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Rick, I had the same thought, so I emailed the group, and Ashley Mae got back to me. She informed me that his solo album should be releasing in the next few months, which will include "Using Again" as well.
Agreed ..It did same to me,just found it yesterday. 23 days sober at the Betty Ford...came to on a hospital bed dec 23 after 23 months sober... God has a wonderful plan for you... We can do this 1 day at a time
i’m not okay right now, i’m suicidal, but hearing this makes me want to believe that maybe i can turn my pain into something better, something that might help someone. thanks ben
God bless, I just got home from detox. My doc is fentanyl. Got home and immediately started drinking. It scares me how easily I’ve been drifting into denial of my own demons lately. I hope to find inner peace someday. It’s so incredibly hard most days and I feel like most people get me when I say that but I still find it hard to let anyone in to help heal. I’m so very proud of you, I hope you are still keeping strong. You got this. Each time I feel like using again feels like a harder and harder battle but seeing and hearing from people who have grown so much and started their inner healing reminds me that one day I as well can feel that drive in me again. Take care my friend🤘🏼
@@marklepkowski5362 yes sir, i relapsed shortly after that last post but I just got home last month from another treatment center where i stayed 43 days
I have never heard my neighbors downstairs play music before.. but they played this very loud all of a sudden and I stopped and placed my phone on the ground to record it. I felt like there may be hope in a situation where I was losing hope, for little Mikey Cadena who I am trying to help. I listened back to some of the lyrics and found it online here. Beautiful song
Just lost my wife, the mother of my child to an overdose two weeks ago.. each day that passes is undescribably different than the last, grief seems to run in circles. The closer her funeral gets, the harder I'm hit with reality. Tomorrow's the day we stand at the chapel to say goodbye. This song's the most accurate and beautiful depiction of what it feels like to be an addict trying to overcome thier personal struggle. I'm trying to recover myself, and since this happened I've just been losing my shit. This song now hits a part of my soul that's mixed with beauty and despair, grief, yet hope. Recognition of adversity, the gravity of our problem; the will and strength to push on. Idk if you read these comments Ben, but you truly might have the power to change the wrold with music. You've added some hope to mine. Thanks for the beautiful music brother.
@Joe Linville I know this comment is three months old and the original is a year old, I am so sorry for the grief of Cody D. I just got sober 23 days ago after 23 months...I fell off the wagon hard... Jesus Is The Answer🙏
YES! I KNOW! I was just sitting here thinking about how I love pretty much anything this man does! But every now and then... there will be a line... a phrase... a thought.. a sentiment... and the way he delivers it... that just sends a shiver down my spine. This is one of those moments!
@@erict149 exactly. I keep coming back to these songs. Country is not my favorite genre, but something about the solemn/ wholesome emotion is so enticing
you know I can honestly say this music saved my life. I lost my whole family last year. my mother then my twin girls two weeks later then my brother six months after them. I didn't really see any point in going on and then one day this music popped up on my recommendations. I turned it on and it spoke to me. It told me giving up is not a option. that my family wouldn't want that. After all that's happened I'm five years clean and sober and still alive. thanks Ben. no bullshit your music really did save me. I know probably don't read these but I figured I might get lucky for a change.
This song took me to a time... When a man was just a boy inside. Afraid of doing things right. Abused and abandoned by his junk riddled parents. Led blindly by the self destruction of what the image was he was trying to accomplish. Mistakes have brought me to this song. Life long mistakes. I lost myself in this song for a moment and became that boy again. Just yesterday I was pre approved for a 200k home loan. It's important to remember who you are and what you came from to realize the magnitude of little miracles in life.
And It's hard to wake from feeling blue -Oh but I will rise. Oh I will rise. & my hands may shake from lack of booze - And I've fallen out of space and time. - And I dug my grave with honest lies. - Now I'm king of the hounds. I wear shame like a crown. And they're placing bets all over town. On how I'll die, but I will rise. And I grieved a death from losing you. - And I choke on ash like cheap perfume. - And I'm scared to death of my own mind. - From the bottom of the well I hide. - Now I'm king of the hounds. I wear shame like a crown. And they're placing bets all over town. On how I'll die, but I will rise. And I walked through hell and liked the view. - And though your image of me now is skewed. - And I've given up my final time. - Now my candle burns from either side. - Now I'm king of the hounds. I wear shame like a crown. And they're placing bets all over town. On how I'll die, but I will rise.
I let my daddy hear 'Using again' and ever since he's asked for something new. So I gave him Benjamin's take on Earle. I can't wait for him to get home and hear this. He's 62,southern to his core,and a hard man to impress. I'm not sure how we've found this man to bond over,but I'm not one to question things that shine like store bought gifts at Trade Day. You've made my Sunday splendid.
My daddy is an ornery drunk that may very well be a true throwback to a more serene time. Mountain men are a breed I've yet to analyze with any success. I'll be 35 soon. An only child that inherited and absorbed all his bad qualities. I hide myself. I have a temper that sparks and sometimes I say things to cut too deep. I guess that's why some of Ben's lyrics resonate with us. We're two lone assholes bonded by a saint of a woman from a youth so depraved she sparkles. When I was younger I tried to pull away from them to save myself heartache when they left me for good. I wish I had all those years of ignorance and blind terror back. I'd listen to his weird Chet guitar music and try his sorghum butter. I hope these tunes bring you some kind of nostalgic peace,son.
My husband has been through just about everything you can imagine..some self inflicted most not..... owned his every mistake and and apologized for his worse apology accepted or not..he has and will continue to rise... amen
Clab no kidding...my bad man I have no recollection of ever having said typed or thought of something like that...that was awful. Thank god I don’t drink anymore...sorry nice lady
Hey brother. I'm an active.junkie and alcoholic but tomorrow morning I go get clean because of my kids. I been missing out long enough and dont remember much of there lifes or mine but that changes tonight.
@@danablackbirdbenitez2984 I am praying for you, for whatever that's worth. As cliche and obnoxious as it is to hear, you gotta take that shit one day, one choice, at a time. Please stay strong, not only your family but YOU deserve it. Methadone programs (in some states) can be extremely helpful, as well. I'm One week from being 4 years clean and it still gets claws at the edges of my mind every now and then.
And it's hard to wake from feeling blue Oh but I will rise, I will rise And my hands may shake from lack of booze Oh but I will rise, Lord I will rise And I've fallen out of space and time Oh but I will rise, oh I will rise And I dug my grave with honest lies Oh but I will rise, Lord I will rise Now I'm king of the hounds I wear shame like a crown And they're placing bets all over town On how I'll die But I will rise And I grieve to death from losing you Oh but I will rise, Lord I will rise And I choke on ash like cheap perfume Oh and I will rise, Lord I will rise And I'm scared to death of my own mind Oh and I will rise, Lord I will riseFrom the bottom of the well I hide Oh and I will rise, Lord I will rise Now I'm king of the hounds I wear shame like a crown And they're placing bets all over town On how I'll die But I will rise And I walk through hell and like the view Oh and I will rise, Lord I will rise Though your image of me now is skewed Oh I will rise, Lord I will rise And I've given up my final time Oh and I will rise, Lord I will rise Now my candle burns from either side Oh and I will rise, Lord I will rise Now I'm king of the hounds I wear shame like a crown And they're placing bets all over town On how I'll die But I will rise
I had told Ben, when I saw them live, that his music had helped save my life... this song encourages me to actually live that life now. His music can move even the most broken, crusty old souls me because we can recognize that his music is speaking real truths. Thank you Ben and Lost Dog for singing about the real hard shit in life, it really touches us.
Don't even joke about not being here. You are an amazing storyteller.... The world is in need if your amazing music. I know I myself need your music. This song speaks to so many of us.
Using again is my favorite because it reminds of when i was using and it helps me to stay clean because when your putting that stuff in your Vines it takes control..... Ive been clean for 4 years now...
Story of my life,, trying to get fully clean, on a program now so iv gotta do it now, or never, ✌️🙏pray for all addicts they are suffering more than you know or understand....
Listened to this song everyday when I was at rock bottom and it got me through many very dark days. Proud to say I’m in the best place I’ve ever been in my life. The only person that can count you out of life is yourself. Having the people that gave up on you see you as a success is the ultimate reward!
1371 USMC I contemplate every day how I will Fall... hearing a song about "how I will Rise" helps, even days when I have no faith. A little is better than Nothing. Thank you Sir.
In the past 9 months I've lost my best friend, my father, and my grandmother(who helped raise me). Times get harder, but this helps. Semper Fidelis Brother. ;)
My son has been in the military going on four years. He has used your words for motivation through ranger school and for inspiration for his daily life challenges.To say he is a huge fan of your music is an understatement. He respects what you write about Benjamin. As a father I thank you for that.
This song just came out for my first 24h sober in like 6 months. I really needed it. Thank you so much for your words and music, it motivates me a lot to go on.
Lâche pas AhBenCalisse! Je t'envoie toutes mes pensées de courage et de force! Tu peux tout faire, ne l'oublie jamais! Je te souhaite merde sur le chemin de la sobriété. ✌🌞
I've given up a final time a thousand times, and every shot has been my last shot for thirty years. I am well surprised I am still here to write this, but fuck me, I am glad I am , just to hear this song, and to have another one of your songs to sit and sing. Thankyou.
I hear you man. Listen, I just want to offer you some support man. I've been there and I tunneled through it to the other side. I've been clean for a while now. There is hope. I guess that's all i really want to say. You are not alone. Fuck, typing that I can see how trite that sounds, but seriously you're not. Reply here I'll try and get you my email. Messages in bottles saved my fucking life homie.
I love this song,man. Battling addiction my whole life, doing best I ever have n no one believes it. I have kids who's lives I will continue to be part of. That's something I didn't have. N I don't care what anyone, other than those kids think. Inspirational shit
Benjamin Todd both inspires me when Im low and gives me the realitu( sometimes hard ) and hard truths about getting high. Im not clean yet but Im not letting it take over amymore. Next step is just back to beer amd ganja. Hell the cigarettes are the hardest thing to quit.
as someone who has struggle with alcohol addiction for 10 years. this song gives me hope to continue to fight this addiction and rise above it, so thank you ben for the music and saving my life.
Tyler Childers, Colter Wall, Shawn James and Benjamin Tod together....super stage of acoustic genius and voices that hit every part of your soul is set
39 days clean and sober today, just buried a good friend this week who lost his life to this disease… he’s who put me on to you in the first place. Now I’m listening to your music everyday and it’s truly helping me stay sober. Thank you Ben
I found this lil "GEM" during a time when I fell off the wagon after over 15 yrs sober. In 9 months I almost lost everything I worked sooo hard to earn and love. My Wife, my Dogs, my house, and my land. I had not a soul to offer a hand... So with the help of this song and a few others, I lift myself up on my own! " I walked though hell and liked the view!" 😓💙 Thank you BT!💙😓
Thank you for your music. I spent over half my life as a practicing junkie, but have been clean for a while now. I just want to tell you how much your songs mean to me, and so many others.
He is an embodiment of what a whole population needs to see and hear. how could someone even understand that what they're creating exists as symbolically, to anyone willing to turn an open ear to him at that. his words tell the story of life. He just has to keep letting it all flow... yessir, that kind of talent is true to the bone
BT. Hey brother I just wanted to say thank you you have no idea how much your music has helped me get through some tough times...I'm 47 and I've been using for half my life I just recently lost one of my best friends my aunt who raise me and became a grandfather all in 2 weeks so needless to say I have a thousand emotions going through me,thank you for telling it how it is for keeping real country music alive I don't know what I'd do without ya
Man I have lived a similar life with addiction. I can relate to this song very much. But you can rise! But I couldn’t of rises without Jesus Christ! He saved my life and I’m grateful that no one is taking bets on me anymore. He can do the same for you my friend.
Just found this song... Simply beautiful and sung from the desperate cries of the heart. My life looks so different than it was just two short years ago. When you lose everything it's so easy to feel hopeless but you have to remind yourself to keep fighting and pressing forward. Don't stay down, you can rise again!
Who would have thought that clicking on a random link in Reddit 4 months ago would have led me to such amazing musicians and their beautiful bittersweet tunes. Here I am 4 months later with 4 albums and a few covers memorized and I still can't get enough of it. I feel like such a fanatic. I can't wait until the next album.
I've heard so much music but this song speaks to me on levels like none other. I first found this song right after my best friend died in November of 2019. It helped me get through the pain so much. When he said "I grieved a death from losing you" I felt that. When he said "they're placing bets all over town on how I'll die" I felt that. All I heard from anybody for the following weeks was "please don't hurt yourself honey" I just feel it all to the core. This song is me. When he said "now my candle burns from either side" I felt that. I can't stop feeling that I'm next. It's all so real
I love this guy Just lost my twin bro from using he got hep c ..... 37 and gone Rest In Peace bro and the using song gets me every time. Now this song. Dammit Ben you got me all over again. Hope you make it real big!
Mandatory Manda I'm sorry I lost my pops drinking eleven years ago than my older brother who also was battling booze got car accident In Oregon ohh frack super hard umm he had three kids and three grandchildren he was 44 it hurt allot more losing my brother than pops or maybe because I didn't morn right I'm feeling it for both I have a kid and now a bunch 😊but I lie to myself about being clean you gotta have someone strong enough stop ya once in awhile I hope your ok
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Thank you for this!!! If I had the $ I definitely would send it over. Once again... Thank you and I wish I could trade dollars for the experience of the song. %100
I lost my soulmate/best friend/brother just after this song released. My world has been turned upside down. I find comfort in these words. I know i have to break the chain of substance abuse. The reality is lonely and empty so I dull it the only way I know how. I will rise too. Thank you, Ben
Ben you and this song helped me get sober. I lost my ex to drinking but I survived. He showed me you.. so thank you both. And this song after saved me. Again thank you thank you thank you Ben!
As cliche as it may sound I could give you 999 reasons why I don't wanna' be here and a handful of reasons why I still am. Maybe I'm looking at things wrong and you most certainly do not bear the burden of my life but this song is one of those reasons. Thank you for sharing yourself with the world man. I appreciate you! Thank you!
I've been listening to Benjamin for about 4 years now and I still love every song I listen to. I idolized this man. His story... He's like a best-friend I've never met.
Alexander Johnson best time to listen to this song is at 5 in the morning when there isn’t a peep of other sounds going on in the world, just you and this beautiful sound.
Alexander Johnson forsure man, me to on my way to the coffee store then work I listen to it as well. Nice to know I’m not the only out there who does that haha.
Spent my whole 20s getting so drunk messed up and just all around mess . ive slowly been getting outta of it. 30yo now and trying my best to change. Anxiety got the best of me . love yall . glad to know theres people like me
i love your music i am addicted to it.. i saw you last year in portland or cant wait to see you again i am taking fiddle lessons because of you and your girl... you hit my soul ... i love you man as a beautiful soul... your music is so real
Hey Benjamin- I’m sure you’ll never read this but I wanna say thanks. I’m in rehab right now and you described my life. Like you, I will also rise. God bless you and please keep doing your thing. Huge fan of all of your stuff. Safe travels brother. I wish I could hear you in Georgia.
I really am starting to compare him to the greats, Imagine what Johnny would think of this song. Damn beautiful and haunting. Another tune to carry to the grave, Thanks Ben
Matthew McRae Dude, I know that this might be sacreligious , but I think he's better than Johnny Cash. In terms of range, depth and variety of his music. No disrespect to Johnny Cash, but damn, this guy is great
yeah dude, I absolutely see where you're coming from, but I feel the time people were born in shapes the music. Not to compare as in better or worse, but compare as in hold in a similar regard. I honestly see great musicians in their own personal categories if you can dig it lmao
Matthew McRae Ohhh I got you man, good to see people listening to these guys though. I tried to get some other country music fans into GemsOnVHS and they just couldn't get into it...way more into the Brantley Gilbert/Florida Georgia Line brand of music
Pop Country and real southern music just don't mix like you would think. This music isn't a fad, it's gonna be around as long as people are still holding it down in America
Matthew McRae this kinda music is what built and defined America, it transends fads because it's as simple and honest as you can get. Best name I've heard for this music is Americana, and I think that's damn fitting. The lyrics might change to fit the times but it don't get much better than humming strings and howlin souls.
I literally know people who have either lost or won money by betting on when or if I or how was gonna die. Most bets were on dead in a ditch by my own junkie hand or by violence. I’m now 52 years old and still scraping by…. Thanks Ben
My cousin just overdosed on monday. Your music has been helping me a lot ben. Even if it just helps the tears fall it makes me happy. I love everything about your music.
Blown away by this guys music. It's amazing finding new music that you know you will listen to for the rest of your life, however long that may be. Thank you Ben, THANK YOU.
Ben I can't thank you enough for what you do. Seriously. I cant put it into words. You seen me though tears and smiles alike. Your art is something I can play at my worst and best. Thank you.
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is lost dogs music exactly like this video? Or an whole band?
GemsOnVHS always love hearing what he's come up with. Doing the same over in Boone Co. West by god Virginia! Keep up the good work.
Are the singles recordings like these videos? I'd really like to grab a copy of these versions on audio.
Rick, I had the same thought, so I emailed the group, and Ashley Mae got back to me. She informed me that his solo album should be releasing in the next few months, which will include "Using Again" as well.
Wes Thompson thanks for the word. I'll keep a look out for it
This dude has very quickly become one of my favorite singer songwriters
same here
So good
Same here
I actually know this guy i didn't even know he was semi well known til today haha
Same
almost 60 days sober from heroin today and this song gave me chills. much love y’all
I'm rooting for you! Good luck on your journey. Glad you found this song. It's a fucking brilliant song I think.
i hope you're OK, friend :)
Agreed ..It did same to me,just found it yesterday. 23 days sober at the Betty Ford...came to on a hospital bed dec 23 after 23 months sober... God has a wonderful plan for you... We can do this 1 day at a time
6 days clean
I hope all you guys are still Killin it! Keep your heads up. I have 8 years clean now, no looking back!
"Country music is three chords and the truth." - Harlan Howard
Words to live by, and excellently exemplified by this man and his songs.
@Paul Revere Amen. There are many fancy guitarists who can't nail it.
So is punk
Shhhuuuussshh, don't tell Willie Nelson, he might turn to drugs.
@bifteque nicely put.
i’m not okay right now, i’m suicidal, but hearing this makes me want to believe that maybe i can turn my pain into something better, something that might help someone. thanks ben
Hope your ok. Keep your head up. It usually gets better
Hope you are well.
no one hope all is well and sht changed up for you.
no one - you are loved
I am a veteran and totally understand, you are not alone. they are not feelings to be ignored, Rage, rage against the dying of the light!
Tomorrow will be 4 years clean, and still rising! Love to all!
God bless
stay strong brother, proud if you
God bless, I just got home from detox. My doc is fentanyl. Got home and immediately started drinking. It scares me how easily I’ve been drifting into denial of my own demons lately. I hope to find inner peace someday. It’s so incredibly hard most days and I feel like most people get me when I say that but I still find it hard to let anyone in to help heal. I’m so very proud of you, I hope you are still keeping strong. You got this. Each time I feel like using again feels like a harder and harder battle but seeing and hearing from people who have grown so much and started their inner healing reminds me that one day I as well can feel that drive in me again. Take care my friend🤘🏼
@@adecentname2886 hey friend, are you still sober?
@@marklepkowski5362 yes sir, i relapsed shortly after that last post but I just got home last month from another treatment center where i stayed 43 days
I have never heard my neighbors downstairs play music before.. but they played this very loud all of a sudden and I stopped and placed my phone on the ground to record it. I felt like there may be hope in a situation where I was losing hope, for little Mikey Cadena who I am trying to help. I listened back to some of the lyrics and found it online here. Beautiful song
what a nice story. thanks for coming erin, stay awhile!
It's possible we're neighbors lol
Lol your story hit me hard, especially at this moment I live in life..
@dee welsh his solo stuff and his lost dog street band songs are brilliant. I don't think he is capable of writing a bad song
Haha oh
I don't know what's made me tear up harder, the song or the comments I've read... so many struggling souls like mine... let us all rise up
I’m with ya
This song and using again... definitely hits a certain spot
Sup?
@@tylerusner6211 hmm
Same... im feeling it
Just lost my wife, the mother of my child to an overdose two weeks ago.. each day that passes is undescribably different than the last, grief seems to run in circles. The closer her funeral gets, the harder I'm hit with reality. Tomorrow's the day we stand at the chapel to say goodbye. This song's the most accurate and beautiful depiction of what it feels like to be an addict trying to overcome thier personal struggle. I'm trying to recover myself, and since this happened I've just been losing my shit. This song now hits a part of my soul that's mixed with beauty and despair, grief, yet hope. Recognition of adversity, the gravity of our problem; the will and strength to push on. Idk if you read these comments Ben, but you truly might have the power to change the wrold with music. You've added some hope to mine. Thanks for the beautiful music brother.
So very sorry for your loss.
Omg I'm crying like a baby
I know ypur comment is 8 montha old but grief lasts forever. Hope you are okay
Sorry brother....you need Jesus he has solved my problems...I have new ones now... sanctification is a process...I still fail.. choose your battles
@Joe Linville I know this comment is three months old and the original is a year old, I am so sorry for the grief of Cody D. I just got sober 23 days ago after 23 months...I fell off the wagon hard... Jesus Is The Answer🙏
“I wear shame like a crown,” I really felt that within my whole heart
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Rise up
I used to as-well. This guy's music caused so much self reflection that I was forced to rise. But know this if I can destroy that crown so can you.
We played this song at my brother's Memorial. Forgiveness & Love always Benny. Rest In Power ❤
Hey zona .. just came onto comment this exact thing .. .. and there ya wer .. hi much love ..rip benny
@@vykinscum5671 Thank-you ❤️
This fucking guy man. Blows me away. Every time.
MagicSmokingDragon a true artist and definitely an old soul
Came here to say pretty much this exact thing.
Me too!
He gives me chills.
MagicSmokingDragon he is a genius
"And I'm scared to death of my own mind"
YES! I KNOW! I was just sitting here thinking about how I love pretty much anything this man does! But every now and then... there will be a line... a phrase... a thought.. a sentiment... and the way he delivers it... that just sends a shiver down my spine. This is one of those moments!
@@erict149 exactly. I keep coming back to these songs. Country is not my favorite genre, but something about the solemn/ wholesome emotion is so enticing
I feel that lyric in the deepest ways
The human condition.
Its one of the many perks that come with being human , being able to contemplate your own existence is no small feat.
Heck, reading the comment while he's singing it
Music is what feelings sound like
No language could possibly explain emotions, its literally impossible, far too complex. Somehow, tho, music does that.
Iv been waiting along time to hav the woeds for how all music gives me great positive feelings ..thank you
yup
What a good sentence. I agree :)
smartest man I ever knew put it a bit simpler- music is feelings
you know I can honestly say this music saved my life. I lost my whole family last year. my mother then my twin girls two weeks later then my brother six months after them. I didn't really see any point in going on and then one day this music popped up on my recommendations. I turned it on and it spoke to me. It told me giving up is not a option. that my family wouldn't want that. After all that's happened I'm five years clean and sober and still alive. thanks Ben. no bullshit your music really did save me. I know probably don't read these but I figured I might get lucky for a change.
eric spencer Hope everything works out for you.
You've got me choked up over here. Thanks for sharing your story. Music heals, brother. Keep moving forward and never stop!
Hope you are hanging in there. Take care.
Music has saved me many times I couldn't live and wouldn't want to live without it. Good luck brother well done so sorry about your losses.
Eric I wanted to let you know I will make sure Ben hears your heart and hang on and rise… Blessings
This song took me to a time... When a man was just a boy inside. Afraid of doing things right. Abused and abandoned by his junk riddled parents. Led blindly by the self destruction of what the image was he was trying to accomplish. Mistakes have brought me to this song. Life long mistakes. I lost myself in this song for a moment and became that boy again. Just yesterday I was pre approved for a 200k home loan. It's important to remember who you are and what you came from to realize the magnitude of little miracles in life.
Mark Sutton mark, we have lived very similar lives, im not quite where I want to be yet but you’re comment lifted me up and gives me hope
Mark Sutton amazing. Nothing but pure respect for u.
And It's hard to wake from feeling blue
-Oh but I will rise. Oh I will rise.
& my hands may shake from lack of booze
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And I've fallen out of space and time.
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And I dug my grave with honest lies.
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Now I'm king of the hounds. I wear shame like a crown.
And they're placing bets all over town. On how I'll die, but I will rise.
And I grieved a death from losing you.
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And I choke on ash like cheap perfume.
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And I'm scared to death of my own mind.
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From the bottom of the well I hide.
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Now I'm king of the hounds. I wear shame like a crown.
And they're placing bets all over town. On how I'll die, but I will rise.
And I walked through hell and liked the view.
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And though your image of me now is skewed.
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And I've given up my final time.
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Now my candle burns from either side.
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Now I'm king of the hounds. I wear shame like a crown.
And they're placing bets all over town. On how I'll die, but I will rise.
thanks.
No worries! :)
Thanks! And not a problem! Big fan of Lost dog here :) .
Solanum20 420
you are amazing
I suffer from a psychotic and affective disorder and your music has deeply touched me. From drug abuse to self abuse you really capture everything
Nothing more therapeutic than that first listen to a new Benjamin Tod song.
agreed
I let my daddy hear 'Using again' and ever since he's asked for something new. So I gave him Benjamin's take on Earle. I can't wait for him to get home and hear this. He's 62,southern to his core,and a hard man to impress. I'm not sure how we've found this man to bond over,but I'm not one to question things that shine like store bought gifts at Trade Day.
You've made my Sunday splendid.
love that.
touching story! thanks for watching and sharing.
Shesssoooheavy if my pops was still alive I'm sure we would've stopped arguing to bond over this man's exceptional music.. just saying
My daddy is an ornery drunk that may very well be a true throwback to a more serene time. Mountain men are a breed I've yet to analyze with any success. I'll be 35 soon. An only child that inherited and absorbed all his bad qualities. I hide myself. I have a temper that sparks and sometimes I say things to cut too deep. I guess that's why some of Ben's lyrics resonate with us. We're two lone assholes bonded by a saint of a woman from a youth so depraved she sparkles.
When I was younger I tried to pull away from them to save myself heartache when they left me for good. I wish I had all those years of ignorance and blind terror back. I'd listen to his weird Chet guitar music and try his sorghum butter.
I hope these tunes bring you some kind of nostalgic peace,son.
Shesssoooheavy you said tradeday, where are you from? Lol
My husband has been through just about everything you can imagine..some self inflicted most not..... owned his every mistake and and apologized for his worse apology accepted or not..he has and will continue to rise... amen
What a lucky man he is to have you
Thank you
I just know my bride would say the same thing.
I sent this song to my bf when he relapsed. Sadly I lost him almost a year ago but this song still makes me think of him.
♥️
Im sorry for your loss
I am sorry for your loss. I have just discovered this music and I am ashamed I have just now found it. It has mesmerized me.
My heart goes out to you
Clab no kidding...my bad man I have no recollection of ever having said typed or thought of something like that...that was awful. Thank god I don’t drink anymore...sorry nice lady
This is day one of me taking my life back. I will rise Ben, thank you.
"I walked through hell and liked the view." Damn, hit me hard.
The view I later asphalt and felt 365 degrees and i didn't even like that heat forget the view
Hell becomes so familiar that without it we are left with an uncertainty that can be far more unsettling.
That's a good line. Deep. Reminds me of CS Lewis saying (I think) in the end God gives each of us what we want most.
"I walked through hell and ACCEPTED the view" is more apt for my experience. Clean now and the view is better.
Coming up as a kid and seeing alcoholism and addiction was my walk through hell and soon i struggled with my own now im clean and sober
Words cant explain what this song means to me as a guy dealing with anxiety and depression Thanks Ben
Kyle Dugat Im with you brother. If you dont mind me asking are you Christian?
I wish to one day be as honest as Ben. Even to myself.
Damn right
MrKleenexDude that’s the hardest part, to be honest with yourself.
me and you both
I get it man. And I love it. 13 years off the junk for I have risen. And yet shit goes on and I will rise. From whatever it is.
Hey brother. I'm an active.junkie and alcoholic but tomorrow morning I go get clean because of my kids. I been missing out long enough and dont remember much of there lifes or mine but that changes tonight.
@@danablackbirdbenitez2984 are you doing okay?
You got this , brother. Much love.
@@danablackbirdbenitez2984 I am praying for you, for whatever that's worth. As cliche and obnoxious as it is to hear, you gotta take that shit one day, one choice, at a time. Please stay strong, not only your family but YOU deserve it. Methadone programs (in some states) can be extremely helpful, as well. I'm One week from being 4 years clean and it still gets claws at the edges of my mind every now and then.
@@keystoneguardian7543 almost three months clean ☺😊and I've never felt better in my life
And it's hard to wake from feeling blue
Oh but I will rise, I will rise
And my hands may shake from lack of booze
Oh but I will rise, Lord I will rise
And I've fallen out of space and time
Oh but I will rise, oh I will rise
And I dug my grave with honest lies
Oh but I will rise, Lord I will rise
Now I'm king of the hounds
I wear shame like a crown
And they're placing bets all over town
On how I'll die
But I will rise
And I grieve to death from losing you
Oh but I will rise, Lord I will rise
And I choke on ash like cheap perfume
Oh and I will rise, Lord I will rise
And I'm scared to death of my own mind
Oh and I will rise, Lord I will riseFrom the bottom of the well I hide
Oh and I will rise, Lord I will rise
Now I'm king of the hounds
I wear shame like a crown
And they're placing bets all over town
On how I'll die
But I will rise
And I walk through hell and like the view
Oh and I will rise, Lord I will rise
Though your image of me now is skewed
Oh I will rise, Lord I will rise
And I've given up my final time
Oh and I will rise, Lord I will rise
Now my candle burns from either side
Oh and I will rise, Lord I will rise
Now I'm king of the hounds
I wear shame like a crown
And they're placing bets all over town
On how I'll die
But I will rise
I had told Ben, when I saw them live, that his music had helped save my life... this song encourages me to actually live that life now. His music can move even the most broken, crusty old souls me because we can recognize that his music is speaking real truths. Thank you Ben and Lost Dog for singing about the real hard shit in life, it really touches us.
Don't even joke about not being here. You are an amazing storyteller.... The world is in need if your amazing music. I know I myself need your music. This song speaks to so many of us.
David Cartner doubt its a joke. Lived this life, it weighs.
I see no jokes in these lyrics
I want this to be played at my funeral. I make sure it's in my will.
Me too.❤
Using again is my favorite because it reminds of when i was using and it helps me to stay clean because when your putting that stuff in your Vines it takes control..... Ive been clean for 4 years now...
it’s one of my favourites!!
Are you still clean? Be a better version of you ALWAYS.
Story of my life,, trying to get fully clean, on a program now so iv gotta do it now, or never, ✌️🙏pray for all addicts they are suffering more than you know or understand....
Listened to this song everyday when I was at rock bottom and it got me through many very dark days. Proud to say I’m in the best place I’ve ever been in my life. The only person that can count you out of life is yourself. Having the people that gave up on you see you as a success is the ultimate reward!
1371 USMC
I contemplate every day how I will Fall...
hearing a song about "how I will Rise" helps, even days when I have no faith. A little is better than Nothing. Thank you Sir.
In the past 9 months I've lost my best friend, my father, and my grandmother(who helped raise me). Times get harder, but this helps. Semper Fidelis Brother. ;)
My son has been in the military going on four years. He has used your words for motivation through ranger school and for inspiration for his daily life challenges.To say he is a huge fan of your music is an understatement. He respects what you write about Benjamin. As a father I thank you for that.
This song just came out for my first 24h sober in like 6 months. I really needed it.
Thank you so much for your words and music, it motivates me a lot to go on.
AhBenCalisse00 keep up the good work
AhBenCalisse00 keep it up brother.
You can do it.
Struggle makes us grow.
Proud of ya man!
Lâche pas AhBenCalisse! Je t'envoie toutes mes pensées de courage et de force! Tu peux tout faire, ne l'oublie jamais! Je te souhaite merde sur le chemin de la sobriété. ✌🌞
Thanks to all of you! It's been a week now and it ain't easy at all, still feeling shaky and all, but I'm fuckin proud of myself
I've given up a final time a thousand times, and every shot has been my last shot for thirty years. I am well surprised I am still here to write this, but fuck me, I am glad I am , just to hear this song, and to have another one of your songs to sit and sing.
Thankyou.
I hear you man. Listen, I just want to offer you some support man. I've been there and I tunneled through it to the other side. I've been clean for a while now. There is hope. I guess that's all i really want to say. You are not alone. Fuck, typing that I can see how trite that sounds, but seriously you're not. Reply here I'll try and get you my email. Messages in bottles saved my fucking life homie.
Right on brother
I just kicked my habbit on a left behind matress in an abandoned house. I am so alone....I feel so alone.
Rebuilding burned bridges from nothing but ashes lying on a creek bottom miles downstream. Even in sobriety this song speaks to my soul.
brendon leary keep shooting!
I love this song,man. Battling addiction my whole life, doing best I ever have n no one believes it. I have kids who's lives I will continue to be part of. That's something I didn't have. N I don't care what anyone, other than those kids think. Inspirational shit
chiefn wish you all the best man. Doesn’t matter what anyone believes as long as you are true in you’re heart!!! Much love all the best my friend
Benjamin Todd both inspires me when Im low and gives me the realitu( sometimes hard ) and hard truths about getting high. Im not clean yet but Im not letting it take over amymore. Next step is just back to beer amd ganja. Hell the cigarettes are the hardest thing to quit.
Please don't stop making music, helps me continue my journey through this glorious life of mine
Just started listening to Lost Dog and I'm already so hooked it's crazy. Real shit right here
Jared Babinec the best. I want this song played at my funeral.. and hopefully that ain't soon. I got too much art to make
Taco and the new year round tour of new England will be a fun day.
as someone who has struggle with alcohol addiction for 10 years. this song gives me hope to continue to fight this addiction and rise above it, so thank you ben for the music and saving my life.
Benjamin tod and tyler childers together??
That’d be fuckin awesome I love them both
God I love this comment so much. Good enough for me but Colter Wall would be alright to me too.
I really like colter wall and Tyler childers but this dude is awesome too
Tyler Childers, Colter Wall, Shawn James and Benjamin Tod together....super stage of acoustic genius and voices that hit every part of your soul is set
john moreland added in would be good too
39 days clean and sober today, just buried a good friend this week who lost his life to this disease… he’s who put me on to you in the first place. Now I’m listening to your music everyday and it’s truly helping me stay sober. Thank you Ben
Thanks Ben for spilling this on us.. Real lyrics from an old soul never gets dusty..
I found this lil "GEM" during a time when I fell off the wagon after over 15 yrs sober. In 9 months I almost lost everything I worked sooo hard to earn and love. My Wife, my Dogs, my house, and my land. I had not a soul to offer a hand... So with the help of this song and a few others, I lift myself up on my own!
" I walked though hell and liked the view!"
😓💙 Thank you BT!💙😓
Thank you for your music. I spent over half my life as a practicing junkie, but have been clean for a while now. I just want to tell you how much your songs mean to me, and so many others.
This dude has figured out how to tell a story and somehow i think anyone can relate to the music. true talent
He is an embodiment of what a whole population needs to see and hear. how could someone even understand that what they're creating exists as symbolically, to anyone willing to turn an open ear to him at that. his words tell the story of life. He just has to keep letting it all flow... yessir, that kind of talent is true to the bone
BT. Hey brother I just wanted to say thank you you have no idea how much your music has helped me get through some tough times...I'm 47 and I've been using for half my life I just recently lost one of my best friends my aunt who raise me and became a grandfather all in 2 weeks so needless to say I have a thousand emotions going through me,thank you for telling it how it is for keeping real country music alive I don't know what I'd do without ya
This man, Chris Cornell and Arlo McKinley just inspired me to get my first acoustic guitar 🤘🎸
Even in my darkest hour I would play this song and something inside deep knew it would someday be heard again and have come to fruition
This is real music. Haven't heard anything like since the 60s.
I wasn't alive in the 60's but I agree.
Luke Benoche where the hell have you been
Nick Drake.
I regret that I have but one thumbs up to give.
I'll do it for you
Me too
Me three
Man I have lived a similar life with addiction. I can relate to this song very much. But you can rise! But I couldn’t of rises without Jesus Christ! He saved my life and I’m grateful that no one is taking bets on me anymore. He can do the same for you my friend.
Just found this song... Simply beautiful and sung from the desperate cries of the heart. My life looks so different than it was just two short years ago. When you lose everything it's so easy to feel hopeless but you have to remind yourself to keep fighting and pressing forward. Don't stay down, you can rise again!
Good God, this hit me hard. Listening to this piece broke me down, but I will rise.
This man is one of the greatest song writers of our time.
Who would have thought that clicking on a random link in Reddit 4 months ago would have led me to such amazing musicians and their beautiful bittersweet tunes. Here I am 4 months later with 4 albums and a few covers memorized and I still can't get enough of it. I feel like such a fanatic. I can't wait until the next album.
I've heard so much music but this song speaks to me on levels like none other. I first found this song right after my best friend died in November of 2019. It helped me get through the pain so much. When he said "I grieved a death from losing you" I felt that. When he said "they're placing bets all over town on how I'll die" I felt that. All I heard from anybody for the following weeks was "please don't hurt yourself honey" I just feel it all to the core. This song is me. When he said "now my candle burns from either side" I felt that. I can't stop feeling that I'm next. It's all so real
I have listened to this song a million times, but I still get goosebumps when I hear it. Awesome song and a great artist.
I love this guy Just lost my twin bro from using he got hep c ..... 37 and gone Rest In Peace bro and the using song gets me every time. Now this song. Dammit Ben you got me all over again. Hope you make it real big!
Mandatory Manda I'm sorry for your loss
I've had hep c for 3 years. How long did your bro have it
Mandatory Manda I'm sorry I lost my pops drinking eleven years ago than my older brother who also was battling booze got car accident In Oregon ohh frack super hard umm he had three kids and three grandchildren he was 44 it hurt allot more losing my brother than pops or maybe because I didn't morn right I'm feeling it for both I have a kid and now a bunch 😊but I lie to myself about being clean you gotta have someone strong enough stop ya once in awhile I hope your ok
30 months baby!!! Living low down but I’m LIVING AGAIN!!
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Thank you for this!!!
If I had the $ I definitely would send it over.
Once again... Thank you and I wish I could trade dollars for the experience of the song. %100
Hey.. I would like to purchase a CD can u explain what way to go about that..
Thanks
How can I help
@@elizabethkaseroff9235 hey how are you doing now? I hope you’re okay.
I lost my soulmate/best friend/brother just after this song released. My world has been turned upside down. I find comfort in these words. I know i have to break the chain of substance abuse. The reality is lonely and empty so I dull it the only way I know how. I will rise too. Thank you, Ben
how does one dislike anything this man does?
Ben you and this song helped me get sober. I lost my ex to drinking but I survived. He showed me you.. so thank you both. And this song after saved me. Again thank you thank you thank you Ben!
"I'm scared to death of my own mind." And let all the people say, "AMEN".
As cliche as it may sound I could give you 999 reasons why I don't wanna' be here and a handful of reasons why I still am. Maybe I'm looking at things wrong and you most certainly do not bear the burden of my life but this song is one of those reasons. Thank you for sharing yourself with the world man. I appreciate you! Thank you!
I am quick to cry and slow to lie, but I like this guy.
Almost nothing on earth hits home as hard as this man's music. An absolute poetic genius.
I've been waiting for an update since the last vid with ben.
Got me really worried last vid, this gives me hope.
Love it
I've been listening to Benjamin for about 4 years now and I still love every song I listen to. I idolized this man. His story...
He's like a best-friend I've never met.
I play this song probably 5 times a day every day and it never fails to pick me up
Alexander Johnson best time to listen to this song is at 5 in the morning when there isn’t a peep of other sounds going on in the world, just you and this beautiful sound.
I do this often on my way to work. You're completely correct
Alexander Johnson forsure man, me to on my way to the coffee store then work I listen to it as well. Nice to know I’m not the only out there who does that haha.
Needed to hear this the first week of 2022. God Bless Benjamin Tod.
This was put out in a time of my life when I really needed to hear it. Thank you my friend. I Will Rise...
Dude is probably the best songwriter I've heard lately
Quite possibly the sharpest knife of a song ever written.
This song hits harder every day man. God bless you Ben ❤
Spent my whole 20s getting so drunk messed up and just all around mess . ive slowly been getting outta of it. 30yo now and trying my best to change. Anxiety got the best of me . love yall . glad to know theres people like me
welp im back at it . life totally sucks
Nothing I can say over RUclips can really help but I hope the best for you markson20
The problem isn’t the problem. The problem is how you feel about the problem...
remember when his dad was you brings back memorys! 7/2020
i love your music i am addicted to it.. i saw you last year in portland or cant wait to see you again i am taking fiddle lessons because of you and your girl... you hit my soul ... i love you man as a beautiful soul... your music is so real
Hey Benjamin- I’m sure you’ll never read this but I wanna say thanks. I’m in rehab right now and you described my life. Like you, I will also rise. God bless you and please keep doing your thing. Huge fan of all of your stuff. Safe travels brother. I wish I could hear you in Georgia.
Love this song DAMN it how I much I can relate to this song
Stacey Bailey Amen
God bless this man, he changed my life
I really am starting to compare him to the greats, Imagine what Johnny would think of this song. Damn beautiful and haunting. Another tune to carry to the grave, Thanks Ben
Matthew McRae
Dude, I know that this might be sacreligious , but I think he's better than Johnny Cash. In terms of range, depth and variety of his music.
No disrespect to Johnny Cash, but damn, this guy is great
yeah dude, I absolutely see where you're coming from, but I feel the time people were born in shapes the music. Not to compare as in better or worse, but compare as in hold in a similar regard. I honestly see great musicians in their own personal categories if you can dig it lmao
Matthew McRae
Ohhh I got you man, good to see people listening to these guys though. I tried to get some other country music fans into GemsOnVHS and they just couldn't get into it...way more into the Brantley Gilbert/Florida Georgia Line brand of music
Pop Country and real southern music just don't mix like you would think. This music isn't a fad, it's gonna be around as long as people are still holding it down in America
Matthew McRae this kinda music is what built and defined America, it transends fads because it's as simple and honest as you can get. Best name I've heard for this music is Americana, and I think that's damn fitting. The lyrics might change to fit the times but it don't get much better than humming strings and howlin souls.
This song saved my life.
51 days clean today. Damn this song is amazing.
How you holding up? I'm closing on my first year and hope you're doing well
asherael 629 days today! Still going strong!
I literally know people who have either lost or won money by betting on when or if I or how was gonna die. Most bets were on dead in a ditch by my own junkie hand or by violence.
I’m now 52 years old and still scraping by…. Thanks Ben
I just want anyone listening to this song or reading this comment to know that you matter. Don’t stop dreaming.
All i can say is Thank You for sharing your talent with us ❤
🎶 And those "people" don't even have a clue
Cuz I will rise with the help from theses songs that I somehow just knew... 🎵
You're the best there is, Ben. Thanks for the hope, I owe you.
buying lost dogs album on payday... this guy's my new favourite artist
Whats it called
My cousin just overdosed on monday. Your music has been helping me a lot ben. Even if it just helps the tears fall it makes me happy. I love everything about your music.
I wept. Beautiful song.
Amos Anon same
I am an addict who has recently hit rock bottom. And I do have that fight in me left. Thanks mate.
I went further down the road. 3 weeks sober again. Still fighting. I hate myself.
Blown away by this guys music. It's amazing finding new music that you know you will listen to for the rest of your life, however long that may be. Thank you Ben, THANK YOU.
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Ben I can't thank you enough for what you do. Seriously. I cant put it into words. You seen me though tears and smiles alike. Your art is something I can play at my worst and best. Thank you.
Day 1. Say a prayer for me
hope its going well
Still have love for you stranger
Hope its going well, god bless
Hope you are alright man!
Hope you're still doing well
This song here is medicine