Part of why I (and other people, i'm sure) get the impression that you have your life together is because we see you handle your depressive and stressful moments that you share online. A lot of people are still working on developing the tools to do that. So while you may be like, "woah i'm dealing with all this stuff", as the audience we see you handling it and moving on to the next thing. You got this, keep doing you! c:
Sounds as if your sibling is envious of you and probably extremely unhappy. If they don’t believe in you and your channel, but watch your content, is proof. I truly hope they can heal for the sake of themself and for the sake of your relationship ❤️
I greatly appreciate the transparency, because I'm struggling with depression and seeing your videos are very aesthetically pleasing and I often wish that I could live the life you live, and I often forget that things aren't always as they seem, but you have a healing presence about you. Especially with your ASMR videos. So thank you.
Love you, Julia. I have definitely felt the effects of imposter syndrome on social media and this was one of the reasons that I got rid of my FB, Twitter and Instagram accounts. We appreciate you.
Carol Machiatto you’re not weird at all! I’m sorry that guy made you feel like you were. He probably spends a lot of his life on social media which is why he thinks it’s odd that you don’t have any social media. Unfortunately, we live in an age where it is extremely popular...but it’s incredibly healthy to take time off of it! Be confident in your decision to not have social media accounts! Enjoy living life without having to worry about what other people are doing! Spending time on SM takes away from the present moment ❤️
So, first, my daughter was recently diagnosed with bipolar and major depressive disorder. She doesn’t have the highs as much as the deep lows coupled with extreme anxiety similar to your description of not being able to function in certain moments. Her panic attacks are crippling. As a mom, I appreciate your honesty and willingness to share your struggles. It gives me hope that my daughter will find her niche. You are an exceptional person who has made a huge difference in my life as far a providing me with a way to calm down and sleep. You inspire hundreds of people. YOU truly accomplish this every time you post. You are not an imposter. You are the real deal. That said, sometimes family members spend more time finding ways to drag us down rather than building us up. The “hallmark” family is so rare yet we all think we should have that perfect family. It sounds trite, but we cannot pick our family. Draw your strength from your followers. Know that we support you and appreciate the service your provide. You are deserving of the praise or you wouldn’t have the subscribers that you do. You are struggling because it blows your mind that you have such a positive effect on people. I cannot imagine helping strangers sleep and find peace in their day. YOU DO THIS. You are a service provider in an unusual platform. You are so not a fraud. Much love.
I have bipolar disorder and I feel overwhelmingly frustrated all the time with other people or myself. It’s even more frustrating knowing I’m upset usually for no reason but I can’t help it.
This is why I follow you. I love how genuine and brutally honest you are. I really appreciate your thoughts and I feel like I learn so much more from your channel then most other people I follow . Thank you ❤️
I watched your content backwards, (new > old) and I have found so much consistent calm and wisdom in your videos, I am really enjoying your raw content and it’s put some of my own struggles into perspective.. mainly being in the last year of my 20’s. Stay true to yourself Julia, ♥️
This is all so relatable. I had really bad struggles over the years with negative and toxic family members, I would doubt myself too and really believe what they told me and get so so low! I seen an amazing therapist that taught me that you don't have to keep someone in your life just because they are your family 💛 we love you Julie, we don't think you're perfect, we think you're real!
Marija Stojanova thank you for this! I know this was more meant for Julia but I still appreciated it ❤️it’s so hard to feel normal when you struggle with your mental health.
I know. That's what I came to say too. Normal. She's normal. It's a different normal than me or you, but the roller coaster of emotions, the doubting, the insecurity and all that is so normal. Especially for someone with with Julia's intuitive empathetic gift/curse.
Honestly, it's always been hard for me to find people who have estranged/unsupportive relationships with their siblings and I always felt judged as not being mature/ good enough of a person to forgive the past etc, but it takes two people to create/maintain any relationship. Thank you for sharing. Also, I try not to judge people but I feel like you could tell when someone tries to always be positive(make the best out of every situation) vs trying to portray that they have a "perfect life." You are inspiring to me because you try to be a good human being but more importantly work towards being a better version of yourself and always doing what works for you. Much love Julia
Dear Julia, when You film a positive video when You feel low, thats absolutely positive 😊 Everybody struggles but most of the people are not so "brave" to admit, even to themselves. You deserve the best! Loads of love! ❤️ Julianna from Hungary
These are my favorite kinds of videos. I’m a social worker who has depression/anxiety that can seem debilitating at times and feel imposter syndrome sometimes. I don’t have the public platform you do but your words resonate with you. I, and I know, many others, appreciate your raw and realness. Thanks.
I believe every soul on this earth, at one point in their life have felt exactly the same. We all transition in life, some of us handle it better than others. You seem to be handling life quite well.
The fact that you share this kind of things makes you the most genuine person that i follow on social media. Thank you for opening yourself this much. ❤❤❤
Julia, I have such strong imposter syndrome that I never have the courage to comment on your videos or those of my other favourite creators, because I feel like I would be wasting your/their time and you'll never read it anyway etc. So let me just say that I don't idolise you or hold you to a high standard, I just really enjoy both your asmr and these videos because I really relate, especially to this one for example. RUclips is very weird because viewers can start feeling like they know you, but we don't. Just from what I can see, I appreciate you as a person. So good luck :) And yes, never forget that this is both "real" and not, we are actual people, but then again you owe us nothing at all
your realness and the things you advocate for inspire me a ton. thank you for being you and striving to share your life and thoughts in a raw and genuine manner as much as possible. (also can't thank you enough for helping with my anxiety simply by talking with your soothing voice)
The issue that you have with your sibling is so familiar and the lack of family acknowledgement can be so hard. Some people in my family think its over something so trivial, but it goes deeper than that and has developed over many years. It's really hard. You have your own relationship with your sibling that is separate from your parents and they need to understand that. At least you get along with your parents and hopefully one day they can acknowledge it and be more understanding.
17:35 I truly want to see how these people who criticize are living their life. Don't let it get to you. It's obvious that you try really hard and that's the best anyone can do. Much love!
it reallllly grinds my gears when people criticize wildly without taking just a sec to reflect on how absolutely ridiculous it is to expect perfection.
Everything we experience is true. Our whole lives are the truth. Even if what we experience does not have a name or can't be diagnosed it doesn't make what we feel less real. I have to remind it myself a lot. You are one of my favourite youtubers and I think that is mainly because I can feel how genuine you are. I can really relate to your lifestyle and mindset, especially to the fact that you don't religiously stick to just one way of living, just one set of rules. So keep living, keep being yourself and know that you are not a lie. 💕
You’ve always handled yourself with poise, dignity, and grace in my eyes. Thanks for your honesty. I think many (including myself) can relate to so much of this.
Completely understand the feeling of not feeling like to deserve your accomplishments, etc. Julia, you’re a beautiful human and while you may receive negative responses, so many of us love your content and the person you are 💖
Dont feel bad about “self diagnosing”. You are educated and rational and as someone who has bipolar 1, I completely respect your suspicions about having it yourself
So I subscribed to you for your ASMR content. Honestly, I never thought that I would watch any of your other content as I avoided that side of RUclips & social media entirely because the majority of influencers & online personalities came across to me as disingenuous & unattainable. Slowly, but surely, I’m so glad I opened my mind & watched your non-ASMR content. You’re one of the most genuine influencers out there & I never would’ve tried to attained a low waste/healthier/happier lifestyle if it wasn’t for you. And I loved that you reached that clarity for yourself with the meetups of your subscribers. That’s why you’re doing what you’re doing. I hope you keep it up 🤗💕
Good luck with all this stuff. I can't imagine how tough it is to fight through things like that, but I hope you find a way to continue get past them. You deserve everything you have!
Yeah sounds like hypomania. Moments of intense activity, feeling euphoric, racing thoughts. Mania is dangerous behavior; speeding, stealing, gambling large amounts of money, maxing credit cards, and rampant sexual activity.
I appreciate your openness. I hope it created some positive energy for you. Please be sure that you genuinely help me and others. You have a lot of admirable qualities.
You are so articulate and honest about how you’re feeling/ have felt. I find it impossible that anyone would come at you for describing your situation with similarities to someone with bipolar disorder. I appreciate your willingness to share such a personal time in your life. You’re awesome, your content is awesome. Keep going..striving, learning and growing! You deserve EVERY SINGLE THING coming your way. Lots of love!!!!
I think the thing that attracts me to your content the most is your relatability. In a time when it’s easy to feel isolated and alone, the topics you discuss in your videos often serve as a reminder that we’re all experiencing challenges, and some of them are similar or even the same. Your content often makes me more curious about what other people are going through and encourages me to spend more time cherishing the moments I have with the people I care about. Thank you for your honesty. I think the fact that you feel like an imposter at times and have admitted that actually makes you one of the least imposter-y people on RUclips lol. I hope all of that made sense. It’s 1:15 a.m., I’m delirious, and I should be sleeping. You’re a treasure, Julia. Goodnight 😴
I have definitely felt this way.. not far in but, thank you for this. But also, being so open and real constantly. You’re such a great role model, and that certainly doesn’t have to be perfect (because none of us are). LOVE UUUU
You are definitely NOT a lie or an impostor, even though you may feel that way sometimes. You're beautiful and talented and a really good person and I love your content. 😎
I've been watching ASMR for at least seven years....and I just found you through a shout-out Maria did recently....but I have to say of all the artists on here, I relate to you the absolute most. From your massive struggles with anxiety and depression -- to imposter syndrome, to your severe fear of death -- I feel like you're legit speaking from my own brain. It's uncanny how many of your struggles are my own. I'm so thankful to have found your content :) Keep up the amazing work...I adore these update videos and they really help me (and others, I'm positive). Happy holidays to you -
I can definitely relate to this. I felt like I was bipolar for a while, but researching more about my menstrual cycle gave me a lot of clarity. specifically a book called Wild Power talks about how the different stages of your menstrual cycle is linked with surges of energy, depressive states, periods of time where you feel super productive, etc. and it's all part of your hormonal cycle. I recommended every woman educate themselves more about the menstrual cycle. hope that this maybe helps you or someone reading this! ☯❤️
I can relate to the family part so much... me and my mother have the roughest relationship ever. Long story but basically when that person is suppose to be there for you and they aren’t, it’s extremely breaking. Hurt people hurt people... and I’m so sorry you’ve been feeling this way but you are doing amazing ❤️ we know you are genuine and human as well, which is important to be reminded of.
I’m much older than you and what you are delivering is so needed in today’s world. Your honesty and willingness to be vulnerable and authentic is what everyone is struggling to do. Thank you.
Amen. Your self awareness, emotional eloquence, and curiosity to explore and grow are such ongoing inspirations for me and so many others here. I think you're forging some unique creative territory in this medium, which keeps so many of us tuned in to share ideas and strategies to apply to our situations, in some form. AND the priceless moments of pure joy when you dance or share a groovy soundtrack, etc. Thank you for this work you do, and for risking vulnerability as you make your way and find your path. I hope, someday, your sibling will shift his thinking and be able to appreciate your talents and receive your love. Onward! xo
I think there's so much transparency involved with this type of work that you really have to keep certain parts of your life private and protect those parts for your own well being. That said, when you do share these insights into your soul (for lack of a better word), they are so very precious and meaningful. I speak for myself only, but I am grateful to learn more about you as a person.
So much love for you. I know I’m just a stranger here, but I’ve followed you for quite some time (your videos have helped me substantially when attempting to handle MY bipolar II) and this video made me feel compelled to drop a quick comment and say that while I know everyone’s experience with mental illness is different, you are far from alone. This video was authentic and articulate, and I appreciate your vulnerability. I understand the feeling of being unable to exist while in your lowest of lows, but if nothing else (when you’re feeling extra down!) just know that you have touched so many lives with your work and your willingness to live this more public life.
I appreciate how open you are about your life because it makes me feel like I’m not alone on how I deal with my feelings at times. I honestly wish this world was truly accommodating of how differently people function, instead of people having to adjust to the patterns expected in the world all the time, because it just makes everything worse. We need to appreciate reality and come to terms with who we are so we learn to love ourselves, which consequently prevents us from self sabotage. Love your truth. ❤️
I really felt this. I don't have a social media platform beyond family, friends, and regular acquaintances, but even on that level I get a sense of Imposter Syndrome. It really hits when I scroll back and see something I posted when I was in a completely different frame of mind. I just keep telling myself that all of what I post is part of me. We're dynamic.
Nobody is perfect. I’m not, you’re not. And I don't expect that from me or you either. But you inspire me and many others to get the best out of their lives and learn and grow. That is the most important ❤️
This post was beautiful! Being 29, I’ve truly struggled with, life’s not a movie and that’s ok. Being in what I’m sure is the most healthy relationship I’ve been in i often struggle with mental self sabotage. This makes me feel like a phony. I’m learning more and more it’s ok to not be ok and this post just confirmed we are all just doing the best we can in this crazy life. Thank you!
Thank you for being there for all of your viewers and thank you for always being open and honest!! Lately my anxiety has been driving me nuts. The racing thoughts can be so tiring. I’m constantly overthinking everything...I’m ready to be at peace within myself. Watching your video made me feel so much better because I could relate to everything you were saying. I hope one day I’ll be able to meet you at one of your little meet and greets ❤️you feel like a big sister who I can always count on to be there for me when my mind and heart are racing with negativity.
You're allowed to evolve and recreate yourself anew, there's nothing wrong with that, your past doesn't define you...your present does. Your sleep hypnosis + treats asmr video was an enchanting experience for me, you truly have a wonderful gift. Please don't believe any different.
Thank you so much for sharing this video. It really resonated with me. I feel that I can (perhaps unfortunately?) relate to many of the feelings you’ve talked about in this video.
Thank you Julia for thinking out loud. Your raw and real portray of self helps many of us out tremendously in coping with the struggles of life. Since I've known you, I haven't had any major depressive periods. Knowing that there are other like-minded people out there who experience real lows and still try hard to come back up is really inspiring and is a light in the dark cave. None of us are perfect, not even your mean commentors. I hope speaking your mind eased your stress over being an imposter (which we - who see your true meaning with your words and acts - really don't think you would be). We appreciate the bits you share with us and know, that most of us are here because we love how real you are.
Thank you for speaking to the masses. I’ve been following your platform for years now and I really felt compelled to leave a comment here. Although I can’t fathom what it is like to be in your position, I appreciate this raw and healthy way of communicating to your subscribers how you really feel. Sometimes as viewers, we can forget what really happens once the camera shuts off. These insane expectations people have of content creators, public figures etc have become more and more (literally) impossible. The way you live your life is for you and you only. You are generous in sharing your lifestyle with us, it almost feels like talking to a friend, and that’s why you have the following that you do. Keeping your peace of mind and soul in my prayers. Thank you for creating such soul healing content for us. Lots of love Julia!
julia i have always felt like i relate to you in almost every way when you open up about yourself. i’ve also always been really curious about your zodiac sign and natal chart. thanks so much for sharing and being so honest. and also continuing to make content in times you may be struggling. xo
Julia, I am a 59 year old with 4 grown children. You are a great deal like my youngest who Is now 24 and has been making you tube videos for about 4 years off and on. She often feels this way doing social media and has struggled her whole life being a different kind of person. Artsy, quirky, introverted, depressed, over excited. And although all of her siblings try to support, they honestly don't completely understand her or how she thinks. She is the one who introduced me to ASMR and your channel for help to relax and sleep, so thank you for your honesty and sharing. And Julia, I would so love to repay your efforts by sharing another Avenue I think would enhance your life. If you would be as open to it I hope you will watch the series called The Chosen. To watch it download the chosen app. I guarantee if you will take a chance it will change your life. Thanks again Julia
So glad an asmr search led me to subscribing to your channel. I understand imposter syndrome, anxiety, etc. all too well and appreciate how real you are with your viewers(all the while putting me to sleep with your asmr videos when I have a hard time sleeping) thank you.
I fell in love with you and your personality from the first video and I can honestly say you are my favorite person on this platform. I owe a lot of nights of sleep to you and for me that is more important than food or anything else. It made me really sad to hear about your sibling, and unfortunately I relate to the situation too well. I haven't spoken to my mother in 10 years. She has been my biggest bully and abuser and I chose to cut any tie with her in order to survive. There is no greater and deeper wound than that. It will never heal. I miss her so much and I wish I could have a good relationship with her so badly, that sometimes it breaks me down. Surviving instinct is stronger, though. I obviously don't know what's the situation between you and your sibling, nor I am going to judge, but if they are reading this, please, please try to be supportive or at least not intentionally hurt her and her platform anymore. Julia is doing a great job helping people, and while it's relatively "unconventional", she truly is a great person and we love and respect her. I am sure you are a great person too. There is no bigger hurt than that caused by a blood relative. Perhaps you both could try a therapy together. There must be some unsolved issues somewhere. As for you, Julia, one of the reasons I love you so much is because you show us good and bad, ups and downs, you are relatable. Many hugs and much love to you
I also have bipolar and most of what you said regarding the highs and lows and mental health in general on your channel resonates with me on a deep, deep level ❤ for me taking life day by day is key, there are oppertunities for growth in every moment
I realize that you can never be a fraud if your true followers would support you no matter what lifestyle you choose to live. We are here for your spirit and soul, no matter what you do. You’re so deserving ❤️
That seems so intense editing a video about your relationship after a big fight. I can totally understand your contradictory feelings! Thank you for sharing slices of your life with us. 💜
You're a good person, Julia. You make a lot of people all over the world happy with your videos. Thank you for all of your work and effort. You are one of my favorite ASMR artists.
Julia, you are an amazing person. Your videos relate to so many people. Please keep your strength in your confidence and continue to be you. You have become part of my daily release of negative energy. You have an amazing ability to help people, and I’m very thankful for you.
Haters will always try and rip you apart because they cant handle people or their success. You deserve everything you've accomplished thus far, and I particularly like your asmr voice. Don't worry, we're all victims of being sensitive to negativity.
I really enjoy the fact that you talk about topics & issues that not everyone can put out there . It definitely helps with not feeling so alone . Julia , You deserve all the success and accomplishments you have made thus far & in the on coming future ✨
Hey Julia, thank you so much for you honesty about what it really takes to work on social media, and for opening up about the issues with your sibling. I love your content and would love to be a part of those meetups if you ever come to Buenos Aires ;)
Your ups and downs, and your description of your fear of death regarding depression are exactly me. I have had bad diagnoses early in my depressions as the suicidal tendencies were absent. The up/down cycles combined with severe anxiety have determined a big part of my life, and my relations with friends and family have suffered from it. It hurts not to be able to express yourself to your dearest the way you want to, and it sucks feeling that helpless. I hope you find/have found what you need to stay upright. Enjoy yourself!
Your sibling is just plain sad. How sad it is that he/she chooses to be so negative. How does it effect him/her what you say or do? People that bully do so to protect themselves from being bullied first. They are insecure and petty. Very very sad.
Julia, I appreciate your perspective on life so much. You've definitely opened my eyes to seeing that there are options to how we all live, and to judge others less. You're so appreciated, and thank you for opening up and sharing.
This is the problem with social media. Influencers are only going to film or post on good days so nobody sees the bad days or the days. This is why I feel that social media has given the world a bad look. People (like me) who battle with depression and anxiety, look to social media as a “how come I can’t live that life” or “how come I can’t be happy like that”. I find your videos to be relaxing. I watch your videos on days that I’m feeling very anxious or very stressed out. Thank you for your honesty! More influencers should open and honest.
This is the first video I’ve ever seen of yours. It just randomly showed up in my suggestions. And I have to say, you are worth it. You seem like a great person and even if you think you’re low, you’re helping people. You’re doing good work.
You work so hard and definitely deserve all you have. If you didn’t deserve it you would not have what you have/the achievements you have achieved! Thank you for always aiming to be as true to yourself as you can, you don’t owe anyone anything ♥️
I can listen to you talk all day. You are so incredibly insightful and articulate I’m jealous! Lol but everything you think about and worry about and care about I do too. And thats refreshing ☺️👌🏼 i feel like there’s not many RUclipsrs like you and that’s why you’re meant to do this. There’s a special place for you on here and I’m happy I get to support you!! 👍🏼
Your honesty is admirable. I love you videos, they help me escape the stressors of my day and help me fall asleep. Thank you for being so candid, so that those who understand how you’re feeling, know that they’re not alone.
Thank you for being real. This is really what so many people feel, it's nice you took the time to explain it! You seem like an awesome person, all the best to you. And if this lifestyle doesn't make you happy, you can always, whitout an explanation, stop and get away from the public life.. you don't owe us anything, remember that.
You are extremely well articulated. I relate. I suffered from depression my whole life and it does go through such drastic ups and downs. You are as genuine as it gets.
I wish so much I could just sit down and talk to you. You’re such a safe person and such a relatable person. And as much as we all love and appreciate you being so beautifully transparent, I want you to know that you definitely aren’t alone either. I struggle with mental health as well and its just such a comfort to know there are others out there who understand sometimes erratic emotions.
Julia I have been watching your videos for years now and I am so happy with the success you are receiving. You come across as one of the most authentic, genuine youtubers and I love your content! Im so sad I missed your london meet up ☹️ I hope you had a lovely time here and just want to say keep doing what you are doing because we are here for you and support you 1 million percent of the way 🥰 xxxx
Wow, thank you so much Julia this really hit home. I have borderline disorder and have traits of bipolar as well. It’s so so hard to tell people because there is such a terrible stigma behind these mental illnesses. This made my heart feel so much lighter knowing that someone I look up to feels the same as me
Julia...you’re an amazing freaking person I just want you to know that. I can relate so much to you and I admire that you’re just you and so different from a lot of other content creators you’re truly amazing don’t stop being you 😘😘😘
I've just discovered you and subscribed. I've watched 2 of your ASMR videos so far and I can honestly say you have a gift and talent for ASMR. Believe me and others when we tell you that you're truly providing a much needed service of support and healing for those like me who need it to survive. Thank you so much for your hard work and for sharing your talents. You are worth it!!
I think the world of you and by no means want you to feel pressure from that. You’re an amazing presence on the internet and in the world and I’m very grateful for you as you changed my life for the better. Not drastically but in lots of small ways. Thank you. I hope you feel better soon
Part of why I (and other people, i'm sure) get the impression that you have your life together is because we see you handle your depressive and stressful moments that you share online. A lot of people are still working on developing the tools to do that. So while you may be like, "woah i'm dealing with all this stuff", as the audience we see you handling it and moving on to the next thing. You got this, keep doing you! c:
Jess Hopefully we can learn to also develop certain tools for coping with stuff :)
hope this shit is one of thoes things that maybe speed up with age
I’m glad you are sincere with your viewers 🙏🏻 it brings reality to an already altered world
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Sounds as if your sibling is envious of you and probably extremely unhappy. If they don’t believe in you and your channel, but watch your content, is proof. I truly hope they can heal for the sake of themself and for the sake of your relationship ❤️
I greatly appreciate the transparency, because I'm struggling with depression and seeing your videos are very aesthetically pleasing and I often wish that I could live the life you live, and I often forget that things aren't always as they seem, but you have a healing presence about you. Especially with your ASMR videos. So thank you.
Love you, Julia. I have definitely felt the effects of imposter syndrome on social media and this was one of the reasons that I got rid of my FB, Twitter and Instagram accounts. We appreciate you.
Brittany Allen How did you feel afterwards?
Really great! I’ve honestly not regretted it once.
I did the same thing! It feels very freeing to focus on my mental health and happiness rather than being on social media. ❤️
Carol Machiatto you’re not weird at all! I’m sorry that guy made you feel like you were. He probably spends a lot of his life on social media which is why he thinks it’s odd that you don’t have any social media. Unfortunately, we live in an age where it is extremely popular...but it’s incredibly healthy to take time off of it! Be confident in your decision to not have social media accounts! Enjoy living life without having to worry about what other people are doing! Spending time on SM takes away from the present moment ❤️
Nah but deep down it was obvious that there's something wrong like she's in constant search of embetterment but can never seem to find it
So, first, my daughter was recently diagnosed with bipolar and major depressive disorder. She doesn’t have the highs as much as the deep lows coupled with extreme anxiety similar to your description of not being able to function in certain moments. Her panic attacks are crippling. As a mom, I appreciate your honesty and willingness to share your struggles. It gives me hope that my daughter will find her niche. You are an exceptional person who has made a huge difference in my life as far a providing me with a way to calm down and sleep. You inspire hundreds of people. YOU truly accomplish this every time you post. You are not an imposter. You are the real deal. That said, sometimes family members spend more time finding ways to drag us down rather than building us up. The “hallmark” family is so rare yet we all think we should have that perfect family. It sounds trite, but we cannot pick our family. Draw your strength from your followers. Know that we support you and appreciate the service your provide. You are deserving of the praise or you wouldn’t have the subscribers that you do. You are struggling because it blows your mind that you have such a positive effect on people. I cannot imagine helping strangers sleep and find peace in their day. YOU DO THIS. You are a service provider in an unusual platform. You are so not a fraud. Much love.
This is a beautiful comment. Best of luck
bless you for this comment.
All the best for your daughter, I hope she develops the tools she needs. Really liked what you said about Julia ❤️
I have bipolar disorder and I feel overwhelmingly frustrated all the time with other people or myself. It’s even more frustrating knowing I’m upset usually for no reason but I can’t help it.
Same
Being upset for no reason really sucks and makes you even more upset
I feel overwhelming frustrated all the time with other people, too.
I'm definitely not depressed, tho 😂
This is why I follow you. I love how genuine and brutally honest you are. I really appreciate your thoughts and I feel like I learn so much more from your channel then most other people I follow . Thank you ❤️
I watched your content backwards, (new > old) and I have found so much consistent calm and wisdom in your videos, I am really enjoying your raw content and it’s put some of my own struggles into perspective.. mainly being in the last year of my 20’s. Stay true to yourself Julia, ♥️
You are not a lie ❤️
💯💯💯 amen to this comment! Social media and you tube can be a f*cking lie. You darlin, are 100% real truth and alive 💛💛
Both of these comments really lighten’s up the mood I’m 14 btw
This is all so relatable. I had really bad struggles over the years with negative and toxic family members, I would doubt myself too and really believe what they told me and get so so low! I seen an amazing therapist that taught me that you don't have to keep someone in your life just because they are your family 💛 we love you Julie, we don't think you're perfect, we think you're real!
You are ok. And very normal. Don't forget to breathe.
Marija Stojanova thank you for this! I know this was more meant for Julia but I still appreciated it ❤️it’s so hard to feel normal when you struggle with your mental health.
Absolutely!!!!!
I know. That's what I came to say too. Normal. She's normal. It's a different normal than me or you, but the roller coaster of emotions, the doubting, the insecurity and all that is so normal. Especially for someone with with Julia's intuitive empathetic gift/curse.
Honestly, it's always been hard for me to find people who have estranged/unsupportive relationships with their siblings and I always felt judged as not being mature/ good enough of a person to forgive the past etc, but it takes two people to create/maintain any relationship. Thank you for sharing.
Also, I try not to judge people but I feel like you could tell when someone tries to always be positive(make the best out of every situation) vs trying to portray that they have a "perfect life." You are inspiring to me because you try to be a good human being but more importantly work towards being a better version of yourself and always doing what works for you. Much love Julia
I genuinely enjoyed watching you talk about what’s on your mind, I’m just having lunch and it feels like listen to a friend.
Thank you for listening ❤️
Maybe the best video on RUclips right now. Thanks for being so genuine!
Dear Julia, when You film a positive video when You feel low, thats absolutely positive 😊 Everybody struggles but most of the people are not so "brave" to admit, even to themselves. You deserve the best! Loads of love! ❤️ Julianna from Hungary
These are my favorite kinds of videos. I’m a social worker who has depression/anxiety that can seem debilitating at times and feel imposter syndrome sometimes. I don’t have the public platform you do but your words resonate with you. I, and I know, many others, appreciate your raw and realness. Thanks.
I believe every soul on this earth, at one point in their life have felt exactly the same. We all transition in life, some of us handle it better than others. You seem to be handling life quite well.
The fact that you share this kind of things makes you the most genuine person that i follow on social media. Thank you for opening yourself this much. ❤❤❤
Julia, I have such strong imposter syndrome that I never have the courage to comment on your videos or those of my other favourite creators, because I feel like I would be wasting your/their time and you'll never read it anyway etc. So let me just say that I don't idolise you or hold you to a high standard, I just really enjoy both your asmr and these videos because I really relate, especially to this one for example. RUclips is very weird because viewers can start feeling like they know you, but we don't. Just from what I can see, I appreciate you as a person. So good luck :) And yes, never forget that this is both "real" and not, we are actual people, but then again you owe us nothing at all
I look up to you. You do deserve all you have done because you worked hard for this.
your realness and the things you advocate for inspire me a ton. thank you for being you and striving to share your life and thoughts in a raw and genuine manner as much as possible. (also can't thank you enough for helping with my anxiety simply by talking with your soothing voice)
The issue that you have with your sibling is so familiar and the lack of family acknowledgement can be so hard. Some people in my family think its over something so trivial, but it goes deeper than that and has developed over many years. It's really hard. You have your own relationship with your sibling that is separate from your parents and they need to understand that. At least you get along with your parents and hopefully one day they can acknowledge it and be more understanding.
17:35 I truly want to see how these people who criticize are living their life. Don't let it get to you. It's obvious that you try really hard and that's the best anyone can do. Much love!
it reallllly grinds my gears when people criticize wildly without taking just a sec to reflect on how absolutely ridiculous it is to expect perfection.
the fact that you even made this shows your authenticity. You're truly an inspiration to me and I hope you always continue to just be you.
Everything we experience is true. Our whole lives are the truth. Even if what we experience does not have a name or can't be diagnosed it doesn't make what we feel less real.
I have to remind it myself a lot.
You are one of my favourite youtubers and I think that is mainly because I can feel how genuine you are. I can really relate to your lifestyle and mindset, especially to the fact that you don't religiously stick to just one way of living, just one set of rules. So keep living, keep being yourself and know that you are not a lie. 💕
You’ve always handled yourself with poise, dignity, and grace in my eyes. Thanks for your honesty. I think many (including myself) can relate to so much of this.
Completely understand the feeling of not feeling like to deserve your accomplishments, etc. Julia, you’re a beautiful human and while you may receive negative responses, so many of us love your content and the person you are 💖
Dont feel bad about “self diagnosing”. You are educated and rational and as someone who has bipolar 1, I completely respect your suspicions about having it yourself
So I subscribed to you for your ASMR content. Honestly, I never thought that I would watch any of your other content as I avoided that side of RUclips & social media entirely because the majority of influencers & online personalities came across to me as disingenuous & unattainable. Slowly, but surely, I’m so glad I opened my mind & watched your non-ASMR content. You’re one of the most genuine influencers out there & I never would’ve tried to attained a low waste/healthier/happier lifestyle if it wasn’t for you. And I loved that you reached that clarity for yourself with the meetups of your subscribers. That’s why you’re doing what you’re doing. I hope you keep it up 🤗💕
We love you 💞 thank you for being so raw and honest
It's nice to hear a person with a big platform talking about this. Hopefully more people will follow so mental health issues will be less frowned upon
Good luck with all this stuff. I can't imagine how tough it is to fight through things like that, but I hope you find a way to continue get past them. You deserve everything you have!
Type 2 bipolar is basically hypomania. You don't really get the mania (like extreme risk tasking), but you get the depression
Yeah sounds like hypomania. Moments of intense activity, feeling euphoric, racing thoughts. Mania is dangerous behavior; speeding, stealing, gambling large amounts of money, maxing credit cards, and rampant sexual activity.
thank you for being so honest. I’ve never related to someone online before. You’re really one of a kind julia
I appreciate your openness. I hope it created some positive energy for you. Please be sure that you genuinely help me and others.
You have a lot of admirable qualities.
Have so much respect for you, you are so raw and truthful with a don’t give a crap attitude.
You are so articulate and honest about how you’re feeling/ have felt. I find it impossible that anyone would come at you for describing your situation with similarities to someone with bipolar disorder. I appreciate your willingness to share such a personal time in your life. You’re awesome, your content is awesome. Keep going..striving, learning and growing! You deserve EVERY SINGLE THING coming your way. Lots of love!!!!
Thanks girl, I appreciate this message and you ❤️
You are so loved! Sometimes you just got to forget the negative people and focus on those who do love and support you!❤
I think the thing that attracts me to your content the most is your relatability. In a time when it’s easy to feel isolated and alone, the topics you discuss in your videos often serve as a reminder that we’re all experiencing challenges, and some of them are similar or even the same. Your content often makes me more curious about what other people are going through and encourages me to spend more time cherishing the moments I have with the people I care about. Thank you for your honesty. I think the fact that you feel like an imposter at times and have admitted that actually makes you one of the least imposter-y people on RUclips lol. I hope all of that made sense. It’s 1:15 a.m., I’m delirious, and I should be sleeping. You’re a treasure, Julia. Goodnight 😴
Hey Adrian. Thank you for your words & support. Much appreciated. ❤️
itsblitzzz You’re welcome 😊 Thank you!
I have definitely felt this way.. not far in but, thank you for this. But also, being so open and real constantly. You’re such a great role model, and that certainly doesn’t have to be perfect (because none of us are). LOVE UUUU
You are definitely NOT a lie or an impostor, even though you may feel that way sometimes. You're beautiful and talented and a really good person and I love your content. 😎
I've been watching ASMR for at least seven years....and I just found you through a shout-out Maria did recently....but I have to say of all the artists on here, I relate to you the absolute most. From your massive struggles with anxiety and depression -- to imposter syndrome, to your severe fear of death -- I feel like you're legit speaking from my own brain. It's uncanny how many of your struggles are my own. I'm so thankful to have found your content :) Keep up the amazing work...I adore these update videos and they really help me (and others, I'm positive). Happy holidays to you -
I can definitely relate to this. I felt like I was bipolar for a while, but researching more about my menstrual cycle gave me a lot of clarity. specifically a book called Wild Power talks about how the different stages of your menstrual cycle is linked with surges of energy, depressive states, periods of time where you feel super productive, etc. and it's all part of your hormonal cycle. I recommended every woman educate themselves more about the menstrual cycle. hope that this maybe helps you or someone reading this! ☯❤️
I look up to you so much and I aspire to emulate you in my everyday life. This video has only served to further my aspirations. Thanks, Julia.
I can relate to the family part so much... me and my mother have the roughest relationship ever. Long story but basically when that person is suppose to be there for you and they aren’t, it’s extremely breaking. Hurt people hurt people... and I’m so sorry you’ve been feeling this way but you are doing amazing ❤️ we know you are genuine and human as well, which is important to be reminded of.
I’m much older than you and what you are delivering is so needed in today’s world. Your honesty and willingness to be vulnerable and authentic is what everyone is struggling to do. Thank you.
Amen. Your self awareness, emotional eloquence, and curiosity to explore and grow are such ongoing inspirations for me and so many others here. I think you're forging some unique creative territory in this medium, which keeps so many of us tuned in to share ideas and strategies to apply to our situations, in some form. AND the priceless moments of pure joy when you dance or share a groovy soundtrack, etc. Thank you for this work you do, and for risking vulnerability as you make your way and find your path.
I hope, someday, your sibling will shift his thinking and be able to appreciate your talents and receive your love. Onward! xo
This is so real. I often find myself feeling this way too. Love you Julia❤️
I think there's so much transparency involved with this type of work that you really have to keep certain parts of your life private and protect those parts for your own well being. That said, when you do share these insights into your soul (for lack of a better word), they are so very precious and meaningful. I speak for myself only, but I am grateful to learn more about you as a person.
So much love for you. I know I’m just a stranger here, but I’ve followed you for quite some time (your videos have helped me substantially when attempting to handle MY bipolar II) and this video made me feel compelled to drop a quick comment and say that while I know everyone’s experience with mental illness is different, you are far from alone. This video was authentic and articulate, and I appreciate your vulnerability. I understand the feeling of being unable to exist while in your lowest of lows, but if nothing else (when you’re feeling extra down!) just know that you have touched so many lives with your work and your willingness to live this more public life.
I relate soo painfully to all of what youre saying
I appreciate how open you are about your life because it makes me feel like I’m not alone on how I deal with my feelings at times. I honestly wish this world was truly accommodating of how differently people function, instead of people having to adjust to the patterns expected in the world all the time, because it just makes everything worse. We need to appreciate reality and come to terms with who we are so we learn to love ourselves, which consequently prevents us from self sabotage. Love your truth. ❤️
I really felt this. I don't have a social media platform beyond family, friends, and regular acquaintances, but even on that level I get a sense of Imposter Syndrome. It really hits when I scroll back and see something I posted when I was in a completely different frame of mind. I just keep telling myself that all of what I post is part of me. We're dynamic.
When you said you ‘ride out the high points’ that is me! We don’t feel them enough
Nobody is perfect. I’m not, you’re not. And I don't expect that from me or you either. But you inspire me and many others to get the best out of their lives and learn and grow. That is the most important ❤️
This post was beautiful! Being 29, I’ve truly struggled with, life’s not a movie and that’s ok. Being in what I’m sure is the most healthy relationship I’ve been in i often struggle with mental self sabotage. This makes me feel like a phony. I’m learning more and more it’s ok to not be ok and this post just confirmed we are all just doing the best we can in this crazy life.
Thank you!
Thank you for being there for all of your viewers and thank you for always being open and honest!! Lately my anxiety has been driving me nuts. The racing thoughts can be so tiring. I’m constantly overthinking everything...I’m ready to be at peace within myself. Watching your video made me feel so much better because I could relate to everything you were saying. I hope one day I’ll be able to meet you at one of your little meet and greets ❤️you feel like a big sister who I can always count on to be there for me when my mind and heart are racing with negativity.
You're allowed to evolve and recreate yourself anew, there's nothing wrong with that, your past doesn't define you...your present does. Your sleep hypnosis + treats asmr video was an enchanting experience for me, you truly have a wonderful gift. Please don't believe any different.
This is my favorite video of yours, to date. The Sophia Chang ASMR session is a super close second 🤗
Thank you so much for sharing this video. It really resonated with me. I feel that I can (perhaps unfortunately?) relate to many of the feelings you’ve talked about in this video.
Thank you Julia for thinking out loud. Your raw and real portray of self helps many of us out tremendously in coping with the struggles of life. Since I've known you, I haven't had any major depressive periods. Knowing that there are other like-minded people out there who experience real lows and still try hard to come back up is really inspiring and is a light in the dark cave. None of us are perfect, not even your mean commentors. I hope speaking your mind eased your stress over being an imposter (which we - who see your true meaning with your words and acts - really don't think you would be). We appreciate the bits you share with us and know, that most of us are here because we love how real you are.
wow, you're so strong. I didnt expect this when I clicked this video. I've never seen someone on youtube be so transparent its kinda refreshing.
I have a lot of respect for you and keeping up this type of job! I wouldn't be able to deal with the negative comments & stress I think.
Just the fact that you are so honest, make you REAL. You deserve the compliments. No one is perfect anyways! Bless you 😘🌈
Thank you for speaking to the masses. I’ve been following your platform for years now and I really felt compelled to leave a comment here. Although I can’t fathom what it is like to be in your position, I appreciate this raw and healthy way of communicating to your subscribers how you really feel. Sometimes as viewers, we can forget what really happens once the camera shuts off. These insane expectations people have of content creators, public figures etc have become more and more (literally) impossible. The way you live your life is for you and you only. You are generous in sharing your lifestyle with us, it almost feels like talking to a friend, and that’s why you have the following that you do. Keeping your peace of mind and soul in my prayers. Thank you for creating such soul healing content for us. Lots of love Julia!
julia i have always felt like i relate to you in almost every way when you open up about yourself. i’ve also always been really curious about your zodiac sign and natal chart. thanks so much for sharing and being so honest. and also continuing to make content in times you may be struggling. xo
Julia, I literally relate to you word.for.word. It’s both inspiring and comforting knowing I’m not alone. Thank you for your vulnerability 💞
Julia, I am a 59 year old with 4 grown children. You are a great deal like my youngest who Is now 24 and has been making you tube videos for about 4 years off and on. She often feels this way doing social media and has struggled her whole life being a different kind of person. Artsy, quirky, introverted, depressed, over excited. And although all of her siblings try to support, they honestly don't completely understand her or how she thinks. She is the one who introduced me to ASMR and your channel for help to relax and sleep, so thank you for your honesty and sharing. And Julia, I would so love to repay your efforts by sharing another Avenue I think would enhance your life. If you would be as open to it I hope you will watch the series called The Chosen. To watch it download the chosen app. I guarantee if you will take a chance it will change your life. Thanks again Julia
So glad an asmr search led me to subscribing to your channel. I understand imposter syndrome, anxiety, etc. all too well and appreciate how real you are with your viewers(all the while putting me to sleep with your asmr videos when I have a hard time sleeping) thank you.
I fell in love with you and your personality from the first video and I can honestly say you are my favorite person on this platform. I owe a lot of nights of sleep to you and for me that is more important than food or anything else. It made me really sad to hear about your sibling, and unfortunately I relate to the situation too well.
I haven't spoken to my mother in 10 years. She has been my biggest bully and abuser and I chose to cut any tie with her in order to survive. There is no greater and deeper wound than that. It will never heal. I miss her so much and I wish I could have a good relationship with her so badly, that sometimes it breaks me down. Surviving instinct is stronger, though. I obviously don't know what's the situation between you and your sibling, nor I am going to judge, but if they are reading this, please, please try to be supportive or at least not intentionally hurt her and her platform anymore.
Julia is doing a great job helping people, and while it's relatively "unconventional", she truly is a great person and we love and respect her. I am sure you are a great person too. There is no bigger hurt than that caused by a blood relative. Perhaps you both could try a therapy together. There must be some unsolved issues somewhere.
As for you, Julia, one of the reasons I love you so much is because you show us good and bad, ups and downs, you are relatable. Many hugs and much love to you
I totally relate to your experience 😔 I have made it my life's mission to break the cycle.
I also have bipolar and most of what you said regarding the highs and lows and mental health in general on your channel resonates with me on a deep, deep level ❤ for me taking life day by day is key, there are oppertunities for growth in every moment
I realize that you can never be a fraud if your true followers would support you no matter what lifestyle you choose to live. We are here for your spirit and soul, no matter what you do. You’re so deserving ❤️
That seems so intense editing a video about your relationship after a big fight. I can totally understand your contradictory feelings! Thank you for sharing slices of your life with us. 💜
You're a good person, Julia. You make a lot of people all over the world happy with your videos. Thank you for all of your work and effort. You are one of my favorite ASMR artists.
Julia, you are an amazing person. Your videos relate to so many people. Please keep your strength in your confidence and continue to be you. You have become part of my daily release of negative energy. You have an amazing ability to help people, and I’m very thankful for you.
The things you are saying really resonates with me. I have 7 siblings and we have No family life. Strangers. Crazy and sad.
Haters will always try and rip you apart because they cant handle people or their success. You deserve everything you've accomplished thus far, and I particularly like your asmr voice. Don't worry, we're all victims of being sensitive to negativity.
I really enjoy the fact that you talk about topics & issues that not everyone can put out there . It definitely helps with not feeling so alone . Julia , You deserve all the success and accomplishments you have made thus far & in the on coming future ✨
Hey Julia, thank you so much for you honesty about what it really takes to work on social media, and for opening up about the issues with your sibling. I love your content and would love to be a part of those meetups if you ever come to Buenos Aires ;)
Julia
Your ups and downs, and your description of your fear of death regarding depression are exactly me. I have had bad diagnoses early in my depressions as the suicidal tendencies were absent. The up/down cycles combined with severe anxiety have determined a big part of my life, and my relations with friends and family have suffered from it. It hurts not to be able to express yourself to your dearest the way you want to, and it sucks feeling that helpless. I hope you find/have found what you need to stay upright. Enjoy yourself!
I'm honestly so glad I watched this video and I'm so grateful for you and your platform!
Your sibling is just plain sad. How sad it is that he/she chooses to be so negative. How does it effect him/her what you say or do? People that bully do so to protect themselves from being bullied first. They are insecure and petty. Very very sad.
There's no "he/she" about it; it's a girl.
You know it.
Julia, I appreciate your perspective on life so much. You've definitely opened my eyes to seeing that there are options to how we all live, and to judge others less. You're so appreciated, and thank you for opening up and sharing.
Appreciation can be difficult until you become aware of yourself appreciation & then you want it. U got this
This is the problem with social media. Influencers are only going to film or post on good days so nobody sees the bad days or the days. This is why I feel that social media has given the world a bad look. People (like me) who battle with depression and anxiety, look to social media as a “how come I can’t live that life” or “how come I can’t be happy like that”. I find your videos to be relaxing. I watch your videos on days that I’m feeling very anxious or very stressed out. Thank you for your honesty! More influencers should open and honest.
This is the first video I’ve ever seen of yours. It just randomly showed up in my suggestions. And I have to say, you are worth it. You seem like a great person and even if you think you’re low, you’re helping people. You’re doing good work.
You work so hard and definitely deserve all you have. If you didn’t deserve it you would not have what you have/the achievements you have achieved! Thank you for always aiming to be as true to yourself as you can, you don’t owe anyone anything ♥️
I can listen to you talk all day. You are so incredibly insightful and articulate I’m jealous! Lol but everything you think about and worry about and care about I do too. And thats refreshing ☺️👌🏼 i feel like there’s not many RUclipsrs like you and that’s why you’re meant to do this. There’s a special place for you on here and I’m happy I get to support you!! 👍🏼
Your honesty is admirable. I love you videos, they help me escape the stressors of my day and help me fall asleep. Thank you for being so candid, so that those who understand how you’re feeling, know that they’re not alone.
Thank you for being real. This is really what so many people feel, it's nice you took the time to explain it! You seem like an awesome person, all the best to you. And if this lifestyle doesn't make you happy, you can always, whitout an explanation, stop and get away from the public life.. you don't owe us anything, remember that.
You are extremely well articulated. I relate. I suffered from depression my whole life and it does go through such drastic ups and downs. You are as genuine as it gets.
I wish so much I could just sit down and talk to you. You’re such a safe person and such a relatable person. And as much as we all love and appreciate you being so beautifully transparent, I want you to know that you definitely aren’t alone either. I struggle with mental health as well and its just such a comfort to know there are others out there who understand sometimes erratic emotions.
Julia I have been watching your videos for years now and I am so happy with the success you are receiving. You come across as one of the most authentic, genuine youtubers and I love your content! Im so sad I missed your london meet up ☹️ I hope you had a lovely time here and just want to say keep doing what you are doing because we are here for you and support you 1 million percent of the way 🥰 xxxx
Wow, thank you so much Julia this really hit home. I have borderline disorder and have traits of bipolar as well. It’s so so hard to tell people because there is such a terrible stigma behind these mental illnesses. This made my heart feel so much lighter knowing that someone I look up to feels the same as me
Julia...you’re an amazing freaking person I just want you to know that. I can relate so much to you and I admire that you’re just you and so different from a lot of other content creators you’re truly amazing don’t stop being you 😘😘😘
I've just discovered you and subscribed. I've watched 2 of your ASMR videos so far and I can honestly say you have a gift and talent for ASMR. Believe me and others when we tell you that you're truly providing a much needed service of support and healing for those like me who need it to survive. Thank you so much for your hard work and for sharing your talents. You are worth it!!
I don’t talk to my siblings either. Family is hard sometimes. ♥️
I think the world of you and by no means want you to feel pressure from that. You’re an amazing presence on the internet and in the world and I’m very grateful for you as you changed my life for the better. Not drastically but in lots of small ways. Thank you. I hope you feel better soon