuff, love it. Chris your a champion, stay strong come to Ireland and ride and walk some shit roads with us.
I like how outspoken you are about this. It’s refreshing to get away from the macho bs. I have enjoyed your videos and humour for a long time chris. Follow you on instagram. Keep positive mate. Always good to experience a good day amongst the monotony of everyday life. 👍🏻
Mate, long time intermittent viewer but.... You fucking hit the head on the nail with literally every point in this vid. GS, fly tipping, anxiety and depression and exercise. 11/10
ps get vaccinated.
We’re all proud of you, Chris!! I’ll stick a sticker on my Tuono! I hope you realize how much you’re helping so many people, you’re very much appreciated ♥️
Can absolutely vouch for walking. It is the best thing in my life.
Earlier this year ('22) I took up hiking, just once a week on a weekend, about 10 miles or so, and this helped me feel even better. Especially at this crappy time of year (winter), it's actually something to look forward to and a good way to work your way through it week by week.
After about the first month or two I started to notice a very positive change in my general mood and overall productivity. After about 3 months I went and climbed Scafell Pike, and now planning Snowdon for early next year.
It's not a click your fingers and be happy kind of thing, there's a little bit of effort and work required, but you have to take that first step towards making yourself feel better.
Thank you Chris, I am struggling at the moment with my mental health and actually reached out for help last week, hearing someone in the public eye talk about it really helps normalise something that to be honest is really normal. Keep the videos coming as I love having you back
Thank you for talking about mental health so openly.
This video sums up my feeling and thoughts over the past 2 years. Brilliant to hear it from someone else. I met you guys in Alcaniz a few years back when the Hall effect sensor on my 1150GSA shit itself. You a Al were great chat in the bar/restaurant to think we both had anxiety issues and no one would have known
Ha! I remember it well - and the dinner!
For the last couple of years Iv really struggled, ever since my son was born. I’ve felt like a horrible farther and a horrible person simply for feeling that way and Iv had moments where I’ve been at the lowest iv ever been. My marriage has come close to collapse because it. Throughout all of it I haven’t really had anyone to talk to, iv tried but no one seems to understand and I’ve been reluctant to seek medical help because of my job. Hearing stories and experiences like yours really help. I’m not the only one, there is hope, and it’s fixable.
Yep, the fatherhood guilt is real. But you know, ive never met anyone who "struggles" that is a crap person. The fact you struggle and care by definition means you are a GOOD person. remember that :)
@@BaronVonGrumble I will, and thank you 🙏🏻
@@sandybre1
Hey, glad you wrote in.
If you haven't found someone to open up to, try your GP, although, you've made a start just by posting.
One day, and if it gets real hard, one breath at a time.
And if you have a bike, Njoy the serenity
🙏👍🌈💞
I started getting anxiety after I was hit by a car last year and had a traumatic brain injury. It took me many months to be able to do anything again, but I tried my hardest to stay positive and focus on things that made me happy and that I enjoy.
Focusing on things that you enjoy and make you happy is the most important thing.
WOW, I can 100% relate to what you're saying & have experienced.
You're not alone, we're not alone.
Injustices in life are the same reasons why I get depressed...& unfortunately there are many Injustices these days for us all to deal with.
All the best to you & all.
Hi Chris, I'm a old guy in my 50s and have been suffering with anxiety and depression for about 3 years now. The side effects on the rest of my body has been terrible. Waiting time for help can be months. I definitely can relate that walking and cycling does help alot. I tend to do it at night to try and tire myself out so I will sleep better. Keep up the good work and keep healthy.
God I miss your content. Every time I watch you i have a conversation with my phone 💙
I suffer with depression and anxiety too if you ever need someone to chat to hit me up.
Glad your back Baron 💙
Great discussion Chris, many guys struggle in the darkness for many years in life. As a guy a lot is expected of us and few places to go talk to someone who’s been thru the same issues. Be safe and glad you stayed with us thru these difficult times. You’re a one in a million guy, and a lot of us that have followed you for years have enjoyed your rants and raves. Be safe brother sending best wishes from Canada 🇨🇦 👍👍👍👍
Thank you so much. I don't suffer like many, but still slip into nothingness sometimes. So, getting out for a walk (I also live in a pleasant place) is absolutely the perfect way to start the day. And injustice is the worst! Agreed! Stay well and healthy..
So right about that immediate morning walk…. I’ve started that over the last few months and it feels great…. Even in the dead of Canadian winter lol
We’ve had a lifting of the winter season here in SE BC, and walking has become a daily staple… also helped by the fact that the bike is now insured (waking up to Blizzard yesterday was a punch in the dick 🤣🤣)
Speaking as someone who has always had demons, always had to deal with lows and lower lows I love watching your vids mate and the videos from the 44 crew. To help battle those pesky demons I finally did a DAS course last month and got my bike license. Am currently test riding everything I can get my leg over, getting around on a little 125 at the minute but love every minute I'm out on a bike. Honestly its done wonders, I've never been happier, its strange that after 20 odd years of trying to deal with crap it only took this one change to make a massive difference. Anyways keep up the good work buddy
Lost my father-in-law a few years back through depression. He was from an older generation who simply didn’t understand that it was good to torque. Maybe if he was around today he would feel less alone as there is certainly less stigma attached to this subject . Respect to you . 👍
Watched this video about 10 times now, I feel you.
it might have been 3 years from when I didn't watched Baron Video. THANKS to RUclips I am back again.
Chris mate, I dont know you from Adam, however I just got to say what an awesome bloke you are for wearing your heart on your sleeve and not doing the usual bloke bollocks of sticking your head in the sand, your openess and honesty is so brilliant, I love you fella ....... 44 teeth makes me laugh so much, never forget that you shine a light and make so many peoples lives happy, well done fella, you aint too shabby at riding a bike either ....... even a big girly GS thant is clearly making up for you having a very small wanger :-), keep up the awesome work, long may your openess, humour and chrisness continue
I've been a subscriber for about 10 years now. From watching you rant about insurance companies to this. Over the years I have found your videos hugely entertaining, informing and now, emotional. This was a tough watch for me but I am so glad you are moving forward and helping raise awareness for these kind of difficult topics. Thank you.
As someone who was prescribed Citalopram for 10 years, finally starting to supplement Vitamin D every day honestly changed my life. I have gone from wanting to die everyday to actually enjoying getting up in the morning, I may have to start going on walks as well. I really appreciate you coming forward and bringing more attention to this issue that we and many others deal with on a day to day
Thank you Chris. I am in the middle of therapy right now and struggling a bit. This video and your fantastic way of approaching the subject is exactly what I , possibly we all, need. I am pleased you are on the mend and hopefully, with walking boots firmly fastened, I will soon follow in your footsteps 🙏🙏. Sticker ordered for my Tracer 900 ……… stay safe and thanks again . Mick x
so his advice is "take a walk and pills" while he himself is not reallly getting better.... yeah dont know about that. but yes mental illness doesnt get enough attantion and has so much negative stigma
@@francisnorthwood7862 He is getting better, but it takes a while.
I’m so glad you made this video, genuine thank you
I watched last night and today I've been out for a long walk and I do actually feel better. Thanks for the advice and reassurance!
Man I miss your videos, I'm so happy that you've posted recently. I used to watch your videos all the time back when you were just doing the first few videos like Puss in Boots. I ended up getting a Ducati Panigale 899 as my first bike shortly after you posted that review. You're an awesome person and we all love you brother.
Some of my fav vids you've done:
Puss in Boots
Tour De Baron - all the episodes
Ducati 899 Review - This made me buy the Panigale
Disabled Prostitutes
The Urination Diaries
Thanks Chris. I'm a competitive cyclist who's been struggling with motivation lately. This was enough to get me back on the bike today. Felt great to start the day in a positive way again.
Made me a bit emotional listening to your experience and advice, might go out for a walk now. Good shit.
This hit me right in the feels. I’ve gone through similar things and have only lately started to find stuff to relax me that isn’t harmful. Thanks for sharing
On the same page as you, including the rabbit holes and the current 'situation'. I came here looking for GS reviews and left with a smile knowing good guys like you also get 'it'.
I’m dealing with some personal stuff at the moment and it’s great to see people being so open about it! Thanks for this vid! Good to see you back baron 👌
Ive been needing a serious break. When my underground parking was in renovations, I had to park my bike a few blocks away which forced me to walk ever morning for a few minutes. I started to notice the trees, the sun rise, all the flowers blooming, the families going to school. It really does make a difference to get up and exercise whenever you can.. So I've been needing a serious break lately. I just bought a Super Tenere, I am going to ride across the country and I've been thinking of aligning some of my trip goals with fundraising and awareness. Glad to see you taking care of yourself. Riding will always be our saviour!
Great video Chris, and despite how the larger media try and make us feel.. you’re not alone in questioning the current narrative of what the phuck is going on in the world. So many more people are realising they’ve been had, lives ruined, and the injustices shitt me off as well. Keep up the videos and thanks for the honest and great content. Sending calibrated vibrations from Australia land. Namaste.
I only found 44 teeth when searching for videos to help me when I was going to do my mod 1 and mod 2 less than 2 months ago. The first day I found your page I was instantly hooked, I have spent the past few months watching every single video you have uploaded to your channels and every day I wake up hoping to see a notification saying you have posted a new one. Your an inspiration to thousands if not millions of people and I genuinely love you guys.
I have been through some depression and anxiety a few years back and at that point I had nobody to talk to and what your doing is more than amazing. I wish you all the best in life and hope our paths cross one day so I can shake your hand and tell you how amazing You are. Stay safe my friend ❤️
Thanks for sharing so openly Chris. I've been a fan for years now and I've never felt so connected to someone I've never met in person before. You've helped more people than you know with this video.
Suffered with depression for many many years and can absolutely relate to a lot of what you said on here.
Feeling like the world would be better off without you as you weren't a nice person.
Treating those you love and care about most badly.
Self harming.
Feeling worthless.
The list goes on and on but you most definitely are not alone.
Shout out from New Zealand from another long term depression sufferer. Some really good advice here, so on point about the mind getting at you from the first moment you awake. 100% agree depression needs to be talked about more and coming from a tuff motorcycle family its really hard here in NZ. Stay jab free brother.
Have never heard such honesty. You are spot on. Walking yes, but ALL that you said rings so loudly. I went thru a period of time that was an awakening. April and May of 2020, I remember little of and no one went to the facility, but it was close. I'm in Oregon, USA, and the last couple of years have been life changing. Clowns running the show and me doom scrolling,... PLEASE.
I am much better! Back on 2 wheels again (24 years of no MC) and that is my walking!! The focus required to avoid getting creamed by the same folks who created an ASS WIPE shortage!
IS part of my Tork!! It is a great therapy, and a blast.
Thank you very much for your story, I hope you can find equilibrium. What you said, again you are soooo spot on!!
Thank you and well done Chris for speaking so openly and honestly about this!! I have no doubt this will help people.
I’ve watched a few 44 teeth episodes and now I stumbled onto this. It’s a small world, I have a thread of motorcycles through my life, I’m bipolar, I walk to help combat it and I’m also called Chris. I’d like to add acceptance to the list, the day I came to terms with the illness and became very open about suffering with it was the day I started moving forward again. Keep up the good work, somebody in the public eye openly talking about their own experiences of mental health can only be a good thing 👍.
Thanks for these videos Chris. It's genuinely appreciated talking about anxiety/depression issues. I know for myself, I have had a fucker of a year so far. As someone from Scotland who now lives in the USA I was recently diagnosed with a form of cancer and having gone through all the treatments I received the medical bills ($114,000+) I am praying that my medical insurance covers most of it. I missed a month of work as a result and then when something simple as my car breaking down (needed a new battery, that's all) I felt as though the world was coming down on me and I almost cried in despair.
(BTW I'm not about to hit you up for money! Lol) I'll be fine in the end.
I'm normally a pretty chipper person and never let on about troubles that affect me but sometimes it just gets me really down.
Hearing about you and how you deal with things DOES HELP. Thank you.
Next step is to try and get back on a bike (whenever I can get these bills down a bit) Cheers Chris!
Thanks for the video mate, really spoke to me and helped reinforce that you're not alone in your internal neg thoughts
Thanks for talking about such person thoughts and feelings in your life Chris . I've struggled for many years with anxiety , depression and at times some very dark thoughts as well and the trouble with anxiety it even makes you worry about telling someone or even asking for help incase they don't understand or believe you 😳 although since covid and lockdown restrictions , mental health has been highlighted more but I'm yet to take that first step for proper help to be honest .
I passed my test 2yrs ago and getting out on the bike , even for a few hours with no real agenda , just ride and see where it takes me definitely helps . So thanks again for sharing Chris 😉👍
Hey Chris,
I commented on your 44T where you started this conversation. Obviously, or not, I'm quite proud of you. I have similar but very different issues. Bad motorbike accident 4 years ago. PTSD, massive anxiety. Issues dealing with people. Restricted my circle of people to 2. Two people I can trust to not fk me up. This year has been amazing for me. Therapy with the right therapist. Working out the people that were negatively affecting me,
Before Christmas I chose to drop the main person that was breaking me. That actually was my mother.
Doing that has made me able to focus on myself and look after myself. I have made great progress this year and the main gig is about looking after yourself. I couldnt do it while i was massively stressed.
I am much better now with the help of the right people.
If I can help you in this campaign you just have to let me know.
I have been through the mill and I think I am breaking through to the other side.
I would love to give you the biggest hug in the world.
Then get very drunk and talk absolute shit.
Love you.
Lets go for a ride
PS i got a 2010 R1200GS Adventure and a Fireblade... pick ur poison :) xx
On a serious note. I can see your mission statement right now. I have the freedom and willingness to help.
Very honest, thought provoking and helpful video, Chris. I've noticed, not just from the people who watch our adventures but also as a leadership and sales trainer, that behind the tough veneer of many directors, CEOs and hardened bikers, there are often many of the feelings you mentioned (and a significant increase over the last couple of years). Whilst I can often encourage the people I work closely with to open up and accept some help, many sadly still see depression - and all of the associated, debilitating symptoms - as weaknesses and don't feel able to ask for support - medical or otherwise. Thank you for being brave enough to discuss this. Hopefully it will encourage others to 'torque'🙂👍
Think most breakdown at some point. The fact that you came here to talk about it so compassionately and with great understanding shows just how much stronger it's made you. Well done Chris. I know a fair few that have suffered the same for the same reasons over the last 2 years.
Hi Chris
I’m glad that you had the mental clarity to say no to “medical intervention” and you stuck to your principles.
Yes you had the sniffles recently but I’m sure you know a lot of people who have also had the sniffles, have had medical intervention and are well and truly fubard!
Walking is great for the soul, you automatically connect with your surroundings and it grounds you.
Keep doing what works for you.
Unbeknown to many, we are all going to be mentally and physically challenged very soon.
Stay strong Mucker, you are not alone by any stretch of the imagination 👍
Your getting somethings absolutely right. And this darkness is whatever it is.
Im in my sixtys and have been through this condition. With that said, it's nothing new to mankind. All the thing's Your doing that are helping are thing's Jesus christ taught me through the righteous written word's in the Bible. There's no magic pills that can sustain us. Most evangelical Christians still need to figure it out. Life was impossible, and now that ive surenderd to be faithful it's still very hard. It's like the seasons, and sometimes it's a long winter. But if i truly pray and ask for the better choice and focus on what is inportent thing's in the mind and heart do get to the self control that one of the closest flowers of GOD'S Son was like. Even all true followers need the part of them that the death on the cross opened up to all mankind.
A supernatural deposit that only GOD can supply. He's called the holy spirit.
Father GOD, HIS SON, and the holy spirit have been working together. The deposit is the HOLY SPIRIT. Many born again Christians haven't even found the thing's your figuring out. God's favor is drawing you as HE did with me. Keep making good choices and find a good pastor and get saved like i did forty years ago.
Choose well
Thank You for making and sharing this video. Bought a motorbike in April and found your channel tonight. I lost everything I held dear in 2022 and it’s been really hard. The bike has been my salvation. Your video has really helped too. Thank You.
Thank you so much for this Chris. It helps massively to be able to relate to the experiences and trials you have so honestly and openly shared. As someone going through similar challenging times its good to know that I am not alone.....
You give a lot of people a smile mate that makes anything you do worthwhile and keep up the walking or anything that helps there’s too much stigma STILL over mental health. I cycle a lot and that is also good for the head. Glad your feeling a little better 👍👍👍❤️
I bought a GS about two weeks ago, i gotta say, it is chuffing superb. I do smell of stale wee and werthers originals now though.
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Lol.
Chris, I've just caught up with this video. And my word, absolutely brilliant. I've gone through a torrid time work wise, being chucked out 'due to covid' etc which is a load of arse. And since struggled to find meaning and worth in my life, the feelings of guilt that I've let my family down have been massive and I still wrestle with that everyday.
Not to mention that, because of my previous job and the daft 'normal' hours working in the media dept of a professional sports club brought, I sold my bike as I couldn't get out on it and thought it would be better to let someone else enjoy it as I couldn't. It's something I absolutely beat myself up for now, as I can't afford a new (to me) bike and I so regret it.
However, watching this has definitely made me feel better, I went out for a walk with a friend for an hour and feel so much better. Keep up the good work pal. Love it.
Thank you for sharing this Chris. As someone's who's been in denial about their mental health for too many years. This dialogue really helps encourage me to seek support, I envy your strength. I hope I can get there too. Thanks for the video mate 👍
Not possible for a lot of people, but a dog is an amazing therapist. There is also no excuse, for not going for that walk.
Thanks for sharing Chris.
You kept me holding on to what was left of a sliver of my sanity on the journey of 24/7 caregiving for my spouse with early onset Alzheimer’s. Rarely any sleep. Despair . Crushing depression.
Out the other side years later. Piles of motovloggers later and getting ready to purchase my sons HD Ultra Classic from him to start my journey.
My eternal thanks for your creation of magical content .
I've subbed, looking forward to the first vlog!
Thanks for sharing this, I think this mental health issue is much more common than anyone realizes. Takes courage to share.
Ahhhh you’re back!!! I’m sorry to hear what you’ve been through. Ironically your videos were the things keeping me going through my years of surgeries and post surgery depression. I bumped into you at loomies once but wasn’t able to fully tell you how much I appreciate it! So from myself a big thankyou Baron 🤘
Baron that last bit about the tube, man that hits home hard, probably the best way anyone has ever described it! I think what you want to do with the stickers is an amazing idea, and you have already helped so many people with this channel be it in the past when you took your gixer offroad until now, without even realising it! We are all behind you and hopefully you find a way to heal from all this!!
Ooooo perfect timing as I just sat on the toilet
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How'd you go bro?
Yep. Got tingly feet now!
Went straight on to 44t to order one. I watch your old videos when I feel like shit sometimes. Makes me feel less alone. Thank you for all you've done and continue to do.
Thank you so much for making this vid, I ordered a sticker immediately after watching this.
I have struggled for a few years with Anxiety more than depression and after 1st lockdown I went out on my bike for what was supposed to be a chilled ride, completely broke down in tears on the side of the road and soaked the inside of my skid lid.
Since then it's been really extreme at times, can't eat or sleep and worry about the most stupid of things.
I started cycling the 4 miles each way to work in April '20 and it helps massively.
Reading these comments is also really helpful.
Thank you again.
With you on all of that pal, the last two years especially! Keep walking, keep riding, keep living!
The less you do, the less you want to do. Idle hands are the devil's workshop. ;)
Knowing that you suffer from the same thing as me....really makes me feel better. I really need to go to bed earlier and change my morning routine. Thank you for this video. Honestly, thank you.
I have a BaronVonBoner
Thank you sir. Stay strong and keep walking, keep riding, keep vlogging. Thank you.