now i'm alone
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- Опубликовано: 22 авг 2024
- this one is about a year old at this point but it's one of my favorites i've written. also, been trying to learn how to sing with my chest voice a little more since recording firearm so go easy on me lol i know this one sounds a little different but i like the tone my voice has.
hope you enjoy :)
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lyrics:
i remember the first time i moved away from all my friends
i was way too young to know i'd never see them ever again
but that would happen more and more as i got older
it became sort of a trend
i'd float from school to school what felt like almost every other year
finding people i belonged with, trying my best to keep them near
but things were out of my control see i was just a pawn
next summer i'll be gone
sometimes i wonder if i stayed, would i have known them still today?
moving up throughout the grades and making memories on the way
but i don't think i'd be the person i turned out to be
it sucks but made me me
now i'm alone
feeling so empty cause all my friends are gone
far away from me years passed since we last talked
wonder how they're doin hope they're well
my mind's far gone
singin to my walls like they can hear my songs
cryin over things i made up in my thoughts
what a silly way to spend my tears
i've found that i cannot remember what it's like to have a friend
someone in my life around that i'll be with until the end
everyone i know lives states away and they have lives
i don't wanna take their time
i met them years ago because i played so many video games
and ever since we've kept in touch but i'm so far it don't feel the same
i feel terrible i'd like to talk more often
but got nothin to say
i think that after all those years of having friends around to see
only knowing them online creates a disconnect for me
if only i had stayed in touch with kids i knew in town
i'd have people around
but i'm alone
feeling so empty cause all my friends are gone
far away from me years passed since we last talked
i hope they all found their better half
my mind's far gone
singin to my walls like they can hear my songs
cryin over things i made up in my thoughts
what a silly way to spend my tears
i wish i knew
i wish that we didn't have to move
i wish that the years could have been smooth
but that's all i can do
i miss my friends
i wish that i had talked much more with them
i wish i could have seen that it would end
i'd do it all again
but i'm alone
feelin so empty cause all my friends are gone
far away from me years passed since we last talked
still hope they all found their better half
my mind's far gone
singin to my walls like they can hear my songs
cryin over things i made up in my thoughts
what a silly way to spend my tears
I moved 11 times throughout the first 15 years of my life. I relived childhood trauma when was 14 for a year traveling the country in my freshman year in an RV. I never been able to keep friends. The only friends I still have I rarely spend time with. This song has genuinely made me cry. 22 years of my life was controlled by trauma and self isolation. Thank you for such a beautiful piece of art.
Holy crap I'm at work man. I'm trying to do my job lol. Fuck I relate too hard too this.
❤️❤️❤️
@@ryanthegardner listening to your music I have actually take a break from because it's so hard to listen too. Thank you.
@mattalden10 thank you dude. i never thought that anything i’ve made so far could affect someone so much lol they’ve always just been words i melodically yell at my walls 😄
@@ryanthegardner I did the same when i practiced guitar back in the middle of highschool. Never sung. Mostly its imaginary conversations.
Can you put this songs on Spotify? Pls?
i’ve been stuck on this for a couple days. lyrics are extremely relatable…
thanks for making such a beautiful song 🥲
this is incredible man
you better put this shit on spotify
I'm downloading this immediately
also instant sub after only a few seconds of the first song. I feel like this is exactly what i am looking for in music.
Me listening this while reading "I fell in love with hope" ❤
As a person that moved around a lot as a kid, this hit me hard. Thank you for making this :)
lost all my friend's every one of them i cared about them and they were like my second faimly we would be together all day at school then all day after school then we had a falling out there still in my town but im on my own now some did treat me very well others not so much but i loved them all like brothers and sisters its all over now i feel your pain sorry that it had to happen to you too
so sorry you had to go through that :(
@@ryanthegardner im just following my dreams to work on the railroad now id be happy doing what ive allways dreamed of doing
Even though we broke off our friendship a long time ago, I still appreciate you
yes, you hurt me, yes, you traumatized me
but
I still consider you my friend
at least because of what you did, those happy moments that we experienced in this place have not
gone away, and I remembered you as a little girl who wished me only the best, even if that's not the case now.
But
I'm happy even without you.
I decided that I would be happy for you and for myself
now we are different people
and I am glad that you appeared in my life
but now
goodbye.
i love this
damn bro i love your songs smmmmmmm
ty :)
A nice comforting tune; truly relaxing.
Beautiful
Found another gem of a music!
Ts so fucking relatable wtfff❤❤❤
good song like the flow and you sound great... hope your back feels better XD
thank you 😂
real
This is so good! You're super unrated! I hope you get more views.
your voice, so calming :)
ts so bbeautiful ma,n
Ouch
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