FIND JOY

FIND JOY
by Sarah "Songbird" Burkey
the to-do list is too massive
overwhelming
ever accumulating
snowballing
i just can't bring myself
to-do anything
the anti-depressant/anti-anxiety pill
they put me on
made half my hair fall out in my hand
one sunday while singing in church
can't turn to a doctor
can't turn to a pill
i have been dreading this time
darkness brings cold
cold brings darkness
the clouds hang so thick
and so low
i can't even stand up straight
if i did that
my head would be up in the clouds
if i did that
maybe i could find the sun
and be able to tell what time of day it is
i finally have the sense to walk out onto our porch
into the cold mountain air
it is so quiet
i can hear a few fat rain drops fall
upon a leaf
knocking it
to the ground
suddenly
a spark
that is all i was crying out for
just a spark is all i need
i can take it from there
if i can just feel
one
spark
to give me just enough light
to put one foot in front of the other
one word in front of the other
to sing one note that breaks the silence
the sound of one leaf falling
told me
to write
FIND JOY
at the top
of
my
to-do list
*After writing this poem and making this video, I lit off into the woods with my youngest son to FIND JOY and we made our way back to the house by the light of the moon.
Amidst the darkness, the leaves on the path held small pools of light from the moon and the morning rain.

[@cyfalk9840]

Psalm 145:14
"The Lord upholds all who fall and lifts up all who are bowed down."
Love you Aunt Sarah ❤