WHERE DID I GO?! (mental health update)
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- Опубликовано: 21 сен 2020
- Oh no, he's back! In this update I discuss where I've been.. thank you all for the amazing questions and feedback! I'll be answering more soon :)
Just a friendly reminder that no one is forced to disclose mental health status etc. I do this out of my own will and because I want to be candid for my younger self. Donations to medical bills can be made here: www.buymeacoffee.com/skylarke...
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Less human, more being. Keep being. I love you.
You look very healthy and glowing. You never have to apologize for anything! Life comes first.
thank you so much
skylarkeleven of course! I’ve been following you for quite some time and preordered your book etc. I am so very proud of you and how far you have come. Getting to watch you grow as a person has been a pleasure. Thank you for always being genuine and I am so happy for you
Jesus loves u ❤ repent before it’s to late pls ⏰🙏
Dude, I used to follow you five years ago when I started questioning my identity. I binge-watched a lot of your videos back then but in the last four years I completely lost touch with your channel.
However, I just got the notification for this vid and instantly clicked. You look older but in the best possible way. You seem more mature, healthier and serene. All the kudos to you for getting better! Much love, from a long lost fan
thank you! i appreciate your kindness :)
11 years wow time flies. Good to see you Sky.
The channel's name is skylarkeleven and you've been on t for eleven years. I think You are on the right track
I love seeing your face wonderful person
We’ve missed ya too, Ash! Hope you’re doing well:)
O MY GOD IT'S ASH
We've missed you a lot
You had the first t progession video I watched :) I'm 7 months now. Thank you for everything.
7 months!! congratulations friend :) i hope you are feeling well!
@@skylarkeleven Thank you for the reply!! I just really enjoyed hearing an update from you. It's good to open up about these things and trying to spread a positive attitude for mental health awareness.
Omg seeing your vid on my subscription box was a major throwback! Glad you’re back ☺️
ee that makes me so happy! :)
I've followed you since 2010 when I was just 15 and realizing I was trans. 25 years old now and 6 years on T. Crazy how the time flies. Good to see you back, was wondering where you disappeared to and what you were up to
I did wonder what had happened but hoped for the best / I'm glad you're in a better spaceright now and I hope you know that your friends online and off are behind you. I will contribute when I can. Thanks for letting us back into your life.
Your voice is so smooth it helped me to calm down after a hard day in work, thanks a lot 😊
I hope this doesn’t sound bad but seeing you old gives me hope I can get old lmao
This video is making me so nostalgic holy sh’t janajansjansjsjsj
Totally understand, I'm 56 now, and have been manic (mostly highs) most of my adult life. Was on Lithium for 3 years. I choose no meds. Pie in the sky dreams and lots of promises. I feel you. Looking forward to future postings.
Bipolar is so rough, largely because the symptoms can mimic so many other issues. I mean, the insomnia can lead to hallucinations, making it look like schizophrenia even. Manic episodes mimic ADHD and ADD, etc. Don't worry about the weight gain until it gets unhealthy, nothing wrong with rockin a Dad Bod. Just glad you been spending time on healing. I got my own mental issues (schizophrenia actually), I just chose to never be quiet about it, because I had a lot of friends who never made it this far. You're never obligated, but every time you speak about about being Trans and okay, or ill and okay, there's one more voice for a kid who is one or the other, or both, and not okay to find that message. So thanks for sharing, the world needs good news now, and for a lot of people knowing that it can be okay is all they need right now.
thank you! that's so true. i appreciate you sharing a bit of your story as well and i hope you're well :)
Omg yes so well said I love social media for this reason only. Your stories your sharing is so important
i’m so happy to see you back! 4 years ago i binged watched all your videos when i was questioning myself! You helped me and so many others.. It makes me feel nostalgic and happy seeing you! You got this and everything’s gonna be okay friend.
I am so impressed with you. You are the perfect spokesperson for....well..., anything really. You are so likeable, which comes from the inside of course. I came across one of your other videos about your transition and was fascinated by it because you made it so human. I, like soooo many others know very little about the subject (to say nothing of bipolar issues!!). Thank you for making it so real- I appreciated watching your videos. And yes....I agree with others here in that you look great!!! And, I am so sorry about your cat. Be well Skylar.
It was so nice to see you pop up in my feed! welcome back :)
Much love Sky! Missed you alot! Stay healthy and stay sweet! You are Amazing!💚
Heavily relatable. I’m glad you’re back and doing well! Do what’s best for you 💕
I think you are a remarkable young man! I'm glad this video popped up on my RUclips page. I'm really glad to see you now - I remember your first videos from years ago. Thank you for making these personal videos - you are helping so many people. Stay well and keep posting when you feel like it. You have a huge contingent of people who care about you.
I don't see a way to donate to your medical bills which I would like to do. Help me!
Love that you're back! Glad you've given yourself time to put stuff in order mentally! Can't wait for the next video!
i'm so glad to see you back. been thinking about you and how you've been doing. keep up the good work.
Love you skylar :) you got this, life’s hard but you’re stronger! ❤️
Good to see you! Your videos helped me so much when I was going through really dark times. It was you that first gave me the words for what I was feeling. thank you.
Throughout the years all of your videos really show your serene and loving spirit and I really resonate with you. I’m glad you are prioritizing your self care. Much love to you ❤️
Thank you for sharing this with us :) I'm really thankful that you did and continue to do so. Take care!
I'm so glad to see you. You introducd me to so many concepts and helped me understand others in so many ways :) Thank you for sharing and disclosing all of this. I hope you are doing fine and taking care of yourself!
Welcome back. Thanks for your update. I'm glad that you are getting good sleeps now and are feeling better.
I’ve been following you for a very long time! I have often wondered if you were ok, and I’m so glad to see you are doing great! You look great and seem peaceful! Hope to see more of you! ❤️
I parrot everything great and supportive else everyone is saying but also kind of off topic, I love how little this video is edited/cut/spliced, it's very refreshing compared to most things that are posted nowadays 👌
I'm so excited you are back! I would often wonder if you would ever make videos again. I completely understand your time away, but welcome back!
Reading tru the comment here and people really seem to love you ❤️
That's lovely. You look great 👌
Good to see you! You're looking good. Glad you are getting your metal health in order. You don't know how much your videos helped me in the beginning of my transition and I just want to say thank you. Even during your hiatuses you were in my thoughts. In regards to your diagnosis,, you're not alone I was diagnosed 3 years ago; its rough sometimes but the meds help. Glad your back, best wishes!
it’s amazing to see your lovely self 💜so grateful for all the things you’ve chosen to share with us because, exactly as you said, you don’t owe anyone your story.
Lovely to hear from you and that you're doing well! Really happy for you. Your book helped me through my transition and I was supposed to buy one of your paintings off your Instagram one time when you were selling them off and I guess we lost touch. It's really brave and honest for you to come on here and share your struggles. We love and support you! 💜💙💖
so glad you're back, you look great! glad you're starting to feel better
Glad to see a video brother! You are looking happy and healthy and I’m sending love your way.
Sky!! so nice to hear from you! I love you and appreciate you so much. Good to hear you take care of yourself, many hugs friend.
So glad that you took time for yourself and that you’re feeling good now! That’s all that matters :) good to see you again!
it is good to see you back and healthy my friend
sending good vibes your way, stay strong and we are all in this together.
Dude, I'm so happy to see you! I happened to check in on your channel and saw you posted something new. Sorry to hear that you have bipolar - that's so tough :( Hope you are in a better place now.
It feels so good to hear your voice again but I absolutely want your well being to come first no matter what! Glad to see you. ❤
You have been so missed! You have always been so chill, smart and genuine. Keep shining Sky! 💖
I started following almost 10 years ago, at the start of my transition. Good to see you
Looking good mate.
We can all have down times
I've had several CBT treatments and still at 66 have bad days
You are not alone and knowing that is important in dealing with MH .
Post if you want don't post if you want to.
You life is far far more important than the bloody internet.
Being happy is your number one priority.
Love from the UK
Good to see you! Hope you’re doing well. 😊
You're Baaaaack. 💜 thank you so much for sharing your mental health experiences. I am glad to see you back and clearly doing well. 💜💜💜
😂"but maybe it's cute, hehe" 😂😊
Thank YOU for existing 🖤
My husband and I have followed you for so long and it’s wonderful to hear this update. I also have bipolar disorder and it’s nice to hear someone else share their experience with it. Can’t wait to see where else life takes you 🖤
Thanks for sharing yourself! It was lovely to see you again.
Great video! Love ya buddy!
I'm so happy to see you, I've been following your channel since your 4-years on T videos. No apologies needed, welcome back!
I just found your channel recently but I'm happy to see you doing well! Take care
I really appreciate you being so open and willing to share your stories -- but also, as others have commented, I totally get and respect "going away" from RUclips/the internet for a while or just not being in a place to be producing/sharing! Thank you so much for all the content you have produced, though; you've already done so much to help people over the years. Your videos were the very first ones I ever saw that showed me it was actually possible to realistically do something about all the dysphoria I'd been experiencing my whole life. I had never actually come across the term "transgender" until I was almost done with my senior year of high school in 2013, which is what lead me to find your videos in the first place -- and now I'm 6.5 years post- top surgery and almost 5.5 years on T! Anyway, I just wanted to say thank you so much for all the good you have done for so many people and contributed to the world by sharing your stories -- and I agree with what others have said below: you never need to apologize for taking a break/stepping back! Sending you much peace and love and good vibes. :)
So happy to hear your voice again! It's been a while and you seem very calm and at peace!
Welcome back, I was actually wondering where you've been. Glad you're doing better !
So much love to you and Cheddar ofc! Good to hear you’re doing so well in terms of mental health! This honestly has helped me come to terms with the fact that I have always known I should be tested for bipolar disorder. You ARE cute!! You look wonderful and healthy and that is the best thing.
the first internet love of my life ⭐️skylar your early poems from tumblr still have a place in my heart and journals and even on my walls. the timbre of your spirit is just warmth and ease and gentleness and i hope you know how much your internet friends from all over, from all different ages n incarnations- have a deep and unwavering gratitude that youre still with us & are back to create🌸💧🌙thank you thank you thank you
I literally JUST thought about your channel about a week ago because I used to binge watch it back when I was figuring "things" out (still am). It gave me so much hope. And then I see you've uploaded. What a coincidence, glad you're back and hope you're doing well!
I've missed you man! Glad to see you're back and healthier! Here's to a warm welcome back to the RUclips Land! 🥰🥰
Thank you so much for this video. Sending you so much love to you 💕.
Welcome back, it's so great to see you again and I'm so happy you're focusing on yourself.
Sky! So good to see you again. I came to your channel page specifically to see if it was still here, only to find out You Tube hasn't been telling me you've posted new videos! I hope all is still going well after five months.
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I have been here with you since day 1! I cannot believe it has been over 11 years! I am so proud of you!!!
Love you big bro. You continue to inspire me with your courage
Thank you. You are so real and true. You are a real inspiration to all .. up or down I always know you will be totally transparent about things. I appreciate you ... be safe .. be well
Good to see you Sky ♥️
Good to see you again!
So glad you're back!! You're one of my favorite youtubers and you've been a huge positive influence on me. Never apologize for putting your own self first.
welcome back! really great to hear you're okay
It's so nice to see you!!!!
Great to see you back, you don't have to apologise for taking care of you. Thank you for being so honest and open, you're awesome!
I’ve been watching since one of your first videos! A few weeks ago I was thinking about you and your content. It helped me understand a lot about transitioning since I was just a kid in a small middle of nowhere town. Now, I’m 20 and do my best to this day to be the best ally I can be.❤️
I'm so glad to see you Skyler. You were missed and you are awesome
Much love Skylar!
You look good, very cute! Glad you’re safe and glad you got diagnosed and meds. Stay strong 😃
You're baaaccckkk!! 🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻
Dude, I saw your very first video almost immediately after you posted it. It's nice to see you are doing good. You were probably the very first FTM channel I ever started watching and subbed to.
good to see you back!
We missed you! I’m so happy to see your face and to know you’re figuring stuff out and feeling okay. We’re always happy to see anything you feel like sharing, but please don’t feel like you have to “produce” content or post videos or anything. Just be you and do whatever makes you happy. :-)
welcome back, very happy to see you again. Greetings from Germany :)
Hey Skylar, I'm glad you took that time that was much needed for your mental health. So good to hear from you again, but know that you are supported in any mental health breaks that you need to take! Sorry to hear you went through that rough patch.
I read a quote from a self help book recently that really resonated with me. This quote is pertaining to masking one's emotions and one's true self which is not your situation, but you may still find the quote to be insightful,
"When you're going through a breakdown, a good question to ask is what is actually breaking down. We usually think it's our self. But what's typically happening is that our struggle to deny our emotional truth is breaking down. Emotional distress is a signal that it's getting harder to remain emotionally unconscious. It means we're about to discover our true selves underneath all that story business... Although the uncertainty inherent in this process of self-examination can create the by-products of anxiety, guilt, or depression, tackling these deep questions ultimately yields a stronger, more adaptive personality."
I hope things continue to look up now that you're in a better mental state. Happy to hear you are feeling more calm and at peace, if you are ever in distress remember you are still on your journey of self growth.
Nice to see your face. Wish you well in this life 💜
BTW, you look physically healthy
I am Brazilian, I live in Brazil and I have followed your transition from the beginning.
I have Bipolar I. Was diagnosed when I was 21 and I'm 37 now. I understand that it can be a difficult diagnosis to accept but I have found my illness to be managed with medication. Good luck to you.
Skylar, it’s so good to see you! I’m glad you’re doing better now and seem to be optimistic for what lies ahead. That truly brings my heart joy.
I also struggle with my mental health. I’ve bounced around from psychiatrist to psychiatrist. The one thing that stays consistent is a diagnosis for depression and anxiety. When I take my meds I do notice a difference, but for years I’ve never been able to take them consistently. What has worked for you and what do you recommend to be able to take your medication everyday? That’s something I’ve never been successful in doing and I’ve been stuck in the same place for years as a result.
Another thing your video touched on that I could totally relate to was being misdiagnosed. I’ve been from psychiatrist to psychiatrist trying to find one that doesn’t seem to just be prematurely labeling me and prescribing new meds. How were you able to find a psychiatrist you trust and that you feel takes the time to truly understand what’s going on with you?
Again, it’s so great to see you and your video came at a time where I’ve really been struggling to stay hopeful that I could successfully manage my mental health and live a happy life. Your video is very inspirational and gives me hope for the future.
Omg I was just thinking about you yesterday and now you are back ! Wow lol!
So great to see you, Skyler!
I was still honestly floored when you said 11 years! It somehow sounded wrong.
I'm really glad to see you are doing well. You seemed so chill, I thought you may have been a little baked at first haha! You seem so at peace.
I know I don't know you, but I definitely wondered about you a lot. It's strange how technology works when you stop to think about it. I remember watching you so much in high school and now I'm 29! I just wanted to say thank you for all of the sharing you have done over the years. I know a lot of people don't come back to RUclips and the followers are left wondering whatever happened to them. For example, I did a little keyboard manhunt for charlieissocoollike a while back and was kind of sad to see that he would not be returning to RUclips, but also glad to see that he has moved on to bigger and better things that bring him joy. And that is how I had been thinking of you. Maybe you had just outgrown the platform altogether. I had always hoped the best for you and it just makes me so happy to know that you are happy.
Please keep posting, if you can!
P.S.- Those really were nice photos of your cat! How funny that your fur baby brought back. (:
**Skylar. Oops!
~Less human. More being.~
I just wanted to say that I read your book Before I Had The Words. I'm inspired by you to want to write my own book about my own life and my struggles to find who I am. So I wanted to say thank you, thank you, Sky, for the push that I needed.
Great to see you again!
Hi Skylar. I missed your videos a lot. I assumed you just wanted to focus on other things in life but I’m happy you’re back.
Just wanted to say that your book helped me a lot when I was in school. I cried so much reading it. You’re one of the first people I saw on RUclips who I thought could be me. I’m so happy to see you back and being positive. Stay safe ❤️
aw thank you so much for sharing that. i'm glad it helped you and i'm so glad you're here too :)
No apologies required when you're dealing with mental health. I've been on meds most of my life. You look and sound great! Good on you for taking care of yourself first. The break must have done you good. Great looking glasses. Nice to see you again
I've been watching you since your first video. Your 8 million beats video helps me through my down days. I've been diagnosed with bipolar too. Thank you for making this video
Yay! You look great!
Nice to see you again ☺️
I didn't recognize you in your thumbnail bro, had to look at the name. But dude you look good. Just seeing this video takes me way back. Good to see you're doing well. Take care of yourself man. Do you.
Keep being You! We love you! 👍👍👍❤
Ooh, I just watched Ty Turner's video where he mentioned you, and I though I'd check on you.
Glad you're doing well now!
ah! Skylar Im so happy to see you! Crazy to think its been 11 years since I stumbled upon your channel and you. Im happy to hear youre at more of a place of peace and that you have a supportt system. Life happens, I hope you dont feel the need to apologize for that. All the love to you and Cheddar!
ahh can't believe it's been that long ana! much love to you as well :)
@@skylarkeleven I honestly have a strong memory of finding you and your channel and you really helped open me up to the trans community and honestly to look at my sexuality and the parameters around it and I attribute a lot of my own self discovery and openness to you!
glad you're back!
It's nice to see you again, bud. 💙🤙
your sharing has been incredibly important and helpful and thoughtful. i believe you helped save my child's life (named skylar, btw), and gave an old man some grace. thank you for your courage and compassion.