@@rachelrich4772 took me like 5 songs to realize he wasn't. With his emotion that's a lot of scratching words off of the paper lol. Ppl r sleepin on your comment. I liked it
Broking legs < are you kidding me? Its spelled Broken, what you say is true. I do agree with you, but when you can't even spell you lose all power behind your words. -_-
+Jeffrey Whit Do you judge others and point out their flaws and shortcomings because you can't stand to look in the mirror? That's the way it appears, but in all honestly, I'm guilty of the same. Thankfully, I finally worked up the courage to look at myself and what was hurting me inside that I acted that way. I pray you'll use your words to help build others up in the future, not tear them down because you can't face yourself.
"When you're happy, you enjoy the music. When you're sad, you understand the lyrics." I will always remember this quote because 99% of my life I've turned to music when I'm down. His music is always going to be what I listen to.😍❤👌
legit, my mum passed away 25/12/09. I was 6. I then moved to live with my dad, he abused me for 3 years. I listen to this song, and I just break. really hits home.
Hearing this on "Hope" that released today made me mad nostalgic. I remember listening to this when I was 14/15. I turned 21 last week. Shit man, i've been listening to NF for quite a while
You know what to do 1- Mansion 2- Why 3- Lie 4- Outcast 5- Therapy Session 6- Like this 7- If You Want Love 8- Wake up 9- Options 10- When I Grow Up 11- Leave me alone 12- Only 13- Change 14- Paid My Dues 15- Hate Myself 16- Dreams 17- I Miss The Days 18- Lost In The Moment 19- Let Me Down 20- My Stress 21- The Search 22- How Could You Leave Us
My mom just died and my wife left me over the depression, anxiety and anger that it left behind, so thank you for letting me know that I'm not alone. Every verse resonates with my heart.
Im really sorry for you because I know how that feels, my dad died and my Boyfriend decided to leave me because I got depressed over it. NF was my medicine and it still is
I love all NF's songs but unlike some of you I can't relate because honestly I've never had to deal with any of that real shit like drugs, abuse, death. Stay strong guys.
be grateful for not being able to relate. good jams by mr NF. he gets me through my daily pain, from a scarred child hood i still struggle to understand
Death By A Birdy there are some things someone shouldn't have to experience, be thankful you haevnt been drug through shit as I have. it scrapes away bits of you. I've lost the majority of emotion, pain is one of the only feeling I have left, which is why I used to actively seek it. be greatful brother.
That line hit harder that Mike Tyson. Jokes aside his lyrics are so relatable it hurts. Some genius once said that music isn't good until you can feel it
Nathan gives the kids with anger problem and depression a voice, and I’m glad. I use him as an outlet, cause without this type of music, I fall back into my old mindset. I’m so grateful for him. Mansion hits me really hard. Never cried during a song until now.
I agree... sometimes when you have depression you dont know how to describe it but in his way he does it. Hell he's helping me go threw this thing called life. I wish I could give a hug and tell him that he ain't alone.
"Mansion" (feat. Fleurie) [Chorus - Fleurie:] Insidious is blind inception What's reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) Broken legs but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion [Verse 1 - NF:] Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics They're all over the place, there's songs in the mirrors Written all over the floors, all over the chairs And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release And let out the version of NF you don't want to see I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground Matter of fact I think I'm a burn this room right now So now this memory for some reason just won't come down You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind But I'mma keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside [Chorus - Fleurie:] Insidious is blind inception What's reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) Broken legs but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion) [Verse 2 - NF:] Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain See my problem is I don't fix things I just try to repaint, cover em up, like it never happened Say I wish I could change. Are you confused? Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean This room's full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller it seems The moment I walk in to it is the same moment that I wanna leave I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep I look around. One of the worst things I wrote on these walls Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom And one of the first things I wrote was "I wish I would've called" But I should just stop now, we ain't got enough room in this song And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it's out of my hands Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive And at the rate I'm going they'll probably still be there when I die Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind The question is: Will I ever clean the walls off in time? [Chorus - Fleurie:] Insidious is blind inception What's reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) Broken legs but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion) [Verse 3 - NF:] So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there 'Cause if I do, there's a chance That they might disappear and not come back And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside So I just leave my doors locked You might get other doors to open up but this doors not 'Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me I'm barricaded inside So stop watching I'm not coming to the door So stop knocking, stop knocking I'm trapped here God keep saying I'm not locked in I chose this I am lost in my own conscience I know that shutting the world out ain't solving the problem But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em I built it because I thought that it would be safer in there But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here Fear came to my house years ago I let 'em in Maybe that's the problem 'Cause I've been dealing with this ever since I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in Now I'm in the position it's either sit here and let him win Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can 'Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors Is that me or the fear talking? I don't know anymore It's lonely Oh yeah it's lonely [Fleurie:] Inside this mansion
if it weren’t for NF i wouldn’t be alive right now. he got me through my darkest times. and he still is getting me through my dark times. he has no idea how he saved me.
Same bro.. his songs make me feel like there are other people out there who have the same problems as means that I'm not alone because the lyrics are so relatable. If it weren't for him I'd be dead
"And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it’s out of my hands Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans"
Insidious is blind inception What's reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) Broken legs but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics They're all over the place, there's songs in the mirrors Written all over the floors, all over the chairs And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release And let out the version of NF you don't want to see I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground Matter of fact I think I'm a burn this room right now So now this memory for some reason just won't come down You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind But I'm a keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside Insidious is blind inception What's reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) Broken legs but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion) Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain See my problem is I don't fix things I just try to repaint, cover em up, like it never happen Say I wish I could change. Are you confused? Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean This room's full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller it seems The moment I walk in to it is the same moment that I wanna leave I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep I look around. One of the worst things I wrote on these walls Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom And one of the first things I wrote was "I wish I would've called" But I should just stop now, we ain't got enough room in this song And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it's out of my hands Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive And at the rate I'm going they'll probably still be there when I die Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind The question is: Will I ever clean the walls off in time? Insidious is blind inception What's reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) Broken legs but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion) So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there Cause if I do, there's a chance That they might disappear and not come back And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside So I just leave my doors locked You might get other doors to open up but this doors not Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me I'm barricaded inside So stop watching I'm not coming to the door So stop knocking, stop knocking I'm trapped here God keep saying I'm not locked in I chose this I am lost in my own conscience I know that shutting the world out ain't solving the problem But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em I built it because I thought that it would be safer in there But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here Fear came to my house years ago I let 'em in Maybe that's the problem Cause I've been dealing with this ever since I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in Now I'm in the position it's either sit here and let him win Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors Is that me or the fear talking? I don't know anymore
@@Nick-cu6ir lol I learned the lyrics like after listening to it the second time also nice job writing them you got all the lyrics I sang them when I was reading it lol. Thanks
Insidious is blind Inception. What's reality with all these questions? Fells like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) *Yeah im not doing this I memorized the lyrics now, though
"And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside So I just leave my doors locked You might get other doors to open up but this doors not 'Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me" man this is so true
@@staticshock2012 I'm doing way better now than I was then, a mindset change and giving myself the purpose of taking care of my family financially and physically when it comes to the house
I'm 20 years old now and was stuck in my head about what other people thought of me until I realized I only truly cared for my immediate family when it came to giving a helping hand
I grew up in a place where love had a price tag. I could never pay the price and what made it ten times worse was the fact that no one else could see it. Everyone told me they loved me and always would, but I never felt loved. I can't remember being hugged unless I asked. I can't remember people saying they were proud of me unless it was forced or coerced. I wasn't abused but I felt lonely, isolated, and unloved. Now, I'm constantly scared that people will leave me. I hate people getting close to me, but I cling to anyone who shows the slightest interest in me. I don't know how to love properly. I don't know how to balance it out so I just give everything to people and I usually end up broken. I hate this. I wish I could function alone, but being alone causes my demons to come out. They wrap their arms around me and whisper in my ear. They reach inside me and crush my heart and leave me shaking in fear. Its like I'm drowning, struggling to breathe. I'm so scared. I'm so fucking scared you'll get close, so sacred you'll leave. I'm absolutely fucking terrified I will have to go through this alone, but I'm always alone so why am I sacred? Or am I sacred because I know what happens when I'm alone? I don't know anymore, but I don't know how much longer I can take this...
I think all of NF’s r e a l fans need to straight up pray for him, can’t imagine walking in his shoes fully, but i know what it is like to be in darkness alone. So if ya love him, pray for him! ❤
[Chorus - Fleurie:] Insidious is blind inception What's reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) Broken legs but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion [Verse 1 - NF:] Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics They're all over the place, there's songs in the mirrors Written all over the floors, all over the chairs And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release And let out the version of NF you don't want to see I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground Matter of fact I think I'm a burn this room right now So now this memory for some reason just won't come down You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind But I'm a keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside [Chorus - Fleurie:] Insidious is blind inception What's reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) Broken legs but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion) [Verse 2 - NF:] Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain See my problem is I don't fix things I just try to repaint, cover em up, like it never happen Say I wish I could change. Are you confused? Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean This room's full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller it seems The moment I walk in to it is the same moment that I wanna leave I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep I look around. One of the worst things I wrote on these walls Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom And one of the first things I wrote was "I wish I would've called" But I should just stop now, we ain't got enough room in this song And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it's out of my hands Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive And at the rate I'm going they'll probably still be there when I die Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind The question is: Will I ever clean the walls off in time? [Chorus - Fleurie:] Insidious is blind inception What's reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) Broken legs but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion) [Verse 3 - NF:] So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there Cause if I do, there's a chance That they might disappear and not come back And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside So I just leave my doors locked You might get other doors to open up but this doors not Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me I'm barricaded inside So stop watching I'm not coming to the door So stop knocking, stop knocking I'm trapped here God keep saying I'm not locked in I chose this I am lost in my own conscience I know that shutting the world out ain't solving the problem But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em I built it because I thought that it would be safer in there But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here Fear came to my house years ago I let 'em in Maybe that's the problem Cause I've been dealing with this ever since I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in Now I'm in the position it's either sit here and let him win Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors Is that me or the fear talking? I don't know anymore
Last verse just hits home, when you lock yourself in, and then the devil breaks through... God keeps knocking but you are afraid to open the doors, and to kick the devil out of your "Mansion" you gotta open up the doors... Gotta step over yourselves people and accept that God wants you to find comfort in Him.
Lyrics:[Chorus - Fleurie:] Insidious is blind inception What's reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) Broken legs but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion [Verse 1 - NF:] Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics They're all over the place, there's songs in the mirrors Written all over the floors, all over the chairs And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release And let out the version of NF you don't want to see I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground Matter of fact I think I'm a burn this room right now So now this memory for some reason just won't come down You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind But I'mma keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside [Chorus - Fleurie:] Insidious is blind inception What's reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) Broken legs but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion) [Verse 2 - NF:] Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain See my problem is I don't fix things I just try to repaint, cover em up, like it never happened Say I wish I could change. Are you confused? Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean This room's full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller it seems The moment I walk in to it is the same moment that I wanna leave I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep I look around. One of the worst things I wrote on these walls Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom And one of the first things I wrote was "I wish I would've called" But I should just stop now, we ain't got enough room in this song And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it's out of my hands Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive And at the rate I'm going they'll probably still be there when I die Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind The question is: Will I ever clean the walls off in time? [Chorus - Fleurie:] Insidious is blind inception What's reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) Broken legs but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion) [Verse 3 - NF:] So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there 'Cause if I do, there's a chance That they might disappear and not come back And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside So I just leave my doors locked You might get other doors to open up but this doors not 'Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me I'm barricaded inside So stop watching I'm not coming to the door So stop knocking, stop knocking I'm trapped here God keep saying I'm not locked in I chose this I am lost in my own conscience I know that shutting the world out ain't solving the problem But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em I built it because I thought that it would be safer in there But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here Fear came to my house years ago I let 'em in Maybe that's the problem 'Cause I've been dealing with this ever since I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in Now I'm in the position it's either sit here and let him win Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can 'Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors Is that me or the fear talking? I don't know anymore It's lonely Oh yeah it's lonely [Fleurie:] Inside this mansion
You need to learn how to control your mind , not to let it control you . I see that your nickname is "Immune" so I think that youve already learned how to do it . Wish you all the best🤟👌
this man's music saved lot of people from suicide or self-harm including me, you helped us and got u through our darkest times . We love you Nathan 🖤🖤🖤
Not to get all fake deep and mushy on you guys but these lyrics give me goosebumps. It's so tragically beautiful. These lyrics just resonate with me so much. NF is truly a legend. Ok I'm done fangirling.
"I'm not the only thing living in here!" That gave me massive goosebumps, it's not only the lyrics, it's the way he says them, absolutely breathtaking in a way
This song is the definition of my whole life, and it’s crazy. Like every word Nate’s saying in this video relates to my whole life. Because everyone probably relates to this song too. And I love it. 😞😔😀👍🔥
+JohnnySaintCloud EXACTLY, he doesnt like to be compared to eminem, but to me he really does sound like (and i like to call him) "the christian eminem"
Honestly, I hate the people on here that are like,"Only the people that have been listening since they started are real fans." Bullshit. I only discovered NF recently, but I love this music.
defne erkan I use NF and my dog as a coping mechanism, my dad often calls me a retard, he’s not wrong though, I’m just a dumb, stupid, idiot who doesn’t deserve to live.. NF is the reason I’m still here today, well a combined effort of him and my dog, Willow
I was put on nf after The Search had already come out, I had heard him on the radio in 2017 but my friend showed me more of his music and I am going to a clouds concert in a few months
God speaks to me through this song. I was a victim of molestation and been suicidal for 3 years... I'm not gonna let those events define me, I'm brand new, I'm not gonna let this be in my identity. Thank you NF for speaking the truth with your music.
Douglas Joya Maybe, but if it helped him get through hard times we shouldn't judge. please man just think foe seven seconds before you jump to defend your opinion and destroy others.
I don't usually listen to rap, but I heard this in the gym last night and was pretty impressed. I love how he carries such an extended metaphor with the house and walls...
Thank you Mr. NF, My brother has been listening to your music for close to a year now and has recently introduced me to your songs. I was shocked how hard your lyrics hit me when I first heard them. Our mother committed suicide several years ago after our parents divorced. It has been a huge struggle for our family and for a long time made me lose complete faith in God. My brother and I were able to closely reconnect after listening to you and find an outlet for some of our harbored pain. Thank you so much for everything you have done for my family! God Bless!
I suffer from mental illness and a rough childhood. This song is a great description of what I go through, I couldn’t believe that someone wrote a song about what I go through. It helps me to release my emotions, that are hard for me to verbalize. A gift from God. I give him all. Honor and praise for giving you the ability to express the truth. May God continually bless you Nate.
"So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there Cause if I do, there's a chance That they might disappear and not come back And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside So I just leave my doors locked You might get other doors to open up but this doors not Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me I'm barricaded inside" I wish this weren't me.
I was raped by my uncle in my room from 3-11 I still can't sleep in it...It's hard to go into my room. I sleep in the living room and have server depression and anxiety and OCD. But this song , well he is inspring to still be here
Congratulations ❤️ I hope you’re still doing well. But if you’re not that’s ok. I’m glad you’re still here. Sending you so much love. Praying for you now. ❤️
This song gives me chills. I've faced several challenges in my life. When i was 17 my father and bestfriend past away from lung cancer. He coughed and busted his main vein in his lung and bleed out. I found him pale and stiff. now I'm 24 and I have a two kids and a wife. I almost lost my life at work and was rushed to the er. Now I've struggled with relearning things and dealing with ptsd. NF your music is REAL to me and it helps a lot. Thanks man
Southern Bushcraft when I was 7 (7 years ago) I got home from school with my brother and I saw my dad pale as fuck sitting on a chair looking up not moving and my brother got my aunt and mom and the police and I saw my dad dying right in front of my eyes with paramedics and my mom trying to push air in his lungs and they took him away and he died
BillyTheWalrus all I can say man is it's a struggle and weather you believe in God or not. I've learned to believe he won't put anything in your path you can't handle. Your path in life might have Alot of twists and turns. You may even have to turn around a few times. However you will end up on a good road at some point. The journey just may take awhile.
Southern Bushcraft my life has been a struggle ever since my dad went to jail then died and then my grandpa after which me my mom any brother were living with and then my grandma moved and me my brother and my mom barely had enough money to have electricity and a home so we didn't have a lot of food so we moved in my WITH my grandma and my great grandma died I ( was 9) after that my life was pretty good until my uncle my cousins dad and my grandpas brother died they were all awesome people and I gained depression at 11 from that and 3 years later nothing bad happened much besides the fact I have anxiety and depression
I think this song speaks to me in a way that no other song has. It's convicting. I didn't lose my mom to pills, I was never physically abused, and I've never been a violent town or witnessed a violent crime. But I have gotten so busy, so caught up in life that I basically shut down Spiritually. We don't have real time for God, so we pick a spot in the Bible, read it quickly, and run away to the rest of our life. Our souls become numb to our sin. I had gotten so good at doing this, until one day I realized my life was a mask. I told people I was fine, and I did all things that Christians are "supposed to do" while my head swam with anger, doubts, fear, and depression. I was a Pharisee. I pretended things were okay, when they really weren't. "Dear God, I love You, bless me today and tomorrow yada-yada-yada GOODNIGHT." It's songs like this that put you on your butt in the corner, tears flowing asking yourself what happened. Who would have thought that the Devil could use our routines and normal life against us? I didn't, but I know that now. To anyone out there feeling like this: take a break. Stop and yell. Pound your fists on the floor. Tell God how mad you are at Him. Let it out. He already knows. You can't actually HIDE your thoughts from Him. Your "Mansion" is an illusion. It's really not even a house. It's an excuse. So write on its walls. Pound them. Tear them down. Burn them. Then go outside of your walls in your mind, and confess. Feel the weight of your sin..drift away. Thank Him for everything, and commit to following Him closer. I apologize if you grew a large beard while reading this comment. God bless you and your new-found resemblance to Gandalf. PEACE! :)
Respect brotha..and I'm an atheist but it doesn't matter. I still respect you, your beliefs and anyone who follows a righteous path in life. We all gotta stick together in life, for all life is precious.
It's ok...Not than my mom cares...I overheard her 3 minutes ago....she said, "If you have PTSD SUCK IT UP!" That really...cut deep in my heart ;( She wouldn't be saying that if she actually experienced a million needles passing through your body every time trauma flashbacks happen when seeing other people going through the same thing as you or going completely numb until you can't form a fist. In fact, she'd be crying and having a breakdown just like me instead of telling people to suck it up. YOU CAN"T JUST SUCK IT UP! -_-
@@Bluemountain-l5i massive hugs sent your way hold your head high you're a million times better than those scumbags & I hope karma catches up with them soon
What do you guys see when you look in his eyes I see A man that looks broke, hurt, Depressed but most of all lost its like he doesn't know who he is anymore and it looks like he's scared because of something and hes depressed because of all this abuse and losses he had to go through.😥😔and abandonment
I see a man who has some mental health problems and lived a rough life, but through his persistence, he uses his pain to paint amazing canvases of how difficult life is. He constantly works with no breaks and constantly produces music to prove to everyone and prove to himself that he's alive.
Track "Nf" on Bandsintown "Mansion" (feat. Fleurie) [Chorus - Fleurie:] Insidious is blind inception What's reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) Broken legs but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion [Verse 1 - NF:] Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics They're all over the place, there's songs in the mirrors Written all over the floors, all over the chairs And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release And let out the version of NF you don't want to see I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground Matter of fact I think I'm a burn this room right now So now this memory for some reason just won't come down You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind But I'mma keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside [Chorus - Fleurie:] Insidious is blind inception What's reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) Broken legs but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion) [Verse 2 - NF:] Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain See my problem is I don't fix things I just try to repaint, cover em up, like it never happened Say I wish I could change. Are you confused? Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean This room's full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller it seems The moment I walk in to it is the same moment that I wanna leave I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep I look around. One of the worst things I wrote on these walls Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom And one of the first things I wrote was "I wish I would've called" But I should just stop now, we ain't got enough room in this song And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it's out of my hands Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive And at the rate I'm going they'll probably still be there when I die Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind The question is: Will I ever clean the walls off in time? [Chorus - Fleurie:] Insidious is blind inception What's reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) Broken legs but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion) [Verse 3 - NF:] So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there 'Cause if I do, there's a chance That they might disappear and not come back And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside So I just leave my doors locked You might get other doors to open up but this doors not 'Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me I'm barricaded inside So stop watching I'm not coming to the door So stop knocking, stop knocking I'm trapped here God keep saying I'm not locked in I chose this I am lost in my own conscience I know that shutting the world out ain't solving the problem But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em I built it because I thought that it would be safer in there But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here Fear came to my house years ago I let 'em in Maybe that's the problem 'Cause I've been dealing with this ever since I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in Now I'm in the position it's either sit here and let him win Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can 'Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors Is that me or the fear talking? I don't know anymore It's lonely Oh yeah it's lonely [Fleurie:] Inside this mansion
LYRICS!!!!!!!!! insidious is blind inception What's reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) Broken legs but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics They're all over the place, there's songs in the mirrors Written all over the floors, all over the chairs And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release And let out the version of NF you don't want to see I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground Matter of fact I think Ima burn this room right now So now this memory for some reason just won't come down You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind But Ima keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside Insidious is blind inception What's reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) Broken legs but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain See my problem is I don't fix things I just try to repaint, cover em up, like it never happen Say I wish I could change. Are you confused? Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean This room's full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller it seems The moment I walk in to it is the same moment that I wanna leave I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep I look around. One of the worst things I wrote on these walls Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom And one of the first things I wrote was I wish I would have called But I should just stop now, we ain't got enough room in this song And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it's out of my hands Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive And at the rate I'm going they'll probably still be there when I die Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind The question is, will I ever clean the walls off in time? Insidious is blind inception What's reality with all these questions? Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) Broken legs but I chase perfection These walls are my blank expression My mind is a home I'm trapped in And it's lonely inside this mansion So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there 'Cause if I do, there's a chance That they might disappear and not come back And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside So I just leave my doors locked You might get other doors to open up but this doors not 'Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me I'm barricaded inside So stop watching I'm not coming to the door So stop knocking, stop knocking I'm trapped here God keep saying I'm not locked in I chose this I am lost in my own conscience I know that shutting the wall down ain't solving the problem But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em I built it because I thought that it would be safer in there But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here Fear came to my house years ago I let 'em in Maybe that's the problem 'Cause I've been dealing with this ever since I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in Now I'm in the position it's either sit here and let him win Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can 'Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors Is that me or the fear talking? I don't know anymore
Not true in all cases, I do agree that we do ignore each-other and many may judge, but the ones who care about you the most usually make the correct judgement. Cause there is a correct way of Judgement, but to be judgmental is self-defeating
I wrote a poem inspired by this song to my current ex. THIS IS NOT POETRY My, my heart is like a house which I didn’t give you the spare key to, Because….scared to love again… But, you broke in, yet I don’t want you to leave because you have turned this house into a home, But, be warned, there is a freezer in the room to your left, Blame my ex, Before you take the next step, Be careful because I’m not done taking up the broken pieces of my heart, Sharp as glass so you might get hurt. This is not poetry! But, there is a door, behind that door I advise that you take a detour to not unravel what is behind. This is not poetry! The door reads fear, be scared,, beware for if you open it you will see the love that I am holding back because I fear that you will walk out the door like the others did. This is not poetry! Stop, turn left, hold your breath for the room marked Mrs. Right is toxic with my decomposed feelings for females who turned out to me Mrs. Wrong. This house has no elevator so you will have to take the stares, This is not an easy task because for this room to open you’ll have to fight fear, hate, anger and depression, Many have tried to break the locks for this door, they all failed, The key is not in this mansion, only Mrs. Right has it, It’s like trying to fit a simile to a metaphor, But, if you are the one just know, this is the door to my soul, A loyalty that has never been seen, A trust that has never been touch, The man within me, for my past has only seen the boy. Martin Robinson
'Broken legs but I chase perfection' is a lyric that will always resonate with me. Likewise: 'Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind, but I'm a keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside'
+Malik C-C because that is who he sounds like. Literally his voice sounds similar especially on those angry verses. Either way I feel like he's better than Eminem. His lyrics are better.
God Has given you talent no other has ever had, the ability to touch all walks of life and generation. We are so lucky to be alive to hear you heart beating on each and every track. you are the best period all Glory to Father & Son and holy spirit for blessing you with this true gift.
This boy knows how to talk about everyone's issues i swear
MyDay 6 without swearing.... that's the tough part
It's called testifying,
r/woosh
MyDay 6 Why do you swear?
@@rachelrich4772 took me like 5 songs to realize he wasn't. With his emotion that's a lot of scratching words off of the paper lol.
Ppl r sleepin on your comment. I liked it
“I’m not the only thing that’s living in here”
Damn, that’s deep
Yvette Pace yeah, I can see that
All his songs are deep they have a meaning
Yeah isy deep..Love the ptofile pic btw lol.
Bro good comment but yur prof pic is cursed lmfao
@@____PHENIX_____1 I’ve had it for like six years lol
This guy knows how to hit hard with his lyrics. So real.
Oh I see what you did there ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
+Allied Legend (Trinity Streams) xD
true💎
|-/
yes he does.
"HOPE" brought us back to Mansion🏃♂️
Fr, came back because of HOPE
FACTS LMAO
Facts
Indeed it did. Just had to hear this song again!
@@aisuaisu1923 facts
" Broken legs but i chase perfection " hit me so hard
So true
It is true.
So true!!!!!!
Broking legs < are you kidding me? Its spelled Broken, what you say is true. I do agree with you, but when you can't even spell you lose all power behind your words. -_-
+Jeffrey Whit Do you judge others and point out their flaws and shortcomings because you can't stand to look in the mirror? That's the way it appears, but in all honestly, I'm guilty of the same. Thankfully, I finally worked up the courage to look at myself and what was hurting me inside that I acted that way. I pray you'll use your words to help build others up in the future, not tear them down because you can't face yourself.
"When you're happy, you enjoy the music. When you're sad, you understand the lyrics." I will always remember this quote because 99% of my life I've turned to music when I'm down. His music is always going to be what I listen to.😍❤👌
Michala Nickels Even better, he’s s Christian!!!
But when the lyrics describe your life you'll feel it in your bones and soul
What's the time in the video?
Michala Nickels Agreed ❤️🤟🏽💯
@@BaconFaceMcGee pfffftttt
legit, my mum passed away 25/12/09. I was 6. I then moved to live with my dad, he abused me for 3 years. I listen to this song, and I just break. really hits home.
im very sorry to hear that stay strong god has a future for you have faith
i hope that your future will be brighter than it was before
Paige Lilly subscribe to me
that's sad ur ok tho
god bless you
Hearing this on "Hope" that released today made me mad nostalgic. I remember listening to this when I was 14/15. I turned 21 last week. Shit man, i've been listening to NF for quite a while
For what reasons?
@@VoidMySoul wdym??
You all have a wonderful day! You can reach your dreams! Just keep moving forward and don’t let anyone, even yourself tell you that your not worth it!
same man, except i just turned 16, ive listened to him since let you down blew up on the radio
@@gcbe same here man i was on the search hype train lmao
who else thinks there should be a music video for this song?
Nathan Camm That's what I said.
It's too good for a music video
I have an idea for one, but neither the ability or time to put it together.
I don't it's like a book I like to picture it for myself bc everyone will picture something different its called imagery
Nathan Camm I’ve thought this for years.
You know what to do
1- Mansion
2- Why
3- Lie
4- Outcast
5- Therapy Session
6- Like this
7- If You Want Love
8- Wake up
9- Options
10- When I Grow Up
11- Leave me alone
12- Only
13- Change
14- Paid My Dues
15- Hate Myself
16- Dreams
17- I Miss The Days
18- Lost In The Moment
19- Let Me Down
20- My Stress
21- The Search
22- How Could You Leave Us
Don't forget Only and Change 😏
And the other 40+ other amazing NF songs 😅
Paid my dues
Leave me alone
Lie, How could you leave us, and Time were my fav
Don’t let NF go to waste, he’s helping people like me through tough situations.
I know I'm late, but this man needs all the Grammys, he can help anyone who needs it just with his words
that is so true and he can help you in ways that you dont understand
Same
Same gl
@That1girl same "let you down" my gf broke up with me and my mom was rlly sick almost dead after I stopped I cried for an hour and prayed to
Damn... This is just too relatable, NF talks about everything fr!!!
My mom just died and my wife left me over the depression, anxiety and anger that it left behind, so thank you for letting me know that I'm not alone. Every verse resonates with my heart.
Jesse Disher I am so sorry, I can’t even begin to imagine having all that hit you at once 😔
Dont stop believing. 🤍
Im really sorry for you because I know how that feels, my dad died and my Boyfriend decided to leave me because I got depressed over it. NF was my medicine and it still is
I’m praying for you man I promise ❤️
My bio dad dies, my bio is a drug addict and I am here with a great life but I can't emotional and mentally be happy
I love all NF's songs but unlike some of you I can't relate because honestly I've never had to deal with any of that real shit like drugs, abuse, death. Stay strong guys.
be grateful for not being able to relate. good jams by mr NF. he gets me through my daily pain, from a scarred child hood i still struggle to understand
Death By A Birdy I honestly love this comment because you aren't trying to pretend like you struggled
I just hope you never relate for your own good.
Death By A Birdy there are some things someone shouldn't have to experience, be thankful you haevnt been drug through shit as I have. it scrapes away bits of you. I've lost the majority of emotion, pain is one of the only feeling I have left, which is why I used to actively seek it. be greatful brother.
I appreciate you being honest brother. I am one that can sadly say I relate and been through help so hearing a honest opinion is very appeasing
Just found out about NF.. And I can honestly say I'm a fan now !
Welcome.
someone mentioned him on FB. That's how I found out!
+DJ NightCore i found him on Mtv music request after they play songs they need on episode and it was on a Teen wolf episode
Roman Atwood mentioned him in fousey vlog that's how I found him
I found him on Pandora
"Is it me or the fear talking? i don't know anymore." That part always gives me chills.
Bro when I first heard it that's all I remembered besides the chorus
real.
That line hit harder that Mike Tyson. Jokes aside his lyrics are so relatable it hurts.
Some genius once said that music isn't good until you can feel it
Same Me to
Nathan gives the kids with anger problem and depression a voice, and I’m glad. I use him as an outlet, cause without this type of music, I fall back into my old mindset. I’m so grateful for him.
Mansion hits me really hard. Never cried during a song until now.
Not just kids
Why did you leave us hit me hard
@@SilkyXShadowX yeah same
I agree... sometimes when you have depression you dont know how to describe it but in his way he does it. Hell he's helping me go threw this thing called life. I wish I could give a hug and tell him that he ain't alone.
Much lovem.. Youre welcome aha
NF - Never Forgotten
he'll get big and will be remembered
nice, another addition to : Nathan Feuerstein, Never Fail, Net Force, Neverending Fire, New Future, what else...
Vova B 🤣 I almost forgot about some of those like no faking, no frauds, no fronting lol!
Never Forget
i honestly hope so
100th like
His lyrics are so real...that's a real artist
bu duh schh
Hahhaha yeaahhh NOOOOO
"Mansion"
(feat. Fleurie)
[Chorus - Fleurie:]
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion
[Verse 1 - NF:]
Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics
They're all over the place, there's songs in the mirrors
Written all over the floors, all over the chairs
And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs
That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release
And let out the version of NF you don't want to see
I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed
You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me
Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in
That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it
And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em
But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em
I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around
Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground
Matter of fact I think I'm a burn this room right now
So now this memory for some reason just won't come down
You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes
Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried
Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
But I'mma keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside
[Chorus - Fleurie:]
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion)
[Verse 2 - NF:]
Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain
See my problem is I don't fix things
I just try to repaint, cover em up, like it never happened
Say I wish I could change. Are you confused?
Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean
This room's full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller it seems
The moment I walk in to it is the same moment that I wanna leave
I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things
But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep
I look around. One of the worst things I wrote on these walls
Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom
And one of the first things I wrote was "I wish I would've called"
But I should just stop now, we ain't got enough room in this song
And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am
And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can
Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it's out of my hands
Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans
And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive
And at the rate I'm going they'll probably still be there when I die
Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
The question is: Will I ever clean the walls off in time?
[Chorus - Fleurie:]
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion)
[Verse 3 - NF:]
So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years
I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there
'Cause if I do, there's a chance
That they might disappear and not come back
And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside
So I just leave my doors locked
You might get other doors to open up but this doors not
'Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me
And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me
I'm barricaded inside
So stop watching
I'm not coming to the door
So stop knocking, stop knocking
I'm trapped here
God keep saying I'm not locked in
I chose this
I am lost in my own conscience
I know that shutting the world out ain't solving the problem
But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em
I built it because I thought that it would be safer in there
But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here
Fear came to my house years ago I let 'em in
Maybe that's the problem
'Cause I've been dealing with this ever since
I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did
He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in
Now I'm in the position it's either sit here and let him win
Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can
'Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors
Is that me or the fear talking?
I don't know anymore
It's lonely
Oh yeah it's lonely
[Fleurie:]
Inside this mansion
❤
You are a legend how long did it take
I don't want anyone telling me that his songs are for emo kids in a phase. His songs are my therapy
Same
Listen to cudi as well. Cudi was the voice of my entire generation
Also Kanye's 808's & Heartbreaks
Mine too
Girl veary true hes the best therapist you can find >:D
i wont cry today
NF: HOLD MY BALLOONS!
Idk why this ain't getting more likes. Good 1
No balloons here dude 😁
the balloons represent the problems he's dealing with (if y'all didn't know already)
Clever as hell
0:00 through 5:23 is my favorite part
Ha same!!😂😂
Wait u also like the end?????
Hollow Water I agree
Sameeee
That's like the whole song😂😂and same
if it weren’t for NF i wouldn’t be alive right now. he got me through my darkest times. and he still is getting me through my dark times. he has no idea how he saved me.
You sir, are a legend
Hang in there!! Never give in and never give up! Heads up, shoulders back, and keep moving forward!
Same bro.. his songs make me feel like there are other people out there who have the same problems as means that I'm not alone because the lyrics are so relatable. If it weren't for him I'd be dead
@@dacboyz8 good Karma your way man!
Hey I know it’s been over a year since you commented this, I just wanted to check and see how you are doing man. Hope you’re doing well 💪💪
"And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am
And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can
Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it’s out of my hands
Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans"
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion
Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics
They're all over the place, there's songs in the mirrors
Written all over the floors, all over the chairs
And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs
That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release
And let out the version of NF you don't want to see
I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed
You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me
Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in
That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it
And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em
But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em
I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around
Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground
Matter of fact I think I'm a burn this room right now
So now this memory for some reason just won't come down
You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes
Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried
Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
But I'm a keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion)
Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain
See my problem is I don't fix things
I just try to repaint, cover em up, like it never happen
Say I wish I could change. Are you confused?
Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean
This room's full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller it seems
The moment I walk in to it is the same moment that I wanna leave
I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things
But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep
I look around. One of the worst things I wrote on these walls
Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom
And one of the first things I wrote was "I wish I would've called"
But I should just stop now, we ain't got enough room in this song
And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am
And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can
Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it's out of my hands
Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans
And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive
And at the rate I'm going they'll probably still be there when I die
Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
The question is: Will I ever clean the walls off in time?
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion)
So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years
I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there
Cause if I do, there's a chance
That they might disappear and not come back
And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside
So I just leave my doors locked
You might get other doors to open up but this doors not
Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me
And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me
I'm barricaded inside
So stop watching
I'm not coming to the door
So stop knocking, stop knocking
I'm trapped here
God keep saying I'm not locked in
I chose this
I am lost in my own conscience
I know that shutting the world out ain't solving the problem
But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em
I built it because I thought that it would be safer in there
But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here
Fear came to my house years ago I let 'em in
Maybe that's the problem
Cause I've been dealing with this ever since
I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did
He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in
Now I'm in the position it's either sit here and let him win
Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can
Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors
Is that me or the fear talking?
I don't know anymore
Me staring at this comment for the last 3 hours trying to learn the lyrics👀
@@Nick-cu6ir lol I learned the lyrics like after listening to it the second time also nice job writing them you got all the lyrics I sang them when I was reading it lol. Thanks
Insidious is blind Inception.
What's reality with all these questions? Fells like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) *Yeah im not doing this I memorized the lyrics now, though
Yo that shit deep asf
You missed the end when he said its lonely and then when fleurie said inside this mansion
I raN into NF by accident. BEST ACCIDENT EVER
Nicole Dudzinski I relate to that
me too, and now he is my favorite artist
Cerason Where can I find this AMV?? I wanna see it...
No i am the best accident ever
same. i was playing a game when his song played. i checked him out after. now ive been hooked for months
My gosh the lyrics. NF is on another level.
🐐
he's a goat fr
If your a big NF fan you know “This Is A Therapy For Me”
I'm a big fan to nf 😁🇺🇸
This verse is echoing in the back of my mind
Therapy session
It is
Mansion came out in 2015 and therapy session in 2016
But if you're big fan of Nf you know
"This hip hop's in veins if you cut me I'mma bleed it"
"And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside
So I just leave my doors locked
You might get other doors to open up but this doors not
'Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me
And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me"
man this is so true
Hell yeah it is
I agree with this dude
still applies to this day for me. Hope youre doing better
@@staticshock2012 I'm doing way better now than I was then, a mindset change and giving myself the purpose of taking care of my family financially and physically when it comes to the house
I'm 20 years old now and was stuck in my head about what other people thought of me until I realized I only truly cared for my immediate family when it came to giving a helping hand
That last verse speaks to me on such a personal level I am literally shaking.
Same for me.
same!!! 💯💯💯😭😭😭
LITERALLY
Thats so sad :( I hope everything is ok now
Lars Jørgen Fredheim need someone?
Broken legs but I chase perfection!!! We’re all just not perfect😢❤
what I love most about this song is, you can feel his heart in this and that's what makes music beautiful. when it's true and comes from the heart
Sam Marshall NF should have 10,000,000 subsscribes and his music should always be on the radio
Arturo Alcala I know right I wish check out my channel Reuben butler
@@arturoalcala3639 He's almost at 10 million subscribers.
True
@@arturoalcala3639true
does anyone else get goosebumps when they listen to his music
Haha me too
+snow storm YES
+snow storm no.... im the kind of person that cant show emotions or reactions well XD
Well at least u listened to the song Michelle Mennetrot
snow storm :D i love songs like this
do you mind if i send you a RUclips link to my favorite song?
I grew up in a place where love had a price tag. I could never pay the price and what made it ten times worse was the fact that no one else could see it. Everyone told me they loved me and always would, but I never felt loved. I can't remember being hugged unless I asked. I can't remember people saying they were proud of me unless it was forced or coerced. I wasn't abused but I felt lonely, isolated, and unloved. Now, I'm constantly scared that people will leave me. I hate people getting close to me, but I cling to anyone who shows the slightest interest in me. I don't know how to love properly. I don't know how to balance it out so I just give everything to people and I usually end up broken. I hate this. I wish I could function alone, but being alone causes my demons to come out. They wrap their arms around me and whisper in my ear. They reach inside me and crush my heart and leave me shaking in fear. Its like I'm drowning, struggling to breathe. I'm so scared. I'm so fucking scared you'll get close, so sacred you'll leave. I'm absolutely fucking terrified I will have to go through this alone, but I'm always alone so why am I sacred? Or am I sacred because I know what happens when I'm alone? I don't know anymore, but I don't know how much longer I can take this...
Your story is very relatable. You are def not alone
I can relate
Honestly this explained my life
It sucks that you and I will never be able to sit down and talk. Hope you're okay.
You made me cry thats my life
I think all of NF’s r e a l fans need to straight up pray for him, can’t imagine walking in his shoes fully, but i know what it is like to be in darkness alone. So if ya love him, pray for him! ❤
He's not in darkness silly he's got us and his family ❤️
agreed
[Chorus - Fleurie:]
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion
[Verse 1 - NF:]
Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics
They're all over the place, there's songs in the mirrors
Written all over the floors, all over the chairs
And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs
That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release
And let out the version of NF you don't want to see
I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed
You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me
Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in
That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it
And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em
But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em
I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around
Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground
Matter of fact I think I'm a burn this room right now
So now this memory for some reason just won't come down
You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes
Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried
Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
But I'm a keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside
[Chorus - Fleurie:]
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion)
[Verse 2 - NF:]
Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain
See my problem is I don't fix things
I just try to repaint, cover em up, like it never happen
Say I wish I could change. Are you confused?
Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean
This room's full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller it seems
The moment I walk in to it is the same moment that I wanna leave
I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things
But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep
I look around. One of the worst things I wrote on these walls
Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom
And one of the first things I wrote was "I wish I would've called"
But I should just stop now, we ain't got enough room in this song
And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am
And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can
Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it's out of my hands
Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans
And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive
And at the rate I'm going they'll probably still be there when I die
Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
The question is: Will I ever clean the walls off in time?
[Chorus - Fleurie:]
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion)
[Verse 3 - NF:]
So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years
I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there
Cause if I do, there's a chance
That they might disappear and not come back
And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside
So I just leave my doors locked
You might get other doors to open up but this doors not
Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me
And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me
I'm barricaded inside
So stop watching
I'm not coming to the door
So stop knocking, stop knocking
I'm trapped here
God keep saying I'm not locked in
I chose this
I am lost in my own conscience
I know that shutting the world out ain't solving the problem
But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em
I built it because I thought that it would be safer in there
But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here
Fear came to my house years ago I let 'em in
Maybe that's the problem
Cause I've been dealing with this ever since
I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did
He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in
Now I'm in the position it's either sit here and let him win
Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can
Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors
Is that me or the fear talking?
I don't know anymore
bubblegumgirl220 7
Razor Shark1
Oh thank you....
Ha! What a dumb question?😩
Razor Shark1 Thank you for the lyrics!
Last verse just hits home, when you lock yourself in, and then the devil breaks through... God keeps knocking but you are afraid to open the doors, and to kick the devil out of your "Mansion" you gotta open up the doors... Gotta step over yourselves people and accept that God wants you to find comfort in Him.
"Is that me or the fear talking? I don't know anymore..."
That line hits me square in the feels
Goosebumps even the millionth time. That line hits very, very deep, unlike anything else ever.
i can't stop listening to this guy... for two hours
DANG........REALLY WKW LOL........
I call it the Nf addiction an boy I sure I have it
nf is the new drug and we all need some
This is exactly me when i first heard NF
same
“Broken legs but I chase perfection” Dang that one hits different
We need more rap like this. Deep and meaningful.
agizzy23 we need more music like this not just rap
witt lowrey :D .. Ive never been a fan of rap... at all.. but these two are really good. and underrated compared to most..
Twenty One Pilots rap decently often and their music is deep usually it's subtle, not very blunt but still.
...real, too
Lyrics:[Chorus - Fleurie:]
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion
[Verse 1 - NF:]
Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics
They're all over the place, there's songs in the mirrors
Written all over the floors, all over the chairs
And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs
That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release
And let out the version of NF you don't want to see
I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed
You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me
Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in
That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it
And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em
But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em
I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around
Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground
Matter of fact I think I'm a burn this room right now
So now this memory for some reason just won't come down
You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes
Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried
Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
But I'mma keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside
[Chorus - Fleurie:]
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion)
[Verse 2 - NF:]
Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain
See my problem is I don't fix things
I just try to repaint, cover em up, like it never happened
Say I wish I could change. Are you confused?
Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean
This room's full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller it seems
The moment I walk in to it is the same moment that I wanna leave
I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things
But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep
I look around. One of the worst things I wrote on these walls
Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom
And one of the first things I wrote was "I wish I would've called"
But I should just stop now, we ain't got enough room in this song
And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am
And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can
Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it's out of my hands
Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans
And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive
And at the rate I'm going they'll probably still be there when I die
Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
The question is: Will I ever clean the walls off in time?
[Chorus - Fleurie:]
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion)
[Verse 3 - NF:]
So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years
I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there
'Cause if I do, there's a chance
That they might disappear and not come back
And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside
So I just leave my doors locked
You might get other doors to open up but this doors not
'Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me
And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me
I'm barricaded inside
So stop watching
I'm not coming to the door
So stop knocking, stop knocking
I'm trapped here
God keep saying I'm not locked in
I chose this
I am lost in my own conscience
I know that shutting the world out ain't solving the problem
But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em
I built it because I thought that it would be safer in there
But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here
Fear came to my house years ago I let 'em in
Maybe that's the problem
'Cause I've been dealing with this ever since
I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did
He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in
Now I'm in the position it's either sit here and let him win
Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can
'Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors
Is that me or the fear talking?
I don't know anymore
It's lonely
Oh yeah it's lonely
[Fleurie:]
Inside this mansion
Thanks man
Epic
My grandpa passed away a few months back and this song helps me get through the loss. I miss you grandpa
sorry for your loss
man I feel your pain losing someone is hard but trust me it gets easier
Andrew Dozier sorry for your loss
Fleurie's voice is always so angelic.
“I’m the only person I can blame when u desert me” That’s hit to deep
Bruh... this dude got god given talent
acee outlaw Yeahhh!!! :)
Ik
acee outlaw i dont get it it doesnt sound christian to me
Samir Duk listen to ill Keep on
Samir Duk He is a Christian, actually. It's a song about his life and his struggles.
"My mind is a home I'm trapped in." That's how i feel every day.
thats the same with me every day too.. identical
Same
It's lonely inside this mansion
I hope it got better mate
You need to learn how to control your mind , not to let it control you .
I see that your nickname is "Immune" so I think that youve already learned how to do it . Wish you all the best🤟👌
this man's music saved lot of people from suicide or self-harm including me, you helped us and got u through our darkest times . We love you Nathan 🖤🖤🖤
Amen
Amen to this! I'm 100% one of those people
Love your music! Great job ! I always listen during my darkest times, thanks
Amen
Bless
Doctors: You need Anti-Depressents
Me: No, I need Nf
Half the poplation: She needs NF
👏👏
the comments section:
you go girl
Not she. HIM
I can't do anything without nf bro and no one knows how I feel. Nf is how I put my feelings into words fr bro nf is IT no way u can change my mind
💯👌🏽I be crying with my dad over a lot shits hard but Nf let’s shit go by
Not to get all fake deep and mushy on you guys but these lyrics give me goosebumps. It's so tragically beautiful. These lyrics just resonate with me so much. NF is truly a legend. Ok I'm done fangirling.
"I'm not the only thing living in here!" That gave me massive goosebumps, it's not only the lyrics, it's the way he says them, absolutely breathtaking in a way
His lyrics are so deep and meaningful. I love this so much!!!
fuckin true
trollingonaot/tubsfullofsunlight So true
This song is the definition of my whole life, and it’s crazy. Like every word Nate’s saying in this video relates to my whole life. Because everyone probably relates to this song too. And I love it. 😞😔😀👍🔥
NF is NOT eminem, he is NF PERIOD. He is a new born legacy.
+Team Wagy i hate it when they try to compare him. eminem and NF are differnt. NF rocks with crist while Eminem sucks with the devil. MY opinion
+Wade Kelley (Phantom Foxy) Spellcheck is your friend. Eminem is a legend, but NF is also good.
Its just my opinion but yeah
+Team Wagy eminem sucks
+Nicholas Hadley ha Eminem isn't a legend. In a few years he'll be faded into background.
Easily my favorite song by NF, first time I’ve ever felt feelings I could never put into words spit out into my face in sentences.
He proves that you don't need to swear to make a good rap song.
will Smith was funnier at it
+CLaShGoat its a shame more people dont get the reference^
YES IRK
+JohnnySaintCloud EXACTLY, he doesnt like to be compared to eminem, but to me he really does sound like (and i like to call him) "the christian eminem"
+JohnnySaintCloud Non-secular rappers have been doing this for years.
Hope is so good breaks my heart
Kids: Im scared of the dark.
NF: I like it.
Dark: Im scared of NF.
Lol
Lol 😂
Lol
That sounds accurate!!!
Yeet
the amount that I can relate to this is scary
ikrrr
That's the damn truth. I could tell anyone to listen to this song, and they would finally understand what goes on in my mind.
same
ugh same babe😪
If you ever need to talk dm me on ig im madelyn._.10
Honestly, I hate the people on here that are like,"Only the people that have been listening since they started are real fans." Bullshit. I only discovered NF recently, but I love this music.
Me too
defne erkan I use NF and my dog as a coping mechanism, my dad often calls me a retard, he’s not wrong though, I’m just a dumb, stupid, idiot who doesn’t deserve to live.. NF is the reason I’m still here today, well a combined effort of him and my dog, Willow
Just got here today dude, never leaving though..
Fan is fan, but I am truly sorry for everyone who didn´t know him earlier.
I was put on nf after The Search had already come out, I had heard him on the radio in 2017 but my friend showed me more of his music and I am going to a clouds concert in a few months
Ever since I was young I loved this song, now I understand the meaning behind it and love it even more.
God speaks to me through this song. I was a victim of molestation and been suicidal for 3 years... I'm not gonna let those events define me, I'm brand new, I'm not gonna let this be in my identity. Thank you NF for speaking the truth with your music.
Douglas Joya Maybe, but if it helped him get through hard times we shouldn't judge. please man just think foe seven seconds before you jump to defend your opinion and destroy others.
Douglas Joya Don't let these haters get to you, let them rot in their own thoughts
Douglas Joya all power to you ♥ I hope you get all happiness and peace you want in life. Everything will be okay dont worry :')
Douglas Joya I’m proud of you :)
@@inoriowo4497listen to real by nf and oh lord maybe that'll change your prespective our lord and savior is real and he can help you with your opinion
The lyrics are so powerful and real it can litteraly broke you
I don't usually listen to rap, but I heard this in the gym last night and was pretty impressed. I love how he carries such an extended metaphor with the house and walls...
Hope brings me here
"that picture ain't blurry at all... I just don't wanna see it" really hits different in 2020
true true
Yes
@Gravitrax I see you in every nf comment section.
True fan +respect
Don't know one person that had a good 2020
Not differeNt thaN 2021
Thank you Mr. NF,
My brother has been listening to your music for close to a year now and has recently introduced me to your songs. I was shocked how hard your lyrics hit me when I first heard them. Our mother committed suicide several years ago after our parents divorced. It has been a huge struggle for our family and for a long time made me lose complete faith in God. My brother and I were able to closely reconnect after listening to you and find an outlet for some of our harbored pain. Thank you so much for everything you have done for my family! God Bless!
Congratulations, you’ll always have a room in my mind.
SelfLove IsLoading but ima keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside!!!
Insidious is blind inception
what is reality with all these questions?
feels like I missed my alarm and slept in
@@tabosaurus5072 Broken legs but I chase perfection
I suffer from mental illness and a rough childhood. This song is a great description of what I go through, I couldn’t believe that someone wrote a song about what I go through. It helps me to release my emotions, that are hard for me to verbalize. A gift from God. I give him all. Honor and praise for giving you the ability to express the truth. May God continually bless you Nate.
"So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years
I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there
Cause if I do, there's a chance
That they might disappear and not come back
And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside
So I just leave my doors locked
You might get other doors to open up but this doors not
Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me
And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me
I'm barricaded inside"
I wish this weren't me.
Right at this part of the song I scrolled down to the comments [same]
+72Reshu I did that as well😂
lose weight and it wouldn't be
No fuckin chill
YOU ARE ENOUGH! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! YOU ARE AWESOME! MOST IMPORTANTLY, YOU ARE LOVED BY THE KING OF THE UNIVERSE- KING JESUS!
last verse hits me...
I was raped by my uncle in my room from 3-11 I still can't sleep in it...It's hard to go into my room. I sleep in the living room and have server depression and anxiety and OCD. But this song , well he is inspring to still be here
I will pray for you..... I understand.
MsGadget thanks
Hey..... Stay strong! Luv ya!
MsGadget thanks xx
MsGadget thanks xx
I'm 46 years old. Love your music NF. HOPE brought me here. 122 days sober. Amen NF!!! You're so talented. ❤️🩹🔥🌎🙏🌟💕💕❣️🎵🎖️🚀🎉💯💯🚨🚨🚨🚨
🙌
you have incredible taste, NF is incredible!
Congratulations ❤️ I hope you’re still doing well. But if you’re not that’s ok. I’m glad you’re still here. Sending you so much love. Praying for you now. ❤️
This song gives me chills. I've faced several challenges in my life. When i was 17 my father and bestfriend past away from lung cancer. He coughed and busted his main vein in his lung and bleed out. I found him pale and stiff. now I'm 24 and I have a two kids and a wife. I almost lost my life at work and was rushed to the er. Now I've struggled with relearning things and dealing with ptsd. NF your music is REAL to me and it helps a lot. Thanks man
outdoorsman elite god bless you man
Southern Bushcraft I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you recover well❤️
Southern Bushcraft when I was 7 (7 years ago) I got home from school with my brother and I saw my dad pale as fuck sitting on a chair looking up not moving and my brother got my aunt and mom and the police and I saw my dad dying right in front of my eyes with paramedics and my mom trying to push air in his lungs and they took him away and he died
BillyTheWalrus
all I can say man is it's a struggle and weather you believe in God or not. I've learned to believe he won't put anything in your path you can't handle. Your path in life might have Alot of twists and turns. You may even have to turn around a few times. However you will end up on a good road at some point. The journey just may take awhile.
Southern Bushcraft my life has been a struggle ever since my dad went to jail then died and then my grandpa after which me my mom any brother were living with and then my grandma moved and me my brother and my mom barely had enough money to have electricity and a home so we didn't have a lot of food so we moved in my WITH my grandma and my great grandma died I ( was 9) after that my life was pretty good until my uncle my cousins dad and my grandpas brother died they were all awesome people and I gained depression at 11 from that and 3 years later nothing bad happened much besides the fact I have anxiety and depression
I think this song speaks to me in a way that no other song has. It's convicting. I didn't lose my mom to pills, I was never physically abused, and I've never been a violent town or witnessed a violent crime. But I have gotten so busy, so caught up in life that I basically shut down Spiritually. We don't have real time for God, so we pick a spot in the Bible, read it quickly, and run away to the rest of our life. Our souls become numb to our sin. I had gotten so good at doing this, until one day I realized my life was a mask. I told people I was fine, and I did all things that Christians are "supposed to do" while my head swam with anger, doubts, fear, and depression. I was a Pharisee. I pretended things were okay, when they really weren't. "Dear God, I love You, bless me today and tomorrow yada-yada-yada GOODNIGHT." It's songs like this that put you on your butt in the corner, tears flowing asking yourself what happened. Who would have thought that the Devil could use our routines and normal life against us? I didn't, but I know that now. To anyone out there feeling like this: take a break. Stop and yell. Pound your fists on the floor. Tell God how mad you are at Him. Let it out. He already knows. You can't actually HIDE your thoughts from Him. Your "Mansion" is an illusion. It's really not even a house. It's an excuse. So write on its walls. Pound them. Tear them down. Burn them. Then go outside of your walls in your mind, and confess. Feel the weight of your sin..drift away. Thank Him for everything, and commit to following Him closer. I apologize if you grew a large beard while reading this comment. God bless you and your new-found resemblance to Gandalf. PEACE! :)
+All For Christ Videos I totally agree. This happens with many Christians.
Well said! ;)
Respect brotha..and I'm an atheist but it doesn't matter. I still respect you, your beliefs and anyone who follows a righteous path in life. We all gotta stick together in life, for all life is precious.
+All For Christ Videos Couldn't have said it 1 word better
This song is everything I've ever wanted to say. Thank you...
Came back to this song after nf's new video
How original
@@VoidMySoul simple and relatable
For anyone who can relate to this song I’m so sorry you’re in pain...
Its ok
It's ok...Not than my mom cares...I overheard her 3 minutes ago....she said, "If you have PTSD SUCK IT UP!" That really...cut deep in my heart ;( She wouldn't be saying that if she actually experienced a million needles passing through your body every time trauma flashbacks happen when seeing other people going through the same thing as you or going completely numb until you can't form a fist. In fact, she'd be crying and having a breakdown just like me instead of telling people to suck it up. YOU CAN"T JUST SUCK IT UP! -_-
It's fine. As nearly everyone I know is saying. "Others have got it worse" :)
I'm in high school and I'm always getting abuse and no one ever wants to talk to me
@@Bluemountain-l5i massive hugs sent your way hold your head high you're a million times better than those scumbags & I hope karma catches up with them soon
What do you guys see when you look in his eyes
I see A man that looks broke, hurt, Depressed but most of all lost its like he doesn't know who he is anymore and it looks like he's scared because of something and hes depressed because of all this abuse and losses he had to go through.😥😔and abandonment
I see a man who tries so hard to make people happy but people say he makes it worse, also hurt, scared and terrified of people touching him.
I see a man who has some mental health problems and lived a rough life, but through his persistence, he uses his pain to paint amazing canvases of how difficult life is. He constantly works with no breaks and constantly produces music to prove to everyone and prove to himself that he's alive.
I saw myself
I see someone deeply hurt that feels like happiness will never come to him
I see someone who deserves to be happy. He wants to find his freedom and fights against giving up...:(
You're music helps me face the truth and deeper meaning of what I feel inside
"HOPE" Bring me back
"Cuz in order to do that, I'd have to open the doors. Is that me or the fear talkin, I don't know anymore." Dang!
Seriously, why isn't there a music video for this song!?!?!?!?! It could be so cool!
+Jeremiah Pruett Dude i agree!
Jeremiah I agree
ya
Ya
+Jeremiah Pruett people walking in slow motion as the mansion fall down imagining the video
Is it weird that I relate to this so much and it touches me on an emotional level
The last verse connects with me in so many ways. It's like I wrote it
When i listen to NF i get goosebumps and my mind goes somewhere else
Turkey Man yeah it's like you escape life for a moment
nah
it ain't weird
I thank my therapist for reminding me of his songs. Especially how could you leave us hit me so hard.
Track "Nf"
on Bandsintown
"Mansion"
(feat. Fleurie)
[Chorus - Fleurie:]
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion
[Verse 1 - NF:]
Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics
They're all over the place, there's songs in the mirrors
Written all over the floors, all over the chairs
And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs
That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release
And let out the version of NF you don't want to see
I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed
You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me
Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in
That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it
And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em
But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em
I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around
Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground
Matter of fact I think I'm a burn this room right now
So now this memory for some reason just won't come down
You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes
Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried
Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
But I'mma keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside
[Chorus - Fleurie:]
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion)
[Verse 2 - NF:]
Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain
See my problem is I don't fix things
I just try to repaint, cover em up, like it never happened
Say I wish I could change. Are you confused?
Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean
This room's full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller it seems
The moment I walk in to it is the same moment that I wanna leave
I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things
But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep
I look around. One of the worst things I wrote on these walls
Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom
And one of the first things I wrote was "I wish I would've called"
But I should just stop now, we ain't got enough room in this song
And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am
And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can
Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it's out of my hands
Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans
And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive
And at the rate I'm going they'll probably still be there when I die
Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
The question is: Will I ever clean the walls off in time?
[Chorus - Fleurie:]
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion)
[Verse 3 - NF:]
So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years
I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there
'Cause if I do, there's a chance
That they might disappear and not come back
And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside
So I just leave my doors locked
You might get other doors to open up but this doors not
'Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me
And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me
I'm barricaded inside
So stop watching
I'm not coming to the door
So stop knocking, stop knocking
I'm trapped here
God keep saying I'm not locked in
I chose this
I am lost in my own conscience
I know that shutting the world out ain't solving the problem
But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em
I built it because I thought that it would be safer in there
But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here
Fear came to my house years ago I let 'em in
Maybe that's the problem
'Cause I've been dealing with this ever since
I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did
He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in
Now I'm in the position it's either sit here and let him win
Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can
'Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors
Is that me or the fear talking?
I don't know anymore
It's lonely
Oh yeah it's lonely
[Fleurie:]
Inside this mansion
verse 3 kills me because its my truth and ugh it just makes me want to cry because people understand but i still dont trust them and lock myself away
🖤🖤🖤🖤
Holy UnIcoRnS, how long did it take u to type this????
There is always that one person with the lyrics 🖤
@@dallasszafranski664 I didn't, Google paste. I wanted to sing along.
LYRICS!!!!!!!!!
insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion
Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics
They're all over the place, there's songs in the mirrors
Written all over the floors, all over the chairs
And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs
That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release
And let out the version of NF you don't want to see
I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed
You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me
Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in
That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it
And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em
But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em
I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around
Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground
Matter of fact I think Ima burn this room right now
So now this memory for some reason just won't come down
You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes
Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried
Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
But Ima keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion
Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain
See my problem is I don't fix things
I just try to repaint, cover em up, like it never happen
Say I wish I could change. Are you confused?
Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean
This room's full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller it seems
The moment I walk in to it is the same moment that I wanna leave
I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things
But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep
I look around. One of the worst things I wrote on these walls
Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom
And one of the first things I wrote was I wish I would have called
But I should just stop now, we ain't got enough room in this song
And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am
And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can
Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it's out of my hands
Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans
And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive
And at the rate I'm going they'll probably still be there when I die
Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind
The question is, will I ever clean the walls off in time?
Insidious is blind inception
What's reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in)
Broken legs but I chase perfection
These walls are my blank expression
My mind is a home I'm trapped in
And it's lonely inside this mansion
So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years
I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there
'Cause if I do, there's a chance
That they might disappear and not come back
And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside
So I just leave my doors locked
You might get other doors to open up but this doors not
'Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me
And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me
I'm barricaded inside
So stop watching
I'm not coming to the door
So stop knocking, stop knocking
I'm trapped here
God keep saying I'm not locked in
I chose this
I am lost in my own conscience
I know that shutting the wall down ain't solving the problem
But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve 'em
I built it because I thought that it would be safer in there
But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here
Fear came to my house years ago I let 'em in
Maybe that's the problem
'Cause I've been dealing with this ever since
I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did
He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in
Now I'm in the position it's either sit here and let him win
Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can
'Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors
Is that me or the fear talking?
I don't know anymore
thanks?
Julian Rojel Bless you. tysm
i am cancer no problem anytime
I'm just wondering... why are there even thumbs down on this song? Like whaattt?
Jeon Kookie i know right this song speaks raw emotion!!
Jeon Kookie Yeah, can't believe it either.
Lil Pump listeners
It makes some people too sad or haters
Farmers
WOW...I WAS RECOMENDED THIS SONG AND OH MY GOSH THE LYRICS HIT HARD-
It's really surprising to see all of us relating to this but in irl we just ignore each other and judge.
UURFAKE lol my hater follows me everywhere, hi hater!
so true...
damn your school is mean, where yall from
Yea
Not true in all cases, I do agree that we do ignore each-other and many may judge, but the ones who care about you the most usually make the correct judgement.
Cause there is a correct way of Judgement, but to be judgmental is self-defeating
"Is that me or the fear talking i dont know anymore"hit hard what a great line
I wrote a poem inspired by this song to my current ex.
THIS IS NOT POETRY
My, my heart is like a house which I didn’t give you the spare key to,
Because….scared to love again…
But, you broke in, yet I don’t want you to leave because you have turned this house into a home,
But, be warned, there is a freezer in the room to your left,
Blame my ex,
Before you take the next step,
Be careful because I’m not done taking up the broken pieces of my heart,
Sharp as glass so you might get hurt.
This is not poetry!
But, there is a door, behind that door I advise that you take a detour to not unravel what is behind.
This is not poetry!
The door reads fear, be scared,, beware for if you open it you will see the love that I am holding back because I fear that you will walk out the door like the others did.
This is not poetry!
Stop, turn left, hold your breath for the room marked Mrs. Right is toxic with my decomposed feelings for females who turned out to me Mrs. Wrong.
This house has no elevator so you will have to take the stares,
This is not an easy task because for this room to open you’ll have to fight fear, hate, anger and depression,
Many have tried to break the locks for this door, they all failed,
The key is not in this mansion, only Mrs. Right has it,
It’s like trying to fit a simile to a metaphor,
But, if you are the one just know, this is the door to my soul,
A loyalty that has never been seen,
A trust that has never been touch,
The man within me, for my past has only seen the boy.
Martin Robinson
Snow that’s deep! I love it :)
Wow. I'm sorry man, I feel you
Deep man, I LOVE IT!!!
Was this supposed to be funny? Cause the freezer part had me rolling 😂😂💀
I read this expecting just a bit of sad poetry. But this was so good!!!!
This song deserves a music video
I can wholeheartedly relate to this song
It’s scary
Its *deep*
I can also relate
Your not alone
It'll get better if you let it. Walk you're path no one else can.
'Broken legs but I chase perfection' is a lyric that will always resonate with me. Likewise: 'Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind, but I'm a keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside'
Why people trynna relate him to Eminem? His style is solely his.
+Malik C-C So true.
+Malik C-C Mostly because people are still pretty ignorant and don't understand that these aren't the only two white rappers..
he sounds like a younger Eminem thats it
+Malik C-C because that is who he sounds like. Literally his voice sounds similar especially on those angry verses.
Either way I feel like he's better than Eminem. His lyrics are better.
cartoon
love this guy
"Congratulation you would always have room in my mind" that shit hit different, i feel like i wanna be The next NF.
"I look around. One of the worst things I wrote on these walls was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom." Holy shit
:(
Hi Watamote.
CrispyCakes H....Hi
What's up? :3
mind\
God Has given you talent no other has ever had, the ability to touch all walks of life and generation. We are so lucky to be alive to hear you heart beating on each and every track. you are the best period all Glory to Father & Son and holy spirit for blessing you with this true gift.
william markham l
It is a Christian song or not ?
How is this song not more popular 🤯