Thank you to everyone for the messages under this video. I have read them all and will continue to. It means a lot that this video has been so well-received and hopefully it helps someone going through something similar somewhere in the world. ❤❤❤ If you're struggling, start by reading the comments below this video - you'll probably find someone going/been through exactly the same thing. Start with admitting to someone, anyone, even if it's yourself, 'I'm not OK.'
This video really hit me hard. I was a struggling alcoholic and got sober two years ago. Doing triathlon helps but I've seen them lows. Thank you for everything you do....
@@jamescunnamaGTN we appreciate you helping to decrease the stigma around depression and suicide especially in men. Lost one of my mates at 25, I'd give everything to go back and re-read the warning signs. Message to everyone to reach out to those you love and appreciate and check in constantly.
Seriously James, this was one of the best videos GTN has ever made, and that’s saying something. As a 40 something who has struggled with health issues, mental health challenges, and being a father of 4 and a husband of 1, this video meant so much to me. Ever since you joined the GTN crew I thought you provided a needed perspective, especially for us old guys doing trying just to keep fitness and sanity in our training. This video confirms you were the perfect addition to an already awesome team, and so glad you are still moving forward in your journey and sharing with us some of that journey. So blessed by you, brother! ❤️🩹❤️✊🏻
Thank you for this raw and honest video. In this sport, we don’t talk enough about mental health, so I‘m so impressed by your openness. James you’re an incredible athlete, but what’s more is that your determination, dedication and empathy make you an exceptional person. Thank you for being part of this world and sharing your life with us.
Hi James your video has brought me to tears, Im Paul and have been struggling with ptsd and depression for a couple of years, i also experienced panic, agroaphobia and was scared to train out in the country far from my house. I recently completed IM 70.3 Weymouth to face my demons and raise money for MH. I am 48 and love the GTN vids and always enjoy GTN vids. Training has been my saviour but sometimes life just gets too much still and I break down. I wish you all the best mate, hold your family in your heart and soul you have achieved great things be proud. Id love the opportunity to one day meet you and the GTN crew maybe do a ride with you guys and share my full story.
@@jamescunnamaGTN Thanks James your kind words mean alot and much appreciated. I think without IM training I would be totally empty with no goals. I want to prove to people that no matter how dark things get we can push through it and achieve our goals with small wins. Seeing your story was so moving for me as i can relate. Maybe one day I will also help people with my story of what happend and how I dug deep to find the strength to fight through. The focus now is sub 6hrs 30mins at Weymouth 70.3 next year
I’ve never resonated with a RUclips video so much in all my life. Similar age, family and situation to James…with the same dark thoughts at times. So brave to put this out and admit, very inspiring. You’re a role model for many middle aged men James.
One of my best friends killed himself in July...he was 39 and from the outside also had nothing really to complain about. Did not stop him though. I have had those dark moments too, after the breakup of my relationship, just seing my kids half of the time now. Triathlon really has helped and gave me a goal and something to focus on. Got injured a few times too and had to take a break. I think that's the universe telling us to deal with our "demons" and not just ignore them. I hope you can find happyness again James. Suicide does not erase the pain. It just moves it to all the other people around you. Sending a big hug
Lost my best friend in January, sorry to hear about your loss. I know it was so difficult to exercise afterward, since we did all of these activities together. What you’re going through, you aren’t on your own here. You’re very accurate with the pain being spread around.. one thing I took from it is how important our friends are, which includes you, to the people around them.
@@Chasing-the-outdoors thank you for your kind words and condolences for your loss. You are very right with everything you said. That loss made me realize how important friendships and relationships are. Seeing the reactions to this video makes me happy because Triathlon really is an awesome community to be a part of :)
Respect. This is by far the best video from GTN in a long time for me. Not because others are bad, they are very good. It is because it resonates so much with me. Thank you man for sharing this.
Thank you for sharing this story James - and thanks to the GTN crew for the way the story was told. It was insightful to hear about how many things, all piling on top of each other took you where it did. Like many others in the comments, I can relate to that. For me, a highlight was hearing you say to your kids, "I ran 79 kilometres and didn't''t finish but it's OK - I had a great day" - spot on mate; spot on.
I have watched hundreds of GTN videos but this was the most powerful. Your honesty was brave and courageous. Kudos to you James for helping breaking down the barriers of men’s mental health. Forget the finish line, you showed you’re a winner. Thank you.
Thank you James for your honesty and openness on a very difficult topic. And thank you Belinda for the magnificent shots of the Lakes scenery - they help make this video a story of positivity and hope in dark places.
Thank you for making this video. It takes a very strong person to talk about the difficult stuff, and we just do not talk about mental health enough. It is really important, and really honest, to talk and to hear about the highs and also the lows. Stay strong, and thanks so much for sharing.
This was very special video. I'm a mother of two, business owner and a triathlete. I'm a woman, but still relate and understand exactly how you feel... Its so easy to loose yourself, especially when the children are young, daily tasks are longer than your shopping list and you also have a marriage that needs to be cared for otherwise it dies slowly. Doesn't matter whether you are a woman or a man - life can be overwhelming and looking at a "quick exit" might be so tempting at times. And yes, sport and having a goal can be life saving, but you need to have people around you who can support you and make it possible. Without it it's even more frustrating. Because you know what you need but you can't have it. Thank you for sharing your story and talking about mental health issues and what's more important, how to deal with them.
Probably the best GTN video for a while, speaking truth to everything that we all experience. The fact you didn’t finish is okay, you got out there and gave it your best crack. I’m sure we all know those struggles for sure and that adjustment to “normal” life is so hard
I've never commented on a RUclips video before. Thank you James for the best GTN video ever. Like far too many, our family has unfortunately been greatly affected by mental health and suicide. Incidentally, I wasn't aware until this video that your wife is Jodie Swallow. I raced against Jodie at Ironman Kalmar 2013. That's rather stretching my description of racing! Jodie won. I came 1,514th overall. I remember Jodie well, because when she spoke after winning, she was so nice, humble and made those of us that finished at the back of the field still feel really special. I wish you and your family all the best. Lance.
Well done James and thank you for sharing your story! Life is like an Ironman, you just have to dig deep and trust the process. I wish you all the best 🙏
Thank you so much for this film. I certainly resonate with it. I’ve had a shit year with illness and injury and feel like I’ve lost my identity. I’ve had some very dark times too, and thoughts that I’ve never had before. This is inspiring, stay strong 💪🏻
Can relate. Im onto my 16th stress fracture. I've had a lot of success in the sport but it has broken my heart over and over and over again. Sometimes I just want the physical and mental paim to just end. I question why I keep contuining on, but nothing gives me greater purpose in life than endurance sport. It helps me to feel proud of myself. Without it, i feel worthless, hopeless, weak. But we will always heal mentally and physically. Just need to keep moving forward ❤
Wow, that took a lot of guts to deliver. Very proud of your honesty and putting yourself out there. As others have said, this is probably the best GTN video I have seen. “RUOK ?” Is extremely important for all, especially blokes. Congrats.
Man, this was an unexpected video! As many others have said, mental health is so under diagnosed and under appreciated in modern life and it really shouldn't be (your quote about suicide being the biggest killer in men under 50 completely underlines that). As someone who had dark thoughts going through a divorce (with 2x young children at the time..) I can relate to some of the despair you might have felt. I also completely understand your happy place - it's also my happy place - albeit on a mountain bike 🙂 I am 55 and as I continue to fight old age, slower Parkrun times and slower bike times, I console myself that I am still able to get out at all. So many people are shut at home and cannot move, either because of a physical problem or a mental one. If I could say one thing, it would be to look for easier challanges to start with and slowly progress. Not completing a challenge could mentally put you back a few steps. See you on the next start line, possibly at one of the superb Lakeland Trail events - and live life to the full!
This is the best video I’ve seen on the GTN channel, and I need to say, that all the content published there is excellent. It's deep, sincere, and forces you to reflect on yourself. I also found a part of this story with which I fully identify. 42 years old, father of one princess, divorced. And yes...we keep moving forward... All the best for all of you.
Hey James, took me a while to watch this video as I thought it was purely an ultra challenge - I'd have liked to see this in 2 videos but I can understand reasons it's not, and I recognised the metaphors. 100% in support of this content on the GTN channel. I can imagine the journey of needing, asking, admitting was very hard, even alien, so huge admiration for being able to get to a point where you can make a video like this. Well done for picking back up with the training/health/happiness and good luck with future attempts 😊
James - what a video - not what I was expecting from the thumbnail but incredibly moving and brave to put it out there. I am sure that this will help many viewers.
It’s difficult to find the words to describe how grateful I am for GTN and especially this video. I’ve had some very dark times these last few years to the point where I was sat in the floor at home calling the mental health professionals to explain that I’d had thoughts of suicide. Having this channel to turn to in my most lonely times and pick me up and give me focus and remind me to enjoy life and that we have the great outdoors and the sporting family is mega. Thankyou James and team.
Hey James - thanks for the very honest video - I hope it was cathartic to make. 79km is stil pretty awesome, and some challenges are not meant to be overcome at the time; and can often be more rewarding in hingsight. When things are crappy try to remember "this too shall pass". All the very best. wt.
Me: oh, I'll just watch a chill little video with lunch. Didn't realise I'll be crying during this lunchbreak. James, I'm glad you're feeling better, keep taking good care of yourself, this is so important. It's incredibly brave to share your story publicly, but worth it, as I'm sure many people in a similar position look up to you and will feel less alone watching this. A video that might literally save lives 🩷
We all have have capacity to feel happy and sad... and depressed... regardless of how good or bad our lives are in general. You can't invalidate what someone is going through simply because "they have a good life". Know that we love you, James (in the weird way fans love people), and wish you all the best. It takes a lot of courage to come out and talk about something like this. It takes a lot of courage and effort to take action to work through it. Thank you for sharing. Keep it up
Huge respect James, this no doubt has resonated with so many people and fundamentally provides a clear picture of why so many us choose to exercise in whatever capacity.
Well done, mate. Life is fucking tough sometimes despite how things look on the outside. Keep talking about how you feel, keep loving those gorgeous kids of yours, and keep active. Your story is so similar to mine and I’m sure many others. Thanks for sharing it! 🙏
Probably the best GTN video ever, period. Why? It deals with the darker, less glamours aspect of middle aged athletes. Often overlooked; but most certainty present. Respect to James for sharing his feelings with the viewers 👏 👏 👏
It matters not a jot that you didn't complete the challenge this time. What matters is that you gave it a serious shot. That's inspiring all by itself. Best wishes from Switzerland.
Incredibly brave admissions to share, which I'm sure you and Jodie wrestled with putting out there. As comments testify, this has inevitably helped many people, many of whom won't have commented but will have taken aspiration
This is a fantastic Video mate! The other side to running and walking we all pretty much go through if we are honest the battle in your head is sometimes much worse than the run or sometimes the reason we run. Loved your open and frank account of you and where you have been. What I particularly liked was how the kids were bought in and how open you were (at the appropriate level) with them and how you showed them how it’s ok to ‘fail’ or not finish a race - just try again another day but it’s ok. You have taught me a lot and you are teaching your kids valuable life lessons too! I applaud you mate 👏👏
Great video James and well done for putting yourself out there as society needs more open discussion relating to mens mental health. It is very easy for somebody to lose any purpose in life and without "purpose" you are just marking time and there is really no perceivable point to life. I have documented my personal struggle via blogs during my bike tours and triathlons for decades and have said publicly that one day, I will go by the "way of the elephant" and that is to ride off into the wilderness for my final ride and end my life quietly where I won't bother anyone and where I won't be found. I have accepted that reality and actively speak to other troubled souls and more importantly their friends and families about why it is our minds sometimes operate in an altered reality where checking out seems the best option. Hearing the struggle from someone who is living it helps and I'll continue to do share my experiences until my time comes and that time is approaching. All the best to you and your family and keep talking openly as you will do so much good for those who don't have the courage to.
Powerful video, James, and that's nothing to do with the ultra. Know that countless men have been where you've been - me included - and this video will help everyone who sees it to know they're not the only one and that there is another way out.
James, what you have done by telling your story is nothing short of incredible. As a 58 year old father of 2 (now grown) women and also married for 30 years, to say that I can relate is an understatement. I finally started dragging myself back into shape 10 years ago and am doing my first full Ironman in a week. Thank you for having the guts to open up and tell the raw, dark, painful story that so many of us men go through. Usually in silence. You have cracked the door open to let the light in and make others aware of what so many men deal with. Thank you from another James in California. BTW, I use Humango and love it!
So much emotion into a single video...Thank you James for the sharing, hope it will help others to talk and realise that sometime you may find some light, even when you think you are tied to darkness. 🥺 Even a DNF cann bring internal peace, as long as you find your own peace.
I takes a lot of courage to speak openly about the downs. I admire you James not only for your career as a triathlete or your job as presenter on GTN, but as a person as well. Wishing you all the best,m this is definitively one of the best videos GTN ever made, showing how life can hit somebody hard. Continue the tremendous work.
Maybe one of the best GTN videos. As someone who suffers from depression. Triathlon was definitely my savior years ago. Still get the bad times every now and then. Just keep moving forward and setting them goals and it always gets better
Hit a cord as I lost my Dad, 11 years ago now ... I can't say I understand what people go through, I certainly know how helpless one can feel seeing a loved one struggling. Superb video!
Thank you James, I need to exercise everyday to keep smiling. Some family don't realise how important it is for my own mental health. Keep up the fight ❤
This is why I love the outdoors and exercise so much. The absolutely best way to overcome your inner ghosts is to release them as far away from your front door as possible so that they never find their way back. Thank you for your honesty.
James, I've seen GTN videos for quite a while now, and I have to admit I didn't think of you as someone who would struggle with this kind of problems, I suppose I've always looked up to pro triatheltes myself as people that are thougher, stronger than ordinary people, I still think they are.... I think that's why i got into triathlon as well, I wanted to be just like them... like all you people in GTN, I honestly felt bad to see you admit you thought about ending it all and I think we all are at risk of feeling like that at some point in our lives. Having said all this, I am really really happy you have overcome this and are ok now, however, you still seem to have something left in there but I'm sure you'll figure it out. Please take this comment as a token of my admiration to you for being able to admit and overcome this in your life. I really like everyone in GTN and i think you are an important piece of the puzzle in GTN's formula of success. Sincerely from Mexico...
In the midst myself of a very real and almost measurable low spot. Equally surprised at how blessed my extraordinarily wonderful life somehow manages to put the same kind of weight on me that you expressed feeling. I have absolutely nothing, seemingly, to be “sad” about. And I am endlessly thankful for all the value in my life. Yet here I am, struggling to get up the smallest of maintains, ones I have historically climbed with vigor and talent. I was not expecting this from a character like you - someone oozing positivity, balance and humor. But thats the point, isn’t it? That the outside isn’t always the showpiece for what’s actually occurring inside. This helps. Helps me. Helps others. It’s human and healthy and beautiful, just like so many legs of our crazy athletic pursuits. A million thanks for making the trail not feel as lonely as it seems. Much love!
I hate to admit ‘out loud’ that this video was a hard watch for me. I needed a long look in the mirror and some fresh air…Perfect time for a run. Stay strong James, we’re right with you 💪
Hi James, it can be so difficult to open up to your loved ones, especially when they are going through the same thing. Thank you for sharing. I had same experience when leaving the Military. I found your channel then it Give me that drive to get back out there and I attempt my first Ironman this year which much like yourself didn’t go to plan. But back on it Keep Smiling
I love this ❤❤❤ As a woman in my mid 40s trying to regain my strength and fitness... Life is hard. May sport in any capacity be our cure. It's the journey that matters. Thanks for the video; I'm glad you're ok!
Thank you for this James, I think so many can relate and also it is important to tell stories with wider context, the reality of ups and downs and that it isn’t always the fairly tail but that doesn’t define it - maybe that is the trail running thing that it is always a journey and not about times or results- and getting to start lines can be as hard as getting to finish lines. I think your story is not unusual and we wish you well and am sure others are grateful for your honesty. ❤
Thank you guys for sharing so much in recent videos, it really adds another dimension to GCN. Everything James talks about resonates hugely. It is some weird paradox, and one few people can understand, that people, specifcally men with "amazing lives" can deep down be so depressed and not show a glimmer to the outside world. However talking about it and raising awareness is really positives... also its was suprisingly effective marketting as I just signed up to humango! Hope you are in a good place James!
James, that was such a great video. I really appreciated it because like many others, I'm struggling with depression even if I've a lot of things to be happy. That was very courageous from you to be so opened on your situation. Congratulations 👏
You’re loved, respected, needed and wanted James - by more people than you know. Thanks for sharing your story and thanks for taking care of yourself. It’s okay not to be okay. And it’s okay to seek help when you need it.
Dear James. Thank you. It takes a lot of courage to open up about these kinds of issues, and for way too many men they simply lose that battle. It is really encouraging that your fitness goals are so intertwined with your mental health. Since Covid lockdowns I went from being gym member that barely ever actually went to recently coming 4th in a local marathon and aiming for my first Ironman next year. If I didn't focus on my physical health my mental health would have also deteriorated beyond repair. I always enjoyed watching GTN and it is good to know you guys are also human. Good luck to you and your beautiful family, you're going to smash the next one and the ones after that. Cheers, Chris.
Didnt expect this! But im glad i did. Despite weeping throuhout. Thank you James and gtn for this very important and honest video that so profoundly resonates with me and others. though i havent experienced tgis myself, ive had/have my family members in this state and my dad left with suicide. Triathlon and gtn/gcn has helped me to build me up after this and helps me to manage the eternal guilt of not have done enough.
Thank you James. Your touching film brought back a lot of not so great memories from the darkest point in my life, but I am so thankful and grateful to be alive today. Anyone reading this, if things feel dark and lonely and like there is nowhere to go, please pickup the phone and call a loved one or even a mental health charity. Someone from CALM saved my life and I will be forever grateful for their support in that moment.
Beautifully done. Obviously have never crossed paths with you but your openness makes you very relatable. I’m an Army Physical Therapist, currently deployed and have travelled through some deep spots myself. We are all fighting battles that you can’t see from the outside - thank you for making that point so eloquently in your video! Peace!
Thank you for sharing. It must have been a difficult video to make. I've gone through similar mental health issues and similarly found running long distances pulling me out of the darkest place. The idea of feeling guilty of feeling so bad despite living a very privileged life compared to the massive amount of suffering in the world is difficult to overcome. I went to hug my kids after watching this. Also, James, many of the videos on GTN, many of which you have been part of making, have been a big part of me starting regular running as a mental health cure. Thank you!
Hi James, i am 59 and your vidoe on mental health rekindled my own struggles. I am half the man i used to be and trying to be a triathlete at this age is a challenge. You inspired me in your admission and to make me carry on doing what i can daily and live one day at a time. I wish and pray you the very best James and may God bless you and your family!
strong effort James, think all of us 40 somethings can relate to this. Takes a big man to admit it and an even bigger one to do it in front of a audience like GTN.. Keep it up if you can help just one person with this video then its a mega success..
Thank you for sharing James! Like you, I had two kids during the pandemic, my wife got postpartum depression, a friend died, my father died, my grandma died, and when I thought life was getting in the right place I lost myself! It is good to tell that after a year I’m rediscovering myself! I’m not 100% but life is never 100%! Keep going man! Lots of strength to you and your family
Good one James.
thank you very much for the support! ❤️
Look for 50 . Best times😂🎉😢😂 ...it is best Time. Welcome
60 is just extention your best Time 50 + 10=60 🐕☝️🙏🇪🇺🇫🇮
Thank you to everyone for the messages under this video. I have read them all and will continue to. It means a lot that this video has been so well-received and hopefully it helps someone going through something similar somewhere in the world. ❤❤❤
If you're struggling, start by reading the comments below this video - you'll probably find someone going/been through exactly the same thing. Start with admitting to someone, anyone, even if it's yourself, 'I'm not OK.'
This video really hit me hard. I was a struggling alcoholic and got sober two years ago. Doing triathlon helps but I've seen them lows. Thank you for everything you do....
Big love James ❤
One of the toughest and inspiring videos to get through.
I hope it’s helped you as much as so many others.
Really glad to see you’re on the up.
@@jamescunnamaGTN we appreciate you helping to decrease the stigma around depression and suicide especially in men. Lost one of my mates at 25, I'd give everything to go back and re-read the warning signs. Message to everyone to reach out to those you love and appreciate and check in constantly.
@@clay8717congratulations on your sobriety. I am 6 yrs sober and found triathlons to be my saving grace 🙏🏼
This video was well needed for myself, and I bet thousands of others.
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I'll be happy if it helps even one person. Thanks for watching.
@@AndreasBergman count me in.
@@jamescunnamaGTNit helped me.
Takes a strong person to admit the thoughts and feelings you had, especially on a popular channel with a large audience.
Stay Strong James.
Seriously James, this was one of the best videos GTN has ever made, and that’s saying something. As a 40 something who has struggled with health issues, mental health challenges, and being a father of 4 and a husband of 1, this video meant so much to me. Ever since you joined the GTN crew I thought you provided a needed perspective, especially for us old guys doing trying just to keep fitness and sanity in our training. This video confirms you were the perfect addition to an already awesome team, and so glad you are still moving forward in your journey and sharing with us some of that journey. So blessed by you, brother! ❤️🩹❤️✊🏻
Thank you for this raw and honest video. In this sport, we don’t talk enough about mental health, so I‘m so impressed by your openness.
James you’re an incredible athlete, but what’s more is that your determination, dedication and empathy make you an exceptional person. Thank you for being part of this world and sharing your life with us.
Thank you, James and GTN crew. This was brave, honest, real and relatable.
Thanks for the comment!
GTN / play sports Thank you for sticking by James and making this film
Hi James your video has brought me to tears, Im Paul and have been struggling with ptsd and depression for a couple of years, i also experienced panic, agroaphobia and was scared to train out in the country far from my house. I recently completed IM 70.3 Weymouth to face my demons and raise money for MH.
I am 48 and love the GTN vids and always enjoy GTN vids.
Training has been my saviour but sometimes life just gets too much still and I break down.
I wish you all the best mate, hold your family in your heart and soul you have achieved great things be proud.
Id love the opportunity to one day meet you and the GTN crew maybe do a ride with you guys and share my full story.
Hang in there Paul, and reach out to someone in the tough times. I hope we get to do that ride together sometime!
@@jamescunnamaGTN Thanks James your kind words mean alot and much appreciated. I think without IM training I would be totally empty with no goals.
I want to prove to people that no matter how dark things get we can push through it and achieve our goals with small wins.
Seeing your story was so moving for me as i can relate.
Maybe one day I will also help people with my story of what happend and how I dug deep to find the strength to fight through.
The focus now is sub 6hrs 30mins at Weymouth 70.3 next year
I’ve never resonated with a RUclips video so much in all my life.
Similar age, family and situation to James…with the same dark thoughts at times.
So brave to put this out and admit, very inspiring.
You’re a role model for many middle aged men James.
Powerful video that. To show such vulnerability is true strength. Thank you James ❤
That took some balls to make that video and share your very personal feelings and personal life with the world, but thank you. ❤
One of my best friends killed himself in July...he was 39 and from the outside also had nothing really to complain about. Did not stop him though. I have had those dark moments too, after the breakup of my relationship, just seing my kids half of the time now. Triathlon really has helped and gave me a goal and something to focus on. Got injured a few times too and had to take a break. I think that's the universe telling us to deal with our "demons" and not just ignore them. I hope you can find happyness again James. Suicide does not erase the pain. It just moves it to all the other people around you. Sending a big hug
Hang in there and keep fighting the good fight! I feel your pain…been there myself.
@@Triathletforlife
Lost my best friend in January, sorry to hear about your loss. I know it was so difficult to exercise afterward, since we did all of these activities together. What you’re going through, you aren’t on your own here. You’re very accurate with the pain being spread around.. one thing I took from it is how important our friends are, which includes you, to the people around them.
@@Chasing-the-outdoors thank you for your kind words and condolences for your loss. You are very right with everything you said. That loss made me realize how important friendships and relationships are. Seeing the reactions to this video makes me happy because Triathlon really is an awesome community to be a part of :)
Respect. This is by far the best video from GTN in a long time for me. Not because others are bad, they are very good. It is because it resonates so much with me. Thank you man for sharing this.
F… that was hard core. Thanks for being so honest. Stay fit in every way. Family is the answer
So many thoughts watching this video. It can all be summed to with a simple "Thank you." This was beautiful, truthful, and real.
Thanks!Great video James, really glad you are doing okay. I've been there and I have done the journey back. Well done for talking about it, keep going
Thank you for your comment and for the support on behalf of the GTN team!
Thank you for sharing this story James - and thanks to the GTN crew for the way the story was told. It was insightful to hear about how many things, all piling on top of each other took you where it did. Like many others in the comments, I can relate to that. For me, a highlight was hearing you say to your kids, "I ran 79 kilometres and didn't''t finish but it's OK - I had a great day" - spot on mate; spot on.
I have watched hundreds of GTN videos but this was the most powerful. Your honesty was brave and courageous. Kudos to you James for helping breaking down the barriers of men’s mental health. Forget the finish line, you showed you’re a winner. Thank you.
Thanks!
Thank you very much for your support
Thank you James for your honesty and openness on a very difficult topic.
And thank you Belinda for the magnificent shots of the Lakes scenery - they help make this video a story of positivity and hope in dark places.
Thank you so much☺️
Thank you for making this video. It takes a very strong person to talk about the difficult stuff, and we just do not talk about mental health enough. It is really important, and really honest, to talk and to hear about the highs and also the lows. Stay strong, and thanks so much for sharing.
This was very special video. I'm a mother of two, business owner and a triathlete. I'm a woman, but still relate and understand exactly how you feel... Its so easy to loose yourself, especially when the children are young, daily tasks are longer than your shopping list and you also have a marriage that needs to be cared for otherwise it dies slowly. Doesn't matter whether you are a woman or a man - life can be overwhelming and looking at a "quick exit" might be so tempting at times. And yes, sport and having a goal can be life saving, but you need to have people around you who can support you and make it possible. Without it it's even more frustrating. Because you know what you need but you can't have it. Thank you for sharing your story and talking about mental health issues and what's more important, how to deal with them.
legendary words James, thankyou for the video
Probably the best GTN video for a while, speaking truth to everything that we all experience. The fact you didn’t finish is okay, you got out there and gave it your best crack. I’m sure we all know those struggles for sure and that adjustment to “normal” life is so hard
I've never commented on a RUclips video before.
Thank you James for the best GTN video ever.
Like far too many, our family has unfortunately been greatly affected by mental health and suicide.
Incidentally, I wasn't aware until this video that your wife is Jodie Swallow.
I raced against Jodie at Ironman Kalmar 2013.
That's rather stretching my description of racing! Jodie won. I came 1,514th overall.
I remember Jodie well, because when she spoke after winning, she was so nice, humble and made those of us that finished at the back of the field still feel really special.
I wish you and your family all the best.
Lance.
Well done James and thank you for sharing your story! Life is like an Ironman, you just have to dig deep and trust the process. I wish you all the best 🙏
Thanks James for sharing this part of your story. An ironman with a tender heart.
Thank you so much for this film. I certainly resonate with it. I’ve had a shit year with illness and injury and feel like I’ve lost my identity. I’ve had some very dark times too, and thoughts that I’ve never had before. This is inspiring, stay strong 💪🏻
Thank you, James. And thank you GTN for all your inspirational videos 👏
Glad you like them! And thank you for the support!
Can relate. Im onto my 16th stress fracture. I've had a lot of success in the sport but it has broken my heart over and over and over again. Sometimes I just want the physical and mental paim to just end. I question why I keep contuining on, but nothing gives me greater purpose in life than endurance sport. It helps me to feel proud of myself. Without it, i feel worthless, hopeless, weak. But we will always heal mentally and physically. Just need to keep moving forward ❤
Ex athlete at 36 and this hits home. Good on ya mate - no other words.
Heroic to share all of this!
Wow, that took a lot of guts to deliver. Very proud of your honesty and putting yourself out there. As others have said, this is probably the best GTN video I have seen. “RUOK ?” Is extremely important for all, especially blokes. Congrats.
Man, this was an unexpected video! As many others have said, mental health is so under diagnosed and under appreciated in modern life and it really shouldn't be (your quote about suicide being the biggest killer in men under 50 completely underlines that).
As someone who had dark thoughts going through a divorce (with 2x young children at the time..) I can relate to some of the despair you might have felt. I also completely understand your happy place - it's also my happy place - albeit on a mountain bike 🙂
I am 55 and as I continue to fight old age, slower Parkrun times and slower bike times, I console myself that I am still able to get out at all. So many people are shut at home and cannot move, either because of a physical problem or a mental one. If I could say one thing, it would be to look for easier challanges to start with and slowly progress. Not completing a challenge could mentally put you back a few steps.
See you on the next start line, possibly at one of the superb Lakeland Trail events - and live life to the full!
This is the best video I’ve seen on the GTN channel, and I need to say, that all the content published there is excellent. It's deep, sincere, and forces you to reflect on yourself. I also found a part of this story with which I fully identify. 42 years old, father of one princess, divorced. And yes...we keep moving forward... All the best for all of you.
Great video, thank you James for you honesty, it means so much. Your daughter giving you a cuddle, the cutest.
So absolutely much love for James ❤❤❤
Well done James, when I don't finish my severely disabled son always tells me "you did try".
Hey James, took me a while to watch this video as I thought it was purely an ultra challenge - I'd have liked to see this in 2 videos but I can understand reasons it's not, and I recognised the metaphors. 100% in support of this content on the GTN channel.
I can imagine the journey of needing, asking, admitting was very hard, even alien, so huge admiration for being able to get to a point where you can make a video like this. Well done for picking back up with the training/health/happiness and good luck with future attempts 😊
Thanks james… seems so many of us are in the same boat after reading some of the comments ❤❤
Thanks James! This is an important message that will resonate with many endurance athletes. It meant a lot to me, appreciate the honesty and courage!
Extremely powerful video James. Thank you for sharing.
James - what a video - not what I was expecting from the thumbnail but incredibly moving and brave to put it out there. I am sure that this will help many viewers.
Glad you're taking the steps you need to get yourself back.
I get more inspiration seeing things go awry because it makes us all know we're human 😊
It’s difficult to find the words to describe how grateful I am for GTN and especially this video.
I’ve had some very dark times these last few years to the point where I was sat in the floor at home calling the mental health professionals to explain that I’d had thoughts of suicide.
Having this channel to turn to in my most lonely times and pick me up and give me focus and remind me to enjoy life and that we have the great outdoors and the sporting family is mega. Thankyou James and team.
Hey James - thanks for the very honest video - I hope it was cathartic to make. 79km is stil pretty awesome, and some challenges are not meant to be overcome at the time; and can often be more rewarding in hingsight. When things are crappy try to remember "this too shall pass". All the very best. wt.
Amazing video. Respect James
Me: oh, I'll just watch a chill little video with lunch.
Didn't realise I'll be crying during this lunchbreak. James, I'm glad you're feeling better, keep taking good care of yourself, this is so important.
It's incredibly brave to share your story publicly, but worth it, as I'm sure many people in a similar position look up to you and will feel less alone watching this. A video that might literally save lives 🩷
Thank you so much for this comment! I’m glad you enjoyed it☺️
We all have have capacity to feel happy and sad... and depressed... regardless of how good or bad our lives are in general. You can't invalidate what someone is going through simply because "they have a good life".
Know that we love you, James (in the weird way fans love people), and wish you all the best. It takes a lot of courage to come out and talk about something like this. It takes a lot of courage and effort to take action to work through it.
Thank you for sharing. Keep it up
5 mins in and already hooked! Thank you for the honesty.
Huge respect James, this no doubt has resonated with so many people and fundamentally provides a clear picture of why so many us choose to exercise in whatever capacity.
Thanks for sharing your deeply personal journey James. I hope you don't mind,but if I see you in Kona, you're probably going to get a hug.
Well done, mate. Life is fucking tough sometimes despite how things look on the outside. Keep talking about how you feel, keep loving those gorgeous kids of yours, and keep active. Your story is so similar to mine and I’m sure many others. Thanks for sharing it! 🙏
Thank you for your bravery, strength, and vulnerability in sharing. Your words and actions are appreciated.
So brave and honest, great video James - prioritise your happy xx
Probably the best GTN video ever, period. Why? It deals with the darker, less glamours aspect of middle aged athletes. Often overlooked; but most certainty present. Respect to James for sharing his feelings with the viewers 👏 👏 👏
It matters not a jot that you didn't complete the challenge this time. What matters is that you gave it a serious shot. That's inspiring all by itself. Best wishes from Switzerland.
Best episode of GTN ever. Thank You James.
Incredibly brave admissions to share, which I'm sure you and Jodie wrestled with putting out there. As comments testify, this has inevitably helped many people, many of whom won't have commented but will have taken aspiration
This is a fantastic Video mate! The other side to running and walking we all pretty much go through if we are honest the battle in your head is sometimes much worse than the run or sometimes the reason we run. Loved your open and frank account of you and where you have been. What I particularly liked was how the kids were bought in and how open you were (at the appropriate level) with them and how you showed them how it’s ok to ‘fail’ or not finish a race - just try again another day but it’s ok. You have taught me a lot and you are teaching your kids valuable life lessons too! I applaud you mate 👏👏
Great video James and well done for putting yourself out there as society needs more open discussion relating to mens mental health. It is very easy for somebody to lose any purpose in life and without "purpose" you are just marking time and there is really no perceivable point to life.
I have documented my personal struggle via blogs during my bike tours and triathlons for decades and have said publicly that one day, I will go by the "way of the elephant" and that is to ride off into the wilderness for my final ride and end my life quietly where I won't bother anyone and where I won't be found. I have accepted that reality and actively speak to other troubled souls and more importantly their friends and families about why it is our minds sometimes operate in an altered reality where checking out seems the best option. Hearing the struggle from someone who is living it helps and I'll continue to do share my experiences until my time comes and that time is approaching.
All the best to you and your family and keep talking openly as you will do so much good for those who don't have the courage to.
Thank you James and GTN for making this video!
Thank you for the support!
Powerful video, James, and that's nothing to do with the ultra. Know that countless men have been where you've been - me included - and this video will help everyone who sees it to know they're not the only one and that there is another way out.
James, what you have done by telling your story is nothing short of incredible. As a 58 year old father of 2 (now grown) women and also married for 30 years, to say that I can relate is an understatement. I finally started dragging myself back into shape 10 years ago and am doing my first full Ironman in a week. Thank you for having the guts to open up and tell the raw, dark, painful story that so many of us men go through. Usually in silence. You have cracked the door open to let the light in and make others aware of what so many men deal with. Thank you from another James in California. BTW, I use Humango and love it!
So much emotion into a single video...Thank you James for the sharing, hope it will help others to talk and realise that sometime you may find some light, even when you think you are tied to darkness. 🥺
Even a DNF cann bring internal peace, as long as you find your own peace.
I takes a lot of courage to speak openly about the downs. I admire you James not only for your career as a triathlete or your job as presenter on GTN, but as a person as well.
Wishing you all the best,m this is definitively one of the best videos GTN ever made, showing how life can hit somebody hard.
Continue the tremendous work.
Maybe one of the best GTN videos. As someone who suffers from depression. Triathlon was definitely my savior years ago. Still get the bad times every now and then. Just keep moving forward and setting them goals and it always gets better
Hit a cord as I lost my Dad, 11 years ago now ... I can't say I understand what people go through, I certainly know how helpless one can feel seeing a loved one struggling.
Superb video!
Thank you James, I need to exercise everyday to keep smiling. Some family don't realise how important it is for my own mental health. Keep up the fight ❤
Sharing the pics/videos with the kiddos is my favorite part of racing. You rock, James! Thank you for everything you do!
This is why I love the outdoors and exercise so much. The absolutely best way to overcome your inner ghosts is to release them as far away from your front door as possible so that they never find their way back. Thank you for your honesty.
James, I've seen GTN videos for quite a while now, and I have to admit I didn't think of you as someone who would struggle with this kind of problems, I suppose I've always looked up to pro triatheltes myself as people that are thougher, stronger than ordinary people, I still think they are.... I think that's why i got into triathlon as well, I wanted to be just like them... like all you people in GTN, I honestly felt bad to see you admit you thought about ending it all and I think we all are at risk of feeling like that at some point in our lives. Having said all this, I am really really happy you have overcome this and are ok now, however, you still seem to have something left in there but I'm sure you'll figure it out. Please take this comment as a token of my admiration to you for being able to admit and overcome this in your life. I really like everyone in GTN and i think you are an important piece of the puzzle in GTN's formula of success.
Sincerely from Mexico...
In the midst myself of a very real and almost measurable low spot. Equally surprised at how blessed my extraordinarily wonderful life somehow manages to put the same kind of weight on me that you expressed feeling. I have absolutely nothing, seemingly, to be “sad” about. And I am endlessly thankful for all the value in my life. Yet here I am, struggling to get up the smallest of maintains, ones I have historically climbed with vigor and talent.
I was not expecting this from a character like you - someone oozing positivity, balance and humor. But thats the point, isn’t it? That the outside isn’t always the showpiece for what’s actually occurring inside.
This helps. Helps me. Helps others. It’s human and healthy and beautiful, just like so many legs of our crazy athletic pursuits.
A million thanks for making the trail not feel as lonely as it seems.
Much love!
I hate to admit ‘out loud’ that this video was a hard watch for me. I needed a long look in the mirror and some fresh air…Perfect time for a run. Stay strong James, we’re right with you 💪
☝️ p.s. 38yo male with an outwardly ‘perfect’ life. Keep talking to your circle guys
The Super Strong Material ... and the very needed one :) Hugs from Poland :)
Strong Message. Thank u for that!
Hi James, it can be so difficult to open up to your loved ones, especially when they are going through the same thing.
Thank you for sharing.
I had same experience when leaving the Military. I found your channel then it Give me that drive to get back out there and I attempt my first Ironman this year which much like yourself didn’t go to plan. But back on it
Keep Smiling
Little tear in my eye watching this. Same struggles, same age, similar scenario. Be strong, look for help (its there) and accept your situation.
I love this ❤❤❤ As a woman in my mid 40s trying to regain my strength and fitness... Life is hard. May sport in any capacity be our cure. It's the journey that matters. Thanks for the video; I'm glad you're ok!
I absolutely loved watching this.
Especially as I love running, my mum is South African, I’m a twin, I have 3 kids, and my wife is a therapist!
Thank you for this James, I think so many can relate and also it is important to tell stories with wider context, the reality of ups and downs and that it isn’t always the fairly tail but that doesn’t define it - maybe that is the trail running thing that it is always a journey and not about times or results- and getting to start lines can be as hard as getting to finish lines. I think your story is not unusual and we wish you well and am sure others are grateful for your honesty. ❤
Thank you guys for sharing so much in recent videos, it really adds another dimension to GCN. Everything James talks about resonates hugely. It is some weird paradox, and one few people can understand, that people, specifcally men with "amazing lives" can deep down be so depressed and not show a glimmer to the outside world. However talking about it and raising awareness is really positives... also its was suprisingly effective marketting as I just signed up to humango! Hope you are in a good place James!
James, that was such a great video. I really appreciated it because like many others, I'm struggling with depression even if I've a lot of things to be happy.
That was very courageous from you to be so opened on your situation. Congratulations 👏
You are braver and bolder than you know. ❤
such a powerful (VUNERABLE!) recording! ... i now follow you & Jodie on IG!
Thank you so much for this video James! This is so honest to be open about your mental health that way and so needed as well!
You’re loved, respected, needed and wanted James - by more people than you know. Thanks for sharing your story and thanks for taking care of yourself. It’s okay not to be okay. And it’s okay to seek help when you need it.
Dear James. Thank you. It takes a lot of courage to open up about these kinds of issues, and for way too many men they simply lose that battle. It is really encouraging that your fitness goals are so intertwined with your mental health. Since Covid lockdowns I went from being gym member that barely ever actually went to recently coming 4th in a local marathon and aiming for my first Ironman next year. If I didn't focus on my physical health my mental health would have also deteriorated beyond repair. I always enjoyed watching GTN and it is good to know you guys are also human. Good luck to you and your beautiful family, you're going to smash the next one and the ones after that. Cheers, Chris.
Didnt expect this! But im glad i did. Despite weeping throuhout. Thank you James and gtn for this very important and honest video that so profoundly resonates with me and others. though i havent experienced tgis myself, ive had/have my family members in this state and my dad left with suicide. Triathlon and gtn/gcn has helped me to build me up after this and helps me to manage the eternal guilt of not have done enough.
Thank you for having the courage to make this video, James. I think it will mean a lot to more people than you think.
Amazing James. This will help more people than you may realise.
Thank you James. Your touching film brought back a lot of not so great memories from the darkest point in my life, but I am so thankful and grateful to be alive today.
Anyone reading this, if things feel dark and lonely and like there is nowhere to go, please pickup the phone and call a loved one or even a mental health charity. Someone from CALM saved my life and I will be forever grateful for their support in that moment.
Well done James 🙏 Enormous respect for sharing, takes a lot of courage 💪🙌 onwards & upwards 🚀
Beautifully done. Obviously have never crossed paths with you but your openness makes you very relatable. I’m an Army Physical Therapist, currently deployed and have travelled through some deep spots myself. We are all fighting battles that you can’t see from the outside - thank you for making that point so eloquently in your video! Peace!
Thank you for sharing. It must have been a difficult video to make.
I've gone through similar mental health issues and similarly found running long distances pulling me out of the darkest place.
The idea of feeling guilty of feeling so bad despite living a very privileged life compared to the massive amount of suffering in the world is difficult to overcome.
I went to hug my kids after watching this.
Also, James, many of the videos on GTN, many of which you have been part of making, have been a big part of me starting regular running as a mental health cure. Thank you!
Hi James, i am 59 and your vidoe on mental health rekindled my own struggles. I am half the man i used to be and trying to be a triathlete at this age is a challenge. You inspired me in your admission and to make me carry on doing what i can daily and live one day at a time. I wish and pray you the very best James and may God bless you and your family!
strong effort James, think all of us 40 somethings can relate to this. Takes a big man to admit it and an even bigger one to do it in front of a audience like GTN.. Keep it up if you can help just one person with this video then its a mega success..
Thank you, James. Muchas gracias por el video.
Lovely video. Been watching the channel for a few months and you and the other guy are really likeable.
Thank you for sharing James! Like you, I had two kids during the pandemic, my wife got postpartum depression, a friend died, my father died, my grandma died, and when I thought life was getting in the right place I lost myself! It is good to tell that after a year I’m rediscovering myself! I’m not 100% but life is never 100%! Keep going man! Lots of strength to you and your family