Please please be respectful of myself, or at least anyone in the chat who wants to talk about mental health. It took a lot of panic for me to finally talk about this, and I might even take the video down if I feel worried about it, but I feel like you deserved to know what's going on in my life as it does affect my channel and my work. For those who want an email address, I am available on info@jelliebee.com if you need to chat! Thank you~
I think a lot of people support you including me and can I just say I love your hair but you shouldn't be worried because there are haters who just have their own issues so ignore the mean comments
I just wanna give you a big hug, I understand what your going through. I'm a trans guy with depression, anxiety, ADHD, and insomnia. I know how it feels to struggle through daily life, and I'm sure many others do too. Remember that we're always here for you!
+Jellie Bee I hope a RUclips message is ok, I sent it before I noticed the email address haha Just wanted to let you know that it is very brave for you to share this with us and that I'm proud of you for doing it. :)
I've been diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety, trying to explain to someone about how you feel (especially in relation to depression) is extremely difficult as most people would just say it's a phase and that it'll pass with the wind but in reality it isn't that easy. Just think of us as all Pearls and you as Yellow Diamond; we will stick with you through anything even if it means destroying earth to create a giant kindergarten. 😂 Everything I say has to reference to SU in some way, I'm sorry I cant to help it.
You look lovely as ever and it's really admirable you are tackling being a RUclipsr/Streamer as well as dealing with your mental health. I have the occasional panic attack when I upload videos hahah
+Audra Auclair Thank you so much Audra, it means a lot! Actually your art has always cheered me up, especially the Lion you sent to me ;o; I watch your videos when I feel lost with my own work, and you're a constant star for me (wow gushyyyy ok)~ I'll definitely look into getting some cute lil plants, I love cacti but I'm worried the birds will do something stupid like sit on them :T
I'm glad you feel like you can tell people about your illness that's usually a pretty good sign- also littlekuriboh does videos about his depression and they really help a lot in terms of relateabilty - also I never watched card captors but if it's anything like yugioh I might check it out.
I hope everything goes well, and that you're okay. I support you no matter what and watch your videos no matter what and you're still one of my fav artists on youtube, and people should understand that depression is more than just being sad. i hope everything goes well, and that you feel better
We love you so much, Morgan. I just hope everything goes well with the new medication. Just know that all if not the majority of us will be here to support you. Thank you for being brave.
Bless you for uploading this ❤ I can understand it must have been a difficult thing to do, but you're so lovely and I'm in full support of you and everything you do. If anybody judges you for this, it is their problem. You're brilliant 💕
I totally support you, even if I'm still new to this channel, I've been depressed for 3 years without telling anyone, some nights are good then others I just break down crying. I usually listen to my favorite band that they helped me from going to far. It wasnt until recently that I had the courage to tell my mom, but I broke down crying infront of her too, I self harmed, I have anxiety and I tend to have panic attacks. My mom is trying to schedule me to a doctor to see if I might have clinical depression or something like that and get me help. But I hope you get well
+BlazeTheNeko Aah I hope you get sorted soon! After I was originally diagnosed incorrectly with Depression and Anxiety I didn't feel like it made sense? You'll feel so at ease when you do find out what's going on, and I really hope it works out well for you~
I'm so happy you replied. And I agree on feeling at ease, when I went through the 3 years, I got used to the feeling of depression, and it kinda became apart of me somehow and I don't really know who I can be without it, If that makes sense? But I've decided that I had enough and I want to be happy again. :) On another completely different topic, I just got my first Copic markers, and I love them to death.
Jellie, this is so brave and admirable of you. Mental health has such a stigma on it, which only discourages people from reaching out for the help they might want or need. Thank you for sharing your story with the world
i'm really proud you came out to your viewers about this and honestly, i think this makes you an even more influential person! you're so strong for saying this and i'm just overall so proud of you for speaking up. you can do it!
I'm completely supportive. I have depression and I'm on setraline. I hate the stigma because it really isn't anything you can help. Like why would anyone choose to have a mental illness? I'm behind you and I appreciate your honesty.
No-one should judge you over this - if anyone does, they are just terrible people. I myself have a few mental health issues (which I won't go into) and it's just amazing that you're able to talk about this to us. You should feel super proud of yourself for being able to share this with us. Stay strong.
Honestly the fact that you were able to talk about this shows your strength. I have trouble talking about my mental and physical disorders with even my friends and family, so the fact they you are able to discuss it with the public is incredibly admirable. And I am so glad that you sought out help. I know how hard it is to get help. It took me a while to do it myself. I hope treatment goes well for you!
I absolute love your drawings and your new vlog videos. As someone with depression and other disorders, thank you for sharing. It's tough to talk about those things, but I really applaud you for being able to speak about what you're going through. Keep being so awesome
First sending huge hugs!! I've been told I have bipolar tendencies, I'm not treated but I know people who are. Having antidepressants can make the mania worse, many people I know have a combination of mood stabilisers that work on both directions. Don't be ashamed, there is nothing bad about you it's just chemicals in the brain that has different proportions than in "normal" people. CBT is great if you have the strength to do it, it has help me in so many ways but it doesn't work for everything. Hope you find the solution that works for you with the least amount of side effects. Hugs
I'm sorry to here you've been having such a tough time. I have anxiety/panick attack issues myself since I was around eleven years so I can understand how difficult it was for you to talk about this. I used to bottle everything up, I felt like I was going mad. Luckily though cbt has worked wonders for me and I'm on meds and they don't effect me negatively. I hope your new meds work better for you and that things will improve! Don't worry about ignorant people judging you, focus on everyone who loves you and supports you instead!
Well done you, you are a trooper! Whether or not some recognise what you have a s one disorder or not, what you have is real, and is not " all in your mind". You have fought to keep a normal facade for a very long time, seriously Girl, that is colossal strength. You are amazing. You will have good days and bad, but please remember on the bad days, that you have had the strength to get there when you didn't know what it was, so you DO have the strength to cope with it, now that you know what it is.
Great vlog! I have a lot of respect for people who have the courage to speak out about any kind of mental health issues, it's not easy! So I just wanted to say I think you're an awesome person and I hope you feel better and that we're here for you too ^.^
I always appreciate people sharing their journey and bravery. My daughter was diagnosed with a chronic illness at age 6, and I believe that people who share these journeys, like you do, paves the way for the next generation to embrace who they are, and to not be embarassed, and to find their own courage to be who they are. So thank you!
Thank you for having the courage to put this up. There is NO reason to feel any shame with regards to mental health. Keeping this up could help someone else who may not realise their erratic moods are actually something that can be diagnosed and helped.
I grew up with my mom having bipolar so I understand what you're going through and there won't be any judging, you're so strong for admitting to yourself you need help and for going forward with treatment. I think if anything is going to be said in the comments are going to be ones of admiration and saying how we support and look up to you and are proud of you for not giving up and let a diagnosis beat you.
jellie bee! *hugs to you* i really hope you know that all of your subs are here for you! i really respect the bravery it took to put yourself out there, and as someone who struggles with mental illness myself i really support you and i hope you can start to feel better in the future
hey Jellie, just letting you know that probably everyone will support you and understand you. I'm proud of you that you chose for yourself and went to the doctor. having some kind of disorder, any kind really, just incredibly sucks. no matter what, you're still one of my favorite youtubers, love ya
I'm so, so sorry you have to go through this. I've struggled with various mental illness, nowhere near as severe as bipolar disorder though, but just know that you're not alone. I know it's cheesy and everyone says it, but there's other people going through this, and it's never your fault. Just please, please take care of yourself, your health is more important than anything. Take naps, drink tea, do whatever makes you happy. You are not weak for having problems you can't control, and if people give you shit, they don't matter, because you are a wonderful human who deserves love and happiness. You've helped me personally so much, and I can never thank you enough. I wish all the best for you.
No need to feel bad Morgan, life sometimes has pitfalls we never saw coming, I myself have been dealing with depression and social anxiety, which may stem from mild autism... I was scared hearing i might have it but finding an answer to why your brain functions the way it does must be a huge relief. A Mental Illness is Nothing to be ashamed of, many many people have lived wonderful happy lives with your diagnosis, and I have no doubts that you will overcome the trials you have dealt with, you are such a strong, intelligent, beautiful person! I will always support and care for you! stay positive sweetie! We are all here for you!
I completely support you. I met you at a convention 2 years ago and didn't know you were going through this, but I have been watching your videos for a while and just wanted to say that this is a safe place and you have lots of supporters here who won't judge you 💕
You are so brave and wonderful for talking openly about this. You have such loyal friends and fanbase with people who understand so I hope you never feel alone with your diagnosis
Mental health is one of those things that people have a hard time understanding because the symptoms are usually only noticed by the people suffering, but it doesn't make them any less real. My mom was in denial about her own mental health for a very long time, long enough that it got very very bad. She has Dissociative Identity Disorder, and it was only when she got properly diagnosed and stopped forgoing treatment that she started to get better. There's no shame in having anything like that, things happen inexplicably all the time. Thank you for sharing your story with us, it already looks like you have a lot of fans who relate, and talking candidly about this stuff will hopefully help to fight misconceptions.
Please don't ever be afraid to talk about it if you feel like you want to. It's just a part of you and an understandable diagnosis. You are still an inspiration to everyone around you and also to the people of the internet. There's a whole community that has your back because you're a strong and amazing person. ♥
You are not alone. I haven't experienced it myself but my best friend has borderline personality disorder which has some similarities with bipolar. It's so great that you are getting help and determined to find the right medication for you. You'll get there. And then eventually you might need to change again. But it sounds like you have a lot of support. Your internet family is here for you. Don't feel ashamed!
You are so strong for talking about this and sharing this with us. It's a very hard thing to do and I respect you in so many ways for it. I hope you know that we want to be here for you in the best way we can. I hope everything starts going well and looking up
Sending lots of love! You're very strong for talking about it. I can't believe people really want to attack you because of the "stigma" attached. You're still human, and I hope you're feeling healthy and better
Really proud to see you come out and speak about that, I can imagine it must have been hard for you and anyone being judgemental or negative about it just don't understand and are immature. PROUD OF YOU JELLIE!
It takes a lot of guts to admit these things. I suffer also with my mental health but with me, barely anyone (other than online) knows about it. It's so great that you're getting help because so many people suffer alone in silence. I wish you all the best with your journey, Jellie
I'm so happy that you had the courage to share your story with us. I, myself, suffer from clinical depression and anxiety and can totally relate to the erratic mood swings. I'm also taking Citalopram right now and it's working out great for me so far, I hope you'll find a medication that fits you!
I was on Citalopram for about three years for GAD and depression and found it really helpful for keeping my mood more stable I guess?? I had my first experience of lucid dreaming on it and that was crazy (but kinda funny)! I'm currently going off it now to try something new though as my depression has been getting worse recently but I hope you won't have such a negative view of it as each person's reaction to medication can be completely different! I'm so proud of you for seeking help and you are so brave for telling the internet like this, I wish you all the best and please know that we are all here for you.
Big hugs and love to you, brave girl. It's going to take a bit to get your head around the diagnosis, and it'll take a while to find the right medication, or combination of medication, for you, but you're heading in the right direction, and you'll get there. 💜
aww I'm so sorry about what has happened, we are all here for you so don't worry we will always stick by your side! Please just take you time and be calm and know we are here!
Mental health is something that needs a lot more recognition. Something i plan to do (as a life goal) is to start a free/volunteer program for pre-teen/teenage girls who are struggling and instill the self esteem associated with creating and making art. I am so glad for you to be posting this video because it really does help a lot of people I am sure who follow you who may also be struggling. I am not saying that it stops at preteen age. This is something that can intermittently stay with the rest of your life - and for me - it was actually a few months ago when I realized that fact as a 25 year old. I support you.
I think it's good you're talking about it, however hard it may be. You're an idol to a lot of people, maybe someone suffering in silence might be inspired to get help. Anyone who would judge you for this, is no one you want following your channel anyway.
Yep I'm currently on sertraline and Ativan. I continue to have non stop chest pains and tremors . It's hard to come to terms that you need help. I cried throughout the doctors visit because I didn't want to admit it. It's nice to hear that I'm not the only way that feels like that. I'm so glad that you posted this video!
jellie talking about your mental illnesses isnt weak(!!) and everyone including me is super supportive and i hope your medication helps. i dont think anyones judged you at all and u were super brave and im a Proud Pal
You are amazing and an awesome human being. Thanks for sharing your struggle with us. I've had very bad experiences with CBT, too, imo it's wildly overrated and too often people get blamed for not wanting to get better if it doesn't work for them. Much love to you, Morgan, I hope things will get easier with time!
first of all: thank you for sharing this and your honesty. I think I'm the most normal and boring person to walk this world, so I have no idea what you are going through, but if we all try to understand and be a bit mindful of it, there shouldn't be a problem. I just hope you can surround yourself with people who love and respect you. And if there is going to be anyone who wants to hurt you we will make a big circle around you to protect you and ward of all the haters. We love you for who you are Jellie Bee!!!
I think you're amazingly brave for talking about this. I know it's a hard thing to share sometimes. My brother suffers from Bi-polar and self medicated for a long long time before actually going to see a doctor and it really turned him around. I myself suffer from depression and anxiety and actually take Citalopram too. I wish you all the best!
You're very brave choosing to talk about this, I hope we can get rid of some of the stigma surrounding mental health. I was prescribed antidepressants a few years ago, I don't remember what they were, and also had awful side effects. I've never felt so ill in my life. I had to stop taking them and the doctor decided I didn't have depression after all, and that I was just anaemic and it made my moods change frequently, but even several years later I still have episodes of feeling low for absolutely no reason and my iron levels are fine, so I have no idea. It's very frustrating to have people say to you "Just cheer up!" so I don't talk about it much. Your hair looks amazing by the way, lovely colour
I've been depressed for a long time, i relapsed yesterday and i feel like i've been crying like everyday. You are very strong and i believe in you, you can go tru this. You are an amazing person c: You actually cheered me up with this video.
I am so sorry. I really am. If anyone tries to upset you or judge you then just dont listen to them, they dont have the rights to judge you. I hope you feel happier soon! xx
Many of my close relatives suffer with depression and anxiety and have had to switch between medications several times before finding one that worked for them. I do not judge people solely based on any mental/medical/physical problems they have and I'll continue to watch your videos because your still awesome and talented! :D
virtual hugs! You are amazing to talk about this, I admire your strength. I hope you find the best medicine regimen that suits you. Happy I have found your channel. Thank you.
Labeling a disorder doesn't make it more legitimate. In fact, labeling it can sometimes put people in a little box and may not be the best way to determine their course of treatment. Each individual is unique and deserves their own unique form of treatment. People aren't textbooks. I plant on going into the mental health field and I really detest the tendency for doctors, psychiatrists and insurance companies to rely so heavily on CBT (cognitive-behavioral therapy). From a research perspective, it's at least somewhat effective with most people. But that doesn't mean it's the best treatment for that particular individual. Morgan, I truly respect your bravery in opening up about your experiences it takes a lot of courage. I am sending you lots of love and hugs!
You're so brave to talk about this. I've been having some odd anger swings as of recently and I might have to go get it checked. Thanks for sharing your story!
Mental illness is nothing to be ashamed of, and everyone should be overflowing with support for you; I'm so proud of you for being able to say it in front of a large audience- it's really hard to live with a mental illness. I'm sure that 99.9% of your subscribers and followers will support you every step of the way, and we will always have your back if you need it!
please dont ever feel like you have anything to hide or be embarresed about. You don't, there are so many people out there in your position also and none of us are alone in this battle. it is a hard thing to come to terms with as with any diagnosis but at the end of the day you are still you, it doesnt define you and you owe nobody an explanation. I hope that you are happy and feel better soon.
in terms of mental health i dont judge, my best friend,her sister and her cousin all have different degrees of bipoler and my friend has cp. so im here for you Morgan!
I truly don't understand how people can be so rude and inconsiderate when it comes to mental health. It's such a shame that we as humans can't just be there for each other and be willing to help, and instead all that a lot of people do is judge and criticize you for something you can't control. I really appreciate your willingness to be open with your viewers. It takes a lot of courage to be honest with something like this, more courage than I think I have, haha. So, thank you for being so open. :) And I think I speak for most, if not all, of us viewers when I say that we understand if you need to take a break or be a little late posting things, and that I certainly would never want you to feel pressured or upset if you aren't able to get something up. We're here for you!! :)
Jellie, I know you are worried about being judged, but more and more people are becoming aware of these disorders and will still love and respect you. I am seeing so many people leaving such, kind, lengthy comments. A lot of people have genuine concern and will do anything they can to help you. Your art is a great contribution to this Earth and I (and many others) admire you a lot.
I don't have a disorder, and I don't know anyone who does, but I think you really are strong to be able to open up to us and while I don't understand how hard it is, I hope that the medication will help and that you won't get any horrible side effects from it. Random side note, I like your hair colour :)
Thank you for this video. I'm a teenager and I suffer from depression and anxiety, and unfortunately it's getting worse which has resulted me into getting medication. It's very hard to describe what it's like to someone who doesn't have it or someone who writes it off as just being 'sad.' Thank you for being brave and putting this out, support you 100% already tweeted you :)
I've talked to a doctor before and they've told me I either have borderline or bipolar so I understand you and I want you to know you're loved and we aren't judging you for something you can't influence !
hopefully people will leave the stigma attached to mental health issues behind one day. i believe videos like this one help achieving that, props for talking about it. also i've been really enjoying your vlogs so far. definitly subscribing to your vlog channel now :) fingers crossed that the new medication works out well for you!
My father commited suicide in October '14, he was bipolar, and too poor to seek medical help (thanks America!). I miss him every day. It's so good that you're getting help for yourself, it's so important. Good luck on your journey, much love. :)
know one judges you Jellie :) were all here for you, but Im just got diagnosed with depression and anxiety disorder on the less server side so far. I don't know how you probably feel having so bad but we're all here for comfort
Totally here for you! I've been through a kind of similar thing and going trough therapy right now! No need to worry about it at least it's been diagnosed and your still not trying to work out what's wrong! Once you find the right medication it will help so much xx
I personally don't fully understand what you're going through but I have an inkling since my friend has OCD and anxiety, but I'll always fully support you!
I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder when I was 12 so I completely understand how you feel and can say with certainty it gets easier. And it's pretty common to try different meds till you find what's just right. I hope it works for you!! You have my support!!
Morgan, Im very proud you put up this video, I can only imagine how hard this was, But its a good thing. I was gonna dm you on twitter but there isnt a way too, So im not gonna go into details, But know that this video is very much appriciated.From one medicated person to another, Never be ashamed, Being honest and yourself is amazing.Wish ya nothing but the best with your new medication and your journey.
Totally supportive of you. No one should judge and your videos are informative which can help someone whom may not know this could be what's happening to them. 💖 Keep going and be strong, I'm on antidepressants and I'm the same with trying to ignore my state of mind. However my husband thinks i have bipolar as i flip from mood like a jumping jack.
I would talk about my mental health and all the problems that's come with it but it's spanning from since I was 10 years old. It's a lot of history. Almost 20 years. What I wanted to say is that we all love you.
I know I'm late to this. Know that there are other people out there and are not alone. Also, if you read the side effects don't absorb them, they have to report anything that happens to anyone in there tests, even if 1 person in 20,000 had a reaction. It doesn't mean you will experience it but it is good to know because if something wired does happen to you go to your doc, don't ignore it. Support and strength to you. And side note it's not a weakness... stay strong
Good for you for having the guts to explain you feelings to the internet. A lot of people suffer in silence and you may have helped people to decide to go to the doctor and get a diagnosis and go on medication to help. I've known a lot of people with mood disorders and they are all amazing people, it's just a chemical imbalance that sometimes needs medication to fix. There's nothing to feel ashamed about, it's not like you can help the way you feel! I wish you good luck on your journey to a more stabilized emotional wellbeing.
I can definitely relate to this, thank you for being so brave and sharing this. It's frustrating that mental health can have a stigma to it. But I just wanted to say I support you ^^
Keep your head up girl, you have nothing to be ashamed or embarrassed about, and anyone who is mean to you about this, needs to grow up and get a life. I suffer from mental issues as well, and so do many of my friends. I was on certalean as well, now I am on citalapram, ( the same as you) and aslo well butrin, the spellings are probably not right. But don't give up you and your doc will find the right meds or combo of meds that work for you. Big hugs to you.
I've been dealing with this type of thing as long as I can remember. In high school, the teachers recommended that I go see a psychiatrist to talk about what is going on with me. My mom pulled some bullshit excuse 'but that costs money' thing. That was nearly twelve years ago. I still haven't gone, my mom waited too long, and my panic attacks have been worrying me. I go through long stretches just crying and absolutely hating myself... I'm scared of myself... I am surprised I can still somewhat function...j I am afraid of what people think of me (chalk it up to nearly thirteen straight years of bullying in my school years)
You're incredibly brave that you're speaking about this on a video, like, the amount of balls you've got to have to even do that is insane. As you said, you're not alone, you'll probably be sick of hearing that but yeah, we're all here for you and if you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here if you want a good ole nag or rant about something, I'm very open to any type of conversation and what not. *This includes everyone, not just Jellie/Morgan!
Thank you for being so brave and telling us. You don't have to worry about posting a video if you're having an off day. But can I just say winged eyeliner on point!
Dude millions of people have mental disorders or illnesses ( I myself have OCD) and the fact that you have bipolar doesnt change who you are.You were always like this so it shouldnt change how we see you at all. We love you for you and that wont change
As someone who suffers from OCD, I can totally understand misconceptions. People think OCD means wanting things to be symmetrical, or having to do some weird random thing or else you'll do some other thing weird thing (ex: If you don't tap something 3 times, you'll rip your hair out) and others think that everyone has it. It really is frustrating, and innacurate as hell. But really, I'm sorry you have to deal with people thinking depression means "sad" etc. etc.
(wanted to comment earlier but my phone died ^^;) like u said, no one is alone when it comes to mental health issues, and we are all here for you and for everyone else. I hope everyone here has a great day today
hi, i think you are so strong to talk about this i could see it was getting hard for you in your tone of voice and glaze over your eyes i just want to say you are a beautiful strong person and you will get through this we will all make sure of it! i feel like i could relate so much to the way you said you were feeling, i have told my parents the way i feel but they say its because im a teenager but i doubt waking up in the wanting to cry because i am actually alive is normal. i have been bullied and i have no self esteem because of that, at school i only have a few friends and when im not with them i feel so lonely i walk around school with my head down trying not to make eye contact with anyone because i feel like people are going to make fun of my differences (i have cerebral palsy and thats why they bullied me). some days i can just sit in my room and cry. i have also been recently diagnosed with a heart conditioned that i will need surgery for and i am so worried about it, but not only that it has made me feel so down i feel like people stare at me because i am different and i hate feeling that people think im weird. some days i cant get to sleep because the next day im doing a test or i will have to speak infront of the class and it happens most nights and my parents just think i am being stupid they dont realise i live in fear i will be bulied again over the way that i look my bullies called me retarded because of my disabilities and i used to be friends with them so i find it hard to trust people. none of my friends realise this because i put on an act when im around them. You probably wont read this but i just needed to tell someone my feelings ~Tiana (aged 12)
I'm proud of you for doing this, it's a big part of accepting your sitation. Tt means progress and that you're slowly getting better. c: I don't understand why anyone would give you shit for this, and if anyone does it speaks more of themselves than about you. Just cut them out, they're not even worth thinking about!
My sister has and had several mental illnesses but i love her all the same And i feel that way about you too Your mental illness doesn't define who you are but it is apart of you, and we watch you because we love all of you too Xoxo
Please please be respectful of myself, or at least anyone in the chat who wants to talk about mental health. It took a lot of panic for me to finally talk about this, and I might even take the video down if I feel worried about it, but I feel like you deserved to know what's going on in my life as it does affect my channel and my work.
For those who want an email address, I am available on info@jelliebee.com if you need to chat!
Thank you~
I think a lot of people support you including me and can I just say I love your hair but you shouldn't be worried because there are haters who just have their own issues so ignore the mean comments
we wont judge u. ive been through a simular thing. i hope u feel better soon
+Jellie Bee we are here for you! :) kati morton has a youtube channel abt mental health, i think its worth checking out. luv you!!!
I just wanna give you a big hug, I understand what your going through. I'm a trans guy with depression, anxiety, ADHD, and insomnia. I know how it feels to struggle through daily life, and I'm sure many others do too. Remember that we're always here for you!
+Jellie Bee I hope a RUclips message is ok, I sent it before I noticed the email address haha
Just wanted to let you know that it is very brave for you to share this with us and that I'm proud of you for doing it. :)
I've been diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety, trying to explain to someone about how you feel (especially in relation to depression) is extremely difficult as most people would just say it's a phase and that it'll pass with the wind but in reality it isn't that easy. Just think of us as all Pearls and you as Yellow Diamond; we will stick with you through anything even if it means destroying earth to create a giant kindergarten. 😂 Everything I say has to reference to SU in some way, I'm sorry I cant to help it.
You look lovely as ever and it's really admirable you are tackling being a RUclipsr/Streamer as well as dealing with your mental health. I have the occasional panic attack when I upload videos hahah
+Audra Auclair Thank you so much Audra, it means a lot! Actually your art has always cheered me up, especially the Lion you sent to me ;o; I watch your videos when I feel lost with my own work, and you're a constant star for me (wow gushyyyy ok)~
I'll definitely look into getting some cute lil plants, I love cacti but I'm worried the birds will do something stupid like sit on them :T
I'm glad you feel like you can tell people about your illness that's usually a pretty good sign- also littlekuriboh does videos about his depression and they really help a lot in terms of relateabilty - also I never watched card captors but if it's anything like yugioh I might check it out.
I hope everything goes well, and that you're okay. I support you no matter what and watch your videos no matter what and you're still one of my fav artists on youtube, and people should understand that depression is more than just being sad. i hope everything goes well, and that you feel better
We love you so much, Morgan. I just hope everything goes well with the new medication. Just know that all if not the majority of us will be here to support you. Thank you for being brave.
Bless you for uploading this ❤ I can understand it must have been a difficult thing to do, but you're so lovely and I'm in full support of you and everything you do. If anybody judges you for this, it is their problem. You're brilliant 💕
I totally support you, even if I'm still new to this channel, I've been depressed for 3 years without telling anyone, some nights are good then others I just break down crying. I usually listen to my favorite band that they helped me from going to far. It wasnt until recently that I had the courage to tell my mom, but I broke down crying infront of her too, I self harmed, I have anxiety and I tend to have panic attacks. My mom is trying to schedule me to a doctor to see if I might have clinical depression or something like that and get me help. But I hope you get well
+BlazeTheNeko Aah I hope you get sorted soon! After I was originally diagnosed incorrectly with Depression and Anxiety I didn't feel like it made sense? You'll feel so at ease when you do find out what's going on, and I really hope it works out well for you~
I'm so happy you replied. And I agree on feeling at ease, when I went through the 3 years, I got used to the feeling of depression, and it kinda became apart of me somehow and I don't really know who I can be without it, If that makes sense? But I've decided that I had enough and I want to be happy again. :) On another completely different topic, I just got my first Copic markers, and I love them to death.
Jellie, this is so brave and admirable of you. Mental health has such a stigma on it, which only discourages people from reaching out for the help they might want or need. Thank you for sharing your story with the world
Big hugs to you
+Sasha Fitzgerald Thank you so much!!
i'm really proud you came out to your viewers about this and honestly, i think this makes you an even more influential person! you're so strong for saying this and i'm just overall so proud of you for speaking up. you can do it!
+CelestialRamen Thank you so much ;u;
+Jellie Bee don't mention it, you really are strong ouo
I'm completely supportive. I have depression and I'm on setraline. I hate the stigma because it really isn't anything you can help. Like why would anyone choose to have a mental illness? I'm behind you and I appreciate your honesty.
No-one should judge you over this - if anyone does, they are just terrible people. I myself have a few mental health issues (which I won't go into) and it's just amazing that you're able to talk about this to us. You should feel super proud of yourself for being able to share this with us. Stay strong.
Honestly the fact that you were able to talk about this shows your strength. I have trouble talking about my mental and physical disorders with even my friends and family, so the fact they you are able to discuss it with the public is incredibly admirable. And I am so glad that you sought out help. I know how hard it is to get help. It took me a while to do it myself. I hope treatment goes well for you!
I absolute love your drawings and your new vlog videos. As someone with depression and other disorders, thank you for sharing. It's tough to talk about those things, but I really applaud you for being able to speak about what you're going through. Keep being so awesome
First sending huge hugs!! I've been told I have bipolar tendencies, I'm not treated but I know people who are. Having antidepressants can make the mania worse, many people I know have a combination of mood stabilisers that work on both directions. Don't be ashamed, there is nothing bad about you it's just chemicals in the brain that has different proportions than in "normal" people. CBT is great if you have the strength to do it, it has help me in so many ways but it doesn't work for everything. Hope you find the solution that works for you with the least amount of side effects. Hugs
I'm sorry to here you've been having such a tough time. I have anxiety/panick attack issues myself since I was around eleven years so I can understand how difficult it was for you to talk about this. I used to bottle everything up, I felt like I was going mad. Luckily though cbt has worked wonders for me and I'm on meds and they don't effect me negatively. I hope your new meds work better for you and that things will improve! Don't worry about ignorant people judging you, focus on everyone who loves you and supports you instead!
Well done you, you are a trooper! Whether or not some recognise what you have a s one disorder or not, what you have is real, and is not " all in your mind". You have fought to keep a normal facade for a very long time, seriously Girl, that is colossal strength. You are amazing. You will have good days and bad, but please remember on the bad days, that you have had the strength to get there when you didn't know what it was, so you DO have the strength to cope with it, now that you know what it is.
Great vlog! I have a lot of respect for people who have the courage to speak out about any kind of mental health issues, it's not easy! So I just wanted to say I think you're an awesome person and I hope you feel better and that we're here for you too ^.^
I always appreciate people sharing their journey and bravery. My daughter was diagnosed with a chronic illness at age 6, and I believe that people who share these journeys, like you do, paves the way for the next generation to embrace who they are, and to not be embarassed, and to find their own courage to be who they are. So thank you!
Thank you for having the courage to put this up. There is NO reason to feel any shame with regards to mental health. Keeping this up could help someone else who may not realise their erratic moods are actually something that can be diagnosed and helped.
I grew up with my mom having bipolar so I understand what you're going through and there won't be any judging, you're so strong for admitting to yourself you need help and for going forward with treatment. I think if anything is going to be said in the comments are going to be ones of admiration and saying how we support and look up to you and are proud of you for not giving up and let a diagnosis beat you.
jellie bee! *hugs to you* i really hope you know that all of your subs are here for you! i really respect the bravery it took to put yourself out there, and as someone who struggles with mental illness myself i really support you and i hope you can start to feel better in the future
hey Jellie, just letting you know that probably everyone will support you and understand you. I'm proud of you that you chose for yourself and went to the doctor. having some kind of disorder, any kind really, just incredibly sucks. no matter what, you're still one of my favorite youtubers, love ya
I'm so, so sorry you have to go through this. I've struggled with various mental illness, nowhere near as severe as bipolar disorder though, but just know that you're not alone. I know it's cheesy and everyone says it, but there's other people going through this, and it's never your fault. Just please, please take care of yourself, your health is more important than anything. Take naps, drink tea, do whatever makes you happy. You are not weak for having problems you can't control, and if people give you shit, they don't matter, because you are a wonderful human who deserves love and happiness. You've helped me personally so much, and I can never thank you enough. I wish all the best for you.
No need to feel bad Morgan, life sometimes has pitfalls we never saw coming, I myself have been dealing with depression and social anxiety, which may stem from mild autism... I was scared hearing i might have it but finding an answer to why your brain functions the way it does must be a huge relief. A Mental Illness is Nothing to be ashamed of, many many people have lived wonderful happy lives with your diagnosis, and I have no doubts that you will overcome the trials you have dealt with, you are such a strong, intelligent, beautiful person! I will always support and care for you! stay positive sweetie! We are all here for you!
I completely support you. I met you at a convention 2 years ago and didn't know you were going through this, but I have been watching your videos for a while and just wanted to say that this is a safe place and you have lots of supporters here who won't judge you 💕
You are so brave and wonderful for talking openly about this. You have such loyal friends and fanbase with people who understand so I hope you never feel alone with your diagnosis
Mental health is one of those things that people have a hard time understanding because the symptoms are usually only noticed by the people suffering, but it doesn't make them any less real. My mom was in denial about her own mental health for a very long time, long enough that it got very very bad. She has Dissociative Identity Disorder, and it was only when she got properly diagnosed and stopped forgoing treatment that she started to get better. There's no shame in having anything like that, things happen inexplicably all the time. Thank you for sharing your story with us, it already looks like you have a lot of fans who relate, and talking candidly about this stuff will hopefully help to fight misconceptions.
Please don't ever be afraid to talk about it if you feel like you want to. It's just a part of you and an understandable diagnosis. You are still an inspiration to everyone around you and also to the people of the internet. There's a whole community that has your back because you're a strong and amazing person. ♥
You are not alone. I haven't experienced it myself but my best friend has borderline personality disorder which has some similarities with bipolar. It's so great that you are getting help and determined to find the right medication for you. You'll get there. And then eventually you might need to change again. But it sounds like you have a lot of support. Your internet family is here for you. Don't feel ashamed!
You are so strong for talking about this and sharing this with us. It's a very hard thing to do and I respect you in so many ways for it. I hope you know that we want to be here for you in the best way we can. I hope everything starts going well and looking up
Sending lots of love! You're very strong for talking about it. I can't believe people really want to attack you because of the "stigma" attached. You're still human, and I hope you're feeling healthy and better
Really proud to see you come out and speak about that, I can imagine it must have been hard for you and anyone being judgemental or negative about it just don't understand and are immature. PROUD OF YOU JELLIE!
It takes a lot of guts to admit these things. I suffer also with my mental health but with me, barely anyone (other than online) knows about it.
It's so great that you're getting help because so many people suffer alone in silence. I wish you all the best with your journey, Jellie
I'm so happy that you had the courage to share your story with us. I, myself, suffer from clinical depression and anxiety and can totally relate to the erratic mood swings. I'm also taking Citalopram right now and it's working out great for me so far, I hope you'll find a medication that fits you!
I was on Citalopram for about three years for GAD and depression and found it really helpful for keeping my mood more stable I guess?? I had my first experience of lucid dreaming on it and that was crazy (but kinda funny)! I'm currently going off it now to try something new though as my depression has been getting worse recently but I hope you won't have such a negative view of it as each person's reaction to medication can be completely different!
I'm so proud of you for seeking help and you are so brave for telling the internet like this, I wish you all the best and please know that we are all here for you.
Big hugs and love to you, brave girl.
It's going to take a bit to get your head around the diagnosis, and it'll take a while to find the right medication, or combination of medication, for you, but you're heading in the right direction, and you'll get there. 💜
aww I'm so sorry about what has happened, we are all here for you so don't worry we will always stick by your side! Please just take you time and be calm and know we are here!
Thank you so much for making this video! I'm happy to know someone else knows the feeling of "you're not depressed, you're just sad."
Jellie I Hope you get better! You seem like such a nice person! And if you do get sad just remember your fans are here!
Mental health is something that needs a lot more recognition. Something i plan to do (as a life goal) is to start a free/volunteer program for pre-teen/teenage girls who are struggling and instill the self esteem associated with creating and making art. I am so glad for you to be posting this video because it really does help a lot of people I am sure who follow you who may also be struggling. I am not saying that it stops at preteen age. This is something that can intermittently stay with the rest of your life - and for me - it was actually a few months ago when I realized that fact as a 25 year old. I support you.
You got this lady, you've done something very generous by talking about it, it will nourish other people with similar struggles.
I think it's good you're talking about it, however hard it may be. You're an idol to a lot of people, maybe someone suffering in silence might be inspired to get help. Anyone who would judge you for this, is no one you want following your channel anyway.
Yep I'm currently on sertraline and Ativan. I continue to have non stop chest pains and tremors . It's hard to come to terms that you need help. I cried throughout the doctors visit because I didn't want to admit it. It's nice to hear that I'm not the only way that feels like that. I'm so glad that you posted this video!
jellie talking about your mental illnesses isnt weak(!!) and everyone including me is super supportive and i hope your medication helps. i dont think anyones judged you at all and u were super brave and im a Proud Pal
also tiny glowing potato omg... saviour of our earth
You are amazing and an awesome human being. Thanks for sharing your struggle with us. I've had very bad experiences with CBT, too, imo it's wildly overrated and too often people get blamed for not wanting to get better if it doesn't work for them. Much love to you, Morgan, I hope things will get easier with time!
first of all: thank you for sharing this and your honesty. I think I'm the most normal and boring person to walk this world, so I have no idea what you are going through, but if we all try to understand and be a bit mindful of it, there shouldn't be a problem. I just hope you can surround yourself with people who love and respect you. And if there is going to be anyone who wants to hurt you we will make a big circle around you to protect you and ward of all the haters. We love you for who you are Jellie Bee!!!
I think you're amazingly brave for talking about this. I know it's a hard thing to share sometimes. My brother suffers from Bi-polar and self medicated for a long long time before actually going to see a doctor and it really turned him around. I myself suffer from depression and anxiety and actually take Citalopram too. I wish you all the best!
You're very brave choosing to talk about this, I hope we can get rid of some of the stigma surrounding mental health. I was prescribed antidepressants a few years ago, I don't remember what they were, and also had awful side effects. I've never felt so ill in my life. I had to stop taking them and the doctor decided I didn't have depression after all, and that I was just anaemic and it made my moods change frequently, but even several years later I still have episodes of feeling low for absolutely no reason and my iron levels are fine, so I have no idea. It's very frustrating to have people say to you "Just cheer up!" so I don't talk about it much.
Your hair looks amazing by the way, lovely colour
Happy you've been diagnosed and are hopefully on the way to getting better :D thanks for talking about it too, I had no idea of some of these things
+siren10101 Aaah thank you!
I've been depressed for a long time, i relapsed yesterday and i feel like i've been crying like everyday. You are very strong and i believe in you, you can go tru this. You are an amazing person c: You actually cheered me up with this video.
Such a brave thing to admit/discuss so openly & publicly!! Inspirational !
I am so sorry. I really am. If anyone tries to upset you or judge you then just dont listen to them, they dont have the rights to judge you. I hope you feel happier soon! xx
Sending all the love and positive vibes girl!!
Many of my close relatives suffer with depression and anxiety and have had to switch between medications several times before finding one that worked for them. I do not judge people solely based on any mental/medical/physical problems they have and I'll continue to watch your videos because your still awesome and talented! :D
Thanks for sharing with us. You're definitely not alone in your struggle. ❤️
virtual hugs! You are amazing to talk about this, I admire your strength. I hope you find the best medicine regimen that suits you. Happy I have found your channel. Thank you.
Labeling a disorder doesn't make it more legitimate. In fact, labeling it can sometimes put people in a little box and may not be the best way to determine their course of treatment. Each individual is unique and deserves their own unique form of treatment. People aren't textbooks. I plant on going into the mental health field and I really detest the tendency for doctors, psychiatrists and insurance companies to rely so heavily on CBT (cognitive-behavioral therapy). From a research perspective, it's at least somewhat effective with most people. But that doesn't mean it's the best treatment for that particular individual. Morgan, I truly respect your bravery in opening up about your experiences it takes a lot of courage. I am sending you lots of love and hugs!
You're so brave to talk about this. I've been having some odd anger swings as of recently and I might have to go get it checked. Thanks for sharing your story!
We love you Jellie. I'm glad you feel you can talk to us about this. I'm sure many of us will be hear to listen whenever you need us
It's okay, I support you no matter what! I have a bipolar friend so I know how you can struggle. Just keep being you, we support you!
Mental illness is nothing to be ashamed of, and everyone should be overflowing with support for you; I'm so proud of you for being able to say it in front of a large audience- it's really hard to live with a mental illness. I'm sure that 99.9% of your subscribers and followers will support you every step of the way, and we will always have your back if you need it!
I hope you feel better Morgan! I understand that this is serious so just make sure that you take care. :)
please dont ever feel like you have anything to hide or be embarresed about. You don't, there are so many people out there in your position also and none of us are alone in this battle. it is a hard thing to come to terms with as with any diagnosis but at the end of the day you are still you, it doesnt define you and you owe nobody an explanation. I hope that you are happy and feel better soon.
in terms of mental health i dont judge, my best friend,her sister and her cousin all have different degrees of bipoler and my friend has cp. so im here for you Morgan!
I truly don't understand how people can be so rude and inconsiderate when it comes to mental health. It's such a shame that we as humans can't just be there for each other and be willing to help, and instead all that a lot of people do is judge and criticize you for something you can't control. I really appreciate your willingness to be open with your viewers. It takes a lot of courage to be honest with something like this, more courage than I think I have, haha. So, thank you for being so open. :) And I think I speak for most, if not all, of us viewers when I say that we understand if you need to take a break or be a little late posting things, and that I certainly would never want you to feel pressured or upset if you aren't able to get something up. We're here for you!! :)
Jellie, I know you are worried about being judged, but more and more people are becoming aware of these disorders and will still love and respect you. I am seeing so many people leaving such, kind, lengthy comments. A lot of people have genuine concern and will do anything they can to help you. Your art is a great contribution to this Earth and I (and many others) admire you a lot.
I domt understand y people would be mean to u about stuff like this. People have no right to be disrespectful. Xx ly
*don't
+Ellie's World Unfortunately, mental health still has a big stigma attached, but you're right :)
I don't have a disorder, and I don't know anyone who does, but I think you really are strong to be able to open up to us and while I don't understand how hard it is, I hope that the medication will help and that you won't get any horrible side effects from it. Random side note, I like your hair colour :)
Thank you for this video. I'm a teenager and I suffer from depression and anxiety, and unfortunately it's getting worse which has resulted me into getting medication. It's very hard to describe what it's like to someone who doesn't have it or someone who writes it off as just being 'sad.' Thank you for being brave and putting this out, support you 100% already tweeted you :)
+Charlie Marriott Thank you so much Charlie, it means the world, I hope your medication works out!
+Jellie Bee thank you!!
I've talked to a doctor before and they've told me I either have borderline or bipolar so I understand you and I want you to know you're loved and we aren't judging you for something you can't influence !
hopefully people will leave the stigma attached to mental health issues behind one day. i believe videos like this one help achieving that, props for talking about it.
also i've been really enjoying your vlogs so far. definitly subscribing to your vlog channel now :)
fingers crossed that the new medication works out well for you!
My father commited suicide in October '14, he was bipolar, and too poor to seek medical help (thanks America!). I miss him every day. It's so good that you're getting help for yourself, it's so important. Good luck on your journey, much love. :)
I'm sorry for your loss 😞
know one judges you Jellie :) were all here for you, but Im just got diagnosed with depression and anxiety disorder on the less server side so far. I don't know how you probably feel having so bad but we're all here for comfort
I hope everything goes well for you, you seem to be a lovely person and just wanted you to know were her for you and we lysm!
Totally here for you! I've been through a kind of similar thing and going trough therapy right now! No need to worry about it at least it's been diagnosed and your still not trying to work out what's wrong! Once you find the right medication it will help so much xx
I personally don't fully understand what you're going through but I have an inkling since my friend has OCD and anxiety, but I'll always fully support you!
I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder when I was 12 so I completely understand how you feel and can say with certainty it gets easier. And it's pretty common to try different meds till you find what's just right. I hope it works for you!! You have my support!!
Morgan, Im very proud you put up this video, I can only imagine how hard this was, But its a good thing. I was gonna dm you on twitter but there isnt a way too, So im not gonna go into details, But know that this video is very much appriciated.From one medicated person to another, Never be ashamed, Being honest and yourself is amazing.Wish ya nothing but the best with your new medication and your journey.
+Mz Dizzii im ismisetanya on twitter btw, xx
+Mz Dizzii Thank you so much Tanya
Im so bad at twitter anyway it proberlly woulcnt send anyway ha! And i think i will email you
Totally supportive of you. No one should judge and your videos are informative which can help someone whom may not know this could be what's happening to them.
💖 Keep going and be strong, I'm on antidepressants and I'm the same with trying to ignore my state of mind. However my husband thinks i have bipolar as i flip from mood like a jumping jack.
I would talk about my mental health and all the problems that's come with it but it's spanning from since I was 10 years old. It's a lot of history. Almost 20 years.
What I wanted to say is that we all love you.
I know I'm late to this. Know that there are other people out there and are not alone. Also, if you read the side effects don't absorb them, they have to report anything that happens to anyone in there tests, even if 1 person in 20,000 had a reaction. It doesn't mean you will experience it but it is good to know because if something wired does happen to you go to your doc, don't ignore it. Support and strength to you. And side note it's not a weakness... stay strong
Thank you so much!!
Good for you for having the guts to explain you feelings to the internet. A lot of people suffer in silence and you may have helped people to decide to go to the doctor and get a diagnosis and go on medication to help. I've known a lot of people with mood disorders and they are all amazing people, it's just a chemical imbalance that sometimes needs medication to fix. There's nothing to feel ashamed about, it's not like you can help the way you feel! I wish you good luck on your journey to a more stabilized emotional wellbeing.
I can definitely relate to this, thank you for being so brave and sharing this. It's frustrating that mental health can have a stigma to it. But I just wanted to say I support you ^^
Keep your head up girl, you have nothing to be ashamed or embarrassed about, and anyone who is mean to you about this, needs to grow up and get a life. I suffer from mental issues as well, and so do many of my friends. I was on certalean as well, now I am on citalapram, ( the same as you) and aslo well butrin, the spellings are probably not right. But don't give up you and your doc will find the right meds or combo of meds that work for you. Big hugs to you.
I've been dealing with this type of thing as long as I can remember. In high school, the teachers recommended that I go see a psychiatrist to talk about what is going on with me. My mom pulled some bullshit excuse 'but that costs money' thing. That was nearly twelve years ago.
I still haven't gone, my mom waited too long, and my panic attacks have been worrying me. I go through long stretches just crying and absolutely hating myself... I'm scared of myself... I am surprised I can still somewhat function...j
I am afraid of what people think of me (chalk it up to nearly thirteen straight years of bullying in my school years)
don't feel ashamed. two people i know have it and it hurts to see them like this. your an awesome RUclipsr❤❤.
You're incredibly brave that you're speaking about this on a video, like, the amount of balls you've got to have to even do that is insane. As you said, you're not alone, you'll probably be sick of hearing that but yeah, we're all here for you and if you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here if you want a good ole nag or rant about something, I'm very open to any type of conversation and what not. *This includes everyone, not just Jellie/Morgan!
Thank you for being so brave and telling us. You don't have to worry about posting a video if you're having an off day. But can I just say winged eyeliner on point!
Dude millions of people have mental disorders or illnesses ( I myself have OCD) and the fact that you have bipolar doesnt change who you are.You were always like this so it shouldnt change how we see you at all. We love you for you and that wont change
+Grifoo I agree, like I said in the video, none of us are alone, as much as our brains like to suggest otherwise! Thank you so much
As someone who suffers from OCD, I can totally understand misconceptions. People think OCD means wanting things to be symmetrical, or having to do some weird random thing or else you'll do some other thing weird thing (ex: If you don't tap something 3 times, you'll rip your hair out) and others think that everyone has it. It really is frustrating, and innacurate as hell. But really, I'm sorry you have to deal with people thinking depression means "sad" etc. etc.
I just wanna say
(wanted to comment earlier but my phone died ^^;) like u said, no one is alone when it comes to mental health issues, and we are all here for you and for everyone else. I hope everyone here has a great day today
hi,
i think you are so strong to talk about this i could see it was getting hard for you in your tone of voice and glaze over your eyes i just want to say you are a beautiful strong person and you will get through this we will all make sure of it!
i feel like i could relate so much to the way you said you were feeling, i have told my parents the way i feel but they say its because im a teenager but i doubt waking up in the wanting to cry because i am actually alive is normal. i have been bullied and i have no self esteem because of that, at school i only have a few friends and when im not with them i feel so lonely i walk around school with my head down trying not to make eye contact with anyone because i feel like people are going to make fun of my differences
(i have cerebral palsy and thats why they bullied me). some days i can just sit in my room and cry.
i have also been recently diagnosed with a heart conditioned that i will need surgery for and i am so worried about it, but not only that it has made me feel so down i feel like people stare at me because i am different and i hate feeling that people think im weird. some days i cant get to sleep because the next day im doing a test or i will have to speak infront of the class and it happens most nights and my parents just think i am being stupid they dont realise i live in fear i will be bulied again over the way that i look my bullies called me retarded because of my disabilities and i used to be friends with them so i find it hard to trust people. none of my friends realise this because i put on an act when im around them.
You probably wont read this but i just needed to tell someone my feelings
~Tiana (aged 12)
We are here for you!Dont worry
I'm proud of you for doing this, it's a big part of accepting your sitation. Tt means progress and that you're slowly getting better. c:
I don't understand why anyone would give you shit for this, and if anyone does it speaks more of themselves than about you. Just cut them out, they're not even worth thinking about!
My sister has and had several mental illnesses but i love her all the same
And i feel that way about you too
Your mental illness doesn't define who you are but it is apart of you, and we watch you because we love all of you too
Xoxo
Hope you feel better ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you for sharing with us, I can tell you're enjoying vlogging :D I'm interested in Twitch, live streaming looks like fun!