That’s why I watch these videos. I’m not someone who uses psychedelics. Only drug I’ve ever used was weed and only a handful of times. The insight this man provides on life and his perception of life and reality is soo interesting and enlightening in a way
Last time I did acid I had the worst trip imaginable. I didn’t know what I was. I couldn’t form words in my brain. I couldn’t remember my life. I couldn’t even tell if I was standing up, sitting down or falling. And for 2 hours I was actually insane. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. That’s being said.... I am definitely doing it again !!
Yeah I dont think many people realize you can have breakthrough, dmt-like experiences on lsd or shrooms. It just takes a much higher dose to completely leave reality for what feels like an eternity lol. For me it was all that, and my brain was thinking so much and so fast I couldnt make sense of anything. Like I was convinced the universe was a figment of my imagination and I just permanently fucked it up.
at a party once this guy was having a bad trip and he literally thought he hit his head off the fireplace and died and he was crying and yelling how much he loved us and he was sorry. wild night
@@all_gucc1 No? Experimenting and playing around with drugs does not mean you are an addict. you are only an addict when you and your body feels like it needs the drug, your body will go into withdrawal from the abrupt stop in an addict's body, non-addicts will not get this, or if they do it is momentary and fades away as they go about their day.
I know quite a few people that need themselves a "bad trip" to get rid of their over inflated egos and entitlement issues. To get humbled is to become a better person.
Bad trips bring balance to the abuse, we all had one. That's the turning point to limit the addiction and the universe saying to take a break and enjoy reality abit. Hadn't smoked weed since then, not eventually quit but had been clean for like a month now. It's cool here and there but for every day that would be a no. Bad Trips are part of Psychedelic's even though they are horrible you will learn.
I somewhat agree but what is life if you don't feel better than most people at something. You are just a waste of a life, meaningless. And that scares me
@@eric6rock I never had a bad trip, I saw several people having bad trips but I only had one bad trip when I took too much dextrometorphan but that is a ugly drug anyways and it was over 15 years ago. I never had a bad trip from lsd, psylocibin or dmt. Right now I come down from 120microgram lsd and I smoked 50mg dmt during the peak. It was a crazy mindblowing experience but I don't think I can ever have a bad trip from these psychedelics. But Im very responsible when it comes to drugs, I never take too much and take long breaks inbetween and even if I feel uncomfortable, which happens sometimes, I am able to guide my own trip. I am my own trip sitter. No matter what happens I always know its just a chemical reaction in my brain, nothing more.
I smoked DMT with friends last night. They both had wonderful trips, I went into the hell loop. I’ve been there before, but this was even more hellish. I was completely terrified and heartbroken the whole time, and convinced that I broke the simulation of our reality, I became stuck in a looped error and it was horrific. I didn’t have the courage in my heart to face it, and I was annihilated. Watching this video has made me think that I’ll return to the experience again, after I’ve spent some time meditating and filling my heart with courage and love again. Thank you for sharing your bravery and insight.
In my experiance was also the loop, time was not existed, thought stuck for eternity, had really bad feelings like I died the hole time, heared horror chaos sound, cannot thinking more then a moment bevor died again and again, after a while I saw my friends were all demons,devil or scary gods and they re try ceep me in the loop , laugh like kids and make averything hurt so much, was so much scared like never before in my hole life! After a while I wished the whole time to die to stup it but it wasnt possible. After Eternity I remember the name of my best fried wich was the devil, concentraite my hole straighness on thim and fokus his eyes. To look at him was hurt much more but I dont gived up because it was my only chance. Somebodys voice told my to breave and I come back slowly to normal life! Felt reborn. Only 5mins was passt. Will try to handle it like you wrote to do. How are you know?
i didnt feel bad, i felt amazing and felt like i was everything and i was switching through realities of me that didnt make it out alive and made me realise i am the best version of myself
@@whitecrow20 that circle thing happened to me, it was insane, i could feel it too, i was everything and everything was made of me in different patterns and i am the best version of my self, i was the only version who made it out of theese situations alive, i and every single momment in my life made everything and everything made it and it all circled around me around and around i loved this and i was morphing through different realities, i loved it i was awake but teleporting my mind in different versions of my self and everything was me
On my fourth Ayahuasca ceremony, I prayed to the tea before drinking, asking to rid me fear and give me strength. For that, I was given a challenge. An entity dragged into a world of pure noise as I travelled through a hellish geometric columb of vibrant red and orange pulsating. I felt my very being begin to dissolve within this hell as my heart raced, I couldn't stop vomiting, and my body contorted and shuttered uncontrollably. The entity told me that I had to still myself and find inner peace throughout this chaos, that I had to muster up all the strength I could and face this world head-on. Then I realized that it was my fear that was hurting me. I stopped being afraid, and I escaped hell, only to be confronted with the reality that we live in a sentient universe, and that I was always meant to go through this trial. I was given what I asked for.
Love it Everytime something seems to get scary on dmt I just tell it "I dont care ,I only have love , I only bring love " Gets me through the so called bad ones
Haha I vowed 2-3 times to never do psychedelics ever again, it's been almost 2 years since my last trip and I'm thinking about trying mdma for the first time now(ik it's not like other psychedelics but it still has a psychedelic element)
@John Doe although there's nothing wrong with doing these stuff lmao. You're brainwashed into thinking drugs bad. These are psychedelics my friend they're mostly harmless
@John Doe u could say "u are definitely not going to be a bad Boi and do naughty things with that knowledge right? RIGHT?" idk that's the best I can do lol
yes omg, i was having bad thoughts, but i allowed the bad thoughts to absorb me, i fought it, i stomped my foot against it. it felt good. i felt true euphoria when i stopped the thoughts. when i realized i can end it.
I just did DMT for my first time. I did it for a reason. My grandma died in my arms. We knew she didn’t have much time and I built her casket. About an hour after she passed, I smoked one hit, about 30 grams and held it. I broke thru. We are not alone. WE ARE NOT ALONE! There is so much more beyond our constructed realm. I was an emotional wreck and there were entities comforting me. It was so beautiful. Coming out of my break thru, I was in her casket with her and she was just smiling to me. It was both scary and peaceful. It was only about 12 min, but it was an eternity. This was 2 days ago. I love you grandma. 😢
I needed to hear this. I nearly had a panic attack watching this video, because it brought "it" back, but you calmed me down as you explained how you calmed yourself down. I feel like I cleansed myself of the same energy with your narration of the whole process. Just breathe.
@@keyworksales6241 You are one of those guys who claim to have seen Disneyland but spent the entire time spinning in circles and banging his head against the wall. You were too numb to get any message out of it, so you keep cranking up the dose to "get more out of it" but all you are doing is pounding your head against the walls and are missing all the meaning. But go ahead, keep cranking up that dose rocket man.
@@keyworksales6241 hey man - having had seveal "nightmares" before, I found this discussion helpful. The absurd, bizarre places we visit when travelling can be frightening, horrific, and even scarring. Even moreso if we keep any trauma from the experience hidden and undiscussed. If you haven't had an adventure that has haunted you, that is totally fine. Great even! But don't put down people who have experienced things that you haven't.
When you said "It's good to drop the perceptions of good vs bad, and just observe whats going on from a neutral standpoint" that hit different, more people need to recognize this.
When I have an ego death my brain defaults to an analytical way of thinking. So even when weird stuff happens I just observe and analyse. I should start logging my trips xD
I’ve always had a common fear of going insane or in a vegetable state from trips. I think it’s the fear of coming back and being stuck in your head or getting to a point of no return.
I had my first psychedelic breakthrough 4 weeks ago. All i can say is the Ego Death is the absolute most terrifying experience you will ever see but if you take a few days off of work and really reflect on everything you witnessed, remembered, and felt....oh my god is it incredibly helpful working through personal roadblocks and anxiety or struggles. The time loop aspect is very scary but you come out of the trip eventually. I would recommend having a random genre playlist playing in the background just in case you get "stuck" in a loop. It will end on its own no matter what but the music changing ever few minutes would end all of those loops, or at least help at the very least. Have fun :)
Same, logically I know I'll be back to normal, but I usually start thinking about how time slows down so much I'll never reach the end of the trip. Maybe meditation would help like Adam said.
@@tylermurray6144 Also the true realisation that time does not exist it is purely a mental construct, KNOW THIS! just be the observer, that has certainly helped me get past this, it becomes far more comfortable to totally learn to forget time especially in the run upto and during your trip, much love and peace to all x
You will always come back, its never been an issue for me and I've looped twice, the 1st time I thought I was gone for good the 2nd I recognised I gave into to it, my advise never fight it, that is when things get uncomfortable and when your completely back in the room you just need to give yourself more than enough time space to really integrate the experience, process it, contemplate meditate learn from it before the next journey, love and peace x
@@technojunger5328 damn, i didn't know that only one person got to say what's funny and what's not. If you don't like a joke but see others enjoy it, why not just ignore...
"Its good to drop the perceptions of good vs bad and just observe what's going on from a neutral standpoint" I think that's the truest thing I've ever heard.
This is absolutely terrible advice. There are huge RISKS with psychedelic drugs, everytime you dose you are risking PSYCHOSIS. And that’s a FACT. If you want to lose your mind and plummet into suicidal thoughts then sure go ahead and seek discomfort with psychedelics, what’s insanity anyway?
David Torres it’s not the feeling of discomfort, it’s what you do and how you handle it. there’s a difference. if you’re not mentally prepared to be put into a bad place then yes, don’t do it. as for others that are experienced and use it as a learning tool then it is 110% amazing advice.
I love how safe you are, how you stress safety too many "gurus" say there are "no" bad trips or nothing bad can happen, you are very trustworthy thank you
Reality is a simulator for Love. When you understand this, you realize it is set up to make you face your fears, you draw your fears to you. What you resist, persists. What you look at, disappears. In other words, you must first embrace before you can let go.
@@theunclefungus funny you say that! I just wrote this poem yesterday. Feel free to use it, even if just for inspiration. Art is meant to be shared, right? -I Wish- Life is not a school and also life is not a test, It's an infinite and magical, experiential quest. Life will lift you high and also throw you to the ground, Life is knowing you are up through knowing you've been down. For absent all that you are not then you could not exist, So life is choosing "who am I, relative to this?". The truth of what you really are is what will set you free, I wish there was a way to show...to see what I can see.
Dude thought loops are the scariest part of super intense trips I’ve ever experienced. I absolutely love diving into the dark corners of psychedelic headspace on the brink of insanity, but I love what you said about breaking the fair of doing the same thing over and over. This is my second video of yours I’ve seen as of today, and I’m hooked. Got a nice k hole ahead of me!
I once had an infinite loop where I was watching this psychedelic morphing monster/alien disco club just scrolling up like credits at a movie. The creatures scared me at first, but then, in my head, I was like, "you know, these guys are just dancing and having fun. They're not hurting me. I'm judging them by their looks, and that's something I shouldn't do. " And after I had those thoughts it was pretty cool just watching it. "Even if it lasts forever, I'll enjoy watching them have fun"
Please.. be carefull. You could lose the thing that lets you know what the soul you are is. Seeing the world threw many eyes is incredible but needs to not be chased after with vigor.
Baked N Confused U can believe what you want, i still believe we are all genereted by bilions of neurons firing in the brain. I dont believe in souls, spirit good or bad energy and no gods either.
If you meditate and practice zen, your bottom line is unbreakable and no trip can shatter it. Even a hell loop can be conquered by the bliss of slow breaths and mindfulness. "When you feel lost, use your sword.. slash your thoughts to ribbons.. and anything else that lives in the past or the future" - socrates from The way of the peaceful warrior.
it's like the filter over perception your brain normally holds can finally melt away, and I trust that this isn't my mind assuring me what's real and fake, it's just there and my mind is no longer really able to tell me things that aren't true
Exactly. It's like everything is real suddenly. It's like you're seeing more, without seeing more? Like another sense has awakened. It really is impossible to explain unless you've been there.
@@talanmoult1873 I cannot see it when I'm not high but I feel it. Everything is alive and thinking. We hallucinate reality, if you change the hallucination you see more possibilities and more of reality. You see more of what is real.
the brain autofilters everything be perceive, because it is not important for survival, it would even be a strain, because interpreting and calculating (whatever) all these things from your senses is waste of energy and thoughts so, who fucking knows how reality looks or is, every being receives it otherwise
At an ayahuasca ceremony once I found myself stuck in what I consider a “love loop”. Rather than fear. It was like having a 4 hour long laugh-gasm. Best experience ever. 💖
I have had a similar experience when I was 16, it made me quit all kinds of drugs, I haven't touched to anything since then. I plan on one day revisiting that place when I feel I'm ready. I appreciate you stressing out the fact that psychedelic induced psychosis is a very serious matter and can lead to suicide. Thank you for sharing this! Stay careful everyone
I’ve also felt my sanity has been slightly skewered after a very traumatic experience; I interpreted that experience as a sign of stopping psyches altogether and practice meditation for “authentic enlightenments”. Don’t push it
I had taken way too much mdma 2 years ago (at 17) and didnt touch anything until just a month or so ago. To this day weed sucks ass, i get sad and bad body and mind vibes. Shrooms were cool, im going to try lsd very soon. Taking time off is a good idea. Ill revisit M some time soonish as well :) safe travels
Probably because you were 16 and your brain is not ready for any drugs at that age, leave it until your mid 20s or 30s your brain is much more equipped to deal with psycadelics then
I’ve experienced psychedelic induced psychosis before as well. Everything you said about your perspective of fear being essentially something entirely subjective and being able to see the experience objectively through solely the awareness with no involvement from the ego is spot on and beautiful.
When adds finally appear on psychedsubstance after a good year. And your happy about them appearing. Keep up the great an informative information your helping so many
This is an amazing breakthrough Adam. What you tapped into is truly the beginning of knowing your higher/true self. I look forward to more of your content.
Adam in all love: I feel you really should take a step back from psycedelics. I follow your channel since day one and I am pretty sure that you got "The Message" a very long time ago and still you do not hang up the phone and that is a very strong indicator for the spiritual ego. There is only so much you can learn from psycedelics and you know by now everything that needs to be known, the feeling of oneness, observing your thoughts and emotionsens, observing your ego, getting into more love and compassion with yourself and your envirentment and your ego. The Fact that you try time and time again to "fix" something "face a problem" is creating the problem in the first place. You can NOT fix something that is not broken, you can not learn more when you know all that needs to be known. The best thing you can do from now on IMO is to integreate what you learned, sourround yourself with people that are also very conscious and reflective and practice things that are good for you like following your passion, may it be art, music, this channel (aside from risky drug combinations), supporting your family and daily meditation. I think it would make much more sense that the next time you feel you need to evlove/fix something you rather visit a meditation retreat or Buddhist/Hinddi Tempel, where you can focus an entire week or more on reflection, meditation and giving your emotions a space to breathe. The only thing IMO that psycedelics will do for you from this point on is to lead you further astray from your path.
@Willam Snyder I am refering to using psycedelics for it. The spiritual path is an ongoing process for sure, but true growth comes from within, not from the outside or a substance. It can open a door but you gotta walk through it by yourself.
@Willam Snyder There is nothing to realise. It's a unique journey and noone can lead it but yourself. And as I said, trying psycedelics is fine, but doing it over and over again, thinking it will you help to get/realise/reach "that one thing that will make you enlightend" is an illusion.
@@dummbobqqqqq even if he has "learned everything", he can still use this medicine to better see things through different perspectives, which is invaluable to anybody
I assume that the "warmth'" after the fear of the loop was indeed a reward of overwinning a fear you had inside you. I felt the same when doing a an ayahuasca ceremony. The warmth is unimaginable how good it feels, i had that feeling for hours and got a lot of insights during that state such as the notion of how precious life is when letting go of all fears
Hey Adam!! I really appreciate the aside that this really isn't something an inexperienced person should be doing. And the seriousness you brought to this video was both refreshing and interesting! Your experience itself was also interesting, and I think what you say of difficult trips blooming into beauty and euphoria is very common especially on psychedelics, and is a large part of where, its therapeutic potential comes into play, at least for me anyway. It is important to say though, that the mixing of multiple substances is VERY unpredictable, and I hope that other people understand this! Especially when psychedelics are in play, the addition of a new drug can really potentiate it to completely new, and often overwhelming levels, and it is VERY important that people understand that while mixing drugs CAN BE safe, there is a very real, and very new level of unpredictability and strength.
Psychedelic trips are like spiritual awakening on steroids, I've watched a lot of your videos on psychedelics and what you describe is essentially stuff I've experienced completely sober in meditation while i was having my awakening and now I'm not afraid of shrooms and DMT anymore 😀
@@almighty_buildz9603 I just close my eyes and tell myself Okay we're going into meditation. After that my body relaxes and my breathing gets deeper and smoother. The thoughts in my head become one fluent stream instead of a chaotic mush. I feel the energy of my body and start focusing on places that feel energetically tense - sometimes it feels like a knot in my head or a foreign body attached to my aura, if you will, or maybe a string connecting me to something outside of me. Then you simply explore the process. You sometimes get visuals or you hear sounds or even thoughts or you feel like you're floating in a dark empty space. You need to ease into it and just let yourself feel whatever it is that you're feeling or thinking or seeing and really allow yourself to explore without judgment. At first I had to imagine my thoughts going through my ears, exiting from one or both and then it takes practice. Today I can go into meditation really easily and it truly needs some time to get used to feeling of not being able to relax your mind.
@Daniel Dunlea I'm not gonna advertise Acid or shrooms or anything, but unless you're cautious, theres nothing wrong with it. Just dont have a bad trip. Two ways you can do this is either smoke weed or do it with friends that will trip sit you. It gets rid of your ego and you dont feel as if you're a different being, but just like anything else. A dog, cat, cockroach; etc. One thing I've is that it has opened my mind and I can explain things I never thought I could explain.
@@jackofalltrades3378 well as a believer on god I believe a psychosis trip is with Dmt atleast is entering another dimension that is not controlled by god but by the devil and the bible talks about how they can make it a scary trip but as a way to gain control of you they will eventually try to gain control manipulating you to believe it's a good thing
@Daniel Dunlea You won’t be addicted to psychedelics trust me! I’ve done acid like every month until my last trip 2 years ago cos I felt no need for it anymore.. it’s just a different roam different thoughts and different outcomes
A month ago on high dose mushrooms I revisited the same "hell realm" as the one I visited on high dose LSD this past summer. It felt like I was back in that same trip, and that everything that had happened in between the two trips was this big loop that I would be forced to relive. But I was able to disengage much more knowing that I had gotten out once before, checking the clock was reassuring because time was slowly going by so I was able to just focus on how the feeling would pass, which it eventually did. I now refer to this space as "The Basement" and have more or less realised that on any high dose psychedelic I could be sent back to this place. It is empowering to think of simply having past experience in this space gives me the opportunity to bring my own joy and peace into it in the future. The possibility of just sitting in that space and meditating is an interesting prospect that I will be excited to have in my mental arsenal in future trips.
Mushrooms man.... I've gotten that too, where the time between trips was just a loop in itself and now it is the accumulation of all that energy just spiraling forever
When you get into the hellraiser places where cenobites peel you and your family apart in extra dimensional torturous ways you couldn’t imagine is usually when it gets serious
That's true, but if I want to not be hindered by this scenario then I need to start discernment and mental discipline somewhere. If I go back to this specific space I won't be so quick to accept the narrative that my mind gives me, because that was what made it a "hell realm" in the first place. This wasn't actually all that scary, there was just a red gloomy look to things. I'm sure being removed from my physical body and experiencing hell realms in the "flesh" is an all together different thing. But that's why I'm increasing in increments.
The thing about these types of experiences is that in the moment, the thoughts you are having seem to be the most logical conclusions that you can draw, given what it is you are experiencing. In the moment, nothing can convince you otherwise because you KNOW it is true. When you have reality shattered in front of you, nobody telling you that everything is 'normal' means anything because you now understand that these types of assurances are meaningless. This usually tends to wear off after a period of time, sometimes it takes hours, sometimes days/weeks, sometimes months/years. Once it has worn off, we typically think back on those moments and decide that somehow we must of been interpreting our experience incorrectly, that we allowed fear or some other emotion(s) to get the better of us. But I wonder, why is it that we should doubt what we KNEW at that time to be true? Just because our brains mended the tears, closed the curtain and slowly brought us back into what we accept as reality...why should we believe it now? And even if we don't believe it...the truth is we've forgotten what it really was we understand in that moment. We can recall the concepts, recall what we think we learned about the true nature of things...but nothing can help us to remember the FEELING, and what that FEELING allowed us to understand. Until of course you decide to do it all over again, and it happens...the incredible rush of terror and Deja Vu...that strange and particular Deja Vu that you had even the very first time it ever happened to you.
I understand every single word you just said completely. Especially the part about the FEELING which taught us something, not thoughts or logic while we were in that altered state. I like to see it though, that even if what we understood in the altered state now doesn’t make sense or seemed insane while we’re sober, I never close the door on it. I always remind myself that what I saw could very possibly have been the “true” reality, and our every day lives are the hallucinations. But it is because we have no choice but to continue on in our every day lives that we can only live as if the hallucinations are real. And there’s nothing wrong or scary about that, you’re just doing what you’ve always done but now with the sacred knowledge that there is so much more happening under the wallpaper of the universe.
Fucking hell!! I just felt that rush of terror again because of how accurately you just described it! I was worried I was about to be back in that hell loop. I’ve experienced this 3 times & I haven’t tripped in over a year bc of the last horror trip I had. I was planning on trying Shrooms again soon but this comment is seriously making me reconsider. I’ve been doing all this planning for my next trip, but in the end does it even really matter? Once I experience that déjà vu again, it’s just gonna be another (literal) downward spiral. :(
I can recall complex unorthodox ideas and thoughts afterwards. And the information almost seems like a gift. Like I shouldn’t be aware of the things I know. Like about human Consciousness. The inner voice. That’s all became clear in a way
DMT has scared me once and it felt like my teeth were crushed and that I swallowed them as a punishment for visiting another realm. I touched my teeth with my fingers and my fingers felt disgusting. They looked disgusting too. I did NOT throw the DMT in the trash though.
Thien Nguyen you want to take 3 medium/big hits to have a proper breakthrough experience. Hold it in a good amount of time but don’t over do it 6/7 seconds. You have to Kinda push yourself to take the 3rd but you have to do it, because it’s the fighting/resisting it, and holding on to reality that will give you a bad trip. Just surrender to it and let go, and go in knowing it’s going to be completely reality shattering (in a good way) only do it if you’re mentally ready for that
Dave Allen i just find depending on how long i hold my big first hit determines how strong the trip will be, the longer i hold it the more i can feel it hitting me before ive blown it out.
@@ljhartley1985 I had a similar experience pal, it was fucking terrifying,I thought the same as you, what if I'm stuck like this and it's all I could think of for all of about 20 min but it felt like a lifetime lmao.
@@ljhartley1985 yeah I'm from the uk, birmingham,a friend give me a dose about 5 years ago and just said don't go into it with an ego lol,I didn't know what he was on about as I'd took mushrooms and lsd a good thew times, I took it on my own and I took 3 big hits, fuck man,I was blasted into space but I had no body,it was like I was just my thoughts,It was like I was nothing but at the same time everything,thought I was dieing lol, ill down load that app pal and yeah I'd be grateful if you could guide me in how to purchase please Lee.
A similar thing happened to me when I had an NDE, my heart stopped beating and I could only see a big flash and it seemed like I was travelling somewhere. When I came back I thought I was in hell, or the underworld. I felt like I was on a different reality or dimension. For weeks I thought I was really dead or experiencing something else, but I was kinda sure that I passed away and moved on from my original reality.
Real shit, you learn to appreciate every second of life when you come out of death, facing the fear of death and life, constant cycles, time stuck. I appreciate you so much for facing every fear, for accepting the nature of life, I’ve felt these same energies of death and entering true reality, the in between of life and death where everything is believed and questioned and signs of suicide are thrown in but truly letting nature run it’s course is the trick, to appreciate instead of trip. You learn true values and surviving energy and embrace the universe. love to you brother you faced the fear of reality, the fear of losing all that is regarded as true and gaining consciousness of all that truly surrounds 🦁🖤
I've been addicted to your videos since months before I started tripping in 2016. You've helped me overcome so many psychedelic fears and anxieties in the most responsible of ways and I cannot thank you enough. I know it's somewhat menial, but I've always wondered when your birthday is.
The Stoic phrase 'Live according to Nature' actually means 'live a virtuous life because that is what you have been designed to do. One of the four pillars of virtue is courage. As Terrence Mckenna once said, "nature loves courage". Face your fears, overcome them and nature will reward you.
Then you are just listening, we feel what he is saying and i know after the trip ends we only remember 5-10 percent of the experience good or bad only 5-10 percent
@@dakshmanohar5678 5-10 percent only? i've tripped once 3 years ago, 300-400ug acid, and i can recall the day VERY VERY well. however somewhat out of order, i can still recall so many key moments. it felt like every moment was a key moment. i remember the patterns, mindset, the feeling, the emotion, etc. but.... some people's memory does not work this way. i've read about people who can't think in color, or 3d, or imagine landscapes etc. i definitely have a "good" memory in terms of that. i get very emotional as i recall my trip
Mike tyson on the subject has a million times the substance, you’ll really learn something if you listen to what he says. This guy just trips balls as hard as possible for fun.
i’ve had a acid “hell” but it’s all what you take from it ! benzos helped me when it was 19 hours in and needed it. i tripped for 29 hours and then finally fell asleep. it’s really just what you bring from it. i honestly would do it again. i wouldn’t trade that “nightmare” trip for the world. it took me a bit to realize that the loops didn’t have to be scary either but once i took the benzos and once they took away the anxiety it allowed me to finally break through the fear. even though i have had that trip where i wanted to kill myself i feel like i’m anomaly as well. i’m tripping again soon eventually, i won’t let the fear get to me and if it does, i’m completely okay with that.
You might never see this, but your intro on how your terror experience happened was exactly how mine went a month ago (spot on minus the acid), it’s still got me a little off but I’m overcoming by the day, learning that there’s no reason to be scared of things anymore, you saying that in the video just confirmed I’m on the right track. You might not have thought that part of the video specifically would help the most but damn it was almost like a breath of fresh air, thank you. I had such a hard time explaining what happened and what I saw but it was like living in another world (absolute fucking hell-loop) for a lifetime and then coming back and being told to act like it didn’t happen. Sometimes it’s really hard bc it’s almost like I’m going back, but I just remind myself that it’s okay to be there and even if I do go crazy that I have people around that’ll make sure I’m taken care of. I have to remind myself that reality is experiencing true emotion, that I’m here and breathing, and that alone is honestly the most wonderful and comfortable feeling, again thank you for sharing your experience.
In my experiance was also the loop, time was not existed, thought stuck for eternity, had really bad feelings like I died the hole time, heared horror chaos sound, cannot thinking more then a moment bevor died again and again, after a while I saw my friends were all demons,devil or scary gods and they re try ceep me in the loop , laugh like kids and make averything hurt so much, was so much scared like never before in my hole life! After a while I wished the whole time to die to stup it but it wasnt possible. After Eternity I remember the name of my best fried wich was the devil, concentraite my hole straighness on thim and fokus his eyes. To look at him was hurt much more but I dont gived up because it was my only chance. Somebodys voice told my to breave and I come back slowly to normal life! Felt reborn. Only 5mins was passt.
DMT is a doubled edged sword, it's the one substance that has been able to send me in some challenging borderline bad trips. I've smoked through many grams of it but once in a while, seemingly random it just doesn't 'fall' right and you become really anxious/jumpy (especially when smoking alone) to completely terrified. Maybe the plant doesn't think it's a good time to visit other realms, or whoever is there doesn't want you in at that moment. I respect that, stop smoking, and pick it up a different time.
I think i read it in the wrong voice...😂 i heard elsa from frozen singing "the storm never bothered me anyway" but storm being infinity instead. What song would it be?
Very helpful, thank you, My first Toad experience was a mix of what felt like an eternal loop of swapping consciousness with all creation, and felt terrifying at first, followed by the deep understanding of existence, however, the following week was a little bit of depression, excitement and fear to review the loop part,. But hearing your out helps me understand that its not necessary to believe it really is scary.
Oh yea, I've been in that trip loop hell before. High doses kinda scare me. It almost feels like I'm completely leaving this reality behind and I'll never get to go back. 🙃 Scary and very trippy shit.
Totally believing that you're not going to be able to come back to this wonderful place 🌏❤️ scared me so bad I haven't revisited DMT land for a whole year now. I'm so fucking grateful to be back and I'm not very sure I want to go to the infinity loop and be an electron for eternity 🙆♂️😬 Idk... I guess my point is just that I totally relate with you xD
I know you will say I am full of shit but I expirienced this while smoking weed. Just once when I had just the right amount of alcohol inside me. I have tried to recreate it but never got close.
I felt the loop and I was convinced I died and that this was the place you went that didn’t have time or words and you just went in circles. I finally was able to get the words out for my roommate to turn the music off to stop the loop and then I fell down and came back to reality
Dude same although I whent into shock and yelled to the person into in my house and we both sat on my bed as I tried to explain the hell before I sobered up
This is so interesting, I've experienced something remarkably similar!! I've been in a spiritual path for most of my life. The first time I experienced that kind of infinite loop was under the influence of marijuana. It was a freaky experience but disregarded it a something exclusive to pot and went on with my life. The next time I was trying Bufo alvarius for the fist time. It was somehow confusing but I got a clear sense of being in the same space I was familiar with. Oscillated from taking a look into the awe of infinity to confronting the dreadful reality of a separate existence in a place without time aka. eternal purgatory. That made me wary of touching that place inside of me especially since I experienced some reactivations during the following months. This last 28th of December I attended an Ayahuasca ceremony it was also my first time and did it together with my mother, on a beach in Baja California. The setting was very loving and I was very willing to confront whatever existence had to show me. I went right back to were I left with the Bufo. I saw what could be described as the matrix of infinite possibilities but this time it was in 4k. After a while I slided right back to the painful, infinite present. I guess my experience was a little less abstract to yours but it was pretty much the same eternal loop. In it I shouted, cursed and experienced what felt like an infinite sequence of realizations of the true nature of being. In one point I just accepted this shapeless form of existence and soon enough the chaos was replaced by an overwhelming sense of peace and joy. I realized I was literally everything and found a lot of love for myself. After a while it wore off but I've definitely been feeling a lot more connected and present in my daily life. Thank you a lot for sharing your experience in this videos. Your experiences helped me realize what it means to confront all those thing that exist within but are imposible to fully comprehend. I'm really excited to continue this journey, specially to bring that awareness to daily life.
that circle thing happened to me, it was insane, i could feel it too, i was everything and everything was made of me in different patterns and i am the best version of my self, i was the only version who made it out of theese situations alive, i and every single momment in my life made everything and everything made it and it all circled around me around and around i loved this and i was morphing through different realities, i loved it i was awake but teleporting my mind in different versions of my self and everything was me
I took lsd while being medicated with litium and had a similar experience.. i was stuck in a rift of reality where i could never reach anyone and no one could ever hear me scream and i would just be trapped there for all eternity.. and it felt like i was there for years..
Glad to know that shit actually doesn’t mix well I’ve been on lithium for over a year for bipolar mania and I’ve been so tempted to trip again because I had years of great trips before lithium
Devil Orbital that’s just a lot easier said then done. Growing up Psychedelics were like a sacrament for me.my entire childhood and up until my 9th grade year I was so depressed and suicidal that I had borrowed a friends gun and was planning on shooting myself just to escape my miserable life. However a day or two before the planned date I was offered lsd from a friend who knew I was going through a lot. I dosed at midnight exactly 11/22/14 and from that point on I fell in love with being alive and completely did a 360 with my life. It Provoked a new sense of confidence and my parents didint know how I was anymore I finally began making friends and coming out of my shell. Then had years of continued great experiences up until I was diagnosed bipolar my freshman year of college and now I’ve had a hard time hanging up my hat so to speak
I had a trip about two weeks ago where I genuinely thought I was losing my mind, I was terrified. I don't remember anything visually from the trip which has never happened before but I remember the feeling of been stuck in an eternal loop and I felt like I knew too much and my brain didn't have the capacity to hold everything and honestly whilst tripping still i felt like my only option was to end my life. I've never felt fear like it. For days afterwards I felt serious anxiety and I still don't really can't make sense of the whole situation
Imagine having to unlearn everything you ever been told in your 3 dimensional life, that would drive anyone insane, but thats the fun of it. So I get the idea why they’re jesters in that “dimensional space”
What Adam said about psychedelic induced psychosis is so true. The first time it happened to me, I had done upwards of 50 acid trips and thought I was pretty experienced. It can happen to anyone and can be scary as shit while your in it. For example I thought I was losing my memory (in reality it was my tripped out brain trying to comprehend thought loops) and this lead to me thinking world War 3 had started ( I thought north Korea or Russia had "nuked" the US with a memory erasing bomb) and running around trying to figure out how to restore everyone's memories by writing down what I could remember and slowly building on what I had wrote. And the crazy part is I 100% thought it was real, there was no doubt in my mind that everyone lost their memory. I tried talking to my friend and my dad, and I thought they were loosing their memory too. This made me start balling crying ( which is something I haven't done since elementary school l ) So be safe and don't over do it. Psychedelics can sneak up on you in terrifying ways.
I almost flushed all my acid (a strip of double dosed tabs) when I went way too far down the rabbit hole on a tab, but didn’t and turned that determination into energy to respect and handle the tabs for positive trips commencing forward from then. Since that, all my LSD trips have been amazing. Have the intent of healing and it’s all groovy
I admire your talent for expressing and presenting your experiences in informative, authentic, comprehensible and shameless ways. I wish you a lifetime of peace purpose and gratitude. And continued safety
Adam, as a fellow psychonaut and a well wisher, I feel like you are loosing touch with the harm reduction aspect of the channel and on a personal level it seems like you are abusing these substances with a false ego of having been "experienced" and by doing so you are teetering on a very fine edge. However experienced you are, these substances are extremely powerful teachers, they need absolute respect and reverence.You must give appropriate time between psychedelic journeys to reintegrate back with "reality" and give yourself enough time to understand what they've thought you. From a personal standpoint I believe that once a month is an absolute minimum gap you must maintain between trips.
I don't know how I'am going to say this without offending Adam or somebody being in this situation. I think that the real deal of psychedelics is realising that you don't need anything or to gain wisdom, that every problem and believe you are making up is your doing. The infinite loop is samsara in the truest sense, through the assumption that you need something more to be complete you are keeping the wheel going. May it be an experience, knowledge, visiting the infinite loop again to transcend it, losing the ego etc. Psychedelics can show you that there is nothing more to do, that from a serious point of view there is absolute nothing that is important. Coming back to everyday experience, we are integrating these experiences not by an ontological "beingness" standpoint where we really feel that there is nothing to do and chase the wheel of samsara for the sake of chasing it. We are integrating it as an empirical happening that happend to me, as a rather dimm memory of the "I". Because the experience of oneness on psychedelics is a contrast to our daily life, we think that the experience of pure beingness is something we have to chase and is not quite accomplished in our sober state. It's not that psychedelics show you something you have to gain, it's pulling the curtains away. Through insisting that something is missing after you got sober again is pulling the curtains even closer together.
Luis // hey, can you please explain your point in simpler English. It’s not my first language and I feel like what you were explaining is advice I need to take myself because I’ve been seeking the next time I do shrooms or acid to “learn something” I need to learn
@@Bllueee whats your first language? maybe i can help you out in it. Otherwise you can use deepl.com to translate stuff that you dont understand. If both doesnt help, hit me up again and Ill try my best to explain it with simpler words
I understood every word he said. He needed to do that to cleanse himself of the energy. It is impossible to describe because it is at the core essence of reality.
when you started describing the splitting and reshuffling of the cell that hit home for me, I was trapped there once and it felt like I was doomed to be subject to this cycle for eternity. I eventually learned to look at the cell-splitting with the mindset of "let's see what happens next" in order to keep my sanity
Maybe the lesson of the loop experience could be that you're not in peace with yourself. Because that's who you're actually left with in such a loop. You're surroundings keep repeating. So, you're left with yourself. The fact that you than panic, may show that you are not in peace with yourself. You rely on your surroundings to be (or at least try to be) at peace. This isn't true inner peace. True peace is with oneself, regardless of the circumstances. Just like Buddha sought after true peace within himself by removing himself from his surroundings. His surroundings (wealth, luxury, power,...) we're perceived as necessary things for inner peace. Buddha realized that this was not true. So, he removed himself from all of those stuff and choose to live as a humble homeless monk. That may be the lesson from these type of DMT trips where people are stuck in loops for eternity, or stuck in eternal nothingness, or stuck in 'whatever' for eternity. But hey. I'm someone who has no experience with psychedelics. The only drugs I have ever taken is cafeïne and pain killers. So, I could be (probably am) totally off with this.
I looped for a good 9ish hours about 5 years ago. I was so traumatized by the experience I couldnt sleep at night or smoke pot or anything cause I would have panic attacks. I’ve finally gotten therapy and no longer get bothered by it. It’s definitely shaped who I am today since I did it so young into my adult hood.
It also always tell me to never do it again, when ever i'm in the trip. I see wonderfull things but also horrible things. As soon as i'm out of the trip again, my ego says i can still do it again as i came out alive again...
@@novictim there are different forms of addiction. Humans commonly have a self-destructive habit. Nah, you don't get withdrawals and suffer from dependence on psychedelics (well, most psychedelics anyway), but you can absolutely crave a splitting mind until it becomes dangerous.
In the conclusion I can see that he has experienced ego death with psychedelics, transformation beyond human conception. But he does not know how to explain the life changing sensation and deeper understanding of self to the average concerned viewer. But he doesn’t come off as better than, just informative and insightful.
Yes, thank you I was looking for someone to say it and that was well put. Mike Tyson on the subject of psychedelics and just life in general is the perfect example of someone who is a student of life, not someone trying to reach some type of extreme state of mind for the fuck of it
The other day I did dmt at my friends house and it was an experience that was extremely positive and its something that stays on my mind because of the way it felt. My friend had quite a lot of dmt and we basically could do whatever dose. I decided to take a dose of about 25 milligrams. We made our way to his back yard and I was quite excited. Every experience I've had with it so far is not with heavy doses but I never feel a sense of nervousness before as my friend as well as many other people report. So we get out and are sitting on some pretty comfy fabric lawn chairs that look out on his back yard with a few trees a huge pasture with 4 horses. I thought it was a great setting for a trip. I remember hitting his vape pen for as long as I could and holding it in while counting down as my friend said to do. I had put on the song breathe in the air by pink floyd and I particularly enjoy that song. Before I could even get from 15 to 8 my head was plunged into a completely different space. The first thing I noticed was the grass started to look like a very odd form of turf with weird lines intersecting every 6 inches or so and I felt pretty far gone by this point already for lack of a better term. My friend said to make sure to finish all the dmt in the vaporizer which I remember kinda rang in my head and took a bit to process although I'm not exactly sure how my perception of time was at that moment. I took one more decent rip before it was finished off and held it in like I had done before. Just taking the second rip off the pen was difficult because I felt very disassociated from my body already. After holding it in for what felt like quite a while, I released the air and sat back to relax. I remember the song sounding very distorted and slow compared to what it usually is. (It sounded odd but not very offputting to me). As I looked around at the grass and the trees mostly, I saw some very interesting patterns and I saw colors that covered my whole field of vision with distinct lines between the colors which I hadn't seen on the other doses. By the way everything around me looked, it was almost as if I was on a completely alternate planet. My mind and body felt like it was disintegrating or melting away almost. It felt a lot like my sense of self was very weak. I looked over at my friend and he had what looked like very distinct patterns across the side of his face and what almost looked like the patterns of cobwebs in some areas. This was all within probably the course of a few seconds after the second rip. As my dissociated feeling grew strong I kinda relaxed all the way into the chair, putting my head back and looking at the tree branches above me against the sky. At that point the branches looked very alien and were making a very similar design to the cobwebs that I saw on my friends face seconds before. I was extremely incapacitated and no words can really do the designs and colors I saw justice. It felt like my body was withered away with not really any sensation that I remember other than just the experience of staring at the branches in the sky for probably a few minutes while not moving. As I came back to having a full sense of my body I started hysterically laughing at how amazing and pleasant I felt. Which I'm sure was interesting for my friend to see. I stood up, still tripping decently and we walked inside which I don't really remember. I do remember walking up the stairs of his house looking at the stairs and seeing these orange hues of color with some very light patterns and made my way up to the room with the xbox and stuff. I couldn't really control my laughing and smiling as the trip wore off over the next few minutes. Honestly it was so good and almost pure feeling. I never had a single bad feeling during it and I am glad that I tried that again. Hope to break through sometime. If you read the whole thing, thanks for sticking through and let me know what you think or of any similar experiences you had. :)
@@BakedNConfused No but I really want to break through. I just need to do a high enough dose. It seems interesting considering how the moderate doses are.
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“just because I felt fear didn’t mean the experience had to be scary” this applies to daily life so well too
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Wow I scrolled through these comments and got to yours at EXACTLY the same time he's saying it..
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That’s why I watch these videos. I’m not someone who uses psychedelics. Only drug I’ve ever used was weed and only a handful of times. The insight this man provides on life and his perception of life and reality is soo interesting and enlightening in a way
It's a weird feeling when awareness becomes aware of awareness
Keep calm
You burned my brain with that
@@gigastruggler7828 nice pfp
The only thing that lasts forever is the fact that nothing lasts forever
And when making sense doesn't matter.
my man just smoked a nether portal
Aether portal
@@MnemonicHeadTrip Adding a mod is equivalent to adding a whippit.
Lmfao
Stas Twinkleton lmfaooo
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Last time I did acid I had the worst trip imaginable. I didn’t know what I was. I couldn’t form words in my brain. I couldn’t remember my life. I couldn’t even tell if I was standing up, sitting down or falling. And for 2 hours I was actually insane. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. That’s being said.... I am definitely doing it again !!
Great positivity
😭😭
" i'm definitely doing it again "
Yeah I dont think many people realize you can have breakthrough, dmt-like experiences on lsd or shrooms. It just takes a much higher dose to completely leave reality for what feels like an eternity lol.
For me it was all that, and my brain was thinking so much and so fast I couldnt make sense of anything. Like I was convinced the universe was a figment of my imagination and I just permanently fucked it up.
@@tobiasdontmatter1868 obviously i can't condone getting illicit substances. let's just say it has to do with the internet, or u could just make it
my dude traveled to the nether, God damn
Tino BRIJESKI frrrr
Tbh i hate it when i have to make a nether portal to get to the netherlands..
@@ДеанДонков hahaha totaly relatable
More like the farlands, Alpha OGs would know what I mean.
@@maxresdefault7047 Since i'm not a Chad Og Minecraft player would you Like to elaborate 😂
i’m crying he’s able to face REALITY altering trips and here i am heart pounding from one joint
lil angel facts
Lol, experience phycadelics anxiety, and weed wont seem like shit anymore . Since doing phycadelics, weed gives me almost no anxiety
Even worse I am here heart pounding from 3 cups of coffee
Cannabis is to me the most unpleasant drug..
You are not alone
i love drug vsauce
Lmao pretty much 😂
Whoo that cracked me up
🤣🤣🤣
regular vsauce IS drug vsauce
Anton Lavey bring back ayahuasca vsauce
at a party once this guy was having a bad trip and he literally thought he hit his head off the fireplace and died and he was crying and yelling how much he loved us and he was sorry. wild night
I truly feel like ima be that guy one day😂
Poor guy lol
@@all_gucc1 No? Experimenting and playing around with drugs does not mean you are an addict. you are only an addict when you and your body feels like it needs the drug, your body will go into withdrawal from the abrupt stop in an addict's body, non-addicts will not get this, or if they do it is momentary and fades away as they go about their day.
@@all_gucc1 lol wtf are you doing on this channel, did you come here to lecture people on drugs?
@@all_gucc1 you’ll realise one day
When youre cool with the dmt demons
Lol I definitely am now
True, dmt can get very demonic if you are not careful.
"Oh look there comes adam! How you doing adam?"
« hey there demons, it’s me ya boy »
Broooo😂😂😂 yes, bad idea
I know quite a few people that need themselves a "bad trip" to get rid of their over inflated egos and entitlement issues. To get humbled is to become a better person.
Bad trips bring balance to the abuse, we all had one. That's the turning point to limit the addiction and the universe saying to take a break and enjoy reality abit. Hadn't smoked weed since then, not eventually quit but had been clean for like a month now. It's cool here and there but for every day that would be a no.
Bad Trips are part of Psychedelic's even though they are horrible you will learn.
I somewhat agree but what is life if you don't feel better than most people at something. You are just a waste of a life, meaningless. And that scares me
You are right!
@@eric6rock I never had a bad trip, I saw several people having bad trips but I only had one bad trip when I took too much dextrometorphan but that is a ugly drug anyways and it was over 15 years ago. I never had a bad trip from lsd, psylocibin or dmt. Right now I come down from 120microgram lsd and I smoked 50mg dmt during the peak. It was a crazy mindblowing experience but I don't think I can ever have a bad trip from these psychedelics. But Im very responsible when it comes to drugs, I never take too much and take long breaks inbetween and even if I feel uncomfortable, which happens sometimes, I am able to guide my own trip. I am my own trip sitter. No matter what happens I always know its just a chemical reaction in my brain, nothing more.
Bejamin Parker take more??
Thank you for doing psychedelic combinations i will never try
aye u watch him as well? I'm in your discord server hahaha
Pusssyyyy
@@Huckabuck :o
Wish you two make a video together
This is why your a bake
I smoked DMT with friends last night. They both had wonderful trips, I went into the hell loop. I’ve been there before, but this was even more hellish. I was completely terrified and heartbroken the whole time, and convinced that I broke the simulation of our reality, I became stuck in a looped error and it was horrific.
I didn’t have the courage in my heart to face it, and I was annihilated. Watching this video has made me think that I’ll return to the experience again, after I’ve spent some time meditating and filling my heart with courage and love again. Thank you for sharing your bravery and insight.
where can i get it ?
In my experiance was also the loop, time was not existed, thought stuck for eternity, had really bad feelings like I died the hole time, heared horror chaos sound, cannot thinking more then a moment bevor died again and again, after a while I saw my friends were all demons,devil or scary gods and they re try ceep me in the loop , laugh like kids and make averything hurt so much, was so much scared like never before in my hole life! After a while I wished the whole time to die to stup it but it wasnt possible. After Eternity I remember the name of my best fried wich was the devil, concentraite my hole straighness on thim and fokus his eyes. To look at him was hurt much more but I dont gived up because it was my only chance. Somebodys voice told my to breave and I come back slowly to normal life! Felt reborn. Only 5mins was passt. Will try to handle it like you wrote to do. How are you know?
i didnt feel bad, i felt amazing and felt like i was everything and i was switching through realities of me that didnt make it out alive and made me realise i am the best version of myself
@@whitecrow20 that circle thing happened to me, it was insane, i could feel it too, i was everything and everything was made of me in different patterns and i am the best version of my self, i was the only version who made it out of theese situations alive, i and every single momment in my life made everything and everything made it and it all circled around me around and around i loved this and i was morphing through different realities, i loved it i was awake but teleporting my mind in different versions of my self and everything was me
@@whitecrow20 not one word of this made sense. Use complete sentences
On my fourth Ayahuasca ceremony, I prayed to the tea before drinking, asking to rid me fear and give me strength. For that, I was given a challenge. An entity dragged into a world of pure noise as I travelled through a hellish geometric columb of vibrant red and orange pulsating. I felt my very being begin to dissolve within this hell as my heart raced, I couldn't stop vomiting, and my body contorted and shuttered uncontrollably. The entity told me that I had to still myself and find inner peace throughout this chaos, that I had to muster up all the strength I could and face this world head-on. Then I realized that it was my fear that was hurting me. I stopped being afraid, and I escaped hell, only to be confronted with the reality that we live in a sentient universe, and that I was always meant to go through this trial. I was given what I asked for.
Much respect to you and your spiritual journey.
There is no self. Only us. Hi, me. Thou art God!
Mad respect!
This is so beautiful ❤
This guys just unlocked the other 90% of his brain,
This guy just fuckibg unlocked the dementia gene in his dna
which isn't much
Diego Dinero707 LMAO OH GOD
@@diegovalencia9443 LMFAO you're the first person that I have ever replied to just to praise the joke they made, that was great!
Or.... this guy just tripped out on a substance that makes anyones brain appear %100 used.
Love it
Everytime something seems to get scary on dmt
I just tell it "I dont care ,I only have love , I only bring love "
Gets me through the so called bad ones
I'll try to remember that when my shrooms are done
YESSSSS! It's like "Okay guys. Let's do this." And the next thing you know we are back to a pretty amazing place.
You got it man. Love is the answer. Will remember that for my own daemons.
This was a strange Hot Ones episode
this isn’t the same guy right?
@@jklozz1182 they definitely look similar but I don’t think so lol
@@jklozz1182 yes he is
@@xjeeno no he isn’t lol
@@Tabirus1661 psychedelic hot wings mmmm
“I vow to never do it again” heard that before.
He looked back...
Meth
Literally everytime after the meth wears off until the next morning..
Haha I vowed 2-3 times to never do psychedelics ever again, it's been almost 2 years since my last trip and I'm thinking about trying mdma for the first time now(ik it's not like other psychedelics but it still has a psychedelic element)
With psychedelics the rare thing is trying them again after a bad trip, and even less if that bad trip was your first trip.
Adam thanks for being on this platform. I don’t know what I would do without your educational content and knowledge. thank you 🙏🏼
John Doe yes, knowing more about these things made me less curious, therefore leading to not trying them.
@John Doe although there's nothing wrong with doing these stuff lmao. You're brainwashed into thinking drugs bad. These are psychedelics my friend they're mostly harmless
@John Doe oh so u weren't serious?
@John Doe u could say "u are definitely not going to be a bad Boi and do naughty things with that knowledge right? RIGHT?" idk that's the best I can do lol
@@666slateran666 I wasn't talking about nitrous tho. I was talking about Adam's content in general. He talks about psychedelics more.
Amazing. When you avoid a fear it grows, but when you face it truly head-on, it weakens! It's tricky I know, hahaha
This is a demonic tactic if manipulation
What you resist will persist, think this saying originates from Buddhism or Far East ancient philosophy.
It’s all about having a balance of the 2
I really needed to read this you have no idea. May have just saved my life
yes omg, i was having bad thoughts, but i allowed the bad thoughts to absorb me, i fought it, i stomped my foot against it. it felt good. i felt true euphoria when i stopped the thoughts. when i realized i can end it.
I just did DMT for my first time. I did it for a reason. My grandma died in my arms. We knew she didn’t have much time and I built her casket. About an hour after she passed, I smoked one hit, about 30 grams and held it. I broke thru. We are not alone. WE ARE NOT ALONE! There is so much more beyond our constructed realm. I was an emotional wreck and there were entities comforting me. It was so beautiful. Coming out of my break thru, I was in her casket with her and she was just smiling to me. It was both scary and peaceful. It was only about 12 min, but it was an eternity. This was 2 days ago. I love you grandma. 😢
Your Grandma loves you too
Wow so courageous of you
Miligrams - surely not 30grams !
30 grams of dmt would have rendered you brain dead.
And I love you. Peace bro. Big Heart.
I needed to hear this.
I nearly had a panic attack watching this video, because it brought "it" back, but you calmed me down as you explained how you calmed yourself down.
I feel like I cleansed myself of the same energy with your narration of the whole process.
Just breathe.
You people make psychedelics look so bad.
I feel ya!
@@keyworksales6241
You are one of those guys who claim to have seen Disneyland but spent the entire time spinning in circles and banging his head against the wall.
You were too numb to get any message out of it, so you keep cranking up the dose to "get more out of it" but all you are doing is pounding your head against the walls and are missing all the meaning.
But go ahead, keep cranking up that dose rocket man.
@@keyworksales6241 hey man - having had seveal "nightmares" before, I found this discussion helpful. The absurd, bizarre places we visit when travelling can be frightening, horrific, and even scarring. Even moreso if we keep any trauma from the experience hidden and undiscussed.
If you haven't had an adventure that has haunted you, that is totally fine. Great even! But don't put down people who have experienced things that you haven't.
When you said "It's good to drop the perceptions of good vs bad, and just observe whats going on from a neutral standpoint" that hit different, more people need to recognize this.
He was throwing hella shade at the haters when he said that lol 😅🤷🏽♂️
When I have an ego death my brain defaults to an analytical way of thinking. So even when weird stuff happens I just observe and analyse.
I should start logging my trips xD
@@BboyKeny cool
This is a demon tactic of manipulation
Neutral, is bad
psychedsubsance: "it's taken me 7 years to learn how to use psychedelics"
also psychedsubsance: *takes dmt right after an lsd trip*
never giving a single fuck about his own rules
And nitrous
Shmikos meee😭😭
Terrence McKenna would do dmt peaking on acid to trip longer
@@fatmunch6318 It certainly does extend the trip and its much easier to breakthrough too
I’ve always had a common fear of going insane or in a vegetable state from trips. I think it’s the fear of coming back and being stuck in your head or getting to a point of no return.
I had my first psychedelic breakthrough 4 weeks ago. All i can say is the Ego Death is the absolute most terrifying experience you will ever see but if you take a few days off of work and really reflect on everything you witnessed, remembered, and felt....oh my god is it incredibly helpful working through personal roadblocks and anxiety or struggles. The time loop aspect is very scary but you come out of the trip eventually. I would recommend having a random genre playlist playing in the background just in case you get "stuck" in a loop. It will end on its own no matter what but the music changing ever few minutes would end all of those loops, or at least help at the very least. Have fun :)
I agree. I worked with mentally insane people for years and I always fear becoming one
Same, logically I know I'll be back to normal, but I usually start thinking about how time slows down so much I'll never reach the end of the trip. Maybe meditation would help like Adam said.
@@tylermurray6144 Also the true realisation that time does not exist it is purely a mental construct, KNOW THIS! just be the observer, that has certainly helped me get past this, it becomes far more comfortable to totally learn to forget time especially in the run upto and during your trip, much love and peace to all x
You will always come back, its never been an issue for me and I've looped twice, the 1st time I thought I was gone for good the 2nd I recognised I gave into to it, my advise never fight it, that is when things get uncomfortable and when your completely back in the room you just need to give yourself more than enough time space to really integrate the experience, process it, contemplate meditate learn from it before the next journey, love and peace x
Soo have you ever been to the “𝓪𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮” place in spongebob?
Jordyn Manzo YES LMAO
i was tripping once and that episode popped on and then that trip went straight down the toilet
is that the episode where there was just blank space and squidward was alone and the word alone kept popping up on the screen
Jordyn Manzo i have on LSD it was a white room and a black dot was saying he was my “conscious” .. real weird
@@siiweeyy1321 look up logos greek philosophy
DMT: Ever done Joe Rogan?
LMAAOOOO
Not funny
@John Doe im on , still not funny
@@technojunger5328 then stfu bro nobody asked
@@technojunger5328 damn, i didn't know that only one person got to say what's funny and what's not.
If you don't like a joke but see others enjoy it, why not just ignore...
“Nature loves courage” Terrence McKenna
Inside Me remember that time Terence got permanently traumatized by psychedelics then never took them again?
@@spyorgclubbord9520 that doesn't inhibit the fact that "Nature loves courage" "Terence Mckenna"
I remember that, lol
@@iantaylor95 I also remember some quote: "sometimes there's a fine line between bravery and stupidity, most other times it is clear as day."
@@user-zg3gh8xg9v and those are the words you live by?
"Its good to drop the perceptions of good vs bad and just observe what's going on from a neutral standpoint" I think that's the truest thing I've ever heard.
Well this is probably the most extreme self-guided exposure therapy ever lol
Tom Meakin 🤣
Waw, can't wait to drink my first beer !
How was it
Yeah I want to know how was your first beer
I hope you had a trip sitter with you
Beer tastes shit in my place
Sure if you want to experiance bad life/trip
Adam is the Yes Theory of psychedelics.
Seek discomfort!!!
Just got done watching the ice man videos. Lol perfect comparison.
We don't know what goes on behind the yes theory scenes😉
This is absolutely terrible advice. There are huge RISKS with psychedelic drugs, everytime you dose you are risking PSYCHOSIS. And that’s a FACT.
If you want to lose your mind and plummet into suicidal thoughts then sure go ahead and seek discomfort with psychedelics, what’s insanity anyway?
David Torres it’s not the feeling of discomfort, it’s what you do and how you handle it. there’s a difference. if you’re not mentally prepared to be put into a bad place then yes, don’t do it. as for others that are experienced and use it as a learning tool then it is 110% amazing advice.
LOL! Good one!
I love how safe you are, how you stress safety too many "gurus" say there are "no" bad trips or nothing bad can happen, you are very trustworthy thank you
Reality is a simulator for Love. When you understand this, you realize it is set up to make you face your fears, you draw your fears to you.
What you resist, persists. What you look at, disappears. In other words, you must first embrace before you can let go.
Quetzal Coatl woah bro that’s deep
woah
I wanna use this for lyrics ! 😆
@@theunclefungus funny you say that! I just wrote this poem yesterday. Feel free to use it, even if just for inspiration. Art is meant to be shared, right?
-I Wish-
Life is not a school and also life is not a test,
It's an infinite and magical, experiential quest.
Life will lift you high and also throw you to the ground,
Life is knowing you are up through knowing you've been down.
For absent all that you are not then you could not exist,
So life is choosing "who am I, relative to this?".
The truth of what you really are is what will set you free,
I wish there was a way to show...to see what I can see.
@@ryanremembers beautiful
I’m high on shrooms rn and it feels like he’s in my head
😂😂😂
But he is. We all are
BUGS BUGS BUGS BUGS
@@robbierude9833 Damn this is a good one.
I’m tripping on acid I feel like I’m in the video 😂😂
9:29 this is one of the most accurate visuals ever
Dude thought loops are the scariest part of super intense trips I’ve ever experienced. I absolutely love diving into the dark corners of psychedelic headspace on the brink of insanity, but I love what you said about breaking the fair of doing the same thing over and over. This is my second video of yours I’ve seen as of today, and I’m hooked. Got a nice k hole ahead of me!
I once had an infinite loop where I was watching this psychedelic morphing monster/alien disco club just scrolling up like credits at a movie. The creatures scared me at first, but then, in my head, I was like, "you know, these guys are just dancing and having fun. They're not hurting me. I'm judging them by their looks, and that's something I shouldn't do. "
And after I had those thoughts it was pretty cool just watching it. "Even if it lasts forever, I'll enjoy watching them have fun"
Mikkel D. This, awareness will save ppl, we all just here to have fun
Sounds like delusions from braindamage....mmmmmmmmm
Round and round wish I coulda been in tabt drip sounds dope
Please.. be carefull. You could lose the thing that lets you know what the soul you are is. Seeing the world threw many eyes is incredible but needs to not be chased after with vigor.
Wow
Wat
I still dont belive in souls or anything like that. But i agree about always being careful.
@@mikewazzupski we are both positive and negative energy
Baked N Confused U can believe what you want, i still believe we are all genereted by bilions of neurons firing in the brain. I dont believe in souls, spirit good or bad energy and no gods either.
If you meditate and practice zen, your bottom line is unbreakable and no trip can shatter it. Even a hell loop can be conquered by the bliss of slow breaths and mindfulness.
"When you feel lost, use your sword.. slash your thoughts to ribbons.. and anything else that lives in the past or the future" - socrates from The way of the peaceful warrior.
Truth. More likes deserved
There is no self, only the infinite. The "loop" (and other forms) is the real state of Being. Our mode of being is isolated in time and space.
I always feel like reality is something I'm hallucinating, but when I'm tripping I feel like I'm truly seeing what's real
it's like the filter over perception your brain normally holds can finally melt away, and I trust that this isn't my mind assuring me what's real and fake, it's just there and my mind is no longer really able to tell me things that aren't true
Exactly. It's like everything is real suddenly. It's like you're seeing more, without seeing more? Like another sense has awakened. It really is impossible to explain unless you've been there.
Reality is a dream
Dreaming//tripping is reality
@@talanmoult1873 I cannot see it when I'm not high but I feel it. Everything is alive and thinking. We hallucinate reality, if you change the hallucination you see more possibilities and more of reality. You see more of what is real.
the brain autofilters everything be perceive, because it is not important for survival, it would even be a strain, because interpreting and calculating (whatever) all these things from your senses is waste of energy and thoughts
so, who fucking knows how reality looks or is, every being receives it otherwise
At an ayahuasca ceremony once I found myself stuck in what I consider a “love loop”. Rather than fear. It was like having a 4 hour long laugh-gasm. Best experience ever. 💖
Had that on LSD, it was euphoric
guys we gotta get him in the matrix again, reality is breaking apart
let it break apart
But we're all already in it
Kerry Holt haha but seriously
Reality and sanity are beliefs.
@@raz0rcarich99
Tell that to Ted Bundy
I have had a similar experience when I was 16, it made me quit all kinds of drugs, I haven't touched to anything since then. I plan on one day revisiting that place when I feel I'm ready. I appreciate you stressing out the fact that psychedelic induced psychosis is a very serious matter and can lead to suicide. Thank you for sharing this! Stay careful everyone
Bobby Tarantino just don’t, maybe that was a sign for u to just stop
I’ve also felt my sanity has been slightly skewered after a very traumatic experience; I interpreted that experience as a sign of stopping psyches altogether and practice meditation for “authentic enlightenments”. Don’t push it
I had taken way too much mdma 2 years ago (at 17) and didnt touch anything until just a month or so ago. To this day weed sucks ass, i get sad and bad body and mind vibes. Shrooms were cool, im going to try lsd very soon. Taking time off is a good idea. Ill revisit M some time soonish as well :) safe travels
TheParkerBrosForever Drugs are bad mkay
Probably because you were 16 and your brain is not ready for any drugs at that age, leave it until your mid 20s or 30s your brain is much more equipped to deal with psycadelics then
Dude I’m seriously about to cry thank you so much like really you just helped me with so much trauma and I just thank you
I’ve experienced psychedelic induced psychosis before as well. Everything you said about your perspective of fear being essentially something entirely subjective and being able to see the experience objectively through solely the awareness with no involvement from the ego is spot on and beautiful.
When adds finally appear on psychedsubstance after a good year. And your happy about them appearing.
Keep up the great an informative information your helping so many
This is an amazing breakthrough Adam. What you tapped into is truly the beginning of knowing your higher/true self. I look forward to more of your content.
It reminds of people who faces near death experience and says they are still lucky to be alive, altering the perception in a good way
Adam in all love:
I feel you really should take a step back from psycedelics.
I follow your channel since day one and I am pretty sure that you got "The Message" a very long time ago and still you do not hang up the phone and that is a very strong indicator for the spiritual ego.
There is only so much you can learn from psycedelics and you know by now everything that needs to be known, the feeling of oneness, observing your thoughts and emotionsens, observing your ego, getting into more love and compassion with yourself and your envirentment and your ego.
The Fact that you try time and time again to "fix" something "face a problem" is creating the problem in the first place. You can NOT fix something that is not broken, you can not learn more when you know all that needs to be known.
The best thing you can do from now on IMO is to integreate what you learned, sourround yourself with people that are also very conscious and reflective and practice things that are good for you like following your passion, may it be art, music, this channel (aside from risky drug combinations), supporting your family and daily meditation.
I think it would make much more sense that the next time you feel you need to evlove/fix something you rather visit a meditation retreat or Buddhist/Hinddi Tempel, where you can focus an entire week or more on reflection, meditation and giving your emotions a space to breathe.
The only thing IMO that psycedelics will do for you from this point on is to lead you further astray from your path.
thanks for writing this, i see it the same way :) much love to adam :) thanks for all your videos :)
@Willam Snyder I am refering to using psycedelics for it. The spiritual path is an ongoing process for sure, but true growth comes from within, not from the outside or a substance. It can open a door but you gotta walk through it by yourself.
@Willam Snyder There is nothing to realise. It's a unique journey and noone can lead it but yourself.
And as I said, trying psycedelics is fine, but doing it over and over again, thinking it will you help to get/realise/reach "that one thing that will make you enlightend" is an illusion.
@@dummbobqqqqq even if he has "learned everything", he can still use this medicine to better see things through different perspectives, which is invaluable to anybody
@@danchan3813 it's a oxymoron. Combining substances in a non safer use way is the spiritual Ego.
I assume that the "warmth'" after the fear of the loop was indeed a reward of overwinning a fear you had inside you. I felt the same when doing a an ayahuasca ceremony. The warmth is unimaginable how good it feels, i had that feeling for hours and got a lot of insights during that state such as the notion of how precious life is when letting go of all fears
Hey Adam!! I really appreciate the aside that this really isn't something an inexperienced person should be doing. And the seriousness you brought to this video was both refreshing and interesting!
Your experience itself was also interesting, and I think what you say of difficult trips blooming into beauty and euphoria is very common especially on psychedelics, and is a large part of where, its therapeutic potential comes into play, at least for me anyway.
It is important to say though, that the mixing of multiple substances is VERY unpredictable, and I hope that other people understand this! Especially when psychedelics are in play, the addition of a new drug can really potentiate it to completely new, and often overwhelming levels, and it is VERY important that people understand that while mixing drugs CAN BE safe, there is a very real, and very new level of unpredictability and strength.
Psychedelic trips are like spiritual awakening on steroids, I've watched a lot of your videos on psychedelics and what you describe is essentially stuff I've experienced completely sober in meditation while i was having my awakening and now I'm not afraid of shrooms and DMT anymore 😀
i’ve tried to get into meditation but I can’t i’ve tried guided being outside drugs any tips?
@@almighty_buildz9603 I just close my eyes and tell myself Okay we're going into meditation. After that my body relaxes and my breathing gets deeper and smoother. The thoughts in my head become one fluent stream instead of a chaotic mush. I feel the energy of my body and start focusing on places that feel energetically tense - sometimes it feels like a knot in my head or a foreign body attached to my aura, if you will, or maybe a string connecting me to something outside of me. Then you simply explore the process. You sometimes get visuals or you hear sounds or even thoughts or you feel like you're floating in a dark empty space. You need to ease into it and just let yourself feel whatever it is that you're feeling or thinking or seeing and really allow yourself to explore without judgment. At first I had to imagine my thoughts going through my ears, exiting from one or both and then it takes practice. Today I can go into meditation really easily and it truly needs some time to get used to feeling of not being able to relax your mind.
Me too I’ve seen aliens during meditation I’m so grateful for my experiences
I can’t help but wonder how weirded out people who’ve never done psychedelics feel when they see this video
@Daniel Dunlea as a person with an additive personality as well, its your addictive personality telling you itll be cool to try. Dont do it bro
@Daniel Dunlea I'm not gonna advertise Acid or shrooms or anything, but unless you're cautious, theres nothing wrong with it. Just dont have a bad trip. Two ways you can do this is either smoke weed or do it with friends that will trip sit you. It gets rid of your ego and you dont feel as if you're a different being, but just like anything else. A dog, cat, cockroach; etc. One thing I've is that it has opened my mind and I can explain things I never thought I could explain.
They are missing out on true freedom from the fear of death.
@@jackofalltrades3378 well as a believer on god I believe a psychosis trip is with Dmt atleast is entering another dimension that is not controlled by god but by the devil and the bible talks about how they can make it a scary trip but as a way to gain control of you they will eventually try to gain control manipulating you to believe it's a good thing
@Daniel Dunlea You won’t be addicted to psychedelics trust me! I’ve done acid like every month until my last trip 2 years ago cos I felt no need for it anymore.. it’s just a different roam different thoughts and different outcomes
A month ago on high dose mushrooms I revisited the same "hell realm" as the one I visited on high dose LSD this past summer. It felt like I was back in that same trip, and that everything that had happened in between the two trips was this big loop that I would be forced to relive. But I was able to disengage much more knowing that I had gotten out once before, checking the clock was reassuring because time was slowly going by so I was able to just focus on how the feeling would pass, which it eventually did. I now refer to this space as "The Basement" and have more or less realised that on any high dose psychedelic I could be sent back to this place. It is empowering to think of simply having past experience in this space gives me the opportunity to bring my own joy and peace into it in the future. The possibility of just sitting in that space and meditating is an interesting prospect that I will be excited to have in my mental arsenal in future trips.
Mushrooms man.... I've gotten that too, where the time between trips was just a loop in itself and now it is the accumulation of all that energy just spiraling forever
Strong words !
When ever you think you’ve found the worst possible hell realm there is always another that’s far far worse
When you get into the hellraiser places where cenobites peel you and your family apart in extra dimensional torturous ways you couldn’t imagine is usually when it gets serious
That's true, but if I want to not be hindered by this scenario then I need to start discernment and mental discipline somewhere. If I go back to this specific space I won't be so quick to accept the narrative that my mind gives me, because that was what made it a "hell realm" in the first place. This wasn't actually all that scary, there was just a red gloomy look to things. I'm sure being removed from my physical body and experiencing hell realms in the "flesh" is an all together different thing. But that's why I'm increasing in increments.
The thing about these types of experiences is that in the moment, the thoughts you are having seem to be the most logical conclusions that you can draw, given what it is you are experiencing. In the moment, nothing can convince you otherwise because you KNOW it is true. When you have reality shattered in front of you, nobody telling you that everything is 'normal' means anything because you now understand that these types of assurances are meaningless. This usually tends to wear off after a period of time, sometimes it takes hours, sometimes days/weeks, sometimes months/years. Once it has worn off, we typically think back on those moments and decide that somehow we must of been interpreting our experience incorrectly, that we allowed fear or some other emotion(s) to get the better of us.
But I wonder, why is it that we should doubt what we KNEW at that time to be true? Just because our brains mended the tears, closed the curtain and slowly brought us back into what we accept as reality...why should we believe it now? And even if we don't believe it...the truth is we've forgotten what it really was we understand in that moment. We can recall the concepts, recall what we think we learned about the true nature of things...but nothing can help us to remember the FEELING, and what that FEELING allowed us to understand. Until of course you decide to do it all over again, and it happens...the incredible rush of terror and Deja Vu...that strange and particular Deja Vu that you had even the very first time it ever happened to you.
Damn. Well said
I understand every single word you just said completely. Especially the part about the FEELING which taught us something, not thoughts or logic while we were in that altered state. I like to see it though, that even if what we understood in the altered state now doesn’t make sense or seemed insane while we’re sober, I never close the door on it. I always remind myself that what I saw could very possibly have been the “true” reality, and our every day lives are the hallucinations. But it is because we have no choice but to continue on in our every day lives that we can only live as if the hallucinations are real. And there’s nothing wrong or scary about that, you’re just doing what you’ve always done but now with the sacred knowledge that there is so much more happening under the wallpaper of the universe.
Fucking hell!! I just felt that rush of terror again because of how accurately you just described it! I was worried I was about to be back in that hell loop. I’ve experienced this 3 times & I haven’t tripped in over a year bc of the last horror trip I had. I was planning on trying Shrooms again soon but this comment is seriously making me reconsider. I’ve been doing all this planning for my next trip, but in the end does it even really matter? Once I experience that déjà vu again, it’s just gonna be another (literal) downward spiral. :(
I can recall complex unorthodox ideas and thoughts afterwards. And the information almost seems like a gift. Like I shouldn’t be aware of the things I know. Like about human Consciousness. The inner voice. That’s all became clear in a way
Eloquent. Much love to all! There is some therapy after the terror. Life is a gift!
youre the only person ive seen that i think truly understands my perspective of the world
11:39 is exactly how I talk to myself on trips 😂
on god me too when i get too high and i’m trying to act normal in public this how i talk to myself literally!!!
DMT has scared me once and it felt like my teeth were crushed and that I swallowed them as a punishment for visiting another realm. I touched my teeth with my fingers and my fingers felt disgusting. They looked disgusting too.
I did NOT throw the DMT in the trash though.
Thien Nguyen you want to take 3 medium/big hits to have a proper breakthrough experience. Hold it in a good amount of time but don’t over do it 6/7 seconds. You have to Kinda push yourself to take the 3rd but you have to do it, because it’s the fighting/resisting it, and holding on to reality that will give you a bad trip. Just surrender to it and let go, and go in knowing it’s going to be completely reality shattering (in a good way) only do it if you’re mentally ready for that
Dave Allen i just find depending on how long i hold my big first hit determines how strong the trip will be, the longer i hold it the more i can feel it hitting me before ive blown it out.
@@ljhartley1985 I had a similar experience pal, it was fucking terrifying,I thought the same as you, what if I'm stuck like this and it's all I could think of for all of about 20 min but it felt like a lifetime lmao.
@@ljhartley1985 lol wow that must of been some trip lol, can I ask what country you are from and we're can I buy more dmt.
@@ljhartley1985 yeah I'm from the uk, birmingham,a friend give me a dose about 5 years ago and just said don't go into it with an ego lol,I didn't know what he was on about as I'd took mushrooms and lsd a good thew times, I took it on my own and I took 3 big hits, fuck man,I was blasted into space but I had no body,it was like I was just my thoughts,It was like I was nothing but at the same time everything,thought I was dieing lol, ill down load that app pal and yeah I'd be grateful if you could guide me in how to purchase please Lee.
A similar thing happened to me when I had an NDE, my heart stopped beating and I could only see a big flash and it seemed like I was travelling somewhere. When I came back I thought I was in hell, or the underworld. I felt like I was on a different reality or dimension. For weeks I thought I was really dead or experiencing something else, but I was kinda sure that I passed away and moved on from my original reality.
How did you come back to reality ?
Sometimes our subconscious mind creates different NDE’s for everyone. Be good to yourself and those around you
Real shit, you learn to appreciate every second of life when you come out of death, facing the fear of death and life, constant cycles, time stuck. I appreciate you so much for facing every fear, for accepting the nature of life, I’ve felt these same energies of death and entering true reality, the in between of life and death where everything is believed and questioned and signs of suicide are thrown in but truly letting nature run it’s course is the trick, to appreciate instead of trip. You learn true values and surviving energy and embrace the universe. love to you brother you faced the fear of reality, the fear of losing all that is regarded as true and gaining consciousness of all that truly surrounds 🦁🖤
Whenever I feel the transition into the loop, I just sit wherever I am and breathe, never been in the loop since
I've been addicted to your videos since months before I started tripping in 2016. You've helped me overcome so many psychedelic fears and anxieties in the most responsible of ways and I cannot thank you enough. I know it's somewhat menial, but I've always wondered when your birthday is.
The Stoic phrase 'Live according to Nature' actually means 'live a virtuous life because that is what you have been designed to do. One of the four pillars of virtue is courage. As Terrence Mckenna once said, "nature loves courage". Face your fears, overcome them and nature will reward you.
I don’t do any drugs I just enjoy these stories lol
Then you are just listening, we feel what he is saying and i know after the trip ends we only remember 5-10 percent of the experience good or bad only 5-10 percent
@@dakshmanohar5678 5-10 percent only? i've tripped once 3 years ago, 300-400ug acid, and i can recall the day VERY VERY well. however somewhat out of order, i can still recall so many key moments. it felt like every moment was a key moment. i remember the patterns, mindset, the feeling, the emotion, etc. but.... some people's memory does not work this way. i've read about people who can't think in color, or 3d, or imagine landscapes etc. i definitely have a "good" memory in terms of that. i get very emotional as i recall my trip
Mike tyson on the subject has a million times the substance, you’ll really learn something if you listen to what he says. This guy just trips balls as hard as possible for fun.
If you have been sober all your life then you can go into Samahdi and it's just like tripping balls.
Quarantine feels like the perfect time to have an LSD and DMT stash.
Got 150 grams of dried skooms. Been having a blast😄
Jethro Tool u mean 1.5 grams😀
The Amigo ever heard of mycology? Easy, quick and effective. 150 is probably what he meant
Max Crosby no I actually never heard pf mycology. Ima search it up real quick
The Amigo LOL
i’ve had a acid “hell” but it’s all what you take from it ! benzos helped me when it was 19 hours in and needed it. i tripped for 29 hours and then finally fell asleep. it’s really just what you bring from it. i honestly would do it again. i wouldn’t trade that “nightmare” trip for the world. it took me a bit to realize that the loops didn’t have to be scary either but once i took the benzos and once they took away the anxiety it allowed me to finally break through the fear. even though i have had that trip where i wanted to kill myself i feel like i’m anomaly as well. i’m tripping again soon eventually, i won’t let the fear get to me and if it does, i’m completely okay with that.
"wanted to kill myself.. That does not sound good"
I'm loving these frequent uploads a LOT!
You might never see this, but your intro on how your terror experience happened was exactly how mine went a month ago (spot on minus the acid), it’s still got me a little off but I’m overcoming by the day, learning that there’s no reason to be scared of things anymore, you saying that in the video just confirmed I’m on the right track. You might not have thought that part of the video specifically would help the most but damn it was almost like a breath of fresh air, thank you. I had such a hard time explaining what happened and what I saw but it was like living in another world (absolute fucking hell-loop) for a lifetime and then coming back and being told to act like it didn’t happen. Sometimes it’s really hard bc it’s almost like I’m going back, but I just remind myself that it’s okay to be there and even if I do go crazy that I have people around that’ll make sure I’m taken care of. I have to remind myself that reality is experiencing true emotion, that I’m here and breathing, and that alone is honestly the most wonderful and comfortable feeling, again thank you for sharing your experience.
In my experiance was also the loop, time was not existed, thought stuck for eternity, had really bad feelings like I died the hole time, heared horror chaos sound, cannot thinking more then a moment bevor died again and again, after a while I saw my friends were all demons,devil or scary gods and they re try ceep me in the loop , laugh like kids and make averything hurt so much, was so much scared like never before in my hole life! After a while I wished the whole time to die to stup it but it wasnt possible. After Eternity I remember the name of my best fried wich was the devil, concentraite my hole straighness on thim and fokus his eyes. To look at him was hurt much more but I dont gived up because it was my only chance. Somebodys voice told my to breave and I come back slowly to normal life! Felt reborn. Only 5mins was passt.
DMT is a doubled edged sword, it's the one substance that has been able to send me in some challenging borderline bad trips.
I've smoked through many grams of it but once in a while, seemingly random it just doesn't 'fall' right and you become really anxious/jumpy (especially when smoking alone) to completely terrified. Maybe the plant doesn't think it's a good time to visit other realms, or whoever is there doesn't want you in at that moment.
I respect that, stop smoking, and pick it up a different time.
Takes a whole lot of courage to head straight into the breach of madness. Big ups to you.
Adam: 🎶"The infinite loop never bother me anyway!"🎶
(Piano part)
"~it's funny how infinite loops
~make everything seem looong🎵🎶"
I think i read it in the wrong voice...😂 i heard elsa from frozen singing "the storm never bothered me anyway" but storm being infinity instead.
What song would it be?
let go, let go, can't hold onto your minds version of reality anymore 🎶
Melchior Tod thats the joke, Elsa from Frozen
“The cold never bothered me anyway”
Very helpful, thank you, My first Toad experience was a mix of what felt like an eternal loop of swapping consciousness with all creation, and felt terrifying at first, followed by the deep understanding of existence, however, the following week was a little bit of depression, excitement and fear to review the loop part,. But hearing your out helps me understand that its not necessary to believe it really is scary.
Oh yea, I've been in that trip loop hell before. High doses kinda scare me. It almost feels like I'm completely leaving this reality behind and I'll never get to go back. 🙃 Scary and very trippy shit.
Totally believing that you're not going to be able to come back to this wonderful place 🌏❤️ scared me so bad I haven't revisited DMT land for a whole year now. I'm so fucking grateful to be back and I'm not very sure I want to go to the infinity loop and be an electron for eternity 🙆♂️😬
Idk... I guess my point is just that I totally relate with you xD
I know you will say I am full of shit but I expirienced this while smoking weed. Just once when I had just the right amount of alcohol inside me. I have tried to recreate it but never got close.
And no, it was not just weed type of loops, I get those all the time, it was DMT or high shroom level.
Thats how i fell on a daily basis after trying fake mdma. I think I just broke my brain back then
Synchronicity is real. Recently had a similar experience.. wasn’t too great for me honestly
I felt the loop and I was convinced I died and that this was the place you went that didn’t have time or words and you just went in circles. I finally was able to get the words out for my roommate to turn the music off to stop the loop and then I fell down and came back to reality
Dude same although I whent into shock and yelled to the person into in my house and we both sat on my bed as I tried to explain the hell before I sobered up
@@LF-ni3iv we are in the hell
This is so interesting, I've experienced something remarkably similar!! I've been in a spiritual path for most of my life. The first time I experienced that kind of infinite loop was under the influence of marijuana. It was a freaky experience but disregarded it a something exclusive to pot and went on with my life.
The next time I was trying Bufo alvarius for the fist time. It was somehow confusing but I got a clear sense of being in the same space I was familiar with. Oscillated from taking a look into the awe of infinity to confronting the dreadful reality of a separate existence in a place without time aka. eternal purgatory. That made me wary of touching that place inside of me especially since I experienced some reactivations during the following months.
This last 28th of December I attended an Ayahuasca ceremony it was also my first time and did it together with my mother, on a beach in Baja California. The setting was very loving and I was very willing to confront whatever existence had to show me. I went right back to were I left with the Bufo. I saw what could be described as the matrix of infinite possibilities but this time it was in 4k. After a while I slided right back to the painful, infinite present. I guess my experience was a little less abstract to yours but it was pretty much the same eternal loop. In it I shouted, cursed and experienced what felt like an infinite sequence of realizations of the true nature of being. In one point I just accepted this shapeless form of existence and soon enough the chaos was replaced by an overwhelming sense of peace and joy. I realized I was literally everything and found a lot of love for myself. After a while it wore off but I've definitely been feeling a lot more connected and present in my daily life.
Thank you a lot for sharing your experience in this videos. Your experiences helped me realize what it means to confront all those thing that exist within but are imposible to fully comprehend. I'm really excited to continue this journey, specially to bring that awareness to daily life.
that circle thing happened to me, it was insane, i could feel it too, i was everything and everything was made of me in different patterns and i am the best version of my self, i was the only version who made it out of theese situations alive, i and every single momment in my life made everything and everything made it and it all circled around me around and around i loved this and i was morphing through different realities, i loved it i was awake but teleporting my mind in different versions of my self and everything was me
if you had let go that experience would have hit peak levels of incredible
but thats always the most difficult thing to do
Shroomer he did it on purpose idiot
I took lsd while being medicated with litium and had a similar experience.. i was stuck in a rift of reality where i could never reach anyone and no one could ever hear me scream and i would just be trapped there for all eternity.. and it felt like i was there for years..
Glad to know that shit actually doesn’t mix well I’ve been on lithium for over a year for bipolar mania and I’ve been so tempted to trip again because I had years of great trips before lithium
Lithium is known to have bad mixes with psychedelics.
If you have a mental health issue or problem, or disorder or take lithium steer away from psychedelics, STEEER FAR
@@bandobenz3701 yeah i found out the hard way.. never mix lsd with litium.
Devil Orbital that’s just a lot easier said then done. Growing up Psychedelics were like a sacrament for me.my entire childhood and up until my 9th grade year I was so depressed and suicidal that I had borrowed a friends gun and was planning on shooting myself just to escape my miserable life. However a day or two before the planned date I was offered lsd from a friend who knew I was going through a lot. I dosed at midnight exactly 11/22/14 and from that point on I fell in love with being alive and completely did a 360 with my life. It Provoked a new sense of confidence and my parents didint know how I was anymore I finally began making friends and coming out of my shell. Then had years of continued great experiences up until I was diagnosed bipolar my freshman year of college and now I’ve had a hard time hanging up my hat so to speak
Nobody:
The fish trippin out cause he dumped his entire entire stash in the sink: yo bro you see them walls melting dude?
That's funny as hell
The other fish: **blasting through a portal of fractals**
The other other fish : *"Yo imma start a podcast and talk about elk meat"*
I’ve always wondered what will happen if a mammal took DMT. Like a gorilla.
@@ryanw459 I've always wonder the same but about a octopus 🐙
Really glad I watched this, you made me view a bad trip I had that kinda fucked me up in a differnt light and kinda healed it a bit , Thanks man
I took a faaat rip of dmt in a blue led room, blaring "the art of dying" by gojira. Totally terrifying but thats what I wanted lol
Thats on my bucket list too! The Song fits perfectly
@@HerrFuuuu hey don't take it lightly it was an insane experience I won't forget
Geez. Such an intense song too. Try third eye by tool now! That’s gotta be insane!
@@rocesboyanthony5343 I feel like Tool's music was built to play during trips
Dope fucking song btw
** DMT leaks into main water system **
Edit: yes this comment is nonsensical comedy, just grilling Adam for the lolz
There would have to be maoi's In it for people to get high
🤣
We could only wish
fluoride blocks pineal gland, need dmt in the reservoir to reverse the blockage
@@Aerochalklate wouldn't drinking tap water and brushing your teeth make DMT consumption impossible then?
Who knows maybe losing your mind could actually be more like finding your true self
Yeah fr!
@@ayzadiaz glad that you get me brother
Cringe
I had a trip about two weeks ago where I genuinely thought I was losing my mind, I was terrified. I don't remember anything visually from the trip which has never happened before but I remember the feeling of been stuck in an eternal loop and I felt like I knew too much and my brain didn't have the capacity to hold everything and honestly whilst tripping still i felt like my only option was to end my life. I've never felt fear like it.
For days afterwards I felt serious anxiety and I still don't really can't make sense of the whole situation
Imagine having to unlearn everything you ever been told in your 3 dimensional life, that would drive anyone insane, but thats the fun of it. So I get the idea why they’re jesters in that “dimensional space”
What Adam said about psychedelic induced psychosis is so true. The first time it happened to me, I had done upwards of 50 acid trips and thought I was pretty experienced. It can happen to anyone and can be scary as shit while your in it. For example I thought I was losing my memory (in reality it was my tripped out brain trying to comprehend thought loops) and this lead to me thinking world War 3 had started ( I thought north Korea or Russia had "nuked" the US with a memory erasing bomb) and running around trying to figure out how to restore everyone's memories by writing down what I could remember and slowly building on what I had wrote. And the crazy part is I 100% thought it was real, there was no doubt in my mind that everyone lost their memory. I tried talking to my friend and my dad, and I thought they were loosing their memory too. This made me start balling crying ( which is something I haven't done since elementary school l ) So be safe and don't over do it. Psychedelics can sneak up on you in terrifying ways.
Joe rogan has entered the chat
Hulk hogan?
@@diegovalencia9443 No. Seth Rogen the guy from the hunger games.
Lmao I’ve only thought about him while watching this
How has he never been invited??
Underrated comment 😂
I almost flushed all my acid (a strip of double dosed tabs) when I went way too far down the rabbit hole on a tab, but didn’t and turned that determination into energy to respect and handle the tabs for positive trips commencing forward from then. Since that, all my LSD trips have been amazing. Have the intent of healing and it’s all groovy
So thankful for your open heart. I feel this so deep man 👁 one love forever. Let’s enjoy the ride 🤙✨☀️
I admire your talent for expressing and presenting your experiences in informative, authentic, comprehensible and shameless ways. I wish you a lifetime of peace purpose and gratitude. And continued safety
Adam, as a fellow psychonaut and a well wisher, I feel like you are loosing touch with the harm reduction aspect of the channel and on a personal level it seems like you are abusing these substances with a false ego of having been "experienced" and by doing so you are teetering on a very fine edge. However experienced you are, these substances are extremely powerful teachers, they need absolute respect and reverence.You must give appropriate time between psychedelic journeys to reintegrate back with "reality" and give yourself enough time to understand what they've thought you. From a personal standpoint I believe that once a month is an absolute minimum gap you must maintain between trips.
I don't know how I'am going to say this without offending Adam or somebody being in this situation. I think that the real deal of psychedelics is realising that you don't need anything or to gain wisdom, that every problem and believe you are making up is your doing. The infinite loop is samsara in the truest sense, through the assumption that you need something more to be complete you are keeping the wheel going. May it be an experience, knowledge, visiting the infinite loop again to transcend it, losing the ego etc. Psychedelics can show you that there is nothing more to do, that from a serious point of view there is absolute nothing that is important. Coming back to everyday experience, we are integrating these experiences not by an ontological "beingness" standpoint where we really feel that there is nothing to do and chase the wheel of samsara for the sake of chasing it. We are integrating it as an empirical happening that happend to me, as a rather dimm memory of the "I". Because the experience of oneness on psychedelics is a contrast to our daily life, we think that the experience of pure beingness is something we have to chase and is not quite accomplished in our sober state.
It's not that psychedelics show you something you have to gain, it's pulling the curtains away. Through insisting that something is missing after you got sober again is pulling the curtains even closer together.
Luis // hey, can you please explain your point in simpler English. It’s not my first language and I feel like what you were explaining is advice I need to take myself because I’ve been seeking the next time I do shrooms or acid to “learn something” I need to learn
@@Bllueee whats your first language? maybe i can help you out in it. Otherwise you can use deepl.com to translate stuff that you dont understand. If both doesnt help, hit me up again and Ill try my best to explain it with simpler words
@@WisdomOfInsecurity Damn that makes a lot of sense
I understood every word he said.
He needed to do that to cleanse himself of the energy.
It is impossible to describe because it is at the core essence of reality.
"spiral out, keep going"- Maynard James Keenan
Beautifully said
when you started describing the splitting and reshuffling of the cell that hit home for me, I was trapped there once and it felt like I was doomed to be subject to this cycle for eternity. I eventually learned to look at the cell-splitting with the mindset of "let's see what happens next" in order to keep my sanity
Thank you muchly for giving me confidence to extend my exploration and not be afraid to face things I’m afraid of
Maybe the lesson of the loop experience could be that you're not in peace with yourself. Because that's who you're actually left with in such a loop. You're surroundings keep repeating. So, you're left with yourself. The fact that you than panic, may show that you are not in peace with yourself. You rely on your surroundings to be (or at least try to be) at peace. This isn't true inner peace.
True peace is with oneself, regardless of the circumstances. Just like Buddha sought after true peace within himself by removing himself from his surroundings. His surroundings (wealth, luxury, power,...) we're perceived as necessary things for inner peace. Buddha realized that this was not true. So, he removed himself from all of those stuff and choose to live as a humble homeless monk.
That may be the lesson from these type of DMT trips where people are stuck in loops for eternity, or stuck in eternal nothingness, or stuck in 'whatever' for eternity.
But hey. I'm someone who has no experience with psychedelics. The only drugs I have ever taken is cafeïne and pain killers. So, I could be (probably am) totally off with this.
I looped for a good 9ish hours about 5 years ago. I was so traumatized by the experience I couldnt sleep at night or smoke pot or anything cause I would have panic attacks. I’ve finally gotten therapy and no longer get bothered by it. It’s definitely shaped who I am today since I did it so young into my adult hood.
Be careful G
Care to elaborate on the therapy that helped you?
“Show me a sane man, and I’ll cure him for you.”
"Break on through to the other side."- Jim Morrison
That song popped up in my head too
It also always tell me to never do it again, when ever i'm in the trip. I see wonderfull things but also horrible things. As soon as i'm out of the trip again, my ego says i can still do it again as i came out alive again...
You´re addicted
@@buprenived8mg lol how can he be addicted
@@buprenived8mg yeah he is haha
Yup.
@@novictim there are different forms of addiction. Humans commonly have a self-destructive habit.
Nah, you don't get withdrawals and suffer from dependence on psychedelics (well, most psychedelics anyway), but you can absolutely crave a splitting mind until it becomes dangerous.
In the conclusion I can see that he has experienced ego death with psychedelics, transformation beyond human conception. But he does not know how to explain the life changing sensation and deeper understanding of self to the average concerned viewer. But he doesn’t come off as better than, just informative and insightful.
Yes, thank you I was looking for someone to say it and that was well put. Mike Tyson on the subject of psychedelics and just life in general is the perfect example of someone who is a student of life, not someone trying to reach some type of extreme state of mind for the fuck of it
The other day I did dmt at my friends house and it was an experience that was extremely positive and its something that stays on my mind because of the way it felt. My friend had quite a lot of dmt and we basically could do whatever dose. I decided to take a dose of about 25 milligrams. We made our way to his back yard and I was quite excited. Every experience I've had with it so far is not with heavy doses but I never feel a sense of nervousness before as my friend as well as many other people report. So we get out and are sitting on some pretty comfy fabric lawn chairs that look out on his back yard with a few trees a huge pasture with 4 horses. I thought it was a great setting for a trip. I remember hitting his vape pen for as long as I could and holding it in while counting down as my friend said to do. I had put on the song breathe in the air by pink floyd and I particularly enjoy that song. Before I could even get from 15 to 8 my head was plunged into a completely different space. The first thing I noticed was the grass started to look like a very odd form of turf with weird lines intersecting every 6 inches or so and I felt pretty far gone by this point already for lack of a better term. My friend said to make sure to finish all the dmt in the vaporizer which I remember kinda rang in my head and took a bit to process although I'm not exactly sure how my perception of time was at that moment. I took one more decent rip before it was finished off and held it in like I had done before. Just taking the second rip off the pen was difficult because I felt very disassociated from my body already. After holding it in for what felt like quite a while, I released the air and sat back to relax. I remember the song sounding very distorted and slow compared to what it usually is. (It sounded odd but not very offputting to me). As I looked around at the grass and the trees mostly, I saw some very interesting patterns and I saw colors that covered my whole field of vision with distinct lines between the colors which I hadn't seen on the other doses. By the way everything around me looked, it was almost as if I was on a completely alternate planet. My mind and body felt like it was disintegrating or melting away almost. It felt a lot like my sense of self was very weak. I looked over at my friend and he had what looked like very distinct patterns across the side of his face and what almost looked like the patterns of cobwebs in some areas. This was all within probably the course of a few seconds after the second rip. As my dissociated feeling grew strong I kinda relaxed all the way into the chair, putting my head back and looking at the tree branches above me against the sky. At that point the branches looked very alien and were making a very similar design to the cobwebs that I saw on my friends face seconds before. I was extremely incapacitated and no words can really do the designs and colors I saw justice. It felt like my body was withered away with not really any sensation that I remember other than just the experience of staring at the branches in the sky for probably a few minutes while not moving. As I came back to having a full sense of my body I started hysterically laughing at how amazing and pleasant I felt. Which I'm sure was interesting for my friend to see. I stood up, still tripping decently and we walked inside which I don't really remember. I do remember walking up the stairs of his house looking at the stairs and seeing these orange hues of color with some very light patterns and made my way up to the room with the xbox and stuff. I couldn't really control my laughing and smiling as the trip wore off over the next few minutes. Honestly it was so good and almost pure feeling. I never had a single bad feeling during it and I am glad that I tried that again. Hope to break through sometime. If you read the whole thing, thanks for sticking through and let me know what you think or of any similar experiences you had. :)
Havnt yet to try DMT or shrooms, but have you tried DMT where you "pass out" for like 15 minutes?
@@BakedNConfused No but I really want to break through. I just need to do a high enough dose. It seems interesting considering how the moderate doses are.
That was quite a read. Thanks for sharing. :)
@@jouanh.sulaiman3375 Thanks for the support!
Nice man Really I recommend hey you next that’s a great song to do.