There is an old Chinese saying that the best time to plant a tree is 10 years ago, the second best time is today. I don’t think the soil would have been rich enough 10 years ago. There certainly wasn’t RUclips. You are reaching the people you were born to reach. You are an inspiration, and possibly the greatest fucking musician I have ever heard.
The story of Ren is getting more complex and wonderful. Ren the musician is so diverse and multitalented that he is all genres. Ren the lyricist is truly exceptional. Ren the storyteller is a cut above. Ren the therapist many of us didn't know we needed. And Ren the man.. .. .. .. ..
What if this story has always been complex? Ren is metering the telling of the story and many of its complexities. Are any of our lives any less complex and interesting and at times painful
As much as I (we) adore you, Ren, please know you owe me (us) nothing. In fact, those of us in your orbit would be hard pressed to pay you back for all the good things you've done for us by merely existing. You are a balm to my soul. To our souls. Wish we could pour back into you so that you're never depleted again.
I was hanging in there until the part about your grandmother saying, "Happy", which moved me to serious tears. Ren, thank you for sharing your life with us. You mean so much to so many, including me. Love from my heart to yours.
Me as well! I messed the live as it was early hours Perth time here in Aus. So glad I’m watching this in the early hours while the household still sleeps.
That part got to me as well. I said good bye to my father yesterday and it was very sad yet peaceful at the same time. I was stroking his forehead and telling him how much I loved him as he passed.
I'm nearly 50. I've dealt with invisible illness since college... was told I was lazy, depressed, just needed to drink more water, eat more salt... anywho, I'm not here to share a story so many commenters probably know too well. I just want to say thank you, Ren. Thank you for giving a voice to this... to all of us who have been labeled lazy, or depressed, or... and if anyone has a voice that can capture people's attention, it's yours, Ren... thank you. I no longer feel alone & I hope anyone else who has felt unseen, unheard because of some unidentifiable underlying illness, I hope you know that you're seen & you're heard by me, by Ren, by the others in this community. Much love to all of you. May we all thrive in the not so distant future. I love you all💚
Autoimmune disease, six years without treatment, several doctors, misdiagnosed with mental illness, one simple blood test. It is so unbelievable to me how much I can relate to your story. Thanks so much. Edit: I had undiagnosed Rheumatoid Arthritis from ages 9-15.
I think it's even more crazy how many of us are out here! He is telling his story. But we still have ours. Which is why he's telling it because he knows there are a lot of people who can relate. ❤ hugs!
There's a good documentary on RUclips on the D W Documentary channel called Lyme disease and the fight for recognition. Worth watching for anyone who wants to know more what it's like for someone who has it. They talk to people who are suffering from it and their struggles with it.
@@Laurasings87 my Lyme disease was caught right away but it was back when they were convinced 10 days of doxycycline would cure it and all of my symptoms were just in my head. I've lived with it for so long I don't remember life before it.
I am someone who is not easily swayed, bit blasé about things but there is something about Ren that is so special, endearing, believable, real that you just get wrapped up in everything that he says and does and just crave his next offering. There is something so special about him, he deserves every success but more importantly he deserves to be well and happy and I hope that all the amazing gifts he keeps giving to us, helps him to achieve this. Top bloke Ren, thank you for being you
Couldn't agree more fam he's the best artist man he has drawn me in so deep & I can't get out every day I have to listen to him every day I get chills all of the time 😤🙏❗
Take note people. An artist like Ren only comes about once in a generation. EVERY SINGLE genre he decides to choose on any given day, he bosses that sh!t. I'm so glad the eyes of the industry and the right influential people are starting to take notice. But I know without a shadow of doubt he'll never forget his fans. This guy IS THE man.
No it offends sincerely I'm just saying that you know this is something that causes the rejection of self the rejection of others to continue. Of course this is my own expression of this which doesn't have to be wrong or right or in any competition of any sort. Not even at all however this in itself is that connection the same thing that Serendipity or synchronicity or resonance comfort inn being able to breathe and not feel like there's no way but into the madness. And feeling forced to be stuck inside of a name a diagnosis or any other compartmentalization whether it be any of what's previously mentioned but throughout a limitless abyss of epic poetry and limiting myself is in fact more easy to remain but only by the long-term education of inability to simply be me and for others to be them without need to reject or dismiss or any of those other types of statements or descriptions for diagnosis so on and so forth. These things cause bullying and neglect and abuse physical non-physical if there is a separation of any of that truly I don't feel good about there being need for that but yet then there's the feeling like where is it that I fit in?? And then again finding accidentally on purpose these moments of relief moments that help that inner ignition continue. Whether or not it's pudding song poetry if it's through just existence as is all that is in the brilliance of which says we exist and without Speck and that's a measurement in which where I might have limited verbiage at this particular moment but eventually this may seem like rambling or manic or madness and then again quite frankly it becomes a opportunity for that vulnerable and the magnetic pole to trigger someone to say something rejectable but yet even that I get, I get it end beginning belonging being under pressure not enough pressure being measured language and and then having to discover there is that scream like for my life metaphorically maybe but even that would imply that there was not actual reality to it but then reality that it exists and nothing in a metaphorical form who says its existence take snow second no first no number of measurement that causes that desperationthat brings us together because it's the language you're speaking and if we can say it like it's something that other people are recognizing and in fact being unable to say it another way but still it is acknowledgment of the recognition just by simply knowing and not taking and seeing where that is and what that is comes with all these things and learning what blessings in disguise actually really mean that there is something beyond the the shallow Halo definition or getting a word spelled correctly ET cetera. Just like the word gratitude, it's an experience really and I obviously wasn't assuming really in the full weight is there a full that would be like all that is and then having a limit to. This could be considered symptoms of which we all share symptoms of something called sick does sic mean more can it will it won't it know it find that Oneness that voice that expression it's it says all partaking in it. And therefore the joy in that is so beyond words we're convincing what one says to be of something separate or not the same or not relatable or resonant or bridging the Gap of which language that we speak and being limited is with purpose it has even more purposes I understand more of now. There's there's a desperate scream someone to hear me side of myself and Ignoring myself and not limiting it to said mentioned here but just to share with you where neither any of us need to be forced to disappear because of what happens to be a language connection that we all speak in synchronicity
I apologize for the text mishap it looks like I said no and whatever I talk into my phone because the other is way too frustrating. End quite honestly the the way in which I put it into this apparatus doesn't change from whether or not it's face-to-face or through outer space. But when I just had clicked to post this in response to you and your comment and inevitably to myself, I immediately had to come right back here and apologize for the misprint so to speak of the first couple of words which can cause things to be lost in translation. And that's an understatement for sure absolutely not an absolution of which cannot be also the solution and part of the problem part of the solution and no rejection comes without purgatory in the Trainwreck of brilliance insoles retribution, soul, instead of deleting and retyping which may happen anyways perhaps I'm just writing it through and talking it out in hopes to absorb it back in and the multi-dimensional contribution. It's always been a thing to feel others and yet I never really realized how that has caused a despair yet a accidentally on purpose finding moments like this where it's synchronous, it's serendipitous it's Magic it's a Time clock so to speak it's grounding it's like a hug yet then again is it it's all of it inevitably being rejected and then having this trigger where people have felt the need to respond telling me that I make no sense whatsoever end in a form of bullying whatever the compartment needs to be it's not at all separate from yourself. Although I get it quite sincerely when sometimes that can cause someone to reject that connection and there once again I find I should be used to this and I believe that's where it's been that's kept me hanging on until I'm 47 the blink or two multi-dimensional having an episode or so how much like I'm part of that pinball machine freak show sensitivity the gifts of vulnerability. The compelling response to comfort to help assist someone who I feel even more than of themselves than they do and where does that bring it, there's always this Continuum of reject accountability humility dramatic poetic Justice and a teacher and the student and the child and the adult and the parent and the dream and nightmare and equilibrium what is in the mirror smiling back or rejecting again bullying self and therefore the same towards those that I believe somehow there is a difference or separation but yet it's not the case. It's not just that not knowing and feeling where I fit but also I know how many more places that I do resonate and therefore have that camaraderie and that family of which the cosmic badassarry! It's the you that is me and the me that is you. Which there is no words I know to come and express the experience of you and them and they and us and me and we, since it seems like I'm sort of rhyming I should probably go ahead and use the restroom before I f*** around and find out and forget where to pee. LMFAO. Don't mistake the laughter for a complete joke and fantasy it's still true and if you know what it means to get a nervous laugh, and if not yet that's only because of the moment the glimpse the recognition that is not just through the windows of the eyes to see there's a language multi-dimensional and Magic glittery
Sir, I cannot tell how completely the American Healthcare system completely broke my mother's body AND sprit. I hope things are getting better for you.
The courage, determination, persistence, hope, love, insecurities, all of the things that make up a true human being that desires nothing but fairness, happiness & love for every other human with zero validation needed…this is why we connect to him so much. Why has it been look upon as a weakness by society? I don’t get it…we all feel this way but some can’t seem to be brave enough to let it shine when it counts. When is being true to yourself gonna be appreciated and respected globally?
This is the question I have yet to find an answer. It doesn't have to be this way, ppl missing out on tools that help you live a good quality of life. This is the impact of what a very long and harsh journey to be on esp when you don't have answers to the other things also such as health issues, financial barriers, socioeconomic environments/barriers. Qualifications of insert disability comorbidity of choice here to obtain such assistance or mobility ect device/service or program. can't we just say we need help w said issue- and if that issue is something that entity doesn't know the answer perhaps it would be more helpful to not double down, admit you don't know but say if possible we will find the answers together. This is not my healthcare system experience and I also worked in it to only be excluded from the care I also have learned from. Befuddles me to no end.
I understand Ren’s numbness as an after affect from the death. I, too, have lost very close friends, extended family, and both my brothers in a short period of time. One was suicide, another was addiction, one brother died of alcoholism at the age of 51. My step dad died in hospice, my father-in-law from cancer. My older brother died from a blood clot at the age of 59. I was the one who found him on his couch in his home. During all this I was dealing with an illness that is a constant in my life. Dissolution of my marriage…. I’m still standing and I carry on. Ren is a bright light of hope.
Glad to be alive at the same time as Ren. There are very few people that truly make me enjoy music - I have aphantasia and struggle being able to enjoy things I can't physically see, but Ren is able to tell a story so well that I'm able to see it in his words. It's a beautiful thing.
Your story resonates so much with me. I have spent 10 years in and out of hospital. Missed diagnosis, cancer and an autoimmune disease that could kill me, there is no cure. I’m a ticking time bomb, injecting myself twice a day in the hope my blood doesn’t decide to kill me. Hooked up to tubes every night. My friend introduced me to your music while I was having cancer treatment. 13 days after major surgery, off my head on oxycodone they piled me in a car to The Big Push, Manchester gig. The week before the Chalk gig I found out I was cancer free. I spent the weekend road tripping across the country with my best mate and daughter. Something I didn’t think I would still be alive to do, just a few months before. You signed my arm and I had it tattooed the next morning. A symbol of being alive. 2 years later in a hospital waiting room, a drip in each arm, a random girl asked is that a Ren tattoo. She has an autoimmune disease too and has been let down by the system, like we all have. You inspire so many of us without even knowing it. 213 miles away from Brighton in a random hospital room you connected 2 strangers. That is the power of your music, your story.
Who else would like to be in Ren`s head for 5 minutes . I imagine it like a huge library with all kinds of topics and stories you can think of. And you`ll get dizzy seeing everything. It will be a creativity overload. Better I just watch Rens videos, so I can take it.
I can easily be in his head. He and I have a lot of similarities. I doubt it's because our birthdays are a few days apart, but I get the free spirited, finding beauty hanging out in the dregs of society, thirst for knowledge parts of him because I've lived it. I don't have a musician's mind, but I have a writers mind. When I listen to him so often I'm listening to my younger self. It's really weird. Synchronicity. I know it means something good, I just don't know what yet Funny, I, too have broken chapters within my life up by the "angels" I've encountered. Each angel there when needed, each with a very different lesson. My personal narrative is punctuated by angels
Ren you are an incredibly brave person for putting yourself out there like this. A simple thank you doesn't seem like enough. I see where you are now and it makes me so happy for you! So many people here to support you! We love you Ren and never forget that! And she definitely seemed like your angel to have met her like that. That is so sweet and a sweet thing to be called! I'm glad she was there! Ren, do you feel like you're reading your own diary?
Your description of serendipity and as if you're just walking a path that's been laid in front of you essentially is exactly the way my life has been for the last few months. It's it's always good to hear someone else say that so that I feel as if I'm still saying I'm not slowly slipping away into some delusion
Ren. I have severe MEcfs. I wasn't sure I could watch this one - thought it'd be too traumatic, so I'm a little late in getting here. But thank you for being a voice for the ME community. I have severe brain fog right now, so I can't articulate what I want to say. I'll leave it with: Thank you.
Like crabs in a barrel, that landed hard. You must take credit for your journey into health, your tenacity to find help has kept you here. That in turn has given you this platform, which you are single handedly raising awareness. Rest easier tonight, knowing you are making a difference. Thank you for sharing your pain and struggles.
What you call serendipity, I call synchronicity, but I can totally relate. I also call it "being on time," which means ending up exactly where I needed to be exactly when I needed to be there.
Many years ago, I lost someone important who died by their own hand. Three months later, there was another death, although this one was not a suicide. I went to the funeral and as I was walking to the chapel, I encountered his wife. I asked how she was feeling. She replied with anger - "How do you think I'm feeling" (fair enough). Then she recognized me and dropped her head on my shoulder and cried. (For my part, I was too numb to cry with her). For some reason, Ren's video brought back this memory. And I wondered whether this is what happens for many people when they listen to Ren and certain of his music. It is like looking at someone who knows what you're going through or have been through. These are my thoughts at least. It also helps that he is a superb musician.
Oh buddy, you have been through what I like to call, "life piling it on," where one person gets an entirely disproportionate amount of tragedy thrown their way. And yet, here you are, taking the time to share deeply personal memories in the hope of helping others. Here you are, making incredibly beautiful and meaningful music. I appreciate you and consider myself blessed to have found your music and your voice. In turn, I wish nothing but blessings, love, and improved health for you.
My FRIEND caught HIV IN 1979 SHE IS STILL ALIVE AND ONLY TAKES 1 TABLET A DAY WHEN IN THE 1979 32 TABLETS A DAY SOMETIMES MORE...YOUR MUSIC IS AMAZING WORK LOVE MICHELLE IN GLASGOW SCOTLAND
I have never felt more understood than in the moments watching these videos, thank you Ren. Genuinely you are doing so much good for people, i hope you know that.❤
Ren, I said this in the chat, but it's worth repeating - this much vulnerability is hard, but vulnerability is also the birthplace of connection. Thank you for sharing, it helps us all to feel more connected. I hope that it also helps you, you wonderful human!
We live in a world where no one seems real. All “RUclipsrs” are just characters. I hope that everyone can wrap their heads around the fact that Ren is a real man, with a real story. What a treat it is to have access to a true artist. Nothing but hope for you brother ❤ Your success is our success
I'm sitting inside listening to Ren sing this song, and briefly walked outside to look at the sky, and a little wren was sitting on a nearby branch singing its song. Serendipity! (W)Rens make the most beautiful music!
Ren, I love that you still have a wicked sense of humour “SAD, bought myself a light. The only thing that lamp illuminated for me was that I was desperate enough to buy a glorified table lamp”. 🤣🤣🤣🤣I love you 💜 PS I was having a lesson from a car salesman today on how to use the info centre in my car. I was listening to your playlist and he said, I didn’t think you’d be into this sort of music. I’m a 70 yo female who struggles a bit with technology (I can just about cope with Facebook and RUclips) hence needing his help with the sat nav and tech in my new car! I was telling him about how versatile and intuitive you are and he went away listening to Hi Ren.
After 10 + years of being a victim of medical gaslighting (and I’m a nurse); I received my Lymes diagnosis by virtue of a Lyme literate physician and the Herxheimer effects. I feel like my calling and duty are to listen to those humans that enter my life - hear their pain, suffering, vague symptomatology and tell them it’s real. I believe them, share my story so that they too can get the appropriate treatment. At my worst I was wheelchair bound and writing my will, I’m mostly healthy now after 4 years of treatment with some neurological left overs. I wish you all the best. ❤
Thank you again. I really hope you sharing your story will cause ripples in the medical field so less people will have to deal with what you and others have gone through . It’s just horrible. On a different note… I am getting oddly curious to see which songs you will couple with the next chapters. So far they have been perfect picks. I think this is the first time I have heard you talk about Trick the Fox and your friendship with Charlie. It made the music video extra special ❤
There really are so many people who follow your story who will look back on their hard times and think “hearing and seeing and understanding and loving Ren’s music and story was my turning point to getting to a better place”
Staying on point. Talking the truth that your illness brought to you. Truth does have a life of its own. And it shares life with others. This is just documentary enough to protect privacy, while sharing every brutal reality of chronic illness. I hope these chapters will be shown in medical schools in the future.
Love the TRICK THE FOX track. A treat to see the younger YOU. Tight band! We are privileged to hear your story like this. Brilliant idea to do this. Diolch yn fawr
If I had to describe Ren in only one word (and there are so many descriptors to choose from), it would have to be... brave - bravery to endure life changing loss of soulmates, mental and physical health, a record deal of which dreams were made, a life's purpose, the ability to experience formative years in normalcy due to a mysterious malfunction left undiscovered for years. Bravery comes from guarding the seed of hope and never allowing it to shrivel and die. A seed of hope intangible, yet as real as driftwood to a drowning man in a last ditch effort to cling to a future that may nurture him to the shore. Ren is the epitome of hope borne of bravery in the cruel face of it all. It is refreshing as well as restorative to so many facing uphill battles in life. Gotta love 'im. ❤
Thank you for your music & an insight into your health issues. I've spent the last. 6 months learning to walk & talk again after a brain injury. I still suffer from it today. I'm your typical 50yr old man and I normally listen to Heavy Metal music but a friend suggested you. You've helped me on my journey. Thankyou Ren
How does young Ren have such a strong a voice at that age? That boi gifted...to the world. Ren, please tell me you have some bosom friends on the payroll!!!!!! Be safe you dearest boi
young man you tell a story like no one I know it is sad and beautiful all at the same time you bring tears to this old mans eyes i to have lost friends when it was not there time you are awesome
At 21 yrs, 12 of them with a severe case of Crohn's disease, which hadnt been diagnosed until I was 11, I'm really starting to lose hope. I've been throught most of the available medication, and nothing seems to work, or the side effects are too strong. I just feel left alone, no one seems to care or is even capable of understanding the daily suffering I have to bear. It's always: "Uhh you're just too sensitive", "snap out of it" etc. But this music, and the heartbreaking stories behind it, is always giving me some hope, which I desperately need at the moment. Thank you.
You are a bringer of hope Ren. You show us all 'How' to live better.. just by leading by example. Just by doing YOU. It gives others permission to do the same. Thankyou 🙏
‘Put my soul on show for everyone to see…… Cause even though it’s bruised, it holds such beauty….’ My favourite line of Runaway…..and you are bearing your beautiful soul to everyone. Thank you for your vulnerability, your bravery and for creating the beautiful art you do…..💜🫶
Wow I've never heard the song at the end of this video. I must have missed it somehow during all my late nights spent down the Ren rabbit hole lol. Love it. And love this man for everything he is doing for those of us who personally suffer with chronic illnesses 💜
Not on the same scale, but I relate so much to the medical industry not taking one’s constellation of symptoms seriously and not being able to provide root-cause healing, and therefore trying to take matters into one’s own hands, with some protocols that help but probably also lots that are counterproductive. If there’s a hope of improving medicine it’s by influencing the hearts and minds of upcoming generations of medical professionals before they get set in the current ways, so thank you Ren for sharing your story.
"I couldnt tell if this new acceptance of the inevitability of death was beautifully liberating thing or a sign of my humanity slipping away" That really struck a chord. Have often wondered this myself.
Being told you’re ‘misremembering’ when you challenge ‘them’ still haunts me. I’m imagining your next chapter and getting to explore the adventures you never thought you’d experience. Safe travels and much love 🫂🫧🤍🏴
ren PLEASE, and I mean this, PLEASE. don't stop what you do. you fucking help. I know what it's like to feel so deep and so out of tune with your own self. this is purely venting. you are the shit. you are so fucking pure.
What is he telling his story to hit the States & get on US charts, God Bless him he's a very talented guy, his music should be on the charts in US but he should stay independent cause it will change him for the worse... We all have stories the most talented seem to hve the worst, a rough past in his case his health, Good for u Ren u survived hanging on to hope & look at the outcome,keep Shining ur music is great , ur a guy who can K*ll any genre , go K*ck Azz!! 💯 🙏 🎶
Hugs to you Ren from Lisa a lyme and autoimmune warrior who is so thankful you are my voice where I had no voice 🦠💚🦠🙏🙏🙏🙏 Watching from my bed rn - I pray you keep getting better and better Know I pray for you daily
My experiences though different hold such similarities. Hearing this helps me on a huge level. I thank you. I feel I am going to spontaneously combust if I don't start telling, writing speaking on my life experiences.🙏🙏🙏
I feel like a mother to you Ren,i am 68 from sweden and have seen and heard the must,that is on youtube,i have lost two girls ,one 19 years old and one inSID at home,i have a son that was born 92 he lives far from me,so often i only se him once a year,so you Are My imaginaryboy,love your talangs and mineset ,Love Elisabeth 😊
I have the static vision an muscles twitching I just thought those were normal Ren I absolutely love your music I have never listened to an artist so much ever
Cried. Im so happy you mentioned lyme and ME in The same sentence. ME advokate. I hoped Corona would open up for more researc. My first job was marketing Big farma. Ironic. There where mold and I got worse.
Thank you Ren for your courage, for being willing to share your life with strangers that you don't know is a very brave thing to do. It must be very surreal having your fans wanting to know so much about you and your life especially with you being such a humble and "normal" human but so grateful that you are able to share it with us all. Thank you for that and for giving us the best music of our time ❤
I started to cry when you talked about your grandmother. My mum died 3 years ago from cancer, but i wasnt able to say goodbye because of covid. I feel guilt to this day that i only got a chance to say goodbye to her dead body
It feels strange to look forward to seeing the next chapter of a person’s story with so much suffering. Almost sadistic or being a voyeur. But it’s a compelling and cathartic experience that offers comfort, inspiration and understanding. It’s a brave and confronting thing to do, putting all this on paper and speaking it out loud. I’ve said it before and I will say it to my last breath. Thank you, Ren. Thank you for who you are, what you do and the enormous amount of yourself that you have shared with us. Never doubt how much you are loved, how much difference you have made to so many. I am so much in awe of you , as a person, a writer and your music and your humanity. Love you Ren. 💕
You are a master storyteller and your story deserves to be told. You are a ray of light and hope to so many, I’m so glad angels joined you on your journey. I’ve always said I never believe in coincidences. Serendipity is a beautiful thing 💕 It could be a good idea for a song 😼 Thank you for sharing your story. I hope it brings you peace.
Respect Ren. ✊ From a small town in the heart of America. I feel you brother. And relate. Keep fighting the forces of evil. You are not the only one who made that commitment.
I wish I had Ren's ability to express my thoughts and describe back eloquently what an incredible human being and artist this young man in front of us is. Yes, I have a few years behind me and am not easily impressed ;)
I'm not one to tear up much like i am listening to this, but damn your ability to tell your story is amazing. I've always loved your music but this series of chapters... so touching
That is my notification music on my phone giving me the chance to ignore. Dignity is my ringtone. You never are far away. I love you lad. That is hard for me to even type. Trust is hard. Numb is my go to with death, too. Too much of it. Nothing touches me. Oddly your music does. This is brave, what you are doing. Thank you. I am not the only odd person in the world.
I had a feeling I'd get hit in the heart with your life story. I knew the story of Joe would touch a sore spot, and it did; but fuck... Grandma was where I lost my composure. Mine passed earlier this year at the end of January. May we all die happy when it's our time to go ❤
i have extremely bad headaches that are just always there and if i sleep more than 4 -5 hours i go into what i call a "never ending sleep cycle" I just live with it and know what to avoid. like repetitive sound and i make sure only to sleep 4 hours up to 5 a day. Nothing is bad as yours but I do understand personal hell, but i always think there are people suffering worse. Thanks for everything you do Ren and crew.
Your vulnerability and bravery are such a gift to us 🙏🏻 ❤ “As we let our light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence actually liberates others.” ~ Marianne Williamson
"What I'm scared of more is having to live my life as a sick person" resonates so hard with me having been recently diagnosed with a chronic condition. Thank you for sharing your story, Ren. Much love x
Ever since I first watched Hi Ren the lyrics for Killing me Softly, (I prefer the Roberta Flack version, I'm old) go through my head with whatever you happen to be sharing at the moment! Strumming my pain with his fingers Singing my life with his words Killing me softly with his song Killing me softly with his song Telling my whole life with his words Killing me softly with his song... You're a mouthpiece for every single one of us that have this nightmare affliction! Thank you! Thank you, thank you, thank you! I'm 60 and can't afford any treatments or supplements, or even ibuprofen, but YOUR campaign eases my mind some that hopefully my grand children, great grandchildren, etc., will never have to know what Nana Janet went through. I don't want to die...but I don't want to be alive anymore. So many things I did, so many happy places, just make me sad now. Thank you!!!! God bless you Ren!
I have endometriosis which has led me to 3 surgeries, including losing my gallbladder. I also had a terrible reaction to the J&J Covid vaccine where I missed work for 2 weeks and was sick for about 3 months. The brain fog, all over weakness, headaches, and fuzzy vision was killer with no relief. I had to suffer through that experience with ridicule and hate from those around me. It’s hard having an incurable disease, even harder when you’re forced to have a medical treatment just to keep your job. The heartbreak doesn’t get better, you just get used to it. Health is the one thing you just can’t buy. My understanding of the neurological issues I suffered through was some sort of brain swelling causing pressure to my eyes. I’ve taken NAC and time to try to flush the poison out of my already compromised body. I can definitely relate to this so much! So happy that you got to say goodbye to your grandma. Mine also passed in 2018 and she had dementia so I didn’t get to say goodbye. At least I have happy memories of her. ❤ grandmas are the best!
Ren! Emotionally devastating me again! In a cathartic way! I, too, do not fear death but fear living always as a sick person and the reality of it is so depressing. Thank you for your words. ❤
The BBC has flagged up that it's tick season and to walk in the middle of paths as the ticks wait on grass blades for passing animals or humans they numb the skin so you don't feel the bite. Lymes disease was talked about . It's the first time I have heard this warning.
I've observed - and I've felt - that one way trauma steals joy is by making us more aware of the suffering of the world and that we don't deserve to feel joy while others are suffering. I find your storytelling liberating. That joy, of which happiness seems to be a part, is not only possible but worthwhile and the birthright of every person. Lots of love to you!
There is an old Chinese saying that the best time to plant a tree is 10 years ago, the second best time is today. I don’t think the soil would have been rich enough 10 years ago. There certainly wasn’t RUclips. You are reaching the people you were born to reach.
You are an inspiration, and possibly the greatest fucking musician I have ever heard.
Ren has brought so many incredible people together , and you fellow Renegade are one of them. Loved your message 😋!!
@@annasaunders2167 thank you. It’s a wonderful community that want to build each other up and support each other. That’s what I take from it that is.
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The amount of bravery it takes to do something like this is astronomical. You sir, are a brave soul. Sending love and light.
If you think you cant do anything, think about this man. He is a real, real MAN! Respect for this young fellow here!
Hes One strong Dude man ❤
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This is 💯
Ren thank you for Sharing all thT you have. You are a Strong Man that was Formed by so much Pain in Every Aspect and Now I know I am Not Alone. ❤
I completely agree REN is every bit a man, a real man!!! I love him and what he represents xx
The story of Ren is getting more complex and wonderful. Ren the musician is so diverse and multitalented that he is all genres. Ren the lyricist is truly exceptional. Ren the storyteller is a cut above. Ren the therapist many of us didn't know we needed. And Ren the man.. .. .. .. ..
What if this story has always been complex? Ren is metering the telling of the story and many of its complexities. Are any of our lives any less complex and interesting and at times painful
As much as I (we) adore you, Ren, please know you owe me (us) nothing. In fact, those of us in your orbit would be hard pressed to pay you back for all the good things you've done for us by merely existing.
You are a balm to my soul. To our souls. Wish we could pour back into you so that you're never depleted again.
I love this whole comment ❤️❤️
I was hanging in there until the part about your grandmother saying, "Happy", which moved me to serious tears. Ren, thank you for sharing your life with us. You mean so much to so many, including me. Love from my heart to yours.
Me as well! I messed the live as it was early hours Perth time here in Aus. So glad I’m watching this in the early hours while the household still sleeps.
That part got to me as well. I said good bye to my father yesterday and it was very sad yet peaceful at the same time. I was stroking his forehead and telling him how much I loved him as he passed.
@raymondmanning5555 What a wonderful way to say goodbye. May he rest in peace
@@brigittebisier495 .. thank you
The part where he said he finally got to say goodbye for the first time got to me as I have several loved ones I never got to say goodbye to
I'm nearly 50. I've dealt with invisible illness since college... was told I was lazy, depressed, just needed to drink more water, eat more salt... anywho, I'm not here to share a story so many commenters probably know too well. I just want to say thank you, Ren. Thank you for giving a voice to this... to all of us who have been labeled lazy, or depressed, or... and if anyone has a voice that can capture people's attention, it's yours, Ren... thank you. I no longer feel alone & I hope anyone else who has felt unseen, unheard because of some unidentifiable underlying illness, I hope you know that you're seen & you're heard by me, by Ren, by the others in this community. Much love to all of you. May we all thrive in the not so distant future. I love you all💚
I’m 51 and was going to write this exact thing! I love you and I love Ren too💕✨💕 we finally have a voice💕✨💕
Hi Cousin:) Uncle Harry was my favorite uncle:)
Autoimmune disease, six years without treatment, several doctors, misdiagnosed with mental illness, one simple blood test. It is so unbelievable to me how much I can relate to your story. Thanks so much.
Edit: I had undiagnosed Rheumatoid Arthritis from ages 9-15.
I think it's even more crazy how many of us are out here! He is telling his story. But we still have ours. Which is why he's telling it because he knows there are a lot of people who can relate. ❤ hugs!
me too, Lyme disease undiagnosed for several years , ren Is my musical hero and Lyme hero
There's a good documentary on RUclips on the D W Documentary channel called
Lyme disease and the fight for recognition.
Worth watching for anyone who wants to know more what it's like for someone who has it.
They talk to people who are suffering from it and their struggles with it.
Justin Rhodes has a yt channel about homesteading and both he and his wife have been battling Lyme disease for years!
@@Laurasings87 my Lyme disease was caught right away but it was back when they were convinced 10 days of doxycycline would cure it and all of my symptoms were just in my head. I've lived with it for so long I don't remember life before it.
That takes serious balls to say these things out loud
You're a brave soul
Thank you ❤
My thoughts exactly when I heard Hi Ren for the first time.
Thank you for not running away but telling your story instead, Ren! ❤❤❤
I am someone who is not easily swayed, bit blasé about things but there is something about Ren that is so special, endearing, believable, real that you just get wrapped up in everything that he says and does and just crave his next offering. There is something so special about him, he deserves every success but more importantly he deserves to be well and happy and I hope that all the amazing gifts he keeps giving to us, helps him to achieve this. Top bloke Ren, thank you for being you
Couldn't agree more fam he's the best artist man he has drawn me in so deep & I can't get out every day I have to listen to him every day I get chills all of the time 😤🙏❗
Take note people. An artist like Ren only comes about once in a generation. EVERY SINGLE genre he decides to choose on any given day, he bosses that sh!t. I'm so glad the eyes of the industry and the right influential people are starting to take notice. But I know without a shadow of doubt he'll never forget his fans. This guy IS THE man.
No it offends sincerely I'm just saying that you know this is something that causes the rejection of self the rejection of others to continue. Of course this is my own expression of this which doesn't have to be wrong or right or in any competition of any sort. Not even at all however this in itself is that connection the same thing that Serendipity or synchronicity or resonance comfort inn being able to breathe and not feel like there's no way but into the madness. And feeling forced to be stuck inside of a name a diagnosis or any other compartmentalization whether it be any of what's previously mentioned but throughout a limitless abyss of epic poetry and limiting myself is in fact more easy to remain but only by the long-term education of inability to simply be me and for others to be them without need to reject or dismiss or any of those other types of statements or descriptions for diagnosis so on and so forth. These things cause bullying and neglect and abuse physical non-physical if there is a separation of any of that truly I don't feel good about there being need for that but yet then there's the feeling like where is it that I fit in?? And then again finding accidentally on purpose these moments of relief moments that help that inner ignition continue. Whether or not it's pudding song poetry if it's through just existence as is all that is in the brilliance of which says we exist and without Speck and that's a measurement in which where I might have limited verbiage at this particular moment but eventually this may seem like rambling or manic or madness and then again quite frankly it becomes a opportunity for that vulnerable and the magnetic pole to trigger someone to say something rejectable but yet even that I get, I get it end beginning belonging being under pressure not enough pressure being measured language and and then having to discover there is that scream like for my life metaphorically maybe but even that would imply that there was not actual reality to it but then reality that it exists and nothing in a metaphorical form who says its existence take snow second no first no number of measurement that causes that desperationthat brings us together because it's the language you're speaking and if we can say it like it's something that other people are recognizing and in fact being unable to say it another way but still it is acknowledgment of the recognition just by simply knowing and not taking and seeing where that is and what that is comes with all these things and learning what blessings in disguise actually really mean that there is something beyond the the shallow Halo definition or getting a word spelled correctly ET cetera. Just like the word gratitude, it's an experience really and I obviously wasn't assuming really in the full weight is there a full that would be like all that is and then having a limit to. This could be considered symptoms of which we all share symptoms of something called sick does sic mean more can it will it won't it know it find that Oneness that voice that expression it's it says all partaking in it. And therefore the joy in that is so beyond words we're convincing what one says to be of something separate or not the same or not relatable or resonant or bridging the Gap of which language that we speak and being limited is with purpose it has even more purposes I understand more of now. There's there's a desperate scream someone to hear me side of myself and Ignoring myself and not limiting it to said mentioned here but just to share with you where neither any of us need to be forced to disappear because of what happens to be a language connection that we all speak in synchronicity
I apologize for the text mishap it looks like I said no and whatever I talk into my phone because the other is way too frustrating. End quite honestly the the way in which I put it into this apparatus doesn't change from whether or not it's face-to-face or through outer space. But when I just had clicked to post this in response to you and your comment and inevitably to myself, I immediately had to come right back here and apologize for the misprint so to speak of the first couple of words which can cause things to be lost in translation. And that's an understatement for sure absolutely not an absolution of which cannot be also the solution and part of the problem part of the solution and no rejection comes without purgatory in the Trainwreck of brilliance insoles retribution, soul, instead of deleting and retyping which may happen anyways perhaps I'm just writing it through and talking it out in hopes to absorb it back in and the multi-dimensional contribution. It's always been a thing to feel others and yet I never really realized how that has caused a despair yet a accidentally on purpose finding moments like this where it's synchronous, it's serendipitous it's Magic it's a Time clock so to speak it's grounding it's like a hug yet then again is it it's all of it inevitably being rejected and then having this trigger where people have felt the need to respond telling me that I make no sense whatsoever end in a form of bullying whatever the compartment needs to be it's not at all separate from yourself. Although I get it quite sincerely when sometimes that can cause someone to reject that connection and there once again I find I should be used to this and I believe that's where it's been that's kept me hanging on until I'm 47 the blink or two multi-dimensional having an episode or so how much like I'm part of that pinball machine freak show sensitivity the gifts of vulnerability. The compelling response to comfort to help assist someone who I feel even more than of themselves than they do and where does that bring it, there's always this Continuum of reject accountability humility dramatic poetic Justice and a teacher and the student and the child and the adult and the parent and the dream and nightmare and equilibrium what is in the mirror smiling back or rejecting again bullying self and therefore the same towards those that I believe somehow there is a difference or separation but yet it's not the case. It's not just that not knowing and feeling where I fit but also I know how many more places that I do resonate and therefore have that camaraderie and that family of which the cosmic badassarry! It's the you that is me and the me that is you. Which there is no words I know to come and express the experience of you and them and they and us and me and we, since it seems like I'm sort of rhyming I should probably go ahead and use the restroom before I f*** around and find out and forget where to pee. LMFAO. Don't mistake the laughter for a complete joke and fantasy it's still true and if you know what it means to get a nervous laugh, and if not yet that's only because of the moment the glimpse the recognition that is not just through the windows of the eyes to see there's a language multi-dimensional and Magic glittery
Sir, I cannot tell how completely the American Healthcare system completely broke my mother's body AND sprit. I hope things are getting better for you.
The courage, determination, persistence, hope, love, insecurities, all of the things that make up a true human being that desires nothing but fairness, happiness & love for every other human with zero validation needed…this is why we connect to him so much. Why has it been look upon as a weakness by society? I don’t get it…we all feel this way but some can’t seem to be brave enough to let it shine when it counts. When is being true to yourself gonna be appreciated and respected globally?
This is the question I have yet to find an answer. It doesn't have to be this way, ppl missing out on tools that help you live a good quality of life. This is the impact of what a very long and harsh journey to be on esp when you don't have answers to the other things also such as health issues, financial barriers, socioeconomic environments/barriers. Qualifications of insert disability comorbidity of choice here to obtain such assistance or mobility ect device/service or program. can't we just say we need help w said issue- and if that issue is something that entity doesn't know the answer perhaps it would be more helpful to not double down, admit you don't know but say if possible we will find the answers together. This is not my healthcare system experience and I also worked in it to only be excluded from the care I also have learned from. Befuddles me to no end.
I understand Ren’s numbness as an after affect from the death. I, too, have lost very close friends, extended family, and both my brothers in a short period of time.
One was suicide, another was addiction, one brother died of alcoholism at the age of 51. My step dad died in hospice, my father-in-law from cancer. My older brother died from a blood clot at the age of 59. I was the one who found him on his couch in his home.
During all this I was dealing with an illness that is a constant in my life. Dissolution of my marriage….
I’m still standing and I carry on.
Ren is a bright light of hope.
Peace to your heart, relief to your mind. 💙
Glad to be alive at the same time as Ren. There are very few people that truly make me enjoy music - I have aphantasia and struggle being able to enjoy things I can't physically see, but Ren is able to tell a story so well that I'm able to see it in his words. It's a beautiful thing.
Ren, you are an Angel to a lot of People now, and thank you for that 💜
Thank you for existing
Your story resonates so much with me. I have spent 10 years in and out of hospital. Missed diagnosis, cancer and an autoimmune disease that could kill me, there is no cure. I’m a ticking time bomb, injecting myself twice a day in the hope my blood doesn’t decide to kill me. Hooked up to tubes every night.
My friend introduced me to your music while I was having cancer treatment. 13 days after major surgery, off my head on oxycodone they piled me in a car to The Big Push, Manchester gig.
The week before the Chalk gig I found out I was cancer free. I spent the weekend road tripping across the country with my best mate and daughter. Something I didn’t think I would still be alive to do, just a few months before. You signed my arm and I had it tattooed the next morning. A symbol of being alive.
2 years later in a hospital waiting room, a drip in each arm, a random girl asked is that a Ren tattoo. She has an autoimmune disease too and has been let down by the system, like we all have. You inspire so many of us without even knowing it. 213 miles away from Brighton in a random hospital room you connected 2 strangers. That is the power of your music, your story.
Who else would like to be in Ren`s head for 5 minutes . I imagine it like a huge library with all kinds of topics and stories you can think of. And you`ll get dizzy seeing everything. It will be a creativity overload. Better I just watch Rens videos, so I can take it.
I can easily be in his head. He and I have a lot of similarities. I doubt it's because our birthdays are a few days apart, but I get the free spirited, finding beauty hanging out in the dregs of society, thirst for knowledge parts of him because I've lived it. I don't have a musician's mind, but I have a writers mind. When I listen to him so often I'm listening to my younger self. It's really weird. Synchronicity. I know it means something good, I just don't know what yet
Funny, I, too have broken chapters within my life up by the "angels" I've encountered. Each angel there when needed, each with a very different lesson. My personal narrative is punctuated by angels
I feel that this is one of those "grass ain't always greener" type scenarios! Ren has been through stuff that would break others
@@rebeccafountain3956 agreed, if you want to be in someone else's head you have to be willing to take it all and not just cherry pick
Ren you are an incredibly brave person for putting yourself out there like this. A simple thank you doesn't seem like enough. I see where you are now and it makes me so happy for you! So many people here to support you! We love you Ren and never forget that! And she definitely seemed like your angel to have met her like that. That is so sweet and a sweet thing to be called! I'm glad she was there! Ren, do you feel like you're reading your own diary?
Love this. 🤗
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Your description of serendipity and as if you're just walking a path that's been laid in front of you essentially is exactly the way my life has been for the last few months. It's it's always good to hear someone else say that so that I feel as if I'm still saying I'm not slowly slipping away into some delusion
Ren. I have severe MEcfs. I wasn't sure I could watch this one - thought it'd be too traumatic, so I'm a little late in getting here.
But thank you for being a voice for the ME community. I have severe brain fog right now, so I can't articulate what I want to say. I'll leave it with: Thank you.
Like crabs in a barrel, that landed hard. You must take credit for your journey into health, your tenacity to find help has kept you here. That in turn has given you this platform, which you are single handedly raising awareness. Rest easier tonight, knowing you are making a difference. Thank you for sharing your pain and struggles.
What you call serendipity, I call synchronicity, but I can totally relate. I also call it "being on time," which means ending up exactly where I needed to be exactly when I needed to be there.
Many years ago, I lost someone important who died by their own hand. Three months later, there was another death, although this one was not a suicide. I went to the funeral and as I was walking to the chapel, I encountered his wife. I asked how she was feeling. She replied with anger - "How do you think I'm feeling" (fair enough). Then she recognized me and dropped her head on my shoulder and cried. (For my part, I was too numb to cry with her). For some reason, Ren's video brought back this memory. And I wondered whether this is what happens for many people when they listen to Ren and certain of his music. It is like looking at someone who knows what you're going through or have been through. These are my thoughts at least. It also helps that he is a superb musician.
Oh buddy, you have been through what I like to call, "life piling it on," where one person gets an entirely disproportionate amount of tragedy thrown their way. And yet, here you are, taking the time to share deeply personal memories in the hope of helping others. Here you are, making incredibly beautiful and meaningful music. I appreciate you and consider myself blessed to have found your music and your voice. In turn, I wish nothing but blessings, love, and improved health for you.
Medical neglect is a huge problem in this world, but we rarely see the face of it.
My FRIEND caught HIV IN 1979 SHE IS STILL ALIVE AND ONLY TAKES 1 TABLET A DAY WHEN IN THE 1979 32 TABLETS A DAY SOMETIMES MORE...YOUR MUSIC IS AMAZING WORK LOVE MICHELLE IN GLASGOW SCOTLAND
I have never felt more understood than in the moments watching these videos, thank you Ren. Genuinely you are doing so much good for people, i hope you know that.❤
Thank you Ren....this matters I promise. Please look after yourself tho, you can't fix us all 💙💙💙
Ren, I said this in the chat, but it's worth repeating - this much vulnerability is hard, but vulnerability is also the birthplace of connection. Thank you for sharing, it helps us all to feel more connected. I hope that it also helps you, you wonderful human!
We live in a world where no one seems real. All “RUclipsrs” are just characters.
I hope that everyone can wrap their heads around the fact that Ren is a real man, with a real story.
What a treat it is to have access to a true artist.
Nothing but hope for you brother ❤
Your success is our success
Lets get Troubles to number 1. Pre-order Troubles and stream it on every platform when released.
I'm sitting inside listening to Ren sing this song, and briefly walked outside to look at the sky, and a little wren was sitting on a nearby branch singing its song.
Serendipity!
(W)Rens make the most beautiful music!
I saw one today, too. I talked to him, of course. The animals don't seem to mind. 😊
You are an angel to a lot of people, Ren. You’re so brave to bear your soul like this. All respect and love to you
Thank you for sharing your story. I honestly dont know how you do it, being so stripped bare honest and still so eloquent.
Ren, I love that you still have a wicked sense of humour “SAD, bought myself a light. The only thing that lamp illuminated for me was that I was desperate enough to buy a glorified table lamp”. 🤣🤣🤣🤣I love you 💜 PS I was having a lesson from a car salesman today on how to use the info centre in my car. I was listening to your playlist and he said, I didn’t think you’d be into this sort of music. I’m a 70 yo female who struggles a bit with technology (I can just about cope with Facebook and RUclips) hence needing his help with the sat nav and tech in my new car! I was telling him about how versatile and intuitive you are and he went away listening to Hi Ren.
After 10 + years of being a victim of medical gaslighting (and I’m a nurse); I received my Lymes diagnosis by virtue of a Lyme literate physician and the Herxheimer effects. I feel like my calling and duty are to listen to those humans that enter my life - hear their pain, suffering, vague symptomatology and tell them it’s real. I believe them, share my story so that they too can get the appropriate treatment. At my worst I was wheelchair bound and writing my will, I’m mostly healthy now after 4 years of treatment with some neurological left overs. I wish you all the best. ❤
From the bottom of my heart, thank you for existing. I see you. ❤
Thank you again. I really hope you sharing your story will cause ripples in the medical field so less people will have to deal with what you and others have gone through . It’s just horrible.
On a different note… I am getting oddly curious to see which songs you will couple with the next chapters. So far they have been perfect picks. I think this is the first time I have heard you talk about Trick the Fox and your friendship with Charlie. It made the music video extra special ❤
There really are so many people who follow your story who will look back on their hard times and think “hearing and seeing and understanding and loving Ren’s music and story was my turning point to getting to a better place”
Chapter2 respect 4 u& music.... !
Staying on point. Talking the truth that your illness brought to you. Truth does have a life of its own. And it shares life with others.
This is just documentary enough to protect privacy, while sharing every brutal reality of chronic illness. I hope these chapters will be shown in medical schools in the future.
Love the TRICK THE FOX track. A treat to see the younger YOU. Tight band! We are privileged to hear your story like this. Brilliant idea to do this. Diolch yn fawr
Thank you. Ending this with this song was wonderful.💕👍🦇
If I had to describe Ren in only one word (and there are so many descriptors to choose from), it would have to be... brave - bravery to endure life changing loss of soulmates, mental and physical health, a record deal of which dreams were made, a life's purpose, the ability to experience formative years in normalcy due to a mysterious malfunction left undiscovered for years.
Bravery comes from guarding the seed of hope and never allowing it to shrivel and die. A seed of hope intangible, yet as real as driftwood to a drowning man in a last ditch effort to cling to a future that may nurture him to the shore.
Ren is the epitome of hope borne of bravery in the cruel face of it all. It is refreshing as well as restorative to so many facing uphill battles in life. Gotta love 'im. ❤
Thank you for your music & an insight into your health issues. I've spent the last. 6 months learning to walk & talk again after a brain injury. I still suffer from it today. I'm your typical 50yr old man and I normally listen to Heavy Metal music but a friend suggested you. You've helped me on my journey.
Thankyou Ren
How does young Ren have such a strong a voice at that age? That boi gifted...to the world. Ren, please tell me you have some bosom friends on the payroll!!!!!!
Be safe you dearest boi
"we're really sorry your Welsh condolence prize" made me laugh way harder than it should.
haha me too 😂
This is already turning into the most cathartic thing Ive experienced.
young man you tell a story like no one I know it is sad and beautiful all at the same time you bring tears to this old mans eyes i to have lost friends when it was not there time you are awesome
At 21 yrs, 12 of them with a severe case of Crohn's disease, which hadnt been diagnosed until I was 11, I'm really starting to lose hope. I've been throught most of the available medication, and nothing seems to work, or the side effects are too strong. I just feel left alone, no one seems to care or is even capable of understanding the daily suffering I have to bear. It's always: "Uhh you're just too sensitive", "snap out of it" etc.
But this music, and the heartbreaking stories behind it, is always giving me some hope, which I desperately need at the moment.
Thank you.
Gaslighting by the medics, powerful stuff, power to your search for the truth.
I hear you and I understand. I instantly care about you. Letting us hear your story is powerful, so thanks
You are a bringer of hope Ren.
You show us all 'How' to live better.. just by leading by example.
Just by doing YOU.
It gives others permission to do the same.
Thankyou 🙏
‘Put my soul on show for everyone to see……
Cause even though it’s bruised, it holds such beauty….’
My favourite line of Runaway…..and you are bearing your beautiful soul to everyone.
Thank you for your vulnerability, your bravery and for creating the beautiful art you do…..💜🫶
Tired of feeling sick n sick of feeling tired...keep on rocking in the "free" world.xx
What a beautiful gift your grandmother gave you. I know she'd be proud that you are committed to keeping her legacy alive. Shine On!
Wow I've never heard the song at the end of this video. I must have missed it somehow during all my late nights spent down the Ren rabbit hole lol.
Love it. And love this man for everything he is doing for those of us who personally suffer with chronic illnesses 💜
REN you truly are an inspiration for us all your brave and beautiful
Not on the same scale, but I relate so much to the medical industry not taking one’s constellation of symptoms seriously and not being able to provide root-cause healing, and therefore trying to take matters into one’s own hands, with some protocols that help but probably also lots that are counterproductive. If there’s a hope of improving medicine it’s by influencing the hearts and minds of upcoming generations of medical professionals before they get set in the current ways, so thank you Ren for sharing your story.
"I couldnt tell if this new acceptance of the inevitability of death was beautifully liberating thing or a sign of my humanity slipping away"
That really struck a chord. Have often wondered this myself.
Being told you’re ‘misremembering’ when you challenge ‘them’ still haunts me. I’m imagining your next chapter and getting to explore the adventures you never thought you’d experience. Safe travels and much love 🫂🫧🤍🏴
Much love to you 💫
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ren PLEASE, and I mean this, PLEASE. don't stop what you do. you fucking help. I know what it's like to feel so deep and so out of tune with your own self. this is purely venting. you are the shit. you are so fucking pure.
What is he telling his story to hit the States & get on US charts, God Bless him he's a very talented guy, his music should be on the charts in US but he should stay independent cause it will change him for the worse... We all have stories the most talented seem to hve the worst, a rough past in his case his health, Good for u Ren u survived hanging on to hope & look at the outcome,keep Shining ur music is great , ur a guy who can K*ll any genre , go K*ck Azz!! 💯 🙏 🎶
The whole bit about not being able to cry and feeling guilty about it is very relatable
Hugs to you Ren from Lisa a lyme and autoimmune warrior who is so thankful you are my voice where I had no voice 🦠💚🦠🙏🙏🙏🙏 Watching from my bed rn - I pray you keep getting better and better Know I pray for you daily
I hear your voice ❤🫂
Praying for You to get better too Lisa 🙏 🙌
@@Veeliscious Thank you so much friend.
@@jacqui114 Thank you 🙏
@@Veeliscious thank you 🙏
What a blessing you are, Ren. ❤ I see the bravery required to tell this story and I thank you.
My experiences though different hold such similarities. Hearing this helps me on a huge level. I thank you. I feel I am going to spontaneously combust if I don't start telling, writing speaking on my life experiences.🙏🙏🙏
I feel like a mother to you Ren,i am 68 from sweden and have seen and heard the must,that is on youtube,i have lost two girls ,one 19 years old and one inSID at home,i have a son that was born 92 he lives far from me,so often i only se him once a year,so you Are My imaginaryboy,love your talangs and mineset ,Love Elisabeth 😊
u give hope to people to be themselves, as vulnerable and sensitive we may be. and to own that. I like it :)
I have the static vision an muscles twitching I just thought those were normal
Ren I absolutely love your music I have never listened to an artist so much ever
Cried. Im so happy you mentioned lyme and ME in The same sentence.
ME advokate.
I hoped Corona would open up for more researc.
My first job was marketing Big farma. Ironic. There where mold and I got worse.
Thank you Ren for your courage, for being willing to share your life with strangers that you don't know is a very brave thing to do. It must be very surreal having your fans wanting to know so much about you and your life especially with you being such a humble and "normal" human but so grateful that you are able to share it with us all. Thank you for that and for giving us the best music of our time ❤
Bro with these stories i feel like i learn the meanings of your songs more then ever making them even more beautiful then they were
I started to cry when you talked about your grandmother. My mum died 3 years ago from cancer, but i wasnt able to say goodbye because of covid. I feel guilt to this day that i only got a chance to say goodbye to her dead body
It feels strange to look forward to seeing the next chapter of a person’s story with so much suffering. Almost sadistic or being a voyeur. But it’s a compelling and cathartic experience that offers comfort, inspiration and understanding. It’s a brave and confronting thing to do, putting all this on paper and speaking it out loud. I’ve said it before and I will say it to my last breath. Thank you, Ren. Thank you for who you are, what you do and the enormous amount of yourself that you have shared with us. Never doubt how much you are loved, how much difference you have made to so many. I am so much in awe of you , as a person, a writer and your music and your humanity. Love you Ren. 💕
Ren you are so brave,absolutely love hearing your story and your reasons behind sharing it. Can’t wait for chapter 3 ❤
First time I've heard trick the fox. Pretty good young band. Thanks for this
Ren this needs to all be recorded in a book ❤❤❤
You are a master storyteller and your story deserves to be told. You are a ray of light and hope to so many, I’m so glad angels joined you on your journey. I’ve always said I never believe in coincidences. Serendipity is a beautiful thing 💕 It could be a good idea for a song 😼
Thank you for sharing your story. I hope it brings you peace.
Respect Ren. ✊ From a small town in the heart of America. I feel you brother. And relate. Keep fighting the forces of evil. You are not the only one who made that commitment.
And with that Ren is off to cook up some more stuff!!! You got it my man!
I wish I had Ren's ability to express my thoughts and describe back eloquently what an incredible human being and artist this young man in front of us is. Yes, I have a few years behind me and am not easily impressed ;)
I'm not one to tear up much like i am listening to this, but damn your ability to tell your story is amazing. I've always loved your music but this series of chapters... so touching
This has been my story for 24 years. Thank you for telling it so well.
Ren, this series is brilliantly done.
Greatest artist of our generation, right hurrr🥹💯🧡
That is my notification music on my phone giving me the chance to ignore. Dignity is my ringtone. You never are far away. I love you lad. That is hard for me to even type. Trust is hard. Numb is my go to with death, too. Too much of it. Nothing touches me. Oddly your music does. This is brave, what you are doing. Thank you. I am not the only odd person in the world.
I had a feeling I'd get hit in the heart with your life story. I knew the story of Joe would touch a sore spot, and it did; but fuck... Grandma was where I lost my composure. Mine passed earlier this year at the end of January. May we all die happy when it's our time to go ❤
i have extremely bad headaches that are just always there and if i sleep more than 4 -5 hours i go into what i call a "never ending sleep cycle" I just live with it and know what to avoid. like repetitive sound and i make sure only to sleep 4 hours up to 5 a day. Nothing is bad as yours but I do understand personal hell, but i always think there are people suffering worse. Thanks for everything you do Ren and crew.
Your vulnerability and bravery are such a gift to us 🙏🏻 ❤
“As we let our light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence actually liberates others.”
~ Marianne Williamson
"What I'm scared of more is having to live my life as a sick person" resonates so hard with me having been recently diagnosed with a chronic condition. Thank you for sharing your story, Ren. Much love x
Ever since I first watched Hi Ren the lyrics for Killing me Softly, (I prefer the Roberta Flack version, I'm old) go through my head with whatever you happen to be sharing at the moment! Strumming my pain with his fingers
Singing my life with his words
Killing me softly with his song
Killing me softly with his song
Telling my whole life with his words
Killing me softly with his song...
You're a mouthpiece for every single one of us that have this nightmare affliction! Thank you! Thank you, thank you, thank you! I'm 60 and can't afford any treatments or supplements, or even ibuprofen, but YOUR campaign eases my mind some that hopefully my grand children, great grandchildren, etc., will never have to know what Nana Janet went through. I don't want to die...but I don't want to be alive anymore. So many things I did, so many happy places, just make me sad now. Thank you!!!! God bless you Ren!
Absolutely love this story Ren and thank you for sharing.
Trick The Fox is sooo good man. Loved it.
I have endometriosis which has led me to 3 surgeries, including losing my gallbladder. I also had a terrible reaction to the J&J Covid vaccine where I missed work for 2 weeks and was sick for about 3 months. The brain fog, all over weakness, headaches, and fuzzy vision was killer with no relief. I had to suffer through that experience with ridicule and hate from those around me. It’s hard having an incurable disease, even harder when you’re forced to have a medical treatment just to keep your job. The heartbreak doesn’t get better, you just get used to it. Health is the one thing you just can’t buy. My understanding of the neurological issues I suffered through was some sort of brain swelling causing pressure to my eyes. I’ve taken NAC and time to try to flush the poison out of my already compromised body. I can definitely relate to this so much! So happy that you got to say goodbye to your grandma. Mine also passed in 2018 and she had dementia so I didn’t get to say goodbye. At least I have happy memories of her. ❤ grandmas are the best!
Ren! Emotionally devastating me again! In a cathartic way! I, too, do not fear death but fear living always as a sick person and the reality of it is so depressing. Thank you for your words. ❤
The BBC has flagged up that it's tick season and to walk in the middle of paths as the ticks wait on grass blades for passing animals or humans they numb the skin so you don't feel the bite. Lymes disease was talked about . It's the first time I have heard this warning.
Thanks for the heads up. I like to walk. One thing I've found since getting into Ren is I've become pretty paranoid of ticks when I'm outside.
I've observed - and I've felt - that one way trauma steals joy is by making us more aware of the suffering of the world and that we don't deserve to feel joy while others are suffering. I find your storytelling liberating. That joy, of which happiness seems to be a part, is not only possible but worthwhile and the birthright of every person. Lots of love to you!