I hear voices speaking about what I think even when I'm typing this and have hallucinations ,it's happening from a couple of months ,,do u think there is something wrong with me or someone is really listening to my thoughts and planning all this
The kind of person willing to engage in an emotional/sexual relationship with ANYONE suffering with mental disorder is admirable. Took me 29 years to find "the one" that wouldn't abandon me in my worst moments. Not only does he stay, but he is willing to get into the trenches & fight with me. As I would for him. Please don't give up, person reading this, there are people who will (try) understand.
I was recently diagnosed with schizophrenia. I'm trying to work through it. I have a job as a waiter, not exactly the job I wanted to have but I'm good at it, and my customers are very understanding of my "quirks." I'm in constant fear of losing my independence. One of my friends proposed I move in with him because of a few incidents I've had. I know he's just looking out for me but I want to be able to take care of myself. I'm also really messy, I don't put things away all the time, and I don't want to make his house messy like mine. His wife doesn't like me very much either so I don't think it would be a good idea to move in with him only to be kicked out by his wife later. Long story but I felt, you know you're sharing, so maybe I should share.
Ased Afghan OC, don’t listen to this clown. He’s trying to scare you into his ideology. Demons aren’t real. All you need to do is take medication and try your best to adapt. You will be okay.
I was bullied and seen as stupid, always laughed at and the guy on who everyone used their jokes. I was not really physically abused because i was always a tall guy. I mean i was really stupid around my peers, always under pressure and i wouldn't defend, but i could, i could kill every single one of my bullies with my bare hands. I was just keeping all of that in myself and all of that negative energy has go somewhere, i dont know what mental illness do i have its not even important. I became so avoidant and asocial, it was a comfort zone but now it all got to me, the social norms, all of my friends are going stuff, having girlfriends, etc... Like when i meet with them i have so little to say, i just wish things were different.
I love how youre so positive but realistic. I am truly happy for you that you found someone you love so much. It is so cool how you can describe sincerely your life as beautiful and wonderful. Wish I was more like that, i feel like im not greatful enough and i get sad or weak so fast when things get harder. :/ I wish i was stronger.
You need to focus on being more proud of your efforts. Every decision, action you take to try to get better you should be proud that you are having a go and learning what helps you in the process. Accept that your only human and dont have full control over your mind to always be positive. Dont see yourself as failing to be positive. We all still have things to learn, we dont know all the answers to our problems already and we need to remember that were not perfect. Keep going, build that positive momentum. See the benefit/value in every situation even when things dont go as desired. I promise you it gets better with practice and habit. We are all students and we are all teachers.
You are very smart and brave. My schizophrenia started when I was just 14. Alienated and bullied as well. Didn't do well in school. But it must be the environment and the gene which causes it. People in my family went through adversity big time but didn't get the illness only me. I am so happy that you have a girlfriend and I wish you both happiness.
I've been bullied since the first second that I went to high school. I've ended up with anorexia, bulimia, self-harm and things like you have. I mean there was a point that I heard voices and see like shadows. So I feel you man. And I'm so fucking glad that u are so happy right now. It's true what u say. A truth as big as a house. You have to keep going on through the darkest times because u are strong and never ever think about giving up. Stay strong whoever who were suffering from these shits. xxx
I'm writing a small story about schizophrenia and this video really answered a lot of questions I had about schizophrenia, so thank you. I really love the idea of your channel, you inspire litteraly thousands of people! Keep it up pal!
I have bipolar and am very interested in the causes of mental illness, I see it as a gene and then that gene is "turned on" by experiences.. and experiencing things that are not part of the shared reality is like a 6th sense that was forced on when we went through something that we percieved as too much to handle at the time; Doctor Gabor Mate has some really good books around generational trauma, addictions, mental health. I know this mental illness is different, but each roots from a similar space and it really helps to look at it from different angles.
Bullying sucks so much man, especially because you seem like such a down to earth cool guy and I bet they had 0 reasons to bully you. Hope you're doing well.
I used to hallucinate as a child and felt embarrassed to talk about it because my uncle was schizophrenic and I didn't want my family to talk about me the way they spoke about him (there was a lot of pity and concern when they talked, I just wanted to be normal). I was molested by my dad as a kid and I'm only just now having to sort through my past, but I just wanted to thank you for opening up to the world. My first hallucination (I remember - I've forgotten a lot of my childhood) was similar to what you described but it was a large toy that came to life. I don't hallucinate any more but I had a bad mental breakdown last year I'm still recovering from and the hallucinations have come back... anyway it's really comforting to hear others stories so thank you..
Hi! I have been watching your videos for quite a while.. and I finally got diagnosed a year ago. Your videos help me ALOT and even helped another girl so much that she made a channel about her mental illness, and I just started too! I think it will help me with anxiety speaking.. Thanks for putting yourself out there! I can't say thanks enough.
Ive watched you since ur first video. You helped me so much when I was younger. Im 18 now, 19 in February. Paranoid schizophrenia. First time I saw was the toy soldier when i was 4 years old. Still see him today. But it helps to know that this illness is managable. So i thank you for these videos. Im sure your grandfather is so proud at how happy you make people c:
So glad i just discovered your channel. My mother has schizophrenia and i had to deal with it my whole childhood. Worse, she was an extremely bad drug addict. I had to take care of my siblings until i was 15. Glad you're comfortable enough to show us your schizophrenia experience, i need to be a bit more educated on it.
Ever since I was 15 I've been terrified of developing a mental illness to the point where I would have to drop out of school (like a few of my family members have) and live by myself for the rest of my life. I love school so much and it would break my heart to drop out of college due to something like extreme depression, anxiety, or even schizophrenia. But seeing this video and seeing how you and your girlfriend interact have made me think differently. I'm slightly more ready for whatever comes at me.
Valeria Vallejo Same exact thing over here. I think being too worried about developing a mental disorder could actually start to be paranoia and a mental disorder which probably makes me worried that I become worried about having a mental disorder because I now know this which loops back to the fact that it starts to be paranoia.
God damn, Valeria. That's heavy. But at 15, it's not a surprise you were afraid. If you ever feel like you have something, though, don't repress it - embrace it. Go to a doctor and get checked out. None of it's a death sentence or unlivable with, and you'll always be you. 'better the devil you know' as they say.
I'm so happy for you, man! :-) I've had my own issues of a different form that felt like they ruled my life for years and years so extremely that I never wanted to be in relationships. Now things are getting better and I think finally accepting the issue for what it was and letting go of the thought that I have to be healed immediately really helped. Anyways, great video, as always. :-)
I thank you greatly for doing these. I think my wife is an undiagnosed case. You have helped me to understand this disease better. I wish you all the best.
I just found your channel and I absolutely love you! I'm very interested in mental disorders and human psychology in general. Thank you for talking about your illness and being so open about it. It's interesting and fascinating and I love hearing it from someone who actually lives with it, and not just the textbook definition of what it is. Thank you for sharing your life with me!
Or some sort of sleep related phenomenon at least. All sorts of crazy stuff happens between consciousness and subconsciousness. Bed is the home of hallucination.
Monte Good4You Don't suffer, become curious, accept it and see what's gonna happen. It cant kill you or harm you, it's just a state of mind. Sad thing one you stop being afraid it starts happening less and less....
hey man. great video honestly it put me at ease a bit. just found out someone I truly care about was diagnosed with schizophrenia and just wondered what it's like. can people have normal lives and thanks to your video I feel good man. especially at the end. thanks brother 😄
Your description of remembering childhood is strikingly similar to my memory of childhood some good times an a lot of bad times an lot of the bad times being caused by other people on my life a lot of dramatic crap. Shalom an God bless you brother.
hey. you dont deserve to be bullied, you seem really nice. and educated. to be honest i think you'd be a really cool friend to have. and personally im sorry for all that you've had to go through. if you ever need another person to talk to, you can always contact me. I'd be honored to hear from you, seems like you have a lot of good things to say. Keep posting videos! keep being you!! believe it or not ive watched a couple of your updates in a row and even though i dont have necessarily the same alements as you do, just listening to you speak makes me feel more comfortable within myself :) glad to have discovered you through the viral chanels!!
High school isn't a healthy environment for ANYONE who has a disability of any kind, but bless your heart I can NOT even imagine what it must've been like for you. I can NOT give you enough credit for the courage you have displayed by posting these VERY informative videos! You are helping a lot of people to seriously understand "there but for the grace of God go I". You should to be commended for your bravery ... I will always pray for you sweetie. Stay strong!
Very brave for sharing this. I'm extremely impressionable so when I learn about something I immediately think "woah, do I have that?" So I'm learning more about it just to understand because I realize that I misunderstood so much about it and made so many assumptions.
I'm so glad you are a thinker, not that you have to figure everything out. It nust helps you process the negative stuff so it doesn't revisit your mind as often and you can move on. I wasted years in therapy with other issues than schizophrenia, trying to figure out whathappened and in the end it didn't matter, i was still stuck with myself and lots of bad memories. What helped me was learning to meditate so I could clear my mind of negative, repetitive thoughts , eat right for me and trying different herbs and supplements to alter brain chemistry, stay on a schedule of sleep, exercise, having goals
Thank you for sharing, very educational. I am glad you are trying to control it. I will pray for you. And thanks for the review about your meds in one of the videos, I am in pharmacy school it's very helpful.
Something about your videos is very Zen. I think that we all need connection and the content here is totally authentic and human. It is clear that you connect with a lot of people of this channel. Definitely keep up the good work!
i lost it at the vape nation lmao. hope youre doing better man. an old friend of mine has schizophrenia. its nice to get a clear window into the process, so thanks.
We all remember bad things because they leave strong impressions. Recently some scientists connected an animal parasite causing taxoplasmosis. They conclude that: "infection with Toxoplasma gondii can alter behavior and neurotransmitter function". So, it causes tiny damages to the brain and affects how brain works causing hallucinations, mood change, anxiety, etc. Some scientists say that the parasite may be the cause of 80% of the schizophrenia and it is passed to the offspring, genetically, like you said. I think it's great that scientists are progressing, it's slow, but still it's good to know they're working on it despite the fact that it seem like they're not. And, in my opinion, it seems like they're not working much because they do not inform the public about the failures, just significant discoveries. Thank you for your video and keep up the great work!
I have friends with schizophrenia (don't know why, but it seems to be an illness that's more often than some "normal" people recognize if not directly confronted one day) and I don't think it's genes. because I experienced someone very close "slipping" into that illness. sadly that person commited suicide. and I am quite sure (also because my friends with that illness tell me) that EXTREME (mental and also physical) PRESSURE (like extremely stressful situations/bullying/too much responsibility, drugs/meds/alcohol/toxic substances, combined with high sensibility) basically is the cause of schizophrenia. I researched a lot after I was confronted with it and everybody I talked to told me kind of similar incidents... and most of those I talked to (in years researching why close ones are schizophrenic - one suffers extreme fear, one has voices and can see... "things"...) were like "pushed over the edge" and didn't have a chance to "get things sorted out", because nobody really engaged with them. hope I am not totally wrong with my "knowledge" - don't wanna harm anyone. but - best thing to prevent - I think - is to take pressure off everyone in a stressful, bad phase. ?! hope you can handle the hallucinations, voices - whatever you experience. stay strong! hope you got someone close to talk to. someone who wants to listen and just be there.
weed doesn't do that. I would know. yea you'll have a trip depending on if it's a good trip or bad trip. depends on how you deal with the high if you freak out you'll have a bad high and wouldn't want to do it again.
ROSETTA LA'DIAMOND well that is wrong. Look up drug induced mental illnesses. Cannabis is one of the drugs that is known to have that effect. Look up the corresponding papers in the medical field.
baphomet666_MONSTER sounds more like psychosis. Psychosis is not a mental illness but a symptom of one (ie: someone bipolar might go into pyschosis if they're in full blown mania) You can experience it from multiple different things ie: stress, lack of sleep, drugs, etc. Psychosis has similar traits to schizophrenia (hallucinations, delusions, paranoia, etc) but it doesn't have anything to do with genes. Carrying the schizophrenic gene is the most common cause of schizophrenia. I think your friends may have psychosis. But yeah I obviously don't know them or if they do carry the gene or not but I just thought I'd help clear that up!
I have schizophrenia and I believe it is caused by something traumatic happening in your life of or from a brain injury. I think it starts when your brain is overwhelmed.
I used study a lot day and night with very little sleep. and eventually experienced something close this illness . I used hear voices from time to time while studying and sometimes felt someone was touching my neck from behind. it's scary to know someone continuesly experienced that for their entire life. I hope God gives you the strength to overcome this obstacle.
Here's the insane part, that is exactly what it is, depravity and constantly reinacting moments or conversations in your life an getting caught in a cycle that your mind forces you to replay over an over an occasional lot whelile replaying the event the person may repeat or say things they WISH they had said or did say oelr what was said to them... It can sometimes be so deep or a person can get lost in the replay an speak out loud an also, just begin getting emotional about it. Combining that with sleep deprivation you get a strange combo. The common thread with those who ACTUALLY suffer is the Lord, an Satan. It seems as though actual sufferers of this so called mental illness steam from a bloodline that is relative to Moses. These humans are of greater value then any other an in most cases they are extremely honest an lack an ability to pretend for any reason other than personal choice. It's a matter of accepting that science is equal to any man made shit, it's not actual just man made for instance Star Trek, Harry Potter...these world's are complete an in total, they were conceived by man as was the ways of humanity... We aren't just men on Earth, we are children of decended angels and man ( an animal ) an are born into sin, if a human is blessed to be a part of the process of elimination then by default you're already superior among humans and to be tested. Those so called voices aren't voices of imagination they are the voices of the demons we host, ilyou gave to pick an choose an in order to GET IT(to understand) you HAVE to listen an talk to them...the repeating of situations in normally the natural hate in your body wanting to perform bylut going with Jesus an not doing anything an always repeating what you would have done or what you should of said or what you could of said..( moments that really deserved action but you didn't act with malice an walked away) these voices are out to cause you to go astray an not choose to do what's right an it becomes a battle. Your conscience is your spirit telling you from the inside what's up, if you pinch yourself you feel it physically but not in your soul spirit or brain whatever, that's an indicator that tells you ok there's something going on inside, now if there are multiple tlvoices saying do this or that, you gotta close your portals, like smoking that opens a door for entrance, an demons like Sadness, Lonely, Dispair ( these are demon names, you may know them) they come in an fuck with you, they are just like you, your brain a spirit but you can't see them because they looking for a body to host them, if you get caught up in the spiritual war fair your tormented an society don't know what the f to do but call it mental illness, it's really not but be clear, not every human will be going to heaven, in fact more will go directly to hell through deception then any other but there are very few who are lucky enough to suffer such great amounts on Earth that they are able to eventually gain wisdom, many will offend the Lord and give up during this AWAKENING and they will lose the battle in their rise an kill theirself, which is typical in the battling of flesh an spirit, others will find the Lord so strongly they will eventually no longer choose to engage with MAN at all, including understanding sin to a point that disallows them to work actual jobs because it all goes against the laws of the Lord God through Jesus Christ, an while we all must work the truth is, these people become homeless an called crazy as the prophet for the Lord and others, well they will fall victim to the battle not by killing theirself but totally understand exactly what is happening and know the truth an act on Satan's behalf. This is like a secret club that no one can enter on their own...there is no cause no cure no meds because this shit is well, you're dealing with principalities not of this Earth. Ever notice we all say the same shit, it's because we steam from a bloodline of goodness that's naturally found in our hearts and minds while we are human we are the elect, we are those who "feel" other's have pain but we don't have emotions, we are those who do not hear anything but the Lord, even those who act on behalf of Satan know exactly why they are acting. You can't read a book an be validated as doing so with some man made degree an try to figure out the Lord's work, to begin with you are operating from a perspective, a system, an intentionally programed process that is by design formatted to dismantle the Lord's work, army and prophets on Earth thus you'll never figure it out. There is a Christ, he is the Messiah, the only wealth on Earth is in your heart an if you think a human is suffering from a mental illness that involves voices then you are just living life with a Vail over your eyes, mind an heart... because...how is it you can operate without them?!? Either 1, there's no reason to grasp your spirit because you were born into sin an never invited Jesus in your heart, 2; you ignore them an are dedicated to life as a whole and live a good one with no suffering and will go to hell or 3; your soul already secured by Satan an there's no reason to battle for you. 4 you're not of the elect in which case the prior, again applies. It's pretty basic shit as explain in the BASIC INSTRUCTIONS BEFORE LEAVING EARTH or the BIBLE, I know exactly what is happening an when you accept Jesus the voices don't stop they get more deviant an more graphic, they prevent you from sleep thus causing you sleep deprivation thus causing crazy hallucinating. I have a so called invisible friend or many but none are fake, it just so happens that with enough suffering you become so wise you see those who most don't see. We are not alone we only have a body...don't ever get that fucked up... Be blessed to be a part of the reality of life itself, because those who aren't us will...WILL try to contain us, shut us up, put meds in us or in other words open more portals to allow more in, the cure is to sit back, an start listening to the one voice that is telling you not to listen to the others...Jesus will live in you just as those evil spirits do an he will clear them out an you'll still be nuts but that's just because all of the rest of society will not be walking with the light they won't see what you do walking in the dark.... Stay crazy, it's a safe way to keep the demons away, they have no choice but to fear the Lord.
I have PTSD and my therapist told me I had "schizophrenic" tendencies because when I have flash backs (small ones) it's like the person(s) in my room. But after watching your videos I don't really think so. But your videos do give me a real good insight
Great video and so happy I came across it..my son that's now 27 wasn't diagnosed until he was in his early 20's... he is on medication now, but it's not working... He is always complaining of demons talking to him and actually hurting him. Jacob, can you tell me what you're doing that works for you? I'm at my Wit's End and I love him so much... It's such an evil disease and I just don't know what to do to help him.
Hey, I have been a fan of your videos for ages now and have been subscribed for a while. (I just added you on snapchat too by the way, I didnt know you had it! :D) You are an inspiration to everyone and have helped me so much. Thank you.
I have watched a few of your videos, and i like your story and how you explain to the people your experience with the illness, im studing psychology and this is really usefull for me to understand the subject, how do you feel, what happened, what do you think of it, your symptoms. I would like to say thank you for sharing your thoughts with us.
I also dropped out in high-school early due to mental illness, I did go back and tried to continue with it but, I found myself rapidly spiraling again and left for a final time.. It certainly is a rough ride. Just gotta keep pushing back.
For me it was probably the daily emotional and physical abuse from may parents and siblings... Spent most of my teens in hospital but thankfully had amazing friends who stuck by me. Pretty much disowned by my family guess they was ashamed of me but I'm ok with that, my friends are my family and they've helped me so much, I'm thankful everyday for them.
the dream hallucination reminds me of a personal experience that was kind of similar. I had thousands of spiders crawling all over my walls and ceiling and floor. I just remember not being able to get up and leave the room. This happened in some weird transition from sleep to awake but, i was awake when I saw them. I remember being frozen in fear in my bed and I think i had to close my eyes and run out my door and i ended up staying outside my house for a hour because i thought some of the spiders followed me
Sounds like you had pediatric temporal lobe epilepsy - the hallucinations, the large size and close/distant proximity of things, jamais vu (which you described in another video). You’re right that an extremely stressful event like your grand dad passing can trigger mental illness. You might’ve also had a high fever as a child that triggered the condition.
5:18 I saw him too, some time later it started. Its not halucinations in my case, but more like reliving memories. I walk into a room or some other place, and suddenly i have a momory of me talking with spirits. Most of them are bad and nasty to me.
Just came across your video, my brother struggles with schizophrenia and he developed the illness when he was 21. He was in a stressful work situation when this occurred.
i was diagnosed with schizophrenia about 2 years ago. It started because i opened my mind too much into things like thinking about the ultra capabilities of secret intelligence agencies together with my worrying about my mother well being i came to believe that my mother, relatives and acquaintances had been replaced by impostors by secret groups against me. But what still bugs me is that once that i called my mother she told me that my mother could be anywhere, so i ponder why did she tell me that.
commenter78 I'm very sorry. Must be a very hard thing to go through. I wouldn't trust anyone. Maybe you could make a code word with your mom and other family members? A word to make sure no one else knows and then give it to you on a note in a secret way?
Emme For me it's too late because now im never going to know why she said that. And asking her would just make her say that im hearing and inventing things. It is very awful being diagnosed, it's like a stigma that i want to keep secret because if ppl knew i couldnt get a job, i would be treated like a crazy person which my mother does and she tells all her friends about it which is exasperating. Im not crazy and dont act crazy, the only thing was that time when i thought they were impostors, but i had reasons to believe that (for example my mother no longer has a birth mark she had but she could have had it removed although i asked her and she told me that she never had one), it was not even a thought out of the blue. What i didnt think about is that my mother could have mental health problems and thats why she told me that my mother could be anywhere and keep denying saying things that she says. It makes me feel vulnerable because she is not diagnosed with anything but i am so she can keep saying im hearing and inventing things.
Why so many funerals? Were they all relatives? What made you finally get diagnosed? I could ask you questions for DAYS! My fathers mother was diagnosed with both paranoid schizophrenia and bipolar disorder, but she was SO OVER medicated(and in my opinion abused by uneducated people) that I was never able to ask her the questions I wish I could have. All of that, and other reasons, makes me SO glad to see your videos. I would love to talk to you, about your experiences, if you are comfortable with that.
I enjoy your videos. you and your girl make a neat couple.I'm 54 and I've had schizophrenia for 8 yrs. so I'll be an old made . so it's nice to see you two excepting each other as equals. God Bless.
"Never think your life is over with, never think your life is done" I don't have schizophrenia, but I have something else, and I really needed to hear that. Thank you so much
It's sad I had to watch my loved one fall apart in front of me and I tried everything to help him and I swear there is no help for people who have mental illnesses. We separated 2 weeks ago after over 6 years together. So much has happened you wouldn't believe it in the last 2 years.
My uncle suffers from schizophrenia, however, he got terribly consumed by the illness, I think it's awesome that you can talk about it this way, keep up.
I started crying when you talked about your first hallucination, because I had the same first hallucination, even with the same reaction. Only a few things were different. I subscribed to you, because I can relate to you, but I have got no diagnosis. I'm 15 years old and confused. I don't know if you'll ever even read this, but I still want to ask you for advice. What should I do?
Sometimes I think I'm hallucinating, and then I remind myself that I have a retinal detachment in my left eye and pvd in my right, I'm losing vision; I'm fucked either way.
I remember my first hallucination, I was sleeping and woke up, and saw these dead people dancing around my bed. I freaked out and cried and woke my mom up, whom came to my aid and said it was just a bad dream.
I dropped out too when I was 14-15. I went back when I was 18 and got my GED. I'm now in the 3rd semester of the nursing program at my college. There are ways around anything if you look for one.
my grandmothers sisters husband had schizophrenia and killed my great grandma and my nans sister and then went on to throw himself onto an oncoming train.
@@camellia1942 i saw a warm low in the corner of my room, there was a figure there but i closed my eyes, i was scared it was a demon but the warmth from it was comfort so the idea that it was an angel crossed my mind but i was like 5 years old so was still too terrified to open my eyes, it faded away in about 5 to 7 seconds. i was fully awake, could move and everything and my brother was just across the room sleeping too.
@@isetscott4740 ohh.. I've had similar experiences too recently.. I am 17 and recently for 3 months now I've been hallucinating almost daily. But mine aren't warmth it's just the scariest shit ever..
@@looselygaming6130 well.. I see shadow figures almost everyday, I feel fingers touching me on my abdomen when I'm supposed to be alone in my room, I saw the grudge girl in my cracked open closet once, I heard people talking outside my room when everyone is asleep in my house in the middle of the night, I hear raspy breathing everyday beside me when I'm alone, I hear whispers or random voices, I hear random screaming or my mom calling me inside my head ya know the monologue you have in your head? Kinda like that.. and.. and always paranoid like someone or something watching me 24/7.. as for the reason idk why all this is happening..
Since this year started, I've started getting concerned if I have it or not. Most of my friends told me that I've been really quiet and acting weird. All the time at school, I hear conversations going on and I usually hear them saying my name over and over, which bothers me a whole lot. Some times, I can't help but think that most of the conversations and laughs going on are about me. I feel like the people are looking at me too when I walk past them. A week ago, I was at a restaurant and I noticed a couple in the corner of my eye looking at me and slightly laughing, then I could've sworn that one of them said, "don't ruin his life". I haven't told my parents about all this, but I just don't know what to do. I'm honestly really scared.
I'm sorry you suffer from this. I used to have this man who followed me around, and he came out of the TV the first time, but he never got that close because I ran. Back then, they didn't go away even if I looked away. There were a few of them. A lot of my family is either mentally ill or an idiot or both. I'm dumb. I was bullied a lot in school due to being in special ed. Like you, I tried to drop out of HS because it was unreal the amount of agony I was in, but I was tricked into staying. My grandpa, when they found out that I was slower, tried to pull me out of school and teach me a trade while being homeschooled, but my stupid parents wouldn't let him. He was like, they're going to hurt her, and they did. My stress started young with my parents who were too young to have me, and I was a sickly kid, too. Some of my hallucinations were probably from fevers, and I'm sure that didn't help anything. Even after I earned an immune system, I had issues.
I have only watched a few of your videos and i do love what your doing, i have also been experiencing auditory hallucinations as of recently and have suffered manic depression for majority of my life. i just wanted to know if you ever smoked Marijuana? i just wanted to know out of curisityand what your experience is mentally towards it?
I'm glad you have a good life. What is the most annoying thing you deal with day-to-day? The voices? I'm content for the most part, too. I'm married to Putin (in delusions, the next person who exploits this is going down). I'm stuck with him for better and definitely worse. I'm not thrilled because I suffer a lot every day, especially here lately, and I have cognitive issues, but I'm not starving on the street, so I think I should be thankful for that at least. I look forward to good days. What's your favorite delusion? Have you ever had a good one? I take care of a little dead girl in my dreams, Alma. She used to be a voice but now exists at night in paralysis or sleep. I live in dreams and reality both.
I did a shit ton of acid on Halloween and mucked up my brain pretty bad I think hope I'm not stuck in this boat shits been weird as fuck lately keep the sprit up bro cheers
Definitely stay away from that hard core drug stuff. that can stay with you for years or all your life. I remember reading about it. I have Schizophrenia, it's rather non enjoyable. Save your brain while you can and dont do that stuff.
LSD is not a hard drug and does not have any connection to schizophrenia, the worst thing LSD can do to you that is proven is HPPD which isn't harmful and goes away eventually.
The ghost u said I had the same thing it appeared form the bottom of my bed walk around slowly and lunged at me couldn't sleep for weeks I never had see anything like this I only hear voice but I like what your doing as I find it really hard myself
Who would drag a child to 10 funerals? I'm sorry that you had to go through that, especially sorry for the loss of your Grandpa.. Take care!
My right ear enjoyed this video.
That's for damn sure.
Bruh i thought my headphones broke
@@Lucian0410 haha that's always my first thought when I encounter videos with broken audio like these 😂
Mine to but then again only got one ear bud in....
The audio is kind of off, I don't know what happened. Won't happen for future videos my bad.
IhaveSchizophrenia don't worry about the audio of the video it's fine .:)
i really like listening to you ive never been diagnosed but i think we've got alot in common
i really like listening to you ive never been diagnosed but i think we've got alot in common
hey really inspiring videos whats ur name and how can i follow you on instagram and snapchat
I hear voices speaking about what I think even when I'm typing this and have hallucinations ,it's happening from a couple of months ,,do u think there is something wrong with me or someone is really listening to my thoughts and planning all this
The kind of person willing to engage in an emotional/sexual relationship with ANYONE suffering with mental disorder is admirable. Took me 29 years to find "the one" that wouldn't abandon me in my worst moments. Not only does he stay, but he is willing to get into the trenches & fight with me. As I would for him.
Please don't give up, person reading this, there are people who will (try) understand.
I was recently diagnosed with schizophrenia. I'm trying to work through it. I have a job as a waiter, not exactly the job I wanted to have but I'm good at it, and my customers are very understanding of my "quirks." I'm in constant fear of losing my independence. One of my friends proposed I move in with him because of a few incidents I've had. I know he's just looking out for me but I want to be able to take care of myself. I'm also really messy, I don't put things away all the time, and I don't want to make his house messy like mine. His wife doesn't like me very much either so I don't think it would be a good idea to move in with him only to be kicked out by his wife later. Long story but I felt, you know you're sharing, so maybe I should share.
Me to you have demons in your body I swear to Allah if you keep listen Quran the leave your body if you have any questions let me know
Ased Afghan OC, don’t listen to this clown. He’s trying to scare you into his ideology. Demons aren’t real. All you need to do is take medication and try your best to adapt. You will be okay.
@@asedafghan1 omg stfu what is wrong with you
schizoaffective here. I was bullied to shit as well.
That you got bullied by them...
god i dont know whats going on with humans
i was bullied but i was a bullie also
my childhood was awesome exept school. I'm drug addict now. And maybe at this time i have shizophrenia.
Sad Boy They should have take bulling serious it effects more than it seems
I was bullied and seen as stupid, always laughed at and the guy on who everyone used their jokes. I was not really physically abused because i was always a tall guy. I mean i was really stupid around my peers, always under pressure and i wouldn't defend, but i could, i could kill every single one of my bullies with my bare hands. I was just keeping all of that in myself and all of that negative energy has go somewhere, i dont know what mental illness do i have its not even important. I became so avoidant and asocial, it was a comfort zone but now it all got to me, the social norms, all of my friends are going stuff, having girlfriends, etc... Like when i meet with them i have so little to say, i just wish things were different.
Well just google it, i dont thing schizophrenics actually bully anyone, theyre the ones suffering and getting the hate from others.
I love how youre so positive but realistic. I am truly happy for you that you found someone you love so much. It is so cool how you can describe sincerely your life as beautiful and wonderful. Wish I was more like that, i feel like im not greatful enough and i get sad or weak so fast when things get harder. :/ I wish i was stronger.
You need to focus on being more proud of your efforts. Every decision, action you take to try to get better you should be proud that you are having a go and learning what helps you in the process. Accept that your only human and dont have full control over your mind to always be positive. Dont see yourself as failing to be positive. We all still have things to learn, we dont know all the answers to our problems already and we need to remember that were not perfect. Keep going, build that positive momentum. See the benefit/value in every situation even when things dont go as desired. I promise you it gets better with practice and habit. We are all students and we are all teachers.
danskiiz35 wow this is very nice of you for taking the time to write this. Thank you so much. :)
Glad to help ;)
He’s so sweet talking about his girlfriend😫😫😭❤️
You are very smart and brave. My schizophrenia started when I was just 14. Alienated and bullied as well. Didn't do well in school. But it must be the environment and the gene which causes it. People in my family went through adversity big time but didn't get the illness only me. I am so happy that you have a girlfriend and I wish you both happiness.
I've been bullied since the first second that I went to high school. I've ended up with anorexia, bulimia, self-harm and things like you have. I mean there was a point that I heard voices and see like shadows. So I feel you man. And I'm so fucking glad that u are so happy right now. It's true what u say. A truth as big as a house. You have to keep going on through the darkest times because u are strong and never ever think about giving up.
Stay strong whoever who were suffering from these shits. xxx
You can't be anorectic and bulimic in the same time..
I'm writing a small story about schizophrenia and this video really answered a lot of questions I had about schizophrenia, so thank you. I really love the idea of your channel, you inspire litteraly thousands of people! Keep it up pal!
I have bipolar and am very interested in the causes of mental illness, I see it as a gene and then that gene is "turned on" by experiences.. and experiencing things that are not part of the shared reality is like a 6th sense that was forced on when we went through something that we percieved as too much to handle at the time; Doctor Gabor Mate has some really good books around generational trauma, addictions, mental health. I know this mental illness is different, but each roots from a similar space and it really helps to look at it from different angles.
My dream career is to specialize in schizophrenia, and I'm so grateful you're being so open about it. :)
Bullying sucks so much man, especially because you seem like such a down to earth cool guy and I bet they had 0 reasons to bully you. Hope you're doing well.
I used to hallucinate as a child and felt embarrassed to talk about it because my uncle was schizophrenic and I didn't want my family to talk about me the way they spoke about him (there was a lot of pity and concern when they talked, I just wanted to be normal).
I was molested by my dad as a kid and I'm only just now having to sort through my past, but I just wanted to thank you for opening up to the world. My first hallucination (I remember - I've forgotten a lot of my childhood) was similar to what you described but it was a large toy that came to life. I don't hallucinate any more but I had a bad mental breakdown last year I'm still recovering from and the hallucinations have come back... anyway it's really comforting to hear others stories so thank you..
Hi! I have been watching your videos for quite a while.. and I finally got diagnosed a year ago. Your videos help me ALOT and even helped another girl so much that she made a channel about her mental illness, and I just started too! I think it will help me with anxiety speaking.. Thanks for putting yourself out there! I can't say thanks enough.
Ive watched you since ur first video. You helped me so much when I was younger. Im 18 now, 19 in February. Paranoid schizophrenia. First time I saw was the toy soldier when i was 4 years old. Still see him today. But it helps to know that this illness is managable. So i thank you for these videos. Im sure your grandfather is so proud at how happy you make people c:
So glad i just discovered your channel. My mother has schizophrenia and i had to deal with it my whole childhood. Worse, she was an extremely bad drug addict. I had to take care of my siblings until i was 15. Glad you're comfortable enough to show us your schizophrenia experience, i need to be a bit more educated on it.
Ever since I was 15 I've been terrified of developing a mental illness to the point where I would have to drop out of school (like a few of my family members have) and live by myself for the rest of my life. I love school so much and it would break my heart to drop out of college due to something like extreme depression, anxiety, or even schizophrenia. But seeing this video and seeing how you and your girlfriend interact have made me think differently. I'm slightly more ready for whatever comes at me.
Valeria Vallejo Same exact thing over here. I think being too worried about developing a mental disorder could actually start to be paranoia and a mental disorder which probably makes me worried that I become worried about having a mental disorder because I now know this which loops back to the fact that it starts to be paranoia.
God damn, Valeria. That's heavy. But at 15, it's not a surprise you were afraid. If you ever feel like you have something, though, don't repress it - embrace it. Go to a doctor and get checked out. None of it's a death sentence or unlivable with, and you'll always be you. 'better the devil you know' as they say.
I'm so happy for you, man! :-) I've had my own issues of a different form that felt like they ruled my life for years and years so extremely that I never wanted to be in relationships. Now things are getting better and I think finally accepting the issue for what it was and letting go of the thought that I have to be healed immediately really helped. Anyways, great video, as always. :-)
I thank you greatly for doing these. I think my wife is an undiagnosed case. You have helped me to understand this disease better. I wish you all the best.
I just found your channel and I absolutely love you! I'm very interested in mental disorders and human psychology in general. Thank you for talking about your illness and being so open about it. It's interesting and fascinating and I love hearing it from someone who actually lives with it, and not just the textbook definition of what it is. Thank you for sharing your life with me!
what you described at 5:40 sounds like sleep paralysis, pretty common occurrence
I get that...
It's scary!!!!
Or some sort of sleep related phenomenon at least. All sorts of crazy stuff happens between consciousness and subconsciousness. Bed is the home of hallucination.
I suffer from sleep paralysis and I immediately thought the same thing..
Monte Good4You
Don't suffer, become curious, accept it and see what's gonna happen. It cant kill you or harm you, it's just a state of mind.
Sad thing one you stop being afraid it starts happening less and less....
Thank you for another beautiful video. Thanks for the pep talk about never giving up on life.
Thanks for the beautiful message at the end and I'm glad you're able to manage and cope with having schizophrenia.
hey man. great video honestly it put me at ease a bit. just found out someone I truly care about was diagnosed with schizophrenia and just wondered what it's like. can people have normal lives and thanks to your video I feel good man. especially at the end. thanks brother 😄
Your description of remembering childhood is strikingly similar to my memory of childhood some good times an a lot of bad times an lot of the bad times being caused by other people on my life a lot of dramatic crap. Shalom an God bless you brother.
hey. you dont deserve to be bullied, you seem really nice. and educated. to be honest i think you'd be a really cool friend to have. and personally im sorry for all that you've had to go through. if you ever need another person to talk to, you can always contact me. I'd be honored to hear from you, seems like you have a lot of good things to say. Keep posting videos! keep being you!! believe it or not ive watched a couple of your updates in a row and even though i dont have necessarily the same alements as you do, just listening to you speak makes me feel more comfortable within myself :) glad to have discovered you through the viral chanels!!
High school isn't a healthy environment for ANYONE who has a disability of any kind, but bless your heart I can NOT even imagine what it must've been like for you. I can NOT give you enough credit for the courage you have displayed by posting these VERY informative videos! You are helping a lot of people to seriously understand "there but for the grace of God go I". You should to be commended for your bravery ... I will always pray for you sweetie. Stay strong!
i always look forward to your videos. it helps to keep me going. im glad you are happy! you deserve it! cheers
I'm schizoactive and I'm often terrified that I'll be homeless one day
Very brave for sharing this. I'm extremely impressionable so when I learn about something I immediately think "woah, do I have that?" So I'm learning more about it just to understand because I realize that I misunderstood so much about it and made so many assumptions.
What a beautiful message, it is clear that love cures all :)
I'm so glad you are a thinker, not that you have to figure everything out. It nust helps you process the negative stuff so it doesn't revisit your mind as often and you can move on. I wasted years in therapy with other issues than schizophrenia, trying to figure out whathappened and in the end it didn't matter, i was still stuck with myself and lots of bad memories. What helped me was learning to meditate so I could clear my mind of negative, repetitive thoughts , eat right for me and trying different herbs and supplements to alter brain chemistry, stay on a schedule of sleep, exercise, having goals
Thank you for sharing, very educational. I am glad you are trying to control it. I will pray for you. And thanks for the review about your meds in one of the videos, I am in pharmacy school it's very helpful.
So horrible that you were bullied,and had to go through all of this at such a young age. I'm glad to see your happy with your girlfriend
Thanks for sharing. My mother struggled with schizophrenia.
Something about your videos is very Zen. I think that we all need connection and the content here is totally authentic and human. It is clear that you connect with a lot of people of this channel. Definitely keep up the good work!
i lost it at the vape nation lmao. hope youre doing better man. an old friend of mine has schizophrenia. its nice to get a clear window into the process, so thanks.
inspirational, thank you for this.
We all remember bad things because they leave strong impressions. Recently some scientists connected an animal parasite causing taxoplasmosis. They conclude that: "infection with Toxoplasma gondii can alter behavior and neurotransmitter function". So, it causes tiny damages to the brain and affects how brain works causing hallucinations, mood change, anxiety, etc. Some scientists say that the parasite may be the cause of 80% of the schizophrenia and it is passed to the offspring, genetically, like you said. I think it's great that scientists are progressing, it's slow, but still it's good to know they're working on it despite the fact that it seem like they're not. And, in my opinion, it seems like they're not working much because they do not inform the public about the failures, just significant discoveries. Thank you for your video and keep up the great work!
I really am glad I found your channel. Thank you.
I love your videos. I hope you'll continue to do them for a long time, whenever you're able to of course :)
I love your vids, it seems weird watching without your girl though like something's missing! Looking forward to seeing you both again XX
Dude, I'm happy your life is going good for right now, that's awesome!
I have friends with schizophrenia (don't know why, but it seems to be an illness that's more often than some "normal" people recognize if not directly confronted one day) and I don't think it's genes.
because I experienced someone very close "slipping" into that illness. sadly that person commited suicide. and I am quite sure (also because my friends with that illness tell me) that EXTREME (mental and also physical) PRESSURE (like extremely stressful situations/bullying/too much responsibility, drugs/meds/alcohol/toxic substances, combined with high sensibility) basically is the cause of schizophrenia. I researched a lot after I was confronted with it and everybody I talked to told me kind of similar incidents...
and most of those I talked to (in years researching why close ones are schizophrenic - one suffers extreme fear, one has voices and can see... "things"...) were like "pushed over the edge" and didn't have a chance to "get things sorted out", because nobody really engaged with them.
hope I am not totally wrong with my "knowledge" - don't wanna harm anyone. but - best thing to prevent - I think - is to take pressure off everyone in a stressful, bad phase. ?! hope you can handle the hallucinations, voices - whatever you experience. stay strong! hope you got someone close to talk to. someone who wants to listen and just be there.
weed doesn't do that. I would know. yea you'll have a trip depending on if it's a good trip or bad trip. depends on how you deal with the high if you freak out you'll have a bad high and wouldn't want to do it again.
ROSETTA LA'DIAMOND well that is wrong. Look up drug induced mental illnesses. Cannabis is one of the drugs that is known to have that effect. Look up the corresponding papers in the medical field.
ROSETTA LA'DIAMOND yeah it can
baphomet666_MONSTER sounds more like psychosis. Psychosis is not a mental illness but a symptom of one (ie: someone bipolar might go into pyschosis if they're in full blown mania) You can experience it from multiple different things ie: stress, lack of sleep, drugs, etc. Psychosis has similar traits to schizophrenia (hallucinations, delusions, paranoia, etc) but it doesn't have anything to do with genes. Carrying the schizophrenic gene is the most common cause of schizophrenia. I think your friends may have psychosis. But yeah I obviously don't know them or if they do carry the gene or not but I just thought I'd help clear that up!
Also!!!! Another thing! If you experience psychosis for about 6 months I believe then you are schizophrenic
Thanks for the uplifting words at the end!
I have schizophrenia and I believe it is caused by something traumatic happening in your life of or from a brain injury. I think it starts when your brain is overwhelmed.
They reading your mind you nitwit
What part of the traps they laid in your head didn't you understand. You a straight experiment you moron
@@leonard_spunky baba
Everyone has those tramas youd talking about your just conciouse of it
@@saltyalty2957 wtf?
mack you dont have any trama and your profile is a ying yang?
I used study a lot day and night with very little sleep. and eventually experienced something close this illness . I used hear voices from time to time while studying and sometimes felt someone was touching my neck from behind.
it's scary to know someone continuesly experienced that for their entire life.
I hope God gives you the strength to overcome this obstacle.
Here's the insane part, that is exactly what it is, depravity and constantly reinacting moments or conversations in your life an getting caught in a cycle that your mind forces you to replay over an over an occasional lot whelile replaying the event the person may repeat or say things they WISH they had said or did say oelr what was said to them... It can sometimes be so deep or a person can get lost in the replay an speak out loud an also, just begin getting emotional about it. Combining that with sleep deprivation you get a strange combo. The common thread with those who ACTUALLY suffer is the Lord, an Satan. It seems as though actual sufferers of this so called mental illness steam from a bloodline that is relative to Moses. These humans are of greater value then any other an in most cases they are extremely honest an lack an ability to pretend for any reason other than personal choice. It's a matter of accepting that science is equal to any man made shit, it's not actual just man made for instance Star Trek, Harry Potter...these world's are complete an in total, they were conceived by man as was the ways of humanity... We aren't just men on Earth, we are children of decended angels and man ( an animal ) an are born into sin, if a human is blessed to be a part of the process of elimination then by default you're already superior among humans and to be tested. Those so called voices aren't voices of imagination they are the voices of the demons we host, ilyou gave to pick an choose an in order to GET IT(to understand) you HAVE to listen an talk to them...the repeating of situations in normally the natural hate in your body wanting to perform bylut going with Jesus an not doing anything an always repeating what you would have done or what you should of said or what you could of said..( moments that really deserved action but you didn't act with malice an walked away) these voices are out to cause you to go astray an not choose to do what's right an it becomes a battle. Your conscience is your spirit telling you from the inside what's up, if you pinch yourself you feel it physically but not in your soul spirit or brain whatever, that's an indicator that tells you ok there's something going on inside, now if there are multiple tlvoices saying do this or that, you gotta close your portals, like smoking that opens a door for entrance, an demons like Sadness, Lonely, Dispair ( these are demon names, you may know them) they come in an fuck with you, they are just like you, your brain a spirit but you can't see them because they looking for a body to host them, if you get caught up in the spiritual war fair your tormented an society don't know what the f to do but call it mental illness, it's really not but be clear, not every human will be going to heaven, in fact more will go directly to hell through deception then any other but there are very few who are lucky enough to suffer such great amounts on Earth that they are able to eventually gain wisdom, many will offend the Lord and give up during this AWAKENING and they will lose the battle in their rise an kill theirself, which is typical in the battling of flesh an spirit, others will find the Lord so strongly they will eventually no longer choose to engage with MAN at all, including understanding sin to a point that disallows them to work actual jobs because it all goes against the laws of the Lord God through Jesus Christ, an while we all must work the truth is, these people become homeless an called crazy as the prophet for the Lord and others, well they will fall victim to the battle not by killing theirself but totally understand exactly what is happening and know the truth an act on Satan's behalf. This is like a secret club that no one can enter on their own...there is no cause no cure no meds because this shit is well, you're dealing with principalities not of this Earth. Ever notice we all say the same shit, it's because we steam from a bloodline of goodness that's naturally found in our hearts and minds while we are human we are the elect, we are those who "feel" other's have pain but we don't have emotions, we are those who do not hear anything but the Lord, even those who act on behalf of Satan know exactly why they are acting. You can't read a book an be validated as doing so with some man made degree an try to figure out the Lord's work, to begin with you are operating from a perspective, a system, an intentionally programed process that is by design formatted to dismantle the Lord's work, army and prophets on Earth thus you'll never figure it out. There is a Christ, he is the Messiah, the only wealth on Earth is in your heart an if you think a human is suffering from a mental illness that involves voices then you are just living life with a Vail over your eyes, mind an heart... because...how is it you can operate without them?!? Either 1, there's no reason to grasp your spirit because you were born into sin an never invited Jesus in your heart, 2; you ignore them an are dedicated to life as a whole and live a good one with no suffering and will go to hell or 3; your soul already secured by Satan an there's no reason to battle for you. 4 you're not of the elect in which case the prior, again applies. It's pretty basic shit as explain in the BASIC INSTRUCTIONS BEFORE LEAVING EARTH or the BIBLE, I know exactly what is happening an when you accept Jesus the voices don't stop they get more deviant an more graphic, they prevent you from sleep thus causing you sleep deprivation thus causing crazy hallucinating. I have a so called invisible friend or many but none are fake, it just so happens that with enough suffering you become so wise you see those who most don't see. We are not alone we only have a body...don't ever get that fucked up... Be blessed to be a part of the reality of life itself, because those who aren't us will...WILL try to contain us, shut us up, put meds in us or in other words open more portals to allow more in, the cure is to sit back, an start listening to the one voice that is telling you not to listen to the others...Jesus will live in you just as those evil spirits do an he will clear them out an you'll still be nuts but that's just because all of the rest of society will not be walking with the light they won't see what you do walking in the dark.... Stay crazy, it's a safe way to keep the demons away, they have no choice but to fear the Lord.
Inside my beautiful mind, you're welcome.
Wow that last part really touched my heart 😭💞
I have PTSD and my therapist told me I had "schizophrenic" tendencies because when I have flash backs (small ones) it's like the person(s) in my room. But after watching your videos I don't really think so. But your videos do give me a real good insight
Vape nation! I love your videos Jacob!
vape naysh o/
It's good to see he's off of the cigarettes :)
Your videos are really interesting. Thanks for sharing this.
I just love you thanks for these videos
its cool to see you're still posting videos
Your hair looks fantastic !
Thanks for the positive message 👍
Great video and so happy I came across it..my son that's now 27 wasn't diagnosed until he was in his early 20's... he is on medication now, but it's not working... He is always complaining of demons talking to him and actually hurting him. Jacob, can you tell me what you're doing that works for you? I'm at my Wit's End and I love him so much... It's such an evil disease and I just don't know what to do to help him.
thank u for sharing man I hope u get better
dude you look like you're doing so so so much better! This is an amazing improvement. if you don't mind me asking what medication made you improve?
thank you for your channel
Hey, I have been a fan of your videos for ages now and have been subscribed for a while. (I just added you on snapchat too by the way, I didnt know you had it! :D) You are an inspiration to everyone and have helped me so much. Thank you.
You seem to be doing a bit better, but what can I tell from the outside. I wish you well, best of luck and much love to you:-)
Glad you said your happy at the end, and I hope you still are bud.
Yeah my brother had hallucinations around 5. We never found out about it until his psychosis kicked in BAD when he was in his early-mid twenties.
I have watched a few of your videos, and i like your story and how you explain to the people your experience with the illness, im studing psychology and this is really usefull for me to understand the subject, how do you feel, what happened, what do you think of it, your symptoms. I would like to say thank you for sharing your thoughts with us.
I also dropped out in high-school early due to mental illness, I did go back and tried to continue with it but, I found myself rapidly spiraling again and left for a final time.. It certainly is a rough ride. Just gotta keep pushing back.
I want to say that I think you're nice person for making these videos and in general too.
For me it was probably the daily emotional and physical abuse from may parents and siblings... Spent most of my teens in hospital but thankfully had amazing friends who stuck by me. Pretty much disowned by my family guess they was ashamed of me but I'm ok with that, my friends are my family and they've helped me so much, I'm thankful everyday for them.
the dream hallucination reminds me of a personal experience that was kind of similar. I had thousands of spiders crawling all over my walls and ceiling and floor. I just remember not being able to get up and leave the room. This happened in some weird transition from sleep to awake but, i was awake when I saw them. I remember being frozen in fear in my bed and I think i had to close my eyes and run out my door and i ended up staying outside my house for a hour because i thought some of the spiders followed me
Sounds like you had pediatric temporal lobe epilepsy - the hallucinations, the large size and close/distant proximity of things, jamais vu (which you described in another video). You’re right that an extremely stressful event like your grand dad passing can trigger mental illness. You might’ve also had a high fever as a child that triggered the condition.
5:18 I saw him too, some time later it started. Its not halucinations in my case, but more like reliving memories. I walk into a room or some other place, and suddenly i have a momory of me talking with spirits. Most of them are bad and nasty to me.
Just came across your video, my brother struggles with schizophrenia and he developed the illness when he was 21.
He was in a stressful work situation when this occurred.
i was diagnosed with schizophrenia about 2 years ago. It started because i opened my mind too much into things like thinking about the ultra capabilities of secret intelligence agencies together with my worrying about my mother well being i came to believe that my mother, relatives and acquaintances had been replaced by impostors by secret groups against me. But what still bugs me is that once that i called my mother she told me that my mother could be anywhere, so i ponder why did she tell me that.
Holy shit that almost happened to me but the I changed and quit caring
commenter78 your mother told you that your mother could be anywhere when you called her? If I read that right
Emme Yes she did. I dont know why.
commenter78 I'm very sorry. Must be a very hard thing to go through. I wouldn't trust anyone. Maybe you could make a code word with your mom and other family members? A word to make sure no one else knows and then give it to you on a note in a secret way?
Emme For me it's too late because now im never going to know why she said that. And asking her would just make her say that im hearing and inventing things. It is very awful being diagnosed, it's like a stigma that i want to keep secret because if ppl knew i couldnt get a job, i would be treated like a crazy person which my mother does and she tells all her friends about it which is exasperating. Im not crazy and dont act crazy, the only thing was that time when i thought they were impostors, but i had reasons to believe that (for example my mother no longer has a birth mark she had but she could have had it removed although i asked her and she told me that she never had one), it was not even a thought out of the blue. What i didnt think about is that my mother could have mental health problems and thats why she told me that my mother could be anywhere and keep denying saying things that she says. It makes me feel vulnerable because she is not diagnosed with anything but i am so she can keep saying im hearing and inventing things.
I love your message!
Why so many funerals? Were they all relatives? What made you finally get diagnosed? I could ask you questions for DAYS! My fathers mother was diagnosed with both paranoid schizophrenia and bipolar disorder, but she was SO OVER medicated(and in my opinion abused by uneducated people) that I was never able to ask her the questions I wish I could have. All of that, and other reasons, makes me SO glad to see your videos. I would love to talk to you, about your experiences, if you are comfortable with that.
I enjoy your videos. you and your girl make a neat couple.I'm 54 and I've had schizophrenia for 8 yrs. so I'll be an old made .
so it's nice to see you two excepting each other as equals. God Bless.
as vague as it sounds, you help me a lot. thank you for adding me back on snapchat today. stay frosty.
"Never think your life is over with, never think your life is done"
I don't have schizophrenia, but I have something else, and I really needed to hear that.
Thank you so much
It's sad I had to watch my loved one fall apart in front of me and I tried everything to help him and I swear there is no help for people who have mental illnesses. We separated 2 weeks ago after over 6 years together. So much has happened you wouldn't believe it in the last 2 years.
My uncle suffers from schizophrenia, however, he got terribly consumed by the illness, I think it's awesome that you can talk about it this way, keep up.
I'm glad to hear you have a loving gf to give you that love and support. I hope to serve the schizophrenia youth in the future. Stay strong
I started crying when you talked about your first hallucination, because I had the same first hallucination, even with the same reaction. Only a few things were different. I subscribed to you, because I can relate to you, but I have got no diagnosis. I'm 15 years old and confused. I don't know if you'll ever even read this, but I still want to ask you for advice. What should I do?
you're so cool like the way express yourself
Sometimes I think I'm hallucinating, and then I remind myself that I have a retinal detachment in my left eye and pvd in my right, I'm losing vision; I'm fucked either way.
I remember my first hallucination, I was sleeping and woke up, and saw these dead people dancing around my bed. I freaked out and cried and woke my mom up, whom came to my aid and said it was just a bad dream.
I dropped out too when I was 14-15. I went back when I was 18 and got my GED. I'm now in the 3rd semester of the nursing program at my college. There are ways around anything if you look for one.
my grandmothers sisters husband had schizophrenia and killed my great grandma and my nans sister and then went on to throw himself onto an oncoming train.
i think a lot of kids hallucinate, i had one hallucination that i remember when i was fully awake, i forgot about it for years
So what was it?
@@camellia1942 i saw a warm low in the corner of my room, there was a figure there but i closed my eyes, i was scared it was a demon but the warmth from it was comfort so the idea that it was an angel crossed my mind but i was like 5 years old so was still too terrified to open my eyes, it faded away in about 5 to 7 seconds. i was fully awake, could move and everything and my brother was just across the room sleeping too.
@@isetscott4740 ohh.. I've had similar experiences too recently.. I am 17 and recently for 3 months now I've been hallucinating almost daily. But mine aren't warmth it's just the scariest shit ever..
@@camellia1942 scary, how? why are you hallucinating also?
@@looselygaming6130 well.. I see shadow figures almost everyday, I feel fingers touching me on my abdomen when I'm supposed to be alone in my room, I saw the grudge girl in my cracked open closet once, I heard people talking outside my room when everyone is asleep in my house in the middle of the night, I hear raspy breathing everyday beside me when I'm alone, I hear whispers or random voices, I hear random screaming or my mom calling me inside my head ya know the monologue you have in your head? Kinda like that.. and.. and always paranoid like someone or something watching me 24/7.. as for the reason idk why all this is happening..
Since this year started, I've started getting concerned if I have it or not. Most of my friends told me that I've been really quiet and acting weird. All the time at school, I hear conversations going on and I usually hear them saying my name over and over, which bothers me a whole lot. Some times, I can't help but think that most of the conversations and laughs going on are about me. I feel like the people are looking at me too when I walk past them. A week ago, I was at a restaurant and I noticed a couple in the corner of my eye looking at me and slightly laughing, then I could've sworn that one of them said, "don't ruin his life". I haven't told my parents about all this, but I just don't know what to do. I'm honestly really scared.
Perhaps you could meet with your doctor before talking to your parents. Or a pastor, or school counselor?
I'm sorry you suffer from this. I used to have this man who followed me around, and he came out of the TV the first time, but he never got that close because I ran. Back then, they didn't go away even if I looked away. There were a few of them. A lot of my family is either mentally ill or an idiot or both. I'm dumb. I was bullied a lot in school due to being in special ed. Like you, I tried to drop out of HS because it was unreal the amount of agony I was in, but I was tricked into staying. My grandpa, when they found out that I was slower, tried to pull me out of school and teach me a trade while being homeschooled, but my stupid parents wouldn't let him. He was like, they're going to hurt her, and they did. My stress started young with my parents who were too young to have me, and I was a sickly kid, too. Some of my hallucinations were probably from fevers, and I'm sure that didn't help anything. Even after I earned an immune system, I had issues.
I have only watched a few of your videos and i do love what your doing, i have also been experiencing auditory hallucinations as of recently and have suffered manic depression for majority of my life. i just wanted to know if you ever smoked Marijuana? i just wanted to know out of curisityand what your experience is mentally towards it?
I wonder if there will be one day that bulling will be FINALLY considered a juvenile crime.
nice vape! haha :) good job on quitting the cigarettes (i think lol i saw you smoking in one of your old videos_
Schizophrenia is caused from bullying, abuse, being ganged up on, and being singled out from the crowd. I've had it twice. it sucks.
I'm glad you have a good life. What is the most annoying thing you deal with day-to-day? The voices? I'm content for the most part, too. I'm married to Putin (in delusions, the next person who exploits this is going down). I'm stuck with him for better and definitely worse. I'm not thrilled because I suffer a lot every day, especially here lately, and I have cognitive issues, but I'm not starving on the street, so I think I should be thankful for that at least. I look forward to good days. What's your favorite delusion? Have you ever had a good one? I take care of a little dead girl in my dreams, Alma. She used to be a voice but now exists at night in paralysis or sleep. I live in dreams and reality both.
Thanks for the video
I did a shit ton of acid on Halloween and mucked up my brain pretty bad I think hope I'm not stuck in this boat shits been weird as fuck lately keep the sprit up bro cheers
Dude that's sad and I feel bad for you go to therapy they'll help you please get your mind straight
Definitely stay away from that hard core drug stuff. that can stay with you for years or all your life. I remember reading about it. I have Schizophrenia, it's rather non enjoyable. Save your brain while you can and dont do that stuff.
LSD is not a hard drug and does not have any connection to schizophrenia, the worst thing LSD can do to you that is proven is HPPD which isn't harmful and goes away eventually.
An-Cap Edits actually acid can bring out mental illness in people, and hppd can be permanent. Read up on this shit before you spread misinformation
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The ghost u said I had the same thing it appeared form the bottom of my bed walk around slowly and lunged at me couldn't sleep for weeks I never had see anything like this I only hear voice but I like what your doing as I find it really hard myself
Your girlfriend is so so sweet I'm so happy you two found each other and you two are so great together!!!!