I Wish I was doing "Better"? | Porch Coffee
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- Опубликовано: 18 сен 2024
- Hi! I’m Claire, and this is my channel, Woodshed Theory. Here you will find the awkward ramblings of an adult autist. I love being creative and sharing my experiences with you. Subscribe to see more DIYs, Discussions, and Bunnies on your feed!
So not every day is perfect for me, so I wanted to share how I've been feeling.
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You bring already great content. So honest, and not only the sunny side, as so many others. And with a big dose of humor. Thank you for that.
Thanks friend!
When you said you were sorry to neurotypicals listening to this because you were being so open, I wanted to say to you that I'm SO THANKFUL that you're being so open like this. I'm 51, just learned of my autism in the last decade, and literally wait and wait to find ANYONE who will open up and be real about all the personal and internal stuff goin' on, cuz that's what I'm always struggling to work out myself. It's so helpful to get in on another person's processing for me. THANK YOU Claire!!!
Thank you Trisha that means the world to me
I was diagnosed at 47. I feel like I lost my youth, my potential, my life really. All the inexplicable behaviour and strange choices I made in my life makes more sense, but it doesn’t mean I’ll get that time of youth and potential back. I caused an enormous amount of my own suffering because I was unaware that I was autistic. It’s difficult coming to terms with that. I wish I could have a ‘do over’. 😭
Me too. I was diagnosed at 45. Also, I'm resentful. Diagnosed at eight with ADD or ADHD, it was 1983 surely the doctor knew of the condition? My mother discontinued the medication. I've struggled and feel I will be found dead in my home one day, a month or two after I've died.
Hi friend I totally get where you are coming from
same, same, i was very late diagnosed official a couple month ago. Right now i am in a kind of dent. A deep dent, but with ground. I am realizing how was my 'old' live against the new one. What i have missed, how i was misunderstood, how i missunderstood the others. I know now why i was / I am an outcast... The feelings, which i blocked completely out of my live, because i couldn't express them. Now everything It is so overwhealming, because i let out my feelings (when i am alone) I cry most time of the day.
Hi Arno thanks for sharing. Hope we can all get through it together
Hi, I really love this porch cofee video. Thank you.
I was raised in a very toxic and unstable environment, where all basic needs, especially psychological and emotional, were denied. Now, as an adult, I recognized to myself the right to be autistic. I finally feel free, and truly myself.
Hi that’s wonderful to be truly yourself
In the hussle and bussle of the season, it's great to quiet it down and reflect with Claire. I feel the same way sometimes, have to forgive myself and do the best I can.
Thanks Mithra happy to have you
I have had many similar thoughts to similar situations. I was always told that only we know who we are. We, all people, are constantly evolving. A diagnosis will knock us off our feet in the sense that the directional arrow gets out of whack, but then there's the period of refocus. Once you get to the refocus, you start realizing that nothing has really changed within your core and I thought that was one of the best feelings in the world. I know I struggle with this or that, but I constantly remind myself I made it 43. I can do this. I have had wonderful people to help me as well. I wish you all the best!
Thanks Nick what a thoughtful comment I hope you stick around! I really feel like I’m becoming myself and it feels so good
I really felt the whole, ready to do great things but also needing more time.
Yes! What way now?
@@WoodshedTheory For me personally it depends on what my spoon count is looking like for the day.
Appreciate this kind of “stream
Of thought” content.
Thanks Sarah - I always feel like it’s a cop out but I know that’s just me feeling self conscious
I've had many talks with my psychologist about my plans for the future (largely because I'm kind of stuck in a financial limbo, long story, but basically something that will at some undisclosed time be settled will either confirm I'm stuck in the situation I am in or overnight make me a middle class citizen). What we've realized mainly is that I have a passion and love for making plans and exploring possibilities and finding solutions. In part the drive to come up with solutions is from my tendency to have a sense of control in a situation where there's not much that I have control over. I've made 5 year plans for multiple different possible career paths with no intention of following any of them. I feel incredibly lost because I have nothing that I feel tremendously passionate about that could be a career path. The things I find the most joy in I specifically refuse to monetize because I want those to remain a passion, untainted by the thought of, "this is worth this amount of money." But I'm still working on identifying what I could do as that monotonous, meditative task that I need in my daily routine that would financially support me. For now I have a good job that reasonably fits it but there's definitely no real passion or interest in it.
Trying to figure out a career path or at least an income stream while on the spectrum has been… so hard to figure out - you are not alone my friend
Coffee"s a great anti-oxidant. Go wild. "Its the sugar that's baid" ( Mr Macky voice)
Hahah will be getting more coffee today
I love and feel everything you said in this video. It was very therapeutic for me to hear it from someone.
Andi that is so kind. I’m so privileged to have you here as I could really use support from likeminded people
I love all of your videos and you have been super helpful to me, but this one especially hit me right in my guts. Not exactly sure why but I really appreciate you making these.
I’m so glad they speak to you. I used to view them as my lazy videos because they didn’t take as much work to produce and edit but they have become really important to me
I would love to have porch coffee with you...but this morning is is 37 degrees....much to cold for porch coffee. But the good news is that I never run out of coffee!!
Couch coffee it is!
I think what helps me feel forward momentum is enjoying the progress I've made so far. Much of what I consider progress was never even a goal.
Judging ourselves by NT standards makes no sense as we are not NT. It being a spectrum, ND makes little sense either.
While it can be hard to figure who that is, we can only try and be our best selves.
That is a great point thank you
This video really spoke to me. Hugely. And the rambling was definitely needed as it sounded much like how I process thoughts. I also wanted to mention that the Harry Potter reference is just so spot on. I ended up making a meme about it since it just occurred to me that it’s a very approachable way to mention some autistic traits! I hope that’s okay. I can always bring it down if you’d like. Thanks for the videos you post! Very relevant
No way don’t take it down I love memes! Thanks for your comment :)
@@WoodshedTheory yay thanks ! It really allowed me to released all the traits I wanted people to know about and couldn’t say out loud ! I appreciate it!
That’s awesome!
You’re speaking my language on the instant coffee thing!! Question, do you have a PO Box or designated address where we could send you thing? I’d love to send you some good coffee for Christmas!!!!
Oh thank you I don’t yet but I’m working on it - be sure to let you know
Wouldn't it be funny if you kept singing more and more of your episodes until finally the whole thing was sung? Also, I thought coffee helped autistic and ADHD people. I feel isolated, too. For me, it's still because of the pandemic. I'm grateful for my online friends. I've been having similar thoughts and feelings. Today I realized I don't have to be happy, and that realization made me so happy! We have so much conditioning that we're supposed to be different and do things differently. Now we need to get to know our own selves. I think a lot of this is just figuring out our own way while taking care of ourselves and getting support. It takes time and a willingness to do it differently. And content doesn't get better than Porch Coffee! This is gold. Just keep singing!
Yes I need to do a musical episode like they do on sitcoms. I think the caffeine helps but not with my anxiety disorder. I look for your comments every time Cathy thank you 🥰
chats like this one are the better videos, I look forward to them., see you on Wednesday.
Thanks friend!
There is a song by 4-Non Blondes called What’s Up.
“25 years and my life is still…Trying to get up that great big hill of hope…for a destination…”
What a perfect description!
I am late identified at 54. I’ve spent the first 54 years kinda lost and confused. I have that feeling regularly as I try to find myself. One day I’m satisfied with my career choice, the next I want to move to the boonies and subsistence farm. Ugh
Yes it’s so hard!
@@WoodshedTheory a degree in engineering and 25 years at the same company, a good company, and I still do this regularly. I feel ya!
I feel for you running out of real coffee. There is nothing more depressing than having to resort to instant.
Yes it is! :(
Firstly: The entire Western world is floundering, ok? Shit has gotten so real, that every one of us is struggling to know our asses from our elbows. Unless you're an Elite (who's doubling your income during this bug), youre trying to reconfigure where n how you fit into this fast-changing world, regardless of whether you're NT or ND. The Japanese have a very irritating phrase: "Do what needs doing". Yup, I know. WTF to do? Lemme tell you: You're certainly not alone. The best starting point is certainly to recognize and own "discontentment" by being honest. - "Tick". Beginning is half done, so youre halfway there. Breakthroughs can ONLY come from dicontent, so be mindful and acknowledge that youre in the best place possible right now.👍
Thanks Greg!
how is it possible that I am the first to comment? LOL
You must be my #1 fan lol