Same, I had a friend that a came very attached to, she was the best person I could ask for until she was having mental problems. Then she started holding grudges and refused to let me have an opportunity to learn from my mistakes and kept saying we shouldn’t be friends any more because of how depressing things have gotten, even though that could have been easily changed which I said. I felt like my life had no purpose anymore. Fortunately, I eventually let go of her because she refused to change her attitude. That was close to a month ago I believe and I am still suffering from depression, anxiety, panic attacks, etc, every single day, but I’m praying for the brighter days. I’ll be honest I cried a little bit from thinking about her from this comment.
@deron underwood I know what you mean. Most of my "friends" put little effort into friendships. I have 2 close friends and they do not even live in the same State as me. It is hard to tell when people actually really appreciate your friendship and presence. Be well
To everyone who is struggling out there, keep going. Just one step at a time and one day after another. God loves you and is here for you. Push through❤
This is true...😔 I have a best friend but she doesn't understand me. And all my Friends broke me...😔 Sorry is anything wrong with my Grammer because normally I speak german.
I'm sorry you feel that way. I hope you get better. Here are some verses I hope help! Roamans 5:6-9 6 You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. 7 Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous person, though for a good person someone might possibly dare to die. 8 But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. 9 Since we have now been justified by his blood, how much more shall we be saved from God’s wrath through him!
Is it me, or does NF sound more vulnerable on this record and more open? Like his vocals are more cracked, more high. Really seems like he's becoming more and more of him, less of his angry persona he sometimes puts on. He really feels like this is his most out there effort now. Edit: If anyone's interested, I reviewed NF's new album, haha. cheers! :)
Yes. I like both sides of him in his songs. He does a lot of music like this actually. The one that blew up lately seemed aggressive. But I love both. ☺
@@ella4953 being a working dude its hard to find time. Then when you do have the time you feel so drained of being depressed you just want to sleep. It's like a cage that I could open with effort but outside that cage is giant mountain to climb. With one slip up I'll fall back In that cage...
@@erickrogmann1881 dude I know the feeling. It's work. But you are worth it. When I first started going to counseling I would return home to the same depressing room. And just feel so overwhelmed with life. But I kept going even on the days that I would make excuses. And by building the foundation. I kept going. Cratering the trust. To be able to talk about real life. Like I said b4 it's work. But it's necessary for me to stay in a better place. Not saying that all the problems go away. Far from it. But it helps Eric Krogmann you are in my prayers brother. God bless. You worth it. FACT!!
The first time I heard this song I was having an awful depressive spiral. My OCD, Depression, Anxiety, and disassociation was in full swing almost all at the same time. I even had thoughts about drinking to ease the pain, just to get relief, despite my personal vow to never drink alcohol, ever. I just broke and decided to play this song. I remember it still. I started to break down as I listened to the song, but the moment "Feeling like the only way for me to get away is if I poured a drink." The moment I heard that verse, I broke. I just started uncontrollably crying and sobbing. All of the pain I had came out. Everything just hurt. Everything hurt in such a deep, intimate level. I cried for over an hour, just letting it out. Ever since that day, I have started healing a bit more. This song in my opinion, changed my life. It saved me. This song encapsulates my life to such a degree that hearing it even now still hurts. Thank you NF for making this song, for sharing your pain.
When you hate yourself too, it seems like there is no hope left, because in the end you don't even care about yourself anymore. And this is very dangerous, unfortunately
i googled "i hate myself" because i didn't know what to do anymore and this popped up. now i found this album and it hits so hard. glad my self deprecation at least led me to find some good music lmao
I heard him sing this at a concert after waiting in line for 6 hours. His voice caught at the end of the song when he repeated "I hate myself" several times. You could hear the pain in his voice 😥
Nate..I know, this song is 3 years old now and I'm sure you' ll never read this, but thank you. My mom died 2 years ago losing her battle with cancer. Since then, 3 of my best friends have left this world, as well. I'm so totally and utterly alone in this world...until I listen to you. I cry everytime I listen to your music. Sometimes, it's jsut the fact that your putting words to my emotions. Other times, it's knowing that...I'm not alone. There's someone else out there, feeling just like me. Thank you...I hope I can make it through like you, but every day gets harder and harder. Who knows if I'll be here tomorrow, but today, your words will give me solace and I'll tough it out for 1 more day.....again....Thank You....
Hey homie, I hope you've still found a way to wake up daily, life has it's moments but sometimes it doesn't feel like enough, we just have to push on through and learn to rest before getting too burnt out. Hope you're doing better today than you were yesterday and last year.
I lost my Mom to cancer too.... about 1 year ago, and my Dad is battling cancer...and I have no one to talk to but My girlfriend, but she's too far away. and I've been drinking and smoking and vaping and taking any drug I can to calm my mind. I went to a suicidal hospital twice because I tried to end my life, and I lost all of my friends. so I understand how you feel.
he’s come such a long way.... he deserves so much 🖤 I remember when I first started listening and when I listen back to the first songs I think about the place I was in.... we grew together, separate lives but still felt so close . he’s such an inspiration to many , love you NF
I've listened to the rest of the album and I can't pick one, they're all so amazing I can't even describe it, I honestly feel nauseated and can't stop shaking cause of these songs.
@@gaelsdaddy2341 Nah, the best one was "How Could You Leave us" He even said it himself. If you havent heard, trust me its very emotional and it hits home HARD.
@@ultracosmicenergies8881 "Talk to God because he's the only one who listens, even when you think He isn't" There's always someone there for you, God, and usually someone else comes along too. ❤
I can't tell you how many times I listened to this song stuck in my meth addiction and it was the only light at the end of my tunnel this song was the hope that gave me the courage to keep going and now I'm 4 years sober and listening to this now it brings back tears I once had and I just say thank you God and David for loving me enough to rise up and love again...to all of you struggling God's love for us is real he is just waiting for us to stop seeking the world and seek HIM...may you find the peace HE brings
@@jakob3044 what I was saying is for example people that get bullied almost become immune to those criticisms (at least in my case) or if you are insulted about something most of the time you brush it off but for someone that hasn’t experienced that before will be deeply hurt by that unlike someone that has experienced it many times. So basically if you are insulted about the same thing over and over you aren’t going to be affected by that anymore. This is in my case not sure about others
@@loserloose6337 never said those feelings are 24/7 I know my life is pretty good doesn't mean I can't be down and able to relate to this song so think before you go calling people stupid please
Loser Loose shut up u never know what people are going through some times can get tough some times and this relates even when ur just upset or sommit don’t go saying something before u know full story
John-Tyler Trefil FOR ALL THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE COME HERE TO LISTEN TO THIS AND FEEL DEPRESSED, please. listen to me. i know from experience and so do millions of people !! omg i swear, it DOES get better and even if you have nothing at all, come to the comments of a sad song and connect with all the other people experiencing the same feelings and struggles and you !! whatever you experience in life, you will never be alone - there are 7 billion people on the earth, you are one of them - how incredible is that ?! you are living, breathing, you have endless possibilities !! you are trapped in a horrible, depressed but if you try to make one difference and you cut off or escape toxic things in your life then you have to power to change !! you are so beautiful and even though i don’t even know you i want to reach out to everyone feeling so terrible. when i am older, i hope to work with mental health helpline or charities ect. i want it make someone else’s life better - please hold on, it ALWAYS gets better but you just cannot see that right now because you are blinded but this sick, nasty things called depression !! i am begging you so much to hold on, life IS BEAUTIFUL but you can’t see it because of your unfortunate circumstances. if you hate your life, change it, as much as you can !!! you, more than anyone, has the power to do that !! you won’t believe me because i haven’t explained it very well😂 but coming from someone who went through a terrible mental health time and came out the other side with an extremely healthy lifestyle and mind and immense appreciation for life and opportunities, i am telling you that life gets better !! please seek help and please help yourself, there are so many people willing to help you get through your struggles!! please, hold on ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ if anyone is struggling, talk to the other people in the comments - they are here alongside you for the same reason xxxxxxxx
Guys, NF’s music is great. But, comment sections... there honestly depressing. So get out! Watch a cat meme or some thing. Whatever stuff your going on...YOU GOT THIS I’m rooting for you. P.S. this is not for likes and you guys may not see this but if you do. Don’t quit, your a great person
This song represents a part of myself. The part that I don't show, to my friends, my parents, my brothers, "When I feel like you don't need me, Then I feel like you don't see me"
A lot of people might see messages like this all the time, but its okay, you're okay. Its okay to cry late at night, its okay to be different, its okay to to be fat or skinny its you, not anyone elses, its your body, dont hate yourself. You are perfect in every way possible. There is still hope our there and there will be someone that will love you for who you are. Express yourself dont be quiet cause who cares what other people say. I believe in you. Be you, be yourself always, and you will never be miss understood by me. Im here if you wanna talk. For who ever reads this im proud of you, im proud of you for being so strong for being here, i love you❤
"these kids, they come to my shows with tears in their eyes, imagine someone looking at you and saying your music is the reason that they are alive"- NF (therapy session) i honestly dont think people understand the real power of music. I have been listening to NF's music for years now and he has helped me through so much just by putting out music that i understand and that i can sympathize with. I feel like many people are in the same boat as i am and NF has become a safe place to them because he peobably doest understand but he has changed lives, including mine
no one has ever understood me like nf, not my family nor friends not even my bf and when I'm so tired of being alone but when i listen to his music i don't feel alone feel understood and that's all I've ever wanted
Just realize that sometimes you gonna feel so alone no matter who is close to you...even if they ask you if you are ok and you reply that you are not Embrace your feelings w/e form they have in any situation Make pain be your strength Make yourself great again...
I don't know if you are still reading comments here but you aren't alone. 21 million views from people like us who finally feel somewhat understood. Keep walking your road. As someone who has felt this way for 35 years, I can tell you that this path has beauty and wonder most will never know. It's seeing past all the tears and pain to get a glimpse of it that's the hardest.
@@adammclean1679 the word interviews can also be taken non literally meaning when people ask you about yourself you hate answering because of your self-hatred
@@adammclean1679 Tthis comment upsets me a lot and idk why. anytime i click this song i see this. i am clearly understanding nf. this is he saddest song off the album and realest. him saying those lyrics explains a lot .. you maybe have 3 nf interviews on youtube. therefore him describing why.. youre clearly here for a reason. you are sad and thats fine. this aint migos, its nf. were a squad. hes real music, why youdumb
Hey, bro. Whatever you may be facing, know that Jesus loves you, and He delights in your casting your burdens on HIm. You are never alone. Jesus is signalling at you, waving his hands heads high. Trust in him
Agreed. I found him through paralyzed so when I listened to other songs I was like “oh cool, he’s a rapper too” (yes I’m aware theres rapping in paralyzed lmao)
The darkness is a place that feels so good and right, but it leaves you down an even darker path. I’ve seen darkness in death first hand and you don’t want to. But even in the darkest path, there is a light, it may be dim, but it can shine more than the sun if you let it
and they cant see my tears. I dont like silence because when it is, these thoughts get louder and no one can hear my quivers of not being able to cry. im tired, we all are. One day hopefully this battle will end in our victory. I only wish you all a happy ending, remember i care and your not alone.
This guy changed my life . He once said just in case my car goes off the highway or the plane l'm on decides it's my last day l want u to know when u are alone and u feel afraid u're not the only who is not okay THERE A MILLIONS OF US JUST LIKE YOU . As a writer l proud to say 3/4 my songs are inspired by him .
I love NF so much he helps me through a lot especially since they are so relatable, true, and he just helps us recognize our feelings and helps us see that we aren’t alone and he is so good at what he does!!
most of us googled "i hate myself" and reached this song. and if u did too, then u r really deeply hurting right now. not really sure about the future, but i wish that someday we all google "i love myself" and reach that song, and be really deeply feeling peace , bliss and contentment.
I fell so useless i can't tell anyone what I feel I feel like once I cry i feel that i' weak and I have a abusive dad sometimes like I'm not there i tried hanging myself i tried overdoseing myself it suck i just want to disappear for the world and i was raised well but i cry when no ones is looking but when i'm around people i hid my feeling with happiness i say to myself it okay but its not I can't talk to my friend anymore because my mom thinks that i'm sad because i'm around her but no its because i finally telling her my feelings
So today I was just talking with my therapist. I got all excited and told her about this new album and told her how amazing it feels to hear a song (or a whole bunch of songs) that literally hit your chest so head it literally knocks the breath out of you and it feels like these songs were actually wrote by you instead of anyone else. When she saw the title of this song at first she was a little upset about the fact that I would feel like I hate myself and I explained to her that for me this song it's not necessarily hating who I am it's hating this mentality that I have (depression) I hate who I have become because of it. She told me that she was happy that I am finding ways of being honest with myself in multiple ways lately (not just the songs) and she seems really proud that I am finally being honest to me myself and I. Even if it might be negative in some tones. But it is good to sometimes push past the fake positivity and allow yourself the negative because you are being your true self... As long as you don't stay in that state of mind. Being honest with yourself, working on yourself, and learning to accept yourself as well is keys to healing
I think only narcissists love themselves all the time. It's a good and completely normal thing to dislike yourself or a part of yourself. I feel that the problem comes when we obsess over things that aren't in our power to change. I think hate is a very strong word but most people have at one time or another.
I’ve listened to this song for a while and just now the lyrics hit so much deeper. On a completely new level of depth for me. It’s so crazy how relatable this song is right now
"People don't want to kill themselves, they only want to kill the part of themselves they don't like." This song is incredible and NF has really helped me through so much, just like I'm sure he's helped many others. I wish I could meet him in person, I'm a big fan and I've never been to one of his concerts. If Nate ever sees this, I can't explain my emotions. Thank you so much NF, keep safe and whatever your going through, you can get through it. I love you x
X_Lost_LilxChimmy_X Hey I was thinking about creating Facebook Page for people like us so we can talk about it and maybe able to encourage each other. What do you think?
I just noticed that when he says "my own actions", in the line "knee deep in defeat of my own actions", (at 2:50 ish) his voice kinda cracks, or shakes, like he's about to cry. Like this song wasn't sad enough already.
I used to think that I would never try and think of doing it because it will hurt the people I love,but do I have that any more? No. I don't. I think about from time to time. But I will try not to do it. Life will get better I just have to hope it will.
I’m seriously crying breaking down in tears right now. I’ve been following NF since 2013 when he made that song “start over”. Man. I’ve never heard a rapper to this day that relates to me as much as NF. Eminem was always too angry and always put me in a bad mood and cussing, lecrae makes phenomenal music but it’s not as personal as NF, there aren’t many dark rappers like NF man. His music really gets you through things man. This is your best album yet man. Thank you for everything!!! I’m seriously crying bro. This is your best album in your career.
Joseph Cordell ,,well maybe it’s because he is looking attention “wats the first letter of ADHD stand for ,,haha the best part of you ran down ur mothers like into her pink slipper “”get out of here “sick of people looking attention to get likes ,,give me the L mate “ I’ll gladly take it for ya if it means that much haha
Lyrics from genius [Chorus] I don't see you like I should You look so misunderstood And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself Pray to God with my arms open If this is it, then I feel hopeless And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself [Verse 1] Yeah, late nights are the worst for me They bring out the worst in me Mind runnin', got me feelin' like it hurts to think If this is all that I wanted, I don't want it, gotta be more for me All the core beliefs And every mornin' I wake up and feel like I am not worth it 'cause I'm at war with peace I go to Hell, walk up to the corpse of me Look at the body like, "You ain't nothin' but poor and weak" It's kinda weird Lately I been feelin' like the only way for me to get away is if I pour the drink That's more deceit, more defeat Is this really what I'm born to be? That's what you get for thinkin' you're unique So poor, but I'm so wealthy Need help, but you can't help me What else can the world sell me? Tell me lies, I still buy 'em like they're goin' outta stock But it's not healthy [Chorus] I don't see you like I should You look so misunderstood And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself Pray to God with my arms open If this is it, then I feel hopeless And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself [Verse 2] Yeah, late nights get the best of me They know how to get to me Suicide thoughts come and go like a guest to me But I don't wanna die, I just wanna get relief So don't talk to me like you think I'm so successful What is success when hope has left you? I am not a spokesman, I'm a broken record I'm sick of doin' interviews 'cause I hate myself, agh! Come across like it's so easy But I feel like you don't need me When I feel like you don't need me Then I feel like you don't see me And my life has no meaning, drain me Hands out, tryna ask for love But when I get it, I just pass it up Throw it away and think about it later Diggin' through the trash for drugs Wish I could give you what you needed, but I can't I'm scared because [Chorus] I don't see you like I should You look so misunderstood And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself Pray to God with my arms open If this is it, then I feel hopeless And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself [Verse 3] I walk through the ashes of my passions Reminiscin' with the baggage in my casket Get lost in the questions I can't answer Can't stand who I am, but it don't matter We scream to be free, but I stay captured Knee-deep in defeat of my own actions Feel weak, but the peace that I keep lacking Keeps speakin' to me, but I can't have it But I can't have it Keeps speakin' to me, but I can't have it But I can't have it Keeps speakin' to me, but I can't have it [Chorus] I don't see you like I should You look so misunderstood And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself Pray to God with my arms open If this is it, then I feel hopeless And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself Hate myself But it's hard when I hate myself Hate myself But it's hard when I hate myself [Outro] When I hate myself It's kinda hard when I hate myself I hate myself It's hard when I hate myself
"I don't wanna die. I just wanna get relief" This is what every suicidal person needs to realize. We don't want life to end we just want the pain to end. That's not always as impossible as it seems.
"I don't see you like I should You look so misunderstood" Hits my heart hard... Thank you for writing this melodiously beautiful and lyrically deep song, Nate!
It's a Monday. Pain hitting me hard today. I'm more successful than the average guy, I'm very blessed and I'm thankful for that. But that doesn't mean I'm immune to depression and anxiety. Depression does not discriminate.
"Pray to God with my arms open . If this is it, then I feel hopeless" "But I don't wanna die, I just wanna get relief" - these gave me goosebumps. If anyone is reading this I hope you get through hard times, it will get better.
The most depressed people arnt the ones who seem sad all the time in public but the ones who laugh the most and tell the most jokes, the ones that they to bring joy the most...they just dont want anyone else to have to feel like they do....
Tbh im the quiet kid bc of my depression I feel like I'll be judged and unherd.im the sad one and its got to the point where they can see through my fake smile they know how I feel but I dont tell them...
It used to be true for me too. Fight it! One day it'll be worth it. It's what kept me fighting, and I'm hoping it's true. I've seen happy people. There has to be a reason they're happy. Which means it has to be worth it to fight.
Am I the only one who hides everything from mom and dad?🥺 Edit: I really appreciate everyone sharing their story’s and I’m really taking the time to listen to anything everyone says
No but why do you? Sometimes it’s for good reasons sometimes you should tell them. A parents job is to be there for your kiddo. If they’re worth their salt as a parent you should tell them everything
i hate how i ruin everything. i hate how i look. i hate how everyone around me leaves me. i hate my voice. i hate my personality. i hate how i’ll never be good enough. i hate how i’m always disappointing everyone. i hate how i constantly feel alone. i hate how i can’t do anything right. i really hate everything about myself.
some of that is not true, it can't be you don't ruin everything, don't berate yourself for the mistakes you make, the world is already there to do that, don't do it yourself, sometimes it's not even a mistake and even if it is (that's a big if), noone is perfect, noone is good at everything EVERYONE makes mistakes, and EVERYONE, including YOU do good, have potential, can be more, can do more, are more than they think they are. you hate how you look, sound why? cuz you were born that way? if yeah, don't think about it, not worth your worry or time, you can't change it. be proud of who you are, please. you hate your personality, but why? it's just who you are? improve where you can, don't worry about anything else, you are PERFECT the way you are, you don't need to meet stupid society standards (no offense) you hate how everyone leaves you me too lol ok, seriously though, it happens when you are a special person and have trouble getting along with the mass, but it's not your fault, so again, not your fault. maybe look around for friends that would be willing to stick with you. there are a lot people who care about you. you'll never be good enough? who told you that? society? who cares about what they expect you to do? you meet your own standards, you do you. and you can do anything you want, you can be anything you want, don't let anyone tell you any different. you say you are disappointing everyone, but you are probably not, believe me also, you don't necessarily have to meet their expectations, you are probably not even supposed to. also you are not alone, you never were, you never will be, God is with you, others are too
I've listened to this song every night for the past four years. I've been through so much heartbreak and depression that I've thought of ending my life on multiple occasions. I feel like this song was written for me specifically. I know barely anyone is going to see this comment, but if you do, and you're dealing with the same stuff I've had to go through, just keep pushing. Suicide is never going to fix your problems, it's just going to make those who love you sad. Life is meaningful, even when your can't tell sometimes.
I hope that you are doing better. Or at least that you are still pushing. I dont know with what exactly you are dealing, I just hope it will be better for you as time goes. This song resonates in me hard as well. Live just to listen to it again if it is something that helps you. Keep pushing stranger on internet
“don’t want do die, I just want relief”- this gave me so many chills. don’t give up, it will get better
Brody Dean I felt that
😞 I love him so much and pray he finds relief and everyone else does too
Gonna cry
This is amazing
That hit hard 😟
“I don’t wanna die, I just wanna get relief” someone finally put this feeling into words.
YES
@@bumblebee8120 Gotta love when that happens
🙌
Very relatable. :(
It’s true but don’t give up
"Suicide thoughts come and go like a guest to me
But I don't wanna die, I just want to get relief"
That one really hit me HARD
Relatable
Me too buddy. But it gets better. Itll always be hard but well make it
Thanks for pointing that line out.
Relatable
Same... if I could commit I'd be successful or dead...
"when I feel like you don't need me I feel like you don't see me and then my life has no meaning"
That hits scarily close to home for me
It really does though
Same
Same, I had a friend that a came very attached to, she was the best person I could ask for until she was having mental problems. Then she started holding grudges and refused to let me have an opportunity to learn from my mistakes and kept saying we shouldn’t be friends any more because of how depressing things have gotten, even though that could have been easily changed which I said. I felt like my life had no purpose anymore. Fortunately, I eventually let go of her because she refused to change her attitude. That was close to a month ago I believe and I am still suffering from depression, anxiety, panic attacks, etc, every single day, but I’m praying for the brighter days. I’ll be honest I cried a little bit from thinking about her from this comment.
❤
@@I_like_pickles789it hurts i can tell but everyone changes as nf once said 'people change even satan used to be an angel'
"The saddest part of life is when the person who gave you memories becomes a memory" - Unknown
sad 😔
It is sad to think that the last time you saw someone might actually be the last time.
@deron underwood I know what you mean. Most of my "friends" put little effort into friendships. I have 2 close friends and they do not even live in the same State as me. It is hard to tell when people actually really appreciate your friendship and presence. Be well
It nearly hurt but every time I look at your Pfp I start dying of laughter
Naurto
“Depression is being colorblind, and constantly being told how colorful the world is” - Atticus
💯
i love this man
@Isabel Linares yeah that's what I thought lol
That's 100% true...
@Keksmo you such an amazing person for saying this
Eyes: CLOSED
NF: ON
World: OFF
Yesss
F the world
I just wanna end it all
@@promisemewborn4858 f the World f what people think
@@ZarTeeQ yes you get me🖤
1:38 “Suicide thought come and go like a guest to me” these lines I relate too so much, that’s why this is my fav NF song
my fav is harley quinn
and joker
and justin beiieber
Its hard to save someone from drowning when you're drowning, too.
no Yeah.. 💔
no i'm crying so hard right now.
Yeah it's VERY difficult
This should be note-worthy! This is so good
no
That depends, are you willing to push the other person up by pushing yourself further down?
All you're fans are proud man everyone's got demons takes alot to admit that keep living life and enjoying the small things
Thats the damn truth man
That’s the truth!
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"Depression is living in a body that fights to survive, with a mind that wants to die" -unknown
Why is that true for me i feel like that too
I recommend you ask Saint Dymphna for a prayer of intercession.
@Keksmo Stop with this shameless advertising.
@Keksmo Why do you keep spamming this same message?
@Keksmo How is spamming the same message helping anyone?
To everyone who is struggling out there, keep going. Just one step at a time and one day after another. God loves you and is here for you. Push through❤
"The mirror is my best friend because when i cry it doesn't laugh" - Unknown
Damn that's deep and true😓
That was Charlie Chaplin when he was depressed after his career was ruined.
This is true...😔
I have a best friend but she doesn't understand me.
And all my Friends broke me...😔
Sorry is anything wrong with my Grammer because normally I speak german.
So true
wow, I never though of this. Even my sister laughs when I cry...
“The worst feeling is when you feel like your annoying the person you want to talk too”-Unknown
That hit.
that hit hard
really really hard
when all you need is someone to talk to but you feel like you are anoying them by always asking to talk
Turns out I was annoying the person I wanted to talk too
They said it to my face
I need to talk to someone who won’t judge me for being me I act like I’m perfect and nothing is wrong with my life
@@n.o_n.a.m.e them I’m sorry it always has to happen with the people that you love the most
This entire album hits a little to close to home...
Timothy Simmons for real😑
Especially trauma that got me shook
Hey, I know I'm a stranger on the internet but if you need to talk then I'm here for you
Yep. Always with nf. Sigh.
Each of the video drops for this album have perfectly correlated to my life at the time and I’m like 🤯.
That's my favorite song! I feel like he's talking about me.
I'm sorry you feel that way. I hope you get better. Here are some verses I hope help!
Roamans 5:6-9
6 You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly.
7 Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous person, though for a good person someone might possibly dare to die.
8 But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
9 Since we have now been justified by his blood, how much more shall we be saved from God’s wrath through him!
"Don't want to die, I just want relief"
PARALYZED- "I'm scared to live, I'm scared to die"
"I'm scared to live, but I'm scared to die" *
too* too* too*too*
Nhaila Turner to is the right one😄
@@draganab02 yea lol
NF has come quite a way to understanding himself...
Is it me, or does NF sound more vulnerable on this record and more open? Like his vocals are more cracked, more high. Really seems like he's becoming more and more of him, less of his angry persona he sometimes puts on. He really feels like this is his most out there effort now.
Edit: If anyone's interested, I reviewed NF's new album, haha. cheers! :)
YES, completely, he sounds more comfortable/confident, he really knows what he's doing now and I'm living for it.
He does, but also he handed 2 of his balloons (burdens) to the guy behind the curtain in leave me alone
Yes. I like both sides of him in his songs. He does a lot of music like this actually. The one that blew up lately seemed aggressive. But I love both. ☺
So vulnerable.....and that's so hard for him! I feel every single word he says. It hurts.
J Morris the Review Guy 💯💯
They say when your depressed and you tell someone you just want attention
But how are you supposed to get help if you don't ask........
@@ella4953 being a working dude its hard to find time. Then when you do have the time you feel so drained of being depressed you just want to sleep.
It's like a cage that I could open with effort but outside that cage is giant mountain to climb. With one slip up I'll fall back In that cage...
A therapist is 200$ an hour I cannot afford that shit
@@erickrogmann1881 dude I know the feeling. It's work. But you are worth it. When I first started going to counseling I would return home to the same depressing room. And just feel so overwhelmed with life. But I kept going even on the days that I would make excuses. And by building the foundation. I kept going. Cratering the trust. To be able to talk about real life. Like I said b4 it's work. But it's necessary for me to stay in a better place. Not saying that all the problems go away. Far from it. But it helps
Eric Krogmann you are in my prayers brother. God bless. You worth it. FACT!!
@@t.e.freaper7801 thats facts
Right
The first time I heard this song I was having an awful depressive spiral. My OCD, Depression, Anxiety, and disassociation was in full swing almost all at the same time. I even had thoughts about drinking to ease the pain, just to get relief, despite my personal vow to never drink alcohol, ever. I just broke and decided to play this song. I remember it still. I started to break down as I listened to the song, but the moment "Feeling like the only way for me to get away is if I poured a drink." The moment I heard that verse, I broke. I just started uncontrollably crying and sobbing. All of the pain I had came out. Everything just hurt. Everything hurt in such a deep, intimate level. I cried for over an hour, just letting it out. Ever since that day, I have started healing a bit more. This song in my opinion, changed my life. It saved me. This song encapsulates my life to such a degree that hearing it even now still hurts.
Thank you NF for making this song, for sharing your pain.
I hope youre better now!
i can’t believe there’s a rapper that can rap so hard without cussing
I hate it people say that
Swiral shameless copy paste
That's because hes a Christian
K-Rino is another historical rapper that doesn't cuss.
bruh juice has songs where he cusses like once or none in half of his songs and he was one of the biggest artists so dont talk like nf the only one
It’s pretty sad when you can relate more to a person you have never met then the people you have known your whole life
I care about you and i hope that you become well soon and stay safe
I agree. That’s the only reason I’m on the internet tbh. Love your pfp by the way!
I know
Relatable
🙋🏽♂️
He said it perfectly: “i don’t wanna die, i just want to get relief”
curvedgaming this isn't an English lesson dude
When you hate yourself too, it seems like there is no hope left, because in the end you don't even care about yourself anymore. And this is very dangerous, unfortunately
NF is the only rapper who makes me say: Relatable
same here
Honestly yeah
This dude ain’t heard tyler Joseph
None y'all heard of K.A.A.N. have you. Dudes a poet who raps
Same
i googled "i hate myself" because i didn't know what to do anymore and this popped up. now i found this album and it hits so hard. glad my self deprecation at least led me to find some good music lmao
You're first time listening to nf?
Emberrr might have listened to some of his songs earlier but i don't remember it lol
@@diamondust2054 listen to his other songs and albums dont just listen to this one song
Emberrr yeah i've listened to this whole album several times already, and as i said, it hits hard
@@diamondust2054 listen to therapy session
I heard him sing this at a concert after waiting in line for 6 hours. His voice caught at the end of the song when he repeated "I hate myself" several times. You could hear the pain in his voice 😥
I cant wait too see him in March💔 I know he talks a lot about what the song means to him in between songs - Im just gonna cry😭😭
that is really sad but glad you have that experience.
He has a true heart. I love his music it speaks to my heart!!
I'm going to see him in april and i'm really hoping that he does this song. its so relatable.
oof
Crazy how this is one of his best flows too. "ask for love" "pass it up" "trash for drugs" "scared because" the scheme is crazy
“But it’s hard when I hate myself”
That hit on a personal level..
same
Same
Same
Ruby Villanueva ikr I’m up and it’s 5am listening to the song on repeat questioning my ENTIRE life
same 😭
"Suicide thoughts come and go like a guest to me, but I don't want to die I just want to get relief." -What millions of us go thru
Yep
True
It’s hard. I’m in that group.
No this is by NF not by what millions if us go thru
@Faith Kellum me
THE ENDING WHERE HE JUST KEEPS REPEATING "I HATE MYSELF" BROKE MY HEART IN SO MANY WAYS
Be happy he save my life and many more
right??? it’s so raw
Try not to overthink it :) Just another brilliant song
@@emdormitalang1388 shut up
Why?
Nate..I know, this song is 3 years old now and I'm sure you' ll never read this, but thank you. My mom died 2 years ago losing her battle with cancer. Since then, 3 of my best friends have left this world, as well. I'm so totally and utterly alone in this world...until I listen to you. I cry everytime I listen to your music. Sometimes, it's jsut the fact that your putting words to my emotions. Other times, it's knowing that...I'm not alone. There's someone else out there, feeling just like me. Thank you...I hope I can make it through like you, but every day gets harder and harder. Who knows if I'll be here tomorrow, but today, your words will give me solace and I'll tough it out for 1 more day.....again....Thank You....
You are not alone, live your best life in honor of them. One love
Keep going homie
Fight for her if it matters.
Hey homie, I hope you've still found a way to wake up daily, life has it's moments but sometimes it doesn't feel like enough, we just have to push on through and learn to rest before getting too burnt out. Hope you're doing better today than you were yesterday and last year.
I lost my Mom to cancer too.... about 1 year ago, and my Dad is battling cancer...and I have no one to talk to but My girlfriend, but she's too far away. and I've been drinking and smoking and vaping and taking any drug I can to calm my mind. I went to a suicidal hospital twice because I tried to end my life, and I lost all of my friends. so I understand how you feel.
he’s come such a long way.... he deserves so much 🖤 I remember when I first started listening and when I listen back to the first songs I think about the place I was in.... we grew together, separate lives but still felt so close . he’s such an inspiration to many , love you NF
Wow that's amazing and I can relate to this and thats why NF is my favorite rapper and I hope your doing well now
Nailed that description. Couldn't agree more🖤
I couldn't have said it better myself
Right!
angie perla same
This is the best song I've ever heard. Thank you so much NF
Gael's Daddy the best song he ever made was remember this I don’t think he could ever make a better one
I've listened to the rest of the album and I can't pick one, they're all so amazing I can't even describe it, I honestly feel nauseated and can't stop shaking cause of these songs.
@@Kingtheg omg yes remember this is prolly my fav too. Every line of it is facts
I thought Remember This was one of the best songs I have ever heard, but then he dropped this song
@@gaelsdaddy2341 Nah, the best one was "How Could You Leave us" He even said it himself. If you havent heard, trust me its very emotional and it hits home HARD.
*"But I don't wanna die, I just wanna get relief."*
*well if he didn't hit how i feel head on...*
I'm here if you need a friend. I'm always willing to listen
"Keep speaking to me but I can't have it." Hits me way harder for some reason.
@Gravitrax well if u die im gonna be sad so dont die for me please
God is relief. I can say He is the only thing that keeps me alive. He is the only reason I live today.
💜
"What is success when hope has left you?" hits hard.
How successful can you really be in life when you have no hope for your future?
I feel this hard 😔
I tear up because he speaks out loud whats in my mind...
i start crying because i think about every thing wrong about my life
@@grayz_storiesflipaclip8859 Same. my family even turned against me.... So now I have no one to turn to.
Vio Viking Same.. It's a Dark Place 💔
@@carriedarkpoetry9751 Everything is dark...
@@ultracosmicenergies8881 "Talk to God because he's the only one who listens, even when you think He isn't" There's always someone there for you, God, and usually someone else comes along too. ❤
"...I don't wanna die, I just wanna get relief..." Is it just me, or is this relatable.
I relate to that
I don’t
I can relate
@Zhiyan (Katie) Li Yes, I know exactly how that feels.
@Zhiyan (Katie) Li Relatable
This is the official Nf deserves a Grammy button
⬇️
True
HE DOES
fishing for likes and recognition smh how about you actually do something with your life
I didn’t say the Grammy deserves NF, I said NF deserves the Grammy
And I am not fishing for likes I am using my comment to prove that Christian rappers can still will Grammies
I can't tell you how many times I listened to this song stuck in my meth addiction and it was the only light at the end of my tunnel this song was the hope that gave me the courage to keep going and now I'm 4 years sober and listening to this now it brings back tears I once had and I just say thank you God and David for loving me enough to rise up and love again...to all of you struggling God's love for us is real he is just waiting for us to stop seeking the world and seek HIM...may you find the peace HE brings
Dang, meth? That’s hardcore
We, NF REAL FANS are so proud of what you’ve become, Nate.
MR. COMMENT
What’s a real NF fan?
An Og
@@chrisgagnon5768 If u dont listen to NF since his first ever released song u are a famefan and not a real real fan! :^)
Yes. ❤
MR. COMMENT I HIT THE WRONG BUTTON😂💀
“The strongest people suffer the most” -unknown
That's how they become strong ..😔🙌🏻
@@love.him.forever sadly yes
God gives the strongest people the hardest fights because he knows that they can fight and overcome them
I dunno, isn't 'strength' just happiness? I suppose you could gain such from suffering, yet I still feel like the statement is incorrect.
@@jakob3044 what I was saying is for example people that get bullied almost become immune to those criticisms (at least in my case) or if you are insulted about something most of the time you brush it off but for someone that hasn’t experienced that before will be deeply hurt by that unlike someone that has experienced it many times. So basically if you are insulted about the same thing over and over you aren’t going to be affected by that anymore. This is in my case not sure about others
He's able to express everything I think and feel even when I'm not able to.
Thats what makes his music so awesome man
you must be stupid then if all you feel and think is "my life sucks"
@@loserloose6337 never said those feelings are 24/7 I know my life is pretty good doesn't mean I can't be down and able to relate to this song so think before you go calling people stupid please
@@loserloose6337 don't be a douchebag to someone you don't know
Loser Loose shut up u never know what people are going through some times can get tough some times and this relates even when ur just upset or sommit don’t go saying something before u know full story
The worst thing is that so many people feel this way and it’s usually the nicest people
ok buddy
all these songs getting dropped has been the highlight of my day😂
Year*
ALA_2003_ argueta tru tru😭
*life
Bbyjayy same here 🖤🖤🖤
ayye bless up
Other rappers: I'm gonna rap about drugs, guns, sex, and violence because that's what kids are growing up with and can relate to.
NF: hold my heart
Well, he did mention drugs.
@@blackknightofmarma1892 all I have, how could you leave us is were I heard pills that all I remember
He means that they rap about taking drugs the whole time
Also I thought he was letting his heart air out
2:02
Nf always gettin me thinkin, and the music always high quality.
“This is really what I’m born to be?, that’s what you get for thinking you’re unique.” Really hits hard.
"we don't want to die, we just want to be dead"
- The voices in my head
John-Tyler Trefil FOR ALL THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE COME HERE TO LISTEN TO THIS AND FEEL DEPRESSED,
please. listen to me. i know from experience and so do millions of people !!
omg i swear, it DOES get better and even if you have nothing at all, come to the comments of a sad song and connect with all the other people experiencing the same feelings and struggles and you !!
whatever you experience in life, you will never be alone - there are 7 billion people on the earth, you are one of them - how incredible is that ?! you are living, breathing, you have endless possibilities !!
you are trapped in a horrible, depressed but if you try to make one difference and you cut off or escape toxic things in your life then you have to power to change !!
you are so beautiful and even though i don’t even know you i want to reach out to everyone feeling so terrible. when i am older, i hope to work with mental health helpline or charities ect. i want it make someone else’s life better - please hold on, it ALWAYS gets better but you just cannot see that right now because you are blinded but this sick, nasty things called depression !!
i am begging you so much to hold on,
life IS BEAUTIFUL but you can’t see it because of your unfortunate circumstances.
if you hate your life, change it, as much as you can !!!
you, more than anyone, has the power to do that !!
you won’t believe me because i haven’t explained it very well😂 but coming from someone who went through a terrible mental health time and came out the other side with an extremely healthy lifestyle and mind and immense appreciation for life and opportunities, i am telling you that life gets better !!
please seek help and please help yourself, there are so many people willing to help you get through your struggles!!
please, hold on ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ if anyone is struggling, talk to the other people in the comments - they are here alongside you for the same reason xxxxxxxx
Same
I never wanted to kill myself just end apart of me -KING ISO
Don't think like that u have worth...God loves u
Guys, NF’s music is great. But, comment sections... there honestly depressing. So get out! Watch a cat meme or some thing. Whatever stuff your going on...YOU GOT THIS I’m rooting for you. P.S. this is not for likes and you guys may not see this but if you do. Don’t quit, your a great person
“Smile, because it’s easier than explaining what’s killing you on the inside” -the joker.
Exactly me
Me holding in tears: person: are you okay-? Me: balling my eyes out
@Hunter Varney wtf- 👀
@Hunter Varney so deep
“Never stop dreaming.” Freddy Krueger
This song represents a part of myself. The part that I don't show, to my friends, my parents, my brothers, "When I feel like you don't need me, Then I feel like you don't see me"
Same for me
Must be nice to have friends
𝔽𝕖𝕝𝕝 𝕚𝕥 𝕥𝕠𝕠
@@bf5655 I know you cant really see me, you dont know what I look like, or how old i am, but I'd be happy to be friends with you
B F I’d be friends with you. Wanna talk?
A lot of people might see messages like this all the time, but its okay, you're okay. Its okay to cry late at night, its okay to be different, its okay to to be fat or skinny its you, not anyone elses, its your body, dont hate yourself. You are perfect in every way possible. There is still hope our there and there will be someone that will love you for who you are. Express yourself dont be quiet cause who cares what other people say. I believe in you. Be you, be yourself always, and you will never be miss understood by me. Im here if you wanna talk. For who ever reads this im proud of you, im proud of you for being so strong for being here, i love you❤
"these kids, they come to my shows with tears in their eyes, imagine someone looking at you and saying your music is the reason that they are alive"- NF (therapy session) i honestly dont think people understand the real power of music. I have been listening to NF's music for years now and he has helped me through so much just by putting out music that i understand and that i can sympathize with. I feel like many people are in the same boat as i am and NF has become a safe place to them because he peobably doest understand but he has changed lives, including mine
Eminem - boosts my self confidence and understands me
NF - Speaks my mind and encourages me to keep going
He has helped me and I can relate to this comment so much
no one has ever understood me like nf, not my family nor friends not even my bf and when I'm so tired of being alone but when i listen to his music i don't feel alone feel understood and that's all I've ever wanted
Just realize that sometimes you gonna feel so alone no matter who is close to you...even if they ask you if you are ok and you reply that you are not
Embrace your feelings w/e form they have in any situation
Make pain be your strength
Make yourself great again...
I really hope you get help and you don’t feel alone and I’m sorry you feel that way
Heyif you want to talk i am here bestie
I know
I don't know if you are still reading comments here but you aren't alone. 21 million views from people like us who finally feel somewhat understood. Keep walking your road. As someone who has felt this way for 35 years, I can tell you that this path has beauty and wonder most will never know. It's seeing past all the tears and pain to get a glimpse of it that's the hardest.
No matter how popular Nathan gets, he will still be underrated.
I know I'm late but this is very true.
That's very true
@Keksmo I was actually replying to the comment above saying how NF will always be underrated. Sorry for the miscommunication.
@Keksmo good. I'm actually just working on my first album myself. Hbu?
@Keksmo Mostly rap and edm
1:46 What is success when hope has left you .
“I’m sick of doing interviews cause I hate myself”... that line hits deep
Do you do interviews?
@@adammclean1679 the word interviews can also be taken non literally meaning when people ask you about yourself you hate answering because of your self-hatred
@@sooner9971 I APPRECIATE THIUS COMMENY
@@adammclean1679 Tthis comment upsets me a lot and idk why. anytime i click this song i see this. i am clearly understanding nf. this is he saddest song off the album and realest. him saying those lyrics explains a lot .. you maybe have 3 nf interviews on youtube. therefore him describing why.. youre clearly here for a reason. you are sad and thats fine. this aint migos, its nf. were a squad. hes real music, why youdumb
"I don't wanna die, I just wanna get relief."
"I hate myself."
It's as though NF knows what I am thinking.
Hey, bro. Whatever you may be facing, know that Jesus loves you, and He delights in your casting your burdens on HIm. You are never alone. Jesus is signalling at you, waving his hands heads high. Trust in him
@@LincolnFalana Jesus has never done anything for me.
@@Joe.D.Sheppard Maybe therapy will. Have you tried it? I heard it helps.
@@hristiyantanev7631 I haven't tried it, no. I feel like it is overrated.
Consult a therapist dont go telling people in comments because whether your being serious your making someone depressed too.
Most rappers can’t actually sing. This guy can sing and is the whole package.
Agreed. I found him through paralyzed so when I listened to other songs I was like “oh cool, he’s a rapper too” (yes I’m aware theres rapping in paralyzed lmao)
@@jackiepakula455 😂😂 she barely do both
I love nf's music, but that can basicly be run down to autotune
Says who
@@zarrowthehorse wydm
This hits hard NF you're the best
"I don't hate myself, I hate the life I have to live." ~ Unknown
I mean ,not really... i hate myself coz its the reason why my life sucks.
love this
Same
@Keksmo love what your doing
I hate everything now
17 mins ago NF dropped 15 songs. This puts a smile on my face
That was almost my exact comment on this album drop.
john reimers lol
Kitne sun liye
Me tooo
@@blackfox658 use hindi samaj nahi aata saale. English bolna
I like the darkness because when it's dark no one can see my mistakes
me to and no one sees me
The darkness is a place that feels so good and right, but it leaves you down an even darker path. I’ve seen darkness in death first hand and you don’t want to. But even in the darkest path, there is a light, it may be dim, but it can shine more than the sun if you let it
Jesus sees and still loves you and wants you to come out of that darkness and into His light and love. 🤗 I can relate to how you feel.
I think you've mistaken the quote with, "I like walking near the sewer so no one can smell my farts"
and they cant see my tears. I dont like silence because when it is, these thoughts get louder and no one can hear my quivers of not being able to cry. im tired, we all are. One day hopefully this battle will end in our victory. I only wish you all a happy ending, remember i care and your not alone.
“Feel weak, but the peace that i keep lackin’ keeps speaking to me but i cant have it”
Like a nail ….
Everyone, let’s take a moment to appreciate that NF just explained how we feel for us.
It's also how he feels he wouldn't be able to make music like this if he hadn't been there
@@jaydenwilliams4185 true
This guy changed my life . He once said just in case my car goes off the highway or the plane l'm on decides it's my last day l want u to know when u are alone and u feel afraid u're not the only who is not okay THERE A MILLIONS OF US JUST LIKE YOU . As a writer l proud to say 3/4 my songs are inspired by him .
I love NF so much he helps me through a lot especially since they are so relatable, true, and he just helps us recognize our feelings and helps us see that we aren’t alone and he is so good at what he does!!
Here after Hope. Here as a fan, having heard every song. Trust me... I get it. I followed the journey... And I got better. Hope hit me in the heart.
most of us googled "i hate myself" and reached this song. and if u did too, then u r really deeply hurting right now. not really sure about the future, but i wish that someday we all google "i love myself" and reach that song, and be really deeply feeling peace , bliss and contentment.
I fell so useless i can't tell anyone what I feel I feel like once I cry i feel that i' weak and I have a abusive dad sometimes like I'm not there i tried hanging myself i tried overdoseing myself it suck i just want to disappear for the world and i was raised well but i cry when no ones is looking but when i'm around people i hid my feeling with happiness i say to myself it okay but its not I can't talk to my friend anymore because my mom thinks that i'm sad because i'm around her but no its because i finally telling her my feelings
Thanks
Haha you can guarantee that I hate myself but I just came here because im a huge fan of NF 🗝️
@@therichguy6844 I really Googled this now it Feels like it will never end
@@therichguy6844 hi if you need some one to talk to I would be happy to help you and come with open arms
So today I was just talking with my therapist. I got all excited and told her about this new album and told her how amazing it feels to hear a song (or a whole bunch of songs) that literally hit your chest so head it literally knocks the breath out of you and it feels like these songs were actually wrote by you instead of anyone else. When she saw the title of this song at first she was a little upset about the fact that I would feel like I hate myself and I explained to her that for me this song it's not necessarily hating who I am it's hating this mentality that I have (depression) I hate who I have become because of it. She told me that she was happy that I am finding ways of being honest with myself in multiple ways lately (not just the songs) and she seems really proud that I am finally being honest to me myself and I. Even if it might be negative in some tones. But it is good to sometimes push past the fake positivity and allow yourself the negative because you are being your true self... As long as you don't stay in that state of mind. Being honest with yourself, working on yourself, and learning to accept yourself as well is keys to healing
I think only narcissists love themselves all the time. It's a good and completely normal thing to dislike yourself or a part of yourself. I feel that the problem comes when we obsess over things that aren't in our power to change. I think hate is a very strong word but most people have at one time or another.
Jessica McDaniel thanks for this
NF is my therapy
Listen to Mr. Kitty.
@@justinbolbach2710 I can really see that logic
I’ve listened to this song for a while and just now the lyrics hit so much deeper. On a completely new level of depth for me. It’s so crazy how relatable this song is right now
Depressed people don't want to die they just want a different life
True. Suicides is just helplessness. Seeing no other way out.
I never wanted another life. I just wanted changing
I really do
I just want to fix the life i have...
Yeah
"People don't want to kill themselves, they only want to kill the part of themselves they don't like." This song is incredible and NF has really helped me through so much, just like I'm sure he's helped many others. I wish I could meet him in person, I'm a big fan and I've never been to one of his concerts. If Nate ever sees this, I can't explain my emotions. Thank you so much NF, keep safe and whatever your going through, you can get through it. I love you x
We are bundles of achievements and mistakes. You cant burn down part of it without damaging of all of it.
@@Marshall_Francies sometimes we want to burn down our achievements to attone for our mistakes.
@@suzuya4717 I legit feel that. No joke.
To me it's not killing the part of myself I don't like. It's just that I want all the pain to stop.
I hate arms because they are to skinny so I cut them
I was happy when I was a kid, man why is growing up so hard..?
Its a fucking shit
because you face reality
I know I'm in the same shoes, my friend.
@@westlyr2003 mhm me too
X_Lost_LilxChimmy_X Hey I was thinking about creating Facebook Page for people like us so we can talk about it and maybe able to encourage each other. What do you think?
I just noticed that when he says "my own actions", in the line "knee deep in defeat of my own actions", (at 2:50 ish) his voice kinda cracks, or shakes, like he's about to cry. Like this song wasn't sad enough already.
Omf ur right
"Suicide doesn’t end the chances of life getting worse, it eliminates the possibility of it ever getting any better." -Unknown
I used to think that I would never try and think of doing it because it will hurt the people I love,but do I have that any more? No. I don't. I think about from time to time. But I will try not to do it. Life will get better I just have to hope it will.
Thank you.
Technically it does both. But I agree with the sentiment.
when you are dead you have real peace. and thats the thing people dont want to acknowladge
I'm ok with that :)
"The peace that I lack keeps speaking to me but I can't have it "
That hit hard... damn 🌹
I’m seriously crying breaking down in tears right now. I’ve been following NF since 2013 when he made that song “start over”. Man. I’ve never heard a rapper to this day that relates to me as much as NF. Eminem was always too angry and always put me in a bad mood and cussing, lecrae makes phenomenal music but it’s not as personal as NF, there aren’t many dark rappers like NF man. His music really gets you through things man.
This is your best album yet man. Thank you for everything!!!
I’m seriously crying bro. This is your best album in your career.
Can relate been a fan since 2013 too
You need to get out more”find a friend or women for god sake ,,crying over a rap song ,,I love NF but you most have ADHD or sumtin
@@johntobin3673 you sound so dumb right now. What does adhd have to do with anything this man just said? Hold this L
Joseph Cordell ,,well maybe it’s because he is looking attention “wats the first letter of ADHD stand for ,,haha the best part of you ran down ur mothers like into her pink slipper “”get out of here “sick of people looking attention to get likes ,,give me the L mate “ I’ll gladly take it for ya if it means that much haha
Lyrics from genius
[Chorus]
I don't see you like I should
You look so misunderstood
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
Pray to God with my arms open
If this is it, then I feel hopeless
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
[Verse 1]
Yeah, late nights are the worst for me
They bring out the worst in me
Mind runnin', got me feelin' like it hurts to think
If this is all that I wanted, I don't want it, gotta be more for me
All the core beliefs
And every mornin' I wake up and feel like I am not worth it 'cause I'm at war with peace
I go to Hell, walk up to the corpse of me
Look at the body like, "You ain't nothin' but poor and weak"
It's kinda weird
Lately I been feelin' like the only way for me to get away is if I pour the drink
That's more deceit, more defeat
Is this really what I'm born to be?
That's what you get for thinkin' you're unique
So poor, but I'm so wealthy
Need help, but you can't help me
What else can the world sell me?
Tell me lies, I still buy 'em like they're goin' outta stock
But it's not healthy
[Chorus]
I don't see you like I should
You look so misunderstood
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
Pray to God with my arms open
If this is it, then I feel hopeless
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
[Verse 2]
Yeah, late nights get the best of me
They know how to get to me
Suicide thoughts come and go like a guest to me
But I don't wanna die, I just wanna get relief
So don't talk to me like you think I'm so successful
What is success when hope has left you?
I am not a spokesman, I'm a broken record
I'm sick of doin' interviews 'cause I hate myself, agh!
Come across like it's so easy
But I feel like you don't need me
When I feel like you don't need me
Then I feel like you don't see me
And my life has no meaning, drain me
Hands out, tryna ask for love
But when I get it, I just pass it up
Throw it away and think about it later
Diggin' through the trash for drugs
Wish I could give you what you needed, but I can't
I'm scared because
[Chorus]
I don't see you like I should
You look so misunderstood
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
Pray to God with my arms open
If this is it, then I feel hopeless
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
[Verse 3]
I walk through the ashes of my passions
Reminiscin' with the baggage in my casket
Get lost in the questions I can't answer
Can't stand who I am, but it don't matter
We scream to be free, but I stay captured
Knee-deep in defeat of my own actions
Feel weak, but the peace that I keep lacking
Keeps speakin' to me, but I can't have it
But I can't have it
Keeps speakin' to me, but I can't have it
But I can't have it
Keeps speakin' to me, but I can't have it
[Chorus]
I don't see you like I should
You look so misunderstood
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
Pray to God with my arms open
If this is it, then I feel hopeless
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
Hate myself
But it's hard when I hate myself
Hate myself
But it's hard when I hate myself
[Outro]
When I hate myself
It's kinda hard when I hate myself
I hate myself
It's hard when I hate myself
Brian Corbett in every one of these videos I find ur comment so I can sing😂😂
@@levibush446 i do the people work
Thanks man! have a great day
Needs more likes
Not all heroes wear capes
"I don't wanna die. I just wanna get relief"
This is what every suicidal person needs to realize.
We don't want life to end we just want the pain to end. That's not always as impossible as it seems.
Unless we really want to die
Amen 😞
I dont want to die but I want this endless pain to finally stop hut it doesn't
Eh some people dont want relief, ut isnt always about the end to pain, sometimes i just want dont want any of it. The good or the bad
Taco Lyfe Every fucking day man..
"I don't see you like I should
You look so misunderstood"
Hits my heart hard...
Thank you for writing this melodiously beautiful and lyrically deep song, Nate!
Facts. Love this whole record 💯🔥
Alyssa Rebecca 🔥❤️🔥
It's a Monday. Pain hitting me hard today. I'm more successful than the average guy, I'm very blessed and I'm thankful for that. But that doesn't mean I'm immune to depression and anxiety.
Depression does not discriminate.
It most definitely doesn’t! I’m like you, I have a wonderful family, a loving wife and a fantastic job that pays well but yet I’m depressed as hell.
Remember in mansion how he said he was scared to open the door? he finally opened that door. And I'm happy he did.
Damn thanks for all the likes
maybe....or he's just letting us look through the windows. maybe he's just getting started
@@NIHILWR now that... I like
👏🏽
Thought I was the only one that noticed
Me to
"Pray to God with my arms open
. If this is it, then I feel hopeless"
"But I don't wanna die, I just wanna get relief" - these gave me goosebumps. If anyone is reading this I hope you get through hard times, it will get better.
“ but i feel like you dont need me “
We do need you, because this is how we deal with the same bad thoughts
Actually dropped a tear reading that last part
i literally just throw up in my mouth because of cringe this comment was.
@@Noxthedunmer shit im retarded
truee..but maybe he feels useless besides his music. u know what I mean?
Ma¡a j
That makes sense too
I absolutely LOVE this song
The saddest part of life is when the person who gave you the best memories becomes a memory
@Keksmo I should be good bro, thanks for going out of your way to make sure I'm doing good and giving me someone to talk too I really appreciate that
*holds back tears*
@Keksmo what if I told you... I already am?
this is either a copied comment or someone copied it from you because ive seen this on multiple videos ;-;
@Keksmo I just like the song, I'm fine. Thanks though! You're an awesome person and it seems like you help a lot of people. Have a great day.
“Is this really what I’m born to be? That’s what you get for thinking you’re unique” wow
Many nuggets when you listen to this Man
When you want to cry but there is no more tears 😭🥺
Grow up little turd you'll see how life is
Once you grow up
Please help pull my ingrown turd out it's stuck in my ass and hurts very very much.. I'm crying the turd is Stuck inside my ass
@@Scottbrushchenko bro chill
@@Scottbrushchenko bruh just go see a doctor, it doesn't seem very healthy
Same here :(
“Can’t stand who I am” and “knee deep in my own actions” always gets me
"We stopped checking for monsters under the bed but stopped when we realized they were inside us." -TheJoker
@Keksmo do you have Snapchat
@@brooklynboyd6074 Nastysniperifle if you need someone to talk to.
Around us...well some.
@Nate Hopf same ngl 🙄
yes sirrrrr
Man it seems like NFs going through a lot rn. We love you Nate and we’re praying for you
This song hits different when you’re having a complete breakdown in your car, poring rain, late at night
Omg I really hope you are ok❤️
I would love to try that
Rn lol
Oddly secific but i see the picture
i searched that too and found this
Every couple of years i get the worst depressive, and suicidal thoughts, and everytime, NF's music is a blessing that makes things a little easier
The most depressed people arnt the ones who seem sad all the time in public but the ones who laugh the most and tell the most jokes, the ones that they to bring joy the most...they just dont want anyone else to have to feel like they do....
I’ve been bouncing in and out of stuff in my life, you are 100% right and I agree with what your saying. stay Positive
Ya none of my friends or family can tell i'm sad as fuck, only my gf knows, bc just like yall im great at hiding emotions
Tbh im the quiet kid bc of my depression I feel like I'll be judged and unherd.im the sad one and its got to the point where they can see through my fake smile they know how I feel but I dont tell them...
that isn't a good thing to do, that's necessarily hiding your true self
@Xx_Kaede-Senpai_xX i don't want you to feel worse or anything,
but in this case, your friends don't even know you, who you really are . . .
I don't want to die , I just want relief.
I hate saying it but this is so relatable right now.
hang in there, i hope you're doing better these days.
It used to be true for me too. Fight it! One day it'll be worth it. It's what kept me fighting, and I'm hoping it's true. I've seen happy people. There has to be a reason they're happy. Which means it has to be worth it to fight.
Am I the only one who hides everything from mom and dad?🥺
Edit: I really appreciate everyone sharing their story’s and I’m really taking the time to listen to anything everyone says
VerXy_- __ I do too
@Rissa Dobre same
No but why do you? Sometimes it’s for good reasons sometimes you should tell them. A parents job is to be there for your kiddo. If they’re worth their salt as a parent you should tell them everything
Nope they barely let me cry in front of them so o just lock myself in my room all day
no, my parents wouldn't belive me.. cause they say I only want attention because of my depressed sister... but I have problems too..
His songs really make me tear up every time not because its sad but because his wordplay and some of his stuff is really relatable
i hate how i ruin everything. i hate how i look. i hate how everyone around me leaves me. i hate my voice. i hate my personality. i hate how i’ll never be good enough. i hate how i’m always disappointing everyone. i hate how i constantly feel alone. i hate how i can’t do anything right. i really hate everything about myself.
same here bud :V felt it
Felt that
me too.
some of that is not true, it can't be
you don't ruin everything, don't berate yourself for the mistakes you make, the world is already there to do that, don't do it yourself, sometimes it's not even a mistake
and even if it is (that's a big if), noone is perfect, noone is good at everything EVERYONE makes mistakes, and EVERYONE, including YOU do good, have potential, can be more, can do more, are more than they think they are.
you hate how you look, sound
why? cuz you were born that way? if yeah, don't think about it, not worth your worry or time, you can't change it. be proud of who you are, please.
you hate your personality, but why? it's just who you are? improve where you can, don't worry about anything else, you are PERFECT the way you are, you don't need to meet stupid society standards (no offense)
you hate how everyone leaves you
me too lol
ok, seriously though, it happens when you are a special person and have trouble getting along with the mass, but it's not your fault, so again, not your fault. maybe look around for friends that would be willing to stick with you. there are a lot people who care about you.
you'll never be good enough? who told you that? society? who cares about what they expect you to do? you meet your own standards, you do you. and you can do anything you want, you can be anything you want, don't let anyone tell you any different.
you say you are disappointing everyone, but you are probably not, believe me
also, you don't necessarily have to meet their expectations, you are probably not even supposed to.
also you are not alone, you never were, you never will be, God is with you, others are too
@@arn3107 this seriously made me cry. thank you, it really helped
"Yeah, late nights get the best of me"
Me listening at 12am: 👀
Ryan 3 am*
@@isaaclee5897 shut up, its different timezones. it was 9 when the songs dropped here
Caleb Bastin chill I was just saying what time I was listening to the song
@@isaaclee5897 ok sorry. I've just been getting tons of stupid BS replys the last couple of days so yours looked like one of those
Caleb Bastin don’t worry it’s all good
We gotta respect our pillows for catching our tears, when nobody else will.
You gave me a new perspective on pillows. It’s my best friend now.
Bro that hit hard god damn
brooooo
Cringe
Yea I know having to experience it every day
I can relate to this song somedays, it's good to know that even Nate is open about it and real, as he always will be.
I've listened to this song every night for the past four years. I've been through so much heartbreak and depression that I've thought of ending my life on multiple occasions. I feel like this song was written for me specifically. I know barely anyone is going to see this comment, but if you do, and you're dealing with the same stuff I've had to go through, just keep pushing. Suicide is never going to fix your problems, it's just going to make those who love you sad. Life is meaningful, even when your can't tell sometimes.
I hope that you are doing better. Or at least that you are still pushing. I dont know with what exactly you are dealing, I just hope it will be better for you as time goes. This song resonates in me hard as well. Live just to listen to it again if it is something that helps you. Keep pushing stranger on internet
Strenght for you♥️
sucks to sucks
@@TTV_Its_Midniteyou suck to suck bro tf.
I'm pushing and pushing and the devil pulls me back I just need some weed and I'll be fine...