I’ve developed an attachment to that warm old earthy hearth after watching all your vids for so long 😂. It looks so camp fire cozy in the background with your warm incandescent lighting. But what’s funny is how my mind’s eye gave you $1.5M of living space around it 🤣. I envisioned a huge expansive living room off to your right side and a 400sf island kitchen on your left. Knock down some walls for us Dami…!!
i think the rework of the space leaves it feeling much fresher and more modern; whitewashing the fireplace i think would be on the verge of “sterile”, but red bricks in the new design gives it a grounding sense of warmth. by the way, the way you explained the intention and effects of each decision or element was really helpful and informative! very appreciated and it made for a fantastic video!
I'm a Elementary school teacher, who truly enjoys watching/listening to your channel (For both learning & pleasure). Celebrate your hard work! You're doing great- keep doing you sister!
I mean this in the least possible weirdo way .. I love the way your brain works. You have the DNA of an effective teacher. I hope you make videos till the wheels fall off. Cheers
This has got to be one my favorite video concepts of yours, and seeing all the effort put into each drawing makes such a beautiful outcome. I can’t wait for the rest of the series and seeing it come to life! Love how inspiring you are
2.4m = Low ceiling height. I wish New Zealand homes had higher ceilings! It is so rare to find 3m ceilings. I love the extra freedom one experiences in a vaulted ceiling after having the compression in the passageways though. (Not a common design choice, but I've found a few)
this is cool, would love to see a series of...famous? buildings the thinking that went into designing them, and your own comments on what you think the architect was thinking, maybe how you could have done certain parts differently at the time and now (i.e. one with and one without hindsight). ooooh, I wonder if this is something you might enjoy doing? i really love your channel, i just discovered it so i have a lot to watch still.
Procreate and Goodnotes have completely changed how I work too, It's supper convenient and is readily available for architects and engineers!🤓 Awesome video and I dig the new setup!
So nice and easy-flowing video that reminds me the process when I was transforming my home! Architecture student here who also uses iPad and it is always a fun time watching your videos
Love these videos so much, your innovative imagination is such an inspiration for me probably because next year I'm going to architecture school. These videos are still what I watch even though I don't understand most of it professionally. Hope u can still upload more videos damii... Lots of loveeee ❤
I love the video, and I love your channel!!! If you whitewash the walls don't do it with a cold white, choose some neutral white, otherwise, your room will be very cold and impersonal feeling, mainly because you don't have a lot of natural light.
I'm currently taking a Bachelor's degree in Computer Engineering and I do find your contents appealing and interesting although it is not related to my program. Love your videos btw. More contents to come🙏💙
So does this mean that architects can do interior design projects as well? I’m currently deciding between the two professions for schooling and I actually want to be able to do both!
I was looking for a reason to get an iPad, as an interior designer without feeling like it’s a waste but now I Guess you gave it to me :) please let me know what model you use?
I always thought my iPad would not be a use for my university, thank you for these videos!! Now it feels worth it!!! I am also wondering if I can buy 2019 MacBook pro? The new one is a bit expensive for me and I don’t mind the noise
Hmmm…a whitewash on the fireplace might look good. But when your fireplace is out of focus behind you, it makes a good contrast. I’ll be interested to see the new look. I enjoyed watching the iPad magic.
I always wanted to just take an iPad and draw something like this, but turns out there’s some knowledge and talent involved (who would knew, right?).. Can you elaborate more on some basics concepts??
I think the easiest way to start sketching with an ipad is to take a photo of an existing space and start sketching on top of it like I have done here. I typically don't use it to create a finished rendering, but just to test out ideas that I wana develop more, so don't worry so much about making a perfect drawing. Also, take advantage of the layers so you can easily swap out options. 😉
I enjoyed this video and found it very insightful. I am currently looking at re-modeling/re-doing my house one room at a time and i did not know you could use your i pad to come up with a design that you could follow. I am a relative new viewer on you channel and i wanted to say your videos are really well put together. I enjoy watching the videos where you talk about architecture like the architecture in movies or the one where you talk about THE LINE, seeing the perspective of an architect on the world around them is some really cool stuff.
Hi Dami ,tnx for your videos , wow so beautiful and awesome work , i love designing house or at least my house /room , i am a coder but i'm interest in architect and designing and sketching too, what app u using to ? sketchbook only ?
Randomly came across your channel. Good stuff and subscribed. I have zero knowledge on ID and architecture. But it seems fun to draw. Is this doable with Android tablet instead? Do I have to worry on the leaning curve?
My TV was taking up space, so I got rid of it and created a space for proper relaxation or conversation and book reading. I didn't realise how much of a distraction a tv was until I gave it away.
Love you videos but I couldn't help and notice something different. Was the lighting change or did you record in 8k and downscale to 4k. The details look much more different than your normal video in a good a way.
@@DamiLeeArch How can you be so elegant and full of love I wish you success and this wish I say as if you are a member of my family god bless you ❤❤❤❤❤🍃🍂🍁🍀☘🌿🌱⚘⚘⚘🌾🌷
Damil, I'll contact you when we get our 4 projects started, it's all over the world. My son got offered to manage building 3 large condos in Hawaii. But there is a world food shortage and lots of stores are closing in Hawaii, You are perfect for my company.
Dami: This room is actually a total mess (shows pictures of the room, shake weights and all) Me: (looks around at my equally messy room) I'm not alone!
=True! This pandemic really taught me a lot, I realised that depending on salaries alone is very bad. A colleague that lost his job went from living comfortably into hardship because he doesn't have any investment to fall back to.
Great video like all your videos. They're kind of addictive. I was wondering if you could make a video on artificial intelligence generated architecture like "MidJourney AI". Would love to know your take on it. Thank you.
Oink Oink.. I am looking at the truck.. I am not sure why this Truck is in front of the Mail Box.. I would look out the window but I don't see anyone inside the Truck.. I don't see any movement inside the Truck.. I am putting the Letter into the envelope.. folding the piece of paper into half.. this time I wrote two Letters and putting into One Envelope.. just letting YOU know how much I can't stop telling YOU the way I feel.. My Heart wants to burst.. like my Head wants to Burst.. my eyes wants to burst into tears.. as I would fold the two Letters putting into One envelope.. Looking out the window.. I don't see any One.. I don't see the mail man either.. it has been sitting by the Mail box for few hours Now.. I just did not want to go Out but.. then.. what do I do with the two letters I wrote you this Letters.. if there is No Mail man to drive this Truck.. is that Means I can be the Mail Man tonight.. is this Truck for Me.. is it for me to drive.. so is it time for me to see YOU finally.. maybe I can put the Uniform and can act like I be Your Mail man.. of course I am going to tell YOU that the Letters.. which I wrote is me.. If you are to ask Me.. where is the Other Mail man.. I would tell YOU.. I think he is sick so I have come to drive this Truck.. the Time has come for me to finally see YOU.. to tell YOU that it is Me.. all this Time.. I been sitting in my room.. with the Piece of paper.. and the eraser.. with the pencil.. I would write YOU a Letter.. Looking at YOUR picture.. I would stare.. feeling my chest.. and when It starts to burn from the Inside.. I would wait till I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I would wait and wait.. and then picking UP the Pencil.. looking down at the Piece of Paper.. I would start to write YOU something that comes from the Inside.. speaking from my Mind.. speaking from my Heart.. I would open my Mouth and speak to the paper.. as I am watching my fingers hold unto the pencil.. and hand writing on the paper.. I see the piece of Paper with letters to sentences into paragraphs becoming long as I would keep on thinking of YOU to tell YOU this Heart of Mine.. But last night.. I was out side walking.. I saw the Moon above Me and I wanted to see YOU.. I asked the MOON.. when will be the GOOD TIME for me to see YOU.. and looking UP at the Moon.. do YOU think the TIME is right.. asking the Moon Above Me.. I wish that the Moon can speak Back because all I can do is LOOK UP at the MOON and just wait.. waiting can be Hard sometimes.. because what if I wait but the TIME will never come to Me.. what if I keep on waiting but there is NO answer on the Other side.. am I just waiting for Nothing.. I would look UP asking that MOON.. what if the TIME be never.. which I do not like to put myself in that situation.. what if Never comes.. what if I stand still like this and everything just stops or pauses before my eyes and Only thing I do is wait but only waiting continues.. I would stand still.. LOOKING UP.. my eyes.. and I would feel so sad.. and tears fills my eyes.. and I would say.. DO you know that I want to be Loved.. I want to hear what YOU have to say.. I want to hear the words I love YOU and I miss YOU from your Lips.. what if nothing ever happens.. and I would stand in the Night.. LOOKING UP at the sky.. LOOKING at the MOON and only thing I can do is wait.. just wait until YOU are truly ready.. what if YOU never wants to be ready.. or YOU end up loving someone else.. as I would think about this.. the tears would run down.. my eyes.. I close my eyes and I open the two eyes.. two lines of tears streams down.. thinking about what If I just stand here and everything just stops.. or just pauses where I can never meet YOU.. as I would look.. I started to see rain.. rain started to fall from the sky.. and it was very light rain falling.. I am thinking.. it might be the MOON crying for Me.. Does that Moon hears me.. does the Moon understand the words coming Out of my Mouth.. Does the MOON knows how much I love YOU.. and How much I want to see YOU.. and I just would watch the Light rain falling down as I would get wet over the rain fall.. I would turn to look at the Window of My room.. and I would walk into the front door of my house.. grabbing a Bottle of whiskey and the shot Glass.. I would have your Picture in my Hand.. sitting on the chair by the desk in my room.. with the Piece of paper laying on top of the desk.. with the Big eraser and with the pencil next.. I would look at your Picture.. just wishing.. just hoping I can see YOU.. to meet you soon.. and I am just wondering.. would YOU let me see YOU.. would you open the door so that I can see YOU.. will you let me in.. and to hold Your hand.. as I would hold the Paper in my hand.. the Letter and give it to Your hand.. as I would open the TOP lid of the whiskey Bottle.. Holding and pouring into the Shot Glass.. and I am just sitting.. turning to look out the Window watching the light rain fall.. I would grab the Shot Glass after putting the Whiskey Bottle down.. and Open my Mouth and slam into my Mouth.. I can feel the harsh of the Liquor going in.. and I would sit just waiting for the Big Kick.. I would pour another on the Shot Glass and placing the Whiskey Bottle Down.. picking UP the Shot Glass.. Open my Mouth.. and Slam into my Mouth.. I am just waiting to feel that Buzz.. and just looking at YOU in the picture.. WHY can't I see YOU.. why don't you let me see YOU.. DID I ever done anything wrong to YOU.. would YOU let me visit YOU.. just please give me few minutes of your Time.. I am not asking for Hours but just even minutes is all I am asking for.. why can't YOU tell me that I am allowed.. please give me the permission to get close to YOU.. allow me for few minutes is all I need.. just to look at your eyes.. just too look at your hands.. Just to look at your smile.. just to ask if I can say Your Name.. can I say your name and tell YOU that I really Love YOU.. will you allow me to say that I love YOU.. Oh please tell me.. as I feel the kick from the Whiskey I drank.. I would look at the Whiskey Bottle.. half is empty.. did Not know that I drank this much.. but.. I just started to feel like I be missing YOU.. and it was aching me in my Heart.. I just could not stop putting the Whiskey Bottle Down.. I would watch the Shot Glass get filled.. hand grabs.. my Mouth opens wide and Slam the whiskey.. just could Not stop.. I would be looking at your Picture.. asking why can't I be with YOU.. asking why do I have to sit here and just can't see YOU.. hearing the rain falling as I turn to look out the window.. I would put the Whiskey Bottle down.. and the Shot Glass is emptied.. I would pick up the Pencil.. It is my Heart whose been loving YOU.. it is my Heart whose been waiting for YOU.. It is My Heart whose been asking for YOU.. It is my Heart whose been crying from the Inside.. screaming of this pain.. screaming of this Ache of wanting to be with YOU.. I need YOU more and More.. why can't YOU feel the same way as I do.. why is it me whose been loving YOU.. Please tell me.. Please allow me and give me the permission so that I can go to YOU.. so that I can run to YOU.. so that I can be with YOU and to tell you that I love YOU.. as I would look at the Piece of paper in front of me.. sitting on top of the desk.. I would take a look.. final look at your Picture.. and put your picture down on the top of the desk.. closing both eyes.. and I would picture YOU in my head.. and both eyes would open.. I am crying.. I am dying inside and Now I am crying.. as I would start to write on the piece of paper.. I am telling YOU.. My Heart is dying of Love.. my Heart is crying inside.. why can't you help me to stop My Heart from dying.. why can't YOU help me to stop my Heart from crying inside.. DO I needs to take my Heart out and show YOU how much I am dying.. How much I am crying inside.. will that Help you to know what is happening to me right Now.. I just can't stop.. I needs to see YOU.. Oh Please.. show me yourself.. OH Please.. I needs to see YOU.. I needs to Hold YOU.. I don't like missing YOU all of the time.. I keep on missing YOU more and More.. but it is killing me when I do miss YOU.. why can't you see this ON my side.. on my part.. DO I needs to put my Heart on a platter and stick a Knife through it to show YOU.. because I love YOU.. this is How it feels when I am Not with YOU.. when you are miles away and I can't get close to YOU.. it feels like this Most of the time in My Heart.. Let me put my Heart on a Platter.. and take it to YOU.. if I die as I walk.. as long as my Heart gets to YOU on the TOP of Platter.. you will know How much I loved you before I die.. when the Heart on the Platter with the Knife plunged into my Heart.. YOU will know by then How much I really and truly Loved YOU.. but then I know YOU will never hear from me again.. the Letters are Not going to go to Your mail Box any More.. even though YOU be waiting.. If I am dead and Gone.. the Letters.. YOU will at least have the previous Letters I wrote of How Much I love YOU.. it was when I was once alive.. but what happens when I am dead and GONE.. will you love me then.. DO I MUST Die for YOU to know that I love YOU.. that is how I feel from time to time when I be missing YOU.. so Please.. tell me.. Can I see YOU soon.. can I go to YOU soon.. will you let me see YOU.. as I am sitting on the chair by the desk.. I turn to look from the room of the window.. I am crying as I am looking at the Truck.. I want to take these letters to YOU.. but the Mail Man is Not there.. the Truck has been sitting there for few hours.. I do not know where the Mail man went.. so I would grab the envelop and I would walk Out of the front door.. and I would walk towards the Truck.. the door is opened and I see No sign of the Mail man.. and I am wondering.. did the Mail man leave this Truck for Me.. is it really here for me to drive this Truck.. what would happen if I drive this Truck
MAH MAH.. I am standing Out of the Gates of the Fortress.. the Seven Men.. the Friends are all behind Me.. and I see YOU.. the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. sitting On the Horse.. All the Chief Generals and the Commanders.. More Foot soldiers are walking Out of the Fortress gates.. the Six Princes are inside.. Soldiers pushing the Big Canons.. and Men sitting on the Horses.. with Bows and Arrows.. I turn to Look at YOU.. and I am on the foot.. I see YOU raise UP the Bow.. and Other side are the Enemies lined UP.. generals On the Horses.. I see YOU grabbing the Two Arrows.. Putting on the End of the strings of the BOW And pulling it back.. I turn.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please wait.. Please CONSIDER.. and I see you turn YOUR head and looks at me.. and YOU look forward.. and the aiming the Arrows and hand let goes and It shoots Out and fires.. I can't believe it.. I just can't and I see the two Arrows and It hits two enemy soldiers and they both Die.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Chief general ON top of the tower raises UP his Right hand with the Sword and Blows the Horn.. Arrows shoots fires and I can see it UP in the air.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please.. consider.. and I pull out the Sword.. looking at the Blade.. and the Seven Men behind Me all pulls Out their swords.. For HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Let us Fight and Protect.. and I see the enemies soldiers running.. and I would start to run with the Seven Men.. and the Two sides clashes.. I am swinging the Sword.. just thinking about YOU.. I can't let YOU down.. Let us fight and Protect the CROWN PRINCESS.. it is for YOU.. and I am swinging the sword.. the blades hits each Other.. and I see one enemy soldier.. He looks at me.. and I jump UP and swing the Sword and goes across his Neck.. My seven Friends are surrounding and they are all close to Me.. as I hear them shout OUT.. and I turn to look back.. I see Arrows flying Out.. More arrows flying across.. I see two Large Canon Balls with Fire falling from the Sky.. killing Many Enemies who are running across.. I see YOU on the Horse.. MAH MAH.. It is HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I look at three of the closest friends.. My sword points Back.. Protect the Crown Princess.. Please go and be close to you.. and the three friends looks at me.. and they turn to go back to YOU.. and I just can't.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I can't focus when YOU are Out here.. I can't even fight right.. I asked YOU to consider.. It is so dangerous OUT here.. LOOK at this raging war.. and I turn to LOOK back.. I see One enemy running at me.. with the Sword I would jump and move back.. I swing the Sword and it hits the blades.. and I move forward and Bash into him.. and I jump swing the Sword and it strikes him down.. I turn to the Left.. to the right.. so many Men fighting.. I see many enemies are falling by the sword.. I just can't go ahead.. I turn to look back.. I see YOU still on the Horse.. with the Armor and Sword.. and YOU are swinging as riding on the Horse.. I see More men running towards you.. I grab the Sword and I run after.. I can't let Them go attack.. I need YOU to RULE.. I need YOU to be the Next On the Line.. I would RUN and RUN.. I can see the backs.. I would start to swing the sword.. and Hitting One Back to the Next.. to the three and four Men falls by the Sword.. and I would say.. Protect the Crown Princess.. I am yelling Out Loud.. and Screaming Out Loud.. Protect the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and More of the Men turns.. and LOOKS at YOU on the Horse.. as YOU are swinging your sword looking down.. as all of the Seven of my friends.. and I would surround making a circle.. as One Enemy approaches I would jump forward and swing the sword and He swings back.. blades hitting each Other.. the Chief Generals are raising the swords.. telling the Men to Protect YOU.. More men would surround YOU.. as we would push back.. and I am on the front Line.. swords hit and blades making sound.. and I would say.. Protect the Crown Princess.. Protect.. and as more Men comes.. they are able to lead YOU back into the Gates.. inside the Fortress.. and I turn to LOOK back.. and Men starts to run Out.. I can't see YOU out here.. I just can't breathe the same air when we are at War.. How can I fight with this Sword if YOU are fighting this Battle.. if I love YOU.. I can't see YOU hurt.. I can't see YOU wounded.. and the seven Men runs Out.. with the Swords and together.. we would run out on the Front Line.. Swords are hitting.. I see More enemies running towards.. the Arrows are flying High and Canon balls flying.. the More Canon balls flying and falling from the sky.. I see more enemies men falling and dying on the Field.. as I would look.. they start to look and start to run Off.. I hear the Horn Blowing.. I just can't believe me eyes.. is this real.. and I raise UP my Right hand.. with the Sword in my Hand.. and we have WON the battle Again.. and I can feel the tears.. I am in so much joy.. the soldiers.. we have WON.. and I raise UP the Sword.. MAN SAE to Crown Princess.. the Seven Men behind Me.. wiping the tears with me.. they raise the swords with right HANDS.. MANSAE to Crown Princess.. and I raise it up the sword and SHOUT.. MANSAE to HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and the Seven MEN raises the sword with right Hands.. MANSAE to WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. we have WON.. and I turn around.. and the seven Men turns to look at the Gates of the Fortress.. I see YOU coming out of the Gates.. Your RIGHT HAND.. holding the Sword.. and I just can't believe my eyes.. as YOU are on the Horse.. I see More Horses.. the six Princes has joined the Battle to help YOU to WIN this War.. the Chief generals and Commanders.. they all line UP.. as YOU raise UP the Sword.. the MEN all shout.. MANSAE to CROWN PRINCESS.. MANSAE TO CROWN PRINCESS.. MANSAE TO WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would run UP.. and two Knee on the ground.. with the arm up and Head looking down.. the Seven men runs UP.. two knees down.. heads looking on the ground.. arms UP and all of the MEN.. COMMANDERS.. CHIEF GENERALS.. GENERALS.. Soldiers.. all fall on two Knees.. Heads all looking down and arms UP.. saluting the Crown Princess.. and I just can't believe.. we have won this Battle.. but we have WON for the Crown Princess.. these are ALL of YOUR MEN who has joined hands and Joined the forces.. uniting to Fight for this Nation so that YOU can stand Strong.. as I am looking on the ground.. I would close both eyes.. going back when I was young.. I would be crying.. I turn to LOOK at the Target.. I would walk to the Target.. looking at the Red DOT.. I am looking at the arrows.. It hit right on the DOT.. SO many tries and I have failed.. I even wanted to give UP.. because I kept on trying to shoot for the red DOT.. but the Arrows would fly in so many Odd directions.. I was going to shoot for the last time and maybe give UP.. the swordsmanship may not be for Me.. and I would stand alone.. LOOKING at the Art sketch Paper.. LOOKING at the Picture of YOU.. I would hold both hands and My lips touch Your Lip of the paper picture.. and I would Place the Art sketch Paper on the Ground.. and I would say MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. If this Arrow does NOT hit the red Dot.. right IN the Middle of the spot of this target.. I may end UP not going to become this warrior.. but to fold my dreams for Good.. I would grab the Bow.. pulling the strings of the Bow.. I may have to bury my dreams forever.. Always wanted to be by Your Side.. to Protect YOU.. to serve YOU and to be a part of Your Life.. but If I can't even hit the target right.. what good is it for trying.. I would hold the BOW in front of me.. grabbing the Arrow on the Ground.. LOOKING straight down at the target.. I would put the end of the ARROW and PULL it back with the strings of the BOW.. and I am aiming.. I feel the tears falling from my eyes.. I always wanted to be by your side.. even though YOU may Not love Me.. I am Not asking YOU to love Me.. because it does NOT matter for Me.. as Long as I KNOW that I love YOU.. just to stay and be close to YOU.. your presence means everything to me.. that is what Love does when YOU love.. and I would let my hand go.. the Arrow shoots and Flies across and it hits something.. I grab another Arrow.. putting at the end of the Strings of the BOW and pulls the strings back and I am aiming the arrow.. I can't let my Dreams go.. because I need YOU close.. I need YOU here with me.. YOU know that I love YOU that is why I can't ever give UP and My hand lets go and when my hand lets go of the strings of the Bow.. the arrow shoots Out the second time.. and I hear it hit something.. I am Not sure if it hit the target Or not.. I would drop the Bow on the Ground.. and I look on the ground.. LOOKING at the Art Sketch Paper.. the picture drawing of YOU.. and I would hold with both hands and I am walking looking at YOU through this Picture.. DO I have to let my Dreams Go.. dreams of letting YOU go.. and as I walk and stop by the Target.. I lifted UP my Head to look at the Target.. I just couldn't believe It.. I see two Arrows Hit right ON the red Dot.. and as I am looking at both arrows.. My tears.. I feel my tears running down both cheeks and I would cry Loud.. I can't believe it.. after trying so many Months.. Many nights.. broken nights.. thousands of arrows would fly.. Never heard it hit anything.. passing by this target many times.. But Now.. finally.. as I lift UP both hands.. LOOKING at the Art Sketch Paper.. the picture drawing of YOU.. I would say.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. I wish that YOU were here with Me.. what YOU could see.. I can't believe It.. ON this very night.. I was ready to fold My Dreams.. I was ready to give UP my Dreams on trying to be the swordsmanship for YOU.. so that I can go TO you.. to Protect YOU.. to fight the battles for YOU
MAH MAH.. Hit the target.. I had a feeling that I would fail again and this time it is for good.. that maybe it is NOT right for me to ever see YOU.. live a life like a MONK instead.. But I gave this One Last try.. Knowing I will fail.. but I had to try one more time before I bury it in my heart and to never look back.. LOOKING at this Picture of YOU.. this Art Sketch Paper.. I knew.. this is it.. the last chance I can go.. the last chance I can try.. even told my father.. If He can make two last arrows for me.. if I can't hit the target that I am giving UP my Dreams of Swordsmanship.. He was behind me as I would shoot the last two arrows.. He started to cry.. when he walked to see me.. my both hand grabbing HOLD onto the end of the Arrows and it hit the target on the red DOT.. I have never seen such a MAN cry but He cried with me.. telling me.. MY DREAMS will come True.. that ONE DAY I will see the Crown Princess.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. that as LONG as I KEEP ON trying.. I can see YOU one day.. and HE cried Loud with me.. we both wept bitterly because I love YOU so Much and HE KNOWS HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. as I am looking on the ground.. I am here.. Just can't believe this second war.. and once again WE have won.. and YOU are here.. CROWN PRINCESS IS here this TIME.. YOU have see US fight and WON this war together.. I have dreamed for this DAY TO HAPPEN..I see you Point the sword at ME.. telling me to speak.. SO I lift UP my head and I look UP.. and the Other hand goes Back and I pull out the Ark Sketch Paper.. and If may I.. and I see you point the sword again.. Both hands grabs the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. and I would say.. I kept this For a Long Time.. I was ready to give UP my dreams of the Art of swordsmanship.. I remember the Night that was the last.. I saw the Art sketch paper it was on the ground.. I would lower to Pick it UP and I saw this Picture.. it is YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I wanted to be Close to YOU.. even though I was far Off.. that I was living so far and I knew that I just could not go IN like this.. to prove that I can be a soldier who can Protect.. to be a warrior who fights.. I knew I had to do something.. I was about to give UP on that dreams.. I saw this Art Sketch paper.. I took hold of it with Both Hands.. and I would KISS the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. before I let it go.. before I give UP my dreams.. to become a MONK instead.. I saw it.. I saw YOU.. and I would say.. the last two Arrows is all I need.. is all it is going to tell Me.. but when I saw the Art sketch Paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. in my Heart.. I wanted to be close to YOU.. I did not want to let It ever go.. and I cried that night because if I failed.. I will let it go and bury it forever in my heart.. and never look back.. the two Arrows is all I needed to see and I saw It hit something.. on the red DOT.. my father cried with Me.. and He told me this.. that I will see YOU.. that I will be close to YOU and will fight on the Battles for Your Behalf.. for the Nation and for Your People.. I am here right Now.. and we have WON together.. but all it took is looking at this Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I came here because I knew.. But I am here because I love YOU..I am looking Across.. Standing by the Gates.. with the three Friends.. as the Back of the Palace Guards.. I am looking at YOU.. and so many people has gathered.. ALL of the TOP Generals.. the Commanders.. the Head servant.. maids.. even the Highest Kitchen Lady.. and ALL of the Special Body Guards.. the servants and I can hear a Great Celebration.. on the Outer Court.. I am watching YOU.. looking through the gate Bars.. I am wondering.. what is going to Happen after this.. WILL I able to still love YOU.. Look at the place I am standing.. and my three friends who are standing next to me sees Me.. I am sad.. My Heart is broken because NOW.. it is so Hard to Love YOU.. of Course I should be the One who should be the Most happiest to support YOU.. I know that it was ME who told YOU to leave.. to GO.. to go back to the Palace because It is the King.. PEH HA is calling.. He wanted to show YOU and give YOU something.. I was so Happy to hear this News.. that something Great was going to Happen.. and I am now Sad.. NOT sad in a Bad way.. I am just so sad because of this Distance.. I want to come Close.. I want to be near YOU.. able to hold Your Hands.. able to be close and to tell YOU at least I miss YOU.. or say I love YOU.. YOU don't have to accept the Words but.. If I were able to get closer to YOU.. at least YOU are able to feel the energy.. able to see me Smile.. but.. NOW.. I feel like only looking at the MOON can be more closer than for me to LOOK at YOU.. I am looking through the Bar Gate.. as I am watching the People.. the Most important People.. even the Prime Minister has come.. also the Queen.. the People all lowers and falls to the Floor.. QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. people all shouts on the floor.. lowering as she walks.. YOUR Mother has come and Me with the three friends all hit the Floor.. even though she can't see us.. knowing that the QUEEN has COME.. there is a Throne Seat.. in the Middle.. but a stage which YOU are on.. and Now the Messenger Shouts Out.. PEH HA!! the King is Coming.. the KING has come.. PEH HA! and all the people shouts Loud.. PEH HA! and me with the three friends shouts together PEH HA! and the King says for the attendants.. all rise UP and every one stands UP on the two feet.. so me and the three Friends all get UP.. the King is on the Outer Court.. and there is stairs.. He looks at YOU.. HE is with tears in his Eyes looking at YOU.. and there is a Big Crown.. and as the King steps UP He tells YOU to sit on the Throne.. and I look.. It can't be.. and He places a Crown ON the TOP of Your Head.. and He looks at YOU.. kisses Your Hand and says.. Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. SOON to Lead.. SOON to take over the Place.. and everyone Falls ON to the Floor.. lowers all.. and Says CROWN PRINCESS.. I am On the Floor.. with the three Friends.. HWANGTAEJABI.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. and every one shouts.. YOU sit there very shock.. but We all knew that IN time YOU will become the TOP RULER for the Nation.. People cheers and shouts Out.. WANGSEJABI.. CROWN PRINCESS.. we honor YOU.. the Commanders comes and they take a Bow to YOU.. kneeling and lower the Heads.. to the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Crown Princess.. and Each Man comes to kiss your hand.. few Commanders.. the TOP 1st Chief Generals line UP.. to the 2nd In command of Chief Generals.. to the 3rd in command of Chief Generals.. and the Lower top generals and I am watching.. this is the Most biggest celebration.. very close of becoming the Ruler.. and I am falling looking on the floor.. What am I suppose to DO.. One side of my Heart.. I am truly joyful.. and I am so Happy for YOU.. I knew in time YOU would become the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I would feel so happy that Now you are going to be taking over.. even though there is NO crown Prince.. but YOUR FATHER.. PEH HA made that calling.. Knowing that YOU are ready.. I am looking at the King and the Queen.. both lower themselves before YOU.. I am in shock.. It is PEH HA and HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and they made this Happen.. Now.. On the Other side.. I am watching all of these Most important people who works for the King.. they are all going over kissing Your hand.. I see a long Line and I would be on this Position till the Sun Goes Down.. and I see YOU still sitting on that Throne with the Crown TOP of your Head.. as I am hearing foot steps.. and it stops by the gate door bar.. I know someone is coming.. Is it my turn to kiss Your Hand.. If I kiss your hand.. I know that I can't love YOU any more.. what about me.. What about my Heart.. WILL you still let me Love YOU even after I kiss YOUR HAND.. I want to know.. will you let me still come close.. because I told YOU that I did not want to Come.. I knew that THIS would happen.. I told you before.. when We were back at the garden.. up on the Hill side by the tree.. I told YOU to let me stay Alone.. that I did Not want to go with YOU.. that I told my friends to take YOU instead.. because I knew that this is going to happen to Me.. WHY are you making my Heart to Bleed.. WHY don't you just give me a sharp blade knife and cut UP my stomach instead.. it be better if I just die like this.. I told YOU that YOU SHOULD go alone.. and I know that YOU wanted me to see YOU and to join in the celebration.. Yes.. it is the Best day I see.. it is the greatest day I am feeling at One side.. that Now.. YOU are the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH.. but the next thing I want to know.. what am I suppose to do with my Heart.. I have been loving you for so Long.. I mean it has been such a very long time.. and I began to think.. if it is all about MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI.. the Crown Princess.. YOU becoming the Next Ruler.. I told you that I did not want to come because the Distance is going to push me far away from YOU.. that is why leaving me behind would been a great idea because my eyes seeing YOU Close is good but bad when I can't ever come close to YOU.. DO YOU KNOW how much I love YOU.. DO you know that I love you so much that I did decide to join.. decided to see this Celebration.. NOW My heart is breaking inside because I know there will be Distance between US.. but able to see YOU close.. but loving YOU far hurts me far more than FOR me being at the Garden.. on the TOP of the HILL side by the tree been better because at least I don't have to see YOU.. it is the same feeling because of the distance.. it kills me more that I can't love YOU.. it kills me even more that I want to love YOU.. but How.. HOW can I love YOU when YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. Please tell me How.. I hear the Bar Gates Opening.. and the Messenger is standing there
MAH MAH.. Way.. the Messenger stops and turns to look at me.. the Crown Princess is waiting.. HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH is waiting for YOU.. but I would not make any move.. I can't go.. I don't want to walk over and kiss Your hand.. and If my Heart cannot love you any more.. Just please END my life here.. I rather DIE.. and the Special Body Guards walks over.. One pulls out the Sword to my Neck.. and He wants to strike me on the Neck with the Blade of the sword.. and I hear the voice.. the sword be place down.. I turn to look over.. as I look over.. the Important people all lowers and goes to the Floor as YOU stand UP from the Throne and YOU are looking at me.. I see the Big Crown placed.. and I am waiting for YOU to End my Life.. I know that I can't kiss Your Hand.. WHAT happens to me.. HOW about my Heart.. if YOU are going to HURT ME and kill My Heart.. KILL me first.. I am always ready to Die for YOU.. and I see YOU walking down the stairs from the Stage and three friends all stops and turns too look at me.. If I cannot even Love YOU.. what is the Point of me living.. I did not come all the way here to Just kiss Your Hand.. I came here to celebrate with YOU.. it is the Most Beautiful Day but How about Me.. How about my Love.. How about me Loving YOU.. If I can't love YOU now.. I can't love you later.. because it will turn Out to be Never.. that is why I choose to be still here.. How about Me.. tell Me.. give me the answer first.. I rather turn the Other way.. I will go back to the Garden where I belong in the first place.. where I should stayed in the first place.. If this was going to happen.. I do not know why I came all the way down here to cause trouble.. I don't mean to cause any kind of trouble.. because MY true intention is also celebrate.. but IF it ends this Way.. and YOU are forcing me to Kiss Your Hand so that I can't love you any more.. I am telling YOU now I will not.. I will Not kiss YOUR HAND.. so Please.. Let me GO back to the place where I belong.. Maybe I don't belong here any more because NOW.. I have reached a Point.. I can die.. If I can't love YOU.. Please let me go to see my Family.. I can meet them on the Other side.. since I know now I can't love YOU.. and My tears begins to roll down.. YOU know that I am badly hurt right Now.. YOU know that It hurts if I can't love YOU.. it hurts even missing YOU but to stand here for the rest of My life.. just to look at YOU but can't never love YOU.. I can't.. WHY did you even bring me to this Place if YOU knew it was going to end UP like this.. If you would of told me if YOU Knew this was to happen.. I would of chosen to Be at the Garden.. be close to the Buried family members.. I am not trying to start anything.. Not a war.. Not trying to bring any kind of Trouble.. but just telling YOU.. letting YOU know that I should of never come.. YES.. I do love that YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. I am truly happy for YOU.. that YOU are going to be ruling soon.. I already told YOU it was going to happen., of course never thought this SOON though.. BUT it has happened.. If I walk over.. and YOU give me YOUR HAND.. and I kiss that Hand.. that means I can't ever love YOU.. I will not kiss YOUR hand if I just can't.. I rather turn My Head and look up to the Sky and LOOK at the MOON and just talk to that Moon thinking about YOU.. I have been asking the MOON like he be a friend and sharing.. How much I love YOU and how much I been praying to meet YOU and always wishing that I can meet YOU SOON.. that part it has come true.. but I started to fall for YOU.. maybe because It Hurts so Much I started to love YOU.. maybe it was because missing YOU TOO MUCH I started to Love YOU.. but just thinking about YOU.. it made My Heart to Fall in Love with YOU.. because YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. knowing that this was going to happen.. because of THIS.. because YOU are HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH.. knowing YOU are the Best.. the greatest is why I loved YOU.. ever since I was a young Boy.. I knew that YOU were going to be someone very special.. and NOW I see.. my eyes are seeing.. that because YOU are.. that is why I rather just love YOU and Not kiss YOUR HAND..I am looking at YOU.. as YOU are coming closer.. I see you walking and YOU stop.. as I tell YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. Please do not come closer to Me.. I don't want to kiss YOUR hand.. I just can't.. because YOU know my Heart.. Please.. tell me rather to Leave the Palace.. stripe away my title.. and My Position.. I rather Live as a Slave Instead.. I don't deserve to Kiss Your Hand because I know My Heart.. I know How much I love YOU.. that is why I won't.. Please stop there and DO not come closer.. I rather walk away from the Outer Court.. and I would Hear.. the Queen is coming.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I see you turn the Other way.. the Queen in tears.. coming to Kiss Your Hand.. and I see her lips kiss.. putting YOU in charge of everything.. I would walk the ten Council of Noble Men walking and they all stop behind the Prime Minister of the Nation.. and I see the King.. who is on the Floor.. He is crying.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS of this Nation.. HWANG WOO.. QUEEN.. come to me.. and I see the Queen turn around and she walks to her Husband as She also falls on the Floor.. with tears.. and I am standing there.. each Council of Noble MAN.. walking forward.. each Man comes to Kiss Your Hand.. and I am standing there.. My Heart is truly Touched.. truly Moved.. and I am standing thinking.. WHY can't I kiss Your Hand.. is it because it is My Pride.. WHO am I to tell YOU this.. WHO am I as the Lowly servant.. I am only the Palace Guard.. How can I reject Your Hand.. but It is because I love YOU.. I know that I must kiss but I know if I do.. I become Your Subject.. as I would watch each person kissing Your Hand and they Bow and lower to the Knees.. and LOOKING at the Big Crown on top of Your Head.. now the three of my friends goes over.. and Each of them decides to Kiss Your hand.. I am now standing alone.. if I don't kiss YOUR hand.. I know that I must leave this Palace.. this Outer Courts.. so I would turn to face the Gates.. I know that I must leave.. I just can't stand here any longer.. I just can't kiss Your hand and just become NO ONE to YOU.. and as I behind to walk down by myself.. the Special Body Guard runs.. and He stops me.. putting the Sword in front.. and I turn around and I still see YOU.. YOU just standing there.. with the White Dress.. SO beautiful.. WHY are you stopping Me.. I told you already that YOU are going to be a Great Ruler for the Nation.. Everyone gets on their Knees before YOU.. the Prime Minister.. the Commanders.. Chief Generals.. Generals.. the foot soldiers.. the Ten Council of Noble men.. all the Maid and servant.. EUNCH.. the Highest Kitchen Lady.. the Doctors of the Palace.. all falls before YOU.. shouting Out.. Crown Princess.. MANSAE.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY and Tears are all falling.. saying the Next RULER coming UP and I would look at YOU.. my tears are flowing DOWN.. I am so Sad because HOW can I love YOU now.. LOOK at me.. I can't even do anything.. How can I love YOU now.. YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the CROWN PRINCESS of this Nation.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would fall on both knees and start too weep in Pain.. I am aching because LOOK at me.. WHO AM I to love a CROWN PRINCESS like YOU.. and I am looking at the Ground.. wailing and Weeping loud.. I know that I am wrong.. I know that I should of never started but NOW to turn back.. it is just too late to turn.. I have come long ways of loving YOU.. and I am looking UP at the MOON.. WHY.. WHY did I even come.. if I could of stayed behind.. then It would not hurt me this Much because the Loving YOU always hurt but Now.. it hurts more.. I don't want to lose YOU.. because I know that I love YOU.. as I am would stand UP.. and I look toward the Gate.. and I started to walk.. passing the Gates.. I know that I can't come back.. I will remain as a Slave.. and I started to walk.. but.. this Special Body Guard keeps on following Me.. and Puts his sword to STOP me to go.. and I would turn.. I see YOU walking.. and coming closer as I am stopped by the Gates.. I am wondering.. YOU have everything here.. WHY are you doing this to me.. the more you do this.. the More I will be hurting in inside.. YOU know that I am little.. with such no Power.. I have no strength but YOU have all the strong People around YOU.. who also decided to choose YOU to be the CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU have all the troops.. even the people all.. I would see the People.. common people.. they all fallen on the Floor.. and People.. the common people.. when they see YOU.. they would shout OUT with the loud VOICE.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and People are on the Floor.. on the knees looking at the ground.. and I am standing here.. SO touched.. winning the Hearts of many people.. in the Palace and Out with the Common people.. YOU have won as the Next and I know that YOU WILL DO great.. that is why Now.. YOU have no need for me to be here.. because YOU have taken the seat to RULE.. and I told YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I will not kiss Your hand.. if YOU are asking me to come.. and be your subject.. and wants me to kiss YOUR HAND.. that is why I rather leave.. I would live in the deep of the forest and into the mountains.. I will not be known to YOU anymore.. and I see YOU coming very closer.. and your hand touch my shoulder Blade.. and I hear the word Stay.. and I turn around to face YOU.. HOW can I stay with YOU if YOU want me to kiss that Hand.. I told you I just can't.. if YOU want me to be Your Subject.. I want to
MAH MAH.. Loving YOU is all I need and all I can do.. YOU can't change my Mind and can't change my Heart because I love you this Much.. and I just can't stand here.. becoming a Part of Your Subject unable to tell YOU.. and to show YOU how much I love YOU.. if I can't express my self.. I rather go.. I rather walk away so that I can move on further.. I rather be in the Mountains.. I rather be alone not seeing YOU.. even if it means to LOOK at that MOON above us.. If I can talk to that MOON about YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. if just to tell that MOON how much I love YOU.. I rather be far missing YOU.. at least I can have my own Voice.. my own words to say it and tell it.. as Long as I can love YOU far.. it be hard because I be missing YOU from far.. but at least I can let my Voice be heard to that MOON.. so that It knows my Heart how much I love YOU.. I don't want to be standing here.. very near to YOU unable to speak about or to express.. I just can't live like this.. that is why I rather choose Far.. away and to Say it then.. that is why I am making the decision right Now.. to walk away for love.. I rather be far and to say.. to express it and even it means to speak to that MOON.. I am going to let my VOICE be heard by something or someone.. if it is Not YOU.. I would hear YOU and YOU saying something to Stay.. and the Special Body Guard tells me.. it means I don't have to Kiss Your hand.. and I am shocked.. How can I stay if I don't kiss Your hand.. everyone else has kissed your hand.. But why would you not let Me because I know there are so many eyes looking at Me.. they are going to go against Me if I don't kiss Your hand.. but YOU are telling me to stay and Not to kiss that Hand.. even the King.. PEH HA.. also the Prime Minister.. TAE SA JAH.. and the Queen.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I just saw with my eyes.. they came to give you that respect and Honor to rule.. and has shown me by kissing YOUR HAND.. even the Biggest people.. the Most important People has chosen to Kiss and has become your Subjects.. So I would fall on both knees before YOU and My Head looks on the floor.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I can't go inside because I am breaking the rules of this tradition.. How can YOU tell me to go and the rule is that only by kissing your Hand.. I am admitting it with highly regard and with honor and respect that YOU can rule over Me as Your Subject.. and ALL of the powerful people in that house.. they have come to YOU for you to RULE over them.. but YOU are letting me to slide.. I can't just slide.. I needs to be punish by the Law and needs to be punished severely.. I can't go inside if I do not take this Part of and I see the Three of my Friends coming and they have stopped behind YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the King.. PEH HA.. the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. they are asking for YOU.. a Banquet is going to be thrown inside.. they have send us to ask for YOU to come.. and I am Looking on the ground.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Please go inside.. Your Parents are waiting for YOU and asking for Your presence.. I know that I cannot go inside like this.. and I see YOU.. your hand touches.. telling me to stay.. But.. I know that I must go.. and I would see you turn Your Head.. looking at my three friends and telling them to Go with me.. and I hear YOU say.. come back after.. it is a command YOU gave me.. and I am touched.. WHY would you do this.. WHY do you keep on doing this to Me.. I know that I don't deserve to be treated like THIS.. Punish me severely.. for Making YOU feel because I know that I don't deserve You.. YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I am as low as a servant.. How can YOU treat me if I am from the Most lowest Clan.. the Lowest of all.. I am a son of a servant.. I am still a servant even though I am now a palace Guard.. still at the lowest.. I just can't believe it.. either I should be banned or exile.. I should of been striped and placed in prison.. But WHY are you being so Kind to Me.. WHY are you so Kind when I should be demoted and also lived in the Mountains.. in the caves as servant.. and I see YOU walking and I only see your White Dress as YOU are going inside.. celebrating and having a big feast of Banquet.. I am still on the Floor.. How is it possible for me to still be breathing.. and I would hear the three friends.. and They would help me to get UP on the floor.. and I know that I can go alone.. I want my friends to stay and I will go alone.. never to come back.. but.. they would keep on walking with me.. and together we keep on walking.. I am looking at the Moon.. I just wish that YOU know my Heart.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I know that I can't go with you right Now.. Because I want YOU to be at the Seat.. to be at Your Throne.. to Rule over and to take the seat that belongs to YOU.. and I am standing by the tree.. on the Hill side top.. looking UP to the sky.. Looking at the stars shining across the sky.. MAH MAH.. I remember when I first stood here.. running UP the Hill when I was a Young Boy.. My Father was standing next to the tree.. and I would yell out loud.. and my Father smiling looking at me Running UP to him.. and I am holding the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. and I would show my Father.. and He looks at YOU.. that is the Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. after My Father passed away.. I remember walking UP the Hill side.. and I would stand next to this Tree.. and I am holding unto the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. and I would turn too look.. I can see the Palace.. It seems so Far away.. and I would be looking UP to the sky.. Looking at the stars shining above me.. and that Moon.. it has never seems to change.. it would appear the same way as being a Young Boy.. But I still had hopes and dreams.. that One day I am going to see YOU.. that One day I am going to hold your hands and to stand by this Tree.. the same tree I would run up and down.. many broken hearts.. broken tears I would cry.. I would be shouting Loud.. Looking across.. Looking at the Palace.. WHY did you have to come into my Heart MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. why do you have to live In my Heart.. it hurts because I love YOU.. I know that I should be more happier than ever to Love YOU.. but instead.. many nights I would shed these tears.. feeling so Lost.. feeling so lonely and just to be loved.. Will the Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. will you ever see my through.. would you ever see my Heart.. can YOU feel the Heart.. the One Heart that I have kept inside which weeps most of the time.. missing YOU.. wanting to be close.. to get close.. to Love YOU.. to held YOU in my arms and to tell YOU.. whisper in your Ears How much I love YOU.. and I would watch the Night.. wondering can My voice ever be heard.. I don't care.. as long as YOU can hear me.. if I tell YOU that I love YOU.. will you want to hear my words.. my voice of telling YOU.. I can tell YOU thousand times.. but will you want to hear it over and over and over again if I tell YOU that for Me.. it is the greatest pleasure to tell YOU from My Heart because I know deep within me I love YOU.. I would even stand by this tree.. when I saw the dark clouds gathered.. I can hear the roaring of the Thunder knowing that it is going to send rain.. showers and heavy rain down on me.. I would watch and wait.. as I feel the wind changing towards me and I start to see the rain drops.. falling from the Sky.. I would be standing by this tree.. Looking across.. looking at the Palace wondering.. If I go to YOU.. will you open your arms out to me.. will you tell me MAH MAH.. I am able to come to YOU.. will you allow me to step into that Palace.. and I would be wondering.. How do I get to that place from where I am standing.. I want to Go.. I want to run to YOU.. I want to be where YOU at.. If I go.. will you accept Me.. will I be invited to stand close to YOU.. and I would start to watch the rain fall.. Looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I remember it was after I saw YOU coming to the Garden.. the first time YOU came.. I heard a Man who is also working for the Garden.. He told me that the PRINCESS.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM has come.. I remember I dropped.. I was at the Hill side on top.. by this Same Tree.. I was looking at the bed of flowers where my Mother.. and I was talking to the Bed of flowers where my Mother was buried.. and just pouring out my Heart and I heard.. the Man tells Me to come and see.. the Princess.. CONG JU NIM is here.. pay respect and Honor.. I would turn back.. running down the Hill to the Garden.. and I saw YOU on the Horse.. riding on the Horse.. Many of the Servants and soldiers came to the Garden.. I stop trying to catch a Deep Breathe.. I was in Awe with YOU.. MAH MAH.. of course I remember meeting you few times with My Father.. but it was when I was much younger in those days.. but after my Father passed.. I was left alone.. leaving in a small House that He has built for me to live.. telling me that He is going to be gone for a Long time.. but this House.. the small house is now mine.. He has built all for me.. and that was the last time.. In a back of a carriage comes the Body of my Father.. when I saw it brought to me.. I broke down in many tears.. My Heart shattered and broken of a great Loss in my life.. but the Only way this had to go through.. I would open and look at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. Only Love I can give Now.. I can't give love to my parents anymore.. but for YOU.. I have saved my whole Heart to just to love YOU.. just to say How much I love YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. YOU do not know how Much I love YOU now.. as I would hear and I ran Down.. stopping to catch me Breathe.. I wanted to fall back.. and I saw YOU on the Horse.. a White Beautiful Horse.. YOU were wearing a White Dress.. I can feel my Heart stop.. my Beating of the Heart did not want to beat any more.. I saw YOU.. the Horse just stopped and
MAH MAH.. Beautiful.. in person.. looking at YOU after few years goes by.. the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU was no more use because it was when YOU were young.. I can feel my chest pains.. aching for YOU more.. Longing for YOU more.. MAH MAH.. I would be kneeling.. as three Special Body Guards would help YOU off the Horse and YOU walked closer to me.. and YOU stopped.. My Heart.. I did not want to tell YOU about what is happening to my Heart.. I am looking at the ground.. kneeling before YOU.. my Heart.. my hand wanted to touch my Chest to show YOU.. there is something happening to my Heart.. to let YOU know.. YOU have come way too close to me.. because I can now hear my Heart weeping inside.. for a long time.. I wanted to see YOU.. I would be wishing.. I would be dreaming.. I would be running UP the Hill Side Top.. I know that I could not go to the Palace and just show UP.. I could not just ask the Guards guarding the gates to open the door for me.. and I been waiting for a day like this to happen.. I been looking at the stars.. wishing upon the stars.. I would turn to look at the MOON.. wondering does that Moon knows me.. can that MOON hear my voice.. when I ask.. when I plead and beg to be heard.. will that MOON able to hear me.. and I would be asking many nights.. that I want to see YOU.. I wanted to know if I can get close to the Princess.. MAH MAH.. close to CONG JU MAH MAH.. when I came down.. I was speaking to my Mother.. who is lying in the Bed of flowers.. that I been sharing to Her.. that I wanted to see the Princess.. but Father would warn me never to go see MAH MAH.. help me is what I be asking my mother.. that is when I heard the Man who works in the Garden to come down to the Garden.. the Princess.. CONG JU NIM has come.. I am not sure how this be.. but many nights.. the man who works in the garden sees me run UP to the Hill side top.. I think he hears my voice.. but when I saw YOU coming to the Garden for the first time.. I just could not believe it.. I be asking myself.. was it the stars who made my Dreams come true.. I wished many nights on those stars.. was it the Moon who can hear my cries.. my voice when I speak to that MOON about YOU.. showing the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. My finger points to the face on the Art Sketch Paper.. saying.. this is MAH MAH.. it is the PRINCESS.. it is the CONG JU NIM.. I want to ask YOU.. if YOU can bring the Princess to Me.. can YOU please tell the Princess that I want to see YOU.. I want to say something.. I have something in my Heart to tell.. but if the Princess.. MAH MAH is so far away.. How can the Princess Knows.. and I be showing tears.. hands are on prayer mode.. and I am on both knees.. and I am looking at the MOON.. asking and asking.. I need to see the Princess.. I needs to see MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and I am opening my Heart.. looking up speaking to that Moon so that I can tell you something.. When YOU came closer.. and YOU stood there.. and YOU stopped while I was kneeling.. looking at the Floor.. I heard your voice.. telling my to speak.. that a Message was send to YOU and that YOU have decided to come.. I couldn't believe it.. I would think in my mind.. YOU are a Royal Blood.. at the TOP.. YOU are to rule next in line.. from the Blood line of the King.. and I am just no one.. I don't even have a name and YOU would not even recognize my name.. asking whose name is that.. and YOU have come.. and I just could not believe that YOU came.. I would be shaken by this wondering.. what am I suppose to say to you.. there is all these Guards.. soldiers.. and even generals.. even special team of Body Guards that came with YOU.. and I am only working in this garden with an older Man.. I am not even important figure.. and I would say.. MAH MAH.. I have seen you few times when I was much younger.. My Father is the One who would take me as He was the one to care.. He was the Head of the servants of the Palace and was to be there for YOU.. so I would beg my father that I wanted to see the Princess.. I wanted to see CONG JU NIM.. just Once I begged HIM.. I remember He put me on a Horse back and He would travel many days with me sitting on the Horse.. I came to the Palace because of my Father who was to care for YOU as a Servant.. I saw YOU from the Distance.. I was on the Other side of the Back gates where Your Chamber room was located.. I was sitting on the back of the Horse.. my Father goes in and I saw MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM coming out.. I saw you from the Distance and a man who was a sketch Artist came out from the gates and I do remember I stopped him.. I asked HIM if He can draw a Picture of YOU.. and He looks at me with a Smile.. and I pointed to YOU.. Can YOU please do me a favor.. I want an Art Sketch.. can you please draw the Picture of Princess.. the man goes back.. and I would watch Him.. and I saw you standing alone as he drew on the art sketch.. I would watch the man walk out of the back of the gates and Gives me the Art sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I would fall in love.. the more I looked at the art sketch paper.. the picture of YOU and I would lift up my head to look at you from the distance.. I was on the other side of the Back Gates.. I wanted to go close to YOU.. I wanted to see YOU closer because I could of see you from far.. I wanted to tell YOU.. for a Long time.. I been loving YOU.. you may not know this but I been longing for YOU.. wanting to love YOU.. but to see YOU in person to tell YOU how much I been loving YOU because YOU don't know unless I am able to tell YOU my Heart.. for a long time.. I would be on the Hill side top.. standing by the Tree.. LOOKING across.. LOOKING at the palace.. and I know that my words can't never reach YOU.. my voice can't be heard because of the distance.. How can YOU hear me when I am standing OUT so far.. Before I can lose this Chance.. I just wanted to tell YOU.. I never stopped loving YOU.. I have always been loving YOU.. even though you may never know this.. I been here.. waiting for this very day to tell YOU.. to say to YOU that I love YOU.. I am not asking you to accept.. but just want you to know that at least my voice to be heard by YOU.. I wanted to tell YOU for the longest.. I love YOU and Kept on missing YOU for a long time.. wondering will you ever know this Heart of Mine because I know this is the Only time.. only chance I get to tell YOU.. even if YOU want to kill me today and I die.. I will die with a Smile because at least I get to say what my Heart longing to say to YOU for a long time.. that Now.. My Voice has been heard to YOU.. I wanted to say.. I love YOU PRINCESS.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I love YOU..I am taking you to the Garden.. I want to show YOU something.. and I am walking.. my hand on the Strings of the Horse.. and YOU are sitting on the Top of the Horse.. with Your White Dress.. as I am walking.. hand grabbing unto the strings and the Horse is walking next to me.. I see the Garden.. and Closer and closer we are getting.. I would turn my Head looking UP toward YOU.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. YOU know that YOU did not have to do this.. YOU are in the Royal Blood Line.. and I am a son of a servant.. but why do you want to go with me here.. you know that I am a low Born.. from the lowest clan.. but tell me Why.. all you need to say is one word and I can just die in the streets.. and No one would know my Name.. would ever recognize me.. but why do you want me to take YOU back to this Garden.. and I would turn my Head looking straight and I went into the Garden.. hand grabbing unto the strings of the Horse.. I don't hear any words from YOU.. as YOU are sitting.. with a Crown on top of Your Head.. with the most beautiful white Dress.. My eyes.. which I just can't keep it still.. My eyes just kept on looking at YOU.. YOU are so Beautiful.. MAH MAH.. My Princess.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. why are you asking me to take YOU back to this Garden.. I told you that my Heart left this Garden long ago.. the day I left was when I saw YOU with another MAN.. the royal Prince.. it hurts me when I come back to this Garden.. it hurts me of the bad memories I had when My Heart would torn into pieces.. knowing that I am so little.. I am so lost.. I was so confused.. even though I knew that I could never be with YOU.. but still.. my Heart was torn when I saw YOU standing with the Royal Prince.. How small and little I felt when I saw YOU holding his Hand.. I would stop.. the Horse stops.. and I am looking at the Bed of flowers.. and I am not sure why you wanted to come to this Flower.. as I would stand next to YOU.. two guards also came.. and they would help YOU to get Out of the Horse.. and I am looking at the Bed of Flowers.. and this is where my Father is buried.. of course YOU don't know it.. but I have taken you to his Grave.. as YOU were standing next to me.. and I wanted to tell YOU something.. which I had Not before.. and I turn my Head on the side to look at YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. do YOU know what this Is.. and I would look at YOU.. turning your head to look at me.. and I would turn my Head to look at the bed of Flowers.. I know that YOU wanted to come to the Garden but before we can go further down.. I wanted to stop by my Father's grave.. this is where My Father is buried.. When he died.. I did not know where to put His Body.. but I wanted his Grave to be close where I am able to find and to go.. my Father may not be here.. but I know his spirit is with me.. I wanted to remember my Father.. and wanted to be close to HIM.. so I remember this would be the best place to bury his Body.. so with the grave diggers.. I would be standing here.. crying as my Father's body would be laid to rest.. I remember I would be crying for him.. days after days would go by.. I still could Not believe that My Father would be gone.. and I wanted to show YOU.. this is my Father's Grave.. when times are rough.. when times are tough.. and I feel like pouring out my tears
The big question is... White wash or leave as is?!
I’ve developed an attachment to that warm old earthy hearth after watching all your vids for so long 😂. It looks so camp fire cozy in the background with your warm incandescent lighting. But what’s funny is how my mind’s eye gave you $1.5M of living space around it 🤣. I envisioned a huge expansive living room off to your right side and a 400sf island kitchen on your left. Knock down some walls for us Dami…!!
@@michaelcoston6259 I agree
No don't white wash. I like it as it is.
i think the rework of the space leaves it feeling much fresher and more modern; whitewashing the fireplace i think would be on the verge of “sterile”, but red bricks in the new design gives it a grounding sense of warmth.
by the way, the way you explained the intention and effects of each decision or element was really helpful and informative! very appreciated and it made for a fantastic video!
White wash
I thought you were going to say the fireplace is greenscreen
Lol me too
hahahahah 😂 the ultimate deception
exactly lol
😂😂😂
Hahaha same!
I'm a Elementary school teacher, who truly enjoys watching/listening to your channel (For both learning & pleasure). Celebrate your hard work! You're doing great- keep doing you sister!
Thank you!!! 😁
I mean this in the least possible weirdo way .. I love the way your brain works. You have the DNA of an effective teacher. I hope you make videos till the wheels fall off. Cheers
As a fellow architect and filmmaker in the industry, your videos are actually a great source of inspiration, subscribed! ❤️
Thank you!!! 😁 And welcome
This has got to be one my favorite video concepts of yours, and seeing all the effort put into each drawing makes such a beautiful outcome. I can’t wait for the rest of the series and seeing it come to life! Love how inspiring you are
Would be nice to see a 3D printed model of the room at 1/2" and showcase it on your new shelf. Both existing and proposed.
That's a really good idea. Will look into it for the next video 😉
I suggest to have a indirect lighting of teh ceeling. this will provide a more spacious feeling. these days you have very good led strip lighting.
I was about to give up on Procreate, you showed some new features that would help my workflow. Thanks.
CAN NOT WAIT TO SEE HOW YOUR ROOM TURNS OUT, YOUR DESIGN ARE AWESOME.
2.4m = Low ceiling height. I wish New Zealand homes had higher ceilings! It is so rare to find 3m ceilings. I love the extra freedom one experiences in a vaulted ceiling after having the compression in the passageways though. (Not a common design choice, but I've found a few)
this is cool, would love to see a series of...famous? buildings the thinking that went into designing them, and your own comments on what you think the architect was thinking, maybe how you could have done certain parts differently at the time and now (i.e. one with and one without hindsight). ooooh, I wonder if this is something you might enjoy doing?
i really love your channel, i just discovered it so i have a lot to watch still.
I love that idea!! Getting into the minds of the greats.. That would be a fun series to make 😉
I'm excited to see the continuation of this Arch Lee. I love watchin you 😊
Procreate and Goodnotes have completely changed how I work too, It's supper convenient and is readily available for architects and engineers!🤓 Awesome video and I dig the new setup!
So nice and easy-flowing video that reminds me the process when I was transforming my home! Architecture student here who also uses iPad and it is always a fun time watching your videos
Team iPad 😁
This is SO COOL! Thanks for your brutal honesty 😂 Especially inspirational for us beginner RUclipsrs 👌🏼❤️
Love these videos so much, your innovative imagination is such an inspiration for me probably because next year I'm going to architecture school. These videos are still what I watch even though I don't understand most of it professionally. Hope u can still upload more videos damii... Lots of loveeee ❤
Thank you!!! 😆 Good luck preparing for school!
I'm shaking thinking about it now 😂
I love the video, and I love your channel!!! If you whitewash the walls don't do it with a cold white, choose some neutral white, otherwise, your room will be very cold and impersonal feeling, mainly because you don't have a lot of natural light.
I'm currently taking a Bachelor's degree in Computer Engineering and I do find your contents appealing and interesting although it is not related to my program. Love your videos btw. More contents to come🙏💙
Thank you 🙏
So does this mean that architects can do interior design projects as well? I’m currently deciding between the two professions for schooling and I actually want to be able to do both!
I was looking for a reason to get an iPad, as an interior designer without feeling like it’s a waste but now I Guess you gave it to me :) please let me know what model you use?
Interesting content your presentations are awesome very clean and easy to understand Thanks again for your genuine work
Yaaa Dami! Killin it with the brush sets too 😍
Hi.. your videos really inspire me to become an architect, now I am 15 , I really wanna know what app u r using for drawing
I always thought my iPad would not be a use for my university, thank you for these videos!! Now it feels worth it!!! I am also wondering if I can buy 2019 MacBook pro? The new one is a bit expensive for me and I don’t mind the noise
Your content is amazing, I find myself watching your channel for inspiration for home décor.
We have the exact same couch and similar room dimensions can't wait to see the result.
Great channel.
This is great. Waiting to see the transformation.
If this was a series, id be binging rn
I heard of Japandi a year ago. Cool that you've find it! Thanks for your content btw)
Hmmm…a whitewash on the fireplace might look good. But when your fireplace is out of focus behind you, it makes a good contrast. I’ll be interested to see the new look. I enjoyed watching the iPad magic.
architecture>>>>
I always wanted to just take an iPad and draw something like this, but turns out there’s some knowledge and talent involved (who would knew, right?).. Can you elaborate more on some basics concepts??
I think the easiest way to start sketching with an ipad is to take a photo of an existing space and start sketching on top of it like I have done here. I typically don't use it to create a finished rendering, but just to test out ideas that I wana develop more, so don't worry so much about making a perfect drawing. Also, take advantage of the layers so you can easily swap out options. 😉
I enjoyed this video and found it very insightful. I am currently looking at re-modeling/re-doing my house one room at a time and i did not know you could use your i pad to come up with a design that you could follow. I am a relative new viewer on you channel and i wanted to say your videos are really well put together. I enjoy watching the videos where you talk about architecture like the architecture in movies or the one where you talk about THE LINE, seeing the perspective of an architect on the world around them is some really cool stuff.
Welcome! I am working on making more content in that realm.. They're fun to make and the feedback has been awesome.
Alrighty then can't wait for the outcome
I've came from the Line video cuz i live in Saudi Arabia. And I'm happy you noticed my comment. 🤣
Love the video - how did you do the animation at 8:00 ?
Hi Dami ,tnx for your videos , wow so beautiful and awesome work , i love designing house or at least my house /room , i am a coder but i'm interest in architect and designing and sketching too, what app u using to ? sketchbook only ?
You mentioned Morpholio. Did you use it? Any videos on that?
I love the iPad content. It makes me want to get back to sketching room layouts but it is a dangerous game because i cannot NOT execute hahaha
The thing about sketching on iPad is that it's fairly easy to create a drawing that looks refined 😉
HI, what app are you using on you Ipad to sketch out your room? Love you channel
Amazing breakdown! Loving this.
Thank you 😁
Randomly came across your channel. Good stuff and subscribed. I have zero knowledge on ID and architecture. But it seems fun to draw. Is this doable with Android tablet instead? Do I have to worry on the leaning curve?
My TV was taking up space, so I got rid of it and created a space for proper relaxation or conversation and book reading. I didn't realise how much of a distraction a tv was until I gave it away.
I learned sooo much from this thanks!! Also ur rlly pretty
Transforming this room using ONLY your charm and great communication style.
I am always expecting Santa come down that fireplace lol. Rather than white wash, look into other unique material to hide the bricks
Off-topic: I’m considering the same couch from IKEA. Would you care to share your thoughts on it, briefly… please?
Omg 60% of the furniture in my living room is boards and bricks lol. I feel SO Much less alone😂
Love you videos but I couldn't help and notice something different. Was the lighting change or did you record in 8k and downscale to 4k. The details look much more different than your normal video in a good a way.
please try building in the sims 4 next!!
Your videos are amazing
Me sitting in my 8' tall living room with my 1' bulkhead, feeling a bit attacked 😭🤣
Hey can you do a video on your favorite books
This just reiterates that I really need to take advantage of my iPad. 😅
I can’t wait
Can you talk about the floating islands project in South Korea?
Looks very interesting. I'll add it to the list. Thanks for bringing it to my attention!!
@@DamiLeeArch How can you be so elegant and full of love I wish you success and this wish I say as if you are a member of my family god bless you ❤❤❤❤❤🍃🍂🍁🍀☘🌿🌱⚘⚘⚘🌾🌷
May I know which brand of folio you use for your iPad?
Wanna see the final space
Damil, I'll contact you when we get our 4 projects started, it's all over the world. My son got offered to manage building 3 large condos in Hawaii. But there is a world food shortage and lots of stores are closing in Hawaii, You are perfect for my company.
oh god I know you will kill this ❤🔥❤🔥❤🔥❤🔥❤🔥❤🔥 I got to brick typing that. 👀
Nice content ❤
Dami: This room is actually a total mess (shows pictures of the room, shake weights and all)
Me: (looks around at my equally messy room) I'm not alone!
I think those shake weights make the room look disproportionately messy 😂
What's name of this app that you have using for editing in ipad
I see procreate.. but what was the other app in 3d ?
What apps did you use?
=True! This pandemic really taught me a lot, I realised that depending on salaries alone is very bad. A colleague that lost his job went from living comfortably into hardship because he doesn't have any investment to fall back to.
iPad Pros pay for themselves. Internet politics be damned, be _so damned…_
Great Stuff, as always!
waiting for a run by on how to start video and youtube ~~~ heheheh, thank you in advance.
If there is enough interest, I will make it! 😉
Great video like all your videos. They're kind of addictive. I was wondering if you could make a video on artificial intelligence generated architecture like "MidJourney AI". Would love to know your take on it. Thank you.
That's a good suggestion. I will add it to my list. Thanks 😊
soooooo epix
No encuentro más belleza
Solo mirando tus videos
Súper hermosa mujer 😮
my whole life was a lie :
Hahah sorry 😂
@@DamiLeeArch u made my heart go boo boo 😭😭 HAHAHAHAHA
Oink Oink.. I am looking at the truck.. I am not sure why this Truck is in front of the Mail Box.. I would look out the window but I don't see anyone inside the Truck.. I don't see any movement inside the Truck.. I am putting the Letter into the envelope.. folding the piece of paper into half.. this time I wrote two Letters and putting into One Envelope.. just letting YOU know how much I can't stop telling YOU the way I feel.. My Heart wants to burst.. like my Head wants to Burst.. my eyes wants to burst into tears.. as I would fold the two Letters putting into One envelope.. Looking out the window.. I don't see any One.. I don't see the mail man either.. it has been sitting by the Mail box for few hours Now.. I just did not want to go Out but.. then.. what do I do with the two letters I wrote you this Letters.. if there is No Mail man to drive this Truck.. is that Means I can be the Mail Man tonight.. is this Truck for Me.. is it for me to drive.. so is it time for me to see YOU finally.. maybe I can put the Uniform and can act like I be Your Mail man.. of course I am going to tell YOU that the Letters.. which I wrote is me.. If you are to ask Me.. where is the Other Mail man.. I would tell YOU.. I think he is sick so I have come to drive this Truck.. the Time has come for me to finally see YOU.. to tell YOU that it is Me.. all this Time.. I been sitting in my room.. with the Piece of paper.. and the eraser.. with the pencil.. I would write YOU a Letter.. Looking at YOUR picture.. I would stare.. feeling my chest.. and when It starts to burn from the Inside.. I would wait till I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I would wait and wait.. and then picking UP the Pencil.. looking down at the Piece of Paper.. I would start to write YOU something that comes from the Inside.. speaking from my Mind.. speaking from my Heart.. I would open my Mouth and speak to the paper.. as I am watching my fingers hold unto the pencil.. and hand writing on the paper.. I see the piece of Paper with letters to sentences into paragraphs becoming long as I would keep on thinking of YOU to tell YOU this Heart of Mine.. But last night.. I was out side walking.. I saw the Moon above Me and I wanted to see YOU.. I asked the MOON.. when will be the GOOD TIME for me to see YOU.. and looking UP at the Moon.. do YOU think the TIME is right.. asking the Moon Above Me.. I wish that the Moon can speak Back because all I can do is LOOK UP at the MOON and just wait.. waiting can be Hard sometimes.. because what if I wait but the TIME will never come to Me.. what if I keep on waiting but there is NO answer on the Other side.. am I just waiting for Nothing.. I would look UP asking that MOON.. what if the TIME be never.. which I do not like to put myself in that situation.. what if Never comes.. what if I stand still like this and everything just stops or pauses before my eyes and Only thing I do is wait but only waiting continues.. I would stand still.. LOOKING UP.. my eyes.. and I would feel so sad.. and tears fills my eyes.. and I would say.. DO you know that I want to be Loved.. I want to hear what YOU have to say.. I want to hear the words I love YOU and I miss YOU from your Lips.. what if nothing ever happens.. and I would stand in the Night.. LOOKING UP at the sky.. LOOKING at the MOON and only thing I can do is wait.. just wait until YOU are truly ready.. what if YOU never wants to be ready.. or YOU end up loving someone else.. as I would think about this.. the tears would run down.. my eyes.. I close my eyes and I open the two eyes.. two lines of tears streams down.. thinking about what If I just stand here and everything just stops.. or just pauses where I can never meet YOU.. as I would look.. I started to see rain.. rain started to fall from the sky.. and it was very light rain falling.. I am thinking.. it might be the MOON crying for Me.. Does that Moon hears me.. does the Moon understand the words coming Out of my Mouth.. Does the MOON knows how much I love YOU.. and How much I want to see YOU.. and I just would watch the Light rain falling down as I would get wet over the rain fall.. I would turn to look at the Window of My room.. and I would walk into the front door of my house.. grabbing a Bottle of whiskey and the shot Glass.. I would have your Picture in my Hand.. sitting on the chair by the desk in my room.. with the Piece of paper laying on top of the desk.. with the Big eraser and with the pencil next.. I would look at your Picture.. just wishing.. just hoping I can see YOU.. to meet you soon.. and I am just wondering.. would YOU let me see YOU.. would you open the door so that I can see YOU.. will you let me in.. and to hold Your hand.. as I would hold the Paper in my hand.. the Letter and give it to Your hand.. as I would open the TOP lid of the whiskey Bottle.. Holding and pouring into the Shot Glass.. and I am just sitting.. turning to look out the Window watching the light rain fall.. I would grab the Shot Glass after putting the Whiskey Bottle down.. and Open my Mouth and slam into my Mouth.. I can feel the harsh of the Liquor going in.. and I would sit just waiting for the Big Kick.. I would pour another on the Shot Glass and placing the Whiskey Bottle Down.. picking UP the Shot Glass.. Open my Mouth.. and Slam into my Mouth.. I am just waiting to feel that Buzz.. and just looking at YOU in the picture.. WHY can't I see YOU.. why don't you let me see YOU.. DID I ever done anything wrong to YOU.. would YOU let me visit YOU.. just please give me few minutes of your Time.. I am not asking for Hours but just even minutes is all I am asking for.. why can't YOU tell me that I am allowed.. please give me the permission to get close to YOU.. allow me for few minutes is all I need.. just to look at your eyes.. just too look at your hands.. Just to look at your smile.. just to ask if I can say Your Name.. can I say your name and tell YOU that I really Love YOU.. will you allow me to say that I love YOU.. Oh please tell me.. as I feel the kick from the Whiskey I drank.. I would look at the Whiskey Bottle.. half is empty.. did Not know that I drank this much.. but.. I just started to feel like I be missing YOU.. and it was aching me in my Heart.. I just could not stop putting the Whiskey Bottle Down.. I would watch the Shot Glass get filled.. hand grabs.. my Mouth opens wide and Slam the whiskey.. just could Not stop.. I would be looking at your Picture.. asking why can't I be with YOU.. asking why do I have to sit here and just can't see YOU.. hearing the rain falling as I turn to look out the window.. I would put the Whiskey Bottle down.. and the Shot Glass is emptied.. I would pick up the Pencil.. It is my Heart whose been loving YOU.. it is my Heart whose been waiting for YOU.. It is My Heart whose been asking for YOU.. It is my Heart whose been crying from the Inside.. screaming of this pain.. screaming of this Ache of wanting to be with YOU.. I need YOU more and More.. why can't YOU feel the same way as I do.. why is it me whose been loving YOU.. Please tell me.. Please allow me and give me the permission so that I can go to YOU.. so that I can run to YOU.. so that I can be with YOU and to tell you that I love YOU.. as I would look at the Piece of paper in front of me.. sitting on top of the desk.. I would take a look.. final look at your Picture.. and put your picture down on the top of the desk.. closing both eyes.. and I would picture YOU in my head.. and both eyes would open.. I am crying.. I am dying inside and Now I am crying.. as I would start to write on the piece of paper.. I am telling YOU.. My Heart is dying of Love.. my Heart is crying inside.. why can't you help me to stop My Heart from dying.. why can't YOU help me to stop my Heart from crying inside.. DO I needs to take my Heart out and show YOU how much I am dying.. How much I am crying inside.. will that Help you to know what is happening to me right Now.. I just can't stop.. I needs to see YOU.. Oh Please.. show me yourself.. OH Please.. I needs to see YOU.. I needs to Hold YOU.. I don't like missing YOU all of the time.. I keep on missing YOU more and More.. but it is killing me when I do miss YOU.. why can't you see this ON my side.. on my part.. DO I needs to put my Heart on a platter and stick a Knife through it to show YOU.. because I love YOU.. this is How it feels when I am Not with YOU.. when you are miles away and I can't get close to YOU.. it feels like this Most of the time in My Heart.. Let me put my Heart on a Platter.. and take it to YOU.. if I die as I walk.. as long as my Heart gets to YOU on the TOP of Platter.. you will know How much I loved you before I die.. when the Heart on the Platter with the Knife plunged into my Heart.. YOU will know by then How much I really and truly Loved YOU.. but then I know YOU will never hear from me again.. the Letters are Not going to go to Your mail Box any More.. even though YOU be waiting.. If I am dead and Gone.. the Letters.. YOU will at least have the previous Letters I wrote of How Much I love YOU.. it was when I was once alive.. but what happens when I am dead and GONE.. will you love me then.. DO I MUST Die for YOU to know that I love YOU.. that is how I feel from time to time when I be missing YOU.. so Please.. tell me.. Can I see YOU soon.. can I go to YOU soon.. will you let me see YOU.. as I am sitting on the chair by the desk.. I turn to look from the room of the window.. I am crying as I am looking at the Truck.. I want to take these letters to YOU.. but the Mail Man is Not there.. the Truck has been sitting there for few hours.. I do not know where the Mail man went.. so I would grab the envelop and I would walk Out of the front door.. and I would walk towards the Truck.. the door is opened and I see No sign of the Mail man.. and I am wondering.. did the Mail man leave this Truck for Me.. is it really here for me to drive this Truck.. what would happen if I drive this Truck
MAH MAH.. I am standing Out of the Gates of the Fortress.. the Seven Men.. the Friends are all behind Me.. and I see YOU.. the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. sitting On the Horse.. All the Chief Generals and the Commanders.. More Foot soldiers are walking Out of the Fortress gates.. the Six Princes are inside.. Soldiers pushing the Big Canons.. and Men sitting on the Horses.. with Bows and Arrows.. I turn to Look at YOU.. and I am on the foot.. I see YOU raise UP the Bow.. and Other side are the Enemies lined UP.. generals On the Horses.. I see YOU grabbing the Two Arrows.. Putting on the End of the strings of the BOW And pulling it back.. I turn.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please wait.. Please CONSIDER.. and I see you turn YOUR head and looks at me.. and YOU look forward.. and the aiming the Arrows and hand let goes and It shoots Out and fires.. I can't believe it.. I just can't and I see the two Arrows and It hits two enemy soldiers and they both Die.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Chief general ON top of the tower raises UP his Right hand with the Sword and Blows the Horn.. Arrows shoots fires and I can see it UP in the air.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please.. consider.. and I pull out the Sword.. looking at the Blade.. and the Seven Men behind Me all pulls Out their swords.. For HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Let us Fight and Protect.. and I see the enemies soldiers running.. and I would start to run with the Seven Men.. and the Two sides clashes.. I am swinging the Sword.. just thinking about YOU.. I can't let YOU down.. Let us fight and Protect the CROWN PRINCESS.. it is for YOU.. and I am swinging the sword.. the blades hits each Other.. and I see one enemy soldier.. He looks at me.. and I jump UP and swing the Sword and goes across his Neck.. My seven Friends are surrounding and they are all close to Me.. as I hear them shout OUT.. and I turn to look back.. I see Arrows flying Out.. More arrows flying across.. I see two Large Canon Balls with Fire falling from the Sky.. killing Many Enemies who are running across.. I see YOU on the Horse.. MAH MAH.. It is HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I look at three of the closest friends.. My sword points Back.. Protect the Crown Princess.. Please go and be close to you.. and the three friends looks at me.. and they turn to go back to YOU.. and I just can't.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I can't focus when YOU are Out here.. I can't even fight right.. I asked YOU to consider.. It is so dangerous OUT here.. LOOK at this raging war.. and I turn to LOOK back.. I see One enemy running at me.. with the Sword I would jump and move back.. I swing the Sword and it hits the blades.. and I move forward and Bash into him.. and I jump swing the Sword and it strikes him down.. I turn to the Left.. to the right.. so many Men fighting.. I see many enemies are falling by the sword.. I just can't go ahead.. I turn to look back.. I see YOU still on the Horse.. with the Armor and Sword.. and YOU are swinging as riding on the Horse.. I see More men running towards you.. I grab the Sword and I run after.. I can't let Them go attack.. I need YOU to RULE.. I need YOU to be the Next On the Line.. I would RUN and RUN.. I can see the backs.. I would start to swing the sword.. and Hitting One Back to the Next.. to the three and four Men falls by the Sword.. and I would say.. Protect the Crown Princess.. I am yelling Out Loud.. and Screaming Out Loud.. Protect the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and More of the Men turns.. and LOOKS at YOU on the Horse.. as YOU are swinging your sword looking down.. as all of the Seven of my friends.. and I would surround making a circle.. as One Enemy approaches I would jump forward and swing the sword and He swings back.. blades hitting each Other.. the Chief Generals are raising the swords.. telling the Men to Protect YOU.. More men would surround YOU.. as we would push back.. and I am on the front Line.. swords hit and blades making sound.. and I would say.. Protect the Crown Princess.. Protect.. and as more Men comes.. they are able to lead YOU back into the Gates.. inside the Fortress.. and I turn to LOOK back.. and Men starts to run Out.. I can't see YOU out here.. I just can't breathe the same air when we are at War.. How can I fight with this Sword if YOU are fighting this Battle.. if I love YOU.. I can't see YOU hurt.. I can't see YOU wounded.. and the seven Men runs Out.. with the Swords and together.. we would run out on the Front Line.. Swords are hitting.. I see More enemies running towards.. the Arrows are flying High and Canon balls flying.. the More Canon balls flying and falling from the sky.. I see more enemies men falling and dying on the Field.. as I would look.. they start to look and start to run Off.. I hear the Horn Blowing.. I just can't believe me eyes.. is this real.. and I raise UP my Right hand.. with the Sword in my Hand.. and we have WON the battle Again.. and I can feel the tears.. I am in so much joy.. the soldiers.. we have WON.. and I raise UP the Sword.. MAN SAE to Crown Princess.. the Seven Men behind Me.. wiping the tears with me.. they raise the swords with right HANDS.. MANSAE to Crown Princess.. and I raise it up the sword and SHOUT.. MANSAE to HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and the Seven MEN raises the sword with right Hands.. MANSAE to WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. we have WON.. and I turn around.. and the seven Men turns to look at the Gates of the Fortress.. I see YOU coming out of the Gates.. Your RIGHT HAND.. holding the Sword.. and I just can't believe my eyes.. as YOU are on the Horse.. I see More Horses.. the six Princes has joined the Battle to help YOU to WIN this War.. the Chief generals and Commanders.. they all line UP.. as YOU raise UP the Sword.. the MEN all shout.. MANSAE to CROWN PRINCESS.. MANSAE TO CROWN PRINCESS.. MANSAE TO WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would run UP.. and two Knee on the ground.. with the arm up and Head looking down.. the Seven men runs UP.. two knees down.. heads looking on the ground.. arms UP and all of the MEN.. COMMANDERS.. CHIEF GENERALS.. GENERALS.. Soldiers.. all fall on two Knees.. Heads all looking down and arms UP.. saluting the Crown Princess.. and I just can't believe.. we have won this Battle.. but we have WON for the Crown Princess.. these are ALL of YOUR MEN who has joined hands and Joined the forces.. uniting to Fight for this Nation so that YOU can stand Strong.. as I am looking on the ground.. I would close both eyes.. going back when I was young.. I would be crying.. I turn to LOOK at the Target.. I would walk to the Target.. looking at the Red DOT.. I am looking at the arrows.. It hit right on the DOT.. SO many tries and I have failed.. I even wanted to give UP.. because I kept on trying to shoot for the red DOT.. but the Arrows would fly in so many Odd directions.. I was going to shoot for the last time and maybe give UP.. the swordsmanship may not be for Me.. and I would stand alone.. LOOKING at the Art sketch Paper.. LOOKING at the Picture of YOU.. I would hold both hands and My lips touch Your Lip of the paper picture.. and I would Place the Art sketch Paper on the Ground.. and I would say MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. If this Arrow does NOT hit the red Dot.. right IN the Middle of the spot of this target.. I may end UP not going to become this warrior.. but to fold my dreams for Good.. I would grab the Bow.. pulling the strings of the Bow.. I may have to bury my dreams forever.. Always wanted to be by Your Side.. to Protect YOU.. to serve YOU and to be a part of Your Life.. but If I can't even hit the target right.. what good is it for trying.. I would hold the BOW in front of me.. grabbing the Arrow on the Ground.. LOOKING straight down at the target.. I would put the end of the ARROW and PULL it back with the strings of the BOW.. and I am aiming.. I feel the tears falling from my eyes.. I always wanted to be by your side.. even though YOU may Not love Me.. I am Not asking YOU to love Me.. because it does NOT matter for Me.. as Long as I KNOW that I love YOU.. just to stay and be close to YOU.. your presence means everything to me.. that is what Love does when YOU love.. and I would let my hand go.. the Arrow shoots and Flies across and it hits something.. I grab another Arrow.. putting at the end of the Strings of the BOW and pulls the strings back and I am aiming the arrow.. I can't let my Dreams go.. because I need YOU close.. I need YOU here with me.. YOU know that I love YOU that is why I can't ever give UP and My hand lets go and when my hand lets go of the strings of the Bow.. the arrow shoots Out the second time.. and I hear it hit something.. I am Not sure if it hit the target Or not.. I would drop the Bow on the Ground.. and I look on the ground.. LOOKING at the Art Sketch Paper.. the picture drawing of YOU.. and I would hold with both hands and I am walking looking at YOU through this Picture.. DO I have to let my Dreams Go.. dreams of letting YOU go.. and as I walk and stop by the Target.. I lifted UP my Head to look at the Target.. I just couldn't believe It.. I see two Arrows Hit right ON the red Dot.. and as I am looking at both arrows.. My tears.. I feel my tears running down both cheeks and I would cry Loud.. I can't believe it.. after trying so many Months.. Many nights.. broken nights.. thousands of arrows would fly.. Never heard it hit anything.. passing by this target many times.. But Now.. finally.. as I lift UP both hands.. LOOKING at the Art Sketch Paper.. the picture drawing of YOU.. I would say.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. I wish that YOU were here with Me.. what YOU could see.. I can't believe It.. ON this very night.. I was ready to fold My Dreams.. I was ready to give UP my Dreams on trying to be the swordsmanship for YOU.. so that I can go TO you.. to Protect YOU.. to fight the battles for YOU
MAH MAH.. Hit the target.. I had a feeling that I would fail again and this time it is for good.. that maybe it is NOT right for me to ever see YOU.. live a life like a MONK instead.. But I gave this One Last try.. Knowing I will fail.. but I had to try one more time before I bury it in my heart and to never look back.. LOOKING at this Picture of YOU.. this Art Sketch Paper.. I knew.. this is it.. the last chance I can go.. the last chance I can try.. even told my father.. If He can make two last arrows for me.. if I can't hit the target that I am giving UP my Dreams of Swordsmanship.. He was behind me as I would shoot the last two arrows.. He started to cry.. when he walked to see me.. my both hand grabbing HOLD onto the end of the Arrows and it hit the target on the red DOT.. I have never seen such a MAN cry but He cried with me.. telling me.. MY DREAMS will come True.. that ONE DAY I will see the Crown Princess.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. that as LONG as I KEEP ON trying.. I can see YOU one day.. and HE cried Loud with me.. we both wept bitterly because I love YOU so Much and HE KNOWS HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. as I am looking on the ground.. I am here.. Just can't believe this second war.. and once again WE have won.. and YOU are here.. CROWN PRINCESS IS here this TIME.. YOU have see US fight and WON this war together.. I have dreamed for this DAY TO HAPPEN..I see you Point the sword at ME.. telling me to speak.. SO I lift UP my head and I look UP.. and the Other hand goes Back and I pull out the Ark Sketch Paper.. and If may I.. and I see you point the sword again.. Both hands grabs the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. and I would say.. I kept this For a Long Time.. I was ready to give UP my dreams of the Art of swordsmanship.. I remember the Night that was the last.. I saw the Art sketch paper it was on the ground.. I would lower to Pick it UP and I saw this Picture.. it is YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I wanted to be Close to YOU.. even though I was far Off.. that I was living so far and I knew that I just could not go IN like this.. to prove that I can be a soldier who can Protect.. to be a warrior who fights.. I knew I had to do something.. I was about to give UP on that dreams.. I saw this Art Sketch paper.. I took hold of it with Both Hands.. and I would KISS the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. before I let it go.. before I give UP my dreams.. to become a MONK instead.. I saw it.. I saw YOU.. and I would say.. the last two Arrows is all I need.. is all it is going to tell Me.. but when I saw the Art sketch Paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. in my Heart.. I wanted to be close to YOU.. I did not want to let It ever go.. and I cried that night because if I failed.. I will let it go and bury it forever in my heart.. and never look back.. the two Arrows is all I needed to see and I saw It hit something.. on the red DOT.. my father cried with Me.. and He told me this.. that I will see YOU.. that I will be close to YOU and will fight on the Battles for Your Behalf.. for the Nation and for Your People.. I am here right Now.. and we have WON together.. but all it took is looking at this Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I came here because I knew.. But I am here because I love YOU..I am looking Across.. Standing by the Gates.. with the three Friends.. as the Back of the Palace Guards.. I am looking at YOU.. and so many people has gathered.. ALL of the TOP Generals.. the Commanders.. the Head servant.. maids.. even the Highest Kitchen Lady.. and ALL of the Special Body Guards.. the servants and I can hear a Great Celebration.. on the Outer Court.. I am watching YOU.. looking through the gate Bars.. I am wondering.. what is going to Happen after this.. WILL I able to still love YOU.. Look at the place I am standing.. and my three friends who are standing next to me sees Me.. I am sad.. My Heart is broken because NOW.. it is so Hard to Love YOU.. of Course I should be the One who should be the Most happiest to support YOU.. I know that it was ME who told YOU to leave.. to GO.. to go back to the Palace because It is the King.. PEH HA is calling.. He wanted to show YOU and give YOU something.. I was so Happy to hear this News.. that something Great was going to Happen.. and I am now Sad.. NOT sad in a Bad way.. I am just so sad because of this Distance.. I want to come Close.. I want to be near YOU.. able to hold Your Hands.. able to be close and to tell YOU at least I miss YOU.. or say I love YOU.. YOU don't have to accept the Words but.. If I were able to get closer to YOU.. at least YOU are able to feel the energy.. able to see me Smile.. but.. NOW.. I feel like only looking at the MOON can be more closer than for me to LOOK at YOU.. I am looking through the Bar Gate.. as I am watching the People.. the Most important People.. even the Prime Minister has come.. also the Queen.. the People all lowers and falls to the Floor.. QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. people all shouts on the floor.. lowering as she walks.. YOUR Mother has come and Me with the three friends all hit the Floor.. even though she can't see us.. knowing that the QUEEN has COME.. there is a Throne Seat.. in the Middle.. but a stage which YOU are on.. and Now the Messenger Shouts Out.. PEH HA!! the King is Coming.. the KING has come.. PEH HA! and all the people shouts Loud.. PEH HA! and me with the three friends shouts together PEH HA! and the King says for the attendants.. all rise UP and every one stands UP on the two feet.. so me and the three Friends all get UP.. the King is on the Outer Court.. and there is stairs.. He looks at YOU.. HE is with tears in his Eyes looking at YOU.. and there is a Big Crown.. and as the King steps UP He tells YOU to sit on the Throne.. and I look.. It can't be.. and He places a Crown ON the TOP of Your Head.. and He looks at YOU.. kisses Your Hand and says.. Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. SOON to Lead.. SOON to take over the Place.. and everyone Falls ON to the Floor.. lowers all.. and Says CROWN PRINCESS.. I am On the Floor.. with the three Friends.. HWANGTAEJABI.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. and every one shouts.. YOU sit there very shock.. but We all knew that IN time YOU will become the TOP RULER for the Nation.. People cheers and shouts Out.. WANGSEJABI.. CROWN PRINCESS.. we honor YOU.. the Commanders comes and they take a Bow to YOU.. kneeling and lower the Heads.. to the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Crown Princess.. and Each Man comes to kiss your hand.. few Commanders.. the TOP 1st Chief Generals line UP.. to the 2nd In command of Chief Generals.. to the 3rd in command of Chief Generals.. and the Lower top generals and I am watching.. this is the Most biggest celebration.. very close of becoming the Ruler.. and I am falling looking on the floor.. What am I suppose to DO.. One side of my Heart.. I am truly joyful.. and I am so Happy for YOU.. I knew in time YOU would become the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I would feel so happy that Now you are going to be taking over.. even though there is NO crown Prince.. but YOUR FATHER.. PEH HA made that calling.. Knowing that YOU are ready.. I am looking at the King and the Queen.. both lower themselves before YOU.. I am in shock.. It is PEH HA and HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and they made this Happen.. Now.. On the Other side.. I am watching all of these Most important people who works for the King.. they are all going over kissing Your hand.. I see a long Line and I would be on this Position till the Sun Goes Down.. and I see YOU still sitting on that Throne with the Crown TOP of your Head.. as I am hearing foot steps.. and it stops by the gate door bar.. I know someone is coming.. Is it my turn to kiss Your Hand.. If I kiss your hand.. I know that I can't love YOU any more.. what about me.. What about my Heart.. WILL you still let me Love YOU even after I kiss YOUR HAND.. I want to know.. will you let me still come close.. because I told YOU that I did not want to Come.. I knew that THIS would happen.. I told you before.. when We were back at the garden.. up on the Hill side by the tree.. I told YOU to let me stay Alone.. that I did Not want to go with YOU.. that I told my friends to take YOU instead.. because I knew that this is going to happen to Me.. WHY are you making my Heart to Bleed.. WHY don't you just give me a sharp blade knife and cut UP my stomach instead.. it be better if I just die like this.. I told YOU that YOU SHOULD go alone.. and I know that YOU wanted me to see YOU and to join in the celebration.. Yes.. it is the Best day I see.. it is the greatest day I am feeling at One side.. that Now.. YOU are the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH.. but the next thing I want to know.. what am I suppose to do with my Heart.. I have been loving you for so Long.. I mean it has been such a very long time.. and I began to think.. if it is all about MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI.. the Crown Princess.. YOU becoming the Next Ruler.. I told you that I did not want to come because the Distance is going to push me far away from YOU.. that is why leaving me behind would been a great idea because my eyes seeing YOU Close is good but bad when I can't ever come close to YOU.. DO YOU KNOW how much I love YOU.. DO you know that I love you so much that I did decide to join.. decided to see this Celebration.. NOW My heart is breaking inside because I know there will be Distance between US.. but able to see YOU close.. but loving YOU far hurts me far more than FOR me being at the Garden.. on the TOP of the HILL side by the tree been better because at least I don't have to see YOU.. it is the same feeling because of the distance.. it kills me more that I can't love YOU.. it kills me even more that I want to love YOU.. but How.. HOW can I love YOU when YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. Please tell me How.. I hear the Bar Gates Opening.. and the Messenger is standing there
MAH MAH.. Way.. the Messenger stops and turns to look at me.. the Crown Princess is waiting.. HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH is waiting for YOU.. but I would not make any move.. I can't go.. I don't want to walk over and kiss Your hand.. and If my Heart cannot love you any more.. Just please END my life here.. I rather DIE.. and the Special Body Guards walks over.. One pulls out the Sword to my Neck.. and He wants to strike me on the Neck with the Blade of the sword.. and I hear the voice.. the sword be place down.. I turn to look over.. as I look over.. the Important people all lowers and goes to the Floor as YOU stand UP from the Throne and YOU are looking at me.. I see the Big Crown placed.. and I am waiting for YOU to End my Life.. I know that I can't kiss Your Hand.. WHAT happens to me.. HOW about my Heart.. if YOU are going to HURT ME and kill My Heart.. KILL me first.. I am always ready to Die for YOU.. and I see YOU walking down the stairs from the Stage and three friends all stops and turns too look at me.. If I cannot even Love YOU.. what is the Point of me living.. I did not come all the way here to Just kiss Your Hand.. I came here to celebrate with YOU.. it is the Most Beautiful Day but How about Me.. How about my Love.. How about me Loving YOU.. If I can't love YOU now.. I can't love you later.. because it will turn Out to be Never.. that is why I choose to be still here.. How about Me.. tell Me.. give me the answer first.. I rather turn the Other way.. I will go back to the Garden where I belong in the first place.. where I should stayed in the first place.. If this was going to happen.. I do not know why I came all the way down here to cause trouble.. I don't mean to cause any kind of trouble.. because MY true intention is also celebrate.. but IF it ends this Way.. and YOU are forcing me to Kiss Your Hand so that I can't love you any more.. I am telling YOU now I will not.. I will Not kiss YOUR HAND.. so Please.. Let me GO back to the place where I belong.. Maybe I don't belong here any more because NOW.. I have reached a Point.. I can die.. If I can't love YOU.. Please let me go to see my Family.. I can meet them on the Other side.. since I know now I can't love YOU.. and My tears begins to roll down.. YOU know that I am badly hurt right Now.. YOU know that It hurts if I can't love YOU.. it hurts even missing YOU but to stand here for the rest of My life.. just to look at YOU but can't never love YOU.. I can't.. WHY did you even bring me to this Place if YOU knew it was going to end UP like this.. If you would of told me if YOU Knew this was to happen.. I would of chosen to Be at the Garden.. be close to the Buried family members.. I am not trying to start anything.. Not a war.. Not trying to bring any kind of Trouble.. but just telling YOU.. letting YOU know that I should of never come.. YES.. I do love that YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. I am truly happy for YOU.. that YOU are going to be ruling soon.. I already told YOU it was going to happen., of course never thought this SOON though.. BUT it has happened.. If I walk over.. and YOU give me YOUR HAND.. and I kiss that Hand.. that means I can't ever love YOU.. I will not kiss YOUR hand if I just can't.. I rather turn My Head and look up to the Sky and LOOK at the MOON and just talk to that Moon thinking about YOU.. I have been asking the MOON like he be a friend and sharing.. How much I love YOU and how much I been praying to meet YOU and always wishing that I can meet YOU SOON.. that part it has come true.. but I started to fall for YOU.. maybe because It Hurts so Much I started to love YOU.. maybe it was because missing YOU TOO MUCH I started to Love YOU.. but just thinking about YOU.. it made My Heart to Fall in Love with YOU.. because YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. knowing that this was going to happen.. because of THIS.. because YOU are HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH.. knowing YOU are the Best.. the greatest is why I loved YOU.. ever since I was a young Boy.. I knew that YOU were going to be someone very special.. and NOW I see.. my eyes are seeing.. that because YOU are.. that is why I rather just love YOU and Not kiss YOUR HAND..I am looking at YOU.. as YOU are coming closer.. I see you walking and YOU stop.. as I tell YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. Please do not come closer to Me.. I don't want to kiss YOUR hand.. I just can't.. because YOU know my Heart.. Please.. tell me rather to Leave the Palace.. stripe away my title.. and My Position.. I rather Live as a Slave Instead.. I don't deserve to Kiss Your Hand because I know My Heart.. I know How much I love YOU.. that is why I won't.. Please stop there and DO not come closer.. I rather walk away from the Outer Court.. and I would Hear.. the Queen is coming.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I see you turn the Other way.. the Queen in tears.. coming to Kiss Your Hand.. and I see her lips kiss.. putting YOU in charge of everything.. I would walk the ten Council of Noble Men walking and they all stop behind the Prime Minister of the Nation.. and I see the King.. who is on the Floor.. He is crying.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS of this Nation.. HWANG WOO.. QUEEN.. come to me.. and I see the Queen turn around and she walks to her Husband as She also falls on the Floor.. with tears.. and I am standing there.. each Council of Noble MAN.. walking forward.. each Man comes to Kiss Your Hand.. and I am standing there.. My Heart is truly Touched.. truly Moved.. and I am standing thinking.. WHY can't I kiss Your Hand.. is it because it is My Pride.. WHO am I to tell YOU this.. WHO am I as the Lowly servant.. I am only the Palace Guard.. How can I reject Your Hand.. but It is because I love YOU.. I know that I must kiss but I know if I do.. I become Your Subject.. as I would watch each person kissing Your Hand and they Bow and lower to the Knees.. and LOOKING at the Big Crown on top of Your Head.. now the three of my friends goes over.. and Each of them decides to Kiss Your hand.. I am now standing alone.. if I don't kiss YOUR hand.. I know that I must leave this Palace.. this Outer Courts.. so I would turn to face the Gates.. I know that I must leave.. I just can't stand here any longer.. I just can't kiss Your hand and just become NO ONE to YOU.. and as I behind to walk down by myself.. the Special Body Guard runs.. and He stops me.. putting the Sword in front.. and I turn around and I still see YOU.. YOU just standing there.. with the White Dress.. SO beautiful.. WHY are you stopping Me.. I told you already that YOU are going to be a Great Ruler for the Nation.. Everyone gets on their Knees before YOU.. the Prime Minister.. the Commanders.. Chief Generals.. Generals.. the foot soldiers.. the Ten Council of Noble men.. all the Maid and servant.. EUNCH.. the Highest Kitchen Lady.. the Doctors of the Palace.. all falls before YOU.. shouting Out.. Crown Princess.. MANSAE.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY and Tears are all falling.. saying the Next RULER coming UP and I would look at YOU.. my tears are flowing DOWN.. I am so Sad because HOW can I love YOU now.. LOOK at me.. I can't even do anything.. How can I love YOU now.. YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the CROWN PRINCESS of this Nation.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would fall on both knees and start too weep in Pain.. I am aching because LOOK at me.. WHO AM I to love a CROWN PRINCESS like YOU.. and I am looking at the Ground.. wailing and Weeping loud.. I know that I am wrong.. I know that I should of never started but NOW to turn back.. it is just too late to turn.. I have come long ways of loving YOU.. and I am looking UP at the MOON.. WHY.. WHY did I even come.. if I could of stayed behind.. then It would not hurt me this Much because the Loving YOU always hurt but Now.. it hurts more.. I don't want to lose YOU.. because I know that I love YOU.. as I am would stand UP.. and I look toward the Gate.. and I started to walk.. passing the Gates.. I know that I can't come back.. I will remain as a Slave.. and I started to walk.. but.. this Special Body Guard keeps on following Me.. and Puts his sword to STOP me to go.. and I would turn.. I see YOU walking.. and coming closer as I am stopped by the Gates.. I am wondering.. YOU have everything here.. WHY are you doing this to me.. the more you do this.. the More I will be hurting in inside.. YOU know that I am little.. with such no Power.. I have no strength but YOU have all the strong People around YOU.. who also decided to choose YOU to be the CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU have all the troops.. even the people all.. I would see the People.. common people.. they all fallen on the Floor.. and People.. the common people.. when they see YOU.. they would shout OUT with the loud VOICE.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and People are on the Floor.. on the knees looking at the ground.. and I am standing here.. SO touched.. winning the Hearts of many people.. in the Palace and Out with the Common people.. YOU have won as the Next and I know that YOU WILL DO great.. that is why Now.. YOU have no need for me to be here.. because YOU have taken the seat to RULE.. and I told YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I will not kiss Your hand.. if YOU are asking me to come.. and be your subject.. and wants me to kiss YOUR HAND.. that is why I rather leave.. I would live in the deep of the forest and into the mountains.. I will not be known to YOU anymore.. and I see YOU coming very closer.. and your hand touch my shoulder Blade.. and I hear the word Stay.. and I turn around to face YOU.. HOW can I stay with YOU if YOU want me to kiss that Hand.. I told you I just can't.. if YOU want me to be Your Subject.. I want to
MAH MAH.. Loving YOU is all I need and all I can do.. YOU can't change my Mind and can't change my Heart because I love you this Much.. and I just can't stand here.. becoming a Part of Your Subject unable to tell YOU.. and to show YOU how much I love YOU.. if I can't express my self.. I rather go.. I rather walk away so that I can move on further.. I rather be in the Mountains.. I rather be alone not seeing YOU.. even if it means to LOOK at that MOON above us.. If I can talk to that MOON about YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. if just to tell that MOON how much I love YOU.. I rather be far missing YOU.. at least I can have my own Voice.. my own words to say it and tell it.. as Long as I can love YOU far.. it be hard because I be missing YOU from far.. but at least I can let my Voice be heard to that MOON.. so that It knows my Heart how much I love YOU.. I don't want to be standing here.. very near to YOU unable to speak about or to express.. I just can't live like this.. that is why I rather choose Far.. away and to Say it then.. that is why I am making the decision right Now.. to walk away for love.. I rather be far and to say.. to express it and even it means to speak to that MOON.. I am going to let my VOICE be heard by something or someone.. if it is Not YOU.. I would hear YOU and YOU saying something to Stay.. and the Special Body Guard tells me.. it means I don't have to Kiss Your hand.. and I am shocked.. How can I stay if I don't kiss Your hand.. everyone else has kissed your hand.. But why would you not let Me because I know there are so many eyes looking at Me.. they are going to go against Me if I don't kiss Your hand.. but YOU are telling me to stay and Not to kiss that Hand.. even the King.. PEH HA.. also the Prime Minister.. TAE SA JAH.. and the Queen.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I just saw with my eyes.. they came to give you that respect and Honor to rule.. and has shown me by kissing YOUR HAND.. even the Biggest people.. the Most important People has chosen to Kiss and has become your Subjects.. So I would fall on both knees before YOU and My Head looks on the floor.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I can't go inside because I am breaking the rules of this tradition.. How can YOU tell me to go and the rule is that only by kissing your Hand.. I am admitting it with highly regard and with honor and respect that YOU can rule over Me as Your Subject.. and ALL of the powerful people in that house.. they have come to YOU for you to RULE over them.. but YOU are letting me to slide.. I can't just slide.. I needs to be punish by the Law and needs to be punished severely.. I can't go inside if I do not take this Part of and I see the Three of my Friends coming and they have stopped behind YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the King.. PEH HA.. the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. they are asking for YOU.. a Banquet is going to be thrown inside.. they have send us to ask for YOU to come.. and I am Looking on the ground.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Please go inside.. Your Parents are waiting for YOU and asking for Your presence.. I know that I cannot go inside like this.. and I see YOU.. your hand touches.. telling me to stay.. But.. I know that I must go.. and I would see you turn Your Head.. looking at my three friends and telling them to Go with me.. and I hear YOU say.. come back after.. it is a command YOU gave me.. and I am touched.. WHY would you do this.. WHY do you keep on doing this to Me.. I know that I don't deserve to be treated like THIS.. Punish me severely.. for Making YOU feel because I know that I don't deserve You.. YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I am as low as a servant.. How can YOU treat me if I am from the Most lowest Clan.. the Lowest of all.. I am a son of a servant.. I am still a servant even though I am now a palace Guard.. still at the lowest.. I just can't believe it.. either I should be banned or exile.. I should of been striped and placed in prison.. But WHY are you being so Kind to Me.. WHY are you so Kind when I should be demoted and also lived in the Mountains.. in the caves as servant.. and I see YOU walking and I only see your White Dress as YOU are going inside.. celebrating and having a big feast of Banquet.. I am still on the Floor.. How is it possible for me to still be breathing.. and I would hear the three friends.. and They would help me to get UP on the floor.. and I know that I can go alone.. I want my friends to stay and I will go alone.. never to come back.. but.. they would keep on walking with me.. and together we keep on walking.. I am looking at the Moon.. I just wish that YOU know my Heart.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I know that I can't go with you right Now.. Because I want YOU to be at the Seat.. to be at Your Throne.. to Rule over and to take the seat that belongs to YOU.. and I am standing by the tree.. on the Hill side top.. looking UP to the sky.. Looking at the stars shining across the sky.. MAH MAH.. I remember when I first stood here.. running UP the Hill when I was a Young Boy.. My Father was standing next to the tree.. and I would yell out loud.. and my Father smiling looking at me Running UP to him.. and I am holding the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. and I would show my Father.. and He looks at YOU.. that is the Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. after My Father passed away.. I remember walking UP the Hill side.. and I would stand next to this Tree.. and I am holding unto the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. and I would turn too look.. I can see the Palace.. It seems so Far away.. and I would be looking UP to the sky.. Looking at the stars shining above me.. and that Moon.. it has never seems to change.. it would appear the same way as being a Young Boy.. But I still had hopes and dreams.. that One day I am going to see YOU.. that One day I am going to hold your hands and to stand by this Tree.. the same tree I would run up and down.. many broken hearts.. broken tears I would cry.. I would be shouting Loud.. Looking across.. Looking at the Palace.. WHY did you have to come into my Heart MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. why do you have to live In my Heart.. it hurts because I love YOU.. I know that I should be more happier than ever to Love YOU.. but instead.. many nights I would shed these tears.. feeling so Lost.. feeling so lonely and just to be loved.. Will the Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. will you ever see my through.. would you ever see my Heart.. can YOU feel the Heart.. the One Heart that I have kept inside which weeps most of the time.. missing YOU.. wanting to be close.. to get close.. to Love YOU.. to held YOU in my arms and to tell YOU.. whisper in your Ears How much I love YOU.. and I would watch the Night.. wondering can My voice ever be heard.. I don't care.. as long as YOU can hear me.. if I tell YOU that I love YOU.. will you want to hear my words.. my voice of telling YOU.. I can tell YOU thousand times.. but will you want to hear it over and over and over again if I tell YOU that for Me.. it is the greatest pleasure to tell YOU from My Heart because I know deep within me I love YOU.. I would even stand by this tree.. when I saw the dark clouds gathered.. I can hear the roaring of the Thunder knowing that it is going to send rain.. showers and heavy rain down on me.. I would watch and wait.. as I feel the wind changing towards me and I start to see the rain drops.. falling from the Sky.. I would be standing by this tree.. Looking across.. looking at the Palace wondering.. If I go to YOU.. will you open your arms out to me.. will you tell me MAH MAH.. I am able to come to YOU.. will you allow me to step into that Palace.. and I would be wondering.. How do I get to that place from where I am standing.. I want to Go.. I want to run to YOU.. I want to be where YOU at.. If I go.. will you accept Me.. will I be invited to stand close to YOU.. and I would start to watch the rain fall.. Looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I remember it was after I saw YOU coming to the Garden.. the first time YOU came.. I heard a Man who is also working for the Garden.. He told me that the PRINCESS.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM has come.. I remember I dropped.. I was at the Hill side on top.. by this Same Tree.. I was looking at the bed of flowers where my Mother.. and I was talking to the Bed of flowers where my Mother was buried.. and just pouring out my Heart and I heard.. the Man tells Me to come and see.. the Princess.. CONG JU NIM is here.. pay respect and Honor.. I would turn back.. running down the Hill to the Garden.. and I saw YOU on the Horse.. riding on the Horse.. Many of the Servants and soldiers came to the Garden.. I stop trying to catch a Deep Breathe.. I was in Awe with YOU.. MAH MAH.. of course I remember meeting you few times with My Father.. but it was when I was much younger in those days.. but after my Father passed.. I was left alone.. leaving in a small House that He has built for me to live.. telling me that He is going to be gone for a Long time.. but this House.. the small house is now mine.. He has built all for me.. and that was the last time.. In a back of a carriage comes the Body of my Father.. when I saw it brought to me.. I broke down in many tears.. My Heart shattered and broken of a great Loss in my life.. but the Only way this had to go through.. I would open and look at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. Only Love I can give Now.. I can't give love to my parents anymore.. but for YOU.. I have saved my whole Heart to just to love YOU.. just to say How much I love YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. YOU do not know how Much I love YOU now.. as I would hear and I ran Down.. stopping to catch me Breathe.. I wanted to fall back.. and I saw YOU on the Horse.. a White Beautiful Horse.. YOU were wearing a White Dress.. I can feel my Heart stop.. my Beating of the Heart did not want to beat any more.. I saw YOU.. the Horse just stopped and
MAH MAH.. Beautiful.. in person.. looking at YOU after few years goes by.. the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU was no more use because it was when YOU were young.. I can feel my chest pains.. aching for YOU more.. Longing for YOU more.. MAH MAH.. I would be kneeling.. as three Special Body Guards would help YOU off the Horse and YOU walked closer to me.. and YOU stopped.. My Heart.. I did not want to tell YOU about what is happening to my Heart.. I am looking at the ground.. kneeling before YOU.. my Heart.. my hand wanted to touch my Chest to show YOU.. there is something happening to my Heart.. to let YOU know.. YOU have come way too close to me.. because I can now hear my Heart weeping inside.. for a long time.. I wanted to see YOU.. I would be wishing.. I would be dreaming.. I would be running UP the Hill Side Top.. I know that I could not go to the Palace and just show UP.. I could not just ask the Guards guarding the gates to open the door for me.. and I been waiting for a day like this to happen.. I been looking at the stars.. wishing upon the stars.. I would turn to look at the MOON.. wondering does that Moon knows me.. can that MOON hear my voice.. when I ask.. when I plead and beg to be heard.. will that MOON able to hear me.. and I would be asking many nights.. that I want to see YOU.. I wanted to know if I can get close to the Princess.. MAH MAH.. close to CONG JU MAH MAH.. when I came down.. I was speaking to my Mother.. who is lying in the Bed of flowers.. that I been sharing to Her.. that I wanted to see the Princess.. but Father would warn me never to go see MAH MAH.. help me is what I be asking my mother.. that is when I heard the Man who works in the Garden to come down to the Garden.. the Princess.. CONG JU NIM has come.. I am not sure how this be.. but many nights.. the man who works in the garden sees me run UP to the Hill side top.. I think he hears my voice.. but when I saw YOU coming to the Garden for the first time.. I just could not believe it.. I be asking myself.. was it the stars who made my Dreams come true.. I wished many nights on those stars.. was it the Moon who can hear my cries.. my voice when I speak to that MOON about YOU.. showing the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. My finger points to the face on the Art Sketch Paper.. saying.. this is MAH MAH.. it is the PRINCESS.. it is the CONG JU NIM.. I want to ask YOU.. if YOU can bring the Princess to Me.. can YOU please tell the Princess that I want to see YOU.. I want to say something.. I have something in my Heart to tell.. but if the Princess.. MAH MAH is so far away.. How can the Princess Knows.. and I be showing tears.. hands are on prayer mode.. and I am on both knees.. and I am looking at the MOON.. asking and asking.. I need to see the Princess.. I needs to see MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and I am opening my Heart.. looking up speaking to that Moon so that I can tell you something.. When YOU came closer.. and YOU stood there.. and YOU stopped while I was kneeling.. looking at the Floor.. I heard your voice.. telling my to speak.. that a Message was send to YOU and that YOU have decided to come.. I couldn't believe it.. I would think in my mind.. YOU are a Royal Blood.. at the TOP.. YOU are to rule next in line.. from the Blood line of the King.. and I am just no one.. I don't even have a name and YOU would not even recognize my name.. asking whose name is that.. and YOU have come.. and I just could not believe that YOU came.. I would be shaken by this wondering.. what am I suppose to say to you.. there is all these Guards.. soldiers.. and even generals.. even special team of Body Guards that came with YOU.. and I am only working in this garden with an older Man.. I am not even important figure.. and I would say.. MAH MAH.. I have seen you few times when I was much younger.. My Father is the One who would take me as He was the one to care.. He was the Head of the servants of the Palace and was to be there for YOU.. so I would beg my father that I wanted to see the Princess.. I wanted to see CONG JU NIM.. just Once I begged HIM.. I remember He put me on a Horse back and He would travel many days with me sitting on the Horse.. I came to the Palace because of my Father who was to care for YOU as a Servant.. I saw YOU from the Distance.. I was on the Other side of the Back gates where Your Chamber room was located.. I was sitting on the back of the Horse.. my Father goes in and I saw MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM coming out.. I saw you from the Distance and a man who was a sketch Artist came out from the gates and I do remember I stopped him.. I asked HIM if He can draw a Picture of YOU.. and He looks at me with a Smile.. and I pointed to YOU.. Can YOU please do me a favor.. I want an Art Sketch.. can you please draw the Picture of Princess.. the man goes back.. and I would watch Him.. and I saw you standing alone as he drew on the art sketch.. I would watch the man walk out of the back of the gates and Gives me the Art sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I would fall in love.. the more I looked at the art sketch paper.. the picture of YOU and I would lift up my head to look at you from the distance.. I was on the other side of the Back Gates.. I wanted to go close to YOU.. I wanted to see YOU closer because I could of see you from far.. I wanted to tell YOU.. for a Long time.. I been loving YOU.. you may not know this but I been longing for YOU.. wanting to love YOU.. but to see YOU in person to tell YOU how much I been loving YOU because YOU don't know unless I am able to tell YOU my Heart.. for a long time.. I would be on the Hill side top.. standing by the Tree.. LOOKING across.. LOOKING at the palace.. and I know that my words can't never reach YOU.. my voice can't be heard because of the distance.. How can YOU hear me when I am standing OUT so far.. Before I can lose this Chance.. I just wanted to tell YOU.. I never stopped loving YOU.. I have always been loving YOU.. even though you may never know this.. I been here.. waiting for this very day to tell YOU.. to say to YOU that I love YOU.. I am not asking you to accept.. but just want you to know that at least my voice to be heard by YOU.. I wanted to tell YOU for the longest.. I love YOU and Kept on missing YOU for a long time.. wondering will you ever know this Heart of Mine because I know this is the Only time.. only chance I get to tell YOU.. even if YOU want to kill me today and I die.. I will die with a Smile because at least I get to say what my Heart longing to say to YOU for a long time.. that Now.. My Voice has been heard to YOU.. I wanted to say.. I love YOU PRINCESS.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I love YOU..I am taking you to the Garden.. I want to show YOU something.. and I am walking.. my hand on the Strings of the Horse.. and YOU are sitting on the Top of the Horse.. with Your White Dress.. as I am walking.. hand grabbing unto the strings and the Horse is walking next to me.. I see the Garden.. and Closer and closer we are getting.. I would turn my Head looking UP toward YOU.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. YOU know that YOU did not have to do this.. YOU are in the Royal Blood Line.. and I am a son of a servant.. but why do you want to go with me here.. you know that I am a low Born.. from the lowest clan.. but tell me Why.. all you need to say is one word and I can just die in the streets.. and No one would know my Name.. would ever recognize me.. but why do you want me to take YOU back to this Garden.. and I would turn my Head looking straight and I went into the Garden.. hand grabbing unto the strings of the Horse.. I don't hear any words from YOU.. as YOU are sitting.. with a Crown on top of Your Head.. with the most beautiful white Dress.. My eyes.. which I just can't keep it still.. My eyes just kept on looking at YOU.. YOU are so Beautiful.. MAH MAH.. My Princess.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. why are you asking me to take YOU back to this Garden.. I told you that my Heart left this Garden long ago.. the day I left was when I saw YOU with another MAN.. the royal Prince.. it hurts me when I come back to this Garden.. it hurts me of the bad memories I had when My Heart would torn into pieces.. knowing that I am so little.. I am so lost.. I was so confused.. even though I knew that I could never be with YOU.. but still.. my Heart was torn when I saw YOU standing with the Royal Prince.. How small and little I felt when I saw YOU holding his Hand.. I would stop.. the Horse stops.. and I am looking at the Bed of flowers.. and I am not sure why you wanted to come to this Flower.. as I would stand next to YOU.. two guards also came.. and they would help YOU to get Out of the Horse.. and I am looking at the Bed of Flowers.. and this is where my Father is buried.. of course YOU don't know it.. but I have taken you to his Grave.. as YOU were standing next to me.. and I wanted to tell YOU something.. which I had Not before.. and I turn my Head on the side to look at YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. do YOU know what this Is.. and I would look at YOU.. turning your head to look at me.. and I would turn my Head to look at the bed of Flowers.. I know that YOU wanted to come to the Garden but before we can go further down.. I wanted to stop by my Father's grave.. this is where My Father is buried.. When he died.. I did not know where to put His Body.. but I wanted his Grave to be close where I am able to find and to go.. my Father may not be here.. but I know his spirit is with me.. I wanted to remember my Father.. and wanted to be close to HIM.. so I remember this would be the best place to bury his Body.. so with the grave diggers.. I would be standing here.. crying as my Father's body would be laid to rest.. I remember I would be crying for him.. days after days would go by.. I still could Not believe that My Father would be gone.. and I wanted to show YOU.. this is my Father's Grave.. when times are rough.. when times are tough.. and I feel like pouring out my tears
You're so beautiful
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You are mega cute.
You're so cute
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So are you already married...
So pretty and so smart. Wow
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