Autistic Masking and it’s relationship to Dissociative Identity Disorder
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- Опубликовано: 16 сен 2024
- Naomi (our host/real self) narrates this video. She asks 'What are Autistic Masking and Autistic Camouflaging and how do they intersect with Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID)?'
She wonders if her personas are a more concrete and systematic way of masking? If this is so, does it mean she can never live authentically - never lose her mask - whilst she continues to have personas? Or is the process of developing DID unrelated to being autistic and not related in any way to the autistic processes of masking and camouflaging?
Content:
-What is DID?
-What is Autism?
-What is Autistic Masking?
-What is Autistic Camouflaging?
-Did I develop personas as a way of concretising the process of masking and camouflaging?
-Do my alters mask?
-Do I mask or do I just switch into an alter?
-Do I mask when at home with my husband and children?
-If I value being authentic then does that mean I need to ‘get rid’ of my alters?
-What does it mean to be authentic?
-How does living authentically without masking relate to living a life with many alters?
-If my alters are actually a variation of masking, does this mean that I cannot live authentically if I continue to have alters?
-Can I still achieve good mental health if I am not living authentically?
*A sensory friendly version of this video will be published soon (the background music will be removed)
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I have this theory that autistic masking can in many people form its own version of DID / OSDD. Basically it’s an identity disorder with a different cause (masking instead of dissociation) but a very similar disorder. AID: Autistic identity disorder. Years of Masking creates identity fractals just as much as dissociating does. And both are a self protection mechanisms obv.
i think having so many personalities gives us like a 4 Dimensional persona. I think we have felt so lonely because no one sees all of us all at once. And when i try to imagine how that would feel....its magical.
Yes, we feel the outside world only ever gets to see one tiny fraction of who we really are. It sort of has to be that way though and it's why it's that way in the first place.
@@AutisticSelves do ya'll mind expanding on the second sentence?
The only time I’ve ever felt integrated was when I took an extremely high dose of shrooms. I was trying to relive trauma in hopes of a therapeutic approach with dealing with cptsd. Sorta of a poor man’s version of ayahuasca. Instead I felt whole. I didn’t hallucinate. I had a brief moment of panic. Then everything just clicked. I wasn’t in pain, I was happy, I loved myself, I didn’t have anxiety, I didn’t have my normal constant state of fear. I had only one train of thought(idk if everyone is like this but I mostly hear thoughts that aren’t mine and there is always several at the same time). I didn’t feel alone. I could look my partner at the time in the eyes. Time didn’t bother me. Have you ever tried psychedelics?
Hi, no we haven’t used psychedelics or any drugs. One of the diagnostic criteria for a diagnosis of DID is the symptoms must occur outside the use of drugs or alcohol.
Did the effects last?
Just want to say, we really appreciate ya'lls content.
Thanks so much, so kind of you.
Thank you so much for this video. It's so clear and concisely covers a lot of information. I'm a masking, late diagnosed austic person. I love learning about a variety of autistic experiences and learned a lot from your video.
Thank you for taking the time to share that and thanks for your kind words
As an AFAB autistic who was recently diagnosed with OSDD 1-B, I wasn't surprised, but the issue of alters is. Right now I'm trying to sort out what is and what is not, and it's been difficult. I know there's definitely alter personality states, but with all the questions I have, your channel has really helped me out. Thank you so much! 🥰
Hi so glad our channel is helping you on your journey.
Thank you for making this
Thank you for watching and taking the time to comment
I'm audhd & have cptsd, bpd & osdd. Also ME. & severe (until a year or so ago) ocd. I definitely think they're all linked & affect each other too.
Autistic plurals are epic
This is the first video that I clicked on of yours and I really appreciate the work you are doing to de-stigmatise DID/OSDD but there was one area of misinformation in the intro to your video, you claim you are the “real” one and the others are alters but that is misinformation. DID is formed because the personality hasn’t fully formed meaning, there is no “real” one, there can’t be. An analogy I like to use is, imagine there is a glass bowl, now imagine throwing it onto the ground and it smashes into heaps of small pieces, Which piece is the “real” one? Instead use the word “host” meaning the one who is out most of the time! Truly love the work your doing but please do not spread misinformation!
It’s Naomi. I understand the theory you are describing. This is a channel where we just share our lived experience in our own way and we don’t know the current thinking or have knowledge of DID in others and how it is viewed and seen professionally. We just speak from our own perspective and describe our experiences in our own way using the language that best describes what we feel. We thought on what you say and actually calling me (Naomi) the host doesn’t feel right. We get your analogy and theory of how we got to be fragmented but it also doesn’t feel right for us. It doesn’t describe how we feel we are. As Naomi, I don’t feel I am an alter and all the alters agree I am different to them. When we integrated (fully fused) over about 20 years ago, it was I, Naomi, that they all came into. its like i am the vessel, the holder. i get how saying i am the real one naybe isnt right as all of us are equally real but that was how we felt it described our reality when we made the video. i struggle to know how to describe myself and would welcome suggestions. i don't like to say i am the host. i have used that word on some videos but it doesnt really capture our reality. as for spreading misinformation - this is a channel where we merely share our lived experience. the term misinformation is very loaded and we don't feel accurate as our own lived experience and the language we choose to share it cannot be debated. its just us and our take on our life. we form our own theories and we dont know about the research and literature. we also dont want to. we are just working ourselves out, as an autistic system. hope this clarifies.
I'm confused 😢
What are you confused about?