I worked night shifts on occasion and would come home and drink. I convinced myself it was my afternoon since I worked nights. I knew in my heart there was nothing normal about being drunk by 10 am but I kept doing it anyway. God finally woke me up before I drank myself to death and I'm very thankful. Thanks again for these videos. They help me continue to despise alcohol and stay away from it.
❤Thank you for your time and energy! I have end-stage liver cirrhosis. I am 42. My liver failed when I was 23. I have a TIPS and several bindings in my esophagus. Gal bladder was removed. (Appendix burst at age 3). Your story's of morning drinking brings me back. I don't get out to meetings due to transportation and heavy schedule, but I feel I get some of that through you!❤
Hey!!!! That's so awesome!!!! Congratulations on 10 months!!!! I am so happy for you! That is no small feat! I hope that you arr having a great start to your weekend!!!!! That is just so awesome!!!!!❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤😊😊😊😊😊 God bless
"I woke up Sunday morning with no way to hold my head it didn't hurt. And the beer I had for breakfast wasn't bad so I had one more for dessert." Sunday Morning Sidewalk by Kris Kristofferson. Thank you, LD. You're describing the classic progression of alcoholism.
This was a hard one LD. For you to tell and for us to hear. Many of us were there too. Thank you for your bravery. I hope you know that you are saving lives. Love you. ❤
Thank you so much monica!!!! Love you too!! I really don't like even thinking about back then, but people need to know where this can lead! God bless❤❤❤❤❤
@@liverdisease-qb6rk I feel so blessed to have all of you in my life. I don’t feel so alone anymore. In a way, knowing that you all are here gives me strength, courage and hope.
I would puke every morning, first thing. I just went ahead and got it our of the way.... I had diarrhea for years too. Always blamed it on something else. Thank you for sharing! God bless ❤❤
I remember puking at work and my coworkers would ask me if I was ok and I would say something like yeah it's just the burrito didn't agree with me, which was a lie, it was actually because I drank heavily the previous night.
Hey mona!!! You are so sweet! Thank you!! It's really crazy to look at that first video to now. And that was when I felt confident enough to film myself.... I looked way worse than that. I really did look like a walking skeleton!!! Thank you mona!!!! Hope you are having a great Saturday morning! God bless❤❤❤❤❤❤
You are an angel. I wish I had your courage and determination. I have just being diagnosed with end stage cirrhosis and I am terrified. I am so afraid of suffering and death in front of my parents, brother and my two lovely cockers. I don’t know how to forgive my self. I am also a woman which somehow makes it worse. Love, continue your work and mission for long years to come.
Hey LD, we are creatures of habit. By drinking the beer every am you created a road map and your brain holds on to that. It’s crazy how that happens. The sneaking ugh I know exactly what you mean. I’ve been there which is what scares me. Thank you for another great vid.
Hey micru866! You are so right! Our brains get used to that feeling and want it all the time. It's crazy how the one organ that is supposed to protect us, can kill us at the same exact time! Hope you are having a great Sat morning! God bless❤❤❤
Exactly!! Always be on guard. I can't imagine my old way of living right now, but it just takes building up a pattern again to be right back in it. Alcoholism is sneaky..
Being a new subscriber to your awesome channel, I went back to watch some of your old vids. I'm shocked at how much your appearance has changed in a year's time. It's just wild to imagine how hard that life must have been for you; sounds like 5 full marathons a day. So glad you're enjoying life again.
Hey G. Wow I can so relate to you and your story. I remember going food shopping and I would stop at the liquor store and get shots before I went into ShopRite. I would head right to the bathroom go into a stall and flush the toilet so nobody heard me cracking the bottle open. I even had the bottle in the toilet seat tissue box on the wall. So many things I think about what I did after listening to you. You really make me feel like you get it. Love ya. Night. Got me thinking about how crazy liquor had me doing sneaky stuff. Have a great weekend ❤❤❤
Hey jersey girl! If there is one thing I do really understand.... it's this topic. It's like I was drinking the way I did, just so I could talk about it one day. I really did take it to the next level. I know that... one sip.... one little sip and my life would be over. It's that bad. If I slipped. I would be at the liquor store immediately and would dive headfirst into he'll. Why do our minds work this way???? That's crazy that you hid them in there, we find thw strangest places to hide it. And when we find one place that works, we will keep using it over and over! Hope you are having a great Saturday morning and I hope you enjoy your weekend too! God bless😊❤
Ahhhh, I hate to admit this, but i was the same way. Except once I started drinking outside of parties, I went straight to vodka. For a period of about 5 years, I drank all day. I would bring a 24 oz. water bottle full of vodka to work with me, and drink half of it throughout the day. Then I'd go home and drink some more. Later in my career, I'd be sober throughout my first job, but would start drinking during my second and then until I went to bed (passed out) when i got home. Weekends (when I finally stopped working them) I'd get up at the Crack of dawn and drink about 4 shots. Eat breakfast, pass out and then repeat around dinner time. I'd wake up in the middle of the night and do a few more shots. I'm getting nauseous just thinking about it. I really don't know how I'm alive. As it got closer to my quitting, I started going through the whole day sober until around dinner time where I'd do 5 shots. Pass out, wake up hungover, repeat. Weekends I always wasted, though, in the way I just described earlier. Toward the end I knew it was a living hell. But there was this devil on my shoulder telling me that I deserved a vacation. So. Much. Time. Squandered. And I'll always be waiting for the shoe to drop with my health. It was never worth it. I was just overcome by addiction. I can't imagine ever living life that again. Great topic, LD. Alcoholism can make you act insane. If any of this sounds familiar to anyone reading, please get help and stop turning down help. I promise you that life is so much better on the other side. I'm speaking from experience! And at one point, I could never imagine sobriety. I convinced myself that i didn't even want it. Much love to all, and have a great night! ❤❤
Hi Amanda my friend, thank you for sharing. I know it’s not easy to go back to those days. I’m so glad you found your way out. This disease does not have any mercy and will take anyone out. You’re a fighter.
@MonicaVidal-qw3vh thanks, Monica. I really appreciate the well wishes! I hope admitting to things like this can help others avoid getting stuck in that cycle like I did. 💕 have a great night 😊
@Micru866 hey Mic, thank you for the support, my friend. I don't like sharing this level of detail because I find it shameful and embarrassing to admit to. I now struggle to understand how I could live that way for so long. It was definitely a lot of unchecked anxiety and hopelessness. But I see people struggling on here every day, so I hope to reach anyone who feels as stuck as I did. You, my friend, are a fighter, too!! And now we're part of an army. Haha I'm gonna stop typing before I continue this spiral of corny. But really, thank you for being you and for being around! ❤️😊
@@amandaflaherty7528 you’re so right and there’s no shame my friend. This is a judgment free zone. We’ve all been there the hiding the booze under the vegetables and pounding the drinks back while everyone else is sipping. I know what you mean though. You’re brave and yes this does help so many. I no longer feel alone. Thank you a million times. We are a part of this army…fighting to get or keep control of our lives. Much love always. Your friend from Fl
At my husbands worst, he would just have a 24 hour life. He’d sleep in tiny amounts and drink all through the 24 hour cycle. He never went to “bed”. He’d just nap and wake and drink and repeat. Almost zero food except maybe a few bites here and there. Just alcohol. No other liquids. It was truly insanity.
Heavy dude. You drinking in the shower kind of reminded me of that Simpson’s episode where Homer cracks open a duff to use as his mouth wash when brushing his teeth. Although I actually thought that was pretty far fetched that episode.
It really is. Not far fetched at all. It really can spiral out of control and you don't even realize what's happening while it's going on. So scary. Thank you again! God bless❤
One other thing. What just amazes me is that alcoholics don’t believe they smell like booze so they think no one knows. Trust me, we know you’re drinking no matter how hard you try to hide it.
Yeah I remember those Friday nights that never ended, passing out wake up with the bottle waiting for my hand at 3:am pass out again wake up see the sun chug a beer head to the LQ store stock up and we all know the rest…. I’m happy it’s finally over.. But it’s funny but sad Mr Booze from Family Guy came on TV during my detox at home during DT’s .. I had to quit drinking
It's crazy how far we take it isn’t it? I really don't like thinking about that back then. But.... people need to know where this can lead, if they aren't careful. Thank you for sharing! God bless 😊❤
ye, man im so glad my boby cant take it, i talked to friends and familky about drink, and no dis-rescecp but i thought i was drinking but it was only in the evenin with a tok a weed, or hash which we get in ireland
Drinking in the morning is not for the faint of heart, especially while working. Anybody else do this and accidentally have one too many? Great vid thanks as always you’re the man.
It really isn't and heck yes. I overdrank in the morning so many times. I would have to call one of my employees and ask them to pick me up. Always had an excuse... car wouldn't start, etc... crazy. Thank you my friend! God bkess😊
Did you ever alternate in the morning?between good coffee and then (in my case) scotch, with a little scrambled egg or something (i was usually too nauseous for much food) and the booze made that light breakfast snack taste ohhh so good?
Hey Craig! Not really. I drank coffee in the beginning of my problem, but stopped and would just drink beer or the hard stuff towards the end. I hate to even think about it, it was so gross. And forget about food. I never ate. Hope you are having a great morning! God bless😊❤
Eat salads and fruit and keep talking to our Lord Jesus Christ about it all He understands us. Drink water too and take vitamins like Zink etc become stronger ❤🎉😊
I drank since teenage years, drank heavy in my 20s, it got bad around 30 and I drank my worst from 30 to 42 when I got sick. Hope this helps. God bless😊
The ole' simultaneous cough trick while cracking a beer.
Hahaha!!!!
right!!
Yep I used to turn on the sink
I worked night shifts on occasion and would come home and drink. I convinced myself it was my afternoon since I worked nights. I knew in my heart there was nothing normal about being drunk by 10 am but I kept doing it anyway. God finally woke me up before I drank myself to death and I'm very thankful. Thanks again for these videos. They help me continue to despise alcohol and stay away from it.
Thank you so much for sharing! People need to know where this can lead.... we don't mean for it to happen! God bless❤❤❤❤
24 hrs today. Thanks for the video.
Woohooo!! Congratulations, fknid!! You should be so proud of yourself. Keep killin' it!! ❤🎉🎊
Soon it will be 36 !! You'll really feel better(about your self,your worth) with each passing day!!
Congratulations on 24 hours my friend!!!! Thank you for sharing that! You are in the right place!!!! Thank you for being here!!!❤❤❤❤ God bless 😊😊😊
❤Thank you for your time and energy! I have end-stage liver cirrhosis. I am 42. My liver failed when I was 23. I have a TIPS and several bindings in my esophagus. Gal bladder was removed. (Appendix burst at age 3). Your story's of morning drinking brings me back. I don't get out to meetings due to transportation and heavy schedule, but I feel I get some of that through you!❤
I am 10 months sober today🎉
Congrats 🎉
Congratulations flowerheadwoman!!! That's amazing!! 🎉🎉❤🎊
Hey!!!! That's so awesome!!!! Congratulations on 10 months!!!! I am so happy for you! That is no small feat! I hope that you arr having a great start to your weekend!!!!! That is just so awesome!!!!!❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤😊😊😊😊😊 God bless
"I woke up Sunday morning with no way to hold my head it didn't hurt. And the beer I had for breakfast wasn't bad so I had one more for dessert." Sunday Morning Sidewalk by Kris Kristofferson. Thank you, LD. You're describing the classic progression of alcoholism.
Thank you for that! It's crazy how it progresses and then we wake up one day and go.... how did I get here??? God bless😊❤
I too enjoyed a couple brews in the morning as an eye opener. A little hair of the dog. This went on for 25 years. Glad we found sobriety.
For an addict good buzz in the morning was everything
Celebrating with you for grabbing your health by the horns! 😊❤️
Man.... you are not kidding!!!! Thank you! God bless😊❤
@@crystaly-m6cyou are not kidding!
This was a hard one LD. For you to tell and for us to hear. Many of us were there too. Thank you for your bravery. I hope you know that you are saving lives. Love you. ❤
Thank you so much monica!!!! Love you too!! I really don't like even thinking about back then, but people need to know where this can lead! God bless❤❤❤❤❤
@@liverdisease-qb6rk I feel so blessed to have all of you in my life. I don’t feel so alone anymore. In a way, knowing that you all are here gives me strength, courage and hope.
I knew when I would puke while brushing my teeth. Had diarrhea for a year and the migraines, so I drank in the morning.
I would puke every morning, first thing. I just went ahead and got it our of the way.... I had diarrhea for years too. Always blamed it on something else. Thank you for sharing! God bless ❤❤
I remember puking at work and my coworkers would ask me if I was ok and I would say something like yeah it's just the burrito didn't agree with me, which was a lie, it was actually because I drank heavily the previous night.
I just got my 3 coffees mugs, love them.
I couldn’t believe how fast they were delivered
Hey LD I appreciate your honesty. I’m sure your family is enjoying the new you. You look amazing today 💚
Hey mona!!! You are so sweet! Thank you!! It's really crazy to look at that first video to now. And that was when I felt confident enough to film myself.... I looked way worse than that. I really did look like a walking skeleton!!! Thank you mona!!!! Hope you are having a great Saturday morning! God bless❤❤❤❤❤❤
You are an angel. I wish I had your courage and determination. I have just being diagnosed with end stage cirrhosis and I am terrified. I am so afraid of suffering and death in front of my parents, brother and my two lovely cockers. I don’t know how to forgive my self. I am also a woman which somehow makes it worse. Love, continue your work and mission for long years to come.
Holding you in prayer and wishing you strength and self-forgiveness. 🙏❤
❤️
Love your liver program dr Garrett Smith. Wish you the best, do it for your puppies, they need you!
❤HI, I also have end-stage cirrhosis. I too am so sad for my family. Also scared. I will keep you in my prayers! Let me know if you'd like to talk!❤
Hey LD, we are creatures of habit. By drinking the beer every am you created a road map and your brain holds on to that. It’s crazy how that happens. The sneaking ugh I know exactly what you mean. I’ve been there which is what scares me. Thank you for another great vid.
Hey micru866! You are so right! Our brains get used to that feeling and want it all the time. It's crazy how the one organ that is supposed to protect us, can kill us at the same exact time! Hope you are having a great Sat morning! God bless❤❤❤
My second was the moment my husband passed. 6 years of total intoxicating
Man, do I feel this. I feel for your grief, and I pray that you've found some peace!! I hope you have a great night, Crystal ❤
Im so sorry for your loss. May your husband rest in peace. Thank you Crystal! God bless😊❤
Thank you for sharing. Good reminders of how it can start (or restart).
Exactly!! Always be on guard. I can't imagine my old way of living right now, but it just takes building up a pattern again to be right back in it. Alcoholism is sneaky..
You are welcome! Hope you are having a great morning! God bless😊❤
Mr and Mrs LD Got our backs. Never connected so much ❤
Thank you so much!!! You are so awesome!! Thank you for being here!!!❤❤❤❤❤ God bless😊😊😊
Your honesty and articulation is inspiring. You look very healthy and thanks so much for sharing!
Yes, I agree, LD is an inspiration for many people who are struggling!
Thank you so much for saying that!!!! I really do appreciate it!!!! You are so welcome and thank you for being here!!! God bless😊❤
@angelamadas-um6wr thank you!❤
Never drank in the morning, but loved that afternoon buzz. I could not drink vodka. Always puked on that.
What did you drink?
I'm so glad that you didn't! To both!!!! Hope you are having a great morning!!!! God bless😊❤
Being a new subscriber to your awesome channel, I went back to watch some of your old vids. I'm shocked at how much your appearance has changed in a year's time. It's just wild to imagine how hard that life must have been for you; sounds like 5 full marathons a day. So glad you're enjoying life again.
Hey G. Wow I can so relate to you and your story. I remember going food shopping and I would stop at the liquor store and get shots before I went into ShopRite. I would head right to the bathroom go into a stall and flush the toilet so nobody heard me cracking the bottle open. I even had the bottle in the toilet seat tissue box on the wall. So many things I think about what I did after listening to you. You really make me feel like you get it. Love ya. Night. Got me thinking about how crazy liquor had me doing sneaky stuff. Have a great weekend ❤❤❤
Hey jersey girl! If there is one thing I do really understand.... it's this topic. It's like I was drinking the way I did, just so I could talk about it one day. I really did take it to the next level. I know that... one sip.... one little sip and my life would be over. It's that bad. If I slipped. I would be at the liquor store immediately and would dive headfirst into he'll. Why do our minds work this way???? That's crazy that you hid them in there, we find thw strangest places to hide it. And when we find one place that works, we will keep using it over and over! Hope you are having a great Saturday morning and I hope you enjoy your weekend too! God bless😊❤
Great story bro, I could never drink alcohol in the morning after party, I wish you full recovery
Thank you! I know it's gross. I was very deep in the bottle. God bless😊
Ahhhh, I hate to admit this, but i was the same way. Except once I started drinking outside of parties, I went straight to vodka. For a period of about 5 years, I drank all day. I would bring a 24 oz. water bottle full of vodka to work with me, and drink half of it throughout the day. Then I'd go home and drink some more. Later in my career, I'd be sober throughout my first job, but would start drinking during my second and then until I went to bed (passed out) when i got home. Weekends (when I finally stopped working them) I'd get up at the Crack of dawn and drink about 4 shots. Eat breakfast, pass out and then repeat around dinner time. I'd wake up in the middle of the night and do a few more shots. I'm getting nauseous just thinking about it. I really don't know how I'm alive. As it got closer to my quitting, I started going through the whole day sober until around dinner time where I'd do 5 shots. Pass out, wake up hungover, repeat. Weekends I always wasted, though, in the way I just described earlier. Toward the end I knew it was a living hell. But there was this devil on my shoulder telling me that I deserved a vacation. So. Much. Time. Squandered. And I'll always be waiting for the shoe to drop with my health. It was never worth it. I was just overcome by addiction. I can't imagine ever living life that again. Great topic, LD. Alcoholism can make you act insane. If any of this sounds familiar to anyone reading, please get help and stop turning down help. I promise you that life is so much better on the other side. I'm speaking from experience! And at one point, I could never imagine sobriety. I convinced myself that i didn't even want it. Much love to all, and have a great night! ❤❤
Great post. So glad you are ok. ❤
Hi Amanda my friend, thank you for sharing. I know it’s not easy to go back to those days. I’m so glad you found your way out. This disease does not have any mercy and will take anyone out. You’re a fighter.
@MonicaVidal-qw3vh thanks, Monica. I really appreciate the well wishes! I hope admitting to things like this can help others avoid getting stuck in that cycle like I did. 💕 have a great night 😊
@Micru866 hey Mic, thank you for the support, my friend. I don't like sharing this level of detail because I find it shameful and embarrassing to admit to. I now struggle to understand how I could live that way for so long. It was definitely a lot of unchecked anxiety and hopelessness. But I see people struggling on here every day, so I hope to reach anyone who feels as stuck as I did. You, my friend, are a fighter, too!! And now we're part of an army. Haha I'm gonna stop typing before I continue this spiral of corny. But really, thank you for being you and for being around! ❤️😊
@@amandaflaherty7528 you’re so right and there’s no shame my friend. This is a judgment free zone. We’ve all been there the hiding the booze under the vegetables and pounding the drinks back while everyone else is sipping. I know what you mean though. You’re brave and yes this does help so many. I no longer feel alone. Thank you a million times. We are a part of this army…fighting to get or keep control of our lives. Much love always. Your friend from Fl
At my husbands worst, he would just have a 24 hour life. He’d sleep in tiny amounts and drink all through the 24 hour cycle. He never went to “bed”. He’d just nap and wake and drink and repeat. Almost zero food except maybe a few bites here and there. Just alcohol. No other liquids. It was truly insanity.
I never ate either..... i really think that when the health problems start.
Heavy dude. You drinking in the shower kind of reminded me of that Simpson’s episode where Homer cracks open a duff to use as his mouth wash when brushing his teeth. Although I actually thought that was pretty far fetched that episode.
It really is. Not far fetched at all. It really can spiral out of control and you don't even realize what's happening while it's going on. So scary. Thank you again! God bless❤
Awesome Video LD!!❤ Thumbs up! 👍 and shared out.❤
Much appreciated Cindy!!!!❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ God bless
@@liverdisease-qb6rk Have a Beautiful Weekend!!
BAM 💥
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
One other thing. What just amazes me is that alcoholics don’t believe they smell like booze so they think no one knows. Trust me, we know you’re drinking no matter how hard you try to hide it.
Oh.... I know. I would think I could cover it up. Now... I can smell it on anyone who has been drinking. From far away. Thank you! God bless😊❤
great video....thanks!
You're welcome! Thank you!! God bless
Yeah I remember those Friday nights that never ended, passing out wake up with the bottle waiting for my hand at 3:am pass out again wake up see the sun chug a beer head to the LQ store stock up and we all know the rest…. I’m happy it’s finally over.. But it’s funny but sad Mr Booze from Family Guy came on TV during my detox at home during DT’s .. I had to quit drinking
I'm so happy you've moved on from that. I feel everything you said here. What a nightmare we lived. So happy to be moving forward.
It's crazy how far we take it isn’t it? I really don't like thinking about that back then. But.... people need to know where this can lead, if they aren't careful. Thank you for sharing! God bless 😊❤
Thanks for your honesty!
You are welcome! Thank you! God bless😊❤
Thank you for your story! Been watching you for a while now. Great inspiration for many!
ye, man im so glad my boby cant take it, i talked to friends and familky about drink, and no dis-rescecp but i thought i was drinking but it was only in the evenin with a tok a weed, or hash which we get in ireland
I'm glad your body couldn't take it either! It was horrible drinking like that it the morning! God bless😊
Thanks for sharing this ❤. Have a great day LD.
Drinking in the morning is not for the faint of heart, especially while working. Anybody else do this and accidentally have one too many? Great vid thanks as always you’re the man.
It really isn't and heck yes. I overdrank in the morning so many times. I would have to call one of my employees and ask them to pick me up. Always had an excuse... car wouldn't start, etc... crazy. Thank you my friend! God bkess😊
yeah at times i reckon the swig going down your throat feels euphoric for a bit
Did you ever alternate in the morning?between good coffee and then (in my case) scotch, with a little scrambled egg or something (i was usually too nauseous for much food) and the booze made that light breakfast snack taste ohhh so good?
Hey Craig! Not really. I drank coffee in the beginning of my problem, but stopped and would just drink beer or the hard stuff towards the end. I hate to even think about it, it was so gross. And forget about food. I never ate. Hope you are having a great morning! God bless😊❤
Working the night shift it was too easy to drink before work and more than once would blackout and no call no show and got fired.
How many owi's did you get
What's a owi?
@deniserusinski5354 maybe Debra meant dwi's?
I never had one. Thank you! God bless😊
I meant to say I would hide my little shot bottles in the toilet seat tissue compartment
Ohhh my lortie!!
It's crazy what we will do to hide our bottles! ❤
Did you or do u have high bilirubin and low platelets?
Hey there... I did. Very high bilirubin, jaundice, dark urine. And low platelets. Hope this helps. Go bless 😊
sorry for the spelling mistake, i vaped some hcc
We still "R E S P E C T" you, and I ain't disrespecting Aretha 🎶
Hahahaha! No worries. Hope all is well! God bless😊
Eat salads and fruit and keep talking to our Lord Jesus Christ about it all He understands us. Drink water too and take vitamins like Zink etc become stronger ❤🎉😊
Best advice ever!🙏✌️🥰❤
Thank you!!! God bless😊😊❤❤
What would you be thinking about, when you were sneaking it everywhere, AS you were consuming it …?
Honestly..... that I just wanted to be drunk. That really all I cared about. Hope you are having a great morning! God bless😊❤
whats the most creative way you hid booze? i injected an orange with vodka so i could drink on the job
It would be beneficial if you could give us a AGE timeline. Honestly all this is making me nauseated. You get tempted just rewatch this. 🤮🤮🤮
I drank since teenage years, drank heavy in my 20s, it got bad around 30 and I drank my worst from 30 to 42 when I got sick. Hope this helps. God bless😊