Yeah I heard that too! It shows! I mean like if you weren’t already in tears before…that last bit is what gets them flowing🥺for sure! I’m not exaggerating when I say that even tho I’ve heard this song like idk…probably close to 100 freaking times(seriously I’m not lying y’all) when it gets to that part I *still* get goosebumps every single time my dude, and sometimes even a bit teary eyed as well! It’s that powerful, hearing his voice cracking and the nail in the coffin is his absolutely devastating “them pills got you right……them pills got you right!?” Ugh😖………it like physically hurts my heart man! Every damn time!
Thank you Teddy for not being afraid to show your vulnerability. We all are proud of you. You are strong Teddster! It's okay to hit the breaks and let the emotions out sometimes. There's nothing wrong with it. Sending you the biggest warmest hug mate. And of course sending big hugs to everyone else! Remember - you're not alone in this world.
Real shit bro. Masculinity is not bottling up your emotions and never letting them out masculinity is knowing the time and place to push out your emotions in a healthy manner and during this song is the time and the place.
the new song Hope makes this one hit so much harder. From saying he doesnt forgive her and saying she wont see his kids grow up, to now being married, having kids and reaching a point of finally forgiving his mom...incredible
@@sengibang As someone who has been following NF since his very first album came out, its so awesome to finally see him reach the personal/spiritual growth he expressed in Hope. Not to spoil any of the Journey for Teddy, but NF's musical career obviously took off and far outgrew is personal growth, and even though i havent remotely experienced the same life/hurt that NF (and TeddyGreyonStuff for that matter) had, i was far more excited for the deeper meaning behind the lyrics of Hope than i ever was for the musical success and hype of any of NF's albums/singles.
@@sengibang I don't know about that. I've said for a long time, half-jokingly and half-sincerely that I'd probably end it at 40 if I don't have a partner/kids to be there for. I get the feeling that Hope wouldn't have happened if NF didn't have someone to be responsible for. I don't imagine it solves everything, but I expect his son is a huge factor in helping him move on from some of his past. He's got something more important to think about.
Exactly. It just proves that NF's music IS real therapy....every song is a manifestation of self-examination and Hope shows how he has grown emotionally
In the rhyme he talks about crying in the studio and in true and raw fashion,he was, when he’s talking in the track he was recording all that in the studio recording the track. Thank you for sharing your experiences and how the track got you, it isn’t easy to get that deep for many people. And if you need to talk sir, I’ve got Listening ears.
it’s incredible how 6 years ago he released this song, 3 years ago he said he wasn’t as angry at her as he was when he recorded it and that he finally understood her a little better, and now he’s finally able to forgive her. he’s proof that you’ll never be able to forget but you’ll eventually heal
This is the kind of reaction I was looking for. If you don’t cry listening to this you’re a robot. Kiddos to you for letting us see what we all felt too.
As a daughter, I forgive them. As a parent though, I will never understand! My daughter will NEVER go through ANY OF THAT as long as I'm breathing! Reaction was humbling!
Knowing that we would find the strength to move a mountain if our kids needed us to, it’s impossible to understand how our parents could do that to us. I’m glad our children will never know the pain we felt.
Remember one thing, Teddy. It is always okay to cry. You have to release those emotions because they eat you from the inside. We all have similar problems in our life, you are not alone. We love you. Huge bear hugs
I am following the path you took on your NF journey and I only started about a week ago. Today I’m watching this for the first time with you and it took me almost and hour to finish watching. Empathy is a double edged sword but I wouldn’t trade it for anything.
@@TeddyGreyOS helllll no! Your reactions would be just as basic like most of the reactors on RUclips… its what drives your reactions and the substance of the lyrics you write …besides Hope, Mansion is my personal favorite… this one is super emotional and makes me feel like I lived through this situation but I don’t think I will have putting this on my personal playlist 😣
I'm 48 years old and I've honestly listened to this song 100's of times and I still shed tears and I'm a mans man. I have no correlation to addiction or losing family members, but his tonality and vocal tension seems so real and not faked. Nf is a true gem unlike no other artist ever!
This is an amazing fact about this song; He wasn’t able to record his third written verse due to having a breakdown in the studio. So after him and his best mate agent to go watch a movie and cheer up he came back to finish this songs last few lines alone with the mics on in the studio basically saying his goodbyes ❤️
The reason this song destroyed me sounds like it’s your experience exactly. Alcoholic dad, a little boy with his bags packed every other weekend, sitting in the window waiting to see his car pull up…he rarely ever did, but I’d still sit there every time thinking maybe this time is different. It’s amazing how this song can take a grown ass man right back to that kitchen window so vividly and excruciatingly. Unfortunately he passed before I could ever get closure, so I feel you on the difficulty of trying to deal with and process it without that opportunity. Great react as always. I respect the hell out of a man than can show that real emotion so confidently and honestly. Lookin forward to the rest of the journey.
It's all love fam. This one don't require much talking. I've got 8 kids. 5 of those are through the foster system. And every single one of those 5 have lived this song on a personal level. I guts me every time I hear it.
Your reaction broke my heart. I love what you said about that your kids would never go through that. I feel the same way. It kills me that so many children have to live like this. Mine never will ever have to go through anything like this. God bless him and his beautiful family!!!
Just thinking about the guts Nate has for writing this song, recording it and performing it at shows, reliving his worst memories each time while all we can do is cry our eyes out every time we’re just listening to it is insane to me. Most people won’t even talk about their feelings, can’t even admit them to themselves I just can’t even fathom the amount of inner strength it takes. And he’s even moved into forgiving her now in Hope. How could one not be at awe with Nate I don’t get it!
This is the only song that makes me sob every time i hear it. I've listened to it a thousand times and I've cried a thousand times. The power of music with emotion ❤️
Hugs to you Teddy! No need to edit with NF. We get it. This was the first song I ever heard from NF. It was a couple of months after I lost my son to addiction. The line “I hate the way I remember you” hit me hard because that was how I felt. Six years of watching him battle addiction made it difficult to remember the good times. ❤ It’s been five years now since he left this world and I am glad to say that I can finally look back and laugh at the good times we had. Hug those babies. They grow up so fast and you never know how much time they have on this earth. ❤
Just wow … we love you ♥️ no need to hide your emotion . This is just real life and real situation. You just show how life can be hard sometime . Your’e reaction was so honnest and transparent just good job buddy ♥️♥️♥️
This song is the exact representation of me and my fathers relationship… him and my mother divorced when I was 2, and he had an alcohol addiction, only seen him a handful of times between the ages of 2-10 years old, then he moved to Florida and I never seen him again, in 2020 he died. I’ve spent my entire life questioning why I was never good enough, why he was never there…. Why I never got to have a dad. It’s a very difficult song to listen to, down to the small details of him wanting at the window for her to show up, and then calling saying she’s not, crying myself to sleep, all of it….. so spot on for my experience.
"I just washed this shirt" been there brother. Hang in there! Your reaction, while painful, is genuine and among favorites. Keep up the journey! Here for every step and every song
Thank you for another transparent and honest reaction Teddy. His music is totally relatable regardless of situation or circumstances. I came across NF shortly after losing my daughter in 2018. I went on the journey after listening to the Perception album; so glad I did regardless of how hard it has been at times. Look after yourself
Gets me every time. And the reason why we watch reactions is to see others that his music affects the same way, in a way, not to feel alone. Thank you bro.
It was my dad too. I wanted to reach through the screen and hug you, but I was crying too. I do every time I see this video, and I seem to find a bit more peace every time I've seen it.
Haven’t even watched yet. Couldn’t help but crack up upon hearing yer voice on the intro alone, going “oh nooo- he ain’t ready!” 😂😭🤣 Have personally sobbed to this song several times as well… welcome to the club Brüder! 🫂
Awwwww Teddy I just wanna hug you. I want you to know that you aren't alone- this song is heart-wrenching, and getting to see you react, you sharing your emotions in a raw, uncut and unfiltered way shows your humanity in such a real way. Thank you for trusting your followers enough to share this. This song still gets me, and seeing you react to it amplified those emotions even more. If you ever need to chat, hit me up! Life is too short to isolate ourselves for the fear that no one could understand. We're all here for you. Sending love! 🫂
This was the first song of his I listened to and my reaction was the same as yours. My kids father disappeared when they were 6 and 1 and to think of them having these feelings destroyed me. I did not listen to any of his other music until Hope came out. My daughter was in the room when it was playing and she was in tears by the end of it. She is 30 and suffers with depression and anxiety. I have gone back and listened to quite a bit of his older stuff and it all effects me and makes me wish I knew how to help my daughter more. So many people are going through this and it is heartbreaking.
That was ,hands down, the best reaction to this song I’ve ever watched. I grew up without my dad being at home because of his alcoholism so my mom divorced him. He rarely came around and when he did come to get me or my sister, he was drunk or would start drinking as we’d drive away. My kids kind of relate because their mom was hooked on meth a few years back and it literally almost killed her so this song hits home about what could have happened. I know people say addiction is a disease but it’s a choice. If you can choose to start, choose to stop. I know it’s hard, but people need you, especially your kids if you have kids.
We carry the pain so our children never have to experience it. I know it’s lot to carry around but you do it. You’re children’s smile and happiness is the best therapy.
u are not the first, and will not be the last, to cry for this song... NF has ways, of getting emotions out of u,... i have seen reactors, get very quiet, cry, or almost break down, listening to this song...
You're a beautiful soul Teddy. I genuinely love your vulnerability. This song had such a major impact on me because my mother was a drug addict who died from a drug overdose and then I followed in the path and put my kids through hell but thankfully I found the light and I'm now clean and giving my children a great life but that all being said the song hits me really hard 😢
When a human opens his heart in a sincere, humble and profund way, it's painfull but at the same time a consolation. Tears can be the result of a sad memory, a real anguish that is hurting us or a sign of empathy for a bad moment in someone else's life, but that tears prove that we care for others. Proves that we are vulnerable, but in the end, that make us strong, modest and loving. Thanks Eddy for this. We care for you too and be happy with your family. NF songs make us think in the 'real' things on life that are really important. Thanks for your reactions. A big hug 💪
We just lost our daughter to fentanyl. 27 years old and won't get any older, left 2 beautiful girls behind 7 and 8. I had to go tell them that their Mommy is gone. I know most people don't understand addiction, I do. Got out of the Marines after 10 years of combat addicted to pain killers and Adderall, had to keep pain free and alert to accomplish the missions we were sent out on. Luckily or I should say providentialy my wife and I got help and got sober before this mess hit the streets! Please please please, if you have an addicted loved one get them help!! If you are addicted please get help before it's too late!
The guy that I loved had become drug addicted and he took distance from me. A few times he became sober and came back. But now I feel I have truly lost him😔💔 It has been 3 years ago since I last saw him. He doesn't wanna talk to me. But before I left him (after I found out he became addicted again) I have send him a letter in wich I poured my heart out by telling him that he deserves the best. And it was actually a goodbye letter from my part. Because we were too unstable to make it work unfornutually. The feelings were there for sure. But the traumas were too big.. :( So I had to leave to also work on myself too. Our bound was toxic aswell due our copingmechanisms. We couldn't admit that we liked eachother so instead of that it was always very difficult. I still love him tho but I think he has moved on. He is still in his toxic enviorement and got a lot of attention from girls and even had a relationship already.. Nowadays I see sometimes a picture of him. He has become só skinny, its really scary😔 But the most sad thing is that I haven't seen the real guy anymore in years since the time that I left him..💔 I can not see that guy anymore when I look into his eyes🥺 I feel like I am to blame or something. But at the same time I had no other choice than to leave him..💔😔 I still wanna go back to him. But he has shut the door and doesn't seem interested in me.. :(
Life is a hard pill to swallow but we do have to remember it puts us where we are intended to be in life. Life is awesome and death sucks when we are the ones going through it. But his life’s journey has brought him to helping others it’s kind of a divine plan if you ask me
Just wanted to say thank you for the genuine reaction. Glad to see someone in a different country enjoying nates music so much! Thank you for your vulnerability and authentic self. At the end of his studio time for this song. He cleared out the whole room so he could get that off his chest with what he shared with us at the end of this song! He really vented and got a lot of stress and sadness out with this song! It definitely helped him get to where he is now. Which is hopeful!!
dont ever apologize for your emotions and dont ever edit it out of videos.. reaction videos like this also help your viewers, its helps them to know that what they felt hearing this song was felt by others as well.. if you cant relate in some way to his music then you are the problem in todays world.. good job teddy
It doesn't matter how many reactors I watch who get to this song, it slays me. Just to note, in this song, he says he hasn't forgiven his mom yet, but in "Hope" when he talks about his son and how he won't have to wait at the window wondering if dad will show up, he says it's not a shot at his mom and that he has forgiven her. It's such a powerful statement.
I feel this song on a personal level too. I haven't lost a parent in the way he is talking with her passing, but I lost my dad by his choosing... the culmination of which was him showing up on Christmas Eve with a shotgun to take my mom out because she was moving on with her life after their separation. He didn't succeed, but the trauma from that night has lasted for the rest of my life. I've never seen him again either. To say it goes away? It doesn't. But I'm 42 now and there is a peace in me now about it, and I promise you will find yours ♥
I'm so glad you had the courage to react to this. This song is nothing other than a masterpiece. I never struggled with any family issues and I still cried when I first heard it. And I cried again today with this reaction. Stay strong brother.
I don’t know if anyone has told you this. But at the end of this journey please rewatch HOPE these song your reacting to will tie into HOPE… thank you for being brave enough to show us that’s it’s for men to cry and show their emotions we need more of this in this world
you are not alone.... right there with you brother. I was an only child. My parents separated when I was less than a year old. I lived with my mom but my dad was only a 15 minute drive away. Several weekends he said he was coming to get me and I would be sitting on the porch with my bags packed waiting for hours and he was a no show. When I got older I learned he was a partying guy.... always drinking... always gambling... always chasing women. So much so he easily forgot about his son that he said he was coming to get. He worked construction.... made good money... and I learned years later my mom had to take him to court numerous times because he wouldn't pay his child support. Unfortunately i too started to fall into an alcohol addiction in my young adult years.... following in his footsteps I guess. He got arrested for his 3rd DUI and ended up in jail. His 2nd wife told him if he didn't quit drinking he would be out on his ass. On top of that the doctors were telling him he was on the road to dying because of his liver and all of his years of drinking. And he still didn't stop. So I gave up on him... stopped trying to have a relationship with him. Then I got a call from his sister that he was in the hospital... nonresponsive.... in a coma because they had to do surgery on him and he just never woke up. He was technically still married but his wife had kicked him out so it came down to me to direct the doctors to pull the plug on him. I relied heavily on the recommendation of my family, his two sisters and brother and all my cousins all came to the unanimous agreement but it was still my decision. I watched him take his last breath and then I threw myself over him and cried "don't go" But his death was enough to break me to realize i needed a change and this was all before I started a family of my own. Not a day goes by I wish he was hear to see his grandbabies.
On his album MOMENTS, which was produced out of his own pocket at 18, there is a song, called BEAUTIUL, I think that is the song he played for his mom before she overdosed, it talks about her being beautiful, but broken, and how he wishes she could have seen herself thru his eyes. So young to have such heartache at the time. NF music moves me, even on the moments album, when the music left a lot to be desired, the lyrics were still there.
I have to say I really love your heart. Being on the NF journey is not an easy journey. It’s really about him and his life. But it’s well worth it to understand him and see where he came from. He puts so many Raw emotions in his songs. And it makes his audience feel everything. I’m really glad to see you do this and to see where he came from and see who he really is. Thank you for doing this
It had to be horrific to Upload this one. But dont worry teddy, you are human like all of us and feeling the emotion is completely normal and beautiful. You are so strong and honest to show this reaction. You really match with NF slogan “real music” you are real brother
Its crazy to think of how bad many of us had or have it, and how hard life is to ALOT of us all. And yet if you log onto social media you almost only see happy faces, we hide so many things as human beings! Thats what is so amazing with people like NF who can put hes feelings down on paper and make such an art as NF does, HE HEALS SO MANY JUST BY BEING HONEST
Thanks for being brave enough to share this without cuts. This song gets me every time. I had wonderful parents but NF really pulls you in and reveals what is likely just a sliver of the pain he felt. I can’t imagine having to feel it all, especially as a young man. 😢 Also, I hope you were able to salvage the sweatshirt after this 😉
It's all good to feel brother, I lost my mom back in 1997 from a drug overdose. I was only 17 years old at the time and it took me sooo many years to come to grips with it. This song especially hits home. If I can encourage you in any way, you are not alone brother 💯💯💯🙏🙏
I also want to point out since it was his song Hope that was the first song you heard.... in this song he says "I'm not gonna say i forgive you because it hasnt happened yet" but in Hope he says he wasn't taking shots at his mom and that he forgives her. So it was nice to see it come full circle from this song that his journey on Hope begins with forgiving his mom. It's a huge weight lifted if we can find that place of forgiveness.
Proud of u for being brave enough to show vulnerability. So many people will be impacted by ur reaction to this song, all because u were willing to show genuine emotion instead of being worried about what some may think....thank u.
I discovered NF a couple years ago when I started my own personal healing journey from traumas I experienced growing up. It’s hard for me to listen to some of his songs since they take me back into emotions and memories that I don’t like going to. How ever, I have learned that sometimes it’s the very thing that I need to do to heal. Visit the memories and feel that pain. I tell myself that it’s okay to feel hurt by this. Burying it did nothing but hurt me more. Hearing Hope brought me such joy. Nate has put in the fucking work to deal with himself and his struggles and it seems like that work has paid off for him. I know it has for me. Much love to you Teddy❤ I hadn’t heard of you until I was searching for NF reactions and stumbled upon your video. It seems ridiculous I’m sure but you can tell that you have a good soul and pure energy. Best of luck and well wishes in your own journey of healing and growth!
That was my reaction to the the first time I seen it. I’m a single dad to a boy and a girl at the time of first hearing, she was on the streets shooting up. I felt for my kids and balled my eyes out. She passed by OD almost two years ago it’s been a rough road. If it wasn’t for Jesus.
You’re so real for putting you’re honest feelings out there man! This is by far the hardest song for me to hear but it makes his line in HOPE so much more powerful “Mama I forgive you”
Never let your dark thoughts tske over, Youre never as alone as you feel, Your family loves you, we love you, i love you. Punch and scream as hard as you can, id rather you taste your blood than to see your blood. i love you...
Much love, brother. I avoided this song for 7 months now since my mom passed. If you are doing this, I am going with you. I am a sobbing mess, but this is cleansing. Thank you for showing people to be strong and staying real. Be proud. This is what a man looks like.
i don't know your situation to the fullest but my dad left me alone when i was a baby. some would say if he wasn't there how can you miss him. in my day at school we had father son days also in boy scouts. its amazing how hurtful children are toward each other at such a young age my mom was amazing always fulfilling the role. the day after my 21st bday i got a call from my father. long story short i wish i would've never met him. sometimes what you think you want might be more painful then the alternatives. hopefully though it was only in my case. cheers brother stay strong.
I had said I’d never listen to this song again. I can’t even relate with it but it broke me knowing there’s people who suffer like that. It was eye opening and utterly devastating. I had a feeling you were going to resonate with this and just watched it to go through the pain with you and cry with you. I know it’s strange because you recorded this prior to us watching it but wanted to support regardless. 💔 Will continue to lift you up in prayer.
This is a harder part of his journey trying to deal with his past. Never easy but this his therapy like he said. He speaks on and says things that we or other people have felt and had no words. He lives to use his! NF is as Real as it gets.
thank you for sharing from your heart - There are no truer words than knowing the trauma you endure as a child, you carry throughout your lifetime. It helps to know I am not alone... thank you ♥♥♥
Thank you for having the strength and courage to listen to this song and give us a good honest reaction. We’re here for you buddy! Thank you for your honest and heart felt reactions. I love your vids!!
Thank you for showing your true emotions to a very genuine song. You are not alone in your reaction. We are all capable of true empathy in this world. You’re doing great things, one video at a time. I am a combat veteran suffering from PTSD and use these reaction as a form of therapy. You make a difference. Continued success and I’ll be a proud supporter of your channel.
Thank you for taking the time to prepare yourself, this is a very hard song to listen to and a hard video to watch for a lot of people. Don't feel bad for your emotional reaction, please. NF has performed this song live a few times and he has a hard time getting through it each time. He had a really hard time recording it too, he supposedly had to have everyone leave the recording studio for the last part where he is kinda just talking to the mic.
Brother I appreciate your authentic, real emotions that you are unafraid to show! So many of us men feel the same but have always been told "men don't cry", Total BS!! I empathize with people who are hurting because I've suffered a lot of pain in my life including just losing my daughter to the fentanyl epidemic. I weep openly and in private. My heart breaks for others so it's most definitely ok to show your emotions! Don't bottle them up or they will consume you!!!
Bro… MANY of us felt this way the first time we heard/watched it. I KNEW it was going to hit you hard since you’re such a caring and emotional guy. (“There’s Millions us Just Like You”) Thank you… THANK YOU… for such a genuine/humble reaction. We’re still with you for this journey! Thank you for sharing. 🤗
I don't know how they(NF and now, you to Teddy putting out your diary to the world) do it, I literally wrote a personal comment, changed it multiple times till I thought it was ok and commented. Just to find myself panicking and deleting it 5min later and writing this in stead. I'm sorry this part of the journey took you to places you didn't want to be; I also wasn't looking forward to this one and put it of till now. Thank you for the hug, I really needed it 🫂
He went in the studio alone on the talking part at the end and just let out everything he was feeling. Raw authentic emotions.
Yes I heard that too, and his producer or someone just let the recording happen. I heard that and went like wow. That’s genuine
@@glmstudiogh correct, he told his producer not to cut the mic and asked them to leave the room
Thank you for sharing that. I didn't think I could love nf anymore, yet I do ❤
Yeah I heard that too! It shows!
I mean like if you weren’t already in tears before…that last bit is what gets them flowing🥺for sure!
I’m not exaggerating when I say that even tho I’ve heard this song like idk…probably close to 100 freaking times(seriously I’m not lying y’all) when it gets to that part I *still* get goosebumps every single time my dude, and sometimes even a bit teary eyed as well! It’s that powerful, hearing his voice cracking and the nail in the coffin is his absolutely devastating “them pills got you right……them pills got you right!?”
Ugh😖………it like physically hurts my heart man! Every damn time!
Thank you Teddy for not being afraid to show your vulnerability. We all are proud of you. You are strong Teddster! It's okay to hit the breaks and let the emotions out sometimes. There's nothing wrong with it. Sending you the biggest warmest hug mate.
And of course sending big hugs to everyone else! Remember - you're not alone in this world.
My reaction was the same when I first heard it …
It happens even when you kinda expect it. NF does this to you
so much this. having lost both my parents, this shit hits so hard. love seeing another grown man not afraid to cry.
Real shit bro. Masculinity is not bottling up your emotions and never letting them out masculinity is knowing the time and place to push out your emotions in a healthy manner and during this song is the time and the place.
the new song Hope makes this one hit so much harder. From saying he doesnt forgive her and saying she wont see his kids grow up, to now being married, having kids and reaching a point of finally forgiving his mom...incredible
Yes! I guess rewatching Hope in the end of the journey would be uplifting for lots of people, there is hope in the world
@@sengibang As someone who has been following NF since his very first album came out, its so awesome to finally see him reach the personal/spiritual growth he expressed in Hope. Not to spoil any of the Journey for Teddy, but NF's musical career obviously took off and far outgrew is personal growth, and even though i havent remotely experienced the same life/hurt that NF (and TeddyGreyonStuff for that matter) had, i was far more excited for the deeper meaning behind the lyrics of Hope than i ever was for the musical success and hype of any of NF's albums/singles.
@@sengibang I don't know about that. I've said for a long time, half-jokingly and half-sincerely that I'd probably end it at 40 if I don't have a partner/kids to be there for.
I get the feeling that Hope wouldn't have happened if NF didn't have someone to be responsible for. I don't imagine it solves everything, but I expect his son is a huge factor in helping him move on from some of his past. He's got something more important to think about.
Exactly. It just proves that NF's music IS real therapy....every song is a manifestation of self-examination and Hope shows how he has grown emotionally
In the rhyme he talks about crying in the studio and in true and raw fashion,he was, when he’s talking in the track he was recording all that in the studio recording the track.
Thank you for sharing your experiences and how the track got you, it isn’t easy to get that deep for many people. And if you need to talk sir, I’ve got Listening ears.
it’s incredible how 6 years ago he released this song, 3 years ago he said he wasn’t as angry at her as he was when he recorded it and that he finally understood her a little better, and now he’s finally able to forgive her. he’s proof that you’ll never be able to forget but you’ll eventually heal
This is the kind of reaction I was looking for. If you don’t cry listening to this you’re a robot. Kiddos to you for letting us see what we all felt too.
This song has so much raw emotion. So glad you reacted to this ❤
This is why when he says in hope I forgive you, it hits so hard. A long journey he went on to get there.
As a daughter, I forgive them. As a parent though, I will never understand! My daughter will NEVER go through ANY OF THAT as long as I'm breathing! Reaction was humbling!
Knowing that we would find the strength to move a mountain if our kids needed us to, it’s impossible to understand how our parents could do that to us. I’m glad our children will never know the pain we felt.
The sad thing is that we need to be honest with ourselves that we are not as reliable as we need to be. Its bigger than us alone.
Remember one thing, Teddy.
It is always okay to cry. You have to release those emotions because they eat you from the inside.
We all have similar problems in our life, you are not alone.
We love you. Huge bear hugs
I am following the path you took on your NF journey and I only started about a week ago. Today I’m watching this for the first time with you and it took me almost and hour to finish watching. Empathy is a double edged sword but I wouldn’t trade it for anything.
ah see, I would change mine in a heartbeat.
I’d give anything not to feel as deeply as I do.
@@TeddyGreyOS helllll no! Your reactions would be just as basic like most of the reactors on RUclips… its what drives your reactions and the substance of the lyrics you write …besides Hope, Mansion is my personal favorite… this one is super emotional and makes me feel like I lived through this situation but I don’t think I will have putting this on my personal playlist 😣
"Tears are prayers too, they travel to God when we cant speak". Bless you Teddy and ty!
That's beautiful
I love this❤
So many have been hurt by our parents in one way or another. I cry every time i hear this song, every time and im 44 years old. You are NOT alone.
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I'm 48 years old and I've honestly listened to this song 100's of times and I still shed tears and I'm a mans man. I have no correlation to addiction or losing family members, but his tonality and vocal tension seems so real and not faked. Nf is a true gem unlike no other artist ever!
I saw this notification pop up & I literally had 2 brace myself & get mentally ready 2 see this reaction 😢
This is an amazing fact about this song;
He wasn’t able to record his third written verse due to having a breakdown in the studio. So after him and his best mate agent to go watch a movie and cheer up he came back to finish this songs last few lines alone with the mics on in the studio basically saying his goodbyes ❤️
I love this fan base thank you everyone
Aaaawwww!!! HUGS to you TOO!!! ❤️❤️❤️
The reason this song destroyed me sounds like it’s your experience exactly. Alcoholic dad, a little boy with his bags packed every other weekend, sitting in the window waiting to see his car pull up…he rarely ever did, but I’d still sit there every time thinking maybe this time is different. It’s amazing how this song can take a grown ass man right back to that kitchen window so vividly and excruciatingly. Unfortunately he passed before I could ever get closure, so I feel you on the difficulty of trying to deal with and process it without that opportunity. Great react as always. I respect the hell out of a man than can show that real emotion so confidently and honestly. Lookin forward to the rest of the journey.
It's all love fam. This one don't require much talking. I've got 8 kids. 5 of those are through the foster system. And every single one of those 5 have lived this song on a personal level. I guts me every time I hear it.
Your reaction broke my heart. I love what you said about that your kids would never go through that. I feel the same way. It kills me that so many children have to live like this. Mine never will ever have to go through anything like this. God bless him and his beautiful family!!!
Just thinking about the guts Nate has for writing this song, recording it and performing it at shows, reliving his worst memories each time while all we can do is cry our eyes out every time we’re just listening to it is insane to me.
Most people won’t even talk about their feelings, can’t even admit them to themselves I just can’t even fathom the amount of inner strength it takes.
And he’s even moved into forgiving her now in Hope.
How could one not be at awe with Nate I don’t get it!
I never understood how artists can perform incredibly emotional songs live without falling apart. I couldn't do it, no way.
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Aaaawwww!!! HUGS to you TOO ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Didn’t realise he performed this song? Insane courage
This is the only song that makes me sob every time i hear it. I've listened to it a thousand times and I've cried a thousand times. The power of music with emotion ❤️
Hope everybody is great, everybody in this community, Teddy, Teddy's mods, all of you, you're all great people and deserve happiness ❤️❤️❤️
🥹so nice! Lovelovelove back atcha😘
3, 2, 1, Nf community love attack❤️
so glad you did this one, brother - you're only going to get further healing as you go through the NF journey! This was NOT pointless
Hugs to you Teddy! No need to edit with NF. We get it. This was the first song I ever heard from NF. It was a couple of months after I lost my son to addiction. The line “I hate the way I remember you” hit me hard because that was how I felt. Six years of watching him battle addiction made it difficult to remember the good times. ❤ It’s been five years now since he left this world and I am glad to say that I can finally look back and laugh at the good times we had. Hug those babies. They grow up so fast and you never know how much time they have on this earth. ❤
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So sorry for your loss.
Oh, Tina. I'm so sorry for your loss. Peace and blessings. ☮💌
Just wow … we love you ♥️ no need to hide your emotion . This is just real life and real situation. You just show how life can be hard sometime . Your’e reaction was so honnest and transparent just good job buddy ♥️♥️♥️
This song is the exact representation of me and my fathers relationship… him and my mother divorced when I was 2, and he had an alcohol addiction, only seen him a handful of times between the ages of 2-10 years old, then he moved to Florida and I never seen him again, in 2020 he died. I’ve spent my entire life questioning why I was never good enough, why he was never there…. Why I never got to have a dad. It’s a very difficult song to listen to, down to the small details of him wanting at the window for her to show up, and then calling saying she’s not, crying myself to sleep, all of it….. so spot on for my experience.
It definitely makes anyone with a heart ugly cry
"I just washed this shirt"
been there brother. Hang in there! Your reaction, while painful, is genuine and among favorites. Keep up the journey! Here for every step and every song
Thank you for another transparent and honest reaction Teddy. His music is totally relatable regardless of situation or circumstances. I came across NF shortly after losing my daughter in 2018. I went on the journey after listening to the Perception album; so glad I did regardless of how hard it has been at times. Look after yourself
I'm so sorry for your loss, Phil. 💔
@@melaniejordan1199 thank you❤️
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Gets me every time. And the reason why we watch reactions is to see others that his music affects the same way, in a way, not to feel alone. Thank you bro.
Your empathy and vulnerability is beautiful
It was my dad too. I wanted to reach through the screen and hug you, but I was crying too. I do every time I see this video, and I seem to find a bit more peace every time I've seen it.
Haven’t even watched yet. Couldn’t help but crack up upon hearing yer voice on the intro alone, going “oh nooo- he ain’t ready!” 😂😭🤣 Have personally sobbed to this song several times as well… welcome to the club Brüder! 🫂
Awwwww Teddy I just wanna hug you. I want you to know that you aren't alone- this song is heart-wrenching, and getting to see you react, you sharing your emotions in a raw, uncut and unfiltered way shows your humanity in such a real way. Thank you for trusting your followers enough to share this. This song still gets me, and seeing you react to it amplified those emotions even more. If you ever need to chat, hit me up! Life is too short to isolate ourselves for the fear that no one could understand. We're all here for you. Sending love! 🫂
It's good to hear the music bring out your story. That's whats so important about genuine reaction.
This was the first song of his I listened to and my reaction was the same as yours. My kids father disappeared when they were 6 and 1 and to think of them having these feelings destroyed me. I did not listen to any of his other music until Hope came out. My daughter was in the room when it was playing and she was in tears by the end of it. She is 30 and suffers with depression and anxiety. I have gone back and listened to quite a bit of his older stuff and it all effects me and makes me wish I knew how to help my daughter more. So many people are going through this and it is heartbreaking.
That was ,hands down, the best reaction to this song I’ve ever watched. I grew up without my dad being at home because of his alcoholism so my mom divorced him. He rarely came around and when he did come to get me or my sister, he was drunk or would start drinking as we’d drive away. My kids kind of relate because their mom was hooked on meth a few years back and it literally almost killed her so this song hits home about what could have happened. I know people say addiction is a disease but it’s a choice. If you can choose to start, choose to stop. I know it’s hard, but people need you, especially your kids if you have kids.
We carry the pain so our children never have to experience it. I know it’s lot to carry around but you do it. You’re children’s smile and happiness is the best therapy.
I've listened to it 100 times and it still does exactly the same thing to me.
u are not the first, and will not be the last, to cry for this song... NF has ways, of getting emotions out of u,... i have seen reactors, get very quiet, cry, or almost break down, listening to this song...
You're a beautiful soul Teddy. I genuinely love your vulnerability. This song had such a major impact on me because my mother was a drug addict who died from a drug overdose and then I followed in the path and put my kids through hell but thankfully I found the light and I'm now clean and giving my children a great life but that all being said the song hits me really hard 😢
When a human opens his heart in a sincere, humble and profund way, it's painfull but at the same time a consolation. Tears can be the result of a sad memory, a real anguish that is hurting us or a sign of empathy for a bad moment in someone else's life, but that tears prove that we care for others. Proves that we are vulnerable, but in the end, that make us strong, modest and loving.
Thanks Eddy for this. We care for you too and be happy with your family. NF songs make us think in the 'real' things on life that are really important.
Thanks for your reactions. A big hug 💪
Music isn't real unless it triggers emotion. This one is as real as it gets man! Hits me deep each time I hear it..damn
the most beautiful song you never want to hear twice
We just lost our daughter to fentanyl. 27 years old and won't get any older, left 2 beautiful girls behind 7 and 8. I had to go tell them that their Mommy is gone. I know most people don't understand addiction, I do. Got out of the Marines after 10 years of combat addicted to pain killers and Adderall, had to keep pain free and alert to accomplish the missions we were sent out on. Luckily or I should say providentialy my wife and I got help and got sober before this mess hit the streets! Please please please, if you have an addicted loved one get them help!! If you are addicted please get help before it's too late!
The guy that I loved had become drug addicted and he took distance from me. A few times he became sober and came back. But now I feel I have truly lost him😔💔 It has been 3 years ago since I last saw him. He doesn't wanna talk to me. But before I left him (after I found out he became addicted again) I have send him a letter in wich I poured my heart out by telling him that he deserves the best. And it was actually a goodbye letter from my part. Because we were too unstable to make it work unfornutually. The feelings were there for sure. But the traumas were too big.. :( So I had to leave to also work on myself too. Our bound was toxic aswell due our copingmechanisms. We couldn't admit that we liked eachother so instead of that it was always very difficult. I still love him tho but I think he has moved on. He is still in his toxic enviorement and got a lot of attention from girls and even had a relationship already.. Nowadays I see sometimes a picture of him. He has become só skinny, its really scary😔 But the most sad thing is that I haven't seen the real guy anymore in years since the time that I left him..💔 I can not see that guy anymore when I look into his eyes🥺 I feel like I am to blame or something. But at the same time I had no other choice than to leave him..💔😔 I still wanna go back to him. But he has shut the door and doesn't seem interested in me.. :(
And I am really sorry about your daughter!🥺😔💔 I wish you guys all the best✨️ And I am sending you lots of love and healing and hugs🩷🙏🏻🌺 xoxo
Life is a hard pill to swallow but we do have to remember it puts us where we are intended to be in life. Life is awesome and death sucks when we are the ones going through it. But his life’s journey has brought him to helping others it’s kind of a divine plan if you ask me
showing emotion like that takes a real man. respect to u
"Mama I forgive you" hit so damn hard in Hope.
Just wanted to say thank you for the genuine reaction. Glad to see someone in a different country enjoying nates music so much! Thank you for your vulnerability and authentic self.
At the end of his studio time for this song. He cleared out the whole room so he could get that off his chest with what he shared with us at the end of this song! He really vented and got a lot of stress and sadness out with this song! It definitely helped him get to where he is now. Which is hopeful!!
dont ever apologize for your emotions and dont ever edit it out of videos.. reaction videos like this also help your viewers, its helps them to know that what they felt hearing this song was felt by others as well.. if you cant relate in some way to his music then you are the problem in todays world.. good job teddy
It doesn't matter how many reactors I watch who get to this song, it slays me.
Just to note, in this song, he says he hasn't forgiven his mom yet, but in "Hope" when he talks about his son and how he won't have to wait at the window wondering if dad will show up, he says it's not a shot at his mom and that he has forgiven her. It's such a powerful statement.
This song makes Hope all that more awesome 🖤❤🤍
I feel this song on a personal level too.
I haven't lost a parent in the way he is talking with her passing, but I lost my dad by his choosing... the culmination of which was him showing up on Christmas Eve with a shotgun to take my mom out because she was moving on with her life after their separation.
He didn't succeed, but the trauma from that night has lasted for the rest of my life. I've never seen him again either.
To say it goes away? It doesn't. But I'm 42 now and there is a peace in me now about it, and I promise you will find yours ♥
You'll notice in this song he says he doesn't forgive his mom but in hope he says he does. Figured I'd point it out
I'm so glad you had the courage to react to this. This song is nothing other than a masterpiece. I never struggled with any family issues and I still cried when I first heard it. And I cried again today with this reaction. Stay strong brother.
I don’t know if anyone has told you this. But at the end of this journey please rewatch HOPE these song your reacting to will tie into HOPE… thank you for being brave enough to show us that’s it’s for men to cry and show their emotions we need more of this in this world
you are not alone.... right there with you brother. I was an only child. My parents separated when I was less than a year old. I lived with my mom but my dad was only a 15 minute drive away. Several weekends he said he was coming to get me and I would be sitting on the porch with my bags packed waiting for hours and he was a no show. When I got older I learned he was a partying guy.... always drinking... always gambling... always chasing women. So much so he easily forgot about his son that he said he was coming to get. He worked construction.... made good money... and I learned years later my mom had to take him to court numerous times because he wouldn't pay his child support. Unfortunately i too started to fall into an alcohol addiction in my young adult years.... following in his footsteps I guess. He got arrested for his 3rd DUI and ended up in jail. His 2nd wife told him if he didn't quit drinking he would be out on his ass. On top of that the doctors were telling him he was on the road to dying because of his liver and all of his years of drinking. And he still didn't stop. So I gave up on him... stopped trying to have a relationship with him. Then I got a call from his sister that he was in the hospital... nonresponsive.... in a coma because they had to do surgery on him and he just never woke up. He was technically still married but his wife had kicked him out so it came down to me to direct the doctors to pull the plug on him. I relied heavily on the recommendation of my family, his two sisters and brother and all my cousins all came to the unanimous agreement but it was still my decision. I watched him take his last breath and then I threw myself over him and cried "don't go" But his death was enough to break me to realize i needed a change and this was all before I started a family of my own. Not a day goes by I wish he was hear to see his grandbabies.
It's ok to feel feeling my friend we all have pain
On his album MOMENTS, which was produced out of his own pocket at 18, there is a song, called BEAUTIUL, I think that is the song he played for his mom before she overdosed, it talks about her being beautiful, but broken, and how he wishes she could have seen herself thru his eyes. So young to have such heartache at the time. NF music moves me, even on the moments album, when the music left a lot to be desired, the lyrics were still there.
We are all human, so we are family brother.
I have to say I really love your heart. Being on the NF journey is not an easy journey. It’s really about him and his life. But it’s well worth it to understand him and see where he came from. He puts so many Raw emotions in his songs. And it makes his audience feel everything. I’m really glad to see you do this and to see where he came from and see who he really is. Thank you for doing this
It had to be horrific to Upload this one. But dont worry teddy, you are human like all of us and feeling the emotion is completely normal and beautiful. You are so strong and honest to show this reaction. You really match with NF slogan “real music” you are real brother
Its crazy to think of how bad many of us had or have it, and how hard life is to ALOT of us all. And yet if you log onto social media you almost only see happy faces, we hide so many things as human beings! Thats what is so amazing with people like NF who can put hes feelings down on paper and make such an art as NF does, HE HEALS SO MANY JUST BY BEING HONEST
I’ve been praying for you for the day you listened to this. I knew it was going to hit you hard. Healing to you ❤️🙏🏼
Thanks for being brave enough to share this without cuts. This song gets me every time. I had wonderful parents but NF really pulls you in and reveals what is likely just a sliver of the pain he felt. I can’t imagine having to feel it all, especially as a young man. 😢
Also, I hope you were able to salvage the sweatshirt after this 😉
I don’t know exactly what you went through but you have a community standing behind you and love you for you are !❤❤❤❤❤
It's all good to feel brother, I lost my mom back in 1997 from a drug overdose. I was only 17 years old at the time and it took me sooo many years to come to grips with it. This song especially hits home. If I can encourage you in any way, you are not alone brother 💯💯💯🙏🙏
We got you. We support you. We’re here for you. Thank you for sharing this incredibly vulnerable moment with us.
I also want to point out since it was his song Hope that was the first song you heard.... in this song he says "I'm not gonna say i forgive you because it hasnt happened yet" but in Hope he says he wasn't taking shots at his mom and that he forgives her. So it was nice to see it come full circle from this song that his journey on Hope begins with forgiving his mom. It's a huge weight lifted if we can find that place of forgiveness.
Proud of u for being brave enough to show vulnerability. So many people will be impacted by ur reaction to this song, all because u were willing to show genuine emotion instead of being worried about what some may think....thank u.
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I discovered NF a couple years ago when I started my own personal healing journey from traumas I experienced growing up. It’s hard for me to listen to some of his songs since they take me back into emotions and memories that I don’t like going to. How ever, I have learned that sometimes it’s the very thing that I need to do to heal. Visit the memories and feel that pain. I tell myself that it’s okay to feel hurt by this. Burying it did nothing but hurt me more.
Hearing Hope brought me such joy. Nate has put in the fucking work to deal with himself and his struggles and it seems like that work has paid off for him. I know it has for me.
Much love to you Teddy❤ I hadn’t heard of you until I was searching for NF reactions and stumbled upon your video. It seems ridiculous I’m sure but you can tell that you have a good soul and pure energy. Best of luck and well wishes in your own journey of healing and growth!
That was my reaction to the the first time I seen it. I’m a single dad to a boy and a girl at the time of first hearing, she was on the streets shooting up. I felt for my kids and balled my eyes out. She passed by OD almost two years ago it’s been a rough road. If it wasn’t for Jesus.
You're a great man!! Meek never does mean weak! Big up from the Netherlands!!😘😘😘
Exactly that, allowing your emotions to show through in trying times is expected, plus, weakness isn't a bad thing anyway!
Bro, sorry you had to go through this one… I only listen to this song to support new reactors because even with the stops it tears me apart too.!.
You’re so real for putting you’re honest feelings out there man! This is by far the hardest song for me to hear but it makes his line in HOPE so much more powerful “Mama I forgive you”
Stay strong man. I had to take my daughter from her mom bc of pills and listening to this song makes me stronger for her so she doesn’t know. Head up
Never let your dark thoughts tske over, Youre never as alone as you feel, Your family loves you, we love you, i love you. Punch and scream as hard as you can, id rather you taste your blood than to see your blood. i love you...
Much love, brother. I avoided this song for 7 months now since my mom passed. If you are doing this, I am going with you. I am a sobbing mess, but this is cleansing. Thank you for showing people to be strong and staying real. Be proud. This is what a man looks like.
i don't know your situation to the fullest but my dad left me alone when i was a baby. some would say if he wasn't there how can you miss him. in my day at school we had father son days also in boy scouts. its amazing how hurtful children are toward each other at such a young age my mom was amazing always fulfilling the role. the day after my 21st bday i got a call from my father. long story short i wish i would've never met him. sometimes what you think you want might be more painful then the alternatives. hopefully though it was only in my case. cheers brother
stay strong.
You're the definition of "a real one"
I had said I’d never listen to this song again. I can’t even relate with it but it broke me knowing there’s people who suffer like that. It was eye opening and utterly devastating. I had a feeling you were going to resonate with this and just watched it to go through the pain with you and cry with you. I know it’s strange because you recorded this prior to us watching it but wanted to support regardless. 💔 Will continue to lift you up in prayer.
This is a harder part of his journey trying to deal with his past. Never easy but this his therapy like he said. He speaks on and says things that we or other people have felt and had no words. He lives to use his! NF is as Real as it gets.
I lost my mom a few years ago. Never been able to get through this song til now.
thank you for sharing from your heart - There are no truer words than knowing the trauma you endure as a child, you carry throughout your lifetime. It helps to know I am not alone... thank you ♥♥♥
Thank you for having the strength and courage to listen to this song and give us a good honest reaction. We’re here for you buddy! Thank you for your honest and heart felt reactions. I love your vids!!
Thank you for showing your true emotions to a very genuine song. You are not alone in your reaction. We are all capable of true empathy in this world. You’re doing great things, one video at a time. I am a combat veteran suffering from PTSD and use these reaction as a form of therapy. You make a difference. Continued success and I’ll be a proud supporter of your channel.
Thank you for taking the time to prepare yourself, this is a very hard song to listen to and a hard video to watch for a lot of people. Don't feel bad for your emotional reaction, please. NF has performed this song live a few times and he has a hard time getting through it each time. He had a really hard time recording it too, he supposedly had to have everyone leave the recording studio for the last part where he is kinda just talking to the mic.
Thank you for sharing yourself with us. I get emotional every time I hear it. I've been waiting for your video.
And now you start to understand just how AMAZING Hope is...
Every time it gets me ....if this don't make you feel something than you dont have a heart
Brother I appreciate your authentic, real emotions that you are unafraid to show! So many of us men feel the same but have always been told "men don't cry", Total BS!! I empathize with people who are hurting because I've suffered a lot of pain in my life including just losing my daughter to the fentanyl epidemic. I weep openly and in private. My heart breaks for others so it's most definitely ok to show your emotions! Don't bottle them up or they will consume you!!!
Bro… MANY of us felt this way the first time we heard/watched it. I KNEW it was going to hit you hard since you’re such a caring and emotional guy. (“There’s Millions us Just Like You”)
Thank you… THANK YOU… for such a genuine/humble reaction. We’re still with you for this journey!
Thank you for sharing. 🤗
I don't know how they(NF and now, you to Teddy putting out your diary to the world) do it, I literally wrote a personal comment, changed it multiple times till I thought it was ok and commented. Just to find myself panicking and deleting it 5min later and writing this in stead. I'm sorry this part of the journey took you to places you didn't want to be; I also wasn't looking forward to this one and put it of till now. Thank you for the hug, I really needed it 🫂
I love this guy man you have gained a new fan and subscriber you are real and that all anyone can ask for can’t wait for more NF
Thank you for this reaction, very real and I appreciate your realness.
Hugs and love from Texas. Thank you for being a Real man!! To all my fellow Outcasts here - I love y’all. Such support and love being shared here.
Heard this song several times and it gets too me every time
I've said this many times to multiple people, if you DON'T cry to this song, you're a psychopath.
Love your reactions! 💪🏼 💪🏼