Hey brobeans, Being young fucking sucks, but it will get better. People expect so much. Life expects so much from us, but the most important thing is taking care of yourself. I’m so glad you made this video. Because talking helps. I don’t have a fix it all solution, but if there is anything, EVERYTHING! I can do.. I will. You don’t know me that well, but I know for sure that you are a good person.. a GREAT person. And you would do the same for me. I just know you would. Because thats who you are! A fucking great person. I’m writing this with tears in my eyes, cause we’ve al been there or know someone who’s been there. I hope the smoke in your head will clear eventually. Don’t fight it alone.. there are countless people wanting to douce that flame, clear that smoke, take your hand and guide you through..! If there is anything I can do, hit me up bro. I will be there for you! We will be there for you.. as long as you are there for us! Grtz Bram
Thank you very much for the message. It is true that we don't know each other that well, but I have always enjoyed talking to you. I always felt welcome and we had some good laughs together. Not just with you, but also with Tim and your parents. It makes me happy hearing that you say that I would be there for you too, because I will be. For anyone of you. I am sure the smoke will clear up eventually. Sometimes I just can't find the window to let it out if that makes sense.. Aslong as the fire in my heart keeps burning though. I think I have just been too busy trying to please everyone, those I considered friends, but apparently it wasn't mutual. I always wanted to be their guiding light in a world of darkness, but right now, I am the one who is lost.. Thanks a lot for the kind words. I really appreciate it a lot. And I hope that all of you there at home know I care a lot about you and always will. Yours faithfully Jorn
Hey it's completely fine to not make videos, to be honest with you I'm going through a very similar time in my life right now. I live on a military base and I've lost at least ten of my closest friends, and I've been close to killing myself for a very long time now. I don't mean to pry but I can tell you this from experience, things will get better. I know that's a bit cliche but it's true. I may have not lost a friend to suicide before but one thing you can always go to one person that will always be there for you, and that person is God. Pray to God and he will help you. And trust me you are a good person. I've just recently subscribed to you but I can tell you are a good person, the way you go about your RUclips channel is great, and by seeing this video I honestly can relate with you, I can see that you truly care about others and that's what a lot of people lack now adays. Try doing some things you enjoy to help ease your mind, and I want to tell you for my final words that YOU are not alone cause I can guarantee you that I'm with ya 100% and I will stick with ya.
All I can say is thank you. Thank you for your words and support, it means a lot to me! I am sorry to hear for your losses.. They however will never be erased from our memories, and those memories keeps us going. I hope that you feel, or will feel better too. And thank you that I may be part of your life, even if it may be virtual with my dumb shenanigans. Your message truly helps me, for which I will be ever grateful!
Mister Bopi thank you, and it's the least I can do for you, thanks for all the great content, and I hope life will give you great joy and good memories in the very near future.
I have had Severe medication resistant Bipolar Disorder since I was 3. I’m in a similar boat to you. I don’t understand what happiness feels like, and I’ve been in what you call that neutral state of not knowing why you’re even alive. I hope you feel better, but the reality is that it could take many more years before you can feel better. So persist, keep living, don’t think about why. My condition is bound to get worse over time, so I persist for possible treatments. But that could take decades, maybe never. I can’t hold down a job, learn everything I want to, some days I can’t even hardly get out of bed or feed myself. I’m wasting away and by the time there is a treatment half my life might’ve passed me by. It’s a scary thought, but a real one. I do what I can with the energy I have, and sometimes I don’t have the energy to do anything. Because of my genetic disposition, I may never feel happy. But you have felt happy, and you have a chance to feel happy again. If you need people who understand you as friends, I would try a support group. Not a lot of people understand what we go through every day, finding the right friends can be difficult. Not all psychiatrists and therapists are created equal, the wrong ones can make your life worse, the right ones can make all the difference in the world. I require a psychiatrist to survive, I need medicine to stabilize my mood. But my therapist exists only to help qualify me for treatments. If anti depressants aren’t helping you to the full extent they should, it’s good to be able to rely on yourself and friends.
Hey Patrick It means a lot to me that you took the time to write down your own experience, I hope it might be a bit of a relief to you too. I can't say that I have been depressed my entire life, that is true. I was always a happy child, but to me it changed somewhere in puberty. My mind became darker and my look on the world more realistic to the point I often don't see good in humanity anymore all together.. Yet, I know there still is good people of course. I hope you realise you are one of them. I don't want to say that I understand you, for I am not bipolar, but I can relate to a lot of things you named. Finding a job is as good as impossible to me. If I don't feel too depressed to get out of bed, I am tired or my body hurts due to my blood disorder and all its side effects. My current psychologist wants to test me, she thinks there's more than only my depression, who knows what will come out right? I do too hope that one day you will find the medication that will help you progress, or anything else would be even better. I don't really trust medication anymore after I got an overdose of cortisone by the doctors for a year long.. Which is why I try for a more 'natural' way I suppose, yet I still take my anti depressants to support me, I never had the feeling they helped, but I don't know how I would feel without them either. One last thing I want to say is.. I am sorry we never got around playing resident evil or something else together. Everything that has happened, the people who left.. I find it really difficult to meet someone new and to open up if that makes sense. So, please don't take it personal. I still really appreciate you for who you are as a person and a loyal viewer, which means a lot to me! Your comments always bring a smile to my face. I hope that when I get to feel better, we will play together some day. I have been looking for a horror coop partner for a long time after all :) Take good care of yourself. And once again, thank you very much.. It really means the world to me!
Mister Bopi No problem, I’m both saddened and reassured to find someone in a similar position to me. It reassures me that I’m not the only one who continues to live even while lost to the reason. I believe we both will begin to live again someday, and I believe that is worth waiting for. If you ever need a partner for a game, I’ll be there.
I know exactly what you mean. It makes you feel less alone, but wish nobody should feel like this in the first place.. I shall stick around, right now I just need some air. But like any pigeon I always return. Feel free to hit me up if things really would go down for you too. You listened to me, I shall do the same :)
Hey it’s fine not to make videos. That doesn’t make you a bad person. If someone says that there wrong. And I’ve learned from some of my family had depression. Through all the shit... there’s a rainbow on the other side. That’s what I used to say. So if you can’t make videos anymore that’s fine. If I could I would fly to where you are and try to help you all I can. I hope you feel better. But that’s all I can do through this comment... But I’m trying to say this in a nice way.. suiside isn’t the way. And I want to do every living thing I can as a human to help you. But there is people who can still help you. I don’t know if your religious but I’ll pray for you. And maybe you could try to pray sometime too. We all love you 🙂
Thank you Nifty, I really appreciate it. For being 13, you seem very wise, something you should cherish. I will be okay, I always turn out to be okay.. But it's heavy to carry sometimes.. I shall return eventually again. Maybe in a week, maybe in a month. I will be back, don't worry. Thanks again for your kind words
Hey Nifty, I am okay, thank you. Recently been focusing on my streams a lot, but I plan on uploading again this month :) Thanks for the message, I really appreciate it!
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Hey brobeans,
Being young fucking sucks, but it will get better. People expect so much. Life expects so much from us, but the most important thing is taking care of yourself. I’m so glad you made this video. Because talking helps. I don’t have a fix it all solution, but if there is anything, EVERYTHING! I can do.. I will. You don’t know me that well, but I know for sure that you are a good person.. a GREAT person. And you would do the same for me. I just know you would. Because thats who you are! A fucking great person. I’m writing this with tears in my eyes, cause we’ve al been there or know someone who’s been there.
I hope the smoke in your head will clear eventually. Don’t fight it alone.. there are countless people wanting to douce that flame, clear that smoke, take your hand and guide you through..!
If there is anything I can do, hit me up bro. I will be there for you! We will be there for you.. as long as you are there for us!
Grtz Bram
Thank you very much for the message.
It is true that we don't know each other that well, but I have always enjoyed talking to you. I always felt welcome and we had some good laughs together. Not just with you, but also with Tim and your parents.
It makes me happy hearing that you say that I would be there for you too, because I will be. For anyone of you.
I am sure the smoke will clear up eventually. Sometimes I just can't find the window to let it out if that makes sense.. Aslong as the fire in my heart keeps burning though.
I think I have just been too busy trying to please everyone, those I considered friends, but apparently it wasn't mutual. I always wanted to be their guiding light in a world of darkness, but right now, I am the one who is lost..
Thanks a lot for the kind words. I really appreciate it a lot. And I hope that all of you there at home know I care a lot about you and always will.
Yours faithfully
Jorn
Hey it's completely fine to not make videos, to be honest with you I'm going through a very similar time in my life right now. I live on a military base and I've lost at least ten of my closest friends, and I've been close to killing myself for a very long time now. I don't mean to pry but I can tell you this from experience, things will get better. I know that's a bit cliche but it's true. I may have not lost a friend to suicide before but one thing you can always go to one person that will always be there for you, and that person is God.
Pray to God and he will help you.
And trust me you are a good person. I've just recently subscribed to you but I can tell you are a good person, the way you go about your RUclips channel is great, and by seeing this video I honestly can relate with you, I can see that you truly care about others and that's what a lot of people lack now adays. Try doing some things you enjoy to help ease your mind, and I want to tell you for my final words that YOU are not alone cause I can guarantee you that I'm with ya 100% and I will stick with ya.
All I can say is thank you. Thank you for your words and support, it means a lot to me!
I am sorry to hear for your losses.. They however will never be erased from our memories, and those memories keeps us going.
I hope that you feel, or will feel better too. And thank you that I may be part of your life, even if it may be virtual with my dumb shenanigans.
Your message truly helps me, for which I will be ever grateful!
Mister Bopi thank you, and it's the least I can do for you, thanks for all the great content, and I hope life will give you great joy and good memories in the very near future.
I have had Severe medication resistant Bipolar Disorder since I was 3.
I’m in a similar boat to you.
I don’t understand what happiness feels like, and I’ve been in what you call that neutral state of not knowing why you’re even alive.
I hope you feel better, but the reality is that it could take many more years before you can feel better.
So persist, keep living, don’t think about why.
My condition is bound to get worse over time, so I persist for possible treatments.
But that could take decades, maybe never.
I can’t hold down a job, learn everything I want to, some days I can’t even hardly get out of bed or feed myself.
I’m wasting away and by the time there is a treatment half my life might’ve passed me by.
It’s a scary thought, but a real one.
I do what I can with the energy I have, and sometimes I don’t have the energy to do anything.
Because of my genetic disposition, I may never feel happy.
But you have felt happy, and you have a chance to feel happy again.
If you need people who understand you as friends, I would try a support group.
Not a lot of people understand what we go through every day, finding the right friends can be difficult.
Not all psychiatrists and therapists are created equal, the wrong ones can make your life worse, the right ones can make all the difference in the world.
I require a psychiatrist to survive, I need medicine to stabilize my mood.
But my therapist exists only to help qualify me for treatments.
If anti depressants aren’t helping you to the full extent they should, it’s good to be able to rely on yourself and friends.
Hey Patrick
It means a lot to me that you took the time to write down your own experience, I hope it might be a bit of a relief to you too.
I can't say that I have been depressed my entire life, that is true. I was always a happy child, but to me it changed somewhere in puberty. My mind became darker and my look on the world more realistic to the point I often don't see good in humanity anymore all together..
Yet, I know there still is good people of course. I hope you realise you are one of them.
I don't want to say that I understand you, for I am not bipolar, but I can relate to a lot of things you named. Finding a job is as good as impossible to me. If I don't feel too depressed to get out of bed, I am tired or my body hurts due to my blood disorder and all its side effects.
My current psychologist wants to test me, she thinks there's more than only my depression, who knows what will come out right?
I do too hope that one day you will find the medication that will help you progress, or anything else would be even better. I don't really trust medication anymore after I got an overdose of cortisone by the doctors for a year long.. Which is why I try for a more 'natural' way I suppose, yet I still take my anti depressants to support me, I never had the feeling they helped, but I don't know how I would feel without them either.
One last thing I want to say is.. I am sorry we never got around playing resident evil or something else together. Everything that has happened, the people who left.. I find it really difficult to meet someone new and to open up if that makes sense. So, please don't take it personal. I still really appreciate you for who you are as a person and a loyal viewer, which means a lot to me! Your comments always bring a smile to my face.
I hope that when I get to feel better, we will play together some day. I have been looking for a horror coop partner for a long time after all :)
Take good care of yourself. And once again, thank you very much.. It really means the world to me!
Mister Bopi No problem, I’m both saddened and reassured to find someone in a similar position to me.
It reassures me that I’m not the only one who continues to live even while lost to the reason.
I believe we both will begin to live again someday, and I believe that is worth waiting for.
If you ever need a partner for a game, I’ll be there.
I know exactly what you mean. It makes you feel less alone, but wish nobody should feel like this in the first place..
I shall stick around, right now I just need some air. But like any pigeon I always return.
Feel free to hit me up if things really would go down for you too. You listened to me, I shall do the same :)
Hey it’s fine not to make videos. That doesn’t make you a bad person. If someone says that there wrong. And I’ve learned from some of my family had depression. Through all the shit... there’s a rainbow on the other side. That’s what I used to say. So if you can’t make videos anymore that’s fine. If I could I would fly to where you are and try to help you all I can. I hope you feel better. But that’s all I can do through this comment... But I’m trying to say this in a nice way.. suiside isn’t the way. And I want to do every living thing I can as a human to help you. But there is people who can still help you. I don’t know if your religious but I’ll pray for you. And maybe you could try to pray sometime too. We all love you 🙂
Thank you Nifty, I really appreciate it. For being 13, you seem very wise, something you should cherish.
I will be okay, I always turn out to be okay.. But it's heavy to carry sometimes..
I shall return eventually again. Maybe in a week, maybe in a month. I will be back, don't worry.
Thanks again for your kind words
Hey man how Are you doing
Hey Nifty, I am okay, thank you.
Recently been focusing on my streams a lot, but I plan on uploading again this month :)
Thanks for the message, I really appreciate it!