"Crazy Cozmo" - Veteran Marine With PTSD & Bipolar Disorder

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  • Опубликовано: 10 ноя 2015
  • “Crazy Cozmo” is a Marine Corps. veteran who lives with PTSD and bipolar disorder. He also wrestles with the abuse he experienced as a child.
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Комментарии • 161

  • @damiontaylor24
    @damiontaylor24 3 года назад +21

    i was dignosed with ptsd 7 months ago, I worked as a firefighter /paramedic. I was 325 lbs now im 215 lbs and i train every day. weightlifting saved my life. 100 %

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  3 года назад

      Thank you for sharing this part of your story. We are happy to hear that you are taking care of yourself.

  • @samisosa9105
    @samisosa9105 8 лет назад +35

    You have more balls than most people I know including myself for being able to talk about all this bro. All I do is choke on my own words like a little bitch and can never finish a sentence. You are my hero! Semper Fi

    • @charlenemack7040
      @charlenemack7040 2 года назад +5

      I just found your comment today February 19, 2022! You left that comment five years ago.... I hope things have gotten better for you to where you are able to speak up for yourself! I hope you have a good support system.... I hope you have found a good therapist, there are some really kind caring therapists out there! Please try and get back to me and let me know how you are doing! Please stay as safe as possible with this pandemic....it can get a little scary at times! 👍😄😎

  • @yehudapaley3752
    @yehudapaley3752 Год назад +3

    I never comment on youtube, but i feel this may help me just to say here. I am almost 22 years old. Today, I just learned that i happen to be blessed with these very things. The ptsd and the bipolar. It's nice knowing that there are other people. I am also a vet who served in a foreign country's military

  • @ellalinna8370
    @ellalinna8370 8 лет назад +10

    i struggle with bibolar and ptsd, so its amazing that this guy has a chance to tell his story. it can be extremely difficult, but you know, theres always hope.

    • @JohnDoe-nm3lg
      @JohnDoe-nm3lg 5 лет назад

      teabell iknow she probably self diagnosed lol

  • @CynthiaLouwho
    @CynthiaLouwho Год назад +3

    With tears in my eyes I tell you that you're my hero because you understand me. Thank you for your enormous courage to make this video.

  • @RichRobinson
    @RichRobinson 2 года назад +5

    What a badass. He’s right, it takes strength to show your weakness.

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  2 года назад

      Love to hear that Cozmo's message resonates with you!

  • @rasheedahtalib2361
    @rasheedahtalib2361 10 месяцев назад +2

    You ARE A FREAKING HERO!!! Your Bravery is helping so many people in diverse ways. Our SOURCE CREATOR through YOU and the rest of the Brave Sharers have given me the motivation to stop being afraid and embarrassed to speak my truth. I've struggled with Depression all my life. Now it has reared it's ugly head through other generations of my family. Thank you for being my hero. You're a huge blessing for the world indeed, you ARE a Hero!;;❤🤗❤

  • @jamesturpin1777
    @jamesturpin1777 5 лет назад +12

    I went through a lot of the same thing. Thank you for letting me know I'm ok. It can get lonely in here at times. I watch you when I need the end of your continuing story.

    • @kebab5165
      @kebab5165 4 года назад

      God bless and may God strengthen you through your test, you are never truly alone, God is with you wherever you may be.

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  4 года назад

      James, we're so glad to know that Cozmo's story has supported you.

  • @deavonrainey8634
    @deavonrainey8634 8 лет назад +10

    Crazy Cosmo you are my HERO your amazing your a true fighter I've always dreamed to go to the Marines im only 13 years old and I love the Marines

    • @Taylor_mamaof2
      @Taylor_mamaof2 4 года назад +1

      Deavon Rainey Are you still wanting to join the marines in a few years? I’m guessing you’re 16 now. That’s an awesome dream for a little 13 year old boy, to want to do something so much bigger than yourself. To fight for your country. God bless you ❤️

  • @niksgee
    @niksgee 8 лет назад +9

    Hey I just wanted to say hi. I have lived with Bipolar all of my life. That was the easy part (ha - well at least I had some fun, lots of it sometimes) - then a horrific event happened. That took my daughters life and I thought I would die too, I was then held captive and mentally abused for years. I was diagnosed PTSD severe chronic. Today 6 years later, I still go back to the hell that is PTSD. PTSD is horrific. It is understated - someone ask me which would I prefer? If I had to lose one? I would lose PTSD every single time. It is tough huh? ....

  • @MikeMahleraggressivestrength
    @MikeMahleraggressivestrength 8 лет назад +4

    Fantastic stuff Robert!

  • @persevere6326
    @persevere6326 3 года назад +4

    Excellent
    52 and an abrupt onset of childhood trauma came to the surface....
    This guy gives me hope

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  3 года назад +1

      Oh Scott, hope that you are getting the support that you need. Thank you very much for watching.

  • @pastorhope9143
    @pastorhope9143 8 лет назад +2

    God bless you! Outstanding! And thank you for your courage to protect us!

  • @Havre_Chithra
    @Havre_Chithra Год назад +2

    Bi polar, PTSD and ADHD here. People think I'm nuts, but I can't blame them; I feel the same about them.

    • @McCorduRoy1972
      @McCorduRoy1972 3 месяца назад +1

      Living in a clown world I can relate to that.

  • @tacym09
    @tacym09 7 лет назад +1

    Much Love. You are a hero.

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  4 года назад

      Thanks for your encouragement, Tacy!

  • @sheepdog1102
    @sheepdog1102 3 года назад +1

    Great attitude and good medicine!

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  3 года назад

      Yes, we agree!

  • @umerzafartarar8063
    @umerzafartarar8063 5 лет назад +3

    Cozmo you are a hero..i kind of got the same story and i look up to you...keep fighting the good fight sir..

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  4 года назад

      Thanks so much for sharing that you could relate to Cozmo's challenges and recovery, it's so important to share these connections when we can.

  • @mistamaccapone5150
    @mistamaccapone5150 Год назад

    Good to know there are similar stories for other veterans to have a place of reference

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  Год назад +1

      Honored to know that Cozmo's story resonated with you.

  • @ryanhalford6328
    @ryanhalford6328 7 лет назад +2

    Wonderful man

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  4 года назад

      We love to hear that, Ryan!

  • @BILLBADASHAW2011
    @BILLBADASHAW2011 8 лет назад +1

    GOD BLESS AND GOOD LUCK.

  • @charlenemack7040
    @charlenemack7040 2 года назад +1

    ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ to all those struggling with any kind of mental illness issues!

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  Год назад +1

      💙 💙 💙

  • @jamesgibbs5839
    @jamesgibbs5839 3 года назад +2

    I can relate to your childhood, I too have had PTSD since very young age... I applaud you my friend for having the attitude, willpower, & compassion to tell us your story. I am probably 15-20 yrs older than you. My dad was Rocky Marciano's best friend and sparring partner. Hammering Harley Gibbs was his ring name, 31 wins 28 knock outs. I have had very similar training that you have had. Same attitude. Crying ? Oh yes we all need an emotional piss once in awhile myself definitely included. Stay Safe Stay Healthy Stay Positive my friend. Yes You are a Hero,, Thank you for my Freedom Brother. AMEN.

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  3 года назад

      Hello, James, and thank you for leaving such a wonderful comment for Robert ( @supercrazycosmo ). Hope that you too have an outlet and support in your life. Take good care, be well, be safe.

  • @elisemachuover3764
    @elisemachuover3764 2 года назад +1

    Your a hero to me!!

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  2 года назад

      We love to hear that, Elise!

  • @ASMinor
    @ASMinor 5 лет назад

    I'm a #veteran, I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my RUclips channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙❤

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  3 года назад

      Hope that all is well with you! Thank for for doing what you do, its so important.

  • @thatextrachromosometho7345
    @thatextrachromosometho7345 6 лет назад +2

    What an amazing person

    • @kebab5165
      @kebab5165 4 года назад

      God's freinds on earth, they are hard to find but are amongst us, doing his work and spreading good in a time of darkness. May God bless you and all those who do good. If you do good, more good will come God willing.

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  4 года назад

      So glad the Cozmo's story spoke to you!

  • @pantscereal
    @pantscereal 3 года назад +1

    Thanks for sharing brother. It wasn’t until years out that I found out I’m dealing w past demons. I followed the same path youre on: working out, bjj,boxing,running. Those were my medications, until meds were needed. That’s how I handled it. Also, jersey city wasn’t the best place growing up when I did in the 90’s.The world thinks: oh you were in the Marines, that’s the toughest branch.” Yeah well, there’s a payoff to that once you’re no longer needed. Everything you suppressed, comes back biting. It would have been an honor to meet you in person, thank you for shining and being an example of hope. Semper Fi!

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  3 года назад

      Cesar, thank you for watching and leaving this thoughtful message. We hope that you are doing well.

  • @antoniogrant8
    @antoniogrant8 Год назад +3

    I’m bipolar and I realize staying active is best for us.. I recently gotten into boxing too. And comedy is my medicine! And I’m really appreciative this guy turning the negative bout his journey into a positive. Respect. Thank you. Idk if I should go to the marines cause they may not accept me due to my psychological condition. Any chance? Idk

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  Год назад

      Love hearing that boxing and comedy have been supportive on your recovery journey 💙

    • @evanm6739
      @evanm6739 Год назад

      If you are psycho then the marines will take you. Just don’t lie at MEPS

  • @Pfsif
    @Pfsif 3 года назад +3

    Coz, check out Lisa Romano's book "Loving the Self" Affirmation book for understanding childhood PTSD.

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  3 года назад +1

      Thank you for watching and for the tip!

  • @savosnip3z
    @savosnip3z 4 года назад +2

    Its important I reach out to this man... he would be a great peer advocate

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  4 года назад

      Hi Orlando, try connecting with Cozmo on Facebook: facebook.com/supercrazycozmo.

  • @charlenemack7040
    @charlenemack7040 2 года назад +2

    About seven months ago I let a former Marine, Who does cover songs on his drum webpage, know that I have a mental illness called ‘ borderline personality disorder‘, I always let people know that this is NOT A confidential thing with me! I let him know how much his drumming and his fantastic sense of humor in his videos helps with my depression! He was kind enough to let me know that he has PTSD anxiety and depression! Since the Internet is not a confidential situation, we do not talk too much about our depression! I did let him know that I have a therapist and we talk on the phone once a week, no office visits due to the pandemic at the moment! He let me know that he has a VA appointed psychologist and goes twice a week! I believe we have helped each other greatly even discussing this in a very tiny way! We both have, I believe, some hope in getting better! Talking with a therapist is one of the most important ways to start getting some hope in our lives! The trick is to take one day at a time, and even if today is one fucked up day it can change in a few hours and you can be on the upswing of getting even a little better! Let’s not give up! 🤞🙏🏼. Sometimes 😦😪🤧 but, somestimes 🙂😉😊!

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  Год назад +1

      Charlene - thank you for taking the time to share this anecdote and your encouragement. We agree that sharing with each other about our mental health journeys is a powerful catalyst for recovery and change.

    • @charlenemack7040
      @charlenemack7040 Год назад +1

      @@OC87RD boy oh boy what timing with your reply… I was extra sad today… It’s been a 45 maybe 50 year struggle with mental illness… I spoke with my therapist on the phone this past Friday I mentioned to her that September is suicide awareness prevention month… She did not know about this, we both laughed a tiny bit because I know about it yet she didn’t. Suicide crosses my mind throughout the day, I attempted in 1989 with sleeping pills… As you can see I failed at that. The funny thing is I bought a package of sleeping pills drove to McDonald’s got a diet soda parked my vehicle Took some sleeping pills I don’t recall how many (The fact that I got a sugar free soda when you think about it, I should’ve gone out with a large chocolate shake instead of a sugar-free soda LOL) The sleeping pill started working really fast and I panicked and I drove myself to the ER quickly but not fast enough to get a speeding ticket. Now I’m old have all kinds of aches and pains on top of my mental illness I have zero friends and I don’t know what else to say right now well I guess I can say I have the crisis line if I feel really bad I’ll give them a call.I don’t even recall leaving my original message here. Good night my computer is on one percent… I’ll be OK I just wish I had some friends

  • @Marine052191
    @Marine052191 7 лет назад +5

    I caught hell too...

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  4 года назад +1

      Thanks for letting us know you connected with Cozmo's story, helps people know they aren't alone in these experiences.

  • @beverlydwyer5162
    @beverlydwyer5162 8 лет назад +2

    Two Thumbs up for You ..

  • @marineforlifemclean850
    @marineforlifemclean850 5 лет назад +1

    Brother, I can totally relate! I too got knocked down the basement stairs for getting home 30 minutes late one time. It took me yrs and a couple of shrinks to figure why I was so full of rage...good luck, Semper Fi, and keep up the good work, Marine!

    • @JohnDoe-nm3lg
      @JohnDoe-nm3lg 5 лет назад

      marineforlife mclean I did to except he was my stepdad .

    • @marineforlifemclean850
      @marineforlifemclean850 5 лет назад +1

      John Doe Hope you are doing well, man...Best lesson I learned was don't pass that shit on to your kids. I thank God I joined the Marine Corps when I did, it probably prevented me from becoming a violent criminal...

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  4 года назад

      Thanks for sharing that story, and that you can relate to Cozmo's challenges and recovery, it helps to hear from other people's experiences, too.

  • @pineapplesideways3820
    @pineapplesideways3820 3 года назад +2

    I need to start to take medication because my rage is shocking

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  3 года назад

      Hope that you find what you need and be well.

    • @brazillionairemma1373
      @brazillionairemma1373 3 года назад

      You will learn to identify your triggers and overcome it I believe In you brother

  • @vieuxacadian9455
    @vieuxacadian9455 2 года назад +1

    Go easy as You can my veteran brother . I can identify with some of your story .

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  2 года назад

      Thanks for sharing that you relate with Cozmo's story, his recovery is certainly a power of example.

  • @battlechampnik
    @battlechampnik Год назад

    Is there a way I can talk to this guy? I'm in a similar experience with him and would really like his mentorship.

  • @johnfogarty1874
    @johnfogarty1874 6 лет назад +1

    "I went through this stuff for a reason.. I kinda wanna flip it.. why can't I be a hero in a certain way to somebody"

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  4 года назад

      Thanks for lifting up that quote from Cozmo, John!

  • @davidtichborne5090
    @davidtichborne5090 5 лет назад

    I served in cadets for 2 years and they offered me to go to the military and I remembered watching war movies of war veterans and then them coming home with ptsd so and that scared the s*** out of me and so I said he'll no I'm not risking getting ptsd so I didn't unfortunately thanks to a being abused sort of like what he describes I already do have and yes it really is horrible

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  3 года назад

      Hope that you are doing well. Thank you for watching and leaving your message.

  • @DianaKazimiera-
    @DianaKazimiera- Год назад

    ❤️🕊️

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  Год назад +1

      Thank you for the support!

  • @davemccottery
    @davemccottery 7 лет назад +2

    Very gutsy! I am 45, former Marine of 13 years just got diagnosed bipolar 1 with a heaping of PTSD. I only went because I separated from my wife and blew my entire 401k. I'm just starting with 900mg of lithium. something is starting to happen.

    • @dubkodiak6758
      @dubkodiak6758 7 лет назад +1

      Hope you're doing well brother. I'm trying to accept my ptsd/issues as well.

    • @thatextrachromosometho7345
      @thatextrachromosometho7345 6 лет назад +1

      +Wpxjdnd Apxnxn Agreed.....the strongest, most cognitively effective medicine for PTSD and bi-polar is psychedelics...mushrooms specifically for me did the trick!

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  4 года назад

      Thanks so much for sharing the beginning of your recovery journey with us, Dave. Really glad to hear that Cozmo's story spoke to you.

    • @donotlookatmychannel5527
      @donotlookatmychannel5527 3 года назад

      @@thatextrachromosometho7345 your insane u have no idea wat ur talking abt

  • @feyolopez2520
    @feyolopez2520 4 года назад +3

    why does that happen to Marines? My nephew is going through this.

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  4 года назад +1

      So sorry to hear that your nephew is going through this, Feyo. We genuinely hope that he finds recovery support that works for him.

    • @dustinmurphy5474
      @dustinmurphy5474 3 года назад

      Because marines have a stress put on em that they’re going to combat constantly especially infantry

  • @iKiIIedThePromQueen
    @iKiIIedThePromQueen 6 месяцев назад

    I am losing. And would appreciate some word.

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  6 месяцев назад

      Hi. I responded to this, twice, the moment after I saw it, and my response looks like it got deleted. I don't get it. Anyway, what I said was that there is no losing in this life; there is only the next day or hour or minute or moment, and we have to fight sometimes to get there. I know, believe me. I run the organization that made this video and I see you, and I hope you keep fighting for your life.
      If you need to, please call, text, or chat 988 or text Hello to 741741; all you have to do is talk, and they will listen. I know some of the people on the other end of those phones and many of them have been where you are; they understand.

  • @donquihote6023
    @donquihote6023 Год назад +1

    Glad He is doing well. Many shit people hinder recovery, intentionally cause further trauma to boost their fragile egos or carress the evil, envious Ids. Saying people are weak??? Those manly men who look for weakness in others fail to understand the strength it takes to operate daily in a Civil way, to work toward Normalcy around plain crap people. Keep up the Good Work Marine.

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  Год назад

      Thank you for the support 💙

  • @runTellDat99
    @runTellDat99 Год назад

    Magic mushrooms have helped me out alot!

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  Год назад

      Glad you've found what helps you!

  • @corbinholmes3752
    @corbinholmes3752 7 лет назад

    So I had be diagnosed with Bipolar Depression from a retired Psychiatrist because I didn't have the money to get a real one and find this out earlier in life from an working one. I've wanted to go into the USMC as an Combat Engineer at least but I've been given feedback that that's a no go because of the diagnostic. It's times like these that I'd ask was that exactly true or not since this guy here has PTSD and is Bipolar and he served. So which the fuck is it?! I don't see myself joining now since I'm 28, I don't know if they'll accept me under these conditions...

    • @redstoyotarunnerwithstri-hp9gm
      @redstoyotarunnerwithstri-hp9gm 4 года назад

      my friend is in a similar situation, is there a way I can talk to you about this?!

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  4 года назад

      We hope you found the support you were looking for, Corbin, and we wish you all the best.

  • @Heavypotsmoker
    @Heavypotsmoker 7 лет назад +1

    Reminds me of Ken Shamrock

  • @johndwyer5246
    @johndwyer5246 3 месяца назад

    Explain, sorry for being abrupt, call to ireland we like to listen

  • @RahzeeAlibaba
    @RahzeeAlibaba 8 лет назад +6

    God, would I like to talk to you. Semper Fi 1/4.

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  4 года назад

      We love to know that Cozmo's story resonated with you, Rahzee.

    • @RahzeeAlibaba
      @RahzeeAlibaba 4 года назад

      @@OC87RD Should I leave my thoughts here? Or another medium?

  • @sharonendler1467
    @sharonendler1467 9 месяцев назад

    Try a keto diet as well !Love the name and thank you for your service young man!
    I am so sorry you went through so Damn much!!!
    God Bless you !!!

  • @SuperTf2rocks
    @SuperTf2rocks 5 лет назад

    Something needs to be done about the state of war in our current age. In my opinion, Countries that are currently undertaking the war on terrorism need to start forming a more robot-centered type of warfare. No more sending kids out to some country and having them be scarred for life. I'm a mechanical engineering student. I wish one day I could make this happen, develop new and innovative ways of waging wars. I'm going to apply for a job at Lockheed Martin and revolutionize how war is fought.

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  3 года назад

      A world without violence is what we hope for too.

  • @johnnyd5537
    @johnnyd5537 7 лет назад +5

    Semper Fi, OOHRAH!!!!

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  4 года назад

      Thanks, Johnny!

  • @pineapplesideways3820
    @pineapplesideways3820 3 года назад +2

    Hero your having mania haha

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  3 года назад

      thank you for watching.

  • @alfredolpzjr
    @alfredolpzjr 3 года назад

    🤛

  • @jarekmazi4281
    @jarekmazi4281 2 года назад

    I am HSP person and I guess suffer ptsd a bit after police went into my house with guns to arrest my father when I was 6 old while watching it all in 1995

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  Год назад +1

      Thank you for sharing your experience and awful what you went through; hoping that you are getting the support that you need to navigate the impact.

    • @jarekmazi4281
      @jarekmazi4281 Год назад

      @@OC87RD actually I never get any support from country where was born nowadays I realised to find psychologist tho not too sure will help me still living with impact trying o be normal hard working man tho shadows of past bites sometimes some days anyway thank you

    • @jarekmazi4281
      @jarekmazi4281 Год назад

      @@OC87RD yeah system who caused this issue in my mind totally left me alone with problem

  • @natashaalli1844
    @natashaalli1844 6 лет назад +1

    wow he's gorgeous!! 😍

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  4 года назад

      Glad you enjoyed, Natasha!

    • @decoy1312
      @decoy1312 3 года назад

      @@OC87RD she enjoyed him

  • @evanm6739
    @evanm6739 Год назад

    I understand that this is propaganda and he’s an actor but these type of people are very dangerous when they get angry and are best left out of the military.

  • @ayv-
    @ayv- 10 месяцев назад +1

    +1 for jiu-jitsu

  • @stevemcqueen1916
    @stevemcqueen1916 6 лет назад

    5'7" and a buck thirty five

  • @ravishingrickfree7516
    @ravishingrickfree7516 Год назад

    A loving girlfriend and lot’s of sex also helps out tremendously

    • @OC87RD
      @OC87RD  Год назад

      Glad you've found what helps you, Rick!

  • @veterangrower1879
    @veterangrower1879 5 лет назад

    Hoah soldier

  • @RR_DM
    @RR_DM 7 месяцев назад

    Dang I just hope my nu-nah reads this, I'd hate to have seen you dodge all those bullets and IED's in Iraq and Afghanistan just to succumb to suicide and not be able to enjoy the life you've earned🍔🍺