the anxiety overstimulation when nothing is right is so real. i love u des - thank u for always showing us both your highs and lows and keeping it real. hoping u get into a routine and you become less anxious. this video was great as are all others
I found that eliminating caffeine from my life really helped my anxiety. It makes me have a tight feeling in my chest and my mind go crazy. Ngl, the first week without caffeine was hell but now I feel great! Maybe trying that would help your anxiety too :)
This is so true. I find it so tempting to try again when I see all the girlies drinking these yummy coffee drinks but I know overall caffeine just isn't for me
Watching her drink those 200mg of caffeine aulani drinks and then having anxiety makes me want to scream, those drinks made me feel like I was going crazy I had to completely stop them in October
The way that you say that your anxiety is so bad and then immediately reach for your energy drink makes me soooo sad that you don't realize that those two things are more than likely linked in a negative way. 💖
When you started talking about you not imagining yourself being 25 I felt that so hard. I’m 26 now and still feel like a 16 year old. Like I still remember being in my room staying up late on school nights being on my iPod scrolling through my secret instagram account and tumblr 😭😭
I love all of your videos but I appreciate your vlogs so much and how real you keep it sharing the highs and lows and in betweens. It means a lot to me that you share about your mental health struggle and anxieties and you actually go into depth about what it is that keeps you up at night. So many people say they’re struggling but don’t elaborate, not that we are owed that kind of personal information but it can lead to people feel ing like they’re weird or alone in their struggles. The part where you were talking about aging really resonated with me, because I’m turning 25 this year (🤢) which seems completely unreal and i have been having the same thoughts regarding time and aging. I still feel like I’m stuck in my 19 year old mind sometimes always looking back and wishing that I could’ve held on to those moments just a little bit longer. I’ve been doing therapy and really working on myself for the past year and a half and that’s helped me immensely to recognize where my fear stems from and knowing that I have a future full of potential and new experiences that might be better than the ones I’m trying to hold on to ahead of me, but hearing from someone around my demographic verbalize the same fears reminds me that we are not struggling alone. Also the part when you were talking about being overstimulated by clothes and makeup girl same. Sometimes I just have to take everything off and wrap myself up in a blanket in a dark room and just breathe deeply before I can feel like a human again. 🙃 Don’t ever apologize for being authentic or talking about something that’s on your mind. This is your channel and we’re here for you. 💗
I have really bad anxiety naturally and when I used to be addicted to caffeine it was 100x worse. exactly what you described you feel physically was exactly how I felt. stomach issues, constant ache like you need to escape out of you skin, nothing sounding interesting enough to do/extreme tiredness during withdrawals etc.. I feel so sad watching you struggle, not knowing a way out. I see there are quite a lot of people in the comments trying to convey the same message as me. I know you are a smart girl and you will make your own conclusions but I only pray you can see the comments insisting that you are not the problem. may God bless and guide you through this time in your life destiny.
37:24 Would love to see a video on what bible studies you do, if you do any and are open to it!!! Makes me so anxious to do it sometimes but I want to and know I need to!
I don’t usually comment, but I just had to comment that I love your videos and I relate to all your anxiety problems.😂 it’s so refreshing to see someone be unapologetically their self.
just wanted to comment and say thank you for showing the ugly side of having anxiety every time you talk about your anxiety I relate to 100% of what you say and it’s just cool to know that I’m not alone in feeling the things that I do so thank you for making us all feel seen!!
19:30 SAMEEEEE. I am a high anxiety also and its just my brain *feeling* everything on me, near me, etc. I do what I can to fix it (if possible) and try to take deep breaths
I never usually comment on RUclips but Des you are literally me. I have never seen a girl who is so like me before. How you describe your anxiety, to being overstimulated, even to the stomach ulcers and not being in the mood to do anything. You are me. Sending love ❤
thank you for just being you destiny seriously i absolutely love your videos, the way you edit them and just in general your personality. so much joy comes to me when you upload
You are my favorite RUclipsr because the way you describe your anxiety is exactly how I feel, it has been so comforting to know I’m not alone, so thank you
"Trapped in your skin and you want to claw your way out" its excess caffeine. I know bc i started consuming caffeine again (i need it to keep up with work) and i started feeling the same way. If you're not going to give up caffeine, extreme cardio helps; running will help for sure.
I have done a few half marathons and have been training for a marathon this year. Definitely don’t expect your training plan will go perfectly, you’ll figure out what works for you, stay consistent and eventually you’ll get better and better!
I live for your vlogs they help me so much! Also, would you make a video all about planners, journals and how to get into the habit of using one and all the supplies you love/use for planning???
I'm so glad you mentioned the overstimulation with makeup & clothes, I get that way on bad mental health days and it makes me feel 10x worse. I thought I was crazy, I'd never heard anyone who related before!
i love how your so honest about your anxiety, because SAME BESTIE!!! if i’m not worrying about something there’s a problem literally 😭😭😭 it’s so debilitating but it’s nice to be reminded that im not alone, and i also intake too much caffeine which probably makes it worse but i can’t stop 😭😭😭😭
33:37 I’m about to be 21 as well and the thought of it actually makes me physically I’ll. I relate so so so hard about feeling like you took your teen years for granted, like babes where did they go I was just 16?!?!
destiny omg EVERYTHINGGG you were saying about getting older is so relatable 😭even tho i have like no words of comfort i just wanted to say thank you for voicing literally everything i've been feeling, and i too avoid everything that makes me anxious lol.
I just want to say I understand the overstimulation so bad! And the anxiety! Also I think you’re amazing and even though you’re nervous to get older, as someone who had a very hard time in my 20’s I hope you can embrace every year! You inspired me to do that for my 30’s. Also our birthdays are really close together! Mine is the 28th and I’m turning 29! So we can celebrate your 21st year and my 29th year cause we’re feeling similar. I’m scared to be 30 but taking every year as it comes!
my RUclips screen time for the past week was 28 hours...and was all your videos😂ive been watching while doing everything, reading, working out, cooking, driving, puzzles, everything!!!!
19:30 yes! Sometimes everything around me just annoys/ overwhelms me (like clothes, glases, furniture around me ect) to the point I wish I could just take off my hair😂
Getting older doesn’t phase me. I had a wreck the day after I turned 20 that I shouldn’t have survived. So I’m just glad to still be here. But I had my son when I was 21 and for me personally, I started counting his birthdays instead of mine. So, he’s 5, I’m still 21. He’s 10, I’m still 21. He’ll be 16 at the end of May and it turns out, I’ll actually be 37. 🙈 but I’ll still be in my 30s when he heads off to college so.. that’s a win. I think.
sometimes I wish people would leave advice on the problems in your videos. the „putting your stuff in the random places“ or „not doing something and then thinking about it again and again for hours“ because I relate soo much 😭
To want to be a runner, my best advice would be to not worry about the pace and just try to hit the distance. You will enjoy it more! And also, it’s addicting! I started off with a 5k and did every race in between and ending at a marathon. I’m a one and done with marathon lol but the half’s are my favorite since the training isn’t as long or hard as marathon training. You can do it!
Just being an adult now feels like every single day is the same cycle over and over again. I feel like a robot somedays and I hate it lol. Wake up> gym> work>eat>sleep. Mon-friday, sat-sunday survive, get ready for the next week, clean cook, over and over. Glad someone else relates to adulthood..
this past week i was in the same slump :// it felt reassuring to know that i'm not the only one that goes through the same anxious thoughts. cheering you on in all your goals this year! this year my goal is to start reading more :) and im starting off with the ACOTAR series
I work at a bookstore and we got flame and shadow in and I flipped through it... So much serotonin. It's so beautiful, we are also having a midnight release party 😊
i relate to your feelings about reminiscing about your teens. the quarantine stole so much from me because what do you mean i graduated uni. i feel like i froze in 2018. the clock keeps ticking and will never stop. anyways! love the vid 💓
Hey Des! 😘 Truly as always I love watching your videos, they motivate me a lot and more those days when I feel sad or discouraged, and today is one of those days 😔. I can completely understand what you struggle with almost every day, anxiety is not easy and that not everyone understands. I admire you a lot and thank you for always giving us your time making these videos that in my case I enjoy a lot and they motivate me 🥺. And more those in which you talk about books, as a lover of romance books and reading in general, is something I adore 🥰.
these vlogs i LIVE FOR also the anxiety thing about the party cause same.. i can socialise up to a point but id get too overwhelmed even thinking about it
Loving this video watching it several hours before my college interview and it’s helping me de-stress a little bit until I stop watching. My anxiety is well high about my college interview ❤
completely relate to all the anxiety you experience in this video! therapy has helped me so much with my anxiety and i strongly believe everyone with anxiety should at least try therapy
love love love the weekly vlogs! i also love seeing your gym/half marathon prep it’s inspiring! side note…where is that new pink rug from? it is so cute
Love the new rug! From a anxiety suffer I had to cut down on caffeine. 😢😢 I did a little but I bit the bullet and tried anxiety medicine and it’s amazing and no side effefts
relating so hard to the fear of growing up. I was 20 and finishing college when the pandemic started and I cannot comprehend the fact I am turning 25 this year. doesn’t make sense in my brain. I think we were all put in some time warp the last 4-5 years
I say this with the utmost respect because I know it’s vulnerable to talk about mental health struggles. But have you ever thought about going on anti-anxiety medicine? I got on them last year after I had what felt like a months long panic attack and my life changed incredibly. I just hate seeing someone struggle but I’m glad you are open about it and I hope you’re feeling less anxious now than you were last week 💓
Omg, I love those notebooks especially the main two that I saw, the brown like clip one and the planner planner!! If you can, can you link where you got those they are just so cute!!
5:44 omg lol that’s so weird. I know how you feel. Something like that just happened to me today. I had a set of wheels to my set of drawers for my desk and I been looking for them. I remember I put them in a ziplock bag and kept it near my desk for when I would want to put them on to roll my drawer cabinets around. I looked everywhere. A day later after looking I came home grabbed a piece of paper from my printer and all a sudden they were magically right there. I tell you it’s the weirdest thing. I know I looked there. It was never there before. Kind of creepy.
the anxiety overstimulation when nothing is right is so real. i love u des - thank u for always showing us both your highs and lows and keeping it real. hoping u get into a routine and you become less anxious. this video was great as are all others
I found that eliminating caffeine from my life really helped my anxiety. It makes me have a tight feeling in my chest and my mind go crazy. Ngl, the first week without caffeine was hell but now I feel great! Maybe trying that would help your anxiety too :)
Caffeine is a huge trigger for anxiety and a lot of other health issues. I cut it out a long time ago too.
Same. I stopped drinking caffeine in March 2023 because it was making my anxiety worse.
This is so true. I find it so tempting to try again when I see all the girlies drinking these yummy coffee drinks but I know overall caffeine just isn't for me
@@samcnick3950you can drink them with decaf love ❤️
Watching her drink those 200mg of caffeine aulani drinks and then having anxiety makes me want to scream, those drinks made me feel like I was going crazy I had to completely stop them in October
AHHHH 40 min vid from des!!!! my day has been made. we love you des thank u for all that u do
The way that you say that your anxiety is so bad and then immediately reach for your energy drink makes me soooo sad that you don't realize that those two things are more than likely linked in a negative way. 💖
When you started talking about you not imagining yourself being 25 I felt that so hard. I’m 26 now and still feel like a 16 year old. Like I still remember being in my room staying up late on school nights being on my iPod scrolling through my secret instagram account and tumblr 😭😭
I love all of your videos but I appreciate your vlogs so much and how real you keep it sharing the highs and lows and in betweens. It means a lot to me that you share about your mental health struggle and anxieties and you actually go into depth about what it is that keeps you up at night. So many people say they’re struggling but don’t elaborate, not that we are owed that kind of personal information but it can lead to people feel ing like they’re weird or alone in their struggles.
The part where you were talking about aging really resonated with me, because I’m turning 25 this year (🤢) which seems completely unreal and i have been having the same thoughts regarding time and aging. I still feel like I’m stuck in my 19 year old mind sometimes always looking back and wishing that I could’ve held on to those moments just a little bit longer. I’ve been doing therapy and really working on myself for the past year and a half and that’s helped me immensely to recognize where my fear stems from and knowing that I have a future full of potential and new experiences that might be better than the ones I’m trying to hold on to ahead of me, but hearing from someone around my demographic verbalize the same fears reminds me that we are not struggling alone. Also the part when you were talking about being overstimulated by clothes and makeup girl same. Sometimes I just have to take everything off and wrap myself up in a blanket in a dark room and just breathe deeply before I can feel like a human again. 🙃
Don’t ever apologize for being authentic or talking about something that’s on your mind. This is your channel and we’re here for you. 💗
her consistency is amazing go des !
I have really bad anxiety naturally and when I used to be addicted to caffeine it was 100x worse. exactly what you described you feel physically was exactly how I felt. stomach issues, constant ache like you need to escape out of you skin, nothing sounding interesting enough to do/extreme tiredness during withdrawals etc.. I feel so sad watching you struggle, not knowing a way out. I see there are quite a lot of people in the comments trying to convey the same message as me. I know you are a smart girl and you will make your own conclusions but I only pray you can see the comments insisting that you are not the problem. may God bless and guide you through this time in your life destiny.
37:24 Would love to see a video on what bible studies you do, if you do any and are open to it!!! Makes me so anxious to do it sometimes but I want to and know I need to!
I don’t usually comment, but I just had to comment that I love your videos and I relate to all your anxiety problems.😂 it’s so refreshing to see someone be unapologetically their self.
This is all the encouragement I need to really start saying goodbye to Christmas Break. Love your vids!!
just wanted to comment and say thank you for showing the ugly side of having anxiety every time you talk about your anxiety I relate to 100% of what you say and it’s just cool to know that I’m not alone in feeling the things that I do so thank you for making us all feel seen!!
Yes a 40 minute video. Exactly what I need for my night routine before going to bed❤
It’s so refreshing to see a raw video of just your everyday routine with books sprinkled in. I want to be on your level of organized!
Omg I can't believe you're not even 21 yet. You're so mature and independent and such a hard worker. I'll be 37 this year and you inspire me lol :)
19:30 SAMEEEEE. I am a high anxiety also and its just my brain *feeling* everything on me, near me, etc. I do what I can to fix it (if possible) and try to take deep breaths
I never usually comment on RUclips but Des you are literally me. I have never seen a girl who is so like me before. How you describe your anxiety, to being overstimulated, even to the stomach ulcers and not being in the mood to do anything. You are me. Sending love ❤
thank you for just being you destiny seriously i absolutely love your videos, the way you edit them and just in general your personality. so much joy comes to me when you upload
I will preface this by saying I drink energy drinks too and I’m a nurse. I guarantee the energy drinks are probably causing 80% of your anxiety.
Exactly true.
You are my favorite RUclipsr because the way you describe your anxiety is exactly how I feel, it has been so comforting to know I’m not alone, so thank you
"Trapped in your skin and you want to claw your way out" its excess caffeine. I know bc i started consuming caffeine again (i need it to keep up with work) and i started feeling the same way. If you're not going to give up caffeine, extreme cardio helps; running will help for sure.
Genuinely you inspire me in so many ways and make me feel like i can make my channel successful
i would literally watch a 3 hour vlog if you made one i love these so much
a 40 minute vlog to watch while i set up my planner for the next semester is just chefs kiss
I have done a few half marathons and have been training for a marathon this year. Definitely don’t expect your training plan will go perfectly, you’ll figure out what works for you, stay consistent and eventually you’ll get better and better!
I live for your vlogs they help me so much! Also, would you make a video all about planners, journals and how to get into the habit of using one and all the supplies you love/use for planning???
The way i got so happy when i heard you picked up a bible 🥺🥺 instantly made you even more of my favorite person!
I'm so glad you mentioned the overstimulation with makeup & clothes, I get that way on bad mental health days and it makes me feel 10x worse. I thought I was crazy, I'd never heard anyone who related before!
i love how your so honest about your anxiety, because SAME BESTIE!!! if i’m not worrying about something there’s a problem literally 😭😭😭 it’s so debilitating but it’s nice to be reminded that im not alone, and i also intake too much caffeine which probably makes it worse but i can’t stop 😭😭😭😭
33:37 I’m about to be 21 as well and the thought of it actually makes me physically I’ll. I relate so so so hard about feeling like you took your teen years for granted, like babes where did they go I was just 16?!?!
destiny omg EVERYTHINGGG you were saying about getting older is so relatable 😭even tho i have like no words of comfort i just wanted to say thank you for voicing literally everything i've been feeling, and i too avoid everything that makes me anxious lol.
i love your convos to the camera always my favorite part of your videos!!
the realest and most comforting person ever
I adore when you talk so much, I see so much of me in what you say. The 75 hard business, I tried and I was miserable!
I just want to say I understand the overstimulation so bad! And the anxiety! Also I think you’re amazing and even though you’re nervous to get older, as someone who had a very hard time in my 20’s I hope you can embrace every year! You inspired me to do that for my 30’s. Also our birthdays are really close together! Mine is the 28th and I’m turning 29! So we can celebrate your 21st year and my 29th year cause we’re feeling similar. I’m scared to be 30 but taking every year as it comes!
I also have an Etsy shop of bookish things I’d like to send you some things so look out for those! 👀
my RUclips screen time for the past week was 28 hours...and was all your videos😂ive been watching while doing everything, reading, working out, cooking, driving, puzzles, everything!!!!
19:30 yes! Sometimes everything around me just annoys/ overwhelms me (like clothes, glases, furniture around me ect) to the point I wish I could just take off my hair😂
Getting older doesn’t phase me. I had a wreck the day after I turned 20 that I shouldn’t have survived. So I’m just glad to still be here. But I had my son when I was 21 and for me personally, I started counting his birthdays instead of mine. So, he’s 5, I’m still 21. He’s 10, I’m still 21. He’ll be 16 at the end of May and it turns out, I’ll actually be 37. 🙈 but I’ll still be in my 30s when he heads off to college so.. that’s a win. I think.
sometimes I wish people would leave advice on the problems in your videos. the „putting your stuff in the random places“ or „not doing something and then thinking about it again and again for hours“ because I relate soo much 😭
thank you for being so relatable, you look great btw
To want to be a runner, my best advice would be to not worry about the pace and just try to hit the distance. You will enjoy it more! And also, it’s addicting! I started off with a 5k and did every race in between and ending at a marathon. I’m a one and done with marathon lol but the half’s are my favorite since the training isn’t as long or hard as marathon training. You can do it!
Every second of this vlog is so relatable😂💕🥹🌻
destiny's vlogs are always so motivating
Just being an adult now feels like every single day is the same cycle over and over again. I feel like a robot somedays and I hate it lol. Wake up> gym> work>eat>sleep. Mon-friday, sat-sunday survive, get ready for the next week, clean cook, over and over. Glad someone else relates to adulthood..
this past week i was in the same slump :// it felt reassuring to know that i'm not the only one that goes through the same anxious thoughts. cheering you on in all your goals this year! this year my goal is to start reading more :) and im starting off with the ACOTAR series
I work at a bookstore and we got flame and shadow in and I flipped through it... So much serotonin. It's so beautiful, we are also having a midnight release party 😊
finally someone understands the drink vs snack type. i swear i’ll only eat 2 meals but i’ll have 4-5 different types of drinks throughout the day
Right before you said you were having a bad self image day, I was literally thinking to myself, wow destiny is so beautiful! Not even kidding! ❤
Yes!!! A forty-minute video is exactly what I needed today. Love your videos Des💕
i relate to your feelings about reminiscing about your teens. the quarantine stole so much from me because what do you mean i graduated uni. i feel like i froze in 2018. the clock keeps ticking and will never stop. anyways! love the vid 💓
Hey Des! 😘 Truly as always I love watching your videos, they motivate me a lot and more those days when I feel sad or discouraged, and today is one of those days 😔. I can completely understand what you struggle with almost every day, anxiety is not easy and that not everyone understands. I admire you a lot and thank you for always giving us your time making these videos that in my case I enjoy a lot and they motivate me 🥺. And more those in which you talk about books, as a lover of romance books and reading in general, is something I adore 🥰.
yay we love a week in my life vlog 🤍🤍🤍🤍
love the 40 minute video! perfect excuse to watch and procrastinate all of my responsibilities 🩷
40 min video from des = my happiness
I love Libby! And I’m so glad you are listening to Educated!! That book was 🤯🤯
i loove your long vlogs, you just made my day
I've been watching your old videos all day bc i missed u this video is a blessing thank u
these vlogs i LIVE FOR
also the anxiety thing about the party cause same.. i can socialise up to a point but id get too overwhelmed even thinking about it
des this vlog motivated me sm to continue going to the gym daily!! love LOVE the vlogs!!
Destiny posted yey!. Literally the dopamine jumped so high
Loving this video watching it several hours before my college interview and it’s helping me de-stress a little bit until I stop watching. My anxiety is well high about my college interview ❤
completely relate to all the anxiety you experience in this video! therapy has helped me so much with my anxiety and i strongly believe everyone with anxiety should at least try therapy
love love love the weekly vlogs! i also love seeing your gym/half marathon prep it’s inspiring! side note…where is that new pink rug from? it is so cute
" I just exist, and I stress. " girl same....
Literally everything you said about your anxiety is exactly how I feel
I loved Des saying - “this is me jumping over the moon” 🥰😹 she’s so frickin cute
Love that you use Erin Condren planners!! They are the best!! 💛💛
" THIS IS ME JUMPING OVER THE MOON "
BRUH FR I LOVE YOU GURL 😂😭😂😭🩷
i love these vloggsssss makes my whole day
Love the new rug! From a anxiety suffer I had to cut down on caffeine. 😢😢 I did a little but I bit the bullet and tried anxiety medicine and it’s amazing and no side effefts
relating so hard to the fear of growing up. I was 20 and finishing college when the pandemic started and I cannot comprehend the fact I am turning 25 this year. doesn’t make sense in my brain. I think we were all put in some time warp the last 4-5 years
my fav youtuber!
ahhhh yes vlog from des = best day ever!!!🩷🩷
I need the green cargo sweats you're wearing at 17:50 !! please bestie im hyper fixating
Another amazing vlog 😍🥰 such a comfort youtuber ❤
I love your vids so much!
loving all these back to back posts!!!❤❤❤❤
I say this with the utmost respect because I know it’s vulnerable to talk about mental health struggles. But have you ever thought about going on anti-anxiety medicine? I got on them last year after I had what felt like a months long panic attack and my life changed incredibly. I just hate seeing someone struggle but I’m glad you are open about it and I hope you’re feeling less anxious now than you were last week 💓
You’re from Minnesota?!? Yes girlll!! Represent us in the cold 🥶 ❤
i love your weekly vlogs so much 🫶🏽
The “chugging water” part, YES. I feel like 🫠🫢 every time 😂
des the soda part where u take it out of the fridge honestly made me cackle its so funny and relatable
Omg a video exactly when I need one!!! 💓💓p.s when you read house of flame and shadow I’d love to see a spoiler section in a video!
the way i squealed when u talked abt me meeting you in barnes BYEEE it was so nice meeting you girl!!❤️
i LOVE seeing the 40+ minute vlog🤭🤭
Watching your vlogsis such validating experience.
Omg, I love those notebooks especially the main two that I saw, the brown like clip one and the planner planner!! If you can, can you link where you got those they are just so cute!!
9:43 I hate when I’m in this mood cause nothing brings me enjoyment and I just have to steer at the wall for a while until I’m out of the mood 😔
Love your videos destiny!! ❤
I’m sending you love and rest too!🖤🖤🖤
Omg no way me and my fav booktuber have the same birthday that’s so fun omg
Oh my gosh, I have over half the books in the stack on the thumbnail in my TBR this month! Twinsies! Haha
40 minute volg ❤ Yes!! I
this slays so hard ♡
the eagles sweatshirt is soooooo hannah elise
OMG YES haha i thought that too when i saw it. I love seeing other hannah girlies in the wild
Barnes also did the midnight release for Iron Flame- they list it on their events list on their website
Hey Des! Where are your planners from? This year I want to stay more organized and I think having a planner could really help me!!
Over-caffeination causes anxiety so be careful!
Can you share the details on where you got your new prints from? Specifically the Cowboy Like Me. I’m OBSESSED
5:44 omg lol that’s so weird. I know how you feel. Something like that just happened to me today. I had a set of wheels to my set of drawers for my desk and I been looking for them. I remember I put them in a ziplock bag and kept it near my desk for when I would want to put them on to roll my drawer cabinets around. I looked everywhere. A day later after looking I came home grabbed a piece of paper from my printer and all a sudden they were magically right there. I tell you it’s the weirdest thing. I know I looked there. It was never there before. Kind of creepy.