The Frequencies Of Depression
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- Опубликовано: 4 дек 2021
- This video was shot during the filming of Art van Rood's movie 3,2,1 you can find more about it here / catchuppictures
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🔰Remember You Are Not Alone by illneas
I want to enter your mind
and experience the frequencies of the world the way you do
light,
vibrations,
chemical signals in your head
chaos,
order,
and then chaos again
Is the silence of this room that deafening?
or not loud enough
Is the emptiness you feel comforting?
or unbearable
I want to feel what you felt
when you told me that you wanted to kill yourself
The time in our heads is quite lonely
so I thought you could use a friend
If the visible spectrum is too narrow to find any beauty
Let's paint the sea red
So we can talk about wavelengths under a pink sky
If the air oscillations are too violent
to be deemed melodies
Let's dance with the noise
and let's cry in silence
If you wish you were an invisible artist
Let's disappear in the light
And let's write poetry in complete darkness
I'm not saying it's a matter of perspective
but sunsets were meant to be viewed
I'm not saying it gets better
but we could go and pet some cats
I'm not saying this poem gets you
but it doesn't have to
It's just that this world is
light,
vibrations,
and the signals in your heads
It's love,
death,
and then love again
frequencies,
memories,
and maybe some bad thoughts
Please remember you are not alone
Hi all, I have a second channel with similar videos in case you are interested ruclips.net/user/akidwithacameraorjustillneas
hi
Thank you ❤
Where r u bro
*“To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance.”- Oscar Wilde*
i tought i read this quote in a book yesterday, but today i couldn 't find it..
"Chaos... order... and then chaos again..." completely describes what a person with depression is going through
Yes.
“If you wish you were an invisible artist, let’s disappear in the light, and let’s write poetry in complete darkness” - damn that line is heavy. I knew I would love this. 🥺 Extraordinary poem, offering acknowledgment and comfort to our souls. Wow, excellent work. 🔥we are not alone 💯
Thank you so much dear 🥰
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*"Wealth consists not in having great possessions, but in having few wants." - Epictetus*
To the *worthwhile person* seeing this, your dream is not dead. Don’t allow the past and current pains and hurts stop and define you. You’re more than a conqueror. Rise up and put yourself together. Keep pushing your future depends on it. I wish you all the best in life ❤️.
Words that I wish to send to my brothers so to warm up their hearts, light up their mind and give their some strength, courage and hope. We know you're doing your best. Love to you George and Kmt ❤️
@@BD-683 ❤️❤️❤️
But the chances was so different if i not getting depression,it's makes me hate myself tbh 😭
I am proud of the fact that I discovered this channel
I feel the exact same way
i want to experience the world through your eyes, but i have to be vulnerable and show you the world through mine first, with my two eyes the world is different, the world is filled with countless stories, yet to be told, with my two eyes i see a girl who had been imprisioned by her own prespective, she lends her pen to her scattered memories that flow from it her solitary, for she is its poet, and them are her poetry, a girl who found love and peace in being lonely, also pain and misery, a girl who smoked at a young age, but she never lighten a cigarette, a girl who lived in her own world, where she used to crave for true connections with others, a girl who sees beauty in small things, a girl who wondered why this beautiful blue sky is wasted on a such lifeless earth, a girl who waters her roses with love and much care, a girl who listened to the winds for years, a girl who grows thin, sleeps a little, her eyes darken to see ghosts everywhere, a girl with two names, a girl who is blessed and cursed to feel everything very deeply, a girl who carries out a piece of your story, a piece of you, for where she tells you you are not alone, you have a piece of her, as well as she has a piece you
Beautiful ❤️
Wonderful one ❤️❤️
Just wow, i'm speechless
Damnn gud❤🔥🔥
"The time in our heads is quite lonely
so I thought you could use a friend”
😔 ❤️
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@@thecrappycoder Hey there, Zuko! I was honestly thinking about you just the other day. You seemed to have disappeared for quite a while (or I just kept missing your comments). How the hell are you? Are you well? Life treating you good, as the old saying goes? Why the change of name, if that's not too impertinent to ask? Anyway, it's cool. Is there a translation? Thank you so much for remembering me & getting in touch again. Take very good care of yourself & I look forward to sharing a few words again, whenever. ☺️
@@thecrappycoder No need to apologise. I do the same thing myself. Sometimes I deliberately switch off from Social Media altogether - not that I'm inundated with comments! It's all fine, my friend. I find the few words we share occasionally to be very heartwarming. Good grief! Trying to find yourself. You do like the easy options. Seriously, I hope you find great contentment (and some interesting surprises) in your journey. Be happy! 😊
Your arts allow me to cry out the pain and anger from my chest and then they wipe the tears away. Thank you ♡
Damn
Man...please explain to me how you described it so perfectly. This is exactly how I have been feeling for so long. The terror of being completely alone, experiencing the world in complete darkness, all of it. You described it. Thank you.
Ain't that what is poetry for? For us, to describe things not easy to tell. And for them, to show what it's like living in pain to those who cannot understand.
Illneas does it perfectly. He is a poet.
@@hannegeyik exactly!
You write incredibly well Leyla, I'm curious to see your thoughts on this.
@@illneas thank u. I have been working on a poem like this and your take on it is really inspiring.
I think this is the best work you've done so far. I found the lines "If the air oscillations are too violent
to be deemed melodies Let's dance with the noise and let's cry in silence" the most poetic ones.
My nerdiest work for sure. I'm really happy with this poem and I had so much fun shooting the video.
"Is the emptiness your feeling comforting or unbearable" This was a trip down a different vibe and I love it. The video was really cool I like how you showed more of peoples faces becuase of the subject of getting into someone's head...I liked the juxtaposition of word and camera angle.
I avoid faces most of the times but not this time around, thank you for watching Carolyn
I am so grateful I get to be a spectator of such striking and impressionable art
It was a warm, sunny day. I was at the beach. A cool breeze blew softly on me, blowing my hair. But just very little. The breeze, felt as if it was blowing me away into a flower field. The next thing I knew, I was in some sort of field. The air smelled lovely. I realized it was a flower field. I took in a slow, deep breath. I pick a flower 🌹 and held it to my nose, and smelled the amazing beauty of the flower. I closed my eyes and fell on my back. When I did, I woke up in my bed. Even though it was just a dream, I could still smell the flower field, and feel the warm breeze.
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I can't live without you 💞💞
Check this poem
Lately I've been feeling a lot more depressed and I had recently relapsed and this honestly made me feel a lot better. My friends are pretty much ignoring me and I feel alone, so thank you. Thank you for making these.
It’s so tough to hold on. Alone is a powerful word. I can’t leave my kids but I’m so desperately sad all the time. Just pain
Sometimes I wish I had a friend that would speak to me like this. These are healing. ♥️
Depression isn't something you can just shake off when someone asks you to, or something you could forget after having a long day at work...
And sometimes even the warmest sympathies ain't enough to brush off the hard feel one's going through..
I have suffered with mental illness practically my entire life and have had several suicide attempts. But never once has anyone cared enough to say to me I want to feel what you felt when you said you wanted to kill yourself. Wow Illneas you are a special gift to this world! Thank you for sharing your talent with us!
Thank you for you kind words and for sharing your experience, it helps me connect with the person on the other side of the screen. Take care
I never say I love you.
But I think it and I love any one of you.
This channel makes you feel so many things, even when you're dead inside, that you feel just so much less lonely.
And the people here seem just so cool.
I wish I'd had someone like that in my life. Someone to understand and be sad with. Someone to indulge in loneliness and beauty with. Someone sincere.
Someone who'd not run away at the first sign of weakness and from which I wouldn't have to hide my real self until neither I know myself anymore.
Norwegian wood comes to mind. Maybe it really is the closest thing to that kind of feeling.
This he said to me:
"The greatest thing you'll ever learn
Is just to love and be loved in return"
- I love this song. Especially Peter Cincinnati's version.
I want you to know that I really feel in debt with you. You do an amazing thing.
So thanks.
Much Gratitude. 💚🙏🏾💫
Another amazing piece of poetry..Its amazing how you are able to bring forth such complex emotions into words...from a person who go through an everlasting feeling of loneliness .."remember you are not alone" feels like a warm hug.. Thank you ❤️
Thank you for watching mate, it goes a long way
Wow . Just speechless man. Your poems calm my inner storms in a way I never felt. The touch , the vibrations , the lights , the sunsets make me a meditating monk.
The beauty of silence
Your poem was so relatable at this point of time. I am in a foreign country. Here I am physically alone, but all my life at times I felt emotionally alone. But then there were friends and colleagues who made me feeled belonged.
I'm glad you found some friends, they really make a difference
In a positive perspective, this made me cry again. This is a very comforting poem- one of my favourites. Thank you.
The last line is comforting...i needed to be reminded that the darkness and pain won't last forever...
If you're always looking outside yourself for happiness it will always be fleeting. Definitely something I learned with age my early twenties were a whole lot different than my late twenties. You'll get there.
i don't know how i feel about this but this poem touched something in my soul. it related to the suffering i've been feeling recently but it also gave me hope for the light in some unexplainable way..
to all those who are in the dark place right now i'm sending you love and telling you that it gets better. i don't mean that one day you're healed and everything bad stays in the past, sometimes it does come back but.. i know how hard it is to remember about the happy moments of infinity and warm feeling inside when you feel like you belong and some things really matter but in case you feel hopeless, like there's no rescue, no exit or salvation whatsoever, please just stay. stay, be patient, make yourself believe that after the darkest night always comes the morning, after endless tears something makes you smile and laugh so hard that for once you forget how much pain you're bearing. you are not alone, indeed. we are together, trying to live through the chaos of being a human on this planet. i won't tell you to be strong and not give up, you are already so strong because you're holding on. allow yourself to be weak, to fall, to break into the pieces. but be sure that it's all temporary, okay? there are no grief or despair or trials or burdens which you soul cannot bear. there's always a cure, a path to healing. it might take your whole life and never be fully complete but that's the whole point - find the strength and courage to experience both pain and appeasement, emptiness and bliss. like it was said in this video - love, death, and then love again. you're not guilty for being this way - being a mess, your traumas and triggers aren't your fault. but choose to move on. "one day the story how you overcame what you're going through right now will be the saving guidance for others."
p.s. sending cozy hugs from russia to anyone who reads it!
"I want to feel what you felt when u said you wanted to kill yourself" that caught me off guard. This whole thing really spoke to me so beautiful
0:57 that line gave me goosebumps, how could some random person on RUclips know more about me than my closest people......I just wish, I just wish, please, I wish somebody could have spoken all this to me long ago so I would have been better or even now, so that I don't have to wish to unkill myself after the morning I kill myself.....
I saw myself when i hear "let's cry in silence"
My pal.., you've jumped deep into my heart... Love a bunch...❤️
This is so comforting
I loved it, it’s wonderful. Thank you 💙
I only started watching again after being so busy and tired with school papers.. and this, this is my healing. This is my rest from all of that ✨❣️ Thank you illneas ✨❣️
I hope you did well with your school work
@@illneas i did and i will. Can't wait for your upcoming videos. I always try to be updated in facebook 💕
depth, simplicity, and eloquence beautifully and poetically harmonizing yet again.
thank you for this, yet again 🙏🏽
Appreciate you, thank you for being here
Just beautiful my friend, utterly beautiful. Your shots are cinematic you talented bastard haha
Appreciate you sm Jay
Amazing and beautiful as always. thank you for sharing your talent❤️ I needed this right now.
Every time I'm fascinated how perfect each word is placed. "Let's dance with noise and let's cry in silence" ... Sigh ... 💜💜
Thank you once again ❤️❤️
This brought tears to my eyes! 🥺😭
Such beautiful and very relatable writing, thank you so much for sharing your gift!
I love that I know your channel and I get to read and hear your poetry and I just love that I feel related to all of this. Thank you man
Thank you always ❤️ ur videos are comforting
Wow! You nailed it again. 👏🏻 One of my favourite pieces as of now. Thank you, Illneas!
I wish you keep writing about mental illness because it is often discussed yet hardly ever understood.
Can't describe how exactly I'm feeling right now after watching this, Thank You :)
Okay wtf, how beautiful is this ? I can't even express....omg
Love u illneas❤️ thanks for this
That's what is really felt, it came to "life"... You put it well... Now I guess we can say that all those viewing and feeling this are connected... We are not alone indeed... It's time to attune our vibrational frequencies ✨
I want to say thank you for your videos, it saved me so many times.
I literally always do the same with your videos, I see you uploaded a new one, I save it in my watch later list and I see it when I have time for myself so that I can really appreciate it, thank you for this
That's so sweet, thank you
You always help me so much 🖤
aa im excited!! ur poems are soso beautiful, and theyre definitely what made me fall in love w poetry :)) i look forward to hearing this one!
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I can't live without you 💞💞
Check this poem
So beautiful..no more words...
Your work pours hope in my life, can't thank you enough for this! 💗💗💗
Thank you so much for watching
Simply great poem.
The part about "sunsets are meant to be viewed" actually got me triggered. The thing about sunsets is that it always seems to me as a wasted masterpiece.
When I see the sun setting on Earth (obviously), I end up thinking about all the astonishing sunsets out there in the universe, without eyes to contemplate. This thought usually gets me sad. So much beauty unseen...
Anyway, great work. Also, what a great voice narration. She deserves to be acknowledged.
How beautiful 😊 thank you again
Ty for sharing your art ❤️
You know a poem is well written when everyone resonates with a different quote x
aww so nice of you
Hi again,I am so excited!!! I still know when I was really sad and feeling so bad but that time the youtube recommend me your poem"the day before I kill myself" and I swear clicking that video was really good for me...and I watch more poems of yours and I subscribed you...then I started make my own poems...and I wish one day I can meet you and say thanks for multiple times... thanks for giving motivation...
So damn beautiful. Thank you for this masterpiece
Thank you so so much
This is beautiful... Thank you, illneas.
Thank you for watching
I don't remember the very first time I saw a sunset. But I have known them to be beautiful before movies or songs ever told me so. I have never been able to express the pull I feel in my chest when I see one. And even though I still don't have the words, I have found a strange catharsis in the lines "... sunsets were meant to be viewed.. ". Thank you.
I'm glad you did
Beautiful work
You don't find many poets who understand the electromagnetic spectrum. Well done 👏 you killed it again!
Hahahah not many creators have an engineering background
Your work is fabulous 🤩❄️
Thank you ☺️
If I looked into the deep blue clouds, I would say that there are rare places to find love, but on this channel is one like those where I feel whole.
Great masterpieces!
#maxxApoet
I love your videos so so much because even in the current society in which we live, trying to bring the light on to the importance of mental illnesses and such, there is still so much more unsaid, unfelt, unseen and so hard to communicate, all because these things feel the worst in the hidden within our own minds. Your videos bring so much comfort, at least to me, because for once it feels like someone is really trying to communicate to my depression as a part of me, and not denying that it is there. Reawakening my need to write is also one of the many wonderful things that has happened following your content..i always feel a little less lonelier🤍 So thank you for all the lovely things you do here on youtube. Cheers from Singapore.⭐
You kinda made my day, thank you so much ❤️
True appreciation is embodiment and very few appreciate truly.
i don't have much words but all i want to say is thank you 🙏🏽.. keep shining 🌟
Thank you for the tenderness !
How Soundwave (from Transformers) would have loved this poem! All about loneliness, frequencies, and thoughts he was and the poem reflects it.
Great writing, illneas!
Haha nice one, thank you so much
OMG this is the most beautiful channel in RUclips,
love u guys
This is incredibly beautiful.
Thank you so much
I will remember that when my mind's vibrations go mad.
This is so peaceful ❤️
so excited
Profound, intrinsically personal, beautifully done. ❤❤❤
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I'm empty i don't have anything to give to anyone.
Wonderful!
I love the narrator's voice
Fantastic piece of art
Thank you so much 🥰
I love it
So beautiful thank u
I needed to hear this...
Glad you liked it
Going try to remember!
Good, this is so good.
It’s amazing!
Beautiful...
Poetry .. In complete darkness.. creating that sliver of gentle light.
Beautiful
Beautifully written and narrated❤
We appreciate it a lot
@@illneas A new subscriber here ✌ into the world of artists like you❤
Very moving
Overcome my long depression.. but about to get back there again.. Never loved anyone like I loved that person, without a doubt can give my everything to have that person but got a treatment so badly in return.. I feel so low,.. So heartbroken, Man I was flying and now kicked so low 😣😣
thank you
This!!!!💓💓💓
Mind blowing ...thks
Oh my goodness 😳 This hit me so hard
Thanks ☺️☺️
I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and spoken word performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my RUclips channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙❤
I love your poetry. I remember when you posted others now you have e graduated into making your own
The person behind the RUclips channel changes with time ^^
Thank you