Please reinforce this also pertains to antidepressant withdrawal too. Bayliss Frederick includes antidepressant. She called it ABIND Antidepressant Benzodiazapine Induced Neurological Dysfunction. There is so much recognition for benzo injury, Antidepressant cause injury too. Your right, we may look "normal on the outside, but the inside can be running rapid with mental and physical pain. No one can relate if you haven't experienced it. There is no way to explain it for them to comprehend it, my gosh most days it's hard for me to comprehend. Most days it's can be described as inhumane tortured. When in the thick of it, trust that you can heal from this. There are many that can atest to this. Thank you Dan, I hear your compassion in your voice, it shows you've been there and get it. Please keep sending incouragement and helpful tools on how indure this.
Yes, antidepressants too for sure. I also came off an snri simultaneously and have since lumped psych meds all into pretty much the same category as they all pertain to some sort of neurological damage. Thank you for the comment and wish you continued healing. ❤️🩹
I'm still waiting for my academy award for acting. For a few years, on really bad wave days and weeks I gave some pretty good performances of a "normal" person while in the company of others throughout the day. All the while I could smile, respond, comment to others while at the same time wanting to run away screaming. My brain was blocked with military-grade derealization and depersonalization, anxiety, fear. But as a business owner with 18 employees, I chose to act my way through the pain and horror. And it gave me a distraction, a mission. Everyday it was like walking on stage and assuming the character of a normal person. Yes, it was hell, but it got me through and nobody was the wiser and my business survived. I'm in my 7th year of recovery, and I am close to being 100%. But I acted through 6 of those years when I fell into a wave. So the moral of the story is; do what you have to do to get through. Learn to love yourself and consider it one hell of an adventure where you will succeed and finally come back to yourself. Because we all will heal. Yes, we all will heal 100% from withdrawal.
If I had an award I’d give it to you! Perhaps we ought to start the 2023 benzo awards to commend ourselves. I do know exactly what you mean though. Sometimes you just forge ahead, as horrible as you feel, knowing you have no other choice but to move on or cave to the insanity.
@@philosophicalfishing Absolutely! There is only one option for us. Allow time to heal us and keep moving forward one day at a time. Once you realize that, it takes the second-guessing out of the equation and gives you a simple goal.
Dan, I’m into my forth month off of 20 years of Paxil. I was doing decent trying to manage my withdrawal symptoms. I totally understand when you say stay away from negativity. My youngest daughter who just had a baby decided to unload on me about my shortcoming in regards to being there for her and then my kids and husband decided to let me know I really need to work on my interpersonal skills. It sent me reeling into the deepest depression and my whole body hurts I can hardly want to get up out of bed and I burst out crying for no reason. I really don’t know how to handle all this right now. I just want some Grace from my family for a minute until I can regain my self again . I want to be able to buck up and work on myself, but can’t when I feel they are attacking me, when maybe at this time the could just try to be a little gentler and understanding of what I’m trying to do by getting off these horrendous drugs. Ami wrong? They say I’m feeling sorry for myself. I’m just trying to take care of my physical well being. 😔
Most likely, your brain chemicals are still readjusting and emotionally, life is hard to take, many days. Give yourself a break and take it easy on yourself. This is so hard to go through. Your family can’t understand- you may look ok on the outside but inside it’s a real storm and a battle. Keep your head up, cry whenever you need to, and remember that this isn’t forever- this too shall pass. I’m sorry not everyone understands this. 20 years is a long time to be on Paxil, and it’s not going to be fixed in a few weeks, or even months. But, it will get better. Time will help. 🙏🏻❤️
The damage caused by benzodiazepines will kill almost any relationship .... People just don't understand how bad it is. Funny...I went through severe 'withdrawal' for about 3 years 24/7 with ZERO support.... In fact all I got was screamed at constantly for 'acting like I was sick'. IT was SO HARD to get through it with no support....but by the grace of God...I made it!
Hey benzo warriors. I have an urge to let you know that i am entering second year of being benzo free! I am doing well in all life fields,i am trying to step on my financial feet and it is going ok. I am smiling and living... I am free.. If i could quit morphin,cocain and xanax and get well like this there is hope for everyone! Sending you all love ❤
@@philosophicalfishing if i may say that I am perfect. At least that is how I feel.. If you are struggling just dont give up all bad feelings will pass
I have a sister that's a retired nurse. She didn't understand what was happening to me until I sent her the video of Nicole from Benzo Info Coalition where she was reviewing Lisa Ling's report on benzo's that she did about 5 years ago. Once she understood, she was able to explain it to the rest of my siblings. They became more empathetic instead of acting like I brought all this on myself. I went for about a decade trying to figure out the problem since I was abusing adderall while also on Xanax and Cymbalta. It wasn't until my doctor dropped me that I figured out it was the Xanax causing the long term issues. I'm still recovering and approaching my 1 year off everything. It's still rough but i'm pressing through it. Thanks for all your videos. They help a LOT!
I just hit my 1 year mark as well. I've had what I'm sure is PTSD from that anniversary. I thought I'd be happy but it brought on so many bad memories. Like you I suffered for many years. I was on Clonazepam around 20 years. I couldn't believe that my prescription caused all that. I had thought that I was crazy since I'm adopted and didn't know my history. I got that idea from my doctors. I wish this would never happen to another person. Thanks for your stories it makes me feel not so alone. Peace and healing wishes to all suffering. 🧡
Great video. I am 26 months off k after being on a Dr’s Prescription for 30 years. Seeing progress, but slow. Just do the next thing and get through the day. Days will turn to weeks, then months, then years, and we will get better just like Dan.
My hope is that we’re heading towards a future where greed is no longer the norm, but is replaced with compassion. I know I’m a dreamer, but I refuse to be anything but….❤️
Another great video Dan! After 1 year benzo free I finally feel like I am seeing some light at the end of the tunnel. And seeing that light means trying to rebuild my life and relationships. It’s a challenge for sure, spending time with my family, girlfriend, and friends can be difficult. I often feel like oh shit when is something bad going to happen? But I have to try and stay positive and keep trying to communicate, make eye contact, and laugh. It’s been painful but very slowly it seems like it is getting better. Just hope I can keep the momentum going. Keep up the great work! I hope all is well.
Awesome to hear that there is life on the other side. One of the most frustrating things for me is one day seeing it then it goes away and so on. This in particular I have noticed people close to me especially don't understand because they will say yesterday that was the old you what happened. It is easy for them to judge in this area and be say well if you were more motivated etc. I used to always say I can't cut my head open and show you my brain injury. Invisible injury people just can't understand spot on in your description Dan. Just understanding that I am not the only one going thru this or has been thru this is lifesaving. Most people will give up on you at a certain point and say things like it's been a year I mean come on get it together. Reach out for help it was the best thing I have ever done.
I can relate to this. I’m still titrating. Month 34. Ashton Manual stage 22. Although I am still going, I can def say I have walked through hell, and already come out the other side. I know there is a life on the other side of this. But, it took me over two years to finally see it. I want to uplift every single detail in what you said! Spot on!!!
Thanks Cynthia! Wow, you’ve come a long way already. Glad you’re seeing improvements from the benzo damage and I believe you when you say you’ve been through hell. Only someone who’s been there can relate!
Dan didyou have any struggles with loss of identity coming off psych meds/benzos? I’m tapering a benzo and feel very lost in myself. I don’t even know how to act at the moment. Could you post something on this topic please?
Hello Did you have visual symptoms and what were they like and what were the gastro issues like, anyone here in comments can reply I would gladly appreciate please
You no dan I been on antidepressant for twenty years they would always switch them on me I never knew about withdrawals from explains why I have been so sick feeling over years
Please reinforce this also pertains to antidepressant withdrawal too. Bayliss Frederick includes antidepressant. She called it ABIND
Antidepressant Benzodiazapine Induced Neurological Dysfunction. There is so much recognition for benzo injury, Antidepressant cause injury too. Your right, we may look "normal on the outside, but the inside can be running rapid with mental and physical pain. No one can relate if you haven't experienced it. There is no way to explain it for them to comprehend it, my gosh most days it's hard for me to comprehend. Most days it's can be described as inhumane tortured. When in the thick of it, trust that you can heal from this. There are many that can atest to this. Thank you Dan, I hear your compassion in your voice, it shows you've been there and get it. Please keep sending incouragement and helpful tools on how indure this.
Yes, antidepressants too for sure. I also came off an snri simultaneously and have since lumped psych meds all into pretty much the same category as they all pertain to some sort of neurological damage. Thank you for the comment and wish you continued healing. ❤️🩹
Hi dan im damaged from benzos solo dad no support four young kids to look after love your videos u really care😊
Hi roddog, that’s a heavy load to bear, no doubt- even without being damaged by benzos. I’m sure you’re doing your best and that’s all you can do.
I'm still waiting for my academy award for acting. For a few years, on really bad wave days and weeks I gave some pretty good performances of a "normal" person while in the company of others throughout the day. All the while I could smile, respond, comment to others while at the same time wanting to run away screaming. My brain was blocked with military-grade derealization and depersonalization, anxiety, fear. But as a business owner with 18 employees, I chose to act my way through the pain and horror. And it gave me a distraction, a mission. Everyday it was like walking on stage and assuming the character of a normal person. Yes, it was hell, but it got me through and nobody was the wiser and my business survived. I'm in my 7th year of recovery, and I am close to being 100%. But I acted through 6 of those years when I fell into a wave. So the moral of the story is; do what you have to do to get through. Learn to love yourself and consider it one hell of an adventure where you will succeed and finally come back to yourself. Because we all will heal. Yes, we all will heal 100% from withdrawal.
If I had an award I’d give it to you! Perhaps we ought to start the 2023 benzo awards to commend ourselves. I do know exactly what you mean though. Sometimes you just forge ahead, as horrible as you feel, knowing you have no other choice but to move on or cave to the insanity.
@@philosophicalfishing Absolutely! There is only one option for us. Allow time to heal us and keep moving forward one day at a time. Once you realize that, it takes the second-guessing out of the equation and gives you a simple goal.
@@Rounder-OneLove and appreciate your courage and strength.
One breath, one step, we forge ahead 💪🏻and continue to breathe Together. ♥️
Thank you for posting this ❤
Dan, I’m into my forth month off of 20 years of Paxil. I was doing decent trying to manage my withdrawal symptoms. I totally understand when you say stay away from negativity. My youngest daughter who just had a baby decided to unload on me about my shortcoming in regards to being there for her and then my kids and husband decided to let me know I really need to work on my interpersonal skills. It sent me reeling into the deepest depression and my whole body hurts I can hardly want to get up out of bed and I burst out crying for no reason. I really don’t know how to handle all this right now. I just want some Grace from my family for a minute until I can regain my self again . I want to be able to buck up and work on myself, but can’t when I feel they are attacking me, when maybe at this time the could just try to be a little gentler and understanding of what I’m trying to do by getting off these horrendous drugs. Ami wrong? They say I’m feeling sorry for myself. I’m just trying to take care of my physical well being. 😔
Most likely, your brain chemicals are still readjusting and emotionally, life is hard to take, many days. Give yourself a break and take it easy on yourself. This is so hard to go through. Your family can’t understand- you may look ok on the outside but inside it’s a real storm and a battle. Keep your head up, cry whenever you need to, and remember that this isn’t forever- this too shall pass. I’m sorry not everyone understands this. 20 years is a long time to be on Paxil, and it’s not going to be fixed in a few weeks, or even months. But, it will get better. Time will help. 🙏🏻❤️
The damage caused by benzodiazepines will kill almost any relationship .... People just don't understand how bad it is. Funny...I went through severe 'withdrawal' for about 3 years 24/7 with ZERO support.... In fact all I got was screamed at constantly for 'acting like I was sick'. IT was SO HARD to get through it with no support....but by the grace of God...I made it!
Yes I lost so much too
@@katrinamenzies9398Katrina❤️🩹😔🦋
Hey benzo warriors.
I have an urge to let you know that i am entering second year of being benzo free!
I am doing well in all life fields,i am trying to step on my financial feet and it is going ok.
I am smiling and living... I am free..
If i could quit morphin,cocain and xanax and get well like this there is hope for everyone!
Sending you all love ❤
Awesome! I’m happy to hear that for you!
@maja_wc how are you now
@@philosophicalfishing if i may say that I am perfect. At least that is how I feel.. If you are struggling just dont give up all bad feelings will pass
How long did it take you to finish your tapering? I am entering my 3rd year. Very slow….
@@maja-wc8nd l needed to hear this!
I have a sister that's a retired nurse. She didn't understand what was happening to me until I sent her the video of Nicole from Benzo Info Coalition where she was reviewing Lisa Ling's report on benzo's that she did about 5 years ago. Once she understood, she was able to explain it to the rest of my siblings. They became more empathetic instead of acting like I brought all this on myself. I went for about a decade trying to figure out the problem since I was abusing adderall while also on Xanax and Cymbalta. It wasn't until my doctor dropped me that I figured out it was the Xanax causing the long term issues. I'm still recovering and approaching my 1 year off everything. It's still rough but i'm pressing through it. Thanks for all your videos. They help a LOT!
That is great man I understand what you are going through I am also coming up on 1 year. Congratulations man!!
@@bobbobarino6213 Thank you!! Congrats to you as well!! We're gonna heal... just keep pressing on and stay strong!
Glad they’re helpful for you, and more happy that you’re coming up on 1 year free from the benzo prison!🙌🏻
I just hit my 1 year mark as well. I've had what I'm sure is PTSD from that anniversary. I thought I'd be happy but it brought on so many bad memories. Like you I suffered for many years. I was on Clonazepam around 20 years. I couldn't believe that my prescription caused all that. I had thought that I was crazy since I'm adopted and didn't know my history. I got that idea from my doctors. I wish this would never happen to another person. Thanks for your stories it makes me feel not so alone. Peace and healing wishes to all suffering. 🧡
Great video. I am 26 months off k after being on a Dr’s Prescription for 30 years. Seeing progress, but slow. Just do the next thing and get through the day. Days will turn to weeks, then months, then years, and we will get better just like Dan.
That’s incredible, Penney. Especially after being on klon for so long. Happy for you that you’re free from the benzo prison.
I feel the medical establishment absolutely understands, they just do not care. As long as the money rolls in, that is all that matters...
My hope is that we’re heading towards a future where greed is no longer the norm, but is replaced with compassion. I know I’m a dreamer, but I refuse to be anything but….❤️
@@philosophicalfishing They say I’m a dreamer but I’m not the only one 💜
@@philosophicalfishing I hope to see that in my lifetime as well!!
Thanks Dan.
Another great video Dan! After 1 year benzo free I finally feel like I am seeing some light at the end of the tunnel. And seeing that light means trying to rebuild my life and relationships. It’s a challenge for sure, spending time with my family, girlfriend, and friends can be difficult. I often feel like oh shit when is something bad going to happen? But I have to try and stay positive and keep trying to communicate, make eye contact, and laugh. It’s been painful but very slowly it seems like it is getting better. Just hope I can keep the momentum going. Keep up the great work! I hope all is well.
Hey Paul! Always great to hear from you and thanks for the update on your progress. It is a slow process but so worth it, in the long run.
Awesome to hear that there is life on the other side. One of the most frustrating things for me is one day seeing it then it goes away and so on. This in particular I have noticed people close to me especially don't understand because they will say yesterday that was the old you what happened. It is easy for them to judge in this area and be say well if you were more motivated etc. I used to always say I can't cut my head open and show you my brain injury. Invisible injury people just can't understand spot on in your description Dan.
Just understanding that I am not the only one going thru this or has been thru this is lifesaving. Most people will give up on you at a certain point and say things like it's been a year I mean come on get it together.
Reach out for help it was the best thing I have ever done.
Yes! I can relate to all of this.
I am down to 4mg of valium as of June 14th 2023, from 10 mg. Started tapering November 18th 2022. ❤😊
Keep going Tina! Can’t wait to hear about you being completely free. One day at a time. Thanks for the update.
I can relate to this. I’m still titrating. Month 34. Ashton Manual stage 22. Although I am still going, I can def say I have walked through hell, and already come out the other side. I know there is a life on the other side of this. But, it took me over two years to finally see it. I want to uplift every single detail in what you said! Spot on!!!
Thanks Cynthia! Wow, you’ve come a long way already. Glad you’re seeing improvements from the benzo damage and I believe you when you say you’ve been through hell. Only someone who’s been there can relate!
Benzodiazepines and relationship losses is a topic
Great idea, as always. Good to see you Katrina- hope you’re doing well. 🙏🏻
@@philosophicalfishing ty Dan living minute by minute distracting as much as possible. 💜
@@katrinamenzies9398how are you now
tnx
Thanks again Dan ❤
My family doesn’t understand, nor my doctor . Yes we get gaslighted all the timw
Dan didyou have any struggles with loss of identity coming off psych meds/benzos? I’m tapering a benzo and feel very lost in myself. I don’t even know how to act at the moment. Could you post something on this topic please?
Yes! I have written about this on my website too!
www.philosophicalfishing.com/blog-1-1/identity-crisis-after-psych-drugs
It's the hidden epidemic
You’re right about that!
@@philosophicalfishing Absolutely, like all , I somehow sleepwalked into this appalling situation
@@IanBlease-y5byep me too took 14years of my life destroyed my family lost my daughters complete devastation
Hello Did you have visual symptoms and what were they like and what were the gastro issues like, anyone here in comments can reply I would gladly appreciate please
💜🙏🏻✝️
Katrina❤ Love and hugs to you, Sis. 🙏🏻
@@donna6165 💜
Hi dan i cant explain how sick i am im bedridden for two years straight can this kill you after awhile
I’m sorry to hear that Kevin. Have you seen any improvements at all?
You no dan I been on antidepressant for twenty years they would always switch them on me I never knew about withdrawals from explains why I have been so sick feeling over years