I am no therapist. But I am a mommy and I think a lot of what your feeling has not only a lot to do with your health situation but also how your life has changed. Maybe consider asking if you could start visiting your school, your students, maybe going in a half hour every other day to just help grade papers, I think you will start feeling like yourself again and you can see and feel the blessing we all see you are! You are a testament. A beautiful walking miracle and you have a purpose! You will feel better one day. Don't give up☺️ you got this!
I can't have kids lol, but this thread is very true as far as things that have helped me. Sometimes, doing the buisywork parts of a job a little a day helped IMMENSELY for me. A good example was when i vol in a records office of all things for a very short time even after my HS diploma hour quota was over. I was very hurt at the time and it helped keep me in the mix, looking back. People who volunteered just for their HS diploma (it used to be part of a req.) made fun of what I did saying "what you do is boring, your not getting paid so why do it" but I found love in helping. My theory is the parts of jobs that are kinda "meh" stimulate parts of you that make you feel immersed in things, at least in my experience. Imersion in life does so much for humans. Grading papers might be a substitute for whatever you do to put you to sleep, like if you were hesitant to return even part time, but even the smallest bit, even if it's not the most fun, if you can do it a tiny bit, its helping someone, and i don't know how to explain it, but the things that can be boring, when limited, paid or volunteered, as long as you just do the amount that helps you mentally, like grading papers if you can't make it in might work wonders. Peace, love, and peace again.
Awww sweetie, I love you so much! My four-year-old daughter and I watch you all the time, and I told her that you got sick and is feeling a little sad about it and she told me that you can have her favorite blanket and stuff doggy so you can get better! We are wishing you a speedy recovery.
I too am fighting cancer , I was diagnosed , early November 2016 . I have colon cancer and it has spread to my liver and lungs ( stage 4 ) . My body has become allergic to the chemo (Folfox) so I've been without the chemo for a couple of months , but the chemo pump and Avastin are keeping the cancer from spreading , I will be getting desensitized later this month . I don't consider myself a brave person , but I swore that cancer will never kill my spirit , it might kill my body , but it will never kill my spirit , my spirit is cancer free and it will remain that way for ever. I don't even think about the cancer . My philosophy has always been that in order to live , you have to die and in order to die , you have to live . To me dying is not the end , but a beginning of something else . Stay strong and faith does work . I have seen supernatural things and that is why , I know that death is not the end . I wish you all the best
Thanks for uploading. Please stay strong. I knew someone who survived many years. She lived well into her middle age. Sixties. Keep going. I will be praying for you. You are beautiful. I mean a real beauty by any standards..inside and out.
Jack W so why exactly are you watching this if all you're going to do is hate? maybe if you had a heart or have gone through something simelar you would have symphathy. clearly not.
My Sister was diagnosed with a grade 3 astrocytoma brain tumor in the frontal lobe when she was 28y/o. Other than a bald spot from the radiation... She is now 49y/o & a 21 year Survivor! Stay positive... You are stronger than you think. You have people that love & support you... Sending Hope & Prayers your way ❤
Courtney I am not your typical subscriber as I came across your channel while in the hospital recovering from my own brain tumor surgery three months ago. Being a 60 year old guy who has no interest in makeup and fashion, however I can very closely relate to what your going thru as I too am dealing with a lot of the same issues as you are. Including a good cry on occasions and struggling thru out each day. I do know for sure that we both have families and close friends that love us and they will do anything they can to help us. God loves us too and he is there for both of us. Remember he only gives us challenges that we can handle and we both will be stronger for this. You are a survivor and you will get thru this over time. Bless you and my prayers are with you.
I can relate to you so much. I'm a teacher, I'm from Michigan, I'm a makeup lover, I'm about your age, and most of all, I'm also a cancer survivor. I was diagnosed with cancer while I was in college, so I had to take a year off and get treatment. I had a year of rigorous treatment composed week-long rounds of chemo, three stem-cell transplants, and a major surgery. My tumor was in my chest. I had a very tough year and a low chance of survival, but so much of that year was a blur. In that time, you just have to keep moving forward. When I was all better and moved back in to college the next year, that's when everything from the past year hit me. I was struggling, feeling depressed, and had a more difficult time connecting with my friends. All this being said, I totally know what you are saying. Sometimes when you go through something difficult, the reality does not hit you until later on. Those are difficult feelings to deal with. You are strong, even in your struggling ❤️ As hard as things are, I promise they will get better. Thanks for being an amazing woman and inspiring so many of us with your bravery, grace, and adorable sense of humor.
meepmoopmeep1 loved reading your comment....and look at YOU....a SURVIVOR!! That's amazing, and I hope your story, one from someone who had a very similar experience, can help Courtney remember that things do get better and her feelings In the meantime are all very normal. ❤👏👍
I know I'm a little late to this but I hope you see this comment. This late wave of emotion is 100% normal. My dad had cancer and was in the hospital for about 5 months when I was a kid. When he was sent home to die, he actually somehow started getting better and eventually was deemed cancer-free. But afterwards he wasn't the same and suffered from PTSD-like symptoms. I vividly remember seeing him sit on the couch with a blanket over his head watching TV. As a kid it was funny but I was told later it was because he was incredibly depressed and wrought with PTSD from the trauma he had gone through. Seeing a psychologist is a great start. Just know it will get better as you do. My dad, a few months later, was completely back to normal and 17 years later he's healthy as ever! Let the emotions come and go in waves. Bask in your strength when you can.
We don't know what happens when the camera shut off but we see how strong you're being and how much you're progressing every day and I think I speak for us all when I tell you how proud we are of your strength and positive attitude throughout this entire journey. Keep it up. It's okay to have moments where you need to let it all out. You'll always pick yourself up and continue being so strong.
You said!!! radiation !!! clear as day you are getting a lot better with your speech. YOU ARE SO STRONG FOR JUST BEING AWARE OF HOW YOU FEEL . And the fact that your sharing your struggles with the world that takes a lot of guts girl you keep on keeping on your doing get your a beautiful person on the inside and the outside ☺
I’m sorry you’re such a miserable person, Jack. I hope you’re never in a situation where you have to fight for your life, and have people calling you a cow.
Jack W I'm really sorry for you, because you can cure yourself from cancer but stupidity is chronic, you have to live with it everyday and so is everyone around you.
It's okay to feel this way. Your whole life was turned around so quickly, and now you're trying to find a new "normal". The progress you've made has been nothing short of freaking amazing!! You've made leaps and bounds since the very first video you posted after the surgery. And I'm not just saying that! The proof is right in front of our eyes. You got this! Take one day at a time. If you need help, don't be afraid to ask. And if posting on YT is too much for you right now, we totally get it. Please don't be too hard on yourself. Sending you so much love.
You have had a life changing event happen to you. You have suffered a loss. Please feel that it is okay to grieve this loss. I recently learned that sadness and anger are really healthy when balanced. Sadness or crying is a release of negative emotions and anger is energy that sets you into action. Too much sadness causes depression. Too much anger causes rage. We need both in balance to heal. Find people who have gone through this experience to help with healing. Also a good therapist will help you get through this. I hope you find healing soon. Lots of love ❤️
It's good that you're crying. Don't force positivity, sometimes you have to let it out :) You seem like a very nice person and I hope that you will get better soon :*
Just remember you are ALLOWED to struggle with everyday life. You do not need to put on a front for others. If you need a few days to cry and sleep, do it. Let others be strong for you, use others as a crutch.
Courteney, please don't be sorry for crying. You make me smile, your so down to earth. Your amazing, getting stronger every day. I can tell a big difference in your speech...hugs and prayers
Courtney take it easy we love you. Its OK to cry, you are going through a lot.Continue to keep us updated on how you are feeling. Keep the faith and continue to post you tube videos to keep you busy.
your speech has improved soooo much, & you said radiation perfectly! i know you’re feeling very overwhelmed, but know that your supporters, family & friends are always here for you & we always want the best for you! maybe you’re having some sort of post depression from all of the things that have been going on in the last 4 months. try therapy love, it really is helpful. if you don’t want that approach, i strongly suggest getting an animal!!! from my own experience with depression, when my dog is around it sort of helps me not feel so alone & they love you soooooo much. we just want you to feel better love, take a break if you need & just know that we will understand ❤️
Girl just know I think about you almost every single day! I don't personally know your struggle but it breaks my heart that you are going through this struggle. Thank you for keeping us updated. Stay strong!! You got this!!
This is exactly what me and other people went through. We usually call it the "post-chemo blues". You finished surviving cancer, but then you realized... shit, I really did just have cancer. I really went through all that. Damn, I went through a lot. The bounce back is way harder than people think.
As a prior chemo/oncology nurse, I can tell you that it is completely normal how you are feeling. Alot of my patients on completion of their treatment developed anxiety and or depression; highly related to the feelings of the "unknown". You are doing good by staying busy! Ask the doctor when u can start incorporating light exercise, maybe yoga and you may see a shift in your mood. I am hoping your body does it's own healing and you get better soon! And if you don't, don't be scared to ask for an antidepressant to help you get thru the next few months....and at some point they can take u off of it. Hope this helps. Lots of good vibes from Texas😘😘
greeleyestateslove when you are dealing with chemotheraphy/radiation related depression, it's a different ball game than just feeling "normally" sad. Your body has been through war; you've had pain, un-relentless fatigue, insomnia, nausea/vomiting. Her brain was exposed to high beams of toxic radiation and it went through its own war. Swelling, neuron-axon damage...maybe irreversible. This isn't normal. People everyday don't go through this. What may seem "normal" and a regular response to stressful events to us, may be ten times worse for her. This is just a little piece that she has decided to share with us. I actually think it's great she is sharing; shows she is coping healthily. The problem with mental health today is that we continue to tell people that It's normal how they are feeling and people get brushed off and never get the appropriate supportive treatment; whether therapy or drugs. At some point, the "normal" sadness that is expected from such catastrophic events, may not be normal. No one fits in a box. Everyone's pain [whether physical or mental], should be treated uniquely. Even then, the human body is resilient! I was witness to many incredible recovery stories and I am hoping her body does its own healing and she is able to bounce back!!!
You are so brave! I have made my husband sit and watch your videos because your determination and love for others is so strong. You are battling unimaginable adversity with your health, and yet, you handle it all with such grace. I get a cold, and I want to hide in my home for days, and yet you are coming back from cancer, and you do it with a smile on your beautiful face. Not only that, but you make these videos, which I know are a blessing for others, in the midst of your storm. You are simply amazing, and I'll continue to pray for your strength. You, My Dear, are #goals.
I hope it's okay for me to say that even though I don't have cancer, I relate to this. I have a couple mental conditions that plague me. In no way am I trying to compare having cancer to having depression/anxiety etc., but I understand the idea of being alone, and everything coming back to you. When you're alone, your mind starts to think about all the crap that's happened, or how lonely you feel or whatever so that's very relatable to me. I also love to stay busy because it keeps my mind off the negative in my life. I also just want to say, you don't have to be strong all the time. You've been through a lot, it makes sense that some days are harder than others. Maybe you feel like you have to be strong for yourself, or your family or friends (which is fine), but if it helps, you don't have to be strong for your (fans, watchers, I don't know what word to use. Watchers feels creepy) subscribers. I'm glad that you're doing okay. :)
You are the strongest person. Do not feel there is anything wrong with you, what is happening is perfectly normal. I love your videos and I am so happy for your progress. Love always.
Your speech is honestly so shocking! It's getting so much better with every video that you post and you spoke pretty much fluently throughout this whole video!!! I hope you realise how far you have come in such a short space of time, if you think about someone trying to learn a new language and how long that may take them and how short of a time it has taken you to teach yourself all of your missing vocabulary and sentence structure again.... it's amazing! Keep going girly and although it's very scary what you have been through, you have everyone single one of us to support you and we're all positive that this will all be over with in no time 💗💗
Love you so much beautiful!! I found you through your wig review video and got hooked! I was completely blown away by Amazing attitude and positivity! You radiate joy! My mom went through breast cancer and it was really hard but God got us through it and she is completely healed! And my dad is going to cancer right now but we have faith and hope🙌🏼 I am praying for you gorgeous!! You are so courageous and inspiring! Thank you much for sharing your journey! We are all rooting for you! 🙏🏼💖🤗
You are allowed to feel like this. You are so strong and I love seeing your progress. You are an inspiration to so many people. You have all of our support and love. Keep your head up beautiful.
Courtelizz1, did you go back and watch yourself in this video? If you didn't, you should! Every video I watch, I notice that you're one step further in your journey. You hardly stumbled over your words. You sounded AMAZING. I know you're struggling, and that's okay, you've gone through so much, and it has been a whirlwind. Now you have time to catch up with yourself and sort through your emotions. That's okay! I just wanted you to see, that while you feel like you're struggling, we see how far you've come, and you have soooooo many people on your side, cheering you on.
I also noticed that as well, I thought it was editing but I had to rewind a few times and it's not. Chin up my dear we are ALL here for you. Crying is healthy, don't hold back. You are never alone 😊
You're inspiring.. I'm also going through so much with my health, first being diagnosed with fibromyalgia, severe anxiety, and depression and I knew it was something else because I'm always sick and in so much pain all of the time, everyday is a struggle. 3 days ago I found out that I have an auto immune disorder and there is something really wrong with my thyroid, that the big lump i have on my neck isn't an ingrown hair like 3 Dr's had told me and that a biopsy needs to be done asap. 30 min before I got that news about my health as I was leaving for my Dr appt my boyfriend of 4 years tells me he's leaving my son and I because my health issues are just too much for him. He couldn't have done it at a worst time. I hope you see this message cause I want you to know that i understand what you're going through, I'm really sick as well and I just find you so inspiring. I hope to get through this and just like you when I'm alone I can't help but cry I'm better when I'm around people.. thank you for being so open about your struggles it makes me feel like I'm not alone like someone actually understands.
I'll tell you about my day, okay? To help you practice reading. My friend is going to have a baby pretty soon so I'm helping organize and put together a baby shower for her. The theme is travel/vintage travel so there's hot air balloons and trains and old time-y biplanes. I got a couple decorative boxes from Joann's that have latches and a handle to make them look like suitcases and I painted over the silly Fall pumpkins on them. One is purple and one is rose gold. Then I used Mod Podge to decoupage onto them some vintage travel stickers I printed out. So far it's looking pretty good. I also have some tiny canvases that I decoupaged some vintage travel advertisements onto as well. I think they look good, I kinda want to keep them myself though I plan to leave them with my friend to decorate her baby's space with. I guess it is good that way - they say the best gifts to give are the ones you want to keep yourself. I honestly don't know if I could handle what you're handling, with as much grace. You are truly an inspiration. It is no exaggeration. It hurts to watch your videos sometimes, to see you suffer and still smile anyway, laugh anyway. To witness that kind of human beauty hurts, but it makes us better people. Thank you so much for sharing yourself. I am more happy than I can even articulate that you find so much comfort in it, too. I'm rooting for you with my whole heart!
My heart breaks for you.. I went to the toilets at work today and cried because of my social anxiety, and I stood there for 20 minutes and I just cried but then my I watch your videos it helps me see that people are going through much worse than myself and I should be grateful that I'm healthy! You put my life in to perspective. I hope beyond belief that you can come to terms with your illness and get better x
Montana Powell bless you, anxiety is horrible! Make sure you treat yourself right and be kind to yourself! I hope you feel better, I understand all too well how horrendous anxiety can be! Stay strong 💞💞
Montana Powell I am literally on disability due to panic disorder and severe anxiety. I can imagine how you feel because I know how I feel. God bless you and it’s hard but it does get better. Look online into Recovery Inc by Dr. Abraham Low. That program helped me immensely! 😀
I don't think comparing yourself to others is very helpful. As a person who went through cancer and survived and has depression and anxiety. I can always say to myself there are people so much more worse off than me. And the people going through more than me can say the same thing. No one ever thinks what they are going through is the worst. Specially with any mental illnesses when you compare you think your problem is nothing compared to people who have it worse. This kind of thinking is wrong. Your problem is just as valid.
Liz Gonzalez I also used to suffer debilitating anxiety and panic attacks that would leave me curled up on the bathroom floor for hours. I take Effexor and it has worked so well for me. I've been on it for 8 years. That's not to say that I'm cured or that it's the miracle drug for everyone. I've had to work hard to get to where I am today. It it was the life preserver I needed when I was already drowning. There is hope for recovery ❤️
don't be sorry for crying, we're your little family from all over the world and i have to admit you're the strongest person i've ever seen i really mean it and i hope that you're reading, if so i love you so much don't over think, what's important is that you get through it and it's something that happened before which makes you a fighter a stronger person. love you again
Dearest Courtney, I think you are probably experiencing a sort of PTSD after the shock of your diagnosis, then treatment etc a massive whirlwind experience. Things will change for the better I am sure. Remember we need rain to experience a rainbow, and your experience shared will help lots of other young individuals and give them comfort when they feel lost. Wishing you much love 💕🙏
Yes, I agree Leah 2604. Courtney, you HAVE been through so much and you just need to take time for yourself. Don't avoid thinking about it either - you need to work through it. You are have been so honest and the videos you have made will be helpful to everyone - those who are going through something similar, but also those who can't imagine what it must be like. Stay strong, but keep on acknowledging what you are feeling. We're all thinking of you! PS. I still love your make up and clothes videos too, so keep it up - looking forward to the next one! :)
Leah 2604 depending on the location of the tumor, if the tumor is located near the speech area in the brain then her speech can be affected. You see that speech problem also with people who have stroke because the bleeding in the head if located near the speech area , can cause speech problem. It is neurological problem.
I don't get how much I feel you right. I have cancer in my uterus I'm 23 and I feel exactly how you feel. It's a struggle and I've been become depressed lately watching RUclips and my favorite girls makes me feel better. Thank you, you inspire me every time you post.
makeupjesslynn Im so sorry you are also going through such a hard time! Sending love and light and healing vibes and many prayers that you are feeling better so fast! Xoxo
Thank you all so much means a lot to Have people all over the world supporting and praying for you especially since I've been in hospital for two months, but still strong 💪🏻
Don't worry girl, I've only seen a couple of your vids and i can tell you're a brave/strong person! Don't give up! I'm going to school for medical research and I know we will find a cure one day.
You're such an inspiration to all of us! You're helping all of us because we all have "struggles" of our own! Thanks for sharing your journey xo Stay strong!! We love you!
vloggingblonde I agree she is an inspiration to me. I found her and I instantly fell in love with her honesty and her candidness and her genuine empathy for people and she so giving and I pray she gets over this quickly.
Sometimes I find it so hard to watch these videos. It is so unfair what has happened to you and I just get so emotional about it all. I feel as if, and I'm sure others feel this way too, I actually know you because I've been watching your videos for so long, so it is, on some level, pretty personal. But I don't pity you, I am actually so proud of you because you are not sulking, you are fighting and pushing through. You are such an inspiration for everyone and we are so lucky to have you. My heart goes out to you and everyone struggling with a similar situation. We love you so much Courtney and we will all be here with you and for you forever
You are a beautiful person, this must be so hard - so many people love you! You're speech sounds really good & it's nice to hear making videos is helping you! love to you! xo
As a mother myself, it just really saddens me to see you and your family go through this nightmare. We don’t know each other, but please know I am thinking of you, and sending you the very best vibes. Cry all you want, don’t ever apologize for that. Hang in there!
Such a Fighter ....Fighters Cry To. My Mom past away 7 years ago I still cry when I'm by myself. But I gather and I know Just like you I am a fighter and I'll be just fine
I imagine you are sad and hurt that something like this has happened to you. You probably feel worlds away from the woman you used to be. But I'm confident you will find her again. You are stronger than you know, even if you don't see or feel it now. You will not succumb to this.
I personally find it amazing how far you've come in only a few short months. I can't even imagine going through the things you've had to deal with. You are so incredibly smart and beautiful and have overcome incredible obstacles. You will continue to get better and better over time as your body continues to heal. I am so happy you made it and am so proud of you.
Stay strong you got this 💜. You have so much courage to speak to the world about your struggles! I'm glad the comments help you. So many people care about you. When you're by yourself maybe you could try watching videos of your favorite RUclipsrs? Tell you something funny? Hahah ok, my dog loves chews and I gave him a pig ear yesterday. He takes the pig ear and didn't really eat it at first. So, I grabbed the vacuum because for some reason he thinks the vacuum wants to eat his chews. So I brought the vacuum out like it was going to eat the pig ear and my dog quickly grabbed his pig ear and started eating it! It was so funny! He chewed on it for an hour until it was gone! That is how I get my dog to eat his treats if he doesn't seem interested!
Not only are we helping you but you are helping us, its so inspirational to see how strong and open you are about your journey. It makes me grateful for everything that happens in life, even the hardships we suffer. 'When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.' You'll be yourself before you know it, you just need to live through this part of your story first, don't worry.
It is completely understandable and normal to struggle from time to time. As you say, it is in the quiet moments when you start processing everything that it hits you. I’ve been very ill since I was 7 years old. During the acute times I’m just fighting but when I’m over another crisis I can start thinking about what happened and what my future looks like. Sometimes it is really overwhelming. I wish you lots of strength. ❤️
We love you honey! My prayers surround you and you inspire me to have courage in my own situations. Today, 2 of the sweetest little children stopped by my house selling items for their school fundraiser...brother & sister. I was so excited that they came by with their little cute, nervous selves...lol... We stood on my porch and chatted while I looked through their catalog. They told me about themselves and petted my big dog, Deacon (who ate up all that extra attention! 😁) I just had to be supportive of their efforts and so I ordered an item from each child. They were THRILLED! That's a little piece of my day and I thought you might enjoy something positive. Get through the next second, sweetheart! You're doing it! You're very much loved & prayed for here! ❤❤❤
Love, it's okay to not be okay! Crying does not mean you are not strong. I've been needing brain surgery for five years and is has takin a long time for me to be okay with not being okay. I have days where I can't even get out of bed because of the pain and symptoms and by days I mean most of each week. My job, my friends, my life has been taking from me because of not being well. And it's hard, but it's okay to cry and to be upset and think about how unfair it is. One thing my fiance tells me is "this is not your fault" because most times I get down on myself for not being good enough at doing something. Just know you are doing your best and crying it out is okay! You are still incredibly strong no matter how much you cry, because you are still here, and you are still fighting every single day! I am so incredibly proud of you for how well you have been doing and how STRONG you continue to be. Don't give up. You have such a beautiful heart I am amazed by you every time I see a video or a Snapchat. Sending you so much love and positive thoughts!
Jennica Lyn Wow! What a beautiful comment. I agree with every word. I'm bedridden also and have been for 12+ years. My family, especially my husband, Mom, and daughter, are always saying how strong they think I am. Yet, they see me cry, rant, and rage. Crying doesn't make you weak, but smiling after the tears are dried is what makes you strong.
Cris Nemitz I am so sorry to hear that. It's hard to have such strong mind and want to do so much, especially for those who have helped you so much through the hard parts but you can't get out of bed to even help yourself. It's very hard and I have only been dealing with it half as long as you, it breaks my heart that you have been dealing with that for so long. My heart goes out to you. You are so strong just fighting each day. It would be so easy to just give up but every morning you wake up and do the best you can is incredibly strong. Sending so much love. I'm so glad you have an amazing family to help you through and that makes sure you know how strong you are. Sometimes we forget how strong we are because we feel like everything is falling apart. Sorry for the paragraph, I just have so much respect for people who fight battles with their own bodies or minds every day. Most people don't understand how hard it is, "laying in bed all day" it's not the life we want to live. It wasn't our choice. Once again sending so much love and positive vibes your way!
Jennica Lyn You are so sweet. I hope she is reading this and that it lifts her up. We are all incredibly blessed to have the support we do. Btw, I love your name. My daughter's name is Jessica Lindsey. Your Mom was clever and combined the two!! Take care xo
I was watching some of your old videos yesterday and hearing you speak today, its like youre a whole new person Your speech is so so so much better and im so proud of you
Your feelings are also valid though. Just because someone may be going through something "harder" doesn't make what you're going through any less important. I hope your day gets better!
So I'm super glad I found your channel the other day! I can relate to you in ways as well. I recently lost my mother to lung and brain cancer (NOT TRYING TO BE RUDE IN ANYWAY SO PLEASE TAKE NO OFFENSE) and the journey she went through was truly inspiring... she was such a strong person through it all. And hearing you talk about your experience helps me understand also what my mother had to go through. I was a senior in high school when she first got diagnosed and it was really really hard for me. I didn't understand and new NOTHING about cancer... all I new is that it was cancer and cancer is BAD.. my mom had brain surgery also and they told her that her hair may never grow back because of how much radiation she had to go through. So she really struggled as a woman but eventually she overcame all of that. And it really showed me out strong she was. so thank you for reaching out to me and others about your cancer journey it really is truly inspiring and your a very very beautiful person inside for sure but also on the outside! Your complexion is BEAUTIFUL! You are amazing truly! I can't wait to keep watching!! #newfavoritechannel 😌💕
I can only hope that if I am ever faced with something evenly remotely as challenging as what you have been going thru that I can display as much poise and positivity that you do. You are a remarkable young woman. I have no doubt that you will come thru this stronger than ever. I pray for you to have peace and calmness while you heal! Blessings to you and your family.
Its okay to feel down sometimes, you don't have to be positive all of the time girlie. Most people in your situation wouldn't be as positive as you are. You are beautiful and things will get better, you are truly an inspiration to me I love you.
I'm a speech therapy grad student and I love watching your videos! You are doing so well with your speech and reading! Stay strong and keep doing what makes you happy:)
Mackenna Kuehl I am Courtney's mom and I just love when speech therapy students or professionals comment, it means so much to us to hear that you think she is making great progress. I tell her all the time but it means more coming from you!
Vernor Warner I'm also speech therapy student and have to agree 100% with Mackenna! You girl have made so so much progress and I am SO PROUD to see you being better and better with every video! I know you sometimes have a hard time realizing that but it's true so just keep pushing! I promise you can! And yes, it's ok not to feel ok about the situation ocasionally, I can't imagine how much strenght it takes you to go from day to day and how much energy it takes away from you... So I am really glad you decided to film this too. You don't have to be all positive if there are those days. Just NEVER feel sorry for your self! You can only be extremely proud you have beaten up this crazy thing!! And not only phisically! You are a true warrior! Today, it is how it is. Will be better. Lots of love!
so obsessed with everything about you. i admire you an incredible amount. i love you and so does everyone else, so much love and support for you always.
When you said that all of a sudden everything just hit you, I really felt that. I just chug through and keep moving day to day and then the realization hits you and it's hard. Like a wave and it gets overwhelming
My mom had a stroke last October that affected her speech pretty bad, but this past year has been an incredible recovery. She still has trouble speaking, but has come along way. My heart really goes out to you. I started crying because you reminded me off my mom and how hard she struggled. This is an incredibly hard time for you, but I think you're so strong for sharing your experience, taking steps to get better, and staying positive. I truly hope you make a full recovery! You deserve it. Lots of love to you! ❤
You are such a inspiration to me. You are so strong and beautiful. I look up to you because you are so strong disputes everything you have been through. Stay strong. ❤️❤️❤️
I discovered your channel a couple of hours ago, by watching this video. Then I watched almost all the videos related to the story of your tumor. I admire how you seem to be going through hardship with a lot of courage and grace. In the middle of all the difficulties, sadness and pain, there's something so uplifting and cheering about how you're dealing with it all. Thank you for sharing your experience. I wish you a full & speedy recovery. Much love to you.
I'm so so so sorry you're suffering so terribly. I also gotta say that damn girl, you're so incredibly tough!!!!! You are an inspiration and a super bright light in the universe. Thank you for sharing some of that light with this stranger.
You are one of the strongest people out there. I understand what you are going through, I had an accident 8 years ago and whilst it is no where near what you are going through, I understand struggling when you are alone. You are such a beautiful soul and the strength and courage you show every time you make a video is amazing. I can only suggest seeing a psychologist more, they really will help. Also, I don't know much about your personal life but if you don't have a pet I highly suggest getting one. I was suicidal on a few occasions after my accident and when we got a dog, well, it literally saved my life. He is even in tune with when I'm getting upset, angry and frustrated and will jump on me until I pick him up and lay down with him. He won't leave me until I'm calm again. You are an inspiration to myself and so many others, never forget that. Keep up the fight, you will win and we will all be here to support you through it. Lots of prayers for you xx
Thank you for sharing this. Last year I was in ICU on a ventilator for over a week. I came very close to death multiple. When I eventually got out of hospital I was still busy with doctor's appointments, physio, friends visiting etc. It was about 8 weeks later when I went through a delayed grief reaction. The enormity of what I had experienced finally hit me. I was constantly bursting into tears and sobbing whenever I was alone. My psychologist said it's normal to have a delayed reaction. When you are focused on healing your body your mind prioritises getting through each day physically, but once your body has settled and you accept your "new normal" your brain then has time and energy to react emotionally. I also think I built very strong emotional walls when I was really sick, because I needed to stay really strong and focus on my body... then when I didn't need to keep holding those walls up the grief hit me. It sounds like you're doing everything you need to be doing. It feels awful to cry but it is actually a healthy way to release emotion. And I can promise you that with time it does get easier. Stay busy, set goals, and be kind to yourself. You're already a superstar!
First of all your speech just keeps getting better and better wow!!! I know it's not really the same but I have anxiety and can't turn my brain off at night and I think about all the negative things so I listen to relaxation videos here on RUclips. And that helps me fall asleep. Takes my mind off of things. Stay strong xox one day at a time
I also struggle with anxiety and can't sleep at night because my brain will think about all of the things I've done wrong in my life. So I will usually watch RUclips until I fall asleep. It's an escape for me and it helps a lot. Thank god for RUclips.
I don't know you personally but I want you to know I am so proud of you for how you are handling this, how you are continuing to share your story no matter how hard it gets. You are such a beautiful person thank you sharing yourself with us. You are amazing
You're the most beautiful and strong person 🙌 i been here for a while and you got to know that Everything is happening has a reason and olny God knows why But you are going to be okay and evertything is going to be better 😘
Sounds like you still need to emotionally proccess everything that has happened. I would recommend to keep seeing a psychologist to help you through it in a healthy way. There's two things I want you to remember: 1.The worst part is over. You dealt with it like a boss and everything is going to get better from now on. 2.You're an extraordinary girl who had to deal with an extraordinary situation. Very few people have gone through what you have at your age and will be able to understand (me included), so cut yoursel some slack. You feel like you need to cry? It's ok! You need to surround yourself with frinds and family 20 hours a day? It's perfectly fine. You do what feels right to you, because there's no textbook answer as for how you should be dealing with it. I hope you feel better soon. XX
Awe hunny your sunshine, mixed with a little hurricane, but its nothing a clear sky cant fix! Stay strong my love you are beautiful and my definition of hero ❤💋😍
Don't ever apologize for crying... You have gone through so much in the past few months it is completely normally feeling how you do. By staying occupied and busy you will only continue to get better in your recovery after surgery. I only started following you on RUclips a few weeks before you posted your tumor video and I have supported you since then. You are such a strong person, and by uploading your process it is helping so many other people who might be going through some of the stuff you did and still continue to go through. I am so glad to see you getting better with your speech and reading, and I know you are only going to continue to get better. Stay strong girl ☺️☺️
I was recently diagnosed with a chronic illness that may leave me blind and paralyzed, and I just wanted to let you know that your videos really help me. I feel less alone. You seem like such a good person. Stay strong 💪
Your strength is so inspiring! Im still young and i want to be as strong as you one day! Other yters would have stopped yt and you just talk about everything and let us know... you are so strong and beautiful and from the heart and more people should be like that. Sending you loads of hugs!! Xx Maya 💖
I speak of my mother going through this but I myself had cancer in my uterus and surrounding tissue when I was 28, I am now 38 and I have been a RN for 6 years now. My brain processed things differently after my treatment. But it has got better as time went on. I never thought I was going to make it out of nursing school but I did and I was with 18 year olds! Lol they just got it so much quicker then I. Now that I think about it I am sure it was my age and what I call my chemo cloud brain! Keep your head up!
Random funny story to help you feel better: the day of the eclipse, 3 random chickens showed up in my yard and they haven't left since then. (I believe the eclipse messed with the animals and threw off their navigation or something oooo spooky!) so it looks like I'm gonna have to build a chicken coop! 😂😂😂 but anyways, I just wanted to say I'm so proud of you in how much progress you're making whether you know it or not. I'm struggling right now too. When I get alone I dwell on memories, thoughts or experiences I've had that are scary, but I think you're doing the right thing by expressing your feelings and talking with people. Best of luck Courtney! Stay true ❤️❤️❤️love ya xoxoxoxo ❤️❤️❤️
Your coping so well. Coming to terms with what you've had to overcome in the past 4 months is a process similar to grieving process. You have to let yourself feel the sadness, the anger etc in order to work through it and heal. Surround yourself with love and Positivity. You are very blessed to have a wonderful support system around you. It takes time to heal physically & emotionally. Be kind to yourself and keep believing you can do this. You got this girl. Your such a beautiful person, inside & out. Sending you love & prayers.xx
I love this girl so much, and I just can't fathom how hard this is for her. My heart breaks every time I even think of her. I adore her, and she is so, so strong. Even if you don't think you're strong, you are. The fact that you do hang out with other people, and don't hide yourself away just shows how amazingly strong you are. You are beautiful, and strong, and inspiring, and wonderful, and I just adore you. Stay strong, you have so many people rooting for you. ❤️❤️
Jack W - It's hard writing in proper english when it's your second language and you started learning it like 5 years ago. No need to be aggressive or calling people dumb because of a grammar mistake. Chill.
+Jack W Language existed before grammar enthusiasts, and people still understood each other just fine. It never ceases to amaze me how prosaic, pedestrian, unimaginative people can persistently pontificate about traditional grammatical structure as though it's fucking rocket science. You must belong to the crowd of people who hate Picasso because he couldn't keep the paint inside the lines and the colors never matched the numbers. +slvtblussxm Ignore the grammar nazi troll. 75 people understood your comment just fine. Being a second language, your english is fantastic! :)
+Jack W Disregard the rules of grammar? Obviously, you aren't aware, spelling and grammar are two different things. Spelling isn't a part of language at all. It's a part of writing -- literacy, reading, printing, word processing, texting -- all of which is technological, not natural. You are the one acting like you are better than everyone here by correcting a spelling mistake ignorantly. It is possible to correct a spelling error without demeaning someone and calling them dumb. If it makes you feel better that you can speak your native language, better than a person who speaks it as a second language, you're not as clever as you think you are. Just because you are fluent and efficient in English spelling doesn't mean you are a superior and inferior being.
Jack W Way off topic, but a person's self-worth isn't based on any external achievements or accolades. ‘Conditional self-acceptance’ - is a sickness, and the main cause of mental illnesses such as depression and social anxiety. We can accept ourselves as inherently worthwhile, not for any reason at all, but just because we can.
You've been through a lot for a young lady! Brave one too! I've been through three cancers, breast cancer, esophagus cancer and squamous cell carcinoma! The esophageal cancer was a fast spreading one, but was caught in time. My doctor said if they hadn't have caught it when they did, I would have been dead in 6 months. That was all in this past year (not the breast cancer, that was in 2002). I'm a lot like you and try to stay positive! You are doing really well with your speech! Keep practicing and slow down your speech, and don't get frustrated! It will be better! Don't know if you are religious, but prayers will help, and I will keep you in my prayers! From, Pat Audette in Leesburg, FL
You have become one of my favorite RUclipsrs. I'm very glad I discovered your channel. I feel for you and what you are going through. The realness of what you are feeling is heart breaking. I lost my grandpa to cancer, and I pray for you! I'm so happy for you for making a recovery from everything you have gone through so far. Sometimes we don't understand why life isn't far, and why we are put in these situations. I look to your videos for your positive attitude at the situation you were put in. I wish you the best of luck!! I will continue to support your channel and your recovery to a healthy happy life!
Your speech is getting so much better!!!! ♡ And youre so inspiring and strong girl! Youre even pretty when you cry♡ everythings gonna be okay! Cant wait for your next video!! ♡
Continue to stay strong you can do this a couple months ago my dad got into a motorbike accident and he died twice and I honestly thought we lost him but somehow he's gotten through it and I'll forever be thankful now he still can't even walk but he's moving his legs and getting his strength back but what I'm trying to say is that you can get through this but there's many obstacles you have to jump over to get better. I love you girl and continue to show the world that yes you can do this ❤️
this reduced me to tears. you are so strong and making these videos and content really does help people going through similar health issues. You are such a strong human being! we all love and support you!
I had open heart surgery last year, I felt the same! I pushed everything to the back of my mind and then after my surgery it all hit me and I would randomly start crying, every day ! It's like a whirl wind in your mind if all your thoughts and you can't make sense of anything ! I always ask myself why me ? What did I do to deserve this ? But I promise it gets better ! I'm now doing well and I'm so happy that I went through it because it's made me who I am today! Your incredibly strong and I sympathise with you so much, I just cried with you because I totally understand how you feel! But you are now my inspiration ! It will get better ! I have to have more surgery this year but you have reminded me that I can do it ! Your speech is coming along amazingly !! I love you so much ! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
It's okay. You are allowed to be upset. You have gone through so much. Not only your mind but your body. You're so strong and so beautiful. The fact that you're still posting videos shows your strength and determination to get better. The progress that we have seen is amazing! We are here for you. Just remember it's okay to be sad. It doesn't make you weak in any way. We all look up to you and your strength that you have shown. Lots of hugs❤❤❤
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I am no therapist. But I am a mommy and I think a lot of what your feeling has not only a lot to do with your health situation but also how your life has changed. Maybe consider asking if you could start visiting your school, your students, maybe going in a half hour every other day to just help grade papers, I think you will start feeling like yourself again and you can see and feel the blessing we all see you are! You are a testament. A beautiful walking miracle and you have a purpose! You will feel better one day. Don't give up☺️ you got this!
Stacey love this, I 100% agree and I am a mommy too❤️
I can't have kids lol, but this thread is very true as far as things that have helped me. Sometimes, doing the buisywork parts of a job a little a day helped IMMENSELY for me. A good example was when i vol in a records office of all things for a very short time even after my HS diploma hour quota was over. I was very hurt at the time and it helped keep me in the mix, looking back. People who volunteered just for their HS diploma (it used to be part of a req.) made fun of what I did saying "what you do is boring, your not getting paid so why do it" but I found love in helping. My theory is the parts of jobs that are kinda "meh" stimulate parts of you that make you feel immersed in things, at least in my experience. Imersion in life does so much for humans. Grading papers might be a substitute for whatever you do to put you to sleep, like if you were hesitant to return even part time, but even the smallest bit, even if it's not the most fun, if you can do it a tiny bit, its helping someone, and i don't know how to explain it, but the things that can be boring, when limited, paid or volunteered, as long as you just do the amount that helps you mentally, like grading papers if you can't make it in might work wonders. Peace, love, and peace again.
We are here for you , This storm will pass and the sun will shine for you soon
Praying for you😚💟💟💟💟 love ya😍😍😙😙
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*big giant hug*
Awww sweetie, I love you so much! My four-year-old daughter and I watch you all the time, and I told her that you got sick and is feeling a little sad about it and she told me that you can have her favorite blanket and stuff doggy so you can get better! We are wishing you a speedy recovery.
Channy Houth this is so sweet. What a selfless little girl you have!❤
Channy Houth that's adorable! :)) much love
I too am fighting cancer , I was diagnosed , early November 2016 . I have colon cancer and it has spread to my liver and lungs ( stage 4 ) . My body has become allergic to the chemo (Folfox) so I've been without the chemo for a couple of months , but the chemo pump and Avastin are keeping the cancer from spreading , I will be getting desensitized later this month . I don't consider myself a brave person , but I swore that cancer will never kill my spirit , it might kill my body , but it will never kill my spirit , my spirit is cancer free and it will remain that way for ever. I don't even think about the cancer . My philosophy has always been that in order to live , you have to die and in order to die , you have to live . To me dying is not the end , but a beginning of something else . Stay strong and faith does work . I have seen supernatural things and that is why , I know that death is not the end . I wish you all the best
Roland Torres mashallah
U r very brave n may god grant u with more spirit! Very inspiring
Thanks for uploading. Please stay strong. I knew someone who survived many years. She lived well into her middle age. Sixties. Keep going. I will be praying for you. You are beautiful. I mean a real beauty by any standards..inside and out.
can we take a moment for how beautiful and strong human being she is
moonlight bae Amen
Jack W why do you feel the need to go out of your way to put someone else down
Jack W i think you're the sick one here.
Jack W never have I acknowledged her bad luck or called her a hero.
Jack W wtf is wrong with you lol
I know this is random but her eyes are so beautiful
Yeah they are!
Your speech is sooo much better now, it's so great to see you recovering. Soon this will all just be a memory and an old chapter. You are so strong!!
one word. inspiring.
Jack W so why exactly are you watching this if all you're going to do is hate? maybe if you had a heart or have gone through something simelar you would have symphathy. clearly not.
Jack W, still confused why you're still here?? at least she's being 100% honest unlike a lot of youtubers...
Jack W there’s no need to hate on her because she’s “weaker” than you. That’s just rude and you’ll find yourself all alone one day....
My Sister was diagnosed with a grade 3 astrocytoma brain tumor in the frontal lobe when she was 28y/o. Other than a bald spot from the radiation... She is now 49y/o & a 21 year Survivor!
Stay positive... You are stronger than you think. You have people that love & support you...
Sending Hope & Prayers your way ❤
Aileen Frat that is actually pretty damn amazing and impressive. I hope so enjoys a good long healthy life ❤
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Aileen Frat what a strong individual she must be.🙏❤
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Courtney I am not your typical subscriber as I came across your channel while in the hospital recovering from my own brain tumor surgery three months ago. Being a 60 year old guy who has no interest in makeup and fashion, however I can very closely relate to what your going thru as I too am dealing with a lot of the same issues as you are. Including a good cry on occasions and struggling thru out each day. I do know for sure that we both have families and close friends that love us and they will do anything they can to help us. God loves us too and he is there for both of us. Remember he only gives us challenges that we can handle and we both will be stronger for this. You are a survivor and you will get thru this over time. Bless you and my prayers are with you.
John R this is so sweet! I will include you in my prayers today sir.
John, Good luck to you Sir. That was awesome to share with us all.
John R Blessings to you and your family. I wish you well and that you improve.
I hope everything goes good for you! I'll be praying for you
praying for you!
I can relate to you so much. I'm a teacher, I'm from Michigan, I'm a makeup lover, I'm about your age, and most of all, I'm also a cancer survivor. I was diagnosed with cancer while I was in college, so I had to take a year off and get treatment. I had a year of rigorous treatment composed week-long rounds of chemo, three stem-cell transplants, and a major surgery. My tumor was in my chest. I had a very tough year and a low chance of survival, but so much of that year was a blur. In that time, you just have to keep moving forward. When I was all better and moved back in to college the next year, that's when everything from the past year hit me. I was struggling, feeling depressed, and had a more difficult time connecting with my friends. All this being said, I totally know what you are saying. Sometimes when you go through something difficult, the reality does not hit you until later on. Those are difficult feelings to deal with. You are strong, even in your struggling ❤️ As hard as things are, I promise they will get better. Thanks for being an amazing woman and inspiring so many of us with your bravery, grace, and adorable sense of humor.
meepmoopmeep1 you ladies are inspiring, I'm so glad for you that your treatment had a positive outcome
meepmoopmeep1 this is so motivational. Thank you.
meepmoopmeep1 loved reading your comment....and look at YOU....a SURVIVOR!! That's amazing, and I hope your story, one from someone who had a very similar experience, can help Courtney remember that things do get better and her feelings In the meantime are all very normal. ❤👏👍
meepmoopmeep1 wow! What an awesome and inspiring story. Blessings!
I know I'm a little late to this but I hope you see this comment. This late wave of emotion is 100% normal. My dad had cancer and was in the hospital for about 5 months when I was a kid. When he was sent home to die, he actually somehow started getting better and eventually was deemed cancer-free. But afterwards he wasn't the same and suffered from PTSD-like symptoms. I vividly remember seeing him sit on the couch with a blanket over his head watching TV. As a kid it was funny but I was told later it was because he was incredibly depressed and wrought with PTSD from the trauma he had gone through.
Seeing a psychologist is a great start. Just know it will get better as you do. My dad, a few months later, was completely back to normal and 17 years later he's healthy as ever! Let the emotions come and go in waves. Bask in your strength when you can.
We don't know what happens when the camera shut off but we see how strong you're being and how much you're progressing every day and I think I speak for us all when I tell you how proud we are of your strength and positive attitude throughout this entire journey. Keep it up. It's okay to have moments where you need to let it all out. You'll always pick yourself up and continue being so strong.
You said!!! radiation !!! clear as day you are getting a lot better with your speech. YOU ARE SO STRONG FOR JUST BEING AWARE OF HOW YOU FEEL . And the fact that your sharing your struggles with the world that takes a lot of guts girl you keep on keeping on your doing get your a beautiful person on the inside and the outside ☺
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Tessulove 1990 It's super amazing! You're right!
Me too, girl. Transplant rejection. I think you are so inspirational and you ARE stromg.. look at everything you've survived! You're a warrior!
chronically chill aka Sam Praying for you! Stay strong!❤️
Together in prayers
I am praying for you as well! God has a plan!!!! Just have faith! Love Romans 5:3-5.
thank you so much!!
I’m sorry you’re such a miserable person, Jack. I hope you’re never in a situation where you have to fight for your life, and have people calling you a cow.
Cancer survivor here. Sending you strength, love and a big hug all the way from Portugal. 💪💕😘
Jack W I'm really sorry for you, because you can cure yourself from cancer but stupidity is chronic, you have to live with it everyday and so is everyone around you.
i think youre talking about your face...
It's okay to feel this way. Your whole life was turned around so quickly, and now you're trying to find a new "normal". The progress you've made has been nothing short of freaking amazing!! You've made leaps and bounds since the very first video you posted after the surgery. And I'm not just saying that! The proof is right in front of our eyes. You got this! Take one day at a time. If you need help, don't be afraid to ask. And if posting on YT is too much for you right now, we totally get it. Please don't be too hard on yourself. Sending you so much love.
Explicit Low Absolutey. She's a miracle isn't she?
Kat Hamilton she really is! She's dealing with everything with more grace than I ever could. She's definitely inspiring.
You have had a life changing event happen to you. You have suffered a loss. Please feel that it is okay to grieve this loss. I recently learned that sadness and anger are really healthy when balanced. Sadness or crying is a release of negative emotions and anger is energy that sets you into action. Too much sadness causes depression. Too much anger causes rage. We need both in balance to heal. Find people who have gone through this experience to help with healing. Also a good therapist will help you get through this. I hope you find healing soon. Lots of love ❤️
Marta Neves I don't know why but this comment made me well up xx
It's good that you're crying. Don't force positivity, sometimes you have to let it out :) You seem like a very nice person and I hope that you will get better soon :*
I was thinking the same thing!
Just remember you are ALLOWED to struggle with everyday life. You do not need to put on a front for others. If you need a few days to cry and sleep, do it. Let others be strong for you, use others as a crutch.
Stephanie Wilson Absolutely!
Courteney, please don't be sorry for crying. You make me smile, your so down to earth. Your amazing, getting stronger every day.
I can tell a big difference in your speech...hugs and prayers
Courtney take it easy we love you. Its OK to cry, you are going through a lot.Continue to keep us updated on how you are feeling. Keep the faith and continue to post you tube videos to keep you busy.
your speech has improved soooo much, & you said radiation perfectly! i know you’re feeling very overwhelmed, but know that your supporters, family & friends are always here for you & we always want the best for you! maybe you’re having some sort of post depression from all of the things that have been going on in the last 4 months. try therapy love, it really is helpful. if you don’t want that approach, i strongly suggest getting an animal!!! from my own experience with depression, when my dog is around it sort of helps me not feel so alone & they love you soooooo much. we just want you to feel better love, take a break if you need & just know that we will understand ❤️
Girl just know I think about you almost every single day! I don't personally know your struggle but it breaks my heart that you are going through this struggle. Thank you for keeping us updated. Stay strong!! You got this!!
This is exactly what me and other people went through. We usually call it the "post-chemo blues". You finished surviving cancer, but then you realized... shit, I really did just have cancer. I really went through all that. Damn, I went through a lot.
The bounce back is way harder than people think.
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it really is
As a prior chemo/oncology nurse, I can tell you that it is completely normal how you are feeling. Alot of my patients on completion of their treatment developed anxiety and or depression; highly related to the feelings of the "unknown". You are doing good by staying busy! Ask the doctor when u can start incorporating light exercise, maybe yoga and you may see a shift in your mood. I am hoping your body does it's own healing and you get better soon! And if you don't, don't be scared to ask for an antidepressant to help you get thru the next few months....and at some point they can take u off of it. Hope this helps. Lots of good vibes from Texas😘😘
bls_ sunshine as someone who isn't a nurse, her feelings seem extremelyyy normal.
greeleyestateslove when you are dealing with chemotheraphy/radiation related depression, it's a different ball game than just feeling "normally" sad. Your body has been through war; you've had pain, un-relentless fatigue, insomnia, nausea/vomiting. Her brain was exposed to high beams of toxic radiation and it went through its own war. Swelling, neuron-axon damage...maybe irreversible. This isn't normal. People everyday don't go through this. What may seem "normal" and a regular response to stressful events to us, may be ten times worse for her. This is just a little piece that she has decided to share with us. I actually think it's great she is sharing; shows she is coping healthily. The problem with mental health today is that we continue to tell people that It's normal how they are feeling and people get brushed off and never get the appropriate supportive treatment; whether therapy or drugs. At some point, the "normal" sadness that is expected from such catastrophic events, may not be normal. No one fits in a box. Everyone's pain [whether physical or mental], should be treated uniquely. Even then, the human body is resilient! I was witness to many incredible recovery stories and I am hoping her body does its own healing and she is able to bounce back!!!
You are so brave! I have made my husband sit and watch your videos because your determination and love for others is so strong. You are battling unimaginable adversity with your health, and yet, you handle it all with such grace. I get a cold, and I want to hide in my home for days, and yet you are coming back from cancer, and you do it with a smile on your beautiful face. Not only that, but you make these videos, which I know are a blessing for others, in the midst of your storm. You are simply amazing, and I'll continue to pray for your strength. You, My Dear, are #goals.
I hope it's okay for me to say that even though I don't have cancer, I relate to this. I have a couple mental conditions that plague me. In no way am I trying to compare having cancer to having depression/anxiety etc., but I understand the idea of being alone, and everything coming back to you. When you're alone, your mind starts to think about all the crap that's happened, or how lonely you feel or whatever so that's very relatable to me. I also love to stay busy because it keeps my mind off the negative in my life.
I also just want to say, you don't have to be strong all the time. You've been through a lot, it makes sense that some days are harder than others. Maybe you feel like you have to be strong for yourself, or your family or friends (which is fine), but if it helps, you don't have to be strong for your (fans, watchers, I don't know what word to use. Watchers feels creepy) subscribers.
I'm glad that you're doing okay. :)
You are the strongest person. Do not feel there is anything wrong with you, what is happening is perfectly normal. I love your videos and I am so happy for your progress. Love always.
You're so strong! Your speech is improving so much. Been praying & thinking about you constantly. You have so many people here who support you. XO
Your speech is honestly so shocking! It's getting so much better with every video that you post and you spoke pretty much fluently throughout this whole video!!! I hope you realise how far you have come in such a short space of time, if you think about someone trying to learn a new language and how long that may take them and how short of a time it has taken you to teach yourself all of your missing vocabulary and sentence structure again.... it's amazing! Keep going girly and although it's very scary what you have been through, you have everyone single one of us to support you and we're all positive that this will all be over with in no time 💗💗
Right? She's making so much progress! I'm so happy for her
Love you so much beautiful!! I found you through your wig review video and got hooked! I was completely blown away by Amazing attitude and positivity! You radiate joy! My mom went through breast cancer and it was really hard but God got us through it and she is completely healed! And my dad is going to cancer right now but we have faith and hope🙌🏼 I am praying for you gorgeous!! You are so courageous and inspiring! Thank you much for sharing your journey! We are all rooting for you! 🙏🏼💖🤗
Girlfriend, everything you've been through is becoming your past, you are strong and beautiful! Focus on the present. We are all so proud of you! 😘
You are allowed to feel like this. You are so strong and I love seeing your progress. You are an inspiration to so many people. You have all of our support and love. Keep your head up beautiful.
Courtelizz1, did you go back and watch yourself in this video? If you didn't, you should! Every video I watch, I notice that you're one step further in your journey. You hardly stumbled over your words. You sounded AMAZING. I know you're struggling, and that's okay, you've gone through so much, and it has been a whirlwind. Now you have time to catch up with yourself and sort through your emotions. That's okay!
I just wanted you to see, that while you feel like you're struggling, we see how far you've come, and you have soooooo many people on your side, cheering you on.
Kelly Schrock Amazing comment! I hope she sees this! ❤❤❤
Kelly Schrock that's what I'm saying!! if I didn't know about her surgery I wouldn't even think there was anything wrong with her speech
Sending love ❤️ 💜💛
I also noticed that as well, I thought it was editing but I had to rewind a few times and it's not. Chin up my dear we are ALL here for you. Crying is healthy, don't hold back. You are never alone 😊
This is so true
You're inspiring.. I'm also going through so much with my health, first being diagnosed with fibromyalgia, severe anxiety, and depression and I knew it was something else because I'm always sick and in so much pain all of the time, everyday is a struggle. 3 days ago I found out that I have an auto immune disorder and there is something really wrong with my thyroid, that the big lump i have on my neck isn't an ingrown hair like 3 Dr's had told me and that a biopsy needs to be done asap. 30 min before I got that news about my health as I was leaving for my Dr appt my boyfriend of 4 years tells me he's leaving my son and I because my health issues are just too much for him. He couldn't have done it at a worst time.
I hope you see this message cause I want you to know that i understand what you're going through, I'm really sick as well and I just find you so inspiring. I hope to get through this and just like you when I'm alone I can't help but cry I'm better when I'm around people.. thank you for being so open about your struggles it makes me feel like I'm not alone like someone actually understands.
I'll tell you about my day, okay? To help you practice reading. My friend is going to have a baby pretty soon so I'm helping organize and put together a baby shower for her. The theme is travel/vintage travel so there's hot air balloons and trains and old time-y biplanes. I got a couple decorative boxes from Joann's that have latches and a handle to make them look like suitcases and I painted over the silly Fall pumpkins on them. One is purple and one is rose gold. Then I used Mod Podge to decoupage onto them some vintage travel stickers I printed out. So far it's looking pretty good. I also have some tiny canvases that I decoupaged some vintage travel advertisements onto as well. I think they look good, I kinda want to keep them myself though I plan to leave them with my friend to decorate her baby's space with. I guess it is good that way - they say the best gifts to give are the ones you want to keep yourself.
I honestly don't know if I could handle what you're handling, with as much grace. You are truly an inspiration. It is no exaggeration. It hurts to watch your videos sometimes, to see you suffer and still smile anyway, laugh anyway. To witness that kind of human beauty hurts, but it makes us better people. Thank you so much for sharing yourself. I am more happy than I can even articulate that you find so much comfort in it, too. I'm rooting for you with my whole heart!
Jyn M wow that was really nice ☺️I hope your friend likes her gift
Jyn M seriously couldn't have said it better!!!
My heart breaks for you.. I went to the toilets at work today and cried because of my social anxiety, and I stood there for 20 minutes and I just cried but then my I watch your videos it helps me see that people are going through much worse than myself and I should be grateful that I'm healthy! You put my life in to perspective. I hope beyond belief that you can come to terms with your illness and get better x
Montana Powell I hope you feel better as well ❤️ anxiety can be so debilitating.
Montana Powell bless you, anxiety is horrible! Make sure you treat yourself right and be kind to yourself! I hope you feel better, I understand all too well how horrendous anxiety can be! Stay strong 💞💞
Montana Powell I am literally on disability due to panic disorder and severe anxiety. I can imagine how you feel because I know how I feel. God bless you and it’s hard but it does get better. Look online into Recovery Inc by Dr. Abraham Low. That program helped me immensely! 😀
I don't think comparing yourself to others is very helpful. As a person who went through cancer and survived and has depression and anxiety. I can always say to myself there are people so much more worse off than me. And the people going through more than me can say the same thing. No one ever thinks what they are going through is the worst. Specially with any mental illnesses when you compare you think your problem is nothing compared to people who have it worse. This kind of thinking is wrong. Your problem is just as valid.
Liz Gonzalez I also used to suffer debilitating anxiety and panic attacks that would leave me curled up on the bathroom floor for hours.
I take Effexor and it has worked so well for me. I've been on it for 8 years.
That's not to say that I'm cured or that it's the miracle drug for everyone. I've had to work hard to get to where I am today. It it was the life preserver I needed when I was already drowning. There is hope for recovery ❤️
Sweet baby girl, God is with you. He will and is watching over you. My heart is breaking for you. Praying for you.
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don't be sorry for crying, we're your little family from all over the world and i have to admit you're the strongest person i've ever seen i really mean it and i hope that you're reading, if so i love you so much don't over think, what's important is that you get through it and it's something that happened before which makes you a fighter a stronger person. love you again
Dearest Courtney, I think you are probably experiencing a sort of PTSD after the shock of your diagnosis, then treatment etc a massive whirlwind experience.
Things will change for the better I am sure. Remember we need rain to experience a rainbow, and your experience shared will help lots of other young individuals and give them comfort when they feel lost. Wishing you much love 💕🙏
Leah 2604 I think so too!
Yes, I agree Leah 2604. Courtney, you HAVE been through so much and you just need to take time for yourself. Don't avoid thinking about it either - you need to work through it. You are have been so honest and the videos you have made will be helpful to everyone - those who are going through something similar, but also those who can't imagine what it must be like. Stay strong, but keep on acknowledging what you are feeling. We're all thinking of you! PS. I still love your make up and clothes videos too, so keep it up - looking forward to the next one! :)
Agreed. I had PTSD after a traumatic pregnancy and delivery. All Courtney's symptoms, fears and feelings are very similar to mine.
Leah 2604 depending on the location of the tumor, if the tumor is located near the speech area in the brain then her speech can be affected. You see that speech problem also with people who have stroke because the bleeding in the head if located near the speech area , can cause speech problem. It is neurological problem.
I don't get how much I feel you right. I have cancer in my uterus I'm 23 and I feel exactly how you feel. It's a struggle and I've been become depressed lately watching RUclips and my favorite girls makes me feel better. Thank you, you inspire me every time you post.
makeupjesslynn I am so sorry to hear about your cancer. You will be in my thoughts and my prayers. 🌹❤️
makeupjesslynn I'm 23 and kicking cancers butt too ! I'm here if you need someone to talk to that can relate 🦋
makeupjesslynn Im so sorry you are also going through such a hard time! Sending love and light and healing vibes and many prayers that you are feeling better so fast! Xoxo
makeupjesslynn I am praying for, may God bless you with peace and happiness.❤️
Thank you all so much means a lot to
Have people all over the world supporting and praying for you especially since I've been in hospital for two months, but still strong 💪🏻
Don't worry girl, I've only seen a couple of your vids and i can tell you're a brave/strong person! Don't give up! I'm going to school for medical research and I know we will find a cure one day.
You're such an inspiration to all of us!
You're helping all of us because we all have "struggles" of our own!
Thanks for sharing your journey xo
Stay strong!! We love you!
vloggingblonde I agree she is an inspiration to me. I found her and I instantly fell in love with her honesty and her candidness and her genuine empathy for people and she so giving and I pray she gets over this quickly.
Sometimes I find it so hard to watch these videos. It is so unfair what has happened to you and I just get so emotional about it all. I feel as if, and I'm sure others feel this way too, I actually know you because I've been watching your videos for so long, so it is, on some level, pretty personal. But I don't pity you, I am actually so proud of you because you are not sulking, you are fighting and pushing through. You are such an inspiration for everyone and we are so lucky to have you. My heart goes out to you and everyone struggling with a similar situation. We love you so much Courtney and we will all be here with you and for you forever
Xavy R. This comment isn't appreciated enough thankyou!
You are a beautiful person, this must be so hard - so many people love you! You're speech sounds really good & it's nice to hear making videos is helping you! love to you! xo
She is speech?
As a mother myself, it just really saddens me to see you and your family go through this nightmare. We don’t know each other, but please know I am thinking of you, and sending you the very best vibes. Cry all you want, don’t ever apologize for that. Hang in there!
Stay strong girl, You're beautiful inside and out and I hope things get better for you. You're such an inspiration, ilysm 💕
Such a Fighter ....Fighters Cry To.
My Mom past away 7 years ago I still cry when I'm by myself. But I gather and I know Just like you I am a fighter and I'll be just fine
I imagine you are sad and hurt that something like this has happened to you. You probably feel worlds away from the woman you used to be. But I'm confident you will find her again. You are stronger than you know, even if you don't see or feel it now. You will not succumb to this.
ShenikaN ❤❤
ShenikaN that was so sweet of you
ShenikaN amen baby
ShenikaN 3
I personally find it amazing how far you've come in only a few short months. I can't even imagine going through the things you've had to deal with. You are so incredibly smart and beautiful and have overcome incredible obstacles. You will continue to get better and better over time as your body continues to heal. I am so happy you made it and am so proud of you.
Stay strong you got this 💜. You have so much courage to speak to the world about your struggles! I'm glad the comments help you. So many people care about you. When you're by yourself maybe you could try watching videos of your favorite RUclipsrs? Tell you something funny? Hahah ok, my dog loves chews and I gave him a pig ear yesterday. He takes the pig ear and didn't really eat it at first. So, I grabbed the vacuum because for some reason he thinks the vacuum wants to eat his chews. So I brought the vacuum out like it was going to eat the pig ear and my dog quickly grabbed his pig ear and started eating it! It was so funny! He chewed on it for an hour until it was gone! That is how I get my dog to eat his treats if he doesn't seem interested!
Not only are we helping you but you are helping us, its so inspirational to see how strong and open you are about your journey. It makes me grateful for everything that happens in life, even the hardships we suffer. 'When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.' You'll be yourself before you know it, you just need to live through this part of your story first, don't worry.
I'm also struggling and hearing you has helped. I feel like connected, weird? 💓
Hermes Journeys You guys are all in my prayers 💞 it's going to be okay 😊 it gets greater later.
Jack W I'm from London in the U.K. sorry, have a nice day
You're so strong. Just keep swimming!
It is completely understandable and normal to struggle from time to time. As you say, it is in the quiet moments when you start processing everything that it hits you. I’ve been very ill since I was 7 years old. During the acute times I’m just fighting but when I’m over another crisis I can start thinking about what happened and what my future looks like. Sometimes it is really overwhelming. I wish you lots of strength. ❤️
Hey
1. Your speech sounds so great !!!
2. I'm struggling too. My struggle is hard for me too and I hope we. Na get through this together
We love you honey!
My prayers surround you and you inspire me to have courage in my own situations.
Today, 2 of the sweetest little children stopped by my house selling items for their school fundraiser...brother & sister. I was so excited that they came by with their little cute, nervous selves...lol... We stood on my porch and chatted while I looked through their catalog.
They told me about themselves and petted my big dog, Deacon (who ate up all that extra attention! 😁)
I just had to be supportive of their efforts and so I ordered an item from each child. They were THRILLED!
That's a little piece of my day and I thought you might enjoy something positive.
Get through the next second, sweetheart!
You're doing it!
You're very much loved & prayed for here! ❤❤❤
Love, it's okay to not be okay! Crying does not mean you are not strong. I've been needing brain surgery for five years and is has takin a long time for me to be okay with not being okay. I have days where I can't even get out of bed because of the pain and symptoms and by days I mean most of each week. My job, my friends, my life has been taking from me because of not being well. And it's hard, but it's okay to cry and to be upset and think about how unfair it is. One thing my fiance tells me is "this is not your fault" because most times I get down on myself for not being good enough at doing something. Just know you are doing your best and crying it out is okay! You are still incredibly strong no matter how much you cry, because you are still here, and you are still fighting every single day! I am so incredibly proud of you for how well you have been doing and how STRONG you continue to be. Don't give up. You have such a beautiful heart I am amazed by you every time I see a video or a Snapchat. Sending you so much love and positive thoughts!
Jennica Lyn Wow! What a beautiful comment. I agree with every word.
I'm bedridden also and have been for 12+ years. My family, especially my husband, Mom, and daughter, are always saying how strong they think I am. Yet, they see me cry, rant, and rage. Crying doesn't make you weak, but smiling after the tears are dried is what makes you strong.
Cris Nemitz I am so sorry to hear that. It's hard to have such strong mind and want to do so much, especially for those who have helped you so much through the hard parts but you can't get out of bed to even help yourself. It's very hard and I have only been dealing with it half as long as you, it breaks my heart that you have been dealing with that for so long. My heart goes out to you. You are so strong just fighting each day. It would be so easy to just give up but every morning you wake up and do the best you can is incredibly strong. Sending so much love. I'm so glad you have an amazing family to help you through and that makes sure you know how strong you are. Sometimes we forget how strong we are because we feel like everything is falling apart. Sorry for the paragraph, I just have so much respect for people who fight battles with their own bodies or minds every day. Most people don't understand how hard it is, "laying in bed all day" it's not the life we want to live. It wasn't our choice. Once again sending so much love and positive vibes your way!
Jennica Lyn You are so sweet. I hope she is reading this and that it lifts her up.
We are all incredibly blessed to have the support we do.
Btw, I love your name. My daughter's name is Jessica Lindsey. Your Mom was clever and combined the two!! Take care xo
Never be sorry for crying or showing emotion about a situation you have no control of. All you can do is make the best of it like you are.
I was watching some of your old videos yesterday and hearing you speak today, its like youre a whole new person
Your speech is so so so much better and im so proud of you
You are just so amazing. I really don't know what else to say. I have never seen anybody so real and honest. You're just a miracle.
Praying for you.💗
So true!
shit I thought I was having a bad day, I have a lot of respect for you
MeganThePotterhead 236 exactly, someone is always going through something harder than you.
Your feelings are also valid though. Just because someone may be going through something "harder" doesn't make what you're going through any less important. I hope your day gets better!
So I'm super glad I found your channel the other day! I can relate to you in ways as well. I recently lost my mother to lung and brain cancer (NOT TRYING TO BE RUDE IN ANYWAY SO PLEASE TAKE NO OFFENSE) and the journey she went through was truly inspiring... she was such a strong person through it all. And hearing you talk about your experience helps me understand also what my mother had to go through. I was a senior in high school when she first got diagnosed and it was really really hard for me. I didn't understand and new NOTHING about cancer... all I new is that it was cancer and cancer is BAD.. my mom had brain surgery also and they told her that her hair may never grow back because of how much radiation she had to go through. So she really struggled as a woman but eventually she overcame all of that. And it really showed me out strong she was. so thank you for reaching out to me and others about your cancer journey it really is truly inspiring and your a very very beautiful person inside for sure but also on the outside! Your complexion is BEAUTIFUL! You are amazing truly! I can't wait to keep watching!! #newfavoritechannel 😌💕
I can only hope that if I am ever faced with something evenly remotely as challenging as what you have been going thru that I can display as much poise and positivity that you do. You are a remarkable young woman. I have no doubt that you will come thru this stronger than ever. I pray for you to have peace and calmness while you heal! Blessings to you and your family.
MsOverweighted 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 she has so much courage and poise and it's amazing. I would probably always be a hot mess
MsOverweighted"
Its okay to feel down sometimes, you don't have to be positive all of the time girlie. Most people in your situation wouldn't be as positive as you are. You are beautiful and things will get better, you are truly an inspiration to me I love you.
I'm a speech therapy grad student and I love watching your videos! You are doing so well with your speech and reading! Stay strong and keep doing what makes you happy:)
Mackenna Kuehl I am Courtney's mom and I just love when speech therapy students or professionals comment, it means so much to us to hear that you think she is making great progress. I tell her all the time but it means more coming from you!
I'm also a student! I'd love to have her as my client. Haha
Vernor Warner You have raised such an amazing, strong woman!! She is truly and inspiration!! Thank you ❤️
Vernor Warner I'm also speech therapy student and have to agree 100% with Mackenna! You girl have made so so much progress and I am SO PROUD to see you being better and better with every video! I know you sometimes have a hard time realizing that but it's true so just keep pushing! I promise you can!
And yes, it's ok not to feel ok about the situation ocasionally, I can't imagine how much strenght it takes you to go from day to day and how much energy it takes away from you... So I am really glad you decided to film this too. You don't have to be all positive if there are those days.
Just NEVER feel sorry for your self! You can only be extremely proud you have beaten up this crazy thing!! And not only phisically! You are a true warrior! Today, it is how it is. Will be better.
Lots of love!
Vernor Warner She is doing so well! Her determination and perseverance remind me why I want to be in this field!
so obsessed with everything about you. i admire you an incredible amount. i love you and so does everyone else, so much love and support for you always.
You're sounding amazing! How far your speech has come!! You should be so so proud! One strong gorgeous woman! Sending love xxx
When you said that all of a sudden everything just hit you, I really felt that. I just chug through and keep moving day to day and then the realization hits you and it's hard. Like a wave and it gets overwhelming
My mom had a stroke last October that affected her speech pretty bad, but this past year has been an incredible recovery. She still has trouble speaking, but has come along way. My heart really goes out to you. I started crying because you reminded me off my mom and how hard she struggled. This is an incredibly hard time for you, but I think you're so strong for sharing your experience, taking steps to get better, and staying positive. I truly hope you make a full recovery! You deserve it. Lots of love to you! ❤
You are such a inspiration to me. You are so strong and beautiful. I look up to you because you are so strong disputes everything you have been through. Stay strong. ❤️❤️❤️
This breaks my heart. Keep your head up, you're inspiration to me and many others! xo
I discovered your channel a couple of hours ago, by watching this video. Then I watched almost all the videos related to the story of your tumor. I admire how you seem to be going through hardship with a lot of courage and grace. In the middle of all the difficulties, sadness and pain, there's something so uplifting and cheering about how you're dealing with it all. Thank you for sharing your experience. I wish you a full & speedy recovery. Much love to you.
Yatsucookie I did same on Monday night.😇💐
I'm so so so sorry you're suffering so terribly. I also gotta say that damn girl, you're so incredibly tough!!!!! You are an inspiration and a super bright light in the universe. Thank you for sharing some of that light with this stranger.
your speech in this video is amazing! we are all so proud of you
Agreed!! Watch the recovery is amaaazing!!
You're so strong! Everyone breaks down and that's okay it's part of the healing process. Sending good vibes your way girl!!!
You're such an inspiration to me in every way imaginable
You are one of the strongest people out there. I understand what you are going through, I had an accident 8 years ago and whilst it is no where near what you are going through, I understand struggling when you are alone. You are such a beautiful soul and the strength and courage you show every time you make a video is amazing. I can only suggest seeing a psychologist more, they really will help. Also, I don't know much about your personal life but if you don't have a pet I highly suggest getting one. I was suicidal on a few occasions after my accident and when we got a dog, well, it literally saved my life. He is even in tune with when I'm getting upset, angry and frustrated and will jump on me until I pick him up and lay down with him. He won't leave me until I'm calm again. You are an inspiration to myself and so many others, never forget that. Keep up the fight, you will win and we will all be here to support you through it. Lots of prayers for you xx
Thank you for sharing this. Last year I was in ICU on a ventilator for over a week. I came very close to death multiple. When I eventually got out of hospital I was still busy with doctor's appointments, physio, friends visiting etc. It was about 8 weeks later when I went through a delayed grief reaction. The enormity of what I had experienced finally hit me. I was constantly bursting into tears and sobbing whenever I was alone. My psychologist said it's normal to have a delayed reaction. When you are focused on healing your body your mind prioritises getting through each day physically, but once your body has settled and you accept your "new normal" your brain then has time and energy to react emotionally. I also think I built very strong emotional walls when I was really sick, because I needed to stay really strong and focus on my body... then when I didn't need to keep holding those walls up the grief hit me.
It sounds like you're doing everything you need to be doing. It feels awful to cry but it is actually a healthy way to release emotion. And I can promise you that with time it does get easier. Stay busy, set goals, and be kind to yourself. You're already a superstar!
Samantha Home i hope you are feeling better! Thank you for sharing your story it will only inspire others!
First of all your speech just keeps getting better and better wow!!! I know it's not really the same but I have anxiety and can't turn my brain off at night and I think about all the negative things so I listen to relaxation videos here on RUclips. And that helps me fall asleep. Takes my mind off of things. Stay strong xox one day at a time
I also struggle with anxiety and can't sleep at night because my brain will think about all of the things I've done wrong in my life. So I will usually watch RUclips until I fall asleep. It's an escape for me and it helps a lot. Thank god for RUclips.
That was my thought too! I forgot that she had problems speaking until she brought it up because she sounds perfect
I don't know you personally but I want you to know I am so proud of you for how you are handling this, how you are continuing to share your story no matter how hard it gets. You are such a beautiful person thank you sharing yourself with us. You are amazing
You're the most beautiful and strong person 🙌 i been here for a while and you got to know that Everything is happening has a reason and olny God knows why
But you are going to be okay and evertything is going to be better 😘
Sounds like you still need to emotionally proccess everything that has happened. I would recommend to keep seeing a psychologist to help you through it in a healthy way. There's two things I want you to remember: 1.The worst part is over. You dealt with it like a boss and everything is going to get better from now on. 2.You're an extraordinary girl who had to deal with an extraordinary situation. Very few people have gone through what you have at your age and will be able to understand (me included), so cut yoursel some slack. You feel like you need to cry? It's ok! You need to surround yourself with frinds and family 20 hours a day? It's perfectly fine. You do what feels right to you, because there's no textbook answer as for how you should be dealing with it. I hope you feel better soon. XX
Awe hunny your sunshine, mixed with a little hurricane, but its nothing a clear sky cant fix! Stay strong my love you are beautiful and my definition of hero ❤💋😍
Don't ever apologize for crying... You have gone through so much in the past few months it is completely normally feeling how you do. By staying occupied and busy you will only continue to get better in your recovery after surgery. I only started following you on RUclips a few weeks before you posted your tumor video and I have supported you since then. You are such a strong person, and by uploading your process it is helping so many other people who might be going through some of the stuff you did and still continue to go through. I am so glad to see you getting better with your speech and reading, and I know you are only going to continue to get better. Stay strong girl ☺️☺️
I was recently diagnosed with a chronic illness that may leave me blind and paralyzed, and I just wanted to let you know that your videos really help me. I feel less alone. You seem like such a good person. Stay strong 💪
Your strength is so inspiring! Im still young and i want to be as strong as you one day! Other yters would have stopped yt and you just talk about everything and let us know... you are so strong and beautiful and from the heart and more people should be like that. Sending you loads of hugs!!
Xx Maya 💖
I speak of my mother going through this but I myself had cancer in my uterus and surrounding tissue when I was 28, I am now 38 and I have been a RN for 6 years now. My brain processed things differently after my treatment. But it has got better as time went on. I never thought I was going to make it out of nursing school but I did and I was with 18 year olds! Lol they just got it so much quicker then I. Now that I think about it I am sure it was my age and what I call my chemo cloud brain! Keep your head up!
Random funny story to help you feel better: the day of the eclipse, 3 random chickens showed up in my yard and they haven't left since then. (I believe the eclipse messed with the animals and threw off their navigation or something oooo spooky!) so it looks like I'm gonna have to build a chicken coop! 😂😂😂 but anyways, I just wanted to say I'm so proud of you in how much progress you're making whether you know it or not. I'm struggling right now too. When I get alone I dwell on memories, thoughts or experiences I've had that are scary, but I think you're doing the right thing by expressing your feelings and talking with people. Best of luck Courtney! Stay true ❤️❤️❤️love ya xoxoxoxo ❤️❤️❤️
kaari art lol That's so random and funny But weird!
kaari art lol thanks for sharing a random but still cute story 😅
Your coping so well. Coming to terms with what you've had to overcome in the past 4 months is a process similar to grieving process. You have to let yourself feel the sadness, the anger etc in order to work through it and heal. Surround yourself with love and Positivity. You are very blessed to have a wonderful support system around you. It takes time to heal physically & emotionally. Be kind to yourself and keep believing you can do this. You got this girl. Your such a beautiful person, inside & out. Sending you love & prayers.xx
I love this girl so much, and I just can't fathom how hard this is for her. My heart breaks every time I even think of her. I adore her, and she is so, so strong.
Even if you don't think you're strong, you are. The fact that you do hang out with other people, and don't hide yourself away just shows how amazingly strong you are. You are beautiful, and strong, and inspiring, and wonderful, and I just adore you.
Stay strong, you have so many people rooting for you. ❤️❤️
my heart broke when you started to cry, this has been a tough ride, be strong girl you have GOT THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
+Jack W oh my god that's rude😳
+Jack W you have a serious problem.
You're just so brave. Sure, people have it worse _but_ that doesn't mean that you isn't as brave, strong and beautiful. Bless you, love.
Jack W - It's hard writing in proper english when it's your second language and you started learning it like 5 years ago. No need to be aggressive or calling people dumb because of a grammar mistake. Chill.
+Jack W Language existed before grammar enthusiasts, and people still understood each other just fine. It never ceases to amaze me how prosaic, pedestrian, unimaginative people can persistently pontificate about traditional grammatical structure as though it's fucking rocket science. You must belong to the crowd of people who hate Picasso because he couldn't keep the paint inside the lines and the colors never matched the numbers. +slvtblussxm Ignore the grammar nazi troll. 75 people understood your comment just fine. Being a second language, your english is fantastic! :)
honey, you're overreacting and you're acting like a douche. It was a grammar mistake. Jesus fucking christ.
+Jack W Disregard the rules of grammar? Obviously, you aren't aware, spelling and grammar are two different things. Spelling isn't a part of language at all. It's a part of writing -- literacy, reading, printing, word processing, texting -- all of which is technological, not natural. You are the one acting like you are better than everyone here by correcting a spelling mistake ignorantly. It is possible to correct a spelling error without demeaning someone and calling them dumb. If it makes you feel better that you can speak your native language, better than a person who speaks it as a second language, you're not as clever as you think you are. Just because you are fluent and efficient in English spelling doesn't mean you are a superior and inferior being.
Jack W Way off topic, but a person's self-worth isn't based on any external achievements or accolades. ‘Conditional self-acceptance’ - is a sickness, and the main cause of mental illnesses such as depression and social anxiety. We can accept ourselves as inherently worthwhile, not for any reason at all, but just because we can.
You've been through a lot for a young lady! Brave one too! I've been through three cancers, breast cancer, esophagus cancer and squamous cell carcinoma! The esophageal cancer was a fast spreading one, but was caught in time. My doctor said if they hadn't have caught it when they did, I would have been dead in 6 months. That was all in this past year (not the breast cancer, that was in 2002). I'm a lot like you and try to stay positive! You are doing really well with your speech!
Keep practicing and slow down your speech, and don't get frustrated! It will be better! Don't know if you are religious, but prayers will help, and I will keep you in my prayers! From, Pat Audette in Leesburg, FL
You have become one of my favorite RUclipsrs. I'm very glad I discovered your channel. I feel for you and what you are going through. The realness of what you are feeling is heart breaking. I lost my grandpa to cancer, and I pray for you! I'm so happy for you for making a recovery from everything you have gone through so far. Sometimes we don't understand why life isn't far, and why we are put in these situations. I look to your videos for your positive attitude at the situation you were put in. I wish you the best of luck!! I will continue to support your channel and your recovery to a healthy happy life!
Your speech is getting so much better!!!! ♡ And youre so inspiring and strong girl! Youre even pretty when you cry♡ everythings gonna be okay! Cant wait for your next video!! ♡
Continue to stay strong you can do this a couple months ago my dad got into a motorbike accident and he died twice and I honestly thought we lost him but somehow he's gotten through it and I'll forever be thankful now he still can't even walk but he's moving his legs and getting his strength back but what I'm trying to say is that you can get through this but there's many obstacles you have to jump over to get better. I love you girl and continue to show the world that yes you can do this ❤️
this reduced me to tears. you are so strong and making these videos and content really does help people going through similar health issues. You are such a strong human being! we all love and support you!
I had open heart surgery last year, I felt the same! I pushed everything to the back of my mind and then after my surgery it all hit me and I would randomly start crying, every day ! It's like a whirl wind in your mind if all your thoughts and you can't make sense of anything ! I always ask myself why me ? What did I do to deserve this ? But I promise it gets better ! I'm now doing well and I'm so happy that I went through it because it's made me who I am today! Your incredibly strong and I sympathise with you so much, I just cried with you because I totally understand how you feel! But you are now my inspiration ! It will get better ! I have to have more surgery this year but you have reminded me that I can do it ! Your speech is coming along amazingly !! I love you so much ! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Lauren Virgin Blessings to you, I hope everything goes well with you too, stay strong and positive!!!💪🤗
Adriana Cabrera thank you so much ! ❤️
It's okay. You are allowed to be upset. You have gone through so much. Not only your mind but your body. You're so strong and so beautiful. The fact that you're still posting videos shows your strength and determination to get better. The progress that we have seen is amazing! We are here for you. Just remember it's okay to be sad. It doesn't make you weak in any way. We all look up to you and your strength that you have shown. Lots of hugs❤❤❤
Rosa Rivera I agree... I wrote something similar before I saw your post 💛xx