I binged this like it was the Game of Thrones...a compelling and challenging story told in a way that only Ren could. So glad to see this story end on a happy note. He seems to be suffering a bit of a relapse at the moment based on what he has shared...let's hope that's just a temporary setback. Wishing this lovable genius the best.
The one constant in your whole story is you never gave up and you were open minded and welcoming to every character you came across, inspiring stuff Ren
Thank you for sharing your life ... The Struggles, Triumphs, Determination, Loss & Will Power To Leave A Legacy. It's no easy task telling your problems to the closest people around you but to share it to your supporters, admirers and community is inspiring and gives so many, hope to overcome their own demons and live a happy life. From one Welshman to another ... You have given me the motivation to not give up on my chronic condition and to get to a manageable solution to start living. Cymru Am Byth 🏴😍💙
Ren, you just hacked any and all tabloids who would've ventured into digging anything from your past... and saved the hungry fanbase thousands of hours of google diving 😂 Thank you for being so open, honest and raw, laying your beautiful soul bare for all of us to understand. You are loved and respected by so many! Your work and mission are an inspiration, making a tremendous difference! And that's just you as a human. Your multifaceted talent sets the bar so high that it'd be difficult for the competition to catch up 😅
I’m a 47 year old man in the southern US. I have been in several bands and did the hip hop/ rock music most of my life. Never pushed myself and very lazy although I felt I had a lot of talent. Looking at how you pushed through adversity has spawned a new love for guitar. I bought a classical guitar because you played one in your hi ren and Jenny and screech. In the past 6 months I made more progress at playing than my whole life combined. I even started making beats again using my own guitar samples. I’m too old to make it big but the enjoyment will never die. You’re the reason my guy. Much love from North Carolina.
I love Ren as an artist and a human being! Only discovered this beautiful world of RENegades 6-days ago and it has changed my life. I'm now here for all of it and truly believe that he just might change the world to be a better place. Thank You Ren ❤
I was married to a woman whose symptoms sound a lot like Ren's. She didn't contract them until a little while after our daughter was born. She was a human guinea pig for a LOT of doctors in 4 states that were sure they knew her diagnosis. She was put through 11 surgeries in 4 years. Then a slew of "renowned diagnosticians" that were sure they had the answer put her through various supposed cutting edge treatments. She was bedridden most of the time and in constant pain, lethargic, severe anxiety, and hallucinations. I took care of her and our daughter as best I could whilst working full time. Luckily I had an understanding employer that didn't mind if I needed to leave work at a moment's notice and be away for prolonged periods. Being a caretaker for someone you love that you can't help other than showing your love and being as comforting as possible. It was exhausting but you don't mind because that's your soulmate. Hearing your story makes me realize we weren't alone and gives comfort. Thak you!
I don"t know you but I love you my brother. Your words.. your story... there is a reason you didnt give up. You are a light and a beacon of hope for not only myself but so many others. Thank you!
Hi Ren, no pun intended. Only found your music a few weeks ago due to a friend posting a reaction video of Hi Ren. I was blown away and instantly checked out all your videos. WoW am I glad I did. You see my wife has mental health issues and some of the things you discussed in your Chapters 1 to 8 videos really hit the bone with me because it's is exactly how she has been. I advised her to watch your Chapter 1 to 8 video's and boy did it strike home. Like you, she has been misdiagnosed but, she soldiers on and I help her as much as I can. Thank you for being so open with your issues. In doing so you are helping not only the people suffering the same, but you are also those partners of the people suffering. Thank you Ren, keep on keeping on and stay Awesome.
I have fibromyalgia and ankyolising spondylitis (according to my doctors) These chapters were so fucking hard to sit through, but so worth it. I was in tears for a lot of this. I am a 35yr old man who was on track to be an active father and a carpenter, then the debilitating pain started. I went from an active man in my early 20s to someone i still dont recognise, my wife went from parter to carer and i have spent 10+yrs mostly bedbound. I know exactly how i will leave the world if i lose the stubbornness to live for the sake of those who love me. It is Ren's story and music that has helped me to keep that stubbornness in the past year, so on behalf of my family i have nothing but gratitude for Ren.
REN SIR....OR SIR REN...YOU ARE AN INSPIRATION FOR MANY AROUND THE WORLD...I WOULD LIKE TO THANK YOU FOR YOUR TRANSPARENCY AND COURAGE TO TELL THE STRUGGLES YOU HAVE ENDURED. HI REN CHANGED THIS 52 YR OLD LADY FROM TACOMA, WASHINGTON AND I AM PROUD AND GRATEFUL FOR A MUSICIAN FROM BRITAIN! MUCH ❤️
Im so speechless. This story, YOUR STORY, so important, so painfull, so dope, so huge, so emotionall, so mindblowing, so touching, so fucking real, so beautiful in the ugliness of life- A HUGE THANK YOU REN FOR SHAREING 💚
Ren mate, you don't need to thank us, it's us that need to thank you. For your amazing music, your love and almost inhuman raw honesty. You make the world a better more loving place.
Blimey Ren, you can see how much of yourself you have given emotionally. Time to recuperate now. Fill up your own vessel to sail forward into your future. Lifting up many lost ships. With love Ren, thank you.
Only new fan. So only found this now. Couldn't stop watching once i started. Man you're an absolute legend. Even in light of your most recent post about your health. And after listening i firmly believe that homeless man be it a hallucination or a product of the psychosis was you(the part you described as watching on from the passenger seat) telling you its gonna be ok. Because the will to live is strong in you so that part of you knows you will always dig deep and not give up. Because that side of you is fully aware of what your life purpose is and what you have yet to achieve.
Lol..baptist preacher here REN ( im not a bad guy...realy) your story is amazing, encouraging and I believe God is pleased with you! Nothing he likes better thdn an underdog who keeps fighting!
Well, that's me crying again. You're so amazing and to tell your truths like this is mostly unknown in life, let alone from, let's face it, the best artist of the 21st century (Well, that's how I feel), along with my old friends, Lowkey, Akala, and more from the 'Truth-Hop' era mid 2010's and a little before. So happy you're getting stronger and stronger, can't wait to see you perform live, I don't care how much it hurts me, I have to come to watch you play in the UK.
Thankyou Ren. For a guy who lost so many years to the hell of an imprisoned mind inside a tortured body, you certainly sound like you have lived at 110% with gratitude for each day since. But the older you get the more life - the good experiences, the bad experiences, the wtf experiences - start to accumulate, to layer and layer. That to ever peel it all away, to process all those moments in hindsight will take another lifetime...I have the feeling that your gift of music has an almost impossibly deep well of experiences, emotions and trauma processing to draw from; each time you create, each layer you reveal, connects with so much of what it is to navigate being a soul in a human, physical body. My husband had Lyme too. Was sent on his way at the age of 32 with a chalking up from the medical system to being a hypochondriac and his symptoms being attributed to aging (despite the contrast of his life two years earlier to the one he had with Lyme). So many tests, fears, and nightly episodes of vomiting which sent him to the ER. We were very lucky a naturopath here in Canada recognised it all as Lyme. Without her I do not know where my husband would be now, ten years later. She began long term treatment of antibiotics but treated his gut/body concurrently. My husband adhered to some pretty strict dietary protocols throughout also (AIP Paleo). He was one of the lucky ones (minus the 2.5 years of not knowing wth was going on). The experience has led to a fairly deep mistrust and anger at the medical system though, the blinkers, the black and white mindset which does not permit flexibility or possibility. Thankyou for sharing your story, and for those who stood by you all that time. I hope your Mum is doing well now that you are in a better (though not perfect) place, those years must have been so heartbreaking and uncertain for her too.
I just watched 1-8 in one sitting. I laughed and i cried with you on several occasions. I only want to say this. I genuinely thank and love you REN. You are the epitome of an empathetic beautiful human and it shines in your music actions and words. Your empathy radiates from you. I will cry in your darkness with you anytime and we can all find the light again as one. Thank you for pushing yourself to tell your beautiful story with us. Couldn't of been easy reading off those pages and keeping it together. I know i couldn't keep it together listening. You instilled so much strength and hope to so many by doing so . this i am sure of. We love you REN. ❤
I recently stumbled upon the following Indian proverb and thought of you and your story, Ren: "In the end, everything is good. If it's not good, it's not the end." ❤❤❤
Through all ur continued struggles, the accomplishments are astounding. Be proud of yourself! Your talent is undeniable and for those who didn’t appreciate it. Well it’s their loss. Keep on trucking!
I'm over here on an emotional rollercoaster watching all 8 chapters on this fine Saturday night... And definitely not crying. I mean trying not to cry ... And failing epically
I’m so happy to have been introduced to your music. Hi Ren was my intro. Of all of the new artists I’ve heard from listening to reaction videos your music has been the most impactful. Thanks Ren😊❤
We love you to brother. I wish I could get the words out of my head that I want to say to you. I'm not able to do that so I'll just say thank you so much and you forget about the 4th Angel of your story, You. Sending massive love from Ireland 🇮🇪
I was diagnosed with schizoaffective bipolar disorder. I have been on 25 medications. And to this day still haven’t found the right concoctions. I’m currently on 3 medications at once. Every day I feel foggy, mental anguish, and a sort of pain that no one seems to understand. I very much relate to your story. I will be turning 30 this year and have lost my 20’s to my illness. I wish I could articulate my story as well as you have. And this shows your writing prowess. As someone who understands pain I am proud of you. Even though I don’t know you. Thank you for your inspiration and gusto. I’m currently starting the Keto diet as some have said that it has put their schizoaffective into remission. I hope it works. When I go to the doctor I will have them check me for lymes disease. Maybe hope is not lost. But everyday I think of death, and have also watched my mother become frail from watching me suffer. I wish it was an easier story. And I hope one day to live like you are now. Thank you
Oh jeeeeez! Just binge watched the chapters. Just when you think you know about Ren's story, you hear it direct from him and the deep level of love and respect you have for this man gets infinitely deeper. Wishing you better soon Ren. Thank you for all you do and will continue to do into the future. 🤩
What an awesome doco, which had me in tears. You have such a beautiful, wise old soul & thank you for sharing your life struggles. I wish you nothing but the very best, in your future & health. ❤❤
This is absolutely beautiful. Your life story fills my heart with hope. It is truly wonderful seeing you come out on top after everything you've been through. The little signs you had manifested as 'angels' in your life, that kept you going, that never let your hope completely vanish. It is insanely inspiring. I have been there myself, in a place where life felt beautiful and everything made sense, feeling like I was following whatever life's purpose was for me. Lately I've been feeling down, frustrated, disconnected, almost as if I've surrendered to disappointment and let the current take me. These chapters man, they are so full of truth and honesty and love, they resonate with me on a level that I can't explain. I have also been busking in London and Bristol, playing music in Pubs in bands and as solo, meeting people, traveling to play in other countries not for the money but for the adventure, while having amazing people around. Music was once a very big part of my life, but that has been on hold for over 6 years now. You have made me fall in love with it again. Your music isn't just music. It art in the form of a message, an injection of hope and life! Your essence transpires through everything you say and do man, and that is absolutely beautiful! Thank you so much for sharing your story with us. I might even go pick up my dusty guitar again and record one or two songs in the next couple of days. You are a blessing brother, may your light never stop shinning!
Thank you so much Ren for been the beautiful soul you are. Your music, your story, your life has helped this 55yr old lost soul to feel again. Your an inspiration to the world. Keep doing what your doing, and I hope your health continues to improve. Sending love and healing from just one of your RENegades in the Cairngorms 💜👏🙏
Sì è così semplice che sembra impossibile, c è qualcosa in Ren che attira positivamente e ti tocca l animae perché Ren sa esprimere il cammino difficile di un paziente,la follia e il dolore fisico di molti noi umani , dice quello che penso e vivo anche io con patologie croniche e oggi a 63 anni ho trovato questo gioiello
Ren powered through one hell of a week! 🫂You're integrity is incredibly inspiring! Thank you for these so much! You are my favorite not only for your music, but how hard you try to stay positive even when you're down and how you make music an experience. Words can't say enough how much I admire you! Big love and I can't wait to see what you have up that insane sleeve of yours!!❤
What a story it’s been. And this chapter was something else 😂 Thank you for sharing your story. Though your life isn’t without pain and troubles now, it is wonderful to see that you have found some beauty and joy ❤
I don’t know what to say. Words fail to describe how deeply your story has moved me, Ren. It’s not even just the story itself - it’s the vulnerability of actually sharing it - speaking all these painful truths out loud. I feel humbled witnessing such courage. I feel deeply, deeply moved. You are literally the realest person on this fucking planet. Wishing you nothing but peace, love, and freedom. ❤️🩹🤍
Continue to embrace those moments of serendipity and the angels that come into your life. Your story is far from over, but thank you for allowing us to join you on this journey. You are special, not just because of your musical ability, but the light that shines through you. You are an inspiration to countless people! And your story deserves to be told. We love you and will continue to support you all the way! ❤
^ beautifully worded, the light really does shine through you Ren, and may the angels keep appearing, however that translates to us on a primal and highly individual level...nonetheless we all hear and believe you x
I needed to see this today. ME diagnosis, going on 14 years of getting progressively sicker and basically live in my bed but still pursuing my treatment and dreams on the days that I can. Love and support to anyone else who is struggling.
This was one hell of a series! Sometimes literally lol. Loved the positivity of this final chapter, it felt like such a triumph! Here's to many more happy chapters and triumphs coming your way ❤❤
I wanted to wait until the whole series was through before i share consecutively on my FB page so that froends & acquaintances can get wrapped up in your heroic tale without the patience (I normally save watching any series s Ii can binge watch - patience is not normally my virtue, except for you when I dont have the willpower to wait!). I hope in some small way it will help get awareness out there for all those Missing. You're such a Gift.💝
Everything happens for a reason and going through all that you have and meeting the friends and lovers that you did only brought you into our lives. I won't speak for everyone but personally I'm grateful for all the "troubles" . You're living your dream now... even though it started as a nightmare. 🖤✌
I’ve had a rough couple weeks and have questioned whether people would be better off without me and if I deserve the life I have, but I truly believe that you have pushed me through this and made me realise there so much more to live for and so much more to come. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I can’t wait to see what you do next. You truly deserve everything good that comes your way.
Hey, something that helped my bleak thoughts, that I pray will resonate with you. This is what someone shared with me, it saved my 4 kids the heartache of grieving my departure from this world. ....Death doesn't promise us an end to the pain, thoughts, trauma, and hurt. What if when we are gone our thoughts come with us, what if our eternity is filled and stuck with those thoughts, what if the peace we crave on "the other side" still have to be worked through before the serenity comes?? We can't know what lies ahead of us in life or death, so why risk losing everyone we know, love, or love us for that small chance that peace awaits??? We may be just where we are needed to be for now. Hang in there.... Just this small interaction may be someone else's saving grace. I love that Rens music is helping heal some of your pain. I promise that your life matters and that this too shall pass. Sending big hugs and love. Cyn 💙🫂
@@Cynthiabecker24 thank you lovely. Your words have definitely given me something to think about. I appreciate it. I’m so pleased you’ve found comfort and I wish you all the best. ❤️
@@Cynthiabecker24 Wow, thank you for these words! This is actually something I've never given any thought, but now that you say it, it makes a lot of sense. Indeed, how can we now, if all the hurt and painful thoughts don't stay with us, after we 'pass over'. Now that I think about it, it makes more sense, that everything we experience doesn't just dissapear, but is part of us, no matter 'where' we go... Thank you💜
@LazyGrey My brother passed away on Sunday from cancer... During the past 6 weeks, we talked about so many fears, hurts, and traumas we had experienced. My brother cried so much during these daily talks that I felt that he left us a little lighter. Take care💙
I live in Brighton now and love what this place gave you, its given me alot. I wasn't here when you guys were really busking but I'm sure I caught you a couple of times. I'm a nurse, training as a therapist now, I'm a bit of a hippy and have been through my own stuff as we all have. Your music feels incredibly brave and authentic and real to me. It feel like you've put truth and depth into music on a different level that really connects with me. I hope you play in Brighton again sometime.. much much love and healing to you. Thank you for the bravery 💜
Thank you again, Ren, for having the courage to share your incredible story with all of us. I'm certain it will help lots of people. You're an amazingly strong, resilient, beautiful person. Lot's of love to you! 💜
Music should not give hope or instruct, it would be enough to entertain, and if it is good, make people feel. But, very occasionally, an artist takes the trouble to put EVERYTHING together, and do it not just in a song, but in a trajectory, in a way of life, in an honest and ambitious declaration of intentions. Thank you very much REN for existing. (PS: This message is in Spanish, I hope the translation is not horrible)
I cried several times throughout his story, but him swaying to the rhythm of his words made me smile. You are more than an extremely handsome man that can make amazing music Ren, you are a true inspiration.
Dear REN, I know I keep commenting in a Sea of comments. And truthfully I can’t imagine the amount of effort it takes to not only put this “type” of story out there, but to put it out in the world within the unique circumstances of your experience. And by this “type” I mean, that you have bared your soul and story to us in ways no one on a stage ever has, or ever will. I have said this in previous comments, but no matter, it’s worth saying a million times. 1. Thank you for staying. You didn’t have to, (ish) didn’t necessarily deserve to Uber the circumstances of the pain that you were in, but you did. You did. I personally am so grateful. For a whole host of reasons that matter to me and those around me. You ARE giving us hope REN. And you have fought harder than anyone should ever have to, to continue to hope for it. 2. I’m not so nieve to think that everything happens for a reason, on my world we make meaning, whether that be god, beauty, community, relationships etc. you’re struggle with all of this has shifted the narrative to be something so much bigger and more profound than “what we’re struggling with.” I come from suffering, but none in such a way as you. I can acknowledge the worthiness of my own path, but am able to persevere because I know that someone else in the world is also persevering. Thank you for staying, you give me hope.
'Trouble so Hard' has imprinted on my heart! I keep finding myself humming and singing it, and then I just have to smile. What a treasure in our musical history!! Thank you endlessly for the rabbit holes, Ren! It's always an adventure to see what's on the other side of the looking glass. 🐇
Hope. Such a simple word for an incredible concept. Thank you for bringing hope to those of us in the darkness. I commend your bravery in telling your story. Nothing but love and happiness for you in the future 💜💜💜
As someone who’s been going through exactly the same battle with health (same symptoms) for over a decade I am completely awe inspired by your journey and feel more connected to your process and music than anyone I’ve ever found. I deeply relate to you and I’m so proud of you, I’m proud of both of us for going through this and striving to live a full life. You/we deserve it.
❤ I don’t think I can say anything that hasn’t already been said..I sit with a smile on my face & a warmth within that gives the feeling that “all is well in the world”, if only for a short moment. Ty Ren, Sam, Connor, Josh….everyone that helps with the pure intentions of Ren. ❤️ love to all😊
Wow, who'd have ever thought that Ren and Ann-Margret has something in common like that? (Falling off stage into a railing.) At least Ren wasn't injured as badly.
My ex left me after 15 years on Christmas Day. She dropped off our 12 year old daughter and left barley seen her since. It sucks I know how that part feels. Anyway thank you Ren your music is really helping me through this dark time. Also thank you for sharing your story with us.
I may never get out of the darkness, but if there is a God, I am so thankful you found your way to freedom. It is beautiful to see you live rather than just survive because survival is all I am capable of. Hopes & dreams are too painful & I gave up a long time ago, yet seeing you shine is a beautiful sight to behold. Even if you do not get as many chapters as you deserve, live life to the fullest & I hope you use the tragedies & suffering of the past to build a better future and to live, truly live! Welcome to the world of living, we all have been waiting for you ❤
I put on Chapter 1 a few hours ago and just finished Chapter 8 a moment ago. It's not fair that one man must endure so much pain. But you did. Ren, your resilience and tenacity are an inspiration to us all. Sending love and hugs.
jeez man I've been stuck in my room for a few years now but hearing about your life makes me crave living so much. I'm also a musician and I want to experience this rock'n'roll shit. like you said it felt like a movie. I want it like that, thanks Ren for your story
I discovered Hi Ren a week ago and I've been listening to your songs on loop every day since. What I'm going to say may sound superficial because words aren't strong enough to match my feelings but the fact that this kind of music got so much attention and so many views actually rekindled my hopes in human kind. It appears to me that people maybe actually aren't as shallow as they seem, and are capable to be drawn to humanity, to pure art, that there's still room for authenticity and the world isn't yet swallowed by consumerism. Thank you for sharing your story, your pain, your love for life, your music.
I hope all of our love and support for you is as meaningful as your openness and honesty is to us. Respect. And a huge hug from this random bloke on the internet.
Naruto never gave up either. After being alone and isolated he made everyone recognize him, respect him, accept him and LOVE him. Now he is an inspiration. It's so amazing to have real life heroes. It is what you are to many people Ren. I hope you feel loved and I hope you learn to feel safe with that feeling.
I binged this like it was the Game of Thrones...a compelling and challenging story told in a way that only Ren could. So glad to see this story end on a happy note. He seems to be suffering a bit of a relapse at the moment based on what he has shared...let's hope that's just a temporary setback. Wishing this lovable genius the best.
The one constant in your whole story is you never gave up and you were open minded and welcoming to every character you came across, inspiring stuff Ren
Thank you for sharing your life ... The Struggles, Triumphs, Determination, Loss & Will Power To Leave A Legacy. It's no easy task telling your problems to the closest people around you but to share it to your supporters, admirers and community is inspiring and gives so many, hope to overcome their own demons and live a happy life.
From one Welshman to another ... You have given me the motivation to not give up on my chronic condition and to get to a manageable solution to start living. Cymru Am Byth 🏴😍💙
I’ve never been prouder of a person I’ve never met
These Chapters are going to save lives and give so many humans the beautiful gift of hope.
They already have ❤
@@rubberbandit8210Legitimately.
@@rubberbandit8210💯! They have saved my life🥺💜
This!!!
They have saved mine💯🙏🏻🫶🏻
Ren, you just hacked any and all tabloids who would've ventured into digging anything from your past... and saved the hungry fanbase thousands of hours of google diving 😂 Thank you for being so open, honest and raw, laying your beautiful soul bare for all of us to understand. You are loved and respected by so many! Your work and mission are an inspiration, making a tremendous difference! And that's just you as a human. Your multifaceted talent sets the bar so high that it'd be difficult for the competition to catch up 😅
I’m a 47 year old man in the southern US. I have been in several bands and did the hip hop/ rock music most of my life.
Never pushed myself and very lazy although I felt I had a lot of talent. Looking at how you pushed through adversity has spawned a new love for guitar.
I bought a classical guitar because you played one in your hi ren and Jenny and screech. In the past 6 months I made more progress at playing than my whole life combined.
I even started making beats again using my own guitar samples. I’m too old to make it big but the enjoyment will never die. You’re the reason my guy. Much love from North Carolina.
It has been an honour to sit and listen to you read your story. Thank you, Ren.
I love Ren as an artist and a human being! Only discovered this beautiful world of RENegades 6-days ago and it has changed my life. I'm now here for all of it and truly believe that he just might change the world to be a better place. Thank You Ren ❤
I was married to a woman whose symptoms sound a lot like Ren's. She didn't contract them until a little while after our daughter was born. She was a human guinea pig for a LOT of doctors in 4 states that were sure they knew her diagnosis. She was put through 11 surgeries in 4 years. Then a slew of "renowned diagnosticians" that were sure they had the answer put her through various supposed cutting edge treatments. She was bedridden most of the time and in constant pain, lethargic, severe anxiety, and hallucinations. I took care of her and our daughter as best I could whilst working full time. Luckily I had an understanding employer that didn't mind if I needed to leave work at a moment's notice and be away for prolonged periods. Being a caretaker for someone you love that you can't help other than showing your love and being as comforting as possible. It was exhausting but you don't mind because that's your soulmate. Hearing your story makes me realize we weren't alone and gives comfort. Thak you!
I don"t know you but I love you my brother. Your words.. your story... there is a reason you didnt give up. You are a light and a beacon of hope for not only myself but so many others. Thank you!
Hi Ren, no pun intended. Only found your music a few weeks ago due to a friend posting a reaction video of Hi Ren. I was blown away and instantly checked out all your videos. WoW am I glad I did. You see my wife has mental health issues and some of the things you discussed in your Chapters 1 to 8 videos really hit the bone with me because it's is exactly how she has been. I advised her to watch your Chapter 1 to 8 video's and boy did it strike home. Like you, she has been misdiagnosed but, she soldiers on and I help her as much as I can. Thank you for being so open with your issues. In doing so you are helping not only the people suffering the same, but you are also those partners of the people suffering. Thank you Ren, keep on keeping on and stay Awesome.
I have fibromyalgia and ankyolising spondylitis (according to my doctors)
These chapters were so fucking hard to sit through, but so worth it. I was in tears for a lot of this.
I am a 35yr old man who was on track to be an active father and a carpenter, then the debilitating pain started.
I went from an active man in my early 20s to someone i still dont recognise, my wife went from parter to carer and i have spent 10+yrs mostly bedbound.
I know exactly how i will leave the world if i lose the stubbornness to live for the sake of those who love me.
It is Ren's story and music that has helped me to keep that stubbornness in the past year, so on behalf of my family i have nothing but gratitude for Ren.
REN SIR....OR SIR REN...YOU ARE AN INSPIRATION FOR MANY AROUND THE WORLD...I WOULD LIKE TO THANK YOU FOR YOUR TRANSPARENCY AND COURAGE TO TELL THE STRUGGLES YOU HAVE ENDURED. HI REN CHANGED THIS 52 YR OLD LADY FROM TACOMA, WASHINGTON AND I AM PROUD AND GRATEFUL FOR A MUSICIAN FROM BRITAIN! MUCH ❤️
Im so speechless. This story, YOUR STORY, so important, so painfull, so dope, so huge, so emotionall, so mindblowing, so touching, so fucking real, so beautiful in the ugliness of life- A HUGE THANK YOU REN FOR SHAREING 💚
With tears in my eyes I wanna say thank you. May you enjoy every minute and may every minute bring you joy.
Ren mate, you don't need to thank us, it's us that need to thank you. For your amazing music, your love and almost inhuman raw honesty. You make the world a better more loving place.
💯🙏🏻🫶🏻Amen to that! Your comment is spot on. Much love to you ❤
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Blimey Ren, you can see how much of yourself you have given emotionally. Time to recuperate now. Fill up your own vessel to sail forward into your future. Lifting up many lost ships. With love Ren, thank you.
Its a book Ren, a best seller. Captivating story. Thank you.
With a new song before every new chapter.. magical
Only new fan. So only found this now. Couldn't stop watching once i started. Man you're an absolute legend. Even in light of your most recent post about your health.
And after listening i firmly believe that homeless man be it a hallucination or a product of the psychosis was you(the part you described as watching on from the passenger seat) telling you its gonna be ok. Because the will to live is strong in you so that part of you knows you will always dig deep and not give up. Because that side of you is fully aware of what your life purpose is and what you have yet to achieve.
We will always have troubles. But I hope the good times outnumber the troubles and that the angels stay stronger than the demons. ❤
Beautifully said, and I couldn't agree more!!!! ☮💟
"Thank you all," he says - no Ren, it is us who thank you - you've lifted a lot of us up. Cheers from outback Australia 🦘🦘
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Welcome back into the light. Thank you for sharing your story.
Damn. You're owed the world lad. I sincerely hope you get it. Be well.
Lol..baptist preacher here REN ( im not a bad guy...realy) your story is amazing, encouraging and I believe God is pleased with you! Nothing he likes better thdn an underdog who keeps fighting!
Such a fantastic storyteller. Thanks, Ren.
Music is keeping him from his true calling, audiobook narration.
Well, that's me crying again. You're so amazing and to tell your truths like this is mostly unknown in life, let alone from, let's face it, the best artist of the 21st century (Well, that's how I feel), along with my old friends, Lowkey, Akala, and more from the 'Truth-Hop' era mid 2010's and a little before.
So happy you're getting stronger and stronger, can't wait to see you perform live, I don't care how much it hurts me, I have to come to watch you play in the UK.
Thankyou Ren. For a guy who lost so many years to the hell of an imprisoned mind inside a tortured body, you certainly sound like you have lived at 110% with gratitude for each day since. But the older you get the more life - the good experiences, the bad experiences, the wtf experiences - start to accumulate, to layer and layer. That to ever peel it all away, to process all those moments in hindsight will take another lifetime...I have the feeling that your gift of music has an almost impossibly deep well of experiences, emotions and trauma processing to draw from; each time you create, each layer you reveal, connects with so much of what it is to navigate being a soul in a human, physical body. My husband had Lyme too. Was sent on his way at the age of 32 with a chalking up from the medical system to being a hypochondriac and his symptoms being attributed to aging (despite the contrast of his life two years earlier to the one he had with Lyme). So many tests, fears, and nightly episodes of vomiting which sent him to the ER. We were very lucky a naturopath here in Canada recognised it all as Lyme. Without her I do not know where my husband would be now, ten years later. She began long term treatment of antibiotics but treated his gut/body concurrently. My husband adhered to some pretty strict dietary protocols throughout also (AIP Paleo). He was one of the lucky ones (minus the 2.5 years of not knowing wth was going on). The experience has led to a fairly deep mistrust and anger at the medical system though, the blinkers, the black and white mindset which does not permit flexibility or possibility. Thankyou for sharing your story, and for those who stood by you all that time. I hope your Mum is doing well now that you are in a better (though not perfect) place, those years must have been so heartbreaking and uncertain for her too.
I just watched 1-8 in one sitting. I laughed and i cried with you on several occasions. I only want to say this. I genuinely thank and love you REN. You are the epitome of an empathetic beautiful human and it shines in your music actions and words. Your empathy radiates from you. I will cry in your darkness with you anytime and we can all find the light again as one. Thank you for pushing yourself to tell your beautiful story with us. Couldn't of been easy reading off those pages and keeping it together. I know i couldn't keep it together listening.
You instilled so much strength and hope to so many by doing so . this i am sure of. We love you REN. ❤
I recently stumbled upon the following Indian proverb and thought of you and your story, Ren: "In the end, everything is good. If it's not good, it's not the end." ❤❤❤
Through all ur continued struggles, the accomplishments are astounding. Be proud of yourself!
Your talent is undeniable and for those who didn’t appreciate it. Well it’s their loss. Keep on trucking!
I'm over here on an emotional rollercoaster watching all 8 chapters on this fine Saturday night... And definitely not crying. I mean trying not to cry ... And failing epically
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Now and forever. Thank you.
I’m so happy to have been introduced to your music. Hi Ren was my intro. Of all of the new artists I’ve heard from listening to reaction videos your music has been the most impactful. Thanks Ren😊❤
Great use of humor to diffuse the tough times. Thanks!
Thank you REN. Love you so very much.
We love you to brother. I wish I could get the words out of my head that I want to say to you. I'm not able to do that so I'll just say thank you so much and you forget about the 4th Angel of your story, You. Sending massive love from Ireland 🇮🇪
I was diagnosed with schizoaffective bipolar disorder. I have been on 25 medications. And to this day still haven’t found the right concoctions. I’m currently on 3 medications at once. Every day I feel foggy, mental anguish, and a sort of pain that no one seems to understand. I very much relate to your story. I will be turning 30 this year and have lost my 20’s to my illness. I wish I could articulate my story as well as you have. And this shows your writing prowess. As someone who understands pain I am proud of you. Even though I don’t know you. Thank you for your inspiration and gusto. I’m currently starting the Keto diet as some have said that it has put their schizoaffective into remission. I hope it works. When I go to the doctor I will have them check me for lymes disease. Maybe hope is not lost. But everyday I think of death, and have also watched my mother become frail from watching me suffer. I wish it was an easier story. And I hope one day to live like you are now. Thank you
Oh jeeeeez! Just binge watched the chapters. Just when you think you know about Ren's story, you hear it direct from him and the deep level of love and respect you have for this man gets infinitely deeper. Wishing you better soon Ren. Thank you for all you do and will continue to do into the future. 🤩
What an awesome doco, which had me in tears. You have such a beautiful, wise old soul & thank you for sharing your life struggles. I wish you nothing but the very best, in your future & health. ❤❤
I love you, Ren, thank you for using your voice and sharing your heart and soul. ❤
16:09 so Ren is not a bad guy 📺🧡
This is absolutely beautiful. Your life story fills my heart with hope. It is truly wonderful seeing you come out on top after everything you've been through. The little signs you had manifested as 'angels' in your life, that kept you going, that never let your hope completely vanish. It is insanely inspiring. I have been there myself, in a place where life felt beautiful and everything made sense, feeling like I was following whatever life's purpose was for me. Lately I've been feeling down, frustrated, disconnected, almost as if I've surrendered to disappointment and let the current take me. These chapters man, they are so full of truth and honesty and love, they resonate with me on a level that I can't explain. I have also been busking in London and Bristol, playing music in Pubs in bands and as solo, meeting people, traveling to play in other countries not for the money but for the adventure, while having amazing people around. Music was once a very big part of my life, but that has been on hold for over 6 years now. You have made me fall in love with it again. Your music isn't just music. It art in the form of a message, an injection of hope and life! Your essence transpires through everything you say and do man, and that is absolutely beautiful! Thank you so much for sharing your story with us. I might even go pick up my dusty guitar again and record one or two songs in the next couple of days.
You are a blessing brother, may your light never stop shinning!
"Dare to dream you can get out of it too" Amazing - thanks Ren you have no idea how hard all your words hit
Thank you so much Ren for been the beautiful soul you are. Your music, your story, your life has helped this 55yr old lost soul to feel again. Your an inspiration to the world. Keep doing what your doing, and I hope your health continues to improve. Sending love and healing from just one of your RENegades in the Cairngorms 💜👏🙏
Sì è così semplice che sembra impossibile, c è qualcosa in Ren che attira positivamente e ti tocca l animae perché Ren sa esprimere il cammino difficile di un paziente,la follia e il dolore fisico di molti noi umani , dice quello che penso e vivo anche io con patologie croniche e oggi a 63 anni ho trovato questo gioiello
Ren powered through one hell of a week! 🫂You're integrity is incredibly inspiring! Thank you for these so much! You are my favorite not only for your music, but how hard you try to stay positive even when you're down and how you make music an experience. Words can't say enough how much I admire you! Big love and I can't wait to see what you have up that insane sleeve of yours!!❤
What a story it’s been. And this chapter was something else 😂
Thank you for sharing your story. Though your life isn’t without pain and troubles now, it is wonderful to see that you have found some beauty and joy ❤
Ren Thank You for being open, honest, vulnerable, Real & for sharing ❤
Thank you Ren. We love you too ❤
You are an angel as well, Ren! For a lot of people in the dark, your music is our angel
I don’t know what to say. Words fail to describe how deeply your story has moved me, Ren. It’s not even just the story itself - it’s the vulnerability of actually sharing it - speaking all these painful truths out loud. I feel humbled witnessing such courage. I feel deeply, deeply moved. You are literally the realest person on this fucking planet. Wishing you nothing but peace, love, and freedom. ❤️🩹🤍
Continue to embrace those moments of serendipity and the angels that come into your life. Your story is far from over, but thank you for allowing us to join you on this journey. You are special, not just because of your musical ability, but the light that shines through you. You are an inspiration to countless people! And your story deserves to be told. We love you and will continue to support you all the way! ❤
^ beautifully worded, the light really does shine through you Ren, and may the angels keep appearing, however that translates to us on a primal and highly individual level...nonetheless we all hear and believe you x
Well done Ren. Seeing new bands on the streets of Brighton. You’re inspiring a new scene!!
I needed to see this today. ME diagnosis, going on 14 years of getting progressively sicker and basically live in my bed but still pursuing my treatment and dreams on the days that I can. Love and support to anyone else who is struggling.
Take a bow sir, you deserve it. Thank you for digging deep and sharing your story. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
This was one hell of a series! Sometimes literally lol. Loved the positivity of this final chapter, it felt like such a triumph! Here's to many more happy chapters and triumphs coming your way ❤❤
Love you too Ren!
I wanted to wait until the whole series was through before i share consecutively on my FB page so that froends & acquaintances can get wrapped up in your heroic tale without the patience (I normally save watching any series s Ii can binge watch - patience is not normally my virtue, except for you when I dont have the willpower to wait!). I hope in some small way it will help get awareness out there for all those Missing. You're such a Gift.💝
Thank you, beautifully honest . I'm sure you are many people's own angel ❤
Bless you, REN! And bless your momma too. ❤
Everything happens for a reason and going through all that you have and meeting the friends and lovers that you did only brought you into our lives. I won't speak for everyone but personally I'm grateful for all the "troubles" . You're living your dream now... even though it started as a nightmare. 🖤✌
I’ve had a rough couple weeks and have questioned whether people would be better off without me and if I deserve the life I have, but I truly believe that you have pushed me through this and made me realise there so much more to live for and so much more to come. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I can’t wait to see what you do next. You truly deserve everything good that comes your way.
Hey, something that helped my bleak thoughts, that I pray will resonate with you.
This is what someone shared with me, it saved my 4 kids the heartache of grieving my departure from this world.
....Death doesn't promise us an end to the pain, thoughts, trauma, and hurt. What if when we are gone our thoughts come with us, what if our eternity is filled and stuck with those thoughts, what if the peace we crave on "the other side" still have to be worked through before the serenity comes??
We can't know what lies ahead of us in life or death, so why risk losing everyone we know, love, or love us for that small chance that peace awaits???
We may be just where we are needed to be for now.
Hang in there....
Just this small interaction may be someone else's saving grace.
I love that Rens music is helping heal some of your pain.
I promise that your life matters and that this too shall pass.
Sending big hugs and love.
Cyn 💙🫂
@@Cynthiabecker24 thank you lovely. Your words have definitely given me something to think about. I appreciate it. I’m so pleased you’ve found comfort and I wish you all the best. ❤️
@@Cynthiabecker24 Wow, thank you for these words! This is actually something I've never given any thought, but now that you say it, it makes a lot of sense. Indeed, how can we now, if all the hurt and painful thoughts don't stay with us, after we 'pass over'. Now that I think about it, it makes more sense, that everything we experience doesn't just dissapear, but is part of us, no matter 'where' we go... Thank you💜
@@kieranicolle 💐💐💐
@LazyGrey My brother passed away on Sunday from cancer... During the past 6 weeks, we talked about so many fears, hurts, and traumas we had experienced. My brother cried so much during these daily talks that I felt that he left us a little lighter. Take care💙
thank you Ren for giving a sense of safe space to let a little of it out
I live in Brighton now and love what this place gave you, its given me alot. I wasn't here when you guys were really busking but I'm sure I caught you a couple of times.
I'm a nurse, training as a therapist now, I'm a bit of a hippy and have been through my own stuff as we all have. Your music feels incredibly brave and authentic and real to me. It feel like you've put truth and depth into music on a different level that really connects with me.
I hope you play in Brighton again sometime.. much much love and healing to you. Thank you for the bravery 💜
All I can say is Thank You Sir! So powerful!
A quote from a late friend of mine: "The duties of the will do not end where ability fails".
After watching these videos I sat and cried wow so much for one man to go through 😥😘
You just have to respect him and love how inspiring he is.
Thank you again, Ren, for having the courage to share your incredible story with all of us. I'm certain it will help lots of people. You're an amazingly strong, resilient, beautiful person. Lot's of love to you! 💜
proud of every path you've taken to get yourself here Ren 💜
Music should not give hope or instruct, it would be enough to entertain, and if it is good, make people feel.
But, very occasionally, an artist takes the trouble to put EVERYTHING together, and do it not just in a song, but in a trajectory, in a way of life, in an honest and ambitious declaration of intentions.
Thank you very much REN for existing.
(PS: This message is in Spanish, I hope the translation is not horrible)
Love you Ren and I know you have many more chapters to live and share.
I cried several times throughout his story, but him swaying to the rhythm of his words made me smile. You are more than an extremely handsome man that can make amazing music Ren, you are a true inspiration.
From what I understand "Tom is a f,*ING genius"
Dear REN, I know I keep commenting in a Sea of comments. And truthfully I can’t imagine the amount of effort it takes to not only put this “type” of story out there, but to put it out in the world within the unique circumstances of your experience. And by this “type” I mean, that you have bared your soul and story to us in ways no one on a stage ever has, or ever will. I have said this in previous comments, but no matter, it’s worth saying a million times.
1. Thank you for staying. You didn’t have to, (ish) didn’t necessarily deserve to Uber the circumstances of the pain that you were in, but you did. You did. I personally am so grateful. For a whole host of reasons that matter to me and those around me. You ARE giving us hope REN. And you have fought harder than anyone should ever have to, to continue to hope for it.
2. I’m not so nieve to think that everything happens for a reason, on my world we make meaning, whether that be god, beauty, community, relationships etc. you’re struggle with all of this has shifted the narrative to be something so much bigger and more profound than “what we’re struggling with.” I come from suffering, but none in such a way as you. I can acknowledge the worthiness of my own path, but am able to persevere because I know that someone else in the world is also persevering.
Thank you for staying, you give me hope.
'kin ell Ren! what an emotional rollercoaster, big ups for sharing it all.✊
We love you a little bit more every time Ren 🧡please do more of these story times 🙏🙏
'Trouble so Hard' has imprinted on my heart! I keep finding myself humming and singing it, and then I just have to smile. What a treasure in our musical history!! Thank you endlessly for the rabbit holes, Ren! It's always an adventure to see what's on the other side of the looking glass. 🐇
Ren, found out I am Welsh. Looked up Welsh music. There are some but I like your talents. Thank you for sharing your great talent.
Hope. Such a simple word for an incredible concept. Thank you for bringing hope to those of us in the darkness. I commend your bravery in telling your story. Nothing but love and happiness for you in the future 💜💜💜
As someone who’s been going through exactly the same battle with health (same symptoms) for over a decade I am completely awe inspired by your journey and feel more connected to your process and music than anyone I’ve ever found. I deeply relate to you and I’m so proud of you, I’m proud of both of us for going through this and striving to live a full life. You/we deserve it.
Thank for these chapters. Selfishly sad that’s it for now.
❤ I don’t think I can say anything that hasn’t already been said..I sit with a smile on my face & a warmth within that gives the feeling that “all is well in the world”, if only for a short moment. Ty Ren, Sam, Connor, Josh….everyone that helps with the pure intentions of Ren. ❤️ love to all😊
Definitely a new chapter, a new beginning, and nowhere near the end. Pew pew... go get 'em! We'll be along for the ride.
Wow, who'd have ever thought that Ren and Ann-Margret has something in common like that? (Falling off stage into a railing.) At least Ren wasn't injured as badly.
My ex left me after 15 years on Christmas Day. She dropped off our 12 year old daughter and left barley seen her since. It sucks I know how that part feels. Anyway thank you Ren your music is really helping me through this dark time. Also thank you for sharing your story with us.
I may never get out of the darkness, but if there is a God, I am so thankful you found your way to freedom. It is beautiful to see you live rather than just survive because survival is all I am capable of. Hopes & dreams are too painful & I gave up a long time ago, yet seeing you shine is a beautiful sight to behold. Even if you do not get as many chapters as you deserve, live life to the fullest & I hope you use the tragedies & suffering of the past to build a better future and to live, truly live! Welcome to the world of living, we all have been waiting for you ❤
I put on Chapter 1 a few hours ago and just finished Chapter 8 a moment ago. It's not fair that one man must endure so much pain. But you did.
Ren, your resilience and tenacity are an inspiration to us all. Sending love and hugs.
jeez man I've been stuck in my room for a few years now but hearing about your life makes me crave living so much. I'm also a musician and I want to experience this rock'n'roll shit. like you said it felt like a movie. I want it like that, thanks Ren for your story
Im really gonna miss listening to these every night before bed.
You are an amazing soul and your strength is an inspiration!!❤
I love you brother, thank you that you are ❤️😀 all best and blessings from Poland 😇🙏
Fuck yes! Only chapter one baby! Let's go REN
I discovered Hi Ren a week ago and I've been listening to your songs on loop every day since.
What I'm going to say may sound superficial because words aren't strong enough to match my feelings but the fact that this kind of music got so much attention and so many views actually rekindled my hopes in human kind.
It appears to me that people maybe actually aren't as shallow as they seem, and are capable to be drawn to humanity, to pure art, that there's still room for authenticity and the world isn't yet swallowed by consumerism.
Thank you for sharing your story, your pain, your love for life, your music.
How many “what the 🦆 moments” can one have in a lifetime?
Thank you for sharing your story, for fighting through everything so that you can be a voice and inspiration for others. You are dearly loved! 🙂🩷
Thank you! I truly mean that. You are healing many, and you are healing yourself.
I hope all of our love and support for you is as meaningful as your openness and honesty is to us.
Respect.
And a huge hug from this random bloke on the internet.
Thank you for your openness...related to many things in here..bless JOE's sacrifice and your will to fight
Naruto never gave up either. After being alone and isolated he made everyone recognize him, respect him, accept him and LOVE him. Now he is an inspiration. It's so amazing to have real life heroes. It is what you are to many people Ren. I hope you feel loved and I hope you learn to feel safe with that feeling.