From overeating, undereating, to still healing. ❤️🩹 Wanted to be transparent about my destructive eating behaviors shaped by childhood, trauma, and some health scares
Hi I love ur content and i appreciate how u educate us, I was wondering if u cld talk abt somatotypes in your next fitness or body image video. Thanks❤
wow, i actually cried a bit while watching this. when i was a kid, my mom wasn't really strict about food but as i grew older and hit puberty, i gained weight and my mom showed a different side of hers that I've never seen before. she hid everything that had carbs or sugar in it from me, and after a while i eventually lost lots if weight.. now let's talk about my early 20s. i was constantly worried about my body, i had poor eating habits ( i would not eat anything for days and just eat an apple because "that's what's right").. after a while i started thinking "why do i care so much?". that was the start of overeating for me. i ate EVERYTHING i wanted ANYTIME. which made me lose my sleep and I wasn't fully satisfied no matter how much i ate. i would have cramps and my stomach would feel like it's gonna explode. then eventually, i started therapy. (i had many other issues like anxiety and major depression at that time) now i'm 25, that's a whole journey. it has been over 10 years and i still try to fix my relationship with food. i wish the best for everyone, you got this!!! and also, zoey, thank you so much for documenting your life and experience. it made me feel less alone. different countries, languages yet so many of us had similar experiences. 🤍 love you all
"my mom showed a different side of hers that I've never seen before. she hid everything that had carbs or sugar in it" Sounds like she cares about you.
As a ballet dancer I can’t explain how I so randomly appreciate the Swan Lake music in the background. Also as a ballet dancer who struggled with food and still struggles with food I really appreciate the video and your brave transparency about your experiences.
@@dfjulesful it really depends on the studio, some studios I’ve been with encouraged Ed’s others strongly discouraged them. It’s prevalent in ballet but a lot of ballerinas come to a point where they need to choose career or Ed because of how much it can physically take a toll on you. I hope this answered some of your questions, let me know if you have any others.
Oml, as a recovering ED patient, and someone fighting to get through this exact thing while surrounded by friends and family who are well meaning but out of their depth this is just so helpful. Thank you so much Zoe XOXO
This video hits close to home, but it is so beautifully made and soothing to the soul for some reason. I am still trying to manage loosing some weight and healing my gut issues, and I think I'm really starting to get onto the right past.
Zoe you helped me so much you don’t even know. I was always insecure about my weight because all my friends were skinnier than me. I started to starve my self and even purge after eating because I felt guilty when I ate, weather I ate a lot or didn’t. I lost weight and was happy but I gained it all back and was super sad and depressed about it. Ever since I found your channel I started realizing the importance of health and how much it affects weight. I’m now 48kg and I’m very happy about it! I don’t stress over my weight but instead I’m happy with my Body and all the progress. I eat healthy and exercise daily but I also make sure to have fun. I still sometimes struggle with my image but I always remember my progress and that I’m not fat and ugly and I’m still in this health journey. For everyone out there who is reading this, I know you can do it too!
“wasting of the food” actually my problem too. when i was a kid the portions were to big for me, but my family never allowed to left any piece of food on a plate. i learned it in my 20s, and i also learned portion control. changed my eating habits, and started choosing food i like (big discovery was that i prefer vegetables, don’t like fried food, and can eat dessert kinda rare). im still learning to really enjoy the food, but i love how this journey going ✌🏻
Portion control is definitely key. I've seen so many "appetizers" that can be a meal on it's own (full large plate). You dont need that much food before your meal.
@@Anonymous__S Same, i dont get appetizers even if they're small since I get full fast. Free bread at restaurants are dangerous for me, I'll be full before the food comes lol
@@carolinatorres7575Appetizers are meant to be split between multiple people ( at least in my country) so that's why they're large. So if you're in a company of two its better to pick two main courses or appetizers and share them
This video is so refreshing. One of my OCD behaviours is compulsively eating as a form of punishment. It’s been so bad in the last few years that despite meds and a lot of therapy I’m scheduled for bariatric surgery. When I was a kid it was actually my Dad who was really strict with making my sister and I finish everything on our plates and then when I was about 10 this completely switched to I was eating too much. And suddenly eating became a shameful thing that should be done in secret and anytime I knew I would be alone my first thought would be I have to eat. At like 11 I’d wake up in the middle of the night just to eat because I could do it alone. It wasn’t about being hungry. It was about how much food I could consume without anyone knowing about it. Anyway if anyone feels like this I’d recommend talking to a doctor or therapist about it as soon as possible. I’m 32 and I wish I’d talked about it sooner because I could have kept myself from having so many health issues. I’m just coming through it now and seeing light at the end of the tunnel. Don’t leave it too long like I did! (Edited for typos)
Sounds like binge Ed. I swear the while clean plate club has done so much damage! I was lucky that I was never forced to finish all my food but I still struggle with binging at times
Not gonna lie, sometimes I get nervous with the titles and imagining what the content will be but once I watch I’m always comforted. Zoe has such a good way of storytelling and explaining her perspective. Thanks for talking about these topics!
im recovering from an ed and this video is just... so helpful. In two years i went from underweight to overweight and it's been a cycle of destructive habits, but this was very eye opening to triggers, helpful advice and ACTUAL healthy advice. great job and thank you
I don't think she'll read this, but in many European countries, people have the right to their own image. It means you cannot take pictures/photograph people without their consent, even in public. Passerby people is a different thing. But people are especially sensitive about children here. You might wanna check the laws in the country before filming in a cafè and zooming in on a random child.
She steals people's TikTok videos and embellishes her videos with them to make her videos look ✨ aesthetic ✨ without their permission, you think this girl has any ethics or consideration 😭 Often people successful at the top in certain fields lack certain morals. Some of the TikTok and IG reels she uses are even of teenagers....so...
@@LovelyLittleLillies I was talking about hard laws, not ethics or consideration. Using videos that have been uploaded for public consumption is another subtopic. At least in Europe, using clips I think up to 30 seconds for citation, embellishment or otherwise is legal. You might think that's a cold way of looking at it, and it certainly is, I just wanted to point out that some things that are legal in the US aren't legal in Europe.
@@annawitter5161 in my country, if there are less than 5 people in the background, they don't count as a faceless crowd and you need their permission to show their faces and voices
GIRL I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW FAR YOU HAVE COME. I WAS LITERALLY FOLLOWING YOU SINCE YOU HAD LIKE 100K SUBS. I REALLY WANT YOU TO MAKE A SERIES THAT IS DEVOTED TO MAKING OUR RELATIONSHIP WITH FOOD HEALTHY AND HOME WORKOUTS ❤
i've had this exact relationship with food for almost my whole life but never thought anyone else would also experience the same thing. this video really helped me put into words what i went through since childhood, and it's so comforting to know that i'm not the only one who feels this way. let's all heal together
as someone who had anorexia in high school which stemmed from years of 'dieting' and 'watching my weight' in fucking primary school (thanks mum, really appreciate that one) this video hit hard. thanks for sharing your story, it means a lot to hear this
I can relate so hard with the parent not wasting food thing. When I was younger I’d overeat to the point of vomiting at restaurants because my parents praised me for eating well.
Same!! I’ve only recently began to try only eating what I need to eat to be satisfied, but it’s still hard since I feel guilt doing so. I’m hoping it will be easier in college.
The ending... I'm not the best with words- but I'll just say that it was beautiful, I was crying out of care and relief, and I really appreciate it Zoe. Thank you ❤
My mom was the same, but she would verbally abuse me to finish my food and would only allow me to leave the table when I started gagging or vomiting. So, after a while, I developed a habit of eating everything in front me to make her feel happy, then run to the bathroom and vomit the entire meal out. And so my journey with ED begun 🖤
Zoe you were never overweight... You were pretty and normal looking then in my honest opinion. You are much thinner now and still pretty, it hurts when you called your old self "fat".
"do u really want to cheat ur own body?" that jus flipped this switch in me and i feel so motivated to try and get better.....ur truly a life saver, I cannot thank u enough I've been suffering from an ed and when I first clicked at one of ur videos i felt like u were this really confident omnipotent woman with such a strong attitude and now I'm just so blessed to have had come across ur channel ur like the voice giving me the elderly advice i so require but never got.
Thank you so much for this video, no words more than sharing all my support for speaking out about this and the internal pressure we all put on ourselves, thank you so much ♥
I saw all the négative comments about your weight on you shorts, so I wanted to have a response from you about it. I'm happy to see that you're healing. I used to restrict food, and even though I now eat normally, as I still want to loose wheight (in a healthy way this time) I sometimes still think stuff like "maybe I shouldn't eat" or "I ate too much" etc. It takes a long time to recover but we can do it ❤️💪 Also as a french person everytime you talked about how good french food is I was like "VOILÀ ÇA C'EST LA FRANCE !!!" 😭 😭 😂
This video is so good. It’s not enough talked about the fact that you often get pressured to eat way more than you actually need. Even though you have normal eating habits (not just eating one apple a day or something like that 😅). “You have to eat everything that’s on your plate” … No, just eat it later or in a restaurant just take it home with you 😊
I’m not usually one to comment on videos, but I relate so much to this, more than I have with anything else I’ve seen on youtube. I’ve always struggled with overeating and then restricting and that toxic back and forth attitude only changed when my sister went in as a residential ED patient. Even as she’s far from fully recovered, seeing what she’s had to go through has really made me think “what if that happened to me?” and in all honesty, it very well could’ve. Thank you Zoe for sharing your story. It’s never easy to be someone online getting criticized for their lifestyle, but as a person who you genuinely brought tears to with this video, thank you. :)
the wasting food thing is so real. since i was young my parents would always tell me to finish my food, and it was a bad habit to "order too much and not finish all of it" because of that ive always tried my best to finish everything, no matter if I feel like throwing up or not, its still quite hard to chnage the habit, but ive gotten better at telling myself that i can always just bring it home to eat for dinner because i'll still end up finishing it either way
i just wanted yo say that you help me with don't starving myself anymore, i'm still working on it, but u helped me, so thank u for showing you reallity and for talk to us of you feelings and expiriences
I’m so glad you made this video. It’s so relatable and many many people are struggling with their relationship with food. Whether it’s binge eating, undereating, only eating certain types of foods or following diets. It’s often a response to stress or childhood traumas and it takes time to re program these unhealthy patterns!! For anyone struggling with this, it takes time and practice to improve your relationship with food and how you respond to stress. Don’t expect to do it all at once. Being aware of your patterns is the first step 🤍
Wow I almost cried. Struggling with depression phases, probably accomplished by fear and sleeping disorders, I developed weird eating habits. Sometimes, I didn’t eat in a day, sometimes I’d eat all the junk food and I was just eating all I’d get but then again nothing in a week. This was mostly caused by me eating comfort food in really sad moments but also not being hungry and just not motivated enough to stand up and get food. I gained weight and am probably too, but for me, the mindset is the most important thing I’m workong on. Not caring and not restrictioning, but rather finding better alternatives is what I try. I’m so glad for this video you really help me to get through this.
Hi Zoe, I also went to a UC school (UC San Diego) around the same time as you and I also experienced a lot of personal struggles that were accentuated even more by meeting and interacting with people from many different backgrounds. Through therapy, self-reflection/improvement, I have gotten a lot better from the past and it is great to see you making healing diaries about your own story. I resonate with the content you upload; it's as if I am seeing a friend healing from her past and growing to be a happier person. I wish I have met you while I was still in college, but I am so glad that I found you on RUclips. Sending much love!
I also eat until I feel sick or eat food that's definitely past its date because of guilt. Wish I knew where that came from though. All I can remember is adults saying we should finish our plates because children in Africa (no countries, the whole continent) were dying from famine. Still confused how finishing our plates helped.
made me cry a little with this one, hit really close to home. growing up, i was a student athlete who was constantly surrounded by other girls who had bodies that i wanted, but i could never get because of my bone structure. i tried to restrict only to end up starving, and then that would lead to overeating. i loved chocolate and whenever i had one piece, i would have another, then another, and then another. i had no self control, and i’m still struggling. my mom would also make comments about my body, which would make me that much more self-conscious. i’ve been afraid of food and craving it at the same time, but i’ve been working on it. i only eat when i’m hungry, and i use my night time retainers to stop me from going back to old habits during the night. since my trigger food is chocolate, i’ve stopped with the chocolate for a while and am now just eating a non-chocolate sweet thing once a week on fridays. thanks for the video, it really reached me
It seems like your struggle with food is still very present. And full swing. I struggle with binging badly. I say this with the best intentions, but it seems a bit reckless to be a health and diet influencer on Instagram as often as you are. I see the comments people post. If what you're doing is still destructive, then people shouldn't be put in a position to idolize it. I say this mostly for the mass amounts of food you post. And the exercise portion is not often talked about. And you were thin before getting to the point you are. It's important to encourage people to consult with their doctors and to acknowledge that people that are big like me may not fully benefit from what you are doing for yourself. I will always be proud of you. I hope things get easier. For all of us honestly. But I hope you keep it in mind that you being an influencer while you struggle with ED can be a tricky balancing act. Just be careful with your audience. And be kind to yourself. 😊
I can relate to your story so much, it made me very emotional❤. In the past I suffered from an ed and now I'm still struggling with finding balance. I'm still very young but I don't want to live the one or the other extreme anymore and watching your videos really helps me remembering my goals and accepting myself🎉 I know that you used to do intermittent fasting, could you do a video on that? I wonder if it would help me too. I love you, pls keep up the great work because you really help people here❤🙌
I didn't expect this when I saw the video, but this is sad to say how I can also relate. I wish someone was there to help me and say thats too much, thats too little and to think about my health. Because I didn't know and no cared to help I got a sad unhealthy relationship with my food and portion control. Its still something I'm working on but I what to see how far I've come and want younger me to be proud. 😢❤
Your food-related content is the best i have ever seen, so much of them are going to toxic nearly-ed grounds or having this philosophy that they just got like this themselves when videos from few years ago were about them dieting. I'm glad you aren't acting like this and your videos help my relationship with food a lot. Lots of love xo
I watched zoe a lot back in 2020 :)....but then i forgot about this channel and got busy in my studies and all and now again I found her channel and god u make such a good videos 🫶🫶I'm your new subscriber:)💜 i really love your each and every video..zoeeee ur great.!
I relate to your childhood experience of fearing food because my dad in particular grew up poor with low food security. Wasting food was sinful because he knew what it was like to go without and he often forced my brother and me to finish the excess amounts of food - fatty, dense, rich - that he'd cook or buy (bc food was precious, and the alternative is to starve; it's an extreme view but that's what he thought). Coupled with my mom's fixation on skinny=health (an ideal rampant in the 90s), it wrecked our relationship with food. And being ethnically Chinese there are some foods that "can't" be kept as leftovers, so everything HAD to be eaten. We have greater awareness as an adults now, but I didn't realize how much we internalized it until friends and even wait staff would point out how meticulously clean my plate was after every meal and the effect of feeling like garbage hit me hours later. It's not easy to break free of these issues our parents pass down to us (knowingly or unknowingly), so I really commend you for sharing your story and being vulnerable so that others who are going through or have gone through the same can feel comforted, especially in a space where people feel entitled to devalue your personal suffering and journey. Thanks, Zoe!
I wanted to say I appreciate you talking about it openly I am suffering from anorexia and the ironic, thing is my dad was the one to telling me you have to finish all your plate and he did like give me a really big portion of food every time, and when I started to gain weight, he just changed to the opposite side he always tell me to stop eating not eating too much stop eating snacks and that’s how I end up anorexic with a really bad relationship with food after a couple of therapy sessions and being hospitalized I got the idea that it’s just covering trauma and anxiety and depression, and way more than that And I don’t know why I’m saying this I’m just feeling like your video make me feel comfortable telling that so thank you for real. Your videos are so comforting I’m never ending videos without like skipping apart and with your videos I never skipped a part I’m just watching from zero to the end, you’re really good and I really wish I have your courage to actually do what you’re doing because my dream is being a really big RUclipsr since I was 11 and now I’m 18 and I do working on that but I do not thinking ever I could actually tell things like you, so again thank you and sorry for all this. Have a nice day and week.❤
yessss she slayed again! bro istg i dont understand ppl who just assume some random person from the internet w a disorder like make it make sense? but ur so strong for this zoey, love you
I can relate to feeling guilty for wasting food. In my family, people wouldn't usually get mad for wasting food but I always felt bad. This didn't make me always eat it all, I would just put it in a container in the fridge, but when I'm at a friend's house, it's really hard to not finish my food even if I got way too much
My mom also ruined my relationship with food when I was younger too. Ofc I appreciated not going hungry but it was that. That was used against my siblings and I to overeat. Now I know when to stop before I get that painful bloated feeling and I actually enjoy leftovers more 😅
As a first generation immigrant, I FELT the not wasting food. Growing up, I was not allowed to leave the dining table unless I ate all of my food on my plate. My parents would force me to eat even though I said I was full or on the brink of throwing up. Once I got to college, I went to the extreme of not eating so I wouldn’t waste any food.
I’ve had to slowly get over the fear of wasting food as well. The moment you let it go and allow yourself to indulge without fear of stuffing yourself to sickness, you find freedom.
Currently in College (2. Semester, studying Fashion), and my friend to lean on when I´m stressed out is work. I just throw myself into any project I can get and pressure myself into finishing everything right NOW and as perfect as possible. As for eating habbits, mine actually have improved since I moved away from my family. I eat healthier and am more aware of what I eat and how much of it. Admittedly tho, sometimes I feel guilty after eating something with a lot of sugar and that is really scarry.
I don’t usually comment to RUclips videos or actually anything but now I just want to say, that this was so helpful cause I’ve been suffering almost as same problems as you, ofc not all the same but most of them. As me who has a mix of almond mom and also mom who makes pizzas and burgers its been hard to me to “balance” my eating, when sometimes I starve my self and sometimes I overeat. This was so helpful to me and to know that Im not the only one with this kinda eating problem.💗
My dad always guilt tripped me into eating everything on my plate. I made sure not to make that mistake with my daughter. I always tell her to just eat until she's not hungry. We can always save leftovers for lunch the next day at school.
actually, hope parents will watch thos video and change their opinions about food and overfeeding their childre or ruining children's health and relationships with food any other ways Thank you for sharing your way❤
All these points resonated with me, except for the mother thing. My parents never forced me to finish my food or eat something I don't like, which I'm really thankful for. One of my food related is that I'm a picky eater, the taste and texture of some food will disgusted me to the point of having panic attacks, which make me feel guilty and childish, because who cries and stops breathing just at the idea of eating something they don't like? That's so stupid. My other food related issue is that I'm a stress eater, sugar is my coping mecanism. I got better as I grew older, but I still slip. My 1st reflex when something's wrong is always to eat my weight in chocolate, but I've learned to accept it, move on and try again the next day. I used to ba an all or nothing kind of girl. I was either eating too much or restricting. When I was restricting, if I slipped and had something that I considered bad, that's was it, I was done, I felt like I failed and I would stop my diet. It took me years and years to get better, to think differently, to realise that they were no good or bad food. I managed to lose the 20 kgs that ruined my teenage years and my 20s. As cliché as its sounds, everything is moderation works (at least for me), if I have a big meal or binge, I don't beat myself over it anymore, I just move and make better choices the next couple of meals. It's not one meal or one binge that's going to ruin all my efforts, but that took me a lot of time to understand. I wasn't able to comprehend that as teen or young adults. I also starting moving my body, which I hated to do but has helped a lot. I'm not gonna lie, this whole journey was hard, especially at the beginning, I've had a lot of set backs, I still do, sometimes I'm not motivated to work out, but I still at least roll out my yoga mat and do gentle yoga. All this also changed the way I see thin people. I used to be envious and think thin people were lucky people, that could eat whatever they want but now I realise that's not the case, that's there is a lot of work to put in in order to be slim. Sorry for the novel, it feels good to get that off my chest and it's definitely easier to talk to strangers online than to real people who'll just judge me.
Can't tell you how hard this hit 😭 please please please keep your pace and don't let the haters get to it. It's so brave for you to put this on the internet and it's so helpful for all of us. Please treat yourself well too like you deserve
Alright the editing in this video was really well done even though I'm not mentally stable enough to watch that video without feeling horrible about myself
Thank you so much zoe for this vedio.🥺🥺🥺..I have been through same eating patterns ...from anorexia to binge eating then again anorexia and again heading towards binge eating because of family pressure to gain weight I was ready to gain weight but I'm also wanted to take it slow so that I can understand my hunger levels but my family just wants quick weight gain and it doesn't matter it is in healthy manner or not so I fell back on old binge eating patterns 😭. I will implement those key points . I hope my relationship with food becomes normal and finally I'll live a normal life 🥺💜❤️Love u zoe...wish you all the success and happiness that u desire🤞😇💜
I saw the coolest mindset to get over the "eat it all or you're wasting food" mentality: If you eat more than your body needs, you are still wasting food, you are simply wasting it as fat on your body that you will have to use more energy to burn off later. This is what got me over the "clean your plate" conditioning.
I recommend you to one of my friends since you helped me with my binge eating and not eating some days. My friend eats how they should, but recently has been wanting to diet and lose all body fat. They are struggling with the severe restriction diets and have been asking for tips and recommendations. I confidentiality can recommend you since they aren't an unhealthy weight or have an unhealthy diet. Yet they still have an extremely bad self image
I actually suffer from the opposite thing not ever being able to have much food in my household which caused me to become anemic. I don't think I've ever consumed over 3500 calories in one day my whole life, and it's been taking a toll on my energy levels. I think because my mom struggles to put food on the table, I want to work hard to be able to always have food and not starve ever. I love food but everything is always so expensive and doesn't last long. Not to mention there's many mouths to feed in my household so everyone basically gets rations like in the world war. I think it's made me so depressed because I wish I had enough food to fill my belly sometimes. I really enjoyed seeing you enjoy those European Foods they look so tastyyyy!
I'm so sorry to hear that. It made me sad reading your comment. The world can be unfair sometimes. Is it possible for your mother seek social assistance? Rather than the food coupons, is there a food bank near by? You really need to try a food bank if you haven't. Also look up any other charitable organizations in your area. If you live in a wealthy state there's more resources given out as the wealthy got plenty to donate. Also some schools have special programs for kids who come from low income. Bet in US it's hard to get thour resources. I hope one day your family will get out of poverty.
Our bodies are hardwired for surviving seasonal ups and downs in food supply and variety. Transport and technology has completely changed the food landscape and we have no idea how to navigate it.
I still remember me finding ur channel wile i was trying to loose waight because my mom told i was to fat i was 56kg and then i suddenly stoped eating as much as i did and i turned into 43kg and now i can't eat without feeling noxious sometimes 😵💫🤧
My mom would always tell me if I don't finish my food, the scraps are gonna be what I eat in hell. I save my leftovers now even if I don't want to eat it anymore but I still feel really bad about not being able to finish all my food.
Anyone else got distracted by the food and had to rewind it like I did? 😅. It was really a relatable video.Thanks for such amaizing contents. Love youuuuuu💙💙💙💙💙🧡🧡🧡
I wonder who else eats all the bad food first as if junk food will be gone? Cause you didn't have much of it as a child. Or you didn't have the money to get everything you wanted. Or if you eat all the junk food just so tomorrow there will be no temptation so you just have to get rid of it and you feel to bad too throw it away. It's so weird. Lately, I stopped liking food in general. Sweet, or anything. It's so weird since I had a sugar addiction for forever. Thing is I still eat it just because I am afraid...I'll crave it again. Why am I like this? I still don't get it. I know it's something about control but man, so annoying.
I have to portion control. If I don't, I know I will overeat and get sick/gain weight. I don't know how many times I've over eaten due to stress, etc. IF has helped me a lot and telling myself "ok, I want X. I can only have Y amount and that's it". Good luck on your healing journey!
It’s interesting how people love to have beauty but hates to be around beauty. It seems to me that these haters have to go to jelly school 😂 but seriously I’m a 43 y/o Brazilian who is inspired by you, I found a sweet spot where I cook all my meals, cut the sugar, and I do 6/18 intermittent fasting and I enjoy eating out twice a month. I think you have a great channel, it is very entertaining and raw (you don’t sugar coat). Keep doing the great work and I hope you reach 1 mil subs soon ✊👊
Im strugling with bouth extremas, binge and restriction right now, i despirately want to heal and be just normal around food but always end up ether restricting or binge. Thanks to you I feel Hope that I May also be able to heal once, but I have trauma, that I have to finish everything, my parents give in front of me, even though i have eaten already. Its becouse bouth me and my Sister had this kind of brutal restriction and almost died due to starving and they don't trust us about food anymore. I feel lost. But thanks for the hope and inspiraton, you are giving me. Love you❤
Idk what it is with parents and not wasting food. My parents would praise me when I ate everything I was given but sometimes I just couldn’t do it anymore. When I was younger I would over eat because I was told I look too skinny. I would overeat constantly 24/7. This lead to nights of me just not sleeping because I was bloated. Remember always listen to you’re body. If you’re body says no I’m full, that’s it. It took awhile for me to regain that relationship with food. Now I really love food and I always listen to how I feel.
My mom suffered from a couple of Ed's and my dad is a sport addict ( idk how to describe it ) When I was a teenager , I gained weight because of a medical issue and my parents changed . They started bullying me everyday because I was "fat". My mom told me that seeing me wearing skirts would make her unconfortable 'cause I gained weight ... And now , it's been 4 years and I still struggle with food. I'm also trying to get better and seeing that kind of content always make me emotional
I appreciate this video a lot, it’s so confusing navigating food with the messages we get on social media. Growing up, I was raised on keto by orthorexic parents, months would go by without bread, pasta, etc. and I could only have 1 serving of potato chips 2x a year, to put it in perspective. I didn’t have anything other than diet soda until 16, I have never had a Twinkie, or whole milk, or fruity pebbles-so many things! I had no control over myself with food because I was so deprived of key macros while growing. At other kids bday parties I’d eat 14 slices of pizza and then vomit in the car ride home. After years of closet binge eating on whatever I could get my hands on (mostly wheat thins, since it was the only carb in the house), as a teen I developed a serious restrictive ED bc how could I not have? By the time I recovered, we were in the beginnings of this era of what is considered good practice with food. Imposing any limits on what you will and won’t eat is a sin, worrying about sugar content or saturated fat is so frowned upon. I wanted to recover “the right way”, so I tried to have no limits for a few years. I was told no food was bad food, and I had never had so many things and the message I was told was “it’s bad because it’ll make you fat”... not “it’ll give you high blood pressure eventually.” I assumed I *should* use heavy whipping cream in my coffee every morning, I *should* cook everything in butter. If it was off limits in my upbringing, it couldn’t be that bad for you..could it? No food is bad food, right? If I wanted to recover and reverse the orthorexic mindset I inherited, I should just disregard everything, right? Wrong, obviously, but I didn’t know any better and I was encouraged to never look into whether something was actually good or bad for you, “since nothing is!!“ It was obviously well intentioned to dispel the ideas of good/bad food, but for people healing their relationship with food there isn’t enough nuance, still. There are things that can cause health problems when eaten in excess, and there are people who grew up so deeply entrenched in diet culture that they don’t know what is and isn’t safe coming out of restriction. And the idea that trying to eat healthfully is wrong after having an eating disorder is so twisted! Now, I eat the right amount, I eat pretty cleanly, I don’t restrict, but I still get comments from dietitians about how I “should have more dessert”… when I cut out sugar because I was beginning to be insulin resistant just like you from trying to recover “right” by society’s current standards. There needs to be a conversation, somehow, about finding a middle ground.
I never had problems with my weight until I gained a lot due to medication. That's when I started restricting/binging. Never thought it was an ed until a few years ago. I've now realised I've always had a bad relationship with food and I was so skinny before due to arfid which I only found out about this year. Before the weight gain I was never worried about calories or eating too much but that's because I was put off food so easily due to arfid. Of course I was told I was just being fussy and my doctor was clueless. I'm much better with the arfid now and I eat a much bigger range of food but my relationship with food still isn't good
It's funny watching this video now as i'm healing from both ... Yes, i deserve to eat, i deserve to feel comfortable in my own skin, i deserve to listen to my body, i consent breaking free from fear vibes and actually enjoying my life
2:27 In contrary I am thankful for my parents for teaching me to finish what I put on my plate, It become a core discipling inside me and to my fitness journey.
Idk what kind of relationship i have with food but all i am sure abt is it's not good It all started when i was abt 14 exactly in middle school, i was very influenced by kpop and dancers I started learning dances everyday for hours and not eating well just to reach their body shape , i really didn't think too much abt losing weight rather than having that skinny body Then in high-school when everything screwed up like totally , i have always had zero self confidence and hated myself TOO much so i always tried the hardest ways to excel in anything : studying, cleaning, socialising and etc .i thought abt hitting the gym and reactivating my muscles since i was an 8 yo swimmer . There i saw how the good physique is and was ashamed af abt my body so like a miserable person went to ask literally everyone abt their diets and tried them untill i got very sick and hated my life more . I developed an emotional eating habit that i have never had . I was in a closed circle: binge , guilt , restrict and bing again , and it's not like i binged on smth nit healthy it was bread , apples like just the act of chewing anything . Doing intermittent fasting was very good w me but it made me feel uncomfortable with food and see it as an endmy , and not only did i lose weight from it but i also lost faith in life bc seeing other teens eating whenever they want made me super envious .now I am trying to heal ,yes i failed many times ( literally now ) but still watching these kind of videos motivates me They only thing that i like abt myself is i am healthy ( i naturally love veges and fruits and hate a TON fast and processed food ) all i just need is to build a healthy relationship with food and overcome this fear . Thank you for reading my story and i hope no one can relate to me and stay healthy ♡ Also a BIG RAISE for zoe for sharing such a wholesome content with us it has really helped me since the last year !
I understand, I was so obsessed with loosinb weight that I missed christmas.. I havent had my period since i was 11 or 12 but i trust there will be light at the end of the tunnel :,)
From overeating, undereating, to still healing. ❤️🩹 Wanted to be transparent about my destructive eating behaviors shaped by childhood, trauma, and some health scares
Thank you so much. It really helped me now🥺💕
I have such a similar story. Trying to slowly repair my relationship with food too 💜
You are so absolutely gorgeous. Are you still single?
Hi I love ur content and i appreciate how u educate us, I was wondering if u cld talk abt somatotypes in your next fitness or body image video. Thanks❤
I love you Zoe thanks for talking about this and bringing awareness ❤️✨
wow, i actually cried a bit while watching this. when i was a kid, my mom wasn't really strict about food but as i grew older and hit puberty, i gained weight and my mom showed a different side of hers that I've never seen before. she hid everything that had carbs or sugar in it from me, and after a while i eventually lost lots if weight.. now let's talk about my early 20s. i was constantly worried about my body, i had poor eating habits ( i would not eat anything for days and just eat an apple because "that's what's right").. after a while i started thinking "why do i care so much?". that was the start of overeating for me. i ate EVERYTHING i wanted ANYTIME. which made me lose my sleep and I wasn't fully satisfied no matter how much i ate. i would have cramps and my stomach would feel like it's gonna explode. then eventually, i started therapy. (i had many other issues like anxiety and major depression at that time) now i'm 25, that's a whole journey. it has been over 10 years and i still try to fix my relationship with food. i wish the best for everyone, you got this!!! and also, zoey, thank you so much for documenting your life and experience. it made me feel less alone. different countries, languages yet so many of us had similar experiences. 🤍 love you all
"my mom showed a different side of hers that I've never seen before. she hid everything that had carbs or sugar in it"
Sounds like she cares about you.
As a ballet dancer I can’t explain how I so randomly appreciate the Swan Lake music in the background. Also as a ballet dancer who struggled with food and still struggles with food I really appreciate the video and your brave transparency about your experiences.
Ed's are so prevelant in ballet. I wonder is it almost encouraged? Glad you are doing better ❤
@@dfjulesful it really depends on the studio, some studios I’ve been with encouraged Ed’s others strongly discouraged them. It’s prevalent in ballet but a lot of ballerinas come to a point where they need to choose career or Ed because of how much it can physically take a toll on you.
I hope this answered some of your questions, let me know if you have any others.
@@liahadams7796 it's so sad... Thank's for your précisions
@@gwenbar8144 ofc
Oml, as a recovering ED patient, and someone fighting to get through this exact thing while surrounded by friends and family who are well meaning but out of their depth this is just so helpful.
Thank you so much Zoe XOXO
Sending you hugs🤍
Best of luck for ur recovery
remember, if you go to eat at a restaurant and dont finish your food you can ask for a box and take it home
lol yeh
This video hits close to home, but it is so beautifully made and soothing to the soul for some reason. I am still trying to manage loosing some weight and healing my gut issues, and I think I'm really starting to get onto the right past.
Zoe you helped me so much you don’t even know. I was always insecure about my weight because all my friends were skinnier than me. I started to starve my self and even purge after eating because I felt guilty when I ate, weather I ate a lot or didn’t. I lost weight and was happy but I gained it all back and was super sad and depressed about it. Ever since I found your channel I started realizing the importance of health and how much it affects weight. I’m now 48kg and I’m very happy about it! I don’t stress over my weight but instead I’m happy with my Body and all the progress. I eat healthy and exercise daily but I also make sure to have fun. I still sometimes struggle with my image but I always remember my progress and that I’m not fat and ugly and I’m still in this health journey. For everyone out there who is reading this, I know you can do it too!
“wasting of the food” actually my problem too. when i was a kid the portions were to big for me, but my family never allowed to left any piece of food on a plate. i learned it in my 20s, and i also learned portion control. changed my eating habits, and started choosing food i like (big discovery was that i prefer vegetables, don’t like fried food, and can eat dessert kinda rare). im still learning to really enjoy the food, but i love how this journey going ✌🏻
Portion control is definitely key. I've seen so many "appetizers" that can be a meal on it's own (full large plate). You dont need that much food before your meal.
Honestly even if appetizers are truly small I have to restrict myself and even skip them because I know they wont let me finish my meal.
@@Anonymous__S Same, i dont get appetizers even if they're small since I get full fast.
Free bread at restaurants are dangerous for me, I'll be full before the food comes lol
@@carolinatorres7575Appetizers are meant to be split between multiple people ( at least in my country) so that's why they're large. So if you're in a company of two its better to pick two main courses or appetizers and share them
Food addiction ...
This video is so refreshing. One of my OCD behaviours is compulsively eating as a form of punishment. It’s been so bad in the last few years that despite meds and a lot of therapy I’m scheduled for bariatric surgery. When I was a kid it was actually my Dad who was really strict with making my sister and I finish everything on our plates and then when I was about 10 this completely switched to I was eating too much. And suddenly eating became a shameful thing that should be done in secret and anytime I knew I would be alone my first thought would be I have to eat. At like 11 I’d wake up in the middle of the night just to eat because I could do it alone. It wasn’t about being hungry. It was about how much food I could consume without anyone knowing about it.
Anyway if anyone feels like this I’d recommend talking to a doctor or therapist about it as soon as possible. I’m 32 and I wish I’d talked about it sooner because I could have kept myself from having so many health issues. I’m just coming through it now and seeing light at the end of the tunnel. Don’t leave it too long like I did!
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Sounds like binge Ed. I swear the while clean plate club has done so much damage! I was lucky that I was never forced to finish all my food but I still struggle with binging at times
Not gonna lie, sometimes I get nervous with the titles and imagining what the content will be but once I watch I’m always comforted. Zoe has such a good way of storytelling and explaining her perspective. Thanks for talking about these topics!
Zoe came into my life right when I needed her most. I love you Zoe thank you
Thank you for sharing and for your vulnerability, we love you zoe!
im recovering from an ed and this video is just... so helpful. In two years i went from underweight to overweight and it's been a cycle of destructive habits, but this was very eye opening to triggers, helpful advice and ACTUAL healthy advice. great job and thank you
I don't think she'll read this, but in many European countries, people have the right to their own image. It means you cannot take pictures/photograph people without their consent, even in public. Passerby people is a different thing. But people are especially sensitive about children here. You might wanna check the laws in the country before filming in a cafè and zooming in on a random child.
She steals people's TikTok videos and embellishes her videos with them to make her videos look ✨ aesthetic ✨ without their permission, you think this girl has any ethics or consideration 😭
Often people successful at the top in certain fields lack certain morals.
Some of the TikTok and IG reels she uses are even of teenagers....so...
@@LovelyLittleLillies I was talking about hard laws, not ethics or consideration. Using videos that have been uploaded for public consumption is another subtopic. At least in Europe, using clips I think up to 30 seconds for citation, embellishment or otherwise is legal. You might think that's a cold way of looking at it, and it certainly is, I just wanted to point out that some things that are legal in the US aren't legal in Europe.
@Matleena middle European here!
Really?😮
@@annawitter5161 in my country, if there are less than 5 people in the background, they don't count as a faceless crowd and you need their permission to show their faces and voices
GIRL I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW FAR YOU HAVE COME. I WAS LITERALLY FOLLOWING YOU SINCE YOU HAD LIKE 100K SUBS.
I REALLY WANT YOU TO MAKE A SERIES THAT IS DEVOTED TO MAKING OUR RELATIONSHIP WITH FOOD HEALTHY AND HOME WORKOUTS ❤
i've had this exact relationship with food for almost my whole life but never thought anyone else would also experience the same thing. this video really helped me put into words what i went through since childhood, and it's so comforting to know that i'm not the only one who feels this way. let's all heal together
as someone who had anorexia in high school which stemmed from years of 'dieting' and 'watching my weight' in fucking primary school (thanks mum, really appreciate that one) this video hit hard. thanks for sharing your story, it means a lot to hear this
I can relate so hard with the parent not wasting food thing. When I was younger I’d overeat to the point of vomiting at restaurants because my parents praised me for eating well.
same here, it's tough but it feels nice to know that i'm not the only one
Same!! I’ve only recently began to try only eating what I need to eat to be satisfied, but it’s still hard since I feel guilt doing so. I’m hoping it will be easier in college.
The ending... I'm not the best with words- but I'll just say that it was beautiful, I was crying out of care and relief, and I really appreciate it Zoe. Thank you ❤
🥺I appreciate you!!
My mom was the same, but she would verbally abuse me to finish my food and would only allow me to leave the table when I started gagging or vomiting. So, after a while, I developed a habit of eating everything in front me to make her feel happy, then run to the bathroom and vomit the entire meal out. And so my journey with ED begun 🖤
Zoe you were never overweight... You were pretty and normal looking then in my honest opinion. You are much thinner now and still pretty, it hurts when you called your old self "fat".
Right
Being “fat” is relative in different cultures. In hers she was “fat”. Same for me, in my culture it’s
”fat” “skinny fat”
The whole message, vibe, and editing of this video is amazing. I really love your content Zoe, please keep it up for a long time ❤
"do u really want to cheat ur own body?" that jus flipped this switch in me and i feel so motivated to try and get better.....ur truly a life saver, I cannot thank u enough I've been suffering from an ed and when I first clicked at one of ur videos i felt like u were this really confident omnipotent woman with such a strong attitude and now I'm just so blessed to have had come across ur channel ur like the voice giving me the elderly advice i so require but never got.
Thank you so much for this video, no words more than sharing all my support for speaking out about this and the internal pressure we all put on ourselves, thank you so much ♥
Sorry to see that you get judged so hardly while you really just sharing advices from your heart ❤
Your videos have helped my self confidence and mental health so much. Thank you for making videos like this.
I saw all the négative comments about your weight on you shorts, so I wanted to have a response from you about it. I'm happy to see that you're healing. I used to restrict food, and even though I now eat normally, as I still want to loose wheight (in a healthy way this time) I sometimes still think stuff like "maybe I shouldn't eat" or "I ate too much" etc. It takes a long time to recover but we can do it ❤️💪
Also as a french person everytime you talked about how good french food is I was like "VOILÀ ÇA C'EST LA FRANCE !!!" 😭 😭 😂
This video is so good. It’s not enough talked about the fact that you often get pressured to eat way more than you actually need. Even though you have normal eating habits (not just eating one apple a day or something like that 😅). “You have to eat everything that’s on your plate” … No, just eat it later or in a restaurant just take it home with you 😊
I’m not usually one to comment on videos, but I relate so much to this, more than I have with anything else I’ve seen on youtube. I’ve always struggled with overeating and then restricting and that toxic back and forth attitude only changed when my sister went in as a residential ED patient. Even as she’s far from fully recovered, seeing what she’s had to go through has really made me think “what if that happened to me?” and in all honesty, it very well could’ve. Thank you Zoe for sharing your story. It’s never easy to be someone online getting criticized for their lifestyle, but as a person who you genuinely brought tears to with this video, thank you. :)
the wasting food thing is so real. since i was young my parents would always tell me to finish my food, and it was a bad habit to "order too much and not finish all of it" because of that ive always tried my best to finish everything, no matter if I feel like throwing up or not, its still quite hard to chnage the habit, but ive gotten better at telling myself that i can always just bring it home to eat for dinner because i'll still end up finishing it either way
We are to focused how to eat, when to eat ect. Need to understand what our body really need!
Food don't solve mental or Phicalogical problem
i just wanted yo say that you help me with don't starving myself anymore, i'm still working on it, but u helped me, so thank u for showing you reallity and for talk to us of you feelings and expiriences
Omg, this is exactly what I needed now. Relatable and inspiring, thank you
I’m so glad you made this video. It’s so relatable and many many people are struggling with their relationship with food. Whether it’s binge eating, undereating, only eating certain types of foods or following diets. It’s often a response to stress or childhood traumas and it takes time to re program these unhealthy patterns!! For anyone struggling with this, it takes time and practice to improve your relationship with food and how you respond to stress. Don’t expect to do it all at once. Being aware of your patterns is the first step 🤍
Been feeling this so much lately too. Great timing on this video. Needed to hear this.
Finallyyyy a episode from healing diary 😭😭I was waiting soo longg for this one. Thank you Zoe
Ok but why is nobody talking about the editing?! It’s amazing 😻
3:50 I relate to this, I always think I need to finish my food in one go and i cant leave it for later it was as if I felt bad for not finishing it.
Wow I almost cried. Struggling with depression phases, probably accomplished by fear and sleeping disorders, I developed weird eating habits. Sometimes, I didn’t eat in a day, sometimes I’d eat all the junk food and I was just eating all I’d get but then again nothing in a week. This was mostly caused by me eating comfort food in really sad moments but also not being hungry and just not motivated enough to stand up and get food. I gained weight and am probably too, but for me, the mindset is the most important thing I’m workong on. Not caring and not restrictioning, but rather finding better alternatives is what I try.
I’m so glad for this video you really help me to get through this.
Hi Zoe, I also went to a UC school (UC San Diego) around the same time as you and I also experienced a lot of personal struggles that were accentuated even more by meeting and interacting with people from many different backgrounds. Through therapy, self-reflection/improvement, I have gotten a lot better from the past and it is great to see you making healing diaries about your own story. I resonate with the content you upload; it's as if I am seeing a friend healing from her past and growing to be a happier person. I wish I have met you while I was still in college, but I am so glad that I found you on RUclips. Sending much love!
I also eat until I feel sick or eat food that's definitely past its date because of guilt. Wish I knew where that came from though. All I can remember is adults saying we should finish our plates because children in Africa (no countries, the whole continent) were dying from famine. Still confused how finishing our plates helped.
made me cry a little with this one, hit really close to home. growing up, i was a student athlete who was constantly surrounded by other girls who had bodies that i wanted, but i could never get because of my bone structure. i tried to restrict only to end up starving, and then that would lead to overeating. i loved chocolate and whenever i had one piece, i would have another, then another, and then another. i had no self control, and i’m still struggling. my mom would also make comments about my body, which would make me that much more self-conscious. i’ve been afraid of food and craving it at the same time, but i’ve been working on it. i only eat when i’m hungry, and i use my night time retainers to stop me from going back to old habits during the night. since my trigger food is chocolate, i’ve stopped with the chocolate for a while and am now just eating a non-chocolate sweet thing once a week on fridays. thanks for the video, it really reached me
It seems like your struggle with food is still very present. And full swing. I struggle with binging badly. I say this with the best intentions, but it seems a bit reckless to be a health and diet influencer on Instagram as often as you are. I see the comments people post. If what you're doing is still destructive, then people shouldn't be put in a position to idolize it. I say this mostly for the mass amounts of food you post. And the exercise portion is not often talked about. And you were thin before getting to the point you are. It's important to encourage people to consult with their doctors and to acknowledge that people that are big like me may not fully benefit from what you are doing for yourself. I will always be proud of you. I hope things get easier. For all of us honestly. But I hope you keep it in mind that you being an influencer while you struggle with ED can be a tricky balancing act. Just be careful with your audience. And be kind to yourself. 😊
Omg Alivia and Zoe the ed queens
I can relate to your story so much, it made me very emotional❤. In the past I suffered from an ed and now I'm still struggling with finding balance. I'm still very young but I don't want to live the one or the other extreme anymore and watching your videos really helps me remembering my goals and accepting myself🎉
I know that you used to do intermittent fasting, could you do a video on that? I wonder if it would help me too.
I love you, pls keep up the great work because you really help people here❤🙌
I didn't expect this when I saw the video, but this is sad to say how I can also relate. I wish someone was there to help me and say thats too much, thats too little and to think about my health. Because I didn't know and no cared to help I got a sad unhealthy relationship with my food and portion control. Its still something I'm working on but I what to see how far I've come and want younger me to be proud. 😢❤
Your food-related content is the best i have ever seen, so much of them are going to toxic nearly-ed grounds or having this philosophy that they just got like this themselves when videos from few years ago were about them dieting. I'm glad you aren't acting like this and your videos help my relationship with food a lot. Lots of love xo
I watched zoe a lot back in 2020 :)....but then i forgot about this channel and got busy in my studies and all and now again I found her channel and god u make such a good videos 🫶🫶I'm your new subscriber:)💜 i really love your each and every video..zoeeee ur great.!
I relate to your childhood experience of fearing food because my dad in particular grew up poor with low food security. Wasting food was sinful because he knew what it was like to go without and he often forced my brother and me to finish the excess amounts of food - fatty, dense, rich - that he'd cook or buy (bc food was precious, and the alternative is to starve; it's an extreme view but that's what he thought). Coupled with my mom's fixation on skinny=health (an ideal rampant in the 90s), it wrecked our relationship with food. And being ethnically Chinese there are some foods that "can't" be kept as leftovers, so everything HAD to be eaten. We have greater awareness as an adults now, but I didn't realize how much we internalized it until friends and even wait staff would point out how meticulously clean my plate was after every meal and the effect of feeling like garbage hit me hours later. It's not easy to break free of these issues our parents pass down to us (knowingly or unknowingly), so I really commend you for sharing your story and being vulnerable so that others who are going through or have gone through the same can feel comforted, especially in a space where people feel entitled to devalue your personal suffering and journey. Thanks, Zoe!
I wanted to say I appreciate you talking about it openly I am suffering from anorexia and the ironic, thing is my dad was the one to telling me you have to finish all your plate and he did like give me a really big portion of food every time, and when I started to gain weight, he just changed to the opposite side he always tell me to stop eating not eating too much stop eating snacks and that’s how I end up anorexic with a really bad relationship with food after a couple of therapy sessions and being hospitalized I got the idea that it’s just covering trauma and anxiety and depression, and way more than that And I don’t know why I’m saying this I’m just feeling like your video make me feel comfortable telling that so thank you for real. Your videos are so comforting I’m never ending videos without like skipping apart and with your videos I never skipped a part I’m just watching from zero to the end, you’re really good and I really wish I have your courage to actually do what you’re doing because my dream is being a really big RUclipsr since I was 11 and now I’m 18 and I do working on that but I do not thinking ever I could actually tell things like you, so again thank you and sorry for all this. Have a nice day and week.❤
yessss she slayed again! bro istg i dont understand ppl who just assume some random person from the internet w a disorder like make it make sense? but ur so strong for this zoey, love you
I cried so much, I want to thank you deeply for sharing this... I felt seen and understood for the first time in forever.
I can relate to feeling guilty for wasting food. In my family, people wouldn't usually get mad for wasting food but I always felt bad. This didn't make me always eat it all, I would just put it in a container in the fridge, but when I'm at a friend's house, it's really hard to not finish my food even if I got way too much
My mom also ruined my relationship with food when I was younger too. Ofc I appreciated not going hungry but it was that. That was used against my siblings and I to overeat. Now I know when to stop before I get that painful bloated feeling and I actually enjoy leftovers more 😅
As a first generation immigrant, I FELT the not wasting food. Growing up, I was not allowed to leave the dining table unless I ate all of my food on my plate. My parents would force me to eat even though I said I was full or on the brink of throwing up. Once I got to college, I went to the extreme of not eating so I wouldn’t waste any food.
I’ve had to slowly get over the fear of wasting food as well. The moment you let it go and allow yourself to indulge without fear of stuffing yourself to sickness, you find freedom.
Currently in College (2. Semester, studying Fashion), and my friend to lean on when I´m stressed out is work. I just throw myself into any project I can get and pressure myself into finishing everything right NOW and as perfect as possible. As for eating habbits, mine actually have improved since I moved away from my family. I eat healthier and am more aware of what I eat and how much of it. Admittedly tho, sometimes I feel guilty after eating something with a lot of sugar and that is really scarry.
the 'not wasting food' is so real. I still feel terrible when i can't finish it all.
I don’t usually comment to RUclips videos or actually anything but now I just want to say, that this was so helpful cause I’ve been suffering almost as same problems as you, ofc not all the same but most of them. As me who has a mix of almond mom and also mom who makes pizzas and burgers its been hard to me to “balance” my eating, when sometimes I starve my self and sometimes I overeat. This was so helpful to me and to know that Im not the only one with this kinda eating problem.💗
My dad always guilt tripped me into eating everything on my plate. I made sure not to make that mistake with my daughter. I always tell her to just eat until she's not hungry. We can always save leftovers for lunch the next day at school.
I love how you edit 😊😊😊😊 genius!
i love you for making this video zoe ,thank you so much
Food, like many things in life, is one of those weird things where it can help heal or hurt you depending on how you use it or see it.
actually, hope parents will watch thos video and change their opinions about food and overfeeding their childre or ruining children's health and relationships with food any other ways
Thank you for sharing your way❤
All these points resonated with me, except for the mother thing. My parents never forced me to finish my food or eat something I don't like, which I'm really thankful for. One of my food related is that I'm a picky eater, the taste and texture of some food will disgusted me to the point of having panic attacks, which make me feel guilty and childish, because who cries and stops breathing just at the idea of eating something they don't like? That's so stupid.
My other food related issue is that I'm a stress eater, sugar is my coping mecanism. I got better as I grew older, but I still slip. My 1st reflex when something's wrong is always to eat my weight in chocolate, but I've learned to accept it, move on and try again the next day. I used to ba an all or nothing kind of girl. I was either eating too much or restricting. When I was restricting, if I slipped and had something that I considered bad, that's was it, I was done, I felt like I failed and I would stop my diet. It took me years and years to get better, to think differently, to realise that they were no good or bad food. I managed to lose the 20 kgs that ruined my teenage years and my 20s. As cliché as its sounds, everything is moderation works (at least for me), if I have a big meal or binge, I don't beat myself over it anymore, I just move and make better choices the next couple of meals. It's not one meal or one binge that's going to ruin all my efforts, but that took me a lot of time to understand. I wasn't able to comprehend that as teen or young adults. I also starting moving my body, which I hated to do but has helped a lot. I'm not gonna lie, this whole journey was hard, especially at the beginning, I've had a lot of set backs, I still do, sometimes I'm not motivated to work out, but I still at least roll out my yoga mat and do gentle yoga. All this also changed the way I see thin people. I used to be envious and think thin people were lucky people, that could eat whatever they want but now I realise that's not the case, that's there is a lot of work to put in in order to be slim.
Sorry for the novel, it feels good to get that off my chest and it's definitely easier to talk to strangers online than to real people who'll just judge me.
Can't tell you how hard this hit 😭 please please please keep your pace and don't let the haters get to it. It's so brave for you to put this on the internet and it's so helpful for all of us. Please treat yourself well too like you deserve
Thank you🥹 means a lot❤️
I’m so relatable to this video… Luv u Zoe🥺
Alright the editing in this video was really well done even though I'm not mentally stable enough to watch that video without feeling horrible about myself
Thank you so much zoe for this vedio.🥺🥺🥺..I have been through same eating patterns ...from anorexia to binge eating then again anorexia and again heading towards binge eating because of family pressure to gain weight
I was ready to gain weight but I'm also wanted to take it slow so that I can understand my hunger levels but my family just wants quick weight gain and it doesn't matter it is in healthy manner or not so I fell back on old binge eating patterns 😭.
I will implement those key points . I hope my relationship with food becomes normal and finally I'll live a normal life 🥺💜❤️Love u zoe...wish you all the success and happiness that u desire🤞😇💜
I saw the coolest mindset to get over the "eat it all or you're wasting food" mentality: If you eat more than your body needs, you are still wasting food, you are simply wasting it as fat on your body that you will have to use more energy to burn off later. This is what got me over the "clean your plate" conditioning.
I recommend you to one of my friends since you helped me with my binge eating and not eating some days. My friend eats how they should, but recently has been wanting to diet and lose all body fat. They are struggling with the severe restriction diets and have been asking for tips and recommendations. I confidentiality can recommend you since they aren't an unhealthy weight or have an unhealthy diet. Yet they still have an extremely bad self image
yeah, older people are happy when i can finish food but really, im envious of those who know when to just take out the food or just not finish it.
Bouncing from having lots of food to not having much due to financial instability was an experience
I actually suffer from the opposite thing not ever being able to have much food in my household which caused me to become anemic. I don't think I've ever consumed over 3500 calories in one day my whole life, and it's been taking a toll on my energy levels. I think because my mom struggles to put food on the table, I want to work hard to be able to always have food and not starve ever. I love food but everything is always so expensive and doesn't last long. Not to mention there's many mouths to feed in my household so everyone basically gets rations like in the world war. I think it's made me so depressed because I wish I had enough food to fill my belly sometimes. I really enjoyed seeing you enjoy those European Foods they look so tastyyyy!
I'm so sorry to hear that. It made me sad reading your comment. The world can be unfair sometimes.
Is it possible for your mother seek social assistance? Rather than the food coupons, is there a food bank near by? You really need to try a food bank if you haven't. Also look up any other charitable organizations in your area. If you live in a wealthy state there's more resources given out as the wealthy got plenty to donate. Also some schools have special programs for kids who come from low income. Bet in US it's hard to get thour resources. I hope one day your family will get out of poverty.
@@LovelyLittleLillies Don't worry If I work hard enough I will make it :) I have god watching over and providing for me little by little.😄
Our bodies are hardwired for surviving seasonal ups and downs in food supply and variety. Transport and technology has completely changed the food landscape and we have no idea how to navigate it.
I still remember me finding ur channel wile i was trying to loose waight because my mom told i was to fat i was 56kg and then i suddenly stoped eating as much as i did and i turned into 43kg and now i can't eat without feeling noxious sometimes 😵💫🤧
My mom would always tell me if I don't finish my food, the scraps are gonna be what I eat in hell. I save my leftovers now even if I don't want to eat it anymore but I still feel really bad about not being able to finish all my food.
Anyone else got distracted by the food and had to rewind it like I did? 😅. It was really a relatable video.Thanks for such amaizing contents. Love youuuuuu💙💙💙💙💙🧡🧡🧡
I wonder who else eats all the bad food first as if junk food will be gone? Cause you didn't have much of it as a child. Or you didn't have the money to get everything you wanted. Or if you eat all the junk food just so tomorrow there will be no temptation so you just have to get rid of it and you feel to bad too throw it away. It's so weird. Lately, I stopped liking food in general. Sweet, or anything. It's so weird since I had a sugar addiction for forever. Thing is I still eat it just because I am afraid...I'll crave it again. Why am I like this? I still don't get it. I know it's something about control but man, so annoying.
exactly omg, or i end up stressing out too much abt what to eat so i end up eating nothing
@@Cece_322 yup.
It can also come from society acting like those parents that shame you for wanting/enjoying "unhealthy" foods.
I have to portion control. If I don't, I know I will overeat and get sick/gain weight. I don't know how many times I've over eaten due to stress, etc. IF has helped me a lot and telling myself "ok, I want X. I can only have Y amount and that's it". Good luck on your healing journey!
It’s interesting how people love to have beauty but hates to be around beauty. It seems to me that these haters have to go to jelly school 😂 but seriously I’m a 43 y/o Brazilian who is inspired by you, I found a sweet spot where I cook all my meals, cut the sugar, and I do 6/18 intermittent fasting and I enjoy eating out twice a month. I think you have a great channel, it is very entertaining and raw (you don’t sugar coat). Keep doing the great work and I hope you reach 1 mil subs soon ✊👊
OMG! I can't believe that I have my two favorite RUclipsrs in one video Love u Girls👑🧡
Im strugling with bouth extremas, binge and restriction right now, i despirately want to heal and be just normal around food but always end up ether restricting or binge. Thanks to you I feel Hope that I May also be able to heal once, but I have trauma, that I have to finish everything, my parents give in front of me, even though i have eaten already. Its becouse bouth me and my Sister had this kind of brutal restriction and almost died due to starving and they don't trust us about food anymore. I feel lost. But thanks for the hope and inspiraton, you are giving me. Love you❤
super appreciate yt vids w subtitles 😊
Idk what it is with parents and not wasting food. My parents would praise me when I ate everything I was given but sometimes I just couldn’t do it anymore. When I was younger I would over eat because I was told I look too skinny. I would overeat constantly 24/7. This lead to nights of me just not sleeping because I was bloated. Remember always listen to you’re body. If you’re body says no I’m full, that’s it. It took awhile for me to regain that relationship with food. Now I really love food and I always listen to how I feel.
I just watched Linda Sun’s video of “eating like her child self for a week” I might do that some day for the nostalgia
Its very hard to heal, and I hope you find your peace
I hope you have the happiest May! 🍰
Pinning me would be the start to getting more happiness😅
My mom suffered from a couple of Ed's and my dad is a sport addict ( idk how to describe it )
When I was a teenager , I gained weight because of a medical issue and my parents changed .
They started bullying me everyday because I was "fat".
My mom told me that seeing me wearing skirts would make her unconfortable 'cause I gained weight ... And now , it's been 4 years and I still struggle with food.
I'm also trying to get better and seeing that kind of content always make me emotional
I appreciate this video a lot, it’s so confusing navigating food with the messages we get on social media. Growing up, I was raised on keto by orthorexic parents, months would go by without bread, pasta, etc. and I could only have 1 serving of potato chips 2x a year, to put it in perspective. I didn’t have anything other than diet soda until 16, I have never had a Twinkie, or whole milk, or fruity pebbles-so many things! I had no control over myself with food because I was so deprived of key macros while growing. At other kids bday parties I’d eat 14 slices of pizza and then vomit in the car ride home. After years of closet binge eating on whatever I could get my hands on (mostly wheat thins, since it was the only carb in the house), as a teen I developed a serious restrictive ED bc how could I not have?
By the time I recovered, we were in the beginnings of this era of what is considered good practice with food. Imposing any limits on what you will and won’t eat is a sin, worrying about sugar content or saturated fat is so frowned upon. I wanted to recover “the right way”, so I tried to have no limits for a few years. I was told no food was bad food, and I had never had so many things and the message I was told was “it’s bad because it’ll make you fat”... not “it’ll give you high blood pressure eventually.” I assumed I *should* use heavy whipping cream in my coffee every morning, I *should* cook everything in butter. If it was off limits in my upbringing, it couldn’t be that bad for you..could it? No food is bad food, right? If I wanted to recover and reverse the orthorexic mindset I inherited, I should just disregard everything, right? Wrong, obviously, but I didn’t know any better and I was encouraged to never look into whether something was actually good or bad for you, “since nothing is!!“
It was obviously well intentioned to dispel the ideas of good/bad food, but for people healing their relationship with food there isn’t enough nuance, still. There are things that can cause health problems when eaten in excess, and there are people who grew up so deeply entrenched in diet culture that they don’t know what is and isn’t safe coming out of restriction. And the idea that trying to eat healthfully is wrong after having an eating disorder is so twisted! Now, I eat the right amount, I eat pretty cleanly, I don’t restrict, but I still get comments from dietitians about how I “should have more dessert”… when I cut out sugar because I was beginning to be insulin resistant just like you from trying to recover “right” by society’s current standards. There needs to be a conversation, somehow, about finding a middle ground.
Food symbolizes losing control. I felt that
I never had problems with my weight until I gained a lot due to medication. That's when I started restricting/binging. Never thought it was an ed until a few years ago. I've now realised I've always had a bad relationship with food and I was so skinny before due to arfid which I only found out about this year. Before the weight gain I was never worried about calories or eating too much but that's because I was put off food so easily due to arfid. Of course I was told I was just being fussy and my doctor was clueless. I'm much better with the arfid now and I eat a much bigger range of food but my relationship with food still isn't good
It's funny watching this video now as i'm healing from both ... Yes, i deserve to eat, i deserve to feel comfortable in my own skin, i deserve to listen to my body, i consent breaking free from fear vibes and actually enjoying my life
2:27 In contrary I am thankful for my parents for teaching me to finish what I put on my plate, It become a core discipling inside me and to my fitness journey.
I LOVE YOU YOU GOT THISSS
Idk what kind of relationship i have with food but all i am sure abt is it's not good
It all started when i was abt 14 exactly in middle school, i was very influenced by kpop and dancers
I started learning dances everyday for hours and not eating well just to reach their body shape , i really didn't think too much abt losing weight rather than having that skinny body
Then in high-school when everything screwed up like totally , i have always had zero self confidence and hated myself TOO much so i always tried the hardest ways to excel in anything : studying, cleaning, socialising and etc .i thought abt hitting the gym and reactivating my muscles since i was an 8 yo swimmer . There i saw how the good physique is and was ashamed af abt my body so like a miserable person went to ask literally everyone abt their diets and tried them untill i got very sick and hated my life more . I developed an emotional eating habit that i have never had . I was in a closed circle: binge , guilt , restrict and bing again , and it's not like i binged on smth nit healthy it was bread , apples like just the act of chewing anything . Doing intermittent fasting was very good w me but it made me feel uncomfortable with food and see it as an endmy , and not only did i lose weight from it but i also lost faith in life bc seeing other teens eating whenever they want made me super envious .now I am trying to heal ,yes i failed many times ( literally now ) but still watching these kind of videos motivates me
They only thing that i like abt myself is i am healthy ( i naturally love veges and fruits and hate a TON fast and processed food ) all i just need is to build a healthy relationship with food and overcome this fear . Thank you for reading my story and i hope no one can relate to me and stay healthy ♡
Also a BIG RAISE for zoe for sharing such a wholesome content with us it has really helped me since the last year !
The amount of times the phone call transitions jump scared me-
Why is the quality literally better than a Netflix documentary
I understand, I was so obsessed with loosinb weight that I missed christmas.. I havent had my period since i was 11 or 12 but i trust there will be light at the end of the tunnel :,)
I luv you so much 😢 this helped a lot❤