When she said " I want you to live" , I cried. Because everyday there is a voice inside me which keeps telling me that I'm not worthy enough to live... I don't matter. Watching this video gave me strength to fight with that voice.
That's great Michael. I hope 6 months later you've still got the strength you realized you had when you first watched this amazing message. Take care please do....
Godfather find God. Reconnect to the Creator properly, fully, and with lifelong commitment, and you will cease fighting with those destructive voices, because they are powerless against His authority. They flee those who stand under the love and the protection of God. For they sing into your ear to prevent you from fulfilling your potential. And as long as you stand alone, you are fair game. This goes for everyone who is depressed and who knows they are supposed to do something great in the world - but have never even come close to fulfilling that deep inner desire. When a man is perpetually fighting just to stay afloat, how can he ever get on top of the situation in order to build up?
I used to be like that. Seek Jesus Christ and he will take all your pain away. You just need self worth and the way to get that is but knowing Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior and that you are a child of God. Peace and blessings to you Michael.
You can't look like shit, when you look real. And that is such a breath of fresh air on this platform of today. From the bottom of my heart, thank you for this. Someday the screens will all melt and fade away, and we'll all know that all we have is ourselves and each other. We are all one.
To Deepfocuslens, As someone who is feeling frightened, lonely and nihilistic this video has uplifted my spirits. I thank you for being brave and sharing your vulnerable self despite the terrifying judgemental eyes of the world. Your sharing has eased my sense of alienation and that there are others who feel akin in this world. From the depths of my heart from one human being to another, your strength is admirable. sincerely and thank you.
Don't know if you'll even see my comment given that this video is four years old, but this is by far the most affecting, touching, and powerful video you've ever done. Your total inner beauty has never been more apparent to me. You've bared your soul here and I thank you and love you for it.
"Today a young man on Acid realized that all matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration, that we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively, there is no such thing as death, life is only a dream, and we are the imagination of ourselves. Here's Tom with the weather." (Bill Hicks)
If there is one RUclipsr who NEVER makes a bad or useless video, it's this lady. I found her channel less than a month ago and have been watching ever since. I don't agree with all her views (Inception is not that great is an example) but even then, you can appreciate the clarity of her position and the integrity with which she presents her reasoning. Imagine then when such a character shares a video on depression. Of course it was going to be one for the books. Keep being wonderful, lady. I appreciate you a whole lot!
A wise man once said that a tree has its roots in sadness and its leaves in happiness. We draw nourishing water from the roots of our sadness, and absorb rejuvenating sunlight from the little leaves of our happiness. I think sadness gives a person depth. I agree with you that in society sadness is taboo and that is a shame. I guess it should be no surprise then that there are so many shallow people walking this earth right now. You on the other hand exude a genuine thoughtfulness. I think you are more centered than you may realize. Naturally your presence is heavy as with all introspective souls. I don't know how I stumbled onto this, but your sincerity moved me. Such a combination of intellect and warmth is rare. I wish you well. You know, the world wants everyone to be a star, but people forget about the beauty of darkness. People forget about the beauty of space.
'People forget about the beauty of darkness.' There is a truth to that deep insight that few care to acknowledge, for fear of being in that space. Amazing comment.
I wrote many years ago, that darkness is beautiful only to those who already live in darkness. But to those who live in the light, or seek it, it is indeed ugly - and unnecessary. Just as impure water is unattractive. There are two ways to learn in life, through the suffering of experience, or the obedience of truth and wisdom. Most choose the former, and whilst experience was always meant to be partially the way humans learn, it was not meant to be the sole teacher. The beauty you seek is not in darkness, but in its absence. But then again, it depends how exactly you define darkness. Some romanticise it, others lesson it, others make it equal to evil. If you see it as the great unknown, that is yet another way to define it. If you see darkness as brokeness, and celebrate that, then that says much of the one celebrating doesn't it.
What's beautiful about this particular post is how it so bravely deconstructs the myth of competency. From your other videos it's clear that you value clarity and having your shit together. Like many others commenting here I only recently discovered your channel, and deeply admire the content. I have a degree in film and feel like I'm listening to someone worth spending my time on, which is rare these days. It's generally thought that people who are so articulate and informed are sort of super human in their life-powers, that they don't have to navigate the darker realms of being, simply because they're so damn smart and together. But nothing could be further from the truth .In fact possessing keen intelligence---and you're clearly a very bright, soulful human---is no guarantee of an easy path through life. Often times it's quite the opposite, as the more perceptive you are the more you see, hence the more you have to process and subsequently make peace with. The business of seeing with an unflinching gaze at such a high level is saint work, to be sure. The Wim Wenders documentary Salt of the Earth examines the life of fine art photographer Sebestiao Salgado, and touches on this notion in a really beautiful way. I'm not a big fan of Wenders, but you may want to review that film. I cried like a fucking baby at the end of it---tears of redemption, not sorrow. Wishing you similar tears.
Your message is beautiful because it's truthful - perceptiveness makes you an outsider, just no way around that. "The stairs up to heaven lead straight down to hell." Hopefully, over time we come to accept death, the dissolving of the ego, and we find our joy and peace in life by serving others. I always saw this idea as a platitude until, after many years of suffering, it became real for me. There's a clear light at the center and I feel our struggles represent our evolving toward consciousness of that light. Hopefully, with suffering we learn empathy.
I found your channel a long long time back and when you posted this in 2016 it helped me a lot. Here I am, 5 years later, and back to feeling the same shitty feelings, and this helped me again. Thanks for being there, wherever you are.
For what it’s worth, I want to say thank you for this. Thank you for your videos, and the intelligence, insight and eloquence you bring to everything you discuss - film, life or otherwise. I always look forward to hearing what you have to say, because you always say something worth hearing and thinking deeply about. Thank you for sharing your insights, and for being so honest and open about something so challenging, profound and universal. Life is a story no one survives, but we are together in it, none the less, as we stumble through it, our lives growing shorter as time moves forward...But on occasion, we bump into others as we stumble along, or they bump into us, even if only for a moment, and the experience reminds us we are not alone. Thanks for the reminder, even if it’s just through a RUclips video, I’m glad you bumped into me.
I've also been fightin with depression this whole year, I stopped talkin to all my friends and I started to stay at home and do nothing basically. I felt so bad about myself, it felt like I wasted my time but I couldnt find a way to stop it. Today I said to myself that sooner or later I will get out of this condition and then I watched this video. I cant explain to you how much I related to this, I cried the whole way through cuz I understood everything that you meant. I feel so much better right now thanks to you. You're an amazing person and you're never alone, there's always someone out there that goes through what you go through. Thanks for makin this video! Take care and stay strong! ❤
Wow. That means so much to hear you say that. You may feel pain, but one thing that you cannot do is neglect the people around you. I've been doing that this whole time and it is time to turn that around. Just remember that the mind is very powerful. Sadness is an illusion. If you want it bad enough you can turn that negativity into something positive. It takes a lot of work, but it's possible. You must be productive, hang out with friends and family, do mediation or something similar, do something creative. Anything to help you find that balance in your life. You will get there. I know you will. I will too. Chin up. :)
I come back to this video when I need it. Today I really needed it. Thank you for putting it out 7 years ago, I think it may have saved me today. A message from your heart, straight to mine.
I am a relatively new subscriber, so I stumbled on this, scrolling on your older videos just now. I don't know what to say. I'd like to think that this is why I find your takes on movies so insightful, it's cause they come from someone who can express these feelings with such precision and heart. Thank you a lot, I took notes from this I'll remember. I wish you happiness and send you a hug for the sad times
P.S. just wanted to add something real quick. I started watching your videos for the quality of your analysis and general taste in films. Your channel is one of the few I hop on after I watch any movie, to hear what I missed. I appreciate your work :)
I just came across your videos this evening and have been watching them for a few hours now. I was particularly intrigued by your mentions of the psychedelic experience, because I too have had my life changed by psychedelics and love hearing others tell their stories. I also suffer from depression and anxiety and have for most of my life, so this video resonated with me deeply. I was brought to tears by your sincerity because I do, alot of the time, feel misunderstood and alone. Hearing someone else express these emotions is comforting and I commend you for doing so. Although I know this video was made several years ago from the time I'm writing this comment, I truly hope you are in a better place and want you to know that what you intended with this has absolutely reached someone who needed to hear it. Thank you again, much love ❤
You were very brave to put yourself out there like this, and even though I've only just stumbled across this channel, I can firmly say that you've touched me very sincerely with your words. As someone who is constantly in contention with their own feelings, I am happy to know that others like you can empathize and have the courage to spread messages of love and kindness like this - even for an audience dedicated mostly towards film. Wishing you love and merriment from the UK! :)
I really needed this. After losing all my friends I just feel worthless and hopeless. Having reassurance from someone that it'll be better is a lot more meaningful when coming from someone who knows pain and is experiencing it right now. From most people it just sounds empty. You definitely used your pain to make something meaningful.
These words are heavy, pure, good and also nice, i have no idea what situation where you in when u spoke these words, but your attempt to make other not feel the same shitty way you were feeling at the moment and trying be soothing even if u were in disturbance is wonderful, your intent worked positively to me, it takes alot to speak like this. I know this is an old video, but I just found you yesterday on a movie review, and was looking for some movie suggestions to watch, and ended up finding this amazing person.
I've been a subscriber of yours for many years now. I can't remember what brought me to your channel, but I'm happy I found it. Thank you so very much for making this video. Your words have made an impact on me. I want you to know you saved a life today.
I've been watching you for a long time and just when I needed your words this was recommended to me. I don't feel appreciated enough, but everyday I'm doing my best to be better, stronger, and enjoy the simplicities of life. Thank you for being so open and inspiring. You get this a lot, but you're one of my favorite youtubers, I like that you keep it real and are so knowledgeable. Keep doing what you're doing and stay blessed! 💙
I struggle with depression from time to time; my last fall was last year for many reasons. While things are much better now, I won't deny that things still can get bumpy from time to time. Being an introvert, working as an English teacher in a foreign country like Japan is not easy. But pursuing my creativity on the side as a writer and an artist has been one of the only things helping me get by besides going to the gym, movies, and my family. I am glad I stumbled onto this video. Much thanks to you for the motivation.
I wish I could say just how much this message resonated with me, and how touched I feel. Your message and the way you tell it is beyond incredible, I don’t think I’ll ever forget your words. Thank you so much.
I’ve appreciated your videos as of late, as it has helped me rekindle my deep love for Cinema. A deep love that was slowly being repressed by the pressures and judgements of people I’m surrounded by. I’m also someone who is high in neuroticism (experience of negative emotion) and so stumbling upon this video from long ago really resonated with me. Thank you for sharing!
Hearing you speak is like listening to a kindred spirit. You have so much genuineness, authenticity and sincerity about you that you express so thoughtfully. Thank you endlessly for this video and your message. I can imagine it must've been difficult to film and put into the world, but I promise you the world is a better place for you doing so. The world is a better place because you are here and I say that with every ounce of my being. And I don't even know what's compelling me to say this but I want to repeat your own words right back to you because maybe you need to hear it too: "I feel your pain. You are not alone. You matter. Someone out there loves you. So move forward". I really hope and wish nothing but the best for you (with the acknowledgement that lows come with that package - life's a rollercoaster like you said aha). You are such a wonderful, beautiful soul, keep doing what you do.
Wow. WOW. That was powerful and beautiful and brave. Thank you SO much for posting this! Yours is a voice that needs to be heard. And boy do I ever get you just as you get those you were directing your message toward. I was very moved by your words and by your naked, unashamed emotion. The level of honest feeling you showed in your video is something in increasingly short supply in our increasingly shallow culture and it was incredibly refreshing to experience. Many things you related happen to parallel my own journey and left me feeling elated and hopeful. You're obviously an extraordinary young woman, fully embracing of your flaws as well as your many attributes. But, above all, you are clearly a caring and compassionate being and I bless you. Sending you love and many virtual hugs!
I was searching for film reviews for Vertigo (one of my all-time faves) and came across your review channel. I'm an introverted musician that tends to wear my heart on my sleeve, so I really connected with your words. Thank you so much for sharing your own experience with depression and reminding everyone that there is always hope. Stay awesome and keep up the great work!
I love how your channel just you being you.I subscribed to this channel because your just honest and raw.Thank you for existing in this world, thank you for sharing, and most of all thank you for being you✨🙌✨
Glad I saw this video iv been battling depression for a long time and just recently I lost 3 of my family members this year and it's been a rough year I feel alone sometimes and that people think I'm a weirdo cuz I'm super nice to everyone and my depression starts to kick in and I get sad and this virus is not helping at all but I hope you are doing well and that you are staying safe 🙂🙏
All of this hit close to home, and I thank you for sharing your story. I hope you are feeling better these few years later (only just discovered your channel this morning but love your insight and reviews). I really related to the idea of not even being able to do much of anything, including watching movies, when you're in a slump or depressive episode. The pain and isolation of depression is enough, but to add on the loss of motivation and the avoidance of doing things that usually give you joy really makes it something I'd never wish on even my worst enemy. I'm already really selective about watching movies, where I have to really be engaged and in the right mindset to watch a particular genre or tone of film. I get even worse when I'm feeling down, since, even if I'm ready to watch something, my brain just says, "ah, maybe another time," and I put off watching yet another film. I'm getting a bit better these days of overcoming that, but there's definitely times, especially after a stressful shift at work, when I opt to just sit around and let me brain rest, because I want to give a movie the respect of having my full attention if I am going to commit to watching it.
Yes - it's call being human. Further, you earned it because you worked hard. People with integrity feel guilty when they do not earn their down time through hard work.
Tonight I watched Mulholland Drive again, which is one of my all time favorite films. After that I went online to check some reviews and I stumbled upon your channel and work. After watching your Mulholland Drive review, which I thought was really insightful and awesome, I came here. I just need to share with you that I think you are very brave. You really touched me with your kindness, your intelligence and honesty and I will remember this video and show it to the people I love. I subscribed right away and can't wait to check all your reviews. Of course, needless to say, hang in there! But you have a great force, a strength. You will cope and even help others. I am absolutely certain of that!! Love and piece from Amsterdam :)
Hey deepfocuslens---I discovered your channel recently through your Cowboy Bebop reboot review and recently your Matrix retrospective. I'm a big Wachowskis fan through Sense8--but hadn't seen the movie at all in my life until yesterday (I'm Gen Z lol! I was probably 2 years old when the Matrix come out). I've been through tough experiences in my life where I've felt completely isolated (homelessness) and am often the friend in my group that will give the world to others because I don't love myself as much as I should. Thank you for telling your audience (and me) to self-care. I appreciate your honesty, your depth of knowledge on film, and how personable you are. I'm so glad your in this community and wish you the best in life and your career.
I've been a fan of your channel for a while but I just watched this video and really, it's one of the most heartfelt and important messages that I've come across in the Internet. Stay healthy and strong. Your channel and this video in patricular bring comfort to a lot of people who need it.
Thank you for recording and posting this! It took courage to do so. Inspiring to so many. Respect. Remember you are valuable, precious and loved. You are welcome to write to me anytime if you like. I will listen.
Thank you very much for making this video. I think most people can only dream of being brave enough to show the emotional honesty that you did here. I really needed this comfort just like everyone else who has commented did. 💜💙
Thank You for sharing this, and soooo glad you came out of this period for the better. I can not really identify with your journey but appreciate your giving a new perspective for us to consider. Plus we now get all these amazing reviews and commentary that you have shared with us. Love to you- you deserve it and have earned it and hopefully accept it.
Your words were very comforting, Maggie. Thank you for sharing them! I've always thought of you as a strong woman and this is just another reason as to why I admire you as a person.
You only yesterday graced my algorithms, and I've been very impressed with your movie reviews, even (and in some cases especially) the ones I disagree with. Gotta love an intelligent, nuanced perspective that opens my mind, even if it doesn't change it. As somebody who tries really hard to be articulate about complicated things and hates it when I don't stick the landing, I really appreciate and am inspired by just how articulate you are. That's even truer in regards to this beautiful video. This was so honest, vulnerable, and authentic that it moved me to tears. Thank you for this and I respect the hell out of your bravery for doing this. I've saved this for the next time I'm feeling down or when somebody I know is struggling. About five years ago I made great strides in dealing with my depression, and I silenced the most hateful voices in my head and disarmed my inner critic of its vitriol. I still sometimes lapse into ennui, but its absent the excoriating self recrimination that marked the first forty years of my life. This video served as a reminder of that victory but also reminded me to not get complacent and to never stop finding reasons to be happy, of which I have many. No matter how dark things are or seem, it's those reasons for happiness, however small, ephemeral, or whatever other judgement we might place on them, that we have to hold closest to our heart. Really happy to have found your channel!
This is the most powerful video I have ever seen and it helped me a lot. I relate to you on so many levels and I want you to know that we're all here for you too. Thank you sooo much.
Not really everyone is prone to depression. People like Richard Fynmen wasnt prone to depression. People with massive egos are prone to depression and think highly of themselves.
One year later and this is still one my favorite videos ever. I'm gonna make it a thing, to come back to this video when ever I get into a really bad depressive state and just watch to remind myself to keep going even when I don't want to live anymore.
i needed this a lot. i love your reviews and finding this video was not something i was expecting. last 2 years have been really harsh. I've started medical school but i hated it. i loved someone that didn't love me back. a lot of my friends stopped talking to me. I've wanted to make videogames my whole life, prove people that videogames are an art form. but because of my family's request i started medical. this year with so many fights and arguments with them I've finally changed my school and started at computer engineering classes. but there's only so little i can do to feel better. i really ran outta patient and i don't know what to do. hearing all this made me feel much more optimistic. keep doing what you're doing because you're an inspiration.
Ive watched most of your videos and I always appreciate what you have to say. This may be different, but it means a lot to me considering I have had many of the same struggles. Thanks so much for sharing!
Hello from Ireland. I’ve only recently discovered your channel and I have been watching your movie reviews and these are really excellent. I do think this video and the other one about toxic relationships will have helped someone. I respect your honesty and openness. I hope you’re in a good place these days and keep making great content.
Thank you for this. As a fellow cinephile, I recently stumbled upon this channel and was impressed by your thoughtful review of "Elle." But as a human prone to depression, I am even more thankful for discovering this video. 2016 was a personal low year in my life that I have yet to recover from, but it's immensely comforting to see someone who understands the struggle just as well. And like your film reviews, you take these difficult and often nebulous thoughts and somehow manage to speak on them with a clarity and eloquence that is truly inspiring. So thank you for being brave, continuing to create, and motivating me to enjoy life. I think I'll go on a bike ride now... p.s. 3000 subs Q&A please?
Thank you for this. Just, thank you! The amount of honesty is amazing, and means a lot! Your words touched a lot of different thoughts and emotions that I have/had. This is worth miles more than you will know! To be understood means so much! Again, thank you for your courage!
Thank you Maggie this video has touched me more than any other ever has before. It sure helps me and I*m sure many others that are fighting your battles. You are one of the reasons I still have hope for humanity.
I found your channel after looking for a review on RUclips of the movie, "The Invitation" and enjoyed that review you did a lot. You fleshed out a lot of the movie that I just didn't notice or expect to be seen. Same thing for "Midnight Special". Love your film taste and extremely well-thought reviews. But anyways, I really appreciate this video and you resonating your experience with others going through hard times. I agree with, when I am happy, i am really happy, but when I am sad, I just tip at a 90 degree angle. I am going through that right now, there is so much tension and uncertainty in my life right now and I know I cannot share it simply the way that I once could to feel better. I am a huge fuck up but i have to lift myself up and move forward. This video was done a while ago so I hope you are back in your groove. I am happy to have found your channel. I also am in awe by your eyes, smile and your gorgeous figure ;)
It’s been a long time since a video has moved me this strong. I enjoyed a movie review you made about Stanley Kubrick’s movie Lolita. You nailed that movie review. Then I watched this video, and I gotta say, it blew me away to say the least. I suffer from depression and I could totally identify with everything you said. You couldn’t have said it any better ❤️👏🏼
Thank you for these honest words! I can relate all too well to the moments you describe and have also struggled with similar issues myself. It's unfortunate that we don't do it more often, so I've made it a habit to give sincere compliments: You are definitely one of the greatest film critics, and your words hit the mark perfectly. Your creative works are impressive, and you are an intelligent, natural, and beautiful woman! I hope that more followers discover how amazing your reviews are, and I wish you all the best. Thank you for your work and your openness in this video!
Maggie, what a wonderful gift you’ve shared with the world. We see the world as we are, and when one is in those depths.. seems darkness never ending. no one ever fillycomprehends the impact the have on the world.. the nuanced ripples a pebble makes.. think how many people, even strangers, we’re grateful to/that made a difference/that perhaps we never vocalize our thanks. I am always surprised when someone tells me “you probably don’t remember this.. but when you did this [small act].. it made a difference”. And there are uncountable instances for each of us making our impact and ripples in the world almost unnoticeable. “Everyone has suffered. It is this wisdom gained from our wounds … our suffering that makes us able to heal. Wounded people can best be healed by other wounded people. Only other wounded people can understand what is needed, for the healing of suffering is compassion”. There’s also a wonderful YT video by Yapko. Thank you
wow this was very powerful and beautiful. thank you so much for sharing this. I think this is definitely what we all need to hear right now in the world we're living in. not many people are brave enough to open up like this and are willing to want help others. and as someone whose also experienced dmt, and depression, I definitely can understand what you are trying to do.
This hits deeply and I appreciate you speaking out for those of us that feel isolated because of our inability to adapt to a world that is cold and careless. Huge respect for you and your willingness to be vulnerable. The supposed “oddballs” of our society will look at this video and hopefully feel like they still have a place and purpose because of it. Much love.
also there with you. You're a great person and one of my favorite youtubers. I wish I knew you in real life but that only proves you're a wonderful human being to my eyes, and others as well.
I cannot express how much gratitude I have that I came across this video today of all days. Thank you very much for posting this video in 2016, a year in which I would say I also had the highest of highs and lowest of lows. But today, given current situations, I believe I am experiencing very similar feelings to those that I felt 4 years ago, only that they are much, much more amplified today than they were then. I am so happy in this moment that I came across this video. I sincerely appreciate what you had to say. In some ways, it feels like you have taken the words right out of my mouth-the sheer similarities between the sentiments you expressed here and those that I am feeling-and I wonder if it is a coincidence that this video was recommended to me today. Whether I was lucky, whether it was a higher power, I do not know. Regardless, I am grateful.
As a recent fan I'm glad that whatever happened here didn't prompt you to stop making vids. You give a lot of people joy hearing your insights and intelligent analysis of their favorite movies. This one just made a grown man cry. But maybe we all need that once in a while.
wow... I just saw this video and I truly am stunned into silence both in sadness and in an affinity and connection that I have never heard spoken to me and I am 66 years old... you are a very old soul, and wise, compassionate, empathetic and filled with tenderness beyond your years. Thank you for proving to me I am not alone.
I just discovered your channel and this is the most intense I’ve felt in awhile. I suffer from severe depression and anxiety and sometimes I just want the pain to stop. I have some very close friends who are there for me and they keep me going.
I needed this video. I have not felt my life is completely meaningless, but lately I have felt incredibly lonely and sad. For over a month now, I have not felt much positivity because I am 30 and don’t feel many things are moving forward like I have wanted them to. Admittedly part of it is my own fault. This video just now made my brain say, “You feel sad, lonely and bored right now, but if you do the things you know you need to do, some joy and positivity may come out of it.” Thank you for this, as well as for your thoughtful reviews.
I found your channel just a while ago and watched a lot of your videos just jumping randomly from one to another. As a cinephile with kind of similar tastes, I found myself agreeing with you on many things, especially when it came to aesthetics and that comforting darkness you mentioned in this video. Needless to say, I've enjoyed your content more than anything I've seen on RUclips in ages. And yes, then this video came up and it also resonated, big time. It felt like I knew where it came from, that emotion. I've, as many other people, experienced the turmoil of life when it gets shattered. It was many years ago. But I'm one of the lucky ones: I can say that I made through it. It was not easy and it took years, but it happened. Because of that I fully support your message of keeping on living. I know it's not an easy task for some people, but often just simply surviving to see another day is more than enough. The future is uncertain, but that's also the good thing about it. Every new day can change the course to better, little by little. I was so deep, at the bottom of a dark well, and now, many years after those lowest points in my life, they mostly feel like a dream I once saw. I can't sometimes even comprehend that all those things happened. That it was me. "You were sick, but now you're well again, and there's work to do." Thank you for sharing your sincerity and your message. I hope you're doing good, take care.
This is a really old video and you're probably doing great now (at least I hope you are), but as someone who has suffered from depression for the bulk of my adult life and am currently going through a really bad spell, I just wanted to say thank you for making this. I have no idea why this video showed up in my recommendations today, but the fact that it did very well may have saved my life. The funny thing is I give advice like this to other depressed people all the time, but I can never heed and practice my own words. There's something therapeutic about hearing it directed toward me from someone else. Keep fighting the good fight.
so very well put ❤️ thanks, I definitely go through this shit and tbh I know I'm going to continue to. but it means a lot to hear coming from someone who gets it. take care
Beautiful message, thanks for sharing it with us. I don't know if you know Steven Wilson's music, but when he talks about his music, which could be described as "sad" most of the time, he often talks about human emotions and how important is to experience not only happiness but also sadness, loneliness, etc and not to be ashamed of those emotions. Part of your message reminded me of him. If you haven't heard his music, i recommend it to you.
I've watched many of your videos but I only found this one now (I know it was 3 years ago). What an amazingly deep message. Thank you so much for making this and being so candid, real and resonating with all of us who ulitimately have to do deal with depression or other difficulties in life.
I don't think I have anything to add beyond what others have said (and said very well) to you in comments which have been offered on prior days. I'd just like to say I am both stunned and admiring of your candor and your courage.... it takes trust in others to reach out in the way you have here. Big trust. Essential trust. It takes a strong sense of the integrity of others, and a real respect for your own integrity. Thank you for posting this, you are offering genuine 'lived in' hope to others who may very easily need just such a sign, and you're offering a shit ton of compassion. I think you're really strong, your intelligence is quickly apparent to others...it's not waved around like a banner, it just exudes. Sincere thanks for extending yourself the way you've chosen to. This is rare.
Damn, really strong video. Just found your channel through your "The Forbidden Room" review, love all the reviews on here, especially since there not like reviewers that mainly do recent movies. Keep up the good work.
I was searching earlier for reviews on "The Many Saints Of Newark," and I came upon yours. I throughly enjoyed it and found your comments quite insightful. You're an amazingly thoughtful and intelligent person with an great deal of wisdom, especially for someone so young. I really look forward to watching more of your content. You're a pleasant surprise!!
Thank you for posting this. Your words really resonated with me. I'm not dealing with depression, but rather a major loss this year. And seriously just earlier today, I was having doubts about bouncing back from it (after being optimistic that I would). Been a longtime subscriber for many years now, and even though you don't know me, just know that there's someone on the West Coast who's rooting for you when you're not feeling well. And, according to all these comments on here, I'm not the only one.
Very important video, thank you for it. I have been watching your movie reviews and it was clear to me that you are a very wise woman. The analysis is just excellent. I just happened now to stumble to this and it just increased my appreciation of you. I have also had some very difficult situations and I have been having some very dark times. The hardest have been when my children have been under threat. It does not get harder than that. I now live to make sure my daughter will have a good life. Its the thing that at times has been the only thing that has kept me going. I'm from a modest background but I've always tried to to have a positive and forward-going attitude. When I was kid we were poor but I felt that I will push through and make a good living later on. My parents divorced and my mother tried to take good care of us kids. Often she was not able to do it. I have done my best to concentrate on the spiritual and higher values when we didn't have much. Often we just didn't have enough food. I admit it was hard. My father had money but just did not care. I needed a father and naively looked up to him. Thinking of it afterwards I shouldn't have. I got married with a woman that my relatives and many of my friends thought was from a wrong country. We were married for 20 years. Studying, working, raising children, being decent citizens. Nothing was enough for most of the gossiping relatives and friends. I stopped caring. Let them talk, I will have nothing to do with them. One edited our conversations and faked evidence against me. Another has used her officer status to make sure I'm inspected every time I travel. We live in special times and very often there's two camps with their "ultimate truths" and you should pick one group. I refuse to do that. I belong to the minority that just wants to know what the reality is. Often its not what the people in two different sides say but if you want to be accepted by either group you should shout out their message. I won't. Its lonely these days to seek only the truth but so be it. You mentioned your experiments and how you were shaken by the void. That way of seeking answers can be very unpredictable I guess. I did do meditation and experienced things I cannot communicate to anyone. I was naive enough to try but my "friends" saw it as weird. They were firm believers in chemicals and for them those were acceptable. I was able to accept their way but they were not accepting mine. I think anyone can seek the answers to the big questions the way they want. My way was through meditation. I guess its safer as the different mental states develop gradually. You won't get into anything too suddenly. Anyway, thank you for your deep ideas and your important heartfelt message.
This video shows a lot of insight and genuine courage on your part. I hope than anyone struggling with depression gets the opportunity to see this. I'm sharing it with friends who I know will greatly benefit from your honesty and advice. I hope you know that those of us who are enriched by your excellent cinema reviews are here for you and silently wishing you happiness and well being. Thank you for this message!
"I've always found comfort in destruction, in emotional extremes, in darkness." That totally resonated with me. I also used to be in a very dark place and I'm still fighting it in some sense but what you're saying is totally true: *it gets better!*
I had the same experience on acid, I was 18 but I wasnt ready , ive not been the same since, I took way too much for my first time and it blew my head off, I just love music and all my idols used drugs; I’m just recovering from heroin addiction, I wish u all love and happiness maggie’ lovely video x
Words & emotions healed me Thank you for existing in this precise moment and for this video you’re definitely a soul that syncs with the best out of this world
Wow this is a beautiful video. I was just browsing through your content and this caught me totally of guard. 2016 was the worst year of my life. But I am still here.
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When she said " I want you to live" , I cried. Because everyday there is a voice inside me which keeps telling me that I'm not worthy enough to live... I don't matter. Watching this video gave me strength to fight with that voice.
That's great Michael. I hope 6 months later you've still got the strength you realized you had when you first watched this amazing message. Take care please do....
Godfather find God. Reconnect to the Creator properly, fully, and with lifelong commitment, and you will cease fighting with those destructive voices, because they are powerless against His authority. They flee those who stand under the love and the protection of God. For they sing into your ear to prevent you from fulfilling your potential. And as long as you stand alone, you are fair game. This goes for everyone who is depressed and who knows they are supposed to do something great in the world - but have never even come close to fulfilling that deep inner desire. When a man is perpetually fighting just to stay afloat, how can he ever get on top of the situation in order to build up?
I used to be like that. Seek Jesus Christ and he will take all your pain away. You just need self worth and the way to get that is but knowing Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior and that you are a child of God. Peace and blessings to you Michael.
There's no worthy or worthy. There's simply you, alive, here, and now. That's the ultimate freedom when we truly know that in our hearts.
@@derek96720 - Wonderfully said. We live, and that is "worth" enough. While we live, we have a choice and we can experience happiness and hope.
You can't look like shit, when you look real. And that is such a breath of fresh air on this platform of today. From the bottom of my heart, thank you for this. Someday the screens will all melt and fade away, and we'll all know that all we have is ourselves and each other. We are all one.
To Deepfocuslens,
As someone who is feeling frightened, lonely and nihilistic this video has uplifted my spirits. I thank you for being brave and sharing your vulnerable self despite the terrifying judgemental eyes of the world. Your sharing has eased my sense of alienation and that there are others who feel akin in this world. From the depths of my heart from one human being to another, your strength is admirable. sincerely and thank you.
Don't know if you'll even see my comment given that this video is four years old, but this is by far the most affecting, touching, and powerful video you've ever done. Your total inner beauty has never been more apparent to me. You've bared your soul here and I thank you and love you for it.
"Today a young man on Acid realized that all matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration, that we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively, there is no such thing as death, life is only a dream, and we are the imagination of ourselves. Here's Tom with the weather." (Bill Hicks)
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RedSon A fucking legend. R.I.P. ole Billy boy.
Heard this quote for the first time in the song Third Eye by Tool.
If he wanted to know that, all he had to do was study the various philosophies of Hinduism.
If there is one RUclipsr who NEVER makes a bad or useless video, it's this lady. I found her channel less than a month ago and have been watching ever since. I don't agree with all her views (Inception is not that great is an example) but even then, you can appreciate the clarity of her position and the integrity with which she presents her reasoning. Imagine then when such a character shares a video on depression. Of course it was going to be one for the books.
Keep being wonderful, lady. I appreciate you a whole lot!
A wise man once said that a tree has its roots in sadness and its leaves in happiness. We draw nourishing water from the roots of our sadness, and absorb rejuvenating sunlight from the little leaves of our happiness. I think sadness gives a person depth. I agree with you that in society sadness is taboo and that is a shame. I guess it should be no surprise then that there are so many shallow people walking this earth right now. You on the other hand exude a genuine thoughtfulness. I think you are more centered than you may realize. Naturally your presence is heavy as with all introspective souls. I don't know how I stumbled onto this, but your sincerity moved me. Such a combination of intellect and warmth is rare. I wish you well. You know, the world wants everyone to be a star, but people forget about the beauty of darkness. People forget about the beauty of space.
You express yourself beautifully. Thank you so much for saying so. :)
I couldn’t agree more. Thank you.
Lovely comment.
'People forget about the beauty of darkness.' There is a truth to that deep insight that few care to acknowledge, for fear of being in that space.
Amazing comment.
I wrote many years ago, that darkness is beautiful only to those who already live in darkness. But to those who live in the light, or seek it, it is indeed ugly - and unnecessary. Just as impure water is unattractive.
There are two ways to learn in life, through the suffering of experience, or the obedience of truth and wisdom. Most choose the former, and whilst experience was always meant to be partially the way humans learn, it was not meant to be the sole teacher. The beauty you seek is not in darkness, but in its absence.
But then again, it depends how exactly you define darkness. Some romanticise it, others lesson it, others make it equal to evil. If you see it as the great unknown, that is yet another way to define it.
If you see darkness as brokeness, and celebrate that, then that says much of the one celebrating doesn't it.
What's beautiful about this particular post is how it so bravely deconstructs the myth of competency. From your other videos it's clear that you value clarity and having your shit together. Like many others commenting here I only recently discovered your channel, and deeply admire the content. I have a degree in film and feel like I'm listening to someone worth spending my time on, which is rare these days. It's generally thought that people who are so articulate and informed are sort of super human in their life-powers, that they don't have to navigate the darker realms of being, simply because they're so damn smart and together. But nothing could be further from the truth .In fact possessing keen intelligence---and you're clearly a very bright, soulful human---is no guarantee of an easy path through life. Often times it's quite the opposite, as the more perceptive you are the more you see, hence the more you have to process and subsequently make peace with. The business of seeing with an unflinching gaze at such a high level is saint work, to be sure. The Wim Wenders documentary Salt of the Earth examines the life of fine art photographer Sebestiao Salgado, and touches on this notion in a really beautiful way. I'm not a big fan of Wenders, but you may want to review that film. I cried like a fucking baby at the end of it---tears of redemption, not sorrow. Wishing you similar tears.
Thank you for your beautiful words.
Your message is beautiful because it's truthful - perceptiveness makes you an outsider, just no way around that. "The stairs up to heaven lead straight down to hell." Hopefully, over time we come to accept death, the dissolving of the ego, and we find our joy and peace in life by serving others. I always saw this idea as a platitude until, after many years of suffering, it became real for me. There's a clear light at the center and I feel our struggles represent our evolving toward consciousness of that light. Hopefully, with suffering we learn empathy.
Perceptiveness makes you an outsider. SO TRUE
I can sit here all day, not say a word, and listen to you speak. All your videos provides a lot value.
I found your channel a long long time back and when you posted this in 2016 it helped me a lot. Here I am, 5 years later, and back to feeling the same shitty feelings, and this helped me again. Thanks for being there, wherever you are.
For what it’s worth, I want to say thank you for this. Thank you for your videos, and the intelligence, insight and eloquence you bring to everything you discuss - film, life or otherwise. I always look forward to hearing what you have to say, because you always say something worth hearing and thinking deeply about. Thank you for sharing your insights, and for being so honest and open about something so challenging, profound and universal. Life is a story no one survives, but we are together in it, none the less, as we stumble through it, our lives growing shorter as time moves forward...But on occasion, we bump into others as we stumble along, or they bump into us, even if only for a moment, and the experience reminds us we are not alone. Thanks for the reminder, even if it’s just through a RUclips video, I’m glad you bumped into me.
I've also been fightin with depression this whole year, I stopped talkin to all my friends and I started to stay at home and do nothing basically. I felt so bad about myself, it felt like I wasted my time but I couldnt find a way to stop it. Today I said to myself that sooner or later I will get out of this condition and then I watched this video. I cant explain to you how much I related to this, I cried the whole way through cuz I understood everything that you meant. I feel so much better right now thanks to you. You're an amazing person and you're never alone, there's always someone out there that goes through what you go through. Thanks for makin this video! Take care and stay strong! ❤
Wow. That means so much to hear you say that. You may feel pain, but one thing that you cannot do is neglect the people around you. I've been doing that this whole time and it is time to turn that around. Just remember that the mind is very powerful. Sadness is an illusion. If you want it bad enough you can turn that negativity into something positive. It takes a lot of work, but it's possible. You must be productive, hang out with friends and family, do mediation or something similar, do something creative. Anything to help you find that balance in your life. You will get there. I know you will. I will too. Chin up. :)
Its been years, I still come back to this video so I don't feel so alone when I need it. It helps. Thank you so much.
Not depressed myself, but opening yourself up in this way for the benefit of those who are, was a very kind thing to do.
I come back to this video when I need it. Today I really needed it. Thank you for putting it out 7 years ago, I think it may have saved me today. A message from your heart, straight to mine.
I am a relatively new subscriber, so I stumbled on this, scrolling on your older videos just now.
I don't know what to say. I'd like to think that this is why I find your takes on movies so insightful, it's cause they come from someone who can express these feelings with such precision and heart.
Thank you a lot, I took notes from this I'll remember.
I wish you happiness and send you a hug for the sad times
P.S. just wanted to add something real quick. I started watching your videos for the quality of your analysis and general taste in films. Your channel is one of the few I hop on after I watch any movie, to hear what I missed.
I appreciate your work :)
I just came across your videos this evening and have been watching them for a few hours now. I was particularly intrigued by your mentions of the psychedelic experience, because I too have had my life changed by psychedelics and love hearing others tell their stories. I also suffer from depression and anxiety and have for most of my life, so this video resonated with me deeply. I was brought to tears by your sincerity because I do, alot of the time, feel misunderstood and alone. Hearing someone else express these emotions is comforting and I commend you for doing so. Although I know this video was made several years ago from the time I'm writing this comment, I truly hope you are in a better place and want you to know that what you intended with this has absolutely reached someone who needed to hear it. Thank you again, much love ❤
Always come back to this beautiful video whenever I’m feeling hopeless, thank you so much for this.
You were very brave to put yourself out there like this, and even though I've only just stumbled across this channel, I can firmly say that you've touched me very sincerely with your words. As someone who is constantly in contention with their own feelings, I am happy to know that others like you can empathize and have the courage to spread messages of love and kindness like this - even for an audience dedicated mostly towards film. Wishing you love and merriment from the UK! :)
I’ve come back to this video so many times over the last few years. That’s how much it resonates with me, thanks for this message Maggie! Much love ❤
I really needed this. After losing all my friends I just feel worthless and hopeless. Having reassurance from someone that it'll be better is a lot more meaningful when coming from someone who knows pain and is experiencing it right now. From most people it just sounds empty. You definitely used your pain to make something meaningful.
What is your diet and exercise regimen?
These words are heavy, pure, good and also nice, i have no idea what situation where you in when u spoke these words, but your attempt to make other not feel the same shitty way you were feeling at the moment and trying be soothing even if u were in disturbance is wonderful, your intent worked positively to me, it takes alot to speak like this.
I know this is an old video, but I just found you yesterday on a movie review, and was looking for some movie suggestions to watch, and ended up finding this amazing person.
I've been a subscriber of yours for many years now. I can't remember what brought me to your channel, but I'm happy I found it. Thank you so very much for making this video. Your words have made an impact on me. I want you to know you saved a life today.
I've been watching you for a long time and just when I needed your words this was recommended to me. I don't feel appreciated enough, but everyday I'm doing my best to be better, stronger, and enjoy the simplicities of life. Thank you for being so open and inspiring. You get this a lot, but you're one of my favorite youtubers, I like that you keep it real and are so knowledgeable. Keep doing what you're doing and stay blessed! 💙
I struggle with depression from time to time; my last fall was last year for many reasons. While things are much better now, I won't deny that things still can get bumpy from time to time. Being an introvert, working as an English teacher in a foreign country like Japan is not easy. But pursuing my creativity on the side as a writer and an artist has been one of the only things helping me get by besides going to the gym, movies, and my family. I am glad I stumbled onto this video. Much thanks to you for the motivation.
I wish I could say just how much this message resonated with me, and how touched I feel. Your message and the way you tell it is beyond incredible, I don’t think I’ll ever forget your words. Thank you so much.
I’ve appreciated your videos as of late, as it has helped me rekindle my deep love for Cinema. A deep love that was slowly being repressed by the pressures and judgements of people I’m surrounded by. I’m also someone who is high in neuroticism (experience of negative emotion) and so stumbling upon this video from long ago really resonated with me. Thank you for sharing!
Perhaps the most heartfelt thing I've found on RUclips. It spoke to my soul. Thank you for posting it.
Hearing you speak is like listening to a kindred spirit. You have so much genuineness, authenticity and sincerity about you that you express so thoughtfully. Thank you endlessly for this video and your message. I can imagine it must've been difficult to film and put into the world, but I promise you the world is a better place for you doing so. The world is a better place because you are here and I say that with every ounce of my being. And I don't even know what's compelling me to say this but I want to repeat your own words right back to you because maybe you need to hear it too: "I feel your pain. You are not alone. You matter. Someone out there loves you. So move forward". I really hope and wish nothing but the best for you (with the acknowledgement that lows come with that package - life's a rollercoaster like you said aha). You are such a wonderful, beautiful soul, keep doing what you do.
Wow. WOW. That was powerful and beautiful and brave. Thank you SO much for posting this! Yours is a voice that needs to be heard. And boy do I ever get you just as you get those you were directing your message toward. I was very moved by your words and by your naked, unashamed emotion. The level of honest feeling you showed in your video is something in increasingly short supply in our increasingly shallow culture and it was incredibly refreshing to experience. Many things you related happen to parallel my own journey and left me feeling elated and hopeful. You're obviously an extraordinary young woman, fully embracing of your flaws as well as your many attributes. But, above all, you are clearly a caring and compassionate being and I bless you. Sending you love and many virtual hugs!
I was searching for film reviews for Vertigo (one of my all-time faves) and came across your review channel. I'm an introverted musician that tends to wear my heart on my sleeve, so I really connected with your words. Thank you so much for sharing your own experience with depression and reminding everyone that there is always hope. Stay awesome and keep up the great work!
I love how your channel just you being you.I subscribed to this channel because your just honest and raw.Thank you for existing in this world, thank you for sharing, and most of all thank you for being you✨🙌✨
Glad I saw this video iv been battling depression for a long time and just recently I lost 3 of my family members this year and it's been a rough year I feel alone sometimes and that people think I'm a weirdo cuz I'm super nice to everyone and my depression starts to kick in and I get sad and this virus is not helping at all but I hope you are doing well and that you are staying safe 🙂🙏
All of this hit close to home, and I thank you for sharing your story. I hope you are feeling better these few years later (only just discovered your channel this morning but love your insight and reviews).
I really related to the idea of not even being able to do much of anything, including watching movies, when you're in a slump or depressive episode. The pain and isolation of depression is enough, but to add on the loss of motivation and the avoidance of doing things that usually give you joy really makes it something I'd never wish on even my worst enemy. I'm already really selective about watching movies, where I have to really be engaged and in the right mindset to watch a particular genre or tone of film. I get even worse when I'm feeling down, since, even if I'm ready to watch something, my brain just says, "ah, maybe another time," and I put off watching yet another film. I'm getting a bit better these days of overcoming that, but there's definitely times, especially after a stressful shift at work, when I opt to just sit around and let me brain rest, because I want to give a movie the respect of having my full attention if I am going to commit to watching it.
Yes - it's call being human.
Further, you earned it because you worked hard.
People with integrity feel guilty when they do not earn their down time through hard work.
Tonight I watched Mulholland Drive again, which is one of my all time favorite films. After that I went online to check some reviews and I stumbled upon your channel and work. After watching your Mulholland Drive review, which I thought was really insightful and awesome, I came here. I just need to share with you that I think you are very brave. You really touched me with your kindness, your intelligence and honesty and I will remember this video and show it to the people I love. I subscribed right away and can't wait to check all your reviews. Of course, needless to say, hang in there! But you have a great force, a strength. You will cope and even help others. I am absolutely certain of that!! Love and piece from Amsterdam :)
Thank you so much. I appreciate your words more than you may ever know. :)
Hey deepfocuslens---I discovered your channel recently through your Cowboy Bebop reboot review and recently your Matrix retrospective. I'm a big Wachowskis fan through Sense8--but hadn't seen the movie at all in my life until yesterday (I'm Gen Z lol! I was probably 2 years old when the Matrix come out). I've been through tough experiences in my life where I've felt completely isolated (homelessness) and am often the friend in my group that will give the world to others because I don't love myself as much as I should. Thank you for telling your audience (and me) to self-care. I appreciate your honesty, your depth of knowledge on film, and how personable you are. I'm so glad your in this community and wish you the best in life and your career.
I've been a fan of your channel for a while but I just watched this video and really, it's one of the most heartfelt and important messages that I've come across in the Internet. Stay healthy and strong. Your channel and this video in patricular bring comfort to a lot of people who need it.
Thank you for recording and posting this! It took courage to do so. Inspiring to so many. Respect. Remember you are valuable, precious and loved. You are welcome to write to me anytime if you like. I will listen.
Thank you very much for making this video. I think most people can only dream of being brave enough to show the emotional honesty that you did here. I really needed this comfort just like everyone else who has commented did. 💜💙
Thank You for sharing this, and soooo glad you came out of this period for the better. I can not really identify with your journey but appreciate your giving a new perspective for us to consider. Plus we now get all these amazing reviews and commentary that you have shared with us. Love to you- you deserve it and have earned it and hopefully accept it.
Your words were very comforting, Maggie. Thank you for sharing them! I've always thought of you as a strong woman and this is just another reason as to why I admire you as a person.
Thank you so much, Cindy. I admire you so much as well. :)
You only yesterday graced my algorithms, and I've been very impressed with your movie reviews, even (and in some cases especially) the ones I disagree with. Gotta love an intelligent, nuanced perspective that opens my mind, even if it doesn't change it. As somebody who tries really hard to be articulate about complicated things and hates it when I don't stick the landing, I really appreciate and am inspired by just how articulate you are.
That's even truer in regards to this beautiful video. This was so honest, vulnerable, and authentic that it moved me to tears. Thank you for this and I respect the hell out of your bravery for doing this. I've saved this for the next time I'm feeling down or when somebody I know is struggling.
About five years ago I made great strides in dealing with my depression, and I silenced the most hateful voices in my head and disarmed my inner critic of its vitriol. I still sometimes lapse into ennui, but its absent the excoriating self recrimination that marked the first forty years of my life. This video served as a reminder of that victory but also reminded me to not get complacent and to never stop finding reasons to be happy, of which I have many.
No matter how dark things are or seem, it's those reasons for happiness, however small, ephemeral, or whatever other judgement we might place on them, that we have to hold closest to our heart.
Really happy to have found your channel!
I remember watching this when you first put it up. I'm glad I watched it again. I needed it.
This is the most powerful video I have ever seen and it helped me a lot. I relate to you on so many levels and I want you to know that we're all here for you too. Thank you sooo much.
I noticed that deep thinkers, cerebral people are more prone to depression
Haha yes, I would definitely say this is true.
That is very much me, always inside my head
I think that thinking of yourself as a 'deep thinker', an therefore consider others as not as deep as yourself, is part of the problem
@@dominik13579 no. Your "therefore" doesn't follow.
Not really everyone is prone to depression.
People like Richard Fynmen wasnt prone to depression.
People with massive egos are prone to depression and think highly of themselves.
One year later and this is still one my favorite videos ever. I'm gonna make it a thing, to come back to this video when ever I get into a really bad depressive state and just watch to remind myself to keep going even when I don't want to live anymore.
How are you these days?
i needed this a lot. i love your reviews and finding this video was not something i was expecting. last 2 years have been really harsh. I've started medical school but i hated it. i loved someone that didn't love me back. a lot of my friends stopped talking to me. I've wanted to make videogames my whole life, prove people that videogames are an art form. but because of my family's request i started medical. this year with so many fights and arguments with them I've finally changed my school and started at computer engineering classes. but there's only so little i can do to feel better. i really ran outta patient and i don't know what to do. hearing all this made me feel much more optimistic. keep doing what you're doing because you're an inspiration.
Needed to hear this , especially these last few months, weeks and even days, cheers for that!
Ive watched most of your videos and I always appreciate what you have to say. This may be different, but it means a lot to me considering I have had many of the same struggles. Thanks so much for sharing!
Hello from Ireland. I’ve only recently discovered your channel and I have been watching your movie reviews and these are really excellent. I do think this video and the other one about toxic relationships will have helped someone. I respect your honesty and openness. I hope you’re in a good place these days and keep making great content.
I always find myself coming back to this video.
Maggie .. you are incredibly wise for one so young .. I hope you are feeling a lot better now ... still enjoying your reviews immensely
You made this over 4 years ago and your timing is still perfect. Thank you for this video
Thank you for this. As a fellow cinephile, I recently stumbled upon this channel and was impressed by your thoughtful review of "Elle." But as a human prone to depression, I am even more thankful for discovering this video.
2016 was a personal low year in my life that I have yet to recover from, but it's immensely comforting to see someone who understands the struggle just as well. And like your film reviews, you take these difficult and often nebulous thoughts and somehow manage to speak on them with a clarity and eloquence that is truly inspiring.
So thank you for being brave, continuing to create, and motivating me to enjoy life. I think I'll go on a bike ride now...
p.s. 3000 subs Q&A please?
I love movies and just discovered your channel and never expected this . That was simple and pure , thank you for sharing
One of the best videos on RUclips. Thank you from all of us who have or will have seen this! ❤️
please make more videos like this... the world desperately needs it. you're genuine and real enough to touch people on levels not many youtubers can.
Yes, do a video on You Tuber Cynthia G. :( Her thought process will be offensive to your senses and so will her 36,000 subscribers. :(
I very much appreciated this and all you do. Thank you
Thank you for this. Just, thank you! The amount of honesty is amazing, and means a lot! Your words touched a lot of different thoughts and emotions that I have/had. This is worth miles more than you will know! To be understood means so much! Again, thank you for your courage!
I hope you are well
Thank you so much for this. Having a rough year and this REALLY helped. You're awesome.
I hope it got better
Thank you Maggie this video has touched me more than any other ever has before. It sure helps me and I*m sure many others that are fighting your battles. You are one of the reasons I still have hope for humanity.
I found your channel after looking for a review on RUclips of the movie, "The Invitation" and enjoyed that review you did a lot. You fleshed out a lot of the movie that I just didn't notice or expect to be seen. Same thing for "Midnight Special". Love your film taste and extremely well-thought reviews.
But anyways, I really appreciate this video and you resonating your experience with others going through hard times. I agree with, when I am happy, i am really happy, but when I am sad, I just tip at a 90 degree angle. I am going through that right now, there is so much tension and uncertainty in my life right now and I know I cannot share it simply the way that I once could to feel better. I am a huge fuck up but i have to lift myself up and move forward.
This video was done a while ago so I hope you are back in your groove. I am happy to have found your channel.
I also am in awe by your eyes, smile and your gorgeous figure ;)
It’s been a long time since a video has moved me this strong. I enjoyed a movie review you made about Stanley Kubrick’s movie Lolita. You nailed that movie review. Then I watched this video, and I gotta say, it blew me away to say the least. I suffer from depression and I could totally identify with everything you said. You couldn’t have said it any better ❤️👏🏼
Thank you for these honest words! I can relate all too well to the moments you describe and have also struggled with similar issues myself. It's unfortunate that we don't do it more often, so I've made it a habit to give sincere compliments: You are definitely one of the greatest film critics, and your words hit the mark perfectly. Your creative works are impressive, and you are an intelligent, natural, and beautiful woman! I hope that more followers discover how amazing your reviews are, and I wish you all the best. Thank you for your work and your openness in this video!
Maggie, what a wonderful gift you’ve shared with the world. We see the world as we are, and when one is in those depths.. seems darkness never ending. no one ever fillycomprehends the impact the have on the world.. the nuanced ripples a pebble makes.. think how many people, even strangers, we’re grateful to/that made a difference/that perhaps we never vocalize our thanks. I am always surprised when someone tells me “you probably don’t remember this.. but when you did this [small act].. it made a difference”. And there are uncountable instances for each of us making our impact and ripples in the world almost unnoticeable. “Everyone has suffered. It is this wisdom gained from our wounds … our suffering that makes us able to heal. Wounded people can best be healed by other wounded people. Only other wounded people can understand what is needed, for the healing of suffering is compassion”. There’s also a wonderful YT video by Yapko. Thank you
wow this was very powerful and beautiful. thank you so much for sharing this. I think this is definitely what we all need to hear right now in the world we're living in. not many people are brave enough to open up like this and are willing to want help others. and as someone whose also experienced dmt, and depression, I definitely can understand what you are trying to do.
You're a beautiful person; I hope you're doing better now!! All of this was so relatable and I really needed it atm so thank you :).
This hits deeply and I appreciate you speaking out for those of us that feel isolated because of our inability to adapt to a world that is cold and careless. Huge respect for you and your willingness to be vulnerable. The supposed “oddballs” of our society will look at this video and hopefully feel like they still have a place and purpose because of it. Much love.
I shed a tear of hope and joy watching this.Really inspiring.
also there with you. You're a great person and one of my favorite youtubers. I wish I knew you in real life but that only proves you're a wonderful human being to my eyes, and others as well.
This is very bold of you for sharing and I like your message. Everyone does feel down and eventually finds their place.
I cannot express how much gratitude I have that I came across this video today of all days. Thank you very much for posting this video in 2016, a year in which I would say I also had the highest of highs and lowest of lows. But today, given current situations, I believe I am experiencing very similar feelings to those that I felt 4 years ago, only that they are much, much more amplified today than they were then. I am so happy in this moment that I came across this video. I sincerely appreciate what you had to say. In some ways, it feels like you have taken the words right out of my mouth-the sheer similarities between the sentiments you expressed here and those that I am feeling-and I wonder if it is a coincidence that this video was recommended to me today. Whether I was lucky, whether it was a higher power, I do not know. Regardless, I am grateful.
Life is what we make it
Thank you Maggie. I greatly needed this today.
Somethings you said here resonated with me and I'll remember them for the rest of my life. really thank you.
As a recent fan I'm glad that whatever happened here didn't prompt you to stop making vids. You give a lot of people joy hearing your insights and intelligent analysis of their favorite movies. This one just made a grown man cry. But maybe we all need that once in a while.
wow... I just saw this video and I truly am stunned into silence both in sadness and in an affinity and connection that I have never heard spoken to me and I am 66 years old... you are a very old soul, and wise, compassionate, empathetic and filled with tenderness beyond your years. Thank you for proving to me I am not alone.
thank you again, more than I can say.
I just discovered your channel and this is the most intense I’ve felt in awhile. I suffer from severe depression and anxiety and sometimes I just want the pain to stop. I have some very close friends who are there for me and they keep me going.
What is your diet and exercise regimen?
I needed this video. I have not felt my life is completely meaningless, but lately I have felt incredibly lonely and sad. For over a month now, I have not felt much positivity because I am 30 and don’t feel many things are moving forward like I have wanted them to. Admittedly part of it is my own fault. This video just now made my brain say, “You feel sad, lonely and bored right now, but if you do the things you know you need to do, some joy and positivity may come out of it.” Thank you for this, as well as for your thoughtful reviews.
I found your channel just a while ago and watched a lot of your videos just jumping randomly from one to another. As a cinephile with kind of similar tastes, I found myself agreeing with you on many things, especially when it came to aesthetics and that comforting darkness you mentioned in this video. Needless to say, I've enjoyed your content more than anything I've seen on RUclips in ages.
And yes, then this video came up and it also resonated, big time. It felt like I knew where it came from, that emotion. I've, as many other people, experienced the turmoil of life when it gets shattered. It was many years ago. But I'm one of the lucky ones: I can say that I made through it. It was not easy and it took years, but it happened.
Because of that I fully support your message of keeping on living. I know it's not an easy task for some people, but often just simply surviving to see another day is more than enough. The future is uncertain, but that's also the good thing about it. Every new day can change the course to better, little by little.
I was so deep, at the bottom of a dark well, and now, many years after those lowest points in my life, they mostly feel like a dream I once saw. I can't sometimes even comprehend that all those things happened. That it was me.
"You were sick, but now you're well again, and there's work to do."
Thank you for sharing your sincerity and your message. I hope you're doing good, take care.
This is a really old video and you're probably doing great now (at least I hope you are), but as someone who has suffered from depression for the bulk of my adult life and am currently going through a really bad spell, I just wanted to say thank you for making this. I have no idea why this video showed up in my recommendations today, but the fact that it did very well may have saved my life. The funny thing is I give advice like this to other depressed people all the time, but I can never heed and practice my own words. There's something therapeutic about hearing it directed toward me from someone else. Keep fighting the good fight.
What is your diet and exercise regimen?
so very well put ❤️ thanks, I definitely go through this shit and tbh I know I'm going to continue to. but it means a lot to hear coming from someone who gets it.
take care
Beautiful message, thanks for sharing it with us. I don't know if you know Steven Wilson's music, but when he talks about
his music, which could be described as "sad" most of the time, he often talks about human emotions and how important is to
experience not only happiness but also sadness, loneliness, etc and not to be ashamed of those emotions. Part of your message reminded me of him. If you haven't heard his music, i recommend it to you.
Thanks. I'll check it out. :)
I've watched many of your videos but I only found this one now (I know it was 3 years ago). What an amazingly deep message. Thank you so much for making this and being so candid, real and resonating with all of us who ulitimately have to do deal with depression or other difficulties in life.
What is your diet and exercise regimen?
Powerful video. I'm glad I stumbled upon your channel. I enjoy the film reviews.
I come back to this video constantly. Thank you for making it for me
I don't think I have anything to add beyond what others have said (and said very well) to you in comments which have been offered on prior days. I'd just like to say I am both stunned and admiring of your candor and your courage.... it takes trust in others to reach out in the way you have here. Big trust. Essential trust. It takes a strong sense of the integrity of others, and a real respect for your own integrity. Thank you for posting this, you are offering genuine 'lived in' hope to others who may very easily need just such a sign, and you're offering a shit ton of compassion. I think you're really strong, your intelligence is quickly apparent to others...it's not waved around like a banner, it just exudes. Sincere thanks for extending yourself the way you've chosen to. This is rare.
Damn, really strong video. Just found your channel through your "The Forbidden Room" review, love all the reviews on here, especially since there not like reviewers that mainly do recent movies. Keep up the good work.
I found this video at the perfect time! Thank you from the bottom of my heart! You are a beautiful soul ❤❤❤
I was searching earlier for reviews on "The Many Saints Of Newark," and I came upon yours. I throughly enjoyed it and found your comments quite insightful. You're an amazingly thoughtful and intelligent person with an great deal of wisdom, especially for someone so young. I really look forward to watching more of your content. You're a pleasant surprise!!
Thank you for posting this. Your words really resonated with me. I'm not dealing with depression, but rather a major loss this year. And seriously just earlier today, I was having doubts about bouncing back from it (after being optimistic that I would). Been a longtime subscriber for many years now, and even though you don't know me, just know that there's someone on the West Coast who's rooting for you when you're not feeling well. And, according to all these comments on here, I'm not the only one.
I hope you are well
@@CEWIII9873 Thank you! ❤️ I eventually did bounce back and I'm in a better place now vs. 5.5+ years ago. 😀
@@Hornginator no prob
I do care when men are having issues.
Very important video, thank you for it. I have been watching your movie reviews and it was clear to me that you are a very wise woman. The analysis is just excellent. I just happened now to stumble to this and it just increased my appreciation of you.
I have also had some very difficult situations and I have been having some very dark times. The hardest have been when my children have been under threat. It does not get harder than that. I now live to make sure my daughter will have a good life. Its the thing that at times has been the only thing that has kept me going.
I'm from a modest background but I've always tried to to have a positive and forward-going attitude. When I was kid we were poor but I felt that I will push through and make a good living later on. My parents divorced and my mother tried to take good care of us kids. Often she was not able to do it. I have done my best to concentrate on the spiritual and higher values when we didn't have much. Often we just didn't have enough food. I admit it was hard. My father had money but just did not care. I needed a father and naively looked up to him. Thinking of it afterwards I shouldn't have.
I got married with a woman that my relatives and many of my friends thought was from a wrong country. We were married for 20 years. Studying, working, raising children, being decent citizens. Nothing was enough for most of the gossiping relatives and friends. I stopped caring. Let them talk, I will have nothing to do with them. One edited our conversations and faked evidence against me. Another has used her officer status to make sure I'm inspected every time I travel.
We live in special times and very often there's two camps with their "ultimate truths" and you should pick one group. I refuse to do that. I belong to the minority that just wants to know what the reality is. Often its not what the people in two different sides say but if you want to be accepted by either group you should shout out their message. I won't. Its lonely these days to seek only the truth but so be it.
You mentioned your experiments and how you were shaken by the void. That way of seeking answers can be very unpredictable I guess. I did do meditation and experienced things I cannot communicate to anyone. I was naive enough to try but my "friends" saw it as weird. They were firm believers in chemicals and for them those were acceptable. I was able to accept their way but they were not accepting mine. I think anyone can seek the answers to the big questions the way they want. My way was through meditation. I guess its safer as the different mental states develop gradually. You won't get into anything too suddenly.
Anyway, thank you for your deep ideas and your important heartfelt message.
This video shows a lot of insight and genuine courage on your part. I hope than anyone struggling with depression gets the opportunity to see this. I'm sharing it with friends who I know will greatly benefit from your honesty and advice. I hope you know that those of us who are enriched by your excellent cinema reviews are here for you and silently wishing you happiness and well being. Thank you for this message!
I hope your friends are well
From the bottom of my heart... Thank you for this 🙏 This must've been very difficult for you.
I know it too. I needed to hear this. You're amazing. Beautiful.
"I've always found comfort in destruction, in emotional extremes, in darkness." That totally resonated with me. I also used to be in a very dark place and I'm still fighting it in some sense but what you're saying is totally true: *it gets better!*
I hope you are well.
@@CEWIII9873 It's not great but I think that goes for almost everyone as of late. I hope you are well too :)
@@NemoK I am.
For me, it was getting my finances in order and purchasing my first house.
I also let a lot of ideas go and now just focus on each day.
I had the same experience on acid, I was 18 but I wasnt ready , ive not been the same since, I took way too much for my first time and it blew my head off, I just love music and all my idols used drugs; I’m just recovering from heroin addiction, I wish u all love and happiness maggie’ lovely video x
I hope you are clean
Words & emotions healed me Thank you for existing in this precise moment and for this video you’re definitely a soul that syncs with the best out of this world
New subscriber here. You got me with your incredibly articulate movie reviews and commentary. Truly, you are an extremely beautiful person.
Wow this is a beautiful video. I was just browsing through your content and this caught me totally of guard. 2016 was the worst year of my life. But I am still here.
I don't think you realize how beautiful you are inside and out. Your channel helps me all the time.