Having to come home to her and realize no one was there was so damn hard. Everyone had locked themselves in their rooms and I just say playing by myself as a four year old. Not understanding why they weren’t here but having fun anyways. I had to knock on locked doors to talk to anyone. I hate realizing how alone I was as an only child. Never ever again.
Thank you so much for listening. When our nervous system is activated that breathing stops and blocks us from our emotional release. Thank you for letting it out. Everyone: keep breathing!
I have resistance to saying “they did the best they could”! They both knew what they were doing and that it was messing with my mind and being cruel and felt entitled to it. They could have gotten help but refused to be honest with themselves about that. It’s something I question though I know it’s a popular spiritual belief to hold these days
I recently had a dream that I was looking at my childhood home, entered it, and hugged my child self and walked out the door with her in my arms..and then I came across your meditation about a week after the dream, which just so happened to be almost the exact same scenario I had dreamt about…pretty wild! Thank you so much for this!
Did this tonight before my somatic exercises and cried and shook so hard I thought something was neurologically wrong with me. I haven’t been able to cry for a really long time. I will do this again.
I’m so grateful for this meditation. I am doing somatic healing to release some childhood trauma and this pairs perfectly with where I am on my healing journey. I used to have a recurring dream when I was younger, and I was sad and alone. In this dream someone would come in through the screen door; scoop me up and carry me out. I couldn’t see who the person was in the dream. Now I know, it was the adult version of myself. What a beautiful realization.
Floods of tears of grief. My little girl chose to save the family dog who was also being mistreated. 2 beautiful, sensitive, loving and caring souls. I have the power to heal my inner child and reparenting myself with the love and care nobody ever gave me. Ever. Thank you
Picturing myself holding hands with little CeAnna and telling her that I see her, and understand her…tears wouldn’t stop! This was a very helpful and powerful meditation❤️
Lovely meditation,thanks for sharing....what came up for me while leaving the house in the end was this feeling of being untethered and being afraid of the world ...life with my parents is all I have ever known and even though I know I need to get out of this dysfunctional atmosphere I'm super scared of the world outside but I know that my survival depends on being independent and moving out of the country so even if it scares me I will embark on this journey and use somatic tools like yoga ,eft tapping,meditation etc to ground me
This is THE MOST PROFOUND guided meditation I've completed yet. The gift you have given me today with this meditation is also profound. And... I saw my Mama with different "eyes". She really did the best she could! She was amazing! And so am I.
Sobbing.... Uncontrollably! No matter how far you are in your healing journey, isolated childhood memories accumulate the sadness within your heart. I thought I was fine until this meditation lead me to certain aspects of my heart which were deep inside. Visualization of the childhood home with the people in it stirred it all up in a very messy way but the emotional release is profound. I feel so much lighter already and I can feel it in my whole mind, body and soul that my inner child is still with me, and I have all the power and responsibility over her now. I feel safer more than ever. Thank you so much Dr. Nicole for everything. From randomly seeing a post and following you on Instagram in January 2021and then per-ordering your first book, to today attending to this recent meditation, I have been a constant follower of your community. You have changed my life in a way I never thought possible. I'm eagerly waiting till coming November to grab your new book. Thank you so much for leading me to my authentic life. I am so very grateful. So much love to you! May every traumatized one find you so they can change for the better and reclaim their lost lives! Much Love!
I’ve done an inner child meditation before that included a visualization of the childhood home but your ending is different with taking my inner child with me. That made such a difference for me, as this is exactly what I needed back then. Someone to safely remove me. I feel safe now and more powerful. Thank you so much.
no one was there. I was alone. I felt the tense and was crossing my arms and grabbed my elbows hardly when I was there. Beyond words. I love you Nicole. I have been with you for more than 4 years now.
Dear Nicole, thank you for sharing this gem with the world. Many young hearts will thank you and bless you for your kindness. I did this meditation last night (I may repeat this few times) and I realised that I was on my own for a longer time. My parents were working and over the years I've tried to understand my mother especially for she and I shared this strange bond. I yearned to be watched, cared for, acknowledged, loved, praised but I got scoldings, sarcastic behaviour, silent treatments for what I don't understand. I was a good child, but it's not fair for whatever reasons to behave this way with a child. My father would be traveling for work, he knew I was sensitive and quiet. I was pretty growing up but didn't want the attention of the world. So I gained weight and remain in hiding. I want to encourage my inner child to shine and not seek validation. Both my parents are not there. I alone work on this aspect and try to care a lot for myself.
I felt my inner child sadnes and loneliness when i walk through the door. That was strange!!! But i was sooo excited when i walked back out the door with her in hand.....i love that i saw her and loved her...she such a gem and worth rescuing ❤❤❤
I found my inner child not wanting to leave when promoted to do so. Kept crying that she wanted to stay. I don't know how to interpret this. Wow. Powerful. Thank you.
Same here! I was scrolling down to see if anyone else had experienced it. I asked my child-self why and she said "mom will hurt; she will cry and miss me and I don't want to hurt her". I also sensed that she didn't trust me :( I somehow convinced her to leave with me when I showed her another painful memory and she left with me. But Mom was wailing by the balcony watching us leave and it made us both very uncomfortable. I realized that it was always about my mom's feelings at home. I was always focused on making sure she was fine that I never developed a relationship with my emotions. Wow. I also realized that I have shunned my inner child away for over 3 decades! No wonder she was reluctant..... I'm gonna work on regaining her trust. Poor child. Sigh.
Same. I dont want to leave my mother. I want the connection. Because all I can remember about her is she is always busy in the kitchen and doing house chores. She left me playing alone which is actually what I love because I am an introvert. But the lonelyness is real. I dont remember being heard or seen. Or feeling that I was important.
Me too i had problems trusting me to go. And my mind wasnt stable. I felt like when i went into the house and found myself it was my adult me that cried. My child was also sad and lonely but it was also not clear to me how to tell her “i know what happened” because i didnt. I just cried and wasnt sure if the adult has to take the child or the child the adult. And why i have to take her with me since it was long time ago, she belonged there. I think it is hard for me to meditate. And concentrate and really go into it. ?
oh my.... thanks for this experience... icry i cry icry but when i started to talk my childself stopped cry and talked with trustworthy voice, smile. then she looked at me in trust and smile and walked with me, my babyyyy. i love you so much, i love you umconditionally. i see you, i feel you, i understand you baby, you are in safe by now❤❤❤
This is so powerful, it just released so much sadness for me. I've never tried visiting my childhood home this way through the door and there was something very intense about that,like a rescue mission. What I found strange and cant make sense of was that as I approached the house my sisters and I were playing and laughing so happily on the driveway for all to see, but once I went inside we were all sat around in quiet sadness and confusion. Thank you so much Nicole, I will return to this often ❤🙏
I think this may show yourself that you bottled up your difficult to handle emotions so that it appeared you were okay on the outside. But when nobody else is watching, they start to surface again.
you are such a touchy person I have ever met. first of all you don't accept what world telling as a truth our human being and you rewriting everything with compassion and love. I hope you'll be more your authentic self so we can all heal with you. I have to say I am your big fan. You giving lots of real hope to people who sttruggle from their wounds and still trying to be nice person. I can not count how many wounds I had and no longer part of my life anymore because of your good intensons, pure heart 🤍🤍
I started Inner Child therapy two months ago and I'm doing the work to reconnect with my Inner Child. We have made good strides. However, my Inner Child wanted to stay in the house. I don't blame him, it was a very safe space and he was well-cared for by my parents. And he wants to be with his baby sister (RIP). I just told him he can always come visit me if he wants to. I guess I better add this to my weekly routine.
Wow this is the most powerful thing I’ve ever done. So unexpected and cried uncontrollably. Moved around so much as a kid that I didn’t know which home to visualize but decided on the earliest one I could remember. So much sadness and loneliness came up and for some reason was so hard to say bye to the place in the end! Thank you Dr. Nicole ❤
I can’t believe how fast that brought me to tears. As soon as I saw myself walking towards the house.. when it was time to take little me and go.. I didn’t want to leave. I was overwhelmed by the pain of loss and abandonment all over again.
I don't think I'm a competent enough parent for my inner child. I feel like a complete failure and I couldn't stop crying. I can't protect her, because I'm so overwhelmed by constant pain. It renders me completely immobile and blocks out all other thoughts.
@@jenquia So I left that comment 8 months ago and a lot has changed. The biggest being, I broke up with my partner of 20 years and I’ve been working on healing ever since. I’m actually doing a lot better now. Visualisations like this are still too traumatising for me, but one thing that’s really helped. It’s going to sound silly but….I started sleeping with a teddy. Mine is a bunny and whenever I feel sad or lonely, I grab her and give her a hug. For some reason this helps. Sometimes there’s crying. I’ve seen videos that say if you struggle with inner child work, talk to a teddy bear as though it’s you as a child, read stories to it. Overtime you’ll get used to using that kind gentle voice on your own thoughts. It’s worked wonders on my mental health.
I’ve always struggled to connect to young me - this was a well needed journey to remind me that my feelings of feeling emotionally neglected, forgotten weren’t personal. There was just too much chaos because of my mother’s wounds and any other child would have also been forgotten. Really great stuff, appreciate your voice in the mental health space immensely. Thank you for standing in the face of the status quo (diagnosis and medication cycle) and broadcasting what you believe in (treating the cause rather than the symptom).
Beautiful meditation. I loved bringing my inner child home ❤ we are safe, we are loved, we are secure, we are seen and heard, we value each other today ❤❤❤
Thankyou Nicole ❤I’ve done many years of inner child work. But this was incredibly powerful helping me to unlock even more trauma. My little ones and I Thankyou so much. Seeing the front door had me in tears and biting my lip my heart rate increased and I could feel my skin tingling. The response were very real. It helped me to have my beautiful little pup sleeping next to me, I didn’t stop touching her the whole time… it helps me to stay grounded. The deep breathing reminders was really helpful too. I saw my abuser but knowing that the adult me was there to protect my young self made me feel safe. He was no threat to me. The laundry was the place I found my inner child. The abuse weapons were kept in there. I saw Jesus standing in the corner, arms open, guarding the back door. I took my budgie (parrot) with me as I left. Very powerful… Thankyou x 1000000 🙏🏼
I had no clue I could recollect my home in so much detail. Like a 3D movie playing in my head. Emotions on the faces: Mother - anxiety Father - tired Me - scared
Thanks Nicole for this profound meditation. When I was going to go out from my childhood home I’ve started to cry so hard understanding why I always wanted to stay there, because I will alone uf I leave, and doing it together with my child was so healing. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Cheers from Uruguay
I am at the very beginning of my journey to heal my inner child , the tears just flowed i was not expecting that . Thank you for taking the time to do this 💞
Thank you so very much. I've been doing guided meditation for years, but this one was surprising to me. Approaching the house I immediately noticed my breathing and heartrate increased, and it was an effort to slow that down. I started feeling tingling sensations in my arms and legs, and once you told me to observe how she was feeling, the emotion was SO INTENSE I felt it in my entire body, like contents under pressure exploding out of my chest, finally being released after all these years. Wow, thank you so much, I feel as if I've made a leap forward in my healing journey
Dear Nicole My heart will forever be grateful for you. You have helped me connect to the little child inside me. May you be blessed with happiness and good health ❤
This is just what I needed. This was beautifully done. I didn't release tears because I have done that enough over the years. I gathered my inner child and said, "Let them be it's time to come with me." I look forward to exploring other videos.
Thank You for this magical practice, for your giant generosity to give it out so freely. I am grateful to receive it, from Buenos Aires, Argentina, your words, your advice is being taken and practiced and expanded through my yoga classes. Thank You Nicole from my heart 💜
My inner child was happily playing with toys but was sad to see tears in the adult self. She took an initiative to wipe it off and she herself soothed me. I saw my mother there. I was cherishing the moment but was sad what circumstances has converted me to. I promise to take care of my inner self here on and always follow the path for the highest good. Thank you ma'am 🙏
Thank you for this. Tears came as soon as I started walking up to the house. I opened the door and no one was there, my inner child was upstairs alone in her room, when we went to leave, I looked my mom in the eyes as did the repeat after me part. Her face softening from having a upset look in her eyes. When we go to leave, my inner child runs to my mom and squeezes her so tight. Many tears were shed, I’m diving into this type of self work and feeling hopeful for my future and holding that child in ways she never experienced before.
Thank you for this meditation, Nicole. I’ve done similar meditations and have ended up crying, but this time felt more “full circle” and healing for me. Little me accepted that we had to leave and have our own life. I thought it was interesting that my initial visualization was of me running around the house and playing and smiling, but then I remembered my parents and brother, all in different places of the house alone. It was completely quiet and somber. I also usually fall asleep during meditations, but didn’t with this one.
Thank you for your help with this guided meditation. For me, i moved around a lot as a kid so it was hard to solidify a home in my vision, and the other family members werent there either, but i was still able to find my childhood self through the chaos and bring him out into the field to talk to him. I will definitely make the field a safe place for us to talk in the future. I really feel like your videos are helping me, bless you
hi I am from germany. Two years ago, I lost my relationship and my job. I felt so much pain in me but could not perceive or express it. . . . . now I have learned how important the inner child work is (where the pain comes from) and am so grateful to you for your work
I’m at a loss for words. But seeing the front door did cause some dark, negative emotions. I’m so glad that my inner child and I left there with love. One of my issues is the conflict of wanting to forgive, but it doesn’t feel authentic.
I grew up in 4 homes, so going back to those houses was so hard. I started crying just as you said imagine the doors then I bawled when you said open the door and notice that child version of you. I have to carry a 3 year old me, an 8 year old me, a 12 year old me and a teenager. The teenager and the 3year old version of me were the hardest. I imagined carrying those children and thinking to myself how could someone hurt a very delicate and small human being like this? Wooowww I am still crying while typing this. This meditation is hard but fulfilling. Thank you so much for sharing this with us. ♥️ P.S. as much as I imagined someone to be in those houses, why were they empty? And why would I be sitting all alone? Our houses werw never empty.
Thank you. This was emotionally very difficult, but also very comforting & healing. I will do this meditation again, as many times as i need. I'm so glad i found your channel - at last, someone who really understands & experiences what cptsd is like to live with.
Dr Nicole you're just amazing, I cannot thank you enough, for someone who can't afford therapy you have no idea how much you've helped me, thank you soooo much for the work you do. This is the first time I do this type of guided meditation and tbh I had little to no faith that it would work, I struggle with crying (even if I'm feeling sad) and this had me sobbing and ugly crying the entire time. Thank you so much🙏✨🙏✨🙏
This was so amazing… it felt kinda uncomfortable in the beginning for me but then so rewarding as it went on. Thank you so much! And your message in the email allowing anyone to use this shows you care so much❤❤
I have just started to explore inner child work each time I just cry....I had to work hard to finish this . Acknowledging my parents difficulties and doing the best they could and the ending keeping myself safe was just what I needed. Interesting my brother, sources of family anguish (health issues) was difficult to locate in the house, everything else was clear but just couldn't quite keep him in the picture. This was tough but very cleansing, love to have more. Massive Thank you!
It was really hard for me. I started crying immediately. I didn’t felt that I was in a place of love saying goodbye my parent. I felt shame and a repulsive feeling. Just wanted to pick me and sprint it out from there.
I’ve tried to connect with my inner child many times but it was always on a superficial level. This guided meditation and visualisation prompts really helped me, I rarely cry but found myself in tears at 6am lol. Thank you very much for this, I’m glad I have little Naomi with me, I can’t wait to show her how good life can get
I'm happy for those who were able to experience this fully. I struggled, because I was the child of a military father, and we moved every three years my entire childhood, so I struggled to identify a childhood home. Thank you for offering this, but as much as I tried, I couldn't engage as fully as I wanted to, due to the inability to visualize a childhood home.
One time i was under the influence of psychodelic and something like this happened without guided meditation, i hugged myself as a kid and told her how precious she is, that nothing is her fault and she is safe. Was a really intense and beautiful experience, another time i was under the influence too visiting my hometown, i walked around the neighborhood i grew up in and i swear i was seeing things like they where 20y ago and from the point of view of a small child, i was holding my partner's hand but i felt like i was 3 looking up to a adult, i saw me learning how to bike on the street and much more surreal things, psychodelics are so amazing and powerful to healing i wish i was less taboo
This has helped me so much. I feel at peace. I needed saving as a child. You changed the narrative. I save myself ❤ thank you so very much❤ many blessings to you ❤
im very prone to dissocation and experience a lot of amnesia in daily life and in early childhood. everything in this was constantly shifting and amorphous, trying to come up with what my childhood home looked like was so diffcult, let alone what i looked like or did at home... regardless this was really comforting, even if i didnt know if what i was seeing was accurate it not.
Just remember one thing that helped you escape as a kid. It could be eating, playing football, watching your parents fight, etc. Find a picture of your younger self and envision that little you in the pic doing the one thing you remember, while all the chaos happening around little you. Thats what I did. Hope that helps ❤
Didn't think it would get so intense! So much pain and hurt locked inside, just looking at the childhood memory of my home- the place where i am still living!- brought pain and tears. Thank you so much for this content! I am currently doing my inner child work and this helps a lot! Though I've noticed myself getting uneasy about promising things to her, i guess I'm just scared that I'll fail her!
This is incredibly simple and powerful and NEEDED. This is the first inner child meditation I’ve done after recently starting therapy for childhood trauma. I burst into tears and sobbed when you had me talking to my younger self. I’ll definitely be back. Thank you so much ❤
I felt deeply sad for my mum, as my adult self told me its now time to leave. I felt sad, that i will now leave her alone in my home with my father, as i know i was her light and life in difficult times, even if she couldnt show that in the best ways. Thank you for sharing this❤️🙏🏼
Wow, and wow... so powerful! I am not so much into the guided meditations cause the more we do, the more we get confused, i believe. But, this mediation [sent by a good friend] guided me with these few but exact powerful divine words ! Of course, I was crying during the whole meditation. It was like real. The rhythm and speed of the guidance were so precise. Thank you for offering us such a gift. Stay blessed.
Amazing and powerful ❤️❤️ I had a hard time figuring out how to say goodbye to my father who I had issues with, I saw myself not being able to even look at him and at the same time wanting to hug him. I didn’t expect all of this to happen during meditation. Thank you Nicole 🙏
I never had a childhood home as I moved from room to room house to house with my mother. I bawled through this but either way grateful to give that little girl some love and protection ❤
For financial reasons at 27 years old I have to go back living for some time under the same roof as my parents. My dad was violent physically and mentally with me as a child. I feel much better after travelling for years but I still have big trauma that I’m working on with therapy. It is very hard to be around him because this brings back lots of insecurities and I can’t forgive how badly he treated me. Please send me love and strength to go through this hard time 🙏🏻
This was so incredible and healing. Thank you so much for all you do and for sharing this meditation. I feel like I’ve released years worth of pent up pain in 17 minutes. Love and light.❤
I’ve been running from my inner child my whole life. I’ve treated her just like everyone else did…unworthy of belonging, love, trust and protection. How could I possibly integrate her into my existence. She is an outcast, a reject, a discarded rag. If I embrace her I will become her/that…those labels. Yet, I know none of that is true. Today I begin this work. Thank you. ❤
Such a good visual. I realise that I have come a long way , that this time thinking about my childhood home, I felt more able to be there for my inner child rather than automatically crying. However, I was visualising my home up to age 13 not the one that I moved house to when I was 13 and had a whole new set of traumas there. I think that one should be for another day and be grateful with how far I’ve come. Thanks for the power of tools to understand ourselves a little better, always grateful to you x
I feel as though a huge weight was lifted off of me. I imagined myself cutting a chord between my parents at the part you said to tell them you’re leaving to start your own life. This was so healing and powerful! Thank you ❤
I immediately started to cry when I visualized the door. Everything felt quiet and empty. At the end I just realized that I didn’t want to leave at all. Something was holding me back.
powerful realizations here. It will be interesting for you to do the meditation again. Sometimes people have different "ah ha" moments or breakthroughs. Maybe what's holding you back will be revealed.
Bless you for this...immensely gratitude for this gift so precious....so very very precious...thank you...as the tears dry upon my cheeks...unfathomable joy abounds, knowing we are together now after 35 years....and everything is going to be okay...❤
Having to come home to her and realize no one was there was so damn hard. Everyone had locked themselves in their rooms and I just say playing by myself as a four year old. Not understanding why they weren’t here but having fun anyways. I had to knock on locked doors to talk to anyone. I hate realizing how alone I was as an only child. Never ever again.
From the first visualization of my childhood home - tears. So many tears. Thank you for the reminders to breathe. I was holding my breath a few times.
Thank you so much for listening. When our nervous system is activated that breathing stops and blocks us from our emotional release. Thank you for letting it out. Everyone: keep breathing!
Me too! As soon as I had my childhood home in my mind’s eye I just started crying
Same here! You are seen ❤
So what about if you have multiple childhood homes and literally every home I walked into were scary abusive memories 😢
@@heathergeorges0869Dont hurry up and work them one by one slowly maybe ❤
When I saw my child self, I could feel the tears coming . I felt so much sadness for her. A very inspirational meditation.
I have resistance to saying “they did the best they could”! They both knew what they were doing and that it was messing with my mind and being cruel and felt entitled to it. They could have gotten help but refused to be honest with themselves about that. It’s something I question though I know it’s a popular spiritual belief to hold these days
I recently had a dream that I was looking at my childhood home, entered it, and hugged my child self and walked out the door with her in my arms..and then I came across your meditation about a week after the dream, which just so happened to be almost the exact same scenario I had dreamt about…pretty wild! Thank you so much for this!
Did this tonight before my somatic exercises and cried and shook so hard I thought something was neurologically wrong with me. I haven’t been able to cry for a really long time. I will do this again.
I’m so grateful for this meditation. I am doing somatic healing to release some childhood trauma and this pairs perfectly with where I am on my healing journey. I used to have a recurring dream when I was younger, and I was sad and alone. In this dream someone would come in through the screen door; scoop me up and carry me out. I couldn’t see who the person was in the dream. Now I know, it was the adult version of myself. What a beautiful realization.
Floods of tears of grief. My little girl chose to save the family dog who was also being mistreated. 2 beautiful, sensitive, loving and caring souls. I have the power to heal my inner child and reparenting myself with the love and care nobody ever gave me. Ever. Thank you
Picturing myself holding hands with little CeAnna and telling her that I see her, and understand her…tears wouldn’t stop! This was a very helpful and powerful meditation❤️
Lovely meditation,thanks for sharing....what came up for me while leaving the house in the end was this feeling of being untethered and being afraid of the world ...life with my parents is all I have ever known and even though I know I need to get out of this dysfunctional atmosphere I'm super scared of the world outside but I know that my survival depends on being independent and moving out of the country so even if it scares me I will embark on this journey and use somatic tools like yoga ,eft tapping,meditation etc to ground me
this resonates so deeply. grateful i came across your comment
This is THE MOST PROFOUND guided meditation I've completed yet. The gift you have given me today with this meditation is also profound. And... I saw my Mama with different "eyes". She really did the best she could! She was amazing! And so am I.
Sobbing.... Uncontrollably!
No matter how far you are in your healing journey, isolated childhood memories accumulate the sadness within your heart. I thought I was fine until this meditation lead me to certain aspects of my heart which were deep inside. Visualization of the childhood home with the people in it stirred it all up in a very messy way but the emotional release is profound. I feel so much lighter already and I can feel it in my whole mind, body and soul that my inner child is still with me, and I have all the power and responsibility over her now. I feel safer more than ever. Thank you so much Dr. Nicole for everything.
From randomly seeing a post and following you on Instagram in January 2021and then per-ordering your first book, to today attending to this recent meditation, I have been a constant follower of your community. You have changed my life in a way I never thought possible. I'm eagerly waiting till coming November to grab your new book. Thank you so much for leading me to my authentic life. I am so very grateful. So much love to you! May every traumatized one find you so they can change for the better and reclaim their lost lives!
Much Love!
You give me hope 🙏🏽
I’ve done an inner child meditation before that included a visualization of the childhood home but your ending is different with taking my inner child with me. That made such a difference for me, as this is exactly what I needed back then. Someone to safely remove me. I feel safe now and more powerful. Thank you so much.
Same. I've been talking to my inner child ever since - its been a game changer.
no one was there. I was alone. I felt the tense and was crossing my arms and grabbed my elbows hardly when I was there. Beyond words. I love you Nicole. I have been with you for more than 4 years now.
Same here. But that's how it was in my childhood, too.
Dear Nicole, thank you for sharing this gem with the world. Many young hearts will thank you and bless you for your kindness. I did this meditation last night (I may repeat this few times) and I realised that I was on my own for a longer time. My parents were working and over the years I've tried to understand my mother especially for she and I shared this strange bond. I yearned to be watched, cared for, acknowledged, loved, praised but I got scoldings, sarcastic behaviour, silent treatments for what I don't understand. I was a good child, but it's not fair for whatever reasons to behave this way with a child. My father would be traveling for work, he knew I was sensitive and quiet. I was pretty growing up but didn't want the attention of the world. So I gained weight and remain in hiding. I want to encourage my inner child to shine and not seek validation. Both my parents are not there. I alone work on this aspect and try to care a lot for myself.
This was beautiful. More power to you!
I felt my inner child sadnes and loneliness when i walk through the door. That was strange!!! But i was sooo excited when i walked back out the door with her in hand.....i love that i saw her and loved her...she such a gem and worth rescuing ❤❤❤
Infinite gratitude to you for this one.
thank you so much for listening.
I found my inner child not wanting to leave when promoted to do so. Kept crying that she wanted to stay. I don't know how to interpret this. Wow. Powerful. Thank you.
Same here! I was scrolling down to see if anyone else had experienced it. I asked my child-self why and she said "mom will hurt; she will cry and miss me and I don't want to hurt her". I also sensed that she didn't trust me :(
I somehow convinced her to leave with me when I showed her another painful memory and she left with me. But Mom was wailing by the balcony watching us leave and it made us both very uncomfortable.
I realized that it was always about my mom's feelings at home. I was always focused on making sure she was fine that I never developed a relationship with my emotions. Wow.
I also realized that I have shunned my inner child away for over 3 decades! No wonder she was reluctant..... I'm gonna work on regaining her trust. Poor child. Sigh.
Same. I dont want to leave my mother. I want the connection. Because all I can remember about her is she is always busy in the kitchen and doing house chores. She left me playing alone which is actually what I love because I am an introvert. But the lonelyness is real. I dont remember being heard or seen. Or feeling that I was important.
Me too i had problems trusting me to go. And my mind wasnt stable. I felt like when i went into the house and found myself it was my adult me that cried. My child was also sad and lonely but it was also not clear to me how to tell her “i know what happened” because i didnt. I just cried and wasnt sure if the adult has to take the child or the child the adult. And why i have to take her with me since it was long time ago, she belonged there. I think it is hard for me to meditate. And concentrate and really go into it. ?
oh my.... thanks for this experience... icry i cry icry but when i started to talk my childself stopped cry and talked with trustworthy voice, smile. then she looked at me in trust and smile and walked with me, my babyyyy. i love you so much, i love you umconditionally. i see you, i feel you, i understand you baby, you are in safe by now❤❤❤
This is so powerful, it just released so much sadness for me. I've never tried visiting my childhood home this way through the door and there was something very intense about that,like a rescue mission. What I found strange and cant make sense of was that as I approached the house my sisters and I were playing and laughing so happily on the driveway for all to see, but once I went inside we were all sat around in quiet sadness and confusion. Thank you so much Nicole, I will return to this often ❤🙏
I think this may show yourself that you bottled up your difficult to handle emotions so that it appeared you were okay on the outside. But when nobody else is watching, they start to surface again.
@@KrspySauce yes, thank you. I think you may be right there.
This was my first ever guided meditation. I was in tears but so much more at peace at the end of this meditation. I will be doing this more often.
you are such a touchy person I have ever met. first of all you don't accept what world telling as a truth our human being and you rewriting everything with compassion and love. I hope you'll be more your authentic self so we can all heal with you. I have to say I am your big fan. You giving lots of real hope to people who sttruggle from their wounds and still trying to be nice person. I can not count how many wounds I had and no longer part of my life anymore because of your good intensons, pure heart 🤍🤍
I started Inner Child therapy two months ago and I'm doing the work to reconnect with my Inner Child. We have made good strides. However, my Inner Child wanted to stay in the house. I don't blame him, it was a very safe space and he was well-cared for by my parents. And he wants to be with his baby sister (RIP). I just told him he can always come visit me if he wants to. I guess I better add this to my weekly routine.
My inner child doesn't want to leave at all.....very very upset and won't go
Wow this is the most powerful thing I’ve ever done. So unexpected and cried uncontrollably. Moved around so much as a kid that I didn’t know which home to visualize but decided on the earliest one I could remember. So much sadness and loneliness came up and for some reason was so hard to say bye to the place in the end! Thank you Dr. Nicole ❤
Oh wow, I cried so hard when speaking to my younger self. Wow, it feels good. Thank you
This was so powerful. Tears wouldn’t stop the whole way through. Thank you for sharing this. ❤
Thank you for this Beautiful Healing Meditation for my Inner Child. I am so grateful I have found it! So Amazing!❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
I can’t believe how fast that brought me to tears. As soon as I saw myself walking towards the house..
when it was time to take little me and go.. I didn’t want to leave. I was overwhelmed by the pain of loss and abandonment all over again.
I did not want to walk into my childhood home. Every inch of me wanted to refuse. I cried but I also felt better after. Wow what an experience
I don't think I'm a competent enough parent for my inner child. I feel like a complete failure and I couldn't stop crying. I can't protect her, because I'm so overwhelmed by constant pain. It renders me completely immobile and blocks out all other thoughts.
I feel exactly the same 😌
@@jenquia So I left that comment 8 months ago and a lot has changed. The biggest being, I broke up with my partner of 20 years and I’ve been working on healing ever since. I’m actually doing a lot better now.
Visualisations like this are still too traumatising for me, but one thing that’s really helped. It’s going to sound silly but….I started sleeping with a teddy. Mine is a bunny and whenever I feel sad or lonely, I grab her and give her a hug. For some reason this helps. Sometimes there’s crying. I’ve seen videos that say if you struggle with inner child work, talk to a teddy bear as though it’s you as a child, read stories to it. Overtime you’ll get used to using that kind gentle voice on your own thoughts. It’s worked wonders on my mental health.
Thank you for providing so much value to your subscribers! ❤
We need more of these meditations
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More coming!
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You are a true blessing to us. Thank you for your genuine support. 🙏 ❤️
I’ve always struggled to connect to young me - this was a well needed journey to remind me that my feelings of feeling emotionally neglected, forgotten weren’t personal. There was just too much chaos because of my mother’s wounds and any other child would have also been forgotten. Really great stuff, appreciate your voice in the mental health space immensely. Thank you for standing in the face of the status quo (diagnosis and medication cycle) and broadcasting what you believe in (treating the cause rather than the symptom).
This was everything. A flood of enotions from peace to stomach ache and tears and it was beautiful... thank you🤎
Beautiful meditation. I loved bringing my inner child home ❤ we are safe, we are loved, we are secure, we are seen and heard, we value each other today ❤❤❤
Thank you so very much Doctor. Deep love and respect for you
Thankyou Nicole ❤I’ve done many years of inner child work. But this was incredibly powerful helping me to unlock even more trauma. My little ones and I Thankyou so much. Seeing the front door had me in tears and biting my lip my heart rate increased and I could feel my skin tingling. The response were very real. It helped me to have my beautiful little pup sleeping next to me, I didn’t stop touching her the whole time… it helps me to stay grounded. The deep breathing reminders was really helpful too. I saw my abuser but knowing that the adult me was there to protect my young self made me feel safe. He was no threat to me. The laundry was the place I found my inner child. The abuse weapons were kept in there. I saw Jesus standing in the corner, arms open, guarding the back door. I took my budgie (parrot) with me as I left. Very powerful… Thankyou x 1000000 🙏🏼
I had no clue I could recollect my home in so much detail. Like a 3D movie playing in my head.
Emotions on the faces:
Mother - anxiety
Father - tired
Me - scared
Thanks Nicole for this profound meditation. When I was going to go out from my childhood home I’ve started to cry so hard understanding why I always wanted to stay there, because I will alone uf I leave, and doing it together with my child was so healing. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Cheers from Uruguay
I am at the very beginning of my journey to heal my inner child , the tears just flowed i was not expecting that .
Thank you for taking the time to do this 💞
I’m on my 5th year of therapy and the tears still flow. Your comment reminded me of when I first started. Welcome fellow traveler. ❤
@@sylviamontero6030 i feel this will be one hell of a journey but i am ready for it
Thank you so very much. I've been doing guided meditation for years, but this one was surprising to me. Approaching the house I immediately noticed my breathing and heartrate increased, and it was an effort to slow that down. I started feeling tingling sensations in my arms and legs, and once you told me to observe how she was feeling, the emotion was SO INTENSE I felt it in my entire body, like contents under pressure exploding out of my chest, finally being released after all these years. Wow, thank you so much, I feel as if I've made a leap forward in my healing journey
Dear Nicole
My heart will forever be grateful for you. You have helped me connect to the little child inside me. May you be blessed with happiness and good health ❤
This is just what I needed. This was beautifully done. I didn't release tears because I have done that enough over the years. I gathered my inner child and said, "Let them be it's time to come with me." I look forward to exploring other videos.
Thank You for this magical practice, for your giant generosity to give it out so freely. I am grateful to receive it, from Buenos Aires, Argentina, your words, your advice is being taken and practiced and expanded through my yoga classes. Thank You Nicole from my heart 💜
Omg the most powerful experience EVER!! GOD BLESS YOU
My inner child was happily playing with toys but was sad to see tears in the adult self. She took an initiative to wipe it off and she herself soothed me. I saw my mother there. I was cherishing the moment but was sad what circumstances has converted me to.
I promise to take care of my inner self here on and always follow the path for the highest good.
Thank you ma'am 🙏
Gracias gracias gracias ❤
Thank you for this.
Tears came as soon as I started walking up to the house. I opened the door and no one was there, my inner child was upstairs alone in her room, when we went to leave, I looked my mom in the eyes as did the repeat after me part. Her face softening from having a upset look in her eyes. When we go to leave, my inner child runs to my mom and squeezes her so tight.
Many tears were shed, I’m diving into this type of self work and feeling hopeful for my future and holding that child in ways she never experienced before.
My God! This was utterly transformative. Thank you!!! 🙏🏽
Thank you for this meditation, Nicole. I’ve done similar meditations and have ended up crying, but this time felt more “full circle” and healing for me. Little me accepted that we had to leave and have our own life.
I thought it was interesting that my initial visualization was of me running around the house and playing and smiling, but then I remembered my parents and brother, all in different places of the house alone. It was completely quiet and somber. I also usually fall asleep during meditations, but didn’t with this one.
It took six months of meditation for me to finally gain trust with my inner child. I love this meditation. Thank you so much for sharing it.
Thank you for your help with this guided meditation. For me, i moved around a lot as a kid so it was hard to solidify a home in my vision, and the other family members werent there either, but i was still able to find my childhood self through the chaos and bring him out into the field to talk to him. I will definitely make the field a safe place for us to talk in the future. I really feel like your videos are helping me, bless you
Wow. I wasn't sure what to expect. A couple of revelations. I started crying when I knew exactly what my inner child would pack up and take.
hi I am from germany. Two years ago, I lost my relationship and my job. I felt so much pain in me but could not perceive or express it. . . . . now I have learned how important the inner child work is (where the pain comes from) and am so grateful to you for your work
I’m at a loss for words. But seeing the front door did cause some dark, negative emotions. I’m so glad that my inner child and I left there with love. One of my issues is the conflict of wanting to forgive, but it doesn’t feel authentic.
I grew up in 4 homes, so going back to those houses was so hard. I started crying just as you said imagine the doors then I bawled when you said open the door and notice that child version of you. I have to carry a 3 year old me, an 8 year old me, a 12 year old me and a teenager. The teenager and the 3year old version of me were the hardest. I imagined carrying those children and thinking to myself how could someone hurt a very delicate and small human being like this? Wooowww I am still crying while typing this. This meditation is hard but fulfilling. Thank you so much for sharing this with us. ♥️ P.S. as much as I imagined someone to be in those houses, why were they empty? And why would I be sitting all alone? Our houses werw never empty.
Thank you. This was emotionally very difficult, but also very comforting & healing. I will do this meditation again, as many times as i need. I'm so glad i found your channel - at last, someone who really understands & experiences what cptsd is like to live with.
I never understood that inner child stuff until now. So heartbreaking but healing. Thanks
Dr Nicole you're just amazing, I cannot thank you enough, for someone who can't afford therapy you have no idea how much you've helped me, thank you soooo much for the work you do. This is the first time I do this type of guided meditation and tbh I had little to no faith that it would work, I struggle with crying (even if I'm feeling sad) and this had me sobbing and ugly crying the entire time. Thank you so much🙏✨🙏✨🙏
Thank you so much, this is for most the best guided meditation I've come across so far.
This was so amazing… it felt kinda uncomfortable in the beginning for me but then so rewarding as it went on. Thank you so much! And your message in the email allowing anyone to use this shows you care so much❤❤
this made mew weep. All those years of pain and hurt. This helped me release the burden
This was really rough but glad I did it
I have just started to explore inner child work each time I just cry....I had to work hard to finish this . Acknowledging my parents difficulties and doing the best they could and the ending keeping myself safe was just what I needed. Interesting my brother, sources of family anguish (health issues) was difficult to locate in the house, everything else was clear but just couldn't quite keep him in the picture. This was tough but very cleansing, love to have more. Massive Thank you!
It was really hard for me. I started crying immediately.
I didn’t felt that I was in a place of love saying goodbye my parent. I felt shame and a repulsive feeling.
Just wanted to pick me and sprint it out from there.
I’ve tried to connect with my inner child many times but it was always on a superficial level. This guided meditation and visualisation prompts really helped me, I rarely cry but found myself in tears at 6am lol. Thank you very much for this, I’m glad I have little Naomi with me, I can’t wait to show her how good life can get
I felt my nervous system activate completely with each sentence, literal electricity through my whole face and body, this is powerful. Thank you.
I’ve done inner child meditations before.. but this was something else! Truly amazing. Thank you for the gift of healing❤🙏🏻
I'm happy for those who were able to experience this fully. I struggled, because I was the child of a military father, and we moved every three years my entire childhood, so I struggled to identify a childhood home. Thank you for offering this, but as much as I tried, I couldn't engage as fully as I wanted to, due to the inability to visualize a childhood home.
I had the same experience because we moved a lot. My mom was a single mother and we were pretty poor and not able to pay bills to stay sometimes.
I was able to visualize many homes but it was overwhelming and chaotic. Not impossible but painful. Good to get those feelings out.
Thank you so much it was such a wonderful experience i cried while visualising my inner child thank you i am very grateful to you 💖
One time i was under the influence of psychodelic and something like this happened without guided meditation, i hugged myself as a kid and told her how precious she is, that nothing is her fault and she is safe. Was a really intense and beautiful experience, another time i was under the influence too visiting my hometown, i walked around the neighborhood i grew up in and i swear i was seeing things like they where 20y ago and from the point of view of a small child, i was holding my partner's hand but i felt like i was 3 looking up to a adult, i saw me learning how to bike on the street and much more surreal things, psychodelics are so amazing and powerful to healing i wish i was less taboo
I've done inner child meditations before and never cried- until this one. Thank you so much! That was so healing
Thank you!! My inner child needed that saving! ❤
This has helped me so much. I feel at peace. I needed saving as a child. You changed the narrative. I save myself ❤ thank you so very much❤ many blessings to you ❤
Floods of tears. Thank you for this. I'll need to do this one alot. Xx
Ah, you had that release. So good for the body.
im very prone to dissocation and experience a lot of amnesia in daily life and in early childhood. everything in this was constantly shifting and amorphous, trying to come up with what my childhood home looked like was so diffcult, let alone what i looked like or did at home... regardless this was really comforting, even if i didnt know if what i was seeing was accurate it not.
Just remember one thing that helped you escape as a kid. It could be eating, playing football, watching your parents fight, etc. Find a picture of your younger self and envision that little you in the pic doing the one thing you remember, while all the chaos happening around little you. Thats what I did. Hope that helps ❤
Didn't think it would get so intense! So much pain and hurt locked inside, just looking at the childhood memory of my home- the place where i am still living!- brought pain and tears. Thank you so much for this content! I am currently doing my inner child work and this helps a lot! Though I've noticed myself getting uneasy about promising things to her, i guess I'm just scared that I'll fail her!
This is incredibly simple and powerful and NEEDED. This is the first inner child meditation I’ve done after recently starting therapy for childhood trauma. I burst into tears and sobbed when you had me talking to my younger self. I’ll definitely be back. Thank you so much ❤
I felt deeply sad for my mum, as my adult self told me its now time to leave. I felt sad, that i will now leave her alone in my home with my father, as i know i was her light and life in difficult times, even if she couldnt show that in the best ways.
Thank you for sharing this❤️🙏🏼
Wow, and wow... so powerful! I am not so much into the guided meditations cause the more we do, the more we get confused, i believe. But, this mediation [sent by a good friend] guided me with these few but exact powerful divine words ! Of course, I was crying during the whole meditation. It was like real. The rhythm and speed of the guidance were so precise. Thank you for offering us such a gift. Stay blessed.
Amazing and powerful ❤️❤️ I had a hard time figuring out how to say goodbye to my father who I had issues with, I saw myself not being able to even look at him and at the same time wanting to hug him. I didn’t expect all of this to happen during meditation. Thank you Nicole 🙏
I never had a childhood home as I moved from room to room house to house with my mother. I bawled through this but either way grateful to give that little girl some love and protection ❤
For financial reasons at 27 years old I have to go back living for some time under the same roof as my parents. My dad was violent physically and mentally with me as a child. I feel much better after travelling for years but I still have big trauma that I’m working on with therapy. It is very hard to be around him because this brings back lots of insecurities and I can’t forgive how badly he treated me. Please send me love and strength to go through this hard time 🙏🏻
I feel like I’ll be crying for a while. This is so powerful. Thank you so much. 🙏
This was so incredible and healing. Thank you so much for all you do and for sharing this meditation. I feel like I’ve released years worth of pent up pain in 17 minutes. Love and light.❤
Thank you so much 😢❤
Thank you for taking the time to record this. I have listened once and will do so ‘properly’ later...
Wonderful meditation, thank you!!
I’ve been running from my inner child my whole life. I’ve treated her just like everyone else did…unworthy of belonging, love, trust and protection. How could I possibly integrate her into my existence. She is an outcast, a reject, a discarded rag. If I embrace her I will become her/that…those labels.
Yet, I know none of that is true. Today I begin this work.
Thank you. ❤
Oh wow, powerful! It was so hard to visualize walking away from my younger siblings, and saying “you’re not my responsibility to protect anymore.”
Such a good visual. I realise that I have come a long way , that this time thinking about my childhood home, I felt more able to be there for my inner child rather than automatically crying. However, I was visualising my home up to age 13 not the one that I moved house to when I was 13 and had a whole new set of traumas there. I think that one should be for another day and be grateful with how far I’ve come. Thanks for the power of tools to understand ourselves a little better, always grateful to you x
Oh my god, I did not expect to cry like I did. Wow!
Yeah, I cry a little, a lot of emotion. Best meditation ever; one of the best experiences ever. Thanks you so much. I needed.
Second time doing this meditation during my self care bath time. Will keep going back to this over and over. Thank you for all you do.
This was so nice to be able walk in my childhood home. Its bought some closure.
Wow,this is awesome. This is the start I've so desperately been seeking 🙏
I feel as though a huge weight was lifted off of me. I imagined myself cutting a chord between my parents at the part you said to tell them you’re leaving to start your own life. This was so healing and powerful! Thank you ❤
I immediately started to cry when I visualized the door. Everything felt quiet and empty. At the end I just realized that I didn’t want to leave at all. Something was holding me back.
powerful realizations here. It will be interesting for you to do the meditation again. Sometimes people have different "ah ha" moments or breakthroughs. Maybe what's holding you back will be revealed.
I felt the same way too .
I’ve been experiencing numbness due to dissociation and this medication brought a lot of tears and it felt soo good to cry and let it out.
Guau! This was beautiful. My five year old me, she was beautiful. Thank you for this experience. Huge hug!!!
Bless you for this...immensely gratitude for this gift so precious....so very very precious...thank you...as the tears dry upon my cheeks...unfathomable joy abounds, knowing we are together now after 35 years....and everything is going to be okay...❤