I agree 💯. She was one of very few who was totally honest and I appreciate that so much as opposed to other interviews that are not honest with themselves
I can see your point! But in reality, this "honesty" and trust me on that as I'm an addict myself, ALL addicts say that!! As you hear, this is TOP priority! It's SO difficult to get clean so you prefer to surrender! If you don't have any power left... as sad as it sounds... the surrender is drugs till the END since the other side seems mission impossible...
@marikon3 I'm a recovering addict and June 28th was 3 years clean for me and I'm going to be 53 in a couple of weeks. I hate that it took me so long to get my shit together but I never thought I'd get clean. Now my life is just completely different and I know it sounds cliche but it's so true
Sad doesn't even begin to describe her...more like pathetic and gross!! Like she says " I put crack before everything...my kids are grown, my mom and dad raised them" 🤢🤢🤢
One of the most real and honest interviews I’ve seen on this channel. It’s amazing that after all this time of heavy drug use that she’s so lucid. She seems like such an intelligent, observant and introspective person. A wonderful storyteller as well. There’s so much more out there for you Zenobia and you’re worthy of it. Wishing you strength to beat this.
@@aspartamekillsyaknow9019. Anyone can get off drugs, with the right help and support, especially medical support. I’ve seen people do it, who you would guess never could. No one is a lost cause, because of an addiction.
"...Drugs had already consumed me...I was already lost" --- Her story DREW me in and KEPT me .. excellent excellent storyteller. Zenobia, thank you! You're treading water... I pray you do not sink.
@@kovin-ashleychetty5159 not trying to say this in mean way, but she actually looks ROUGH for 47! 😬 I'm 40. My mom is 63 in a few weeks and my mom looks 20 years younger than this lady. The drugs and the streets have definitely taken their toll on this lady. I think she definitely had potential to look amazing at 47 without those factors. I can definitely see the beauty underneath all that. Hopefully one day she can accept getting into therapy instead of drugs and turn things around. I think it would benefit every aspect of her life. Learning how to move past the pain without drugs. Being able to be involved with her kids and grandkids. Not being a slave to drugs. I think her looks would definitely get better as well. What I see is a very hurt woman who's just trying to numb it all away who doesn't know she is strong enough to beat this. The way she thinks drugs are helping her be happy is the same thought process as a prostitute thinking her abusive pimp is good because he protects her from other people beating on her.😔Hopefully one day she realizes her own strength to overcome this before it's too late.
I love her raw honesty. It’s annoying when they try to act like they are good parents etc. she’s straight up about everything. Thank you Zenobia for a great interview.
Amazing how she started off joyfully explaining how much she loves being and getting high with a big smile on her face and then switched to being sad and talking of her pain and how it takes her pain of being raped and molested. Addiction is a hell of a thing. She cares for nothing apart from her pipe and it's contents but hates it too. So very sad.
When she speaks of starting on crack, she references a time in her mind that was exciting sex with someone she enjoyed. As the years went on crack changed as did her life. She is so fortunate to have had good people take care of her children. Her speaking about crack ,her face lights up like an elderly lady speaking of her first love. There is so much truth to having a program to get sober right in the drug assessable area. It’s great to have the sign in area there , but perhaps then a bus out to a rehabilitation facility in the desert. That way if you run away you die on the hot sand, forcing you to get sober then a safe house for a year of job training, then relocating to somewhere where you know no one. One can dream of getting clean , one can get there with an iron will & lots of help. Thank goodness the chain of addiction has been broken with her children. There is still hope ,there is hope as long as you breath.
"And what's the difference of me getting high and the rich people getting high, they just have more money and we don't see their actions, I'm just out on the street and for everyone to see". This woman gave an incredibly real interview but this surely stands out. Glamorized for those with fame and fortune, yet the less fortunate on the streets are overlooked and judged. At the end of the day, we are all human - all equal.
This is the most amazing, honest and real interview here. She is so honest in the reality of drug use and the reality of every action has a reaction. She is spot on saying for those fleeting seconds of the day you want, crave and dream of being sober but then reality sinks in. No matter the treatment plan or clean time you will always have the pain that caused you to go numb and you will always be an addict teetering on the edge of the one bender or relapse that ends it all but will power and strength, support, and love can keep you clean. I hope and pray she finds her way in life and everyone struggling with addiction can find peace and comfort you are not alone and there is help and support.
I was raised by my grandparents too. My Mom died when she was 35 and I was 17. Thank God for my (now deceased) grandparents. I never touched a drug in my life and I am now 45. I wish this lady the best.
My mom was a crack addict and died at 35 as well when I was 14. I’m 32 now and realize how young she truly was. I wish I could’ve saved her to this day 💔 these stories help me heal because I now understand what I didn’t then.
@@teebaby9012 Oh baby girl, I pray you don't live with any regret. You were a child. I'll bet if your MaMa could say anything to you today it would be that she would wish that she would have been there for you. Sending you Love and Positive Energy 🙏
This was such a hard video to watch. Zenobia was so raw and real, but she was also so honest. She recognizes that running toward the drugs is a factor in a lot of pain in her life but it also relieves the pain she feels as well. It is a never-ending cycle for her. She also recognizes that it is something that can be the end of her. I do hope that she can get better, find a path in life in which she can get clean. It may seem hopeless, but I will always keep hope for her.
Her face immediately lit up when she remembers how her drugs make her feel.. after sharing her pain and regrets. This shook me. Zenobia you are an amazing person. Hope you one day get clean and get over the pain.
@@chrisroebuck7083 she's only surviving enough to get high. That's why they move to skid row. Anybody could survive just enough down there. There's all types of services they scam from the system that taxpayers pay for. They eat for free and spend their govt benefits on dope. All that does is enable them to keep being a dope fiend. There's nothing amazing about people getting high, get real. She deserves every hardship that comes with being a fiend. The only person she has left to screw over is herself, so please
“The guilt and shame eats me alive.” Truest words ever spoken. I spent 12 years under that weight. Couldn’t be happier to let that all go a few years ago. I wish her luck.
It’s truly sad. Addicts are people that are in unbearable pain 😢 this channel has changed my view on a lot of things. Even coming from a poor neighborhood that had a lot of drug use, and even trying drugs myself, i never fully understood that drug addiction was a symptom to something deeper. 💔
I'm a recovering addict and I'm 53 and June 28th was my 3 years clean date. I can tell you from experience that it truly is something deep inside and you want to block it out. My doc was pain pills and thank God I never got into the hard shit not that it makes a difference but I know I it would have been way harder to get clean. My mo was detox tx and relapse over and over again. My family never gave up on me and I'll never understand why but so grateful they didn't and now my life is totally different and I know it sounds cliche but it's true. When I was ready I did it and started seeing a therapist and she told me I was self medicating to block out many things that I've been through and it started when I was just 9 and other things from trauma and I didn't start using till I was 26 which is late to start. From watching these videos so many started at a young age. Sorry for the novel lol 🤣 but I just wanted to share when I saw your comment
I think they can be incredibly selfish. Her children are begging her to quit and they WANT her in their lives. Everyone deserves a good mom. But she’s openly saying she loves drugs more. She needs to find help so she can figure out what makes her need to get high.
@@Sunderbee You have a point bc when there's an addict unfortunately EVERYBODY around them is affected!! But as you see there is no "normal" thinking here. They can't help themselves, they feel pain, they cause pain, vicious circle. Addiction is not about selfishness. In reality she want to be clean, EVERYBODY does, but the chemistry that alters the mind won't let you think straight! It's a sad, sad situation....
nah bruh most people not ready for how crack heroin and meth make them feel and think. That why these drugs get a hold on people they get tricked into thinking its their protection or thebest thing to do all the time. it better to not open the pandoras box if u arent ready @@aspartamekillsyaknow9019
I almost feel ashamed for saying this but I respect her raw honesty. Many give their loved ones false hope about wanting to get clean and string them along for years.
I did that for 5 years with my bf (he doesn't use) finally....I just went "look I no this is going hurt I can't even imagine cuz I'm choosing drugs over you but I don't want to get clean🤷♀️ unno what else to tell you. I love you and I want you to be with me but you need to REALLY stop and think it u can still be with me as a user. I'll be DEVISTATED & ofcorse I don't want you to leave but it's your life and you need to figure out it u can still be with me or not" he stayed another 5 years and NOW all of a sudden is throwing all my drug shit and my past in my face. I understand his anger and resentment....but I told him! He stayed! That's not completely fair in my opinion. It is what it is I guess.... 💔😕
The hurt that she dug up today in the interview , the memories and the shame are going to be too much for her, and that is exactly what she's trying to avoid with this addiction
I don’t cry that often watching these but this is one that made me cry. She didn’t even get that deep into her story but the pain was palpable. Please please protect your children. With channels like this Atlanta street interviews and others I’ve become completely obsessed with protecting my daughter and yet I still feel there’s never enough i can do. It’s scary.
know that you're doing your best and allow that to comfort you. also remember you cant truly control everything, especially people. the main and likely only thing we as humans have full control of (or the capability of) is our mind. recognize she has free will and that she lives in a dark world, but with your guidance and God on your side (whatever path that may be, discerning the truth from the lies), she'll likely turn out great and that no matter what happens, you can be comforted knowing you did your best with good intentions behind it. I wouldn't recommend obsessing tho. dedicated yes, but obsessed no. I learned from experiencing OCD (not your standard forms of it), that obsess often makes us underlook other aspects of our lives and often causes unnecessary anxiety and/or stress. with from what I seen of many peoples parenting styles, the parents of the children of those who were too obsessive and/or protective/strict with their kids often ended up with the opposite results that they believed such parenting would result in. the reason why is because rebellion (especially in teens) and curiousity is greatly infused in kids and teens. many of these parents dont fully explain why they may not allow them to do so and get overly defensive and say things such as "cause I said so!". many also go overboard with it and may not notice it. the solution is to 1st not go overboard. that doesnt mean allow your daughter to do just anything. the 2nd part of the solution is with the things you can clearly and unbiasedly see as bad and dont want her doing or going to, explain as calmy, rationally, and logically (not with emotion) to her why you dont want her doing and/or going to such things and why those things are bad and tell her its out of love for her and wanting her to be the best she can be in life. I hope this helps you :)
Zenobia is right. It’s not just withdrawal people are scared of. All the pain does come rushing at you and hits you hard, when you quit. At least it did, me. Nothing can make the pain and trauma of not being protected go away. I’m so grateful I finally found a good treatment group, with a counselor who was trauma informed. With the right help and support, it’s possible to get through it and come out stronger. I’m hoping this happens for Zenobia. She deserves it. Zenobia, please don’t give up! Don’t hate yourself. You have been struggling with a terrible disease and couldn’t be there for others, at those times. That doesn’t mean you’re a bad person. You deserve care and compassion. Please seek help for your trauma and addiction. There are some good people out there who have been through it and want to help!
She comes across nice and friendly, but I am pretty sure she can take you to the dark side if you choose to mess with her. I pray that one day, she tires of the crack and wants to get sober.
When Crack hit it did some serious DAMAGE in the black community. Just sad I grew up in the 80's I saw some things growing up. I remember the Crack heads walking down the street, the kids roaming the streets hungry. Crack pipes and baggies on the ground. I made it out be a use I had two parents with some sense, degrees and jobs. They worked hard and kept my sisters and I safe. They made me terrified to smoke weed lol. I am truly blessed because Crack was easy to get, I seen it sold and smoked. Kids in my school were selling it in middle school and high school. It was just did so much damage.
My parents were same way. Me and my siblings made it out. But my youngest siblings ended up supporting a drug head. I grow up around it and seen it. I never wanted a man on drugs my parents scared me so bad.... but youngest siblings did, go figure. 😢
Oh, man, this hit me straight in the heart. When she broke down and showed her true feeling I felt her pain like a train hit my chest. This is one of the best interviews I've seen this year. She looks so tough and hard, and she is because she needs to be. But inside she's just in many ways still thst little girl. Damn, this woman has experienced so much pain from an early age no wonder she smokes to oblivion. No one can live with that trauma without masking it someway or another. Being taken advantage of at 15 that just determined her course right there. Had she been taken out of her home with the addicted mother and that evil man that abused her, and Bern given intense theraphy as a child she might have made it. But she was already so damaged so when that teacher or whatever tok advantage of her at 15 she saw it as a saving. Of course she fell in love with that pipe because it took away everything that was painful. She had no chance. I'm happy her mother got clean though and they had a great relationship. And against all odds her two adult children doesn't do drugs, that's amazing. This woman will stay with me for a long time.
Im a recovering addict myself and this interview was so raw, i rarely cry but this made me shed a few tears because i understand exactly how she feels. If you see this baby you can do this! I didn't think i would ever get out of it either but I managed to pull through to the other side. Keep pushing, never give up hun...as long as you're here there's hope. It wont be easy but it will be worth it!! Sending love hope and light 💜
I don’t comment on RUclips videos ever this might be my first one but this is the best video I’ve seen on this channel. She was so intelligent and so good at articulating her feelings and the ups and downs. If she wasn’t in that environment as a child I have no doubt she would have been a prominent figure in today’s society. The potential we lose to drugs is incomprehensible.
I feel her through and through. She is describing the disease of addiction exactly as it is. Different circumstances, same depth of pain and damage to self-confidence, guilt,shame, regret it’s the same. Thank you for articulating so vividly Zenobia. When you’re ready, there are solutions. Be blessed.❤
All these crack moms are my mom. She finally took her own life. The devastation is real. The guilt was real. I’ve had to do lots of forgiving. #highmoms #missyou
To some extent is her fault after so many years have went by and her children are now grown. She is very honest but still very selfish. She says “who am I hurting by getting high” no regards for her children and parents who hurt for her.
@@Glamma_Karenbe friends with a drug addict and watch pieces of your life and valuables disappear . A person's personality and morality are totally separate. Don't be fooled by everyone with a charismatic personality
Zenobia, you can face your pain. I'm an addict and I thought I would die from all the trespasses I was using over. Just try recovery for 1 year when you're ready. At first I felt on fire without my booze but AA helped me walk through it and the pain subsided way sooner than I expected. You don't need the cooperation of your oppressors to overcome and create a bridge to freedom. The more you were wronged, the more you DESERVE to enjoy the rest of your life without this anchor. But nothing happens until you decide.
it is understandable to doubt our ability to recover but if we zoom into the next right thing instead of the large goal of getting freed, it becomes less daunting. Being willing to allow others in recovery the light the way and try things you don't believe will work can lead to an amazing transformation in a year. If at the end of that year, you don't like your life, our substance of choice will always take us back.
i think drug addiction isn‘t being drawn to the substance itself but more to the world that comes with it. it turns people into different persons, it soothes anxiety, it numbs pain, it blocks out noise for sensitive people, it creates a strength which some people sadly never learned how to build up themselves. some people are alive because drugs allowed them to. others may turn suicidal and then society also wants them to get „normal“ and „function well“. go to work. pay taxes. build a family. be happy. no one wants to teach how to reach all that. everyone has to figure it out by themselves. and some never got the tools to do so. some people want to escape this world. this system. and i understand them.
I love Zenobias honesty. It's just so sad she doesn't wanna get clean. I tried crack once and did it all day into the next and I was like hell no I'm not selling my soul to the devil. That was the first and only time I've ever done it. I'm so grateful that was the only time I tried it. I feel so sad 😢 for her. I've never seen anyone be so raw and candid about it. I give her props for being so honest. I'm sending her so much strength 💪 and prayers 🙏 Hopefully one day she'll decide to get clean. With crack you have no physical withdrawal it's all mental. It's so much harder for someone that does fentanyl because the withdrawals are so awful and they're afraid to go through them so it's easier to just keep doing it instead of trying to get clean. You can tell she's a good person and it made me sad 😢 especially when she was talking about her kids and how she wished she raised them. Some people don't even talk about their kids but if they do it's like they don't even care if they raised them or not which I've seen in many of these interviews. Mark another great interview 😊
"Dont try to swim the ocean, you'll drown. Just tread water" Thats so heavy, explains addiction perfectly.... thats why we in recovery sometimes take it minute by minute, hour by hour, 24 by 24. 💜
I watched the still portrait you took of her as she spoke and you asked her about her regrets. Her still face, immediately changed...I was speechless. That moment was like an oasis of pain in a desert of bliss. So much love babe. So much❤
She is so honest which can't be said for the most of us if I can be honest 🙃 She's in so much pain, and sadness. Sending her healing, restoration and the strength every day.🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
I love her energy, seems like a cool, chill persom, loving. We can only imagine what horrors her childhood held, she alluded to a few. And she describes the pain of both her and her son, the fact that she cant be there for him. The cycle continues. I doubt shell ever get well, she seems too far gone, and thats super sad. I appreciate knowing of her, and this interview. So much pain below the surface...
I'm so glad I never used drugs. Growing up in an abusive home, I know how fine the line is to take the wrong path. I was so full of rage. I was fortunate to grow up in an upper middle class neighborhood and I had friends that I could count on and welcomed in their homes. My friend across the street had a father who was a psychiatrist. His father rarely spoke and was a chain smoker. His family life was abnormal as well. His father committed suicide after we graduated college. Watching these videos make me realize how close I really was to derailing my life. My anger is why I got myself into therapy. I was afraid I would end up with a government issued toothbrush and orange pajamas with a cell mate. Life is full of choices. Establishing a baseline of what is acceptable and unacceptable providing me with a guide. I'm so grateful for my friends, therapist and doctors as well as my education.
Zenobia! If you read this. It's not too late! Your kids are still here and they are willing to have you in your life (your son is for sure)! Praying for you.
Hey Mark. This is a good friend of mine that I know personally and haven't seen years. Last I did communicate with her was on social media and that was like 3 years ago. She was clean at the time and had herself together. So sad 😢. Dang Zenobia. God Bless you Huny and I Love You friend. Beautiful ❤️ woman with a huge 💜❤️💯🙏💕
This lady hasn't completely lost herself, she is probably the most honest and self aware addict you've had on the channel. I wish her the best. Very sad that so many addicts have children though, I'm so sorry for them.
It's ridiculous! I don't care if your kids are grown! That doesn't give you an excuse to be able to do what you want, smoking crack and choosing to be homeless!! Kids will always need their parents no matter their age!
@@zeala1 It seems you just want to talk. Who said honesty covers bad behaviour?? Who are you to judge a child born into a toxic home with an addict for a mom?
This could've been me had I not made a conscience choice to quit drugs almost 30 years ago. My daughter was 8 and I was getting high. I got down on my knees one day and begged God to help me change. It was the hardest thing I've ever done. I thank God for freeing me from what my life could've been. I pray for you Zenobias, you can do it, it's scary dealing with the monsters of guilt and shame but if you don't confront them they will eat you alive..
There was a point where her Mom didn’t care that a lit match had been thrown into her hair… but by the end, after getting clean, her mom was looking for her on skid row while battling cancer… if mom did a 180, maybe you can too ❤
Her transparency was amazing... I can feel her pain through the video, and I know she wants to get clean but with all that pain the drugs numbs everything and that is where she is comfortable. We all like being comfortable.
I appreciate the honesty of this woman. She spitting facts about how organizations coddle drug addicts and give them everything they need. No point in getting clean if your habit is supported
Eh it's not that easy. I'm sorry. I was an addict for 7 years there wasn't enough programs or medication to get off drugs luckily I got clean because I had family. Idk how she is so happy I was in hell depressed homeless knew I was bound for more and I'm lucky. I did get clean that life isn't fun at all
Thank u for sharing ur truth. Makes me realize me getting clean and making sure my children have no trauma is a major purpose because i didn't have that❤
she contradicts herself so much in the interview that it does feel like that's her entire M.O. meaning... every single moment of her life is full of conflict and uncertainty.... very illuminating to see someone speak so clearly about addiction.
WOW! This was as honest as iv ever watched. She's right addiction is a disease. People give there whole lives just for the high. Shes such a lovely person, I hope you she finds happiness in the mix of the mayhem ❤
Zenobia I hope you see all these comments one day! We heard you touch on the pain you had to endure but you have a gift! I can't phrase it well but your honesty was just heart touching. Please don't give up on yourself. We are rooting for you
This in my opinion is the best SWU interview I've ever come across and I've seen a lot of them. There are so many striking things about this woman and yet the interview is so short!
She reminds me of my Dad. No shame addict. And she ain’t lyin.. they don’t be wanting to get clean they want to smoke crack. It’s sad for us but the best life ever in their mind
This channel has really humanized street drug addicts for me. To listen to them speak and really hear their pain is heart wrenching. I could really hear her soul crying in this interview. Very very sad. I hope she will find a way to help herself.
This woman is something special, she just need some one to hold her captive for two weeks and take her outta there … her message is so strong …. She being preserved for that reason for people to see the real truth, real pain, and love…. She knows ask her…
I respect her honesty. Alot of people her age who do drugs have no reason to quit. They have given up on a "normal" life and as long as they can get their drug they are happy.
Although mark claims he’s not an interviewer this one really shows otherwise. The first half of the interview she seems completely shameless and not at all regretful of her addiction. Once you start prying mark you cracked her hardened exterior and showed a glimmer of the pain behind it all. I wasn’t expecting to empathize this woman at the beginning but the vulnerability you peeled back showed such a raw pain. I can’t say I even begin to understand but at least now i empathize
It’s crazy how crack affects everyone differently… I’m amazed by how long she’s been battling this addiction & not strung out of her mind… meanwhile some have been on it for a shorter span & can’t even think straight…
She's doing what she loves, can't hate her for that. She's in love, in lust, glorifying the crack rock. I've never seen anyone light up with such excitement for a drug.
I may not have done drugs, but my husband has been an addict all his life. I have been by his side. He has been clean the first time for 18 years, then he came off Suboxone and he relapse on heroin, he told me what he was doing! I punched him in the face. Then, I yelled at him for while. I thought about packing up my child and moving back home without him, but I decided to stay by his side. Now, he is clean for seven years again. If it wasn't for the Suboxone he would have died. He overdose four times, before he said something to me. He lied to my face and said his teeth were making him sick. I was dump enough not to see it. Now, I am in nursing school, and want to work in the addiction field and my husband is working on being a drug counselor.
ugh hearing her say she doesn’t even want to see what the side of sober feels like. It’s just so foreign to her at this point, i get it. love these interviews. Thank you.
She is correct in what she says about the county rehab places. They enter addicted and leaves a better addict. These people canNOT have a chance to recover without proper detox first and these places do NOT have that. It is a myth that you keep them a week or so, let them suffer, than they recover. Zenobia has no idea how interesting she is. She has deep intelligence and a charm with authenticity that makes me want to listen to her. I hope she does make it. She has a son who loves her so much. She is worth so much more than this and she knows it.
Damn. Crack is her long time lover. Bitter sweet I guess. How is she even still alive let alone this intelligent and animated ? She’s a great storyteller. She was honest and genuine.I am thankful I stopped by to watch her ❤❤
Probably the most honest interviewee you’ve had about the lure of drugs. She doesn’t want to die or get clean. So sad.
I agree 💯. She was one of very few who was totally honest and I appreciate that so much as opposed to other interviews that are not honest with themselves
I can see your point! But in reality, this "honesty" and trust me on that as I'm an addict myself, ALL addicts say that!! As you hear, this is TOP priority! It's SO difficult to get clean so you prefer to surrender! If you don't have any power left... as sad as it sounds... the surrender is drugs till the END since the other side seems mission impossible...
She does want to get clean, the mountain just feels too big for her to climb so she sits at the bottom unwilling to even look up.
@marikon3 I'm a recovering addict and June 28th was 3 years clean for me and I'm going to be 53 in a couple of weeks. I hate that it took me so long to get my shit together but I never thought I'd get clean. Now my life is just completely different and I know it sounds cliche but it's so true
Sad doesn't even begin to describe her...more like pathetic and gross!!
Like she says " I put crack before everything...my kids are grown, my mom and dad raised them" 🤢🤢🤢
Her honesty is refreshing yet sad.
Your comment is simply stated and 💯 % truth.
I think it's a dude
One of the most real and honest interviews I’ve seen on this channel. It’s amazing that after all this time of heavy drug use that she’s so lucid. She seems like such an intelligent, observant and introspective person. A wonderful storyteller as well. There’s so much more out there for you Zenobia and you’re worthy of it. Wishing you strength to beat this.
Wish for something realistic
did you listen to her? she ain’t getting clean, she loves her crack!
@@aspartamekillsyaknow9019. Anyone can get off drugs, with the right help and support, especially medical support. I’ve seen people do it, who you would guess never could. No one is a lost cause, because of an addiction.
Amen
"...Drugs had already consumed me...I was already lost" --- Her story DREW me in and KEPT me .. excellent excellent storyteller.
Zenobia, thank you! You're treading water... I pray you do not sink.
Amen
She expressed herself very clearly
Hard looking for a black woman at 46
She looks good for 47 !
@@kovin-ashleychetty5159agree imagine if she wasn’t an addict😢
Because she came to terms with what she does and is transparent. Nothing to hide. I don't care if you like me or not type energy
@@kovin-ashleychetty5159 not trying to say this in mean way, but she actually looks ROUGH for 47! 😬 I'm 40. My mom is 63 in a few weeks and my mom looks 20 years younger than this lady. The drugs and the streets have definitely taken their toll on this lady. I think she definitely had potential to look amazing at 47 without those factors. I can definitely see the beauty underneath all that. Hopefully one day she can accept getting into therapy instead of drugs and turn things around. I think it would benefit every aspect of her life. Learning how to move past the pain without drugs. Being able to be involved with her kids and grandkids. Not being a slave to drugs. I think her looks would definitely get better as well. What I see is a very hurt woman who's just trying to numb it all away who doesn't know she is strong enough to beat this. The way she thinks drugs are helping her be happy is the same thought process as a prostitute thinking her abusive pimp is good because he protects her from other people beating on her.😔Hopefully one day she realizes her own strength to overcome this before it's too late.
She's one of the most self aware addicts I have ever seen....the way she can speak about life and drug use sp eloquently 😮
I love her raw honesty. It’s annoying when they try to act like they are good parents etc. she’s straight up about everything. Thank you Zenobia for a great interview.
Amazing how she started off joyfully explaining how much she loves being and getting high with a big smile on her face and then switched to being sad and talking of her pain and how it takes her pain of being raped and molested. Addiction is a hell of a thing. She cares for nothing apart from her pipe and it's contents but hates it too. So very sad.
She was likely high at start of interview and coming down towards the end...
When she speaks of starting on crack, she references a time in her mind that was exciting sex with someone she enjoyed. As the years went on crack changed as did her life. She is so fortunate to have had good people take care of her children.
Her speaking about crack ,her face lights up like an elderly lady speaking of her first love.
There is so much truth to having a program to get sober right in the drug assessable area. It’s great to have the sign in area there , but perhaps then a bus out to a rehabilitation facility in the desert. That way if you run away you die on the hot sand, forcing you to get sober then a safe house for a year of job training, then relocating to somewhere where you know no one. One can dream of getting clean , one can get there with an iron will & lots of help.
Thank goodness the chain of addiction has been broken with her children. There is still hope ,there is hope as long as you breath.
Thats part of addiction if you dont know you cant judge period
@@lesliejones1720 i do know
Feel this SO fucking hard.
"And what's the difference of me getting high and the rich people getting high, they just have more money and we don't see their actions, I'm just out on the street and for everyone to see". This woman gave an incredibly real interview but this surely stands out. Glamorized for those with fame and fortune, yet the less fortunate on the streets are overlooked and judged. At the end of the day, we are all human - all equal.
She's so real
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This is the most amazing, honest and real interview here. She is so honest in the reality of drug use and the reality of every action has a reaction. She is spot on saying for those fleeting seconds of the day you want, crave and dream of being sober but then reality sinks in. No matter the treatment plan or clean time you will always have the pain that caused you to go numb and you will always be an addict teetering on the edge of the one bender or relapse that ends it all but will power and strength, support, and love can keep you clean. I hope and pray she finds her way in life and everyone struggling with addiction can find peace and comfort you are not alone and there is help and support.
I was raised by my grandparents too. My Mom died when she was 35 and I was 17. Thank God for my (now deceased) grandparents. I never touched a drug in my life and I am now 45. I wish this lady the best.
I'm so sorry she wasn't there for you.
My mom was a crack addict and died at 35 as well when I was 14. I’m 32 now and realize how young she truly was. I wish I could’ve saved her to this day 💔 these stories help me heal because I now understand what I didn’t then.
@@teebaby9012 Oh baby girl, I pray you don't live with any regret. You were a child.
I'll bet if your MaMa could say anything to you today it would be that she would wish that she would have been there for you.
Sending you Love and Positive Energy 🙏
@@MEL2theJthank you so much ❤ God bless you
This was such a hard video to watch. Zenobia was so raw and real, but she was also so honest. She recognizes that running toward the drugs is a factor in a lot of pain in her life but it also relieves the pain she feels as well. It is a never-ending cycle for her. She also recognizes that it is something that can be the end of her. I do hope that she can get better, find a path in life in which she can get clean. It may seem hopeless, but I will always keep hope for her.
Grateful for Zenobia’s honesty and description on the feelings she’s chasing and avoiding 💛
Addiction & Mental illness are no joke.
A fascinating interview. She takes you there, to what it is to be addicted.
Her face immediately lit up when she remembers how her drugs make her feel.. after sharing her pain and regrets. This shook me. Zenobia you are an amazing person. Hope you one day get clean and get over the pain.
What's so amazing? She chose to give her kids up for dope. Addicts are the most irresponsible people and I can't respect that at all
C'mon man! What is so amazing about her? Simply that she's surviving!! Please.
@@chrisroebuck7083 she's only surviving enough to get high. That's why they move to skid row. Anybody could survive just enough down there. There's all types of services they scam from the system that taxpayers pay for. They eat for free and spend their govt benefits on dope. All that does is enable them to keep being a dope fiend. There's nothing amazing about people getting high, get real. She deserves every hardship that comes with being a fiend. The only person she has left to screw over is herself, so please
“The guilt and shame eats me alive.” Truest words ever spoken. I spent 12 years under that weight. Couldn’t be happier to let that all go a few years ago. I wish her luck.
It’s truly sad. Addicts are people that are in unbearable pain 😢 this channel has changed my view on a lot of things. Even coming from a poor neighborhood that had a lot of drug use, and even trying drugs myself, i never fully understood that drug addiction was a symptom to something deeper. 💔
Thank you
I'm a recovering addict and I'm 53 and June 28th was my 3 years clean date. I can tell you from experience that it truly is something deep inside and you want to block it out. My doc was pain pills and thank God I never got into the hard shit not that it makes a difference but I know I it would have been way harder to get clean. My mo was detox tx and relapse over and over again. My family never gave up on me and I'll never understand why but so grateful they didn't and now my life is totally different and I know it sounds cliche but it's true. When I was ready I did it and started seeing a therapist and she told me I was self medicating to block out many things that I've been through and it started when I was just 9 and other things from trauma and I didn't start using till I was 26 which is late to start. From watching these videos so many started at a young age. Sorry for the novel lol 🤣 but I just wanted to share when I saw your comment
I think they can be incredibly selfish. Her children are begging her to quit and they WANT her in their lives. Everyone deserves a good mom. But she’s openly saying she loves drugs more.
She needs to find help so she can figure out what makes her need to get high.
thank u for sharing the more people who share their stories and their truth, the more people we can help by giving them real knowledge@@rachelrae860
@@Sunderbee You have a point bc when there's an addict unfortunately EVERYBODY around them is affected!! But as you see there is no "normal" thinking here. They can't help themselves, they feel pain, they cause pain, vicious circle. Addiction is not about selfishness. In reality she want to be clean, EVERYBODY does, but the chemistry that alters the mind won't let you think straight! It's a sad, sad situation....
It's amazing her description of the drug is so lucid. This is fascinating to try to understand the "draw" to a drug if you never experienced using.
Maybe you should try it then if it's so fascinating and amazing
@@aspartamekillsyaknow9019not helpful
nah bruh most people not ready for how crack heroin and meth make them feel and think. That why these drugs get a hold on people they get tricked into thinking its their protection or thebest thing to do all the time. it better to not open the pandoras box if u arent ready @@aspartamekillsyaknow9019
crack is wack
Sounds like you want to try it
I almost feel ashamed for saying this but I respect her raw honesty. Many give their loved ones false hope about wanting to get clean and string them along for years.
I did that for 5 years with my bf (he doesn't use) finally....I just went "look I no this is going hurt I can't even imagine cuz I'm choosing drugs over you but I don't want to get clean🤷♀️ unno what else to tell you. I love you and I want you to be with me but you need to REALLY stop and think it u can still be with me as a user. I'll be DEVISTATED & ofcorse I don't want you to leave but it's your life and you need to figure out it u can still be with me or not" he stayed another 5 years and NOW all of a sudden is throwing all my drug shit and my past in my face. I understand his anger and resentment....but I told him! He stayed! That's not completely fair in my opinion. It is what it is I guess.... 💔😕
@@bobbibart8927. People can handle anything but dishonesty. What you did was huge!
Dw u cant control people I rather her to be a happy baser than a depressed sober
The hurt that she dug up today in the interview , the memories and the shame are going to be too much for her, and that is exactly what she's trying to avoid with this addiction
Descriptive, poetic , articulate, vivid , raw, chilling, honest, love and praying for you.
God bless
I don’t cry that often watching these but this is one that made me cry. She didn’t even get that deep into her story but the pain was palpable. Please please protect your children. With channels like this Atlanta street interviews and others I’ve become completely obsessed with protecting my daughter and yet I still feel there’s never enough i can do. It’s scary.
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know that you're doing your best and allow that to comfort you. also remember you cant truly control everything, especially people. the main and likely only thing we as humans have full control of (or the capability of) is our mind. recognize she has free will and that she lives in a dark world, but with your guidance and God on your side (whatever path that may be, discerning the truth from the lies), she'll likely turn out great and that no matter what happens, you can be comforted knowing you did your best with good intentions behind it. I wouldn't recommend obsessing tho. dedicated yes, but obsessed no. I learned from experiencing OCD (not your standard forms of it), that obsess often makes us underlook other aspects of our lives and often causes unnecessary anxiety and/or stress. with from what I seen of many peoples parenting styles, the parents of the children of those who were too obsessive and/or protective/strict with their kids often ended up with the opposite results that they believed such parenting would result in. the reason why is because rebellion (especially in teens) and curiousity is greatly infused in kids and teens. many of these parents dont fully explain why they may not allow them to do so and get overly defensive and say things such as "cause I said so!". many also go overboard with it and may not notice it. the solution is to 1st not go overboard. that doesnt mean allow your daughter to do just anything. the 2nd part of the solution is with the things you can clearly and unbiasedly see as bad and dont want her doing or going to, explain as calmy, rationally, and logically (not with emotion) to her why you dont want her doing and/or going to such things and why those things are bad and tell her its out of love for her and wanting her to be the best she can be in life. I hope this helps you :)
@@mcchickenandabigmac THIS!
Zenobia is right. It’s not just withdrawal people are scared of. All the pain does come rushing at you and hits you hard, when you quit. At least it did, me. Nothing can make the pain and trauma of not being protected go away. I’m so grateful I finally found a good treatment group, with a counselor who was trauma informed. With the right help and support, it’s possible to get through it and come out stronger. I’m hoping this happens for Zenobia. She deserves it. Zenobia, please don’t give up! Don’t hate yourself. You have been struggling with a terrible disease and couldn’t be there for others, at those times. That doesn’t mean you’re a bad person. You deserve care and compassion. Please seek help for your trauma and addiction. There are some good people out there who have been through it and want to help!
She comes across nice and friendly, but I am pretty sure she can take you to the dark side if you choose to mess with her. I pray that one day, she tires of the crack and wants to get sober.
I totally can see that
I pray that one day society wakes up and sees why people are addicted...
You are not wrong but that dark side. I think the dark side would not be a good thing. God bless her heart 💗
She has the face of a sad clown that could turn around and mess you up if you take away her crack lol
When Crack hit it did some serious DAMAGE in the black community. Just sad I grew up in the 80's I saw some things growing up. I remember the Crack heads walking down the street, the kids roaming the streets hungry. Crack pipes and baggies on the ground. I made it out be a use I had two parents with some sense, degrees and jobs. They worked hard and kept my sisters and I safe. They made me terrified to smoke weed lol. I am truly blessed because Crack was easy to get, I seen it sold and smoked. Kids in my school were selling it in middle school and high school. It was just did so much damage.
Crack came and it was strange how it rocked us - Tupac
Crack has taken over Australia too it’s like everybody you know is on crack or know someone who is
Every community😢
My parents were same way. Me and my siblings made it out. But my youngest siblings ended up supporting a drug head. I grow up around it and seen it. I never wanted a man on drugs my parents scared me so bad.... but youngest siblings did, go figure. 😢
Oh stop it’s not only a black community problem!
Oh, man, this hit me straight in the heart.
When she broke down and showed her true feeling I felt her pain like a train hit my chest.
This is one of the best interviews I've seen this year.
She looks so tough and hard, and she is because she needs to be.
But inside she's just in many ways still thst little girl.
Damn, this woman has experienced so much pain from an early age no wonder she smokes to oblivion.
No one can live with that trauma without masking it someway or another.
Being taken advantage of at 15 that just determined her course right there.
Had she been taken out of her home with the addicted mother and that evil man that abused her, and Bern given intense theraphy as a child she might have made it.
But she was already so damaged so when that teacher or whatever tok advantage of her at 15 she saw it as a saving. Of course she fell in love with that pipe because it took away everything that was painful.
She had no chance.
I'm happy her mother got clean though and they had a great relationship.
And against all odds her two adult children doesn't do drugs, that's amazing.
This woman will stay with me for a long time.
I love how Mark asks the hard questions. Never judgmental but often insightful for us but also for the one being interviewed.
Im a recovering addict myself and this interview was so raw, i rarely cry but this made me shed a few tears because i understand exactly how she feels. If you see this baby you can do this! I didn't think i would ever get out of it either but I managed to pull through to the other side. Keep pushing, never give up hun...as long as you're here there's hope. It wont be easy but it will be worth it!! Sending love hope and light 💜
You are right , if you are breathing there is hope
i wish the best for you, keep pushing ❤️
This may be the most spot on depiction of crack I’ve ever seen
I don’t comment on RUclips videos ever this might be my first one but this is the best video I’ve seen on this channel. She was so intelligent and so good at articulating her feelings and the ups and downs. If she wasn’t in that environment as a child I have no doubt she would have been a prominent figure in today’s society. The potential we lose to drugs is incomprehensible.
I feel her through and through. She is describing the disease of addiction exactly as it is. Different circumstances, same depth of pain and damage to self-confidence, guilt,shame, regret it’s the same. Thank you for articulating so vividly Zenobia. When you’re ready, there are solutions. Be blessed.❤
"Don't try to swim the ocean.. you'll drown. But if you just tread water..you'll make it" - Zenobia
All these crack moms are my mom. She finally took her own life. The devastation is real. The guilt was real. I’ve had to do lots of forgiving. #highmoms #missyou
That’s the most powerful of all the interviews I’ve watched. Such a lovely lady. No fault to her. She shouldn’t feel guilty or ashamed.
Really?! 🤔
@@sararahman7731yes, really.
To some extent is her fault after so many years have went by and her children are now grown. She is very honest but still very selfish. She says “who am I hurting by getting high” no regards for her children and parents who hurt for her.
@@mariahyohannes we not equal. Maybe her parental instincts were weak at that time. Don’t judge through angle of yourself.
@@annakavan1869 At that time? She is still a mother, she still has time to make things right. I am not judging her.
That was heartbreaking. Please keep us updated on her journey.
She's telling it like it is, which is respectable.
Zenobia seems like one cool person. I wish her well.
A cool person that would take you hostage for drugs...hmmmm...she's interesting...but pretty sure dangerous as well.
I could be friends with her. She's keeping it real.
@@Glamma_Karenshe doesn’t have friends or want friends unless you smoke crack.
@@Glamma_Karenbe friends with a drug addict and watch pieces of your life and valuables disappear . A person's personality and morality are totally separate. Don't be fooled by everyone with a charismatic personality
Until she holds you up for ransom.
It’s kind of refreshing how honest she is. It makes it almost easier to understand how and why they want it so bad.
‘Everybody’s addiction is different.’ That is profound.
What a very intelligent woman. How I wish she could find in her heart that deep down she wants to be sober. Kindness in her is everywhere!
May God deliver her from her addiction
Amen 🙏
These videos keep me sober. Thanks Mark. :)
Me to, I'm in recovery and I'm here every morning just to remind myself that I don't need that lifestyle ever again!
Get yourself a dog and you'll stay sober ❤
I am good. I have myself :) But i've heard dogs and cats do wonders. @@MARKHENSTROM
Wow ! This was an amazing interview! She was so open and honest and the conversation flowed naturally! Gotta respect her honesty
Zenobia, you can face your pain. I'm an addict and I thought I would die from all the trespasses I was using over. Just try recovery for 1 year when you're ready. At first I felt on fire without my booze but AA helped me walk through it and the pain subsided way sooner than I expected. You don't need the cooperation of your oppressors to overcome and create a bridge to freedom. The more you were wronged, the more you DESERVE to enjoy the rest of your life without this anchor. But nothing happens until you decide.
This is beautiful. I needed to read it, thank you. Recovery seems truly unattainable.
it is understandable to doubt our ability to recover but if we zoom into the next right thing instead of the large goal of getting freed, it becomes less daunting. Being willing to allow others in recovery the light the way and try things you don't believe will work can lead to an amazing transformation in a year. If at the end of that year, you don't like your life, our substance of choice will always take us back.
@@serenityfreedom3096 ♥️
As a recovering addict, I have to disagree. You can get clean anywhere if you want it bad enough.
i think drug addiction isn‘t being drawn to the substance itself but more to the world that comes with it. it turns people into different persons, it soothes anxiety, it numbs pain, it blocks out noise for sensitive people, it creates a strength which some people sadly never learned how to build up themselves. some people are alive because drugs allowed them to. others may turn suicidal and then society also wants them to get „normal“ and „function well“. go to work. pay taxes. build a family. be happy. no one wants to teach how to reach all that. everyone has to figure it out by themselves. and some never got the tools to do so. some people want to escape this world. this system. and i understand them.
Perfectly said..
Truly.
That was beautifully explained. Thank you
I love Zenobias honesty. It's just so sad she doesn't wanna get clean. I tried crack once and did it all day into the next and I was like hell no I'm not selling my soul to the devil. That was the first and only time I've ever done it. I'm so grateful that was the only time I tried it. I feel so sad 😢 for her. I've never seen anyone be so raw and candid about it. I give her props for being so honest. I'm sending her so much strength 💪 and prayers 🙏
Hopefully one day she'll decide to get clean. With crack you have no physical withdrawal it's all mental. It's so much harder for someone that does fentanyl because the withdrawals are so awful and they're afraid to go through them so it's easier to just keep doing it instead of trying to get clean. You can tell she's a good person and it made me sad 😢 especially when she was talking about her kids and how she wished she raised them. Some people don't even talk about their kids but if they do it's like they don't even care if they raised them or not which I've seen in many of these interviews. Mark another great interview 😊
That shit is a something that will have you circling back to it your entire life unless you change up the people places and things
@@JasonStickle-t3p thanks I'm quite aware
I find her speaking style to be poetic.
I'm so glad other people see this! It's quite beautiful.
"Dont try to swim the ocean, you'll drown. Just tread water"
Thats so heavy, explains addiction perfectly.... thats why we in recovery sometimes take it minute by minute, hour by hour, 24 by 24. 💜
I watched the still portrait you took of her as she spoke and you asked her about her regrets. Her still face, immediately changed...I was speechless. That moment was like an oasis of pain in a desert of bliss.
So much love babe. So much❤
There is something pure and beautiful about Zenobia. I wish her well.
Sending a gentle hug to her, and her son. I wish you both peace, whatever that looks like for you both
This is very poetic. Such a vivid , terrifying and powerful interview.
She is so honest which can't be said for the most of us if I can be honest 🙃 She's in so much pain, and sadness. Sending her healing, restoration and the strength every day.🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
Wow. She’s so prideful about putting crack above EVERYTHING
Wow .. this one brought me to tears . Her honesty and raw description of what she experiences hits hard 😢😢😢
This story just broke my heart. I feel for this woman. So much pain she’s been through… Thank you for this, Mark.
Most real and honestly the best interview EVER! She’s a wonderful woman who lotst her way from drugs 😥
I love her energy, seems like a cool, chill persom, loving. We can only imagine what horrors her childhood held, she alluded to a few. And she describes the pain of both her and her son, the fact that she cant be there for him. The cycle continues. I doubt shell ever get well, she seems too far gone, and thats super sad. I appreciate knowing of her, and this interview. So much pain below the surface...
This interview was to the bone… she’s so articulate… & hurting. Zenobia, I wish you love, luck & strength. Thank you for sharing your story❤️
I'm so glad I never used drugs. Growing up in an abusive home, I know how fine the line is to take the wrong path. I was so full of rage. I was fortunate to grow up in an upper middle class neighborhood and I had friends that I could count on and welcomed in their homes. My friend across the street had a father who was a psychiatrist. His father rarely spoke and was a chain smoker. His family life was abnormal as well. His father committed suicide after we graduated college. Watching these videos make me realize how close I really was to derailing my life. My anger is why I got myself into therapy. I was afraid I would end up with a government issued toothbrush and orange pajamas with a cell mate. Life is full of choices. Establishing a baseline of what is acceptable and unacceptable providing me with a guide. I'm so grateful for my friends, therapist and doctors as well as my education.
“Man I looked like a Wolf “.I’ve been there Ms Zenobia .
Great smile , kind eyes .She handles her drug very well .
Zenobia! If you read this. It's not too late! Your kids are still here and they are willing to have you in your life (your son is for sure)! Praying for you.
Hey Mark. This is a good friend of mine that I know personally and haven't seen years. Last I did communicate with her was on social media and that was like 3 years ago. She was clean at the time and had herself together. So sad 😢. Dang Zenobia.
God Bless you Huny and I Love You friend. Beautiful ❤️ woman with a huge 💜❤️💯🙏💕
This lady hasn't completely lost herself, she is probably the most honest and self aware addict you've had on the channel. I wish her the best. Very sad that so many addicts have children though, I'm so sorry for them.
I don’t think I’ve ever seen someone in such a bad addiction being so proud
Thats honesty, not pride
It's ridiculous! I don't care if your kids are grown! That doesn't give you an excuse to be able to do what you want, smoking crack and choosing to be homeless!! Kids will always need their parents no matter their age!
She’s in pain
@@Vistacraft82honesty doesn’t cover bad behaviour. She relished in the memory of how crack makes her feel.
@@zeala1 It seems you just want to talk. Who said honesty covers bad behaviour?? Who are you to judge a child born into a toxic home with an addict for a mom?
Her story is beyond words, my love to the queen💕. Sharing her truth✊🏾
This could've been me had I not made a conscience choice to quit drugs almost 30 years ago. My daughter was 8 and I was getting high. I got down on my knees one day and begged God to help me change. It was the hardest thing I've ever done. I thank God for freeing me from what my life could've been. I pray for you Zenobias, you can do it, it's scary dealing with the monsters of guilt and shame but if you don't confront them they will eat you alive..
There was a point where her Mom didn’t care that a lit match had been thrown into her hair… but by the end, after getting clean, her mom was looking for her on skid row while battling cancer… if mom did a 180, maybe you can too ❤
These are the words I wanted to see and didn't know how to say. Thank you
How very, very sad. I hope her children are happy and healthy, bless them.
Her transparency was amazing... I can feel her pain through the video, and I know she wants to get clean but with all that pain the drugs numbs everything and that is where she is comfortable. We all like being comfortable.
I appreciate the honesty of this woman. She spitting facts about how organizations coddle drug addicts and give them everything they need. No point in getting clean if your habit is supported
your tax dollars at work....
Eh it's not that easy. I'm sorry. I was an addict for 7 years there wasn't enough programs or medication to get off drugs luckily I got clean because I had family. Idk how she is so happy I was in hell depressed homeless knew I was bound for more and I'm lucky. I did get clean that life isn't fun at all
It's not easy to get clean I've been fighting this battle for 30 yrs.i have 7 yrs clean one day at a time. It's definitely been a journey
Thank u for sharing ur truth. Makes me realize me getting clean and making sure my children have no trauma is a major purpose because i didn't have that❤
she contradicts herself so much in the interview that it does feel like that's her entire M.O. meaning... every single moment of her life is full of conflict and uncertainty.... very illuminating to see someone speak so clearly about addiction.
Yeah, I thought the same thing, she was. Very said.
Uggh.....her honesty and the raw emotions that even she, high as a kite, cannot escape. So sad. God bless her and keep her safe!!
Wow so interesting and insightful. Her honestly is truly amazing. Hope she can find the peace that she deserves.
WOW! This was as honest as iv ever watched. She's right addiction is a disease. People give there whole lives just for the high. Shes such a lovely person, I hope you she finds happiness in the mix of the mayhem ❤
Zenobia I hope you see all these comments one day! We heard you touch on the pain you had to endure but you have a gift! I can't phrase it well but your honesty was just heart touching. Please don't give up on yourself. We are rooting for you
This in my opinion is the best SWU interview I've ever come across and I've seen a lot of them. There are so many striking things about this woman and yet the interview is so short!
As soon as the last rock is smoked, the guilt and shame floods back in, till you get another 30 second bell ringer. Vicious cycle
Probably one of the best interviews you’ve done. She was raw and real really told her story.
This interview touched my heart so. I pray and wish she finds her way home to her son. They both need each other.
She reminds me of my Dad. No shame addict. And she ain’t lyin.. they don’t be wanting to get clean they want to smoke crack. It’s sad for us but the best life ever in their mind
This was one of my favorite interviews… brutal honesty ❤😢
This channel has really humanized street drug addicts for me. To listen to them speak and really hear their pain is heart wrenching. I could really hear her soul crying in this interview. Very very sad. I hope she will find a way to help herself.
This woman is something special, she just need some one to hold her captive for two weeks and take her outta there … her message is so strong …. She being preserved for that reason for people to see the real truth, real pain, and love…. She knows ask her…
I respect her honesty. Alot of people her age who do drugs have no reason to quit. They have given up on a "normal" life and as long as they can get their drug they are happy.
Although mark claims he’s not an interviewer this one really shows otherwise. The first half of the interview she seems completely shameless and not at all regretful of her addiction. Once you start prying mark you cracked her hardened exterior and showed a glimmer of the pain behind it all. I wasn’t expecting to empathize this woman at the beginning but the vulnerability you peeled back showed such a raw pain. I can’t say I even begin to understand but at least now i empathize
I wish her well. I gotta say I love her voice
This one smoked everything away and appears to have no regrets.
She told her story so beautifully, I felt her emotion through all of this. I only have empathy and love for her.
It’s crazy how crack affects everyone differently… I’m amazed by how long she’s been battling this addiction & not strung out of her mind… meanwhile some have been on it for a shorter span & can’t even think straight…
She's doing what she loves, can't hate her for that. She's in love, in lust, glorifying the crack rock.
I've never seen anyone light up with such excitement for a drug.
I may not have done drugs, but my husband has been an addict all his life. I have been by his side. He has been clean the first time for 18 years, then he came off Suboxone and he relapse on heroin, he told me what he was doing! I punched him in the face. Then, I yelled at him for while. I thought about packing up my child and moving back home without him, but I decided to stay by his side. Now, he is clean for seven years again. If it wasn't for the Suboxone he would have died. He overdose four times, before he said something to me. He lied to my face and said his teeth were making him sick. I was dump enough not to see it. Now, I am in nursing school, and want to work in the addiction field and my husband is working on being a drug counselor.
Finally, an honest person.
What a courageous honest interview ❤
ugh hearing her say she doesn’t even want to see what the side of sober feels like. It’s just so foreign to her at this point, i get it. love these interviews. Thank you.
She is correct in what she says about the county rehab places. They enter addicted and leaves a better addict. These people canNOT have a chance to recover without proper detox first and these places do NOT have that. It is a myth that you keep them a week or so, let them suffer, than they recover. Zenobia has no idea how interesting she is. She has deep intelligence and a charm with authenticity that makes me want to listen to her. I hope she does make it. She has a son who loves her so much. She is worth so much more than this and she knows it.
Awww man this bought tears to my heart and eyes. Get better sis. God bless you . And forgive yourself
She got sucked into this addiction while her body and brain were still developing. So sad.
Damn. Crack is her long time lover. Bitter sweet I guess. How is she even still alive let alone this intelligent and animated ? She’s a great storyteller. She was honest and genuine.I am thankful I stopped by to watch her ❤❤