I never gotten an official diagnosis because South Florida in the 1980s and 90s were still backwards when it came to any diagnosis so they just assume Intellectual Disabilities... of course, back then they used the term mental Retardation. 😞🤷 So many mislabels meant I never got the proper treatments. Thank God my mom was hardcore and did what she could do. Individuals with the labels I had been given never get out of the oppressive system. My mom was a big anti-institution advocate as well. So many were trying to convince her to disable me to receive benefits and place me in institutions to get even more money out of my disability. My mom was like F^
Even if you have insurance, you can’t get an appt. Because of all the rich people who work from home, they therapists are now all taken up by them so they can also work from home, leaving us people who have to go to work without any help.
When you love sleepovers...but it's because you make a schedule, tell everyone where to find the bathroom, and never invite more than 3-5 people total. Also regular sleeping arrangements.
i once had a sleepover at my house for my birthday party and had a short meltdown because my friends were talking while the movie was playing, my m&ms fell over so that they were all over my bed and no one was listening to me. I really felt so bad for shouting at them but I was so stressed. Since then I never had more than one person at a sleepover😬
I love sleepovers but I usually end up either crying at night, only being able to fall asleep after everyone else or when I pet the host’s pet, or walking around until my legs get tired or the parents ask me what I’m doing up so late. Almost all of the people have the nastiest carpet texture and I’m supposed to sleep with nothing between me and the floor? Nah.
How autism affects me: I want to watch tiktok compilations but I can't speed-read a bunch of text, and listen to song lyrics, and pay attention to what's going on in the video at the same time. 😭
Oh my gosh- if you can, find and read my comment I just made about this, I think we’re experiencing the same thing! But to sum it up in case it got buried, I was talking about how I think I got overstimulated by the speed of the video. I love waiting, have tons of patience, and procrastinate chronically and severely (I mean seriously, it’s 5 am for me rn. I have not slept). Try slowing it down to 0.5 speed! I did that and instantly calmed down, plus the speed felt normal to me. Maybe we just run slower than the world?
Wait a minute- you’re telling me headaches is part of it too?! Is that why I get so many headaches all the time?! It usually happens after interacting with people or being around loud noises (like when I vacuumed today, my head hurt so bad I had to lay down)
Whaaaa i get headaches twice a month and my mom thinks its either A) Electronics B) Side effects C) An addiction to medicine D) Time of month getting closer Or E) all of the above But I'm constantly overwhelmed living here too much noise going on, i get yelled at for stimming with my hair when anxious, have to do certain phone calls or get called a baby in the most condescending way possible, and forced to go to places i don't want to go...
Mannnn the end one about smiling before masking made me unexpectedly tear up. As I got older and all of the kids around me were getting braces to straighten their teeth, and my family couldn't afford them for me, I stopped showing teeth in pictures altogether. Also both my psychiatrist and therapist agree that I'm autistic, but unfortunately they can't diagnose me. I have to get a diagnosis from a PCP, and mine doesn't listen to me so I'm basically shit out of luck 🙃 There are so many symptoms on here that I have and that people around me just think are my "little quirks" - like, naw my dude.
Oh yeah. Still remember the way I would teach myself how to manipulate people around me into not harming/taking things I care about, because for some reason, some people think you being protective over something is an invitation to harm/take that thing. I mean seriously, I have had friends/family take my phone, comfort clothes, and headphones before. What is up with that??
My mom refused to get me tested for autism and put me in food therapy for one year when I was 5. The food therapist just said I was being a stubborn brat. My therapist and I agree that i'm definitely autistic but she still is stubborn
wait yeah now i remember me and my already-diagnosed sibling being terrified of the thx intro and also we used to have a little airplane keychain thingy that when you pressed a certain button it would make an airplane taking off noise but like,,, super crunchy and high-pitched and Bad bc it was from like the 90's/2000's and i used to cry every time someone set that thing off, thank you for bringing back those memories bc now i remember that fucking plane used to give me the same sensation that touching unglazed porcelain gives me which i know is Bad Sensory Times
If you live in the U.S. there is a government program that is funded by the department of education called Vocational Rehabilitation. They work with disabled people to find work. They can also help you access an evaluation to get a diagnosis, access therapy, and get the accomedations you need in life. I know so many other autistic people are struggling so I want to share how I recieved my diagnosis and maybe other people can try the same route.
watching this while crying in my shower because nothing went to plan and i was gonna get a banana milkshake to make me feel better but they didnt have them.
To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve. To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time. To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done! To everyone who is having a bad day, Always remember that you were born in this world to do your duty of what they gave you to make them proud! You got this babes,your a fucking whole icon and legend !
I thought I didn't do music stimming, but I just realized, I tap my fingers on the table or any surface like I'm playing a rhythm game.... my mind has imploded
5:34 OH MY GOD YES. my parents don't acknowledge im autistic but THEY ALWAYS SAY "you know what i mean", "you know what im talking about", "you know what tone" NO I DO NOT I DONT FUCKING KNOW WHAT YOURE TALKING ABOUT PLEASE STOP AND EXPLAIN IM GONNA CRY
Wait dyspraxia is a thing w autistic people? Explains a lot 😭😭 I had an occupational therapist as a kid but my parents didn’t want to ‘stunt’ me with a diagnosis, I literally can’t get help now because of my lack of confidence and without people disbelieving me, thanks guys. 4:50 NO EXACTLY
I love sleepovers! They literally always were between me and 1 friend/classmate though. I don't know if everyone at school did that too, or if it was just me always having sleepovers with just one person. I didn't have many as a kid (and honestly don't remember any of them really), but as an adult I have a lot of sleepovers with my best friend, who I now always spend my New Years with (and her family as well).
I actually love coffee shops simply because I can feel like I’m out socializing but I don’t actually have to talk to anyone. It’s kind of the perfect place to be alone in a crowd. Especially if you bring a book or sketchbook.
i like hearing about all these 'not diagnosed until later in life' stories but it would also be cool to see more tiktoks with people talking about their experiences growing up diagnosed from a young age.
1:50 whaaaat? I do that! the instruments flow freely from theremin to piano, chords, drums, the autotune knob, lyrics, etc.. and the combination of them too, bc 2 hands(it's as frustrating as it's challenging, like learning to play guitar while singing at the same time) it's what I imagine knowing how to dance must feel like, if applied to your whole body if you close your eyes you can feel all the colors and dimensions of the different sound layers and it's hypnotic. btw it ups dopamine, serotonin, endocannabinoids and possibly melatonin(5-MeO-dimethyltryptamine-Acetyl...-tonin(?) ) levels. definitely boosts up your mood by a LOT.
5:29 SO TRUE I HATE THE SUN SO MUCH- its too bright and too hot and it makes my skin feel like its melting and my eyes hurt,, this is why im basically nocturnal now LOL
7:57 This got me into so much trouble when I was younger. To that one teacher: I didn’t throw the pencil! I didn’t touch the pencil! The pencils in your class felt gross so why would I?! Yes it’s been eleven years, no I don’t care! I will always remember youuuuu!! (For context I had a teacher who would constantly blame me, a very young, autistic child, for EVERY issue in her classroom. The one I remember best is being sent to detention for throwing a pencil I literally never touched.) Anyway, sorry for that, I enjoy these videos :)
5:29 I like the sun- but it’s always in the wrong place at the wrong time Sitting in the car? Sun’s in your eyes. Trying to take a nap? The sun is only peaking through the blinds at the angle your eyes are at. Sometimes overwhelmingly bright
Wait…. Does Autism cause migraines Do the random ducking migraines I get that won’t go away if there’s any amount of sensory stimuli, due to my Autism!?!? How did no one tell me!? I mean it makes sense but cmon, I’m just now realizing I never get migraines unless I’m overstimulated
9:05 makes sense. It's a form of self torment, nit allowing yourself to be said person, cutting yourself off of being you, forcing yourself to subdue to the mentally unsafe environment. That's s3lf-haRm
Yk I’ve started to notice that people with autism are completely either overlooked or treated differently, yet people with anxiety or other mental “illnesses” have a lot of the same problems and are treated normally. Autism doesn’t change anything in humanity, the same as anxiety or other things. I’m not saying they’re the same or overlooking other things, but people treat them so differently- it’s not okay.
7:26 This is incredibly frustrating. My older sister bullied me for obviously autistic traits for my entire life. Then, one day, she shows up to a family event saying "guys we're literally all autistic. It's genetic." Then I started talking about my experience figuring out I'm autistic and saying all the things that I realized were just me being autistic. Then, she says, "you're probably the only one of us who isn't autistic" when I had it the worst out of all of us. I had all kinds of sensory issues, I got made fun of for my special interest, etc. Funny thing is, the siblings she was talking about later got tested, and none of them ended up being autistic. I got tested, and I got diagnosed. She still doesn't believe me.
4:02 whenever I have a sleepover it’s normally with my cousins or my one friend, I only have 2 cousins so it dosent really bother me. If you’re autistic and you want a sleepover but don’t want it to be crowded have 1-2 people over!
5:02 I can't count the number of times I've been told that I wasn't "that" autistic. It's so frustrating. It makes me want to act "more autistic" so I'll be seen as valid but then I know I'll be told I'm acting weird and childish. There's no winning that one.
i never realised the tracing thing was unusual lol when i'm standing still, other than tracing a word/phrase i have stuck in my head i like to trace a keyhole figure over and over again in a very specific way, it's comforting
4:10 I used to hate sleepovers then I met my best friend and she is also autistic so she understands and we plan EVERYTHING in advance so not one is stressed out😊
1:57 NO CAUSE IM IN ORCHESTRA AND I SAW MY TEACHER CONDUCTING AND NOW ANYTIME I HEAR SONGS I LOVE I ACT AS IM PLAYING THE DRUMS, PIANO, AND CONDUCTING AT THE SAME TIME! I feel extremely called out
5:34 yes! I have tried to explain to my mom so many times that i have very little control over my tone especially when i am irritated. She still gets so mad when we are arguing (I always think that it is pretty civil and polite even though i am angry) and then she says “dont talk to me in that tone” and i am always like, “ what tone?! I thought we were being civil!” And apparently i have been talking in a bad “tone” the whole convo and that is the main reason why she gets so mad at me.
idk if its the autism or the adhd but my favorite thing is having to pause videos to re-read text so i can make sure that the chunk of literature my brain just scanned actually is trying to convey something to me
I made a huge snowball at recess once in 7th grade. Then the 9th graders came an kicked it to bits. I ran crying to the teachers like my best friend was being beaten up. But I got told it's my fault for doing dumb childish stuff in the first place. So I just had to stand there and watch. Bawling as everyone either cringed or laughed at me.
Oh I do the ochestra hands thing at 1:50 *all* the time. I never called it anything other than stimming but the image of a conductor was well formed in my mind.
I always wanted to go to sleepovers and always do but then have a meltdown at 3am when everyone’s asleep or like one occasion have a panic attack because her clock was wrong and I didn’t have a phone at the time, so they had to call my mum to pick me up.
Also currently sorting out getting diagnosed and my mums taking the £2100 out of my savings, as well as the possible £1000 if we go though with the possible ADHD diagnosis
7:27 one time my brother walked into a room that I was in while I was having a meltdown and I started crying and screaming at him to go away, he thought that it was so funny and decided to stay in the room while I had a full meltdown and laugh at me while I yelled at him to go. My mom got home, he told her, and I got grounded.
Super late to the vid, but the smile in the end really hurts deep down XD. I used to get in trouble for "smiling wrong" for cameras. It led to me not smiling much for years. even a bit today.
my parents will say stuff like "you're not autistic, because all the autistic people i know were *insert autism stereotypes here*!!" its so annoying- my parents act like theyre more knowledgeable than doctors, psychologists, psychiatrists, therapists, ect ect even though they refuse to do research
Yes! That’s my exact problem. Like my parents are so clearly autistic my friends can see it. And then my mom says something along the lines of “you’re just weird” or “oh yeah my brother does that, it’s normal” whenever I bring up sensory issues, weird obsessions, etc. The worst is when she hits me with her and my dads friends, like hmm maybe your friends have those issues too because they are autistic too. I mean both of my parents felt completely out of place until they went to science fiction conventions and the SCA (think renaissance festival but no fairytale things) I am talking about classic 80’s and 90’s sci fi con. You think that’s a coincidence? No, they literally could not watch the Big Bang theory because it reminded them too much of some people they are friends with. I love my mom with all my heart but sincerely I don’t think she understands how much it hurts when she says things like that, claims im putting myself in a box and that I don’t have it. All because she has seen the most extreme cases. I find it entirely insane considering how supportive she was with my anxiety, despression, adhd, cyclic vomiting syndrome diagnosis’ and even coming out as bisexual after I was engaged to my now husband. It just doesn’t make sense to me.
@@Gillibean726 YES OMG !! my mom is so obviously autistic and my dad so obviously has adhd and when i tell them a symptom without mentioning its a symptom theyre like "o yeah i do that all the time" but as soon as i tell them its an autism / ADHD symptom they get all mad and defensive
@@Gillibean726 YES OMG !! my mom is so obviously autistic and my dad so obviously has adhd and when i tell them a symptom without mentioning its a symptom theyre like "o yeah i do that all the time" but as soon as i tell them its an autism / ADHD symptom they get all mad and defensive
@@Gillibean726 YES OMG !! my mom is so obviously autistic and my dad so obviously has adhd and when i tell them a symptom without mentioning its a symptom theyre like "o yeah i do that all the time" but as soon as i tell them its an autism / ADHD symptom they get all mad and defensive
3:52 I only have a sleepover with one friend and don’t like having sleepovers with anyone else but I still think those friends are cool I’ve just gotten more used to the first friend mentioned’s house
in school we got to create our own quizzes for general knowledge and one group picked a question that described the flag of Micronesia and then said what is this flag called. Little did they know that my autistic a$$ memorised every single flag of every single country
Am I the only one reading as fast as someone talks... cuz I hear my own voice in my head reading the text instead of zooming through the text and "knowing" what it says? I always need to pause the damn video because of it 😅
this is so random, also this is coming from me, ive suspected that im autistic for quite a while and ive done lots if research, but i have this memory where i had this stuffed toy (i think i was like 4 or 5 years old?) and my brother took it from me and after my parents told him to drop it, i was just standing a few metres from it, crying for like half an hour and just screaming because i was mad at him, i knew he dropped it but i was just so upset lmfao
6:08 I've done months of research and I have a whole list of symptoms. I can't tell my parents because my they're just going to tell me I'm overreacting because they don't listen to a thing I say. Is this ok to self diagnose myself? I don't want to feel like I'm faking it but on the other hand I'm unable to get diagnosed
Bro my mom thinks I don’t have it because I don’t relate to *one* thing. I don’t like repeating things everyday, I get bored and act childish over it. I just can’t stand it, I don’t know why.
the t rex arms is so relatable but im not on the spectrum. if your wondering why im here then its because im trying to find out how to help my friend if they have a meltdown or need help explaining stuff. got any tips?
2:14 1. I’m ok with this(I ain’t that bad) 2.I don’t actually I’d that 3.wouldn’t call them intense 4.only sometimes 5. I don’t even know what that means 6. Same with that too 7. I don’t have meltdowns externaly 8. I almost never have a headache 9. Probably not gonna lie 😂 10.I KNOW when I am, people get the same respect they give me 11. Probably idk 12. Bruh I’m so good at small tasks 13. I know are early deaths are high 14. I got so much abilities NOT 15. My emotions are normal 16. Rules, please 17. I don’t know 18. I have really good friendships and relationships too 19. I am as verve as anyone else
Ok now I know what a meltdown actually is I have small ones when stupid people just DON’T understand stuff like they don’t want to know the information, I have a good way of explaining things because,well, I need to make myself an explanation first, and i was able to teach my 60yr Nan how to properly and fluently use an iPad AND a iPhone, which btw she went from an actual Nokia. So for my to explain something every different way possible AND THEY STILL DON’T GET IT😤 I ask them to ask someone else, but apparently that’s the wrong thing to say because there always like “CaLM DoWn” it’s like I’ve dealt with you I think I have the capacity to NOT shout at you Omg, is this what people are talking about
The self diagnosis part is so real… I don’t wanna be WRONG so I wanna CHECK but healthcare is EXPENSIVE ahh
I never gotten an official diagnosis because South Florida in the 1980s and 90s were still backwards when it came to any diagnosis so they just assume Intellectual Disabilities... of course, back then they used the term mental Retardation. 😞🤷 So many mislabels meant I never got the proper treatments. Thank God my mom was hardcore and did what she could do. Individuals with the labels I had been given never get out of the oppressive system. My mom was a big anti-institution advocate as well. So many were trying to convince her to disable me to receive benefits and place me in institutions to get even more money out of my disability. My mom was like F^
Even if you have insurance, you can’t get an appt. Because of all the rich people who work from home, they therapists are now all taken up by them so they can also work from home, leaving us people who have to go to work without any help.
When you love sleepovers...but it's because you make a schedule, tell everyone where to find the bathroom, and never invite more than 3-5 people total.
Also regular sleeping arrangements.
THIS! Or having sleepovers at places you're at a lot so you already know the routine and layout.
i once had a sleepover at my house for my birthday party and had a short meltdown because my friends were talking while the movie was playing, my m&ms fell over so that they were all over my bed and no one was listening to me. I really felt so bad for shouting at them but I was so stressed.
Since then I never had more than one person at a sleepover😬
I only have a sleepover with one person, and I know their house and parents well. 👌
I love sleepovers but I usually end up either crying at night, only being able to fall asleep after everyone else or when I pet the host’s pet, or walking around until my legs get tired or the parents ask me what I’m doing up so late. Almost all of the people have the nastiest carpet texture and I’m supposed to sleep with nothing between me and the floor? Nah.
two people over max at my house and i only go over to one friends house :/
The pronouns you out at every section is such a sweet and thoughtful detail
thank you
I agree, it made me smile.
Besides, it's all so nicely put too.
i saw that as well, it’s literally the best thing ever.
@@randomxstuff THANK *YOU*
SKSHSHSHSH THAT SMILE AT THE END MADE ME SMILE THE SAME WAY I NEEDED THAT
Yesss i have never learned how to smile "like a normal person"
How autism affects me: I want to watch tiktok compilations but I can't speed-read a bunch of text, and listen to song lyrics, and pay attention to what's going on in the video at the same time. 😭
same, thats why i always have to pause the video
Oh my gosh- if you can, find and read my comment I just made about this, I think we’re experiencing the same thing! But to sum it up in case it got buried, I was talking about how I think I got overstimulated by the speed of the video. I love waiting, have tons of patience, and procrastinate chronically and severely (I mean seriously, it’s 5 am for me rn. I have not slept). Try slowing it down to 0.5 speed! I did that and instantly calmed down, plus the speed felt normal to me. Maybe we just run slower than the world?
@@SparkyStarLPS see above comment ^
@@DreamtaleEnjoyer yeah i slow the video down sometimes
pause it mate, thats what i always do. swear to god cant go through one goddamn video without pausing it
Wait a minute- you’re telling me headaches is part of it too?! Is that why I get so many headaches all the time?! It usually happens after interacting with people or being around loud noises (like when I vacuumed today, my head hurt so bad I had to lay down)
I have ADHD and I can relate to this. I always get tired before my friends because of the overstimulation.
Right??
I was wondering why I get migranes and headaches so often.
IS THIS WHY MY CONSTANT STATE OF BEING IS A LOW DULL HEADACHE???
Whaaaa i get headaches twice a month and my mom thinks its either
A) Electronics
B) Side effects
C) An addiction to medicine
D) Time of month getting closer
Or
E) all of the above
But I'm constantly overwhelmed living here too much noise going on, i get yelled at for stimming with my hair when anxious, have to do certain phone calls or get called a baby in the most condescending way possible, and forced to go to places i don't want to go...
i wish i knew that earlier so i stopped getting anxious that i didn't have enough coffee when i woke up and it wasn't lack of caffeine-
Mannnn the end one about smiling before masking made me unexpectedly tear up. As I got older and all of the kids around me were getting braces to straighten their teeth, and my family couldn't afford them for me, I stopped showing teeth in pictures altogether. Also both my psychiatrist and therapist agree that I'm autistic, but unfortunately they can't diagnose me. I have to get a diagnosis from a PCP, and mine doesn't listen to me so I'm basically shit out of luck 🙃 There are so many symptoms on here that I have and that people around me just think are my "little quirks" - like, naw my dude.
The snowball at 7:31 had me tearing up and I was getting so sad that they would destroy a snowball. I don't even know why it made me so sad.
Because it’s your snowball you made specially! It’s important to you and it’s mean of whomever destroyed it!
Oh yeah. Still remember the way I would teach myself how to manipulate people around me into not harming/taking things I care about, because for some reason, some people think you being protective over something is an invitation to harm/take that thing. I mean seriously, I have had friends/family take my phone, comfort clothes, and headphones before. What is up with that??
No ones going to see this so........ OOGA BOOGA
Also first😃
I saw it!
@@catturnip5411 Congrats on being first
You are seen.
BOOGA BOGA :D
My mom refused to get me tested for autism and put me in food therapy for one year when I was 5. The food therapist just said I was being a stubborn brat. My therapist and I agree that i'm definitely autistic but she still is stubborn
AUGH omg I’m so sorry. Stay strong hun, and if you need, be like me as a kid and completely refuse to eat unsafe foods
7:48 my family: "I remember you used to cover your ears and scream and cry whenever the THX logo came on the tv lol"
The THX logo sound would always make me go into a panic attack. My ears would ring and head would hurt after.
wait yeah now i remember me and my already-diagnosed sibling being terrified of the thx intro and also we used to have a little airplane keychain thingy that when you pressed a certain button it would make an airplane taking off noise but like,,, super crunchy and high-pitched and Bad bc it was from like the 90's/2000's and i used to cry every time someone set that thing off, thank you for bringing back those memories bc now i remember that fucking plane used to give me the same sensation that touching unglazed porcelain gives me which i know is Bad Sensory Times
I ran out of the room when that would come on, i’d grab all my stuffed animals and *book it*
That logo😱
I’m pretty sure I’m not autistic but I relate to 1:11 so much, I think it’s because I have social anxiety
Same!
I relate to many autism things too because of my social anxiety!
i resonated so much with so many of these... i'm currently in the process of trying to figure out if i'm autistic or not
If you live in the U.S. there is a government program that is funded by the department of education called Vocational Rehabilitation. They work with disabled people to find work. They can also help you access an evaluation to get a diagnosis, access therapy, and get the accomedations you need in life. I know so many other autistic people are struggling so I want to share how I recieved my diagnosis and maybe other people can try the same route.
Looking back, every single sleepover experience I've ever had has been horrible.
watching this while crying in my shower because nothing went to plan and i was gonna get a banana milkshake to make me feel better but they didnt have them.
To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus
To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve.
To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time.
To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done!
To everyone who is having a bad day, Always remember that you were born in this world to do your duty of what they gave you to make them proud! You got this babes,your a fucking whole icon and legend !
I thought I didn't do music stimming, but I just realized, I tap my fingers on the table or any surface like I'm playing a rhythm game.... my mind has imploded
Even if it's over 15 years late, I'm happy knowing more about myself and what autism is in me
10:00 lmao the sleepovers thing is SO ACCURATE, they’re fun and all but by the second day I am READY to leave
5:34 OH MY GOD YES. my parents don't acknowledge im autistic but THEY ALWAYS SAY "you know what i mean", "you know what im talking about", "you know what tone" NO I DO NOT I DONT FUCKING KNOW WHAT YOURE TALKING ABOUT PLEASE STOP AND EXPLAIN IM GONNA CRY
Wait dyspraxia is a thing w autistic people? Explains a lot 😭😭 I had an occupational therapist as a kid but my parents didn’t want to ‘stunt’ me with a diagnosis, I literally can’t get help now because of my lack of confidence and without people disbelieving me, thanks guys.
4:50 NO EXACTLY
Dyspraxia is more common in autistic people. I hope that you can get the support you need in the future.
@@randomxstuff Ty :))
I love sleepovers! They literally always were between me and 1 friend/classmate though. I don't know if everyone at school did that too, or if it was just me always having sleepovers with just one person. I didn't have many as a kid (and honestly don't remember any of them really), but as an adult I have a lot of sleepovers with my best friend, who I now always spend my New Years with (and her family as well).
that sucks that they have to mask their smile, it is so adorable /gen /pos 10:08
sleepovers can be good, if it's just w one friend and all of the stuff has been decided beforehand. a crowded sleepover does seem like a nightmare!
1:50 OMG I DO ORCHESTRA HANDS ALL THE TIME!!! I HAVE A NAME FOR THEM NOW WOO!!!
I actually love coffee shops simply because I can feel like I’m out socializing but I don’t actually have to talk to anyone. It’s kind of the perfect place to be alone in a crowd. Especially if you bring a book or sketchbook.
i like hearing about all these 'not diagnosed until later in life' stories but it would also be cool to see more tiktoks with people talking about their experiences growing up diagnosed from a young age.
1:50 whaaaat? I do that!
the instruments flow freely from theremin to piano, chords, drums, the autotune knob, lyrics, etc.. and the combination of them too, bc 2 hands(it's as frustrating as it's challenging, like learning to play guitar while singing at the same time)
it's what I imagine knowing how to dance must feel like, if applied to your whole body
if you close your eyes you can feel all the colors and dimensions of the different sound layers and it's hypnotic.
btw it ups dopamine, serotonin, endocannabinoids and possibly melatonin(5-MeO-dimethyltryptamine-Acetyl...-tonin(?) ) levels.
definitely boosts up your mood by a LOT.
I do it too!
5:29 SO TRUE I HATE THE SUN SO MUCH- its too bright and too hot and it makes my skin feel like its melting and my eyes hurt,, this is why im basically nocturnal now LOL
Summer is peak sensory issue time for me. Feeling sweaty and sticky is horrible.
Where have these been all my life!!!!!
SAMEE, I only figured out something mentally was wrong with me last year because of an interview, where youtuber told about their ADHD 😀
Am I the only one where, when I listen to music, I try to listen to every individual instrument and try to figure out what it is?
Those last minute changes i feel on an emotional level 😭💀
7:57 This got me into so much trouble when I was younger.
To that one teacher: I didn’t throw the pencil! I didn’t touch the pencil! The pencils in your class felt gross so why would I?! Yes it’s been eleven years, no I don’t care! I will always remember youuuuu!! (For context I had a teacher who would constantly blame me, a very young, autistic child, for EVERY issue in her classroom. The one I remember best is being sent to detention for throwing a pencil I literally never touched.)
Anyway, sorry for that, I enjoy these videos :)
5:29
I like the sun- but it’s always in the wrong place at the wrong time
Sitting in the car? Sun’s in your eyes.
Trying to take a nap? The sun is only peaking through the blinds at the angle your eyes are at.
Sometimes overwhelmingly bright
I relate way too much to some of these videos
0:51 THAT IS A GREAT JOKE AND IDC THAT I CANT MAKE JOKES I LOVE IT
Holy crap i do the orchestra hands too! I didnt know other people do that
That's cool! I'm glad you feel represented.
When I listen to songs I like swaying my head back and forth and mouthing the lyrics
I do, too! :D the more I get into a song, the more my hands move.
Wait…. Does Autism cause migraines
Do the random ducking migraines I get that won’t go away if there’s any amount of sensory stimuli, due to my Autism!?!?
How did no one tell me!?
I mean it makes sense but cmon, I’m just now realizing I never get migraines unless I’m overstimulated
9:05 makes sense. It's a form of self torment, nit allowing yourself to be said person, cutting yourself off of being you, forcing yourself to subdue to the mentally unsafe environment. That's s3lf-haRm
the last one. They're smile is so cute
Yk I’ve started to notice that people with autism are completely either overlooked or treated differently, yet people with anxiety or other mental “illnesses” have a lot of the same problems and are treated normally. Autism doesn’t change anything in humanity, the same as anxiety or other things. I’m not saying they’re the same or overlooking other things, but people treat them so differently- it’s not okay.
The joke with the crow totally got me xD I love it
7:26
This is incredibly frustrating. My older sister bullied me for obviously autistic traits for my entire life. Then, one day, she shows up to a family event saying "guys we're literally all autistic. It's genetic." Then I started talking about my experience figuring out I'm autistic and saying all the things that I realized were just me being autistic. Then, she says, "you're probably the only one of us who isn't autistic" when I had it the worst out of all of us. I had all kinds of sensory issues, I got made fun of for my special interest, etc. Funny thing is, the siblings she was talking about later got tested, and none of them ended up being autistic. I got tested, and I got diagnosed. She still doesn't believe me.
Oh my goodness- the orchestra hands!!! I do that:DDD even if I have a hard time finding the beat, I do at some point, and it feels so nice:3
8:50
I not only do this with people but i do it when drawing like i'll be drawing a face and unintentionally make that face
Ohhhh thanks for whoever added subtitles! ☺
4:02 whenever I have a sleepover it’s normally with my cousins or my one friend, I only have 2 cousins so it dosent really bother me. If you’re autistic and you want a sleepover but don’t want it to be crowded have 1-2 people over!
I’m hyper fixated on ocean creatures I got a dolphin tracker for Christmas thinking cool but my mom just told me that the dolphin is my pet
5:02 I can't count the number of times I've been told that I wasn't "that" autistic. It's so frustrating. It makes me want to act "more autistic" so I'll be seen as valid but then I know I'll be told I'm acting weird and childish. There's no winning that one.
7:50 I cried because I held a textured cup for 1 minute
1:51 Me too! Oh it’s so nice to see my favourite form of stimming in media!
i never realised the tracing thing was unusual lol when i'm standing still, other than tracing a word/phrase i have stuck in my head i like to trace a keyhole figure over and over again in a very specific way, it's comforting
Mom recently told me that they almost got me diagnosed several times over the years and now I’m trying to figure out if a diagnosis is worth it or not
4:10 I used to hate sleepovers then I met my best friend and she is also autistic so she understands and we plan EVERYTHING in advance so not one is stressed out😊
1:57 NO CAUSE IM IN ORCHESTRA AND I SAW MY TEACHER CONDUCTING AND NOW ANYTIME I HEAR SONGS I LOVE I ACT AS IM PLAYING THE DRUMS, PIANO, AND CONDUCTING AT THE SAME TIME! I feel extremely called out
1:55 OMG SAME i used to do that till i repressed it, and you know what screw it ima start doing that again
Also that song, yes yes
any chance youd know the song? :D its soo pretty
5:34 yes! I have tried to explain to my mom so many times that i have very little control over my tone especially when i am irritated. She still gets so mad when we are arguing (I always think that it is pretty civil and polite even though i am angry) and then she says “dont talk to me in that tone” and i am always like, “ what tone?! I thought we were being civil!” And apparently i have been talking in a bad “tone” the whole convo and that is the main reason why she gets so mad at me.
Don’t*
Hol up
Im happy I'm not the only one who gets a panic attack from just texting my BFF
Me to
THE LAST SMILE WAS SO CUTE
idk if its the autism or the adhd but my favorite thing is having to pause videos to re-read text so i can make sure that the chunk of literature my brain just scanned actually is trying to convey something to me
I made a huge snowball at recess once in 7th grade. Then the 9th graders came an kicked it to bits. I ran crying to the teachers like my best friend was being beaten up. But I got told it's my fault for doing dumb childish stuff in the first place. So I just had to stand there and watch. Bawling as everyone either cringed or laughed at me.
As if I wasn't already at least 85% certain I'm autistic, I relate to probably 92% of this video... yay...
Thanks for this video.
Relatable 😊
Kind regards from Iceland
Oh I do the ochestra hands thing at 1:50 *all* the time. I never called it anything other than stimming but the image of a conductor was well formed in my mind.
Someone please tell me what the sound at 3:07 was I’ve heard it before and I would really like to know where it’s from. Yes it’s the organ-like sound.
It's from Phantom of The Opera !! It's the main theme I think- you can just search the name of the musical into youtube and find the song, I'm sure!
@@lucilegion thank you!
@@lucilegion Thank you!
Phantom of the opera
I always wanted to go to sleepovers and always do but then have a meltdown at 3am when everyone’s asleep or like one occasion have a panic attack because her clock was wrong and I didn’t have a phone at the time, so they had to call my mum to pick me up.
Also currently sorting out getting diagnosed and my mums taking the £2100 out of my savings, as well as the possible £1000 if we go though with the possible ADHD diagnosis
There was a casa madrigal song talking about autism and they DIDN’T mention BRUNO?
…well we don’t talk about Bruno. 😂
I have autism too, Thank you so much for the TikTok compilation 🙏
7:27 one time my brother walked into a room that I was in while I was having a meltdown and I started crying and screaming at him to go away, he thought that it was so funny and decided to stay in the room while I had a full meltdown and laugh at me while I yelled at him to go. My mom got home, he told her, and I got grounded.
Super late to the vid, but the smile in the end really hurts deep down XD. I used to get in trouble for "smiling wrong" for cameras. It led to me not smiling much for years. even a bit today.
I haven't been diagnosed by a professional yet but after looking up symptoms I kinda wonder if maybe I am autistic.
my parents will say stuff like "you're not autistic, because all the autistic people i know were *insert autism stereotypes here*!!" its so annoying- my parents act like theyre more knowledgeable than doctors, psychologists, psychiatrists, therapists, ect ect even though they refuse to do research
Yes! That’s my exact problem. Like my parents are so clearly autistic my friends can see it. And then my mom says something along the lines of “you’re just weird” or “oh yeah my brother does that, it’s normal” whenever I bring up sensory issues, weird obsessions, etc. The worst is when she hits me with her and my dads friends, like hmm maybe your friends have those issues too because they are autistic too. I mean both of my parents felt completely out of place until they went to science fiction conventions and the SCA (think renaissance festival but no fairytale things) I am talking about classic 80’s and 90’s sci fi con. You think that’s a coincidence? No, they literally could not watch the Big Bang theory because it reminded them too much of some people they are friends with. I love my mom with all my heart but sincerely I don’t think she understands how much it hurts when she says things like that, claims im putting myself in a box and that I don’t have it. All because she has seen the most extreme cases. I find it entirely insane considering how supportive she was with my anxiety, despression, adhd, cyclic vomiting syndrome diagnosis’ and even coming out as bisexual after I was engaged to my now husband. It just doesn’t make sense to me.
@@Gillibean726 YES OMG !! my mom is so obviously autistic and my dad so obviously has adhd and when i tell them a symptom without mentioning its a symptom theyre like "o yeah i do that all the time" but as soon as i tell them its an autism / ADHD symptom they get all mad and defensive
@@Gillibean726 YES OMG !! my mom is so obviously autistic and my dad so obviously has adhd and when i tell them a symptom without mentioning its a symptom theyre like "o yeah i do that all the time" but as soon as i tell them its an autism / ADHD symptom they get all mad and defensive
@@Gillibean726 YES OMG !! my mom is so obviously autistic and my dad so obviously has adhd and when i tell them a symptom without mentioning its a symptom theyre like "o yeah i do that all the time" but as soon as i tell them its an autism / ADHD symptom they get all mad and defensive
WHY DID THE VERY LAST VIDEO ABOUT THE SMILE SPEAK SO LOUD TO ME HELP 💀
3:52 I only have a sleepover with one friend and don’t like having sleepovers with anyone else but I still think those friends are cool I’ve just gotten more used to the first friend mentioned’s house
That third one really hit hard
9:11 I think they don't wanna see us happy
1:50 Oh my gosh I love that I’m going to have to try it
6:51 we share the same special interest !!!!!!!!!!!!!
5:00 ikr
sometimes i feel like im using it as an excuse bc of how much they treat me like im nt- nah its just them being idiots-
1:50 i like to do drum hands! It’s so fun abd helps me focus
in school we got to create our own quizzes for general knowledge and one group picked a question that described the flag of Micronesia and then said what is this flag called. Little did they know that my autistic a$$ memorised every single flag of every single country
1:19 huah! called out!
4.48 is now my favorite TikTok.
I hope the second to last kid and their family have more super duper days:)
Am I the only one reading as fast as someone talks... cuz I hear my own voice in my head reading the text instead of zooming through the text and "knowing" what it says? I always need to pause the damn video because of it 😅
07:01 THIS. I FUCKING HATE UNGLAZED TERRACOTTA/PORCELAIN/SLATE, I CAN LITERALLY TASTE THE TEXTURE AND THE TEXTURE TASTES *BAD*
DAME I HATE IT SO MUCH
7:01 same but the second I touch it it’s just
S P I N E
1:50 oh hey I do that some times. I call it choir conductor hands though
I'm AUTISTIC and I have long Hair currently on holiday WHEN EVER we beach and I get out of the water THE FEELING OF MY HAIR ON MY BODY GARHHHH
I never realized that some of these things are symptoms of autism
this is so random, also this is coming from me, ive suspected that im autistic for quite a while and ive done lots if research, but i have this memory where i had this stuffed toy (i think i was like 4 or 5 years old?) and my brother took it from me and after my parents told him to drop it, i was just standing a few metres from it, crying for like half an hour and just screaming because i was mad at him, i knew he dropped it but i was just so upset lmfao
I understand myself a little better now
6:08 I've done months of research and I have a whole list of symptoms. I can't tell my parents because my they're just going to tell me I'm overreacting because they don't listen to a thing I say. Is this ok to self diagnose myself? I don't want to feel like I'm faking it but on the other hand I'm unable to get diagnosed
Bro my mom thinks I don’t have it because I don’t relate to *one* thing. I don’t like repeating things everyday, I get bored and act childish over it. I just can’t stand it, I don’t know why.
I DO ORCHESTRA HANDS TOOOOOOOOO
7:01 THIS ONE WAS SO REAL
the t rex arms is so relatable but im not on the spectrum. if your wondering why im here then its because im trying to find out how to help my friend if they have a meltdown or need help explaining stuff. got any tips?
2:14
1. I’m ok with this(I ain’t that bad)
2.I don’t actually I’d that
3.wouldn’t call them intense
4.only sometimes
5. I don’t even know what that means
6. Same with that too
7. I don’t have meltdowns externaly
8. I almost never have a headache
9. Probably not gonna lie 😂
10.I KNOW when I am, people get the same respect they give me
11. Probably idk
12. Bruh I’m so good at small tasks
13. I know are early deaths are high
14. I got so much abilities NOT
15. My emotions are normal
16. Rules, please
17. I don’t know
18. I have really good friendships and relationships too
19. I am as verve as anyone else
Ok now I know what a meltdown actually is
I have small ones when stupid people just DON’T understand stuff like they don’t want to know the information, I have a good way of explaining things because,well, I need to make myself an explanation first, and i was able to teach my 60yr Nan how to properly and fluently use an iPad AND a iPhone, which btw she went from an actual Nokia. So for my to explain something every different way possible AND THEY STILL DON’T GET IT😤 I ask them to ask someone else, but apparently that’s the wrong thing to say because there always like “CaLM DoWn” it’s like I’ve dealt with you I think I have the capacity to NOT shout at you
Omg, is this what people are talking about
:000 i do orchestra hands!!!