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- We sat down with Hope, who was born and raised in an apocalypse cult.
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My friends ex was in this cult as a child… he was viciously gang raped as a very young boy. Grew up to do drugs and can’t function as an adult. His brother committed suicide. Anybody who survives this on any functional level is a damn superhuman hero.
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My little brother went the same way. He kept the girls safe after I escaped l at 16. Once they were safely away from the cult, he left is.
AMWAY and BWW IS huge cult.
Sorry to hear that becarefull who you trust. 🥺
Why didn't the government intervene... they should've stopped them when it became abusive to children.
@@Commandotoad because sometimes they don’t care, especially if a person with a lot of power and money is the leader of the cult.
She actively subjected herself to further abuse to spare her sisters from it. She's a hero for her family. I am glad she has found peace in the justice she received.
It's depressing when you find how common that is with siblings suffering abuse. Particularly sexual abuse, heroic and harrowing at the same time
@@cloudsofsunset7323 weird take
@@cloudsofsunset7323 tf is that even supposed to mean?
The way they abusing young people sexually is illegal this should be stopped…I cried a little when she tells how they abused her sexually but thank god she have been saved with that crazy world.
_She certainly is. the human Spirit places itself in front of suffering if it will benefit others; for to serve the other is to serve the self. the giving is the gift. the exception to this is the clever sociopath; all of their efforts go into arranging situations by which the self can be served at the expense of others_
Going through sexual abuse as a kid too I remember thinking the same thing "it's better me than my sister" I eventually realized that if I got him angry that day that night we wouldn't get molested I threw my virginity at the first boy who was nice to me so that he wouldn't take it from me and tried protecting my sister at all costs. She was the only reason why I survived for years... the only thing I regretted was not stabbing him in the middle of the night because I didn't want to tramatize my mom, for two years I blamed myself for being weak but then he got throat cancer and died a slow death from what I'm told.
You are so strong!
That’s so horrible I’m so sorry you had to go through that. May you have happy days the rest of your life, you’re a hero
Sometimes, Cancer is good.
I know I don’t know you but you’re an amazing, strong person. I’m blown away by your story. I’m glad the asshole got what he deserved in the end
You are so strong. I hope he really suffered before he died
What I can’t fathom is some people go to jail for life due to dealing drugs etc and a person who seriously abused this woman got 13 1/2 years?! Does that not feel like the shortest time in prison ever??? It should be life wtf
Agree it should be life in prison no parole.
That's because perverts write the laws. Think about it... men won't make it a life sentence because secretly they either engage in it or want that opportunity without the life consequences.
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@@pemeliie damn. In the US that guy would've received life in prison
It seems like the justice system cares more about the abusers than the victims
Almost 20 minutes of this beautiful, wonderful woman trying her hardest not to completely break down. My heart goes out to her. What a person she is.
Agreed - she's an insanely strong person.
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19:52 actually
@@derrensmallcock29 that's just what OP said, "nearly 20 minutes"!
The fact this cult is still around and operating is disgusting and I literally can not understand legally how they are able to be an organization still?!?!?!?!
me neither. and the cult leader is known so like what the hell.
@@zaynsprmcy6421 ☹️
A lot of the people in these cults are quite wealthy or know high profile individuals. They may even get paid for things they provide etc. Its awful and disgusting. There is so much going on in the world, we have no idea. And have no idea in what to do to help these people.
Money and power rule the world. The world has become a disgusting place
This is why i have no faith in humanity
Aside from the fact this woman is so brave and heroic, what's so fascinating to me in this horrendous situation is a child's ability to sense that something is wrong (when she said she didn't believe the words of the song) and that even with virtually zero exposure to the outside world, her young mind was able to understand "this is not how we should be living our lives" and strive for more.
I am right there with you! And they had her from the start. Completely indoctrinated. I guess she was born with that mental strength.
Likewise. I could very easily imagine the setting. The background singing, the sudden realization, Hope looking at her friend who also stopped singing, and they both looking at each other thinking about the same thing. It was a moment of spiritual blissfulness, an epiphany.
My father tortured me when I was a child. I remember by the time I was 12 I was fed up with his shit. I remember looking at him and thinking “you’re pathetic.” He didn’t even work, just sat around all day being supported by my grandmother (we lived with her and my step grandfather. She was aware of the abuse and she abused me too). I started “talking back” when he would call me names. And I wasn’t scared when he would threaten to beat me. The last time he hit me I was 15. He smacked me so hard I fell into the mud (on my way to school). I said “don’t fucking touch me!” I had *never* swore before, not even alone. But I was done, and didn’t care.
I look back at all the times I retreated into myself to escape, and how that brought me strength. I’m left with complex PTSD, OCD and depression, but that moment where I knew I wasn’t going to take his abuse anymore was so powerful.
I'm so sorry you had to go through that. Stay strong! ❤️
You are so strong mate, Stay strong
Hope you’re feeling better and better every day, we are all very proud you!
Yes. It makes Father’s Day so hard too knowing many had good fathers & you did not. Yet, you say nothing & hold it inside.
My heart breaks …❤️❤️❤️
@@mayonnaise2693 Thanks for the kind words guys. Just seeing them. ❤️
Her brother dying by suicide even after finally experiencing freedom was really sad.
Physical freedom gets people away from the place physically. But if you are not mentally free, you are going to remain mentally trapped there. It is heartbreaking.
@@salinetears it's more off the weight of the trauma that can't be carried anymore...once you're truly free to think about how your life was never yours .. it's hard to go on with life with that type of baggage
There's a documentary about this cult, and the two children, a boy and a girl, who were closest to the cult leader really struggle mentally. The boy ended up killing of the leaders "wives" than sadly took his own life. He left behind his wife and child, but he had gone through so much torture that I just hope he's at peace. This cult is the most heinous ones I have ever heard of and it's still running and the leader never was charged.
Yes because they leave the cult, but has to reconstruct their lifes alone... Try to get a job, a place to live, know new people... It's really hard considering the fact that their minds are damaged.
Just because he left the cult, that doesn't mean he was free. He couldn't find freedom in this life.
I hope he's at peace now, somewhere warm and quiet where he feels loved.
I love that her name is Hope. When u are trapped in an abusive environment, holding on to hope is so difficult.
And she proved that there is hope.
Biblical explanation of the Gospel:
God doesn’t want anybody in hell because He loves us, but you must understand why
we deserve hell and why those who refuse to live under His authority will go
there. (Matthew 12:30) ''Whoever is not with me is against me, and whoever does not
gather with me scatters.'' He gave us the law (Ten Commandments) not to make us righteouss, but
rather to show us our sin (Romans 3:20). God gave us free will and since Adam
sinned in the garden, sin is the nature of our flesh and we ALL have sinned. (Romans 3:23)
The law demands death to those who sin (Romans 6:23).
For someone to be justified before holy God they have to be sinless, that's why everyone need Jesus Christ
for He lived a sinless life.
None of us are good in God’s eyes, because for God good means moral perfection. We all
have broken God’s commandments, we all have sinned in our lives so none of us
are good. ‘’For whoever keeps the whole law and yet stumbles at just one point is
guilty of breaking all of it.’’ (James 2:10).
Good News is that Jesus Christ lived a perfect, holy, sinless life, Christ died for our sins according to the Scriptures,
He was buried and He was raised from the dead on the third day according to the Scriptures (1 Corinthians 15:3-4)
For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever
believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.’’ (John 3:16)
We aren’t saved based on our good deeds/works, but only by the grace of God through faith.
''For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith - and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God -
not by works, so that no one can boast. (Ephesians 2:8-9)
He said ‘’it is finished’’ (John 19:30) just before He died on the cross, which means He paid the fine for our sins
(past, present, future) to be forgiven if we repent and trust in Him.
''What then? Shall we sin because we are not under law but under grace? Certainly not!'' (Romans 6:15)
''Repent therefore and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out'' (Acts 3:19)
Repentance is a turning from sin and all evil works, and it always results in changed behavior (Luke 3:8).
Biblically, a person who repents does not continue willfully in sin.
While sorrow from sin is not equivalent to repentance, it is certainly an element of scriptural repentance (2 Corinthians 7:10).
Do not play a hypocrite. ''God is light; in Him there is no darkness at all.
If we claim to have fellowship with Him and yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live out the truth.'' (1 John 1:5-6)
If you have repent and have genuine faith in Jesus Christ then you will receive the gift of Holy Spirit and be born-again spiritually.
(John 3:3) Jesus replied, "Very truly I tell you, no one can see the kingdom of God unless they are born again."
When you believed, you were marked in Him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit, who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance
until the redemption of those who are God’s possession - to the praise of His glory. (Ephesians 1:13-14)
You are born again with the Spirit of Christ (2 Corinthians 5:17).
Whoever believes in the Son has eternal life; whoever does not obey the Son shall not see life, but the wrath of God remains on him. (John 3:36)
''You will know them by their fruits'' (Matthew 7)
If you have been truly born-again with the Holy Spirit and He has regenerated your heart, you will have new desires -
to do what is good and righteous in God's eyes, to seek God everyday in His Word and prayer, to strengthen your relationship with God.
You will no longer desire to willfully continue living in sin but will want to obey God out of your love for Him because of His amazing grace
revealed to us through the death and resurrection of His Son.
''Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.'' (2 Corinthians 5:17)
''For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them.'' (Eph 2:10)
You will have a testimony - of what your life had been before and how has it changed now when you have surrendered it to Lord Jesus Christ.
As a declaration and affirmation of your faith in Jesus Christ, get baptised in water because He commanded us to do so.
In John 3:5 Jesus answered, “Very truly I tell you, no one can enter the kingdom of God unless they are born of water and the Spirit.''
''Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit'' (Matthew 28:19)
''Those who accepted his message were baptized, and about three thousand were added to their number that day.'' (Acts 2:41)
''And this water symbolizes the baptism that now saves you also - not the removal of dirt from the body,
but the pledge of a clear conscience toward God - through the resurrection of Jesus Christ,'' (1 Peter 3:21)
''We were therefore buried with him through baptism into death in order that,
just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new life.'' (Romans 6:4)
''Having been buried with him in baptism, in which you were also raised with him through your faith in the working of God,
who raised him from the dead.'' (Colossians 2:12)
Please get right with God and start your relationship with Jesus Christ today before it’s too late, because there’s not much time left!
"But about that day or hour no one knows, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father.’’ (Mark 13:32)
Get to know Christ through God's Word - Bible. At first I recommend reading Gospel of John and book of Romans. God bless you!
Jeremiah 29:13 - ''You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.''
@@jesusisking3814 Shut up
@@jesusisking3814 I'm sorry but this is off-topic. Put your bible stuff somewhere else.
Her last words , "Because of the nature of childhood abuse, the abuser has power with the silence. When you life the veil of silence , with that you lift the inappropriate shame that the abuser puts on you and he loses his power over you" , pierced something deep. I have been trying to find these words to confront my own abuser. Now in tears, scared but validated, I have what I think I have been searching for for so many years. Thank you Hope for sharing your resilience. I strive to have even a fraction of your empowerment.
Hope you broke free ❤
@@claire-ui6pu Encounter Ministries RUclips channel. (Mark Hemans)#
When she talked of the girls age 3,5 and 8 doing dances and distracting guys to herself instead of her sister I just cried for her and all of the women and girls. She is so amazingly strong. I cant imagine living thru this.
When she said the name of the cult, my heart dropped. I‘ve seen many documentaries on cults, and CoG is definitely one of the very worst out there. What a strong woman.
That was the only cult I could think of when I clicked on this, I couldn’t believe it when she actually said the children of god
@@flyk4526 that name is supposed to cover up and sound like purity so that it seems okay to do and associate with, I can open a flower shop and call it McDonald’s, that doesn’t mean it’s McDonald’s, im putting out one thing but calling it something else so people will see it differently, don’t let the name of something fool you, clearly the actions that were taking place didn’t fit that title
There is a church here in our country that is called Children of God. I don't know much about COG as a cult but I'll research further on this and our local church as well.
@@aestrea2937 I think they rename it as “The Family” something like that, but you never know
It’s the worst one next to Jonestown.
"When you lift the veil of silence, the abuser has no more power over you". These words are saving, they need to reach more people.
Only if the people who hear you believe you and that is sadly not nearly always the case.
@@Streets0fLondon That's a good point, yeah.
False they try to kill you for exposing them
False they try to kill you for exposing them
@@joanbaczek2575 Then just don't do anything?
I can hear the French in her accent, but it's pretty unique, it's like a mix of different accents. She sounds beautiful.
The part where she says she ditracted the man molesting her sister so that she would be the one getting molested insted completely broke my heart. These people need to be prosecuted.
I hear British, Irish, and American but not French. She was an adult when she went there anyway
@@larsonfamilyhouse huh?? she left as an adult
Nope, no French there. My in laws are French. She just sounds like a Brit who sounds Americanized.
@@jaiyaalexandra144 Um, your in laws might be French but I am French haha
I can clearly hear some French pronounciation. But I get that each person hears different things since she did live in many places. But she is French and I can definetely tell.
@@larouquinedu31 nn ya vrm aucune trace d’un accent fr
*I've read through many of these responses, and see a common thread: how could someone abuse a small child? Because we were children, the most vulnerable among all nations and nationalities. The most vulnerable are a gift to pedophiles. I was three when my abuse started, when my father sexually abused me and drove me to two other men to be used sexually used by them..and wait for me in his car...pedophiles stick together. This continued until my father died when I was eleven. I am sixty six, and often think of my father and hope he is literally burning in hell...that the fire never stops devouring him, and his two friends. I don't know why or how I watch stories like this, they bring back so much pain, but I think it is to be reassured that I was not alone in being chosen to sexually be abused. But my heart is pounding for this woman...she is telling the truth...I can tell.*
I know it sounds crazy but...you need to forgive him. Not for him but for you....you need deliverance from this pain and peace of mind...he doesn’t deserve your forgiveness but you do deserve to be free. If you feel that you cannot forgive him, pray. God can heal your heart! I know it’s not easy. But with God it’s possible!
@@nopbye You either never experienced anything like this or don’t want to accept that you need to forgive. Hate is a worm that eats one’s soul continuosly. It’s hell on earth. Forgiveness is essential for everyone that wants to be free from the past and happy.
@@luciatat4084 ...nope, that's a hard no for me. You clearly have the choice to forgive a monster, and I wouldn't care if you did or did not...yet you tell a woman to forgive the one who tormented her?? Did you ever consider that my relationship with God is perfect for me. If your father had f--ked you, and drove you to the homes of two other men, and waited in the car for you...are you OUT OF YOUR MIND to suggest forgiveness is mandatory??? If it happened to your own DAUGHTER, if you discovered that your husband had been having sex with her...TELL ME THEN that you would simply forgive him??????? You already know the answer, so do the world a favor and NEVER suggest to another person on earth how to "forgive your tormentor." .
@@nopbye ...thank you for this kindness...I always know who can be trusted and who cannot be trusted,...and someone like Lucia Tat deserves to be mocked and rejected. The whole forgive "70 x's 70" is disgusting, it breaks someone's spirit, and if a spirit is broken time after time after time, especially with something so egregious as molestation, that she must "keep forgiving "no matter if it's once or if it happens relentless from the age of 3 to the age of 11"?? What Lucia doesn't understand is that breaking a child's spirit means that child will never trust God??
@@luciatat4084 ...you say that not forgiving is like a worm eating one's soul??? What about the SOUL of a child??? You are saying the CHILD must forgive the ABUSER??? What holy hell are you thinking?? You say the God wants me to forgive? I can instruct you to have that conversation with God about me when you die, do you THINK God would agree with you???
As a father of 2 young girls I cried thinking about my own daughter taking sexual abuse for her younger sister. It doesn’t sound small or silly to make an apple crumble to make a small child’s life better it sounds wonderful and amazing and yet so heartbreaking to think that was what made a child’s life better. This kind of story is so important so we can avoid this type of abuse occurring again. Never walk past it, report it follow it up even a hunch.
Thanks for being a man that can admit to crying and advocates for abuse victims. Your daughters have a great dad
Absolutely agree. Side note. it's encouraging to see a mans (father) sensitivity expressed. Good to know that men like you actually exist. Why are men like you so rare? Again, thank you.
Wait sorry how are we going to stop abusers of the future?
@@leahflower9924 I didn’t say. Here in Australia though I’m a scout leader and I make sure I adhere to the rules as well as all the leaders around me do. We have a problem with the Catholic Church refusing to change and even being encouraged not to change after their horrendous cover up of systemic child abuse was revealed. We had a royal commission which made many suggestions (which I’m proud to say the scout org immediately took up) which the church refuses to adhere to. Personally I keep my kids away from clergy as well as having written several times to our local cardinal who is quite opposed to change, I’ve shared his response with our local member and priests. I’ve done this because I believe the Catholic hierarchy honestly don’t care and in general are biding their time till people have forgotten their horrendous crimes.
There’s only one right way to deal with these defilers, gratuitous sadistic violence! End them rightly with their own devices.
Hope has I interviewed me for her Doctorate. I am a survivor of the Twelve Tribes cult. She is a friend and a wonderful source of encouragement for me as I navigate through my own healing. Hopefully one day I’ll have a chance to tell my story.
Sending Best Wishes and Blessings... 🎵🙌
Sending you perfect peace and wholesome healing....stay blessed
Which location of Twelve Tribes were you in? I spent some time near Nelson, BC Canada with them
Hope you find the healing and the peace you deserve :)
Hope you’re doing well bro 🙏🏽
I am almost 40, my little sister is now deceased, and I still wake up panicked on a regular basis trying to make sure she is ok. We shared a bed growing up and I would try to stay awake so it would be me and not her who was hurt that night.
Uff heart borken infact soul snatcher
💜😘💜🤗
wishing you all the peace in the world ❤ you're incredibly strong!
She's amazing for protecting her siblings as much as she could. It's awful what you were put through, I'm glad you were able to get help.
As an older sister it absolutely broke my heart, because I know damn well I'd rather die than see something happen to my younger siblings
she looks like she’s in her early 20s i can’t fathom that she was born in 79’. what a beautiful person inside and out. i was so inspired by her story, truly incredible.
No she doesn’t
People born in 1979 are not old!🥰🎀❤️
She looks like 39 , 40, if people in their 30's look like this then is a problem.
@@costealucia5357 i was born in 79. i get mistaken for late 20s all the time. she doesn't look her age at all. you will see one day unless you fall apart before then, lol
She was born into it. I am third generation COG cult, my parents were born into it and so was I.
I started reading a book called Not Without My Sister, which is by 3 women who were a part of COG. I barley made it 1/4 the way through the book. It was absolutely horrifying what these children were subjected to.
I read the entire book and it’s just horrific.
I read this too.
I read this book as a teenager and it still haunts me. It's the most harrowing book I've ever read.
Horrible and incredibly moving book!
My ex tried to convince me that this cult was a “ really loving and good Christian’s “ I was appalled only 21 years old, yet my heart was screaming, “ are you nuts “ “ I knew he was very much into sex, but tried to be a Christian so I’m sure for him at the time, this cult was the perfect solution. I’ll always have a hard time understanding how adults stops listening to common sense and their gut feelings of wrong, push it down and let someone brain watch them, and bringing their innocent children up for all sorts of abuse, it is horrible, and my heart goes out to them, and the sick prison they are in. Just like this lovely lady, she got the very strong gut feeling that what was going on was wrong ! That’s, Gods voice, and I’m glad she followed her common sense !
Exactly, those who join the cult willingly are misled by their own desires because God allows sex but not in this fashion and form. This is clear defilement. I grew up Christian and I would often read the Bible alone, Jesus said that it is better for people who do such to have a millstone put around their necks and thrown into the sea. It seemed so far-fetched that someone would actually do this to a child. It's demonic!
@@ronniebattle1310 thank you but no thank you. I’m petfectly happy following Noone - just keep it between my God and me !
@@hellekimery9416 Read Mark chapter 16:1-20. Ask yourself this question. Do you believe what it says? These signs will follow those who believe!
Sure
It’s truly amazing that people can go through major traumas like this in life and can still function, live and think at a semi normal to normal level. She is so strong and resilient. God bless her.
@@thankfulsouls I am sorry. You were brave! It is indeed hard without family...I know, I have no family either. But I have made a type of family of my own....my own little "tribe" if you will😊. You sound strong and at least you saved yourself. Stay strong, perhaps things will change in the future. One thing in life is certain.....things never stay the same...the only constant IS change. Your comment touched my heart! ❤️ May God bless you, ease your pain and heal your heart! I don't know you but know you are loved!🤗
@@thankfulsouls Thank you! I hope and pray that the rest of 2022 brings you blessings and joy!
I really think that child abusers should be in prison for such a long time! Here in Germany they often only get some 3-5 years even if it is proven that they abused many children multiple times and even were organized. This isn't enough for all the harm they did. And they have to be kept away from society as long as possible
This is why people want vigilante justice. 3-5 years is a slap on the wrist. A time out. But the suffering of the victims is life long.
I think child mol*sters and r*pists should be put down. Bring back public hangings like they used to do for horse theives.
@@sarahruiz6553 no. Just no. There has to be more investigating and science done to prevent such things. If the abuser is dead, the victim still suffers. Doesn't help anyone, just makes us murderers.
From story's I have heard child abusers are very much not liked by prisoners and some don't even survive a year or two in prison. Kama takes away their power
In the US, just from looking at the Sex Offenders Registry in my area, it seems like most sexual offenses (even the gruesome ones) get like 3 years. It’s really not enough time and they come out and donut again. Very broken system.
that is very common here too. The judges and the law just seems to think that since no one got hurt (physically) it isn't really that harmful to the survivors. It DISGUSTS me because it destroys lives, and even those who survive like this woman, will never be the same. They will never be the person they would have been had abuse not intervened in their development. But no one cares about that. Just let the pedos do what they want and give them a little slap on the wrist. Seriously children and women are worthless in the eyes of society.
As someone who was sexually abused as a child, it was hard to see her getting triggered and not breakdown.
I am so sorry that happened to you 😢 I hope you are living the best life you can. Have a great day.
@@eziekkiel5876 thank you for your kind words. i appreciate that a lot
You are extremely strong and i am really proud of you for not giving up yet. I believe life will get much better for you, keep fighting i love you❤
I'm so sorry you went through that. I'm also a survivor of child sexual abuse. Seeing her getting triggered and not breaking down was what I noticed as well, and it made me cry for her. She's so strong and so are you!!!
I was raised in this cult too. I was surprised to find this here but The Children of God/ The Family International, has been getting a lot more attention lately. I believe a movie came out in the last year or two about another girl's experience in the cult.
I hope you’re… okay. I‘m glad you’re here.
People who are lost, people who don't know how to deal with or want responsibility seems to be drawn to this kind of stuff the most.
My God how many people have been in this hell ??!!
Lord have mercy!!
@@that_cat_person3417 I'm grateful for every day that I survived. I have a beautiful daughter and great friends now!
The fact that she’s given her mom a second of her energy as an adult is amazing.
Her accent is fascinating, its a shame its having to be heard telling such a horrific story.
What a strong women, i wish her all the best in life x
I also found myself trying to identify the main influences. Growing up in such an insular but international community must explain some of it. It almost sounds slightly Irish but the American accent is mostly influenced by the Irish accent so hard to say. It's beautiful though, as is she. Big respect to her.
She said her father was French, her mother was English and the cult was centred in Scotland.
Oo
damn relax
She sounds aussie or Northern newzealander
The fact that this cult still exists is totally unacceptable.
What a strong, strong woman! ❤
Ofc it still exists, rich people and politicians who are pedos are definitely engaging in these activities so the cult probably has protection, I read about a lot of articles where people said what was happening in the cult and it's still here none the less, disgusting!
@@alilarhdiri9666 is this all about oshoism
When her nan told her she had to get a job and she replied “what is that?”...something about her hysterical laugh was heavy and it made me 😢
That really hurt me for her 😕
Yeah that was really fucked to me, pretty cold from nan
Her tears came when talking about her triumph. Overwhelming relief, joy, and peace ❤️
You have no idea when you see a person in the street , what sort of crap they have had to live through & put up with through no fault of their own . I'm glad she's out of that life style now and I hope heeling the best she can.
My thoughts exactly! Its disgusting how people have been treated and no one will ever know....but we have all judged and even pointed fingers at people who cry for no reason or are distant. who knows what's gone on.
I used to make fun of a girl who did exactly that and one day at school we found out her dad was abusing her regularly..... She is now one of my best friends and her dad is still in jail ! She feels survivors guilt but knew it was the right thing to do. Soooo many others don't get that far. I wanted to take justice into my hands but she wanted him to survive like she did but be punished during it .I think she was right
@@chucklebutt4470 That's a great recommendation! "This is Water" is an incredible and powerful speech, which I frequently return to. My favorite version is the animated video by After Skool (it's titled "Your mind is an excellent servant, but a terrible master - David Foster Wallace").
This exactly. You just never know what people are going through or have been through!
@@theologytherapist Encounter Ministries RUclips channel. (Mark Hemans)**
Not only did she survive the cult and protected her siblings, she got herself justice from her abuser. That's inner strength 💪 I'm so proud of her.
Agreed. 👍
I seriously admire her courageousness. I think everyone in this world could learn something from her
That's a brave woman, a hero. ♥️Wish you all the best in life.
There are some really sick disturbed people on this earth. I wish I could cause these people more pain than they've inflicted on their victims. What a strong woman this woman is.
Perhaps you should wish that you could have prevented those people from ever becoming that way instead of wishing pain upon them. Because as they say, “a monster is made…not born”
@@chronustime ah defending a cult of paedophiles I see... and yes monster's can be born.
@@reamusray790 he crazy or a psychopath
In America you mean.
@@reamusray790 no, don’t be another creep like them... it’s even more disgusting for you to go into it that dark state of mind redirecting your thoughts to him being supportive of the cult. Psychologically though it reflects back on you and exposing your hidden thoughts.
What this person was saying (since you lack proper education) as well as the individual supporting your comment. Talk about terror in the country’s mental illness. Anyway, the person was conveying in HOW to not exactly inflict more violence on those who are already sick (such as yourself) but to instead find ways in preventing those kind of people from developing such heinous actions.
In the meantime though, we just gotta up with ill-minded people ahem* and hope for the better to rid of such evil.
This lady is a fcking warrior, wow. She’s so strong! I’m speechless and admire her profoundly
i cried whe she talked about protecting her sister... what a hero
I actually work with a guy who was raised in this cult, it’s incredibly disturbing the kinda things that went on in it and the trauma he suffered through that he was only able to seek help for in his mid 30’s
Super nice guy, and what happened to him and all the other children was absolutely disgusting and terrible
I stopped eating and having my breakfast the moment she mentioned that children were involved, and it just became so heavy to listen to and seeing her going through those memories.. I can't imagine what any of that might have been like.
Bless her soul in any form and I hope that she has a better life now.
These things are more frequent than many realise
I was eating as well and felt physically sick when she mentioned children.. so heart breaking for all these people
y'all really thought, imma eat some eggs and watch this video titled CULT SURVIVOR and think it was gonna be pleasant??
@@dazem8 Haha not at all, but it took a rather unpleasant turn to which I didn't expect. It's just one of those moments where you realize exactly what the hell is happening around the world while munching down on your food.
I stopped watching and found myself a drink and then found myself back at the video stuffing my face and trying not to cry.
My abusers always said, "they'll never believe you. "
It’s disgusting! Children should never have to be victims of abuse !
No one should
Children, the most vulnerable among us, have been sexually abused since time began...for simply being the most vulnerable among us. We were powerless...the perfect victim.
No one should be
No argument here, but part of the problem is that the rest of us (myself included) never go beyond expressing our outrage on these boards. If we actually believe no person should be abused, we need to DO something.
She's so freaking powerful for showing her face and talking about such a personal and vulnerable experience
I still have nightmares about my own abusive family. Just a few days ago woke up completely terrified, not even remembering where I was, after dreaming that my father finally killed my ex stepmother. I was all covered in blood again, just like when I was a little girl grabbing my father and pushing him away from her. Screaming for help, fearing for my own life, while nobody else cared to help.
The whole family I grew up with is abusive. Each in their own way. And one of my brothers, instead of helping, he just joined the abuse. And the rest of the family, whenever I tried to reach out, without even hearing me tried to silence me. Convince me Im just being a bratty teenager and I must blindly follow my parents.
Living with the aftermath of growing up in an abusive environment is no joke. You will always feel like you have to continue functioning with a big chunk of yourself ruthlessly ripped out of you. And nobody sees it. You just have to rush and catch on or pretend to, learn everything quicker, instantly heal and pretend like nothing happened. Out of nowhere, no matter where you are, it will all come back again. It will feel like you're in there again, reliving the worse moments of your life every single day without a choice. When the memories finally stop, battling the tears at least long enough so you don't look ridiculous in the middle of a crowd. BC you know damn well last thing you want is sharing those disturbing things you just remembered
And it's not like you get to simply stop talking to those ppl who hurt you so bad. They are your only family afterwards. They'll keep hunting you. If you stop talking to them, how can you help the children you left behind and did nothing wrong? How can you come up with plans together on the best places to hide next time their father gets drunk and violent or what to do when their uncle tries to abuse them bc no one will even listen to them. Literally no one helps. Everybody will just try to make you feel like an ungrateful piece of trash for turning on your own family. And having to deal with the fact that no one who's ever hurt you will ever at least take responsibility for anything they've done. You'll always be the crazy one. For fabricating everything
Idek her. But wow, she made me feel so understood rn. She's experienced much worse than me (in the sexual abuse part). And the guilt of leaving those kids behind so you can make a nice place for them, knowing damn well what they're experiencing without you. And yet, there she is, sharing her painful story and giving others who identify in some way strength
Shes amazing!
I've always been ashamed of my own story. Never been able to completely share it. And only been able to talk about some stuff online. But watching ppl like her slowly help me open up more and more, understand a little more that there's nothing a child could do, there's nothing I couldve done to deserve those things. Even if just online, feels nice to finally let this bit out
I hope she knows how powerful she is. And the impact she can have on ppl
You can still see how she struggles internally with her decisions to get out and save herself and ultimately try to save her siblings. The way she says certain things like she’s trying to remind herself that she did it for the right reasons. I’m sure the indoctrination is still in her brain trying to make her doubt herself. What a strong woman she is ❤️
I don’t know how she told the story without a single tear! ❤️❤️❤️
Kenny, being in a cult, women are being conditioned to believe every crap of the cult leader failing which they are more subject to abuse, till they don't feel pain anymore and hence they can't cry!
A person needs to be in a cult, to know what it's really like.
Damn these cult leaders!
Stay safe Kenny! 🙏
@@Z_1917 it’s quite sad… I feel for her though. Stay safe too, thanks 💐
Really she probably had a harrowing week of anxiety and tears that's PTSD
She has already cried too much and ready to speak about it to help her heal. Complex PTSD.
yeah there's also a little girl who scaped from a cult in 1987 .. her story is much worst than this.. you can't even imagine the struggle and trauma she's been through in that satanic.. worst is that her own grandmother turn her in that cult.. and they did so many things to her rape her 20 times in just 1 day and she even get pregnant at the age of 11 and worst is everytime she got pregnant they forced her to abort her babies and sometimes when she get birth they killed most of her babies in front of her and forced her to eat the flesh of her dead babies and fetus .. like wtf those cult are no human anymore they are monsters and evil!! if you guys watched that interview of Teresa who scaped from satanic cult .. you will get so mad about it.. and i can also see the trauma has been done to her because of that cult and her grandma.. she so emotionless in that interview she only cried when she remembers her 4 year old daughter left in the cult .. i feel so sad about her hope that she's doing great rn..
To the 24 people who have disliked this video, wtf is wrong with you? This woman is amazing and to get up and share her story takes a lot of courage.
Perhaps they are saying they didn’t like what happened to her and all those who live in the cult. That they didn’t like the content because it is so horrible.
This woman is a hero, I want to give her a hug so bad. Her resilience is amazing :)
This woman is so brave for speaking out. God bless her. ❤️
As a Christian, I *can’t* believe this cult is claiming to be of Christian faith. It’s SO incredibly sinful, it’s pathetic.
So so sad, what an incredibly strong lady xx
You should do a minutes with the founder of Lad Bible
As someone who has been sexually abused many times in my childhood,I am proud of this lady sharing what happened to her.
Every abuse victim knows that when you talk about it,the memories are brought front and center. You relive ot all as you speak. I hope this cult gets destroyed soon
THIS is what an inspirational woman looks like . I could feel her pain and her strength and ultimately her courage . How INCREDIBLY brave to bare all in an interview, I am literally in owe of her . If you read this , I would like to tell you how proud I am of you , and how much I wish you a continuing peaceful, happy life . Much love & respect ❤️
🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽
Makes perfect sense. I waited until 15, then told someone about what was happening at home and asked to be put into a kids' safe home. I knew that I would have to spend a year at the kids' home and then would be set to receive Austudy and be put in a halfway home to live a semi-adult life. I felt safer doing that than staying at home. I chose not to take my father to court, just left and never went back.
I’m so sorry Catherine 🥺❤️
@@luxxymommy2384 thank you but it's been 32 years and now it feels like I'm telling someone else's story. Have a great day.
I wish I could have had your courage at 15. I'm 17 and still living in this unstable environment. There is no physical abuse but there's a lot of yelling, gas lighting and neglect. I don't know what's normal or how to implement it into my life but I hope I can get a therapist to help me with that. I didn't know that a kids safe home was an option, I thought that waiting would be the only option because when the abuse isn't physical, everyone will say you're being dramatic, there's a roof over your head and food on the table so why are you unhappy? Sorry for the little rant but thank you for sharing your story and for having the courage to leave that situation.
@@Apaxetic is there maybe a trustworthy teacher at school you could speak to about your situation? Or a social worker?
@@milobar100 time truly heals all things
"You are not defined by what happens to you" Kudos to you for seeing life for what it can be! All the best on the rest of your journey!
She is so beautiful and exudes so much intelligence and strength, fighting tooth and nail not to allow the emotions to prematurely halt her powerful message for even a moment. We need to protect people like her at all cost. Most people make me wish an asteroid would obliterate us all on their best days, but as she recounts some of her worst, she has so much class and dignity, even after so many failed her as a child and abused her and did the unthinkable to her....id gladly go fight a war to protect kids that will grow up to be this strong from the monsters that exist on the other side of the bedroom door at night. Society failed her and many others, but we can draw the line and seek to enact changes that protect the innocent and the victimized. Women with this much spirit and heart and will to survive through it all are worth more than all of the gold on the planet, and to help them as kids before they have to experience these abusive people destroying parts of them, there are very few things in life that could be more important. She deserves the best and i hope she gets it.
When she said she distracted him so he would molest her instead of her sister i just died a bit inside, I'm trying hard not to cry cause I'm at work, I'm so angry and sad, she's so strong and beautiful
Honestly, it must be painful for her to relive those memories of her youths...
Youths? What you wrote doesn't mean what you think it does
@@Vaginaninja nice nitpicking there. 🙄
Try not to be a douche.
@@Vaginaninja My apologies. It was late at night when I commented this so I must have missed the typo
@@Vaginaninja why not correct them instead of just being negative
@@tomjennings1982 how about you don't insult people and keep your opinions to yourself?
As a christian, my heart breaks to know that people are using God's name to do such horrible things... God is love and pure love doesn't harm or behaves like these. Children should be loved and protected. This is painful to listen, can't imagine what it was like to actually live it.
May God heal this brave woman and everyone that went through these terrible times.
Yeah what happened to her did not happen to her by Christians.
Sad that Christians also did and have done horrible things in history and time aswell . People and Religion is a tricky thing . I guess there are good and bad people in every situation no matter the religion.
Christianity IS a cult... Time for you to wake up
@@Joe-bs3si I am so sorry about whatever happened to you that made you think like this. Whoever offended or hurt you using the name of Christ. I’ll be praying you find the healing love of Jesus.
Warm Hugs
@@slavikk6712 exactly!
Joaquin and River Phoenix's family grew up in (and luckily left) this cult as well. It's thought that River's descent into drug addiction and subsequent overdose death was caused by the sexual abuse he endured as a child.
When she talked about the Silence and lifting the veil to call out the abusers and cult. Finding inner peace in the justice she fought so hard for. I applaud her courage. Rip to her brother🙏
she's so strong. If I ever was subjected to that childhood I wouldn't make it in life. Seeing her achieve great things in life with those horrible memories stuns me.
So true
Hey wanaa be friends
A friend up mine grew up in The Family. Horrible to see how the child sexual abuse traumatized him and his siblings. Cannot understand how the cult is still allowed to exist. I hope for healing for those the cult has harmed and other victims of sexual abuse.
I had a friend who was so damaged by that cult she took her own life in the end ❤️ hope this lady finds peace and goes from strength to strength ♥️
@@ronniebattle1310 I'm watching you!!
@@Belinda. Read Mark chapter 16:1-20. Ask yourself this question. Do you believe what it says? These signs will follow those who believe!
@@ronniebattle1310 Stop
@@ootenba5910 Read Mark chapter 16:1-20. Ask yourself this question. Do you believe what it says? These signs will follow those who believe!
This beautiful soul. My heart hurts for what she has gone through. She is so brave for raising awareness. I send her all my love & my healing thoughts - I wish her peace.
I get the people who were born into it but I really struggle with the ones who chose getting into it AND WITH CHILDREN
They find people in a desperate mind space or situations and condition them through mind control. Also cults attract peados and people that are already sick in the head.
You have to understand that sophisticated mind control techniques are used - it's more common than you might realise, we are all victims to some extent.
@@dawnross2514 there's nothing sophisticated about it as someone whose been through enough in life to know what's going on. Lust and ego is the issue and always has been..
From what I've heard cults try to be attractive to a person. They look for someone broken and lonely and tell them that they will receive what they really want. Their core desires. They make it sound so rose tinted and brain wash people into joining.
As a sexual abuse survivor myself, I applaud her courage!
stay strong
I’ve had a couple of people try to encourage me to join cults & I have always driven them crazy because when they tell me their BS schtick I question their lack of logic & tell them I’m unwilling to give up my life to follow someone else.
I read "Not Without My Sister" years ago about this cult. It was such a heartbreaking story. No child should ever go through what they put them through.
I can’t even express or put into the right words how strong this woman is.
What an incredible woman with so much awareness and conscience. I hope the rest of Hope's life is full of beautiful blessings and opportunities to continue to thrive and heal. What a gorgeous and strong hearted individual.
The fact that she made it out alive and continued to create a life worth living is absolutely inspiring and astounding. Kudos to you girl.
This woman is a real life superhero, and she is so powerful. She is amazing. She truly is Hope. Hope for justice. Hope for healing and peace.
In my mind, cults like this are a thing of the past, but this woman is my age (born in 1979). Thank you for sharing her story and broadening my perspective.
There's still a lot of cults around, they just disguise themselves more these days.
There are now cults hidden in plain sight, e.g. Jehovah Witnesses
Unfortunately this same cult is still very popular today
This is absolutely incredible - the fact she subjected herself to more abuse to protect her siblings is an insanely brave thing to do and especially at such a young age. What an incredible woman she is 🖤
When you spoke about your mom I was so grateful. I went through something similar and the aftermath is what I am dealing with now. I am very frustrated about my mom and like you said the love is there but so is the anger and frustration. You went through much worse then I went through because my abuse only lasted a couple years but I became really weird and really had to recover.
I am deeply sorry you had to go through this. I am glad you said what you said it helped me more then you could know. Sometimes I don’t even acknowledge what I went through was even a big deal but when you phrase it, I see the craziness of it all. Thank you for sharing your story. I hope you can be happy. I wish I was like you in understanding what happened. Your voice is so clear. I wish that the people in my life would face justice but I don’t think they ever will. I wish I could have had more family members recover and see things clearly. It’s still upsets me but life just keeps moving on. You saying these things allowed me to have compassion on myself.
I’m incredible impress with how articulate and how powerfully she pushed herself through that interview. I started crying from the moment she mentioned children were there. Her bravery and strength are indescriptible, and her last words were such a lesson
Awful that she had to go through that. What an Inspiring Woman to be able to find success after something so traumatic.
I just want to embrace her & hug her with my whole heart.
This is a very brave woman coming forward and telling her truth and the truth for others
She's such a strong woman. My heart goes out to her
It's so hard to watch this without crying. I can't imagine how hard it is for her.
You can tell she is listening to herself as she speaks and it sounds as bad if not worse than it felt. Years of therapy and healing is needed for all of them. How sad but how courageous she sat through this interview.
Thank you for this. Thank you for the concept of "survivor fog". Thank you for laying (some) blame on the mother. ( my sister also died of suicide. and I didn't realize how much I needed to hear that. Great respect for her bravery and strength in talking in public.
This woman's courage and strength takes my breath away. She is proof that determination and hope can help one not only survive, but change one's life. My wish is that she finds peace and contentment. I have so much respect for her bravery and determination ro survive . She is a hero and an inspiration for me as I face my life's trials and tribulations.
This lady is the epitome of resilience and success. This cult The children of God was very active in Australia too with the same sexual, emotional and physical abuse. The leader was Anne Hamilton Byrne, a truly evil woman, I remember meeting some of the child survivors in a hair salon I worked at as they'd all had their hair bleached blond if they had blue eyes as apparently she thought it made them look more angelic(we coloured them back to natural), they were young kids. We had no idea what trauma they'd been rescued from tucked away in the foothills of Melbourne. I sincerely hope that all these victims have love and support in their lives now as sadly many have taken their lives as a result of this trauma caused by this evil cult.
Different cult.
@@Make1984FictionAgain I thought it was a different branch under the same masthead?
Nope.
Both were active in Australia, but there was another cult operating under the same name, there is one documentary about them somewhere. Either way, 100% sure it wasn't the same, COG kids would have never been allowed to dye their hair.
She is, I honestly think, the strongest human being I’ve ever witnessed be interviewed. I am in awe of her. May she live a happy, peaceful rest of her life. She deserves it. 💜
Ummmm whatever
Check out some videos on Satanic ritual abuse, a lot of it happens in the UK. It’s absolutely disgraceful
this woman is an absolut ANGEL, wth. Literally the bravest, kindest woman ever
I am binge watching this series, it is amazing! What a fantastic idea, there are a few im keeping to show my sons when they are older, they give you so much insight and food for thought. Thank you to all guests who shared their story and thank you to ladbible for bringing their message to us!
Some parents don’t deserve to be parents it’s so horrible what happened to the whole family
No parent does. They make their kidd vulverable to these pll who are all aroubd us
Most breeders have been creeped on. They know better.
What a strong strong person..we can only imagine what she went through. Even that is scary ,imagine living it.
Thank you for your bravery and helping others. You are awesome!
She is SO SO strong! It's so touching listening to her story... she's a gorgeous queen and she can be so damn proud of herself❤
So sophisticated and such a unique accent and such a beautiful soul and such a beautiful woman
So proud of this woman's courage, strength and resilience.
What an amazing, extraordinary person. I felt chills hearing her talk about her abuse and I am genuinely in awe of how hard she's fought and how strong she is.
You are an amazing woman! And you’re so right about the fact that an abusive situation doesn’t define you. So well spoken, so brave ❤️ definitely inspiring. Thank you
Time stood still for every second of those 20 minutes, I listened to every single word you said and the l city I live in went silent. Thank you so much for sharing this you beautiful soul. I wish you peace.
Now... where are the rest of these c**** living? 😡 I’m about to do some serious research...
I’m so sorry this happened to you. Your bravery is very inspiring
Thanks brave lady for your testimony.
Thanks also to the channel for opening conversation about this important topic.
this is so heartbreaking.. it’s so mindboggling and impressive how she was able to keep her composure and get through recounting such a horrifying story with such grace and eloquence.. my heart goes out to her and all the children who suffered in this cult