I have tears in my eyes commenting this video. I’m in the middle of a divorce after an emotional rollercoaster so similar to yours. There were dark days and the only thing holding me here was the love for my family. Seeing you fulfilled, happy and grateful about how your life turned out, fills my heart with hope of a better future for me, too. The message you posted here is powerful, thank you so much for that ❤️
Daianne, I am sending you so much love dear!!! I am so sorry for the hardships and heartbreak you have gone through. Keep trusting in the Lord and I know your happily ever after will come!! You are stronger than you know and so incredibly and fiercely loved by God, don't ever forget it. xoxox
I hope God has blessed you. But if not keep the faith your day is coming just like mines will. God doesn't work on our time but yet he still never late. All praise be to our Father and all glory go to God. Thank you Jesus!! I hope today you are fully blessed. In the name of the Father Amen!
Attention seeking.....nothing more, men have it so much harder and yet have to deal with rejection and hardships. And no one gives a sh!t about our struggles.....
happy days will come back what is needed is to keep believing because giving up is not an option.i never dreamt that my marriage will fall apart but yooo life has got surprises.i know one day God make it happen i will rejoice again
I’m in the middle of divorce right now and your video has helped me realize that this pain won’t last forever and God has a plan for my life. I’ve felt so lost. Thank you ❤
You said “if this video can help just one person….” Well, as a 60 year old man who knows nothing about makeup I came across your video while having the same thoughts as you did back then. This video helped so much when I first watched it and I have come back to say Thank You. Thank you so much and I really REALLY think you need to speak to groups of people and share your story. It is so genuine and from your heart. I can’t thank you enough!
Thank you so much for this. I’m in the heat of the same exact thing, divorcing in abusive marriage. It feels like life won’t get better but you are proof that it can. Im so depressed and needed to hear this.
Yes I get it, I wish I was dead right now I get the comfort feeling of not being around anymore. If someone you loved treated me this way what could I expect from others so that's how I feel
My husband and I are divorcing. After 7 years of cheating and lies. I’m tired. I’m hurt, I too am having those thoughts. We have two small kids and I never wanted my marriage to end. I can’t eat, I can’t sleep. I don’t know what I did to deserve this treatment. My heart is completely broken 😞
I’ve been there too. But thank God I didn’t go through with it. And I physically left that marriage three weeks ago. Now I’m just waiting on it to be official. Already I feel liberated.
I'm going through this right now.. my wife, best friend and absolute love of my life for 11 years.. since 2011..left me 3 weeks ago.. I wake up every morning thinking of how I can end my life.. I don't want to live without her.. I can't bare this pain I feel.. 😫
@izzyoda it's been a horrible 6 months.. we're friends now and hang out with our kids, have dinner every few nights together but this time apart has showed me I don't want to fix things.
@izzyoda I was having those thoughts daily for the first 2 -3 months.. then as I met other ppl it helped take my mind off her and everything.. ppl tried telling me it'll get easier but I didn't believe them. It does get easier.. and sometimes it'll get harder.. but overall there will be a point where you don't feel hurt and those suicidal thoughts become fewer and fewer. Feel free to contact me if u need any help.
Every word, every experience just feels like my story ! Thank you for sharing this, this has saved atleast one life today for which you will get lost of blessings❤❤!!
Just tell yourself everyday that you can ,believe in yourself sending hugs to you.i went through depression after i got divorced i really wanted to make it work but just imagine the pain i was having someone cheating 4 times and i will just forgive her.after all i got told am mot man enough i never dreamt that my marriage will fall apart but yooo life has got surprises
Watched the video with tears. It is truly amazing how courageous you were to step out of the traumatic relationship. Thank you for sharing your experience with the women going through a similar trauma. It is not easy to get out of a narcissistic relationship. It is scary. It was a moment of true happiness when you said that you are now married to a wonderful person. Yes. As you said, we matter. ❤ ❤️
It's interesting when you said things got better for a short time but then went back to the way it was. This was my experience with my ex husband. He would act like he cared and heard me for maybe a week or so but deep down he was just masking to make me feel comfortable. He didn't think I would leave...and I'm so glad I did. He's a covert narccicist.
Love bombing you for a week or two and then things go right back to where they were! They just want to appease you and in your head you're really thinking this time I know he's really going to change we know how that works right? Basically with that is really about is biggest want to smooth things over because you know how forgiving you are because we're always saying I understand I know you're going through a rough time I love you so much... They eat that shit up! How many times have you said to yourself here we go again!!!
I have recently ended a relationship with a really good person. I wasn't fully happy although i loved him and became depressed/ utterly overwhelmed. Ending it nearly killed me, triggered clinical depression. The most painful experience of my life. Prayer saved me 🙏
@merriemakeupartist he is heartbroken and I'm still feeling very sad for him and terribly guilty 😔 All I can do is pray about it and hand him over to God's care 🙏
This takes a lot of courage to speak on, you are beautiful inside and out. As as fellow makeup artist I'm so happy you have found your joy. Wishing you all the best!
Thank you so much for sharing... You are such an inspiration and I found great comfort and encouragement in your story. I'm going through a divorce right now and my story is very similar to yours... I was a virgin and devout Christian when I married my husband at 31... Thought I found the love of my life and didn't believe in divorce or understand abuse at the time... We've been together 10 years and have two small kids and he has been verbally and emotionally and a few times physically abusive with me... But it was very subtle at first and grew more and more over the years... It's been hard because there were seasons where I truly thought he was progressing and changing but it's been a vicious cycle. I'm grieving because I'm now 41 with a 5-year-old and a 3 year old and I never thought I would be a single mother. On one hand I'm grieving the loss of a dream and a person I thought I knew... On the other hand I'm hopeful and relieved to be moving on to a new chapter I trust that God has great plans in store for us. Again thank you for sharing and being transparent:)
Hello love! I am so sorry for the difficulties and darkness you have experienced! I'm sorry that life has turned out so different than you imagined. You are a beloved daughter of God and He isn't finished with his unimaginably beautiful plan for you. I am sending you hugs and love! xoxo
Wow I really felt you in the part that watching other you tubers and makeup saved you. That hit me so hard . You tube has been my escape since I was around 12 . I feel so much comfort watching my favourite you tubers
❤ Thank you for sharing! I just ended a toxic relationship and narcissistic marriage. I can relate to so many things you shared. I am trying to overcome the trauma I endured. I am so grateful I found your video.
Getting a divorce, I hadn't had suicidal thoughts since I was 13...well they came back throught this marriage my first marriage. 😔 I didn't think I'd ever be in that place again.
Ty so much for your sincere testimony ❤❤❤❤ I can totally resonate with your story. I too went through suicide ideation. I’m so glad we are both here today!!! GOD IS SO GOOD
Thank you for your honesty and admitting that the signs were always there yet you chose to look the other way. Most people don't even admit that and seem surprised when things go south. Good luck with your new relationship and don't ignore the signs.
Today I am watching this as a woman who just found out her husband has been cheating for years. He is such a messed up man and yet I wanted a family for my kids, I did everything I could to keep everything together. And here I am wondering if there is any hope for me. You’re video was so tremendously helpful for me today. 🙏 thank you.
Your story is really inspiring; thank you for sharing. Such a beautiful and loving lady God has created you to be! So thankful to the Almighty that you have found your joy and happiness again! I pray that one day God will help me overcome just like you too! I feel like i have been going through these same feelings (struggling with suicidal thoughts, depression and loneliness) for 13 years of my marriage.... lately, I even feel like my husband is trying to push me over the edge without laying a hand on me because he knows about my struggle with suicidal thoughts. It's all the lies, mind-games, manipulations, betrayal, blame shifting, neglectful and belittling treatment happening on a daily basis. dealing with him constantly feels like my head is spinning out of control and i don't understand what is happening to me or why. Some days i just feel like i need to mentally shut down just to go through the day. Unfortunately for me, i don't have any family to rely on for any sort of support (as I have converted into christianity from Islam, and have been disowned by them all) and over the years, in the process of being married to him, I have lost all my friends too (true friends with whom i could possibly share such things with)! my prayers and heart goes out to everyone who has been sharing their struggles here. Jesus is the only Hope, and friend I am counting on now.... Much prayers.
wow such a powerful testimony! brought me to tears..i can see how difficult this was for you to film but glory to God for using you and for you being obedient to share this with millions here on YT! you're an angel and just look at how God is blessing you in abundance for being the hands and feet of Jesus...I came across your bridal makeup videos and then fell in love with her calming voice overs and amazing work of course so I had to stick around and see more, then this 🥲 so encouraging for many..thanks for being fearlessly you! 🙌🏾❤
Thank you for this massage ❤️ Im in this moment now. Make up is my escape. But this week my thoughts are terrible 😢. I’m out of the abusive relationship almost 2 years but went back for 2 weeks in summer. And it gone worse.
I'm in the same situation right now. Complete darkness, depression, I was never broken so much in my life. Thoughts of no escape, marriage for life and nothing else. I truly thank you for this testimony. Still wrestling about things about remarriage - if God will allow me through His grace be in healthy and fulfilling partnership approved by Him or of I need to stay single for the rest of my life. Please pray for me, thank you!
Wow, it’s 2024, and I’m not a make up junkie,but your video came across my feed. I know it was God! Thank you for sharing this testimony. I pray that I, too, get to post a similar testimony after some major heartbreaking storms. Thank you for your transparency. ❤
I support you and hope that life is better for you. As a Christian, I am happy to see that you are not ashamed of Him and share how God helped you and still helps you.
I’m feeling so alone. I genuinely don’t know if I can carry on. My heart is so broken right now. These videos are the only things that give me some temporary relief. My ex and I have had a toxic on off relationship over a 5 year period. He always leaves. I always take him back like a dumb ass. We moved in with eachother 3 months ago. He left last weekend. He chose to end the relationship yet again. He threw a drink in my face. He got abusive and nasty. I seen him today for the first time since last week. My heart hurts and I feel extremely low right now. All I feel is depression. I miss him even though I know he isn’t right for me
Lauren, I don’t know all the details of your situation, but if you can I would strongly encourage you to cut all ties with him and move on. 5 years is enough time for him to show you he is not going to change. You deserve so much more, and you can have an incredible life without him.💞
While commenting I have tears in my eyes. I going through the same thing. I'm battling depression and my husband would cheat on me while I was having surgery. Now he asking me for the divorce. I have thought of ending my life and i have hurt myself. Thank you for sharing it help me a lot to hear this.
I am so sorry for all the pain you are going through! Stay strong, I promise there is so much joy in your future and life is worth living.❤️ I am sending you love!!
Thank you for sharing a really private part of your life. It was really touching me.you’re so brave to going through all these difficult pathway in your life. Listening to your story and feeling the presence of the god it’s really reminding me to trust to the god and to wait for the brighter and beautiful days to come. I’m glad that I’m following someone like you who I’ve never met but through your videos I can feel your clear heart and honesty. I can say god’s spoken to me through your words and the pain that you went through and experienced. I think what you testimony in this video has been glorified his name.amen God blessed you and your family❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻👌👌👌
Wow, what a kind comment, everything you said means so much to me. My purpose in making this video was to try to spread God’s love and help others know how amazing His plan is.❤️❤️
hey dearly I'm a living testimony of a great Dr Daniel the relationship restorer only healer who fixed back my broken relationship after being separated for months. He can also help you too no matter how worst the case maybe Dr Daniel will put a smile on your face honey within 3days🚀🚀🚀🚀
I was really moved by your testimony. You are a very beautiful woman. I have been single for 15 years since my last relationship. I've been very lonely at times. God may have very well saved you from something worse in the future by allowing your marriage to end. Your stronger than you know. In time as you walk with God He will strengthen you and show you the way. Thanx for sharing your story.
This randomly popped up, and I'm assuming because my life has been crazy. My wife of 8 years left 7 months ago, with a random guy. I found out my son wasn't my son, and now I'm a single father. I've kinda lost myself but my son is keeping my eyes open. I wish you the best of luck, and I hope the last 5 months have helped.
I went through a very very bad time in 2019 well, it was actually horrible in 2018 and thought it would get a little better but it didn’t 2019 I had the worst thing happened to me ever in my entire life and I just felt so alone I felt no one cared I understand you
Thank you so much for sharing. I relate very much to your story and am still battling a lot. How amazing for you to be where you are now. All the best to you. 💓
Abused for years lost my child to an abuser. Understand!!! Physical abuse, mental abuse, abuse in every way. Understand!!! Never felt so alone in my life!!!
i’m going through something very similiar right now and i would love some tips from you and the best support i can get is talking to someone like you that’s been through the same road . Your story is literally identical to mine
I’m going through this right now my wife of 20 years and daughters mommy had affair 2 years ago I tried to save our marriage and didn’t want to break up our family But she was so changed from the affair partner she was so angry and abusive and eventually it broke me down to point I stopped trying She left me 10 weeks ago and took our daughter and I’m devastated and lost We had a happy family life our daughter was so happy I’m so lost I miss my family
You have a gift for expression and really should do daily diaries on your life. You are very interesting. And now that you are married again. I think you are great to give advice on finding the right man. Hopefully he is a true Christian man. Your a blessing. Just knowing you exist has made me feel like there is hope for me too. I was assaulted by my ex I was married to for 20 years. My story isn't one I can tell. I don't want to remember it anymore but move on. Thank you again. God bless you.
You inspired me and cry 😢hard, I been married for 18 years and I’m the middle of divorce, I feel like I’m alone And make mistake for getting Divorce, punishing me I wish I have family that I can go to,
I live in silence because of this my x husband left me because I got diagnosed with a chronic illness for someone else I am getting infusions and my kids are helping me I feel so bad for them they can’t even live there best life one of my children left and said she’s not a nurse so now I live without a daughter who I am devestated about I don’t know why I’m here and I think about me not being here every day
Amen 🙏. If I would’ve gone through this broken marriage, I would’ve of known Jesus my Lord. His love heal all wounds 🙏❤️🥰 Thank you so much for your encouragement 🥹 It’s a really bad divorce situation. But God will walk you throughout the dark trails.
you were probably in a relationship with a covert narcissist. the constant hot and cold, silent treatment, mental and emotional abuse can drive anyone crazy. Nothing you do seems to work, you're always the one having to make changes until you have nothing left to give. Beware of the seemingly changes for the better. bread crumbs.. it becomes fewer and father in between and it doesn't last. it happened to me. 25 years before I realized what i was up against. thank you for sharing your story. blessings.
hey dearly I'm a living testimony of a great Dr Daniel the relationship restorer only healer who fixed back my broken relationship after being separated for months. He can also help you too no matter how worst the case maybe Dr Daniel will put a smile on your face honey within 3days🚀🚀🚀
I thought about taking all my pills today. I have a boatload. I can't kill myself though because I have 6 grandchildren.I already filed for divorce. He has been seeing someone else for years now.We are both 70 years old and this woman is at least 20 , maybe 30 years younger than me. Today I took huge steps backwards and ended up basically begging my husband to fix our marriage, Now he is going to think about it. My children will hate me is I go back with him. I have told everyone that the only way I could go back with him is for him to give his life completely over to God and that it would takes years of right iiving for him to prove he is changed. Now today, I acted like a fool and cried and cried in front of him and told him how suicidal I have been. It was a form of begging. Now he says he will think about it. Hope has been restored, but how foolish is that.? I really need God to take control and help me do what is right. I live in Texas and I think I need to go up to Minnesota to live with my son and grandchildren for a while. I don't want to fall back into the same pit with him, but I am so in love with him.
I have tears in my eyes commenting this video. I’m in the middle of a divorce after an emotional rollercoaster so similar to yours. There were dark days and the only thing holding me here was the love for my family. Seeing you fulfilled, happy and grateful about how your life turned out, fills my heart with hope of a better future for me, too. The message you posted here is powerful, thank you so much for that ❤️
Daianne, I am sending you so much love dear!!! I am so sorry for the hardships and heartbreak you have gone through. Keep trusting in the Lord and I know your happily ever after will come!! You are stronger than you know and so incredibly and fiercely loved by God, don't ever forget it. xoxox
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You too huh? Me too
I hope God has blessed you. But if not keep the faith your day is coming just like mines will. God doesn't work on our time but yet he still never late. All praise be to our Father and all glory go to God. Thank you Jesus!! I hope today you are fully blessed. In the name of the Father Amen!
Attention seeking.....nothing more, men have it so much harder and yet have to deal with rejection and hardships. And no one gives a sh!t about our struggles.....
As a divorced Christian woman, I resonate so much with your story and I appreciate you sharing to know I’m not alone 🤍
happy days will come back what is needed is to keep believing because giving up is not an option.i never dreamt that my marriage will fall apart but yooo life has got surprises.i know one day God make it happen i will rejoice again
I’m in the middle of divorce right now and your video has helped me realize that this pain won’t last forever and God has a plan for my life. I’ve felt so lost. Thank you ❤
@@laurafoster4958 I’m so glad it was helpful.❤️ I’m so excited for you to move forward and experience so much joy in your future!!
I'm having a tough time
You said “if this video can help just one person….”
Well, as a 60 year old man who knows nothing about makeup I came across your video while having the same thoughts as you did back then.
This video helped so much when I first watched it and I have come back to say Thank You. Thank you so much and I really REALLY think you need to speak to groups of people and share your story. It is so genuine and from your heart. I can’t thank you enough!
Your comment means so much.❤️ Thank you so much for taking the time to comment. I wish you all the best and a bright future!!!
Don't feel too bad, I am a 50 year old woman, and sadly, I don't know much about makeup either! This video helps me too!
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Thank you so much for this. I’m in the heat of the same exact thing, divorcing in abusive marriage. It feels like life won’t get better but you are proof that it can. Im so depressed and needed to hear this.
It WILL get better, I promise. Sending you love and hugs!!
Yes I get it, I wish I was dead right now I get the comfort feeling of not being around anymore. If someone you loved treated me this way what could I expect from others so that's how I feel
I'm praying for you the pain is real.
My husband and I are divorcing. After 7 years of cheating and lies. I’m tired. I’m hurt, I too am having those thoughts. We have two small kids and I never wanted my marriage to end. I can’t eat, I can’t sleep. I don’t know what I did to deserve this treatment. My heart is completely broken 😞
I hope you are OK xxx i am going through the same thing
I’ve been there too. But thank God I didn’t go through with it. And I physically left that marriage three weeks ago. Now I’m just waiting on it to be official. Already I feel liberated.
I'm going through this right now.. my wife, best friend and absolute love of my life for 11 years.. since 2011..left me 3 weeks ago.. I wake up every morning thinking of how I can end my life.. I don't want to live without her.. I can't bare this pain I feel.. 😫
Hey, I was just wondering how are things now that time has passed any updates
@izzyoda it's been a horrible 6 months.. we're friends now and hang out with our kids, have dinner every few nights together but this time apart has showed me I don't want to fix things.
@Buck_Maize it's been a month since my breakup of 10 years feeling low at the moment. Are u still having those thoughts ?
@izzyoda I was having those thoughts daily for the first 2 -3 months.. then as I met other ppl it helped take my mind off her and everything.. ppl tried telling me it'll get easier but I didn't believe them. It does get easier.. and sometimes it'll get harder.. but overall there will be a point where you don't feel hurt and those suicidal thoughts become fewer and fewer.
Feel free to contact me if u need any help.
@Buck_Maize thanks for replying. Just knowing you got better gives me hope to keep going. I will do that if I need help
This was so beautiful, Merrie. You are such a light to everyone and I'm so glad you chose to stay so we can know you.
Thank you so much Kailie💗💗💗
Every word, every experience just feels like my story ! Thank you for sharing this, this has saved atleast one life today for which you will get lost of blessings❤❤!!
Just tell yourself everyday that you can ,believe in yourself sending hugs to you.i went through depression after i got divorced i really wanted to make it work but just imagine the pain i was having someone cheating 4 times and i will just forgive her.after all i got told am mot man enough i never dreamt that my marriage will fall apart but yooo life has got surprises
Watched the video with tears. It is truly amazing how courageous you were to step out of the traumatic relationship. Thank you for sharing your experience with the women going through a similar trauma. It is not easy to get out of a narcissistic relationship. It is scary. It was a moment of true happiness when you said that you are now married to a wonderful person. Yes. As you said, we matter. ❤ ❤️
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It's interesting when you said things got better for a short time but then went back to the way it was. This was my experience with my ex husband. He would act like he cared and heard me for maybe a week or so but deep down he was just masking to make me feel comfortable. He didn't think I would leave...and I'm so glad I did. He's a covert narccicist.
Covert narcissist. Something I learnt recently. Hope you are doing well! I’m about 6 weeks out and doing quite well.
Love bombing you for a week or two and then things go right back to where they were! They just want to appease you and in your head you're really thinking this time I know he's really going to change we know how that works right? Basically with that is really about is biggest want to smooth things over because you know how forgiving you are because we're always saying I understand I know you're going through a rough time I love you so much... They eat that shit up! How many times have you said to yourself here we go again!!!
My husband's being telling me that I have to do whatever the hell he's telling because I have no backbone to leave this relationship
Sounds like my soon to be ex husband
Thank you for being so honest and showing the listeners that God cares and helps🙏
I have recently ended a relationship with a really good person. I wasn't fully happy although i loved him and became depressed/ utterly overwhelmed. Ending it nearly killed me, triggered clinical depression. The most painful experience of my life. Prayer saved me 🙏
@@babbaruff1045 You are so strong, I’m proud of you❤️
@merriemakeupartist he is heartbroken and I'm still feeling very sad for him and terribly guilty 😔 All I can do is pray about it and hand him over to God's care 🙏
This takes a lot of courage to speak on, you are beautiful inside and out. As as fellow makeup artist I'm so happy you have found your joy. Wishing you all the best!
Thank you so much Emily!! That truly means so much. xoxo
Thank you so much for sharing... You are such an inspiration and I found great comfort and encouragement in your story. I'm going through a divorce right now and my story is very similar to yours... I was a virgin and devout Christian when I married my husband at 31... Thought I found the love of my life and didn't believe in divorce or understand abuse at the time... We've been together 10 years and have two small kids and he has been verbally and emotionally and a few times physically abusive with me... But it was very subtle at first and grew more and more over the years... It's been hard because there were seasons where I truly thought he was progressing and changing but it's been a vicious cycle. I'm grieving because I'm now 41 with a 5-year-old and a 3 year old and I never thought I would be a single mother. On one hand I'm grieving the loss of a dream and a person I thought I knew... On the other hand I'm hopeful and relieved to be moving on to a new chapter I trust that God has great plans in store for us. Again thank you for sharing and being transparent:)
Hello love! I am so sorry for the difficulties and darkness you have experienced! I'm sorry that life has turned out so different than you imagined. You are a beloved daughter of God and He isn't finished with his unimaginably beautiful plan for you. I am sending you hugs and love! xoxo
I might be a 26 year old Male but i can relate about your feelings and similar things happened in my childhood that i just have to life with!
You are not alone Kommissar!! You can get through anything, I promise. :)
Wow I really felt you in the part that watching other you tubers and makeup saved you. That hit me so hard . You tube has been my escape since I was around 12 . I feel so much comfort watching my favourite you tubers
❤ Thank you for sharing! I just ended a toxic relationship and narcissistic marriage. I can relate to so many things you shared. I am trying to overcome the trauma I endured. I am so grateful I found your video.
Sending you love! You’ve got this!❤️
The similarities between your story and my story are mind-blowing
Getting a divorce, I hadn't had suicidal thoughts since I was 13...well they came back throught this marriage my first marriage. 😔 I didn't think I'd ever be in that place again.
This helped at a very dark moment today. Thank you.
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This made me love you even more. Thanks for being vulnerable and for sharing, Merrie. 💖
Thank you Lizzie❤️❤️❤️
Just thank you .now I know I wasn’t the only one
Ty so much for your sincere testimony ❤❤❤❤ I can totally resonate with your story. I too went through suicide ideation. I’m so glad we are both here today!!! GOD IS SO GOOD
Thank you for your honesty and admitting that the signs were always there yet you chose to look the other way. Most people don't even admit that and seem surprised when things go south. Good luck with your new relationship and don't ignore the signs.
Today I am watching this as a woman who just found out her husband has been cheating for years. He is such a messed up man and yet I wanted a family for my kids, I did everything I could to keep everything together. And here I am wondering if there is any hope for me. You’re video was so tremendously helpful for me today. 🙏 thank you.
Oh my goodness, what a challenging and heartbreaking situation, I’m so sorry.❤️ I am sending you love and hugs! I promise God will come through.❤️❤️❤️
this was my life story , i cried with your video , thanks for sharing😘
Sending you so much love!!!❤️
Your story is really inspiring; thank you for sharing. Such a beautiful and loving lady God has created you to be! So thankful to the Almighty that you have found your joy and happiness again! I pray that one day God will help me overcome just like you too! I feel like i have been going through these same feelings (struggling with suicidal thoughts, depression and loneliness) for 13 years of my marriage.... lately, I even feel like my husband is trying to push me over the edge without laying a hand on me because he knows about my struggle with suicidal thoughts. It's all the lies, mind-games, manipulations, betrayal, blame shifting, neglectful and belittling treatment happening on a daily basis. dealing with him constantly feels like my head is spinning out of control and i don't understand what is happening to me or why. Some days i just feel like i need to mentally shut down just to go through the day. Unfortunately for me, i don't have any family to rely on for any sort of support (as I have converted into christianity from Islam, and have been disowned by them all) and over the years, in the process of being married to him, I have lost all my friends too (true friends with whom i could possibly share such things with)! my prayers and heart goes out to everyone who has been sharing their struggles here. Jesus is the only Hope, and friend I am counting on now.... Much prayers.
I can relate to her thinking about how ending her life brought comfort.
You are beautiful inside and out. Wish you all the blessings in life that you can get.
Thanks for sharing your story and your testimony!! Very brave and I’m sure many will benefit from your experience.
Thank you so much Kami!!💗💗💗
wow such a powerful testimony! brought me to tears..i can see how difficult this was for you to film but glory to God for using you and for you being obedient to share this with millions here on YT! you're an angel and just look at how God is blessing you in abundance for being the hands and feet of Jesus...I came across your bridal makeup videos and then fell in love with her calming voice overs and amazing work of course so I had to stick around and see more, then this 🥲 so encouraging for many..thanks for being fearlessly you! 🙌🏾❤
Thank you for this massage ❤️ Im in this moment now. Make up is my escape. But this week my thoughts are terrible 😢. I’m out of the abusive relationship almost 2 years but went back for 2 weeks in summer. And it gone worse.
I'm in the same situation right now. Complete darkness, depression, I was never broken so much in my life. Thoughts of no escape, marriage for life and nothing else. I truly thank you for this testimony. Still wrestling about things about remarriage - if God will allow me through His grace be in healthy and fulfilling partnership approved by Him or of I need to stay single for the rest of my life. Please pray for me, thank you!
This message let's people know they're not alone. But God can also deliver you from anxiety and get off the medication.
Thanks for sharing 🙂
"You have to stay here.." I felt that in my soul...
Focusing on love is what pulled me out of the depression. Generate the feeling of love
Thank you for sharing your story, your experience will help a lots of people; God is always blessing the strong and brave people. Love you!
Thank you Gina!! I love you so much!
Wow, it’s 2024, and I’m not a make up junkie,but your video came across my feed. I know it was God! Thank you for sharing this testimony. I pray that I, too, get to post a similar testimony after some major heartbreaking storms. Thank you for your transparency. ❤
Sending you all the love!!! God has an incredible plan for you❤️
I LOVE YOU BABE!
I love you forever!!!!❤️
Thank you so much, your video is really god sent for me right now because I am in the same situation and it's been only 2 months I have been married.
I support you and hope that life is better for you. As a Christian, I am happy to see that you are not ashamed of Him and share how God helped you and still helps you.
I’m feeling so alone. I genuinely don’t know if I can carry on. My heart is so broken right now. These videos are the only things that give me some temporary relief. My ex and I have had a toxic on off relationship over a 5 year period. He always leaves. I always take him back like a dumb ass. We moved in with eachother 3 months ago. He left last weekend. He chose to end the relationship yet again. He threw a drink in my face. He got abusive and nasty. I seen him today for the first time since last week. My heart hurts and I feel extremely low right now. All I feel is depression. I miss him even though I know he isn’t right for me
Lauren, I don’t know all the details of your situation, but if you can I would strongly encourage you to cut all ties with him and move on. 5 years is enough time for him to show you he is not going to change. You deserve so much more, and you can have an incredible life without him.💞
I grew so much in my divorce healing journey after reading THE SUN ALWAYS PIERCES THROUGH
While commenting I have tears in my eyes. I going through the same thing. I'm battling depression and my husband would cheat on me while I was having surgery. Now he asking me for the divorce. I have thought of ending my life and i have hurt myself. Thank you for sharing it help me a lot to hear this.
I am so sorry for all the pain you are going through! Stay strong, I promise there is so much joy in your future and life is worth living.❤️ I am sending you love!!
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Thank you for sharing a really private part of your life. It was really touching me.you’re so brave to going through all these difficult pathway in your life. Listening to your story and feeling the presence of the god it’s really reminding me to trust to the god and to wait for the brighter and beautiful days to come.
I’m glad that I’m following someone like you who I’ve never met but through your videos I can feel your clear heart and honesty.
I can say god’s spoken to me through your words and the pain that you went through and experienced. I think what you testimony in this video has been glorified his name.amen
God blessed you and your family❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻👌👌👌
Wow, what a kind comment, everything you said means so much to me. My purpose in making this video was to try to spread God’s love and help others know how amazing His plan is.❤️❤️
hey dearly I'm a living testimony of a great Dr Daniel the relationship restorer only healer who fixed back my broken relationship after being separated for months. He can also help you too no matter how worst the case maybe Dr Daniel will put a smile on your face honey within 3days🚀🚀🚀🚀
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I was really moved by your testimony. You are a very beautiful woman. I have been single for 15 years since my last relationship. I've been very lonely at times. God may have very well saved you from something worse in the future by allowing your marriage to end. Your stronger than you know. In time as you walk with God He will strengthen you and show you the way. Thanx for sharing your story.
This randomly popped up, and I'm assuming because my life has been crazy.
My wife of 8 years left 7 months ago, with a random guy. I found out my son wasn't my son, and now I'm a single father.
I've kinda lost myself but my son is keeping my eyes open.
I wish you the best of luck, and I hope the last 5 months have helped.
I'm so sorry John, my heart goes out to you. God has a beautiful way of turning a mess into a miracle--don't give up hope.
You have a beautiful smile. I'm glad you're still here ❤
Thank you 🙏 this video means so much when someone understands every emotion you mentioned. Trying to get out of my darkness.
You’re amazing, Merrie! I am so glad you’re here and using your beautiful voice 💕 love you, girl!!
Thank you Brittanie! Love and miss you.💗💗💗
😭😭😭 thank you for sharing your story. It meant so much !
I went through a very very bad time in 2019 well, it was actually horrible in 2018 and thought it would get a little better but it didn’t 2019 I had the worst thing happened to me ever in my entire life and I just felt so alone I felt no one cared I understand you
Thank you so much for sharing this. I needed this today.
You’re a very BEAUTIFUL soul. Thank you and so glad your happy your words are so meaningful.❤️
Merrie this video has helped me so much. I listen to it on repeat. Thank you. God bless.❤️
I have gone every bit of the things you told plus physical abuse.
Thank you so much for this video. Your story and advice really helped me.
Thanks for posting this. I’m going thru something similar. This meant a lot.
Thank you so much for sharing this🤎 God bless you, your family, and you business
Thank you so much for sharing. I relate very much to your story and am still battling a lot. How amazing for you to be where you are now. All the best to you. 💓
Hi you such an amazing woman.if you need a friend to talk to am here.am going through a lot as well but i can feel that its almost over .
Thank you for sharing this I needed this today a divorce for me is approaching your video helped, I love to watch Kandees make up videos too
You’ve got this!! Sending you love!❤️
Praise the lord 🙏 thankyou for sharing your story.
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This is a beautiful video and you are such a beautiful kind soul. Thank you.
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My exactl feelings I just keep asking God to hear me, thank you!
Thank you this helpted me God really spoke through you I'm married and struggling and I'm studying to become a makeup artist too God bless you.
Sending you love!!!❤️
Abused for years lost my child to an abuser. Understand!!! Physical abuse, mental abuse, abuse in every way. Understand!!! Never felt so alone in my life!!!
i’m going through something very similiar right now and i would love some tips from you and the best support i can get is talking to someone like you that’s been through the same road . Your story is literally identical to mine
Thank you so much for your speech it was so good. Iam going through the same thing now. It hurts so bad 😢
You can get through this! It is so tough, I’m so sorry.❤️ I’m praying for you!
Shuu...😫😫 I just came across this video. I'm sorry you went through all this 💕
Thanks for sharing! I needed this!
can so relate to you... I went through the same. Thank you for sharing your story.
I’m going through a divorce and literally the same thing 😢 I love makeup and photography
I’m going through this right now my wife of 20 years and daughters mommy had affair 2 years ago
I tried to save our marriage and didn’t want to break up our family
But she was so changed from the affair partner she was so angry and abusive and eventually it broke me down to point I stopped trying
She left me 10 weeks ago and took our daughter and I’m devastated and lost
We had a happy family life our daughter was so happy I’m so lost I miss my family
Thank you for sharing your story❤
am 38 years old now with no kids no loving husband who betrayed me. i never made any friend think i have him. and now thwre is nothing.
Her eyes are captivating.
thank you so much this has really helped me today x
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Thank you for this 😢
This was wonderful. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you so much❤❤❤
I needed to hear this.
You have a gift for expression and really should do daily diaries on your life. You are very interesting. And now that you are married again. I think you are great to give advice on finding the right man. Hopefully he is a true Christian man. Your a blessing. Just knowing you exist has made me feel like there is hope for me too. I was assaulted by my ex I was married to for 20 years. My story isn't one I can tell. I don't want to remember it anymore but move on. Thank you again. God bless you.
i hear evry word you said. but i dont have any one in my family near me. and i am broken completly and i have now no reason to stay
I feel the same way and I'm going through a separation and I'm not doing well with it
I have no family and I'm all alone with my thoughts I stick close to the Bible but I feel so so lost
i watched till end. but i am still empty. with no hope.
You inspired me and cry 😢hard, I been married for 18 years and I’m the middle of divorce, I feel like I’m alone
And make mistake for getting
Divorce, punishing me I wish I have family that I can go to,
If you can fix it
Fix it
Ask God first.
Praise God- thank you so much.
I’m glad ur here and have found happiness within yourself.
Sounds like the EX was a horrible person?
I was just divorced by a dysfunction husband. Hopefully its a blessing in disguise.
I’m going through a divorce and this resonates with me. Thank you for sharing 🙏🏾
Sending you love and courage friend❤️
Can I ask how you are able to speak publicly about your ex? I am being threatened by my ex for slander if I speak about my experience.
I live in silence because of this my x husband left me because I got diagnosed with a chronic illness for someone else I am getting infusions and my kids are helping me I feel so bad for them they can’t even live there best life one of my children left and said she’s not a nurse so now I live without a daughter who I am devestated about I don’t know why I’m here and I think about me not being here every day
Amen 🙏.
If I would’ve gone through this broken marriage, I would’ve of known Jesus my Lord. His love heal all wounds 🙏❤️🥰
Thank you so much for your encouragement 🥹
It’s a really bad divorce situation. But God will walk you throughout the dark trails.
you were probably in a relationship with a covert narcissist. the constant hot and cold, silent treatment, mental and emotional abuse can drive anyone crazy. Nothing you do seems to work, you're always the one having to make changes until you have nothing left to give. Beware of the seemingly changes for the better. bread crumbs.. it becomes fewer and father in between and it doesn't last. it happened to me. 25 years before I realized what i was up against.
thank you for sharing your story. blessings.
You are amazing and beautiful inside and out.
Thank you Melissa!! Love and miss you.💗
Thank you thank you thank you praise God ...ppl need help don't ever be afraid to speak about God ppl might get mad but truth is we need the TRUTH
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hey dearly I'm a living testimony of a great Dr Daniel the relationship restorer only healer who fixed back my broken relationship after being separated for months. He can also help you too no matter how worst the case maybe Dr Daniel will put a smile on your face honey within 3days🚀🚀🚀
Whats@pp him now 🚀🚀🚀🚀
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Yes, Kandee Johnson is awesome.
Always happens to the nicest people😞 you will survive this!
I thought about taking all my pills today. I have a boatload. I can't kill myself though because I have 6 grandchildren.I already filed for divorce. He has been seeing someone else for years now.We are both 70 years old and this woman is at least 20 , maybe 30 years younger than me. Today I took huge steps backwards and ended up basically begging my husband to fix our marriage, Now he is going to think about it. My children will hate me is I go back with him. I have told everyone that the only way I could go back with him is for him to give his life completely over to God and that it would takes years of right iiving for him to prove he is changed. Now today, I acted like a fool and cried and cried in front of him and told him how suicidal I have been. It was a form of begging. Now he says he will think about it. Hope has been restored, but how foolish is that.? I really need God to take control and help me do what is right. I live in Texas and I think I need to go up to Minnesota to live with my son and grandchildren for a while. I don't want to fall back into the same pit with him, but I am so in love with him.
Are you ok Joan? Hope things are better for you xxx
How are things for you now?❤
Amazingly beautiful story. Is it okay if we share on our podcast?
Yes, feel free to share!!❤️