I have 0°26' Sun Pluto square. No problematic relationships with male family members except my father passed away young. Outward I am very feminine but my energy feels like it comes from an inner place of power source very male, intense, purposeful, precise and direct in nature. It has created plenty of conflict in close relationships with men in that I can intuitively feel when they cannot keep up with me, when I have to pace myself and subdue it. I wonder how much it also matters that my Sun is in Capricorn, so is Mars, my Ascendant is in Sagittarius and Pluto is in Libra.
N Ka Thanks so much for sharing. What a description, "my energy feels like it comes from an inner place of power [source]...very male, intense, purposeful, precise and direct in nature. I can relate to this as a descriptor of my internal feelings growing up (Sun conjunct Pluto in Scorpio). Perhaps I wouldn't describe it now as 'male'...but definitely the other words you've used here. The responses to this video have been wonderfully instructive, as people report their feelings and experiences. Thank you for chiming in.
Help!! I have a question that no one has answered yet ... so I have sun Venus me Saturn in Aries in the 7th house but yet I have Aries on the 8th house cusp so wouldn’t that mean those planets are in the 8th? I also have mercury in the 8th please and thank you !!
Hello Tara, I have the sun in the house of Aries 10 in oposition pluto inlibra, house 4. My father was a central figure in my development, he was very dominant and authoritarian not only with our nuclear family but also with the extended family . He was also violent, especially with my mother, my aunts and the brother who follows me in age (taurus). I became rebellious with my mother for accepting the treatment she gave him and with him for his machismo and control. Even with everything, there was admiration from both parties, I know very well that I was the person I most respected in his life. When I was a child I loved him but I could not "feel" him because of the conflict generated by the differentiated treatment towards me. My brother made me jealous for this and whenever I could he humiliated me in the presence of strangers. When my father died, the extended family collapsed and I made a crisis that took me to the psychiatrist. I idealized it for several years until a situation of abuse by a man caused me a crisis after which I could see its strengths and weaknesses. He not only did not defend me but he blamed me and assaulted me when I was a victim of sexual abuse during my puberty. I have gone through several crises in my life, depressions, diagnoses, senseless sensations, self-destructive behaviors ... but already reaching my 39 years I can say that I have managed to integrate several aspects of my personality (or chart). I have had few relationships with men and the times I have lacked "respect" or they have transgressed me in some way, I have made them pay dearly. I have not rested until I succeeded, that is how I came to realize my GREAT POWER to achieve even the unimaginable. I married a pisces with dominant urano, a crazy, intuitive, rebellious and feminist genius !! like me!!! haha with its north and south nodes in conjunction with my sun and pluto, repectively ... we have had a very difficult relationship but we have gone ahead, precisely, breaking schemes, finding our own way of doing things ... all in private, on the outside we look very conventional. In this sense, I have always fantasized about having another man, not an adventure but a kind of second husband ... I regret that our culture does not allow it, I think it would be very happy, the closest we have been to that is in swinger experiences I like to see it with others, it does not cause me any kind of jealousy or insecurity. Now I am meeting a man with a stellium in libra (sun, venus, mars, pluto) whose sun and mars conjunct my pluto and, obviously opposed to my sun, plus my Mars in Aries opposes his venus ... SPARKS !! His saturn in cancer makes conjunction to our sun composite conjuction moon in cancer ... will it be man ?? !! ohhh Many times I have been told that I am a little crazy but I already accepted that I can not be conventional without dying ... and from that acceptance came peace and the ability to enjoy life without the torments of before ... I have learned to take better care of myself and to surf the crises with elegance and allow me to do WHAT I WANT but always respecting the integrity of others, not the canons that seem obsolete, I also know intimately that I had to heal my family tree on both sides, which I am a kind of critical link and my healing work is to learn to enjoy life (venus saturn opposition), to be free and powerful to put some in their place for karma, always with responsibility and without forgetting a minimal fee of compassion (venus in piscis, jupiter in cancer), also stop idealizing or expecting so much from others and suffer later (neptune at house 7 square to venus). My moon in leo is conjunction a lilith too.. i'm hot hahaha but seriously ... I consider myself a very complete and versatile woman (ascending gemini :)) Greetings from Chile...
I would like to add that I am a clinical psychologist and I have always wanted to work with women, but life has taken me to work with children and lately with transgender teenagers ... I know I have a sexual wisdom as well, will that be why? I have not been able to develop professionally according to my ability and as dictates my sun at home 10 ... I guess because I have dedicated all my efforts in carrying my family, in that I am successful! (for my half heaven in piscis too (?) haha ... I do not care about money or prestige but they always told me that "I'm missing" ... I do not know ... sometimes I also believe it but I think I've never been late to devote to it ...)
Sun trine Pluto. Absent father. Since early childhood, I neither felt like a girly girl nor a tomboy. I resisted my mother's traditional desires for me to learn to cook, take care of kids and find a husband that will take care of me. I never wanted to depend on a man, because I saw it did not make my mother happy. I was inspired as a child by the commercial with Michael Jordan and Mia Hamm, where she sings to MJ: "Anything you can do, I can do better." I have a pattern of gravitating towards jobs in male-dominated fields (computer science, poker, comedy). In my relationships, I've always been the breadwinner and have at times financially supported my partner or brothers. I've always admired strong women who portray power in other forms than what I've traditionally seen power look like: dominating and controlling. I've realized I've had issues with power and influence my entire life, and have just learned of this aspect in my chart. I've been afraid to use my power for fear of misusing it and causing pain or oppression. Same for influence, I didn't want to negatively affect things. But now I know my Sun trine Pluto is a gift, and I must learn to step into my power, claim it, and harness it for good. I've said many times that I must have been a man in a past life, and this video affirms that. And it makes sense that I'm here to restore the balance of masculine/feminine power/energy. Thank you Tara, and thanks to everyone who has shared their story.
This is the first time I've heard a more in-depth discussion of Sun/Pluto aspects as they might be experienced by women. This aspect in women tends to have some kind of focus on dealing with issues in relation to female or female-like power expression and repression, on difficult or unusual relationships with father figures and the male gender/energy, authority figures in general, cultural repression, familial role expectation, and the thousands of years of cultural oppression of the raw energetic power that exists in every woman on this planet. Women with this aspect are kind of born to directly confront and experience these issues. On one hand, women with this aspect may have very challenging, traumatizing, unusual and sometimes tragic life experiences and relationships from birth, yet they also are being given the tools to really explore what the true expression of power in a way that brings about social revolution. I sit back and wonder sometimes WHY have women been repressed and discouraged from utilizing and expressing their in-born, natural raw energy or force for thousands of years? It cannot simply be because we are 'small and weak' and need protection. As someone who has this aspect, I think it has something to do with rediscovering nature and how female nature, in general, is similar and kind of chaotic, raw, and real. It is the attempt and delusion of historical male patriarchal 'dominance' over nature's (aka female) power that societies, cities, towns, buildings were founded on. Female nature, is inherently like chaos, and wildness, and it is that power that modern male-dominant culture fears, because it seems irrational, emotional, and terrifying, modern society think's it has nature under it's 'control' with all the 'social order', technology, and buildings but this is delusional. The inherent expression of raw dominant female power is the same power source that we see in cycles of time, and in earthquakes, volcanoes, floods, storms, lightning, life, death, rebirth, and in the universe in general. Female power was anciently associated with chaos because it is not ultimately subject to any other power. Nature will never be completely subject to the delusional whims of any creature, including humans. When mother nature has had enough there is no greater power than her and it is this power that women can learn to access again and learn to use in beneficial ways that could heal many modern social problems. Sorry for the essay!
And the mostly male climate change deniers that think they can seperate Jesus from Mother Nature are just too stupid.. Omnipresent... They are one and the same.
Sun conjunct Pluto. Absent father, husband with trauma and anger issues. This all resonates so much for me. I am very strong but taking baby steps learning to express my strength outwardly In a more fluid and less awkward way.
Sun square Pluto here. I do feel ignored and misunderstood by men, and I kinda dislike them too, like I always expect them to hurt me. My father was present in the beginning of my life. but he ignored me, and then he died.
Same..my dad is alive but i just dont talk to him because hes very verbally abusive and he put me in the street. My bf at the time let me stay with him until i saved up and got my own. Ive always felt men were magnets to me, some were just users and didnt treat me right. Good thing my ascendant trines my pluto so i can see right through the bull.
@@TaraNikita this was spot on! How can I contact you for a private reading? Thanks for sharing, I love the way you express and explain this topics, very objective, a lot of explanation and usage of examples!
Men try to put me in my place but I just keep doing my thing striving, being a mother, being quietly strong without regard to convention. Such a wonderful empowering video, love it.
This is the most accurate description of Sun Pluto aspect that I’ve come across. Definitely feel power struggles with and rejected by the masculine, including my own father. I feel the need to hide my true self when I’m around him. Also not being fully understood by people. I think there is a lot of self hatred with this aspect. I’m slowly learning to love myself, so I can unlock the power of Pluto in a positive way! Pluto/Sun/Black Moon Lilith all at 21° Libra, Ascendant at 29° Capricorn, Uranus/Mercury conjunct MC in Scorpio.
Interesting. I have Pluto/Sun/ASC in early Libra square north node in Cap conj Lilith & Mercury conj Uranus at 25 Libra trine my MC. Maybe we are all supposed to radically communicate our unconventional "Lilith" type journeys. (Anybody with Pluto in Libra, BTW, has committed to promoting equality amongst the sexes.) ;)
Sun Square Pluto native. I have much respect for my father because he raised me after my parents divorce. I do feel like my father will never know me or get close to me bc I feel like he never allowed to be me or never made an effort to know who I was. In high school, he saw me with my friends amongst a large group of boys, the boys just happened to show up when my father saw me. He thought I was hanging out with my friends to meet boys, but I wasn’t. He told me that day he didn’t trust me. I was so heartbroken bc he never gave me the chance to express myself. Since then I felt like my father never knew me and will never know me. I find myself unable to totally express myself at times. I feel like most people can’t handle who I really am.
Pluto in Libra conjunct I.c. opposite Aries sun, Jupiter, Chiron conj m.c and mercury in Pisces. My father was abusive physically and emotionally. His temper terrified me when I was a young child. As I became a teenager my fear turned into rage and anger towards him. I felt like he never knew who I really was because I was afraid to express myself in front of him, because he would criticize me or make me feel like I was a bad kid. I rarely heard praise or felt acceptance from him. My father was the one who was with me during the day when my mother was working so the bond I have with him is very strong. Even though it is a toxic relationship I loved him very much. When I used to see him verbally and physically abusive to my mom I decided I would never be weak like her. I was gonna be the one to rule over men. And I have always had issues with men. I don’t think anyone really knows who I truly am. They couldn’t handle it.
No issues with Father, but I definitely had issues with husband and had to learn to step into my personal power. It was quite a power struggle. It took me a long time. While I was always a very strong person, I acquiesed my power to keep peace. It took many years to take my power and be an equal, come (the god of) hell or high water! Wish I would have known this in my 20s
I’m a professional dominatrix and avid astrologer w Pluto on top of my sun and a Scorpio stellium. I’ve studied these aspects for years and this is the most valuable lesson I’ve received. Thank you. So much. Really
To me sun square pluto aspect, that I have, is akin to character of Wolverine- Immensely powerful presence, almost intimidating, speaks less, always scanning through people, tenaciously willful, always in a conflict with that powerful part of themselves that tends to get out of control, sporadically, causing self sabotage. Yet, when channeled the right way, an enigmatic force to be reckoned with. The watch-dog. The protector. 🙂
My dad and I have intense inner turmoil of rage within us towards each other. I subconsciously feel like he hates when I am empowered as it makes him feel disempowered. My mom and dad fight a lot too. I am very glad that through astrology and shadow work, I am able to see why I chose him as a father. I feel more empowered by the Day. The more I learn how to inwardly heal and not give energy and life to his anger, the more I am at ease with myself.
Wow! The part about feeling unseen, especially by men, really resonated with me deeply. I use that exact language all the time in relation to men, and I never knew it was a signature of Sun square Pluto.
definitely feel this, both as sun oppose Pluto and as a scorpio asc! Early on I felt very different from other women in my experiences with men, oftentimes being told I was “too intense” exactly as you put it. My father who is also a Scorpio has often placed very ‘masculine’ definitions of power and success over me and as I get older I am unlearning and relearning how to redefine my power for my SELF. Thankfully my partner now is very supportive and loves my ‘intensity’ lol.
~Sun sextile Pluto aspect~ what a very in-depth video, thank you 🙏 I do sense I have a strong presence around people and that some people view it negatively , mostly in women, men find me sexually attractive and are drawn to me I noticed but I do feel so misunderstood by the opposite sex, although my dad is a good father and was there for my upbringing however we were never really close, I never have felt close to him, like I could open up to him and I know he feels the same, it’s always awkward when we’re around each other and it’s just the 2 of us in a room. The same goes for my brother, we were never close and I feel an awkward distance between us too. My mother on the other hand, she is amazing, I love her dearly and she is what holds this family together. I sometimes wonder what my dad was to me in another lifetime as to why it’s so awkward between us.
So interesting... Sun square Pluto here. this is very reminiscent of my relationship with my father--he is by all accounts an amazing dad but there is this emotional distance. I also feel this weird thing when I really want to "express" myself, I think about my dad and reel myself back in because I don't want to "disappoint" him or something because our sensibilities are so different. I am usually very shy around the masculine.
Ladies, it’s nice to know I’m not the only one who has a relationship like this with my father. He is a Scorpio dad, very private person and me being Capricorn, I’m private also and it’s not easy to express my emotions that’s for sure. Growing up also, my brother was a peeping tom, we’re both adopted,we’re not related, it was a tough childhood in that aspect and I think that’s also why it’s hard for me to connect to the males in my family, in a loving way, something automatically triggers in me, a big discomfort in what shouldn’t be a bid deal as a simple hug but to me it’s so uncomfortable because of what my brother put me through growing up.
the part about feeling like your not fully seen my men is true for me, i have sun square pluto, also every relationship ive had with men always made me feel uneasy about something
I have Sun trine pluto so I see the more positive aspects of this placement. However, I totally agree. My whole chart is about balancing out polarities since I have a libra ascendant.
@@r011ing_thunder6 Become a method actor or apply to be a spy for the CIA...but seriously, check out books by Stanislavski, Stella Adler and Uta Hagen. You can apply those principles to real life just as much as you can to acting. It's all about using the dark energy as a tool for understanding yourself and others and becoming less judgemental.
I'm a sun opposite pluto and definitely I have experienced the feeling of absence from my father - I didn't feel he was emotionally present for me for a lot of my childhood. I have also been someone who has had predominantly female friendship circles because I feel a disconnect with a lot of men, like I can't really be my true self around them
Chiara Liane I also have my (Taurus) Sun opposite my (Scorpio) Pluto. I’ve had the exact same experiences - I feel like men never truly see me for who I am, but project their ideas and hopes onto me.
Sorry to say but "absence" is more a Neptune problem, the constant absence of presence in the home. Another is Uranus...unpredictable and erratic behavior or presence of the father in the person's life. Pluto mostly talks about a certain "death" and "rebirth" of the role the father plays in this person's life. Perhaps at one time this father was once loved and adored, yet something happened that transformed the way this person saw their father from that point on. Or the reverse is also true. It's the never ending cycle of demolishing the ego and transforming it to make it better or worse.
@@TheRaike24 So Pluto does truly apply to me. I had a few relatives who I saw as "father figures" at first that eventually began to abuse me and I saw a different, frankly disturbing/dark side to them that's beyond the point if return. There is no hope for me to ever consider them a beneficial part of my life. So I guess that's the "death" part lol
Sun trine Pluto. My father was absent and although I would see him very occasionally, I could never count on him at key moments of my life. To be honest when in need he was never even someone I would consider for support. With time I learned to forgive him and see him for what he really was. A human with many flaws that could not find a way to sort them out, throughout his lifetime. I totally resonate with the fact that alot of men come into my life to challenge the way I am expressing my power. I found out that sometimes I would give up on that power for the sake of being more loveable, but that never works out. This power is not about control, or being above. This is about being resilient, having thrive, creative expression, vulnerability and more important, the acceptance of who you are. Undestanding that in order to be true to the self you have to be brave and sometimes this means you will loose people. Learning to let go! Sending love and light to you all. ❤
I’m watching this 3 yrs after it was published; but I have sun Pluto aspects and although our relationship is much better now; I grew up without my father in my life... everything that I’m learning about my birth chart is so accurate... wish I would have started studying this information a long time ago... 😉 so thankful to have a better understanding now
I'm a Virgo Sun square Pluto in Sagittarius and I was just talking to my therapist today about having this feeling of imbalance and feeling constantly misunderstood by the men in my life, how they seem to always be trying to control my expression because who i am is too much for them. How interesting that I came across this video right after my session! Loved your analysis, thank you!
This is so accurate! My parents are still together and I have lived with my dad all my life but I feel like we can never truly connect because he doesn’t even try to understand my side of anything
@@gigglypuff3589 I feel this way exactly about my mom. As for my dad I've never lived with him but a lot of the time I confide in him he chalks it up to me being "overdramatic" due to my age
Tara, thank you for this beautiful treatise on Sun/Pluto aspects in females. Your words hit the mark precisely. Sun and Pluto are conjunct natally in my first house. Yes: There has been a total absence of supportive father figures in my life. You have helped to enlighten me--body, mind and spirit. Thank you so much.
Wonderful video. Thank you. I have Sun square Pluto. I’ve had a weird relationship with my dad for as long as I can remember. He’s always been physically present in my life, and always physically there when I need him, but he has always been emotionally absent. It used to upset me that he never told me he loved me, or ever hugged me or encouraged me in any way. And I thought this was a reflection on me, or that he was burdened by being part of the family.. I still don’t know. I’ve also never corrected or argued with him about his views, biases, opinions.. etc.. normally opting to just smile and nod my head, because he becomes even more distant, sometimes completely absent, when I have a different understanding. And me, wanting to bridge that distance, feels powerless and unheard, when he shuts off once I’ve asserted my knowing. I’ve noticed my opinion of men reflects what I feel from my father. Unheard, unseen, unacknowledged, or like some kind of personal attack, when I’ve simply stated a different way of seeing what they saw. Today, the transiting sun is exactly opposite my sun and exactly square my Pluto, so I’m feeling this at it’s peak right now, and I know I still have a lot of healing to do in this area. Thanks again for the wonderful insight. And I wish everyone healing in their Sun-Pluto wounds, and inner power wounds. ✨
Thank you for such an incredibly thoughtful response here, and for sharing your experience with us. I can relate to much of what you said, and I know women here have had similar experiences where the father or men shut down when they assert their knowing. It's nice when we can come together and share, and have more of a recognition that we are involved in a collective healing process ❤
Tara Nikita Yes, it is. And thank You for creating this space in which we can realize and dig out these wounds. I didn’t fully realize my feelings until I typed them out, which was a big wake up for me, as well as created breakthroughs in how I’ve focused this healing. I’m very grateful to you. 💜🙏💜
Thanks for the informative video!! -*sun trine pluto* -mercury square pluto -jupiter trine pluto -saturn quincunx pluto -uranus sextile pluto -neptune sextile pluto -ascendant sextile pluto -nodes square pluto Well, my parents divorced when I was around 5yo and my dad was absent. My brother and I used to spend the weekends with my father but I stopped visiting him (don't remember why). Emotionally, both my parents have been absent. I still don't really have a good relationship with him, it's not bad either; just neutral, if I can use that word. I don't feel very comfortable around men, but I do feel kinda invisible. I want equality for both and I try to balance my support for women (so that I'm fair to everyone -yes, I have my moon and ascendant in libra). Everyone has sun/pluto aspects (my brother and I have the trine, my mom the sextile and her partner the conjunction, my dad none) in my family and we all have suffered from our parents/grandparents/lovers in some way. We don't have a good relationship with authority figures, in the sense that we think things are unfair and people use their power more than they should and with ill intentions. I personally haven't tapped into pluto's energy yet, I'm at a more immature stage where I'm kinda struggling with plutonian themes, although I can see some of the sun/pluto in me.
love how you said like the energy of a volcano! that seems true that makes sense, attracting men who help you come into your power my father died but I sense he helps me from the other side by watching out for me my sun conjuncts pluto & venus in sagittarius wow interesting about the gender issues of gaining power as a woman! yes it seems some men tried to suppress or belittle me to lower me to their level & control but it's allowed me to grow my sense of personal power when I do with God's aid throw their shackles off and thrive and grow and gain power loved your talk about past lives!!!!
Loved your breakdown. I cannot objectively analyze my 12 year old daughter so it is wonderful to hear your analysis. She prob has the most amazing and awesome attentive father on the planet, but she does def challenge our authority. She is relentlessly amazing, and has softened her approach as she has gotten older. She hated when her Dad showed me any affection from the age of 8 months to about 2 years old, she felt that she owned me in some way. She is very intense but quiet manifestations of this quality permeate her ambiance. She is a sag Sun conj Pluto unaspected 9th house....Jupiter in Scorpio...Amazingly, she has 2 big brothers 8 and 16 years older, she used to get angry at her brother and say that she should have been born first to raise him,,,,,,,, she is also extremely feminine and very Beautiful so i am def in for a ride in seeing how she fully expresses these energies. .Again, so glad that i found your channel. I find your mind to have the precision of a surgeon, Thank You again.
vera747 Oh - it so warms my heart to hear the way you describe your daughter. "Relentlessly amazing " - how Plutonian ☺. I have Sun conjunct Pluto + Mercury - all in Scorpio in the 9th house. Sun/Pluto/Mercury making a trine to Jupiter. I so appreciate the thoughtful comment you've left here. Thank you for sharing
WOW, i almost inquired of virgo mercury/scorpio aspects in your chart but i did not want to be invasive..........your aspects explain why i am blown away. I am humbled.
Spot on interpretation of the female energy when it has close aspects of Pluto and Sun. As a woman who lives this, I couldn’t have explained it better myself. Your words have given me more inspiration within myself to not worry so much about how I come off to others (intense) and that I’m part of a much bigger collective and in being myself I’m doing my part. Needed this reminder. Thank you!
It really is my pleasure. And I really am so glad that this video has given you inspiration to be who you are. That's means the world to me - and thank you for commenting
Sun in opposition to my Pluto has been the most toughest & most reoccurring theme in my life!! Thank you for shedding information on the matter, it was quite helpful! Also, I always have “power struggles” w/ my father & brother [either together or individually] whom always misinterpret my input as me trying to take over when I’m really trying to help. It’s maddening!
Thank you for sharing your experience - interesting how they perceive you as trying to take over. I do understand what you mean. My pleasure, and happy you found it helpful!
Thank you Tara for this bang on the money description, my Sun square pluto, in my 50's now, my dad had power/control issues, so with relationships I believe I actively seeked out same type of power issues in relationships , but decided to go to "war" instead of drawing a breathe and analysing the repeating patterns. I think it's a blessing and curse position, I loved my dad and admired him, but I spent many years resenting him too, but truely believe because of this I have so far have been given a lot of strength to get through things in my life.
I have sun/Pluto in my birth chart and I completely resonate with this! It was very helpful as it was reassuring to what my life has been about. I’m 42 and I’ve always had strange power battles since about 4 years old..starting with a brother, then father and then relationships. The last one being the most intense as we had a sun conjunction with Pluto in our synastry. It’s totally been a mas /fem push pull dynamic. I’m just glad this is all contributing to something good because I feel as though it been a “battle”.
I love this perspective! I have sun Sextile Pluto. I was born with this reoccurring nightmare of a past life where I was beaten/abused/terrified of my husband. He ultimately killed me by stabbing me in the back. When I experienced the death (in my dream) at around 9 years old the dream stopped. The self now was very disgusted with the self then for being so weak and helpless. I refuse to be weak like that now.
Thank you. This is great! As a Scorpio Sun conjunct Pluto Scorpio this fully resonates. Sometimes it's like the men in my life (including my dad who was not there in childhood) just cannot or do not want to see mee. As if they intentionally ignore me.
My Pluto is opposite to my Sun. I have never met my father, I grew up slightly tomboyish; I was aggressive and I wanted to fight. I was athletic and very competitive. I found my father in my 30’s. Sadly he was in prison for life. I have been speaking with him and encouraging him via phone for the last year. My son has been raised by his father since the age of 1. I was in a domestic violent relationship in my mid 20’s. I often feel anger with my current partner because he is the provider and I am a stay at home mom. I feel that he feels powerful because he is the provider, however I was able to see that I have gifts that he doesn’t have, I learned that money isn’t the only power; but there’s a power in networking and communicating as well as relationships. I am learning there is a power in being a woman. I am a woman I am receptive. That is powerful. Thank you for this video. I have always made the men in my life better and now I see how and why💕
Beautifully spoken as always. My father really was not a loving type of father. He loved me for sure but didn't know how to deal with it. I needed psico help to get things straight, and I did it - with a lot of agressiveness in the middle, for I had to yell and be intense so he could listen and see I was telling the true about him. My mom helped a lot about this. Now we have a great relationship as father and daughter. All men in my life are quite a history. I've always been friend of guys more then girls, but at the same time many men abused me. The second that toke me to bed did it as I was unconscious and, therefor, raped me. The one after him was a doctor of 35 years that abused me inside the hospital he used to work. I got pregnant and did an abortion. He was married. And the histories go on like this, but little less severe. All of this happened when I was 15. Nowadays I'm into the celibacy. I'm tired of men AND women. I do not! desire all of this to somebody (anybody deserve these things) but at the same time I know that's what makes me stronger then ever now. I have Saturn (0 degrees of cap) Uranus (29 degrees of sag) and Neptune (8 degress) all conjunct with my asc (6 degrees) in Capricorn. I'm a Poet. And I know that I could not be who I am, specially into the Arts, if wasn't for the hard tests of life. I'm grateful about it all although I don't wish to go through it all again. But if I Had to, I would go till the end again just to have learned what I did from this life that is so important to me as spirit. And I'm sure important to others too as we have the experiences together. We are all in the same bolt. But we Need to learn the lesson, we have our responsibility. And so: be it! Greetings from the Brazilian girl with Sun, Pluto and Mercury all together. Ps: please, I did not see other comments yet so do not know if someone already did this question but: what's the name of the autor you mentioned around 4th minut? Thanks for all.
I have Sun opposite Pluto in 1 degrees difference and this aspect played a great theme in my life especially in childhood years. I was living with my father who is physically and verbally abusive towards me. Many things happened in our family that greatly affected my personality and psyche. I remember being a lively and cheerful child but I grow up as a loner and pessimist individual. Also, having other chaotic aspect didn’t helped me with this aspect, like Moon square Mars, Uranus opposite Moon, Venus square Saturn and I can also say Uranus in my First house. What I have noticed is that, most men react as if I intimidate them for some reason, even if I am not doing anything related to them. Power struggles with men figure is a common pattern in my life and because of this, I am starting to accept that I may never have a good relation with men at all. Pluto oppose Sun which also operates on psychological level helped me understand how men typically think, even the most deep ones. Maybe this is the reason why most men is intimidated by me because I can read them like an open book. I am also swinging between wanting to have some kind of authority power and not wanting it at all most of the time, maybe because of the opposite aspect which energy can go back and forth. Today, I am not speaking with my father and he also treated me like a stranger. Like we had a mental agreement not to be involved with each other lives at all. And I understand the part where I have to realize that my father is just doing his role in part of my Sun opposite Pluto in my chart, and he helped me realize that I can rely on my own and not expecting too much from others. I also have experienced dealing with a male figure that made me stripped away my power and when the connection was over, all I wanted to do was to get my power back. Since then, I never let any person take away the power I have in myself, become better at reading people and building that internal confidence. I also though that maybe I was a male figure in my past life and I hurt too many people, especially men, which mean I could have probably been a soldier or anything related to intense male energy, since I can also relate to male energies more than female energies even I am possessing a female body. Now, I am still learning to balance this energy and it’s not easy at all, especially with other challenging aspects I have in my birth chart. But luckily, I am starting work myself to have a better perspective in life, if I want to live longer since dealing with these energies made me think I would never get older because of the intensity and anxiety it gives me in the end, though I know it’s not only Sun opposite Pluto aspect gives me a hard life. Still growing and learning hope to learn the ultimate lesson with this aspect. 😌👌🏻
12h sun pluto mercury in scorpio + an 11h libra moon- I definitely realized at a young age that my pain was not only mine. I've always felt like I could feel the emotions of the collective. The chaotic, destructive energy, the fear, the grief. I felt guilty at a young age. I experienced so much shame and self hate. The skin piercing feeling that you don't belong any, don't feel comfortable w anyone, no one understanding, no one even acknowledging my pain, the hurt I felt too. I was a kid and I needed protection. I will always morn for child me. I'm grateful of the energy, despite being extremely toxic at times, from my mother. I come from extremely messed up ancestry on both sides, mom and dad. Trauma is not really acknowledged in the black community so I can see how and why my parents are the way that they are. A long time was spent victimizing myself, hating my poor child self. I see why the pain was so great now. I've only just turned 17 but I've learned self compassion and it's changed my life. I've never seen myself as a person who deserved to be cared and protected for, this is what I internalized from my environment, the media, etc. But it wasn't true. I no longer hold resentment for anyone who's ever hurt me. It taught me true self value and that can never be replaced. I will never treat myself like that again. I will forever put me first from now on.
my mother had sun conjunct pluto in Cancer. Her father died when she was 2 years old. Two husbands; she had five children and lived to be 94. she became stronger and stronger through the decades.
So empowered just listening to you dear Pluto One! I stand right now in this power play with a Pluto rising son and his Pluto Sun Father. Oh and also a Pluto ruled Sun dog ♏. Lol . Surrounded by Pluto who just crossed over my Natal Sun 🌞. I can take it up another notch now...while claiming and owning my POWER. I am grateful they are my teachers. Keep doing what you're doing. It's far reaching! Cheers! Sun Pluto trine here. :)
This is a deep breakdown and i so appreciate it. My boyfriend has Sun opposite Pluto in his natal. (Putting his sun also opposite my Pluto in synastry). These elements are very true to him and his life. He feels he has to prove himself when men are around.. that he's tough, has money and is desirable by women.. But it comes from a history of feeling unseen and feeling not respected enough by men around him and in his life. This never happens when only women are around. It's interesting. I believe he also has issues with his father but wont tell me exactly what that is... Secretive Pluto doesn't want to talk about it. He's told me about so much trauma he's been through.. It must be bad or just hit so personally. 💔
So true. I have Sun trine Pluto. My biological father never officially recognised me, the father who raised me was an alcoholic, my brother was always cold and never acknowledged me before I turned 30, I found it odd that at some point I have to fight with all my female friends boyfriends. Now all makes more sense. Thank you 😊
Brilliant insights, Tara! Thank you for sharing. I resonate with you. I am a Sun square Pluto fatherless daughter since an early childhood. It was very hard for me to embrace my feminine energy. Still feels like I haven't found my equal. The closest I ever got to was with a Sun conjunct Pluto male.
Okay so hello from the future (🤣😅). I have sun square pluto and oh boy what a ride! I resonate with pretty much everything you said. As from my experience, it is easy for me to intimidate both men and women. My dad, has been in and out of my life ever since I was little (like Arroyo mentioned) and never got along with my mom. I noticed that men tend to...well not necessarily try to dominate me but they express their intimidation by spacing themselves from me haha. It's like somehow I am a mirror to them and then all of a sudden they run away. I also say that with this aspect you kind of have to parent yourself too, since your own parent wasn't there whether physically or mentally, however you see fit. As I am learning how to get my power back, I am noticing that as you said, people will do whatever it takes for me to not express that power. However, due to other placements in my birth chart, this is more so coming from women. It's like the same thing you said but mainly coming from women. I also realized that with this aspect in particular, we have to work from one extreme to another. Extreme doubt, extreme fear, etc. To do this, as I learned is to not have a filter. Now you're probably wondering how tf can you do that without being fearful or experiencing intense responses from others. Well, that's normal. People are always going to have a reaction how us pluto people do anything. And an intense reaction at that. So with that being said, everything you said is indeed true to the highest extent of the law! It's best to literally own our power and do it in a way that feels comfortable and unique to us, not having to blend into patriarchal standards. Love this video!!
Amazing! Pluto trine Sun, I've only recently realized the power behind my Aura/energy around people, I was so self conscious cause I could never understand why some people were bothered by my energy or they loved it- Venus, Moon & Jupiter conjunct in the 7th Men would be attracted to my intense energy; but they would have to bring substance or just as much energy which created issues; however I am Pluto Libra Gen. Thank you!
Sun square pluto with a cancer ascendant. It's a bizarre polarity. I can feel highly feminine and then highly masculine on different days. Yet both my masculine revolutionary and feminine maternal aims have been quashed, largely by men, who indeed have not seen or tried to repress my power. I usually don't feel seen by men or women. Although I have also found supportive allies in both sexes. Something always seem buried with me or about me, in many interactions. My career has been spent fighting for the underdog and balancing power in society. I feel repressed, oppressed and supressed a good deal of the time. However, my relationship to my own power is strange-- as you mentioned it feels subterranean. I don't have access to it all the time and then sometimes it coming roaring forth from the depths. I don't know that I'm able to wield it consciously yet or perhaps I'm aware that it's yet not accepted in the world.
Bang on! Great video. Sun/ASC conj PLUTO in Libra, Moon & Venus in Scorpio, Mars in 8th! North node in Cap conj IC opp Saturn square sun/ASC, Pluto & DESC. In my case, what you see is what you get. Somewhere along the way, I "became the man I wanted to marry." Oooops. Come from a looooong line of pioneers, native americans & strong women but ultimately am my Father's daughter in terms of path - albeit not without a lot of clashing & banging heads along the way. I have been told by many I can really intimidate and had many past lives as a man. You can definitely feel the rejection of your power & intensity in youth (particularly by boys/men) but if you quietly lead by example, instead of trying to prove anything, it gets better & lighter along along the way. I mostly attract men with their feminine planets in aspect to Pluto and similar lock & key type signature aspects. That comes with it's own set of issues but...I feel they are the best poised to understand me and the depth required in relating. I'm starting over again recently and have no idea what I want in this chapter of my life but looking forward to finding out. I love my now life (which was hard won) and am re-defining what femininity & relationships are to me. I have a lot of hard outer planet aspects in general and while heavily Plutonian in youth, am evolving toward my Uranian side of things as I get older into more freedom and an understanding of non-attachment and flow and living life with greater ease. Interesting journey to say the least! ;)
I have a Sun Opposite Pluto aspect. Sun is in Gemini and Pluto is in Scorpio. My upbringing made me convinced that power was always dominating. I didn't realize until years later that everyone has personal power. I didn't have complicated relationships with men. My dad and I didn't see eye to eye growing up, but now we get along now. I was always the one pursuing romantic relationships too, but I was never in one. This lifetime has taught me to love myself and never lose my personal power. I also have Sun Square Saturn, Sun Trine Jupiter, Sun Conjunct Mercury, and Pluto trine Lilith.
So you have an out of sign aspect here, which tends to function a little differently. What a powerful realisation : real personal power versus domination.
I'm glad to find this video and be reminded that there is a community of women who can understand each other, and men who will understand us too. I have a sun square Pluto, as well as a sun conjunct Venus. I am not versed in astrology, for now I leave it to those w the calling and acumen (Tara Nikita, lol). I'll say that I felt sexualized from a young age, as if i invited sexual advances. And I felt as if i prematurely enjoyed these. Later I experienced rebellion, of trying to express through sexuality throughout teens and never enjoying it. After a few impactful relationships with men that steered me towards spirituality and eventually meditation, i have located my strength in feminine power: in meditation, breath, dance and that has allowed me to experience myself sexually and holistically. I experience an attachment to sexual expression and make my efforts to stay open minded and acknowledge that creativity is a powerful place for me to express as well. At 26 I've begun to explore improv and stand up comedy. I feel at home in the feminine now. I also have an emotionally estranged relationship with my father. He pushed me hard academically. He is still intent on who he believes i should be or who i said I wanted to be when I was young. our conversations are limited. I feel unable to express my full self around him, so I tend to withhold. I utilize masculine energy to keep myself autonomous in romantic relationships. That means that while I have a boyfriend now, I know I am to be investing my creative talents at the same time. I need to be whole, and I use masculine energy to make sure I'm continuously going out and getting it. Slow and steady. This video makes me feel in my power, actually. I feel so deeply, I feel so raw and this video makes it ok. From the alchemical process of settling struggle & tension around this topic, i have experienced the refining process people before me have spoken of. The liberation from the strife as I become comfortable and whole. Thanks everyone.
In my Vedic chart I have sun and Pluto in Libra (in my 7th house) not necessarily conjunct (11 degrees apart) but this is like hitting the nail on the head for me 🥺 thank you for shedding light on this topic . You are so gifted at explaining . I came from you Saturn moon video and that was so on point as well as my Saturn is conjunct my moon :( very appreciated 🙏🏼🙏🏼
Sun conjuct Pluto and Saturn/Jupiter in my 12th cusping my 1st house.. definitely issues with the father being absent for majority of my life both physically and emotionally. I am now further in my healing journey and I feel like I’m finally on the other side as I have called my power back but man it almost took me out 😅. Thank you for the insight. I have heavy 8th house placements as well and I take a strong liking and interest in all things astrology and psychology. Learning how to balance all these energies I have
Sun square Pluto sun conjunct MC Pluto in the Ascendant… heavy addictions, control issues, obsessions, deep darkness, violence in most of my significant relationships with men. Step-dad permanently damaged my spinal column when I was 11. No one knew about his abuse I still have trouble talking about it. Dad was in another state. He was very warm kind, loving… but saw him once a year. Just got out of an abusive relationship where I had to fight to be heard and in the end fight for my life. People say I look very young and are attracted to me but they don’t really know me.
thank you so much, Tara, I have sun (Scorpio) with pluto in opposite and your explication is perfect. I have all men in my life in a strange distance, I mean the men I like, and I feel better on my own because they don´t support me, even left me in important moments of my life. So I am very closed up because my inside is strange to most people, even being very friendly and helpfull, I feel better not to open my heart, because people want simple people and don´t like if a person sees or feels more than others.
Sun sextile Pluto- I can attest to experiencing patterns of men not seeing my power or shutting me down. It is hard not to take personal but Greta practice and I know, now not to attach to my pain or who wronged me- they have made me stronger. Very detached from my father and has been like this for years. Thank you for explaining, I’ve really gotten a better understanding of this placement and my role as well! ❤️❤️
Wow! Absolutely enlightening😄 and completely resonates with me! thank you so much for doing this analysis. I have sun (Aries) in 7th house opposite Pluto (libra) in 1st. I believe your spot on when you say this energy is being brought through in soul group/s to heal the collective conscience. It can manifest as a certain androgynous type of energy which I have intuitively picked up since childhood in myself. And yes the whole aspect as you described it so eloquently is like a dormant volcano. I'm very lucky to have a very supportive and loving dad as well as a wonderful husband in my life who are not threatened. Without these men and a powerful matriarchal mum & grandmother who have all shown me what egalitarianism is and how to wield my power in manner that is for the good of all I'm quite sure I could have possibly been the epitome of a great villainous fairytale queen (Snow Whites nemesis perhaps hehehe). To further complicate this aspect I also have Venus (7th house) opposite Pluto 😅. Needless to say I experience quite a lot of mixed reactions upon first meeting with people. Generally both women and men can fall instantly at your feet whilst others can feel very intimidated until my lovely libra ascendant combined with my Mercury (7th house again) conjunct Venus can smoothly communicate that "I come in peace" to people on first meeting them. However, others who are intuitive enough can sense danger and lots of power hidden under the calm friendly exterior and very often will instantly dislike me until they get to "warily" know me although they often won't completely trust me. Thank you once again for your incredible insight into a very misunderstood aspect!
I have Sun opposing Pluto, and everything you said not only makes sense, but I feel like I always knew it to be true and you just confirmed it. Especially the part about being here as a woman to balance the power I had as a man in past lives. I've always suspected that about myself, but nowhere could I find any information about it. I don't even know where to start describing how what you said relates to me and my life, so I'll just say EVERYTHING. Absolutely everything you talked about resonated 100% with me. Thank you for the time and energy you spent to enlighten us.
Woaaah...the accuracy!❤️ My father figure was alive but absent in my life...so I learnt to live without it. Plus I definitely have had major experiences with imbalanced masculinity, which drove me inwards and reflect upon how a balanced and powerful masculine and feminine energies should look like.... within as well as without! Silent, intense power!
I have sun conjunct Pluto. My father has been not in my life for almost 20 years, since I was a child (he’s imprisoned). I then was raised by a single mom, no stepfather, only an older brother who I frequently challenged. I am a feminist studies major, and am always challenging patriarchal ideologies and structures. Thanks for this video
I have Sun quincunx Pluto in one of my yods, along with Saturn and Neptune, with all three planets in retrograde. Diving into my astrology has been life changing, particularly the aspects that have to do with men. Shutting down the power and expression of women.. Wow yes! It's been a process. Thank you for this very unique and *very* helpful video! 💜🌷
I have sun trine Pluto and Saturn. Years ago, (my English Professor) I was told... wherever Saturn is you perform like a soldier in the army, it's your Duty. When I looked up meaning of degree in Dane rhudyar book, it's about being comfortable. Being brave sharing your truth; dramatically.... and I've mostly hidden.... time to step back into the Flow....
Aries Sun in the 8h, 8° Scorpio degree, opposite Pluto. Lost my dad 4 days before my 10th birthday. I’ll admit that this aspect hasn’t been easy but, I have ‘grown’ into it and now it truly is one of my favorite placements. I LOVE Scorpio and Plutonian energy. Again, I LOVE your content and I’m so happy youtube thought I might enjoy your channel. New subscriber, still bingeing your videos. You are SO awesome. 💛
This is probably one of the most helpful ways this aspect and life challenges it comes with I have heard ever! Thank you for bringing about a new perspective in which to reflect and highlight the importance of purpose in our lives as well as a collective as a whole. I grew up without a father and have always had jealous and controlling males or even female dominant figures in my life. I have had to learn more and more how to take my power back, sometimes in very painful and traumatic ways. This helps to see a reason for the madness and ease to the evolution of our souls. thank thank you 😊 Taurus sun in 4th opposite Scorpio Pluto in 10th 😬
I am an astrology beginner. I have both my sun and Pluto in my 4th house in Aries. I really truly love the way you speak to this aspect. Thank you for posting this video, it's really helpful for me. I relate to this in many ways, namely coming "back" into my power (still looking for it) as well as holding the task of integrating the masculine and feminine energies on a soul level. I have a wonderful relationship with my dad, my husband and many men. Growing up I always wanted to be a boy and to be around boys but I was always weak and wimpy and girly and never quite fit in...although I successfully forced my way into a number of male friend groups throughout my life. And yes, I usually have felt vastly misunderstood and held the painfully obnoxious and bland role of "the girl". Jut now (at the cusp of my Saturn return) I am feeling very connected with all things feminine and even finding that my role models are shifting from only men to mostly women. Thanks again for this video!
I have sun square Pluto and Pluto in my 7th house, I’ve always had really bad mistrust in my romantic partners like deeply untrusting but accepting of it? Like I’ll accept the darkness in others more readily than within me. My last relationship reflected a lot of narcissism, abandonment and overall deep trauma not only in myself but my ex. I’ve learned that these aspects create a deep rebirth and healing of karmic ties. You’re so right about female empowerment, that’s what I live for; I work at a gentleman’s club and have been a dancer and I loved the power I held in my body. It was tantalizing to feel so much power. Yes my father and I aren’t emotionally connected I always feel like I let him down it’s really hard especially with him being so religious and conservative and I have a lot of similar traits as he does; his creativity and big heart but we have a hard time talking my brother and I are very close. When I was younger I would wreak havoc on him because I was bullied but we’ve been very close ever since I realized and apologized deeply for my hurtful words to him. It’s awesome when you overcome your insecurity and heal yourself constantly it’s a constant healing but it’s positive when you learn. It’s like you’re a constant rebirth and it’s beautiful I love this aspect quite honestly? Though it’s been really really hard I love it
This seems so accurate. Sun conjunct pluto. My dad abused and ruined my mom and left us, and left her pregnant. Now he is in my life but is in complete denial. It has driven much of my life and it rips me apart and is so hard to not take personally and he doesn't understand.
I’m going to cry! This is also an aspect of mine- this year before my awakening- I figured out who my biological father was through ancestry dna test with no other real information.. I found out he passed in 2013 then I figured out by my “accidental” knowing fans research on how I went into the foster care system.. it was all so alarming! Then this awakening.. I also happen to be a lesbian... please if you feel you can get a hold of me. Your so awesome. And also so kind, for sharing your wisdom.
Yes, I have. I did have issues of power struggles with my father and with men. I did experienced being misunderstood not until I am able to process my own self-awareness, boundaries and to be finally brave enough to voice out my true desires and self. I'm a Virgo Sun sextile Scorpio Pluto.
You said you are looking for feedback, which, as person who really appreciates your way of communicating and insights, I am obliged to do. I'm a Sun Conj Pluto in 1st House (Libra), Merc & Venus in Scorpio. I am a straight woman who works in an all-male field (construction/trades). The only challenge I've had in the past has been with SOME male authority figures (not so much work related), not in my own family. My father has been supportive and though he may not support my present role overtly, he & my grandfather's work is why I was very interested in working in the trades. In a family of all female siblings, I bond best with the one male sibling, my younger brother. I have tried working in traditionally "female roles", but I never felt 100% comfortable and I made other people (women & some men) uncomfortable or intimidated w/o ever trying. I dressed modestly in clerical type roles, so no reason to feel intimidated, but I have noted that strong women are attracted to me in terms of friendship, so it's good to know that my mere presence can ferret out these people. Otherwise, I would have to go out of my way to make others feel comfortable with me in those roles. However, I'm 100% at home & love my current "all male" profession, mainly because the only people there who feel challenged by a woman being there are challenged by the obvious reasons; most of them are perfectly fine. I don't want them to feel challenged, just to know that I'm perfectly capable of my job. I knew what I was getting into, so I didn't complain of sexism. I'm often the only woman on my job sites, and I'm perfectly aware of the stereotypes some have, but I don't care at all I just enjoy what I'm doing because it feels right to me. That's all that counts. Once again, while at work I do not "act" male or present myself in any sort of way, but I will get challenges from others occasionally which I don't back down from, but it's rare. I want to do my job to the best of my ability, have what I need and be able to always keep up physically to the challenges of the role by keeping myself in shape. What is interesting to note is that my astrologer told me a long while back that attractive, powerful women were once male in a former lifetime and now I'm receiving my karma for (perhaps) the way I (in the powerful male role) might have treated women then. SO...I try to balance this karma gracefully and accept that challenge to correct it as I do believe this as well.
I have this Sun square Pluto in my 1st house (leo). I was the ninth child of 10 children and I was ignored and excluded from everything my older siblings did except for sharing meals. My father was an Army Seargent and he ran our home like he ran his job...a loud, intimidating, in your face bully. He was abusive and an alcoholic. My mother wasn't able to soften him or protect us. She was strict, busy and not unavailable to me either. My Sun squares Pluto, Uranus and Saturn. My Moon squares Uranus, and opposes Venus....and my natal chart doesn't get any better from there....... I finally had a complete physical and nervous breakdown that lasted four years...and which finally brought me brought me here. I loved your insight to my Pluto and the natural aggressiveness and boldness I have. I have problems with men if they try to control me...such as my father, and my ex husband...and male employers and coworkers, too. These aspects in my first house make me very attractive to men on a sexual level...but I'm not easy to live with, and thankfully I'm on psych meds to calm down my agression and mood swings.
I have sun conjunct pluto in libra 6th house. This makes a lot of sense to me, in the past I have had issues with my father, just mainly me wanting to assert myself more and being rebellious as a teenager. I often felt misunderstood by him as a child and that he was always preoccupied with what he was doing, he did show love towards me and still does, I have always been closer to my father than my mother though. I was very close with my brother when we were kids, however now as adults we don't speak due to being at odds about our mother and also my brothers wife has caused a lot of tension between us. With regards to partners, I have definitely had bad experiences and there has been mental and some physical abuse, I have always stood up for myself though and now when I look back I think it was definitely to do with power struggles and about gaining power, but it has made me stronger and I do feel stronger for all those experiences. I think having this conjunction in Libra is about balancing out the masculine and feminine within me and in society for sure. Thanks for this, it really has resonated with me!
So good. My Pluto is aspecting Sun, Jupiter, Moon, Saturn, Mercury, Mars, Neptune and MC. What you're saying is so true. Learning how to trust in showing/expressing my fullness as it is has been a lifelong journey, and only really am coming to understand/appreciate this specifically only recently. The Pluto/Sun (conjunct Jupiter) aspect is a square
Interesting! I have a Midheaven Sun Virgo/Pluto conjunction in the 10th. Scorpio Ascendant. Wow. Yes, to the idea of restoring the relationship of masculine/feminine vibration. Love this. Thank you!
I have sun square Pluto(pluto and Chiron in Sagittarius, and my father just so happens to have his Sun in Sag) and throughout my life have experienced this very dynamic. Fear and being afraid to speak my truth(or ever express myself in any way where I didn't come across as "perfect" in fear of feeling shamed or not meeting impossible standards of who I should be was a mainstay in whatever semblance of a relationship I did have with my father. Wounds surrounding trust, safety and security(root energy) had me in fight or flight, and so naturally as I was operating most of the time from fear, a wounded dominant masculine ego presented itself in my expression. Feeling like I always had to one up any man in the room while teetering with adhering to patriarchal standards of how I should be in the world. I gained a great deal of insight and perspective once I knew that these were all patterns and programs being expressed. Not taking it too personally and being able to see a higher logic to it all helped me reclaim my power and sovereignty and decide to move on in my life with dignity, knowing I decided that I was no longer going to give in and give my power to away or make myself small. A process of remembering my truth and from there, like magic, all of life opened up in infinite possibilities for me to be free.
Interesting video! I have sun in Leo square Pluto in Scorpio. I’m also a Scorpio ascendant so Pluto in Scorpio is in my 1st house. I’m very much so Plutonian lol....my relationship with my father is actually great because he was the only parent who wasn’t controlling but instead allowed me to be myself. That’s not to say he didn’t try to “direct my steps” that’s when my stubbornness comes out according to him LOL. I tell my boyfriend all the time that I have a lot of masculine energy and that’s me intuitively analyzing myself. I’ve always felt not very feminine but I’ve recently had a daughter, and that has changed my energy for the better. She’s taught me to be more loving to myself since I breastfeed I have to watch out of my diet. I give my boyfriend hell because I put up such a fight when I can’t have certain foods but deep down I’m like “girl you need this discipline and self love because when you take better care of self you’ll take better care with others”. Thank for this video. It’s glad to know I’m not weird for feeling masculine and that I can use the energy to redefine who women are and their capabilities
Oh and not to mention my daughter is Aries Sun, Scorpio moon and ascendant. Her sun also squares her Pluto in Capricorn but luckily it’s not in a tighter orb as mine. So I will definitely have to teach her how to handle that inner conflict into something uniquely beautiful
This video has helped me a lot. It’s very on point. I deeply resonated with the view and interpretation of how those energies are expressing themselves together. Thank you for the genuine and unique perspective.
I have a Moon Pluto opposition with Pluto in my 4th house. Also a Pluto sextile with Sun, Venus, Jupiter and Neptune. I’m just beginning to really grasp how this plays out into my being... 🙏🙏🙏
this for sure resonates with me! pluto in scoprio squares my sun in aries and I can be SUCH an intense person! I feel I have a lot of deep, divine feminine power that I am only now able to step in to after going through my underworld journey and integrating this intensity, learning how to use my power *as a woman* to change my life and change the world.
and yes I have had a charged relationship with my father all my life, and have struggled to be in intimate relationships with men while I was on my healing journey. i've had boyfriends who (I have allowed to) shut down my powerful personality. I feel now I can embrace my femininity in a way that is empowering and that I have balanced myself withing, and my relationship to the masculine energy is so much healthier and happier!! I do feel I may have been a powerful...sorcerer in a past life? haha, something like that. my north node in taurus is teaching me now to embody loving, venusian magic in this lifetime in balance with nature and in harmony with all energies. and yes, I feel that now that this..deep, dark, magnetic plutonian energy is in harmony with my soft loving femining energies that I am very smoldering! I feel a strong energy inside of me and I know it makes people very curious about me.
I have Sun opposite Pluto and the first few years with my father were the best. I saw him almost like God and placed him on a super high pedestal.... Of course there was a major collapse and my father fell far, far from what I thought he was to me. It hurt so much because I unconsciously was imitating him and all his negativity... It wasn't what I wanted and I felt trapped. It was like there was no sunshine anywhere for me to go and bask in and learn from. Only darkness everywhere...sucking up all the light that would come from me... I hated it... My father and I always had differing beliefs... I fought with him a lot. The worse was when i gave in to him... I felt my soul and individuality die because of him, or actually, it was because of me. I gave up. I stopped fighting back because all I can think about was how difficult I was being to my dad when he overworks himself to the point of saying, "I feel so dead." I felt it was my fault because I wasn't a perfect child to him. I kept thinking people will blame me for giving him a hard time. But I was the one who felt like dying as well. I had dreams that died and i felt suffocated by his constant disapproval, criticism, questioning, and heart stabbing words. I was only 7! How could I not be so troublesome? Children are meant to be troublesome! They need guidance and don't know any better! I wish he would've just given me up to someone else if i was so hard to take care of... He wouldn't want to believe I was his child...And he blamed mom for having a child like me! How cruel is that! Our Sun, Moon, Mercury, Mars, and Pluto square each other, and our venus inconjunct. We both couldn't understand each other. Our minds were too different to understand each other. I was more like Air and he was more like Earth. We both drove each other crazy! We both had different needs that were not being met... My relationship with my father is better now however and he yields to me more often than before. Almost treating me like a princess again... But we do have Venus conjunct Neptune in our synastry... I just...want to feel like i can breathe... Relationships shouldn't feel like you're walking on eggshells or be filled with fear of everything you or the other person does. Relationships shouldn't be built on fear. I'm scared of hurting him, he's scared of hurting me, he's scared i'm leaving, I'm scared he's going to leave, there is fear in every corner that there is no room for growth. Everything we do is not out of love, but of fear. I can't stand it... But like I said, things are better between my father and I. We are both difficult people. I just wish there was someone in our lives who could've mediate between us or given us some kind of positive pep talk... Anyways, sorry for the long post. It really spoke to me when you said we can use power in other ways and not just like a man would. I realized my power does come off too masculine. I need to find that balance. thanks!
No need to apologize at all for the length. I really appreciate you taking the time to share your very personal experiences with us here. What I appreciate is how much this video has allowed people to put pen to paper about their innermost feelings. Happy you found it useful.
Oh my god I have a similar relationship to my dad. I also have cancer south node, etc with Chiron in 5th house Leo. I eventually moved abroad to Germany because I couldn’t take the bullshit anymore. But now I’m reaching a new stage in my life where I must finally deal with my problems and it’s all so much, all this self discovery. But at least it’s good to know that there are others out there like me.
This explanation helped me understand my father more. I have Pluto Rx and still trying to understand, Men underestimate me and I try and hold back, but when I do let loss they are surprised to see my tenacity. Only those people close to me are allowed to give input or calm me down.
🔥🔥Must Read!🔥🔥 Soul Sister this was the best explanation I've ever heard! My sun and pluto in Libra are conjunct in my 11th house, my venus/eros/pallas in Scorpio with eros conjunct the AC in my 1st house, my moon in Leo in my 10 house, and my Mercury and Uranus in Libra are in my 12th house with Uranus conjunct my Ascendant in Libra. As well as, a Stellium in Libra in the 11th and 12th houses and north node in Capricorn in the 3rd house. This explains why all of my spirit guides are male and friends are men with an exception to a handful of women with more masculine energies. All of my female family and friends have passed on. Growing up, I was bullied at home, at school, on the streets. Men were very controling and possessive of me from as early as I could remember which was age 4. I was abused by men and even kidnapped. Once I entered twenties I can into my own personal power and being taking control of my power. But as all newbies I was a bit out of control and did what I pleased without regard to the feelings of others. The karma was returned in my early thirties. I began to balance out my feminine and masculine energies in my mid-thirties. Now, I don't have any problems setting personal boundaries whether I'm working with my masculine or feminine energies. Even though, I was working with both energies for over a decade my full integration didn't start until the 11/11/18 portal. After experiencing many, many, many, dark nights of the soul since the 11/11/18 portal, I can say that I am whole once more. I am grateful to all the men and strong females that got me to this point in my life. In this now moment I am equally grateful be able to assist the collective of humanity shift their energy to the Divine Feminine essence. I'm truly honored indeed! Thanks for sharing this video and for shining your light! Much love and light to you all! Namaste! 🙏🏾❤
Finally a concise meaning of Pluto sun in words I found myself dumming out on many of my abilities to men mostly and women my brother made sure he voiced how stupid I was through out my life my dad thank God reinforce me and all my abilities encourage every expression plumbing, tile setting carpentry got my equipment and always said you are me on another leg no difference between a and women and men we all carry both vibrations male and female
This is spot on! By far the best interpretation/explanation of this natal aspect (from my experience with having this natal aspect) It makes me feel empowered! Thank you.
Sun perfectly opposing pluto for me. I highly respect pluto and agree with you that this is a huge life lesson for a woman. So happy I found your channel.
Had to take notes on this one, your video connected all kinds of dots. Sun in Leo square Pluto Scorpio - both planets in their power spots. Have always been the angry feminist since 1st grade with this need to express revenge and other scorp things. it wasn't until recently that i saw how counterproductive the anger was, so the goal is now to transform it into something better. this video is so helpful, can't thank you enough for the insight!!
I'm a Leo Sun Square Pluto in Scorpio, my MC. This was very strong to me because really described my experience with my father and men in general. In my case, there are other aspects that intensifies this energy, in the chart and outiside. I've always struggled with sexuality but recently I've fully realised it was much depper. I was born with a penis but despite my genetalia I feel like a feminine being, that said cause I've dealt with these emotional issues that grew over the years through a spiritual awakening, and I really fully embraced my power, first as a woman and finally as a man also, understanding my feminine nature but harmonizing myself with my masculine energy, becoming one. But this whole experience happened internally, on a subtle level, like you mentioned, and something you said that really hit me was that this experience is adding to the collective energy in understanding and embracing feminine power, cause I felt this throughout my journey rs I really feel it's a wave of healing energy coming in different ways.
Sun in Leo (3rd h) square Pluto in Scorpio (5th) 26 year old here. I used to have a very bad relationship with my dad from early childhood, until my late teenage years. He was present and gave me everything I needed from an early age - he helped me develop my talents, I never missed anything (material things). But he was a very oppressive figure, culminating in fits of rage and physical aggression with a disciplinary objective, according to him. He was very abusive, emotionally speaking. I truly feared him. Our relationship improved with time (and lots of family therapy), but I still feel like the scars are there. It generated a negative pattern in my romantic relationships with men, for sure. My last relationship was particularly tough, and I’m still healing from it. Very dreamy/prince charming type of partner that slowly became an abuser, the jealous/possessive/paranoid type, and also a very manipulative person. It was extremely hard to leave him, and acknowledging that I couldn’t be in that type of relationship, and that what he manifested as love was extremely twisted and emotionally hurtful, demeaning. I felt totally lost and detached from myself for a while. Definitely was a table-turner, life changing relationship, as bad as it was. As a Pisces moon, I learned to impose my limits and not sacrifice myself for those who do not deserve it. I became a lot stronger and sure of myself, but I still feel like my perspective on men in general is more cautious now - like I’m afraid to give myself. Pluto square Sun isn’t the only aspect in my chart that explain all of this, though. Some challenging Saturn-Sun and Venus-Neptune stuff too. Slowly learning to love myself and to feel whole by myself, knowing my own worth, is the current theme in my therapy sessions. One funny thing is that all my ex partners had their Sun in aspect to Pluto, and both of them didn’t have a present father (abandonment and death, respectively). My own father has Pluto in the 7th opposite Ascendant and Saturn (which are conjunct), and Pluto square Mars.
Capricorn sun sextile Pluto Scorpio. I always thought I was close to my Dad because as a kid I would go to work with him but as I think deeper, I would always want to be around him. I don’t really remember him ever taking me out or just trying to bond. Now that I am older, he constantly calls me to talk crap about my mom and when he needs something..... this video has helped me a lot.
Do you have a sun-pluto aspect in your birth chart? Are you a woman with this natal combination? Please take a moment to share your experiences. Peace
I have 0°26' Sun Pluto square. No problematic relationships with male family members except my father passed away young. Outward I am very feminine but my energy feels like it comes from an inner place of power source very male, intense, purposeful, precise and direct in nature. It has created plenty of conflict in close relationships with men in that I can intuitively feel when they cannot keep up with me, when I have to pace myself and subdue it. I wonder how much it also matters that my Sun is in Capricorn, so is Mars, my Ascendant is in Sagittarius and Pluto is in Libra.
N Ka Thanks so much for sharing. What a description, "my energy feels like it comes from an inner place of power [source]...very male, intense, purposeful, precise and direct in nature. I can relate to this as a descriptor of my internal feelings growing up (Sun conjunct Pluto in Scorpio). Perhaps I wouldn't describe it now as 'male'...but definitely the other words you've used here. The responses to this video have been wonderfully instructive, as people report their feelings and experiences. Thank you for chiming in.
Help!! I have a question that no one has answered yet ... so I have sun Venus me Saturn in Aries in the 7th house but yet I have Aries on the 8th house cusp so wouldn’t that mean those planets are in the 8th? I also have mercury in the 8th please and thank you !!
Hello Tara, I have the sun in the house of Aries 10 in oposition pluto inlibra, house 4. My father was a central figure in my development, he was very dominant and authoritarian not only with our nuclear family but also with the extended family . He was also violent, especially with my mother, my aunts and the brother who follows me in age (taurus). I became rebellious with my mother for accepting the treatment she gave him and with him for his machismo and control. Even with everything, there was admiration from both parties, I know very well that I was the person I most respected in his life. When I was a child I loved him but I could not "feel" him because of the conflict generated by the differentiated treatment towards me. My brother made me jealous for this and whenever I could he humiliated me in the presence of strangers. When my father died, the extended family collapsed and I made a crisis that took me to the psychiatrist. I idealized it for several years until a situation of abuse by a man caused me a crisis after which I could see its strengths and weaknesses. He not only did not defend me but he blamed me and assaulted me when I was a victim of sexual abuse during my puberty. I have gone through several crises in my life, depressions, diagnoses, senseless sensations, self-destructive behaviors ... but already reaching my 39 years I can say that I have managed to integrate several aspects of my personality (or chart). I have had few relationships with men and the times I have lacked "respect" or they have transgressed me in some way, I have made them pay dearly. I have not rested until I succeeded, that is how I came to realize my GREAT POWER to achieve even the unimaginable.
I married a pisces with dominant urano, a crazy, intuitive, rebellious and feminist genius !! like me!!! haha with its north and south nodes in conjunction with my sun and pluto, repectively ... we have had a very difficult relationship but we have gone ahead, precisely, breaking schemes, finding our own way of doing things ... all in private, on the outside we look very conventional. In this sense, I have always fantasized about having another man, not an adventure but a kind of second husband ... I regret that our culture does not allow it, I think it would be very happy, the closest we have been to that is in swinger experiences I like to see it with others, it does not cause me any kind of jealousy or insecurity. Now I am meeting a man with a stellium in libra (sun, venus, mars, pluto) whose sun and mars conjunct my pluto and, obviously opposed to my sun, plus my Mars in Aries opposes his venus ... SPARKS !! His saturn in cancer makes conjunction to our sun composite conjuction moon in cancer ... will it be man ?? !! ohhh
Many times I have been told that I am a little crazy but I already accepted that I can not be conventional without dying ... and from that acceptance came peace and the ability to enjoy life without the torments of before ... I have learned to take better care of myself and to surf the crises with elegance and allow me to do WHAT I WANT but always respecting the integrity of others, not the canons that seem obsolete, I also know intimately that I had to heal my family tree on both sides, which I am a kind of critical link and my healing work is to learn to enjoy life (venus saturn opposition), to be free and powerful to put some in their place for karma, always with responsibility and without forgetting a minimal fee of compassion (venus in piscis, jupiter in cancer), also stop idealizing or expecting so much from others and suffer later (neptune at house 7 square to venus). My moon in leo is conjunction a lilith too.. i'm hot hahaha but seriously ... I consider myself a very complete and versatile woman (ascending gemini :))
Greetings from Chile...
I would like to add that I am a clinical psychologist and I have always wanted to work with women, but life has taken me to work with children and lately with transgender teenagers ... I know I have a sexual wisdom as well, will that be why? I have not been able to develop professionally according to my ability and as dictates my sun at home 10 ... I guess because I have dedicated all my efforts in carrying my family, in that I am successful! (for my half heaven in piscis too (?) haha ... I do not care about money or prestige but they always told me that "I'm missing" ... I do not know ... sometimes I also believe it but I think I've never been late to devote to it ...)
Sun trine Pluto. Absent father. Since early childhood, I neither felt like a girly girl nor a tomboy. I resisted my mother's traditional desires for me to learn to cook, take care of kids and find a husband that will take care of me. I never wanted to depend on a man, because I saw it did not make my mother happy. I was inspired as a child by the commercial with Michael Jordan and Mia Hamm, where she sings to MJ: "Anything you can do, I can do better." I have a pattern of gravitating towards jobs in male-dominated fields (computer science, poker, comedy). In my relationships, I've always been the breadwinner and have at times financially supported my partner or brothers. I've always admired strong women who portray power in other forms than what I've traditionally seen power look like: dominating and controlling. I've realized I've had issues with power and influence my entire life, and have just learned of this aspect in my chart. I've been afraid to use my power for fear of misusing it and causing pain or oppression. Same for influence, I didn't want to negatively affect things. But now I know my Sun trine Pluto is a gift, and I must learn to step into my power, claim it, and harness it for good. I've said many times that I must have been a man in a past life, and this video affirms that. And it makes sense that I'm here to restore the balance of masculine/feminine power/energy. Thank you Tara, and thanks to everyone who has shared their story.
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Sun trine pluto also&this is ME THIS IS IT👌🏾👌🏾
This is the first time I've heard a more in-depth discussion of Sun/Pluto aspects as they might be experienced by women. This aspect in women tends to have some kind of focus on dealing with issues in relation to female or female-like power expression and repression, on difficult or unusual relationships with father figures and the male gender/energy, authority figures in general, cultural repression, familial role expectation, and the thousands of years of cultural oppression of the raw energetic power that exists in every woman on this planet. Women with this aspect are kind of born to directly confront and experience these issues. On one hand, women with this aspect may have very challenging, traumatizing, unusual and sometimes tragic life experiences and relationships from birth, yet they also are being given the tools to really explore what the true expression of power in a way that brings about social revolution. I sit back and wonder sometimes WHY have women been repressed and discouraged from utilizing and expressing their in-born, natural raw energy or force for thousands of years? It cannot simply be because we are 'small and weak' and need protection. As someone who has this aspect, I think it has something to do with rediscovering nature and how female nature, in general, is similar and kind of chaotic, raw, and real. It is the attempt and delusion of historical male patriarchal 'dominance' over nature's (aka female) power that societies, cities, towns, buildings were founded on. Female nature, is inherently like chaos, and wildness, and it is that power that modern male-dominant culture fears, because it seems irrational, emotional, and terrifying, modern society think's it has nature under it's 'control' with all the 'social order', technology, and buildings but this is delusional. The inherent expression of raw dominant female power is the same power source that we see in cycles of time, and in earthquakes, volcanoes, floods, storms, lightning, life, death, rebirth, and in the universe in general. Female power was anciently associated with chaos because it is not ultimately subject to any other power. Nature will never be completely subject to the delusional whims of any creature, including humans. When mother nature has had enough there is no greater power than her and it is this power that women can learn to access again and learn to use in beneficial ways that could heal many modern social problems. Sorry for the essay!
Loved reading your essay! Thank you taking the time to write such a thoughtful and meaningful comment. I could not have said it better myself.
This!
The frail male ego can't handle woman. I'm an Agnostic because all the major religions are misoginous...
And the mostly male climate change deniers that think they can seperate Jesus from Mother Nature are just too stupid.. Omnipresent... They are one and the same.
Wow! This is genuinely the best thing I've read in ages! I Screenshoted your message and will print it out. So insightful and powerful ✨
Sun conjunct Pluto. Absent father, husband with trauma and anger issues. This all resonates so much for me. I am very strong but taking baby steps learning to express my strength outwardly In a more fluid and less awkward way.
Sun square Pluto here. I do feel ignored and misunderstood by men, and I kinda dislike them too, like I always expect them to hurt me. My father was present in the beginning of my life. but he ignored me, and then he died.
Thank you for sharing your experience with us.
Taurus Sun Square Pluto.
Same..my dad is alive but i just dont talk to him because hes very verbally abusive and he put me in the street. My bf at the time let me stay with him until i saved up and got my own. Ive always felt men were magnets to me, some were just users and didnt treat me right. Good thing my ascendant trines my pluto so i can see right through the bull.
This lady is from Jamaica🇯🇲
@@TaraNikita this was spot on! How can I contact you for a private reading? Thanks for sharing, I love the way you express and explain this topics, very objective, a lot of explanation and usage of examples!
Men try to put me in my place but I just keep doing my thing striving, being a mother, being quietly strong without regard to convention. Such a wonderful empowering video, love it.
This is the most accurate description of Sun Pluto aspect that I’ve come across. Definitely feel power struggles with and rejected by the masculine, including my own father. I feel the need to hide my true self when I’m around him. Also not being fully understood by people. I think there is a lot of self hatred with this aspect. I’m slowly learning to love myself, so I can unlock the power of Pluto in a positive way! Pluto/Sun/Black Moon Lilith all at 21° Libra, Ascendant at 29° Capricorn, Uranus/Mercury conjunct MC in Scorpio.
So happy you found it useful and that it resonated with you. And thank you for sharing your experience. Thanks for stopping by!
Also find myself around a lot of powerful men - Dad, partners, bosses, etc.
Interesting. I have Pluto/Sun/ASC in early Libra square north node in Cap conj Lilith & Mercury conj Uranus at 25 Libra trine my MC. Maybe we are all supposed to radically communicate our unconventional "Lilith" type journeys. (Anybody with Pluto in Libra, BTW, has committed to promoting equality amongst the sexes.) ;)
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I also have sun (25) conjunct Pluto (21) in Libra and I have Cap rising (27)
Sun Square Pluto native. I have much respect for my father because he raised me after my parents divorce. I do feel like my father will never know me or get close to me bc I feel like he never allowed to be me or never made an effort to know who I was. In high school, he saw me with my friends amongst a large group of boys, the boys just happened to show up when my father saw me. He thought I was hanging out with my friends to meet boys, but I wasn’t. He told me that day he didn’t trust me. I was so heartbroken bc he never gave me the chance to express myself. Since then I felt like my father never knew me and will never know me. I find myself unable to totally express myself at times. I feel like most people can’t handle who I really am.
I feel the same way
His loss. I hope you find peace with your personal growth.
Pluto in Libra conjunct I.c. opposite Aries sun, Jupiter, Chiron conj m.c and mercury in Pisces. My father was abusive physically and emotionally. His temper terrified me when I was a young child. As I became a teenager my fear turned into rage and anger towards him. I felt like he never knew who I really was because I was afraid to express myself in front of him, because he would criticize me or make me feel like I was a bad kid. I rarely heard praise or felt acceptance from him. My father was the one who was with me during the day when my mother was working so the bond I have with him is very strong. Even though it is a toxic relationship I loved him very much. When I used to see him verbally and physically abusive to my mom I decided I would never be weak like her. I was gonna be the one to rule over men. And I have always had issues with men. I don’t think anyone really knows who I truly am. They couldn’t handle it.
No issues with Father, but I definitely had issues with husband and had to learn to step into my personal power. It was quite a power struggle. It took me a long time. While I was always a very strong person, I acquiesed my power to keep peace. It took many years to take my power and be an equal, come (the god of) hell or high water! Wish I would have known this in my 20s
I’m a professional dominatrix and avid astrologer w Pluto on top of my sun and a Scorpio stellium. I’ve studied these aspects for years and this is the most valuable lesson I’ve received. Thank you. So much. Really
It really is my pleasure. So glad you've found it valuable. 💫
What other planets are in your stellium? I also have this
@@wonderingheights venus mars Uranus and my ascendent. And now the south node is with us. Gonna be an interesting year I’m sure
To me sun square pluto aspect, that I have, is akin to character of Wolverine- Immensely powerful presence, almost intimidating, speaks less, always scanning through people, tenaciously willful, always in a conflict with that powerful part of themselves that tends to get out of control, sporadically, causing self sabotage.
Yet, when channeled the right way, an enigmatic force to be reckoned with. The watch-dog. The protector. 🙂
I’m also a sun square Pluto Woman. Last night, a friend told me that my spirit animal is a watch dog.
My dad and I have intense inner turmoil of rage within us towards each other. I subconsciously feel like he hates when I am empowered as it makes him feel disempowered. My mom and dad fight a lot too.
I am very glad that through astrology and shadow work, I am able to see why I chose him as a father. I feel more empowered by the Day. The more I learn how to inwardly heal and not give energy and life to his anger, the more I am at ease with myself.
Wow! The part about feeling unseen, especially by men, really resonated with me deeply. I use that exact language all the time in relation to men, and I never knew it was a signature of Sun square Pluto.
So glad it resonated with you and helped you to have a deeper understanding of that signature in your chart. 🔆
definitely feel this, both as sun oppose Pluto and as a scorpio asc! Early on I felt very different from other women in my experiences with men, oftentimes being told I was “too intense” exactly as you put it. My father who is also a Scorpio has often placed very ‘masculine’ definitions of power and success over me and as I get older I am unlearning and relearning how to redefine my power for my SELF. Thankfully my partner now is very supportive and loves my ‘intensity’ lol.
~Sun sextile Pluto aspect~ what a very in-depth video, thank you 🙏 I do sense I have a strong presence around people and that some people view it negatively , mostly in women, men find me sexually attractive and are drawn to me I noticed but I do feel so misunderstood by the opposite sex, although my dad is a good father and was there for my upbringing however we were never really close, I never have felt close to him, like I could open up to him and I know he feels the same, it’s always awkward when we’re around each other and it’s just the 2 of us in a room. The same goes for my brother, we were never close and I feel an awkward distance between us too. My mother on the other hand, she is amazing, I love her dearly and she is what holds this family together. I sometimes wonder what my dad was to me in another lifetime as to why it’s so awkward between us.
Yes, I can understand how the distance is bewildering. Thank you for sharing your experience with us.
Totally relate to this.. Sun sextile Pluto on my natal chart as well ☝️.
So interesting... Sun square Pluto here. this is very reminiscent of my relationship with my father--he is by all accounts an amazing dad but there is this emotional distance. I also feel this weird thing when I really want to "express" myself, I think about my dad and reel myself back in because I don't want to "disappoint" him or something because our sensibilities are so different. I am usually very shy around the masculine.
I feel the same with my dad! I don't know why it's so damn weird and uncomfortable. It feels so weird.
Ladies, it’s nice to know I’m not the only one who has a relationship like this with my father. He is a Scorpio dad, very private person and me being Capricorn, I’m private also and it’s not easy to express my emotions that’s for sure. Growing up also, my brother was a peeping tom, we’re both adopted,we’re not related, it was a tough childhood in that aspect and I think that’s also why it’s hard for me to connect to the males in my family, in a loving way, something automatically triggers in me, a big discomfort in what shouldn’t be a bid deal as a simple hug but to me it’s so uncomfortable because of what my brother put me through growing up.
the part about feeling like your not fully seen my men is true for me, i have sun square pluto, also every relationship ive had with men always made me feel uneasy about something
I have Sun trine pluto so I see the more positive aspects of this placement. However, I totally agree. My whole chart is about balancing out polarities since I have a libra ascendant.
Me too girl! Exactly that :) You must be great at manifesting anything hehe
Same. The trine makes life much easier for me. I'm an actor so I get to live out my dark desires through characters and get paid for it.
Lucky
@@ScribblebytesWorldwide what do u recommend?
@@r011ing_thunder6 Become a method actor or apply to be a spy for the CIA...but seriously, check out books by Stanislavski, Stella Adler and Uta Hagen. You can apply those principles to real life just as much as you can to acting. It's all about using the dark energy as a tool for understanding yourself and others and becoming less judgemental.
I'm a sun opposite pluto and definitely I have experienced the feeling of absence from my father - I didn't feel he was emotionally present for me for a lot of my childhood. I have also been someone who has had predominantly female friendship circles because I feel a disconnect with a lot of men, like I can't really be my true self around them
I understand what you mean. Thanks for sharing your experience with us.
Chiara Liane I also have my (Taurus) Sun opposite my (Scorpio) Pluto. I’ve had the exact same experiences - I feel like men never truly see me for who I am, but project their ideas and hopes onto me.
Sorry to say but "absence" is more a Neptune problem, the constant absence of presence in the home. Another is Uranus...unpredictable and erratic behavior or presence of the father in the person's life. Pluto mostly talks about a certain "death" and "rebirth" of the role the father plays in this person's life. Perhaps at one time this father was once loved and adored, yet something happened that transformed the way this person saw their father from that point on. Or the reverse is also true. It's the never ending cycle of demolishing the ego and transforming it to make it better or worse.
@@TheRaike24 So Pluto does truly apply to me. I had a few relatives who I saw as "father figures" at first that eventually began to abuse me and I saw a different, frankly disturbing/dark side to them that's beyond the point if return. There is no hope for me to ever consider them a beneficial part of my life. So I guess that's the "death" part lol
@@TheRaike24this is true of my sun opposite Pluto
Sun trine Pluto. My father was absent and although I would see him very occasionally, I could never count on him at key moments of my life. To be honest when in need he was never even someone I would consider for support. With time I learned to forgive him and see him for what he really was. A human with many flaws that could not find a way to sort them out, throughout his lifetime. I totally resonate with the fact that alot of men come into my life to challenge the way I am expressing my power. I found out that sometimes I would give up on that power for the sake of being more loveable, but that never works out. This power is not about control, or being above. This is about being resilient, having thrive, creative expression, vulnerability and more important, the acceptance of who you are. Undestanding that in order to be true to the self you have to be brave and sometimes this means you will loose people. Learning to let go! Sending love and light to you all. ❤
This is one of the best descriptions of the Sun-Pluto aspect.I have Sun opposite Pluto.
Ase theWO So glad it resonated with you
Me too :)
Me three😅
Sameee
I’m watching this 3 yrs after it was published; but I have sun Pluto aspects and although our relationship is much better now; I grew up without my father in my life... everything that I’m learning about my birth chart is so accurate... wish I would have started studying this information a long time ago... 😉 so thankful to have a better understanding now
I'm a Virgo Sun square Pluto in Sagittarius and I was just talking to my therapist today about having this feeling of imbalance and feeling constantly misunderstood by the men in my life, how they seem to always be trying to control my expression because who i am is too much for them. How interesting that I came across this video right after my session! Loved your analysis, thank you!
Wow. How synchronistic is that. My pleasure - so glad it resonated with you ❤
This is so accurate! My parents are still together and I have lived with my dad all my life but I feel like we can never truly connect because he doesn’t even try to understand my side of anything
Glad it resonated. It really is fascinating to hear everyone's replies.
Me too! My dad does not try to understand my point of view
Same here- it’s like my dad was there physically but not emotionally there for me- he didn’t make an effort to know who I really was/am
This is the only comment so far that I 100% resonate with
@@gigglypuff3589 I feel this way exactly about my mom. As for my dad I've never lived with him but a lot of the time I confide in him he chalks it up to me being "overdramatic" due to my age
Tara, thank you for this beautiful treatise on Sun/Pluto aspects in females. Your words hit the mark precisely. Sun and Pluto are conjunct natally in my first house. Yes: There has been a total absence of supportive father figures in my life. You have helped to enlighten me--body, mind and spirit. Thank you so much.
Wonderful video. Thank you. I have Sun square Pluto. I’ve had a weird relationship with my dad for as long as I can remember. He’s always been physically present in my life, and always physically there when I need him, but he has always been emotionally absent. It used to upset me that he never told me he loved me, or ever hugged me or encouraged me in any way. And I thought this was a reflection on me, or that he was burdened by being part of the family.. I still don’t know. I’ve also never corrected or argued with him about his views, biases, opinions.. etc.. normally opting to just smile and nod my head, because he becomes even more distant, sometimes completely absent, when I have a different understanding. And me, wanting to bridge that distance, feels powerless and unheard, when he shuts off once I’ve asserted my knowing.
I’ve noticed my opinion of men reflects what I feel from my father. Unheard, unseen, unacknowledged, or like some kind of personal attack, when I’ve simply stated a different way of seeing what they saw.
Today, the transiting sun is exactly opposite my sun and exactly square my Pluto, so I’m feeling this at it’s peak right now, and I know I still have a lot of healing to do in this area.
Thanks again for the wonderful insight. And I wish everyone healing in their Sun-Pluto wounds, and inner power wounds. ✨
Thank you for such an incredibly thoughtful response here, and for sharing your experience with us. I can relate to much of what you said, and I know women here have had similar experiences where the father or men shut down when they assert their knowing. It's nice when we can come together and share, and have more of a recognition that we are involved in a collective healing process ❤
Tara Nikita Yes, it is. And thank You for creating this space in which we can realize and dig out these wounds. I didn’t fully realize my feelings until I typed them out, which was a big wake up for me, as well as created breakthroughs in how I’ve focused this healing. I’m very grateful to you. 💜🙏💜
Aubrey Holley ❤❤❤
Hi, I relate to your dad comment completely. Its been weird growing up with a dad who's present, but not emotionally there.
Thanks for the informative video!!
-*sun trine pluto*
-mercury square pluto
-jupiter trine pluto
-saturn quincunx pluto
-uranus sextile pluto
-neptune sextile pluto
-ascendant sextile pluto
-nodes square pluto
Well, my parents divorced when I was around 5yo and my dad was absent. My brother and I used to spend the weekends with my father but I stopped visiting him (don't remember why). Emotionally, both my parents have been absent. I still don't really have a good relationship with him, it's not bad either; just neutral, if I can use that word. I don't feel very comfortable around men, but I do feel kinda invisible. I want equality for both and I try to balance my support for women (so that I'm fair to everyone -yes, I have my moon and ascendant in libra). Everyone has sun/pluto aspects (my brother and I have the trine, my mom the sextile and her partner the conjunction, my dad none) in my family and we all have suffered from our parents/grandparents/lovers in some way. We don't have a good relationship with authority figures, in the sense that we think things are unfair and people use their power more than they should and with ill intentions. I personally haven't tapped into pluto's energy yet, I'm at a more immature stage where I'm kinda struggling with plutonian themes, although I can see some of the sun/pluto in me.
love how you said like the energy of a volcano! that seems true
that makes sense, attracting men who help you come into your power
my father died but I sense he helps me from the other side by watching out for me
my sun conjuncts pluto & venus in sagittarius
wow interesting about the gender issues of gaining power as a woman!
yes it seems some men tried to suppress or belittle me to lower me to their level & control
but it's allowed me to grow my sense of personal power when I do with God's aid throw their shackles off and thrive and grow and gain power
loved your talk about past lives!!!!
Loved your breakdown. I cannot objectively analyze my 12 year old daughter so it is wonderful to hear your analysis. She prob has the most amazing and awesome attentive father on the planet, but she does def challenge our authority. She is relentlessly amazing, and has softened her approach as she has gotten older. She hated when her Dad showed me any affection from the age of 8 months to about 2 years old, she felt that she owned me in some way. She is very intense but quiet manifestations of this quality permeate her ambiance. She is a sag Sun conj Pluto unaspected 9th house....Jupiter in Scorpio...Amazingly, she has 2 big brothers 8 and 16 years older, she used to get angry at her brother and say that she should have been born first to raise him,,,,,,,, she is also extremely feminine and very Beautiful so i am def in for a ride in seeing how she fully expresses these energies. .Again, so glad that i found your channel. I find your mind to have the precision of a surgeon, Thank You again.
vera747 Oh - it so warms my heart to hear the way you describe your daughter. "Relentlessly amazing " - how Plutonian ☺. I have Sun conjunct Pluto + Mercury - all in Scorpio in the 9th house. Sun/Pluto/Mercury making a trine to Jupiter. I so appreciate the thoughtful comment you've left here. Thank you for sharing
WOW, i almost inquired of virgo mercury/scorpio aspects in your chart but i did not want to be invasive..........your aspects explain why i am blown away. I am humbled.
vera747 You were right on the money!
Spot on interpretation of the female energy when it has close aspects of Pluto and Sun. As a woman who lives this, I couldn’t have explained it better myself. Your words have given me more inspiration within myself to not worry so much about how I come off to others (intense) and that I’m part of a much bigger collective and in being myself I’m doing my part. Needed this reminder. Thank you!
It really is my pleasure. And I really am so glad that this video has given you inspiration to be who you are. That's means the world to me - and thank you for commenting
Sun in opposition to my Pluto has been the most toughest & most reoccurring theme in my life!! Thank you for shedding information on the matter, it was quite helpful!
Also, I always have “power struggles” w/ my father & brother [either together or individually] whom always misinterpret my input as me trying to take over when I’m really trying to help. It’s maddening!
Thank you for sharing your experience - interesting how they perceive you as trying to take over. I do understand what you mean. My pleasure, and happy you found it helpful!
Thank you Tara for this bang on the money description, my Sun square pluto, in my 50's now, my dad had power/control issues, so with relationships I believe I actively seeked out same type of power issues in relationships , but decided to go to "war" instead of drawing a breathe and analysing the repeating patterns. I think it's a blessing and curse position, I loved my dad and admired him, but I spent many years resenting him too, but truely believe because of this I have so far have been given a lot of strength to get through things in my life.
Hi Lisa - it really is my pleasure - I'm glad it resonated with you. And thank you for sharing your experiences - it really does help us all.
Leo sun square Pluto Scorpio 🤗
Britney Boddie me too!
Both sun and pluto in the signs of their rulership. I guess you'd feel it more intensely (depending also on the orb).
Holy ***** me too. I thought I was alone. I hated having this placement, its felt like a curse for most of my life.
same - hmu
Same 💕
I have sun/Pluto in my birth chart and I completely resonate with this! It was very helpful as it was reassuring to what my life has been about. I’m 42 and I’ve always had strange power battles since about 4 years old..starting with a brother, then father and then relationships. The last one being the most intense as we had a sun conjunction with Pluto in our synastry. It’s totally been a mas /fem push pull dynamic. I’m just glad this is all contributing to something good because I feel as though it been a “battle”.
“Smoldering Volcano “ wow 😮
I love this perspective! I have sun Sextile Pluto. I was born with this reoccurring nightmare of a past life where I was beaten/abused/terrified of my husband. He ultimately killed me by stabbing me in the back. When I experienced the death (in my dream) at around 9 years old the dream stopped. The self now was very disgusted with the self then for being so weak and helpless. I refuse to be weak like that now.
Thank you. This is great! As a Scorpio Sun conjunct Pluto Scorpio this fully resonates. Sometimes it's like the men in my life (including my dad who was not there in childhood) just cannot or do not want to see mee. As if they intentionally ignore me.
My Pluto is opposite to my Sun. I have never met my father, I grew up slightly tomboyish; I was aggressive and I wanted to fight. I was athletic and very competitive. I found my father in my 30’s. Sadly he was in prison for life. I have been speaking with him and encouraging him via phone for the last year. My son has been raised by his father since the age of 1. I was in a domestic violent relationship in my mid 20’s. I often feel anger with my current partner because he is the provider and I am a stay at home mom. I feel that he feels powerful because he is the provider, however I was able to see that I have gifts that he doesn’t have, I learned that money isn’t the only power; but there’s a power in networking and communicating as well as relationships. I am learning there is a power in being a woman. I am a woman I am receptive. That is powerful. Thank you for this video. I have always made the men in my life better and now I see how and why💕
Beautifully spoken as always. My father really was not a loving type of father. He loved me for sure but didn't know how to deal with it. I needed psico help to get things straight, and I did it - with a lot of agressiveness in the middle, for I had to yell and be intense so he could listen and see I was telling the true about him. My mom helped a lot about this. Now we have a great relationship as father and daughter. All men in my life are quite a history. I've always been friend of guys more then girls, but at the same time many men abused me. The second that toke me to bed did it as I was unconscious and, therefor, raped me. The one after him was a doctor of 35 years that abused me inside the hospital he used to work. I got pregnant and did an abortion. He was married. And the histories go on like this, but little less severe. All of this happened when I was 15. Nowadays I'm into the celibacy. I'm tired of men AND women. I do not! desire all of this to somebody (anybody deserve these things) but at the same time I know that's what makes me stronger then ever now. I have Saturn (0 degrees of cap) Uranus (29 degrees of sag) and Neptune (8 degress) all conjunct with my asc (6 degrees) in Capricorn. I'm a Poet. And I know that I could not be who I am, specially into the Arts, if wasn't for the hard tests of life. I'm grateful about it all although I don't wish to go through it all again. But if I Had to, I would go till the end again just to have learned what I did from this life that is so important to me as spirit. And I'm sure important to others too as we have the experiences together. We are all in the same bolt. But we Need to learn the lesson, we have our responsibility. And so: be it!
Greetings from the Brazilian girl with Sun, Pluto and Mercury all together.
Ps: please, I did not see other comments yet so do not know if someone already did this question but: what's the name of the autor you mentioned around 4th minut? Thanks for all.
I have Sun opposite Pluto in 1 degrees difference and this aspect played a great theme in my life especially in childhood years. I was living with my father who is physically and verbally abusive towards me. Many things happened in our family that greatly affected my personality and psyche. I remember being a lively and cheerful child but I grow up as a loner and pessimist individual. Also, having other chaotic aspect didn’t helped me with this aspect, like Moon square Mars, Uranus opposite Moon, Venus square Saturn and I can also say Uranus in my First house. What I have noticed is that, most men react as if I intimidate them for some reason, even if I am not doing anything related to them. Power struggles with men figure is a common pattern in my life and because of this, I am starting to accept that I may never have a good relation with men at all. Pluto oppose Sun which also operates on psychological level helped me understand how men typically think, even the most deep ones. Maybe this is the reason why most men is intimidated by me because I can read them like an open book. I am also swinging between wanting to have some kind of authority power and not wanting it at all most of the time, maybe because of the opposite aspect which energy can go back and forth.
Today, I am not speaking with my father and he also treated me like a stranger. Like we had a mental agreement not to be involved with each other lives at all. And I understand the part where I have to realize that my father is just doing his role in part of my Sun opposite Pluto in my chart, and he helped me realize that I can rely on my own and not expecting too much from others. I also have experienced dealing with a male figure that made me stripped away my power and when the connection was over, all I wanted to do was to get my power back. Since then, I never let any person take away the power I have in myself, become better at reading people and building that internal confidence. I also though that maybe I was a male figure in my past life and I hurt too many people, especially men, which mean I could have probably been a soldier or anything related to intense male energy, since I can also relate to male energies more than female energies even I am possessing a female body.
Now, I am still learning to balance this energy and it’s not easy at all, especially with other challenging aspects I have in my birth chart. But luckily, I am starting work myself to have a better perspective in life, if I want to live longer since dealing with these energies made me think I would never get older because of the intensity and anxiety it gives me in the end, though I know it’s not only Sun opposite Pluto aspect gives me a hard life. Still growing and learning hope to learn the ultimate lesson with this aspect. 😌👌🏻
12h sun pluto mercury in scorpio + an 11h libra moon- I definitely realized at a young age that my pain was not only mine. I've always felt like I could feel the emotions of the collective. The chaotic, destructive energy, the fear, the grief. I felt guilty at a young age. I experienced so much shame and self hate. The skin piercing feeling that you don't belong any, don't feel comfortable w anyone, no one understanding, no one even acknowledging my pain, the hurt I felt too. I was a kid and I needed protection. I will always morn for child me. I'm grateful of the energy, despite being extremely toxic at times, from my mother. I come from extremely messed up ancestry on both sides, mom and dad. Trauma is not really acknowledged in the black community so I can see how and why my parents are the way that they are. A long time was spent victimizing myself, hating my poor child self. I see why the pain was so great now. I've only just turned 17 but I've learned self compassion and it's changed my life. I've never seen myself as a person who deserved to be cared and protected for, this is what I internalized from my environment, the media, etc. But it wasn't true. I no longer hold resentment for anyone who's ever hurt me. It taught me true self value and that can never be replaced. I will never treat myself like that again. I will forever put me first from now on.
my mother had sun conjunct pluto in Cancer. Her father died when she was 2 years old. Two husbands; she had five children and lived to be 94. she became stronger and stronger through the decades.
Geez. This is my third time watching in swveral years. So ON POINT
Scorpio Sun/Pluto.- No problematic male relationships but my father died young.
Arlene Crilly Sun Scorpio conjunct Pluto in the first house. My dad died young as well.
My step daddy past away young....
So empowered just listening to you dear Pluto One! I stand right now in this power play with a Pluto rising son and his Pluto Sun Father. Oh and also a Pluto ruled Sun dog ♏. Lol . Surrounded by Pluto who just crossed over my Natal Sun 🌞.
I can take it up another notch now...while claiming and owning my POWER. I am grateful they are my teachers.
Keep doing what you're doing. It's far reaching! Cheers!
Sun Pluto trine here. :)
This is a deep breakdown and i so appreciate it. My boyfriend has Sun opposite Pluto in his natal. (Putting his sun also opposite my Pluto in synastry). These elements are very true to him and his life. He feels he has to prove himself when men are around.. that he's tough, has money and is desirable by women.. But it comes from a history of feeling unseen and feeling not respected enough by men around him and in his life. This never happens when only women are around. It's interesting.
I believe he also has issues with his father but wont tell me exactly what that is... Secretive Pluto doesn't want to talk about it. He's told me about so much trauma he's been through.. It must be bad or just hit so personally. 💔
Great video, this is spot on with everything said. Sun conjunct Pluto.
This is the best description of Sun-Pluto that I've watched for women.
So true. I have Sun trine Pluto. My biological father never officially recognised me, the father who raised me was an alcoholic, my brother was always cold and never acknowledged me before I turned 30, I found it odd that at some point I have to fight with all my female friends boyfriends.
Now all makes more sense. Thank you 😊
Brilliant insights, Tara! Thank you for sharing. I resonate with you. I am a Sun square Pluto fatherless daughter since an early childhood. It was very hard for me to embrace my feminine energy. Still feels like I haven't found my equal. The closest I ever got to was with a Sun conjunct Pluto male.
It really is my pleasure, and thank you for sharing your experiences. Interesting that you were interacting with a Sun/Pluto male!
Okay so hello from the future (🤣😅). I have sun square pluto and oh boy what a ride! I resonate with pretty much everything you said. As from my experience, it is easy for me to intimidate both men and women. My dad, has been in and out of my life ever since I was little (like Arroyo mentioned) and never got along with my mom. I noticed that men tend to...well not necessarily try to dominate me but they express their intimidation by spacing themselves from me haha. It's like somehow I am a mirror to them and then all of a sudden they run away. I also say that with this aspect you kind of have to parent yourself too, since your own parent wasn't there whether physically or mentally, however you see fit. As I am learning how to get my power back, I am noticing that as you said, people will do whatever it takes for me to not express that power. However, due to other placements in my birth chart, this is more so coming from women. It's like the same thing you said but mainly coming from women. I also realized that with this aspect in particular, we have to work from one extreme to another. Extreme doubt, extreme fear, etc. To do this, as I learned is to not have a filter. Now you're probably wondering how tf can you do that without being fearful or experiencing intense responses from others. Well, that's normal. People are always going to have a reaction how us pluto people do anything. And an intense reaction at that. So with that being said, everything you said is indeed true to the highest extent of the law! It's best to literally own our power and do it in a way that feels comfortable and unique to us, not having to blend into patriarchal standards. Love this video!!
Amazing! Pluto trine Sun, I've only recently realized the power behind my Aura/energy around people, I was so self conscious cause I could never understand why some people were bothered by my energy or they loved it- Venus, Moon & Jupiter conjunct in the 7th Men would be attracted to my intense energy; but they would have to bring substance or just as much energy which created issues; however I am Pluto Libra Gen. Thank you!
You're welcome! Really glad it helped to give you a bit more context for your experiences.
Sun square pluto with a cancer ascendant. It's a bizarre polarity. I can feel highly feminine and then highly masculine on different days. Yet both my masculine revolutionary and feminine maternal aims have been quashed, largely by men, who indeed have not seen or tried to repress my power. I usually don't feel seen by men or women. Although I have also found supportive allies in both sexes. Something always seem buried with me or about me, in many interactions.
My career has been spent fighting for the underdog and balancing power in society. I feel repressed, oppressed and supressed a good deal of the time. However, my relationship to my own power is strange-- as you mentioned it feels subterranean. I don't have access to it all the time and then sometimes it coming roaring forth from the depths. I don't know that I'm able to wield it consciously yet or perhaps I'm aware that it's yet not accepted in the world.
Bang on! Great video. Sun/ASC conj PLUTO in Libra, Moon & Venus in Scorpio, Mars in 8th! North node in Cap conj IC opp Saturn square sun/ASC, Pluto & DESC. In my case, what you see is what you get. Somewhere along the way, I "became the man I wanted to marry." Oooops. Come from a looooong line of pioneers, native americans & strong women but ultimately am my Father's daughter in terms of path - albeit not without a lot of clashing & banging heads along the way. I have been told by many I can really intimidate and had many past lives as a man. You can definitely feel the rejection of your power & intensity in youth (particularly by boys/men) but if you quietly lead by example, instead of trying to prove anything, it gets better & lighter along along the way. I mostly attract men with their feminine planets in aspect to Pluto and similar lock & key type signature aspects. That comes with it's own set of issues but...I feel they are the best poised to understand me and the depth required in relating. I'm starting over again recently and have no idea what I want in this chapter of my life but looking forward to finding out. I love my now life (which was hard won) and am re-defining what femininity & relationships are to me. I have a lot of hard outer planet aspects in general and while heavily Plutonian in youth, am evolving toward my Uranian side of things as I get older into more freedom and an understanding of non-attachment and flow and living life with greater ease. Interesting journey to say the least! ;)
I have a Sun Opposite Pluto aspect. Sun is in Gemini and Pluto is in Scorpio. My upbringing made me convinced that power was always dominating. I didn't realize until years later that everyone has personal power. I didn't have complicated relationships with men. My dad and I didn't see eye to eye growing up, but now we get along now. I was always the one pursuing romantic relationships too, but I was never in one.
This lifetime has taught me to love myself and never lose my personal power. I also have Sun Square Saturn, Sun Trine Jupiter, Sun Conjunct Mercury, and Pluto trine Lilith.
So you have an out of sign aspect here, which tends to function a little differently. What a powerful realisation : real personal power versus domination.
Very interesting. My daughter has Sun Pluto conjunction in the 12th house and an absent biological father.
I'm glad to find this video and be reminded that there is a community of women who can understand each other, and men who will understand us too. I have a sun square Pluto, as well as a sun conjunct Venus. I am not versed in astrology, for now I leave it to those w the calling and acumen (Tara Nikita, lol).
I'll say that I felt sexualized from a young age, as if i invited sexual advances. And I felt as if i prematurely enjoyed these. Later I experienced rebellion, of trying to express through sexuality throughout teens and never enjoying it.
After a few impactful relationships with men that steered me towards spirituality and eventually meditation, i have located my strength in feminine power: in meditation, breath, dance and that has allowed me to experience myself sexually and holistically. I experience an attachment to sexual expression and make my efforts to stay open minded and acknowledge that creativity is a powerful place for me to express as well. At 26 I've begun to explore improv and stand up comedy. I feel at home in the feminine now.
I also have an emotionally estranged relationship with my father. He pushed me hard academically. He is still intent on who he believes i should be or who i said I wanted to be when I was young. our conversations are limited. I feel unable to express my full self around him, so I tend to withhold.
I utilize masculine energy to keep myself autonomous in romantic relationships. That means that while I have a boyfriend now, I know I am to be investing my creative talents at the same time. I need to be whole, and I use masculine energy to make sure I'm continuously going out and getting it. Slow and steady. This video makes me feel in my power, actually. I feel so deeply, I feel so raw and this video makes it ok. From the alchemical process of settling struggle & tension around this topic, i have experienced the refining process people before me have spoken of. The liberation from the strife as I become comfortable and whole. Thanks everyone.
In my Vedic chart I have sun and Pluto in Libra (in my 7th house) not necessarily conjunct (11 degrees apart) but this is like hitting the nail on the head for me 🥺 thank you for shedding light on this topic . You are so gifted at explaining . I came from you Saturn moon video and that was so on point as well as my Saturn is conjunct my moon :( very appreciated 🙏🏼🙏🏼
Sun conjuct Pluto and Saturn/Jupiter in my 12th cusping my 1st house.. definitely issues with the father being absent for majority of my life both physically and emotionally. I am now further in my healing journey and I feel like I’m finally on the other side as I have called my power back but man it almost took me out 😅. Thank you for the insight. I have heavy 8th house placements as well and I take a strong liking and interest in all things astrology and psychology. Learning how to balance all these energies I have
Sun square Pluto sun conjunct MC Pluto in the Ascendant… heavy addictions, control issues, obsessions, deep darkness, violence in most of my significant relationships with men. Step-dad permanently damaged my spinal column when I was 11. No one knew about his abuse I still have trouble talking about it. Dad was in another state. He was very warm kind, loving… but saw him once a year. Just got out of an abusive relationship where I had to fight to be heard and in the end fight for my life. People say I look very young and are attracted to me but they don’t really know me.
Perfect sense about a masculine unexpressed type of strength and endurance, given the nativity and challenges to overcome!
thank you so much, Tara, I have sun (Scorpio) with pluto in opposite and your explication is perfect. I have all men in my life in a strange distance, I mean the men I like, and I feel better on my own because they don´t support me, even left me in important moments of my life. So I am very closed up because my inside is strange to most people, even being very friendly and helpfull, I feel better not to open my heart, because people want simple people and don´t like if a person sees or feels more than others.
Sun sextile Pluto- I can attest to experiencing patterns of men not seeing my power or shutting me down. It is hard not to take personal but Greta practice and I know, now not to attach to my pain or who wronged me- they have made me stronger. Very detached from my father and has been like this for years. Thank you for explaining, I’ve really gotten a better understanding of this placement and my role as well! ❤️❤️
So glad you found this useful. Thank you for sharing your experience ❤
Wow! Absolutely enlightening😄 and completely resonates with me! thank you so much for doing this analysis. I have sun (Aries) in 7th house opposite Pluto (libra) in 1st. I believe your spot on when you say this energy is being brought through in soul group/s to heal the collective conscience. It can manifest as a certain androgynous type of energy which I have intuitively picked up since childhood in myself. And yes the whole aspect as you described it so eloquently is like a dormant volcano. I'm very lucky to have a very supportive and loving dad as well as a wonderful husband in my life who are not threatened. Without these men and a powerful matriarchal mum & grandmother who have all shown me what egalitarianism is and how to wield my power in manner that is for the good of all I'm quite sure I could have possibly been the epitome of a great villainous fairytale queen (Snow Whites nemesis perhaps hehehe). To further complicate this aspect I also have Venus (7th house) opposite Pluto 😅. Needless to say I experience quite a lot of mixed reactions upon first meeting with people. Generally both women and men can fall instantly at your feet whilst others can feel very intimidated until my lovely libra ascendant combined with my Mercury (7th house again) conjunct Venus can smoothly communicate that "I come in peace" to people on first meeting them. However, others who are intuitive enough can sense danger and lots of power hidden under the calm friendly exterior and very often will instantly dislike me until they get to "warily" know me although they often won't completely trust me. Thank you once again for your incredible insight into a very misunderstood aspect!
My pleasure, and thank you for sharing this!
I have Sun opposing Pluto, and everything you said not only makes sense, but I feel like I always knew it to be true and you just confirmed it. Especially the part about being here as a woman to balance the power I had as a man in past lives. I've always suspected that about myself, but nowhere could I find any information about it. I don't even know where to start describing how what you said relates to me and my life, so I'll just say EVERYTHING. Absolutely everything you talked about resonated 100% with me. Thank you for the time and energy you spent to enlighten us.
Woaaah...the accuracy!❤️
My father figure was alive but absent in my life...so I learnt to live without it. Plus I definitely have had major experiences with imbalanced masculinity, which drove me inwards and reflect upon how a balanced and powerful masculine and feminine energies should look like.... within as well as without! Silent, intense power!
I have sun conjunct Pluto. My father has been not in my life for almost 20 years, since I was a child (he’s imprisoned). I then was raised by a single mom, no stepfather, only an older brother who I frequently challenged. I am a feminist studies major, and am always challenging patriarchal ideologies and structures. Thanks for this video
I have Sun quincunx Pluto in one of my yods, along with Saturn and Neptune, with all three planets in retrograde. Diving into my astrology has been life changing, particularly the aspects that have to do with men. Shutting down the power and expression of women.. Wow yes! It's been a process. Thank you for this very unique and *very* helpful video! 💜🌷
I have sun trine Pluto and Saturn. Years ago, (my English Professor) I was told... wherever Saturn is you perform like a soldier in the army, it's your Duty. When I looked up meaning of degree in Dane rhudyar book, it's about being comfortable. Being brave sharing your truth; dramatically.... and I've mostly hidden.... time to step back into the Flow....
Aries Sun in the 8h, 8° Scorpio degree, opposite Pluto. Lost my dad 4 days before my 10th birthday. I’ll admit that this aspect hasn’t been easy but, I have ‘grown’ into it and now it truly is one of my favorite placements. I LOVE Scorpio and Plutonian energy.
Again, I LOVE your content and I’m so happy youtube thought I might enjoy your channel. New subscriber, still bingeing your videos. You are SO awesome. 💛
This is probably one of the most helpful ways this aspect and life challenges it comes with I have heard ever!
Thank you for bringing about a new perspective in which to reflect and highlight the importance of purpose in our lives as well as a collective as a whole.
I grew up without a father and have always had jealous and controlling males or even female dominant figures in my life. I have had to learn more and more how to take my power back, sometimes in very painful and traumatic ways.
This helps to see a reason for the madness and ease to the evolution of our souls. thank thank you 😊
Taurus sun in 4th opposite Scorpio Pluto in 10th 😬
I am an astrology beginner. I have both my sun and Pluto in my 4th house in Aries.
I really truly love the way you speak to this aspect. Thank you for posting this video, it's really helpful for me.
I relate to this in many ways, namely coming "back" into my power (still looking for it) as well as holding the task of integrating the masculine and feminine energies on a soul level.
I have a wonderful relationship with my dad, my husband and many men. Growing up I always wanted to be a boy and to be around boys but I was always weak and wimpy and girly and never quite fit in...although I successfully forced my way into a number of male friend groups throughout my life. And yes, I usually have felt vastly misunderstood and held the painfully obnoxious and bland role of "the girl".
Jut now (at the cusp of my Saturn return) I am feeling very connected with all things feminine and even finding that my role models are shifting from only men to mostly women.
Thanks again for this video!
Alyssa Waller My pleasure. Thank you for sharing your experience here. Are you sure you meant to say that Pluto was in Aries? ☺ Double check.
Whoops! Not sure how I got that so confused. Yes my Pluto is on Scorpio
I have sun square Pluto and Pluto in my 7th house, I’ve always had really bad mistrust in my romantic partners like deeply untrusting but accepting of it? Like I’ll accept the darkness in others more readily than within me. My last relationship reflected a lot of narcissism, abandonment and overall deep trauma not only in myself but my ex. I’ve learned that these aspects create a deep rebirth and healing of karmic ties. You’re so right about female empowerment, that’s what I live for; I work at a gentleman’s club and have been a dancer and I loved the power I held in my body. It was tantalizing to feel so much power. Yes my father and I aren’t emotionally connected I always feel like I let him down it’s really hard especially with him being so religious and conservative and I have a lot of similar traits as he does; his creativity and big heart but we have a hard time talking my brother and I are very close. When I was younger I would wreak havoc on him because I was bullied but we’ve been very close ever since I realized and apologized deeply for my hurtful words to him. It’s awesome when you overcome your insecurity and heal yourself constantly it’s a constant healing but it’s positive when you learn. It’s like you’re a constant rebirth and it’s beautiful I love this aspect quite honestly? Though it’s been really really hard I love it
This seems so accurate. Sun conjunct pluto. My dad abused and ruined my mom and left us, and left her pregnant. Now he is in my life but is in complete denial. It has driven much of my life and it rips me apart and is so hard to not take personally and he doesn't understand.
I’m going to cry! This is also an aspect of mine- this year before my awakening- I figured out who my biological father was through ancestry dna test with no other real information.. I found out he passed in 2013 then I figured out by my “accidental” knowing fans research on how I went into the foster care system.. it was all so alarming! Then this awakening.. I also happen to be a lesbian... please if you feel you can get a hold of me. Your so awesome. And also so kind, for sharing your wisdom.
Yes, I have. I did have issues of power struggles with my father and with men. I did experienced being misunderstood not until I am able to process my own self-awareness, boundaries and to be finally brave enough to voice out my true desires and self. I'm a Virgo Sun sextile Scorpio Pluto.
Wow, you gave this info out for free? Amazing. Thanks for sharing. Sun in first opp Pluto.
You said you are looking for feedback, which, as person who really appreciates your way of communicating and insights, I am obliged to do. I'm a Sun Conj Pluto in 1st House (Libra), Merc & Venus in Scorpio. I am a straight woman who works in an all-male field (construction/trades). The only challenge I've had in the past has been with SOME male authority figures (not so much work related), not in my own family. My father has been supportive and though he may not support my present role overtly, he & my grandfather's work is why I was very interested in working in the trades. In a family of all female siblings, I bond best with the one male sibling, my younger brother. I have tried working in traditionally "female roles", but I never felt 100% comfortable and I made other people (women & some men) uncomfortable or intimidated w/o ever trying. I dressed modestly in clerical type roles, so no reason to feel intimidated, but I have noted that strong women are attracted to me in terms of friendship, so it's good to know that my mere presence can ferret out these people. Otherwise, I would have to go out of my way to make others feel comfortable with me in those roles. However, I'm 100% at home & love my current "all male" profession, mainly because the only people there who feel challenged by a woman being there are challenged by the obvious reasons; most of them are perfectly fine. I don't want them to feel challenged, just to know that I'm perfectly capable of my job. I knew what I was getting into, so I didn't complain of sexism. I'm often the only woman on my job sites, and I'm perfectly aware of the stereotypes some have, but I don't care at all I just enjoy what I'm doing because it feels right to me. That's all that counts. Once again, while at work I do not "act" male or present myself in any sort of way, but I will get challenges from others occasionally which I don't back down from, but it's rare. I want to do my job to the best of my ability, have what I need and be able to always keep up physically to the challenges of the role by keeping myself in shape. What is interesting to note is that my astrologer told me a long while back that attractive, powerful women were once male in a former lifetime and now I'm receiving my karma for (perhaps) the way I (in the powerful male role) might have treated women then. SO...I try to balance this karma gracefully and accept that challenge to correct it as I do believe this as well.
I have this Sun square Pluto in my 1st house (leo). I was the ninth child of 10 children and I was ignored and excluded from everything my older siblings did except for sharing meals. My father was an Army Seargent and he ran our home like he ran his job...a loud, intimidating, in your face bully. He was abusive and an alcoholic. My mother wasn't able to soften him or protect us. She was strict, busy and not unavailable to me either. My Sun squares Pluto, Uranus and Saturn. My Moon squares Uranus, and opposes Venus....and my natal chart doesn't get any better from there.......
I finally had a complete physical and nervous breakdown that lasted four years...and which finally brought me brought me here. I loved your insight to my Pluto and the natural aggressiveness and boldness I have. I have problems with men if they try to control me...such as my father, and my ex husband...and male employers and coworkers, too.
These aspects in my first house make me very attractive to men on a sexual level...but I'm not easy to live with, and thankfully I'm on psych meds to calm down my agression and mood swings.
Sun conjunct pluto in the 12th here.
Thank you so much for this, makes so much sense what you say ❤
I have sun conjunct pluto in libra 6th house. This makes a lot of sense to me, in the past I have had issues with my father, just mainly me wanting to assert myself more and being rebellious as a teenager. I often felt misunderstood by him as a child and that he was always preoccupied with what he was doing, he did show love towards me and still does, I have always been closer to my father than my mother though. I was very close with my brother when we were kids, however now as adults we don't speak due to being at odds about our mother and also my brothers wife has caused a lot of tension between us. With regards to partners, I have definitely had bad experiences and there has been mental and some physical abuse, I have always stood up for myself though and now when I look back I think it was definitely to do with power struggles and about gaining power, but it has made me stronger and I do feel stronger for all those experiences. I think having this conjunction in Libra is about balancing out the masculine and feminine within me and in society for sure. Thanks for this, it really has resonated with me!
So good. My Pluto is aspecting Sun, Jupiter, Moon, Saturn, Mercury, Mars, Neptune and MC. What you're saying is so true. Learning how to trust in showing/expressing my fullness as it is has been a lifelong journey, and only really am coming to understand/appreciate this specifically only recently. The Pluto/Sun (conjunct Jupiter) aspect is a square
Interesting! I have a Midheaven Sun Virgo/Pluto conjunction in the 10th. Scorpio Ascendant. Wow. Yes, to the idea of restoring the relationship of masculine/feminine vibration. Love this. Thank you!
Sun square Pluto, everything you said was accurate especially about the father. Thank you❤️
Shakane Dean My pleasure. So happy you found it useful
I have sun square Pluto(pluto and Chiron in Sagittarius, and my father just so happens to have his Sun in Sag) and throughout my life have experienced this very dynamic. Fear and being afraid to speak my truth(or ever express myself in any way where I didn't come across as "perfect" in fear of feeling shamed or not meeting impossible standards of who I should be was a mainstay in whatever semblance of a relationship I did have with my father. Wounds surrounding trust, safety and security(root energy) had me in fight or flight, and so naturally as I was operating most of the time from fear, a wounded dominant masculine ego presented itself in my expression. Feeling like I always had to one up any man in the room while teetering with adhering to patriarchal standards of how I should be in the world. I gained a great deal of insight and perspective once I knew that these were all patterns and programs being expressed. Not taking it too personally and being able to see a higher logic to it all helped me reclaim my power and sovereignty and decide to move on in my life with dignity, knowing I decided that I was no longer going to give in and give my power to away or make myself small. A process of remembering my truth and from there, like magic, all of life opened up in infinite possibilities for me to be free.
Thanks so much for sharing this Cheryl.
Interesting video! I have sun in Leo square Pluto in Scorpio. I’m also a Scorpio ascendant so Pluto in Scorpio is in my 1st house. I’m very much so Plutonian lol....my relationship with my father is actually great because he was the only parent who wasn’t controlling but instead allowed me to be myself. That’s not to say he didn’t try to “direct my steps” that’s when my stubbornness comes out according to him LOL. I tell my boyfriend all the time that I have a lot of masculine energy and that’s me intuitively analyzing myself. I’ve always felt not very feminine but I’ve recently had a daughter, and that has changed my energy for the better. She’s taught
me to be more loving to myself since I breastfeed I have to watch out of my diet. I give my boyfriend hell because I put up such a fight when I can’t have certain foods but deep down I’m like “girl you need this discipline and self love because when you take better care of self you’ll take better care with others”. Thank for this video. It’s glad to
know I’m not weird for feeling masculine and that I can use the energy to redefine who women are and their capabilities
Oh and not to mention my daughter is Aries Sun, Scorpio moon and ascendant. Her sun also squares her Pluto in Capricorn but luckily it’s not in a tighter orb as mine. So I will definitely have to teach her how to handle that inner conflict into something uniquely beautiful
Elle Lavon Thank you so much for sharing your experience. This is definitely going in my astrological files ❤
My son has the same astrological configration, but his father rejected him at birth.
This video has helped me a lot. It’s very on point. I deeply resonated with the view and interpretation of how those energies are expressing themselves together. Thank you for the genuine and unique perspective.
I have a Moon Pluto opposition with Pluto in my 4th house. Also a Pluto sextile with Sun, Venus, Jupiter and Neptune. I’m just beginning to really grasp how this plays out into my being... 🙏🙏🙏
this for sure resonates with me! pluto in scoprio squares my sun in aries and I can be SUCH an intense person! I feel I have a lot of deep, divine feminine power that I am only now able to step in to after going through my underworld journey and integrating this intensity, learning how to use my power *as a woman* to change my life and change the world.
and yes I have had a charged relationship with my father all my life, and have struggled to be in intimate relationships with men while I was on my healing journey. i've had boyfriends who (I have allowed to) shut down my powerful personality. I feel now I can embrace my femininity in a way that is empowering and that I have balanced myself withing, and my relationship to the masculine energy is so much healthier and happier!! I do feel I may have been a powerful...sorcerer in a past life? haha, something like that. my north node in taurus is teaching me now to embody loving, venusian magic in this lifetime in balance with nature and in harmony with all energies. and yes, I feel that now that this..deep, dark, magnetic plutonian energy is in harmony with my soft loving femining energies that I am very smoldering! I feel a strong energy inside of me and I know it makes people very curious about me.
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I have Sun opposite Pluto and the first few years with my father were the best.
I saw him almost like God and placed him on a super high pedestal.... Of course there was a major collapse and my father fell far, far from what I thought he was to me. It hurt so much because I unconsciously was imitating him and all his negativity... It wasn't what I wanted and I felt trapped. It was like there was no sunshine anywhere for me to go and bask in and learn from. Only darkness everywhere...sucking up all the light that would come from me... I hated it... My father and I always had differing beliefs... I fought with him a lot.
The worse was when i gave in to him... I felt my soul and individuality die because of him, or actually, it was because of me. I gave up. I stopped fighting back because all I can think about was how difficult I was being to my dad when he overworks himself to the point of saying, "I feel so dead."
I felt it was my fault because I wasn't a perfect child to him. I kept thinking people will blame me for giving him a hard time. But I was the one who felt like dying as well. I had dreams that died and i felt suffocated by his constant disapproval, criticism, questioning, and heart stabbing words. I was only 7! How could I not be so troublesome? Children are meant to be troublesome! They need guidance and don't know any better! I wish he would've just given me up to someone else if i was so hard to take care of... He wouldn't want to believe I was his child...And he blamed mom for having a child like me! How cruel is that!
Our Sun, Moon, Mercury, Mars, and Pluto square each other, and our venus inconjunct. We both couldn't understand each other. Our minds were too different to understand each other. I was more like Air and he was more like Earth. We both drove each other crazy! We both had different needs that were not being met...
My relationship with my father is better now however and he yields to me more often than before. Almost treating me like a princess again... But we do have Venus conjunct Neptune in our synastry... I just...want to feel like i can breathe... Relationships shouldn't feel like you're walking on eggshells or be filled with fear of everything you or the other person does. Relationships shouldn't be built on fear. I'm scared of hurting him, he's scared of hurting me, he's scared i'm leaving, I'm scared he's going to leave, there is fear in every corner that there is no room for growth. Everything we do is not out of love, but of fear. I can't stand it...
But like I said, things are better between my father and I.
We are both difficult people. I just wish there was someone in our lives who could've mediate between us or given us some kind of positive pep talk...
Anyways, sorry for the long post. It really spoke to me when you said we can use power in other ways and not just like a man would. I realized my power does come off too masculine. I need to find that balance. thanks!
No need to apologize at all for the length. I really appreciate you taking the time to share your very personal experiences with us here. What I appreciate is how much this video has allowed people to put pen to paper about their innermost feelings. Happy you found it useful.
Oh my god I have a similar relationship to my dad. I also have cancer south node, etc with Chiron in 5th house Leo. I eventually moved abroad to Germany because I couldn’t take the bullshit anymore. But now I’m reaching a new stage in my life where I must finally deal with my problems and it’s all so much, all this self discovery. But at least it’s good to know that there are others out there like me.
This explanation helped me understand my father more. I have Pluto Rx and still trying to understand, Men underestimate me and I try and hold back, but when I do let loss they are surprised to see my tenacity. Only those people close to me are allowed to give input or calm me down.
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Soul Sister this was the best explanation I've ever heard!
My sun and pluto in Libra are conjunct in my 11th house, my venus/eros/pallas in Scorpio with eros conjunct the AC in my 1st house, my moon in Leo in my 10 house, and my Mercury and Uranus in Libra are in my 12th house with Uranus conjunct my Ascendant in Libra.
As well as, a Stellium in Libra in the 11th and 12th houses and north node in Capricorn in the 3rd house.
This explains why all of my spirit guides are male and friends are men with an exception to a handful of women with more masculine energies. All of my female family and friends have passed on.
Growing up, I was bullied at home, at school, on the streets. Men were very controling and possessive of me from as early as I could remember which was age 4. I was abused by men and even kidnapped.
Once I entered twenties I can into my own personal power and being taking control of my power. But as all newbies I was a bit out of control and did what I pleased without regard to the feelings of others.
The karma was returned in my early thirties. I began to balance out my feminine and masculine energies in my mid-thirties.
Now, I don't have any problems setting personal boundaries whether I'm working with my masculine or feminine energies.
Even though, I was working with both energies for over a decade my full integration didn't start until the 11/11/18 portal.
After experiencing many, many, many, dark nights of the soul since the 11/11/18 portal, I can say that I am whole once more.
I am grateful to all the men and strong females that got me to this point in my life.
In this now moment I am equally grateful be able to assist the collective of humanity shift their energy to the Divine Feminine essence. I'm truly honored indeed!
Thanks for sharing this video and for shining your light!
Much love and light to you all! Namaste! 🙏🏾❤
Finally a concise meaning of Pluto sun in words I found myself dumming out on many of my abilities to men mostly and women my brother made sure he voiced how stupid I was through out my life my dad thank God reinforce me and all my abilities encourage every expression plumbing, tile setting carpentry got my equipment and always said you are me on another leg no difference between a and women and men we all carry both vibrations male and female
This is spot on! By far the best interpretation/explanation of this natal aspect (from my experience with having this natal aspect) It makes me feel empowered! Thank you.
It's my pleasure. I'm so glad to hear it makes you feel empowered - this is always my intention 💕
Sun perfectly opposing pluto for me. I highly respect pluto and agree with you that this is a huge life lesson for a woman.
So happy I found your channel.
Really glad it resonated with you ❤
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Had to take notes on this one, your video connected all kinds of dots. Sun in Leo square Pluto Scorpio - both planets in their power spots. Have always been the angry feminist since 1st grade with this need to express revenge and other scorp things. it wasn't until recently that i saw how counterproductive the anger was, so the goal is now to transform it into something better. this video is so helpful, can't thank you enough for the insight!!
My pleasure. So glad it helped.
But the last relationship I had woke me up to my own power
I'm a Leo Sun Square Pluto in Scorpio, my MC.
This was very strong to me because really described my experience with my father and men in general. In my case, there are other aspects that intensifies this energy, in the chart and outiside.
I've always struggled with sexuality but recently I've fully realised it was much depper. I was born with a penis but despite my genetalia I feel like a feminine being, that said cause I've dealt with these emotional issues that grew over the years through a spiritual awakening, and I really fully embraced my power, first as a woman and finally as a man also, understanding my feminine nature but harmonizing myself with my masculine energy, becoming one.
But this whole experience happened internally, on a subtle level, like you mentioned, and something you said that really hit me was that this experience is adding to the collective energy in understanding and embracing feminine power, cause I felt this throughout my journey rs
I really feel it's a wave of healing energy coming in different ways.
Thank you so much for sharing your experience with us. 🙏
This is so helpful, so insightful- thank you for sharing this with us.
My pleasure. So glad you found it useful. ❤
Sun in leo Square Pluto in Scorpio
and ive mercury in Leo, square pluto in scorpio as welll.
Sun in Leo (3rd h) square Pluto in Scorpio (5th) 26 year old here. I used to have a very bad relationship with my dad from early childhood, until my late teenage years. He was present and gave me everything I needed from an early age - he helped me develop my talents, I never missed anything (material things). But he was a very oppressive figure, culminating in fits of rage and physical aggression with a disciplinary objective, according to him. He was very abusive, emotionally speaking. I truly feared him. Our relationship improved with time (and lots of family therapy), but I still feel like the scars are there. It generated a negative pattern in my romantic relationships with men, for sure. My last relationship was particularly tough, and I’m still healing from it. Very dreamy/prince charming type of partner that slowly became an abuser, the jealous/possessive/paranoid type, and also a very manipulative person. It was extremely hard to leave him, and acknowledging that I couldn’t be in that type of relationship, and that what he manifested as love was extremely twisted and emotionally hurtful, demeaning. I felt totally lost and detached from myself for a while. Definitely was a table-turner, life changing relationship, as bad as it was. As a Pisces moon, I learned to impose my limits and not sacrifice myself for those who do not deserve it. I became a lot stronger and sure of myself, but I still feel like my perspective on men in general is more cautious now - like I’m afraid to give myself. Pluto square Sun isn’t the only aspect in my chart that explain all of this, though. Some challenging Saturn-Sun and Venus-Neptune stuff too. Slowly learning to love myself and to feel whole by myself, knowing my own worth, is the current theme in my therapy sessions. One funny thing is that all my ex partners had their Sun in aspect to Pluto, and both of them didn’t have a present father (abandonment and death, respectively). My own father has Pluto in the 7th opposite Ascendant and Saturn (which are conjunct), and Pluto square Mars.
Capricorn sun sextile Pluto Scorpio. I always thought I was close to my Dad because as a kid I would go to work with him but as I think deeper, I would always want to be around him. I don’t really remember him ever taking me out or just trying to bond. Now that I am older, he constantly calls me to talk crap about my mom and when he needs something..... this video has helped me a lot.
I'm so glad it has helped you in some way. And thank you for sharing your experience 💕🔆